caretaker
- a dialogue heavy one shot
⚠️ heavy depictions of mental illness
⚠️ thoughts of death (not suicide)
⚠️ based on my own experiences w schizophrenia
a story in which josh waits for tyler's meds to kick in.
"ty, you okay?"
"yea why"
"you've been talking to yourself. loudly."
"eh? oh. sorry"
tyler fiddles with a loose string on his sweatshirt.
" 's okay. what are you talking about?"
"nothing. sorry i'll try to be quieter."
josh tried to school his expression, he didn't like when tyler kept things from him. the two had gone through so much, been there for everything, there wasn't anything too much for them. he settled for furrowing his brows, ears tingling as the vibrations from tyler's mutters reached him.
disorganized words, halfway understood. talking about god, electricity traveling through the air, eyes. josh reached a hand out over the table to his friend,
"ty?"
tyler looked up, not quite at josh, but close enough.
"yea?"
"what's he saying?"
"i dunno. the sky is lightening, i think i see the electricity-"
tyler had taken his meds today, the emergency ones, different from his regular ones. it's been 15 minutes, sitting across his friend talking about nothing and everything, trapped, eyes tired and thoughtless.
"do you think we'll die? today? maybe right now?"
tyler reached for his throat, fingers pressing to his artery. he gasped, suddenly looking back to josh.
"josh- its gone-"
josh leaned over, grabbing ahold of tyler's wrist. he guides it closer to his collarbone, right where he could see the throb of his blood pressure dancing against his skin. tyler sighed with relief,
"oh. josh i'm alive- josh i'm alive, im so happy. you made me alive"
josh held onto his wrist lightly, smiling. things were hard recently, but he promised himself, he'd always be the one to keep tyler alive.
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me in 2015 watched the video of twenty one pilots sitting on my grandmother's floor and eating ice cream
also me in 2024 watching the video for the single from the new tøp album and trying to unravel all the mysteries that Tyler put into it
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