#don't be harsh on me ok?

[celestie0]

when ppl get too caught up in the accuracy of situations in fanfiction or if things are super realistic or as they should/would be in real life etc etc im like. my tumblr user in christ. it's fanfiction.

#ff writers don't get paid to put hollywood level research into their stories lol #also keep in mind ff writers don't have professional editors either #ALSO i've read a lot of published books and watched massive scale high budget production tv shows/movies that have put way less #effort into researching n making sure things are cohesive n legit compared to some fanfics i've read #js thinking ab a m00tie who had an anon come for her for something like this n i'm still pissed ab it #just enjoy the fic you're getting to read for free #like obv i think realism makes for a great story and is part of what good writing entails #but?? it's ok to bend the rules in some places?? it's a STORY #that's like getting pissed at a fantasy book for having dragons cuz they don't exist irl #just say u have a bad imagination n go #the author's pen is the will of the world in the story perioddd #either accept them or dont. but don't make fun of or criticize authors if you're not fuckin w it when ur just sittin behind a keyboard #also sometimes i just wanna read stories that don't remind me of the harsh truths of reality lmfao like get outtaaa heeerreee #just writer things

[genericpuff]

an epitaph

#no salt but i get this question a lot because a lot of people naturally assume rekindled is my first comic project ?? #y'all rekindled couldn't be made the way it is WITHOUT experience #please don't use me as an example of a wunderkind #i'm a 27 year old with a dowager's hump and hip problems because of how long i've been doing this #i get that people are saying this with good intentions because they want to see me “be more” than just an LO shitposter #but this is the end result not the first step LMAO #just hurts my soul a little bit because damn those 10 years really didn't amount to anything huh TT-TT #nah ok that's harsh i have readers on the time gate side who i'm very thankful for #and those 10 years were necessary to get me to the point i'm at today where i could create rekindled for you all <3 #so trying to be grateful not upset LOL #always the alt never the main #lo critical #antiloreolympus #anti lore olympus #lore rekindled #lore rekindled comic #original work #time gate #project reaper #projectreapercomics

[zedtiae]

🎉 FUNNY BIRTHDAY HAT TIME!!! 🎉

...if at least to celebrate one, lol!

today one year ago I created my lovely Yahkha in game, who despite not having much time in the RP scene is still beloved to me for her lore and the ideas that she allows me to explore. Not to gush too much, but she's really where my psychological and body horror writing really starts to take root... and golly do I love her for it!

in this post, she is accompanied by my darling Imetyl (who turned one as well this year) and Zontli (currently in her terrible twos). While they unfortunately aren't going to be gushed on since their special days have passed, I'll be reblogging and adding my other OCs once they reach their respective birthdays, so keep an eye out if you're so inclined! :-) !

#gw2 asura #asura #gw2 ocs #gw2 fan submission #.zed #.jpg #.gw2 #yahkha #imetyl #zontli #birthday art is my passion ok pls don't judge me too harsh

[tinknevertalks]

Well, that was unsurprising.

#19 edits has posted a fic #i had to back button after three sentences #just how they constructed sentences hurt my head #i know i'm not great at writing (and still sometimes wanna spell it grammer not grammar) but still #maybe its a ymmv type dealie #pretty sure most people would be ok with it. i'm just a petty snob #(yup. i'm not a nice person after 2am. sorry about that?) #its me hi im the problem its me #petty post is petty #went back before posting this thinking maybe i'm being too harsh. nope #the paragraph of exposition made me pinch the bridge of my nose before back buttoning again #think that's one to avoid #(which is a shame because the idea of the apocalypse sounds good if a bit hackneyed - very aschen) #(they do mention a few inspirations so... *shrug*) #am i being harsh? i actually don't know 😬 #i'm going to bed

[soldier-poet-king]

My father??? Randomly showing me a transphobic meme making fun of that bud light trans girl??? Apropos of nothing???? At 11am just after we get home from church???? Bitch what the fuck????

#the duality of fran #transphobia cw #LITERALLY. LITERALLY WHAT WAS THE PURPOSE OF THI #???? HELLO???????? #i don't drink beer???? #and i was like thats mean and inappropriate #and he was like yeah its bad (but laughing?) but was like oh well im noy reposting it #ok but then why are u sharing it with me #everytime its like ok my family isnt that bad maybe im too harsh and i can live here #THEY JUST. DUMP THIS. FOR LITERALLY ZERO REASON #how is this AT ALL related or relevant to me

[anotherpapercut]

I love when I'm talking to someone and someone else who I don't know like that butts in to ask a really personal question that informs the conversation they are not a part of

#joked to a coworker that shes gonna get in trouble for breaking dress code and ahe asked abt my shirt #and i said i have a special exception and was gonna leave it at that and tell her abt it later when ppl werent around #and my fucking old supervisor who was literally demoted for being bad at their job goes 'whats your special exception' #first of all who was talking to you. not me #so i said i am disabled and constricting clothes cause discomfort and they said 'why don't you just buy plain shirts' #BITCH WHO ASKEDDDD. first of all they do not pay me enough for that second of all they should just comply with the fucking ada #so why are they interrupting my fucking conversation to ask about my clothes #im just too tired and frustrated and stressed for this. theyre lucky there were people around or i would've lost it probably #lol when an ex coworker decides its ok to share what you post on your personal blog with people you still work with #if any of you are looking at this post again stop. leave my blog. its incredibly inappropriate to share a private blog without permission #i don't tell anyone at work about my blog for a reason. this has been my blog/diary since i was 12 years old #i say things on here I wouldn't say irl because this is where i vent thoughts that are harsh. please respect my privacy #and stop fucking snooping on me. thanks. #and please do no not mention anything you saw here to anyone ever. including me.

[daz4i]

I'm having some thoughts regarding posts I've seen on my dash both recently and like, years ago, bc this is far from a new phenomenon. this isn't @ anyone specific nor am i going to give specific details bc it really is an expansive thing so like. to whoever needs to hear this ig

stop engaging with things in the worst faith reading possible. start giving people the benefit of the doubt i am begging you

9/10 of times, the person you see who might be slightly insensitive, or enjoys content you find harmful, or is using the wrong term for smth, is doing it out of ignorance on the matter

and most of the times it isn't smth they can just google to figure out. bc sometimes you really gotta do mental gymnastics or ignore every redeeming quality of a thing to find the harmful part. and usually unless a person is directly involved in activist circles or knows abt the history of a particular community etc they will never make that connection and I'm sorry to tell you, but that's most people you will encounter, both irl and online

9 times out of 10 there is no malice involved. attacking strangers because you think they are attacking you by doing a very normal thing (like quote a meme or enjoy a movie) isn't the way to gain anything, and you're more likely to cause antagonism in that person

it's good to inform others, but doing it by accusing them of harmful behavior isn't the way

also on a less deep note, you're just gonna become an incredibly unpleasant person to be around if you keep doing that shit. if you keep looking for the bad in everything you see others enjoy, you will keep seeing it. you will become extremely bitter. you gotta give people the benefit of the doubt for your own sanity fr

and before I'm taken out of context: no that doesn't apply to actual bigots (my whole point here is that most ppl just aren't informed and aren't actively hateful). no this isn't me telling you to be nice to your own oppressors so they hate you less. no this isn't me saying you have to let slide media that is genuinely harmful (I'm talking more about the people who consume it who are average and don't hold some secret ill intentions). yes I'm aware a lot of times people ARE bigots and just try to hide it which is why dogwhistles exist, which is exactly why i think it's important to remain informed and inform others so we stop engaging with these people or their content (i just think that doing it in combative ways is bad for everyone involved). ok i think that covered all my bases

tldr just. remember that people are people. and people can make mistakes. and you gotta let them grow from it. and sometimes, you are the one who makes the mistake, by assuming the worst of someone you don't even know

#sorry for the rant 😳 #again not getting into details but. every time there is a big meme i immediately see a post abt why it's actually problematic #and most of the times. you really gotta connect invisible strings to see why #in cases like this i gotta ask myself. does op simply not enjoy this meme and decides to look for whatever's bad abt it to excuse it #the same way ppl hope celebrities they don't like get canceled and such? #like forgive me for the harsh language but you do see that this is deranged behavior right? #and then immediately jumping to the conclusion that anyone who uses it is awful. is even more deranged! #this isn't being a hater anymore girl you gotta try some hobby or even just to enjoy things as they are. for your own well-being 😭 #anyway yeah ok i think i got it out of my system. have a nice day everyone. #also if you wanna argue over this. just block me honestly. spare us both the effort yeah?

[slightlytoastedbagel]

your post about ruikasa!! i literally just saw it and i’m so relieved that i’m not the only one who like. doesn’t get it at all

like ofc a ship doesn’t have to have a canon basis to be a fun ship but the fact that it’s the most popular proseka ship always made me think “oh maybe there’s something there that i’m missing?” but your post made me realise that maybe there just isn’t that much there

I got worried shortly after that post so I'm just going to expand on it here.

I believe that there is evidence for every popular ship in the sekai fandom, I just don't fully understand how RuiKasa ended up as most popular. If it was going to be a m/m ship I would have assumed it would be AkiToya since. Y'know.

There are events (that I admittedly haven't read yet) that imply RuiKasa because that's just how the game tends to be. However those events are Wonder Halloween, which is literally WxS's first event, and Pandemonium, which I haven't found a translation for and don't really plan on reading anytime soon (priorities are in catching up on key events whenever school calms down for me).

Compared that to most of the other more popular ships in game and it's clear they don't have as much development. MizuEna had the picnic event, footprints and ribbon for example. Or AnHane or AkiToya who get a lot of focus. This doesn't take away from the fact that Rui and Tsukasa are close, because that's just what being in the same unit suggests.

Part of the reason I feel neutral on the majority of WxS ships is because I just don't see their dynamic as romantic. I feel like their story works perfectly in depicting them as friends but struggle to see any of them actually getting together. Unlike most other units where I can reasonably see A and B dating in some post-game future.

So yeah, I don't fucking understand RuiKasa, but I respect the people that do and love them enough to make content for them. It's just that it isn't for me.

#i worry a lot about that post because i don't want someone to see it and come after me #and also because i feel like i came off as too harsh #i am perfectly fine with people who ship ruikasa so long as they aren't horrendously mischaracterising them to do it #bagel answers #also thank you anon :) #sometimes people just don't understand a ship and that's ok

[abysskeeper]

give me murdercat info/angst. for fun.

@gothamcityneedsme screw it I'm answering this one too. I'm writing vignettes ("vignettes"--they're all breaching 1k, if not more) alternating between Raz and Trick and how their fighting styles developed after...essentially thinking they got each other killed. Maybe putting something out into the ether will make me write more of it.

Also, in continuation of a prior, different conversation, we fridge men in this house.

"He overcommitted to his lunge against her, stretching further than he should and leaving his left side open. It was a common mistake, and one she had thought she had beaten out of him during the countless practice rounds she had with him over the year to ensure his survival in the ring.

She moved on instinct, incapable of preventing her feet from side stepping out of his strike and unable to stop her hands from swinging her blade upwards. She honed her instincts to a fine pointed precision. She knew how to take an opportunity...she knew how to survive.

Her blade sunk into his side, as it had countless times before. This time though, there was no training blade. It was not off and dull, but sharp, vibrating, and she felt it ripping through flesh, through muscle and sinew. Through bone.

Her eyes widened, and her breathing hitched, growing more rapid as the seconds ticked by while her blade. Kept. Going. She couldn't stop, even if she wanted to. And she wanted it to. She wanted it to stop, she wanted to stop, she wanted to stop, she needed to stop...but it didn't matter.

Only one of them was making it out of here alive, they both knew that.

Finally, Kol stumbled back, away from her blade and then down to his knees before falling backwards into the dirt. His hands gripped at the wound in his side, and she watched dumbstruck as those hands quickly transformed a dark shade of red as they were coated with his own blood. The hilt of the vibrosword fell from her hands. She never, never let go of her weapon but...in this moment she didn't need it. That was a killing blow, as it had been for her so many times before.

More importantly, she knew above all else, Kol would not strike against her in his dying moments. Kol never wanted to strike against her at all."

#don't mind me #my writing #stabby cat #I know I've mentioned before she kills her trainee when she was a gladitorial slave #I know I've mentioned they weren't in love but it could've been #she's VERY CLEARLY fine after this as she picks partners who absolutely can defend themselves in a fight #people she thinks stand a chance against her in a fight #renavere absolutely clears that bar #but there's absolutely no lasting trauma whatsoever #alright raz actually is mostly ok in current times #that came by way of therapy via killing almost everyone who ever tried to own her #and leaving a massive trail of bodies in her wake as she ascended in the Empire #and yet she still is a neutral presence in the force #at the end of the day she's a logical survivalist #pragmatic and harsh but not insane #with a cadre of golden retriever friends she feels she has to protect except for trick #and work friend turned real friend tav who is absolutely not on the golden retriever list #swtor

[astrxealis]

good morning ^___^

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i'll work on my homework for the coming week raghh only a bit left and then the next week after this next one #is the second to the last week but also most tasks are due then so hip hip hooray but also noooo #anyway my point is i'm stressed at the idea of more homework ... most of them are group projects so i'm kinda chill though #mostly just worried about doing my parts so i get good scores in yk. peer evals and shit. uhh and the indiv ones ew #i have time to work on that one the whole of next week but i'll try to finish the other three by this weekend #and then during the week wnvr i get new tasks i'll do them asap #but fuck projects lol i hate getting more homework come on #anyway i'll also try not to be harsh on myself for just getting a simple One mistake ..... this is a big problem with me it really sucks #but yeah that's it. sorry for rambling about me with school AKSBJDBAJD ANYWAY i dmed a bit w a good friend yesterday and #THEY ARE BACK INTO GBF AND FE3H LET'S FUCKING GOOO what a coincidence those are my favs at the very moment #+ xv hehe. anyway. YEAH like. so yeah. and then bestie but the wifi stopped working at night so i left her NOOO then played xv tho so ok #okay that's all i'm tired of typing HIII HAVE A GOOD DAY NOON EVE EVERYONE !! #don't forget you're important. for a lot of reasons but if you need one atm then it's you're important to me AYEEE <3 but fr yes #and then... take care of yourself! even if it's hard just the little things help and then you feel really good afterwards :] 💗✨ you got this

[thedreadvampy]

screeeeeeching bc the woman on my team who never does any of her own work bc she's So Busy Writing A Book (not for work) is taking a 4 week holiday to go to a writer's retreat at one of the busiest times of year. and I Know my work bestie (aka my line manager) will have been killing herself from sitting on this and would LOVE to bitch about it but us lowly peons have only been informed today, and she's on holiday until next week. so like. who do I look directly into the camera like I'm on The Office to? my other team mate refuses to bitch behind people's backs bc it's against his religion. but I gotta bitch or I'll explode.

#this is. no word of a lie. the third time this year she's taken a month of unpaid leave to do Writer Things #and she doesn't half want to tell us about it #and the thing is! honestly it's great! #bc we get a lot more done when she's not around #And I Oop. #which is unnecessarily harsh but she's the one who's eventually caused our team whatsapp to be removed bc she kept #using it to give me unsolicited critique of my work that I'm like Cool Ok Maybe Message Me Instead Of A Whole Team #(also she's a fundraiser not comms and all her criticisms of my work are 'i think this tweet could be twice as long and 4x as dry') #we have all tried. SO HARD. to meet her halfway. or even 2/3 of the way. but she just takes the piss. #she asks her colleague to write her applications and me to run her research and design her documents and at a certain point is like #literally what do you do aside from google open applications and demand that other people do the work so you can collate it #which literally Is Not Any Of Our Jobs #and for this she gets paid a salary equivalent to a manager bc she's a '''''specialist''''' #she is my work nemesis but not as much as she's everyone else's #and our team manager seems to think this is bc we don't want to include her not bc she refuses to be included #i have done SO MUCH to make her life easier I've made templates ive written up data directories I grit my teeth and send out rewritten #versions of her fucking awful comms #and she just sends out emails demanding things Now bc the deadline's tomorrow #and is Mysteriously Absent every time people hold meetings #and when she is eventually corralled into coming to a meeting she just derails every conversation for 40 minutes #she doesn't meet her targets or do anything for anyone yet upper managers love her! mysteriously! #it's almost like she devotes her energy into politicking instead of DOING HER DAMN WORK or something #and she's one of those middle aged rich feminists you know? you know the ones? the incredibly fuckin condescending ones? #she went to a 3 day training in work time on Being An Inspiring Woman last year #I'm like have you considered instead a training on Giving Your Colleagues A Modicum Of Respect? #bc you know who i think are inspiring women? the many women in my organisation #who've come from homelessness or deep poverty and knuckle down and take on the work that needs done #and therefore are Actually Helping Other People instead of pontificating about how good it is When Women #red said

[itsbeginningtostart]

Let me tell you how much easier it is to binge shows instead of taking turns with like. Everyone in my household on one computer.

#starlightrambles #I can't sleep so I'm here hiiiii #Ok u caught me. I was watching DR again lmao #I was thinking something cursed. That being #I would have def been a kinnie if I didn't have so much shit going on when it was cool and then a job eventually #Even when I had this thing going on as a joke. Just know #I was thinking abt it recently. One of my roommates is an otherkin? Therian etc I don't know the difference #But they are soooo offline somehow #They obvs use the internet still but they aren't terminally online about it. As far as I know #As far as I know being. I think I'm the only one here who has a personal computer??? #But they are pretty deep into it. Wolf tail levels #I never spoke about it to them ever because I thought it was weird but I'm like #Less harsh on it now? #For the record I'm not anything like this but. Man you never know. Just a few #thoughts #I'm definitely tired

[cutielatias]

Why the things with the most cute/sweet aesthetic are the one's with the most meanie/b*tch people on it😑? (animal crossing,disney, hello kitty, and now the fairies/tinkerbell bell series, i hope pikmin don't become one of those💦(you not gonna fuck ruin my pikmin!💢)even a little ironic…or sad💧 cuz all of thoses things (sometimes) have messages of love, friendship, kind, compassion,but the people that consume this contents are the most meanie one's (maybe i am being too harsh but i feel a mean/bitch aura on the people (like…i don't feel that they are that nice at all😒)

#random things #causei #I kinda hate this word aesthetic for some reason😅😅💢(though i use that word a lot) but kinda makes me angry💢 #I think is cuz now a days everything is so much about *aesthetic*(in quotes)aesthetic can be a lot of things not only good looking things😑) #That kinda annoys me it seems that people only care about *well looking* high quality things nowadays😒 that kinda piss me off💢 #I care about passion not looks #Sigh maybe i can't talk much maybe for some people i am the same i like *good/cute*things(though i don't consider them cute😑) #and can also sound mean...or b*tch😑(though i can be a little harsh/mean sometimes🔥💦...but b*tch/toxic is not one of them💢) #Seriously talking like that sounds silly but the people didn't give me the right vibes😑😒 #How dare people also talk trash about my tinkie x terrence😬🔪(i like her with him😤💢and i also go with his face) #ok ok everybody has their own opinion😅😅 but the way they delivered wasn't that cool

[cum-allergy]

morning newspaper

#anyway since you read the tags alex and it may seem others its now funny to me #and i will blast random thoughts into the ether #i feel like the theme here is the WHEN WILL YOU LEARN. YOUR ACTIONS HAVE /CONSEQUENCES/ vine #although i do immediately miss having someone to harrass (complimentary) at a moment's notice #not that i don't harass my other partner far from it actually #but the specific dynamic we did have was immaculate and it's unfortunate that the choice he made had consequences #missing someone is wierd in this case where it's like. there was no other option. #i'd already made it clear that his actions made me deeply uncomfy #and if i make an ultimatum there's no way to confirm that 1. he will improve for himself instead of improving just for me #and 2. ultimatums are very harsh and create an unnecessary tension #it holds the status of the relationship over someone's head #when he asked if there was any going back #i just wished i could've elaborated that better. i might say something later if he asks again #also deeply unrelated but i've been having dreams again about my Haunted One inciting incident #(its what im calling the recovered memories of childhood trauma. its funny) #and like OK I GUESS #it just blows #why . why why why why why am i having these dreams that are graphically replaying traumas and expanding upon them to make them Worse #it's probably because the breakup really triggered those memories to come back but still #boy howdy #i was having a great time not thinking about it but then he struggled to give clear consent and boy howdy did that dig it all the way up #its just . like damn . ok i guess

[noxtivagus]

hdflkjasdklf i'm just thinking of certain characters n stories hehe

#🌙.rambles #no bcs why out of all gbf characters it is Belial that is on my mind lately.. 💀 he's so sus but there's smth sad abt him to me that i think #uh. makes me. feel drawn. SOMEHOW. charas in general that like i don't like them just bcs they're sad. i just Like them n later realize how #similar i am in a way n huh. maybe part of me. perhaps not really relate but i think i understand ^ him with lucilius. but. nyways #sometimes i find myself having ideas from time to time for. scenarios n stories n maybe not super concrete? even just the idea or the #emotion & sentiment of it. even if it's a mess bcs i just dump phrases n words from time to time. #i really like reading my own words. they remind me a lot of myself n resonate a lot with me.. i wrote them all after all before. #😭 ok i just got a notif bcs i have smth due in 24 hours from now.. (-> i ended up venting again but i have no more space to tag it) #there's a lot i'm stressed abt. anxious even. it's not rlly a big deal in the end n eventually the burden of my regrets will hurt less but #noooo i keep on rambling abt that i guess there's rlly just so much weighing me down in my mind But i will persevere!!!! #imagining stuff or wtvr n indulging in. idk any form of self-expression n being creative brings me so much comfort #when the break comes i'll read books i'll write stuff too i'll watch stuff i'll play video games i'll play/listen to music i'll. yeah. Live #like i want. but like success has always still meant a lot to me i'm too strict on myself w that so w school i constantly just feel trapped #even if assignments r easy n i understand all my lessons in general. i'll pass CETs certainly i'll succeed in the future i know that's who #i'll be but every single mistake just tears me apart and makes me forget who i am as a whole. i've always been 'better' in a way than your #average person i've always mostly generally done well & good but never ever quite the 'best'. so while i do love my intelligence n all as #a whole. ffs i know better but i end up being too harsh when it comes to my shortcomings. so. stuff like stories n games n yeah #those allow me to be free in a way. from my own restraints. from my own cage. so to not. be able to do that too rlly makes me forget myself #while w work n personal stuff like that i'm mostly sure of myself but when it comes to. me w ppl in this world. it's so. unpredictable? #that's just how ppl r. it's. intriguing to me definitely but. confusing. i long to belong but it's hard when most of my life i've felt.. #i'm not rlly sure how to phrase it. it's in my head but yeah. so.. i'm rlly just a mess w that. i think i tend to isolate n distance myself #so easily bcs i fall far too much w the thought that. nothing much wld change? recently i'm so confused too bcs i'm aware of reality but #then i'm also just so confused n then a mess in general but i'm returning to like my old self when it comes to stories. embracing that agai #understanding myself a bit more while being distant w others but also lost for the very same reason. ITS SO CONFUSING n complex ofc. #which is. v human ig. but i'm not taking care of myself well so ffs it feels like i'm falling behind but i'm technically productive w work? #stuck between remembering. v well. i'm not too brain empty in the present too. n. i've been v keenly aware of the future #it's all going far too fast n i'm not keeping up Well Enough. the helplessness i think i wrote a while back #bcs i want to stop or i want to do smth or just change n get things done but it's not That easy. n it's been like this for so long now #i'll be fine my mind's just a mess rn n i'm just so frustrated w myself but i'm well enough. a bit empty but i'm fine. #there's a lot more to write n i could have done this in my notes but i'll stop anyways i'll work now. i'll try not to stay up Too late 🥹🫶🏼