#do not enjoy temporary things

[yeslordmyking]

SURRENDER

• I am not in control. If I ever try to make my own decisions without consulting God or decide against His plan I am betraying God and condemning my soul

SACRIFICE

• Do not cling to dreams, friends, health, nonbiblical inspiration, comfort, or hope that anything in this flesh life is ever going to be important or matter. Only serving God matters. And no it's not ok to care about unimportant things sometimes. Only care about pleasing God

SUFFER

• God is best pleased when you lose, when you deny, when another part of you dies, when you collapse in defeat after fighting Him and His will. Embrace suffering as a blessing and rejoice in it. Suffering should not be the opposite of happiness. It should be the cause.

HATE YOUR LOVES. KILL YOUR LIFE. MAY IT PLEASE THE LORD.

#have a new year's resolution i guess 🤷🏽‍♀️ #happy new blah blah blah #random #personal #may it please the Lord #killing my heart to save my soul #do not enjoy temporary things #do not enjoy this life #spiritual warfare #spiritual maturity #you don't get what you want #your life is not your own #you belong to God #predetermined plan #God's plan #God's will not mine #give up everything #deny self #deny flesh #deny everything #God is the only thing that matters #God is the only thing that exists #nothing but God #only God #you must be holy #you must be perfect in Christ #lose your life to God #lose your life to save it #unquestioning obedience

[mavrixen]

i feel like twitter has given artists this strange complex where they don't feel they're allowed to enjoy what they do, regardless of anything

so here's your reminder you're allowed to enjoy art. you're allowed to enjoy your art even if it's shitty as fuck, even if it's a brush test, even if it's something you've never done before

you're allowed to enjoy your art even if it "flops" because who the fuck cares, you shared it with at least one person. it is tangible. you made something that didn't exist before. now it does because of you

you're allowed to be happy with your art. you're allowed to enjoy it. that's the point

#and i'm sure it has all to do with the idea of the algorithm and instant gratification #but it makes me sad to see amazing creators beat themselves down because #“well i have to” “i'm just not happy” “i'm so demotivated” #you really don't have to. you can enjoy things. you can enjoy shitty things. you can enjoy temporary things #do the art of the fandom you're not in but you like the design of #do a sketch of the au you made up at 2am and never will think of again #even if they're not popular or they suck or whatever

[ask-thomassaggs]

Wait... can you understand other ferns as a fern? Do they have anything to say?

*-Rustles-*

#I can! My plants have so many things to say... All of them are so thoughtful. I'm taking in what they say they want as well. #A Happy plant is a healthy plant after all!! #M!A: Dream Come True #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #toonblr #corporate clash #toontown #OOC: Translation for all the rustling: #Hanging Plant: Dad is okay! Hooray! #Twin Plants: Oh we were worried! Look at how green your leaves are dad! #Larger Plant: How do you feel Dad? This is only temporary sadly but Im happy you're okay! Enjoy that lovely water while you can. #One more ask to go before his plant life comes to a close and he goes back to normal.

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

thinking about magic drawbacks specifically with ford and i might just ditch all my wips in favor of writing a fic about it

ford at this point (for the fic) has established that he knows magic and can do things with it but he only ever does small tricks

and then stan gets to find out why ford doesnt use magic for bigger things

#a temporary ditch #and its unlikely that any writing is actually going to be happening anytime soon #but yknow. future things #fuck it we tag #gravity falls #ford pines #so far ive got fire magic and light magic (if we're doing more than the main elements) #(which i would prefer. would enjoy exploring tons of different types of magic and their drawbacks) #(is drawback the right word? consequences.)

[6ebe]

I think. Sigh. The thing abt f1 and dominant eras is it’s actually just inevitable. A lot of people are chewing at the bit ready to call this the downfall of f1 and like it isn’t. Viewership also plummeted during peak Mercedes dominance. F1 is an engineering competition first and foremost. The reason other series have more overtaking is because they have more shared components between teams. F1 is special in its innovative potential. I don’t think that’s necessarily a problem no matter how infuriating it may be to fans. Idk. Acting like the us market declining is a sign of the downfall of f1 is hilarious like f1 survived without us viewership for most of its existence it’ll survive now. Like America isn’t the centre of the world idk. I’ll celebrate when they stop desperately trying to Americanise the sport idk 😭🤣

#when they never ask these men abt American football again >>>>> #like it’s not like I’m enjoying it rn #but some of you guys don’t seem to even understand the sport you’re watching LMAO #f1 #like bc of dts and lockdown and all sorts of other things many people became fans in a more temporary way. in the case of any media or #social media trend like. that peak declining is just natural #a lot of people weren’t going to be fans in the long run and that’s ok #not to pull the 'not a real fan' card bc i do know a lot of longterm viewers also losing interest #but the tone of most of these complaints does reek of like. not actually being aware of how it works

[talentforlying]

father grimaldi: forgive me, lord, for i have sinned. constantine: — understatement of the bloody century, that is. father grimaldi: the chapel is closed to the public! who are you? how did you get in here . . .? constantine: did you know vatican city has the highest per-capita crime rate of any nation state in the world? i'd have thought a touch of breaking and entering's pretty much par for the course around here.

so #1, an undeniable slay.

#2, how long do we think he was sitting in the confessional booth waiting for the guy to wake up from ellie's fake vision quest. like an hour? checking his light, practicing his Big Reveal Pose TM? he probably brought a book with him and just shoved it underneath the seat cushion when it was time to show off.

#3, knowing how intensely he studied & continues to study in order to teach himself magic at such an absurdly advanced level without any teachers to formally guide him? and how that level of dedication would absolutely carry over into researching a mark / making sure he had every corner of a confidence scheme nailed down pat? i like to imagine that the day before this meeting was spent with his severely under-caffeinated ass parked at a public library computer, squinting at articles for 'most important things to know about vatican city before you travel' or 'top 10 little-known facts about vatican city' and using the back of his boarding pass to take notes on what would be the best throwaway line to blow off all the usual questions with.

also, he probably woke up still in his travel clothes less than two hours before this scene and had to hustle to get suited up in time for his Dramatic Apparition. the demon blood was boiling so bad in that chapel that it was giving him a killer migraine. he didn't get breakfast so his stomach was growling the ENTIRE time. but all that meant was he had plenty of room to eat UP the runway and that's EXACTLY what the fuck he did.i'm

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #always torn in half between 'john is a freaky little weirdo who just Knows Things and Picks Up Vibes and it usually works for him' #and 'john is the most Normal Dude in the whole london occult scene he just works w/ magic like a grad student prepping for finals week' #and you know what? the answer is always 'Both. Both is good.' #also on the one hand i'm truly obsessed with the idea of john just?? Always having a bunch of weird trivia available w/ his eidetic memory #like he read about the apostolic palace once in a book when he was with the peace convoy and his brain latched onto it forever #and it just Happens to become convenient later on and this happens VERY often and no one ever really knows how he does it #but there is a real real charm in considering that he's still Just A Guy beneath all the layers of false confidence and mysticism #still someone who had to work to get to where he is now and who will always have to work to Maintain as well #i like the mental image of him pacing around his temporary digs with index cards and drilling all the necessary details for the scam #or him and ellie getting blasted the night before and dramatically playing out their Big Final Confrontation to iron out all the beats #you just Know they were laughing til they cried workshopping shit like 'MY OLD ADVERSARY! WE MEET AGAIN!' and 'DO YOUR WORST HELLSPAWN!' #still trying to keep straight faces the day of the fake fight while drastically improvising to try and throw each other off their game #idk!!! i always enjoy the Strange and Off-Putting things about him but all of the Really Really Human stuff is also just. so so precious #we always get to see The Myth The Legend as shaped by the errors of The Man. but especially in later years actually SEEING The Man gets rar #all this to say that for every perfectly executed and properly horrifying loom out of the shadows with a glimmer of his freaky glowing eyes #there is always at LEAST half an hour or more practicing angles + expressions + mood lighting in the mirror going on behind the scenes #and that is very very special to me!!!! #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE. #( visage. ) AND I'M A BASTARD. #sched.

[nurseydexunsolved]

guys i was so productive at work today i feel like i’m on crack (<-took her meds and actually had a goal to work towards)

#my job is so easy bc 90% of it is about maintaining systems that are already in place #and once i finish that i have multiple free hours a day of straight up? nothing #and that is obviously such a luxury! #but we had a department meeting about new programs & they were like ‘you’ll have to type up reports on xyz thing that we can do’ #and after finishing the requested follow up meeting notes i was like. what if i type up a report rn. without being asked #because being an adult with a job who is not babysat is doing things without being asked #and its a great report! and i wasnt asked to do it! & im gonna send it to my bosses & im just so excited to have been productive #instead of literally wasting time on my phone! #this is so dumb i just experienced the temporary nirvana of doing work & enjoying it #people say humans weren’t meant to work and sometimes thats true. but sometimes! certain work! IT ACTUALLY FEELS THE OPPOSITE i love museums #mine #adhd

[stardustedknuckles]

Well I've put on the tlou episode podcast so I think I'm fully in this. It's usually all over as soon as I start looking for behind the scenes/extra content.

#I don't see myself doing a lot of fic for it but that's okay #It's more a temporary obsession but I'll enjoy it while I'm here #I don't even really like the producers for a few reasons #Namely I think they're up their own asses quite a lot #But digging into love as something fucked up and leaning into that does compel me #I get so tired of love as some pure overcoming of all bad things #Tlou is fucked up in a very nice way #I think these producers think they're the first ever to question love as something damaging #And that annoys me terribly and comes real close to pessimism #But they never quite hit pessimism #And that's why I can't hate any of it #They are free to be pretentious because the game itself is open to interpretation

[pepprs]

also (this is it i promise) this is why i am so INSANELY excited to have my own room soon. like omg. it is definitely not perfect bc it’s at home and there’s a breaker box in it and you can hear footsteps really loud through the ceiling and also again *it’s at home* when i really need to not be living at home. but the quality of life improvement i am about to have is actually INSANE. i will be able to have a space far away from everyone else where i can sing without bothering anyone and play piano and decorate it (mostly) to my liking and have a desk and draw and paint and do whatever. finally!!!!!!!! that is going to fix me!!!!!

#purrs #i just wish it was permanent or that i had more years to spend in it. like i actually just want to find the place where i will live forever #and just stay there bc oh my GOD am i tired of living in places temporarily. i have so many issues w that bc so many spaces that were #formative for me have been destroyed (e.g. the van 😍😍😍😍 and my grandparents house 😍😍😍😍 and my favorite hs teachers classroom 😍😍😍😍) or are #going to be destroyed (e.g. the office where i work rn 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍) or ive had to leave them and move out bc they’re inherently temporary (e.g. #my on campus room 😍😍😍😍 and my room in brighton 😍😍😍😍😍😍). and ive had attachment issues w space / location : whatever my whole life like i wou #would have huge meltdowns whenever we were transitioning from like elementary school to middle school middle school to high school etc etc.. #so i really just um. would like permanence and stability please. im 24. im done w school for now and maybe forever. i want to find a place w #where i can just like.. stay. so if im paying rent like something that would allow me to renew it indefinitely and not fear bei ng kicked #out randomly or at the end of a determined period. i just want a home lol i want a homeeeee and i want to decorate it with all my things and #never be afraid that i will lose it and get to stay there forever and ever or at least as long as i want. bc my parents already have plans f #for my new room after i move out and i won’t get to decorate it as much as i want bc my mom doesn’t want me to damage the paint. but like if #i have a place of my own then i get to decide a little ding in the paint is worth it to put up my lanterns. you know? idk. the mortifying #ordeal of experiencing freedom like thisfor the first time in my mid-late twenties probably 😍😍😍😍😍😍 but still its gonna be good and i hope it #happens soon and i have to MAKE that happen. so yeah. #wishlist #delete later #ok now im done for real THJS time lol. my mom is gonna be so pissed at me ive barely lifted a finger here. but im enjoying the quiet what ca #can i say!!!!!!!! like OMG ok last thi ng…. like she’s always saying i have to love myself first before i get into a relationship and it’s l #like.. maybe my living conditions do not predispose me to be able to spend time w myself in ways that allow me to love myself!!!!!! #maybe always being on the defense and needing to find quiet spaces all the time and being shamed for that is not a very good way to experien #experience myself in the place im supposed to feel most grounded and comfortable!!! so yeah. #like maybe i stopped doing all the things i loved bc you got alexa and loud speakers and started blasting music all the time and dominating #space and becoming more and more high maintenance… 😳 (and obviously i changed as a person / played a role in it too but again my point / re #realization is… maybe it was in RESPONSE to stimuli that were not good for me and not just bc i suck as a person / am losing myself / etc.) #like theeeee sonic warfare of it all. also my brother is a key player in it too bc he raps and sings at the top of his lungs and it’s like 🤨

[the-furies]

ok but despite sleepiniess it's liek,,, do i want to continue playing Viddy Game (or nore like. Let Dark & Wil contimue playing. it's their playthrough now /lighthearted) or do i watch comfort videos (read: do i let Dark front to watch source shit). and like,

#talky #i gotta say I'm enjoying not having to Constantly Be At The Forefront Anymore genuinely!!! #but now when I DO Actually have main fromt for even a lil bit my go-to Things are just. #positive fromt triggers for Others rn #and that's not a Bad thing! i just find it funny BFJSKDKFNDS #and it isn't a sign of dormancy for me either fuck no. If that happens again we'd let people Know. #it's just. a weird lull? it's comforting. i like the it. not having to constantly be In Control finally #it's good to be able to take Mental Brain Naps consistently too !!! #this is so Everywhere and rambly I'm sorry FHDJZJAKDKCJ #i think! for a couole hours I'll stay co-con (bc I'm now Allowed to Do That!!) and watch dark & wil play pkmn #and then we will sleep and... Huh. #... Shit maybe our Main² role's switched for once. even if temporary. which is good!! #holy shit i am Free i have been stuck at the forefront now for like 2 years. and before my dormancy stint it was *like a decade*!!!!!* #YIPPEEEEEEEEohkay gonna. gonna pass out insys now goodnight <3 HFJSJSJDJFJCXJSJ

[lfcrobbo]

happy cheb day

#temporary url change for funsies #i will make cheb a thing. i wil i will i will #i don't really have time to be online today:( but hope everyone enjoys #might. do something short later. Maybe #marth.txt

[voidmade]

i’ll probs start working at the most pretentious techno clerb in town and as a nude art model and i’m still filled with dread at the idea of labor yet again even tho life has its ways

#my brain is wired so inefficiently i just cannot do things i don’t enjoy anymore #in the broad sense things i do not believe in also #i’m so sad no one wants to pay me for the things i am good at and will do with passion :( #anyway literally why i avoided job promotions all my life #bc i truly do not give a crap abt menial jobs and will never put in any effort since they are all temporary to me #and one last thing i am not spoiled i never was i grew up in poverty and had to work my ass off for every single fuckin thing in my life

[steviescrystals]

one more rant about my layoff in the tags and then i’ll shut up i promise

#my mom is telling me to apply for unemployment and i’m so overwhelmed even thinking abt it #the guy from payroll who so nicely told me about the layoff sent me a link for it like that’s the natural next step #but like i’m not planning on staying unemployed for more than like a week i’m planning on applying for another job in a few days #so i feel like it’s not even worth it but at the same time i do need money bc the timing of this was terrible #BUT idk if i’m even eligible for unemployment bc i have a second job #i’m on demand there so i only work like once every couple months but it’s still a job so i’m not technically unemployed yk #and i was going through the eligibility requirements online and i can’t find anything related to that one way or the other #i want to just say fuck it and not worry about it #but is that stupid bc i currently only have like one job in mind to apply for and i don’t even know if they’re hiring yet #i feel like i’m being dumb and picky bc i’m still in college so it’s not like it’s a career thing i just need a job for now #preferably retail bc that’s what i’ve always done and i’m extremely opposed to the idea of a serving job #anyway it shouldn’t really matter that much bc it’s gonna be temporary #but i’m not the type to change jobs often (i’ve only ever had 2 and they’re the one i got laid off from and the one i’m still on demand at) #so wherever i end up working i’m planning on staying for at least a couple years so i want it to be something i at least somewhat enjoy #it just sucks so much having to go through this whole process #bc i was planning on staying at this last job until i finished school and possibly longer #and now i don’t have that option bc they let me go with no warning and no explanation #and i loved that job so i’ve been extremely depressed ever since i got the call #which just makes the whole unemployment/applying for new jobs thing so much harder #and i wish i could stop whining about it but it’s literally all i can think about i’m just! so unhappy rn! #vent #lj.txt

[justaplacetotalk]

Can I give up yet?

I would very much like to walk into the forest and disappear please and thanks.

#I know the answer is no #I’m just so frustrated and exhausted and done #is it my depression? anxiety? adhd? is it burnout? #fuck if I know! #all I know is I’m stuck and can’t get myself to do jack shit #and I just want to be done #I don’t know how to fix this #I don’t know how to fix me #I don’t know how to want to right now #and like. I know it’s temporary. I know that. #I just wish it would be temporary faster ya know? #I wanna get on with living my life and enjoying things #right now I am struggling to enjoy ANYTHING #you know what I’m holding onto right now? #the one YouTuber I can bring myself to consistently watch these days #my dnd shows #and the hope that one day my friend will return from the boonies to hang out with me again #that’s like. all I’ve got. #I can’t get myself to do any of my hobbies (video games reading being outdoors etc) #I can’t seem to get myself to do basic chores (I need to do laundry SO BAD) #both work and school are suffering due to my inability to exist properly #it’s just exhausting #and I don’t know how to tell people #cause no one gets it! #it’s all “well just do the thing” #gods I wish it worked that way #even deadlines don’t work anymore #and I can’t bring myself to care #idk man. I’m just so done. I want to be done. #this is exhausting

[friendlifyre]

its the way i felt like such a traitor having minimal interest in genshin leading up to 4.1 because my heart was so taken w hsr and then 4.1 rolled out and gave us these incredibly mid archon quests. im not the traitor actually genshin betrayed ME

#the writing had improved so much w sumeru and even more with the first two acts of fontaine #and then they gave us. whatever that was #it was such a step back it had the game of thrones season 8 effect on me #i consumed the whole thing and then immediately forgot id actually done that #act 4 wasnt as bad as act 3 at least so im confident act 5 will deliver. but man #what a disappointment when i was so counting on 4.1 to keep me hooked #i dont know if i'll even have the motivation to do the anniversary event now #my enjoyment of 4.1 is p much all in wriothesley's hands #i know this is a very temporary feeling in major part fueled by how much i enjoy hsr's writing rn #but i still feel let down by genshin for dropping the ball at the worst moment

[snekdood]

sometimes y gotta sit someone down. look them in the eye and go “does attacking me really solve your shitty life problems?”

#whatever amount you blame me for your problems i promise its an over estimation lmao. #im literally just here. chillin. on my own. not doing jack shit. #how in tf is attacking me gonna help you at all besides satisfy some primal lust for power and assertion of hierarchies? #cool bro you made me feel lesser than... did it get rid of the capitalism? did it make your mom love you? did you win? #so happy for you #im glad you feel satisfied in making this. fake temporary hierarchy out of our interactions. did it fix the bigger hierarchy you live under #? did it change things for the better? are you more free now? #and when you're done being a bully to someone whos largely on your side- you're just gonna go back to being hateful and full of rage #and keep misdirecting it at people in arms length rather than the people on top? maybe... because theyre easier to reach? #anyways enjoy being a sour bitter sad sap who demonizes people who are on your same level in almost every way in a paranoid way #instead of idk. doing something meaningful. it'd literally be a better use of your time to TP some republican whos trying to take away your #right's house.