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blackbutlerfandomnerddomain · 6 months

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RANDOM DEATH NOTE HEADCANONS I WANT TO SHARE THANKS TO ME WANTING TO EXSPAND MY AU:

LIGHT:

Has survivor syndrome. What's that? Survivor syndrome, also known as survivor's guilt, is the response of a person when they believe they have done something wrong by surviving a traumatic event when others did not, often feeling self-guilt. This can be from being Kira or set before Kira, like an incident from his youth that he forever lingers with. This mixed with his "where's the justice" mind set only adds fuel to the fire of the war in his mind

Favorite food isn't apples as many would assume/joke about

The poor boy didn't really think of his sexual orientation until collage, didn't have the means or needs to and it wasn't only until he dated Misa and began to hang out with L he started to think on it more

In my AU Ryuk and Rem didn't give Light and Misa the Death Notes again and L, Light, Misa, etc didn't die, so this technically takes place the amnesia arc which I argue is a favorite okay?! Still doesn't mean Light gets dreams of him as Kira and isn't aware he was.

MISA:

Got really into the Gothic look after her parents' death where someone was a jerk and said a "joke" when she was still wearing black while she was still grieving

Didn't really fall in love with L right away (obviously) but she did care for him in a way that showed she cared

Loves bubble baths

Like Light she still has dreams of Rem and often find herself crying over the waking of her dreams as if someone killed her loved one in front of her

And like Light she knows after Rem confronted her she was the second Kira and feels terrible about it

Has a beautiful singing voice

After a lot her and Kiyomi kind of became friends, she honestly feels as if Kiyomi reminds her of someone she knew before (ie rem)

Dude, this man was aware he liked both for a loooooonnng ass time, since Wammy actually

He knows Light and Misa were Kira, I mean he subspecies it since day one but to actually be right honestly hurt him.. He didn't want to be right in this case. So, he swore not to say a word since they're no longer Kira and 2nd Kira

Loves baths more than Misa

His family died in an domestic abuse murder suicide and he wandered out the house alone in which an officer found him and discovered his family's death, since then he's been emotionally isolated

Is autistic just doesn't get meds

Has lots of stim toys and objects he uses a lot when he thinks hard or under/overstimulated

Loves hot cocoa with marshmallows and whipped cream

Watari was basically his father after the many years they've known each other, doing the most of a father like role than others, helping the boy when needed, etc. And while L doesn't show emotions he generally is greatful and sees Watari as his father figure, even having him his best man and father-of-the-groom for his wedding

MISALIGHTL:

As mentioned with L when I said "wedding", the three didn't really want a huge public wedding since that would exposed L's identity and it would be a headache to deal with so they had a secret small ceremony with friends and some family with Watari being L's father-of-the-groom, Sayu as Light's Best Lady, and Kiyomi was Misa's maid of Honor. They each wore a mix of white and black with some red elements thrown in there for many reasons but mostly cause L said they looked good so yeah

Their wedding cake was similar to these two:

They all live in an apartment together, similar as to the building they were all stuck in, and have their own rooms/studies for work while Misa keeps working as a model and actress and both L and Light kept working as detectives until Light decided to leave being a detective after so many nightmares of cases and being Kira and decided to be a true crime/mystery novel writer

One day while they were chilling, pre-marriage them btw, L decided he's going to visit Wammy to get any plans of who his next "L" would be if he died and they came along with him. There they were able to meet Near, Mello, and Matt. The three kids hung out with them during their stay back in Japan to see who is perfect for the next role. Weeks pass and all three are doing really well and it didn't really sink in until later that L is actually doing this to see if he wants kids. Well, Misa and Light like the idea and they ended up adopting Mello as their son in which he admittedly cried

They go on date nights three times a week, one for each pair with their trio dates mostly being at home

After a few years of marriage they had two kids of their own in which Mello likes the role of older brother

NEAR:

Like L, Near is autistic (I believe that's canon and people hate it??)

Is nonbinary. I'm sorry I honestly can't see this baby as cis at all!

Owns lots of pants, shirts, skirts, dresses, tights, boots, heels, flat shoes, socks that'll work with him with any gender dysphoria and day

Primally goes by Near since that sounded right

Suffer from night terrors which is how his spark of studying happened cause that distracted them

Demi-Sexual bean!

Got adopted by Kiyomi and gets spoiled rotten

MELLO:

Choco-holic what else is new

Suffered an eating disorder which was quickly helped fixed with Matt and his new family

Mentioned above with L, Light, and Misa adopting him, he adores his family gratefully and it's not just cause L chose him out of everyone

Him and Near still have a rather strong rivalry but it's healthy now and also more so childish thanks to their adopted families

Likes his Uncle Matsuda a lot (Matsuda ends up marrying Sayu in this)

Is kind of that kid in school who knows shit and will market the crap out of soda and candies to the kids who have money and parents who won't allow sugar in his household

Often gets caught sneaking out to see Matt and sometimes (a lot) Near by his parents

Is Pan and always knew it

MATT:

Got adopted by Stephen and Teru in this AU

Still is obsessed with video games and eats candy cigarettes until he's legal to smoke if he wants to

Is straight besties with Mello and Near

Has so much gaming stuff it's unreal

Loves the rain

MATT X MELLO X NEAR:

Got together sometime after Near was adopted with Matt and Mello being a thing first and Near joined after

They're both protective of Near

And then Near would shock everyone with a thrown of a textbook to the face if someone says something bad about either of them

Misa is overly supportive of this relationship, Kiyomi loves to tease Near often, and the many times Teru and Stephen would interrupt calls with them to tease is too much

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yournewfriendshouse · 2 years

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so I mentioned this on reddit the other day and go a lot of responses that people didn’t know it, so I thought I’d make a post here just in case. because a lot of talk about dnis are just a bit confusing to me from this context, so…

DNIs didn’t start on twitter, and honestly to me they don’t make much sense on twitter at all, because the format of tweets and how they are displayed is just completely different to tumblr blogs, and I have no idea how people think that they would work there.

the first time I ever saw DNIs was on tumblr, on stim blogs. and in my opinion they were completely valid boundaries being put down for extremely valid reasons.

it was a time before the fidget toy explosion, a time before the porn ban. A time of aesthetic blogs and a time of bdsm blogs and all kinds of blogs for all kinds of things; where blogs from different spheres didn’t really tend to overlap much, which is really amazing to think about. but it did happen.

a lot of autistic people were making videos and gifs of cookie decoration and slime making, and sand pouring, etc. and they were curating them in really painstaking ways that were satisfying to them and made their brains happy. they started getting popular because even allistic people found these things satisfying to watch, and I suppose at some point their gifs or videos found their way onto the dashes of littles, and specifically ‘l1ttle g1rl’ roleplay blogs.

and so the ‘l!ttle g!rl’ roleplay blog would say ‘oh this is cute I’m going to show it to my d4ddy’ and then they would reblog it onto their kink role play blog, and their d4ddy d0m would reply, the the lg would reply and the d4ddy would reply—reblogged every time—and so the original creator of the post’s notifications would then be filled with a roleplay conversation which they didn’t consent to be brought into, and that was something they were not there for and didn’t want. understandably!

so after a lot of frustrating conversations and arguments and no little drama, you started seeing ‘ddlg blogs do not interact’ on stim posts and blogs, and basically any blog that had pastel, ribbon, cute stuff on it, because honestly they just didn’t want to deal with that shit, and they didn’t want stuff they had created being associated with kink whether there was sex involved or not.

which honestly, that is understandable and reasonable. any responsible kinkster should see someone’s boundaries and respect them. it’s kind of a big thing in kink culture. right? there was literally nothing stopping the owner of a lg roleplay blog from making their own pastel stim oriented blog with no kink stuff on it and keeping them seperate so that they could reblog these posts while maintaining the creators’ boundaries, but from what I remember there was just this ongoing battle between them I’m pretty sure all the way until the porn ban happened.

those lgdd blogs weren’t a lot of people’s favourite for a lot of reasons, but mostly because they were annoying but also because a lot of adult dudes decided they were d4ddies now and purposefully seeked out teenagers who had decided they were l1ttles and there was just…a lot of problematic shit was going on, but yeah, I’m pretty sure that’s where dnis started.

so if you’re like confused about what their purpose is, that’s some perspective. and imo if someone asks for you not to reblog something they made onto a certain kind of blog, or put it in a certain tag, I am 100% in favour of that. they don’t want some people’s conversations in their notifications, and especially now that tags are in the notifications; being forced to see how many people are flagrantly mislabelling some of their art with a ship that is a major squick to them is incredibly inconsiderate for someone who just put in a lot of work and them showed everyone their stuff for free.

like in my book disregarding such boundaries makes you an arsehole. and asking for people not to tag something a certain way is not censorship. being clear about the purpose of their work is not censorship; it’s just having boundaries.

…for the record what is not going to work (which we have recently seen) is putting DNIs on blazed posts. because you literally are paying money to override people’s filtering and blacklists (their boundaries). so if you put it out there, you’re just gonna have to cop the fact that people will see your post and have an opinion on it. they will probably express that opinion, and you’re not always going to like the way some people express that on the post you put in front of them on purpose lmao

anyway I hope this post is helpful. I really don’t want to talk about the inherent ethics of ddlg or anything; that conversation is exhausting and way outside of my lane, and not what I’m talking about at all. every group has shitheads in it who don’t respect boundaries, and this is an example of that.

I’m by no means a historian of any kind so there is a chance I’m wrong and there were people doing this before the stim blogs, but this is just where I saw them first and thought they were the best solution those folks had in a time where the kungpowpenis was yet a long way off lmao

#tumblr history #or something #DNIs

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arrow-romantic · 4 years

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The Middle

Chapter 1/?: First Day of My Life

Content and/or warnings: Anixety, negative thoughts, light flirting, break ups, canon ships implied. Linda/W@lly. AU.

Timeline is odd but semi explains itself. Autistic main character, gay characters.

Characters: Earth 1 H-unter Z0lomon, Fr3ddie Park[me], L!inda P.ark, Ir.is W.est, C.aitlin Sn0w, Jimmy Ol.sen[mentioned], brief v.ibe content.

Summary: Freddie wasn't expecting to drop coffee on a stranger that day, but he did and everything changed.

Words: 1,400

“Yours is the first face that I saw; I think I was blind before I met you. I don't know where I am, I don't know where I've been but I know where I want to go”First Day of My Life; Bright Eyes

When Freddie’s alarm went off at at 6:30 he realised that he’d not slept yet. He had promised himself that he would go to bed in a few minutes that was at midnight. He rushed up out of bed to shower before leaving his and his sister’s condo. It had taken ages but he finally convinced his parents he could move out without a hassle when he was nineteen, on the condition that he move in with her. Which had been fine, except for the first week when she forgot he was there and brought Barry to the condo and they stopped their makeout session when they saw him.

That was six years ago and honestly living in the city was expensive, so he stayed with Linda. He refused to move back home. “Are you going to work?” she asked him from where she was stress baking inte the kitchen.

He jammed his feet into his trainers, flattening the heels without a care. He hesitated, he wanted to ask why she was stress baking. He really did, but he also promised Caitlin he would help her. He bit down hard on his lip for a moment. “I’m going to help Caitlin in the lab for a few hours, but I promise I’ll come right back home!”

“I’m not your keeper,” Linda rolled her eyes and went back to baking.

Freddie was already out the door and rushing down the street to get to Jitters. He made his way in and got into the line. Hopefully he’d just missed the big morning rush by the time he got there. “Hey, Freddie!” Tracy grinned at him. “Your usual?”

“That’d be awesome, thanks Trac’. Could I also get two Flashes and a vibe?”

“Going to S.T.A.R. Labs today or does the editor have you on a coffee run again?” she asked casually as she started on the order.

“S.T.A.R. Labs, and I’m late.” he chagrined. His cover story was that he took photos for Iris’s articles about S.T.A.R. Labs’ contributions to the city and to the scientific world. Neither she, nor his bass was aware that he was a vigilante.

Tracey laughed. “Dr. Snow is not gonna be pleased …”

“Yeah,” he laughed softly. When she gave him his coffee he rushed out, unfortunately backing into a rather tall man. In the process he knocked the man’s coffee into his tan jacket.

“Oh FUCK. Dude I’m SO sorry!” he scrambled to balance the coffee tray into one hand so he could give the guy his napkins. “I am SO sorry. Uh, fuck. I swear I'm usually more careful. I'm so sorry. I'll fix this I-uh.”

The man stopped and watched Freddie’s fumbling for a moment, just a little awestruck. He’s cute. The man thought a bit dumbfounded. “It’s alright,” he smiled a little. “It’s not too hot.” He felt like he’d just been hit with a ton of bricks. He didn’t believe in love at first sight, but man this fumbling man, apologising for coffee … he felt something, a spark.

Freddie quickly grabbed a crumpled business card from his pocket. “Tell Tracey, the manager to put your new coffee on my tab and call me if that needs to be dry cleaned. I’m so sorry. I have to go.”

He accepted the card on autopilot. He knew for a fact that the last time he felt butterflies like this he was in his early twenties.

He was already forgetting the man’s face when he rushed into the S.T.A.R. Labs elevator and shoved on his mask. Maybe if I’m lucky she’s late too. He was not lucky, not even a tiny bit. “So nice of you to finally join us.” said Caitlin, a bit tight lipped.

“Look, I’m sorry. Last night was …”

“Whatever.” Caitlin sighed. “Alright, everyone. This is Nightfoot.”

The two kids, probably around fifteen just looked at him. “Yeah,” he mumbled. “I’m Nightfoot and I’m here to help you guys out with uh, powers and stuff.”

“...Okay.” said one of them a bit awkwardly.

“So, uh firstly I struggle with social cues, so if I ask you to clarify something I promise I’m not being condescending.” He started a little awkwardly.

There was a bit of reluctance from one of the kids. They had pressed a little; as they were not aiming to make these kids superheroes. That wasn’t the goal: the goal was to get them to a point where they felt comfortable going to school without the fear of accidentally using their powers resulting in harm to themselves or others. When the kids left however, Caitlin had stuck him into a chair and ordered him to wait for her.

He found himself getting a bit bored again as it was taking her a while to deal with things. He started to spin in his computer chair, thoroughly bored with the prospect.

“Hey, ese,” Cisco said casually. “How was the class?” he asked as he pulled off his Vibe gear.

“It went … okay. One of the kids was real worried we were gonna shove them onto the team though.” he began to explain.

“Well, do you want to go train or something?”

“I’m waiting for Caitlin.”

“Oh, I’ll leave you to it then.” Cisco headed out.

Cisco came running back into the room when he heard Cait exclaim.

“I was gone for five minutes!”

“Well, when you yell at me I get stressed and can’t come down.” Freddie shot back, currently stuck to the high wall by his hands and feet.

Cisco sighed deeply, heaving his whole body. “I’ll get the broom.” he replied and headed down the hall to grab a set of brooms. He began to work to poke his hands and feet in the hopes of encouraging his grip to slide.

That was an ordeal he never wanted to think about again. After that he went to let Caitlin draw his blood. “I still wonder what gave you such an odd assortment of powers.” Caitlin mused as she eyed one bottle of his blood. “and why it turned your hair white …”

“Yeah, we’re not any closer to answers?”

“About your powers? No. Your hair though, I think I’m getting close.” she seemed pleased with herself, and awfully interested in his biology. His combination of powers had taken them all by surprise when he initially reached out to them for help.

There was a loud beeping that filled the room. “What’s the sitch, Cait?”

“Are you ever going to stop doing that?”

“No.” He grinned.

“Hartley just took a chunk out of Emerald High School.

His phone went off then.

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When he finally returned home, he could tell Linda wasn't pleased with him. Which of course made dinner even more quiet and awkward for the four of them, until they started to gush about Linda's job. He was glad his parents were behaving somewhat. They were divorced and their father had a difficult relationship with them, but they managed.

By the end of the night, things were quiet. “I’m sorry,” Freddie finally said as he started to take care of the plates. “There was a thing with H.artley…” he trailed off.

“It’s always something with you,” Linda was exasperated as she nearly slammed the plates into the sink. “It’s not just H/artley. You’re always lost in your own little world! Nothing going on around you matters! You’re so self centered. If it doesn’t affect you it doesn’t matter.”

He hated that argument. He hated being told he was selfish. “You know that’s not true!” He hated that it was always selfishness somehow. There was never an understanding. “and don’t imply I don’t care about the state of our family, that is not fair and you know it.”

“I’m sorry.” Linda sighed and ran a hand through her hair. “It’s just a lot. You know dad is a handful.”

“I really didn’t mean to forget.”

“I know you didn’t. But you did.”

“and there’s nothing to do but move forward. I’m tired, I haven’t slept yet. Goodnight.”

He never went to sleep. His brain wouldn’t turn off. So he sat awake, working on photos and writing anything that came into his brain. He considered calling Jimmy, the time difference would mean they could talk for a bit but he knew that was a bad idea. He may have been mostly over their breakup but there were things his voice always dragged up.

#fall writes #book: hot shot central #YEAH I GOT A NEW FO #lmao #ss: never too late 🏳️‍🌈

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almaasi · 6 years

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reaction post typed while watching SPN 13x07 “War of the Worlds”

in which I explain exactly why I don’t enjoy Buckner/Ross-Leming episodes (beyond obvious problematic issues and pacing), and why Meredith Glynn’s episodes are better imo

03:41pm

don’t know what to expect, so it’s gonna be SURPRISE

not expecting greatness since it’s the deadly duo, but i’m hoping this won’t become a “cas is leaving and won’t be back or mentioned for 8 episodes straight” thing

(or a “these writers are racist and misogynists” thing)

THERE’S A FLY IN MY ROOM

why do they never just fly back out the way they came in??? THE WINDOW IS OPEN YOU CURSED BEAST

03:44

whoop time to pull my window blind down ‘cause this show is so dark and i can’t see shit

03:45

i have yet to care about asmodeus

and i decidedly don’t care about lucifer

i care about mary in the sense that i don’t want anything bad to happen to her but i’m fine with her not being part of the main story

does that downtrodden black demon have a name?? i’m still rooting for him either way

also still can’t tell if michael’s vessel is a white dude or not

(edit: i think maybe no)

03:48

frankly i am still unsure why jack blasted team free will across the room, repeating his last mistake, given that doing that killed someone before??

was it like a “if gonna hurt everyone and here let me prove it” thing? or a “i’m getting you out of the way so you can’t grab me” thing??

03:50

*insert stock footage here*

05:53

cas lists all the worst possible scenarios

yea he’s a dad

03:54

why is david haydn-jones credited in this?!?!?!?! WHAT

maybe a flashback

WHOA WAIT OSRIC CHAU TOO WHAT IS HAPPENING ??!??!!?

ARE THEY ALL ALIVE IN THE PARALLEL UNIVERSE

05:56

cas: “my contact is already anxious... won’t speak in the presence of a stranger”

sure jan

what’s the bet the writers have a pool of “reasons cas has to go alone” and they just pick one from a hat

dean: “so introduce me, then i’m not a stranger”

good. please.

UGH I AM SO SICK OF CAS DOING THINGS ALONE

but tbh i’m kind of amazed dean is healthy enough to let cas go alone and not worry that he’s gonna lose the guy again, given he just got back from the dead