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ibeblizzard3 · 2 days

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Tw ED

😭😭 so a couple months ago(before I relapsed again) I invited my friends over for a sleepover which is gonna be today💀that’s why I can’t fast today. The only reason I even invited them was just so I could talk to one of them. I think one of my friends also has an ed I’m not sure though.. maybe we all have EDs lol. We’re all thin. One of them is a small portion Queen💅 the other told me at are last sleep over that she actually feels guilty eating around other people and that so feels even more guilty if she doesn’t finish her plate if everyone else does. Also once I told friend A(guilty girl) that I was 89 lbs and she said she weighed less than me in a shocked voice. Could have been some way to make me feel bad but idk she might have been lying. But then again you probably don’t expect to see someone 19 inch waist and you weigh less then them. Anyway, at the last sleep over me and friend A stayed up all night and shit. And we had a somewhat deep conversation. I wanted to continue it tonight(I can’t do it during the day cuz friend B(small potion queen)will try to turn every deep conversation into a silly one)and since my parents don’t know friend A’s parents very well, she can’t sleep over(friend B can tho) friend A is just gonna stay over for a bit ig. It’s kinda annoying cuz I have more in common with friend A, but I’ll live as long as friend B doesn’t get to comfortable and start acting like a 5 year old all of the sudden for literally no reason. Otherwise friend B is somewhat pleasant to be around(sadly no deep convo’s tho☹️) but that’s not the real problem. Eating is… I got to choose the food cuz it was at my house duh, but my mom acted like I was trying to starve them when I made our meal 300cal so now it’s 500cal. It’s a lot more than I would like and my mom still wants to get them soda. If they do actually have EDs they’ll hate that. Plus they can also have bread(I don’t like bread) I’ll probably try to pick at my food and shit and not finish anything I eat. It’ll be hard but i really don’t want binge, and i try eating normally I will. I will also give options for the calories tho. I’ll let them choose what and how much they want(I hope it doesn’t cause to much stress) they can choose between a 200 or 300 cal ramen or just have bread or just fruit or whatever. I’m honestly scared that I’ll binge(when I eat in front of others I tend to get super nervous and binge which makes them think I have a super metabolism lol, I hate when they make jokes like “you’ll eat anything” or “wow that’s a lot” or “you eat a lot for your size” though) funny enough another friend of mine used to skinny shame me a lot like “your so skinny” or “that’s because your so skinny” or “you don’t eat(me literally eat ten buckets of candy I don’t even like)” that shit ya know? She stopped now, either she realized it was rude and pointless or I’m not skinny to her anymore(I did gain 10 lbs but also lost 3 inches of my waist) so idk. Anyway I just invited friends A and B to my sleepover. And I’m kinda dreading it, I didn’t lose enough weight so I’m dry fast until 3:30pm and eating at 5:30pm (which will mean a 24 hr water fast and a 22 hr dry fast). I really hope it helps me lose weight today 🤞also I can’t purge cuz one of them will be sleeping over💀💀😭😭😭

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homo-house · 2 months

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is lovin hazbin hotel legal yet

#read this to the tune of 'is loving jesus legal yet' from history of the entire world btw please and thanks #sorry yeah its been a week i'm still not over the thing #kind of forcing myself to stop thinking about it by doing everything i have to do in quick succession #cuz otherwise i will not do anything at all #i rewatched it today like its been a week. but i was really BRAVE and STRONG because i wanted to rewatch by day 3 already #anyways there is an alastor-shaped hole in my brain that needs to be filled with alastor or i will go insane.#i need to write that fic so bad but oh well i have a FUCK ton of shit to do before monday and then classes r back...#why did i join the student comittee anyway #AND RESEARCH PROJECT!! AND JOINED AN EVENT AS AN ORGANIZER!!!!#i need to learn how to say no to opportunities at one point or i might overwork myself to death out of enthusiasm

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sylvieserene · 5 months

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Fixing history using the power of editing and my editing skills!!

For today we have, New Titans (1980) Issue #100

✨ Wedding Special ✨

@robstarblog @robstaryeah pinging yall just in case so that this doesn't get lost in oblivion (It'd be painful since I worked 5 hours non stop on it lol)

I think the most time was taken by the final panel and adding in the finishing touches since I pretty much had to change everything to the pixel level, quite literally lol (I'm serious, I did)

Welp I hope the results were worth it! And with that, another one gets a good ending!!

I kinda didn't add sleeves in the first two panels of the final page because it didn't look good and looked janky with how I was editing it so yeah please ignore that-

#teen titans #robstar #dick grayson #koriand'r #starfire #dickkory #Changing history #using the power of editing and my own skills!#giving the good ending to characters who truly deserve it #it took me 5 hours to complete all the editing to the miniscule level #i paid attention to every detail to match each panel #it took a lot of effort but it was worth it!!#but damn man there have been so little dickkory content that I really had to search hard to get myself a suitable pic to edit out of #we have a lot barbara content with dick but barely much with Kori honestly #anw hope this is nice #self editing #also #Donot remove my watermark while reposting otherwise I'll consider it as stealing >:(#dont steal #that damn priest took so much time to edit like holy cow #I really went above and beyond to get all the details right and consistent throughout #I let my perfectionist nature manifest #but yea #now Dick and Kori can have an uninterrupted happy wedding <3 #im so happy #I may try another one of these fixie thingies if I find anything^^#this was really fun to work on #i fixed canon #but fuck the actual canon #cuz most comic writers cant even do just one job right

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tigergendermoved · 6 months

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All the art and fics of Deltarune where Kris and Susie are like fuckin soulbonded together are wonderful and my favorite but I think they're a lot funnier when you think about the fact that they've been friends for less than 24 hours

#i am a krusie believer platonic or otherwise but these two have only known each other for a short time #if noelle's description of susie as 'the new girl' is anything to go by #and about a day before chapter 2's beginning kris's sole experience with susie was her bullying them #it does make me go 'ough' a little though. susie very nearly asking kris if they'll still be friends if it turns out they cant go back to #the dark world.#god i cant wait to learn more about susie and her background i'm so curious was kris said to her in new girl #because i do feel like they've met before. maybe when they were little and susie moved away or something #i'm partial to the theory that susie grew up in an all-human town and she freaks monsters out and talks about 'we all have blood'#cuz she doesnt really know how to interact with monsters. and maybe she's from hometown and had to move back cuz her family #i imagine susie's family as being Not the best so maybe toriel tried to help her before she moved away #and that's why susie seems to hold toriel in such high esteem and emphasizes kris having a good mom #okay these tags got away from me but ough. susie

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coquelicoq · 1 year

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yeah sex is great but have you ever unflooded your street by removing leaves from the storm drains using the litter-grabber tool you bought from lowe's two weeks ago for that exact purpose?

#every year my street floods in the autumn when it rains heavily. usually multiple times. every year!!!#i hate it it's so stressful. and of course the cars keep driving down it even though it's unsafe. a lot don't even slow down #and they throw up these huge walls of water with their passage #the street becomes totally unusable for pedestrians wheelchair users bikers strollers etc.#it's just the worst. and every year i'm like oh i should get a thingy so i can do something about it #and i never do in time. but this year. THIS year. watch out world #i cleaned out the drains preventively a few times in the past couple weeks but today is the first day of somewhat heavy wind and rain #so i went out this evening and two of the four drains were completely clogged :( but i got out my tool & as soon as i cleared a little spac #a whirlpool formed and sucked all the water into it! with this amazing noise. it was fantastic #then i cleared away the rest of the leaves cuz that tiny spot would get covered up very quickly otherwise #i came back by an hour later and they're still looking great <3 i'm basking in the afterglow #it is funny how much easier a homeowner could do this than me. those people have yard debris cans #they have space for shovels. god. a shovel. my kingdom for a shovel #i'm just piling the leaves on the curb one handful at a time and then leaving them there (out of the way of everyone of course)#because i have nowhere else to put them and no way to transfer them farther distances #but it's mostly just apartments near this intersection so we gotta do it for ourselves #anyway i'm probably gonna have to do it again tomorrow because there are a lot of dead leaves out there right now #but man! i've never been able to do anything about this before except call the city and wait for them to send someone. this feels so good

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oh-meow-swirls · 5 days

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haven't watched shadowside or played 4 but ngl it feels kinda pointless for summer and tate to be nate and katie's kids when nate can't even see yo-kai anymore in it and seemingly never brings that fact up-

#puppy rambles #yo-kai watch #yw4 #<- kind of #also nate and katie literally have no romantic chemistry in canon i know it was always endgame but like #why did they never actually give them anything. the crush always seems to be one-sided-#i honestly can't see them as anything more than friends and that's not just cuz of me liking other ships for them #they just. don't have any actual chemistry. nate has a crush on katie and that's literally it #there's never anything that implies katie has a crush on nate. even in the games. it's so weird #i'm sure i'd enjoy shadowside and 4 if i watched/played them but like. there's just so much weird stuff in the future era #like. whatever the fuck is going on in y-school heroes. i don't even try to figure out what that's about anymore #all i know is that future human jibanyan (jiba jinpei or something???) is apparently amy's grandson #which is neat i guess #idk i mean. there's a reason i just see the games as a trilogy #i just think it'd be more interesting if even if you do have nate not have a watch/be friends with jibbers and whisper as an adult #for him to at least bring it up??? at somepoint???#because otherwise it just feels completely useless to have summer and tate be nate's kids-#side note but i honestly don't blame people for not using the english names for shadowside characters tate is a terrible name #do you think his full name's tathan-#like. i feel like there's probably a better english name they could've used to continue the naming scheme-#but nope. tate. what kind of name is that #shadowside is so baffling to me-

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jazz-kity · 30 days

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are they single

#jazzrejuv #otherwise. hm #i expected them to be meaner if im being honest #seem like standard gods. cant do shit cuz its not their place #venam being stone doesnt mean anything bc theyve been alive for like all of time and space probably #too many people die to go save one of them of ur own accord #i think

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chartreuxcatz · 2 months

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At work I spent... maybe a little less than an hour scraping gunk off a floor that hasn't been cleaned in god knows how long and now my body hurts.

And its not even done yetttt

#meow.#I was using an ice chopper to scrape the floor.#I had to step on it like a shovel to really get anything up.#it was so bad.#After i scraped a fourth or a third of the floor I swept up the debris #and im telling you there was a good pound or two of gunk from that section alone #If i was lucky it would come up in rolls #like those ice cream roll making videos #And then my manager asked me to clean the walls too #so two of the walls are a lot cleaner than they were before #We were supposed to mop it too but uh. no.#Not until its all scraped and swept #cuz otherwise you'll just be smearing mud around #this was in a cooler btw #I kinda like doing manual labor in coolers and freezers cuz i tend to get very warm with physical exertion. as anyone does.#so it keeps me from overheating

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my-thoughts-and-junk · 4 months

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thinking about. redesigning the dads

#random thoughts #dream daddy #first thing immediately making brian fatter. maybe getting rid of his beard to give him a double chin. making him hairier everywhere else #also maybe making him an amputee. he had an accident while doing some woodworking and lost his left arm #or maybe ill make him a lower leg amputee? because he's fat and that has some unique challenges #robert's missing a finger and he changes the story on how he lost it every time #he also got shot once in the shoulder #craig's also an amputee! definitely lower leg because i want him to have one of those sportsy prosthetics #he has a wild story about it that the mc was there for #college shenanigans and whatnot #might make damien have a prosthetic eye? or an arm because i think he'd have a LOT to say about victorian prosthetics #god why am i giving them all physical disabilities. i was just thinking earlier about how it'd be neat if one of them were in a wheelchair #cuz the daddies are very performatively diverse otherwise #who would even be in a wheelchair. i think it'd be damien for periods of time #he'd have an authentic victorian one and also a normal one #he also uses a cane. hugo also uses a cane but a less cool one #hugo got a wrestling injury that acts up sometimes #matt gives off migraine energy. chronic pain haver even though he doesn't 'technically' have anything wrong with him #anyway!!! what fucking race is everyone i was thinking about this earlier #is robert white.#cuz like brian and joseph are both solidly in the white category #matt is black and carmensita is a spanish name soooo. dominican? columbian? i'm going with venezuela #cuz the guy who sang carmensita is american-venezuelan #i vaguely remember hugo having some comment on racial insensitivity during the wrestling date but god i just cannot remember #robert's grandparents were all different races and ethnicities and he's not particularly involved in any of their cultures #his wife was italian tho #joseph can trace his ancestry all the way back to the mayflower #mary and damien are siblings and descended from german immigrants #brian's grandparents were norwegian #robert has bipolar disorder btw. he's usually in a state of mixed mania instead of having highs and lows

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echoing-oursong · 1 year

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hot take: mike literally professing his love to el had NOTHING TO DO WITH EL FAILING! ALONG WITH WILL LYING ! AND PEOPLE WHO THINK MIKE LIED ABOUT HIS FEELINGS - THATS LITERALLY NOT WHAT DOOMED THE TOWN ! i’m so - how the fuck do people think that them lying is what doomed the town when it’s clear why they lost is because of vecna? i’m actually gonna -

#personal #literally not gonna tag it has anything cuz i know people will start shit #but also like them lying had nothing to do with them loosing at fucking all #like i don’t care if you ship byler but THEM LYING WAS NOT THE REASON THAT VECNA WON!#VECNA WON BECAUSE EVERYONE AAS SO FUCKING SPREAD OUT AND HE WAS MORE POWERFUL #IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH 14 YEAR OLDS LYONG ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS #also it’s heavily like ummm - so apparently lying will destroy the whole town ?#they’re children and y’all want the message to be ‘don’t lie - otherwise if you do the whole world will die and that’s on your shoulders now #yeah nice going!

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neonpigeons · 2 years

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I wish travelling with a pet would be easier. I feel like it used to be? I think a bunch of the rules changed with covid 19. I just want to visit my mom in NYC but I don't want leave Noodle here because I'm very attached to him (and vice versa) and my dad and roommate don't really give a shit about him.

he's 30 pounds now so I can't take him in the cabin of the plane and putting him in cargo is expensive and seems incredibly cruel. honestly I'd be willing to just buy an extra seat for him if possible but I don't think they allow it. I can't take him on an Amtrak train because the limit for them is also 20 pounds and only on trips less than 7 hours and it would take a lot more than 7 hours to go from california to new york.

really my only other feasible option would be to drive but that would mean a minimum driving time of 43 hours (if I were to just drive nonstop with no sleep or anything). over 2800 miles. and I'd have to drive through some shitty states. I really wish my mom hadn't decided to just up and move across the country and leave me with my dad, who can barely take care of himself. really fucking sucks.

#i know you're probably thinking ''oh just leave the dog'' but he would be so upset and honestly i would be very upset too #i don't want to resent her for this cuz this is also my fault I could've gotten my life together and moved out #my brother did that. he lives in texas. my sister lives in north carolina. they're functional adults #everybody just fucking left and im just stuck and im much more upset about this than i thought #i feel like utter shit right now it's so stupid!!!! im so so so unhappy. just constantly. always.#i don't know what to do with myself or anything #im sorry if you read all of this i just really needed to vent because im going to explode otherwise #i was supposed to visit her at the end of may but then noodle happened and he was still a baby #so my friend visited her without me and that fucked me up too #now i haven't seen her since january when i had to officially say goodbye #ari speaks #i don't think I've ever been so miserable in my entire life. and im on medication that's supposed to help with this #but i guess i literally can't cope with anything

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cutemeat · 2 years

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i rlly truly hate feeling so useless. i just. am. but i dont want to accept it.

#i need to. i mean look. dennis couldnt accept it n it made him miserable #i hav no energy even 4 sunny this is. bad jknfdkjgntr #i am having . a rough week #i keep overcompensating n trying to sound smart cuz i know im not. i could not graduate from public HS. i know im not smart.#i could never get into college. would not even pass a class. i just. am not. smart. but i wish i was. i try to sound like a smart person.#but its all cuz i know im not #i cannot. do anything. but ppl look at me n they say 'ok u are capable :)' n then i still cannot do much. but i LOOK like i can.#it doesnt matter how many times i prove im a failure. they still say well u just are not trying hard enough. keep going.#but its never enough. n i dont know how to be enough. idk what i am good for.#i just dont 'apply myself' . i feel so fucking awful. i hate it i cannot do this shit. but i have to. i am so tired i want to go home.#how do u apply yrself when there is nothing to apply #but theres not anything wrong with me. so its just me. n i cant . i . feel like a robot every day. nothing in me. nothing.#but ppl look at me n know i must serve some function or purpose right? so just keep going. keep going #i feel Plateau lately #i try to apply myself but it never works. tell me why it never works. tell me why. am i rlly just a lazy piece of shit. i guess so.#n i cant be pleasant abt it when ppl try to help i only make it worse #cuz no one seems to be able to find an explanation otherwise. in 20 yrs if there was one they wouldve found it by now right

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broodygaming · 2 months

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People in the discord server I'm in for game jam stuff are talking about different designs and things people do. And one person mentions they don't like playing suggestive games. Two people in the game jams make often... Idk how to put it. Big boob lady games. It's not Terrible terrible? But it does make me eye roll and make me be more careful with my words so I'm being polite and not like, talking down to them too much.

So shoutout to that other girl who was just like "nah I don't play those they make me uncomfortable" haha, you rock.

Also it made me chortle a bit cuz I realized that now three of my main characters in a row wear baggy sweaters and my first character before that was a small child.

Idk, I don't get the "bobba" thing. they'll all like, titter and laugh about it. Ohh, look at her walking cycle her pixel "bobbas" move, ohhh. It's weird. Can boobs just be boobs please. It's just. It's. ugh.

#is it just sexism? it might just be sexism #idk how to tag these things... maybe i should actually spend time in the tags I'm using lolol #it's so weird the runner of the game jam I'm doing now !!! ignores me!! in so many ways???#it's SO weird it's one of those really subtle things #and im positive it started when I switched my pronouns on the server to be she/her #cuz EVERYONE assumes you're a guy unless you say otherwise #but like lots of people post progress posts and he comments on ALL of them asking them questions and giving his thoughts #and he has never not once done that to me #or asked what I'm working on next or anything about my projects #i WON last game jam and he didn't even say anything or comment on my game #it's SO weird #should I just stop doing these? maybe but that feels like giving up and ...#like the dude running them not liking me cuz im a girl has 0 bearing on my experience in the jams except I miss out on his input #and who cares about his input lol #but it IS weird and sometimes I obsess over it too much cuz I end up gaslighting myself and being like #it's not that deep #but it is it is that deep it's definitely happening it's not in my head

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shslpunkartist99 · 6 months

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Toxic gamer gets toxic immediately and shows off their inflated ego

I melt them with Sym second round, so now they're hard focused on me with their commentary

They win unfortunately. Friends me, continues to be toxic

Me: I only accepted the friend request cuz I thought it'd be something better. Still boring commentary bruh

Toxic: Well I'm gonna unfriend you, you're wasting my time

.... ow is weird

#Punk Posts #you can't have an ego with ow of all games bro #I'm literally vibing #yes I play comp but I hardly take it seriously #I only play comp rather than qp cuz I prefer how comp functions #cuz in qp you HAVE to make it all the way to the end. otherwise it's a lost #but in comp you can win with 75% distance if you stop the enemy at less #it's what I'm used to #and like I said I'm a support main. this was on dps so of course I'm bleh #it's just weird to me to have an ego with a game that 90% of its playerbase is just bored dead gamers with nothing else better to do #and then to friend me and try to bs more like #cmon now. get some friends and play silly custom games #this isn't a vent btw. not upset or anything. just mind boggling #ah well. such is ow

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adelarsims · 3 months

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Bald Egg Begone! goth galore hoodie edit :D

yeah, that's basically it.

it's bgc standalone, not an override (!), you don't need GG kit for it to work (!)

just the hood itself is edited, otherwise it's just maxis mesh

makes the hood hair compatible yay

and normal head sized, instead of an egg the height of the eiffel tower

like, maxis, do you even know how heads work cuz i feel like you don't

deleted the shadow around the face because it was ridiculous, but if you like it and want it back, hit me up

necklaces and chokers are also allowed now

i'm side-eyeing maxis heavily for overriding chokers, like what the actual fuck, why else do we need all this bare neck if not for kisses and chokers?

it still hides nails and i wasn't able to do anything about it, soz

only male version because i made it for myself and i don't care about female version

DOWNLOAD: SFS

#adelarsims cc #ts4 #simblr #the sims 4 #sims 4 cc #ts4 maxis match #maxis match #ts4cc

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gay-dorito-dust · 21 days

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How Dick/Jason would do in order let you know that they want your leg on top of his…based on this tiktok cuz I thought it was cute.

Dick:

He will poke, prod and pluck at your legs without even attempting to actually pick them up at all. He expects you to pick up on his ‘subtle’ signalling and drape your legs over his without him having to utter a word.

So when you don’t do exactly that Dick would then pout and huff as though something was deeply wrong, which never failed to make you laugh at his insatiable need for your affection. It’s cute but sometimes you wished that he uses his voice rather than expect you to know the goings on in his mind 24/7…

‘What’s on your mind Dickie bird.’ You’d have to ask him, otherwise you’ll never get anywhere you’d like fast enough. ‘Nothing.’ He’d mutter under his breath, crossing his arms over his chest, popping out his bottom lip.

You sigh. ‘Would you like me to drape my legs over yours?’ Dick visibly perked up at this and you have to stifle your laughter as you could only imagine a pair of dog ears on his head, also perked up straight as his nonexistent tail wags rapidly in excitement.

Such a puppy. You thought to yourself as he looked at you with impatience.

‘I thought you’d never ask.’ Dick says and his excitement only went through the roof the moment you draped your legs over his own as he was quick to rest his hands on your thighs, giving you an impromptu massage, smiling widely as though he had just won in life.

Jason:

At first when he was still getting use to physical touch and finding what he was and wasn’t comfortable, he would send multiple glances towards your legs as his hand twitched at his side, looking about as uncomfortable and stiff as a board.

Now however he just picks up your legs and drapes them over his own without a second thought as his calloused hand rubs at your thighs. He doesn’t piss about anymore, if he wants your legs draped over his, he will make that want of his known by doing just that.

Jason wanted you constantly touching him in someway.

It didn’t matter where or what you were touching, Jason just needed you touching him in order to have a good day, for if you don’t hug him or tap the back of his hand thrice to signal your love for him, then what was the point of doing anything. Your touch was his personal good luck charm, without it he was better of dead…again.

While it may not like much to many outside of your relationship but whenever you and him were remotely touching, it felt as though heaven had came to the apartment, bathing it in heavenly light and warmth as you and Jason leaned against one another smiling in content.

To Jason whenever you’re touching him, even if it was as small as linking pinkies, was absolute heaven and he wasn’t one to give that so easily.

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