#cus I just want you for my own

[bxmblxbee]

#cus I just want you for my own #bee: pls leave me the Fuck alone! #the village stalkers #🐝⊱bee #amitybee #it fits well #;past #haunting #lesbian

[seonghwacore]

be real honest. which member of your favorite group whose personality is actually similar to you? are they your bias or not?

#ann.txt #ive been curious about this #esp to atinys but i think people from other fandoms might see and want to share too #in my case my personality is the closest to mingi hongjoong and scoups (with less $$$) #mingi mainly cus of his thinking framework and bluntness constantly talking abt world economy whatsoever 😂 #his “cost-benefit” mindset is strong and its shown? but it doesnt make him cold or careless abt his friends #and you know what else is strong in him? his simpness for yunho. boi doesnt have anything bad abt him he has his name in his head 25/8 #i think if i have my own “yunho” person i'll have nothing in my head but them too #i think if hes just a clerical worker or avg uni student hed do a good job in business or any job/study thats data driven? #hongjoong and coups. assertive yet open to feedbacks. they treat it as opportunity to improve and reach out wider audiences #while attentive to their members their works the top priority. if they can work then why sleep #be the $$$ daddies 🤑 #just in real life yet tricky in games 🤪 but sometimes im also a fool like mingi 🤪🤪🤪 #and nope theyre not my bias but its amazing to know you gentlemen 🤝 #PLUS THEYRE ALL BIG BABIES MAXIMUM OF 5 YEARS OLD #I AM 5

[archersartcorner]

Was thinking about the fact that Zac’s last two (main campaign) characters have been Rogues (or the SW5E rogue equivalent) That Are Creatures. And what if they met :) bop slug

#my art #described #dimension 20 #a starstruck odyssey #neverafter #skip takamori #pib neverafter #puss in boots neverafter #I know it’s fun to see the IHs play different classes but honestly zac can play rogues forever. #1. he’s really good with rogues like genuinely. you give Zac a sneak attack option and he’ll just kill god apparently WHDVJD #2. I mean it seems like he rly likes playing rogues!! like it seems like he’s found a class he’s comfortable with and I like dat :) #I also just love that. here they are. Zac’s Rogues HWDVJSHS #between the brain slug and the cat. I don’t know where I was going with that I just. the range of playing both a brain slug and a cat #if it hasn’t been astonishingly obvious I Love Zac Oyama Characters. love it when that guy makes lil dudes and puts them in Situations #also slowly getting more comfortable drawing pib… I have some pib & tomas doodles I wanna post eventually too :) need to refine them a bit! #I love their relationship I wish they didn’t put Tomas in the book so quickly :( wanted to see them interact more!!! I think he wanted to- #-help them fight!! #wargh. also sadge we don’t have a canon Tomas design… if for any reason just cus I struggle making up my own designs if I don’t have- #-anything to go off of 😭 BUT I have smth and y’all will see soon hopefully :)

[altruistic-meme]

help someone please make me be an adult cus i really just don't want to.

#hghhhhhhhhhh i really need to actually go get a fucking car. but. im scarsd <3 #i want to call my dad and see if he'd be willing to talk to me about it cus im. a mess. #and 1. my mom is currently dealing with shit of her own and i dont wanna bother her and #2. she would be hard to talk to about this anyway bc shes still against me doing financing. though at least she explained her reasoning. #but i want to talk to my dad cus hes done shit like this before ;;; at least on SOME level ;;;;; #i don't actually know how many cars he's bought from like. a dealership. but still. #he HAS bought cars before #and he understands jargon and shit better than me and im anxious #and i just want to get this one thing done so i can stop worrying about my car giving up the ghost on me at any point in time #ough #i meant to call my insurance company earlier to see if i could get a ballpark number for full coverage but didnt #bc the Anxiety. you understand. s #shh ac

[snailfen]

its funny holding a pokemon hyperfixation for a year followed by a rw hyperfixation for over half a year. i bet none of you unfortunate 1,000 people who followed me for either of those two things expected to see me post about silly little object characters like an insane person (except for maybe some of you)

#sorry mutuals (not really) ive got an inner 8 year old to satisfy!!!! #also theres now 2500 of you guys. thats terrifying! #i want to do a raffle but i have been struggling to draw recently.... trying to get back into drawing object heads since im #getting back into osc now but GOD is it hard. havent done this since my jsab days #aaaand im starting to do adult stuff which is. scary. so thats not helping #that being said i want to do something!!!! but unfortunately no promises cus im not. used to being a big artist?? #i more often just post stuff or make stuff on my own terms #mossball.txt

[deiahapmoment]

I'm watching Physical: 100 with family members that I'm not out to so every time a hot woman (all of them) flexes her muscles I have to imagine that I'm a terrified child and a homophobic God is watching over me disapprovingly.

#physical 100 #about me #I'm not out to basically anyone i just say gay shit and you gotta figure it out yourself #but I've avoided saying anything around these family members cus i know they're loose lipped and i don't want my parents to know yet 😬 #netflix #i tag as if i own the account nuh uh babey im watching on my cousin's yeehaw

[ribbonbonny]

THEYRE HERE!! AND IVE GOT NOWHERE TO FUCKING PUT EM 🔥🔥🔥

#MONTH IF ALL MY PACKAGES ARRIVING #MIKU. THEM. THE ZELDA EARRINGS #shoutout to the real hero which was the delivery guy bringing me my earrings #i send m to the wrong package point. he went out of his way to call me THRICE to get in contact n deliver them to my house instead #since the package point wouldnt take m. n otherwise theyd been sent retour #n cus he let me know that was the wrong package point i was just int ime to alter the adress of this package to the right one #and when i say just in time #i mean yesterday. i got the adress change done. yesterday #pokegalerie hadnt let me know this one had been shipped yet so the fucking heary attack i got learning it was almost here already BEKDNNF #ribbon rambles #quality wise theyre stunning :] the pokemon especially #archie n maxie themselves r a lil wonky in the face but its ok WWWW they still look nice #max even stands on his own which was a shocker #the only thing i dislike is the special pieces pn tge pokemon all being attached via magnets #some dont have a way to attach at all other then fucking. sticky gum they give w it JSJNFBSS #n like. i get it #you dont want to make holes in your pretty statue for click in points #but rn all those pieces r hanging on w nothing but hopes and dreams #id like em being. a bit sturdier then that

[liauditore]

tw dysphoria (i guess?), abandonment issues (it always when we talk about jimmy), just rambling about jimmy not being a toy but being dysphoric about it

(you can just delete it before reading if it could trigger you)

in my head all this "jimmy is a toyyy!!!" arc was not about haha toy story and let's ignore how they could know about it, okay, it's like how scott doesn't remember pearl and jimmy just OMG MY RANCHER, OMG SCAR, OH NO, GRIAN and yeah yeah yeah

you know that thing when everyone bulling person and calling them, for example, "monster" and they are like, well, a lot of people call me that, i should conform (megamind basically). that's something similar, everyone call jimmy a toy (which he's not) and he's starting to doubt if he's a human. everything joel did to him (or its all hallucinations or joel really can control it and make jimmy toy for some time) just making worth. jimmy wasn't a toy, was he? (in my headcanons sheriff jimmy it's cod jimmy that decided to try again but absolute opposite of what he was.)

and because of green also making hallucinations for him (i hope you knows green something like origin, you can find it something in romeos blog, i wrote about it a little), jimmy is really can't really say if he's not a toy. he doesn't want to belive it and we can see it in dialogues with scar, that jimmy refusing to be a toy, an action figure, everything besides who he really is.

i can imagine him, avoiding mirrors and reflective surfaces, so he won't see himself. i'm really inspired to write it all bc of cavetown dysphoric, it's so jimmy for me

it's been over a year now

i thought it was the end

but now i don't remember comfort

because what i am is what i'm not

i don't belong here, it's just hopeless

find me a way out

if you love me at all

don't let me hear what they say

cuz i can't stand it every day

i'm thinking that i should leave now

but i don't i think i'm coming back this time

it's killing my heart.

and scar was the only one who doesn't call jimmy a toy like 90% of their time together. jimmy knows that scar will leave, like his rancher left him, like emp1 scott left him alone with problem with cod father head and yeah yeah yeah....

i don't know, i just woke up and my brain wad like good morning, honey, it's time to make people suffer

- 🔥

angst?? for me??? 🥺🥺👉👈

HKDHKHLADH SCrEAMING,, putting thoughts under the cut cus i already know its gonna get Long but hkhlkfdhjk

OuGH i love this 😭😭😭 although the megamind comparison kinda sent me lmao

side note i am. into very disturbing and messed up themes so you'd have to try very, very hard to upset me. so go wild in my ask box lol (i do have a good chunk of ppl who just have 'minor' in their bios following me tho so i might not respond to smth if i feel like it's 'too far' or hide it under a cut but yeah)

^realising this sounds like a "i am very badass" thing but i swear i just think stuff is cool 😭😭😭

BUT ANYWAY ouhfhkl mind break and objectification my beloved. i love taking the toy bit in an angsty direction cus i'll be honest i never really found the humour in it but it's TASTY recontextualized.

Jimmy's got a lot of fight in him but I'm just thinking maybe one day it all becomes a bit too much and he just.. goes limp in his seat, eyes glazed over, motionless except for his chest rising and falling with each breath. Someone (maybe Scar, since we're doing Scaridarity) finds him and is like "Hey, what's wrong? You okay?" and gets no response.

Scar would probably be somewhat uninitiated on the whole toy thing and be puzzled but I'd think he scoops Jimmy up and takes him somewhere safe til he recovers. and when he finally gets up he has a bit of a panic attack about what is real.

#asks #🔥 anon #cw mind break #cw dehumanisation #cw dysphoria #cw dehumanization #<-- i would probs classify it more as mind break but ill put it here for the song inspo #and cus its what ur tagging it as so who am i to argue lol #but yeah i like the toy bit much more as a psychological thing personally than anything literal #it just hits different when it's a flesh and blood Person being treated as if they have no will of their own #angst #whump #like. wear what we want you to wear. do what we want you to do. #we'll play with you however we like and once we're bored we'll leave you til we want you again #and you don't get to not like it. or like it. you're a toy. stupid. toys dont think. #uh yeah jimmy. jimmy. my babygirl #i cant believe this bullshit was inspired by a stupid toy story bit #quick side note i forgor to add. my funny headcanon for no one knowing if they remembered life series or not during the crossover is that #they do remember and scott and pearl are just pretending to not recognise eachother cus its awkward lmao

[lystring]

just love that amongst all the insane pushback people have been getting lately for talking very openly about fatphobia in our society which is a serious problem people are straight up reblogging posts adding severely triggering images of extremely anorexic people as some sort of Gotcha, like fatphobia Cant be real because Look how mean people are being about this person who is clearly dying from one of the worst diseases born Out Of Our Fucking Society Being Fatphobic im losing my mind what is happening etc

#like i dont think ive ever talked about this on this blog or ever #but i used to be DEEP into proana tumblr back in the day like. #most of us didnt consider ourselves 'proana' or 'probulimia' or whatever but it was a fucking lifestyle and it was a dark hole #that i had to claw myself out of #and im sorry its extremely triggering that people are harping onto posts TALKING ABOUT A REAL ISSUE THEY DO NOT EXPERIENCE #with images of severely diseased women sayin Well Actually Your Experiences Arent That Bad Cus Look #We Also Have It Bad #yeah well #one does not detract from the other #and also Maybe. hmm. there is a correlation...if not even causation........ #maybeeeee if fatphobia wasn't such a huge issue....you wouldn't feel the need to...idk avoid experiencing that... #cus like okay I know im only speaking from my own experience but #seeing the way society treated fat people growing up constantly surrounded by people on Diets all the time #trying to Avoid being fat at All Cost #miiight have contributed to my ED and wanting to be skinny #like. #honestly moving away from those spaces and being friends with and following people that experience fatphobia #has heloed me in soooo many ways to just like accept myself a bit more and also realize the enormous damage #that fatphobia does to us through media and social media like #im honestly just ranting rn but god im so mad #I saw like One Too Many posts like that but didn't wanna jump on being annoying so i made my own posr #im sorry for anyone going through it rn being stuck in proana or fitblr whatever hell #because like it wont make it better. it will feel like your only escape because People in your life wont understand #but it will just continue to pull you in until nothing else or no-one else mkes sense #and that is Not Good or okay and yeah #talk to someone outside of this site about this please #don't argue with others talking about their own experiences that you cant relate to because if you somehow #like #see that as an attack on you personally #thats a problem...you need to address that.

[lilyliveredlittlerichboy]

blocked someone this morning for being antisemitic on my antisemitism post. i don't have time to argue with people who are hell bent on misunderstanding me right from the start

#on that note. #do you ever see someone in an online argument and they're just so stubbornly incapable of taking anything the other person says on board #cus i do and im just like. just stop. just stop!!! #what are you trying to accomplish here??? #having a civil debate where you genuinely want to understand and respond to the other person's arguments is one thing #but soooo many ppl online just want to be right and use anything and everything to justify why they're right #and don't want to listen or understand anything at all #those people are a complete waste of time and energy #and im getting much better now at recognising them #and blocking them before they can ever really start having an argument with me #don't care. didn't ask. fuck off #i need a tag for my own rambles

[crown-ov-horns]

Reasons why I motivate myself to work on my Good Omens fanfictions:

So I can take a certain hyper popular ship everyone loves, but I despise, and tear it apart, smash it with a hammer, and set it on fire for my own entertainment. 😊 It's not like someone will do it for me.

I would say because Lady!Crowley deserves more love, but horrific things happen to her, so, I'd be a hypocrite (spoiler alert, she's fine in the end).

Anathema and Newt's family keep a raccoon named Shovels, that they dye black, and pretend is a cat.

I have four ideas put down, so far. One's an actual detective story. Two of them are crossovers with... Legion, of all things (one came to me in a dream). All involve my Antichrist OC, who wasn't supposed to have anything to do with the GO universe, until I had that damn dream.

Another motivatior - so I can work with Maxine (the Antichrist OC) more. After a long consideration, I decided to pair her up with War (in non-crossovers, in those she's with Michael), which is problematic because they're cousins (War's mother is Satan's sister)... You know, whatever. Nobody from Earth knows. It isn't anything uncommon for royalty, either. 🤣 Besides, they're both women (offspring from donors, so no biological threats), and they didn't grow up together. I just... I adore my Antichrists. They're everything to me. Max, forgive me for getting you involved in this madness of an universe, the fanfiction gods compelled me.

Honestly, my other OCs, too. Max's best friend, Cthylla (daughter of Dagon, and... You can guess. He has a habit of oversleeping), her cat Squid, Madonna Maria (a literal jackal with vile temper and a fondness for whiskey, Maxine's biological mother;), Titan the Hellhound, Agnes Device-Pulsifer, Francisco Rossi (the Second Beast, who loathes Aziraphale even more than I do, for absollutely no reason)...

Off with Pollution, Pestilence is being reinstated to his rightful place.

I'm eager to work with canon characters like War, Michael (Legion and GO version), and Hastur - all of who, I adore

I am kind of a hater in this fandom. In the end, I've realized, fanfiction must be written for oneself, not the fandom. I will not apologize for doing what I want, with characters (and their genders) in a fic. Nor for heavily focusing on my OCs (even making them the main focus - it's something that I love doing).

The only thing I do feel some guilt for? I remember Neil Gaiman saying he likes stories where women saves themselves, which I completely agree with, yet Lady Crowley gets saved by others, most of the times... I guess, she's just in situations nobody could save themselves from. Now, her healing is another can of worms maybe that could be counted as her saving herself).

Oh... I hope no one who reads this took it as me attacking them, or mocking them, for liking what I don't. I kind of sounded like someone's evil grandma, threatening to throw their favorite toys in the trash can. 🤣 I'm just writing down my thoughts in an edgy manner. Think of this as a literal angsty, but hopeful diary page.

When I said I'm a "hater", I meant I personally have a very odd, unconventional relationship with Good Omens and it's characters. It's a... "I don't like how you're portraying biblical mythology, but I will always love you". I love Neil Gaiman. I don't know anyone im the fandom anymore, but I all the hearts to them, too. I'm just the designated class contrarian. My stories, like all fanfiction, are seperate universes from canon (and I mean no disrespect to it; the fanfiction wouldn't be here if canon wasn't).

Why do I keep hurting Crowley? I don't know, my relationship with the character is very complicated also. I find him annoying, but I named my stuffed snake after him. 🐍

Why did I write this down and post it? Because I've noticed I'm more likely to get something done after I get on a barrel, and anounce I will. These stories are so fun to write... Fine, that was kind of a lie. I'm picking at Ch. 1 of the dream storyline, and it makes me want to cry.

P.S. - I didn't see season 2, and I have no intention to (though my mom is badgering me to watch it; she's also scolding me for hurting Crowley).

#diary pages #story ideas #good omens #legion #good omens fanfiction #good omens fandom #maxine frost #female!crowley #lady crowley #war #archangel michael #hastur #i don't hate the ahip because it's popular i hate it becauss...I hate it. it being popular just causes the christmas music effect #self motivation #seriously no hate to anyone I'm just making myself entertainment in my own egdy way #it all started from a dream and I took that as a sign #but I'm hesistant to work on it because it's so heavy #it deals with dv implied sa and other topics that affect me very badly #but it's one of the stories where crowley saves herself in the end #aziraphale i don't portray in a good light because I don't like him (i couldn't tell you why) #gabriel though he is fucking DESPICABLE (he's the one who hurts Crowley btw) #archangel michael x the antichrist #crowley ends up with hastur most of the time... he never intends on falling for her but ends up at the wrong place at the wrong time #i'm giving satan a different faceclaim than benedic cu-... I'll refrain from attempting to spell it #in the crossovers adam doesn't exists in the non-crossovers he and maxine are biologically half-siblings #he doesn't partake in divine nonsense anymore because he's disowned by Satan but he and Maxine have a relationship - he makes an appearannce #max doesn't want the apocalypse either but goes about it differently - i guess playing the family mediator made her a perfct diplomat #maxine x michael #maxine x war #max is a rrising star politician and cthylla revoliutionized hell with demomic magic run technology

[archersartcorner]

Norman&Skip portraits using lasso fill! Mister space man… space me a man LMAO

And some additional doodles of these two I haven’t posted yet!

#my art #described #dimension 20 #a starstruck odyssey #norman takamori #skip takamori #you can tell those doodles are from a bit ago cus it’s pre me deciding that I rly liked when ppl drew norm with a mullet and doing that in- #-my own art LMAO #how did Skip get hurt? who knows exactly. Norman was very protective of him while he was recovering. he’s upset because he just wants to be- #-back with Norman in his body but they told him he’s gotta wait till the bandages are ready to come off. and that’s just NOT FAIR!!!!! #so WHAT if one of the bandages comes off and gets lost in Norman’s gray matter. come ONNNNNNNNN #(he does understand why he’s being told he’s gotta wait. still doesn’t make it sucks any less tho!!!!) #so a lot of Skip being angry and upset and the rest of the crew having to get Norman to calm him down. just letting Skip know he’s there. #*Skip voice* ‘as soon as these bandages come off it is on SIGHT. goin STRAIGHT into your brain Norman!!!!!!’ #‘mhm I hear you Skip. you know you can’t actually see tho.’ ‘how. dare you.’ WHDVDJS #skipperskip

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

collaborated with @poppies-for-thirteen and made a video of their collage poem

cw for flashing images and glitchy sound and visual effects

#LOVED doing this #was super fun #loved how it was all back and forth the whole way #my favourite parts are #the sequence from 0:03-0:05 #'i wish i never told anyone' under 13 with her watch and yaz with the coin. each with their own secrets bc theyre too much alike <3 #'you cant say your wish out loud' and 13 quietly begging to be given a reason to stay a bit longer #the heartbeat. at some points especially it makes really nice transitions where text fades out on it or the image cuts #or when 13 is on the sofa in 11x1 vs on the floor in 12x10 #the entire sequence after yaz says 'i'd rather not have met her cus' and then it's like a slideshow of their greatest hits/reasons why #0:28-0:33 'can we just live in the present' 13 in yazs apartment looking at rOTTING GARBAGE THAT HASNT BEEN DISPOSED OF PROPERLY #yaz looking at her all hearteyes bc she doesnt mind living in this present for a bit either #'somewhere i can never find it' with 13 being bad at hiding secrets like yaz can see all the secrets in plain sight but she doesnt get to #know what they are. 'somewhere i can never find it' o's hut with all the files. something something hidden in plain sight again #'a life i never knew' with ruth and 13 driving up to fake life lighthouse and then it's yaz in her old job and yaz in her timestorm au #the life they never knew being like. both literally and also roads not taken. what if yaz had never met the doctor. #what if the doctor could have a normal stationary life. lives they havent known #'i want to fix myself' with 13 looking Like That at tesla makes me want to CRY #plus then yaz of course for double points #'i wish this would go on forever' + 13 counting endless days on the wall #'i want to forgive myself' with 13 saying 'im just a traveller' like.... babe <3 im gonna scream #i know i made it. still #that one distorted shot of 13 falling bleeding through the shot from the end of arachnids where theyre about to pull the lever together #and yaz looking up at 'i want to tell you everything' and the letters all wobbling like that #i acknowledge that this is most of the video that is my favourite part #but it's a good video i like it :) #okay im logging off now for real. had to do this video real quick but now im gonna go touch grass. see you later

[altruistic-meme]

biting and chewing an gnawing >:((((((((

#what do you MEAN #this fic :(((( #im so sad :(((((((((( #i was enjoying it but now it's taken an interesting turn #that would probably be more find if i had READ beast yet #but i haven't :(((( #and at the start of the fic they mentioned how you would need to have read fifteen #which i also havent done but I've seen the episodes and i think this fic came out before that season did #but they didn't mention beast at all and if i had known that i would need that knowledge going in i would've waited until i HAD read it #im so sad #cus i don't really want to keep reading now :(( cus i can deal with some picking-up-as-i-go but #what they said in the end note sounds like........ much more than I'll be able to just parse out on my own ;;;; #sigh #i guess I'll set it aside for now #i don't even own beast yet so i can't even just go ahead and read it now :/ #shh ac

[nerdie-faerie]

Having a big family is too expensive. Where am I supposed to find the money for my brother's 20th, my cousin's 21st and graduation, my twin cousins turning 23, my other cousin turning 26 and having a baby all this month!! 😭

#Demon Spawn #+Extra #theres too much going on! and my mum doesnt tell me everything at once so i think i only have one purchase to worry about #and then she hits me with another one!! did you remember this? did you remember that? no i was still dealing with the last one #im sorry but siblings are prioritised then i gotta sort out my own sht if i can then afford all these other peoples things #when i dont even speak to them! then sure maybe ill get around to it but theyve all got more extravagant preferences which i cant afford 😅 #most of them still live at home and dont pay rent let alone tuition i cant afford their expectations and having 4 cousin birthdays #in a month is ridiculous have you seen the price of postage? and you wanna add in graduations and a baby into it??? #i probably sound like im btching about nothing to people who have a good relationship with their cousins but i never see them and even #when i do we dont talk its super awkward and we have nothing in common yet i gotta go spend money i dont have all at once on them #and i cant even say sht cus my mum arranged a 21st for me that i didnt want so they did end up getting me stuff #god i sound like such btch i just dont know these people and its stressful trying to get presents as is but so many occasions at once when #i have no clue is stressing me out right now its not that i dont want to celebrate its the sudden expenditure and the fact its not spread #out and that theres so many cus i already got 8 siblings and my mum is one of 5 and my cousins are getting older so theyre going through #milestones that require gifts too at the same time as their birthday

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

how did u get to where u are now??? like I mean how did u get to a point where you have this au/headcanon thing and You get asks about it??and stuff?? just starting up my own blog and I need THE TIPS 🙃

I wish there was like a quick and easy guide I could give you but the secret is I have 0 idea, it’s mostly luck. My FNaF interpretation has literally been forming in my brain since 2014 it’s almost a decade in the making.

My main advice is just make sure you’re having fun with it. I really wasn’t expecting this much engagement, my goal was to have an outlet for all my thoughts about the silly robot bear game franchise. I’m just lucky it reached people who like it.

#you’ve GOTTA have fun with it Cus it’s complete chance whether or not it’ll hit the people you want it to hit #but if you’re having fun it won’t really matter #there is no tumblr algorithm so there’s no way to game the system #i wish you luck 🫡 #for coming up with your own interpretation my advice is literally just rotate it in your head #maybe bounce ideas of a couple friends if they’re down for that #asks #anon