#cos this could deffo happen

[zymogenn]

Chimney: That shirt looks great, Eddie.

Eddie: Thanks.

Chimney: But I bet it would look even better on Buck's floor.

Buck: Are you hitting on Eddie... for me?

#911 incorrect quotes #make this canon pls #cos this could deffo happen #911 on abc #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #chimney han #911 abc #911 season 7 #911

[slut4msby]

don't fuck your co-workers. kuroo tetsurō x fem!reader

+ tags & warnings; heavily suggestive, implied smut, use of the word "slut" like once & reader deffo sleeps around

+ a/n; listen to the title guys, don't fuck ur co-workers pls its not good and this does include dating, it's BAD (been there done that). also this is my longest one-shot yet (wc; 1544) AND first none inarizaki one-shot I AM A CHANGED WOMAN

Don’t fuck your co-workers.

That is the one unspoken rule of the workplace, right? It ruins the dynamic and adds unneeded tension to an already dreaded environment. But what if having sex with your coworkers is the only way to make it to the top. You were smart, you knew that. But more than your brains you had the looks. And even more dangerous, you knew how to use them. Use them to your advantage. Low of you? Maybe. Did it work? Yes. 

You can’t help but let out a sigh at the emails sitting in front of you. Who knew having a job meant you would actually have to do work. Maybe becoming a sugar baby would have been the easier option. As the music plays throughout your headphones, trying to find some motivation to respond to the endless company emails that sit in front of you. Maybe you should just walk out now and marry rich. 

“L/N-san? Are you good?” Your coworker says as he walks past your desk.

Your head darts up, looking at the handsome figure in front of you. Kuroo Tetsurō. One of the men in the building you have yet to sleep with. Kuroo was seen as higher than you in the business, so maybe getting in bed with him would give you a better chance at being the business woman you had dreamt of. 

“Earth to L/N?” Kuroo says again, this time waving his hand to get your attention.

Crap. You had zoned out. You nod your head in response. Kuroo peered down at you with confusion. “Actually, Kuroo-san, can you give me a hand responding to this email? I am unsure what they are asking…” you manage to spit out.

“Oh sure, L/N.” He walks next to you, leaning down looking at your monitor. It was an email from a random sports team. Even Kuroo could agree this email was confusing. As he read the words on the screen, you turned to look at him. He looked hot whilst concentrating. Actually, he had always been hot. But one step at a time, right? 

“Oh I see what they are asking now.” Kuroo then goes on to explain the email and how he would respond. You couldn’t help but look at him through your eyelashes. Maybe you were having too much fun sleeping around in the office. Call it what you want, but it gave you some fun and it was efficient. Almost all of the men fell under your control, all of them but Kuroo Tetsurō.

 You could tell Kuroo was paying attention to what you were doing, and he couldn’t deny his attraction to you. Ever since you were hired. Starting off as the pretty secretary all the men would flirt with on their way in. Leaving you coffee and treats each morning. All of the men but Kuroo, who tried to show zero interest in you. Keeping your relationship strictly professional. It wasn’t because he did want anything to do with you. He wanted everything to do with you. However when you had first walked in the building Kuroo was seeing someone, a lady who would often pop in. She was beautiful, sweet and funny. Everyone loved her. However, you started seeing her less. And eventually not at all. Of course this was strange, you happened to ask Kuroo one morning when he walked in when he casually mentioned their breakup. It was sad, but also gave you an opening. You know you should listen to girl code or whatever, but he was too good to miss out on. Maybe your morals weren’t there, but fuck morals. 

“Ah! I get it now, thanks Kuroo-san.” You say shyly, maybe he liked the more innocent approach? “I’ll finish it off now.” You smile.

“No worries, L/N san.” He responded, “If you need anything else I’ll be in my office.”

Good to know.

You looked at him once again, with an innocent look in your eyes. This worked on everyone else in the building. Why not him? The day continued as you answered emails, all your coworkers leaving the building as the sun went down.

“Bye Y/N!” Your coworker Rin said as he walked past. Now it was just you and Kuroo. After your encounter today you were determined to get something out of him. At this point it didn’t mater if fucking Kuroo lead to a promotion or not. It was more like your personal mission, the only thing to satisfy you. Was it a sexual fantasy? Essentially. I mean Kuroo was toned, he had dark hair and dark eyes. Kuroo exerted a mysterious and intriguing vibe. But on top of that Kuroo was funny, smart, cunning, and powerful. He wasn’t head of the JVA but he was high enough where if you convinced him to put in a good word your business woman fantasy would become more than true. 

You got up from your desk, adjusting your skirt and fiddling with the buttons of your shirt. Each step brings you closer to Kuroo as you knock on the door to his office. “Kuroo-san? Are you still here?” You ask softly, as you slowly open the door you see Kuroo sitting in his seat. His laptop closed. 

“Oh hey L/N-san did you need something? I was just getting ready to go home.” Kuroo replies, staring at you. Staring at you. If he didn’t know any better he would have eaten you alive. Your hair now slightly dishevelled, your blouse slightly unbuttoned leaving your lacy bra and cleavage on display, your skirt hugging your hips perfectly, and the thigh high boots making your legs look ever so sexy. Kuroo swears you didn’t look like this last time he saw you. He had heard rumours of your escapades, seeing you know he didn’t blame the men you toyed with. If he could, he would take you right here right now.

“Oh, I just kinda felt scared and lonely by myself. Pathetic to admit I know…” You admit with a very vulnerable tone. It wasn’t a lie, you were lonely and a little scared. You slowly start walking over to Kuroo’s desk, he slowly gets up and walks towards you closing the gap. “Kuroo-san? Why do you keep calling me L/N-san? You refer to everyone else by their first name? Everyone else refers to me by my first name…”

Kuroo knew the reason. It was so he formed no unneeded attachment to you. He already felt attached. For why? He will never know, since the day he met you even being in a relationship he wanted you. Maybe that was part of the reason Kuroo had broken up with his partner, but who knows? Anyone would be naive to deny the sexual tension between you and Kuroo. Maybe it was finally his time to strike? 

“Well why do you call me Kuroo-san, y/n.” He says his hand now on your face, tilting your head up to look up at him. God he looked good. “You call everyone else their first name.”

“I-I don’t know Ku-Tetsurō.” You can’t help but stutter. You were usually the dominant one but something about him made you weak. He had full control over you right now, and you enjoyed it. You know if someone walked in it would be over. You had fucked multiple co-workers before, never in the office. You weren't sure if Kuroo wanted you like that, right here and right now.

“You know, Y/N I have never been the biggest fan of my name… Yet it sounds so pretty when you say it, princess.” He says moving his face closer to yours. God that nickname made you have butterflies, made you want to give him everything right now. 

“Tetsu-” Kuroo cuts you off.

“But I am not going to act dumb with you right now, sweetheart. I know what you have been up to. I know about Rin, Haru, Emori, Yuto, etcetera. About you being the office slut.” He says into your ear softly. “Don’t think I am like one of them Y/N.”

You weakly nod.

“And you know this is wrong?” Kuroo asks.

Another nod comes out as you look up at him with doe-like eyes.

“So, why do you continue?” Kuroo questions.

“I wanted none of them, none of them satisfied me, Tetsurō.” You weakly admit.

“And you think I can do that?” Kuroo responds.

“I know you can, Tetsurō.” 

Kuroo began kissing up your neck, your arms wrapped around his. He slowly lifted you up, your legs wrapped around his waist. The kiss now moving to your lips, desperate. You both knew how long you wanted this, since the day you sat down as a secretary. It was even better than he could imagine, your lips soft and tender. You tasted like the watermelon lip balm he would watch you apply. Wishing it was him touching these lips instead.

It was wrong, oh so wrong.

“Tetsu- I need more than this.” You whine, pulling away for some air.

“I know, princess. Why don’t you pack up and we can go home, hm?” 

An offer you couldn’t refuse.

Lets just say, you got that promotion and so much more.

©slut4msby

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[bellewintersroe]

another idea,for the nurse headcanon is if the reader gets hurt and the guys reaction to that

oooo I love this so much! Thank you so much for the request and idea!! <3 so I could easily write drabbles off these, so if anybody wants anything more/ any more guys let me know! Tw - mentions of injury, ptsd, swearing…

Easy reaction to their nurse getting hurt:

Shifty Powers:

Shifty is a shaking mess omfg.

when he sees you getting hit whilst in Carentan he’s gasping and staring with wide eyes.

he’d definitely run out to retrieve you, and the whole time he feels like his hearts gonna explode or his knees are gonna give way.

poor Shifty takes it so badly, he can’t even get his words out.

when he’d get to you he was expecting the worse, feeling sick as the other men sprinted over to help. He’s sooooo relieved when he sees you awake and it was just a bullet graze that knocked you to the ground.

when you’re up on your feet 5 minutes later he’s holding your arm and chasing after you, “woah, you sure you’re okay? Took a nasty blow to the head there…”

Watches you with puppy eyes the whole time, and probably couldn’t keep them off you for days after that.

he genuinely saw your life and his life flash before his eyes and the poor guy has a lot of trauma afterwards when it comes to overthinking the ‘what if’s’.

luckily you’re fine and just call yourself a ‘lucky son of a bitch’ which doesn’t make sense cos ur a girl but Shifty doesn’t point that out- he’s just glad you’re okay. Carwood Lipton:

I think it would come somewhere around Foy, and it’s due to Dike’s mistakes.

His eyes are wide and watching you as you’re simply following orders by running out to treat the men on the field.

When his eyes flash back to you, and then back to the enemy lines, he puts two and two together and attempts to yell out your name and a strong demand of “move! Move! Move!” But it’s cut short when an artillery shell hits nearby where you are.

“Shit!” Lip would be sprinting towards you quicker than he knows what’s happened. He doesn’t hesitate. There’s a thick cloud of smoke and snow concealing the casualty, but when he sees you knocked to the ground a seething pain hits him sharp in his chest.

he’d mutter your name in the saddest little time and drop down to his knees besides you.

“Shit, Lip, I’m fine…” you’d groan as he’d sigh out in relief, watching you pull yourself upright. He’d keep his hands on you at all time, staring directly into your eyes so he can check for all the signs and systems of anything more serious.

“Didn’t expect tha’…” you’d add on breathlessly as a couple of men would chuckle in relief when you’re pulled back onto your feet.

For the whole evening after that Lip is constantly like, “but are you sure you’re okay?” He’s so attentive and caring, he can’t leave you on your own, so the second it’s just you two he’s pulling you into the biggest bear hug ever.

feels a little bad when he catches some of your bruises from your fall earlier, but he’d quickly apologise and cup your face so gentle sisoekrkxkekskkskskskngjgiei this man is so soft I can’t.

Joe Liebgott:

Let’s say you get a bullet to your arm/ shoulder. There’s no extensive bleeding and Gene manages to get the bullet out and wrap you up nicely. You’ve had a lucky escape.

but the minute you walk over to Liebgott with a blood stained shoulder he almost chokes on his food.

“what happened?! Tell me what happened?!” He’s panicked as soon as he runs over. You’re in front of all the other guys so he can’t make it obvious how truly concerned he is.

“m’ fine Joe, just was in the wrong place at the wrong time, got a fragment of a bullet in my shoulder.” Joe’s all like WHAT?! And nobody went to get him?! Wtf, he goes a little crazy at first.

deffo takes it out on the enemy, but by that evening you’re giggling and laughing away with the other medics and nurses, you’re not in condition to work, so you’re resting in one of the beds.

Joe wouldn’t say much, he’d come sneaking in and crawl into your bed, cuddling up to you and pressing kisses to your uninjured arm. “You are so stupid, baby, next time somethin’ happens, come get me yeah?”

its actually quite lighthearted, Joe’s just relieved to see you smiling and healthy. But he still despises the krauts, now they’ve hurt his girl he’s in revenge mode oh my goddddddd.

wouldn't tell you this but every bullet he fires the next day he’d doing it for the sake of you. Kinda angry, but he gets over it, just needs all softening up again with your company.

Babe Heffron:

It happens in Bastogne, after the death of Julian. Just when Babe thinks he’s finally healing again, you get blown back by the impact of an artillery blow deep in the forest.

He thinks he’s the only person that’s seen it, his face drops and his stomach churns, he can barely scramble fast enough of the foxhole, swearing and cursing as he’s scrambling past gunshots and explosions to get to you.

he won’t let anybody else hound you (apart from a medic ofc) he’s cradling you close, staring at you wide eyed.

thankfully it’s not as bad as it looked, you had a narrow escape and took quite a few tree splinters into your arm and neck, but you’re ok.

He’d be pacing back and fourth in the make shift aid station in the town of Bastogne. He’s there literally whenever he can, and when you’re sleeping he watches to make sure you’re breathing at all times.

I think this moment makes him realises he feels more deeply for you than he has any other woman. It’s his turn to take care of you now, and Babe is literally your guardian Angel.

seriously he’d be so gentle and attentive, he’d lost so many good friends out here to injury or death, now, he can’t think of anything worse happening than you not being around.

when you’re awake he’s like; “Jfc I thought you were dead on me. God, don’t you do that again, I almost had a heart attack, christ.”

then he’d probably accidentally slip it in like, “I still gotta’ whole lot to show you when we get home.” Eugene Roe:

Being one of the company’s medics, Gene feels sick to the stomach when he sees you limping towards him, knee bleeding and trousers ripped.

he’s stunned, frozen for a second before he practically pounces up towards you. A nurse couldn’t be hurt? Oh shit oh shit, has you been shot? Had you been attacked when you were running out to save a man that he should’ve seen before?!

Before Gene can speak, you can see the worry written across his expression.

“Relax, Gene, I’m fine. I just tripped over my stupid two left feet.” Oh. Oh!

a relief like no other washes over Eugene, but he’s still worried about your knee.

“Let me patch you up, yeah?”

He wraps your knee up so carefully, cleaning the bleeding graze on your knee. His touch is gentle, and I think as a nurse you’d understand why he’s such an amazing medic with a touch as soft as his.

Oh, Gene would have the most softest gaze when he watches you spring back up to your feet. He’s amazed by your determination to carry on no matter what, and he’s just soooo thankful you weren’t hurt anymore.

blushes when you compliment his medical abilities.

helps you off the bed, opens all the doors for you, and gives you whatever supplies you’re short on without letting you know how short he is too on them. A truly selfless man.

James ‘Moe’ Alley:

Whilst running across the snowy field of Foy, you get caught in the chaos of Dike’s dismantled leadership and accidentally get pinned down by enemy gunfire.

you’re so tiny and nimble, clearly helping men on the field- how the fuck did they make that mistake?

James is trapped nearby, unable to move due to enemy gunfire. His heart stops beating and face drops when he sees your lack of movement. You drop to the floor like a sack of potato’s and he’s yelling out instantly for somebody to get you.

the other men have to physically strain him from running to you. When Speirs thankfully takes over, your well-being is prioritised and you’re rescued, and dragged off the line within and instant. You’re bleeding badly from the leg, but it’s not in the thigh, and it’s missed the main artery in the leg.

as a nurse you’re very aware of this.

anyway, Moe breaks free from the other guys grasps and he’s panting out loud, feeling like he’s gonna throw up when he drops the floor above you.

he’s panicked and shaking, crying and grabbing your arms to sit you up, out of the wetness of the snow below.

“You’re okay, you’re okay, baby. Are you ok?”

can’t stand seeing you in pain, he’s so traumatised and would do anything to take it from you. When the other medics and nurses are working on you, patching you up and removing the bullet he’s hovering around like a worried child.

He cant stand the sounds of your cries and the other people have to push him to one side until you’re all cleaned up and fixed. The gun shot isn’t as bad as what it looked, it was just soooo frickin painful to dig out of your flesh.

Once you’re patched up Alley comes sprinting in, pausing over you as you’d gently smile in his direction. “I’m ok, Moe. Just a flesh wound. Hurt like a bitch.”

he’s throwing himself on your upper body, kissing your face and trying his best not to break down.

he’s a sensitive boy and it deeply effects him when he sees you getting hit.

Lewis Nixon:

Ok I feel like in this scenario when you’re hurt it’s not something you can walk off right away. You’d get taken off the lines to recover and everything.

I don’t think Nix would find out until afterwards. Let’s say the Aid station got bombed and you were in there, he’d be given the news that you’ve been taken off the lines due to a bad injury and he’s like “oh my fucking god.”

Feels like his world has crashed down on him, he’s used to men getting injured, not women, not a nurse, most of all, not you.

he can’t sleep that night, he’s not allowed to see you, he has no other news, so he takes it upon himself to rebel and go see you. He can’t live unless he knows you’re okay.

I truly think Nix would be deeply effected by this, he’s super saddened and when he gets there to see you resting, all bandaged up and pale in the face, he’s falling onto his knees by your bedside, hugging you ever so gently and telling any other people in there to leave the two of you alone.

months later, you’re okay and return to the line and start working as a nurse again. Nixon takes it upon himself to make you laugh everyday, and most importantly he’d ensure you don’t overwork yourself. He’s so worried about you getting wounded again, the thought makes him feel physically sick.

#Band of brothers x reader #band of brothers x nurse reader #Band of brothers headcannons #Lewis Nixon #babe heffron #eugene roe #james moe alley #shifty powers #joe liebgott

[hayleysayshay]

Okay DnD movie thoughts!!! I loved it a lot and it’s a shame it’s not going to make its money back it seems, I would love a sequel with the same cast of characters.

This contains spoilers!!!

— I thought three cast were great! I think Michelle Rodriguez was a standout as Holga and so was Rege Jean Page as Xenx despite the more limited screen time. But the whole cast was great, Chris Pine has a lot of charm. I think Justice Smith’s accent was very good.

— Hugh Grant was very Hugh Grant and it was great

— the film was very sincere and I loved that. It was funny but very corny ina good way.

— it was pretty funny at times! Some of it was just the snarky ‘well that happened hur hut’ humour that isn’t great but there were some good set pieces.

— I loved how DnD it felt. I could just imagine a player going ‘my character loves potatoes’ as their character quirk they role play all the time and those moments really worked for me. I can just imagine people coming up with the plan around a table.

— I liked the plot construction. For example Xenx makes Edgin promise to give the treasure to the people and he does in a way that serves his character arc but also serves the plot and helps them defeat the bad guy! I just thought was really neat how the plot unfolded the way it did.

— I thought Doric was the weakest character. Like she didn’t have much to do? They obvs realised she didn’t have much conflict and gave her some tiefling angst but it wasn’t angsty enough. Maybe she could have felt out of place with the elves though they loved her and the team stand up for her and they feel like a group of people that accept her would have been a bit more than what she got? She just hates humans then goes they’re okay at the end just because she worked in a team. I just wanted a window in her personal world.

— I also think Doric should have been infernal red. I understand not wanting any odd races in the main cast due the risk of not being able to take it seriously but they could have painted Sophie Lillie red. I have seen Critical Role cos play, it could have been done fairly naturalistic. It would make the team look less samey. They also don’t explain what a tiefling is? Sophie Lillie looks adorable it’s really not clear why her parents would have cast her out unless you know DnD lore. Her being red would make it more obvious.

— I like it’s implied that Helga’s husband is just really into tall buff women and that Helga is really into halflings

— Damn it I got emotional at the end when Holga died and they do a flashback of her raising Kira I was like damn you got me movie you got me

It’s deffo like 4/5 for me I had a lot of fun. If Doric was better it could be a 5 but sadly not.

#dnd movie #dungeons and dragons honor among thieves #dungeons and dragons: honour among thieves #dnd movie spoilers #dungeons and dragons movie spoilers

[alwaysvivid]

I say cece revenge arc - like one way or another j****** gets a taste of his own medicine. maybe fans are starting to ship her and another co-worker to the point where they're seen as an "ideal couple"; they're paired together for modelling shoots/variety shows/ as the main couple in a drama so they eventually start to entertain that idea and unintentionally actually fall in love

best of all 'he' can't do anything but be jealous and watch on because sm has forced him into a fake relationship and now everyone is keeping an eye on him so he has to helplessly watch 'his' cece being taken away from him (hopefully for good)

✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 𝐤𝐚𝐫𝐚™ 𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔

i agree cece needs a big fuck you moment and a way to get over him. i really want her to like get with an nct member for revenge but i also know cece isn’t like that. idk what will happen but all i know is she NEEDS TO BE SINGLE !!!!!! until she learns how to be by herself she’s gonna stay in these toxic relationships. the it couple thing could happen since @venusvity and i spoke about possibly making a fic we got married and cece would deffos fall in love with whoever she fake marries thus making jaehyun jealous.

#✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 𝐤𝐚𝐫𝐚™ 𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔 #cece storyline is still up in the air but we do have a couple ideas at least

[draconixiaa]

tired but i'll do a bit of this (will be a bit rambly:D)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

24,, wow not bad

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

165.5k wow thats a lot,, most of it comes from one tho; everything else are shortfics

3. What fandoms do you write for?

DSMP and ive just started a bit of genshin at the behest of my Tartaglia-obsessed irl and he's kinda cool but like for 95% of my other fics its all cdream ahahahhh(dies)

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

"Consequences" tops the charts obviously bc its my one and only longfic and it was written during the peak of dsmp and man id link it bc i love my storyline (cdream obviously gets messed up in prison but then gets a healing arc) there but at the same time i feel like the writing had too many grammar mistakes and could be better so nahh

"North Star to Freedom" is one im actually really proud of, like obviously the writing could be better bc ive improved, but i just like it and id deffo rewrite it too if i had time or steal it into an original fic (premise is that cdream escapes prison with the rebibe book and oh lord my lingo anyways (spoilers) he dies and he gives techno book)

"Persevere" is third, wow that's a long time ago, its alright, i like it in general, but it feels almost cheesy. idk. i like it, but i dont like it. its not mixed feelings, but eh. anyways, something about cdream getting captured by the egg which is about to take over the world but he sacrifices himself to cleanse it. the most acute thing i rember about it is that its a 3parter

"Coup de Grace" ok wth i didnt expect this to be on there it was a small little cdream suffering in prison and cphil comes over, sees him in pain, and cough relieves him of it, and i dont like the writing in a specific part of it, but i like it in some other parts, so eh

"turn the claret tides" whoops i forgot what this one was about ok i glanced through the doc its ctechno getting cdream out of prison wow that title was really vague but he gets the letter and things went on.. it was inspired by another fic and happened during the hype of the prison arc which is kinda cool

(man im looking at the amount of fics i want to rewrite but it aint happening sadge)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Sometimes, most of the times nowadays, if it particularly made my day or it has something deep and insightful or literally makes any observation on my fic. sometimes im just too tired to answer,, maybe laziness is a part of it too, but i stare and its like,, i cant generate a response . but nowadays, i do it most of the times bc i appreciate my commenters :D

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

my recent fics mostly have happy endings, but all my pre-like, mid 2023 fics were all sad sad sad. they all ended in cdream dying, one way or the other. so idk which ones the saddest now its been too long,, the one i personally think is the saddest is one that i like, was listening to sad music to, the song being 'sociopath,' an orchestral piece (or was it piano?)

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

consequences

8. Do you get hate on your fic?

once on consequences bc that was max cdream apologists vs inniters era

9. Do you write smut?

nop never ever ever

10. Do you write crossovers?

dream + tartaglia is one i wrote in fudging october that i am still trying to find time to continue

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

prob not, if there is, then i wouldnt know of it

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope, if there was, i also dont know of it

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

wow thats crazy that i havent, but idk, teamwork and coordination just go meh when i only share my interests with online people

14. What‘s your all-time favorite ship?

idk i dont do ships but my fav friendship is dream + techno or dream + punz

15. What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

all my chapter continuations except the tartaglia + dream one i Need to finish that. but also the palace of stone idea will Never Ever get written

16. What’s your writing strengths?

descriptions idk they go lengthy but ive practiced with them a lot so ive gotten kinda good

17. What’s your writing weaknesses?

dialogue, pacing, idk literally everything, i can prob improve on anything and every aspect of my writing rn, and i just need to practice more

19. First fandom you wrote for?

DSMP lmao

20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

consequences i love the storyline + ending of that one even if the writing couldve been better

uhh tagging? idk if theres anyone that doesnt overlap wiht people whove been tagged b4 les see: @milktearosethorn , @victoriacoffee , ,, oh theres only two ok well, have fun if u decide to do this!

#drac thinks #and im so sleepy and tired today was busyyyy

[punkscowardschampions]

Jali pt.2

Johnny: [me like tbf my brother went through a weird stage of pissing in bottles so he could do that, not helpful if you need to go poo though, anyway, enough of me calling Matty out, he’ll be here doing big strokes of her hair how he always does and hence deffo was then, nodding his yeah it was cosy because it was, and then resting his chin on the top of her head for a beat, not saying anything because he wants her to listen to how remembering made his heartbeat, doing a big breath like a sigh when she shrugs because you wish too, telling her quietly how much this dodgy job he mentioned earlier is gonna pay because we all know it’s a lot and will be added to what he’s already saved for them to run away, so an unspoken don’t worry we can go soon]

Ali: [like I do truly believe you could manage it without your parents knowing because they have no reason to be upstairs but your siblings? That’d be harder even if not impossible lmao ANYWAY, doing a little shiver as you’re laying here listening to his heartbeat and thinking all the thoughts you are thinking ‘how long is the job for?’]

Johnny: [mhmm she’s sneaky and smart and I have all the faith in her to be able to pull that off but it’d be game over if that bitch Rosaline found out or baze, so sadly y’all probably can’t get away with that for longer than a weekend at most, rubbing her arms and anywhere else goosebumps would/could happen when she shivers, taking his time lowkey as a stalling tactic because I’m sure this job is gonna last longer than the one he did before and he is eventually gonna tell her, I won’t commit us cos we need to decide how long we want it to be and when we want him to go off and do it]

Ali: [looking up at him as best you can even if this means shifting your positions slightly because he’s stalling and that isn’t a good sign ‘you said it was risky’ remembering because this was the start of this convo and you were preoccupied with your own drama at the time, tone giving you wouldn’t say that if it wasn’t truly risky and thus do we want you doing this]

Johnny: [‘yeah’ because he did say that and he isn’t gonna go back on it now when it’s clearly true, with a tone like and that’s why it pays so well because obviously also true and why he’s considering doing it in the first place because their desire to leave has been upped by mcvickers deciding to parent not to mention the idea that she might be pregnant rn]

Ali: [shaking your head and pushing to sit yourself up because you don’t like it ‘if it’s what you wanna do’ doing a fine shrug because he can do what he wants ‘but not because of my parents’ bullshit, because of me’ we draw a line, it’s not that serious, we can handle this]

Johnny: [shaking his own head because he doesn’t like this response ‘all my work’s ‘cause of you, you’re with me’ bringing back that phrase which he said after their first hookup deliberately for this moment with emphasis on how he’s saying it because she doesn’t get to detach herself from it and their defined roles and provider is his culturally, even as just a boyfriend and he thought she understood that at this point]

Ali: [‘No, I know that’ rubbing your forehead on the back of your hand, trying to word this to put your own point across ‘I don’t know if I want you risking yourself for this then’]

Johnny: [me imagining her getting some mud on her forehead and him wiping it off with his own hand, because they’re much less muddy, despite the seriousness of this moment ‘this is already’ because he has been taking risks from the off so what’s one more]

Ali: [smiling slightly down at this hand at this gesture, trying to wipe some of the mud on yours off onto the grass that isn’t spun up, as if y’all can distract from the seriousness at hand here with busying yourself in some way ‘it’s different’ a sort of come on tone]

Johnny: [giving her a look in which he’s trying to express that yeah it is because as far as he’s concerned the risks he has already taken are bigger and mean more than the dangers of getting hurt or in trouble with the law or whatever on this job without needing to verbalise it because she knows or should know that ‘it’s for the good’ meaning not just this job but every risk he’s taken so far]

Ali: [meeting his eyes and not saying anything for a while, really thinking and processing this as much as you can ‘okay’ trying to be very neutral in your tone because you understand his point and don’t want to give off that you don’t just because you aren’t thrilled at the prospect]

Johnny: [saying ‘you trust me’ in gypsy lingo, taking the time after to repeat the word she doesn’t know there and add ‘that’s trust’ because the gravity of the situation needing this language behind it the same way ILY did, giving her the chance to construct her own I form of that knowing what she already knows and following what I assume would be a pattern]

Ali: [nodding, close to your excessive nod but not quite that because this is a different type of !! than the usual ‘I do’ can’t bring ourselves to use the lingo but we still want to say it]

Johnny: [‘then do, like’ as if it’s that simple and she has no business being worried about him or anything but he’s running his hand through his hair how he does which gives away his own !!]

Ali: [nudging him, softly, using your knee in his side between his hip bone and ribs ‘you’re not used to it, that’s all’ meaning having a girlfriend who cares about you]

Johnny: [his hand automatically going to his hip where she did her married initials cos always aware regardless of how many clothes may be in the way at any given point, throwing out his usual catchphrase of ‘what are we to do?’ quietly and softly to mean how am I ever going to get used to it because yeah he really isn’t and doesn’t feel like he ever will be with how much she cares]

Ali: [LOOKING in a way you know she’s also thinking about those initials now and when she did them ‘stick together’ as softly, smiling up at him because truly believe as long as you do that you’ll be okay which true enough but not what we let happen, soz]

Johnny: [me here HEARTBROKEN but this boy has no way to know so he’s just here LOOKING back at her in a way that’s beyond obvious he’s turned on by the mems of when she did it as well as having it there on him now to be able to feel, PRESSING into it more than the light touch he was doing previously to really be able to feel it and be reminded of how it felt when she did it and how it feels rn in this moment, having to do a lil noise about it as soft as they both spoke but so !!]

Ali: [leaning forward, back towards him, getting close enough to properly appreciate this little noise, flinching as if it was that loud but that’s just how it is getting to you ‘don’t hurt yourself’ as you move his hand gently to look at your handiwork and to see how it looks, always in between fully opened to vaguely healed and we wanna see the sitch today]

Johnny: [‘you’re hurting me’ as he always says when he’s the most turned on he’s ever been because here and now we’re defs feeling it and need her know despite how obvious it is always, not this boy pushing her head down like take an even closer look and while you’re there kiss this better whatever state it may or may not be in, shameless and as per he does not care where they are or how likely they are to be discovered/interrupted at any given second]

Ali: [making your own soothing awh baby noise but with more sincerity than that suggests, of course you are putting your lips to this scarring and LOOKING up at him, the is that better? going unspoken but being blatant in your eyes, doing a few passes off these initials with your lips softly brushing before pressing an actual kiss down, letting your tongue poke out and taste him briefly]

Johnny: [his eyes just being the darkest as they LOOK at her with a blatant but unspoken more in them the entire time because ofc you want more no matter how much she gives you sir you’re just that sort of bear, saying her name practically as a whisper but also practically as a moan when she finally kisses him and he feels that tongue there, moving her hand, regardless of how muddy it still may be because couldn't care less if a handprint is left, so she literally has to feel the effect that is having on him as it’s happening]

Ali: [when you love his eyes the most and even moreso when they’re dark as hell like this because you know what it means and just makes him more intense than he already is, having to close your own dramatically about it, pressing your forehead into his stomach, doing a dramatic breath as you are feeling how turned on he is, not at all being shy about how you are touching him even if it is outside of his clothing it’s still too indecent for the time and place as per, here licking around each letter slowly and thoroughly, retracing your steps and reminiscing, saying your name but as it is with these initials aka with his last name, saying it to yourself more than anything but you’re killing yourself with it so it’s obvious anyway]

Johnny: [at least these neighbours are her enemy so if they saw and said anything it’s more believable they’re trying to start shit than it is that this girl is being this blatantly indecent on their lawn, y’all are welcome for that because he has likewise no chill, he’s here running his hands over her body like she’s not even wearing clothes because that’s how !! you two feel rn, GRABBING at wherever he has reached by the time she’s saying her married name out loud because ofc he heard it and of course he’s dying about it, catch him picking this girl up and throwing her into the backseat of the car he has abandoned so they at least have a tiny bit more privacy, telling her to say it again as soon as her body hits the seat and not a second later with a ‘what was that you said out there?’ all the !! in how he says it and the way he’s LOOKING at her as he asks]

Ali: [your mother would never publicly side with this fam over you, it’s fine girl, I mean it isn’t fine but the least of your worries honestly and you have none that aren’t directly related to this boy in front of you right now, it’s a good thing you’re now in this car because the unholy noise already as you’re here shifting on these seats ‘my name’ because gotta make him ask twice, of course]

Johnny: [this car is saving lives even though it cannot be overstated how immediately he asked that, literally has not even closed the car door exactly like how they never do to mcvickers’ gaff and he’s straight in her grill with that question and now with STARING at her with those dark af eyes waiting for her to tell him what her name is, touching his hip again, having pulled down whatever trousers he’s wearing enough to really do it, but not breaking the EYE CONTACT for a single sec as he traces these initials, the ‘go on’ coming out indecent as hell when it finally does, the most encouragement there could possibly be in 2 words]

Ali: [y’all love a bit of that, the appearance of more privacy but not really lol, god bless, pulling the neck of his top town to touch your name there too like I know you’ve not forgotten, breathing as shakily as your body is under him unable to keep even slightly still, would seem like you were stalling if it wasn’t clear how genuine your inability to get the words out is here and now with him LOOKING at you like that ‘isn’t that what you want too?’ just above a whisper]

Johnny: [will the car door ever be shut who can say but here and now it definitely isn’t going to be lol, no rush ever as far as y’all are concerned, hence catch this boy taking his top fully off when there is no need and it’s 100% not the weather or season for it, and then pushing his body back into her hands like she wasn’t touching it enough before, hit her with a lesson in how to say my name is in your secret lingo, indecently saying the words in both languages because that’s what he wants, we love to see it]

Ali: [GRABBING his body as roughly as you have ever, bruising his skin with all the energy you’re expending to keep the unhinged sounds/any words at all coming out of you because you need the first and only things you say here with your whole chest to be ‘my name is Ali O’Shaughnessy and my husband is Johnny O’Shaughnessy’ because you know that word too and can use it to full effect here LOOKING up at him from where you’re essentially pinned, not that you can stay still for all the trying in the world]

Johnny: [that LOOK being returned with the most intensity it ever has because he doesn’t know what to do with himself about hearing this and her once again saying it as perfectly as she has with no corrections at all needed from him, so what he decides to do when he stops short circuiting and can vaguely function is to go over his name on her chest with the key (which he has not redone since he OG did it) as closely in time to her saying it as he can but he’s inevitably slightly stalled by the fact that he doesn’t wanna ferally rip this chain from her neck and break it, meaning there’s the return of the back of the neck SQUEEZE as he undoes it, lowkey ripping some of her hair out in his haste though to find in this car later, and then whatever top she’s wearing is gonna fully be a casualty whether it’s buttons he’s completely ripping off or a neck hole getting ripped bigger or a strap getting pulled off or whatever it may be because no chill or time to waste, finally going over his name ridiculously hard and deep making this key already slippy with her blood before his gets added from his hand opening up from how he’s GRIPPING this key in both concentration and !! but if you think he’s stopping there after more indecently copying her earlier move on his hip initials to clean up at least some of this blood with his mouth you’re incorrect because he’s adding his long ass last name as well (god knows where or how that’s fitting lol) while pinning her exclusively and even more dramatically with his lower body the entire time because will have never been more turned on than in the moment she realises (and reacts to the fact) he isn’t done and is writing more and therefore what that more must be, and as a result, if either of them even dare move involuntarily he feels like he’s gonna die before this name is done properly and we can’t have that]

Ali: [me here like don’t bleed out and die, casually the longest name of all time lmao, obviously it’s more superficial than all the blood suggests so you’re not going to but it’s still going to be looking like a crime scene in this vehicle with the hair and the blood, y’all love to see it, like indecently so, good thing she is being pinned even though this would look like a violent assault if you hadn’t seen them snuggling on the ground but moments ago, the lack of control she has in every way is no joke, again, thank GOD you aren’t running after an ILY now because she’s all but screaming it in your face, the !! is so real]

Johnny: [I’m so glad you stole a vehicle that needs doing up and not the lads work one or something because imagine they’d think a murder had been committed lol, you at least had that much sense while you were capable thankfully because here in this moment he isn’t, we’re all hysterical, I can’t even spell his last name that’s how ridiculous it is so god bless you for trying to fit it on this gal’s body, kiss her the second you’re done because you both need to shh and physically cannot, hasn’t even let go of this key yet that’s how immediate we’re being with that as soon as he doesn’t need his full concentration on scarring her for life, 100000% leaving a bloody handprint on her stomach as they makeout under the mud one that’s still there though, so it’ll be getting dropped for that]

Ali: [you don’t want those kind of questions being asked, you don’t want to admit you have a girlfriend never mind a potential murder victim lol, not that any of your friends and fams heads are going there, it’d be assumed to be a fight even if a bad one, ANYWAY; like this girl will be covered entirely with your name at this point, I do not know how it’s managing to be so well hidden, in this moment though it is on full display and we’re trying to look at it whilst needing to be kissing you with our all, which is making for a sloppy and confused kiss but we regret nothing ‘you’re the only one-’ as something intelligible to his ear that isn’t just pure pleasured NOISE, not meaning you’re the only boy (although he is) but we’re thinking about how no one else cares about us how he does]

Johnny: [mhmm he has not thought through concealing this at all because in the moment we only care about the opposite which is how visible it is and how much she can feel it rn so no fucks given to the future which I love because unheard of for this stresshead, likewise moving her head to LOOK at it whilst not stopping kissing her for a single second, they’re on the same page with that, to which we can add to the chaos him also trying to nod in answer to what she said, me like please don’t give her another black eye or bloody nose or something she’s trying to keep these antics concealed as much as possible from her parenting parents]

Ali: [we’re in our fearless era, so sad this has to come to an end soon, hate it actually, focus on the now when you truly believe you’ll be away and together soon and nothing and no one can stop you two, putting your hands over his handprints on your stomach and GASPING as if this action has winded you and it’s not him and this and everything about it]

Johnny: [honestly what a time to be alive I wish y’all could stay here forever because what we do in the next era of your lives is the cruellest of us ‘what name do you want the baby to have?’ because he’s here thinking about all the ways he could put 13 children’s names on his body don’t mind him]

Ali: [I will never forgive us for our nasty nasty ways tbh, here so overwhelmed at the idea of naming this baby and the next and the next that you think is coming for y’all, shaking your head to his nod like I can’t, not right now, because will simply DIE]

Johnny: [STARING at her with the closeness of their foreheads pressed together like his dark af intense eyes giving the most eye contact possible will be able to force her to answer instead of just making it harder for her to]

Ali: [just saying his name as an instinct at this EYE CONTACT but also because you mean it, whether you understand that that’s culturally a done thing in this moment or you just want this baby to also have his name so you can say it even more often, who can say but you’re not changing your mind or answer thank you]

Johnny: [0 hesitation in maintaining this insane level of eye contact as he initiates a hookup in response to her answer because no other answer of his own is acceptable, even if he’s still so turned on by everything that’s happened he has no idea how he is going to make this last longer than the immediate first second and contact, simply must nevertheless, love that this door is very much not been closed so everyone can hear his UNHOLY noise as he does, because this is all giving the same energy as the first time he came inside her instead of pulling with how !! every physical reaction is]

Ali: [we know you’re both going to die and we’re okay with that, it’s got to be done and done exactly like this, open doors and middle of the day publicity be damned, excuse us world, at least you can speed off if anyone comes out because yeah, a scene has truly been made here, well done y’all, couldn’t be prouder]

Johnny: [me and Win both like not yet he can’t because everyone and everything but her be damned is exactly the vibe and when this is over in would be an embarrassingly quick time, if y’all cared which y’all do not, his only priority is finding that key he dropped, wiping the blood that’s drying on it against the wetness of her thigh and then touching her indecently with said key because it’s a tragedy that has never happened before and therefore here and now when she is DEAD on this backseat is the ideal moment to give her all the clitoral stimulation he could and did not during that hookup, we don’t make the rules, being so careful so that he doesn’t fuck her up with any sharp parts of this key but so deliberate in achieving his goal to kill her more]

Ali: [out here questioning ‘how can you be so gentle?’ because truly, the contrast would end you if nothing else but obviously everything else about it is so lowkey famous last words there, grip on sanity and consciousness is very loose by this point, at least you’ve never been laid more down in a hookup and there is very little room for you to go anywhere when you do pass out lol]

Johnny: [thanks for passing out girl so that he doesn’t have to answer that because your guess is as good as his how he can be gentle ever when you’re not this bitch nor are you allowed to be anywhere but here, just do some BIG hair strokes until she’s back with you]

Ali: [when you’re blinking up at him like you may have dreamed this all because obviously all your dreams are about him but I doubt however intense they may feel they can truly match up, pulling on his hair gently to pull his face down closer to you, cuddling into him tightly]

Johnny: [excuse him giving her the softest kiss he has ever which will only add to the dreamlike quality of this moment but his fingers are lightly tracing over his handiwork and even that gentle pressure will feel dramatic when his name is as freshly done as it is so that’ll ground her back in reality]

Ali: [a pained noise, as you also deepen the kiss in response, because it would undeniably hurt but that doesn’t mean you’re not into it ‘don’t forget me’ because you know you’re going to have to see him less, for however long this takes and you really can’t stand that thought, nearly shedding a tear about it but you can still touch him and feel his warmth rn so you’re not]

Johnny: [doing his own kind of pained noise at the idea he ever could, a literal non verbal equivalent of I can’t as he’s shaking his head while kissing her like his life depends on it and then eventually manoeuvring her to put this chain back around her neck because he would hate if she accidentally left it behind because of these feral antics]

Ali: [pulling away from the kiss but not far enough you’re disrupting him putting this chain back on, just forcing a pause about it ‘I don’t wanna be brave’ like he was telling you to be with this gesture, the realest and saddest pouty face you’ve ever done because when do you ever get to act like this, answer you do not, not with your family]

Johnny: [using this pause to really LOOK at her, all the feeling in his eyes because nobody gets that more than this boy does that’s his role too always and the exchange of mutual understanding is important in this moment ‘it’s one of the things I can do for you’ after that beat because he’ll be brave so she doesn’t have to]

Ali: [‘we can be sad together’ doing the half-laugh when nothing is funny but you still know how melodramatic you sound and can acknowledge it without derailing your point, because you can be, resting your head on his chest where your name is, looking positively faded in comparison to the fresh wounding of his name on yours ‘I won’t forget how this sounds’ tapping out his bpm how you always do]

Johnny: [fastening this necklace on because has to be busying himself with being helpful in a way he can because there’s a lot of ways he can’t ahead with this forced degree of separation and he hates that because he’s that sort of bear ‘forget and it’d stop’ because he can be melodramatic too and say he’d literally die, he’s always that serious and that intense and we make no apologies for it]

Ali: [stopping your impromptu drumming on his arm to CLUTCH it like NO because the worst thing we’ve ever heard and we can’t bear to think about it, not even in this hypothetical scenario which you don’t believe will ever happen ‘I’ll remember you all my lives’]

Johnny: [‘how many are you thinking you’ll live?’ amused despite the utter seriousness of what he said but a sec ago because it’s funny to him she’s living plural]

Ali: [smiling up at him and shrugging like that’s the mystery boy ‘however many you do’ casually saying it won’t be worth living if he’s not there, it’s fine]

Johnny: [‘we’ve this one to make our most of’ me breaking my own heart because so much time gets needlessly wasted but he’s saying it with every intention of them doing exactly that together]

Ali: [your smile only getting bigger in response because that’s exactly your intention too and of course you don’t see any reason why it won’t happen ‘my parents would love you’ as you’re shifting, only now discovering he’s broken your top and doing a bit of on the go mending casually]

Johnny: [‘I’d go knocking this minute were that so’ because no they wouldn’t but oh how y’all wish you could just date openly like other peeps your age are doing rn, said casually as you watch her fix this top you didn’t even realise was broken as if it’s not the heartbreaking truth of y’all’s life]

Ali: [nodding like they would so ‘you’re so… decent’ looking down to fix this top still as you’re saying this and uncovering his name slightly so LOOKING back up at him and doing a conspiratorial grin ‘what they’d need to know about you’]

Johnny: [putting his hair up for the first time today, because y’all got so hot and bothered with your feral ways it cannot stay down plus it’s bound to be a tangled mess of mud and blood and all sorts by now lol, as he shakes his head no, grinning back even bigger than hers is like an I told so you so to his no I’m not]

Ali: [watching him with your heart eyes and looking like you’re copying him by putting your own hair up for the same reasons, grinning even more wildly like a little kid at all your sharing experiences here, leaning forward to kiss him, seemingly, but instead licking some of this mess off his face cheekily ‘this is no one else’s business but ours’]

Johnny: [cue him holding her face as if he’s trying to keep hers away from his in a playfighty manner except not at all because it’s their signature move and he’s doing it with so much feeling and his own massive heart eyes ‘you’re nobody’s but mine’ quietly but with all the intensity of and don’t forget that either being added unspoken to the end of it]

Ali: [closing your eyes slowly and only briefly, the length it takes you to do a big breath out and to sink imperceptibly into his touch ‘I’m yours’ as the fact it is, no notes]

Johnny: [‘when a girl comes I’ll name her for you’ me SCREAMING crying because he does do that, even though here in this moment you have no idea the turn life is gonna take and you just think you’re saying it like she said it earlier]

Ali: [how dare you honestly boo, you evil little moo, gotta compose myself ‘cos you don’t know what we know but even so, DYING over the idea of your mini-mes, leaning back in to kiss him more ‘I love you’ because what else can you even]

Johnny: [catch him accidentally ruining her ponytail when he kisses her back so immediately after she put her hair up that it would seem like a deliberate pisstakey move done by someone else but it’s truly not he’s just holding her face and her hair so dramatically through this that it’s a casualty like her top was]

Ali: [at least you always have wild hair so this ain’t nothing for your parents to clock lmao, not that that would make us consider stopping you, nothing would and as per nothing registers but him and this moment, just here breathlessly telling him how attractive he is into this makeout]

Johnny: [here lowkey cradling her into this makeout like she’s a baby or Clove, in contrast not breathing at all is how it seems, because it at least vaguely registers to you that there is a clock ticking and he doesn’t wanna leave (as if he’ll suddenly have to if he breathes in or out), even if you have no concept of how long you’ve been here any more because it got so feral so fast as it always does with y’all and you can’t even work out how long you’ve been in this car never mind when you showed up sat on its roof]

Ali: [pressing into his chest, not actually as hard as real CPR of course but enough force to make him like no, don’t die on me, not intending to be that dramatic but needs must ‘we won’t say bye, nothing like that’ shaking your head, like not acknowledging it changes the outcome]

Johnny: [doing such an OTT GASP at her and basically into her mouth as if it was CPR because everything feels that dramatic and he can’t and won’t stop being ever, no notes]

Ali: [we love to see it, honestly, more than you even imagined, kissing him more frantically about it like this is all vital life-saving work being done nbd]

Johnny: [going from having her pinned to within an inch of her life earlier to her being the one pinning you is cinematic and he loves to see it hence he’s letting her and making such a noise about it which is giving the same franticness for them to stay here like this forever]

Ali: [mhmm, we are both here for it, here fully sitting on him, contrary to trying to get him to breathe, also contrary to him being able to go anywhere at all like he was really trying to ‘you can come back, every night’ said like YOU MUST]

Johnny: [press your palm against hers as if y’all are comparing hand sizes but what he’s actually going is grabbing hers and keeping hold of it while he vows this by crushing their scars together, not that his can be called a scar rn when it’s open af from those key antics but still ‘’til you’ve school and I’ve work on the morning’ like yep deal]

Ali: [oh you two and your serious ways will kill me, feeling instantly 100 times better about this situation again because all it takes is reassurance you can still see each other ‘we need to’ like yes, it is bad enough we can’t spend every waking minute together]

Johnny: [‘you’ve a bed for me’ it’s actually Rosaline’s but don’t let that stop y’all from feeling like everything is fated because tis the era where you think god himself is smiling upon you so, we all remember what happened on said bed including this boy who’s smiling himself remembering it]

Ali: [pushing the corners of his smile so happily, even if you’re pretending to be offended ‘had no idea you didn’t want to share that bad’ like lol okay sleepover it is and no funny business]

Johnny: [looking at her stomach as he says ‘you’re sharing already’ as if she’s preggo af and there isn’t gonna be room for him because the girls can dream even if said girls (me and Jonathan) have to wait forever for that to actually come true]

Ali: [looking down at your stomach too, taking his hand that you were still clasping, patting the skin with SO much love it hurts me, doing a little hmm as an okay but ‘you know where you’re needed’]

Johnny: [we’re just making ourselves sad on this day apparently because same boo, little do these happy nerds know ‘sure, we’ll push ‘em together for a bed the right size’ because how quickly he simply must give in to sleeping with her, not soz girl Ro]

Ali: [we’ve only ourselves to blame I fear ‘you’re not going to regret it’ like we’ve really pulled his arm there, covering him in lots of little fast kisses ‘I make the best roommate’ stroking his face as if following the trail of your own kisses]

Johnny: [a hot lol that’s giving but you might in a playful way as is the mischief in his eyes because we all know how extra this boy is and that he simply won’t leave her alone to sleep ever again, at least until said eyes have to close for a second because she’s stroking his face like that and it’s so serious again then because of how good that feels, taking her hand and using her fingers to count off everything she is, roommate now obvs but also wife, mother etc all the things with all their gypsy lingo words]

Ali: [dragging your top front teeth over your bottom lip because he’s hot and you love him, doing the opposite and pulling his top lip into a lazily !! kiss with your bottom teeth, just ‘cos, all whilst being so soft with how you’re stroking his face and then his hair too, emosh at all the things he considers you, not at all casually ‘I’d sooner be nothing to anyone to be everything to you’]

Johnny: [we’re all emosh, have they ever been more in love, no they have not, this boy’s here overwhelmed by the levels of emotion he’s feeling and so am I ‘you made me into something’ not at all casual just because he can’t find the words for it, very much not casual in fact ‘I don’t know about anybody else managing what you’ve’]

Ali: [me like stfu girl before you kill him and yourself, at least you can have the most passionate makeout you have ever about this because no, the love has never been realer than now]

Johnny: [mhmm have your makeout and do the most while you can because for all your every night talk guys who knows when they’ll actually sneakily see each other again, not them and not us yet]

Ali: [you can try your best honeys but yes, we must think on that]

Johnny: [I have all the faith in y’all as I’ve said before but we wanna keep it realistic and the right amounts of cockblockery and angst, so]

Ali: [*life cockblock, can be continued when needed]

[milferpool]

Why do your friends not speak about hillsborough

idk who you’re referring to, tbh. plenty of people do speak about it and plenty of people don’t. i don’t control anyone either so i can’t force anyone to speak on it.

it’s deffo disappointing that a lot of people don’t speak on it, liverpool fans or not. i think people forget that nothing will change right now if it’s only scousers fighting for themselves, they need others to also do their bit cah they’ve been fighting for 3 decades just to be heard, and they’re still treated unfairly. and like it is sad cah a lot of the people i see speaking abt hillsborough are inevitably liverpool fans, and i sometimes think people don’t realise that rival fans also speaking on it would be very impactful, cah on twitter you often see any liverpool fan, scouser or not, gets the victim mentality shout and it’s very consistently towards liverpool fans. so you’re met with a brick wall the second you start speaking, it would be so helpful to see others do their bit to say stn. bc i’ll be real, i’ve not seen a single city fan condemn the club for not making a statement about the graffiti and chants. and maybe that’s cah i don’t follow heaps of them or pay much mind to them, but on twitter as well, not seen a single city fan condemn the club for their silence or pep for the way he “apologised” by saying “IF IT happened” instead of just actually saying sorry. and i don’t think they realise how impactful it could be to have city fans also chime in. sadly though, we can’t actually force anyone to speak on it, and i wouldn’t want to cos i think people forget that forced activism isn’t genuine and real activism. aggressively trying to force anyone to speak on something they don’t genuinely care about is so ineffective. cah what they’ll do, is they’ll put up one post, or two, reblog something and then they’re done. maybe they’ll put up their own post and it could be full of misinformation cah they don’t care enough to do the research on it. i’d much rather know someone’s true colours and how they feel abt stn than force everyone to say stn and not know who’s just saying it to shut me up. and i do think there needs to be an open space on here to start advocating one day, without people jumping down your throat bc you weren’t advocating yesterday, sometimes people need the time to educate themselves and that’s fine too. what’s not fine is spreading misinformation under the guise of being “woke” or shallowly reblogging a post or two once a year so you can dodge accountability if someone asks why you don’t speak on it. i know some people think it’s scousers that should speak on it or that it’s not their place as someone who isn’t scouse to speak on it, but it’s very needed for others to join in the conversation. it’s not fine to be silent on hillsborough bc you don’t care, bc you should care, but i also can’t force anyone to care. all i know is that i care. the only thing we can do is continue to speak on it, continue to educate, inform, advocate etc, and be louder than the chants, the songs, be larger than the silence.

#answered

[bboope]

main 6 and courtier's as streamers/youtubers

tags: streaming/youtube au, modern au, social media au, streamer! reader

asra

streams a lot of different games

plays with you, jules, portia, nadi and muriel

is amazing at every game he touches

he's never touched an fps until he started dating you- and omg he dominates matches

hard fucking carry

likes playing dps and support tbh

those are his go to roles (tbh he would probably pocket you by accident before going off to heal others)

so many people accuse him of hacking/smurfing lol

main acc almost got banned bc of it

the two of you play acnh/minecraft together <3

has a small spot in each games where the two of you hang out- he has a shooting star watching spot in acnh and a farm to tend to with you in mc

his fans ship u two so hard before they know you're dating

you receive so many donos from him when he's offline <33

will send £100 just to say "ily and i'm proud"

has a faust cam when she's vibing in her enclosure- she boops the camera a lot

nadia

has so. many. simps.

receives so many donos from them but doesn't tolerate any dirty comments

she enjoys 'lets chat' streams where she digitally paints, speaks to chat and does media share streams

collabs with everyone tbh, she doesn't mind

her and valerius do lets chat streams where they practically gossip about work and joke around

they're an iconic, loves duo - lowkey remind me of katya and trixie ngl

doesn't game often, but when she does she's just the moral support

is flawlessly good at everything- but not gaming

she just has fun <3

gets carried by you and asra lol

absolutely has done cosmetic makeup/textiles streams with portia <3

definitely does homework livestreams with you- but it doesn't go well

is so kind <3 donates to smaller streamers and is so supportive of everyone

unproblematic queen <3

julian

literally comic relief in every stream

plays with you, asra and portia mainly

has an entire minecraft world with portia filled with meme builds from him and aesthetic cottages/buildings from pasha

is literally your pocket healer

pure healer role

and only heals you

so his co-healer has to carry the team whilst he gushes over you and gives you compliments

is so fucking funny

is practically the jack manifold of this universe

recieves so many god damn memes about himself

if u two live together he raids your room whilst ur still live

coddles you and gives you smooches

"gimme attention!" "julian-"

is clueless a lot of the time

literal himbo

his favourite genres are media shares where if he laughs he has to gift x amount of subs or gaming with you and or pasha

muriel

he doesn't stream per say but he did make an account so he could support you

sends donos to you all the time

the whole chat knows who he is and love him

he might collab w you sometimes depending on whats happening and how many people are there but he never goes live

is so surprised when he picks up traction bc of you

if he does ever stream (unlikely) it might be w you or a farming/caring for animals stream

portia

cottagecore queen

everyone compliments her fashion and background

is so friendly but she doesn't tolerate rude/inappropriate people

defends you against toxic teammates

is literally one of the best carries when she plays games besides asra

her and asra: unstoppable duo

she loves art and textiles streams

deffo has a wall with all of her donos/highest donators usernames written on it

babies julian in minecraft bc lets be honest he'd die a lot

loves just chat streams but she doesn't want to do them too often out of fear of boring her viewers so she does them at least once a week

has a little side panel of fanart from her fans <3

lucio

this bitch

he loves just talking streams bc it gives him an excuse to talk about himself

doesn't normally play games but he wants to be involved w ur hobbies hence why he picks up streaming

like asra he gives melchior and mercedes their own camera when they're in the room

bc hes rich he's goes all out on equipment when he first starts then whines to u about ppl not joining

definitely bought some followers lets be honest

is the type of guy to leave the stream on/forget to turn it off and then leaves to talk to you

you have to turn it off for him so his private life isn't leaked <3

bugs nadia a lot

if they ever collab (unlikely) its just lucio bugging her and her being tired

also receives memes about himself but they aren't as chaotic as julian's

#the arcana #the arcana x reader #arcana headcanon #arcana asra #asra arcana #arcana julian #julian arcana #arcana nadia #nadia arcana #arcana muriel #muriel arcana #arcana lucio #lucio arcana #// boopes headcannons #// arcana

[bellewintersroe]

Hiii could i please get a Easy company ship? (romantic and platonic) btw i love your work!!!

I’m a female (she/her) I am energetic, i have big heart, i’m funny I love to chill and listen to music. I have a little bit of a short temper, i’m stubborn, but i’m very loyal and stick up for the people i love, I can be a little emotional at times, i love to cook, i’m a dog lover, and i’m competitive and passionate. I Make up my own rules. i love scary movies. I’m a bit of a germaphobe and maybe little ocd. i’m very short, (5.0) I have brown eyes, wavy light brown hair, big lips, freckles, button nose, and an olive skin tone. I have high standards, i’m sympathetic, i’m an INTP, My hogwarts house is Hufflepuff ( even though i tried to be a slytherin so bad 😭) My love language is physical touch and acts of service, I grew up with brothers so i love watching sports and playing them. I’m a sagittarius, I like to play the piano, and read and write in my free time. and In the summers I love to fish and swim at my boathouse. And springtime is my favorite season.

Hi, thank you for your request, I had so much fun writing this!!! <3

I ship you with… Joe Toye!!

Let me start by saying how underrated Joe Toye is. Like if we’re being real here he’s super fucking attractive, tall, a little rough around the edges, doesn’t come across as a dick at all in any kinda situation.

let’s say if you’re all in camp Toccoa, training in whatever you want or let’s say you just live around there- Joe Toye would be the girl that everybody fancied. Literally they’d be giggling and gazing at him at he did PT.

Would probs not notice this at first- somebody like Bill nudges him and points it out. He smirks omg- but then gets back to what he’s doing a little awkwardly cos I feel like he could be the smallest bit shy??? Honestly who isn’t.

maybe Toye spots you when you and your friends are messing around, you could be having a competition of some sort in the pub in England, and Joe hears you before he sees you. You’re laughing away, getting a little too into the game and he finds himself smiling like a weirdo as his eyes are transfixed on you.

would stop mid conversation because he gets thrown off at how beautiful you are and that happens throughout the relationship.

The first thing he notices is your hair and your stunning features, he’s always been a sucker for girls with freckles and when you guys have conversations, he stares at your lips.

He doesn’t do this on purpose- but literally can’t help it, it’s one thing that really makes you fancy him cos I feel like it would just be so attractive and flirtatious skksiciwokdkfoek.

you’d walk past and his head would follow without gawping, but he realised how short you were and was stunned. Somebody shorter than Perconte?? Wtf.

I feel like he’d approach you after this, I think a lot of the boys would and Joe senses competition and butts in their first. He’d be sweet and charming with his raspy voice, you’d find his short temper funny and when he heard your laughter he could never take anything too seriously.

see’s you outside protecting your friend from some asshole outside and immediately goes into protective mode. See’s how well you can handle it and how truly passionate you are about those around him- this really sends him into overdrive.

I think it would take Toye some time to fall in love/ make things serious. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t know that he loves you, he just wants to draw out this exciting part of his life for as long as possible.

one of your first dates you go to watch a scary movie at the cinema and he’s the one jumping every ten minutes- growing agitated because Luz DEFFO crashes this.

I feel like compared to your more intuitive thinking, he makes more rash and spontaneous decisions. He’s the one probably coming up with date ideas and loves it when you wrap your hand around his arms.

he’d be so muscular and yum omg all the girls would be jealous of you and all the guys would be jealous of him cos what a beautiful couple.

as for your stat signs, Joe’s a Pisces, so just from a little research I can see you guys are in for a long lasting relationship that’s an ‘emotional rollercoaster’. Well when you’re said you can be emotional I thought this linked. Joe’s emotions are something harder to understand, sadness and any negative feeling would convert into anger. This could be a source of arguments for the two of you- but nothing too bad.

In arguments Joe would get all heated and his heart would beat a million miles an hour, deffo has some kinda phobia of losing you, and the war doesn’t make this any easier.

relating back to your compatibility the more you probably communicate with Joe the more you understand things about each other, eg how you handle situations- this makes things a wholeeeee lot easier.

super important after the war when you see him for the first time, he’s so fucking nervous it’s unreal and doesn’t feel good enough for you. I think you’d be super good at talking him out of this mindset and providing the reassurance he needs.

Can be insecure after the war, but this never ever converts into him being controlling or unnecessarily mean.

I feel like Joe wouldn’t have grown up fishing and swimming as often as you (I could be wrong but it fits the narrative lol) so when you first live together and show him all these activities he finds them so exciting no matter how grumpy he might seem.

gets sunburnt on the boat and doesn’t catch a single fish the first time you two go out.

you’re the one rubbing aloe Vera all over him as he complains about how stupid it all was. He deffo takes you back for a redo weeks later because he’s scared he’s ruined it for you.

You’d just be a super fucking cool couple, there’d be so much depth and enjoyment to your relationship, I feel like the flirting would never stop. The two of you have a real spark that everybody can see.

also if you want a dog, don’t tell him just turn up with one or two and force him to be open minded about pets cos I feel like he’d hate the thought of having one until he actually gets one lmao.

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I ship you platonically with… George Luz!

George would deffo annoy both you and Toye until he forces a friendship onto you.

he is irresistible tho you can’t deny it so I feel like you’d find yourself laughing along with whatever story he was saying and Joe would somewhat death glare you because you’re in the middle of making out- George don’t cock block me pls!

would tell Joe off if he ever upsets you.

would steal you candy bars, definitely and then throw them at your head.

I don’t think George would be a very huggy friend? I think he’d feel like he was overstepping boundaries and he’d make it clear to everybody especially Toye that he had the most respect for your relationship.

your friendship probably gets more serious when at war, there’s always a hint of playfulness there but the two of you can always tell when the other is just feeling down by looking at the other person.

george would laugh if something like a cute animal made you cry.

George would probably cry if you cried out of sadness.

#Joe toye x reader #Band of brothers ships #George Luz x reader

[shoverse]

hookup

miya atsumu x gn! reader

tw:; implied sex, alcohol, cussing, just bar shit basically

and i thought he was just a hookup

deffo had male! reader in mind when i wrote this but it's fine still gn! y'all are broke asf i know but it didn't fit with the story. ~amp

no.

it's not supposed to happen like this.

he's not supposed to be here anymore.

and yet, you still find yourself half-asleep right next to miya atsumu as the soft beams of early morning light shine down on his oh-so-pretty face.

but what's a businessperson like yourself doing with a burnout bitch like him?

to be honest, you don't really know.

but you're hooked.

fuck, you want to leave him. but you can't, you won't. he's too good.

and you think- no, you know he loves you. so, so bad.

your friends have no control over you.

so how the hell did you end up in that crappy bar with the most likely spiked drinks and the washed-up druggies?

you're lying to yourself, you know why. you only glanced through the pink tinted windows, catching a glimpse of his face but you were enticed. i mean, how could you not, with those pretty little hot chocolate eyes. and even now, as you take a closer look at him the morning after, his long, delicate eyelashes frame those big eyes so perfectly, don't they?

you can smell the alcohol and the cheap, musky cologne wafting faintly on his body, left over from the night before. it clashes with your own expensive smell. and yet, it smells good to you. like someone you want to know.

oh god, you can't fall in love now.

-

the water falls behind you, drenching your exposed back and you let your stress fall with the excess water. the shower soon fills with steam and you sigh contentedly, shampoo stinging your eyes. you hear a light rap on the door. you hear your own voice shout 'occupied!' and a raspy little morning voice respond with ' 'kay, mornin' ' oh you can almost hear the sleepy eyes and little smile on his face. you soak a little more in the shower and rinse again. you realize you've been showering for a grand total of thirty minutes, so you quickly step out. yeah, you may be 'rich' but you don't wanna blow your money on that. you're more energized now, ready to face the world, or, well, the man who is in your house.

when you finally do come out, your little 'boyfriend' is sitting at your kitchen counter, eating your virtually food. 'fucking hell, that's shit's expensive.' 'well, ya did bring me here.' 'eh, fine. you're reimbursing everything though.'

you don't really need the money.

' aw, well guess i'll just stay here till i can pay it off then, huh~'

stay? you haven't heard that word in a long time.

'o-oh, yeah, i guess.'

he cracks a grin.

'what? i'm not bein' serious. don't worry, i'll be gone soon.'

ah, the catch.

'where can you go?' he thinks about it. 'actually, nowhere.' 'what the hell, just stay then.' 'no, i-i don't wanna be a bother.' 'it's fine, i've got a shit ton of work to do anyway.' 'alright then, just for a day or two.

yeah, right.

and days turn into weeks turn into months turn into years.

and year after year you fall deeper in love.

what happens when a alcoholic loves a businessperson?

what happens when you have to say that you found the right guy sitting at a bar, drunk off his ass?

and yet year after year you're never breaking apart, and the butterflies still flutter in your stomach when you hear a whisper in your ear and strong arms wrap around you as you fall asleep.

so innocent, yet so devilish.

and then it's not just a hookup, it's your own picture-perfect little world, co-owned by a little someone called miya atsumu.

#haikyuu #haikyuu scenarios #haikyuu headcannons #gn!reader #haikyuu x gn!reader #atsumu headcanons #atsumu scenarios #haikyuu atsumu #haikyuu headcanons #hq atsumu #miya atsumu #haikyuu x gender neutral reader #haikyuu x female reader #haikyuu x male reader #atsumu fluff

[blackbackedjackal]

Going on that "lgbt rep in cartoons" I'm so old I remember reading that Lexington from Gargoyles was under-the-table mentioned to be PROBABLY gay in the comics behind Disney's back, and at the time I thought that was amazing and progressive, possibly the first creator-confirmed lgbt character I knew of. Classic cartoons crawled so Steven Universe and co. could run.

I would have been too young at the time to catch that in Gargoyles when it was airing (I was like 4-6 when I was watching the re-runs lol) but I remember reading about that years later and I really hope they do more with the property cause I would LOVE to see that fully realized in a new comic or show 😭

My first exposure to lgbt rep in cartoons was Sailor Moon or side characters in Outlaw Star/Inuyasha (though they're deffo not very positive rep by today's standards, but that's true for a lot of older shows). Point being yeah, when it comes to representation in animated media, it's been a LOOOONG journey and knowing the timeline/history/creators involved with slowly making things happen despite pushback from producers and so much criticism and hate is important. It's more like a gradual upward slope (with several downs as well cause god the early 2000s were especially bad from what I remember), but I'm SO glad that the bar has been raised to what it is now in newer series!!

#ask #like The Owl House would NEVER happen in the 90s #and being lgbt was just the butt of a joke in the early 2000s

[timetraveltodystopia]

"He said the n word, still, the chance of what happened on the video blow-up of the proportions and many racist people exposed themselves."

EXACTLY the reason why i cant stan him + dislike and anti him. like even if he didn't say the n word (which in my honest opinion he did cos i deffo heard smth) the way his stans took this personal and handled the situation made it 1000x worse for me and im not even kidding when i say i antied enhypen for a good 9 months because of engenes and heeseung. but every time i try to say smth people dismiss me by saying im being sensitive and it just annoys me even more omfg.

sorry just wanted to rant a bit bc i saw that ask and it honestly annoys me so much whenever people say he didn't do anything wrong and ask why people hate him. (even tho i know they didnt say he wasnt problematic)

- nura !

PLEASEE ^^^ the fandom is toxic. A small proportion makes it so toxic and idols and not perfect and he screwed up, he could do it on purpose or because of ignorance, but the fandom didn't want to admit it. And also Hybe, c'mon makes a statement and clears the waters. The should make apologize Heesung, at the moment that it happened, idk if now maybe it could work too, about the n-word incident, and the same what happened with Jake (sorry to drag him)

I wanted to point out when I saw the live that Jake did after the incident with the Allah necklace, Engenes were calling him out. It wasn't like "please apologize", they were so rude. I just want to talk about this because he didn't choose the necklace, it was the staff and people called him out to him instead of Hybe. And Hybe, in the end, didn't let him apologize, he apologize through music and the word apple means sorry in Korean. Hybe for what I know didn't make a statement.

These are two separate situations but it shows that Hybe doesn't take care well of their artist, at least they don't make a statement to prove their ignorance in situations and that the fandom is pretty toxic to believe that idols are perfect and never make mistakes

#rant #nura rant #iioyous #toxic fandom #engenes better watch out #max ⚖

[lostmoonbunny]

Greetings from a Panini World

Yes, I did call this a "panini". I'm hesitant to use the word "pandemic" as I feel many of us have a knee jerk reaction to hide from everything once hearing or seeing that word. However that's the current stat of events. The year? 2021 Where I am located its very much so post quarantine and society has attempted to "return to normal" but its impossible. Between the anti- maskers, anti-vaxxers, and everything else it truly is impossible. "What do you mean?" you ask, well allow me to take you on a journey of a human that has gone through this "history in the making" and share what its been like since January 2020 to September 2021 from the eyes of someone that lived it. -I will preface this with saying, there will be gaps, I have trouble with object permanence, concept of time, and I have memory issues due to past concussions so bear with me as we stumble through the memories of my experiences.

So here we go... Let's travel back to January 2020.

2020..Ahhh the big year of "Clear vision".. HA! No, not today. What I remember was being concerned about this horrible virus but didn't think it would make its way to where I lived.. ( I would be unsurprisingly corrected shortly after this.) I worked, had my birthday, and it was quickly February. The virus was quickly spreading and making its way downtown walking fast faces past.. oops..sorry I got sidetracked, it was making its way down throughout the nation. We celebrated my partner's birthday, and soon after the month was over. February always flies by. March...ahh March, this is where everything started changing for me. Many states were shutting down around us fairly quickly too. ( I have opinions about how the US should've shut down sooner, but we're not here for politics...but yes it should've happened sooner.) My partner, younger brother and I made a last minute trip to the next state for a day trip. Which was fun don't get me wrong but the places we went to shut down for the state's quarantine the next day. My state would follow barely a week later. I was furloughed. That..that was an experience. All of us received the same message as it was a group message. It stated that we were all effectively unemployed ( so we could apply for benefits if we chose to) and that if and when we reopen that they hoped we could come back. I immediately messaged my boss and the boss that messaged us all and double checked learning that I was on the "short list" for rehires. That made me fee a bit better but I was still sad. My partner was considered "an Essential worker" so they worked through the entire lockdown. I swear Animal Crossing New Horizons is one of the only things that got me through that.. from this all the days blended together till June. Not don't get me wrong, plenty of things happened on a personal growth side that was beneficial like I started going to therapy, got even closer to my cousin that lives on the west coast, I played with my cats and dogs more, I caught up on sleep, all sorts of things but the way it had to happen sucked. Also in this time period, my favorite uncle contracts the virus and is put in the ICU on a ventilator. I don't remember how long he was in there but he made it. He is now healthy and survived the virus. So lets fast forward to June. My place of work reopened under specific guidelines. Now I don't know if I've ever mentioned this but I live in the southeast. The southeast, in summer is AWFUL. Its hot, its humid, and then if it DOES rain that humidity just goes up and it gets worse. To give you an idea while the temperature might say its 84 degrees F but the real feel might be 95F. I don't know why they don't just say 95F but that's how it is the southeast... So imagine if you will mid June, being reopened with special rules, masks required for everyone 5 years old and older, and no buildings but restrooms open to the public. The amount of rude, hateful, uncaring people almost made me lose my complete faith in humanity, and its not very high to begin with. Also for context, I work in retail. I feel that says enough there. These rules extend till the end of the year and into part of 2021. While all of this is happening the US is having their presidential elections and everyone has crawled out of the woodwork that you had hoped would stay there. At this point I'm hoping for the best because we really need a paradigm shift in society. We need to truly need to change as a society and in many way, catch up to the rest of the world. I finally gave in a got to tiktok and realize that it is very much a time devourer. I've realized that I feel as if the term "Cassflux" fits how I feel about my gender best, and fully accepted my journey on the path of being a witch.

Lets move in to October, October I ( and my partner) travel to Texas (cautiously) for my cousin's socially distant wedding and our anniversary. That was amazing and the slight escape from reality was truly needed. On our way back we made a stop in NOLA and it was a fun visit, but I realized my baby witch self hadn't veiled or warded myself nearly enough and it got all of "spidey senses" all out of wack. knowing now what I should've done, I do want to go back. The rest of the year went by both incredibly slow and yet in a flash. The US elected a new president, I was working as hard a possible to avoid the virus as much as possible and my partner had gotten a new job with a different company that was making them more happy. So this brings us to 2021. This is the year that I feel that I am truly coming into my own despite living in the middle of a global Panda Express. January brings my turning a landmark age and celebrating it with a new hair style, new outlook on life, progress made in therapy, more self acceptance, and just overall more happiness. The world is still the same, better, but also worse. The vaccine is being produced, distributed, and made accessible. February brings another birthday with my partner's birthday. March rolls around and we jokingly celebrate our work's closing a year prior and then continue to work. The vaccine is made available to retail and food workers so I go and get the first round of the "Dolly Parton" vaccine with my co workers. (If you were wondering its Moderna) We go and receive the second dose later at the correct time. April and May kind of blend together for me because that the ramp up for the busy season at work. June & July are busy but everything is moving forwards. I finally take a step more into the current era of technology and upgrade my phone and computer. ( After several years of going back and forth of not wanting current gen tech or not, because that stuff be expensive!) I reconnect with an old friend and we have a much healthier friendship.

August....hecking August.. We are short staffed at work, busy as heck! My partner is also hecking busy by being called in for almost every problem. The world is deffo changing. The US is in a state of nah nah a boo boo with vaccinating vs not, virus outbreaks having an uptick, universities starting back, Texas deciding that the government gets a say in a woman's reproductive rights... sorry I'll try to not get political. My ( like many others) using tiktok as a means of escape from this reality.. I'm so beyond mentally exhausted by everything that I just want to be somewhere that I can breathe a bit more easy... Its deffo not the southeastern US. September: I. am. exhausted. Working a bunch. Dealing with people doubting the virus, the usual Karens and Richards, counting down my days to vacation. My partner is beyond exhaustion. They've worked more in the past six weeks that they have in two years. The 20th year of 9/11 comes and goes. Not to sound like a country song, but remembering where I was at the moment the planes hit is something that has stuck with me...despite my concussions. I was in my English class and its was between classes and they had the tvs on. So many parents were coming and calling their kids out the school got to the point they weren't going to let kids leave.. ( if the parents complained enough they did.. I was a poorer kid in a more affluent school) My parents weren't going to take me out of school so I finished the day out in a state of confusion, not understanding the gravitas of what was going on, and not understanding was the emotions I was feeling watching the crashes were. I don't claim to even comprehend the emotions of this date to people who lost loved ones in the crashes, or in the oncoming days of the country going to war, I just know how it felt as a child to see something so major happening. I feel its like the kids now living through this panic at the disco. [[If you read this and you lost someone due to either of these horrific events please know that I in no way am invalidating or belittling your feelings or experiences. I merely am trying to describe all of how I feel throughout 2020- roughly current day 2021 and these are the things I was thinking and feeling on this particular day.]]

The days start to blend again as I attempt to countdown the days till my short vacation. Once that starts I get to finally relax as does my partner. The amount of sleep my partner has gotten is incredible and they deserve it dang it! This brings us to today, The last day of September 2021. This are changing at work and I'm not wholly sure of how I feel but I know it will be an interesting discussion for me to have with my therapist coming up. That's all I've got for now.. Hopefully I'll pop back in sooner to give more perspective on what its like living through all of this chaos. Just keep moving forward.

#lostmoonbunny #globalpanini #livingthroughaglobalcrisis #itsachaoticworld #life update #my life #grow #hopeful #becoming me #very tired

[punkscowardschampions]

Liam & Edie

Liam: [alright so she’s gonna get there super early so the first question is do we want any kind of interaction with his poor mother first or do we save that for later]

Edie: [In my head it’s literally early enough that she could still be asleep but also if it’s the week ‘cos summer, she COULD be going to work, unless she does a moomin and takes it off, so I’m easy with either]

Liam: [yeah I was thinking like it’s technically day 5 but it’s early enough of an arrival you could call it day 4 because we’re extra, so she probably would be asleep but equally, she could’ve woken up early to say happy bday and all that before she has to go to work because I feel like she’d wanna take the day off but he’d be essentially like nah don’t I’ll see you later 1. Because Edie is coming and 2. Because fuck birthdays anyway even before we knew that was a thing that’d be happening]

Liam: [maybe it’s like she was gonna go in and wake him up but surprise we’re already up and chilling in our dead sister’s room and surprise x2 Edie is already here hello]

Edie: [your poor mother, so shooketh, so not prepared for this, at least Edie will be being polite to you because we wanna make a good first impression and we’re not a dick but we are still weird and here at like the arse crack of dawn so hi]

Liam: [at least for our plot purposes she’ll be too caught unawares to spoil the bday secret because up til now his phone wouldn’t be popping off too hard as it’s early and normal people are asleep]

Edie: [can we just take a moment to think about the fact this is the first time actually meeting each other]

Liam: [it blows my mind when I do think about it, honestly, I need to know all about her lewk please because we know how excited you’d be about this gal]

Edie: [I will have to find one because yes, you’ve gotta do your most to be cute]

Liam: [I care very much what colour your hair is and how hard you’re serving even though I know damn well all you’ve done so far is sit on his sister’s floor and talk and talk and TALK because not an exaggeration at all to say he wants to know everything about her, that’s his intense brand]

Liam: [but also what time does the sun come up in late August? Would that be too early to say she arrived before then so they can watch it together like they did the comet]

Edie: [we know we’d show up whenever, try and stop us famalam, so yes that’s definitely a thing we can say happens, I hope you live near-ish though or what time are you setting off from yours hen]

Liam: [ngl if she showed up at 3 or 4am I wouldn’t be surprised and he wouldn’t mind so fill your boots kids, we can totally say he lives close because that isn’t something we’ve given an Ali kid before and like I can see his parents being like the country air and peace and quiet etc will totally help our dying child, as if this is victorian times or whatever]

Edie: [tbf cities are grubby i’m sorrrrrrrrryyy anyway, love that for you, you can live on a busy bit of the countryside, a nice cul-de-sac mayhaps, at least you won’t get murdered lurking in the dark]

Liam: [get on zoopla and find us a cute gaff boo]

Edie: [heheheheh, okay so we know how we’re starting our day, what’s next]

Liam: [I think we’ve just gotta run this and see what pops up as we’re pondering cos y’all are wild could be anything going on, bye to his mum go get ready for work and then go gal you can do some bday cliches when you get back at like 4, Edie’ll know by then, so once his mum has swiftly excited just 👀 because even if you’ve got no feelings it’s super cute that she wants to make a good impression]

Edie: [just smiley blush like what, not commenting on his ma yet ‘cos she didn’t have time to really make an impression so we don’t need to do that ‘can’t have her changing her mind about loving the idea already’]

Liam: [get a bit closer to her so you can look at her even more intensely because she’s being even cuter with her lil blush and smile moment and this was such a good idea thank god ‘don’t change yours either’]

Edie: [just shaking our head hardcore ‘cos can’t speak suddenly]

Liam: [‘she’s not Lexie levels but still off putting, I know’ soz to his poor mum for vaguely giving a shit haha]

Edie: [‘you’ve not met mine’ like probably has on the low but shh the point is we know what all mums are like, in one way or another, ‘yet’ very much implying we cannot be put off tah]

Liam: [‘can I?’ has only just met you and wants to meet your mum, what boy in what universe would ever want that 🚩]

Edie: [my boo says run she says no, nod as enthusiastically purely ‘cos he wants to and we will not be saying no to anything]

Liam: [get even closer to her obvs because she just keeps being adorable with her enthusiasm and he’s obvs about it, just gonna be 👀 a mm away from her face in a sec]

Edie: [at least you can gently pull on the necklace he should be wearing ‘cos sent in the post]

Liam: [and you can kiss better wherever she got hers from even though it’s gonna be healed by now like she made you do at the time]

Edie: [genuinely wasn’t trying to be that bitch but I just googled where heals fastest when cut ‘cos that bitch and he didn’t want pain and bloody drama so and it literally said the mouth LMAO soz Liam I don’t make the rules-]

Liam: [soz not soz that you’re having your first kiss then lads]

Edie: [it’s kinda sweet that you aren’t like, actually kissing, if you know what I mean, like it’s about something else]

Liam: [it’s very pure and very your energy as a couple]

Edie: [you’ll be dying girl but that’s a moment]

Liam: [he genuinely would ask her if she/that was okay because we know she’s not had a boyfriend before because Rio would not stop hammering that point home]

Edie: [we’re so obviously more than okay but likewise not trying to be like OTT and put pressure on him because we’ve been told what Lexie was like, just smile and nod]

Liam: [pull her to her feet and to your room because we’ve not been in there yet but y’all are gonna find this robot dog]

Edie: [get to go through all his childhood things lowkey love that for yous just asking all the questions]

Liam: [and we’re definitely giving it to you which is another moment because he loved it]

Edie: [we’ve gotta pimp that pup up somehow, which is within your wheelhouse deffo ‘what’s he called?’]

Liam: [‘Chip’ and a face like yeah I know I was a kid byeee]

Edie: [just loving on it like a real dog, ‘I fucked with the beast’ ‘cos of course you did lmao]

Liam: [he’s as amused as I was when I read that because of course she did is right, clearly gonna put that film on for her]

Edie: [love that childlike energy for you too, definitely raiding for the good snacks even though it’s so early because why not sugar rush]

Liam: [same because we all know he didn’t get a chill childhood, at least there would be great snacks in because it being his bday and his mum hoping she can rock a birthday tea vibe on the low]

Edie: [sneaky bday energy, god bless, just find out what each others faves are]

Liam: [taking so many cute pics and vids during all this, be jealous everyone]

Edie: [I do have cute bed ones so have a duvet day until the notifs come in]

Liam: [gives him a reason for his phone to be blowing up but that’s not why we’re doing it, he’s just obsessed with the bae’s happiness]

Edie: [I can send them to you if you like]

Liam: [please do]

Edie: [at least you can take his phone under the assumption of taking a picture of him because he’s taken loads of you]

Liam: [and he’s not gonna stop you because he’s not stupid enough to have anything incriminating about stalking your sister on there and obvs isn’t thinking about it being his bday]

Edie: [awkward when you don’t wanna be like oh it’s your birthday but you can’t not be like that because then you’d be acting weird, just pull up whoever’s said happy bday latest like hey but soft]

Liam: [such a genuine shrug like oh yeah that idc]

Edie: [‘why didn’t you tell me?’ but without the 🥺 tone, genuine asking]

Liam: [‘I didn’t want you to know’ true but then you realise how it sounds so ‘it’s pressure on you and it don’t matter to me’]

Edie: [when there is nothing you can say to that but ‘fair enough’ because it is and we’re not gonna force it into a Big Thing ™ ‘we’re still having fun though’ because y’all are that’s facts]

Liam: [‘I can’t remember a birthday this about me’ because we can’t say he’s never had a fun bday ever but he’s never been the centre of attention ‘it is enough, and fun, having you here’]

Edie: [‘that is pressure… without anyone else taking any of the focus at all’ ‘cos we have plenty of siblings so we know what he’s saying, nothing is entirely about you when there’s other kids to still care about, make the robo dog kiss his cheek ‘it can be as fun as you like, and we can stay in all day, or go out too, it’s all up to you’]

Liam: [kiss her on the cheek thank you boy because she’s being a babe]

Edie: [🥰 look as we get up ‘what’s your favourite breakfast?’ like let’s go make that happen]

Liam: [I’m gonna say his fave is a full english/irish because when does anyone ever have the time or energy for all that faff so we can make you feel special here boy]

Edie: [giving you 2 options like we can make it here for you and that could include a shop dash to get all the bits which would be cute OR we can go to a cafe and get it and dine and dash which would also be cute]

Liam: [under duress I am voting for dine and dash because it feels very them and we’ll have loads of time to be domestic when they’re squatting in the holiday cottage etc]

Edie: [then let’s ride lads, the greasiest spoon we can find please]

Liam: [forever a mood]

Edie: [have a cute handhold as you walk, also enjoy the height difference imagine]

Liam: [don’t even I can’t fathom how tall he is, it’s crazy]

Edie: [love that you’re taller than our dad, taller than Buster, flex on ‘em babe you got that reach, it’s very much that picture of ariana and pete ‘cos that’s about y’alls heights lol]

Liam: [not to be that bitch but you would feel so safe and protected like I do get it]

Edie: [and I’m sorry but if you’re even a slightly curvier gal you can’t be with a small lad you feel like you’ll break them lmao]

Liam: [so many gals salty as hell at you rn Edie so soz]

Edie: [you love to see it, don’t get too close or we will fuck you up hens]

Liam: [I’m trying to think if there’s anything else cool they could do while they’re out cos I wanna keep the vibe chill but]

Edie: [we could go to the beach today, or we could find another thing for the ‘main event’ without being like this is what you’re doing for your bday highkey, perhaps something typical childhood birthday like bowling or laser tag that kind of energy]

Liam: [sadly you’re too much a giant to sneak into soft play]

Edie: [yes they usually have an age limit of 10-12 if memory serves and there’s no believing that lmao, although we could force the twins to go at a later date and go in with them]

Liam: [we’ll definitely give you another chance to go]

Edie: [okay so getting a bouncy castle to just put up and then we’re also having jelly and ice cream]

Liam: [green jelly is the best so you can pop off with 👽]

Edie: [i’m gonna try to find vibes deffo]

Liam: [actually love that you’ve gone from hanging out in his house to hanging out in a field and it’s the best birthday he’s had probably ever]

Liam: [kinda wanna let y’all have your first kiss on the bouncy castle but kinda have had that ruined for us by skins]

Edie: [#reclaimit and like, as much as y’all just having a good ass time getting to know each other, the casual tension still]

Liam: [it’s very much NOT a platonic good time and we all know it]

Edie: [we are not here to deny what’s here tah]

Liam: [only question is how far we’re taking it because y’all could hook up on it but you could also not]

Edie: [hmm, on the one hand, we absolutely would ‘cos wanna but on the other, I can see y’all making a slightly bigger thing out of it without you know, lighting candles lol, but you get me]

Liam: [same actually because you’re very romantic]

Edie: [right? Like it’ll deffo be in your way still but it’s your first time both of yas so you can make a thing of it if you bloody well like]

Liam: [and no shade to anyone because I’m not saying they should but not enough of our ships do make it a thing™️ because they just carried away by their feels and hormones lol, he has that degree of restraint, albeit for a sad reason so you might as well use it]

Edie: [no wonder you get so caught up in this babe, casual fairytale]

Liam: [me too gurl, me too, casually too invested in this doomed couple nbd]

Edie: [so sad, soz guys we’re rude]

Liam: [anything else cute we wanna do before your mum gets back and makes you do the cliche bday cake moment and you can get the bae to blow out your candles with you because have all the wishes my love]

Edie: [I think this gives us a good framework for how it’s gonna go, lots of cuteness, doing the least but making it the most]

Liam: [thank god it’s still summer so nobody can force you back home because you’ll both be gutted]

Edie: [fight us fam we clearly aren’t going anywhere, I like to think you got something for his mum whilst out even though it’s probably a bottle of wine neither of you can buy so bit cheeky but still cute]

Liam: [that’s adorable af, his mum can’t be mad we know she knows him and his sister did a lot worse, even if she doesn’t know it all but what does make me laugh is that she’d blatantly not let Edie stay the night because of how obvs underage she is and it’s like oh hun we’ve had many many opportunities to hook up all day but sure]

Edie: [love when parents draw that line, like this is why teens hook up in cars and anywhere else they can, also tis possible in daylight but god bless you for trying hun]

Liam: [so many parents do and there’s literally so many worse things he could be doing and in Liam’s case has done but pop off]

Edie: [oh when this baby is announced lmao sozzzzzzz]

Liam: [she’s gonna be UPSET, but in the now you can walk her home and that’s always cute af]

Edie: [so gentlemanly, also gonna bring you in impromptu to meet Ali like hello mother]

Liam: [the levels he’d just wanna stay because technically not breaking the rules to be over at the cali gaff but contrary to what I just said about baby Libi he doesn’t actually wanna upset his mum so he wouldn’t]

Edie: [we’ll let you be good today, of all days, let me post my ting and know the last pic is like now in a miss you already way]

Liam: [I’m cackling imagining Grace appearing like the extra child she is]

Edie: [curtain-twitching like a baby nosy hoe, I lol]

Liam: [thank god Lexie isn’t really crazy or you’d have to look out for her being at the window too]

Edie: [we ain’t afraid of you it’s definitely the other way round rn]

Liam: [hilarious considering how pure you’ve been all day]

Edie: tell me when you get home

Liam: I don’t want to get home

Edie: If you go somewhere I have to come

Liam: I know 😇 I promise

Liam: I’ll come back for you when it’s a new day

Edie: I’m not wishing this one away, I didn’t

Edie: I don’t want it to end

Liam: me either, but no spoilers or the wish will glitch and we won’t get what we did ask for

Edie: 😶

Edie: and we’ve got to follow the rules or you’ll turn into a 🎃 tonight

Liam: a massive me sized 🎃 do you think or one you could carry round

Edie: I could live in a you sized 🎃 but I’m not sure how comfortable that would be for you

Edie: but what if I dropped you if you were normal sized 😭

Liam: I’ve seen you on a bouncy castle, you’re not clumsy

Edie: despite your best attempts to floor me

Liam: you gave as good

Edie: yeah

Edie: I hope so

Liam: there was no cracking under the pressure

Edie: then you’ll have me back

Edie: and kiss me again

Liam: we can go back for as long as it stays up, then I’ll kiss you somewhere else

Edie: please

Edie: and you felt it

Edie: the kiss, it was more than nothing

Liam: I wouldn't have done it if it was nothing, how I know you feel is important and I'm not gonna hurt you

Edie: I know

Edie: I trust you

Edie: I’m just being annoying trying to make you say it

Liam: you couldn’t annoy me if you was trying, I’m on too big of a high from meeting you

Edie: I had the best day

Liam: I’ve gotta say thanks for today, meaning tomorrow’ll have an edge on it for being all about what you wanna do instead of me getting older

Edie: you don’t

Edie: it was mutual

Edie: you even let me help you blow out your candles

Liam: if I didn’t it’s 🎂 wasted you gave me the best 🎁 by being there, right before you were I still thought you might not show

Edie: a tiny part of me wasn’t sure

Edie: what if it messed everything we’d built up

Edie: but it didn’t

Liam: yeah, that was on my mind too, I’m either too much or not enough when I can’t moderate it how I do online, faker than my 🦎🧠 has got me used to acting, and found out for it sooner

Liam: but it wasn’t like that today

Edie: it’s easier when you can code the best response

Edie: put whatever skin on it works best in that moment

Edie: but this was better than anything I’ve made or seen in cyberspace so far

Liam: your fave 🤖 is a compliment I'll take any time, like

Edie: don’t tell Chip

Liam: he’s got more to rub in my face, he got to stay, I wouldn’t start it

Edie: [pic of him tucked up casually]

Edie: bit smug, tbh

Liam: in the world we just woke him up from I could be 💔😭 he’ll have to try harder now

Edie: [a pic of him up on her titties like mr steal yo gurl]

Edie: 😱😱

Edie: I’m gonna need to train him

Liam: I remember him as naughtier than me

Edie: checks out

Edie: you’re very 😇

Liam: if it was up to him you’d be sleeping on the bouncy castle together, however many rules it breaks

Edie: I think it’d be cosy

Edie: tomorrow though, we can have a nap

Liam: waiting until my ma falls asleep and I can sneak out, it’d be tomorrow

Edie: it’s not breaking the rules, if you’re sure

Edie: you can leave a note for when she wakes up

Liam: if you are, we’re doing what you want

Edie: obviously I want to

Liam: have to keep you up half the night first

Edie: you’d already done that without trying

Edie: but I’m not turning down more

Liam: me or the beast 😏

Edie: I’m not saying you’re covered in brown fur

Edie: but you are that big so

Edie: little column A little column B 😏

Liam: I’ll check the coat cupboard, might get me closer to ticking both boxes for you

Edie: 😂

Edie: you tick every box, you don’t need to kidnap my dad to make that happen

Liam: don’t be so quick to say no to something I know you’d like

Edie: 😍 okay, only if we see him on the way

Edie: tomorrow ain’t about him

Liam: 🎼

Liam: I should’ve got you to sing something other than happy birthday, lock my ma in as part of your fan club

Edie: karaoke night 👩‍🎤👨‍🎤

Liam: she’d have your arm off, to take you up on the idea and to take the 🎤 off you for her turn

Edie: I’ll bring the machine and plenty of 90s bops

Liam: what would your first pick be

Edie: 🤔

Edie: I’d have to pick My Heart Will Go On to win your ma over, obviously

Edie: assuming she’s not fuming I’ve stolen it

Liam: too 😤 at the ending as if everyone don’t know the boat sinks and loads of people die

Liam: go for the Whitney song, the film’s got a lower body count

Edie: just poor Whit IRL

Edie: 😎 he’s no beast but

Liam: you don’t want no posh 🤴 sort over a handworking lad who keeps coming through for you, I keep saying you’re smart

Edie: makes my motives sound a bit evil

Edie: nothing but true ❤️ works remember

Liam: but you wouldn’t fall in love with someone you’ve got nothing in common with, there’d be no connection

Edie: true

Liam: I’d never call out your motives as evil, even a bit

Edie: you can if I am ever 👻👺🧙‍♀️🧟‍♀️🧛‍♀️👹💀 to you

Liam: that’s more far fetched than you and 🤴

Edie: who did you have a crush on as a kid

Liam: 🧚

Edie: Good choice

Liam: - as many points off as deserved for Lexie and I’ve still got proven good taste

Edie: I get it

Edie: I can see the appeal

Liam: being able to fly is enough of one

Edie: She looks like she might 🎯 a bitch for you but she’s the Wendy really

Liam: there's no appeal to Lex and no need to try and find it

Edie: 🏹🏹🏹💘

Edie: She’s 💀 to us

Liam: and soon to the rest of her mates including your sister

Edie: I hadn’t thought about her all day

Edie: Or anyone else

Edie: just you

Liam: you don't have to think about her ever again

Edie: I won’t show up and 😭 at her ⚰️🪦 when we bury her

Edie: We’ve got plans

Liam: I only mentioned her at all as a - bc you're such a massive + but I probably should've said that without her name being dropped in

Edie: nah, not even mentioning her is gonna affect how +++ this all is

Liam: it makes me seem like I've got her on my mind though and I don't want you to think I do

Edie: you can tell me what really is then

Edie: even if that’s tinkerbell

Edie: or that fry-up still

Liam: you are, and when my ma is gonna go the fuck to bed so I can kiss you again

Edie: I can feel the 👻 of you, your lips touching mine and where your hands were and where I wanted them to be next

Edie: it’s making me wish I were 🧚 so I could find a drowsiness potion to give her or just sprinkle some pixie dust on you so you could fly in my window right now

Edie: weren’t my 🎂 wish though, no spoilers ever 🤐

Edie: I could kiss you all night

Edie: And all day

Edie: But I have got other things we can do, even though it’s my day tomorrow, can’t be that selfish

Liam: not kissing all day or all night if that’s what you’ve decided but long enough for my hands to go where you wanted them next, yeah? i’d say it’d more be selfish if you didn’t share the complete thought with me

Edie: You don’t know exactly what I want?

Edie: It felt like you knew to me

Liam: it sounds better if I say I don’t and get it right instead of saying I do and getting it wrong

Edie: You haven’t got any of this wrong, trust me

Liam: honestly didn’t feel like I had but my instincts ain’t as easy to trust as you are

Edie: I promise I’ll tell you if you ever do

Edie: but you aren’t going to

Liam: that’s the connection I was going on about before, useful for the beginning, middle and the happy ending

Edie: You’re better than any lad in any film

Liam: you’re all I wanna see on film

Edie: bring a 📹

Liam: look for the ⏺️ light flashing in your window

Edie: like a 🌠

Liam: and ⏰ which won’t trigger 🚨 before we can get you out

Edie: I have had previous experience sneaking out, even if not to meet boys

Edie: that bit, I can do

Liam: there’s shit you can’t do, don’t believe that bit for a sec

Edie: 😏 you know

Edie: as my sister tried to make me sound like a total child

Liam: she knows you different to me, you’re a separate person to her than how you exist when we’re together

Edie: yeah

Edie: that’s how she likes to keep us, still about 7 in her head

Liam: my sister went the other way, she wasn’t waiting round for me to grow up when she could tell me to hurry up and do x z or z thing with her

Edie: it’s cool, that she didn’t treat you like an incapable kid

Edie: better, anyway, right?

Liam: but sometimes I wish she’d let me be one, it don’t matter, you can’t turn round like not today I wanna go to the park with my mates, not with lads I already knew were gonna be gone long before her, not to do fuck all instead of a crazy scheme

Edie: being ‘grown’ is only fun if it’s how you wanna do it, that’s definitely the main draw of not being a kid, doing exactly what you want and when

Edie: less shine if it isn’t your scheme

Liam: I think it’d be 🌟✨ to be looked after, but I get it’d fade for me if I had a sister like yours

Edie: you already charmed her, she’ll extend the courtesy to you now too I bet

Liam: it’s too late for me to start living like that

Edie: not if you want it

Edie: we can do it

Liam: I ain’t had a family in so long, I dunno if I could do it

Edie: we don’t need mine

Edie: we can have our own

Liam: can we

Edie: yes

Edie: and we can do anything and everything you missed out on

Liam: what happens if nothing changes and I’m stuck as a 🤖

Edie: if that happens then a baby won’t

Liam: and you’ll have to leave

Edie: no

Liam: I’m not taking no for an answer or asking anyone to love me if I can’t love them back

Edie: I can do it

Liam: your ++++ can’t make up for such a massive - in me

Edie: don’t give in yet

Edie: we have nothing but time

Liam: I’m saying it before I give in to you and believe we can do this

Edie: okay

Edie: I am listening

Liam: I’m not dying, I don’t get to be as selfish as my sister and I wanna care more than my parents

Edie: I love that about you

Edie: not enough people give a shit about anyone who isn’t themselves

Edie: or act like they’re a saint if the list includes the person they’re fucking too

Liam: we can’t do things just to try and force me to feel, even though I want to

Edie: it’s up to you

Edie: all of it

Edie: I don’t want to force you to do anything

Liam: it’s not, it’s equally up to you

Edie: Kinda

Edie: but I already feel things for you

Liam: I’m not gonna let your feelings force you to do anything same as you’re not gonna let what I don’t do it for me

Edie: I won’t let this fail

Liam: me either

Edie: does 16 feel any different

Liam: only bc of how I celebrated it

Edie: well I like that 🥰

Edie: I’m getting you a gift, just give me time

Liam: you’ve given me loads of 🎁🎁

Edie: nothing I could tie up with a bow

Liam: you could do a 🎀 in your hair before you come out, but it probably won’t help with your sister thinking you’re a kid still

Edie: 🤞 she shouldn’t be seeing me

Liam: or the 📹 footage of you 👧🏼

Edie: not for her 👀

Edie: or anyone else’s if we decide

Liam: if they’ve not had their fix of you today that’s their 💔

Edie: I’m for you

Liam: I’m buzzing not to be afraid of that, maybe normal is overrated this time

Edie: maybe it’s just scary

Liam: you’re not

Edie: 👺

Liam: you’re 🔥 people are scared of it but it’s not about you, it’s a them thing

Edie: I could cry

Edie: again

Edie: I’ll burn it all down

Liam: you’ve been crying

Edie: only happy crying

Liam: you nearly did force a fear response there for a sec

Edie: I didn’t mean to baby

Liam: I know, it was a me thing too

Edie: how’d it feel though, as it nearly happened

Liam: I was about to leave and make sure you were alright, I forgot about happy crying

Edie: 🚨🚨🚨

Edie: I can’t remember the last time I felt that, actually

Liam: it’s the kind of day for it, I can’t remember spending this much time with someone and thinking it wasn’t enough

Edie: Me either

Edie: I usually zone out after a sentence or two

Edie: it’s enough to know we have nothing worth discussing

Edie: sounds fake, how hard I’ve gone here, but I never care enough

Liam: it’d sound fake how hard I relate to not giving a fuck about anyone or anything in years before this

Edie: people reckon it’d be freeing, not relating, not being connected to anyone else

Edie: and I guess it is

Edie: but it’s boring before it’s anything else

Liam: and I’d come across as certifiably crazy if I tried to explain what walking round as me with everyone else seeming so unreal was like

Edie: people are idiots

Edie: they wouldn’t take the time to get it

Edie: just take it as a 🔫 admission or some shit

Liam: they’d only take the time to feel bad for me, I’m down for no more of that as long as I live

Edie: fuck that shit

Liam: yeah

Edie: when school starts, we’re gonna fuck shit up

Edie: without a 🔫

Liam: we should go in the night before

Edie: dedicated 😍

Liam: not saying I’ve got my ear to my ma’s door at the minute bc that’d be weird but I am, yeah

Edie: if you want something to listen to

Edie: [a song that’s clearly about today]

Liam: if you wanna hear a review I’m gonna need longer than it clearly took you to write that

Liam: I seriously don’t know what to say

Edie: it’d sound pretentious to say I think in lyrics but there’s always a tune in my head so

Edie: when you’re as inspiring as you are

Liam: when I can finally get out of here I know exactly what to do, putting words to my reaction to you being everything you are can wait

Edie: I’ll do my best to wait

Edie: but that sounds 🥴

Liam: I’m not waiting, I’ll make sure she don’t hear me go

Edie: I believe in you 😶

Liam: [obvs do that and show up to her window because we all know you can and it wouldn’t take you very long]

Edie: [question is are you ground floor music room or your room and Billie better be asleep lmao]

Liam: [how do you want it boo cos both are moods]

Edie: [I say go for your room so you have to climb and you have to control your excitement ‘til you too are out of the window]

Liam: [soz that he is gonna kiss you literally immediately though like as he’s coming through the window so you really are gonna have to control your excitement gal and also your volume]

Edie: [good luck with that sweetie, love this for you two]

Liam: [just fully making out rn nbd]

Edie: [sorry we must literally]

Liam: [do leave before you wake Billie up though lads]

Edie: [you gotta because we do not have that much chill to get any further than this]

Liam: [it’s been an overwhelming af day we’ll allow the lack of chill and get you away from the fam]

Edie: [run babies run, we’re so 😍]

Liam: [get back to the bouncy castle because y’all are 10000% those bitches who would legit kiss for hours just for the joy of it]

Edie: [you’ll be dying but in the best way]

Liam: [like who else is gonna be fully savouring this bit for what it is and how it feels in its own right, we know it’s you]

Edie: [you’ve been feeling fuck all, you deserve it, we will be putting across as much]

Liam: [and she’s never felt like this before either so we don’t need to be rushing anything rn or ever]

Edie: [exactly, ugh, so cute, you definitely brought a blanket before you ran]

Liam: [the adorable snuggles you can have bye]

Edie: [‘this was the best day ever’ so sincerely]

Liam: [just nod because we very much agree to a speechless level]

Edie: [sing to him IRL but not in a cringe way lol, a chill one]

Liam: [that is everything though]

Edie: [just that happy soz]

Liam: [not at all soz]

Edie: [what a time, deffo think one of you should get in a bit of trouble for being out right now, even if they can’t find you ‘til they do, like either his mum or someone in cali gaff wakes up like hello?]

Liam: [maybe his mum because it do be her rule and she do be extra rn in terms of her emotions and realistically even if Billie did wake up she’s not gonna dob you in]

Edie: [seems legit, how would he wanna deal, ‘cos his phone can be blowing up as soon as she realises]

Liam: [sadly he’s probably gonna have to go back because he’s not ever a fuck you mum kinda bitch, unlike 99% of the other characters lol, but he’d be leaving it as long as he could]

Edie: [we understand even if this back and forth is a trip, the bouncy castle was nearby so you’re fine]

Liam: [it would be very obvious at least that he does NOT want to go, so he’s not just messing you about intentionally gal]

Edie: [whatever we might be thinking, we know it’s not that energy like you’re not a fuckboy tah everyone]

Liam: [when your mum is overprotective as hell but you’re still gonna die soz hun]

Edie: [it’s very rude to everyone you included hun]

Liam: [and you can’t even talk to the bae cos she’s gonna be popping off at you for ages]

Edie: [we can skip but I’ll just do some immediate afters from her first]

Edie: sorry sorry sorry

Edie: hope you don’t get in so much shit we can’t meet up later

Edie: just tell me when you can

Liam: I won’t, I’ll talk her round, don’t worry

Liam: when she lets me talk

Edie: does she hate me

Liam: I didn’t tell her I was with you, she’s only 😡 at me

Edie: what did you say that she believed

Liam: my mates were 🥺 bc I’d been with you all day

Edie: fair play, boys are clingy like that

Liam: she’s have an unhappy cry and we’ll move past it

Edie: should I have told you no?

Liam: you didn’t know she was gonna find out, I should’ve

Edie: I didn’t want to, I didn’t want you to want to either

Edie: but I feel bad if I make her cry

Liam: it isn’t really about me not being here, it’s about my sister not, this is what she gets like every year

Edie: yeah, of course

Edie: it’s not about us

Edie: be nice if there was something we could do now but I know that’s probably not the case either

Liam: she’ll feel better after she’s shouted at me

Edie: 🔇

Liam: [a gap while that’s going on, such fun I’m sure]

Liam: it’s sorted

Edie: you okay?

Liam: if you can’t hurt me, she ain’t gonna

Edie: are you tired though

Edie: as it’s my day, I can make you have a nap, if you need it

Liam: you’re gonna make me 😴 when there’s 0 limits on what we could do

Liam: serious

Edie: if that’s a challenge to make you 😴 with everything we’re GONNA do

Edie: then challenge accepted

Liam: how much of a challenge are you gonna make it for me to find out what that everything is

Edie: as much of a challenge to be fun

Edie: can’t have you getting bored as well as 😴

Liam: it’ll be a fun challenge too proving I’m not tired or bored

Edie: well, when we can go out again at more sociable hours

Edie: you can start with this [clue] to come find me and prove it

Liam: ok but until then [so many pictures of people with their eyes crossed out from whatever his mum has to read and deface or like their entire photo album tbh because MISS YOU SO SO MUCH] you can have this

Edie: we need a 🏠 of our own

Edie: missing you is so

Edie: intense

Liam: I'll start hunting for a not too trashed empty round and about we can stay in until the holiday cottages clear out

Edie: how’d you guess

Edie: I told you I’d stay busy

Edie: you still have to find me so not a total fail on my behalf

Liam: I didn't, I promise, we must just think really alike and want the same things

Liam: when did you even do this

Edie: sitting still is not a speciality

Edie: and i’ve got a lapel mic so I could record and 🚴‍♀️

Edie: clearly need a go-pro for streaming purposes but you would’ve been 😱 to see that sudden POV change

Liam: I ain't scratched the surface of what you're capable of, have I

Edie: 🤔

Edie: keep going and find out, I reckon

Liam: 😏

Edie: [selfie like 😁]

Liam: I dunno how I'm gonna get used to looking at your 😁 face all the time when we live together, something else to find out

Edie: I could get a 🤡 mask

Liam: we both know the smile underneath is more deadly to me

Edie: you’re deadly and you could kill me

Edie: but I promised

Liam: and you’d never break a promise to me

Edie: never ever

Edie: you’ve got the blood to prove it

Liam: when can I solve the first clue

Edie: is your mum going to work today?

Liam: unless she pulls a sickie

Edie: whenever she’s up for the day, you can go

Edie: even if she’s not mad at me, I don’t want her to be mad at you

Liam: if I leave then, you’ve gotta go sleep for a while now

Edie: I don’t know if I can

Edie: my 🧠 & 💗 are vibrating, that’s what it feels like

Liam: yeah, meaning the comedown is gonna hurt when it does catch up to you and I don’t want you to

Edie: I’ll sleep with you

Liam: my nightmares’ll wake you up

Edie: then I can protect you

Liam: not from what’s already happened

Edie: but from getting stuck there

Liam: seeing me like that is gonna be

Liam: you won’t like it

Edie: I know but I can’t help if I don’t see it

Edie: all of it

Liam: alright, I did say it was a good thing you don’t close your eyes to what everyone else does

Edie: [👀 pic always]

Edie: If you go to sleep, I’ll feel it and I will too

Edie: then I can come find you

Liam: I’ll do it if you sing to me again

Edie: [call so you can do that and both have some sleep]

Liam: [love that for you, keep being adorable forever please lads]

Edie: [so that was my main vibe for today ‘cos she did say she’d look, it should be crappy though and not the one that you find that you actually love straight away so you don’t need to stay here, but you can spend the day there]

Liam: [and you can have fun fucking it up at the end cos you’re not gonna stay]

Edie: [exactly, a more genuine squat vibe this time, so you can get all the creepy shots and footage, as well as just causing some genuine carnage]

Liam: [I’ll see if one of the million pics I have of him holding a camera has the right energy and send it to you]

Edie: [woopwoop, likewise, a more 😈 day but definitely still cute]

Liam: [can’t not be cute ever]

Edie: [tried to fight it but we can’t]

[kinnoth]

AVENGERS INFINITY WAR MEGATHREAD

-really doubt i'm gonna be able to finish this movie so we'll just see where i get to

- we already know how i feel about loki and thor, we don't need to revisit this

- ok but if i were going to revisit this, i mean come on, who wants to talk about "hela draws her power from asgard, same as you" cos i wanna talk about that

like what if that's the reason thor, god of thunder, king to a civilisation of warriors, was unable to fend off like, 4 dudes and a big purple dinosaur? the royal family of asgard draws its power from asgard, and without it, they are weak, they are mortal. maybe that's why heimdall is unable to just, you know, bifrost everybody off the fucking ship the minute it comes under attack. maybe that's why loki can't fucking conjure up a swarm of fucking microscopic knives to fillet the invaders from the inside out. MAYBE THAT'S WHY LOKI TRIES TO KILL THANOS WITH A FUCKING DAGGER. BECAUSE TAKE AWAY HIS POWER, TAKE AWAY HIS GODHOOD, WHAT DOES HE HAVE LEFT OTHER THAN HIS WILE, HIS TRICKS AND HIS BROTHER

WHAT IF IN SAVING THE UNIVERSE AND DESTROYING ASGARD, THEY'VE LOST EVERYTHING INCLUDING WHAT MAKES THEM GODS

somebody talk about this

- etc etc what if the reason loki is unable to attack the purple dinosaur with magic is because when he tackled thor earlier, he used whatever magic he had left to spare in order to heal him

checks out cos thor goes from flat on his face to swinging his fists in the space of like 30 seconds and the only thing to happen to him in between is said bit about loki tackling him

- why does heimdall save hulk? i mean, i could understand it if he were trying to aim the bifrost at thor and somebody somehow knocked off his aim and he accidentally saves hulk, but like, we've established that heimdall's loyalty is to the royal seat of asgard upon whom sits thor's mighty ass. thor who, in this scene, has just been incapacitated by a metal eggshell(?) and is at the mercy of their assailants. given heimdall's priorities, it is baffling to the point of inconceivability that he would preferentially save fucking HULK over his own king.

- if this next scene isn't the guardians of the galaxy coming across thor clutching loki's dead fucking body floating through space then i don't know why any of us are even here

- "he sent loki! the attack on new york was thanos!" makes no sense? like, if loki's scepter had the mind stone in it, which we established it did in the last movie when we broke it open to retrieve vision, then.....why didn't thanos just....take the mind stone in the first place? cos rock collecting is and has always been his goal?

what, do you think that just because you assert a thing makes us forget all the shit that happened before?

- i.....am actually with tony stark. why don't they just destroy the stones they have so that thanos can't get to them? oh, you made a promise? well promises change and circumstances change! you tell him tony! you tell that stupid fucker --

oh my god i'm gonna be ill

- i think the only person whose ego can match tony stark's is probably a neurosurgeon so 👍 i guess

-i love how we immediately went back to the "so dark can't see shit" aesthetic after ragnorak because ensuring that one's audience can SEE what is HAPPENING IN YOUR MOVIE is apparently for radical directors like taika waititi

- cannot believe that tony stark staring at captain america's phone number is being played with the same emotional intensity as thor losing his soulmate entire people

- honestly how many times is the mcu gonna invoke 9/11 imagery til someone calls them out for being terrorists

- lmao i know i said this before but peter's spidey senses tingling AFTER the giant alien anus has already started sucking up new york and it is right outside his window is fucking hilarious. that's just called using your eyeballs peter

- "friday notify first responders about the giant alien anus sucking up new york" lol like the first thing somebody did when the alien anus showed up wasn't to fucking call 911 GREAT IDEA TONY

- still can't believe that they let failed neurosurgeon dr strange do more magic than god of tricks and sorcery loki lol

- i know i rag on dr strange a lot about the fact that he's a neurosurgeon it's just that he sucks.

as a neurosurgeon eyy.

- i hate that peter parker has to be here!!!!! leave him alone!!!!!

- tony stark should not be allowed within 100 feet of children or minorities

- it is very weird to me that steve "brooklyn" rogers has an area code from georgia

- since when was hela a half-sister? ODIN'S DAUGHTER AND THOR'S BLOODED SIBLINGS OR BUST YOU FUCKING COWARDS

- i am very disappointed that thor is going to go get another weapon after we spent the whole last movie talking about how he is not the god of hammers

- i just need thor to have much more PTSD than he has right now. fucking hulk has ptsd. maybe they're saving the ptsd for later. one can only hope.

- i am glad that they are letting him be cleverer though

- THEY ARE LETTING VISION DATE A TEENAGER WHY

GOD. FUCKING GROSS.

- wait when did vision turn into a white man again? did i miss that movie?

- i am disappointed that vision the computer techno robot apparently has a penis. like what a stupid limitation to give your computer techno robot, gender. 🙄

- i think that the mass destruction of infrastructure and architecture in the MCU is because of the pg13 no blood limitation that disney has set? like there's no way to show destruction to the body, so one may only show the exponential destruction to one's surroundings. like imagine how much more dramatic intensity you could wring out of a regular fight scene would be if people were allowed to bleed?

- cannot believe that a computer techno robot and a witch are having a punch up with the bad guys. of all people to fight with something not their fists, it's these two

- wanda has no enhanced strength or durability? she's a regular teenager who's a bit witchy. the first time she got thrown through a glass door should have shattered her vertebrae. again i don't understand why we insist that everybody must have the same powers and capabilities when it's clear they don't. think about how much more interesting it would be if some avengers were more fragile than others and had to be given accommodations as such

- IT IS INCONCEIVABLE TO ME THAT FUCKING BLACK WIDOW (regular human), CAPTAIN AMERICA (enhanced human), AND FALCON (regular human with wings) CAN DEFEAT THE CHILDREN OF THANOS WHEN THOR COULDN'T UNLESS THOR (god of fucking thunder carved of steel and stone) WAS NERFED

- still don't understand how we'll lend aliens afro features but not afro hair, like, seriously? you're gonna dream up green aliens with gills who look like black people but imagining them with black hair is a step too far?

- the gap of commentary in this liveblog is simply because i do not care at all for the galaxy defenders

- "earth just lost her best defender" who? who does captain america consider earth's best defender? it's not thor; he doesn't know thor's presumed dead. it's not tony; he doesn't know tony's on an alien anus. who else has died so far?

- love how exhausted bucky looks. have always loved how exhausted bucky looks. love bucky.

- i forgot that tony was with peter parker. god i hate that.

- "i'm peter btw"

"dr strange"

"oh you're using the made up names then. i'm spider man"

ok that was cute, but peter's cute, we knew that already

- i want to fling both strange and stark into space and i'm having a hard time deciding which one to push first

- "you went to bed hungry, scraping for scraps" oohhhh thanos is just anti-poor people, he would literally rather poor people be dead than struggle, i get it nowww

this is on brand for mcu

- oh my god thanos gets 2/6 stones by torturing siblings in front of other siblings, seriously? you couldn't come up with 6 different ways to find his stupid rocks you had to reuse one twice?

- which one of thor's friends was stabbed through the heart....? fandral??

- "if i don't get my vengeance what more could i lose" more like what else is there eh? what else is there for a king of no people but their vengeance?

- CANNOT BELIEVE THEY GAVE HIM BACK AN EYEBALL JESUS CHRIST IF YOU DIDN'T LIKE THOR RAGNORAK JUST SAY SO YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO FUCKING

VEHICLE FOR AUTHORITARIANISM, NOTHING IS ALLOWED TO CHANGE, FUCK YOUR CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT I GOT MINE

FUCK

- i do enjoy that thor is now science fiction rather than fantasy, i don't think anybody knew what to do with fantasy cos fantasy is again, ultimately about conservatism and the status quo. so i do like that we're embracing the new and boundless for whatever that's worth.

- marvel is a cesspool of toxic masculinity. at no point are characters allowed to actually feel anything because weakness is uncool i guess and therefore unmanful. like thor lost ALL OF HIS PEOPLE. fucking ALL of them. he watched his brother die in order to save him. he is not allowed a single fucking response of mourning. i don't care if he's pushing it back because revenge or whatever, this is the sort of grief that rules you, which will bring all your load bearing structures down to heel, and they let him do nothing; he does not even rage. perfect control. smooth witticisms. why. why aren't we allowed to see his sadness?

- yo i can't believe red skull is a scifi villain now lol space nazis for real

- OH MY GOD THEY WASHED BUCKY'S WIG AND IT LOOKS SO BAD

- michael b jordan was right btw wakanda is complicit in africa's exploitation

- i do LIKE black panther i guess in the way you technically like that cousin you met once when you were like 9 and never saw again?

i like how we have here in wakanda the sears tower (chicago), the batman building (nashville), and the gherkin (london)

- ok but like, presumably not a death cult super technologically advanced wakandans who are deffo made of human flesh and human blood still arm their people with spears

i mean unless wakanda is also a death cult

why is this chicks entire fucking face cgi'd she looks like a fucking cut scene video game character

- oh ok they have LASER spears, ok

so then why did they give bucky a fucking gun

- what is bucky supposed to be able to contribute here exactly, like fucking, again, he's spycraft isn't he? he's a one man, dead of night, operation go loud and then immediately silent kinda operation. why do they have him on the front lines of a fucking lock-step formation battle??

- "it will be the noblest ending in history" WHAT, FIRST COUNTRY TO EVER BE OVERUN BY ALIEN JACKALS??

- stormbreaker is just leviathan axe, somebody's said this already right

- omfg i'm so glad they're finally acknowledging that thor is OP as fuck and does not belong amongst the fucking squabbles of earth

-"titan was like most planets, too many mouths to feed not enough to go around, so i proposed a plan, dispassionate to rich and poor alike" JUST SAY YOU HATE POOR PEOPLE MCU. YOU CANNOT HAVE RICH AND POOR, YOU CANNOT HAVE DISPARITY, YOU CANNOT HAVE SOME WITH TOO MUCH AND OTHERS WITH NOT ENOUGH AND CALL IT EXTINCTION. THAT IS NOT A QUESTION OF OVERTAXED RESOURCES THAT IS A QUESTION OF RESOURCE FUCKING MANAGEMENT. IT IS AN ARTIFICIAL CRISIS IF THERE EXISTS ENOUGH TO GO AROUND BUT SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST HOARDING IT THAT'S WHEN YOU KILL THOSE PEOPLE AND TAKE THEIR SHARE. KILLING HALF THE PEOPLE IS THE KIND OF FUCKING SOLUTION TO INEQUALITY THAT RICH PEOPLE COME UP WITH

GOD. ITS LIKE NONE OF YOU EVER READ

-you've got the big fucking boss in an ambush AND YOU ATTACK HIM WITH A MAGIC SWORD STEVEN STRANGE?????

THIS FRANCHISE HAS NO IDEA HOW TO UTILISE MAGIC USERS FUCKING HELL

- when will somebody please utilise ironman like the one man artillery he fucking is WHY IS HE FIGHTING WITH HIS STUPID FISTS HE IS LITERALLY ONE CONTINUOUS CARPET BOMB JUST USE HIM THAT WAY

cut of his arm CUT OFF HIS ARM YOU BLOODLESS SPINELESS USELESS FUCKING CUNTS . this is a manufactured crisis, KIND OF LIKE THE ONES THANOS LIKES I GUESS LOL

- dr strange could have very easily prevented or stopped quill from punching thanos but he didn't cos i guess even the movie forgets steven strange exists sometimes

- i like that the shield around wakanda has the same weakness as a poorly constructed chicken coop -- you always build into the ground a couple feet to stop the diggers man, come on, what is this, your first energy shield?

- oh disgusting, a girl boss moment. whatever you're all fascists.

- nobody adores martial might like fascists do fucking change my mind

- " avengers: not one person in this fucking cast is able to stomach ANY AMOUNT of personal sacrifice" more like

- "why did you give away the time stone?" "we are in the endgame" THAT'S NOT AN ANSWER THAT'S A FUCKING MOVIE TEASER FUCK YOU

- why didn't strange just trap thanos in a timeloop again? we've already established that is a perfectly acceptable way to deal with planetary annihilation. IS IT POSSIBLY BECAUSE NOBODY ON THIS WRITING STAFF KNOWS HOW TO DEAL WITH MAGIC

- THOR OP BLIZZARD PLS NERF

-CAPTAIN MARVEL SERIOUSLY THAT'S WHO YOU'RE GONNA SEND YOUR LAST PAGE TO JESUS FUCKING DISGUSTING

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