#coming into spaces as a professional

[trans-axolotl2]

In my last residential treatment stay, I did have one psychiatrist who I trusted and had a positive relationship with. Her name was Dr. R, and when I came in on the first day of treatment and told her that I would not take any psych meds and that I had a lot of past psych trauma, she validated me and told me that she would not bring up meds unless I did. Throughout my stay there, she was empathetic, listened to my concerns, helped advocate for me, and generally made me feel heard. At the same time, when management took away our doors-she did nothing. When I needed to get a feeding tube--she lied to me about how long it would be in, and what I needed to do to get it out. She enforced policies about restricting outside breaks, restrictions on items, and contributed to treatment plans that my friends felt were unfair and damaging.

She was a good person and I liked her, but she was choosing to work within a system where she could not control the dozens of things happening there that harmed us every single day. This is what I mean when I say there is no such thing as a good psychiatrist in inpatient units--she was a progressive, validating, nice person --but her very job description made it impossible for a “good provider” to exist. To be a provider who wasn’t a part of the harm that was occurring on that unit, she would have had to quit, because the very requirements of her job required committing ethical violations, restricting peoples autonomy, and perpetrating iatrogenic harm. If she had stopped enforcing harmful policies and challenged her coworkers publically, she probably would have gotten fired. And that really is the problem--causing iatrogenic harm has essentially become a job requirement on inpatient units, and being a “good provider” by the metrics of the system require you to participate in that harm. 

I think Dr. R did a better job than most inpatient psychs in mitigating the harms she participated in, and finding ways to resist shitty systems when possible. I was glad she was there and I think she made my treatment better, but the two of us had a lot of conversations together where she acknowledged the fucked up things happening in the treatment center, acknowledged her role in them, and also stated that she did not have any power to change them. She could not fix the system by working within the system. 

I get a lot of questions by people who are interested in careers in the mental health system, and asking me on whether I think it’s okay for them to work there. My first response is usually if you’re asking because you’re feeling guilty after seeing what psych survivors say, I’m not someone who’s going to give you permission to ignore that guilt. The second thing I usually say is this: you need to go into this job aware with the fact that you will cause people harm, you will get into ethical dilemmas, and there will be times where you will either have to betray your personal values or quit. There isn’t one right answer on how to engage with mental healthcare as a provider, with the reality that until we build up alternative systems of care, the current structures still exist and have people who need support inside of them.  If that’s something that you think you can navigate in a way that lets you create the least harm possible, then that’s something you need to decide for yourself, and to think really deeply about if the reality of the psych system matches up with your goals.

#antipsychiatry #antipsych #mad studies #disability justice #psych ward tw #i think u also need to understand that if u go to school to work professionally in mental health #if u become a psychiatrist or a therapist or a social worker #even if you're one who does it outpatientt. even if you're an abolitionist social worker #that means there are probably going to be barriers to community spaces. that some people might not trust you any longer. if you are #coming into spaces as a professional #part of that decision might be grappling with the fact that even as you gain legitmacy from a societal side. that as u gain #new opportunities for jobs. to work within systems #you might also lose community trust. opportunities within activism spaces. opportunities #to share and be in those spaces as a survivor and patient #and im not saying this as a judgemnt or to put moral value on it #but i think that's just something you Also need to understand and weigh. sure you will gain something. by getting liscenced #but what will you lose? why might people not trust you in community spaces any longer? #what trade offs will you be making and are they worth it to you? what new communities can you build #what matters to you and what are your passions #<- all things i am really grappling with right now as i decide whether or not i want to go get my masters in social work

[beggars-opera]

I don't normally advocate for murder but I will make an exception for our board president

#sir if you could find it in your heart for one iota of professional decorum and just asking nicely like a normal human being #rather than communicating like an alien whose only knowledge of human beings comes from watching office space

[fisheito]

i told myself that yakuei only had one position then i proved myself (sorta) wrong

my fave face here:

#technically... if they were boinking in outer space... a lot of these would be the same position #makes a rotate-y gesture with my fingers #what is yakumo's kabedon if not a vertical missionary #so i've half proven myself right AND wrong! i'm net neutral in outer space broskis!!!!! #zizz-asdf if ur reading these tags i'll have u know that u inspired me to Do the Research1 #like. 5 garu riding eiden? no. it can't be. does yaku do one specific thing with eiden 5 times? *tries to write it down* #i can't quite... what's the word for that position...uhhhh #ah forget it i'll just draw it out #<- that was the process of creating this. collage? 😆 #THE MATRIX OF YAKUEI BOINKINg POSITIONS (under construction) #when u about to be semi-normal and make a spreadsheet but ur sexcabulary is stunted so you resort to visuals instead #legit opening up every intimacy room and skipping thru sections to get as complete a picture as possible #wondering... where are yaku's feet planted in this one. (skips to 8minute mark) #ah! there they are. theyre not supporting his weight in this one *draws it* #while drawing crimson phantom room 2 my brow was furrowed and i was mentally narrating #[and this one i affectionately call.. rectal exam - professional misconduct Grounds for Termination)] #surprised they str8 up havent done classicdoggstyle yet. is it because he's a snake? garu should teach him #also surprised that there's been no Light SSR for yaku yet. come on!! Light mode on the double! #uhhh i think the only repeated positions were freestanding (choco liqueur r2 and dark nova r2) #and standing AGAINST! THE! WALL! (choco liqueur r5 {interior} and shadow lineage r5 {cave}) #wait. *throws papers around* i swear they did missionary more than once. was it only ocean breeze??? #i know with the intimacy rooms they gotta modify the positions into certain angles to make it...look...better #but seriously? only one missionary out of the lot of them? despite the aesthetic tweaks??? how can that ........ #*tosses more papers around with increasing befuddlement* WHERE IS MY PURE 100% VANILLA BEAN ICE CREAM #sighs as all the papers lie scattered on the ground #dude... i don't know anymore..... this is beyond my scope #now that i see how evenly spread out the positions are... #i BET the devs have SOME SORTA CHART tracking yaku's positions. now THAT'S a funky office corkboard! #yakuei

[songofsaraneth]

Opening day swim at the aquarium I mermaid at!! It was so fun 😊

#mermaid jade #professional mermaid #so glad my friend was able to come and grab some video aaahhhhhh!! #its so hard to tell how anything looks from inside the tank so being able to see some later was very reassuring lol #mermaiding #ramblings #oh i am so tired. and. waterlogged #u dont know how much space is inside ur sinuses until you are trying ot drain all the seawater out #my right ear is. still full

[blocksruinedme]

Jimmy may have a bad memory but he is a CLEVER and hardworking boy

who pays very close attention to how other youtubers do things, and takes notes, and works so hard, and now he has 810k subscribers because he knows how to do it.

(well, sometimes clever and always hardworking)

context:

If anyone wants my spreadsheet just lmk. my data mostly came from the youtube wiki and MaxData's visualization of new life smp members' subs numbers. oh, i'll include that!

Jimmy was at 609k when new life started in may 27. he made a (lovely!) pink house.

Twenty one days later he's gained 201,000 subs.

Between cpk and pix now probably, having jumped ahead of oli & pearl.

Y'all when people talk about jimmy being dumb, watch and think how much is an atrocious memory, and how long is not being quick to understand things. If he settles in and works at it! If he's in a group event in mcc and not individual! If he has a strong team captain in mcc who he can listen to! (he's said the last one is how he succeeds).

Jimmy can fucking do it, just in his own way - and he doesn't care to put a lot of effort into learning some things that some viewers want. As I barely care about minecraft, I do have an interesting perspective here! <3

Jimmy can't just get by on his minecraft skills plus his winning smile, comedic timing, charisma, and skill at social rapport and interpersonal... okay I've made it sound like a lot but he has some brains. Those brains just don't know the recipe for... things I also don't care about.

Jimmy Solidarity. You appreciate him. Good.

#late night jimmy rantings #came back to edit tags #cause it's easy confidence #and his humility #how much he appreciates every one who has ever helped him and he will say over and over how lucky he was with who he found #his lack of real ego #his willingness to fail! in public! and just laugh it off and be mildly self deprecating #unlike the 'are you okay i promise you're smart please it's okay' self deprecating i've been seeing in one CC i finally started watching #he works with other people easily #and skizz says he makes space for other people right? #he works hard cause he can't just rely on being an amazing builder or redstoner or whatever who people will just come back for #he's a professional silly boy who loves to play the fool #please people please understand he is the one running these jokes #go listen to his *acting* as he's saying don't call me ken while he's making these shorts #i think one problems with 'internet people flip out about jimmy's relationships with his close friends based on what they see online' #is that many people don't understand how well he can act? #jimmy can make untrue things look genuine through acting #he said once - when asked - that if he couldn't do this he'd love to be a voice actor #solidaritygaming #solidarity gaming #new life smp #jimmy solidarity #nlsmp

[autogeneity]

actually a cool place sent me a challenge/assessment and alas I probably do gotta study further to get into this field because I have no idea what I am doing. it's still extremely addictively good though somehow

#I don't know fuck about shit about time series forecasting so I am literally googling random shit and trying it #mostly going poorly! #resorted to SIR even and it's profoundly shit! #due on Friday and I probably won't have time during the week so I need to get somewhere in the next few hours probably and well #I am here because I would've kept going in circles and need to come up with a fresh approach #m #I understand I should probably be able to do something within constraints (daily cases only) and they want to see that #but man this would be so much easier if I could include lock down info and shit #I don't even know the math lol I do know SIR that's why I tried for that but these damn distributions I know only by their wikipedia page #sigh #I knew this tbh. that I need more knowledge. I guess I just optimistically hoped it was more wingable but perhaps not #at least not in short space of time #which is what would be required professionally anyway so yeeeah #now I'm mostly hoping I get admitted to the degree

[dadbodbensisko-moved]

ok we as a society need to talk about a wrath of khan au where everything is the same but saavik is a spirk baby and kirk and spock (mostly kirk) spend the whole movie smothering and embarrassing her

#oh sweetheart you look so professional in your uniform!! #while eating in the gensis cave kirk *licks thumb and wipes her face with it* you got a little something there sweetie #“dad pls tell me how you beat the test” #pilots ship out of space dock and both parents are like inappropriately telling her what a good job she did #“excellent work mr saavik. you have a most promising career ahead of you” #okay but spock might struggle a little bit with showing affection. parenting probably does not come naturally to him #b/c of his own rocky childhood

[theinfinitedivides]

btw building on my last post a funeral is not the time and place to serve c*nt. that being said that is Do Young's default setting so when he shows up to his de facto mother-in-law's funeral he will do so and bring the c*ntservers of the gang (read: Oh Jae) with him. boyfriend/wife meet cute ig

#tv: biography of a villain #biography of a villain #evilive #evillive #shin ha kyun #shin hakyun #kim young kwang #shin jae ha #kdrama #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #yk how some politicians in this f*cked up country that is the US have no sense of separation of church and state and just #show their ass with their Christofascist selves. that's Do Young when it comes to keeping your personal life and professional life #in two different spaces. so much for the divorce he said not on my watch

[nostalgia-tblr]

re: my seemingly fringe "I don't think we're meant to think Odin was a dreadful cunt" take, when was Thor 1 actually made? Like... 2010/2011? Because I think Odin is (presumably based on comics canon) meant to be "a bit distant but overall good as a parent" but 2010ish is well after the recent (historically recent, by which I mean since maybe the 1980s) shift in our culture's ideas about fatherhood and what make "a good dad" as well as similarly radical shifts in how we approach disciplining children. MCU!Odin is therefore odd because he's a couple of generations out if he's meant to convince the audience that he's A Good Dad or even an acceptable one. Even the people making the film can't have (all) thought he was any good so with this in mind I'm more open to the idea that Odin is meant to be fairly shit. (But not entirely, and certainly not to the point of him being evil - he's doing his best and arguably the issue isn't him but the culture they've all been born into.)

IDK how old the writer was but there could be an intentional generation-gap thing going on there? An "everyone thinks this is acceptable and even good parenting, but it isn't and everyone involved is getting messed up by it." You don't have to go that far back historically before failing to show regular affection to your kids wouldn't be seen as a significant flaw in a father (whereas it absolutely would be in a mother - v interesting that as the status of women in our society has increased our idea of a good dad has shifted significantly towards an ideal that would previously have been considered "maternal" and thus "unmanly." Oh hey, looks like patriarchy is bad for men too!)

I still think a lot of fanon and fanfic overstates it (which is fine until we're at the point of inventing obviously abusive behaviour and then seemingly forgetting that we made that up), and that Odin is at least meant to be 'doing his best' but yeah Them Thor Films must surely be aware that his best is nowhere near Actually Good, yeah? I mean unless they were written by a man who lives in the 1950s, which they probably weren't. (There is absolutely some generational variation in how far the social change has taken hold but you'd have to look for a long time before you'd find a man of any age who'd say "I really wish my father had been more reserved and had spent less quality time with me" rather than wistfully expressing the opposite of that.)

#mcu tag i guess #that said as recently discussed frigga's characterisation (such as it is) is also quite out-of-date and thus a bit weird #every single thing we know about her comes back to her being a mother to More Important Characters #and nobody seems to have considered this a flaw in the content that they made #anyway i got to this point by realising that there's a now conspicuous lack of childcare professionals in 90s Star Trek so well done me #(most childcare falls to Wife and if Wife is not available then Man may do some in an emergency. but if neither Wife nor Man is available #the alternative is “a friend who isn't working that day” rather than the excellent daycare facilities that don't exist on Deep Space Nine) #generation gap stuff can be fascinating - like how many Boomers will insist that their own parents weren't fucked up by WW2 in any way #“oh but my dad wasn't at all affected by his experiences during the war - i know this because he never talked about any of it” #whereas to my generation that silence on what exactly happened in those years is conspicuous and an obvious sign of trauma #and that sort of thing #thor movies

[trashbinbackyard]

failure future ghost guilt hate for ivana and an immortal

Girl wins and fails. (I rolled a d4 for the immortals bc I couldn’t choose and it landed on 2 so angsty Maya ahoy!)

failure: What's your OC's greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it?

Probably an incident with a target, where she couldn’t get the guy fast enough and civilian people lost their lives. She managed to get her target but too late in her opinion. It’s a source of shame for her and no matter how much she tries to move past it, she goes to bed knowing people died because she wasn’t good enough yet. Orion would know as he was her boss back then, and anyone who stumbles on the case files

Not keeping closer contact with her friends after Nayden’s coronation. Their merry band sort of scattered into the four winds soon after and Lucas was her only friend left. If she knew what would become of her she would’ve clung to them tooth and nail but it’s too late now, they’re long dead

future: What's the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it's a possibility?

The worst outcome she sees for herself is growing old and cynical like Orion, loved by none and hated by many, there’s an inkling of pity she feels for him but she will die before she admits it. She wants to avoid it, but she can see herself slipping into the same patterns as he did, so it takes active work and thought to not end up like him. She tries her best to upkeep the bonds she already has and be open to new ones aka Carmina and her family

As the years go on and on and on she becomes more isolated and jaded. She’s seen how Dimos’ mind has completely broken and she fears the same thing will happen to her eventually, even if Dimos is younger than her. She tries to find comfort in the fleeting moments with mortals and get closer to the other immortals who share her fears of the future. 

ghost: Who or what haunts your OC? What happened? How do they live with their ghosts?

Orion. She took so much abuse from him yet she never stopped respecting him. It was some sort of sick admiration and warning tale. And now that he’s gone and she’s stepped into his shoes she can feel the pressure he was under. But she also doesn’t have an astonishingly failed relationship and hatred for any and all things living so she has that to one up the ghost of Orion

Out of everyone she lost, Lana, her sister. Way back when, she was supposed to take care of Maya when their mother refused, she was supposed to keep her safe. She failed, but got another chance years after. She didn’t get to say goodbye to her, for all Lana knew she died in the woods being ambushed by bandits and Maya knows Lana felt so guilty about it, that she failed her again.

guilt: What is your OC guilty about? How do they handle their guilt? Do they try to avoid guilt, or do they accept it?

Guilty about treating her team harshly. She has that streak of perfectionism and expects everyone to be just as detail oriented and punctual as she is. She comes off as ruthless, she admits it. She justifies it by thinking it’ll keep everyone sharp.

She feels guilty for thinking bad thoughts about Lucas, Lucien, Viessa and Dimos. They’re her only threads to the world she once knew and her lifelines. They should get along great right? But sometimes they frustrate her so much she isolates herself from them. And eventually feels bad about it and comes back with her tail between her legs

hate: What does your OC hate? Why? How do they act towards the object of their hatred?

Most of the police department, organized criminals. The little guys, the thieves, the scammers and the sort who do it just to get by she knows the systems have failed them. But the big dogs like Ipes she despises.

As much as she loves Lucas, or the being that once was Lucas, she despises him. Gods do not understand how mortals aren’t meant to experience eternity, estrangement from the world is sometimes too much to bear, everything she knew and loved is long gone, trapped with company she didn’t choose. She still carries out his will, for there is not much else to do. And she will become his voice in the coming ages. It’s complicated, is what I’m saying. As well as bad parents, and two who abuse their power, but she can now deal with them herself and guardian of the lost

#i have some meledramatic titles for the immortals come the third age #maya is the voice of the wild hunt #feelings are hard and complicated when more than one feeling about a thing is valid #space shitstorm #armed asshats #by god ivana will try avoiding becoming like orion #even though she is miserable at the office and genuinely bad to be around in professional settings #but at least she has her dad #and carmina #who ground her and keep her from spiraling into workworkwork

[gilbirda]

loving contest shows where the first eliminated are like "i built my whole personality around this 1 thing, and i came here to win" and then they go home immediately.

like no shade and i know that to even get to compete you passed a bunch of prerequisites, but honey.... you KNOW the drill. You cannot pretend you are the shit just because you are xyz.

#gil talks #this comes from me watching all the eliminations of ink master season 15 #and the first 2 eliminations were queer people whose whole personality and professional identity was being queer #'me and my wife opened our shop to provide a safe space. i work for the girls and the gays and the theys- #'- and im feeling way out of my depth here' #honey why do you even sign up???? #also she just had to make a skull. any style any design #like what do you even tattoo at your shop? #also 'the girls and the gays and the theys'? #*eyes emoji* #uh-huh

[silvermoon424]

Reading some of the comments under Nyaa torrents reminds me of part of the reason why I've never bothered learning how to upload my own torrent files there

#like if your release isn't absolutely perfect there's a good chance some absolute basement-dwelling assholes will rip you apart #some people offer genuinely helpful constructive criticism #but Jesus some people can be so fucking rude #tbh as someone who's been in the anime/manga fandom and spaces for MANY years #I feel like certain people have this REALLY vicious sense of entitlement when it comes to volunteers who do work for the community #like they expect you to do constant unpaid work and/or produce nothing short of professional quality #and if you can't or won't they'll tell you to fuck off #let me be clear the VAST majority of anime/manga fans are super grateful and respectful towards volunteers #but I've noticed that in more 4channy spaces this entitled attitude is more common #rant #anime #manga

[raveartts]

for a fnaf kid, i don't think i've ever drawn springtrap before

#raveartts #fnaf #springtrap #five nights at freddy's #springtrap is the hottest animatronic hands down #the rotting corpse of a serial killer inside him??? it just makes him hotter #the serial killer himself? holy shit he makes me cream myself #william is such a sexy name #okay i'm done joking #i think the only other fnaf fanart i've made is of mangle...and that was when i was 9~ #i should draw mangle OwO #oh holy shit my new computer actually has the space and processing power to run security breach #though i don't think i'll play it #i don't want to accidentally install a virus on my new computer #and also it's buggy af and i'm quite the baby when it comes to playing horror games #if professional gaming youtubers struggle to play the game. I'd be dead instantly

[jrueships]

idk why but it always makes me giggle when i see professional athletes liking ig zodiac posts 💀 it’s like you know what, u sure are a fiery scorpio jaylen brown

hes fiery, he's a scorpio, and he's gay! and he needs EVERYONE to KNOW !!

#this picture is so stupid i couldnt find the og so i had to go with the gay watermark #i cant imagine knowing what stefs likes are on insta #theres just something so funny about seeing these professional athletes like some of the dumbest memes #'someone asked me if im crazy we said no 😹😹' shut the fuck up #i will hit you with a large rock #scorpios laugh at their own jokes #sags wont stop saying the same jokes #leos laugh at their own jokes only after someone else laughs at it #gay rights ice boy and fire girl coolmath games #love when my anons come and bully players with me 💙💙 #i appreciate u all #our safe space is there stomping grounds (literal) #it's ok we love them #even if theyre a fiery scorpio #who loves making skin on skin contact with another man

[meaganfoster]

groupchats are excruciating who allowed these.

#i have been in all of 2 friend groupchats and did not enjoy them lol. and ofc its worse w colleagues #i mean the former probably says more abt the situation than it does abt groupchats in general but its left an impression rip #r's #also like. i have two modes one's unmasked and offputting the other's masked and polite and professional to an offputting degree. #usually i love liminal spaces but god groupchats are the exception idk how to reconcile these two approaches and come off human

[queer-omens-in-the-archives]

I hope your week gets better 🫂

thank TwT

#im ok now!!! #still sort of. alert and watchful but #mostly there was just a lot of problems piled up at once but none personally damaging or unfixable and us + loved ones are ok #and autism+burnout brain did not like having to reschedule things on the fly based on Evolution of Problem(s) several times a day #with no breaks to process properly #(also constant hypervigilance bc a lot of the Problems were with the wiring of our flat and that was ummmm #hard to Feel Safe and recoup when your literal living space is threatening to potentially catch fire / is a security risk #and every time a professional comes by and is like oh it should be fine now! and then. a day to hours later. it is NOT!!!! FINE!!!!! AGAIN! #thats a lot hfjdjg kg #it's been two full days since the Last Incident and our most important stuff is Packed just in case so #im choosing to believe this is Under Control until such time as it is Actually Fixed by the pros (electricity guy)) #and then there was the annoyance of landlady on top of that who keeps badgering us about the flat being ''too messy'' #to take pictures of to sell. but i am starting to believe that the problem is that WE LIVE HERE and cant make it look like an IKEA showroom #because like is there a lot of stuff? yes absolutely. but even with all our best efforts to hide the stuff #the last two times we STILL got told it's too messy for pictures and at this point im like ok whatever #isn't fixing the fucking wiring more important here maybe perhaps. this isn't a livable flat my bedroom has no heating or electricity #maybe fix that before you try to sell LOL #/petty but whatever #like us and flatmate are gonna hide as much stuff as we possibly can with 0 proper furniture to put stuff away in (furnished flat BTW) #and the agency will get what they get like they're selling already rented. buyers KNOW theres people living in there #again this isn't a fucking IKEA showroom we live here and use our stuff............ #anyway fhdjfkgk this is like a full on rant about honestly like i'll take that annoyance over the. ah yes electricity in my flat is #potentially a fire hazard now #(tho again we have Not had any issues for 48 hours the problem really seems to be circumscribed to unfortunately our bedroom #that we spend 80% of our time in. in the winter. the heater is electric. oops. anyway fjdkgkgkg) #like genuinely the issue here was less the Problems and more the Pileup and constantly changing plans and situation #and interactions with a ton of folks about it for stuff we don't have scripts for. did a number on the autism brain #prommy we're ok enough now it was just a HARD week and this post was a gotdam Mood when i saw it lol #anyway thank u for sending this in and also Caring this was Heartwarming To See 💕 TwT #saltposting