Miss Americana
Now playing: You’re On Your Own, Kid
C/W: Mentions of abuse, violence, ellusions to rape, Marshal is a perv, misogyny/sexism, angst, Goose has no idea how to Scottish slang. As always, italics in “” depict Norwegian.
A/N: Things are getting juicy! I’m really falling in love with Evelyne’s story now, and I’m the one writing it lmao. Constructive criticism is always welcomed in a positive way. I’m sensitive.
It’s dark; the house is quiet. Evelyne squints into the darkness. Her clock says it’s 3am. It’s only been a few hours since her fight with her father. She rolls out of her bed and makes her way down the hall.
Andrews door is shut, when she tries the handle, it’s locked.
“Lorris?” She calls out to him, hopefully the nickname will make him open the door.
To her luck, he does. The door practically rips off its hinges from his anger. Andrew glares at her, the same look, she realizes, that he gives their dad.
“The fuck you want, Evelyne?”
“Are…are you okay? I know Marshall was pretty harsh this time.” Her cheek still stings from the slap she received, and she can only imagine how her brother feels. He huffs, rolling his eyes at her.
“You’ve taken it too far with this Scottish boy, Evelyne. I’m not covering for you anymore.”
“But you said-”
“Doesn’t matter! This is your problem, not mine!”
He turns to go back into his room, leaving Evelyne there in shock. Andrew stops and looks at her one last time.
“Oh, and another thing, Marshall knows there isn’t a ‘Malic Greene’ in your class.” Then the door slams in her face, making her flinch.
“You’re on your own, kid. You always have been.”
“Lass?”
Evelyne blinks at him, her curls matted to her face from the rain. She barely remembers how she got here. She’s still in her pajamas; an old nirvana shirt and cotton sleep shorts. She didn’t even put on shoes in her desperation to get to him. Falling into his arms, she sobs out a single word.
“Johnny,”
He pulls her into the house. She’s never done this; shown up at his Aunts house at the crack-ass of dawn. John bombards her with questions. What happened? Are you okay, lass? Evelyne doesn’t respond to any, only sobs.
God, she feels so stupid. The more she gets Johnny involved with her, the more she puts him at risk of Marshal’s wrath. The roses were bad enough. It’s not until John pulls her away from his shoulder, tucking stray curls behind her ears with a gentleness she’s never felt, that Evelyne realizes what she has to do. She stares into the sea of blue that is her boys’ eyes.
“I can’t keep doing this, Johnny.”
“Doing wha’?”
She shakes her head. Please, she begs, don’t make me say this. Evelyne thinks that God may just be on her side when Johnny’s eyes widen. The pair stare at each other for a beat in silence. And then-
“Come with me.”
“What?”
“To Scotland. Come back home with me, to Scotland.”
“John you know I can’t do that! What- what about Nellie and Claire? I can’t just leave them alone. With him!”
“So yer just gonna let him beat ya to death?”
“To protect them? Yes!”
Johnny purses his lips, thinking.
“Just, just try, for me lass. I leave tomorrow night; come with me,” He grabs her hands, bringing them up to his chest.
“Please.”
Holy hell. When did he have the time to pick up Norwegian? Evelyne sighs, looking up at him.
“Okay,”
His face lights up.
“Really?”
“Really,”
Johnny’s kisses were always passionate, as was everything the boy did, but Evelyne felt like she was on fire when their lips met. Her hands went to his poorly done buzz cut as his went to her waist. If this is what she was giving London up for, it was worth it.
“I’ll run away,”
London airport is bustling, people rushing to their terminal, to their loved ones, or to a taxi. Evelyne clutches her carry on bag to her chest as walks in the building. Johnny was in Gate C9, where he and his family were waiting for her. She feels nauseous; she’s really doing this. Leaving her family, her childhood, her sisters, behind. She ignores the constant buzzing of her phone in favor of rushing through the airport.
“From sprinklers splashes to fireplace ashes,”
Evelyne confirms for the fifth time that she is, in fact, at Gate C9. The problem? Johnny’s not here. There’s no terrible haircut, no loud Scottish slang. Evelyne’s vision blurs as tears form in her eyes; again.
“I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this.”
Three hours later, the plane is long gone, and it’s dark outside. Evelyne gathers her bags and makes her way outside. So much for coming home.
“Where that fuck have you been, girl?!”
“I went for a walk,”
Evelyne makes it two steps before her curls are roughly grabbed. She yelps before falling back.
“You don’t do shit without my permission, you hear?!”
She looks at her father. His dark skin has a slight yellow tint to it. His liver must be failing. She can practically taste the shitty beer he drinks.
“Yes, sir.”
Marshal looks shocked for a half a second before he smiles and his eyes roam. Evelyne wants to puke.
“Good girl. It’s about time you learned.”
He releases his grip on her hair, allowing her to cower away. Evelyne lugs her bags up the stairs and into her room.
“You’re on your own kid,”
The panic starts before she can stop it.
“Yeah you can face this,”
Evelyne rips her stained sheets off her bed, shoving them into her closet.
“You’re on your own kid,”
“You always have been.”
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* 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐎𝐅 𝐃𝐔𝐓𝐘: 𝐌𝐎𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐍 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐅𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝟐 ( 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟐. )
feel free to change pronouns / wording! spoiler warning.
“ we’re burning daylight here. ”
“ he’s punctual, i’ll give him that. ”
“ i know that look. ”
“ shit, that was close. ”
“ i’m hit! ”
“ they’re gonna need a new hero. ”
“ we’re not done yet. ”
“ those fuckers used us as bait, didn’t they? ”
“ that’s a glorious sight. ”
“ several pieces will do, easier to find that way. ”
“ are you saying we shouldn’t have helped? ”
“ that’s the first good news i’ve heard all day. ”
“ i want this done right, no mistakes. ”
“ well don’t take all the fun, eh? ”
“ CIA shit… ”
“ welcome to my world. ”
“ keep your weapons concealed. ”
“ one too many, huh? ”
“ we need a distraction. ”
“ i can be very persuasive. ”
“ i thought we were on a first name basis, this must be serious. ”
“ i need your help. ”
“ i need you to stop it. ”
“ someone’s out there. ”
“ it’s nothing. ”
“ get the fuck out of my house! ”
“ drop your fucking weapons right now! ”
“ do you know who i am? ”
“ don’t, i’m not getting out. ”
“ i’ve never been to mexico. ”
“ i’m afraid of ghosts. ”
“ we love this place, and we will die fighting for it. ”
“ our streets are laced with death. ”
“ i keep that a secret. ”
“ can we make that? ”
“ do or die. ”
“ we’ll take them by surprise. ”
“ watch your footing here. ”
“ you led us to a dead end! ”
“ you’d better be right behind me! ”
“ tell me something good. ”
“ do you see a weapon on them? ”
“ these guys are fucked. ”
“ good thing your aim isn’t shite like theirs. ”
“ wasn’t going to leave your ass behind. ”
“ you know i love that shit! ”
“ we’re getting off to a bad start here. ”
“ if you disappeared, no one would know where to look for the fucking stain. ”
“ i have no doubt you’ll take pleasure in torturing me. ”
“ this is illegal. ”
“ let me finish this. ”
“ you can’t be serious. ”
“ you shouldn’t be alone out there. ”
“ try to anticipate their paths. ”
“ good to be back in the field? ”
“ what’s your favourite weapon? ”
“ i’m not a marksman, but i know me some guns. ”
“ know where the word sniper came from? from bird hunting. bird called a snipe. highly camouflaged from predators - if you could hit one, you were called a sniper. ”
“ this happened on my watch. i need to know how. ”
“ let’s get this unfucked. ”
“ you done this before? ”
“ many times. since you were in diapers. ”
“ we’ll check your ghillie suit when this is over. ”
“ this will all be in my final report. ”
“ that’s how i like to tell it, you can tell it your way. ”
“ nice fucking shot. ”
“ let’s go together - two’s better than one, right? ”
“ you need cover and i’m the better shot. ”
“ we didn’t all run cross country in college. ”
“ i still run, just gotta stop smoking. ”
“ can i interest you in a cigar, perhaps? ”
“ if you’re looking for a gunfight, you’ll get one. ”
“ appears you can do math. ”
“ getting cheeky are you? ”
“ good to laugh while we still can. ”
“ all dead from rapid onset of holes in the head. ”
“ this is your jam. ”
“ like riding a bike. ”
“ not sure if that’s good news or bad news. ”
“ well, you were so good at it the first time. ”
“ age before beauty. ”
“ i’m not alone, i’m armed and dangerous. ”
“ i know you’re upset. ”
“ don’t die doing this. ”
“ war isn’t about friends, it’s about enemies. ”
“ let’s thin the herd. ”
“ we share a common enemy. ”
“ like old times. ”
“ i’m not dead, i’m hanging from a bloody rope! ”
“ we were chasing them, now they’re going to chase us. ”
“ he’s mine! ”
“ it’s over, it’s over. ”
“ i owed you one. ”
“ we’re even, then. ”
“ may good luck find us all. ”
“ i’d prefer if you didn’t. ”
“ i’ll take my chances. ”
“ you’ve got balls, you son of a bitch. ”
“ goddamn, how’d you do that? ”
“ i hope he makes it. ”
“ don’t lie. ”
“ tell them everything they want to know or you’ll die here. ”
“ you’re only alive because you may have some information. ”
“ you don’t speak unless spoken to. ”
“ i’m just trying to stay sharp, y’ know? ”
“ the pain will keep you sharp. ”
“ we don’t know him and he’s seen our faces. ”
“ this is simple: i ask questions, you answer truthfully. ”
“ do not lie to me. ”
“ you can’t trust him. ”
“ forget about your friend. he’s gone. ”
“ i’ve got some curious asshole next to me. ”
“ i kneel for no one, motherfucker. ”
“ a bullet will make you kneel. ”
“ how do you two know each other? ”
“ strong words are important our word is our worth, right? ”
“ i don’t take orders anymore. ”
“ i created a power vacuum, and i filled it. ”
“ what you don’t do, your competitors will. ”
“ you’ve got ten seconds, or i’m going to show you the difference between the military, and me. ”
“ god help us all. ”
“ be ready for anything, this could be a trap. ”
“ you’re wasting time, what the fuck!? ”
“ i admire it, so i’m taking it. ”
“ i don’t take orders from you. ”
“ what the fuck did you just say to me, pendejo? ”
“ you’re out of line. ”
“ no one needs to get hurt here. ”
“ are you threatening us? ”
“ i don’t make threats, i make guarantees. ”
“ why the hell are we talking like this is some kind of negotiation? ”
“ that was a big mistake, brother. ”
“ it did not have to be like this. ”
“ thought we lost you. ”
“ you injured? ”
“ let’s find out how good you are. ”
“ i’m not a medic. ”
“ keep your blood in, you’ll need every drop. ”
“ you’ll need to improvise to survive. ”
“ look for supplies - things you can make tools with. welcome to guerrilla warfare. ”
“ watch your arse, you’ve got exactly zero allies down there. ”
“ we’re teammates. friendship’s not in the field manual. ”
“ sounds like you’ve done this before… ”
“ careful with it, can light your way but attract attention. ”
“ we’re on our own. ”
“ be careful who you trust. people you know can hurt you the most. ”
“ i wanna be like you when i grow up. ”
“ i don’t trust anyone. ”
“ just make sure you can trust yourself, start there. ”
“ if he barks, shoot him and repo quickly - don’t get compromised. ”
“ you are stone cold. ”
“ what has two legs and bleeds? half a dog. ”
“ you may get a brag rag for this. ”
“ you said you wanted a win, congratulations, you’re a winner. ”
“ sorry, let me translate - go fuck yourself. ”
“ i’m not fucking scared, bro, i’m not stupid either. ”
“ i’m worried. worried is different than scared. ”
“ you’re right, you won’t see him. it’s too late if you see him, you’re fucking already dead. ”
“ pay attention and you might just learn something. ”
“ you missing a knife? ”
“ i’m used to working alone. ”
“ so much for no man left behind. ”
“ one of us needs to survive to tell the tale. ”
“ taken a shine to me, then? ”
“ what are my odds? ”
“ don’t make me bet against you. ”
“ a man after my own heart. ”
“ you have a heart? ”
“ thought you’d like that. ”
“ that’s a scary thought. ”
“ choose your shots and targets wisely, guns make noise. ”
“ be smart with what you’ve got, that’s the trick. ”
“ it’s raining fucking hard. ”
“ rain’s good, it’ll cover your tracks. ”
“ so you do like me? ”
“ i like you alive. ”
“ open hearts and minds with it. ”
“ this is an unprecedented amount of fuckery. ”
“ we’re not safe here. ”
“ i’m in the coffee shop. ”
“ get us a tea. ”
“ fucking brits… ”
“ you’re gonna owe me for this. ”
“ are you ugly? ”
“ hand held 50.cal? you’re coming with me. ”
“ you get caught out there, they’ll kill you slow. ”
“ they’ll take videos. i won’t watch them, more than once anyway. ”
“ you like tequila? ”
“ tastes like dog piss. ”
“ i’ll bet you sleep with that thing? ”
“ you’re out of your mind. ”
“ i’d murder for a whiskey. ”
“ two goldfish are in a tank. one turns to the other and says… ‘you know how to drive this thing?’ ”
“ little army humour. ”
“ why don’t blind guys skydive? scares the shit out of their dogs. ”
“ why was the strawberry crying? because he was in a jam. ”
“ why don’t shrimp share? because they’re a little shellfish. ”
“ got company in the church, and they’re not here for forgiveness. ”
“ it was need to know. ”
“ what if i needed to know? ”
“ i was on the run. ”
“ we’re a team. ”
“ this happened on my watch and i’ll need help to fix it. ”
“ no one fights alone. ”
“ i learned from the best. ”
“ i wouldn’t want to mess with him. ”
“ a little help’s not so bad, eh? ”
“ time to take out the trash… ”
“ your bread and butter. ”
“ unless he runs into me on the way. ”
“ ka-freaking-boom, baby. ”
“ mercenaries, bloody wannabes. ”
“ if i told you, i’d have to kill you. ”
“ do not fail… i told you this shit was important. ”
“ his arabic is atrocious. ”
“ the cover up is always worse than the crime. ”
“ we all keep secrets. ”
“ consider yourself well informed now. ”
“ no one holds me down with a roll of red tape. ”
“ you’ve lost your mind. ”
“ to do good, you’ve gotta do some bad. ”
“ he’s a dog with a bone, and i highly recommend you don’t try and take it. ”
“ this is your last chance to change your mind. ”
“ you’re a good soldier. ”
“ when this is over, we’ll cook asada at my ranch. ”
“ i always keep my eyes on the gringos. ”
“ i trusted him. ”
“ bad men can do good things. ”
“ good men can do bad too. ”
“ if we make it out of here alive, i’ll teach you some good mexican curse words. ”
“ shooting yourself in the foot didn’t help… ”
“ nobody forgets that shit. ”
“ looks like the hunters are getting hunted now huh? ”
“ ain’t that a kick in the ass? ”
“ you got a healthy disrespect for authority, i like that about you. ”
“ that uniform was a limitation. ”
“ knock that honour shit off. ”
“ i’ll be sipping tequila, forgetting where i buried your ass in a week. ”
“ lost a good cigar in the crash… ”
“ violence chases you everywhere, i like it. ”
“ i run a business. we grow, or we die. it’s the way of the world. ”
“ you put a target on your back. ”
“ you’re going down for what you did. ”
“ it doesn’t matter what i did, it matters what you can prove. ”
“ don’t get lost. ”
“ how’d a muppet like you pass selection? ”
“ done it once before. ”
“ you broken? ”
“ seems like yesterday… ”
“ it was yesterday… ”
“ i’ll never tell. ”
“ to cutting the heads off snakes. ”
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