#cause i cant do it t-t

[mispronouncing-michaelangelo]

i cannot for the fucking life of me get these colours right so fuck it,, no colours t-t

(transparent under the cut if anyone wants to give it a shot cause i got nothing aye)

#fr fr go nuts if you want cause i cannot fucking figure this out #jin zixuan #mdzs #cql #the untamed #had so much fun lining his peacock ass and then the colouring went so poorly that i stopped drawing for like 2 weeks haha #im giving him up for adoption uwu hes house trained and a pure breed and hes good with kids so someone come fucking take him away t-t #cause i cant do it t-t #dis meh #my art (???)

[chickenoptyrx]

Ooooold sad gohan w the saiyans wip ill never finish

#but the current thing is taking forever :[ #i wish i coulda got more what i was thinkin out w this tho :T #like just that i think raditz woukd still try to be a good uncle but like #good here isnt really gonna be our standard of good #cause it cant be #just like nappas gotta step in and knock some sense into him for his own good #hed needta do the same w gohan to protect him from vegeta #anyway old old old thing #oh hey its from july of last yr :U #uncle raditz #saiyan squad gohan #dbz #raditz #vegeta #nappa #gohan

[lividjungle]

?Hi

character uses it/its - reblogs > likes

#jungleart #oc #fursona #furry #self #furry art #dragon #eckard #procrastinating on the clothing ref 🙏 #also i know im literally The guy. in the image. But also atp its a lost cause tryna get people outside of my followers (and even within!) t #refer to me as myself so ive just stopped trying yo on my art posts unless it kills me to do it #like w my kintype. i cant seperate myself from my kintype #if by some chance someone is reading this Hi. Thars me ☝️ I mean this in the most literal and serioys way possible

[puppyeared]

Jitterbug

#whenever my meds kick in it feels like im gonna piss myself. not literally but its really really feels like it #and now whenever that happens my mind goes back to pancho (grandmas dog) at a xmas party years ago #bc he peed when we arrived bc he was so excited to see ppl and my cousin had to clean it up :o) #well for better or for worse i know that feeling now when im pumped on 20mg of adderall #im still getting used to this whole diagnosis thing cause ive gone untreated and undiagnosed for the longest time. so theres probably a lot #i still dont know and have to learn to get myself to be.. functional on my own? self managing???? #i even set up reminders on my phone for work periods meals and stuff. but the problem is actually getting myself to stick to that to a T #because the minute i slack off or something gets in the way it throws it all off until i can be bothered to get back on track. it sucks #at least ive built up other habits like writing notes and setting alarms ahead of time.. but i feel like i could do better #its always hard to change something if youve been doing it wrong for the longest time. especially behaviour and thinking patterns. sigh #in other news my glasses bailed on me so i have to get a new pair sometime. i just realized i never draw my sona with glasses but thats #mostly bc i forget. id love to get some browline glasses like my old pair but im picky and its hard to find one id like for the next 5 year #i also finally managed to collect all the fish in my animal crossing file!!! pulled out a char last week and boom now i have a poster :o) #THAT was a moment where i almost peed myself for real. id love to get all the bugs but i cant stay up late on the switch :o( #yapping #my art #myart #doodles #personal #diary

[gammija]

There's such delicious dramatic irony in Martin saying, "This isn’t about saving the world, it’s all just some power play against [Elias.]" and being right about that! Peter's ultimate goal isn't to save the world, it's to be the one to end it, and, in the short term, to win a bet -

but Martin's also wrong about his own unimportance, because this is perhaps the clearest shot anyone had at stopping the apocalypse. and if Martin had actually killed Jonah here, the Spider would've had a real hard time fixing that gap in their web

@a-mag-a-day

#not impossible #but by just the fact that the web doesn't actually try to cause the apocalypse themselves #id wager that they... cant. t #thats way too direct for the power of manipulation to be able to do #they have to manipulate other powers and people to enact their plans #they can nudge and pull and push but i dont think they wouldve been able to send an effective hello Jon #tma #a mag a day #martin blackwood #martin #tma s4 #the magnus archives #and martin talks about this whole thing later as well of course #also martins interactions with villains keeps being delightful of course #Elias again not actually lying to him #maybe martin wouldve done it anyways... if Jon hadnt been at risk of being affected by the fall-out #or do yall think at this point he was too lonely to care about that #joos yaps #idk if dramatic irony is technically the correct term #but yall get it

[slutdge]

preparing for my 48 hour bender to make christmas eve and day mildly tolerable so i dont kill myself

#t minus 4 hours lads #i do not want to remember anything for the next two days #i cannot wait to not have to see christmas shit again for a while #praying christmas is not gonna trigger a massive psychotic episode again like it has for the last 3 years #i cant keep livin like this lads. think i really need to just die. #im still taking advice on wills by the way cause im kinda lost on where to start and i dont have a lot of money #i dont want my parents to have my body but i also dont have anyone else to take my body when i die #is there like. any solution to that. or do i just have to accept my parents will get my body when i die. #cause in that case ill just try to make sure my body is never recovered #sorry that im being a mopey prick and a downer its just that every day of my life i have wished i was not alive anymore :)

[todayisafridaynight]

Arakawa family brain rot: I just had the saddest thought about Masato returning from America, but from Masumi's perspective. He's prolly excited to see his son again despite the relationship tension. He's heard Masato has been doing great. His attitude has improved with his health. Maybe things will get better if he tries hard enough.

Maybe there's a chance to fix things.

And there isn't. Masato's just as vindictive and mean and manipulative as he ever was. And Arakawa finally has to mourn the son he never had. The son he told the world had died.

Do you think he ever regretted letting Masato get away with murder? Regretted that it wasn't Ichiban he still had in his life? I have a hard time with this because he loves Masato so much. I just wish he'd had the son who loved him out in the world with him y'know.

But we all know Masato ain't built for prison.

And I can't imagine like... Seeing Jo. Being relieved to see him again but immediately losing confidence because Jo looks so much more *tired* than he did. Ever together and composed but not really His Jo anymore. Not in the same way. It is never the same after he was gone so long.

I'm sure there are moments or even days where they fall into old patterns but I can't help but feel like (if Jo did in fact go to America w Masato) that that would be a defining shift in the relationship between Jo and Masumi.

Idk what this is really about but I got in my Arakawa feelings (I think be instared too long at the picture you posted). 🫰 Thanks for listening to me ramble byyyye~

EVERY DAY of my life i think of arakawa wondering if what they did regarding masato was 'the right choice'- like OF COURSE it was masato literally wouldnt have made it yet if it was the right choice why does it feel like such the wrong choice yeah...

#snap chats #im gonna throw up saying this but like i vaaaaaggguely tickled that topic in the recent fic i posted #not too much but. definitely alluded to the fact ive thought about it.. and have thought bout arakawa thinkin about it.. #god Thrwing Up tho because the beginning f the ask is reminding me of a fic i wrote where masato and jo come back #it doesnt focus on masato for too long but it does follow the vibe of 'arakawa wants to reconnect with masato but Nothings Changed' #so funny that this Forbidden Fic also just follows arakawa reonnecting with sawashiro.. it at least had a happier endin tho oops.. #i think initially seeing sawashiro again could be good for arakawa.. things would prob be fine.. #but with masato- or aoki- back in japan and him Doing His Thing he's definitely going to call for sawashiro more #meaning sawashiro and arakawa are going to be around each other less and less #yk its what arakawa wants tho- for aoki to be given top priority cause thats his son innit #but of course that also means sawashiro doesnt have much time to hang around.. #i realy want them to have a fight about aoki Custody Battle Momence Right but i cant imagine either of them yelling at each other #i cant even really imagine arakawa raising his voice either... at most he just talks very sternly when he's mad i think #GOD it feels weird typnig all this again cause i have typed all this type of thinking in fics lately jAJLKEJVLEKJVW #POINT IS big agree. have thoought extensively regarding these situations #and that reminds me i shoudl... finish taht other fic i started... that i shared with you... #they can have a . nice moment i t hink :) //screams//

[tarrare-big-naturals]

I ain't posting her on the art blog yet bc she is STILL a WIP but here's T for now. Big naturals and all.

#i cant do digital art very well yet okay im sorry #behold #t #art #my art #i just noticed it looks like her pupils went from dialated to locking in on you #at least its not the other way around! #cause if it was.. #start running

[commanderpeepersautisticswag]

Stop liking that post its not even funny

#Not mad but i do think it just sucks all my posts here are made the instant i think anything about him #I made the pronoun post cause i got mad cause i remembered t*Has to stop talking because i cant make fun of the fandom* ]SORRY

[methcheese]

i am so tired of being poor oh my god

#i have no momey for groceries #no food i can being to work because my job is on the road #no food period #not even sure my next check will be enough to pay my bills #and had to go to the stupid urgent care for my ankle and theyre gonna charge me $800 for an ace bandage #this is making me miserable!!! #make things cost less!! #plus im almost out of t and THAT costs money #never gna be able to afford too surgery cause i literally cant save money!! #why do i even bother

[ozymoron]

dude its always "be yourself" till youre trans and now suddenly oh i get to nitpick every little thing about you oh that gesture was very feminine made you look like a girl oh youre wearing a shirt thats cream coloured? seems a little feminine to me oh you paint your nails? so youre a girl after all like ???? youre giving me mixed messages here am i meant to be myself or am i meant to conform to your idea of what a man is in order to be accepted as one by you

#⚠️ #one time after i came out my mum saw me lounging around in a black t shirt and she was like oh it made you look like a man thinking it was #compliment but dude i got so mad i was like for fuck sake is that seriously what i have to do to be considered a man is lounge around in a #black t shirt??? lounging around is masculine???? what???????? #i was also just a very angry person in general but still that really confuses me #had a psychiatrist note down shit about my appearance saying whether they thought it was feminine or masculine (they thought it was all #feminine) which was fucking crazy cause i went in for an adhd diagnosis #people just find out youre trans and suddenly start acting like experts on whats feminine and whats masculine and what makes you either #gender like shut the fuck up #can also come from people who they themselves accept some cis men are feminine and some cis women are masculine but suddenly as soon as you #try to transition now you have to be masculine or be feminine or youre not valid in their eyes #its fucking crazy #like if i showed them a dude with long hair theyd be like thats a dude with long hair but as soon as i have my hair long im told to cut it #i can show them a dude in a skirt and theyd probably laugh thinking its funny or some bullshit but theyd still think its a dude in a skirt #but if i wear a skirt suddenly im a girl #i know at the root of all this they truly believe people cant switch genders cause in their minds sex and gender is the same but still its #so annoying especially when they pretend to be accepting or think theyre being accepting and when you challenge them on their transphobia #they get all mad at you and act like youre being rude for criticizing them for doing the bare minimum whilst also just continuing to be #transphobic #like yeah you use my correct name but when im not around you use she/her for me and you say i **want** to be a boy instead of i am a boy bu #when i talk to you about this suddenly im the bad guy like its my fault youre using language for me thats transphobic #like ok man. whatever. #sorry for asking you to be a decent fucking human being toward me and treat me with respect #its like people just treat trans peoples gender like something they can just dismiss like its nothing liek we're just playing pretend or #something #like god its frustrating. i need to cut my mum out of my life fr

[thatoneluckybee]

i was a bit too silly help

#rambles #so. so i stim a lot and one of the main ones is snapping bones #so if im not paying attention ill be spinning or yanking my wrists in the most unnatrual of ways #well i was zoning out and jus t hurt my wrist so bad help #its been like an hour it still isnt letting me move it much #girl im right handed i need that hand to live #istg if i cant do school like normal on monday becuase i was STIMMING BECAUSE I WAS LAUGHING IM WILL SCREAM #girlsuffering #<- this is going in my tag for Bee causing herself so many problems but its entertaining to me #EDIT: should clarify it was an hour since i snapped it but it only got bad like the last tenish minutes i cant type well on the tablet help

[thanager]

whats up girls i am crying for no reason now

#p #the past few weeks have been really rough on me and idk why #even though we've gotten more staffing at work and it was less stressful today #and my new supervisor in my department is super nice and actually knows what he's doing #i'm still so stressed every day i come into work #and i'd say at that point 75% of my shifts i don't get a lunch break cause i quite literally don't have time and no one fucking knows how t #-run my department #i've just felt so empty recently #i know it sounds edgy but i don't know why i cant explain it #i havent felt this way in a while #i just feel like im constantly stressed and not even the comfort from my mom or my boyfriend can make it go away

[todayisafridaynight]

yesterday i entered ur stream just to see what was going on and ended up staying for like an hour LMAO your streams are rlly entertaining and i had a lot of fun watching even tho i was just lurking without saying anything

omg thanks for stoppin by, im glad you had a fun time :] !!

#snap chats #50% of the stream was me drawing and the rest was just me bullying beau tbh 💀💀 #but im glad it was fun regardless !!! i like streamin and gettin to hang so :] #i dont usually talk if chat is quiet since i dont know if anyones watching and ill feel weird just talking to nothing #BUT im gon have like. the view counter open somewhere next time so ill know when its valid to . ramble bout bullshit 💀 #ik some people use my streams as background noise so. i wanna try t supplement more than just the occasional stylus scritch #i dont think ill be able to stream next weekend cause i have to go get my bloodwork done . God Willing. #but whether its next saturday or Next next saturday i cant wait to stream again :] #i prob wont be able to stream during weekdays since i have like. ''''finals''''' #as in i have a paper or two and presentations i have to do for class. not really any exams but tbh i would prefer those 💀 #im goin on bout nothin POINT IS ONCE APRIL OVER ILL DEF HAVE MORE TIME SO YAY :]

[caramel-mocha-latte]

Well now that I can afford meds! This time I'm promoting my comms in a normal not panic way lol

Comms still open, trying to see if I can save up for a con this weekend. Ticket is $45 for the day I want to go (cheapest option) sooo yeah! Got a week, hell if you want something I don't have listed just shoot me a PM and we could totally talk about it

Haven't drawn as much g/t lately since I've had a bit of art block + trying to draw furries lately but I'd be happy to draw some little guys!

Here's some recent stuff I've done. Most are for class, but got one fun one in there.

#g/t #giant/tiny #g/t community #sfw g/t #g/t thoughts #my art #my doodles #mocha rambles #visa is still not fixed i submitted another thing for it so i still cant actually work TvT #so yeah if i promo comms a bit rn it's cause i have time off but no moneh to do anything

[vzajemnik]

testosterone save me for real.............................

#🗞️ #havent felt such an urge and tbh need to go on t for. a while #like years probably #but now it truly begins to feel necessary for survival like i cant do this anymore i need to transition #the thing that changed is the way i dress now vs how im being perceived #back when (i say this as if it wasnt this time last year and then some) i used to dress (hyper)feminine being perceived as a woman #was expected and i knew what i was signing up for and shit. and there was a part of me that was like ha ha you dont even know what youre #saying whenever anyone maamed me. but now its fucking unbearable like what else is there for me to do than to transition #like i dont even cause confusion for people. and tbh idk what id prefer more being called maam right away or for people to hesitate before #saying it. probably still the second option. ohhh god #at least i know why the urge to dress feminine again is coming from. bc at least it doesnt feel as dysphoria inducing bc i feel like im in #drag. #i wish transitioning was easier lmfao idk what i was thinking that once im on my own i can just do it. well i cant