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inkskinned · 2 years

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kids remind me, often, of the things i've taught myself out of.

i have a big dog. he looks like a deer. he is taller than most young children. while we were on a trail the other day, a boy coming our direction saw us and froze. he took a step back and said: "i'm feeling nervous. your - your dog is kind of big."

goblin and i both stopped walking immediately. "he is kind of a big dog," i admitted. "he's called a greyhound. they are gentle but they are pretty tall, which is kind of scary, you're right. their legs are so long because they are made for running fast. i am sorry we scared you. would you like us to stand still while you move past us, or would you feel more safe in your body if we move and you stay still?'

"oh. i didn't know that about - greyhounds. i think i ... i want to stay still," he said. at this point, his adult had caught up to us. "i'm nervous about the dog," he told her, "so i'm - i'm gonna stay still." she didn't argue. she didn't make fun of him. she just smiled at him and at me and held his hand while goblin and i, with as wide of a berth as we could make, crept our way through.

behind us, i heard him exhale a deep breath and kind of laugh - "he was really big, huh? she said it's because greyhounds have to go fast."

"he was big," she said. "i understand why that could have made you a little scared."

"yeah. next time i - next time do you think i could maybe ask to touch him? when - i mean, next time, maybe, if i'm not nervous."

later, going to a work event, in the big city, i stood outside, trembling. my social anxiety as a caught bird in my chest. i took a deep breath and turned to my coworker. she's not even really my friend yet. i told her: "i feel nervous about this. i am not used to meeting new people, ever since covid."

she laughed, but not in a mean way. she said she was nervous too. she reached her hand out and held mine, and we both took another deep breath and walked in like that, interlinked. a few people asked us - together? - and i told the truth: i feel nervous, and she's helping. over and over i watched people relax too, admitting i feel really kind of shy lately actually, thank you for saying that.

the next time i go to an event, and i feel a little scared, i ask right away: wanna hold hands? this feels a little dangerous. i hesitate less. i don't hide it as much. i watch for other people who are also nervous and say - it's kinda hard, huh?

i know, logically, i'm not good at asking for help. but i am also not good at noticing when i need help. i've trained myself out of asking completely, but i've also trained myself to never accept my own fears or excuses. i have trained myself to tamp down every anxiety and just-push-through. i don't know what i'm protecting myself from - just that i never think to admit it to anyone.

but every person on earth occasionally needs comfort. every person on earth occasionally needs connection. many of us were taught independence is the same thing as never needing anything.

each of us should have had an adult who heard - i feel nervous and held our hand and asked us how we could be helped to feel safe. no judgement, and no chiding. many of us did not. many of us were punished for the ways that we seemed "weak".

but here is something: i am an adult now. and i get nervous a lot, actually. and if you are an adult and you are feeling a little nervous - come talk to me. we can hold hands and figure out what will help us feel safe in our bodies. and maybe, next time, if we're brave, we can pet the dog that's passing.

#spilled ink #warm up #so i have worked in childcare as a teacher for like 15 years #hence the language behind ''what helps you be safe in your body?''#like you can tell by what i say here i have EXPERIENCE with kids.#but tbh the REAL teacher moment is watching a 6/7 year old say #''this makes me nervous #can you please not come closer?''#as a teacher i was IMMEDIATELY like ... ahh whomever is raising you is doing an EXCELLENT job holy shit #verbalizing your fears? trusting an adult to listen?#ability to recognize a way you might feel safer?#like .... this kid's caregivers.... that one moment... i was like .... who are u i wanna french kiss you big on the mouth

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kaiju-krew · 1 month

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I wanted to know. Is battra and Space Godzilla Gay together? If so nice. If just friends. Then Still cool

they are in fact.......... Gay Together

in my delulu little world at least

idk how it started honestly?? i just like the idea that gojirans are inherently weak for big moths :'') they're essentially mosugoji if you hit it with a emo-yaoi-beam or something

imma draw more with them soon to help flesh it out and spread more spacebat propaganda o7

#kai talks #they are gay gay homosexual gay #battra #spacegodzilla #kesshō #spacebat #i have decided it's spacebat it sounds the snappiest #also #c'mere for a sec #do you want some Deep Lore from the tags #papa kai will treat u right come closer #closer closer closer #can you tell im adding tags to ensure the deep lore is hidden for the cool kids #bcuz of a headcanon im cooking up #with my big big big brain #>insert charlie day theory board with red strings everywhere<#battra for all intents and purposes.............is the divine moth equivalent of trans #WOKE MOB KAIJU RISE UP TRANS BATTRA IS REAL DONT EVEN LOOKA T ME NONE OF YOU CAN STOP MEEE #anyways gender isnt rly a thing for kaiju but its my own special kaiju world and i will make battra trans if i damn well please

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ride-a-dromedary · 1 month

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the darkest of nights, in truth, still dazzles.

a halsin fanmix [listen]

#BG3 Musing #BG3 Fanmix #Halsin BG3 #Halsin #Halsin Posting #my fanmix #i give up this is about as done as it will ever be - i've been talking about this enough i need to get it away from me #i could have made at least one or two other playlists with the number of songs i cut from this #there were some things that hurt me to cut but i figured others had them in their playlists so they're out there #(the impossible dream you will always be famous i am so sorry :(()#i had three goals with this 1. make it more of a timeline in that it follows a narrative order (which hopefully is easy enough to follow)#(it makes sense to me about as much as it is ever going to lol)#2. try to avoid using songs that other individuals have used in their playlists (with a handful of exceptions - i highly encourage you also #take a listen to the others around! lots of good stuff and i figured if you were missing it from this one you can find another with it)#(and if i did use one the context might be different #'closer here is being used in a different way than i usually see it - it's putting more emphasis on the 'you can have my isolation' bit use #in context of the matron and patron for example)#and 3. focus as much as possible on non-romance path elements of halsin's character - i.e. again that's a topic that is highly explored #in other fanmixes to great success - this one is about the childhood he references and the adventures and the capture in the underdark #and the shadow curse and the burying of people he loved and the uptaking of the archdruid position and the healing he did #and possibly did not do #and the radicalization he comes into when his goals are met and he's faced with injustices #and the struggle he has of redefining himself and figuring out who he is after all of it #hopefully the 'eras' are clearly defined but hey it's all gravy from here #honestly if there is one song to listen to that encapsulates halsin for me it's tapestry - highly recommend that #anyway i am blabbing - let the lyrics and such talk for themselves jemi please #but if fanmixes aren't your speed have a kinda nice edit i guess #edit: now with bonus song i just had to add after shamefully forgetting it

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squuote · 10 months

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we need to go back to when people treated stanarrator as a small fun aspect of the game and not the fandom’s main focus please. yes the narrator is gay or whatever, cool, let’s talk about him possibly being a skull now

#crow thoughts #crossing my fingers and hoping this doesn’t make it into the tag FBDJFBDJF #but yeah I’m sorry. it was more fun when it was treated like how it is in game #where it’s not like a confirmed thing unless you interpret it that way #for the sake of my anxiety this isn’t to diss anyone! this is just me wanting to see more analysis stuff #non ship fans PSPSPSPPSPSPS PLEASE COME CLOSER #this does not apply to my mutuals my mutuals are awesome and can do whatever they want 4ever #but yea idk I just feel like solely focusing on a ship is like. kinda boring. and also usually overshadows everything else

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onepiece-polls · 6 months

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I love your polls and it’s great you try to be on both sides to give fair chance to everyone, but the way you talked about shanks/buggy is crazy They’re fine together but in canon they’re brothers and your shipping googles got so tight you actually sounded like you could believe they’re anywhere close to canon which is u know stupid af

lmao, okay, this came out of nowhere 😂 Like... I talked about that months ago. But okay.

Anyway, Shuggy is canon. They're making out behind you right now.

#Anon please 😂#Calling me stupid because you think I think shuggy is canon #but all the while claiming that the fact that they are brothers IS canon #My dear... neither are canon. It's all in our heads.#as far as I know only the marines said Shanks used to see Buggy as a brother #and what the hell do they know about the relationship between two pirates?#sounds like historians talking about queer relationships by saying 'they were REALLY good friends'#And... I don't usually talk about my ships on this blog but that was for the shipping war #shipping goggles was what the tournament was ABOUT...#But come closer... come look at my main blog...#I assure you you can only enter that blog with shipping goggles on 😂#This is all meant jokingly from my side of course #I don't see any ship but the confirmed ones as canon #even though some might be canon TO ME but that's something else entirely #Why not... you know... let people ship what they want to ship however much they want to ship it?#Do you see me taking offense to people who don't want to ship something?#No everyone is free to see relationships as platonically - even if they're canon confirmed to be married #I just take offense to people calling other people stupid because they don't agree with them on fandom things #Especially when they're claiming THEIR headcanons are actually canon #Honestly imo anyone talking about 'shipping goggles' is just trying to make people who enjoy shipping feel inferior #I'm sorry you can't believe we're all equals no matter what we ship or don't ship #anon #ask #not a poll #I hope you all get that this is not an invitation for you all to send me more messages about this #I don't want to start a discussion #I just want you all to respect each other

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prototypelq · 3 months

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Learning Judgement Cutting is making me see just How Freaking Much DMC5 camera is broken. In Intricate Detail. It also makes me constantly trying to stare at Vergil's ass, even tho his coat covers it but my eyes automatically train to see where the Yamato scabbard goes to try to line up the JC timing, and I get a)secondhand embarrassment at constantly doing this, b) freakin annoyed.

I love DMC5 I do, but how do you screw your camera so bad.

I understand this is me kind of whining, as I've seen what capable players can do in this game, and they aren't complaining. But you know what, I can and will, cause I'm a newbie to these games. The only way to make your newbie into a combomad is to give them tools and make them have fun while practising. I am having tons of fun practising, watch me do nothing in the Void for 40 mins, that's fine and honestly really fun, my problem is that the tool which I rely on for proper controls, aka camera, freakin sucks bad at its job. And the input controls for combos explicitly depend on this stupid camera to work.

#watch me whine about dmc5 camera for a whole post #sorry for this i am just fuming a little i need to do this #listen listen darksiders games did better combat camera and they are a decade older than dmc5 #they have weird blackscreen cuts of the upper and lower screen but the camera tracking the player and the enemy works wuite nicely #in dmc5 you can dance around the enemy for an entire week and the camera won't budge #the situation where your character gets Behind the enemy so it is actually closer to the camera and now your character is pretty much facing #the camera which Reverts The Controls Backwards is too common for my comfort #please let me know if anyone can come up with a possible explanation for this?#it drives me mad annoyed #trying out basic jc out of neutral position leads vergil to teleporting back and the camera barely moves after him #(fuming)#anyway #cleared some leftover secret missions today (the person who came up with parkour challenges in a game with dysfunctional camera is a sadist)#and learned some jc with vergil the loser #even got a few done is sucession! the timing is so weird its very hard for me #also vergil has an insane amount of useless inputswhich make remapping him hellish #dmc5 #dmc #i am a whiny bitch today

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camgirlkaminari · 1 year

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four seasons + mu deok means so much to me

#alchemy of souls #hey. hey. come closer.#you should watch this fucking show #mu deok and jang uk are like 'two bros chilling in a hot tub cuz theyre NOT gay' and that is something that can be so personal #the fact that theres not MORE memes about this show #park dang gu my beloved. can i get 5 more of these little blonde bitches #seo yul. so handsome. so burdened with knowledge #cho yeong is so stupid and sooooo relatable #nnot pictured: heo yeom the fuckingest old man ever. the bad guy magician. hot uncle park jin. funniest courtesan in the east joo wol #my beloveds #please watch this FUCKING show #evil art #mu deok #jang uk #park dang gu #cho yeong #seo yul

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argentsunshine · 1 year

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the okumura arc really is the epic highs and lows because. god the tension once you've finished the palace of knowing something is very very wrong and you don't even have the dialogue options to express it. all you can do is tell haru everything's going to be fine, you've done this so many times now. after the deadline, listening to your classmates talk about how the thieves are murderers and you just have to sit there and take your exams and you're just going about your life before the deadline like nothing is wrong even though you the player Know. going to disney to celebrate and knowing the other shoe is about to drop, that this is how it all goes wrong. BUT first you have to go through two separate beach episodes and mona's industrial sized hissy fit

#not to mention other stuff eg if you saw akechi watch you enter the metaverse and then it never comes up #and while I'm not sure I'd put it on the same scale this is also when you get 'theres another palace and sumi knows who's it is'#'and isn't telling you for some reason'#but seriously. can someone please explain the purpose of the hawaii trip #you were Just on summer vacation #p5 spoilers #persona 5 spoilers #oh Also the knowledge that you're gradually creeping closer to november and the interrogation

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nimue-hidden-lake · 14 hours

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Hello! Good day! How are you!?

We're still stuck in Ritsu hours over here! Of course I have not recovered yet...

Anyways, how are you all doing?

#Nimue's Beloved #Sleepy Vampire #He's dragging someone closer. Can that someone be me? Please!?#ensemble stars #enstars #ritsu sakuma #sakuma ritsu #enstars ritsu #enstars yume #yumejoshi #yumeposting #f/o community #fictional other community #romantic f/o #Also his card is part of the scout. Because of course it is! At least he's only the four star this time so yay #Please come home by then Ritsu... I'M BEGGING YOU! PLEASE!

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faeriefully · 1 year

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why can’t I psychically tell this guy that I am interested and love his family already

#before you jump on me #his family has been coming to my church and fully integrated themselves #I’ve gotten closer to his sister and mom and nieces #and he’s sweet and cute and funny #can he please just realize I’m interested #why do I have to stuff like flirt #g.txt #faerie has a crush

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suntraitor · 1 year

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THE MR QI BRAINROT IS COMING BACK take this shitty ms paint sketch of him. i got things planned :] (i forgot the sparkles :[)

#mr qi #stardew valley #yeah okay #hi main tag #i need to fully redraw my design for him ugh. he looks too normal #i give him longer hair each time i redraw him btw #he deserves it :] i think it looks pretty on him #nora.txt #can you fucking tell its a stardew valley fictive fronting can you fucking TELL. /lh #IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS MAN COME CLOSER PLEASE I DO NOT BITE.... /LYING

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catgirl-chewtoy · 1 year

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(original art by @danfoxxdraws)

#trust me #i won't bite you can believe me #please move your hand closer #you should try to pet the cat #nothing bad will come of this I promise

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thatgirl4815 · 2 years

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re your tags about it only being monday/getting taken OUT by this show, HARD SAME!!! all last week i spent most of my time at work struggling not to think about this show and i feel like it's just gonna be worse this week 😭 i adore kinnporsche and i want more of their story but rn i am so utterly captivated by the vegaspete storyline and how well they're handling it (like it's still fucked up but boy howdy is it compelling). kimchay is also cute but i'm 29 so mostly i just wanna wrap chay in a blanket and make him some soup

YES thank you, I'm glad others are in the same boat, lol. My free time pretty much consists of Tumblr tag-surfing and re-watching the previous episode. And I am definitely with you: Kinn and Porsche are adorable and perfect, but until their storyline picks up my attention is on VegasPete. It's quite humorous actually, because until Ep10, I really didn't get the hype about VP. It seemed like a lot of people were onboard right away, but I just didn't get it?

I get it now. I don't know why or how, but I do.

And yes, Chay must be protected and sheltered from this awful mafia life. I love Jeff but Kim is getting on my nerves 😤 Boy needs to apologize ASAP.

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #vegaspete #Can Saturday come faster please?#But also no because then we'll be that much closer to the final ep #Aghhhhhhhhhh #what’s even funnier is #I can rant about how toxic and immoral VegasPete’s relationship is #but I will sail that ship to the end of the Earth #how does that make sense you tell me #Pete needs to run #but if he runs I’ll be sad #so he needs to stay #such a dilemma we have here

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anondudeao3 · 10 months

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Me, reading over broken!verse #55: *throwing chairs and flipping tables* WHY! CAN'T! I! SHARE! IT! YET! I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO SAY!!!

Oh gods please how am I still stuck on number twenty fucking SIX I'm never going to make it to posting this fucking arc 😣😩😩

#I seriously need to stop looking at future b!v fics because it is driving me actually INSANE #there are so many things I so desperately want to share and I can't even BEGIN to talk about them #because you guys are like 5 arcs behind me and there is SO MUCH that happened #and the actual series is like over twice as long as what's currently posted but you guys don't KNOW THAT #you can't see the inside of my head or my google drive. you don't know and all I can do is suffer and try to keep fucking writing #and hopefully fill in the gaps faster. Preferably the stuff closer to the beginning sooner so I can post #but I have so much less control of that than most people would have you believe. I am not at the wheel #Nor is the foot on the accelerator mine #AD updates #please though I have so much commentary and I desperately already want people's reactions and comments on the things coming up #why did I have to make a series this is the worst thing in the world. There is absolutely a reason I've not done this before

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gayofthefae · 1 year

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NO. DO NOT SETTLE FOR WOMEN WHO LEAVE JUST BECAUSE THEY COME BACK.

(In another season finale. In which Eddie was injured.)

#911 natalia #i was REALLY hoping he wouldn't settle #attraction be damned it IS settling to allow her back into his life #he is settling for who will come back or stay even if he also does like them #he still idealized her and was wrong #maybe that means he can see her as more human now but jesus #he took her back SO QUICK #he said thank you for coming back not why did you run #i like you is not enough of an explanation for ghosting please ask for more buck #please ask for more #evan buckley #nooooo #not again #thankfully there is no such thing as truly being back in the same place because the nature of a repeat is closer proximity to self awareness #but gd #911fox #911 spoilers

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