#calling myself out lmfao

[biggiedraws]

me: ehhhh i dont really care for the holidays..... seems like a lot of unnecessary fuss.......

also me:

#calling myself out lmfao #i have no excuse for this. im a filthy hypocrite #anyway i cant believe i put this much effort into a dumb joke. but also it was fun as hell so it will probably happen again #also yes the bunny slippers are real im wearing them right now. you wish your life was as cozy and whimsical as mine #(<- lighthearted <3) #biggie draws #christmas

[dumplingsjinson]

It starts with Character B kissing their cheek, the corner of their mouth, their jaw, down to their neck. Soft, soft pecks, all innocent; light touches of their lips to Character A's skin.

And then—

"I like it when you kiss my neck," Character A admits when Character B pulls away to look at them. Character B lets the confession linger in the air for no longer than a second before they take that as a sign to trail even more kisses down their neck, lips attaching to their neck in almost an instant.

Character A tilts their head back for easier access, letting out hushed sighs and soft moans and gasps as Character B trails open-mouthed kisses down their neck, hand on the nape of their neck to pull Character B impossibly closer; unable to get enough of them no matter what.

This spurs Character B on even more — excites them, even — as they pull the collar of their shirt down to trail more open-mouth kisses on their exposed skin; resists the temptation to leave marks on an empty canvas; presses themselves flush against Character A, leaving no space between them untouched.

Their legs are tangled together, Character A's fingers are in Character B's hair, Character B has Character A pressed against the bed, body against body.

And it's addicting, in very different ways for the both of them (but also to an extent, in the same ways).

"Fuck," Character A lets out in a rushed breath when Character B pulls away to look at them and Character B grins, leaning down to leave a soft, lingering kiss on their lips.

#i can't stop thinking about it ahhhh #i need him to kiss my neck agAINN #him calling me shy while i'm out here moaning in his ear fuck you mean- #personal experience as prompts again #exposing myself lmfao #writing prompts #prompts #writing scenarios #otp prompts

[glamorousdame]

Starlo doodles - slight redesign. He is so sillay goofy funny. Might repost this later if I decide to color it!

PACIFIST ENDING SPOILERS ⚠️

I beat Pacifist the other day and sat on my bed then wanted to cry. Initially, Clover's death made me wanna die from crying so harde but also got goosebumps at Ceroba's fight.

We all gangsta until the intro of the final phase keeps replaying after you keep dying I was sobbing how many times my damaged fingers had to skip that dialogue over and over.

No but before Clover's mind was taken to the void I felt so bad for Star when Ceroba and Martlet started mildly fighting. "Fools let's just calm down and stop screaming before Clover wants to die for us😭😭😭"

Honestly I respect a lot of characters in that game a BUNCH. Dalv is chill, vibed with him and wanted to hug him. Martlet, also wanted to hug her and squeeze her then punch her in the face but positively. I have a really strong 2nd hand embarrassment thing for other characters, fictional or not so I get so humiliated along with them. Star doesn't know how to not get me so riled up w that istg kill him slowly. Vibed with Ceroba also. I rlly like her character, no matter how silly she is for nearly murdering her daughter. <3 I have respect for Flowey also. AXIS IS FUNNY also that chase music ost bro I vibed so good while running away from a killer robot. Sounded like running against steel and metal. Perfect. I WAS PEEVED AT HIS ACTUAL FIGHT THOUGH. He tested my patience so badly with his stupid recharging ball of light whenever I missed him throttle the robot NOW, NOW!!!

Uh that's all I don't wanna make this too long. If you got this far reading this I reward you with another Starlo doodle. I gave him big ahh hands bc he's a farmer so👍 Uh. I hope you don't die tonight. Stay hydrated um idk

#starlo uty #undertale yellow starlo #ceroba #ceroba ketsukane #both staroba and uh corn yaoi i think its called are so mwah #is there a different name for StarloxDalv just curious #uty axis #my art <3 #my art #fanart #undertale yellow #undertale piss lmfao #get starlo out of my house and out of my head NOW PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU #dont #do #idk #i hate myself/j

[florenxes]

“i need her so bad it hurts.”

and it’s just an athletic brunette.

#calling myself out with this one but it’s okay #ona batlle #patri guijarro #laia codina #leila ouahabi #jen beattie #honestly there’s too many to tag lmfao #woso #also i’m extremely jet lagged and sitting in this coffee shop in méxico where they’re playing the most unhinged music is what brought this #thought to my head lmfaoo

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

phone calls my detested

#i had to make a vet appointment and Wow i am not cut out for this whole independent adult thing lmfao #i had to write down a little script for myself... #i feel so bad for the receptionist i was stumbling and 'uhhhhh'ing my way through that call #fuck and when i was supposed to end the call. i didnt realize #I DONT KNOW THE PROTOCOL OKAY #do i hang up??? do i say bye??? she didnt say bye so was there something else i was supposed to say #she hung up so Yay but oughhhhhhh what the fuck #youre telling me people just Know how to carry a conversation? they just Know the routine? sounds fake #i had to rev myself up for the call too #put on a hat. put on sunglasses to trick my brain into thinking we're outside doing things thus fabricating confidence #phone in one hand fidget-dodecahedron in the other. Pacing #my brain is a normal brain that works perfectly fine thanks for asking #absolutely unprompted #i feel so connected to my neanderthal ancestors when i have to make a call #theyre being stalked by a smilodon... i have to talk to a person... same Fear <3 #no but fr whenever i have to talk to someone my thought process shuts down Completely and i forget that im a living human being #fight or flight - neither. freeze and play dead #i think in my next life... i would like to be... a decorative plant #perhaps one of those tall ferns outside a seaside barbecue restaurant #i'd Win at that life. id be so good at photosynthesizing & rustling in the ocean breeze

[silverquillsideas]

Me, an artist : *spends hours perfecting anatomy, proportions, clothing folds, colors, perspective, rendering, background, lights, the 2% overlay layer of doom, etc etc*

Also me, an artist : *posts said art at the worst possible fucking time known to mankind when literally nobody on earth is online*

#Personal #artists on tumblr #Digital art #Illustration #Character art #Visdev #Fanart #Sketch #Doodle #character design #illustrations #Artist #art struggles #YES THIS IS A CALL OUT POST FOR MYSELF CUZ I'M SUPER MAD AT MY IMPULSIVE SIDE RN #Why do I self sabotage everytime lmfao #Please tell me I'm not the only clown doing this asjhadsfsfsjsa

[anotherpapercut]

hi more drug question

I have been told many many times that using ecstasy will basically fry your seratonin receptors so that you will never be able to feel happy again unless you are using the drug. I am assuming now that this is false but I am curious now as to how false. Is it something that CAN happen if you take too much at once or too often, or is this just random Drug Scary misinformation

Also also since wellbutrin is not an SSRI does LSD work when you are on it or does it also cancel it out

lol that's kind of an extreme version of what I usually hear! you're right that basically the answer here is no. this comes from a couple different things. first is MDMA induced serotonin toxicity, and 2nd is something called "serotonin syndrome" which is a real thing that can happen, but it's really really hard to get like this. prepare for a very long answer lmfaooo

MDMA induced serotonin toxicity occurs when you take too high doses too frequently. MDMA IS slightly neurotoxic, but so are many prescription drugs so don't let that word freak you out too much! basically MDMA works by dumping large amounts of serotonin into your brain, hence why it's the happy/love drug lol. if you take too much too often, your brain will straight up run out of serotonin. obviously that's bad! it's not as simple as "never feeling happy again" but you will essentially have depression for a bit because of lack of serotonin (on its own, low serotonin levels following modest MDMA use is not damaging and resolves within a few days) but the real problem is that if you are on MDMA with depleted serotonin, your brain will continue releasing dopamine which will attach to the serotonin receptors and damage them. this is what can cause long term depression symptoms, the damaged serotonin receptors. ultimately your brain will heal this on its own unless for some reason I guess you keep taking it a lot (which would have no effect. when you take too much MDMA your brain just runs out of serotonin to dump so like. it just won't work lol)?? it can also be treated with the supplement NAC, which I would recommend taking any time you use MDMA because of this!

to sum up MDMA toxicity: it can happen but only if you're misusing it! it's generally recommended that you dont do much more than 1 dose every 3 months or so to make sure your brain has time to reset. research interactions with anything else you're using (prescription or not), take some NAC in the weeks following a dose, drink a lot of water, keep your body temperature regular because that can worsen it, and take some antioxidants like alpha lipoic acid and grape seed oil during/immediately after taking MDMA - it's when you come down that your brain is delicate and could use the protection. also this may sound counterintuitive but weed also has antioxidant properties, so smoking it as you come down helps a lot. also if you DO have MDMA toxicity taking more MDMA will not help u feel happy unfortunately it will just make it worse lol, your brain only has so much serotonin to give

now serotonin syndrome can happen with the misuse of any drug that works on serotonin including MAOIs, SSRIs, and SNRIs, usually by taking a VERY large dose (but some people are just extremely sensitive). it usually takes care of itself eventually, but the amount of time it takes and stuff is kinda hard to pin down bc it's REALLY misunderstood and tends to be overly self diagnosed. again this is like super super hard to do. you would have to take a MASSIVE dose or mix it with other serotonin affecting drugs (ESPECIALLY MAOIs. DO NOT MIX MDMA WITH MAOI ANTI DEPRESSANTS). like 5 times the normal dose at least probably (partner is currently trying to find some literature on it so he'll add that in the replies if he finds anything interesting). it will cause things like heightened anxiety and body temperature and can cause kidney problems or seizures if it's like really bad and untreated. but you'd feel REALLY bad before it got to that point, so in general like, if you take any type of drug and feel extremely bad after go to the doctor lol. mostly this will also just heal itself; your brain is pretty resilient! again usually if this does happen it's very minor. cases bad enough to require hospitalization are exceedingly rare

to give you an example of what these can look like, I have a friend who was given about 3-4 times a regular dose by a fucking piece of shit asshole she knows and, this part is crucial, it was mixed with a very large amount of alcohol AND acid (which can slightly increase the neurotoxicity. normally not a huge issue but becomes one in circumstances like this), AND coke; like she was blackout drunk and while not on a lot of acid or coke, this is just too many things to have in your body and brain at one time. the mixture of such a large amount different drugs caused her what I'm guessing was a mild case of both of these things at once. she experienced slightly worsened depression for about 6 months after, and actually had a mild stutter for almost a year. I made sure she took some NAC and other things that aid brain healing, and she didn't try molly again for a long time to be super sure she didn't overload her brain before it was ready. this is a pretty extreme case, and even with that she has fully recovered thankfully. do NOT EVER do drugs with someone you don't trust with your life. DO NOT EVER do drugs in doses you have not confirmed for yourself to be safe and DO NOT EVER mix drugs without finding out if it's safe!!! just as a small aside though: usually taking molly and acid at the same time is perfectly safe. in fact it's called a candy flip and I HIGHLY recommend it because it's fucking awesome. again, just make sure you are taking safe doses in a safe environment

OKAY now finally your specific question about Wellbutrin: I actually take Wellbutrin so I can answer this one from personal experience! Wellbutrin should not alter the effects of LSD in any way HOWEVER! both of these drugs lower your seizure threshold! I'm on the max dose of Wellbutrin (which is the max dose BECAUSE of seizure risk) so when I plan to drop acid I usually either skip my dose entirely that day or only take half depending on how much acid I'm planning to take. because of the way Wellbutrin works, this shouldn't cause you any problems as far as that goes. for me, not taking my Wellbutrin for a day mainly has the effect of making me more fatigued, and acid counteracts that really well by making me feel very awake/aware. if you don't want to skip or halve your dose though you can also take things that will RAISE your seizure threshold. so like I sometimes will smoke hemp because CBD actually will help with that. the risk here isn't huge either way especially if you have no history of seizures, but again if it's something you're concerned about you should be just fine skipping or lowering your dose for the day. acid usually lasts about 12 hours too so i personally don't even care about skipping the Wellbutrin that much because it basically does the same thing for me. I did take my full Wellbutrin dose the last couple times I've done acid though because I was taking a very small amount of acid (about half a tab)

in summation lol sort of TLDR I generally would recommend MDMA for recreational use because the risks of damage are low and it's safe if you are safe about it. and it's honestly just a really fun one! the only negative effect I've ever felt is some emotional and physical fatigue the following day, and this is largely because of how emotional and energetic you are on it. I just make sure to have the next day off to lay around and listen to music :)

taking it with a partner or loved one will give you an especially beautiful experience, as MDMA has been proven to facilitate extremely open emotional conversations. in fact, when MDMA was first synthesized it's primary use was in psychotherapy! research was shut down during the war on drugs, but in recent studies it's demonstrated amazing abilities to treat and even straight up CURE disorders like PTSD. for a personal anecdote, my partner actually completely fucking cured his alcoholism on a combo of MDMA and whippets (nitrous oxide) lmfao. like dude straight up went from getting black out drunk multiple nights a week to drinking nothing for the past year and a half without any other treatment program. LSD has been proven to have similar incredible results with treating and curing things like depression, anxiety, PTSD and addiction and is also a very fun and very safe one.

sorry to reiterate for the billionth time lol but it's important: these drugs are safe and fun if you make sure they're safe and fun! do your research and never use in an unfamiliar environment with people you wouldn't trust in an emergency! also I know this sounds like a lot, but remember I'm giving you like the absolute safest possible practices and emphasizing sort of over cautiousness because I think it's always better to be too safe. I've taken molly without nac and I've taken kinda big doses a little closer together than I should have without any problems. there's a bit of flexibility to these guidelines, but it's always better to think of them as being rigid so you don't end up too far in the other direction. like I've said it's really really hard to do actual damage that would last more than like a day or 2 max. most of the time you'll just be sleepy the next day from all the dancing so it's nice to do it on a day 1 of a weekend. also it only lasts like a couple of hours lol so it's not your whole day or anything!

#sorry this took me like a fucking hour i kept having to check myself w my partner + google to make sure i wasnt talking out of my ass lmfao #im sure ill be rereading and editing it for the next hour as well #damn just spent like another half hour #hope this is thorough enough for ya ajdbsjhdkshdkshs #on a tangentially related note: ive been weaning myself off of my SNRI (venlafaxine/effexor) bc it didnt help at all #and made my nails extremely brittle ????? like so bad they were constantly breaking to the quick and making me bleed #so pretty soon ill be able to do acid and molly again. sweet blessed molly how ive missed you #cant believe i forgot to mention this but as another personal mdma anecdote: my partner and i started dating while candy flipping #hed been staying at my house for like 4 months at that point but we hadnt really talked about like. relationship definitions #and I was EXTREMELY nervous bc id never even like kissed someone fr before him #but the acid and ESPECIALLY the molly made talking about our feelings with each other really easy and safe feeling #we do it every once in a while as like a poor mans couples therapy lmfao. its much easier to be open and honest and vulnerable #while crucially taking down the defensive wall that can cause you to lash out and stuff #highly recommend 👍 #wtiting a book called the couple that rolls together stays together. its about doing molly but also skateboarding #drug ed #i cant stop adding to this post im sorry

[southstand]

won’t be getting into all the poor refereeing decisions of the game as that would require more brainpower than i currently possess but all i have to say that ryan mason, who suffered a career ending injury because of a fractured skull after a clash of heads at only 25, did not deserve to see one of his players get kicked in the head to the point where it was bleeding and might need stitches and then have to see the player who committed the foul continue playing

#there were poor calls for fouls on liv too don’t get me wrong. probably my fault for putting myself on footytwt and whatnot #but i feel like we can call out clear reds like this no matter which team we support lmfao #especially when it’s of this magnitude #rahul.txt #this is ok 2 rb

[lesbiansanemi]

I should be getting paid to deal with this bullshit

#fandom lesbophobia and misogyny tied in with the PETTIEST discord drama blown so far out of proportion. dawg… #‘pls explain idk how we were lesbophobic uwu’ #idk you attacked a bunch of sapphics and said they were transphobic and biphobic which then spiraled into spreading rumors about them being #abusive and alcoholics and calling them slurs #because they made ‘I hate men’ jokes and didn’t like your dumbass m/f ships and headcanoned a character a lesbian lmfao #also because one of them was supposedly transphobic on a VC but the apparent victim doesn’t even remember it like LMFAO????? #which is crazy considering most of them are not cis and are also bi themselves lmfao #which I EXPLAINED #but it’s still ‘idk how we were lesbophobic a day misogynistic pls explain’ #I’m killing myself this is so stupid #like do you think I’m dumb. do you think I’m stupid #this is batshit #this is why I don’t do fandom discord servers yall are insaaaaaane #idk what’s worse #if this was done knowingly and we’re just playing dumb #or if we actually ARE this dumb and don’t think any of this was rooted in lesbophobia #which had been perpetuated SO hard in the more standard fandom lesbophobia and misogyny ways #not to mention the transmisogyny but I won’t get into that…. lmao #anyways #every day I wake up to more DMs and I want to SCREAM #I just wanna peacefully go into work and live my life man it is NOT my job to coddle you #because you got caught being shitty lmfao #fuck off #kaz rambles

[kithj]

just another day in the IF community 👍

#lesbophobia #i love going on the reddit and giving myself psychic damage every time #also to be clear this person has literally written this character as a lesbian not as someone discovering that theyre bisexual lmfao #one of these days i should post my compilation of all of the horrible shit i've screenshotted between the reddits and the forum #reasons why i left cog/hg: #i do think overall the IF community has regressed MASSIVELY including on tumblr. especially on tumblr #excluding poc and trans people from games and doing shit like this #to having the most bioessentialist nonsense going on with genderselectable characters #man: Big and Blue #woman: small and pink #anyways i am glad there are people in the comments calling them out but it's disappointing to still see shit like this

[kloofspeaks]

Prime example of me during Guardians Vol. 3

#gotg vol 3 spoilers #gotg #Peter quill #gamora #Starmora #I called myself out making this image LMFAO

[damnation-if]

So, i was reading your blog and in one of other earlier posts you mentioned that other archdemons may be less interested in sinless MC and I'm really curious why so. Is this cultural demon thing or is it more like indicator that MC is stubborn in all the wrong places? Is it secret third? Or MC would get too powerful with preinstalled body glitter AND sexy squidmothman beyond comprehension both?

i mean obviously the preinstalled body glitter is already pretty over-powered XD otherwise this is edging into spoiler territory, but i can tell you that i didn't mean "less interested" as a kind of. snub against mc or that they would feel badly about a sinless mc. it's more meant in the sense of... if you hear one day that a coat has been turned into a Lost and Found and you think to yourself "oh... didn't i lose a coat at some point??" and then you go and look but then you immediately see that it isn't actually your coat. you lose interest in it. because it would be weird to care about it since it's not Yours. you know?

...but it is somebody's coat.

#what does the chaos mirror see #anon #teehee<3 #i considered... i Really considered loredumping in the answer to this ask lmfao. but i'm being good i'm restraining myself #i'm not giving out spoilers... not today #but you all might be surprised who exactly called all those crows...

[leosmasktails]

Basically how the Discord chat went today

(There was so much going on lmfao I’m exposing y’all with this one)

And some more:

(Also lo siento I was too lazy to draw y’all’s sonas forgive me)

(This ain’t even HALF of it-)

@pommigranite @dearestdracaena @pigeonsgrame

#leosmasktails #leosmasktails doodles #leosmasktails discord doodles #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #leosmasktails personal #rise!leo #rise leo #rise leonardo #It’s the fact that I would leave to do something and then come back to 100+ messages lmfao #I fr was making muffins and then checked the discord and was met with them looking at pictures of how to draw butts #The muffins were scrumptious btw #I left to go hang out with friends and they were suddenly all real estate agents #peepaw leo #peepaw leonardo #Also I passed my driver’s test today :))) #oh yeah also I just realized I used both the names Tails and Leo to refer to myself oops lol #they usually call me Leo in that chat lol

[999-roses]

unpacking 'sinophone' and its sinophobic roots

so. it never occurred to me to just type "sino diaspora" into google before.

and google is like "oi!! you meant sinophone yeah? here's wikipedia on sinophone" and here's like the other top results

I'm squinting. What the hell do you academics have against diaspora using the term diaspora?? I click.

inb4 this whole rant: I have no qualms with using sinophone as a language-family-use descriptor (like sinophone media), but coming from academia or as an academic field unto itself. but. the literature about wanting to use it as a demographics thing & separate it from "chineseness". just. looook if anyone knows that they're no longer like this let me know. with what im seeing, im having a bad faith moment

so... this is the academic that's hard pushed the term for sinophone.

"crit on orientalism might be complicit for allowing Chinese intellectuals to call themselves victim under an 'unreflective' nationalism" & "but the flipside may be a new imperialism" yeah?? any more unsubstantiated claims???

What a joke!! Clearly only takes authority about Chinese history from western sources, like literally has the uncritical echo of "X country doesn't deserve territorial integrity" that literally fueled western imperialism, and not just of China. Treaty of Nanjing 1842 ringing no bells? Sigh. National sovereignty is the barest basis against overt imperialism where someone just comes over and declares where you live their colony!!! ... is this a test in how far can you stretch the definition of imperialism or colonization? lmfao, China invests in poverty-relieving measures like building houses and improving infrastructure out in Tibet, Guizhou, Xinjiang, and you have the audacity to call that colonizing?!? 我真无言了。

different article by the same person:

laughable to think that the Chinese state even bothers to think I exist, let alone talk to me about my diaspora status. (I was born in the US)

also, people are really out there saying 'diaspora has an end date' huh

here it is. here is the 'scholar' conflating American or western imperialism with things Big Bad Scary Red China does.

Clearly mixing up concepts of tributary system with colonialism, and acting like historically (other than Yuan era under Genghis) that ancient China/Chinese culture was expansionist, going around trying to conquer peoples and set up colonies. Admiral Zheng He would spit on you.

Comparing the spread of culture and language in Ancient China to the colonization and subjugation that the French/Belgium did in Africa, or the British Empire, or the Spanish and Portuguese in Latin America, is so blatantly dishonest. The indigenous people of Tibet, Inner Mongolia, and Xinjiang still speak their own languages and use their own scripts, and yes, they learn them in schools alongside the national language... which is Chinese!!! Yes the Hanyu writing system was adopted and adapted by many neighboring cultures in ancient times, but you literally don't examine WHY? The fluidity in its system: frequently non-Han peoples invented characters to suit their language, like there's even some Canto-specific characters that are in use today. Another reason that Chinese writing system was so popular was because two Sinitic language speakers who do not speak the same language could communicate through the same script. Yeah, Ancient Chinese scholars and dignitaries often had an insufferable elite-ness and superiority complex, but describing their attitude as subjugating and forcing other people to adopt their system? What a wildly malicious mischaracterisation!

just... mask off, gringo butt-licker.

Please. where is the "Chinese containment" policy? The white papers reaffirming what the international community agrees, what Taiwan historically agrees (tho Taiwan held that it was the true capital/head of all of China), that Taiwan is part of China?? I know this article was written back in 2010s but are you seriously comparing American weapons deals and boots on the ground with Chinese military exercises in Chinese territory that haven't harmed a single civilian? "critical" my ass!

gotta love the title of this one. yeah, I know it, I've seen it before. the Chinese or feminist binary, pick a side /s

but hey in this piece she admits she's ignorant and unobjective and out of her league sometimes?

edit: found this:

yeah that about seals it for me. anti"diaspora" sinophobe

#sino diaspora #diaspora #逆向种族分子 #long post #chen yells at clouds. more at 10 #sinophobia #sorry. personal rabbit hole. and taking things personally #we're committing ad hominem crimes today folks #sure chinese->lunar new year. im fine w that. but can you fucks stop trying to take away chineseness away from people who still ID as??? #this person is literally doing the western empire's work of laying ground for sinophobia #can't tell if this academic is a grifter or actually serious lmfao #as if american chinese diaspora don't call americans 老美 and call ourselves 老中. i mean yes i call myself 老美 when in china but hello?? #you cloak your 'expertise' in the lingua & clothes & rituals of western academics. just shake your colonized ass for white people more #reading this drivel makes me want to go into asian american studies & grab this and shake it around like a ragdoll. #but im reminded that western institutions and definitely academics unquestionably cite western sources w/o hesitation #but give anything coming out of China even just academics not anything gov related with skepticism. so it's probably a no-fly #yeah sure im a 'sinophone' but im also diaspora so fuck you. 你忘了你祖先你的族梗。你这个逆子找白人拜金去了。就你这样做榜样？让海外华裔立起来？丢死人。跟你的英文大白菜出卖同类吧 #fuck you for saying that diaspora's connection to their heritage & culture are currently being severed& should be severed & studied as such #like literally uncritical of how exactly that happens. why so many diaspora have internalized racism driving them to scrub themselves of #their asianness heck even chineseness. try to scrub it all away but you still got an asian face. so fuck you #didn't look into 'asian american studies' much before but if it's a lot like this... well. 🤨 #like this academic is so disconnected from our shared histories AHSIJIJDSIAJDAAAHAAHGGHGGG #+ my poasts #imperial core circus

[redstrewn]

I got rien by etat libre d'orange and it smells like a damn church but if it isnt smoky and reeks of death so im calling it an ais scent now

Edit: nahh this is kuras's clinic with ais in it rather than ais himself

Tho i wonder if the seaspring could smell like a church bc of all the smokiness

#redstrewn talks #its described unisex but this shit is the most masculine shit i ever smelt #rien means nothing and if it isnt what ais is up to. fuck all. LMFAO #on the other hand bc this makes me feel like im making out with an ancient priest this scent could also be the lovechild of ais and kuras #call that the kuras clinic with ais in it #i got this bc of recs online but if i arent struggling to hell w enjoying it #apparently listed as not good for beginners to perfume. i can attest to that bc i fr feel like im fucking a priest smelling this. #real kuras-ais-unnamed scent #its ok as long as i imagine ais and kuras enough i'll probably end up liking this fragrance #my skill is taking sth i initially hate and brainwashing myself into liking it #i did smell the other eldo scents in-store but they kind of BORED me compared to rien #i hate smelling a church but it definitely did not bore me so i took it anyway #that kind of sums things up. id rather take something i hate than something that bores me #bc then at least theres an emotional spark there

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

my mum's staying for the weekend pray for me

#i dont like people in my space and also shes mean to me #she hasnt been mean yet lets keep this up #shes only been here a couple hours though so #its my mum new step dad my brother and his new giirrllfrriiend #theyre 16 and have managed to stay together 2 months this is the longest relationship hes ever had lmfao #she has 3 nose peircings and red streaks in her hair shes cool #but im praying i dont need hide time #hide time is what i call having my social battery run out but in a painful autistic way because i get real irritable and mean #and usually i hide away by myself for a couple hours cause that fixes literally everything #but my mum wont allow that cause she doesnt get it #mum im autistic plz leave me alone #but she finds it rude #but also finds me rude when i get irritable because im not being allowed space #so uh #dont know what you want from me lady #ah yes to not be autistic #this isnt even a joke she hates it #she wants me to pretend im not and 'act normal' and basically not be disabled by my disability #she wants it to like not be visible to people she wants no one to know including her she doesnt like being reminded so 💀 #unfortunately for her i have a lovely little piece of paper from a doctor saying i do in fact have it so fuck you #anywayz lol #praying i dont need too much hide time 🙏🏻 because i will not get it #autism #so fun