#but like. theres people who i used to be close to and talk to a lot who i can not get a reply from ic or ooc these days

[pickled-flowers]

Also just because you get annoyed by something someone is doing doesn't mean they are evil you can leave us alone

#this is about autistic people. #that guy in you class that is always asking questions? he always raises his hand theres nothing wrong with it #it takes time in the class but that's how he makes sure he understands the subject #and meanwhile every other student decides hes an asshole #that girl who doesnt blink and who cant seem to have a linear conversation is not doing anything wrong #you dont like interacting with her but that doesnt say anything about her you can leave her alone you dont have to bitch behind her back #that person cant read social cues? why are you getting mad? can you shut the fuck up? #it is insane how often some of my friends talk about people who are clearly autistic and are mad at them #no its not because theyre autistic theyre just always interupting! #its not because theyre autistic they just make me uncomfortable! PLEASE LISTEN TO YOURSELF #i swear youre all asshole to us #no respect fr #its so annoying to see you run in a circle trying to justify calling someone an ass for doing literally nothing wrong #youre allowed to feel how you want about other people but you always jump to bullying #and whenever i try to make them realize they get so deffensive #just because you grew up with an autistic brother does not make you a fucking expert youre not even close to him!! #ok sorry im gonna go hit my bong im getting too angry lol

[curioscurio]

Yooooo you worked at Michaels too?

(Ex-Framing department employee here)

YEA LETS GO EX-FRAMING DEPARTMENT they never even got around to teaching me production it was all wrapping and taking orders :/ Idk how it is at other shops but we only had 3 people working the whole frame shop. One person did ALL the frame assembly and us other two handled everything else. Was absolutely not worth $11/hr. man fuck retail. FUCK Design Hub too, if I may

#id come in for my like 4 hour shift and would have to run + close shop which included wrapping #wrapping storing calling for all orders done plus get all yhe frames lined plus unpack and clean up all the new frames coming in all by #all by the end of the night PLUS frame shop had to clean the bathrooms every night #plus actually running the front desk and taking orders and sometimes ppl would take hours picking matts that would cut into the time i had #to have everything else finished PLUS if i for some reason had everything done on time theyd make me run sales floor too #it was insane all the stuff they had me learn for such shit pay like. and #never work michales but never do it around the holidays more important #you will never escape the glitter #all that and my framing manager never got around to teaching me how to assemble a frame. #at least it was nice to hide in the frame shop so i wasnt talking to customers 24/7 but still #customers treat you so horribly like i was sweeping once and this lady comes up to me like saying the bathroom was disgusting right #and i get it. it was always disgusting. but we did clean it every night. anyway its hard when you cant just tell people that 1. #1 we clean them every night so if theres a huge mess in it most likely it was another shopper who pissed on the floor just cuz. #and 2 they only give us a mop and some pine sol to clean the whole 2 bathrooms every night. dont blame me blame michals lol #everything else was just so stupid #i wanna know how many framing department ppl everyone else had because we had 2 part time and 1 full time and i was only there a few months

[nonuggetshere]

Norel vs WL. who shall win

Mentally ill rat vs God

I love Norel but there's no way that pathetic little wet tissue is winning this one, he's gonna fold like origami papper. The only reason he's as dangerous as he is is because he's an influential political figure with the backing of an entire kingdom, its army and personal criminal ties. Only reason he's able to overpower gods in this story (well, canonically only one fledgling god, but there are different flavours of AU I made for fun) is by setting traps and by literally throwing an entire army against them, the only reason he still lives and keeps getting away with this shit is because he's not in the main line of fire when something inevitably goes wrong, it's the people he has working for him that are ripped to shreds and not him. The two only AUs where he does manage to capture her was done through magical traps and use of void to significantly weaken her to the brink of death.

1 on 1 though? That cunt's folding like a lawn chair. The second he's in a room with any of the vessels (that can fight and aren't Whisper) he's dead dead.

#thylacines can talk #asks #faaf au #oc: norel #hes built like a toothpick hes skilled in magic but cant fight for shit #range maybe he has a chance but close combat hes fucked. hes fucked against anyone who knows how to fight #his strategy involves deception and throwing so much shit at the gods until they keel over #but like. capturing regular vessels was a hassle and capturing Flower/THK was risky as hell as they were a full realised god at the time #although very new and inexperienced god but still very much a god. it was a high risk high reward kind of situation. he had to throw an #entire army at them and use magic chains to bind them. An experienced god like PK or WL? Theres gonna be a lot more casualties and a lot #more luck necessary. if hes allowed to use anything. involving other people. and has enough time to prepare then MAYBE. maybe he has a #fighting chance. but hes gonna have to get lucky. this is why him talking with PK post them finding out what Norel did is a hypothetical #realistically he's dying the second these two meet #sorry about the text wall i like rambling about my ocs

[dirt-grub]

If you’re currently ONLY posting about the Israelis that are doing good things for Palestine/are against what their country is doing and pointing out when certain protestors that are not affiliated with the whole of the free Palestine movement are being antisemitic know I can fucking see you. Obviously these are important things to talk about as Israel does not equal all Jews and antisemitism should be called out every time because it’s fucking serious and disgusting that another entire group of people is being blamed for this genocide other than the colonists in charge and Zionists supporting it but you’re telling on yourself as only interested in covering your own ass and it’s embarrassing. I don’t know how you can see hundreds if not thousands of entire bloodlines being wiped from this earth and instantly think well um hashtag not all Israelis and that’s it. Again. I don’t blame the majority of the Israeli people for what’s happening I blame the governments tied up in this and those in the military who happily post bragging about the shit they stole and destroyed on tiktok. You may not have technically done anything pro Israel but like I said you’re obviously only interested in covering your ass and continuing to be seen as a good person without engaging with the absolute horror the apartheid state of Israel is carrying out and checking your pre existing beliefs.

#charlie talks #again. please READ this post #I’m talking specifically about people I’ve seen and unfollowed for only posting about the good Israelis who are helping and protesting #obviously a government does not define its people #I’m American I’d hate if anyone judged me for what my country does because I stand for none of it and contribute only by taxes #which is literally illegal for me to not do #it’s just very very obvious when you have a specific agenda towards protecting yourself and your image first #it’s like. embarrassing #also. I am Austrian. I grew up in America #every single piece of Shit nazi has been brainwashed that it’s us or them #like OG nazis. neo nazis are a different story #you think you’re being smart by saying well Israel has a right to exist because of the holocaust #poor Austrians thought the holocaust was great because ‘foreigners’ many of which had lived there for generations #if not most of them #we’re supposedly to blame #because they were starving. they were very obviously horrifically wrong. but it is factual they were starving #it is factual that the holocaust displaced and murdered millions of Jews #but colonizing displacing and murdering Palestinians is not anywhere close to an answer that will solve anything and pretending it’s valid #is insane. theres nuances to both situations that make comparing them a bit reductive but both were genocides #and genocide is always justified by the perpetrators in the ways some of y’all are claiming to be an exception this time #stop falling for it. this is game of money and power not Jewish liberation #when my grandparents cheered as hitler killed the baron who’d been keeping them poor guess what? their neighbors started going missing #and they new government kept them just as fucking poor #you’re being used #free Palestine

[a-little-bit-poss]

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#im probably gonna be spending a lot of my life mourning my sisters and my relationship #we were so close but now we dont really talk outside of gatherings #i dunno #we're both living our own lives and it takes two to be distant #theres a lot of things i hate about her and its probably mostly stuff that hits my own insecurities #i used to come to her with all kinds of things #now its like she doesnt respond to my lil reachings out so like i dunno #we work for the same fucking college for fucks sake #im prolly always gonna resent her for applying and moving here without telling me and just having me hear second hand #like yes im not blameless but also like fuck her #i continue to prove i dont need her but also i miss her #we only hurt each other when we do talk #the fact my old coworker reminded me of her so much was probably part of why i hated her so bad #fuck people who think theyre better than me (read people i think are better than me) #my mom called today and thats whats got me thinking like this #im great #people love me #im loved #honestly my familys where i get all my abandonment issues #im better off without all of them but by god if thats gonna stop me from like feeling the ache of their absence like a phantom limb

[rotturn]

once i come back from my trip i think... there's gonna be some big changes

#theres a Lot of mutuals ive been trying to interact w who ignore me and a fair few I've stayed mutuals w #just bc it feels like i have to #and it has made tumblr feel. very lonely #i know this time of year just gets like that #but like. theres people who i used to be close to and talk to a lot who i can not get a reply from ic or ooc these days #and like people move on thats fine its just. idk it sucks #and i know im guilty of being slow sometimes and messages sometimes get missed if im overwhelmed but #i try very very hard to at least reply sometimes or acknowledge peoples posts/existence #but it only feels like 3 or 4 people actually want me here or want to talk to me #idk i love rping and i love being here but this is a collaborative hobby and it feels very much like everyones got people except me #the two people that i talk to every day mean the world to me i love u guys #but outside of those 2 and like 3 other people who like my posts i just feel. like im only a number in peoples follower counts #maybe come the end of jan people will be back online more and I'll feel better but idk #i just try so hard to be here all the time and have completely fucked my sleep schedule on Many occasions #just to hang out and talk w people and i throw my all into trying to be here and have friends and be interesting #and i guess im just. not? and it sucks but it is what it is i guese #i just wish that this wasnt such a lonely place bc im so tired of deleting a bunch of posts constantly bc they get no notes #and it makes me feel like my blog looks messy and bad for anyone new whos looking #i just constantly feel like i have to apologize for existing here and its not fair thats not what this is meant to be #i miss having friends here. people used to like me and im not sure what changed

[andromedasummer]

honestly with regards to my last post about my voice and the post before that one of my biggest fears is that when i meet my online friends in person they will end up finding me annoying and resent and reject me for my autistic traits that show up in social situations. its ridiculous because i have met online friends irl and now we live in the same city and hang out when we can.

but theres still this thing in my head reminding me how easy it is to hide your autism when youre using a keyboard or writing. in person they will see me stim in ways that will draw attention from passersbyers and hear my voice fluctuate in stiffness and volume. they'll have to cope with me talking in scripts and trying to build a conversation like its an essay instead of a fluid and moving thing. they'll risk seeing me overwhelmed or, worse, have me overwhelm them and it wont be as easy to ignore as they are through a group chat.

and it makes no sense because theyve shown me time and time again that they're anti-ableist and they accept and love me along with my autism. but its so ingrained in society to treat autistic people in public as weird and uncomfortable that i just. feel its going to happen. im so used to people edging away from me in conversation because i didnt pick up social cues that they need to leave or becoming frustrated with me for not picking up on a subtle part within the conversation. i dont want to make things uncomfortable and actively try to limit these behaviours and adjust them for the sake of these poor people. but i know that even when they know this they will have that base reaction to someone in a social space acting outside the norm and that reaction will always be annoyance and discomfort. and the fact that i can't change that is miserable.

#im very lucky to have close friends online and irl who are either autistic as well #or (in raquels case) so used and somehow compatible with me despite being non-autistic that 7 years #i read as totally normal to her. which helps when we go out together #but theres people ive known for 10 years who react like how i fear no matter the love i know they feel for me. #who are biting their tongue and nodding along while i ramble through a sentence knowing they'll have to wait for me to stop talking #even when we get along and find each otber engaging 90% of the time #DONT even get me started on voice calls never forget that one big discord server i made some friends on but eventually left #because i could feel that i wasnt doing a good job at socializing and they were being kind to me but also humouring me at most #i follow some of them and they follow me #if u or anyone else who met me through discord server calls sees this tag hi youre very lovely and nice im trying #to get better at talking

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

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#sorry sorry this ones gonna be a vent so look away if you're not into that #alright we good? cool cool #cw: vent #a lot of my friends both internet and irl has made advancements in their own circle of friends like they're hanging out and bonding outside #-of school #i feel left out. but this is my fault and im very aware of it #its just... its hard for me to find people that i think id have a close connection with #it makes me think im gonna be really lonely at the end of the day #sometimes texting isnt enough. i want physical enjoyment and fun too #i just find myself stuggling to click off with others and maybe its because im unsure of who i can trust #idk my classmate always talks about hows their day and compared to mine; theirs always seems so much funner to do yeah dbfbbfbfbdbdbr #i dont know. a lot of my close friends. or even best friends if you will; arent physically close with me anymore because they either #actually no its not either. they just moved out #its hard to stay in contact with them too so i dont know what's life like for them anymore #that's why I really appreciate every connection ive made here because it feels very personal here. but i feel the more i keep being here— #without actual physical communication — ill just get worse #and i always think about my faves just to cope with it but i guess i just got slapped with reality check today and came to realize that now #theres this one day in school where a problem arised during an event and i was so anxious and scared — i started crying #my schoolmate who used to be my old classmate (we're in different sections as of present) immediately comforted me and #i really appreciated that. he gave me a hug and even lent me his handkerchief. something about that moment made me realise that this is #exactly wanted. just that feeling of warmth and comfort from a friend dhfhfbdbdb it sounds petty but i really like physical languages yeah #ive been trying to finf ways to say hi to him again but its hard since our school schedules are different #im not close with anyone in my class tbh so its hard for me to feel that physical closeness too #i firmly believe in action speaks louder than words. so yeah #thats all. yeah #ill go continue reading my notes

[dyketubbo]

anon bud im not sure what worth you think sending that post about tiffany having a government position to me has. you'd think i would have made it clear enough i don't really support ao3 and that includes not wanting people to pay 10 dollars to be an otw member or whatever. it's already pretty fuckin clear the fearmongering adults who genuinely compare "antis" to christian puritans and racist queerphobic white supremacists have it in the bag on getting people not to vote for tiffany, i think as worthwhile as it is to note that she is in a position of power, it is also worthwhile to note what the post on the matter i already reblogged said about how people will clamor to talk about chinese spies regardless of what job tiffany has and i'm not gonna add to that.

also this is a dream smp blog and i'm trying to make a deltarune inspired au rn leave me be

#i am still reeling over that one person saying antis are racist white supremacists like #um #hello? #right because its not like a lot of us talk about how the proship community heavily encourages racism or anything.. #anyways im not that heavily involved in the voting on ao3 scene leave me out of it #the only ao3 related shit i talk about on this blog is how much i dont like it even #and how much i dont like proshippers because most of them are like. really gross people #i still get close to panicking thinking about that one person who tried downplaying the real ass grooming that happens in the proship scene #esp on ao3 which is probably one of the biggest fucking sites next to tumblr where due to the lack of moderation you can find real ass- #-pedos and minors who dont know any better getting groomed by them under the guise of 'anti censorship' and 'sexual freedom' #etc etc #basically: buddy im not the person to go to for this. go to someone who actually cares about ao3s political scene #i get theres problems with tiffany and all but im fucking 17 running a mcyt blog #also i heard a part of why it was banned was because there was rpf of an idol or whatever #like yeah china has problems with sex related media but maybe dont have fucking rpf on your site ykwim #not pedophilic media but it isnt exactly media that should exist either #anyways im done talking about ao3 now #mask mews #ao3 #discourse

[halinski]

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#stuck between wanting to people pleasing to the extreme but also wanting to discourage people from liking me #how do i do that? #ignore me #bc the thing is #the truth is #that i strive for unhealthy relationships bc that's all i can accept/cop with #and that means i can cut ppl off at any time #keep em at a safe distance #never let em get close enough #most people realize i put up walls and turn away #but theres one person whos also damaged and they are clinging #and idk man its not gonna end well for either of us probably #and we've talked about it #she has a support system so i'm like... she'll be okay? #but also like i dont actually want to hurt hr #so i keep telling her #but like man #its not healthy #and i aint looking for healthy #i just hate actually impacting other people along the way #i'd rather hide away at all times like i do 99% of the time #which is why i havent moved out yet #also i've just been triggered by a sweatshirt which i was gonna overshare ahout #i'm almost ready to throw it aqay bc i wasnt careful and got hairdye on it #but i probably wont #bc that would be too sensible #anway #seriously ignore me #delete later

[thatone-highlighter]

I think Finn and pb being friends over reincarnations is really sweet tbh, (or I guess specifically Finn’s reincarnations) and I think it just adds on to them becoming more friends than anything else over the series ? Like at the start finn sees pb as a crush/boss more but over time He does see her as a very good friend !! Also like u said !! I think part of this is also seeing Finn n jake n stuff call pb Bonnie more ? It’s nice I really just like Finn and pb’s friendship, like how in the finale pb kisses Finn on the cheek platonically and like !! It isint weird or anything !! Idk if I am explaining my feelings well but idk you get what I mean most of the time.

I actually didnt know that Finn’s other incarnations were also friends with PB but ur right that is really cute and sweet

The way their dynamic changes over the series is really nice. I like where theyre at now i really liked that episode where they were at that party and then just. Left and chilled and hung out together it was nice. And then also the seeing eyes oke where Finn just sees her as like, his friend and she was just in casual clothes, makes it seem like he sees her a lot more as his equal now.

I think also as much as finn has taken PB off that pedestal he had her on to start with i think Bonnie also sees Finn as her equal a lot more now, i think she respects him a lot more now and the way theyve changed in treating eachother has made it easier for the other to change as well. This is getting hard to explain but u get it i think

I get what u mean, if that sorta thing had happened at the start of the series (i think it does) it would have been like a Whole Thing but at this point where they’re at with eachother its just. Not.

The overall swap with so many character from calling them their titles to using their actual names is something that is so special to me. Like you have Simon and Bonnie as the obvious ones but its also a lot more explicit in, i cant remember what the ep is called but when Flame Princess tells Bonnie her name is Pheobe and its like a Thing where she wont tell her what her name is until after shes proven she can be trusted and its like a trust and closeness thing. Finn also started calling her Pheobe but i don’t know where he got it from he just Did that but its nice too

Anyways yeah Finn and PB’s friendship is so nice and im glad they’re friends now over whatever idolisation knight thing was going on at the start of the series

#i get u bestie if u can have Any close what the fuck ik on about in minecraft i can figure out what u mean about AT #i dont know Whay it is but something about everyone using their firstnames is so soecial to me #its just nice and friendly it makes them all seem like theyre friends and get along more #i rlly like it its vibin #finn and bonnie’s friendship is so beloved #at the start of the series Bonnie is kinda like. a huge dick to literally everyone all the time #its not till like start of season 7 when KoO takes over the candy kingdom that she starts to calm down #shes such a chill character and like she atill Does stuff but it feels a lot more like its from a place of care and affection than before #the character who told Marcy that raggedy doll princess would be her new Hambo because she has such low self respect. #is Not the same character that helped her get rid of her vamp juice and then hunt down the vamps she killed and also debated on the morality #of killing some aliens to protect her people. #like there are a lot over overarching things and you can kinda see where she was coming from at the start but i feel like shes a lot more #likable as a character now. i dunno could just be me early Pb just had be gong What The Fuck Dude(derogatory) a lot more often than not #ive just started season 9 i think btw! okay im up to s9 ep13 #i dont think theres much left but i still got a bit to go #i love talking about Adventure Time with u bestie it helps me figure out how i feel about things i didnt bring a bunch of this stuff togethe #r before now. <3 #Tree Man Posts #asks #and so the adventure time live blog continues

[be-good-to-bugs]

i will be in hell world forever and that is ok i guess

#the bin #i am resigned to my fate unfortunately #maybe its easier to believe itll be like this forever. idk. #ive been so desolate for so long and i just cant get myself out of it at this point. and there is absolutely nobody to help me #people will say when youve reached a low point like that how important it is to reach out to the people around you who care about you for #help but who is there for me to reach out to? my sister? ive tried and it didnt matter and i dont want her help anymore #honestly. theres people caring about your concept because they know you and youre family and then theres actually caring about YOU #and there isnt anybody who cames about ME they just acre about the concept of me. not even the version of me they have in ybeir head #its just routine to 'care' about me. lik3 you would anybody. but its very surface level. doesnt go beyond wishing i SEEM ok #and not wanting particular harm to come to me. but they dont care about ME. the oerson i am. i guess it makes sense cause im not close #with literally anybody. i was never even actually close to my sister. i just felt pressured to tell her private stuff about me #every time after it felt coerced tho. like i felt tricked into doing it or forced to because shes so weird about everything #ugh. her being so weird has made it so much harder to socialize with anyone else #i dont even want to ask her for transportation to places to socialize because she makes me so uncomfortable #and the only other people i have to talk to are family members who i cant talk to about it becasue shes their family too #:( ive hit a new low somehow! yay... #ugh. i dont even have online friends to talk to. i wish i did but i could never. im not interesting to talk to online at all #just like. objectively. my anxiety makes my type like the most boring person ever online and ut sucks #maybe i could try again if i used voice chat but idk. then id have to meet people. im tired of being so lonely though :( #i wanna just play minecraft or smth with some people and forget abt how sad i am for once because i havent been able to for years

[mrfoox]

Uh.... Kinda brought up an topic which was tough but it was okay....?

#miranda talking shit #As usual i never said all i thought bc i always have so much on my mind #But ... Basically mentioned that people but is the recent case oliver can feel like hes too careful with me #So ofc he clarified that he doesnt and just generally liked to be nice and not rude and i buy that but kept on saying #That people in my past also have thought i am more fragile and maybe proper than i actually am #And that im a very uncomplicated person when it comes to some things. For example how i feel about other people #They can tell me and do anything and that wont make me suddenly dislike them or drop them. If i like a person already #... Theres a point where i do not care what else they have done or do? At least ive not encountered anything that have changed it for me #Ive never met someone who killed someone or something but... Who have opinions or have done things or do things which i dont care about #For example drugs. I havent tried anything and probably wont but i know multiple who have or are using and that doesnt make me... Think #Less of them? So. I explained that and said that he had never said something to me that has hurt me or something. Or then i brought up #The incident a few weeks ago and said that time i got hurt. But then i cried for an hour and realized he probably said what he said #Bc he was scared and worried. And it wasnt about me at all. So then i was just ... Fine. I wasnt planning to say anything about that even #But told him anyway. And then touched on the topic that i... Do things... Without thinking about it in the moment #And then realize afterwards its somewhat intentional? And its not something i like to say bc i feel like a bad person? #We didn't discuss that much bc he had to go so idk if ill even bring that up again unless the topic is close but yeah. #He said it was a good talk and i agree. Im always worried to share anything i think or how i work with people bc i fear they'll think im #Weird. But i did it and he seemed fine and i was stable enough. I think he wont care and thats what i like about him but also #I know bc we are so different... It's more likely we misunderstand each other. And honestly i cant shake the feeling i scare him a bit #Bc i feel so much and i want to talk about everything. Thats why i somewhat hesitate to say some things #He also said he have a history of. Dropping people or having his opinion of someone shift bc of something. Thus then it make sense #He got freaked out by me that time. Bc he thinks in his terms and for him others can be changed by small incidents so he thought i had #Changed mine. Thus the 'ive ruined it. I ruined our relationship and it was so good' It should scare me more that he said that his opinion #Of others can change so quickly and big. Bc... Im anxious but for some reason i.. Dont feel worried about that? Maybe bc i have always had #The mindset that people will leave me in the end no matter what and that i always care more about someone than they me. So i dont expect #Anything of anyone i like... But today was interesting talk tbh. I love discussing things with him. He's so different from me it's fresh #Possibly my autistic ass being hyperfocused on him and intrested bc of that. This is kinda how i was with Fabian at some point #He felt like an interesting individual bc he was so different from me so i was obsessed with talking with him about things #I enjoy it and i wont share how i think so i dont scare anyone so.... Should be okay

[hopefullyababe]

2 be honest i think i only put they and he in my bio in addition 2 she to express my genderqueerness in a way that is tactile and visible. bc if i just put she i think. thered be an assumption that i dislike.

#daphnes talking again #i do like having them there #as like. an affirmation of an identity that feels kinda invisible in my real life. #i mean. you cant tell people youre nonbinary or theyre gonna like. assume you use they them pronouns exclusively. #and i cant very well tell people to just use she her but in a genderqueer way. because what does that mean. #no ones gonna know what i mean #ugh. anyway #im. introspecting alot lately #as you can. fucking see. #its all about identity this year #its about 'who am i? what do i want?' #and its been. kinda fucking exhausting. because it always feels like im /right there/ #im like. so close to finding an answer. #like the door is right there. i know if i open it theres gonna be a room with an answer. and then i open the door and its 8 more doors.

[technicolorxsn]

I know he thinks I'm dumb and immature and too sensitive or whatever but I still miss him

#i really miss being friends with him #id try and text him again but im pretty sure people told him some really awful lies about me #which. if so it would kind of upset me that he trusted the people who ignored and excluded him for years over someone that was his best #friend but. whatever what can you do #i do still feel bad about that #he deserved better than that #it seems hes doing pretty good now though #im glad. he deserves good things #i feel bad abt everything that happened between us though that really sucked #he said it didnt even bother him but i still feel bad #i do miss what we had though #it was nice having a close friend like that #he was always there and we could talk about anything #i miss that #ok im gonna stop rambling abt the past now #its done and over and theres nothing i can do #i could reach out but im not sure if hed even want me to #especially if he was told the lie i think he was told

[imwetforyourmom]

hi can u do headcannons (or a fic idm) of like people pleaser!reader and bf!matt who like stands up for her or tells people off on her behalf?

I really hope this makes even the slightest bit of sense

thank you so much, I love ur writing sm🤍🫶🏼

people pleaser!reader x matt headcannons!

(I have never done hcs ever, so if its bad thats mb, also I didnt know if you wanted nsfw but I js didnt bc I dont rllt know how to nsfw people pleaser x matt but if tou want me to retry it dont hesitate to ask!!)

warnings: angst, swearing

a/n: I dont rlly know how to write people pleasers and such so thats why its short, but I can try again if you’d like, I also love this idea, thank you anon!! <33

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- the second someone pushes you around and or walks all over you hes quick to shut it down.

“alright listen man, it was one thing when you told her to fuck off, but telling her to shut the fuck up is another. I need you to leave.”

- when matt notices that someone is using you to their advantage or even notices you going out of your way to please them on several occasions hes getting it done and over with, quick.

“okay. enough y/n, come sit with me. you dont need to do everything for that asshole, k?”

^ he made sure to say it extra loud so the guy heard what matt had said about him.

- after matt had told someone off for being rude to you, you sat down next to him with your head hung low and your eyes filled with tears of guilt.

“baby, whats wrong?” he asked, his arm coming over to your back and rubbing your shoulder.

“that wasnt nice of you to yell at him.. look at him, I feel guilty now.” you spoke, your voice slightly shaky as you motioned to the man whom was anxiously biting his lip with his mouth closed shut, after matt had told him to keep it shut.

“it also wasnt nice of him to yell at you and call you names, was it?” he grumbled, just looking at the guy made him angrier, especially knowing you felt bad for him.

- “no, no, if you want me to. I can!” you spoke, a soft smile on your face as you talked to the girl infront of you, in which the girl had a smirk on her face, catching onto your patterns.. doing anything for the sake of pleasing her.

matt, on the other hand, stood behind you and glared at the girl, his jaw clenching with pure irritation. matt cleared his throat, trying to get the girls attention. and once her eyes met his he brought his hand up and flipped her off.

- in ways of showing you he wasnt happy with what you were doing he’d do subtle motions with his hands or look at you a certain way. you’ve learned that his jaw clenched tightly shut and his eyes glaring at you, then a quick look at the person you were currently giving your everything, is a way of him indicating he wanted you stop what you were doing.

- watching you adapt someone elses personality to try and seem more approachable and less weird truly angers him, despite knowing he cant do anything about it. he feels you should know that you’re perfect just the way you are and dont need to be accepted by everyone, they should like you for who you are.

- “oh..” you mumble, your head hung low as somone insults you and your interests. you cant say anything nor do anything, its not in your nature. you just have to sit there and take it, in fear of disappointing them. and since matt wasnt with you, there wasnt any way in stopping the next few minutes of being insulted.

later that day, when you come home your cheeks are tear-stained, you have mascara running down your cheeks and your breathing is uneven.. theres no way in hell you’re hiding this from matt. you take gentle steps as you walk to his room, slowly pushing his door open and taking small sniffles.

with hearing the door creak open matts lips turn into a grin, that is, until he lifts his head up to the sight of you, looking like you just bawled for hours on end. he quickly tosses his phone on his bed and walks over to you, engulfing you in his arms. already knowing what was going on he didnt ask anything, instead just comforted you.

- “ok! im fucking tired of your shit dude! you’ve been bossing, walking all over her, degrading and just overall being a total dickhead to her!” matt yelled, finally getting enough of this kid being rude to his girlfriend. he stood up from his chair and walked over to carlos. he stood tall and high infront of him. y/n moved behind matt and grabbed his hand, holding it and lightly squeezing, at an attempt to calm him down.

“matt, baby, its okay. im fine. dont yell at him.” y/n whispered, your voice quiet as you spoke. you avoided eye contact with carlos. “no, its not okay! hes being a total asshole to you, y/n. you dont deserve to be treated like that.” he turned around to face you. his voice no longer being loud as he spoke with sincerity towards you.

- you being treated rudely didnt always end up with him yelling at someone. when he wasnt fuming with anger, he would grab your hand and hold it, rubbing his thumb gently over your skin, then pull you into him, in a sense of protection and to tell you ‘enough’ without speaking.

- matt would act almost immediately when he even sees the beginning signs of you starting to act and do everything possible for the person you’re talking to. he would lean down in your ear and mumble quietly, “relax, my love.”

- again, he would make sure to be extra loud about shit talking someone when calling you over to him just to make sure that they know what matt thinks of them.

“cmon baby, that poor excuse of a friend doesnt deserve you.”

“hes being an asshole, my love. dont suck up to him.”

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