#but its just really awful names

[kstarlitchaotics]

This is probably me but is anyone else getting tired of worn out pet names for characters especially male characters like blob or babygirl

#fandom issue #fandom problems #i mean they were cute at first #but its just really awful names #for the most badass characters #and fandoms makes it to the #point of not taking them seriously #dont even get me started with girlboss

[koukaaa-descent]

born to die

So; the story ends like this. The star is carried onto Gordion. Monsoon can hardly even move by the time they arrive. It is burning, charring as it moves, the bright flecks of indigo upon its skin dulling as it dies. It carries the star, faithful beyond words, trusting that Indigo will be there. And he is. He is.

So. They stand on Gordion, the only things there. There is nobody else. It is still far too early into the quota cycles.

Indigo does not understand the emotion that claws at his ribs, the awful heat that builds in his throat, behind his eyes. He cannot (and will not) ever understand it.

He is the one to initiate the hug. The last. (The first.)

It is such a desperate, clawing thing—Monsoon crumbles into him, smearing ash against his body. Monsoon is the one to wrap itself around him, because it knows that these are the last moments. It cannot muster the strength to clutch him as close as it would like, but it is not afraid. Why would it ever be? It's right here, where it began and where it will end, in the same arms that raised it. Fear has no place in its existence when Indigo is there.

#oc monsoon #oc indigo #lethal company #lethal company bracken #lethal company employee #lethal company oc #i have fun drawing monsoon burning from the inside out #i am normal #indigo's face is really weird which i am only just realizing #hello everybkdy my name is koka and today we are going to see how hard i can cry #indigo cannot physically cry #but if he could. i can assure you he would be crying. thus why his mouth is open #yknow those ragged awful breaths one takes whilst crying? uh huh #something about realizing that youd lost yourself in your purpose #for context. monsoon is carrying a star inside of its ribcage in order to destroy gordion #yeah. #i feel so kuch about these 2 its crazy #this 1 is for the tragedy enjoyers #koukart

[fertbutt]

yeah im not fully over this. does anybody who was there at the time remember all the jokes about clearsight being a slut/hoe/whore? like that was weird right.

to be fair i think it was partially due to the unfortunate implication from tui that clearsight somehow founded an ENTIRE SEPARATE SPECIES. in the span of 2000 years. which is still insane and idk if that ever got thoroughly explained or not.

But also some of it was probably just because she left darkstalker (ran away from her abuser for her safety) and fell in love with another guy (eventually) and children especially in fandom spaces are like really weird about like, divorce or second loves. you see this in warriors too with like, graystripe and silverstream vs millie. a lot of people dont really understand that you can love somebody fully and they can die/leave and you can then love somebody else fully. they think youre only allowed to love one person ever and if you split up then you werent ever even really in love after all. which is obviously just not true. And thats not even getting into again the fact that darkstalker was AWFUL and they werent even like married or anything anyways

Also idk if it was meme culture in general or just MY specific meme ecosystem on wings of fire instagram but i think part of it is that it just so happened to coincide with the memeification of terms like "hoe" and "thot". thot was huuuge everybody called eachother thots. i dont know why we were all like 12-14.

but anyways yeah just very weird. Idk how to feel other than that because like slut-shaming is bad obvs but also slut-shaming a fictional dragon character isnt a huge deal at the end of the day. I'm moreso worried about these kids going around slut-shaming irl people because they saw their friends do it online to this dragon character but also, this was like ?2018??? and i dont think most of them really meant it like that. like 80% of them probably just meant to poke fun at the aforementioned insane worldbuilding with the hivewing origin story. what does worry me is the 20% that are just darkstalker apologists but again, this was a while ago and we were mostly just idiot kids making stupid jokes.

#this is rambly as hell LMFAO #sorry #wings of fire #wof #talking #clearsight #wof instagram from like 2016-2019 was just a very strange upsetting time for me #thats when i really started drawing but like. a few of the people on there were awful #one person in particular........ #i wont speak his name.... #its been so long.. #i doubt anyone remembers lol

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Question about Frank! What is his fighting style? I know you mentioned he does hand on hand, but does he do any specific form of martial arts?? Or is it just kind of the basic, punching, kicking, ect. Also, does he have some form of magic, or is he basically like Howdy? (I'm just imagining they all play like.. actual table top DnD and Frank is getting irritated because his rolls are garbage-)

i'm not nearly well versed enough in martial arts to name styles or blend them - though i feel a "i need to know everything i can about this" fixation creeping up... so i might be able to provide a better answer later!

but for now lets just say he's adapted his own stylized form, blended from his childhood training, what he learns on the streets, and what he picks up on his travels / figures out himself. i imagine it would be an efficient, ruthless, and elegant personal style of combat

Frank has no magic! if he rolled for it he'd somehow get a 0! he and Howdy are the only magicless maidens of the group

#& man. i really want to make it a dnd au #but i simply dont know enough about dnd to be able to Accurately do that! #and also: i dont like restrictions and rules #but it's so funny to imagine the neighborhood gathered in front of home with sally dm-ing #or home is the dm. how would that work #wally helps i suppose... resets the dice so home can roll it with their front door #but unfortunately my knowledge and understanding is Limited #it would be in the style of the dnd movie - where its seamless & theyre not actually rolling or anything #but i dont know the spells! i dont know the lore! the monsters! #ok unless i do Another sit-down-and-crunch-learn-everything-dnd #....thats doable. if i just learn the creatures the monsters the lore #then homebrew the world and fuck with stuff to make it have wh vibes.... #it could be Loosely dnd. loosely tabletop. #then i could tag it with 'wh tabletop au' instead of fantasy au to differentiate it... #no no that still doesnt work. cause if it has secondary lore of 'its literally the neighborhood playing their own version of dnd' #i cant see any of the wally-centered drama happening. theyd all be like 'aw its ok that youre a warlock wally <3' & move on #but i still want to name it something Different! just to keep it separated! rpg? no... its still not a game... and its not dnd enough... #questing au? 'cause they're always on quests? mythical au? adventuring au? #place your votes now folks! the ballots are rolling in!

[0rph1x]

look at them look at them look at them look at them look at th

#KJGHSDGLKSDHGKJSHD BITES THEM KILLS THEM PUTS THEM IN THE GROUND DROWNS THEM #ugh. UGH. want them dead. #i want so bad for them to be happy and be friends and possibly kiss each other idk #i really miss these two actually #they were friends when they were kids!!! and then harry got sent off to england =[ #they got to be friends again for like. a day. and then everything went wrong #yeah they were friends for the majority of the movie but things were going awful. it drives me insane. #ALSO ALSO ALSO ik i say this all the goddamn time but. the 'pete' 'har' thing is just sooooooo. when they have nicknames for each other <33 #no one else calls either one of them those names and its so sweet its such a cute and quick thing like its so easy to miss #ANYWAY. i should watch this movie again. agh. #spiderman #peter parker #harry osborn #parksborn #tasm2 #the amazing spiderman 2

[cowboy-robooty]

imma be real with u guys i actually unironically love danganronpa but only the source content i hate 99.99999% of fan content so fucking much.

LISTEN THIS IS A HETALIA BLOG NONE OF US ARE BETTER THAN DANGANRONPAERS AND EVERYONE WHO IS UNAWARE NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND DANGANRONAPERS TREAT KOKICHI THE WAY HETALIA FANS TREAT ENGLAND. EXCEPT WORSE. SOMEHOW 100000x WORSE

#AND IM 20 FEET UNDER IN THIS HETALIA SHITSHOW I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT PEOPLE BEEN DOING TO ENGLAND SINCE 2008 #DANGANRONPA IS REALLY FUCKING GOOD ITS HILARIOUS #ALL THE CHARACTERS HAVE SWISS CHEESE FOR BRAINS #THE GAME IS FUN I LIKE THE MINI GAMES I THINK IT LOOKS GREAT YES I LIKE THE FUCKASS DANGANRONPA STANCE ITS FUNNY #THE FIRST GAME IS THE BEST ONE BECAUSE NGL THEY WERE NOT PUSHED THAT HARD TO KILL EACHOTHER LOL #AND ALSO THERES AN ENTIRE PART WHERE U GOTTA CONVINCE ONE KF THE CHARACTERS THAT ANOTHER ONE ISNT A GHOST #AND ALSO BYAKUYA TELLS TOKO TO STOP TALKING AND SHE STRAIGHT UP DOESNT FOR LIKE 2 DAYS AND NOBODY CARES LOL #toko is actually an incredible acomplishment because she is so genuinely insufferable and awful and everybody hates her for half the game #and then somehow by the end of it she hasnt changed but you just like her now its an amazing phenomenon #i cant think of a single other character that ive thought to be the actual worst and then later i like them so much even tho they havent #changed at all #bruh in universe shes hated too like theres that part where junko kidnaps everyones loved ones and we see peoples families n shjt #and then toko only has her goddamn pet stink bug #now that nobody likes danganronpa anymore (thank god) ill make my clearing kokichis name post one day... BECAUSE OH MY GOD WHAT HAVE YOU #PEOPLE DONE TO HIM #HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HIM HE DOESNT SLIT HIS WRISTS HES A GAMER

[ozymoron]

i dont think i actually like shipping for like normal shipping reasons im pretty sure i only like ships cause i like seeing boys kiss and girls kiss especially if what they have going on is fucked up and weird

#⚠️ #my favourite characters always seem to be the ones that dont really have much romance shit going on #like jerome just doesnt have anything romantic going on. spencer reid i remember like no one wanted him lmao except that one girl who died #so fast it was kinda funny pretty sure later he gets with jj but i genuinely couldnt give less of a fuck lol #and ash is more like sex focused compared to romance probably cause yknow having your girlfriend die and then attack you probably #gives you a couple like issues around romance and shit #like he never really gets another partner does he #he got close with that one cop but she died #i mean he did get married to that one lady candace barr i remember her name cause its a pun and i like pun names #pretty sure her name was candace #but like that didnt last very long so #hes so so awful thatw as so fucked up of him i need him so bad but still #herbert is more focused on his work than on romance and sex hes very aroace to me #but the whole fandom is just danbert which is fine i agree theyre gay as hell but like after a while i started losing interest lol #same happened with ed its all just nygmobblepot

[aemiron-main]

these are literally some of the dumbest tags ive ever seen. like. there’s SO much here that’s untrue, including the empathy part. “love couldnt have fixed him as a child” have you considered he didnt need to be fixed??? Did you even watch the show???? Love would have ABSOLUTELY helped him, and he didn’t need to be fixed.

like i shouldnt be surprised that people on here are Siding On The Side Of Child Abuse but… and just like god there’s so many Factual Errors here, shitty and cruel attitude aside. “torturing animals for fun” and the kid in question looks distressed the whole time & a bunch of parallels indicate that he was trying to free the rabbit, but god forbid we look beneath our first surface impressions, right?

and also, the whole “before the lab” thing makes me insane because it acts like everything in his life was fine prior to the lab. meanwhile, he talks about how he was treated as being broken PRIOR to the lab and how his mother despised him PRIOR to the lab and how she wanted to send him away to an abusive predator scientist PRIOR to the lab and that’s just the surface level shit let alone all of the subtext about what his life was like pre-lab.

and not only is it impossible for him to have been trancing victor and killing slice at the same time & theres so much weirdness there, even if he straight up murdered virginia and alice got killed as part of it, it’s not like it happened because He’s Inherently Bad And Evil. I think he was in the right to kill virginia!!!!! Like sorry but wanting to send him away to Brenner????? She had it coming. Alice didn’t, but again, there’s so much weirdness around that AND even if he did kill her, the whole thing could have been prevented if people (Virginia) weren’t trying to send him off to the lab/fix him.

Like it’s insane to me that people will watch Dart’s arc about how creatures from the UD aren’t inherently evil and how Dustin’s love made a huge impact on Dart and yet will also go “oh yep mhm the duffers wrote this Literal Human Child to be Evil and Bad and Broken and he Needs To Be Fixed but hes so broken that not even love can fix him”.

Like. Op is the one with the real lack of empathy here & I sure hope they don’t extend this viewpoint to the abused and autistic kids/people in their life. I don’t feel bad calling the tags dumb because they ARE dumb and literally factually inaccurate and they’re cruel and contributing to the stigma around people who are low empathy (and henry isn’t even low empathy).

#likeeeeeee #i have a whole rant drafted abt this exact sentiment from forever ago #and its really bothering me today bc its like #is henry a fictional character? yes. but it really does make me wonder abt #this persons attitude towards irl abused and autistic kids/people #like its possible to acknowledge the awful shit that henward did/seemingly did (setting theory stuff aside and looking at the Surface Level) #without spreading stuff thats canonically untrue (the empathy part) and without demonizing people who dont experience empathy (even tho #again henry DOES) and without fucking siding with BRENNER AND VIRGINIA about him needing to be *fixed* and how hes so broken that not even #love could fix him. #and also actually it doesnt make me wonder abt this person’s attitude towards people irl because ive already SEEN their attitude & #interacted with them and it is very much that sort of vibe. like #they very much come across as the sort of fake nice mean girl who would have bullied the fuck out of me in highschool while being friendly #on the surface. just like. the whole vibe was very plint and laugh/patronizing/thats where the Real lack of empathy is #like ……… soooooo tempted to name name bc the person did post this dogshit take publicly but #tumblr user stranges**ft sure has some Opinions 😬😬😬

[darabeatha]

ANYWAYS, HAVE U GUYS SEEN THIS????

#;t.ezcatlipoca #I LOVE HIM SOOOOO MUCH #HIM AND HIS STUPID KNOCKOFF BRAND THAT'S LIT JUST HIS NAME STAMPED ALL OVER #what was the name mmmmmm there was a brand that was commonly known for doing those tags around the arm #BUT HIS ITS JUST--- TEZCATLIPOCA. #REPEATED !!! #i was joking with mythe about this but #t.ezca getting into a new business of selling bath bombs and soaps and candles #and his bath bombs S U C K #its like the saddest thing; its just-- dusty purple that looks like when u brush ur brushes to clean them #the water that is left over after cleaning the brush? thats it #I LOVE tezca and his 3876487346738 failed businesses #never back down never what? never give up.. never back down never what?NEVER GIVE UUUPP ; OK LETS GET ITTTT #i was talking to mythe about this and how he wouldn't even bother about quality; he's buying in quantities; he's not gonna bother on that #other part; he'll assume everything¿s good #< awful idea #t.ezca is a more marketinable person rather than testing or making the products} #also ohmygod i forgot to mention it but;; i love how they keep his black nail polish; it looks really cool

[ardenigh]

More questions on Tegan & Lucky!

What sort of media would Lucky be interested in?

What sort of books and journals are in Tegan's collection?

What bike did Tegan have and what is Lucky's? How did Lucky get his?

What are Tegan's associates doing about Lucky being around instead of him?

Whether for his curiosity of meeting new people and places or distancing himself from Tegan's social circles, would Lucky consider moving somewhere else?

Since Lucky is still legally seen as Tegan, would he get his name changed?

Since Tegan is the king of street racing, would it be fitting that he also has an unbeatable skeeball highscore in every arcade he's been to?

i was going to open this answer by going "well it's your lucky day" but i just made myself cringe with it lol

it is time for boy lore!

What sort of media would Lucky be interested in?

I think he likes weird mixed-media and self-published stuff, honestly. Audio dramas, video essays. Things he can put on while he’s on the road or stretched out watching the clouds. Reading is nice, too, but he focuses best when he's just gotten up and isn't moving yet.

He likes a classic slasher from time to time, too, but only with other people. Corn-syrup blood and cheesy practical effects are just kind of better enjoyed together.

What sort of books and journals are in Tegan's collection?

Make no mistake, Tegan was a NERD. Aeronautical anthologies, astronomy texts, those weird Barnes & Noble historical coffee table selections. Poetry, like a lot of poetry. Tegan's very much a Yeats boy, although he was also fond of Rilke and Rimbaud. There’s also, like, a few dusty language textbooks, the sort that you buy on a kick and never get around to actually studying. And he wrote a lot. Memo pads and leatherbound Walgreens journals, that sort of thing. Crack one of those suckers open and you get a free tongue-in-cheek existential crisis in mechanical pencil, 'cause that's what he had on tap 80% of the time.

What bike did Tegan have and what is Lucky's? How did Lucky get his?

Tegan had a 2012 BMW F800ST! Torquey and balanced and really well cared for. Midnight blue with some subtle yellow and white accents, little bit of a Van Gogh homage (nerd).

Of course, Janus had mixed feelings on the whole racing thing, but he also recognizing that having a motorcycle was an integral part of his brother’s identity, so he arranged for a replacement — a Sprint 1050. They are both sort of sharp in the front, and honestly, like, a bike is a bike. Only thing is that a bike is not a bike, and so while Lucky does get things done with the Sprint, it’s a little bit too finicky for his taste. He ends up trading with another local bike enthusiast for something a little more his style, and that — a Yamaha FJR1300 — ends up being his trademark bike. He gets it done up in his colors and everything. :)

What are Tegan's associates doing about Lucky being around instead of him?

Aside from the fact that he just isn’t around as much as they’re used to, I think that most of his acquaintances are just convinced that Tegan sort of got scared off the scene by the crash. First one of his career, right? And bad enough to take him off the map for months. I think that what strikes them as the strangest is the way that he just doesn’t seem to engage in the racing game at all anymore — he just seems to be a full-time courier, now.

When they ask, though, he’s genial. Maybe a little vague. Something's ever so slightly off about him. It’s weird, but who wouldn’t be? The crash was pretty bad. I’m still sorting everything out. Everyone doing okay? Nothing like an NDE to really mellow someone out. He’s still welcome, though, and sometimes he takes people up on invitations on the town, but the atmosphere’s a little different now that Holloway doesn’t step up and dazzle whole rooms like he used to.

Tegan’s best friend is canny enough and close enough that she knows what Lucky’s deal is — anyway, she’s been busy in the interim with trying to suss out what got him killed in the first place. How is she coping with the recent development that the bestie has been format wiped and now perceives way more and also way less than she is comfortable with? Uh. Really well. Don't ask her any more questions.

Whether for his curiosity of meeting new people and places or distancing himself from Tegan's social circles, would Lucky consider moving somewhere else?

Lucky would love traveling, I can tell you that much. You know those people who will tour from one coast to another with a backpack and their bike? That's right up his alley.

As far as leaving permanently, though, Lucky is a creature of sentiment. He's got ties to the city, inherited though they were, and once he starts making them his own, it'll get that much harder to actually leave it behind.

He is going touring though. Someday.

Since Lucky is still legally seen as Tegan, would he get his name changed?

Maybe after enough time’s passed. Feels disrespectful to immediately start over, you know? I think a part of Lucky seeks to understand who Tegan was, and it might just be sentimentality, but wearing the name feels like a part of that, almost? You wear the name, you read the journals, you find the person still lingering in the apartment, the idle nail-carvings on the end table, the weighted blankets and sleep playlists.

In the end, if he gets too used to it, he might just start telling people that he is Lucky, yeah, but he was named after a brother who passed away. Maybe Tegan would be amused.

Since Tegan is the king of street racing, would it be fitting that he also has an unbeatable skeeball highscore in every arcade he's been to

YES. Is it anywhere near as prestigious? Absolutely not, but it's fun to see the neighborhood teens placing bets to see who can beat him.

Did Tegan have any tattoos? If so, what where they and what meaning did it have to him?

He’s got a simple one stretching horizontally above his shoulder blades, the phases of the moon. He would’ve had more, but he had too many ideas for them and often sketched down concepts in his journals and never actually committed to them. Lots of thought went into maybe getting a line or two from poems he liked inked, but he never got the chance.

If Tegan did have tattoos, would Lucky be interested in getting one as well?

The first tattoo Lucky gets might be for Tegan. Some poem on his bicep or chest. But in you is the presence that / will be, when all the stars are dead, maybe. A lonely impulse of delight / drove to thus tumult in the clouds. That one will take some thought.

Other than that, maybe a spade? Is that too on the nose?

#bike drawings pending like i have drafts but you would not BELIEVE how awful i am at machinery . looks ROUGH #like as it is i just kind of look at them and sigh . wistfully #thinking abt tegan makes me miss tegan and its so funny bc man i KILLED him . sorry tegan sdhfj #poems quoted up there are buddha in glory by rilke and an irish airman foresees his fate by yeats! #oc: tegan ''lucky'' holloway #also fun thing here is that everything abt the names here is just . like inexplicably irish? which wasn't a conscious choice #i really liked hol but navidson seemed a bit obvious and i liked the mouthfeel of the name holloway #10 to 1 if i like you i'm going to name a character for you smtime! tegan is named after a gamer friend i had who was really sweet n cool #miss ya teagan i hope u and ur hamster are well! #n i always liked yeats okay but sayer was a gateway drug i am TELLING you. sailing to byzantium? omg #ty for the ask!!! #after 10 THOUSAND years too omg i'm givin u a medal #wading through the inbox like boyyy i got some stuff 2 keep me busy !!

[leadersguilt]

cant remember bringing this up for a while so honestly i'll never be over the reiiteration that jean himself has a bleeding heart. he is going to be both blunt and honest with whoever hes speaking to, but in a way that he hopes will come to help them understand the situation but also does it so whoever he's speaking with actually understands the full situation and what that may entail despite the gruesome outcome.

#out of. #i know so many people respect erwins RTS speech bc its so important but #his honesty to the corps completely parallels what 15 year old jean was saying to the scouts in trost arc and that is. IMPORTANT TO ME #rusty honesty is the most lore accurate name for his theme bc jean is. at his very core. AWFUL at this when he starts off #esp as a scout bc ... so much of it gets held back. just not enough for marco to not see it :pray: #his first proper scout interaction with eren is something i always write as a big regret for him but i also think its good to say he was a #fifteen year old who was suddenly becoming his own and a lot of peoples therapists. #he gets so much better with all this. he GROWS #i was talking abt this with angel a second ago but it's just part of the reiner and jean parallel that makes me enjoy writing them the most #reiner originally was this massive older brother figure role following all he had learnt from marcel. but peoples trust in him snapped so #easily when the reveal took place and he then spent the rest of the series trying to gain it back #( the only character who really seemed to forgive him the most being jean ) #whereas jean was the character everyone loved to be mad at / tease / not get too close to #into becoming someone the majority of the scouts trusted the most #one day i will write my meta explaining all these diff characters jean mirrors but ... i shall leave you with this for now

[bahoreal]

im gonna go off on one in the tags pls enjoy

#ive been going by jay online since i was 13 irl since i was 15/16 and my mum cant get used to it #me my friend and both our mums hung out last week and i heard my mum telling his mum 'i just cant get used to [their] name. they want to be #called /jay/ but i just cant do it' literally everyone else including my brother and my dad uses my chosen name #apart from when theyre around my mother! because her force of disgust is definitely more important than my agency and want to be called by #my own name... i have been thinking about wanting to be called another name like. interchangably with my name #and i think id go with yasha. its the diminutive of jay so like. if we friends i want to be yasha x #but also realising how much i want to have autonomy over my name came from picking a name in 2021 for practise in chinese #and my friend helping me decide between something that sounds similar (林植 cos the first character kinda sounds like my eng surname) and a #more literal translation where i was like the translation of jay is 松鸦 i could use that haha and she went but the 鸦 character is awful #you could be 松雅! its then a pun and makes me sound fancy. and i was so happy just making choices and getting to like #pick my own name that peoplw could use. really a revelation. anyway i was kinda on hold for a bit living at home but now im freer hearing #her go on that 'jays choice of name is so hard on me' rant really made me..... start thinking and reminiscing about my name. and me. u know #jay wasnt even my choice its just my initials that i started going by as like. plausible deniability that i wanted to change my name #i remember thinking more about it when i was younger and deciding against other names Specifically because it would be easier to go #'its just my initials!' yeah. im 25 is it too late to change names #sorry for long rambly disjointed rant. hope this was enlightening if u made it this far

[mbat]

i find it really interesting by the way that in the flashback to the both of them being angels, crowley is clearly not really paying aziraphale much mind? like, he just called him over to help him for a second and then talk to him about this thing he was excited for, he doesnt even bother telling him his name, and hell he also comes off as being higher ranked to me somehow, idk. and then aziraphale gives him bad news and makes him all sad and they talk a bit like that, but crowley is like, still not really considering this dude hes talking to, mostly focusing on his own stuff

but he still bothers to hold out a wing to shield him from the "rain" at the end...

#id also kill to see how the interaction ended. did they just go. 'okay bye' and fly their separate ways? did crowley ever tell him his name? #good omens #aziraphale #crowley #my post #i dont really have a point here. its obviously very cute and lovely but like #everyones like 'aw what if this is when they both actually fell in love' and yes thatd be mega cute and precious #but idk crowley was really focused on the star stuff lol #aziraphale was obviously thinking about crowley sjfjsjd #i wonder so bad what compelled him to shield him with his wing. politeness? cause aziraphale was nice even as he made him sad? #angel crowley let me into your brain you adorable bastard #also take this all with a grain of salt i only saw the season twice and last time was abou #ABOUT a week ago i hate typing on the phone i only have myself to blame

[moderatetoaboveaverage]

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#went down a wikipedia rabbithole tonight and learned some chilean history #specifically around project cybersyn #President Salvador Allende #and the 1973 Military coup #and uh #fucking tragic #i think ive existed in a strange(? maybe its actually relatively common idrk) position as an American leftist where like #the crimes of american imperialism feel so innumerable to where at a certain point you stop learning about them on purpose #so like for years ive 'known' that what the USG has done to South America was awful #i 'learned' about honduras and so I just applied that as a template and went 'yeah some awful shit happened and its the CIAs fault' #but uh getting a bit more detailed knowledge about what our government did in chile has made me realize how callous that was #i dont know that ive nessecarily earned my previous attitude of 'cold detached and depressed' given #that not only did I not live through any of it but also that it was done in my benefit #god maybe this is some milquetoast shit #idk #I think being a leftist in the US is having to fight the passivating force of imperialism constantly #like lose sight of it for a second and it just fucking blends back in with the landscape #the internally defensive structure you build in your brain to protect yourself from complete emotional collapse while buying food #will equally be effective in ignoring the role of imperialism in everything else #anyway #I think this is perhaps a good opportunity to learn more about the other crimes the USG has committed in South America #to actually know the names and pronunciation of the deomcratically elected socialist leaders we deposed and what they really wanted to do #to know how their people felt and thought about things rather than imposing my own assumptions onto a reigon I am utterly ignorant of #it is embarrassing now to know the fullness of history I have ignored #Salvador Allendes words really fucking got to me and to think that there are men like him who I cannot even name is really disappointing #im going to stop self flaggellating and see about that reading #just my thoughts #feeling a little blue tonight

[lacependragon]

Hi I'm gonna rant about Apothecary Diaries and how much I hate it again because Youtube won't stop reccing me videos of it and I have to keep staring at the thumbnails while I wait for my sub page to load. So I keep thinking. And spiralling.

Also straight up like 75% of my problem with Apothecary Diaries is that Jinshi is not a fucking eunuch.

It's like the basis of him being in the harem area. Not only is it a massive fuck you to everything about harem but like? It's solely so that he, the love interest, has a cock he can stick in Maomao? It's because he's the male love interest. That's it.

If he was actually a eunuch it might be an interesting take on the romance. As it stands, it's the most boring, cookie cutter, snark-snark woman in a subservient position but doesn't act like it, heterosexual relationship ever. It reminds me of 10,000 other romances that have done it better and with more interesting men.

And god I just. It's so frustrating because Jinshi is the only part of this show that I dislike! The rest of the show has fascinating themes and moral quandries and characters. And then there's Jinshi. Trying to fuck Maomao. And being creepy. And being in the harem area despite not being a eunuch and clearly having a sexual desire for Maomao. Which, again, rules. Where are the rules. Why does this rule not fucking matter.

Why does the worldbuilding of this series build up everything so nicely and so perfectly and then Jinshi comes in and none of it applies to him? It's not even well written in the narrative. He just sucks. He can do whatever he wants. Whenever he wants. And there's no fucking consequences. Ever.

Oh no Maomao thinks he's ugly.

Big fucking whoop this guy could hold her down and assault her and he wouldn't get in trouble.

I just. I cannot get over how much Jinshi sucks. How much his character is awful. How the story just completely ignores all the ways he breaks it and its rules and just goes "lalalalala" and keeps going.

Everything about Jinshi sucks. He breaks every rule. He is creepy. He abuses his power. He's not actually supposed to be in the fucking harem. And in the end it's SURPRISE! He's got a functional cock! So he can FUCK YOU ANYWAY!

Honestly it seems to me like the creator just. Fell in love with Jinshi and stopped caring about logic.

And I STILL can't get over the BAIT AND SWITCH and the eunuch thing. Like of COURSE the ONE THING that makes this not a typical power-struggle snark-snark-kiss anime relationship isn't even fucking REAL.

God I fucking hate this series.

#no amount of worldbuilding can save you from how fucking stupid Jinshi's entire character is #i wanna take the mangaka by the face and go 'you ruined an interesting storyline so people could picture him fucking. congrats' #god i fucking hate this series #yes this is why i cant stop thinking about it #its like a rock in my shoe #i just cannot FATHOM with this series #i mean i w ouldnt even be this annoyed but then i found out everyones favourite character in dungeon meshi has my AWFUL SISTERS NAME #and that is REALLY FUCKING RACIST (go read the manga dare you) #so THAT started grossing me out #so now i just have all this misplaced anger and frustration for dungeon #thats gonna get shoved here #theres no good anime right now #fucking end me #its all the same bullcrap as always #dont get me wrong i love a fucked up power imbalanced romance #but thats not what this is #at all

[silverislander]

being on the internet is so fun. i can come watch one of my childhood heroes make a whole twitter thread cyberbullying random women she's never met, putting anyone who says that's kind of mean on blast and then blaming them for the hate she sent their way via her hundreds of thousands of radicalized followers!

#like. jesus fucking christ #i dont expect better from her but its so fucking sad at its core. its just fucking pathetic #and thinking abt what her work meant to me and how much i loved it? and what it got me through? #i was reading these books to escape being bullied for seven years on end they quite literally kept me alive sometimes as silly as that is #yeah they sucked in a lot of ways i didnt pick up on but they were really important to me as a kid! #i would like to at least look back on birthday parties and road trips going 'well that wasnt perfect but i had fun and now ive learned' #rather than 'god i wish i had never heard of that' #and now shes. doing almost the exact same thing those people did to me on a larger scale. basically for a living #if she knew me shed probably call me the same shit they did back then. how sad is that #levi.txt #i genuinely want to know if she knows who anita bryant is. and if she can name anything specific anita did before campaigns #but then shed probably think of her as a fucking hero too. no sense of irony in her body #i just feel so fucking awful for the poor women shes calling out in those april fools posts. i hope theyre doing ok #i hope they can get away from the harassment somehow bc ive heard abt how intense it can be when it comes from her #and i hope they know theyre better women than shell ever be. its such a deeply mean spirited 'joke'