#but it doesn’t QUITE come off?

[yellowsubiesdance]

i think i’ve learned a lot when it comes to not applying my own values to the media i consume

for my script analysis class yesterday, we discussed two gentleman from verona, and nearly every classmate of mine was up in arms about how sexist the story is.

and i'm not saying it's not, or that it's not infuriating to read. but i'm also not putting my energy into getting upset about something written 500 or so years ago. and i'm not about to put my own beliefs onto these characters that are not me. i'm going to let their choices speak for themselves, and interpret it in the context of the story.

all that said, this now brings me to the point of alastor in episode 5, and how viscerally people are responding to it. those of you up in arms about the choices he’s making, and the violent threat he gave husk, you’re missing the entire point of his character, of this place they’re in, of the story being told. he’s an overlord, and he became an overlord by killing much bigger overlords and broadcasting their deaths over the radio.

HE IS NOT A GOOD PERSON.

if you started this show with the belief that every character working the hotel is a good person, you’re in the wrong place. watch the good place if you’re looking for a good wholesome story about getting dead sinners into heaven, because that’s not what this show is about.

you’re more than welcome to hate him after seeing the way he exerted power over a being whose soul he owns, but you’re doing the media you’re watching a disservice by writing it off so quickly. if you don’t like to be uncomfortable watching media, watch something else. this is an uncomfortable show, it handles uncomfortable topics, and it’s going to be an uncomfortable ride, and if you’re not up for something like that, then you should take a break from it and pick up something else. you don’t have to get online and defend your own ideals while you watch a show that goes against your ideals.

#hazbin hotel spoilers #that’s not even touching on the fact that husk was an overlord too #he also owned souls that he used as currency to supply his gambling addiction #he’s also not a good person!! #the majority of these characters are in hell for a reason: they’re not good people #i quite frankly love the way this show blurs the lines between good and evil #our heroes are sinners and overlords and demons. while the enemies are angels. but that doesn’t mean our heroes are good people. #you HAAAVE to come to terms with that!! you have to stop seeing the world in black and white or you’re not going to survive this world #if you’re upset because alastor was cruel to husk fine! be upset! but explore why you’re taking yourself out of that world. #in this world sinners own other people. there’s no ifs ands or buts #‘oh alastor is a poc why would he own people’ he was a serial killer when he was alive do you really think you can apply your values to that #(and this is me speaking as a poc. specifically a mixed race poc.) #i cannot speak to who vivzie is as a person. but i’m interested in the message she’s writing and thus far i’m finding it compelling #it’s a similar story as the good place but it’s going the distance to explore even worse people than those in the good place #i don’t think it’s responsible to write something off just because unsavory things happen in it. #and she’s giving us so many different types of representation that don’t involve race (although we’re also getting a lot of hispanic rep) #just like cool your jets and maybe process some of the anger you’re feeling. and maybe nothing will change. #but if you act. instead of react. if you understand why you’re feeling some type of way and then make a choice. #that’s so much stronger and more responsible than reacting and not thinking anything through #hazbin hotel #alastor #husk #hazbin alastor #hazbin husk #anyway let me get off my soapbox #long post

[akkivee]

the abject horror on kuukou’s face when he realises this had gone too far and he nearly drove someone to basically killing themselves killed someone is the exact reason he was so adamant about taking the fall for everything in the ren chapter btw

#vee queued to fill the void #i’ve been hesitating making my post about kuukou and his karma bc i feel it goes a lot deeper on kuukou’s end than the concept itself #like the name evil monk comes from kuukou’s name harai means sins basically aka the evils of religion #but what if it’s also indicative of how much kuukou doesn’t like himself much and him doing so much ‘quick karma’ as shakku puts it #is kuukou overcompensating for something as he’s clearly doing here in this chapter #i have this as a post in my drafts idk if i’m going to post now that i’m about to tag vomit it here lmao #but i’ve talked ad nauseam about kuukou’s cyclical writing that’s a facet of his religion being used as his character trajectory #and i won’t go off on how kuukou can potentially be the coolest written character of anything ever comes out of it lmao #but in harmonious cooperation kuukou goes out of his way to encourage jyushi’s strength as a person #and it’s the opposite of kuukou saying he himself is weak #in that same track kuukou encourages hitoya to move on from his past #this chapter right here is kuukou clinging to something that’s making him clam up and take a punishment he doesn’t quite deserve #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i’m crossing wires in this post lmao maybe i will post the other one talking about this one to help stay on track lol #but kuukou is very quietly working himself bc there’s a lot he doesn’t like about himself and i’m very curious to know how far that goes lol #this thought is tbc lol

[ryssbelle]

I haven’t had long hair in years and now that I’ve grown it out my sisters found a new fidget toy.

#my art #from my life #comic #she does this everyday #especially if I have a pony tail #she doesn’t pull it #she just holds it #okay she does pull it sometimes but it’s rare #it’s very funny cuz we’ve kind of switched hairstyles #I used to have my hair really short and she had hers super long #now mine is really long and hers is short lol #it’s cuz she worked with kids and they kept pulling it or giving her lice #so she just said screw it and cut it off #then she quit lmao #I’m growing mine out to donate #but my hair is layered so not all the layers are long enough yet #plus I’ve got split ends so they have to grow out more so they can get rid of them #but still have enough hair for donation #so ye :D #there’s a lot of challenges with long hair I didn’t expect but I’m dealing with em as they come

[hershelwidget]

I don’t know anymore have a Caleb prepared to Fight for his bestie

“she asked for no pickles” lookin scene

#his character arc from goofy tall guy to Don’t Talk To Me Or My Friends Ever Again is WILD #hershel’s octonauts au #octonauts gups #in all seriousness this scene is based off of the concept of lars making his way onto the ship #caleb and beast both want him DEAD dead #also to explain emma: #she gained a genuine phobia from the trauma of her experience with lars and has nightmares about him like. 3 times a week #bundle that info with the fact that caleb and emma are quite close and badda bam you have the scene #technically speaking emma did ask for no pickles. she asked to not Be the pickles. #i’m normal about these two specifically i need to study their friendship under a microscope #to ramble about caleb for a second sorry- #he had enough soup before his death for the effects to. well. take effect. and he gained a rather mild form of amnesia but still Amnesia #he doesn’t fully remember darwin but knows in his heart that darwin is important to him so he stays near them when possible #(as a result from the trauma of being murdered) he sometimes has moments where he Shuts Down #but he’ll still try to be close to any of his friends ; though those moments bring him closer to emma because she’s usually the one to #guide him when he does that (she does it too) #he wants lars dead because he’s being angry ‘on behalf’ of darwin and emma his two favourite people in the world #obviously thats not really how it works but that’s what he feels is going on #’if not me then who’ type of situation with this guy yk. #also ALSO one time he absolutely destroyed felix because he found out that he’s been manipulating emma so there’s also that #caleb is VERY protective about emma actually. most of the time it’s unnecessary honestly #it only really becomes useful against the other spirits or against lars #like in the picture !! woah it comes full circle i know right #thats my cue to post the thing . sighs . caleb i love you don’t let lars hurt anyone else

[itoshi-s]

working at a lingerie / erotic boutique really puts sm thoughts into my head 😵‍💫 how different bllk / hq / tokrev boys would act. what’d catch their attention. whether they’re a bit timid or playful abt it. or maybe they’re so confident it makes the staff go crazy and gush abt u two as soon as u leave the store .. yeah ……

#hm hm this idea makes me blush sm u don’t get it!!!!!! #there’s this one type of clients that always makes me n my coworkers swoon #and it’s the blunt but loving n sweet boyfriend that doesn’t mind spending his money on u and ur pleasure #like .. hm? u like this one? well then let’s get it #yeah i can see its 500 usd i dont care #look this seems fun. yeah i’ll have this one please let’s see if we like it #rin is this type btw #he’s just rly fun in bed in general. likes to try new stuff out and he doesn’t mind spending quite a bit on it either #you tell him that maybe y’all should just think it thru first but he shrugs and goes ‘what’s the point we’re already here anyways.’ #u leave the store w a few things but he comes back a few minutes later and ends up buying that one set you’ve been eyeing but told him + #+ it’s too pricy #he tells the clerk to just ring it up and that he hopes you don’t get mad 😭 #NGHHHH HES SO CUTE #oikawa makes u soooooo flustered it’s crazy. u slap his arm every so often and have to rly pry his hands off in the fitting room #😵‍💫 #noya is a regular at one of the stores n he’s the cute lovesick puppy boyfriend that comes in every so often to buy a new set or some toy #there doesn’t even have to be any occasion he just loves surprising n spoiling u sm </3 #iwa comes to the store w u first cuz u told him u wanna see what they have #you end up buying a toy or two n some lingerie too #he comes back a week or two later and buys some of the other things you’ve been wanting to try out. he’s a lil sheepish by himself #BUT ITS SO SWEET ITS INSANE …….. hes so doting i wanna eat him up #i could go on abt this forever but it’s so specific i don’t know if any of u would indulge in that ajsjsksjsj

[what-the-fuck-khr]

"Why do they call her Kurokawa" you just said the reason. Because it isnt her given name. The boys are not nearly as close to her as they are to Kyoko, and even then Gokudera calls her Sasagawa for the same reason, they're not close enough to warrant first name basis.

Even Hana calls the boys by their last name. And Tsuna calls Yamamoto and Gokudera by their last name.

So, why wouldnt they call her Kurokawa? Kyoko is the weird one here. Chrome's name doesnt count because it's an alias that goes either way.

this is really funny. I was talking about the dub team and cast, bc her given name is Hana and I would imagine they would use it because generally no one in the fandom calls her by her family name and as such when a lot of people read Kurokawa most people do not click that they mean Hana. that’s it. that’s what I was talking about.

this was not about the actual characters. I know why the actual characters don’t use her given name. Kyoko’s also not the weird one here because they are best friends. it is a given she would use her name. they are Japanese, in Japan. I know why they use her family name lmfaoooooo

#i… have been here for over 10 years I know why Hana’s family name is used in the series #I quite literally was only talking about the dub casting and the VA’s of the dub cast even Hana’s own VA #a lecture wasn’t necessary for a blog literally made for KHR #and also was unnecessary when you could have asked. me to explain. anon #ask #lovely anon #please don’t try to lecture me on the series again lmfao I know what I’m talking about #if you meant this politely; it doesn’t read or come off as polite either. thanks I guess. lmfao #ooc #this is………. an incredible ask really. kind of impressed. a khr blog asking why Hana is regarded as kurokawa by people she’s not friends with #of course I’m sure they’re saying this because they don’t know! a blog revolving around khr! #this is so ridiculous fkgkdkdjsjfjkdk #in awe still

[dutybcrne]

Sometimes Diluc does wonder if the Delusion left a lasting impact on him, outside the never-fading scars on his arm. That if every time his temper flares or he deals a particularly cruel blow upon his opponent, it’s due to the Delusion’s lingering influence, that it may have altered him to be a crueler person as a result of his near half a decade-long dependence on it.

#hc; diluc #//Sometimes; he even goes as far as to wonder if the Delusion in fact only ENHANCED what was already there #//He’d damn near slain Kae out of anger as it was; anger he’d NEVER once thrown at Anyone before; much less HIM #//Who’s to say he didn’t already have that darkness within him; even considering the circumstances of that moment #//And him continuously—deliberately CHOOSING—using the Delusion only CEMENTED it deep into his self and soul #//He’s had plenty of his share of nightmares where he longs for the Delusion; regretting having Shattered it after its final use #//It was for the best; yes; but now he’ll forever be Haunted by the lack of it; like an addict in withdrawal #//There were times he DID try and cast it away during his years in Snezhnaya; but inevitably put it back on after harrowing nightmares #//He wishes he’d tried harder to get rid of it then; before it left such a lasting impression on him #//Even now; his body is still SO used to & wanting of it; he gets so RESTLESS #//Wanting to reach for and mess with it; only to find it gone and Remember why #//Or the marks it had branded him with start aching and acting up so bad; as though he were Burning from its fire #//Feeling utterly Exhilarated in the face of destruction his flames bring; in dreams or in reality then be Horrified at how much he’d done #//bc he SHOULDNT be proud of that; SHOULDNT delight in such cruel feelings and sights #//Especially when it comes to dealing w Fatui in Mond—the sick delight he feels in fighting/destroying them genuinely scares him at times #//He’s less inclined to feel it when dealing with the Abyss creatures—they aren’t HUMAN after all; but it still sets him at unease at times #//Sometimes particularly scathing remarks toward Kae during their bouts have even him balking #//Not quite rushing to take it back; esp not when Kae hits back harder or brushes it off w his irritating little posturing #//But still enough to make him mull it over afterwards & wonder just how much more resentment he holds for him #//And if he should watch out and make sure it doesn’t get so bad he tries to hurt him again #//He would NEVER willingly want to draw his sword on him ever again; not if he could help it #//no matter what’s become of their bond and how irreparable it must surely be; after all’s said and done #//But if the Delusion had truly sunk its cruel influence so deep into himself…who’s to say how well he can keep up this oath? #//Or smth idk lol

[ow-old-men]

that part is a little sad to me because for some reason i find the mundane aspects of overwatch to be far more interesting than whatever the hell the main game is about. what's the day-to-day life someone living in new york city like in that universe? what's it like to go to school? what kinds of new college majors have been created from all the technological advances? what's it like to live in a city ran by vishkar? what kinds of new cosmetics have been formulated over the years? what would it be like trying to make it as a big-time actress in hollywood? i just know we'll never get any kind of development on that front because all the money goes to the pew-pew-flashy-kabooms

Bestie you are so so so correct. Mundane world building is my favorite thing about the ow fandom and I love it when it bleeds through the cracks of fanworks- fics that include an added piece of theoretical tech that lets Rein actually lift his armour?? The fanworks of omnics with mechanical body mods and hairstyles entirely without hair??? D.va drinking joke energy drinks that imply a vast in-universe structure of capital and influencers that is so much like our own and yet altered????

It’s all so cool and so alive and such a charming and human part of transformative work

As for sitting there with all those emotions and knowing canon will never answer, think it’s kind of an inevitable quirk of any shooter with a 🌻✨big and varied cast!✨🌻 Ultimately, the characters are there as vehicles for a fun game experience and they provide that, even if we never get to see Rein’s neighbor tending to a vegetable garden that is both futuristic and achingly mundane, no matter how much I’d love to see it

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #ask #I’m not quite sure what this is in response to #but you are ENTIRELY correct #also and I really hope this doesn’t come off as unkind #but you should look for that in other media then! #nourish the instinct to look for the stories that can provide what you want!

[noxchievous]

Hey Lemmy

#digital art #man I popped off w this one #hey lasso tool … love u…… #I guess I should come up w a tag for Lemmy but. Maaannn I’ll do it later #I did an IMMACULATE job w the sky omf #took me awhile to figure out her colors but I’m quite happy with them #She might need an update next drawing cuz her pockets have xtra details + she doesn’t usually wear that jacket #but for this picture she looks great #I almost forgot fandom tags LOLOLOLOLOL!!! #su oc #ok that’s it #Lemmy&Cateye

[dumplingcatho]

fucking annoyed by matty healy wtf man FUCK performative activism and fuck him

#for those who don’t know: the 1975 performed at the good vibes festival in malaysia #and got banned and later got the ENTIRE festival cancelled for a kiss between two male artists and his (drunken) tirade against the- #-msian govt for their homophobia #yes it’s an act of protest yes the govt deserves to be called out BUT BUT BUT #it is. so incredibly fucking selfish and reeks of performative activism and white saviourism #it’s quite apparent from his actions he doesn’t know or care the reprecussions queer malaysians will face in the wake of his actions #he’s jeopardising the safety of queer malaysians bc they WILL be the scapegoat and face the brunt of the govt’s actions- #-following what he did onstage #the 1975 can easily fuck back off the the UK but queer malaysians will be stuck here facing the consequences of ur selfish actions #AND he’s discouraged organisers from finding queer friendly or queer acts and said acts will be discouraged from coming too #he’s just provoking the govt and making the situation even worse #not to mention the festival??? the organisers and other musicians and ppl who paid and came all the way out to watch this?? #the entire festival is cancelled now wow good job #god. #personal #rant

[toxapex-lore]

🍎🙌 Thanatophobia?

Link to the OC ask game here! (Asks are still open for this!)

Hiding this under a cut because it got long, although who’s surprised with Thanatophobia’s family!

🍎  - What is Thanatophobia’s relationship with their parents like?

Thanatophobia was raised by both their Darkrai father Eclipse, and Yveltal parent Velta, an unusual occurrence for the Phobias as most of their other ‘parents’ only lent Eclipse their power to help create them!

Than is quite close to Eclipse, despite not living with him full time as a child, and still visits him often now as an adult! Out of all their siblings, they seem to be the most aware that their father’s self-imposed isolation has took a toll on him mentally, which has led to them hiding what their sister Thala is doing from him - they know it’s not the most honest course of action, but they don’t want to be the one to hurt him by making that revelation to him, and they just hope they can persuade Thala to stop this on their own before their father has to find out.

Velta and Than are also very close! Velta always wanted a biological child, and while they never got the experience of hatching Than from an egg, they’re close enough for the Yveltal! This led to Velta often spoiling Than during their childhood, and even as an adult, although not enough so that Velta’s other children would feel left out! Their relationship however becomes a bit more strained once Than’s mortal siblings begin passing away - Velta is accepting of how it is, as they are both loyal to their job as god of death, as well as now being used to this part of parenthood, and is just glad they got a chance to raise them as children. Than however, sees Velta’s unwillingness to do anything as a sign that they never really cared, and begins pulling away from their relationship - something that hurts Velta immensely, although Than seemed to have been counting on that. Hopefully the two can reconcile in the future…

🙌  - How many siblings does Thanatophobia have?

A lot. A lot of other Pokémon would see Thanatophobia’s large family and shudder, let alone the fact that they’re the eldest on both sides. Than however doesn’t mind it, as they seemed to have inherited both of their parents’ love of children, and genuinely care for all of their siblings a lot! (Even if they can be very headache inducing at times!)

From Eclipse’s side, they only have six: Thala, Astra, Astro, Acro, Tryp and Dia! Out of all of them, they are the fondest of the youngest two, Tryp and Dia, although they’re spending a lot of time with Thala nowadays… Despite being very disappointed in their sister’s less than ideal actions, Than still cares for her, and ultimately wants her to stop before she attracts the attention of someone more powerful than her who is far less merciful…

It’s harder to count how many siblings they have on Velta’s side, as they are constantly adopting lost children and abandoned eggs to raise, but they do have a younger Banette sister that they are especially close to - Bani! Than has even made Bani a couple of skull themed accessories to put on her witch costume so they can match!

#ask game #thanatophobia (oc) #eclipse (oc) #velta (oc) #thalassophobia (oc) #bani (oc) #yeah. Than’s family sure is something. The Phobias are already a nightmare (no pun intended) without getting into their adopted siblings #they likely do make back up with Velta though and understand that their parent is just doing their job! Than is just grieving VERY hard and #seeing Velta carry on like nothing was wrong hurt them a lot… #I would love to say Thala doesn’t get into too much trouble. On one hand I am considering her getting off with a verbal warning (which tbh #can be terrifying coming from a god) and cleaning up her act. On the other hand she has the potential to get herself into Quite Some Troubl

[pepprs]

feeling misery and despair about going back to work btw. im trying to suppress it and i did a good job but the inevitable is inevitable

#purrs #i had like 3 massive breakdowns at the end of the week incl one on friday when i was off. and then i was like ok. i am literally weak and sh #shaking from all of that let me just pretend none of it happened. and i did!!! i pretended so well that i have felt basicslly normal all #weekend. i played a lot of video games and i even went out twice.. once to a chorus concert on campus (which is big bc being on campus ummmm #is deeply agitating to me rn ♥️) and today to home depot w my family to wander around the plants and hear the birds. i am suppressing things #and i know i am but if i don’t think about thst i feel so normal. except now it’s 11:16 on a sunday night and i have work tomorrow. and i #know most of the horrors are over but there are still so many more fucking horrors ahead. saying goodbye to people i love and anniversaries #of things happening including today being the 4 year anniversary of a certain email lol. and i can FEEL the difference. the way my stomach #is in knots bc weekends are only so long (even long ones) and i can only hold back the horrors for a little while. it’s all temporary. augh. #i literally need like a whole month off i think. idk. work stuff has fucked up my mental health beyond belief this year and it’s so sad bc t #this is my dream job but im in so much mental pain and physical exhaustion constantly and they beget themselves and by the end of the week #im miserable. but the semester is about to end. but what if it doesn’t get better bc EVERY single god damn time we talk about how it’s gonna #get better it quite literally gets worse lol 💖 i can’t im not strong enough. coming up on 5 years here and im not fucking strong enough! #but i will heal eventually i think. i just need the horrors to cease for long enough for me to catch my breath (and other redacted things ♥️

[boomerang109]

what if capitalism is making the one job i thought was possible for me feel unattainable not because i haven’t literally been doing it since age 13 but because it’s not well paid enough so until you get into a higher position you have to work multiple jobs and i knew that i always knew that but. fuck. why is adulting going to be so exhausting. what if this really is the best time of my life? being a depressed college student? what if it’s downhill from here?

#I love my quiet getting high nights cause they let me unlock my thoughts #i HATE my quiet getting high nights cause they let me unlock my thoughts #like bestie I was just watching critical role why did I pause it to write this down #anyway in other news I have a ten hour tech day and I’m ✨scared✨ #technically it’s nine and a half though because they moved the call by a whole half hour #and honestly I’m going to get breakfast for meal swipes so I might end up being late cause breakfast doesn’t open until 10 #but like fuck if I’m gonna try to make food here #I want to pack my bag tonight but also I just laid down after doing dishes and I’m exhausted #I’ve had such a long day too I had two normal classes (one of which I basically led the class. I interviewed two professionals in front of #the whole class. FUCK I probably need to send them a thank you email. that’s gonna be a tmrw issue or I might draft hifh but like not sendin #but anyway after that I had one hour for lunch and then three hour lab which was fun!! because we went ride pooling but like we walked a #shit ton and in the sun #oh and my roommates must’ve forgotten I come with today cause they left me behind (which is totally fine cause I didn’t get up but it did #mean I had to catch the on campus transport and that takes forever and so I was late to meet my friend for breakfast and dining hall was #closed so I had to get food elsewhere which literally cost the same as the dining hall in the morning which is dumb but it took waaay longer #anyway hifh boom takes tumblr diary entries too seriously idk why I channeled my whole life into this post lmao #i think it’s cause I’m self-isolating HARD (despite being fairly social at the moment? it’s a surprisingly cool balancing act im pulling off #quite well as a busy bee) so I felt the need to pretend to have human connection without actually breaking my self-imposed isolation lmao #boom blogs high

[kimtaegis]

👋 2022

#I won’t go into detail about real life except that it was. well. a Trip #learned some things went through things. the year of baby steps I guess #BUT I wanna write some thoughts about my 2022 tumblr experience down #it was… also quite a Trip #positive first: learned to stay off this site when necessary! very important mental-health wise #my most used tag this year was my track tag! shoutout to everyone who’s been using it #you bring me much joy by sharing your creations with me. I appreciate it 🤍 #another shoutout to all the incredibly lovely people who’ve come to my inbox this year #I’ve been very lucky in that regard. 98% of my anons have been the kindest sweetest most eloquent people #and I’m happy to have been able to have super interesting thoughtful and respectful discussions from time to time #okay what else. oh HIGHLIGHT of my year here – my birthday ADFFGHJ #I felt so so so spoiled and couldn’t (still can’t) believe the amount of spectacular gif(t)s I got. made me feel stupidly happy oh my god #I learned a lot of new skills and techniques for gfx making. kept experimenting with different styles which has been fun! #gif making has turned more into a relaxing activity than something that makes me feel pressured and anxious #I dialed it down a bit compared to last year and I think that was a good decision as well #as for not so positive things. well. #of course there are the usual/ general ‘complaints’ like lack in interaction and the like #got my first proper anon hate in November. that was something #HUGE lesson I learned this year: just because someone states in their bio that they’re adults doesn’t mean they act like ones <3 #people can be very childish ruthless and simply not worth one’s effort #and a last thing that fits quite well to that: 9 out of 10 people do not care about you. not about your time and effort you put in content #not about whether you’re online or not. not about how you might feel when they say and do certain things #I think I need to learn how to embrace this kind of insignificance. be more audacious. find validation within myself #okay I’ll stop now #I wanna say thank you to all the lovely people who made this year on tumblr more enjoyable and who truly brighten the place up for me #I love you lots and wish you all the best for 2023 #it’s gonna be a hard year for me with lots of challenges and changes #and it’s nice to have this little space here where you can escape to from time to time #mwah. smooches to all of you. happy new year <3

[drunk-poets-society]

The thought of going to college is filling me with immense despair and I’m half thinking of dropping out

#I cant do this anymore godammit #i want to SCREAM #I know shipping characters won’t pay the bills but I wish it did #I just wish things weren’t hard anymore I want to play on easy mode. a tutorial mode even. I just. don’t want to do this anymore #I don’t want to! I cant! i cannot!!!! I am sick of disappointing people! I’m sick SICK SICK OF IT! #just another month I’ll be through with this I say #gosh I just need to hold out for just that much longer #I hate when people keep expectations from me! I hate it! Stop it!! stop telling me that I have the ‘capacity to do well’ I don’t! I am #exhausted and average at best! there is nothing I am outstanding in! I am just average! stop stop stop stop expecting that I’ll do something #remarkable in life when I’m just looking forward to dying as soon as possible! stop it! stop it!! #it drives me insane I want to punch a wall it’s driving me INSANE #I am average at everything ok? I’ve made my peace with it. I’m not destined for greater things. I’m studying for a pretty worthless degree. #I don’t even want this degree. I didn’t even choose it. I don’t want to do it. I don’t! I really don’t. #it drives me insane whenever people tell me that I don’t give my 100% in my academics. yes I don’t. I don’t because if I do I will self #destruct. last time I gave it my all I became so severely depressed that I quit everything I quit doing everything I loved. it was horrible #I gave it my all in the way people want you to and the whole time I was suffering and then I failed #it really does affect you when you for once try your absolute best and the result you get is worse than if you didn’t try at all #I was better off slacking. so ever since I’ve done the bare minimum and come to terms with the fact that I am average at best and I’m much #better off being average at best instead of being an absolute failure after doing my absolute best #they say that school doesn’t matter in the long run I hope it’s true because those scars haven’t faded still #the brain damage was irreparable #eugh I hate it here #delete later

[scham-wcan]

Ruby: Hey Cindy, i got another question of the Schnee variety

Cinder: Don’t call me that, and I thought you were the seasoned veteran already?

Ruby: Well, Even Professionals have some short comings every now and again, ahaha. No, but this is a bit more, uh, Schnees adjacent? Y’know sometimes when we get swamped by reporters or paparazzi? I usually just run away but I saw a magazine which ran some story about us two being coddled and restrained from the world by the Schnees? As if they’re the ones who make us avoid 100 flashing cameras and shouting people.

Cinder, thinking about the paparazzi who’s cameras and equipment she’s consistently torched for reasons minor to justified: Yeah I got nothing kid, just don’t pay them any mind

#cinder fall #winter schnee #cinwin #ruby rose #weiss schnee #white rose #Cinder has and will burn any nit’s camera off of the pure satisfaction #but protective schnee spouses are also a thing #if a reporter ever says some wild stuff about the schnees running or no Ruby and Cinder alike will be in their face #‘WEISS IS NOT A MONSTER OR RUDE SHE JUST WANTED THAT DINNER COOKED RIGHT’ #‘Winter doesn’t need a military uniform to go out in public why would she be mocking the army when she attends galas without them’ #‘No Whitley isn’t reclusive or any nothing you people just ambush a kid when he goes to school’ #‘Willow is the best parental figure after a lot of short comings and you need to quit flashing her with this thing before I smash it’ #scham rambles