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baroquebucky · 4 years

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tiny marshmallows

a/n: i got this idea from a book i read a long time ago and i remembered this scene last night and i had to write it with bucky! let me know what u guys think <3 requests for marvel characters are open !

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Bucky was a puzzling person to say the least. No matter how hard you tried, you could never figure out where his head was at. When you thought you knew him and had him all figured out he would do a full 180 and you’d be back at square one. You both talked quite frequently, you would consider the super soldier a friend, but you weren’t sure if he would say the same.

You slipped on your raincoat and headed out the door, upset that the whole compound forgot to buy a box of hot chocolate, despite you definitely texting steve to add it to the list. You ran towards your car, getting your shoes wet and the bottom of your jeans slightly damp as you ran through a puddle.

After a couple of minutes you arrived at the grocery store, heading straight for the box of hot chocolate packets. As you grabbed the box you smiled to yourself and snatched a bag of tiny marshmallows as well. After braving the storm once more and running back to your car, your teeth were chattering and your hair was dripping.

As you arrived back to the compound you decided to hide the box and the marshmallows until the perfect occasion came, but you couldn’t wait that long. So instead you made sure to schedule a movie night in a couple of hours. That would give you time to shower change and make everyone a cup of hot chocolate. You smiled and sent out the message, going to your room to kill some time and change.

As the time for movie night neared you headed down to the main area of the compound to make the hot chocolate, lining up all the mugs and getting them ready. You put the tiny marshmallows in all of them, stopping at Buckys.

Would he like them? I mean yeah he would who doesn’t. Right? He’s so tough and such a hardass, you’d only seen him smile once when sam almosy fell off the roof doing a dare- that is not tiny marshmallow personality. You decided against it and as everyone trickled down from their rooms you handed them a mug, smiling as they all gave you a thank you and hugged you.

Bucky was the last one to come down, he almost walked past you but you noticed the glint of his metal arm as he walked past the lights.

“oh bucky! Here i made everyone hot chocolate” you spoke softly, handing him the mug with puppies on it. He felt his heart swell with adoration as your cheeks grew pink when you realized the mug you had given him.

“I didn’t realize- i mean there were no other ones left, i can go switch it out im sorry” you rambled, attempting to take back the puppy mug.

“no don’t worry i love it” he spoke softly and you smiled, you heart skipping a beat as you soaked in how charming he looked.

“okay” you breathed out softly, walking away biting your bottom lip to keep you from smiling too hard. As you grabbed your own mug, you placed it on the coffee table, going to stand infront of the screen to tell the team what they were about to watch.

“okay we are about to watch the best Disney princess movie, any guesses?” You spoke up, pointing at Sam who looked confident.

“frozen” he smirked and you shook your head, warning a gasp from him. You pointed at Steve who looked at you quizzically “mulan?” you shook your head once again, earning protests from Wanda and Natasha.

“I said movie not princess” you smirked, causing the women to nod and look at you approvingly.

“No more guesses? Cmon guys!” You smiled widely at everyone, excited to subject everyone to your favorite princess movie.

“tangled” you heard bucky whisper. Your whole body lit up and you ran to hug him without thinking twice.

“yes! Tangled! Prepare to watch poetic cinema and fall in love with Flynn rider” you spoke, squealing as you hit play and sat between Steve and Wanda.

“you got marshmallows?” bucky whispered to Sam looking from him own mug to his friends mug. “Yeah you didn’t?” He asked, looking at Buckys mug and noticing the lack of the fluffy sugar bombs.

Bucky frowned slightly, was he not to level for your tiny marshmallows? He shook the thoughts away as he saw you mouthing the words to the scene, smiling when you caught bucky staring at you. Bucky turned bright red and he was very thankful it was dark.

As the lantern scene came on bucky couldn’t help but look at you as you watched in awe. A small smile playing your lips as the couple on the screen sang.

The words rang through Bucky’s ears, his heart beating fast as he realized his feelings for you. While the rest of the team was falling in love with Flynn Rider singing, Bucky fell in love with you softly singing along.

As the movie continued Bucky grew more and more nervous. What the hell was he gonna do? You were one of the few people that Bucky actually was friends with, and now he’s gonna mess it all up because he has feelings for you.

Bucky excused himself from the movie, slipping out with his now empty mug, heading towards his room. He stopped at the kitchen, putting his mug in the sink and closing his eyes for a second to set his mind straight. Did he really like you or was his mind just playing tricks on him?

Since the moment he got to the compound you were sweet to him, always offering to help him, trying to coax him to do more things and live in the moment. You were always there for him, but he was too scared to fully let you in. Yet, there you were always trying to get in, knocking at the door of his heart.

“Bucky? Are you okay? You walked out of the movie” you spoke up, scaring the super soldier slightly as he jumped at the sudden voice in the silence.

“what? oh yeah I’m okay, just tired is all” he gave you a tight smile and you furrowed your brows at him, coming closer the the tall man.

“no you aren’t, i saw you tearing up and then smiling, that’s not what you do when you’re tired” you looked at him, scanning his whole body to check if he was okay physically before finally settling your gaze on his face. You took in the light stubble on his chin and cheeks, the crinkles by his eyes and the now slightly long hair that had grown out since his last haircut.

“i just need to think about some stuff, by myself” he spoke, avoiding your gaze. You felt your heart sink a little. Bucky never skipped your movie nights. Even when he had a mission where he had to leave at 4 a.m. Bucky stayed up until 2:30 a.m. watching Marley & Me and sniffling besides you.

“oh- I’ll leave you then” you spoke softly, turning on your heel and walking back to where everyone else wat he’d the movie intently. Bucky let out a sigh as he searched high and low for the tiny marshmallows, maybe you had run out of them.

As he opened the furthest cabinet and bent over he saw the small bag of the sweet stuff, his heart sinking as he closed it and went to his room.

The weather grew warmer and warmer as time passed and you had yet to make more hot chocolate since the last movie night a week ago. You and bucky had talked since the last encounter, you had brushed it off and gone back to your cheery self towards him, he kept to himself a little more.

It was around 1 in the morning when you realized how badly you wanted some hot chocolate. You quietly and quickly got out of your bed, slipping on some fuzzy socks and going down to the kitchen area, grabbing your marshmallows where you kept them hidden and a pack of instant hot chocolate. As you heated the milk up and watched your show on your phone you heard someone coming down the steps.

You lifted your attention from the screen and paused it, waiting to see who was to join you this late at night. You saw the familiar pair of sweats and smiled internally. Instinctively going to fix your head and checking your reflection to see how you looked.

“why are you up this late?” You questioned the metal armed soldier and he gave you a small smile.

“couldn’t sleep” he responded, looking at the mug you had on the counter and taking note of the milk in the microwave. “making hot chocolate?” You smiled at him and nodded.

“want some?” You asked, already reaching for a mug and another pack of hot chocolate.

“yeah sure why not” he looked at you softly as you grabbed milk out of the fridge, taking out your now warmed milk and pouring it in his mug. You glanced at the tiny marshmallows and thought about putting them in, once again deciding he was too tough for that.

“is it- can i-” Bucky sputtered, his cheeks heating up and he took a deep breath in and exhaled. “can i have some marshmallows? I really love them in hot chocolate” he spoke, pink dusting his cheeks and his ears growing extremely hot.

You blushed and a wide smile spread across your face. “of course! sorry i just never added them because- uh yeah” you cut yourself off, not wanting him to get mad at you.

“why? you can tell me i can keep a secret” he smiled and winked at you as you added a handful and then some of marshmallows to his cup.

“i just- i thought since you’re so intimidating you wouldn’t like something like tiny marshmallows” you mumbled, looking at the floor and trying to avoid his gaze at you.

Buckys heart sank for a second before he felt his chest swell with love for you. He smiled softly at the way you were fiddling with a ring on your finger and how you shifted your weight onto one leg.

“you think I’m intimidating?” Bucky asked, a small smile still playing upon his lips. You looked at him and nodded your head, looking for any sign of sadness or negative emotions.

“I mean it’s not like you’re the easiest person to warm up to, one time i said hi to you and a second later i heard your metal arm whir- i thought you were gonna beat me up” you looked at him, your brows furrowed as he continued to smile at you.

“doll i would never hurt you” he spoke, leaning down to whisper in your ear, “between me and you, you’re my favorite person in the compound” he smiled at you and you blushed, a shy smile covering your face as you looked up and into his blue eyes.

“had i known the best assassin in the world was into tiny marshmallows i would’ve never taken him seriously” you joked, adding more marshmallows to his cup, an attempt to make up for the ones you hadn’t given him before.

As time passed you and bucky grew closer, sharing cups of hot chocolate, full to the brim with tiny marshmallows. The two of you sitting on the roof, your legs swinging off the side of the building while bucky held you tightly, making sure you didn’t fall.

Bucky liked you, so so so much. That’s why he was freezing his ass off on the roof, looking at the stars and the tree line behind the compound with you. That’s why he always made sure there was instant hot chocolate in the compound. That’s why he always made sure that before you walked into the training room he had his muscles flexed.

That’s why he put his mug down and looked at you, taking in a deep breath and trying to stop himself from backing out of this.

“y/n” he began, you turned to face him, smiling at him as he began to talk. “listen I’ve had a crush on you for so long, i didn’t know how deep i was in until that night that we watched tangled. I knew i liked you but it’s so much more than that, i wanna soend all my time with you, i wanna know the little things about you and i want you to know that about me” he paused, searching your face for any sign that he should stop. “I wanna make sure you know that i love tiny marshmallows, and i want to be disgustingly soft with you and-” you leaned in and kissed him, cutting him off.

He pulled back and smiled at you, looking into your eyes, confused but happy. He leaned back in, kissing your lips while his hand rested on the back of your neck. You both smiled into the kiss, laughing when you both pulled away with red faces.

“you were rambling. Figured I’d save you some time and just show you how i felt” you whispered, the two of you still close enough that he could hear you. He nodded and closed his eyes, screwing them shut while he grinned widely.

“does this mean you’ll be my girl?” he asked and you nodded.

“of course you fucking softie” you laughed, biting your bottom lip before throwing your arms around him and burying your face into the crook of his neck.

#bucky barnes x y/n #bucky barnes imagine #soft!bucky barnes #bucky barnes fluff #bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes one shot #bucky fluff #bucky fic

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selfcareparker · 3 years

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okay fghsgdj yes you can say girl ! my pronouns are she/her :) okay but fr pause, i read this like 3 minutes after you posted it (or at least my notif said 3mins lmao) bUT IM IN BED AND I USUALLY HAVE MY COMPUTER OPEN WITH YOUR RESPONSE SO I MAKE SURE I ADDRESS EVERYTHING AND THEN SEND IN THE ASK ON MY PHONE HDGSJSH anyway, time to get my ass up 😔 but wait i find you so funny like honestly, reading that cracked me all the way up. and i feel the “lol” thing so hard!!!! idk why i do it all the time (i’m tryna stop) but i’ll say something with lol at the beginning and lol at the end... it might be a defense mechanism at this point lol (😔) AND (i need to stop with the uppercase too it’s not funny anymore) I DONT KNOW WHY I LAUGHED SO HARD JDHSK WHEN YOU SAID ALSO AGAIN HAHAHAH LIKE UR HAHHAH also my sleep schedule is not pretty either lmao but i’m homeschooled so i never have to get up for anything? hhdhsis idk but i’m glad you slept!! you need sleep!!

also (pls no i cannot) why did i not know what ykwim meant until i reread this?? like it makes so much sense- anyway! i think it’s so cool that you’re excited for university! idk why but i do lol like you’re getting ready for the future (masters degree and all that) & you’re (maybe) going to england anyway so that’s cool haha (hopefully when you go you can see your relatives 🤞🏾)

the fact that you get happy seeing my asks i- 💓💓

you make me wanna go to London & England so bad urghhhh like i’ve only been out of the country once (to Canada for a family reunion) but it sounds so prettyyyyy & i’m so sorry that cov*d is messing everything up and i hope you can see your relatives soon :(

now to address the whole english speaking/writing: I FIND THAT SO WEIRD DUHSKSJ i don’t know how an english speaking person could say that if you don’t write it 100% grammatically correct.... that it’s wrong? when literally, over here at least, WE’RE SO GRAMMATICALLY INCORRECT HAHHAAH in both the way we talk and write!! and lol you’re welcome,, AND THE PARAGRAPH DID MAKE SENSE HDHSJSH & your rant is fine because... that is actually a bit ??? bc no one writes with 100% grammar lol

OH MY GOSH (see this uppercase thing is addictive) YOU STUDIED LATIN FOR 6 YEARS??? that’s really cool 🥺 the way that you know/speak 3+ languages i- NOT EVEN 3+ LIKE 6+ (german, english, latin, french, serbian, italian, and everything that comes with latin lmao) even if it’s just a tiny bit like wowee. it is really fascinating!!! i had the opportunity to take latin and i... didnt. i took art instead BUT ONLY CUZ MY FRIENDS WERE IN THAT CLASS AND ART LOOKED FUN IM SORRY

PLEASE WHY DO YOU KNOW EVERYONE?? that sounds so fricking cool tell your mom (mum or mama it’s really fine lol) that she sounds awesome. i think Jamaica would be fun either way!! i mean it looks pretty from pictures? i was a baby so i honestly have no recollection hahaha

LMAOO NOT U SAYING THIS IS LONGER THAN SOME OF MY FICS- PLEASE GIRL IM TELLING YOU I VERBALLY LAUGHED HAHAHAHAHAH but yea you really don’t need to apologize i like reading everything you say 🥺 HDKSHS AND UR FINE WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT ME BEFORE uhhh hmm uhh lemme think i, well, i saw chaos walking yesterday (big tom holland fan over here) and it was alright.. my mom acted a fool at all the jump scares LMAO but it was funny... since i’m talking about movies (this is hella random i know) but i like shark movies HDKJSSJ my favorite is the meg (it’s so good ohmigosh) and the 47 meters down movies aren’t bad either... i have two younger brothers... iiiii AM IN LOVE WITH MUSIC PHEW anddd i’m homeschooled (i think i mentioned that lol) i think that’s a good amount ahahaha AND IM HUNGRY RN JDHSJ

now. please. let me address the edit. i just want you to know that.. when i talk about your fics and i finish them and everything i’m not looking for more? like obviously if you’re writing i’m gonna read it but you don’t need to feel pressured or anything (idk if you do) to put more fics out lol like they’re great and i’m just sending the praise bc i love the ones that are there :’) but i’m so happy you’re working through your writers block!!! yay so so happy for you!!! and PUHLEASE anything you write is fantastic, i feel the exact same way when i write but girl. you’re fine. it’s gonna be great. (idk if this made any sense but... okay)

(and my cousin calls her mom mama so it’s really okay hahah i even call my mom mama sometimes) (and where you got the number “16 sentences” beats me but i still cracked up) (is this me pretending i had tags? maybe) HAHAHAHA OK BYE ❤️❤️ why did this take me so long to send i have no clue, AND WHY AM I OVERTHINKING EVERYTHING I SAID SHAJSHSJ ANYWAY BYE btw i love us too... like iconic // lovely anon 💓

me reading this:

also the dedication you put into sending me stuff— like with the laptop and phone and ahsksk 🥺🥺🥺

i’ll update you when i’ve started uni btw, i’m getting more and more excited every single day haha but i still have 3 weeks until it starts and even then I’ll obviously have to get used to it and everything, but you’re making me even more excited about it sksjshsg

yeah i wanna go to england too dkshsh let’s be sad together over the fact the we can’t travel eksjsh😔😭 but hopefully the wait will make it even better in the end <33 also i talk to loads of relatives over the phone at least once a week so it’s not too bad for me! but i miss their house 😭lmao

and i knowww snshsh so many native english speakers just make so many mistakes— and obviously i get that some things are slang but some things are simply wrong ajsh, the thing is no one has ever told me that my english is bad (i know it’s not bad anyway, but i’m still insecure) or no one has ever pointed out any mistakes, but yeah it’s mostly just insecurity dkshsg but yes thanks for saying what you said (previously as well as in this ask)😌🥰

Okay now for latin— girlll i don’t blame u for choosing art over latin esp. when all of your friends are doing art as well!! I’d choose art over latin as well lol skshsg but in year 6 we had to choose between latin and french, and at the time i didn’t like french? which was dumb of me and now i wanna learn french ekdhs but i don’t regret choosing latin at all bc if i properly learn french one day then i’ll already know understand loads of stuff (or at least some stuff lol) just thanks to latin 😌😌 but still, art>>>latin skskshshgs

I wanna watch chaos walking too!!! But i don’t get when/where/how it’s out lmao, cinemas are still closed here so i’ll either have to wait or find it somewhere online... il*egally 🥰 i don’t have high expectations at all btw but i like daisy and tom and the dog🥺 so i think i’ll enjoy it

GIRL SHARK FILMS SHARK FOLMS SKSJSHSHS okay so there are a few classics i haven’t watched yet, and also a few new ones that i haven’t seen yet BUT I LOVE SHARK FILMS SO MUCH SKSHSGSGSKK the first like proper shark film i ever watched was the shallows (which i like but my brain is still too small to comprehend what happened at the end (i mean i get it but i just can’t imagine it— idek if you’ve seen the film but skshhs)) and after watching it three times it does get a bit boring (but now whenever i see pictures or videos of big waves i’m just waiting for a shark to show up like come ON SKSJSG

^^^that pic/scene really traumatised me sksjsh but i still like the film

I only watched jaws like a few months ago, and i get that it’s a classic and also that it’s old and they just didn’t have the best.. equipment or special effects or whatever but i mean... look at meg and then look at jaws.... no disrespect to jaws at ALL but the meg is so much cooler. (That one scene on the boat where the shark just JUMPS OUT OF THE WATER AND SKSJSHHSUSJHA i get such a shock every time it’s so good (and the dog aww aksjshssli 🥺🥺🥰 and the boy with the ice cream lmao he’s iconic)

47 metres down, wow, i liked that film too. (i’ve only watched the original/first one i think) i mean that is such a fucking nightmare scenario like ALSJDHSNEMSKDJSHSJSKWBALSODUEWBSLDKHDJSNSKSKSHSGEBWKAISGSHEKEKSKLDJDJDHDHSHAGGA (that’s the best way i can express my feelings about that scenario lmao)

oh and i’ve recently been watching more horror films but i don’t know if they’re for me... I like the thrill and whatever but i just end up being scared for my life when i have to go to the bathroom at night or when i’m trying to sleep bc suddenly my mind is flooded with all the scary shit from the films 💀💀💀

and music i mean... you know those people who just don’t listen to music? WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM???? i honestly like all genres especially in the last year, i am IN LOVE with Nicki Minaj + Megan andddd Stormzy and i like Harry Styles but i prefer his first solo album (and obviously one direction has bangers i have a throwback 1D session at least once a month), I also love MGK especially his new stuff and otherwise i mostly listen to german artists lmao. So who do you like?💖 (WHY DO I FEEL LIKE YOURE GONNA SAY SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT SKAHAGUS IF YOU LISTEN TO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT MUSIC DONT JUDGE ME AJSHDJS) (i know you’re not gonna judge me but)

++ @ the thing you said about writing, don’t worry, i don’t feel pressured at all!!! (not by you and not by anybody else.. except myself sometimes lol) and i’m just very happy that you liked my fics 🥰🥰🥰 and if i start telling people that i’m writing a fic then sometimes it puts a bit of (healthy) pressure on me. like yes sometimes it really is writer’s block, but sometimes i really am just lazy ddkshhd so now that i’ve told you i’m writing a fic i might get my ass up quicker than i would if i hadn’t told anyone 😌😌😌

#ok i wrote some if this on the tube/on the bus/at the dentist/in bed so if this seems like it’s all over the place #that’s bc i was literally all over the place skshg #*of #also i love how you used tags skajahsg #lovely anon #<3 #sorry if some of the sentences didn‘t make sense or were too fucking long i wrote half of this half asleep #and i know i dont have to apologise but still like no one should have to read all my page long sentences that arent even proper sentencesskk

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artvmvs · 6 years

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Ena mexri 100. Dhladh ola :)

damn y u do this

(btw they kinda got mixed up bc i am dumb sorrry)

The meaning behind my url: idk. just stardust but star is in greek. idek.

A picture of me: im useless and idk how to put the picture on this place specifically, ask me separately if you do want one

How many tattoos i have and what they are: im a minor so none yet, but I’d like some in the future!

Last time i cried and why: ..no idea. Probably an arguement but I don’t remember, I’m more of a silent suffering kinda gal

Piercings i have: I am currently stretching my ears and I want a helix or an industrial, ik i don’t have many but I think they’re really cool

Favorite band: don’t make me choose

Biggest turn offs: dunno. does this mean generally pet peeves or nah,,

Biggest turn ons: uhm i am a child!!! neck bites tho we’re not diving deeper

Age: 16

Ideas of a perfect date: something chill and not formal like maybe exploring the city or watching movies together at home or cinema idk, something exciting

Life goal: bold of you to assume i have any goals for the future

Piercings i want: as i said, right now helix or industrial

Relationship status: single :))

Favorite movie: i currently like heathers and the imitation game but i really gotta watch new stuff I just never get around to it

A fact about my life: i didn’t think I would live to 2018, or at least whole (due to an unfortunate series of events) , but here i am binch y’all have to tolerate me now!! sucks to be you

Phobia: fish and insects freak me out because they’re tiny n I don’t want them near me bc they are fast little shits and also I could literally touch them and they’d die and it freaks me out. or at least that’s what i use to justify me acting like a little bitch

Middle name: dont have one

Height: 165cm or as the ‘muricans like to call it 5'4 i think

Are you a virgin?: yes

What’s your shoe size?: um?? in greece we use different sizing i think? so in greece im a 37 but i looked it up and im a 6.5 in us and a 4.5 in the uk im VERY confused but basically smol

What’s your sexual orientation? i currently identify as a lesbian

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs? i,,have,,,, drank beer once,,

Someone you miss: @221b-unicornstreet and people i cant tag

What’s one thing you regret?: not defending myself enough,,? I certainly have done many regrettable things but they’ve already happened now.. so

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: uhm BRYAN DECHART bitch i know im a lesbian but let me have this bc he is actually attractive and this is what came to mind rn so shut

Favorite ice cream?: i like vanilla flavour dONT make that joke

One insecurity: nose. spine.

What my last text message says: ‘’because it can mean either’’ im very interesting

Have you ever taken a picture naked? nope

Have you ever painted your room? i want to

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex? nYES

Have you ever slept naked? i think? in my?? underwear?? but not completely

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror? i,,yes

Have you ever had a crush? kinda

Have you ever been dumped? yes

Have you ever stole money from a friend? no???

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met? i dont think so

Have you ever been in a fist fight? nope im weak LMAO you’d probably kill me by pushing me tbh

Have you ever snuck out of your house? i’ve snuck into a house when i was six, i know im very cool.

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? yeah

Have you ever been arrested? nope

Have you ever made out with a stranger? IVE NEVER MADE OUT WITH ANYONE DONT

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? met?? up?? a date?? kinda ,, (regrets)

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents? idrk

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor? nah fam

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun? if by more fun you mean cry myself directly back to sleep then yes, every week from grade 4-7 but now i dont have the ability to miss school for so many days,, still do tho, but less frequently

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes

Have you ever seen someone die? no

Have you ever been on a plane? yup

Have you ever kissed a picture?,, i mean i was made to kiss pictures in church thanks mom!!

Have you ever slept in until 3? i do that every day in summer

Have you ever love someone or miss someone right now? i do miss someone now as ive said

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yeah

Have you ever made a snow angel? yess

Have you ever played dress up? i think

Have you ever cheated while playing a game? probably when i was younger

Have you ever been lonely? hasnt everyone at some point tbh? but not a frequent occurrence, at all

Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school? yes, from exhaustion

Have you ever been to a club? …unfortunately, 0/10 would NEVER do it again

Have you ever felt an earthquake? yeah, i live in greece dude of course i have

Have you ever touched a snake? not really… which is sad

Have you ever ran a red light? i dont drive

Have you ever been suspended from school? nope

Have you ever had detention? i was made to sit in a corner once dgkdhfkg we don’t have detentions

Have you ever been in a car accident? no

Have you ever hated the way you look? always fam

Have you ever witnessed a crime? no i dont think

Have you ever pole danced? HH NO

Have you ever been lost? sorta

Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country? if you count athens then yeah, if you count the islands which i dont see why you wouldnt then no

Have you ever felt like dying? i’ve felt like i was dying and i’ve felt like i wanted to die both buddy

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? i guess uwu

Have you ever sang karaoke? hell NO

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? probably a bunch of times and on a daily basis, i live to disappoint

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yES

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger? no?

Have you ever kissed in the rain? nope

Have you ever sang in the shower? always

Have you ever made out in a park? nope

Have you ever dream that you married someone? i think i have

Have you ever glued your hand to something? nope

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? ,,no

Have you ever ever gone to school partially naked? ,,nO

Have you ever been a cheerleader? nope

Have you ever sat on a roof top? yesh

Have you ever brush your teeth? ,,, YES??

Have you ever ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? SCARY MOVIES SCARE THE LIVING DAYLIGHT OUT OF ME AND I KNOW ITS STUPID DONT BULLY ME

Have you ever played chicken? no

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? i’ve been pushed into the ocean with all my clothes on and some money too

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? on tumblr where the magic happens yes because yall havent seen my face

Have you ever broken a bone? no

Have you ever been easily amused? on the not so frequent occasion i get in that mood i laugh at absolutely everything

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? yyess love that

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone? n o

Have you ever cheated on a test? yup yuup

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name? always

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real? what does that mean

Give us one thing about you that no one knows. i cried when i realised im gay because i thought i want going to hell (im an atheist now)

Top 5 (insert subject): top 5 what anon

Tattoos i want: havent really settled on anything but i’ll design it myself so…

#ask

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honeylikewords · 6 years

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what movies are you most looking forward to in 2018/19?

well, thanks for asking, anon!

i’m actually really, really into movies and my family and i go to see lots of them every year! going to the cinema is one of my favorite activities of all time :’)

this year and next have a great slated list of productions! here are some of my most anticipated films, in order of when they’re slated to arrive (most recent first, etc)

1. ant-man + wasp! (though i am worried about how it’ll fit with the post-infinity war timeline...i just...need a good movie with some levity...i got Real Sad/Depressed after IW...blease marvel let me smile again...)

2. christopher robin!!! i am SO Excited for more winnie the pooh and i’m 100% Sure To Cry

3. venom lmao

4. bohemian rhapsody

5. nutcracker and the four realms

5. fantastic beasts 2, sorta (all i want is queenie and jacob honestly shkfdj i’m very predictable)

6. widows! jon is in it! though i think we’re in for another “five minutes of jon and he’s dead” routine...

7. wreck it ralph 2!

8. SPIDERMAN INTO THE SPIDERVERSE IM SO STOKED HSKGHKGG MY BOY MILES MY BOY MILES MY BOY MILES

9. aquaman, even tho the only DC movie i’ve seen is wonder woman (and i STAND BY IT)

10. mary poppins returns

11. welcome to marwen! i know it looks a little cheesy but it is a very sweet story and janelle monae is a disabled war vet so uhhhhhhhh yeah i’m there girl

12. DAVID HARBOUR HELLBOY FUCK YEAH

13. lego movie 2!

14. x-men: dark phoenix

15. captain marvel!

16. dumbo! even if i am worried about burton being at the helm...

17. SHAZAM! i’m a really big zachary levi fan and i’m super excited for him to take on such a loveable and lighthearted role and i’m :’D i love shazam as a hero! he’s one of my favorites and he’s super duper cute AAAHH

18. the voyage of doctor dolittle

19. UGLYDOLLS! i have a buncha uglydolls toys and i’ve loooved them ever since i was a wee little one (i even had all the books! and would read them all the time!), so it’ll be cute to see their movie!

20. toy story 4! YAAAAAAAAAAY finding bo peep and getting woody his girlfriend back!! i always wondered where she went as a lil katiebug, so!! now i’m excited for that!

21. SPIDERMAN FAR FROM HOME B I T C H

22. the addams family reboot with oscar isaac! im so....fdakfajdkj

23. wonder woman 1984!

24. STAR WARS EPISODE IX IM SCARED HOLD ME

25. and apparently there’s a hello kitty movie slated to come out in 2019, too! i hope i can see it! i love hello kitty and all her sanrio pals!

that about does it for my list, tho! what about you guys? any big releases you’re looking forward to?

i also intentionally did not include the sequel to infinity war because while i am absolutely gonna see it, i’m not looking forward to it. i am not ready to be brutalized again in theatres. i am still traumatized.

also, the upcoming jon movies are:

viena and the fantomes

the peanut butter falcon (which i am very excited to see!)

stingray

and ford v ferrari!

i may have missed a few but! that’s my list!

tell me if you also wanna see any of these!

#messages #about k #long post //#Anonymous

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faitomato · 7 years

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i kept getting tagged a lot last week so ive decided to put them in one post lol

Rules: Answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions. (nooooooo)

Tagged by @turretty and @joeshmoe189!

Coke or Pepsi:neither, i dont like soda

Disney or Dreamworks: both, but overall disney i think

Coffee or Tea: coffee

Books or Movies: movies

Windows or Mac: windows

DC or Marvel: both

XBOX or Playstation: both

Dragon Age or Mass Effect: idk, i havent played much Bioware

Night Owl or Early Riser: night owl

Cards or Chess: cards

Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate

Vans or Converse: neither/both, idk

Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar: UM. IVE PLAYED DA:I VERY LITTLE. IDC

Fluff or Angst: BOTH, but i like a happy ending :’D

Beach or Forests: ughgh idk. despite hating the ocean i like beaches themselves a lot

Dogs or Cats: BOTH

Clear skies or Rain: clear, usually

Cooking or Eating out: eating out

Spicy food or Mild food: mild, i am very white

Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas: idk, i have a hard time enjoying holidiays. halloween??

Would you rather be a little too cold or a little too hot?: a little too cold

If you could have a superpower, what would it be: shapeshifting?

Animation or Live action: both, but i adore animation

Paragon or Renegade: paragon, im too nice :’D

Baths or Showers: showers, but i bathe when i want to relax more

Team Cap or Team Iron Man: both/neither

Fantasy or Sci-Fi: both

Do you have 3 or 4 favourite quotes: yeah probably but i cant remember them lol

YouTube or Netflix: youtube??

Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: neither, never read em :U

When do you feel accomplished: when i finish something big or win a contest

Star Wars or Star Trek: i like both, but Star Wars

Paperback books or Hardback books: hardback

Handwriting or Type: type all the way

Velvet or Satin: neither, but i prefer velvet

Video games or Movies: aahhhhhhhhh idk

Would you rather be the dragon or own the dragon: own the dragon, but im already a dragon (year of the dragon, baby)

Learning Chinese or Learning Spanish: spanish

Would you rather be able to speak every language or be able to speak to animals: aw shit. probably speak every language

Be front row for your favourite artists and not meet them, or meet them but have lawn seats : lawn seats, i think. id make a fool of myself if we met :’D

City or Countryside: countryside, more like suburban tho. i like being in big cities tho

Would you rather be a mutant, jedi or wizard: uuUUUUUHHH, MUTANT?

Fried pickles or Mozzarella Sticks: ive never had a fried pickle, so mozzarella sticks :U

Vampires or Werewolves: eh, werewolves

Pizza or Pasta: pizza but i love both

Watching a movie at a cinema with the excitement of its night premiere or wait a few days and watch it later more relaxed: either

What is your favourite band or singer?: sh it.... i dunno... Linkin Park??

What is your favorite fruit?: grapes or kiwi!

Fuzzy socks or slippers?: socks

Dusk or Dawn?: dusk

Would you rather Travel Through Time or Travel Through Alternate Universes?: alternate universes?

What’s the first book you remember reading? hmmm.. Charlotte’s Web?

Deep space, or deep sea? deep space, but im still freakin terrified

What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? aw shit i dunno. ive gotten a lot on my art and some on my acting, and my siblings are always lamenting about me looking cute when i go out, but i cant pin point an exact one

Would you rather play a physical sport or a sports video game? depends, usually video game

Favorite baked good? donuts

Pro-milk or Anti-milk? PROOOOOOO

my question: Sour or sweet candy?

Tagged by @saulof-tarsus and @turretty

Rules: tag people you want to get to know better.

Zodiac sign: Leo

Birthday: July 25th, 2000

Relationship status: single

Pets: 2 cats, Vesper and Ezra

Wake up time: 10:30am...... or later...... help me....

Dr Pepper: nah, i dont like soda

Call or text: text

Last person I called: who know, probably my mom

Last person I texted: @ahedgehogonthesea

Chapstick or lipstick: both

Number of piercings: one in each ear lobe, but i want to maybe get cartilage piercings in the future :o

Tattoos: none, i am bab

im not gonna tag anyone cause yall already tagged me and idk who else to tag :’D @ahedgehogonthesea and @soldier-poet-king yall can do either/both of these if u want!

#tagged meme #about me #thank yall!

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thepositivescientist · 7 years

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Elly’s Confession

Long D/iscord RP with Swap and Elly from @hiddeninshxdows

( Please forgive bad writing. ((Mostly on my part)) We wrote this at like 3 am over several nights xP )

Setting: Surface world, Swap visits frequently under the disguise of a human named Simon.

Reason: Swap promised that if Elly didn’t say anything self depreciating for a month he’d take her out to eat as a friendly hangout.

Swap

Swap stepped through a portal, leading Elly behind him. He nearly trips as the slight drop but catches himself. He's wearing a blue sweater vest on top of a dress shirt, gloves, dresspants, and dress shoes. He has his human disguise up, cocoa skin, blue eyes, and short, dark brown hair. They stepped into an alleyway, the sky above is nearing sunset. Outside of the alleyway a sidewalk is seen, people walking around, music playing in the distance as the usual nightlife starts to become active.

Elly

Elly quickly opened her umbrella, even if it was sunset she still needed to protect her face from the sunlight. She had a nice little jacket with red undershirt some jeans, boots and gloves with her hair tied up in the ponytail, she even put on her glasses so she could read properly. she looked around amazed at everything and all the humans "W-wow...this is t-the surface?....its...its...AMAZING!!"

Swap

He nodded, grinning brightly. He loved seeing monster's reactions to the surface. "i know right? wait until you see the stars!" He led her out of the alley and onto the sidewalk. He glanced around to get his bearings and huffed a bit. "portal sent us to the wrong place. the restaurant is over here." He led her in the up the sidewalk. Along the sidewalk on this side of the road was a cinema, a few shops, a bar, ect. It seemed like a fairly nice downtownish area. There was also a lovely coffee shop on the corner, it had a little outside area with colorful umbrellas to sit under and enjoy a drink. Swap gave it a glance and a smile before moving on. Just across the street passed the coffeeshop was a diner. The sign read Rose's Diner. It also had a little outside area. Swap stopped in front and gestured to it proudly. "here we are! they have great burgers and they also serve breakfast all day! my favorite thing though is that they make sweets here with no sugar! apparently the daughter of the person who runs the place can't have sugar just like me! so they started making sugar free things." Through the disguise you couldn't see, but from his excitement it was obvious his eye lights were little stars.

Elly

She was so amazed by everything, gladly letting him lead her as they walked to the diner, she had never seen such liveliness, such color, she wished she brought her sketch book, so instead she just took a couple pictures with her phone. when they reached the diner she was surprised that they served sugar free things, but she was happy that he like s this place "W-well then, lets go i-inside and order some f-food!" she grabbed his hand and started walking inside practically vibrating with excitement at the new surroundings. she was very quietly making odd noises that sounded close to purring but not quite

Swap

Swap let himself get dragged along. Nearly laughing at her excitement. The inside of the diner was wood floored with rose wallpaper. It gave off a homey feeling. It had both booths and tables as well as a door leading out to the outside. A friendly woman greeted them. "Simon! You're looking nice today. I see you've brought a friend! Where'd you like to sit this time? Outside again?" Swap nodded before pausing and turning to Elly. "is that okay with you?"

Elly

She was admiring the inside almost not hearing them. She turned to swap and nodded "s-sure. I like the o-outdoors" she let go of his hand slightly embarrassed she held onto it so long "l-lead the w-way!" She said cheerfully. Masking her worry about the end of this hangout

Swap

He gave a comforting smile to Elly. He was worried that he might be overwhelming her with everything. It took him a while to get use to this stuff too. He turned back to face the woman that greeted them who grabbed two menus and gestured for them to follow before walking out to the outside area and putting the menus on a table. It was in a nice spot kinda in the corner. It had a umbrella that was brightly colored and cast shade over the table. The placement of the table allowed a great view of the rest of the tables and the street. A great place if you liked people watching. "This work?" The woman asked. To which Swap enthusiastically nodded. This was his favorite spot when he normally came here. "I'll be back in a few minutes to take your order!" And with that she walked off. Swap gestured for Elly to pick the seat she wanted. There were only two but he thought she might prefer one over the other.

Elly

She smiled back at him before following the lady, she did feel slightly overwhelmed with everything but she was trying her best to just take all this in. She saw the nice umbrella and seating, liking the spot already because of the shade. She sat down in one of the seats and looked around. she was so happy that she didn't notice her ears started wiggling in joy as she excitedly stared around at all the people "W-wow look at a-all those people!"

Swap

He sat across from her, beaming proudly. "i know right?! i love watching humans! reading books on them is okay but watching them in their day to day lives is soooo much more interesting! there are so many different humans! and none of them look the same! and the more i learn the more i realize how alike they are to monsters!" He paused as he noticed her ears wiggling. "oh my gosh that's adorable! how are you doing that?"

Elly

"I w-wish i could o-observe them more, i-it seems like fun!" her ears wiggled little more intensely before turning her head to him with a confused face "D-doing what...?" she then realized her ears are wiggling, she slaps her hands over her ears to stop them from wiggling, her face flushing gray "g-gosh sorry, my e-ears do that when i-im happy, i-its weird i know" she felt really embarrassed now because it was a stupid quirk her ears did

Swap

He chuckled. "don't be embarrassed, it's charming! i'm glad you're happy!" He paused and looked thoughtful. "i've...never seen you do that before. never really seen you this happy before either." He smiled again. "guess i'll have to take you here more often!" He froze up for a moment before quickly reaching over, opening her menu, and half shoving it in her face. He spoke in hushed tone. "h-humans don't turn grey! gotta blend in!" He cleared his throat and spoke up a bit louder. "l-look at this! they have everything here! how awesome is that?" No one seemed to notice any of this and it looked rather ridiculous. Especially with him leaning across the table like that.

Elly

she smiled a little hearing he'll take her here more often, then squeaked at the menu being pushed into her face, mentally facepalming that she let herself blush. she took the menu from his hands whispering a 'sorry' before adjusting her glasses so she can read the menu "W-wow your right t-they do have e-everything!" she hid her face in the menu waiting for her blush to calm down before moving the menu out of her face "T-there's so much i c-can't decide..." she leaned on her hand taking off her glasses and setting it on top of her head to contemplate the options in deep thought, then eventually she spaces out, staring at the sun set forgetting what she was doing

Swap

He sighed. Gosh he wished that they didn't have to hide that they were monsters. She kinda looked cute in grey. Oh well. He leaned back and picked up his own menu. Although he already knew what he was getting. After a bit of time looking at it he put it down to talk with Elly but paused when he saw her expression. He looked were she was looking and his smile got brighter. "it's beautiful isn't it? one of my favorite things about the surface." He sighed in an almost lovestruck fashion and leaned on his hand as he stared out at it. He wished that he could share this sight with everyone.

Elly

she snapped out of her thoughts when he spoke up, getting slightly startled but regaining her composure "i-it is pretty, e-even if it stings my s-skin a l-little" she turned to look at him and saw his face, she leaned on her hands looking at him with a lovestruck face, admiring him a bit before snapping herself out of it and looking back down at her menu "S-so what are y-you gonna get? i c-can't decide so i-i'll get the same as y-you" she focused on her menu while trying to ignore the voices in her head

Swap

He finally snapped out of it and tore his gaze away from the sunset when she asked him what he was going to get. "h-huh? oh uh, they have these really great pancakes. they have peanutbutter and chocolate on them! all sugar free of course." He paused and looked her over for a second. "are...are you okay? you're stuttering. is this too overwhelming? is the sun burning you?" He hoped he hadn't done something wrong. "...i'm sorry for shoving the menu in your face. did you get a papercut?"

Elly

She shook her head "S-swap i a-always stutter, i am getting b-better at english but its h-hard sometimes. and although y-yes the sun does burn me a l-little its not overwhelming, a-and no i didn't get a paper cut....i-i guess i’m just mostly nervous a-about the end of this because of w-what i need to tell you" she chuckles nervously, closing the menu and putting it down and clearing her throat "see? i can also not stutter, its just harder and takes me longer to do"

Swap

"w-well...yeah you stutter a lot but you were stuttering differently." He sighed. "guess i'm just a little worried. i want you to have a great time. you've worked so hard for this." He smiled a bit. "you've got me curious now. but there's really no need to be nervous. i'm sure it's gonna be fine." He reached over and took her menu, stacking it on top of his own to it would be easier to hand to the waitress when she came back.

Elly

"I-i was?" she always thought she stuttered how she usually did "...o-oh! my stutters probably s-seem weird because im not t-talking in third person a-anymore" she let him take her menu, she leaned on her hands smiling a little "I-ive got plenty reason t-to be nervous, mostly t-the voices are making me more n-nervous but im trying my best s-since im having a wonderful time. w-while also trying to keep myself c-calm from the sheer amount of p-people"

Swap

"o-oh dear! are there too many people? i'm sorry. probably should have thought of that." He paused again. "wait...voices?" She heard voices? Well that was a very Elly thing.

Elly

"D-dont worry its fine! i-im not in a room so i-im okay." she twiddled her thumbs "Y-yes voices, they showed u-up after my first crush...well a-attacked me, they torment my m-mind by voicing my deepest inner t-thoughts, my worries, and making m-me feel horrible and worthless a l-lot, most of the time i ignore t-them but sometimes its h-hard when they are really intense like r-right now"

Swap

He looked worried. "oh gosh...i'm so sorry you have to deal with that." He reached over and put his hand over her's. "is there some way i can help? distract you somehow from them or something?"

Elly

her cheeks dusted a little gray, hardly noticeable if anyone glanced over "T-they are hard to ignore but, just b-being here with you is enough" she turns her hand around to gently hold his

Swap

He managed a smile, still a little worried about her. "i'm glad i can help. you're a good friend and i'd hate for you to be sad." The waitress started to come back and he withdrew his hand to straighten the menus, handing them to her when she finally got there. "two of the usual, please!" She pulled out her notepad and wrote it down. "Okay! I'll have that out in a bit!" And just like that she walked off. "that's amy. she's super nice. she's the daughter that i talked about that can't have sugar."

Elly

She looked at amy as she walked off "Wow she's pretty." she slipped her glasses back on her face. "But not as pretty or good looking as you" she finger guns him with a big smirk on her face as she wiggles her eyebrows at him, hoping to make him at least a little flustered

Swap

"yeah she is pretty-" He paused and stared blankly for a moment before a light blush showed up. His magic automatically made his human disguise alter to turn very pink. "e-elly! i-i'm not- i-" he huffed a bit as the blush got worse. His expression softened as he straightened his sweatervest and refused to look at her. "...a-am i pretty?"

Elly

she chuckles at how flustered he's being, she takes a quick secret picture of this then moves her chair so she's sitting next to him. so she can grab his chin to make him look at her "Y-your the prettiest a-and i mean that" she lets go of his chin and blows a kiss at him before moving her chair back to its original spot to just smile at him

Swap

When she took his chin he was surprised and at her words his blush skyrocketed. He made a choked squeak and covered his face. "n-no one h-has ever c-called me p-pretty before." Unless they were joking or being sarcastic. His illusion shifted a little. Looking like a wave of tv fuzz went through it. He was so embarrassed that he almost lost concentration.

Elly

"W-well its true, your really pretty, a-and amazing, and just overall wonderful. i-im surprised no one has told you t-that yet because every. word. is. true." she leaned on her hand, letting the other flop on the table, thinking she should stop flustering him before he ends up revealing he's a skeleton

Swap

His face was totally red at this point and his illusion flickered a few more times. He wanted to deny it but that would be a little hypocritical. He whined a bit instead. "w-well y-you're p-pretty and amazing too."

Elly

"i-im glad you think so, i may not think h-highly of myself, and although i usually d-deny it it does make me a little happy to h-hear you say that about me" she chuckles and leans on both hands staring at him with a look of fondness on her face

Swap

He focused on calming himself down. Taking deep breaths. Slowly his blush started to fade but not all the way. He finally uncovered his face, but didn't look at her. Focusing on straightening his sweatervest instead. "y-you just l-love flustering me don't ya?"

Elly

her smile widens seeing him uncover his face, seeing the little bit of blush still leftover "a-although yes i do love doing it, today i-im being one hundred percent serious. y-you being flustered is just a bonus" she kept staring seeing he didn't look at her "w-why are you looking away? i know there's n-nothing wrong with my face right now, a-and i know you don't like me romantically so t-there's no reason for you to look away"

Swap

His blush got worse. "h-huh? u-uh i-i'm just- i-i um...genuine c-complements- i- uh..." He nervously straightened his bow tie. "i-i'm not use to them a-at all. i-i f-feel all f-fuzzy a-and i just-" He gestured vaguely still not looking at her directly. "y-you know? i-i just don't know what t-to do!"

Elly

She laughs a little "W-well ive always complemented y-you genuinely. ive never once jokingly, o-or sarcastically complemented you. and y-you should get used to it since n-now you know im always genuine" she looked away for a minuet, glancing around to see if a waitress is nearby with their order. "though i-ive never heard someone say t-they feel all fuzzy from complements"

Swap

He whined and rubbed his face as if that would help get rid of his blush. "w-well yeah b-but y-you never said them l-like that a-and i just thought you were b-being polite o-or- i dunno...m-maybe it's just me...i-i feel like a different person when i'm on the surface." The waitress could be seen taking orders to people. It looks like it wouldn't be long before the food came.

Elly

"W-well your not a different p-person, your still the same, pretty, wonderful guy ive known for....hmm about a year now?" she didnt quite remember but she was happy she's known him that long "Your the first person to really get to know the me under my mask . you make me feel safe, heck my eye still turns off whenever im around you even though you don't even have total trust anymore" she actually took out a sticker from her jean pocket, and sides it over to him, it was her trust sticker but it had a whopping 65% on it

Swap

He looked at the sticker with surprise, his blush not subsiding. He looked up at her with the same surprise. "r-really?" He hesitantly picked up the sticker and smiled at it. After a moment looking up at her with the same smile. "th-thank you for trusting me!"

Elly

she smiled back tucking the large clump of hair that usually covers her eye behind her ear, its now visible that she took off her stitches today, and her eye was totally normal "Im still used to seeing only out of one eye but this is fine too" she felt weird not having her eye covered but she felt safe

Swap

He beamed even brighter seeing that her eye was normal. "i'm sure you'll get use to it." He put the sticker in his pocket for safekeeping. "it's nice to see both of your eyes."

Elly

"I-its weird though. I l-look strange with it not c-covered" her stomach growled quite loudly "I....h-haven't eaten anything a-all day"

Swap

He was worried again. "elly you need to take better care of yourself!" He sighed. "i'm sure the food with be here soon." As soon as he said that the waitress came from the door to the inside carrying two normal sized plates and two smaller ones. She trotted over balancing everything with practiced ease. Setting the bigger plates in front of them, they had a stack of delicious looking pancakes covered in peanut butter and chocolate syrup. She set down the smaller plates as well. They each had a small slice of what looked like strawberry cake. "Mom's trying a new recipe. She's not sure if she should add it to the menu so I thought you could try it and tell me how it is! I personally love it but the customers are the deciding vote. Anyways, enjoy!" And with that she turned around and went back inside.

Elly

"i k-know i know im trying, b-but i tend to forget and when i r-run out of money its required i d-don't eat" she smiled at the pancakes and picked up her fork starting to dig in, already loving it, and using all her willpower not to eat how she normally does since it wouldn't be very 'human' if she did. "So good~!" she started gobbling it down, licking any chocolate and penutbutter around her mouth "gosh if you treat me out to food like this more often im gonna have to marry you just to lock you down" she says totally joking as she stuffed more into her mouth

Swap

He laughed a bit at that. "well, i'd like to take you out more often. especially if you can't afford food. you know you can always ask for help, right? it's no bother." He took a bite of the cake and his face lit up. "oh my gosh this is amazing! i hope they add this to the menu." He shoved the rest of the small slice in his mouth, swallowing it in one big bite.

Elly

"Of c-course, i'll be sure to r-rely on you more" she finished off her pancakes and nearly choked seeing him shove it in his mouth swallowing in one bite. she decided to try the cake too "y-your right it i-is good!" she scarfed down the cake totally satisfied "T-this really was worth n-not being self depreciating for a m-month, even more so b-because i get to spend some nice t-time with you when we aren't just using e-each other to sleep"

Swap

"well, it's not really using. it's helping eachother out! i get nightmares and you eat nightmares! and you can only get good rest when you're in a dream so you can hang out in mine! it is nicer hanging out with you when i'm awake though." He started cutting up his pancakes into perhaps a little too big of pieces. "we should hang out more often! maybe make it a bi-monthly thing. if you can go two weeks without being self depreciating then we go out to eat!"

Elly

"I s-should cut back on it t-though, the nightmares are k-kind of fuel for my magic. a-and if i eat too much i end up w-with a 50/50 chance of either getting h-horribly sick or just...horrible" she shudders thinking about it "T-two weeks...I think i can do t-that, not often but i can t-try sometimes so we can do this m-more" she tries to poke for more pancakes but realizing she ate it all "o-oh, i guess i a-ate it all" she just set her fork down doing deep in thought, a serious look taking over the more joyful one

Swap

"what's important is you being healthy! i don't want you to overdo the nightmare eating if it's gonna make you sick. and i'm sure you can resist being self depreciating. you managed this far!" He shoved a big bite of pancake in his mouth. He was practically glowing with joy. Gosh he loved pancakes. He seemed oblivious to her expression, too busy with his food. "by how fast you ate them i'd say you enjoyed it!"

Elly

she didn't respond, she was so deep in her thoughts she almost forgot she was even anywhere. its almost as if she lagged since it took her quite a long while before she responds "I d-did like them, t-they were very tasty, and i-ill try to be h-healthy..." she contemplates a question in her mind before voicing it "H-hey swap, after this c-can we go for a walk s-someplace with less people?" although she enjoyed the liveliness she prefers a more peaceful quiet more

Swap

Swap paused mid bite when she finally spoke up. He's devoured half his plate already. "uh, sure! there's this park a few blocks away that's nice. i was actually planning on taking you there for viewing the stars." The sun was almost down by now, reds and oranges fading into pinks and purples.

Elly

"Wonderful!" she's been wanting to see stars so badly ever since she looked at the lid of her music box her mom gave her "Im quite excited to see the stars, since the closest ive seen to a star is what your necklace is made out of." she started playing with one of her earrings a bit feeling increasingly nervous and very excited, her ears started wiggling, feeling so happy

Swap

He smiled brightly. "i love that necklace! i'm actually wearing it!" He sat down his fork and reached down his shirt collar to pull out the crystal necklace. "i'd wear it out in the open but it doesn't fit my outfit and my bowtie gets in the way." He carefully tucked it back under his collar. "i'm sure you'll love them!" He went back to eating his food. Rushing it even more than normal so they could get to the park before sundown

Elly

Her ears wiggled intensely that she felt her ears hitting her head with the wiggling "I-i'm happy you wear it, i w-worked on it for...about a month or so g-getting the shape right" she snorted seeing him eating really fast "Woooaaahh s-slow down or your gonna m-make a mess all over your f-face" the thought of chocolate sauce and penutbutter on his face did make her laugh

Swap

He paused in his eating, a slight blush appearing. "i-i uh, already have. i'm just hiding it with illusions." He picked up a napkin and wiped his face . Despite the illusion making it look clean, the napkin came back as a mess of peanutbutter and chocolate. "i um...i'm a really messy eater." He looked a little sheepish as he started eating again, this time taking 'small' bites and slowing down a bit.

Elly

she laughs seeing the really messy napkin "D-don't worry im also a messy e-eater sometimes" she just tried her best to not be one today since she doesn't have illusions "y-you can take your time e-eating since we have plenty o-of time up here"

Swap

"i know i know i just wanna make sure we get there before the stars come out!" He swallowed a bite. "it gets really really dark. they actually shut off a good amount of light around the park area so the stars are more visible. it has something to do with an age old tradition or something. this place is weird like that but it does make it nice." He shoved another rather large bite in his mouth. "something to do with, ironically enough, ancient human wizards. the kind that sealed monsters underground. they say that one of them is buried in that park. which is why after all these years they haven't touched that plot of land. it's actually a very large section too. anyways, they said that this wizard could bring stars down from the sky! and some people even said they've seen their ghost! it's all folktale but it's interesting that it's stuck around so long. the reason they turn the lights off is because they say their sprite wants to see the stars."

Elly

"W-wow ghosts....i wonder i-if anyone got murdered in that park b-because if its that dark then it would be so easy t-to do it, like some horror movie" she laughs a little evilly thinking about it "B-but i like the little folktale its n-nice. i don't get to hear many tales b-besides the one of how my mom and dad m-met. they both met each other during the heat o-of battle, my mom protected my dad since he wasn't a f-fighter and after that he was infatuated with her s-strength and bravery that he started giving her f-flowers and gifts. and they got married at t-their favorite spot, just before they got sealed i-in, and they've been together s-since. its wonderfully sweet how long they've b-been together”

Swap

He smiled brightly. "that's so romantic! my parents met when they were kids. they grew up together! but then my mom left snowdin and moved to new home where she worked on the blueprints and oversaw the construction of the core. they kinda drifted apart for a long while. dad wasn't the riverman yet because his dad was still alive. so he was focusing on writing romance novels. eventually mom came back and they both found themselves head over heels for eachother again and started to officially date. dad can't talk without stuttering and messing up a lot. it's some kinda disability. so when he proposed to my mom he used the old echo flower tea trick! recording the message and then sealing it in the flower with heat and making tea with the flower. even though i can talk perfectly fine, i'd like to do that when i propose. mostly because i feel like i'd get so nervous i'd mess up." He looked a little dazed out. "i was born soon after that. a little over a week after they were married. they got into a rush and didn't check to make sure they had enough magic...dad says it caused a lot of stress for them. they we so worried that i wouldn't make it..." He smiled a bit. "but i did. and when i was in the clear everyone had a big party. too bad i was too young to remember it. he says that mom didn't leave my side for a month. she was always fretting about her little son. but even if i was born with a weak soul she insisted that i was meant for greatness. to follow in her footsteps and become the scientist that set all of monsterkind free!" He seemed to be glowing with pride at this. A moment later it all faded and he looked a little downcast. "guess she couldn't be right all the time."

Elly

She reached over the table and put her hand on him of his after hearing this story "You may n-not be a scientist, but i believe y-you're still meant for greatness. i m-mean my mom thought i was gonna be like h-her and be a strong fighter in an a-army and find my own Pesu, but i take after m-my dad so violence isn't for me" she still had to endure training but it just made her stronger so she can protect anyone she cares about "I d-do hope to find someone for myself b-but because of my trust issues it m-makes it very hard for me. and with all my problems s-some people don't wanna deal with i-it" she took her hand off his "A-anyway did you finish u-up your food?"

Swap

He smiled a bit at her words. He was sad that he'd given up on being a royal scientist. But he did hope he could do something great. He took a deep breath and smiled brighter. "yeah. i'm done. oh, and elly, i'm sure you'll find someone. good things come to those who wait. you'll find the perfect person soon enough." He wiped off his face again, making sure that it was clean, even if the illusion hid it. "i'm gonna go pay. be right back!" He stood up, brushed himself off and walked off back inside the building to pay.

Elly

"Okay!" she smiled as he left into the building, she then flopped her head on the table groaning a little as soon as he left into the building "G-god damn he's so c-cute, hold yourself together Elly....j-just be patient..." she was mentally practicing her confession and trying to calm herself. taking deep breaths "O-okay calm yourself, a-and resist confessing too e-early..." she knows she's gonna have a hard time doing that, she had a hard time just not kissing him right then and there with how cute he was being

Swap

Swap trotted back out after a few minutes, he was grinning brightly. "good news! i talked to amy and her mom and they're adding that cake to the menu!" He was as giddy as a child on Christmas. "oh! and i paid so we're good to go!" He offered her a hand. "it's a bit of a walk to get to the perfect viewing spot so we should get a move on."

Elly

she bolted her head up from flopped on the table when she heard him. she smiled hearing the cake would be on the menu "Wonderful! i-im glad its being added!" she gets up from her seat and picks back up her umbrella she set aside before putting her hand in his "O-okay lets go!" she was excited to get to this viewing spot

Swap

He led her off, back through the inside of the restaurant, waving at Amy before heading out back on the sidewalk. He glanced around before leading her in the quickest way he knew to the park. It was a few minutes of fast walking and twists and turns before they got to the grassy area. The sun was just falling below the horizon. As soon as they were on the grass he scooped her up and dashed at full speed. The area was quite large as he'd said. At least a few miles wide. 'Park' was an understatement. It was largely forested with a few large clearings and paths leading to different parts. The whole area seemed very out of place next to the city area. He didn't waste time to dash through the forest, ignoring the neat paths to take a shortcut. The whole area was on a gradual slope up and when they finally left the trees they found a clearing on top of a hill. The top had a few benches and a path up it if you took the normal path instead of just dashing through the unmarked forested area. "here we are!" He carefully set her down on a bench and sat next to her. Just their luck that it seemed no one else was around. The sun had just gone down and the very very last specks of purple turned into dark blue of the night sky. Despite being near the city lights and light pollution, it seemed that the stars were bright as ever. Swap was still grinning, a few happy sparks of magic popping without him noticing as he pointed up. "just in time!"

Elly

She followed gladly as he lead her to the park. then squeaked loudly as she was scooped up, she clung to him tightly as he bolted at full speed though the park to the spot. she had a bit of lag from the intense speed, when she finally realized what was going on she saw the stars, her eyes widened and sparkled. she was so amazed and happy that she didn't notice her magic reacting to it, causing any shadows within 20 feet of them swirling upwards almost weightlessly "Woah..."

Swap

He was overjoyed at her reaction. Glad that he could make this dream come true. He gave a glance to the shadows, freaking out for only a spilt second before he decided it was probably like his sparks. He looked up at the stars instead. "aren't they beautiful? when i first saw them i stayed up all night just to look a them. finding constellations that i'd only read about and recalling the stories behind them..." Be sighed happily. He loved the stars so much. He was glad she loved them too

Elly

her eyes trailed off to look at him, her grip on her umbrella tightened trying to resist as much as she can but she couldn't "Swap i....i just c-can't take it anymore!! i c-can't keep hiding it from you!" she drops her umbrella and grabs both his hands "SWAP I LOVE YOU!! a-and not like a friend, im IN l-love with you and i h-have been for a long time. it j-just intensified ever since you looked i-in my repression box just...UGH i l-love you so much!....but i know y-you don't like me back, you always get c-crushes on girls and i try to be supportive b-but it kills me a little inside pretending i d-don't love you just....you don't have to g-give me an answer because i know you'll r-reject me." she kisses his cheek and lets go of his hands running off in a random direction, mentally scolding herself for blurting it out like that. the voices yelling at her how he won't wanna see her again

Swap

He turned to look at her when she spoke. When she took his hands he stared in confusion and shock. His illusion fell from how surprised he was and he didn't even process it fast enough to start blushing before she kissed his cheek and dashed off. He sat there for another few seconds before bolting after her. As soon as he caught up to her he hugged her from behind. "p-please don't run." He just held on tightly for a few moments as things started to set in. Very carefully he picked her and brought her back to the bench. Setting her back down like he had before. He crouched in front of her her took her hands in his own, looking up at her with bright eyelights and an even brighter blush. A soft, and little nervous smile in place. "i-i had no idea you felt that way. look, i...i don't feel the same. but, i'm willing to give this a chance. m-maybe...we could go on a few dates? see how we get along? b-but no matter what happens i need you to promise me something." He took a deep breath. "regardless of if this works out or not, i'd like to still be your friend. can you promise that if we...if this doesn't work out, you'll still be willing to be my friend?"

Elly

she was nearly gonna cry as she ran, and almost attacked swap when he grabbed her, squirming a but but stilled when he asked her not to run. she let herself be carried back to the bench. her hair had flopped back over her other eye as she nervously stared him in the eyes, unable to look away from his bright eyelights. she was expecting the worst but her expression softened from being nervous to pure shock "Y-you'll give me a c-chance..?" tears start forming in her eyes which she then tackled him into a hug clinging tightly "I-i promise even if it doesn't w-work i will still be your friend, i-im just so happy your b-bothering to give me a-a chance...e-even more so since t-the voices were telling m-me that i just ruined e-everything..."

Swap

He nearly falls over at the hug, hugging back after a moment. "it's okay elly. you haven't ruined anything." He sighed. "we've been friends for a while now so it's the least i could do. i dunno if i'll end up feeling anything or not but...it would be stupid of me not to at least try. after all, you'd make a wonderful girlfriend." He backed up a little to look her in the eye again. "just so you know, this doesn't mean that i'm your boyfriend, yet. this means we're two friends testing the waters to see if we could be something more. don't get your hopes up too much because i don't wanna hurt you if it doesn't end up how you expected." He smiled brighter. "besides that, i'm excited to see how this goes!" He pecked a kiss on her forehead.

Elly

"O-of course, i wont get my hopes u-up and we're not together, but i can h-have a little speck of hope that me m-might" her face flushed a very light gray at the forehead smooch "Im also e-excited....but um ive never b-been on a date before....ever. u-unless being left in the snow for h-hours while the other gets n-nicecream, leaving me without a j-jacket and comes back giving me h-half of one, because thats what m-my last crush did" she did not know how relationships properly worked. "s-so you'll have to plan the date...sorry im inexperienced...."

Swap

He cling tighter. "i promise i won't do that to you. and uh...a date is kinda like what we did today except um...you talk about more personal things? we kinda did that though...dates are for getting to know eachother better!" He looked a little sheepish. "uh..i'm not the best with dating either. most of the time me and my last girlfriend just hung out and occasionally had some really deep talks or spoke about how we wanted to get married and how many kids we'd have....been a while since i last dated." He sighed sadly before snapping back. Talking about his ex probably wasn't a good thing to do. "it's fine though! we'll figure it out together!"

Elly

"Y-yeah we will figure it out t-together" she wanted to pinch herself to make sure this isnt some dream , so she just instead nuzzled him a bit. "W-well i don't mind t-talking about stuff, im not exactly i-intresting but there is things you don't k-know about me" she slips from his arms and just lays on the ground patting the spot next to her "L-like you don't know that i c-can make music out of almost anything. l-like if i find something that i t-think can be used to make a b-beat i can do it"

Swap

He laid down next to her, snuggling up close. "really? that's so cool!" He thought for a moment as he looked up at the stars. "i use to want to be an astronaut when i was a kid. said i'd be the first monster in space." He laughed a bit. "my mom told me as soon as we were on the surface she'd make sure that happened." He sighed. "i really miss her. i can't even say her name now...at least i don't think i can...i know i can't say it in my world because weird things happen...from what i understand, she's been erased from existence, the only link keeping her from being totally gone is me because i have her magic. to delete her would mean deleting me and i'm not...suppose to be forgotten? although if i try to say her name it...it's odd. it's like i lose a part of her. like, acknowledging her is forbidden." He paused for a moment and looked sheepish again. "s-sorry. that probably made no sense. erasing people, heh. this isn't a video game." He awkwardly tugged at his gloves. "it's hard to explain. she's alive but also not alive and everyone but me and my dad and brother have forgotten about her. and she lives in the void now? and she can sometimes watch what we do through one sided portals that show up. also she can talk to me in my dreams....i think i made that sound even more crazy."

Elly

she gently holds his hand "Y-you don't sound crazy at all. i h-have a grandmother, i knew her f-for a long time until she d-died, and when we die its usually l-like we just, melt. vanish into j-just thick black mist. she was a w-wonderful person and was so kind and c-caring, but when she died my family stopped t-talking about her almost like she was f-forgotten." she chuckles a little sadly "I k-know she isn't but n-no one ever wants to talk a-about her, it makes me worry about w-what if mom or dad died, would everyone stop t-talking about them too? what if i d-died would everyone just forget m-my existence..." She squeezed his hand a little "I-its just stupid thoughts. b-but yeah i don't think your crazy, i m-mean knowing about timelines and s-stuff was already crazy so anything is p-possible"

Swap

He glanced over and smiled at her. "thanks elly. ya know, i wouldn't forget you." He gave her hand a reassuring squeeze. "makes me think of grandpa semi. he was my mom's dad. my dad wasn't around much so semi filled in whenever he could. he was the best. he taught me all sorts of things." He sighed. "when i was around 17 he passed away. it's okay though. he lived a long and happy life. fell in his sleep. it was painful losing him but that's just how life is. i'm thankful to have met him."

Elly

"Y-your grandpa sounds n-nice..." she scoots closer, leaning her head on his shoulder "I-its nice you got taught a l-lot, i got taught only how t-to bake, how to fight, and h-how to grow tea. i was never even t-taught how to see my soul, i only g-got to see it once and that was with my m-moms help when i was 6 to check a c-crack on it" she sighs deeply "ive b-been wanting to check it again s-since it was only about...i d-dunno this big?" she lifts up her free hand and shows her fingers which were almost touching "i-its probably nothing but i-its just something in the back o-of my mind i think about"

Swap

He looked worried. "oh gosh...that doesn't sound good. do you want me to check it? i know a thing or two about souls."

Elly

She sits up "Could you? it would be very helpful since i don't remember what my soul looked like"

Swap

He sits up as well, leaning back on his hands. "of course! maybe i can teach you how to summon it yourself too. not sure if it works the same but here's how i do it." He put a hand over where his soul would be. "i focus on my soul, it's the core of a monster's being so keep that in mind. try to sense where the most concentrated magic is. and then will it to show itself." He moved his hand and he soul showed itself, floating over his palm. Slightly smaller than it should be and glowing white with a barely blue tint. Two deep cracks visible, one looking more filled in and older and the other still looked fresh. "Like that."

Elly

she stared amazed "W-wow...your soul is v-very pretty!" she decides to try it herself, she does exactly as he instructed and she took out a normal sized soul, it had a very very slightly purple tint. and it looked a little clear with gray on the inside swirling around inside. it also had a crack that split out into multiple cracks, they weren't deep hairline cracks at the least, but it still was kinda big for hairline cracks, nearly reaching the top of her soul "H-huh, it got much bigger t-then before"

Swap

His eyesockets widened in surprise. "i've never seen anything like it!" His own vanished back into his chest. He looked it over. "those cracks aren't good at all. the cracks in mine are more precise but yours seems almost...infectious." He squinted at it for a long moment in deep thought. "you said you were...6 when the damage appeared? do you remember if it looked like this before? with all the smaller fractures?"

Elly

"N-no it didn't look like this at a-all. last time i saw it it was only t-this far up" she points to the very bottom, only a little bit upwards from the bottom "I d-dunno what could have c-caused it to grow bigger though." she shrugs as she examines the cracks

Swap

He squinted a bit harder at it before nodding as if coming to a decision. "i have one more question. did this crack show up around the time of your first crush attacking you?"

Elly

"Um yeah, thats when i started having some trust issues. we were still 'friends' but she got more brutal and since she knew everything about me she used that information against me to make me feel worthless" she had no idea how it was related "Are my cracks caused by that or something?"

Swap

He nodded again. "My cracks are caused by emotional damage. they are precise because they focus on one thing in particular. i believe yours are linked to that event and onwards! the cracks were small at first but as you continued to be abused, you became less and less trusting and that spiraled out into every aspect of yourself. your self worth, your trust in others, your trust in yourself, etc. the cracks mimicked this." He pointed to the starting crack. "i have reason to believe that this is where those voices are coming from as well. elly, you're literally being chipped away at by your fear. the less you trust the more the cracks grow. the more you hate yourself the more they grow. everything negative is stemming from your fear. and the only way to heal is to face your fear." He paused for a moment before adding. "of course soul study is still a very uh...vague science. so i could be off. but from my experience, if it follows the same logic then what i said should be accurate."

Elly

she put a hand to her chin thinking about his words before sighing "S-sounds pretty understandable, i...i a-am trying my best to t-trust people more but of c-course its hard, and so is trying my b-best to be less negative...i mean i honestly d-don't feel that right now, being n-near you kinda makes me forget about a-all my issues, and m-makes me happy." she puts away her soul and leans her head on his shoulder "t-the voices still of course a-are annoying and make me t-think bad things, b-but i can ignore them when i-im with you" her cheeks flushed "O-oops im getting m-mushy...sorry"

Swap

He chuckled a bit. "i'm glad i can help." He wraps an arm around her and kisses her forehead. "you can be mushy all you want! be yourself!" He paused for a moment and looked up. "oh yeah, i almost forgot why we came here in the first place."

Elly

Her cheeks went a lighter gray as she also looked up "O-oh right, i distracted u-us from it with m-my sudden confession." she can at least now fondly stare at the stars and think about what happened today "The stars are pretty, but of course they aren't as pretty as you" she kisses his cheek before turning her head away from him

Swap

His blush comes back, a bright blue. He still hadn't remembered to put his illusion back up. He sighed and tried to calm himself. "i could say the same about you." He said it casually. As if a passing thought as he stared into the sky and mentally traced out constellations.

Elly

she felt her cheeks go a somehow lighter gray before turning back, scooting so she's as close as she can to him, nuzzling his cheek "....d-do you actually mean t-that?....actually with h-how you said it you probably do m-mean it"

Swap

"hmm? yeah i mean it. i know a beautiful lady when i see one." He squinted at the sky for a moment before his eyes lit up. "oh yeah! i keep forgetting that it changes! no wonder they weren't in the same places. you'd think i'd remember that but time and time again i keep forgetting. i guess that's what happens when you're use to living in a world where things don't change."

Elly

"....I-i'm gonna take a wild g-guess and assume your talking about c-constellations." she took his hand in hers and started absentmindedly playing with his hand, She yawns long, her tongue flopping out almost like a cat yawn. she was mostly emotionally tired from today but also physically "Today has been wonderful. it went the complete opposite of how i was expecting it"

Swap

He glanced over at her when she yawned, chuckling a bit at how funny she looked. "what? did you expect me to go crazy and throw you off a bridge?" He paused for a moment before adding. "uh...don't answer that." He looked up at the stars for another few moments before speaking again. "you seem tired. you ready to go home, dreamcatcher? you can come to my place if you're feeling up to eating some nightmares and you can hang out in my dreams so you get some good rest. seems like a good night's sleep would be a perfect way to wrap up the day."

Elly

she was totally gonna say yes to his guess but of course he added on to it so she kept silent. she thought about it for a bit "Y-yeah hanging out in your dream s-sounds nice, mostly since i felt oddly kinda d-drained as soon as i saw the s-stars" she had no idea her magic was reacting to her joy "A-and hopefully i get a goodnight k-kiss~" she points to her mouth before laughing a bit "Kidding, kidding. just teasing you a bit"

Swap

He stared at her for a moment before finally speaking. "you want one? um...i can give you a kiss if you want. might as well." He shrugged as if it was no big deal.

Elly

her face turned near white "u-u-uh i-i me-mean o-of c-course i-i wa-w-want o-one...." she was trying not to stutter but she couldn't help it with how flushed her face is, she tried using the bit of her hair thats flopped to cover as much of her face as she can "b-bu-but y-you d-do-don't h-have t-to i-if y-you d-dont wa-w-want t-to"

Swap

He looked thoughtful for a moment before shrugging. "i'm okay with it." He carefully brushed her hair out of her face. "you sure though? you're not gonna faint if i do, are you?"

Elly

she let him move the hair out of her face and took a deep breath lightly slapping her cheeks to make her blush calm to just a dark gray "I-i won't, i can s-stay awake if i-im aware im g-gonna be kissed"

Swap

He smiled softly. "okay then, dreamcatcher. you ready now?"

Elly

She nods trying to keep herself confident "Y-yes i am Star prince"

Swap

He leaned in and gave her a quick kiss on the mouth. "there ya go, a goodnight kiss!"

Elly

She squeaked and her soul fluttered, her face turned almost solid white as she buried her face in her knees, her ears wiggled a ton as the tips were even near white. she never felt happier then by his side

Swap

He looked surprised at her reaction, staring for a moment before bursting into laughter. "o-oh my gosh! i-i didn't think you'd get that flustered! it was just a little kiss!" He tried to stifle his laughter. " are y-you okay?"

Elly

"i-im f-fine! i-im s-still n-new t-to k-kissing s-since i-ive on-only b-been ki-k-kissed o-once.....a-and t-t-that ki-kiss h-hurt" she felt a little disappointed in herself that she's only ever kissed once. it took her a little bit to calm down, her blush going from near solid white to just a light gray "S-swap really just... thank you a-again for giving me a chance, the voices a-are quite enthusiastically saying its a p-pointless effort since you'll never like m-me back, but im just happy at getting even a s-small chance to at least try to win your h-heart"

Swap

He smiled softly at her. "it's the least i could do. i hope this turns out okay, no matter the outcome." He pulled her into a hug. "and no matter what, i'll still be here for you. as a friend, or something more." He backed up from the hug a bit. "you ready to go get some rest?"

Elly

"Im p-positive it'll turn out o-okay, even if i don't w-win your heart ill s-still win your friendship b-because your stuck with me s-star prince" she nodded and tried standing up, her legs kinda fell asleep so she wobbled and grabbed onto the bench "...sometimes i-i forget i have l-legs."

Swap

He chuckled. "here, let me help." He carefully picked her up. "ready to go?"

Elly

She wrapped her arms around his neck just in case, making sure her umbrella was in her hand when she was lifted up "Y-yup! lets go back to your place f-for cuddles and good d-dreams~!"

Swap

A portal appeared, through it was his dark room, lit barely by the many glowing stars on his walls. He glanced back at the real ones one last time before stepping through. He was looking forward to getting some good rest. And with that, the portal shut.

#Scientific Positivity: Chrono #Elly's confession #discord RP #~Dreamcatcher~ Hiddeninshxdows ♠️#longpost

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thisbibliomaniac · 7 years

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Tagged by @cinderclash I did these the other day, so I'm going to copy and paste and then add the new question(s) Coke or Pepsi: pepsi Disney or Dreamworks: Disney Coffee or Tea: TEA Books or Movies: both Windows or Mac: you will never convince me to use apple. DC or Marvel: MARVEL XBOX or Playstation: I’m more of a Nintendo person actually <ditto Dragon Age or Mass Effect: I’ve never played either of these <ditto ditto Night Owl or Early Riser: night Cards or Chess: cards Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla Vans or Converse: converse Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar: I have no idea what any of this is but Lavellan sounds like a nice name? <<<—– good answer. <ditto ditto ditto Fluff or Angst: fluff! But angst is good sometimes too. <im just gonna continue to leave your answers Beach or Forests: forest Dogs or Cats: cats Clear skies or Rain: rain! Cooking or Eating out: cooking Spicy food or Mild food: spicy, but not so spicy there’s no flavor Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas: christmas. Would you rather be a little too cold or a little too hot?: too cold. like I always say, there’s only so much you can take off but always something else you can put on<<<<<< If you could have a superpower, what would it be: ever read the bayern books? that. Animation or Live action: live action< Paragon or Renegade: no idea haha< Baths or Showers: showers<< i wish i liked baths sometimes because id like to use bath bombs, but showers always Team Cap or Team Iron Man: cap. anything anti un Fantasy or Sci-Fi: both Do you have 3 or 4 favourite quotes: mostly bible verses, but i will find them later YouTube or Netflix: netflix Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: both When do you feel accomplished: when i sing something new for the first time Star Wars or Star Trek: BOTH BOTH BOTH BOTH BOTH <—- SAME<<<<< Paperback books or Hardback books: I like both actually<<<<<<< Handwriting or Type: tying Velvet or Satin: satin< Video games or Movies: movies<<<<<< Would you rather be the dragon or own the dragon: own it!<<<, Learning Chinese or Learning Spanish: Spanish< but i’d like to learn chinese too Would you rather be able to speak every language or be able to speak to animals: every language<<<< Be front row for your favourite artists and not meet them, or meet them but have lawn seats : meet them and have lawn seats.< City or Countryside: I love both, but I choose city because I just love falling asleep to city sounds and the feeling of being surrounded by so many diverse people who share the same place as me (basically take me to any big city and I’ll love it).<<<,agreed Would you rather be a mutant, jedi or wizard: jedi<<<this is getting scary Fried pickles or Mozzarella Sticks: fried pickles Vampires or Werewolves: werewolves<<<<<<<<<<<< team jacob Pizza or Pasta: pizza Watching a movie at a cinema with the excitement of its night premiere or wait a few days and watch it later more relaxed: waiting a few days and then watching it later<< What is your favourite band or singer?: Needtobreathe< oh my gosh. I’d also like to add Lea Salonga. What is your favorite fruit?: cherry Fuzzy socks or slippers?: socks< Dusk or Dawn?: dusk Would you rather Travel Through Time or Travel Through Alternate Universes?: through time<<<<<<<<<<<<< What’s the first book you remember reading? Laura and Nellie, from the Little House books. I read that so many times. Deep space, or deep sea? Oh no no no none of the above thank you very much << i’m gonna go with this answer <<concurred <<< I actually asked this question, and I still agree. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? I have been told that I'm wise Have everyone like your favorite book/series but deal with the discourse + possible bad movie adaptation, or have practically no one else like it? Practically no one else like it. I wouldn’t want it all cluttered up with gross ships and discourse. Ew. << Yes exactly Do you have a Character Type you fall for and if so, what? I absolutely do have a type. Physically, tall, dark hair, nice smile. Personality is a little more complicated My question: Comedy or drama? I tag @identityconstellations and @traveling-magpie

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anideawhosetimehascome · 7 years

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rant about music~

OH MY GOD this makes me feel so warm and fuzzy I can’t stop smiling. Thank you so much. I’m so grateful for this opportunity.

This is gonna be so messy just prepare yourself.

I have to say, right now, my favorite band is City and Colour. I’ve been saying that for awhile, maybe half a year or even a year, god it’s been a long year. I’ve bought two concert tickets to see him. I had to sell the first one (it was a really good seat, third row :(..) but hopefully I can see him with his band with my other ticket (general admission smh) and once more on a fully solo tour like the first ticket I bought.

One Direction comes next as always but each individual member of one direction is ranked differently… louis, harry, liam, and niall in terms of whose music I care most about. I know louis has only put out one collab so far but he’s my favorite,of course I’m most excited for his stuff.

AND I BOUGHT A TICKET TO SEE HARRY HOLY FUCK !!!! I GOT A SEAT IN SECTION 5 IN PHOENIX SO FUCKING CLOSE TO THE STAGE. I GOT SO LUCKY BECAUSE I WAS A COUPLE MINUTES LATE AND I GOT AN AMAZING SEAT. THE PIT IS IN FRONT OF ME AND SO IS 30 OTHER ROWS BUT THATS IT IM GOING TO BE IN THE SAME ROOM WITH HIM AND HEAR HIS BEAUTIFUL CROONING VOICE LIVE AFTER 5 LONG YEARS. I’m just trying to imagine doing the same with louis and my head is exploding. Shoutout to my mom for letting me use her debit card since I haven’t got any paychecks yet.

Protest the hero is an anomaly in my life, I really haven’t been into them in like over a year, but they remain top 3 because I can’t let them go. I love all of their albums (except I only listened to their most recent one once rip) but if I ever got to see them live I would know almost every song IF NOT every single one by heart and that’s an experience I haven’t gotten to have yet. Hopefully twice this year I’ll have that. Maybe I’ll look out for a protest the hero tour and see if I can swing a ticket.

After that it’s really hard to rank everything. I have my favorite albums that differ from favorite artists.

Alt-J is high on my list. They’ve put out some really good shit. I liked An Awesome Wave multitudes more than the other album. I’m hoping his most recent one kinda brings them back to that era.I wish I could travel to the U.K. to see Aquilo. Their album Silhouettes is the best fucking album EVER and yet they’re so small they can only tour their tiny home country. They need more recognition.The Shins are coming to a local venue only a couple hours away and it blows my mind because I fell in love with Wincing the Night Away but they have a plethora of other albums that I didn’t love and I wouldn’t feel right going to a concert where I only knew like 3 of the songs. I wish they did a Wincing the Night Away revival tour where they only sang songs from that album just to appease me lmao.Kendrick’s new album is such a mindfuck. That’s been on repeat the past few weeks. I need to listen to his other stuff too.Sweet Sexy Savage by Kehlani is the genre I’ve been really into lately. That sultry R&B pop is just SO delicious. It’s like nothing else I’ve ever heard before. Her voice is like brown sugar and butter. Everything she does with the instrumentals, her voice, and the backing track is just MIND BLOWING I love it so much.Of course The Weeknd has to come in here. I just saw him live a week ago. It was the best concert I’ve ever been to (the only other one was Taylor swift. She sounds good live, but I’m not a huge fan). STARBOY IS THE BEST ALBUM EVER SERIOUSLY. I was a bit disappointed he didn’t sing more tracks from Starboy because I didn’t know some of the ones from his older albums. Also perpetually disappointed that kendrick never showed up for sidewalks.

Old Crows/Young Cardinals by Alexisonfire has been very high on my list lately. Reminiscent of protest the hero for the reasons I like them, but their voices are COMPLETELY different. It always takes me awhile to get used to screaming and really rough jagged voices, but once I do, I’m either head over heels in love with them or I fucking hate them. Usually the former. If Dallas Green (city and colour) wasn’t involved in this band, I would have never touched them.

Spirit by Depeche Mode has also been a genre I’ve got into lately. I just kept seeing the same fucking google ad every time I opened the app “Spirit by Depeche Mode is out now!” why the FUCK google gave me that ad I don’t know, but it caused me to find one of my most treasured albums. It’s very politically charged which I LOVE. I see the message of each song loud and clear as a movie in my head and it makes me fall deeper in love with it each time.

Now I’ve forgotten everything else, so I’ll start going through albums alphabetically.

Arctic Monkeys is a band I really need to listen to more. I’ve only listened to A.M. once fully through and only stuck with a couple of the songs. I listened to Humbug and liked it a LOT more, so I have a feeling I’ll love their older stuff.

Ahhh how could I forget about CATFISH AND THE BOTTLEMEN. God I spent an hour on YouTube watching them play old versions of The Balcony the other day, it was the best live video I’ve ever watched. He sounded even better than on the album, and I was transported to those shows for that moment where he seemed to be playing in some seedy basement. I wanted to see them live last year for my birthday but didn’t get a ticket. Maybe I’ll be able to get one sometime soon. That’s a band I NEED to see live before I die. They are fucking amazing. Their songs are everything I love about bands.

I’ve listened to a bit of Two Door Cinema Club. I need to listen to more. It’s hard with Apple Music. As you can see I have so fucking much to listen to and it never ends. I think I like music… a lot more than most people. It’s weird to think about. But anyway. Sun, that’s a good song.

Space Oddity by Bowie makes me feel high. R.I.P.

Frank Ocean has been a recurring name lately. Chanel and Self Control are two gems of his.

Cold by Maroon 5 and Future is one of my guilty pleasure songs. I could listen to it for hours and it wouldn’t get old. I don’t even know why I find it so orgasmic.

Cake is one of those bands that wormed their way into my heart a long time ago and I don’t really know how or why and I haven’t listened to enough of their songs because they have too many albums and they’re all from the 90s and I’m so young yet I feel so old when I listen to them. It makes no sense and I love it.

The Dark Side of the Moon. Need I say more? Yes. Us and Them. Brain Damage. Eclipse.

I’m a fan of Blackbear’s new album digital druglord. Very different from what I usually listen to. I don’t always have a usually, but when I do, Blackbear’s not in it.

Message to Bears is the best study music. They’re what I put on when I need to have a quiet night with some undertones of depression and existential realization. Still one of my low key favorites that I always forget about.

FOUR saved the music industry.

I need to reiterate how perfect Protest the Hero is. Listen to Kezia. LISTEN TO IT.

Oh, every time I get the chance to rant about this I will. Little Hell by City and Colour is an album about going from Catholic to atheist, and each song is showing his progression in realizing that. Now this is just my headcanon, but with the first song being about “finding each other in the dark” sounding suspiciously like someone finding God and the last song being a blatant message on being raised religious but rejecting the “make believe” stories. I could theory craft on this album all day. It has seriously made me reconsider naming Sometimes, his first album ever, my favorite, and instead reclaiming Little Hell, City and Colour’s third studio album, as my new favorite. But since it’s just a theory and I have yet to confirm or deny anything, I’ll keep it at my second.

Listen… I know he’s a snake but Zayn’s album was actually really good. I literally haven’t touched it for a year but I really enjoyed it for a long time.

I like the Radiohead quote. I’m not like that at all but I can get into their music, like Nice Dream. Maybe because when I found that song I would have related to that quote. Music is so strange, man.

The Beach Boys, Coldplay, The Boxer Rebellion, Fun., Syd Matters, Breton, The National, Secret & Whisper, G-Eazy, and Bastille all get honorable mentions for being some of my favorites at one point in time.

I hate how into music I am. But I love it so fucking much. I remember in 2010 when I bought a Britney Spears song on the radio and I decided to listen to the mixtape my friend made me because I needed some new music. It changed my life forever because it opened me up to a whole new world that I had never heard before. I’m eternally grateful to her for introducing me to musical curiosity. I will never get over it and I don’t want to.

Despite what I’ve written, I’ve only just now realized how much music I have on my Apple Music library that I’ve literally added and never listened to. I need to work on that.

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lsdgay · 5 years

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first 2 weeks of junior year official report

on a class by class basis

persuasion - my favorite class, i’ve had the professor before and so has literally everyone but one person in the class and we all love him and he loves all of us, it’s like a big comm department party AND the readings so far are relatively short and simple to understand. we have quite a few papers that will be due over the course of the semester but most of them are quite short (tho the final is a 15 page group paper oof). i know it will not be the easiest like he makes u work for it but he’s good at explaining things and everything he asks is still possible

europe - big yikes. the prof is a phd student and she expects us to read like one. she does understand that they’re hard but like what she assigns is so dense and so long there’s literally no way she can reasonably expect us to do it. she seems nice enough and the class is graded on literally only three things (student led lecture, responding to the student led lecture, and a 10 page final paper + participation) so im hoping as long as i get a good grip on a few readings i’ll be ok

contemporary world cinema - this is the other one that i am not feelin too thrilled about. we have to do the screenings on our own time which makes sense but idk all the film classes i’ve taken before just do them in class (bc they’re like 3 hour classes so a movie will only take up 1/3-2/3rds of that) so that’s kind of annoying but i’ll deal. the work isn’t that hard so far like i got thru it fine im just....idk still very unsure of what exactly is going on. i did get a free ticket to new york film festival out of it tho (which i then have to write a 5-6 page report about which isn’t THAT long but still, nothing in life is truly free). i also don’t really know anything abt the professor but there’s something about her that’s kind of condescending???? idk i may warm to her we will see. oh ALSO both of the movies we’ve watched so far have been fuckin sad (Circumstance (2011) and A Separation (2011) the latter of which i am only about half an hour but am not looking forward to finishing! like if ur gonna do this to me lock me in a room and give me no choice!!! this is not something i would ever chose to watch and being iranian has VERY little to do with it

the sublime in art and philosophy - i’m liking this one! it’s both a philosophy class and an art class so the prof is like a fun old art lady which im into, she’s very nice and all the papers are like only one page. im slightly concerned bc there’s a lot of art people and especially art history majors in there which is something i know absolutely nothing about and im happy to learn but them and the professor can speak about it soooo much more intelligently than me. in general tho im mostly excited for this one.

tv studio production - LITERALLY THE MOST DISORGANIZED SYLLABUS I HAVE EVER SEEN. IT WAS HORRENDOUS. that said, i don’t think the class will be too bad, most of the stuff is in-class so not a whole lot of homework, it’s also my only 200 level class (as all the rest are 300s) so like, it better be lol. i have this problem where i need to learn actual practical skills and not just textbook stuff but im also so much more comfortable with textbook stuff than physically doing anything (big enneagram 5 mood) so this class challenges me in that way, but is very important bc i definitely could see myself working in a tv studio in the future. the projects seem kinda fun i am just fearful. also we didn’t meet last week so this was the first week of that one. our first project is to film a PSA and my group’s is gonna be abt tattoo aftercare which was my idea and i am actually quite proud of, not too heavy but still to the point and important u kno, also all three of us have tats so it made sense.

so yeah. i don’t think it will be QUITE as hard as last semester but still pretty close probably. i am trying to stay ahead especially since im visiting jared !!!!!!! oct 17-21st. last weekend i only did like one class’ worth of stuff which is quite pathetic for 4 whole days so this week im trying to do all my stuff for contemporary world cinema & all the readings for europe (since i’m the respondent, so i’ll develop my questions later) bc that’s really the bulk of my work. i have some readings for persuasion that i anticipate will not take too long (and even if they do i have approx 6 hours to fill in the middle of my day every wednesday), but aside from that all i have to have for tv studio production is the pitch for the PSA which we’ve pretty much already done and i just have to read like two chapters of emerson’s nature for the sublime and write a little reflection paper about my senses inside vs outside

#this came out longer than i thought it would be #but if u want a look at the True college life #here u go #about

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asksansweredpdf · 5 years

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1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. i don’t have one particular favourite movie per se. but star wars: i binge watched them at my friend’s house just before the ast jedi came out. i knew nothing about star wars and watched everything within 2/3 days. then, about a week later i watched the force awakens. and that was purely because we decided to watch the last jedi (which had just come out in cinemas) the next day. honestly, i didn’t care for star wars much skdjfhdjk but the force awakens really got me into it. and the last jedi fully sold me. then i went back and rewatched and i loooove the empire strikes back. now they’re my favourite movies. marvel: again, i hadn’t seen any marvel. but i had pretty much every friend i had yelling at me to catch up before end game came out. i loosely planned on watching them, but didn’t really get around to it until i got baked at a friends house and we had nothing to do. so we watched age of ultron and iron man and some others (i was too stoned to remember). i was sold i loved every second. and the fact that i was very high and rdj was very cute didn’t hurt. i went home the next day and watched ragnarok which happened to be probably the best movie i’d ever seen at that point. the next day, we got stoned again and watched infinity war. it was so fucked but amazing. i booked tickets for me and my dad to watch end game this saturday.

2: Talk about your first kiss. oh god. i was 15 and there was this guy who i thought was cool. he was a friend of my very gay crush at the time. me and the crush had a falling out later on. and a lot of other fucked up shit happened around that time period. i moved to his (the friend's) neighbourhood as it happened. we got talking because we had the same taste in music. and my best friend at the time put in a good word for me. i didn’t think of him as much more than a friend tbh, but my life was going to shit and i wanted to get out of the house ad have fun. so we organised to meet up at our town’s centre shopping place. i told my parents i was going with [insert random female names here] to hang out since we moved into a new place. they bought it and offered to drive me. i honestly thought we were just going to chill out and eat food. i was also nervous that this was a set up from his friend who was my crush, since the crush hated me and probably would have plotted to do something fucked. however, it turned out not to be a set up. we ended up walking around the suburb. this was much to my disapproval, because i was not very fit and had a strong dislike for exercise. he could tell i was tired and we decided to stop and sit down on this brick wall thing at the corner of a street. there was some terrible flirting on my part, and the next thing i know i was kissing this guy. i was pretty excited because every 15 year old girl wants their first kiss. and especially edgy ones who needed a distraction. i came home with no lipstick and chapped lips. lucky my parents were too busy to notice.

3: Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for. most intense? i could list best friends, but in terms of intensity i think it would be this guy that i moved out with for the first time. i know this sounds terrible, but he was my best friend’s boyfriend at the time. i was pretty sure i was a lesbian at the time and i’m also not fucked up. so i wasn’t expecting this at all. because of the whole gay thing, and me being a flirty shit with anyone, i ended up very shamelessly flirting with him. he was sooo pretty, and im not just saying this. objectively, he is still probably one of the best looking people i’ve ever seen. and i own mirrors. anywayyyy, i took my sister to this lana del rey concert one day. not a lana fan personally, but borns was opening and i like him. turns out i like borns a lot. a hell of a lot. next day, i found myself talking to my best friend and her boyfriend and being like “hey i think i might be bi”. their reaction can be quoted as “oh cool okay.” the night after the concert, we got drunk. not a great idea, because i love to flirt when sober. so when i’m drunk and have literally 0 shame it’s a lot of fun but also an entire disaster. my friend bought her friend over and they were talking, which left me and the bf. the boys started teaching me self defence and were doing the whole smooth thing where they stand pressed up behind you and move your arms for you. they put me into headlocks and taught me how to get out and stuff. i was so drunk the ground kept spinning. a lot of terrible outrageous flirting ensued, like choking, touching adams apples, arm tickles, hugs that lasted 10 minutes while he had a knife in his pocket for whatever reason? more hugs like that but now featuring grinding. we slept in the same bed (just slept. nothing else. don’t get too excited). cuddling while in the same bed. laying on his chest and falling asleep. him playing with my hair. one time he played with my tiddies. this was over the course of like 9 months. whenever we werent 2 seconds away from like ..... jumping each other, we were just flirting in the most unsubtle way. obviously nothing happened, because he had a gf and everything. and as much as i didnt want to, i started to get some reeeeeal feelings. turns out the guy was a dick who only flirted with me whenever his gf wasnt paying attention to me. i later cut the whole thing off, and he started to act like a real dick to me. but yeaaahh. that was some intense shit.

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far. probably not getting a license for any vehicle. that’s held me back so much the last 5 years. i wouldn’t have had to go through half the shit i did, if i could just drive

5: Talk about the best birthday you've had. my 15th birthday! i had raspberry chocolate bullets, watched movies in class because it was end of term, my friends bought me presents to school. the guy i had a crush on came to where i was sitting and sung a song to me in front of everyone. i think my friend bought me a club penguin membership? i ate pide and played league with crush and crush’s crush.

6: Talk about the worst birthday you've had. my 18th. i don’t want to talk too much about it because im very drunk atm but basically, i was suuuper depressed already that year. my mum was doing cocaine every spare second she could, and screwing men for it so she could get it for free (of course, none of us knew this at the time). whenever she wasn’t doing coke she was screaming at everyone for like, not taking pictures of her enough, or for eating dinner without asking her, etc. she and my dad were constantly either yelling at each other, or were 2 seconds away from yelling at each other. we went to a clothes shopping outlet. which i very outwardly expressed my hatred for, btw. my mum got mad because my dad told her not to look at clothes, because it was my 18th. my mum didn’t talk for the rest of the time we were in the shopping centre. i could feel the tension rising because they were in the 2 seconds away from having a fight period. i came home and watched sailor moon in my room alone. later my parents brought a cake and lit the candles. dad said to me “my god i am so sorry. this has been the most amazing birthday, hasnt it? you should thank your mother. she’s just the best. i’m so sorry! i never wanted this for you”. and, you know, my coke fuelled mother just screamed her lungs off and gave it right back to him. and my aries dad just yelled right back. and the candles were lit in the dark room and wax was dripping onto my chocolate birthday cake. and i hated chocolate flavoured cake. and i just wanted to run away all day because i knew this was going to happen. and they couldn’t even hold it together for me? or for my 18th? so i just sat there and cried as they screamed at eachother. i blew out the candles and ran into my bedroom and watched vines in my room. the end! :D

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity. honestly, i don’t have a lot of insecurities. i have a lot of fears, but not insecurities. i guess i’m insecure about my body in certain places. i have a scar from an operation i had when i was 9 and it makes my stomach look chubby, but only on one side? it’s out of proportion and weird. and i have violin hips.

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of. honestly, it’s so simple, but i’m really proud of still being alive. i thought for sure i’d be dead by now

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most. i love my back! it sounds weird, but i have a rly nice waist and my back is sooo soft and smooth and it goes in at the waist and its so nice to touch and look at. and i have really nice and toned legs. and my arms are getting toned now too because my work makes me carry a lot of heavy stuff. and my baby sister is getting bigger and i’m usually the one to hold her. and i have nice hands too. but my favourite thing is my face and hair.

10: Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had. oh god. not going into much detail about this at all because i spend like 3 or 4 years crying about this. it featured: 2 best friends of mine who i had been friends with for 10 years; my crush at the time; random people off the internet i’d never met before. like i said before, i was a 15 year old with a lot going on. maybe that didn’t make it okay for me to be as annoying as i was, but it’s done now. they all got into a skype group chat together without me. and call it paranoia, but i call it intuition. i knew they were all shit talking me. i could tell there was something up for a while now. they all started changing their online profiles to something that very clearly mocked me, they started making posts about me, and posts that were clearly parodies of my posts. and i sort of went along with it because i dont like to stir up much trouble. but the posts just got worse and worse to where it was like ‘you were so weird and creepy’ and calling me names and stuff. honestly, i can’t even remember anymore because i spend a while blocking it out. but it was pretty mean. but it hurt more because there were all the people i was closest to, all saying fucked up shit about me. and then random people who lived in my city who i didnt know. after the fight ended, we never spoke again. but i spend the next 2 years afraid that i would bump into somebody from online in person and they would recognise me, and the whole thing would happen again

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had. tbh i dont remember a lot of my dreams. i usually have nightmares anyway? i think i had a dream i could fly and had like magic powers and stuff. i was 8 or something and it was fun.

12: Talk about the worst dream you've ever had. after i moved out of my parents house, i had a lot of nightmares about my mum. again, i don’t remember specifics because i tried to block out the memory, but i remember feeling terrified, and then waking up relieved to remember i was out of there. after that, i started smoking weed which meant no dreaming which was good

13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time. i haven’t had like..... sex sex yet. i’ve been almost raped a few times? skfsdkjfl that sounds so cringey. but yeah! i dont know though, i imagine i’ll probably be super drunk for my first time. or maybe high. they make me more confident than usual. and for some reason i dont really like the idea of sex when im sober. i don’t think i’d be willing to be vulnerable with someone unless it was in a circumstance like that, maybe. and i’d be sure i wouldn’t have to see them again later on unless i wanted to. that way if i embarrassed myself, it wouldn’t matter. it would just be a terrible memory no one else would ever have to know about.

14: Talk about a vacation. i want one of these answers to not be about a fucked up memory of mine but i ...... truly can’t recall something? i guess there was a christmas i had when i was a kid (maybe around 8 or 10) and i’ll leave out the fucked up bits. but i stayed with my mother’s family and my grandmother owned a holiday apartment thing which had a pool and my uncles had horses and i got to see everyone and my uncles were super funny and let me play video games with them.

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life. there was this period for about ..... 3 months in my last year of high school just before i graduated. all my assignments were over, and my major works were all finished. i was just putting the finishing touches on them. and all i had to do was study for exams. i got into the swing of school. and my friend got her license so she used to drive us places after school and we would hang out and do dumb shit together. i didn’t care what anyone thought of me because i knew i wouldn’t have to see them again in 6 months unless i wanted to. the next time was this few months after i’d just moved out of my parent’s house. probably 4 or 5 months. i had been dreaming of having my own place for like, my entire childhood. and i finally did! and it was with my best friend and this guy i really liked. and all i did was go to uni for a few hours a day. and then that was it! my time was all my own to do whatever i wanted with. i didn’t have a lot of money but i was so so so happy. i used to take myself to the movies. i was in walking distance of a train station and uni. so i could go wherever i wanted, whenever i wanted. i just felt so free

16: Talk about the best party you've ever been to. the first part of my house-warming party was probably the best. i got really drunk, and someone’s mum brought weed so i was reeeeeally drunk and then reeeeeally high. i was dressed in the cutest outfit and a few people were flirting with me. actually, i think i made out with like 3 different people that night. and my friend bought me flowers! which i loved because no one had ever bought me flowers before. and we went to the park and i was so high and drunk and the little swing ride i was on felt like a rollercoaster.

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with. hmmmmm to be honest, i’m trying not to make friends at the moment. i have a lot of other stuff i need to focus on. and having friends only leads to disappointment and heartbreak. i have a few friends i’ve accidentally made, but i’m trying to keep my distance from them so that we’re just ‘friends’ and not ‘good friends’ or anything like that. but secretly, i do love them a lot.

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school. me and my best friend at the time were doing a school play about mary the saint (i went to catholic school). there were 3 of us: me, my best friend, and some guy who didnt have friends so we let him in our group. anyway, i wanted to play mary, but for whatever reason, this dude reeeeeeally fucking wanted to be mary. he started like yelling and stomping and being like “NO! i want to be mary!” and then just as he stomped his foot, a branch from a tree fell right on his head. and, without missing a beat, my friend goes “well, that branch hit you on the head so now you can’t be mary” and i laughed my ass off and he cried 19: Talk about something that happened in middle school. omg these are all going to be funny stories because why not. so this one time in like 6th grade, we had to use calculators to do some complex maths work. and there was this one calculator that kept fucking up and giving the wrong answers. i knew enough basic maths at that point to know that the calculator was faulty. anyway so me and my friends gave it to this other kid just to punk him a little right. turns out he didn’t realise it was a broken calculator and he finished his work and handed it in to the teacher, and proceeded to get in trouble sjlfsorerjlksjr

20: Talk about something that happened in high school. omg so in high school i did this multimedia class. so we would film events like chapels (i went to a christian high school) and assembly, etc. and what we filmed would go on the big screens for everyone to see. kinda like a concert. and anyway, one time this kid got in trouble in front of everyone, and my classmate did this dramatic zoom on our multimedia teacher as he stormed out of the auditorium, dramatically walking out to get the kid in trouble

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down. oh so this one time after i finished school i started going through rough patch #2 and i just needed a friend to talk to. and this guy from school was sort of the only friend who kept checking up on me and inviting me out places. and i liked that. i didn’t always have enough energy to do stuff or talk, because, depression. but i appreciated the fact that he cared. never thought much about it. until one day, we hadn’t spoken for like a month and he tells me suddenly that he has feelings for me. and of course, that’s so sweet and i did love the guy. but i wasn’t in the headspace for a relationship at all. i really just needed a friend. and i felt so terrible

22: Talk about your worst fear. my worst fear ever? it used to be dying. but i think now it’s just having to go through what i went through again. my worst fear would be being a child again and being at the mercy of others and having to rely on them. my worst fear is trusting people and having them completely fuck you up. again and again. and not being able to do anything about it because you need them.

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down. hoo boy. i was 15 and made friends with someone on the internet who turned out to go to my school. developed a crush on him, but he was very gay. i ended up telling him for whatever reason. and that went just about the way you’d think

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

i don’t know. most people don’t know what they’re talking about when they give me advice. and i’m not saying that to be arrogant, but just most people haven’t been through much and not to sound self-pitying but i’ve been through a lot in a short amount of time. these are just facts here. so i don’t really believe what people say. i used to have this friend who was and will probably always be the only person who could ever make me laugh. genuinely. it felt like soulmates, but i was like a kid. but we had exactly the same sense of humour, and she was so witty and quick and would always have the best comedic timing. i really admired her and still do. anyway, one time she called me effortlessly funny. and that meant a lot then and still does now.

25: Talk about an ex-best friend. i just did, but sure. i’ll keep talking about her because i’m already thinkig of her. i’m pretty sure she was a capricorn rising. she had this really deadpan humour and it was always hilarious. we were friends since we were 4 years old. and i dont think i appreciated it as much as i should have at the time, but we really did grow up together and in each others arms. she was very cool and closed off and serious. and i got to see her funny and silly side. but what was even cooler than that was that i got to know her emotionally. she had a twin, and looking back, i don’t think her twin even saw as much of that as i got to. we used to have talks about anything and everything. you know those people who you can stay up all night laughing with and talking to and it doesn’t even feel like it’s been 10 minutes and all of a sudden the sun is coming up? but it was so effortless and fun and. yeah. it was like that. i still haven’t met anyone like that since. we later had a falling out and i met her again after like a year but we both had our walls up and that’s sort of when i realised how much we really trusted each other. you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone kinda thing.

26: Talk about things you do when you're sick. complain. bitch. complain some more. i usually buy nasal spray because having a blocked nose is SO ANNOYING. and otherwise, i don’t mind being sick too much. like obviously it’s not ideal but you do what you can. if i’m truly annoyed with being sick, i just sleep so i don’t have to be awake to deal with it

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body. i love girls tummys and waists

28: Talk about your fetishes. idk i like some light bondage, light choking, a biiiiit very much maybe potentially kinda into rapeplay, and spanking is fun

29: Talk about what turns you on. most of what turns me on is like dom/sub power dynamics. im into scanarios that have a looooot of sexual build up and tension. it’s pretty much foreplay for me personally. especially if it’s like flirty banter or implications, and dirty talk can be fun if done right.

30: Talk about what turns you off. absolutely not into anal at all. complete turn off. not at all into the thing where people get off on girls acting like kids, or people who think fucking someone who is asleep is hot. idk i like most normal shit tbh. anything else is probably weird for a reason

31: Talk about what you think death is like. i think it’s probably the most painful experience you’ll ever have physically. and then everything goes black and that’s it

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood. i remember my childhood house’s backyard. it was massive and had like a step in the middle where the grass changed levels. there was a swingset with a slide. and for the majority of my childhood my parents were doing renovations, so there were lots of holes in the backyard that we used to dodge. we used to catch lizards and i used to collect bird feathers. and at the very back, right in front of the back fence, my parents planted little trees and chillis

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad. i immediately find the fastest way to be alone. i immediately listen to music. i drink or smoke or get high on something. or i try to make myself laugh if i’m at work and can’t do either of those things. if i can’t make myself laugh, i try to talk to a customer and pretend to be happy hoping that whatever they have to say will distract me from whatever i’m sad about.

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured. eugh. every year i somehow get sent to the hospital because i can’t stop vomiting. i dont know how because its always for different reasons. but i always end up puking an excessive amount on an annual basis. the worst pain is when you can’t stop vomiting, so your stomach just cramps and cramps and cramps and you vomit but nothing happens and it just cramps again. it’s literally worse than period cramps. and mine are so bad.

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. having anxiety. i overthink a lot which doesnt help either. the thing is that i studied psychology, and i still don’t know how to stop myself from being so anxious. like i know how much it affects my work and stuff but i just can’t stop feeling like i’m about to die at any given second.

36: Talk about your guilty pleasures. drinking, drugs, smoking, im not even guilty about those. idk. to quote niall hora- i mean pink, i’m not guilty about any of my pleasures

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with. an old best friend. different to aforementioned best friend. we were friends for 6 years. not as close as the other one, but close as i’ve been to someone since. we were both depressed and going through stuff and both flirted with each other just for shits and gigs. idk. i think we really only bonded because we were both depressed and suicidal and having someone else around who is going through the same stuff makes everything so much more bearable. once i stopped being depressed i stopped being as close and as in love. but at the time, it was really nice and beautiful, we truly could talk about anything together. i could have opened with “i love being dominated in bed” instead of “hello” and she would have just rolled with it. we used to dream about the future together and hold hands and hug. idk. we used to just hang out together and there was never any pressure to do anything or be anyone. it was just us being our dorky selves.

38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. goodbye stranger by supertramp reminds me of above mentioned friend, two of us by the beatles reminds me of first mentioned best friend, and i love her by the beatles reminds me of this friend group i had for 10 years. princess by shortstack reminds me of this friend i had for a few years who i almost had a thing with because i knew she liked me but neither of us ever said anything.

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier. i wish i’d have known that it’s not a good or admirable trait to be so open with people so quickly. you shouldn’t immediately show people that you trust them or like them, and you definitely shouldn’t get so excited about things for them. it makes you look naive and they will definitely just use you. i wish i’d known to get my license earlier i wish i’d have known what weed was like earlier. it really would have helped me out a lot.

40: Talk about the end of something in your life. the end of high school was really hard. i know a lot of people hated high school. and i did. but once i got to my final 2 years, i had this confidence that comes with being older in school and it was really nice. i love the routine we had and the forced structure school made you have in your life. i enjoyed mucking around with teachers and that feeling of starting assignments before they’re due. being at school was nice because i mostly kept to myself and was generally well-liked. so i had this big support system that got me through a lot. and school ending meant that the support i had also ended. and then i had nothing and nobody and went through so much and had to be alone for it all. the end of school coincided with the worst period of my life #2, probably because i was at home to experience a lot more.

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