#but i’d still love to talk to you!

[cordycepspog]

There’s something horrifyingly beautiful about Tess’s final moments. In the midst of the most dire chaos, as she waits for her death to come rushing past so she can blow it sky high and give cordyceps a big fuck you one last time, one of the infected stops. It looks at her, really looks. Her own mortality is personified in this infected. It’s death that’s looking at her, and it sees her. She looks her own death in the eye, and the suspense is so high as it approaches. But then, it doesn’t bite her throat out like we all expect it to.

It kisses her. What’s more, it kisses her gently. And I think it was a brilliant choice on the writers part, because it reminded me that the infected aren’t supposed to be evil. Sure, they’re scary as hell, but really, they’re just trying to survive. They’re connected to one another, they can feel each other from miles away. They seek out and want to be close to their own kind, just like the human survivors do. And when they do find each other, they kiss hello.

And after so long apart from a loved one, someone you know and trust with every instinct in your body, wouldn’t you want to kiss them too?

#okay that’s enough posting for the night but I’m sure I’ll have more dumb little thought’s tomorrow #I still wanted to talk about how Tess let’s it kiss her in her final moments. Like it’s one last intimate moment she lets herself have #before she dies. but that’s a post for another time #something something recognizing yourself in the other something something transitioning from one family to the next through death something #something. #anyway rip tess #anna torv i love you you slayed #tlou #tlou hbo #tess tlou #joel miller #ellie tlou #tlou spoilers #the last of us #tw body horror #just in case #I’d also like to bring up that this is an interpretation. obviously the kiss was for shock factor. i’m just having fun analyzing it

[turnipoddity]

have you watched tusk (2014)?? its... interesting! ☺️

yes. and let me tell you something… this is just my personal… opinion… VERY subjective taste here yall…

I FUCKING LOVE body horror. I LOVE EM. but i like it if they are more… natural? Like from within your body, not like, through surgery. I mean cool and i do watch them still but i prefer body horror that comes within your body, it feels more scarier to me 🧎‍♀️

I watched tusks blindly and i literally FELT GIDDY LIKE WOOO this man gonna turn into a walrus im gonna see some fucked up shit but oh… through surgery…

#THIS IS A VERY WEIRD RANT YALL LMAOOOOOOOOO #I AM VERY SORRY TO BE GRAPHIC ABOUT IT #THIS IS VERY SUBJECTIVE. IF YOU GUYS LIKE THEM ITS VERY COOL!!! #i love body horror still #but yknow like #the fly #the thing #or alien #something unnatural that goes on within your body that makes it change… and can you still call yourself a human after all that #oh #thats my SHIT right there #asks #this is why human centipede doesnt really intrigue me #i watched the first one #its… okay #but if the human got turned into a centipede by itself #their bodies slowly changing… #i’d eat that shit UPP #sorry for the body horror talk yall im sorry if this is gross HAHAHA

[foldingfittedsheets]

My parents decided to just roam for the month of December. Who knows why. They said they didn’t want to do holiday stuff until the new year. Found out later they’d had thanksgiving with my nana. Honestly it woulda been fine if they’d just said they didn’t want the kids over? But instead mom decided lying that they weren’t doing it at all was easier.

My transphobic sister is having a baby so they decided to drive down to her state to see her, after telling me they’d come to my choir concert. And again. That’s fine, I get that the baby is a bigger deal.

But mom asked me to look after her chickens while they’re gone. I dragged myself over aching in every bone from overexertion yesterday, including the concert. When I called concerned about one of her hens dragging a lame foot around she told me that’s just how that chickens always been and not to worry about it. Didn’t ask me how the concert had been.

When my betrothed got home I was deep in sadness pits. I told them, “I feel like that chicken. Hobbling around receiving inferior care and attention from my mom.”

They baked cookies and we cuddled about it.

#ramblies #tomorrow will be better #donuts and dogs is set to be super rainy but if I’m less achey that would be great and I’ll at least have a donut #and we can have another couch day which I’ll probably still need #it’s not the first time I’ve been excluded for family stuff #probably because I tell my mom that her animal husbandry is insufficient and protest the hateful way my sibling talk about gay people #I’d rather do holidays with people who actually love the person I am rather than loving an image of who they think I am #but it still sucks to have parents blow you off

[gothic-mothic]

Psst hey Stanley... I think the narrator is fond of you...

“Fond”

Narrator just grabs onto Stanley sometimes, always has, so why does this one feel… different?

Full page under cut

#kelpiekidd #Haiiii hi kelpie hellooo lovely to see you again we love having you here #tsp #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tspud #png tag bc I spent too long on this. #I was #very passionate ab this slow burn GCHSBD #still am #they’re watching a romance show btw #I’d like to think it was on tv one day and Narrator was captivated by the #not so good acting and over dramatic energy #and then he dragged Stanley into it #and now they’re both super invested #6 seasons in #wait till narrator finds out the show is based off books BCHXB #post parable au #ppl talking to stanley and narrator #.png

[interstate35south]

i love when people draw all the mxtx protagonists together but i’ll be real the generic anime boy face curse is alive and well

more often than not the art itself is fantastic it just takes me like a solid minute to figure out who’s who. bonus points if lbh is robbed of his wavy hair and the only way i can tell him apart from wwx is his forehead

#mxtx #tgcf #mdzs #svsss #heaven official's blessing #tian guan ci fu #mo dao zu shi #scum villian self saving system #hua cheng doesn’t tend to be a problem but wwx and lbh. man #also not technically a protag but honorable mention to my favorite guessing game “is it shen qingqiu or male shi qingxuan” #i must admit i am a victim of same face syndrome as well but it gets worse when they remove distinguishing features #i’m still talking abt lbh’s hair btw. i feel very strongly about his hair #every other character and their mother already has long straight black hair let him have a little fun #i love you three mxtx characters with not straight hair #also not necessarily a features thing but part of my beef with generic anime boy face is that they all look early 20s which is propaganda #listen wangxian being in their thirties is SO important to me you guys don’t understand #teenage hualian is not real to me i don’t believe in it we’ve already established that #but i’d at least like SOME indication that they’re not all the same age #i love you artists that draw san lang and hua cheng visibly different i love you artists that draw wwx and mxy visibly different #bottom line is pls give them more distinguishing features or i gotta do it myself #half joking but also this shit gets serious

[sophfandoms53]

I wish Hazbin had more than 8 episodes this season bc 1) the pacing is all over the place (outside of episode 4) and 2) it would’ve been so nice to actually see when and why Alastor started to genuinely care about the hotel.

The pilot and the first episode of the show characterize him as sticking around for the entertainment because of how silly the idea of redeeming a sinner is to him but then episode 5 has him fully backing up Charlie’s wishes for the hotel and even tells Mimzy she’s welcomed to stay if she actually wants to try redemption and was upset she had put the hotel in danger with her presence.

I think that turnaround in Alastor’s perspective is so interesting but when did that happen? Why did that happen? How did that happen? What made him care?

He clearly still has ulterior motives, there’s 0 denying that given his scene with Husk in the same episode, but he does seem to actually care about Charlie and her hotel. Which can be connected to the leash Husk claimed Alastor is bound by but Alastor is also the most distant from the cast.

We never see him around everyone for more than a few minutes at a time. Everyone went out to the club in episode 6 but Alastor is nowhere to be found in the entire episode.

That bond with anyone in the hotel, even Charlie, that would explain Alastor’s sudden support in the hotel has not been shown on screen and I really wish the show had more time to do that.

That’s really what Hazbin lacks. Time. Time to slow down and just let the characters breathe. Everything is moving so fast because they probably didn’t know a second season was coming until later which I can understand but that also means the plot takes priority over the characters and a majority of the cast is suffering from it.

Angel’s the only character who’s gotten an episode solely about him and exploring, expanding, and developing his character and his bonds in the hotel are what we see the most. This makes sense given he’s the main guest in the hotel but no other character has been able to have their own character and arc be explored the way Angel has.

The show needed more episodes like Masquerade to explore the cast before diving headfirst into the Heaven vs. Hell redemption conflict. That was always going to be the direction the show went in but they needed so much more time to do it because there are so many characters to juggle and so much is happening. Big moments that are supposed to matter don’t hit as hard as they should bc the cast is overstuffed and everyone is fighting for screen time.

This isn’t the teams fault, they’re doing a decent job with the limit time they were given but 8 episodes is not enough time for a show this ambitious with everything it’s trying to do. Doubling the episode count to 16 would’ve done wonders for the pacing and the show could slow down and take its time.

A lot of what Hazbin presents are good ideas. It’s all interesting but none of it is given enough time because the big Heaven and Hell plot has to take a majority of the shows focus. I do hope season 2 fixes this but that’s also gonna depend where the show is going after season 1 is over. We’ll see next week.

My main wish for the show going forward is each character gets their chance to be explored just as Angel has.

#hazbin has the millie problem of helluva boss but like everyone is millie #you understand who they are on a basic level but that’s kinda it #there’s not enough depth beyond what little we know #the show tries especially with Vaggie and Charlie #and i think Charlie is handled better than most of the cast outside of Angel #but oof Vaggie #i see what they wanted to do with her but again the pacing of it is a mess #everyone else in the hotel has their moments for sure #i utterly love husk and i wanna see more of him #but he needs his own episode that explores him and his whole deal with alastor #which would in turn explain some of alastor’s stuff #ik he’s supposed to be a mystery and that’s fine #but we can still learn more about him as a person without knowing all of his past y’know #anyway all I thought as i wrote this post was wow i’d get jumped on twitter for saying this #just wanted to talk about thisss #i love hazbin and helluva but they are never beating the pacing issue allegations #helluva’s pacing is actually more annoying for different reasons tho #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers

[unethicalexperiments]

is it me or is everyone on this website so fucking miserable about everything these days. about every show every movie every book every musician/band every post regarding social issues every art piece. actually not even just on this website on all social media type platforms. the sheer amount of posts/youtube videos i see titled “x is bad and here’s why”. y’all talk about people/problems that have never even remotely crossed my mind as a possibility of existing like it’s plaguing the earth as we speak. things that people act like are major problems in [x fandom] or whatever that i’ve straight up just never seen before. in circles i’m active in. not even in a “let people enjoy things!!!” type of way. just why are you so hung up on something minor clearly making you so upset. i’m a guy who loves to fight but like why are we fighting when it’s not even fun for either of us. and you know what i’m probably guilty of this too at this point but jesus christ. whatever. can we all just sit outside in the park and smoke a blunt and chill out like we used to.

#talking to myself #says the guy who picks fights over any opinion she disagrees with #everyone should agree with me all the time about everything then we can all be happy i think ❤️ #when the mcr/fob fan fighting was at its worst the amount of times i wanted to just post ‘you are all so fucking miserable ❤️ god bless’ #LIKE WHO WAS FIGHTING. I NEVER EVEN SAW ANYONE FIGHTING JUST PEOPLE COMPLAINING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE FIGHTING AND BLAMING IT ON THE OTHER SIDE #like i love this website it’s my last little corner of the internet that still feels fun for the most part #and i WANT it to stay fun. but my god. #and normally i’d be like ‘oh i’ll just unfollow some people’ BUT ITS NOT JUST SOME PEOPLE ANYMORE #again whatever i am in new orleans i am going to chug this hand grenade and throw this in my queue and forget about it

[emry-stars-art]

please can u tell us more of ur thoughts on branding.

can u tell us ALL ur thoughts on branding.

can u tell us all your thoughts.

ANGST ANGST ANGST ANGST

Why yes I CAN tell you my thoughts! but this post will stay pretty much about the branding, even tho there will be other points you can notice below; unfortunately I have limited space and time on these posts. One thing at a time for my brainnn 🙏

Also. This is another “there’s too much going on here for me to cover it all” concept, so this is actually in two parts just to make sure it doesn’t get too ungodly long 😂 and one day there’s a bunch of stuff I want so badly to write about it! For now, I’ll put the link to the second post [here] as well as at the very end for your reading convenience

Find the royal au writing masterpost here 💕

(This was supposed to be for showing the brands; it turned into an explanation of some of the physical effects of things that happened in Evermore and the direct aftermath.)

Ahem. So Riko’s pretty determined to make it as difficult as possible for Abram to sneak away again, blend into other places. The best way to do that, obviously, is to brand him to his court as he had the rest.

Abram expects that. He’s completely prepared to have this done, it’s all but inevitable. He’d been dodging his number III for far too long now. Even Day has the II still on his own cheek - Abram can deal with it. Riko’s too proud not to let it heal nicely. He needs his court to look as neat and uniform as possible.

Still hurts like hell.

But after, when Abram wants nothing more than to be completely alone until he can see properly out of that eye, Riko orders him to strip down. Abram doesn’t - his time in Palmetto and with Prince Andrew took away Abram’s only survival technique. He’s known good people now, he knows how a person is supposed to be treated and he’s learned at least some degree of self-respect. Nathaniel relied on a day-to-day understanding that he could die in any terrible, inhuman way at another’s whim. Abram knows better. (It ruins him.)

Of course, Riko gets his demands met anyway. They have to hold Nathaniel down to get the second brand on him. This one isn’t for show, though perhaps that was a thought in Riko’s mind - branded cattle is hard to steal and easy to identify. Mostly it’s the beginning of pushing onto Abram that he isn’t more than property, he’s a work animal and he’s expected to act like it. And Riko doesn’t care that this one heals as neatly. Since it’s not going to be for the public eye, Riko can let it fester and infect as long as it stays recognizable. As long as Abram can look at it and remember what it is and what it’s there for.

When Abram is brought back, when Day is with him in that cart, it’s another thing he begs for the prince not to see. The muzzle and the brand. At first Day is confused; “The prince will want to see your face, Abram. You know he won’t care. It’s just like mine.”

But Abram shakes his head. Says no. No, the other one. Please don’t let him see.

Maybe Day doesn’t fully realize what that means until he forces that bath on Abram. Abram doesn’t try to hide it; he’s already told Day about it, and if there’s anyone that will take Evermore cruelty in stride it will be Day. (That doesn’t mean Day isn’t enraged to see it. Healed ugly, even still a little inflamed from rough fabrics and no care. He knew Riko was always mad with power; this was something else entirely.)

So Day heeds Abram’s pleas and doesn’t let Andrew see the brand. It’s always covered in bandages. When Andrew begins to help with Abram’s care, Day tells him he shouldn’t remove that bandage. It would cause Abram a lot of pain. Andrew tries to ask about it, but Day gives him the same answer as with the strange little punctures in Abram’s face: he will tell you if and when he wants to. And again, Andrew cannot argue.

By this point I think Andrew and Day have reached an agreement. Abram’s eyesight is getting clearer by the day, and Andrew understands how serious Day is about both his and Abram’s safety. But Day agreed that as long as Abram can confirm he recognizes Andrew, Andrew is allowed to help when Day is unavailable.

So when Andrew is sent for, told that Abram has reopened some wounds or torn some bandages and won’t let any of the medics touch him, Andrew goes.

Abram is calm enough by the time he arrives. He lets the prince check the wounds, nodding allowances between each article of clothing and bandage that Andrew removes. And by then they may as well shower too, while Andrew is there. He’d like to try and do what he can for Abram’s hair.

Even then Andrew doesn’t remove the bandage. It falls off on its own under the stream of water. Andrew feels the slight tensing of Abram’s stomach, the way he pauses. For a second, Andrew can only stare, struck dumb with anger. Then, slowly and very carefully, he pushes the bandage back over the brand. Hardly breathing.

“Abram. What is that.”

And Abram tenses more. He can see enough now to place a good guess as to where Andrew’s eyes would be, himself wide eyed and suddenly fearful. (For a moment, the prince’s apparent calm response made Abram think that he’d somehow already seen the brand, which wasn’t impossible considering the circumstances. But his tone now, the ice in his voice as he confronts Abram on it - it feels like all of Abram’s worst fears have materialized there in front of him. Of course Andrew would be disgusted. Princes deserve better than damaged goods. Andrew deserves better.)

“I’m sorry,” Abram says automatically, which is the last thing Andrew wants to hear. “I’ll - you don’t have to anymore, just get Day -”

“Abram,” Andrew says again sharply, which is not the right thing because Abram flinches and pushes Andrew’s hands from him. He’s up and away from the hole-riddled bucket that serves as the infirmary’s makeshift shower almost immediately and finds his things half by memory and half blurry sight. Andrew wouldn’t want someone like him around, even as a guard. Especially in this state, when he can’t perform his duties at all.

Abram finds his way to Day’s room. Even with Andrew’s voice after him as he leaves the bath and infirmary altogether. Thankfully, it isn’t long before Day has returned from a routine check of the outer walls - Abram cannot handle being seen by the prince again, he’s shaking and slipping further from reality by the minute. Day takes one look at Abram in the hall and brings him into his room, trying to calm Abram enough to tell him what’s happened. Eventually, he pieces it together when Abram apologizes for making Day’s work for naught. You kept it from him this long time and I ruined it. Don’t let him be angry with you, it was my fault, just let him do what he wants and -

But Day won’t hear it. He figures out what it’s about, he tries to reassure Abram that it was a misunderstanding. Day knows for a fact, like any sane person and then as a person that knows Andrew, that the prince is not angry with Abram for having a brand or anything it was supposed to represent. He had been angry like anyone was angry to see it. Like Day had been. Day had just been much better about hiding it.

Abram isn’t in a state for rational thought or explanations. The panic and crying exhausts him, but nothing Day offers can comfort him. He won’t take the bed or couch or even the chair, too far in his head about Andrew finally seeing him for an animal. He ends up curled on the carpet near the fireplace, asleep by the time Andrew manages to find him. (He’d gone looking out by the gate, along any path Abram might have taken to run. It was either good or very bad that he didn’t find him there.)

Day answers the door and Andrew opens his mouth at the same time he scans the room, then stops. He sees Abram and tries to come in, but Day stands firmly in his way.

“Is he all right?” Andrew asks before he can stop himself. He messed up, this is his fault. He needs to be sure he hasn’t caused any real harm.

“Physically, yes,” Day says tersely. “But he’s asleep, and I will not be waking him yet. Out, in the hall. I need to speak with you.”

[part2 here]

#BIG BROTHER KEVIN DAY #he gave Andrew the wildest most unexpected ‘if you hurt my brother I’ll destroy you’ talk in history #and I love that for everyone involved #(even tho it was mostly Kevin doing some culture translation re: brands) #(and what abram is and isn’t apparently comfortable with and scared of) #I just think usually Andrew would be INCREDIBLY unimpressed and bored with Kevin’s long talks #but when it comes to Abram at this exact moment #he has no choice but to listen to whatever Kevin says #it’s not like Andrew is the person abram first thinks of when he needs comfort about evermore (yet at least) #day still knows better than anyone else in palmetto #hm are my strong emotions about kevin and Neil sibling vibes coming through yet #nah I’d better do more with it #ANYWAY #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #andrew minyard #kevin day #royal au #asks #anon #my writing #hmm might have to make the brand bigger in consequent drawings #cows beeg #Abram is small

[halfricanloveyou]

ok ok ok like i thought “the chosen” would suck cause “blah another series about the life and times of jesus” like we GET it it’s been around for CENTURIES you guys make the same damn movie all the time

but it’s actually legit really good? lots of pretty good representation! not everyone in the movie is white. actual portrayals of jewish culture instead of just ignoring that part. disabled people. matthew being autistic. characters that aren’t just two dimensional. the people in it feel like real people. there’s actual jokes, jesus cracks a few and they’re really funny?? so far nothing hateful, no gay or transgender bashing. it calls out the church for being judgemental and hateful in a way that’s very tasteful

it’s not perfect tho. jesus is…still white for some reason? despite mary not being white? and no one else around him being white? no gay people in it which is kind of a bad and a good thing…but it’s a portrayal of jesus and the people around him as human. as real life people who felt things and made jokes and rolled their eyes and stuff. also the guy they cast as jesus is pretty hot as are all the disciples. which isn’t the point or whatever but i can’t say i’m complaining. it’s free online and i think it’s worth a watch!

#it’s an adaptation of jesus that is more realistic #ofc he’s perfect and doesn’t sin but the point was that he was loving and kind and considerate and people all wanted to be around him #he doesn’t hesitate to walk straight into the dangerous or sketchy areas #he genuinely connects with and loves everyone he meets #they take liberties ofc but none of them are bad and add to the series as a whole #also as always i’m still gay and transgender as ever so no trad catholics or whatever touch this pls #but as a christian it makes my heart feel warm #it’s taken so so long to get an adaptation of any kind that depicts jesus as the kind of man who genuinely loves the people around him #not as some deity but as a human being loves other human beings #he is very human in this. it’s something christian’s don’t like to talk about #but if he went around talking like they do to other people #he wouldn’t have been able to last 10 seconds in the areas he was at #he wouldn’t have been welcomed there #it feels more faithful to the actual bible then they ever make him sound in any church service i’ve ever been in #the chosen #seriously check it out! it’s a genuinely good watch #especially if you have an interest in religion in general #i thought i’d hate it but i love it #pls know i’m being genuine abt this #and also the dudes they cast actually could pass as the age the actual apostles and actual jesus were #instead of being like 40-50 lmao #and them being hot is like just an added bonus sorry i have eyes

[tricksterlatte]

It always makes me sad whenever stories with hopeful messages or lighthearted moments are sometimes dismissed as unintelligent or weaker than tragedies. Isn't joy and hope what makes a dark journey worthwhile? Not every story needs an unhappy ending to serve as a lesson.

I will forever be a fan of stories that say hey, maybe the world is a rough place, and it will always be this way, but you can make a difference with the people who matter to you. Even if no one else will know, even if no one else will remember, the ones you loved, and who loved you in return, will remember. People who are holding onto you, even at the end of everything else. People who remind you that new beginnings are born from the ashes.

My favorite stories will always end with love, hope, and the sun rising on the horizon after hell and high waters. The world can be so cruel, but we can choose not to be as individuals. Joy is as human as anger and sorrow. Joy is what we reach for when we are at our lowest, whether we realize it or not. We want what was lost back. I love stories where the characters reach the light at the end of the tunnel, emerge on the other side, and are allowed to heal. Even if they’ve done bad things, even if they aren’t perfect, isn’t that true of all of us?

#Parker says things #writing stuff #I’ve been going through some big changes this year and honestly every year up til this point #I’m tired. but I’m healing. I like writing about similar #I’m damaged. I’m flawed. I’m a little broken. but I can still be good #I can still seek light after everything that’s happened #this time last year I was writing out of desperation. putting something out there in case I didn’t make it #but I made it. I’m still here. even if I flubbed along the way #i spent a lot of time hating the person I was this time last year? now I just want to hug him #he’s gonna be okay. kinda funny the stuff I wrote to stay alive led me to someone who changed my life for the better #and I changed for the better too? special thanks to my clown frogs and my Kanonno squad #I don’t talk about stuff and idk if you guys are seeing this but just know you mean a lot to me #it’s late and I’m rambling but reading and writing about light in the darkness led me to my own light #so I’m going to keep at it #thank you especially to Nyx. don’t know where I’d be without you but I love you so much #tricksterlatte writes #this is sentimental but I don’t care #expanded version of a post from bird app

[transbeeduo]

ranboo instinctively eating tubbo's placenta (<- sentence i'd never thought i'd type) is both so deeply meaningful and also insanely hilarious to me which i think fits them perfectly. of course ranboo would do that of course he'd eat his lover's organ!! what better way to connect them ESPECIALLY after such immense vulnerability? but also the image of ranboo walkin in the room and just immediately goin to town on that thang is sending me into hysterics

WHY DIDN’T TUMBLR NOTIFY ME OF THIS FUCK YEAH THIS IS SO REAL

I feel like the reason Ranboo ate it was due to

A.) Omnivore leaning heavily into more Carnivorous tendencies

B.) Enderian Instinct (+ tradition?)

C.) STRESS

Like I think the stress and the carnivorism kinda go hand in hand because. Ranboo was SO unbelievably stressed because he couldn’t stand to be in the same room during the C-Section because like. Bad memories from literally DYING that one time. Plus I think like. For Enderians, since any of them can give birth they all have those instincts hard-coded into them yk? And since Enderman babies are usually a LOT fucking bigger than Bug was, the one who just gave birth will usually eat the placenta as a way to regain strength? If that makes sense? (Or the other partner(s) will eat it as like a bonding/connection kinda thing like you described that’s more of a tradition thing but it’s definitely baked into instinct)

So what happened is that Ranboo went in the room post C-Section, smelled blood and checked to make sure his tiny baby and Tubbo were doing okay, Ranboo just like. Suddenly grabbed the placenta and ate it I don’t think they even were thinking about it It was literally ALL instinct

#pregnancy tag #IM SORRY FOR TALKING ABOUT THIS SO MUCH ITS JUST GENUINELY SO FUN TO TALK ABOUT #sorry guys the placenta eating is back do you still love me #imagine showing this to me in 2021 i think i’d genuinely die #ranboo ate that thang like a beast hashtag beast mode #bug posts #pregnancy tw

[ao3wasntenough]

Love your Cybertronian Sam, have you got any more on him 👀

WHICH FLAVOUR OF CYBERTRONIAN SAM ARE YOU INTERESTED IN? I HAVE QUITE THE SELECTION

Some of course are my very first concepts and even just first timers drawing transformers! Like I originally got a Rodimus Prime for my first figure so I used him as like the original bot to explore cybertronian Sam with! I think I had read a few fics that had the concept of him dying on earth and then being reformatted and rebirthed” on a cybertron left behind hence Rodimus! I forgot how cute those Rodimus sketches were and really wanted to see them again 😊

Or I have mini bot Sam,

or my attempt at fusing to many humanistic elements into him.

Or BIG JET BOT or mini plane bot Sam.

Or Cassette Sam and protoform Sam whos my most recent!

Each have varying levels of depth behind designs or au’s I’ve scrabbled together

#transformers #transformers bayverse #cybertronian sam #bot!sam #sam witwicky #I have a problem #honestly I would love to talk to anyone about anything! I think I’ve been inspired by so much there’s so many opportunities I’d love to ex #explore or actually develop!! #I put off seriously writing anything myself abuse I just felt like there’d be no interest in something so hyper specific #and I really just wanted to share things with people ;-; #‘-after all this time it’s still you ‘ #art

[vilsoo]

male jjk “fans” on twitter are so fucking weird and annoying and this applies to every male shounen fanbase out there 🙃 just a cesspool of incels that love hating on women that genuinely enjoy the series

#( ♥︎ ) — messy talk. #discourse kinda #everyday i love being a misandrist <33 #im always always gonna be pro women idc #but thats not the point here #male shounen fans should all burn #the shipping isnt even a major issue in the jjk fandom #idk why theyre so fixated on hating ppl (majority jjk fans who are women) #because they ship satosugu even tho its canon #and even having a problem with thirsting over gojo or toji??? #i understand that some mfs do say some out of pocket shit about the men in jjk #but at the end of the day you still bash women 🤷🏻‍♀️ #all the males in the jjk fandom have is no media literacy #i’d rather be in a room full of jjk fangirls who talk abt gojos asshole 24/7 on twitter than a single power scaling anime dudebro #you mfs wouldn’t even LAST on jjk tumblr #like we’re much more worse ngl

[sikyurame]

Thank you to all the extroverts who force me to go outside

#…okay context LMAO #I’m someone that stays home a lot #if I’m not working I’m home playing games or drawing or whatever #sounds sad but I love being by myself ANYWAYS #on my break I was sitting with my work friends #and they were talking about eating kbbq sometime in the future #I was wondering if I could go but I chickened out on asking ffddf #and then all my friends stared at me and were ‘you’re coming with us whether you like it or not’ #me: ASDFGGG??? 👀 👉👈 #look…we can be close friends and I’d still chicken out at asking to hang with people even if I know them #I’m just an anxious lil creature #I need that extra kick to feel accepted

[friendofflowersandfrogs]

I would just like to apologize to all the people I’ve ghosted in this past year. I promise I never stopped caring about you. Unfortunately, when I’m exhausted, social interactions are the first thing to go, and I have been exhausted for so long I’ve forgotten what energy is

#I still see ur messages and love you #I just cannot engage in a conversation without feeling sick to my stomach with the effort and wanting to die #I talk to maybe one person regularly. #I promise it’s not you even my closest friend will be ghosted for days on end if I can’t muster the response #hemera rambles #I just feel bad bc y’all deserve better #I just can’t be what you want me to be rn #I wish I could explain it better #but idk I’d rather think of u fondly than yell at you for responding to me whenever I dare send a text to let you know I’m thinking of you #I don’t want to get pissy bc ur trying to be a good friend #so I just don’t engage at all

[mattodore]

can you describe matthias and theo night routines? and their sleep schedule

<3 ly

Theo doesn’t get a lot of sleep since he’s either out partying into the long stretches of the night or up studying until the words begin to blur on the page. I’d say he normally falls asleep around 3AM-4AM and doesn’t wake back up until 7AM. Four-ish hours is pretty average for how much sleep he gets a night… maybe less at times if he’s more stressed than usual. I should add that he does sleep more when he’s staying over at Matthias’s or vice versa, but generally he tries his best not to let Matthias distract him from studying before bed… which only ever works out about a quarter of the time. Matthias can be... very persuasive.

In the case of Matthias, well… he’s a chronic insomniac whose insomnia is exacerbated by hallucinations and nightmares. Unsurprisingly, his sleep schedule is terribly inconsistent, but if he does sleep then I think he normally manages it sometime around noon and will stay asleep for about an hour or two. It’s actually very rare that he falls asleep during the night—especially after Theo begins to sleep over, as Matthias prefers to read and watch over him at that time instead. Theo has fits in his sleep (from nightmares that he never remembers…) and Matthias gently calms him so he doesn’t wake up.

The only time they fall asleep at around the same time is when they’ve been at it for a while and both need a break. Matthias doesn’t stay asleep for long, though… maybe an hour at most. He does sleep easier around Theo, but that’s mostly just when Theo is awake. I think Matthias finds a lot of comfort in knowing Theo is there watching over him. He went through a lot at the reformation school and there were many times within those years where sleep would be abruptly interrupted and then he’d be back on the killing floor, so to speak, so having someone there to watch over him… I think it really helps. Then, on the other hand, Theo sleeps pretty deeply after they’ve been having sex. There’s never a time he feels more cared for and adored than when Matthias is making love to him, so it's... a relaxing experience. It puts Theo's mind at ease and I think it’s probably when Theo feels the safest. So he'll sleep for a long while after, feeling cradled in Matthias's presence, his anxiety finally snuffed out.

As for their actual night routines… hm. They’re very different, especially before and after the start of Echthroi. 

Theo’s night routine stays pretty much the same throughout the story. He’s not one for self-care, like, at all. Because of that, he doesn’t necessarily have a routine… Theo’s honestly only really meticulous in his studies and everything else suffers for it. However, Theo physically cannot fall asleep unless he’s checked the locks on the windows and doors and closed all of the blinds and curtains. That’s the one routine of his he’s always sure to follow through on, even when he’s intoxicated or sleep deprived.

Otherwise, what else he does as part of his “routine” is up in the air. Sometimes he showers before bed, other times he showers after waking up. Sometimes he combs through his hair all nicely and other times he just impatiently rips his fingers through his hair and shrugs. Sometimes he forgets to brush his teeth, other times he forgets that he’s already brushed his teeth and ends up doing it again. He’s a bit of a mess. If he’s actually aware/awake enough to put himself to bed, then he’ll messily wipe any makeup off his face post-clubbing and/or he’ll shower post-hook up (if it’s the pre-Matthias part of Echthroi). If he’s tired from studying he’ll put all of his materials away and then flop down on his bed. If he has to see his parents in the morning then he’ll wind up in the bathroom for too long, brushing his teeth until his gums bleed. If we’re talking about Theo in the post-meeting Matthias part of the story then he might take a cold shower to try and get Matthias out of his head for a little bit, or he’ll find himself laying in bed staring warily at his phone. Hm… and in general Theo will hum lullabies to himself so he can fall asleep easier… it’s a childhood habit.

By nature of Matthias’s insomnia, Matthias doesn’t exactly find himself preparing for bed during the night like most people. He does, however, still run through his personal care routine at around 8pm. He showers, brushes, flosses, cleanses and hydrates, primps and preens, and then he’ll usually find himself entertaining guests or a partner for the night.

For Matthias pre-meeting Theo, he’s often not alone after dark as he has a string of men with whom he takes to his bed or a list of faceless people to call on whenever he wants to be surrounded by bodies and chatter. There are still quiet nights where he’s by himself or just with Imani, but they’re relatively few and far between. For Matthias post-meeting Theo… woof. He did sleep around here and there still, but I think he gave it up pretty early on… his mind was always swimming with thoughts of Theo and he couldn’t focus on nor did he find himself interested in the men he’d have under him. So after meeting Theo his usual night circuit changes and he often finds himself staying home and reading with some wine and the occasional glance at his phone, waiting for a response. Matthias does a lot of waiting when it comes to Theo.

If they're together at night (when they’re dating), then Matthias will usually make dinner for Theo. He likes feeding him (by hand, even, though Theo often protests). Normally Theo will have a few textbooks with him that he can study from while he waits for dinner and he always winds up going "give me a minute" when the food is finally done. They'll enjoy each other's company just fine at home or they'll go out for a drive or a walk. Theo often winds up getting roped into following along with Matthias's night routine and will poke fun at how fussy Matthias can be as Matthias does skincare beside him in the bathroom. Theo tries to get away with studying again later in the night, but Matthias likes to distract him as he’s personally offended whenever Theo whips out his textbooks past, like, 11PM. In general, they'll wind up having sex at some point, or multiple points, and then they'll shower together. After they towel off and Matthias dries Theo's hair, Matthias will most likely end up reading to Theo until Theo falls asleep. If Theo wakes up during the night, Matthias simply kisses him back to sleep.

#i feel like i should add a cw for theo brushing his teeth like that but have no idea what i’d tag it as… #river dipping #asks #anonymous #oc extras #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #ts4 #laying on my stomach in bed kicking my feet in the air and smiling at my laptop screen <3 love you toooooo #i'm sorry it took me so long to get around to replying to this but the horrors... yk how they can be i'm sure #literally took me weeks to write this out... those questionnaires took a toll on my brain clearly but i love them so it's okay #let this get away from me in length a bit but. well. dennis reynolds voice i've got shit to say etc. etc. #no but ummm... honestly my personality disorder is still being a little crazy atm so i'm still not really ready to talk much um. #and i'm probably going to continue to stay offline here for a few more days... #but i wanted to finally post this bc i really am sorry for how long it took me to get around to it... #and i also wanted to say thank you to everyone who sent me messages even if i didn't respond bc i felt embarrassed. huge kisses <3 #seeing the ''24 days ago'' timestamp on this as i finally go to hit post... woof. again i'm so sorry 😭 thank you for letting me talk #your ear off about them tho!!! seriously so grateful to have someone who's curious abt them like huuuge kisses for you as well!