#but i kind of love the end result

[singsweetmelodies]

you are perfection, my only direction (it's fire on fire)

piarles ~ dragon rider au ~ 40k words ~ rated e

"Since I'm already happily married," Sebastian says dramatically, but somehow also fondly, "it will have to be you, Charles. For the good of the House, and all that." He waggles his eyebrows suggestively. "So, is there anyone from House Tauro you might agree to marry, Charlie?"

Charles suspects that Sebastian loves to fluster him, and he hates that it works every time. "I… I mean," he stammers, his mind going suddenly and suspiciously blank except for blue eyes, and the familiar lilt of Pierre's laugh. Yes, of course, his heart wants to scream. Of course. Always. Anytime.

(The one where Pierre and Charles are Dragon Riders, and spectacularly stupid about their feelings, and have to marry each other to prevent an inter-House war.)

written for the incredible @effervescentdragon for the Piarles Winter Fic Exchange 2022/23 ❤️ surprise, babe 😘 i really hope you like this <333

a big thank you, as always, to @redyellowstupid for the amazing moodboard! and shoutout as well to our other two amazing co-mods, @leclerctops and @welightitup: girls, we make a fab team. ily all ❤️

#piarles #piarles fic #10 x 16 #piarles winter fic exchange #myfic #AHHHHHHHHHHHHH i am so happy and excited to finally post this omg #fantasy and worldbuilding are some of my favourite things EVER #and i indulged myself so much in this one oh my god 🙈 #but i kind of love the end result #and i really hope you do too <333 😘😘 #side note: fuck me i hope i scheduled this right lmao #i probs won't be around when this posts so uh. if you this too soon or too late... just smile and pretend you didn't ty xx

[haarute]

italian style. specifically naples.

#jolyne cujoh #jolyne kujo #jojo's bizarre adventure #stone ocean #jjba #jojo #illustration #digital art #featuring my favorite jolyne color palette from the BEST manga cover #for the love of god open at 100% resolution. it is a imperative for my artstyle to have no resizing #and so i am cursed forever when it comes to posting on social media. #i am QUITE HAPPY with this tbh. it started as just me fucking around but the result is honestly pretty good!! #does this count as a manga redraw? that wasn't my intention but i guess it kind of ends up looking like one. oh well. #my art

[jtl-fics]

ASH ILY! What would 'for want of a neil' be about? (@stabbyfoxandrew) (you don't have to answer today i know wipw is your busy day)

OH AERIE YOU KNOW I'M WEAK AGAINST PEOPLE ASKING ME ABOUT MY DUMB THOUGHTS ILY2.

It is 90% pun at the moment but the main thought right now is an Andrew going through the events of the Trilogy kind knowing what happened the 1st time but for some reason....Neil isn't there.

He knows Neil is supposed to be there.

So it's Andrew chasing the ghost of Neil, trying to find him, did he dream him all up, was Neil Josten just a beautiful pipe dream? But he keeps finding evidence that Neil exists. It feels like Neil is smoke in his fingers, he can almost see him, catches wisps of his scent, but when he reaches out Neil isn't solid enough to grasp.

So he keeps searching and things change around him because Neil Josten isn't there. Some good and some bad but it's hard to feel good about any of it when Neil isn't there.

There's also the concerning gap in memory before he found himself looking down at some new recruit who wasn't the boy he wanted to burn the world down for.

#That's just initial thoughts #For Want of a Neil #Probably in part think piece of what the year might have looked like if they got a norma (for a fox) recruit #Also a sort of mystery of what happened that resulted in Andrew ending up in the past #That's right folks I have a NEW STUPID TIME TRAVEL PLOTLINE #I'd apologize but I prefaced this whole stupid blog with the fact that I love them and I cannot be stopped #Andrew is given kind of memento vibes huh #Thank you for asking about it Aerie <3 #ILU #I haven't been able to look around and see other people's stuff today #because work was stupid #And I couldn't pre-work like I did last week #AFTG AU #AFTG #Andreil #Andrew Minyard #Neil Josten

[cinnamon-flame]

I felt the need to draw my unicorn boys after a long period of not doing that. I'm actually super happy with these, I feel like the two headshots of them are one of the best lined drawings I've ever made.

#I don't know why I drew Nightlight with such an edgy expression #the same goes for Melty crying #both of them are normally really silly #or in Nightlight's case shy #I kind of blame Nightlight's case on Lynxfrost's amazing artfight attack of him #that drawing unlocked his edgy potential for me #anyways i loved lining these? #I don't know what happened since normally I don't enjoy doing lineart as much as sketching #but these two headshots were super pleasant to line and shade #and I feel like maybe it shows in the end result? I don't know I'm just really proud of these #cinnamon's doodles #unicorn #unicorns #nightlight #melting scale #oc

[yo-yo-yoshiko]

I kept screaming "why are you COOL!?"

#trigun stampede #vash the stampede #trigun #he's killing me #this twig legged spiky headded k-pop ronald mcdonald is killing me #i love all the little moves he does in ep 2 i keep staring at them #i actually drew pupils on a character for once and the end result has me like 'should i start doing that in my day-to-day? #the answer is no i spent so much time grieving over my eye-lines lol #i was gonna do a style copy but then i got sleepy half way through so its kind of a hybrid style now lol #fan art

[missholoska]

Is it just me or does almost every outfit in the sims 4 cottage living just seems like something Toriel would wear?

yeah that's just objectively correct tbh

pretty goat mum 💜✨

#holoskart asks #I gotta draw at least one of these outfits next soriel week for sure :'> #also speaking of cottage living. I swear that pack had something against my toriel sim for the longest time #bc the pack introduced a bunch of new pie recipes and a pie competition every few weeks. so Obviously toriel needed to win that #except the game absolutely refused to let her win for real life months on end #I have a screenshot where all 3 pies entered one time were the same type. toriel's was excellent quality vs 2 townies' normal quality pies #she still lost to them. and then when she finally Did win first place several tries later it happened in the dumbest way possible #she entered a pie. waited for hours until the competition ended. no result appeared so I gave up and sent her home #two in-game weeks pass. frisk is hanging out at their high school's football event. a notification pops up as the event ends #the result from the pie competition finally appears. during the wrong event and two entire weeks late. and then my game crashed #luckily everything turned out the same way and she still got the first place result but god. it was So Much #anyway this kind of nonsense is why I love the sims gjhdsfjgh

[meownotgood]

ok now u got me thinking. aki coming back as the Cold devil. or the Winter devil. or the Snow Storm devil. and he looks the same as he did when he was human but his irises are like a powder blue and there’s always snow in his hair and his lashes. and contrast that with falling in love with you again who he thinks of as so warm and kind and loving….. thawing him….. much to think about - 🍊

the same year the gun devil was eliminated, japan experienced a particularly hard winter season — perhaps that's why he was reborn as the snow devil. when he first opened his eyes, he was met with a dark and cloudy sky, he could hear the lull of the ocean, his ears were still ringing from the hum of a chainsaw and the only thing he can remember is his first name, and particularly not his last.

public safety is quick to follow through on the reports of a humanoid-looking devil wandering the outskirts of hokkaido, leaving a trail of frozen water and dead trees in his path. upon capturing him, since he seemed to not pose much of a threat, he's escorted to the headquarters in tokyo rather than slain.

once the devil gets there, he's apathetic, quiet. doesn't speak unless spoken to. his skin is pale, his lips are chapped, his eyes are a pretty shade of blue and his eyelashes are pure white. he'd pass as a human if it wasn't for the twist of icicles sticking out from his head like horns, covering his hair and his shoulders in tiny droplets of snow, or for the intricate marks on his skin, faint tattoos in the shape of snowflakes.

he looks familiar. like someone who's face was in the obituaries a while ago.

in the mail, you get an unexpected letter from public safety. it includes train tickets, and it's telling you to come to tokyo on urgent business. the minute you've arrived, some devil hunters explain the situation: you need to have a look at this devil — the snow storm devil — and tell them everything you might know about it.

of course, you've never heard of such a thing before. you don't know anything about devils, how are you supposed to give them any valuable information? but when the hunters unlock the cell for you, when you take a step inside and they tell you, don't worry, just keep your distance and you won't get hurt right as they flick the lights on, you realize exactly why you were called here.

it's him.

it's aki, this devil looks exactly like aki, his hair is long and dark and messy, he's got the same face as aki and the same voice as aki when he opens his mouth to ask who you are. he doesn't get to finish his sentence and tell you how damn familiar you look to him because you're already running over, reaching out to touch him even though the devil hunters are yelling at you from the other side of the door, telling you it's too dangerous.

and his skin is cold, he's freezing. you grip his hands, you wrap your arms around him and hug him and it's aki.

aki isn't sure why, but right then, he feels like crying. he's felt nothing but coldness since he came to this place, but you feel so, so warm. his heart twists in his chest, he hugs you back even though he doesn't really know why. he could kill you, he could press his palm to your back and watch you freeze until you're nothing but dust and ice. but he doesn't.

he holds you close, he breathes frost-filled air into the nape of your neck. his body shakes, you mutter into his ear that you've missed him. you pull away, and there's a look in his eyes that's familiar, it's one you've always known.

and yet, when you nervously ask him if he knows who you are, if he remembers you, aki answers honestly, and it's the most the devil has ever spoken: "I don't. But I feel like I should. I'm sorry."

#how about you having to protect devil aki from being slain #perhaps injuring yourself in order to keep him safe #and it confuses him because why would you do something so kind for a devil? #don't you understand what he is? why are you so kind to him? #you end up trying to do things to jog his memory but in the end it never works #but it does make him slowly fall in love with you all over again #and as you grow closer to him and treat him with more warmth and affection #the days in winter seem to be warmer as a result.... #thanks for indulging me in reincarnation aki..... I have the brain worms for it right now.... #just the idea of aki who gets a second chance at life but has to rebuild everything from scratch #aaaa.. a.. a. aasbsbbww #wanna write something full about it some time #I really love the idea of aki being a snow related devil.... I also imagined him being like a snow devil but #he's like a snow angel so he has big white wings #ask mags #aki <3

[spookyuu]

For @vilz because I love Angel with all my heart and also Val is really cool and I like hanging out with them

#angel #fnaf oc #fnaf sb oc #fnaf sb #my art #fnaf #teehee i finally finished #this took a while phew #I hope I did the dress right I kind of struggled shading it #and the WINGS #the wings gave me trouble too #but I like the end result #i really love angel a lot shes very cute I think I would be her friend #angel can be happy as a treat

[green-torsos]

Giorno Giovanna and his road to success. Inspired by this painting by Karel Thole.

#this was kind of a more experimental one and i dont love some stuff about it. but overall id say im happy with the end result #jojos bizarre adventure #giorno giovanna #vento aureo #golden wind #jjba #fanart #jojo no kimyou na bouken #ktdraws

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

😭💔

#the problem is that I tend to extrapolate things from the beginning. #I have a serious crush. I would date him if he asked. heck I think I'd marry him. #and then we get to the massive #overwhelming ISSUE: #having kids is genuinely my worst nightmare. I'm not exaggerating in any way. being pregnant and having kids is my worst fear. #so because of that I cannot get married and thus I cannot date and thus #I can't allow myself to be in love with this guy. #which then leads to mental anguish bc I sometimes wonder if God isn't doing something here #but in the end I can't have... any of this. because I'm too utterly averse to having children #and that's kind of the end result of any of it #ugh #why did I have to have this crisis (again) over my morning coffee.... alas

[satari-raine]

My graduate thesis - after (somehow) successfully defending it last week to my committee team - just got officially accepted by my school. Time to become a blanket burrito and (try to) sleep forever out of relief that it's finally finished.

#Satari rambles #Hi there and howdy #I have occasionally poked in on here to talk about the whole graduate school thing #I'm just so glad it's done now #One of my committee members had to observe my teacher last night for class and he announced I had successfully defended it last week #And I don't know #Just seeing him and the other members and then my classmates proud #Got a little emotional #Even if it still feels surreal to have written as much as I did and even if I have some conflicting feelings about the end result #Since I did a creative fictional thesis #But I really am happy it's done and I'm almost done with school #(Granted I'm scared for what comes after especially with finding work right now among other things but that's for later) #But yeah #This has been the usual Satari is a dork who rambles in the tag night (even though it's only the afternoon right now) #Please tip your service staff #Have a wonderful timezone everyone #Also my committee head bought me some books to celebrate and oh my gosh I love that woman #She's so dang kind and it was really touching #People are so wonderful sometimes #I hope I can give some of that wonder back even if as a fraction

[aethernightmare]

#i'll be real i've been feeling some kind of way this week and needed this reminder. #the refusal by him to go to therapy is also a conscious choice. #the refusal to at least attempt to get sober is a conscious choice. #the refusal to still pin blame on you when you're not the addict and you didn't lie or cheat in the relationship is a choice. #the refusal to improve any area of their life (job - therapy - medication - better friends - an apology to those they hurt) is a choice. #so much of what i mourn is that my partner was genuinely a different person before the substance abuse. #i don't know who this current man is but it feels like a stranger who murdered my husband and stole his body. #because the man i loved might as well be dead. i don't even see glimmers of him anymore. not towards me or other people. #there's no comparison anywhere. not even in appearance. #i can't even know if he'd go back to the way he was if he got sober - because it was impossible to get him to quit more than 3 days. #if it wasn't alcohol it was weed. if it wasn't weed it was alcohol. often blended with days of not logging off mmos. #like none of these things in a vacuum are bad but his relationship to them at the expense of everyone and everything else was. #to this day he thinks i 'left him' when -in an inebriated rage - he told me to never talk to him again. so i haven't. #when he was the one who burned our bridges - so it's also his responsibility to improve and reach back out. even just as friends. #which he said he'd do - but never has. #he may not even remember some of the awful things he said and did to me at the end because he was always getting blackout intoxicated. #but as a result he thinks i was the one gaslighting Him when his memory was full of holes. because he thinks he's above being that affected #he probably thinks i'm manipulative for wanting him to get help and do these things. #but if he actually went to therapy (and was honest) or attend AA he'd see these are the professional steps - not ones i 'randomly made up'. #idk. some days are harder than others to deal with the absence and the silence and the trauma he left behind. today is one of the hard ones #a letter to my ex

[pttucker]

[Do you want to free the citizens of your industrial complex?] "Free them." [All citizens of the industrial complex are freed from your influence.] [The citizens of the Kim Dokja Industrial Complex have received the 'Escape Scenario'.] [The citizens of the Kim Dokja Industrial Complex can now choose an industrial complex.] [You have acquired a new legendary story!] [The story 'Liberator of the Industrial Complex' has been acquired.] Messages poured out and I left a final message. [Everyone, please leave. I will stop them until everyone leaves.]

Love that we get to see Dokja getting back on his feet so quickly. He may not have been strong enough to fight for First Murim himself, may have believed that the only option was to turn a blind eye as everyone around him began to suffer and die, but not this time. This he can do.

This is how the real Kim Dokja operates.

#I love that for just a few chapters it felt like maybe he was straying from his own self determined path #that he was becoming the very constellation that he hated #and that HE was the one starting to get some kind of regressor depression or something #willing to sacrifice as many people as necessary for the end result #it was cool to see him sort of flip positions with yjh #but I will say that I love the kdj who says 'just this once everybody lives' a lot more #we'll see if he'll manage to hold out until the end of the novel or if he ends up as jaded as final chapter yjh... #orv #orv novel chapter 257 #orv spoilers #orv liveblog #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kdj

[musical-chick-13]

Fuck it, weird-yet-galaxy-brain take is that Love Is War is rom-com Death Note, but not in regard to the ship that everyone thinks, and what I mean by this is that Kaguya and Miyuki are NOT the lighthearted lower-stakes rom-com version of Light and L, they're the lighthearted lower-stakes rom-com version of Near and Mello.

#NO THINK ABOUT IT #they both want the same end result but achieving that result gets wrapped up in the idea of 'winning' against the other person #history of academic rivalry #they each have qualities the other lacks-and thus together become greater than the sum of their individual traits #the one seen as 'weird' and/or 'cringe-y' was willing to reach out at one point and the other person wouldn't let themselves accept it #because of their personal psychological issues #the rivalry is more the result of unfortunate external influences rather than any actual ideological conflict #issues that come from inheriting a title and making your own name for yourself despite an inferiority complex #DO YOU SEE THE VISION™ #OBVIOUSLY it's not a perfect or direct translation but as the number one kaguya/miyuki stan I think I'm allowed to say this #kaguya sama #near x mello #meronia #(I don't want to put this in the full fandom tags because I don't think it belongs there??) #(but I know people are going to want to have this tagged as SOMETHING so they can block it) #this is a very strange intersection of interests & I'm not really sure it's going to make sense to anyone but me but *gestures wildly* here #like genuinely I might sound completely deranged as I say this but also I've been up for about 24 hours straight so #(also I recently read a fic for n/m where something kind of love is war-esque happened and my brain just...went wild I guess)

[anthromimicry]

#I'VE GROWN INTO A DEEPLY UNLOVABLE ADULT: playlist. #I know this is kind of a weird place to start with misao BUT I swear this song is relevant to her character jsjsj #During the 400 years she spent in Japan after she left home she had actually become acquainted with Japanese Pirates. #And she had joined them on their ' travels ' ( which basically just means raids / illegal exploits JSJSJ ). #But something unexpected happened during her time spent with them. There was one other woman on the ship and of course Misao wanted to try- #to connect with them as a result. And Misao was left being in complete wonder of her as she had never seen someone be so agile with a sword #before that point since the other woman in question ( her name was reika ) was known for being a BRILLIANT swordfighter. and due to her- #bunk being right above reika's they often found themselves have late night convo's with each other. And over time Misao felt this- #overwhelming feeling of warmth within her heart whenever she was around her as they soon began spending pretty much every single waking- #moment of their time together. And because Misao had never experience romantic love before this point she had thought she just held a deep- #admiration for Reika for a while. But then Reika volunteered to show Misao how to sword-fight and that's when she knew that she loved Reika #Because every single time she would physically correct Misao's stance with her hands or show her how to do a move more properly- #Misao felt this uncontrollable desire to kiss her. She just thought that Reika was so beautiful. And she wanted to have the spirit- #of a ' warrior ' just like her. So she reallyyy wanted for Reika to be her gf and after having a nightmare one night- #(because she is unfortunately plagued with them sometimes) and Reika expressed her concern for Misao by telling her that she could sleep- #in the same bed as hers Misao could've sworn that her heart stopped for a second and she was hesitant to at first but crawled in bed next- #to her anyhow in the end and after just laying there for a bit Reika turned to face her + just look into her eyes for a moment Misao asked- #if she could kiss her and Reika laughed and said something akin to ' oh if you only knew how long i've wanted for you to say that. - #of course you can ' and from that moment on Misao + Reika were a couple. And Misao was sooo in love with her that she wanted to find a way- #to make her immortal too. But decided not to when the topic was met with Pity by Reika whenever Misao finally revealed to her what she- #really is. Though the years that Misao spent with her were perhaps the happiest she's ever had. And she still loves Reika to this day. #She is also the reason why Misao wants to perfect her sword-fighting skills. Because she wants to make Reika proud of her. #... wherever she may be. #NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study.

[cuteniaarts]

Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way. #so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes