#but i am a fan nonetheless

[fullmoondudes]

#graham phillips #faces #i might be this man's only fan #but i am a fan nonetheless

[even-disco-baby]

YOU — “No. There is still a chance.”

DOLORES DEI — “You think so?” Her voice is weary.

EMPATHY — Everything about her is weary. She is the Innocence of weariness, of heroically borne suffering.

CONCEPTUALIZATION — That is the picture you have painted for yourself, at any rate.

YOU — “You looked back. That’s the memory, the moment, that I can’t stop returning to. You looked back. I had a chance, for just that moment…”

DOLORES DEI — She meets your eye, gaze still forever cast back over her shoulder. Time stops. The stars are stilled, the ocean silent. There is *nothing* beyond this memory. Nothing at all. All of infinity is contained in this single moment when anything and everything was possible.

“Oh, Harry…” She sighs, soft as eiderdown. “We never had any chance.”

And just like that, the wave of time collapses under its own weight, obliterating everything. This moment was six years ago. She is gone from here. Gone, gone…

PAIN THRESHOLD — You cannot leave. There was nothing outside of this moment, and now there is nothing at all. It’s all gone. There is no point. I’m sorry. I can’t do this any longer.

VOLITION — Please, don’t say that…

“Okay. Well, fuck me, then.”

“How would *you* know?! You gave up! You didn’t even try!”

“We *must* have had a chance, at some point… Doesn’t everyone get a chance, if nothing more?”

“How could you say that…?”

DOLORES DEI — “Because it’s true,” she says, matter-of-fact. “There is no moment in time that you can turn back to, no branching paths, no infinity. There is only what happened. I looked back… and then away.” She closes her eyes, turning her back to you.

“The moment ended. *We* ended. That is all.”

SHIVERS — A wave crashes against an unseen shore, ocean spray tickling the back of your neck. You shiver, but no one shivers with you. You are alone in this intersection. Why are you here?

“Why can’t *I* end?! Why can’t this all just stop? Please, make it stop…”

“Ended? I’ve barely even started! I got a chance to start completely over as somebody new! I don’t need you anymore! You’re just dead weight to me now.”

“No. That wasn’t the real ending. We’re a part of something so much bigger than this intersection, telling a story that encapsulates all of history! There’s *more* to this, it *means* something.”

“Then… What am I supposed to do now…?”

DOLORES DEI — “No, Harry.” She turns back to you again now, and she looks… sad.

“We were not metaphors. We were people. Our narrative was not intelligently designed. It simply followed the patterns of history, because those are the only patterns we *know.* We tried to create something new, but we failed. There is no narrative reward for our failure, no satisfactory ending. There is only the immutable past and the unknowable future.”

RHETORIC — There is no assurance of what is good or deserved or what may bring relief. There is no assurance of punishment, either. There is no assurance of anything. Not even of a future. I don’t know what to say to make this bearable.

VOLITION — Even so… As long as you live, *something* is promised. Can you live with that?

I can’t, I just can’t do this anymore…

I can. It’s enough.

I don’t know. I just don’t know.

I can at least try for a little longer…

VOLITION — That’s all I ask. That’s enough.

#disco elysium #harry du bois #dolores dei #suicide tw #ummmmm haha *twirls hair* #sorry this isn’t more of the dolores saga im really trying to get back into the swing of things 😭 #this is smth that won’t make it into the saga but that i was thinking about nonetheless #im not too fond of the whole ‘’dora is literally dolores dei’’ thing tbh #i feel that the mundanity is what makes their story impactful #and also just. makes it feel like somebody is kinda going overboard on projecting onto their proxy ex. lmao 😭 #idk like the metaphor gets a little TOO metaphorical for me. but that’s just my onion. im an rgu fan so who am i to judge #anyway this is more my take on the harry/dora story #which is that dora was Just Some Guy and ultimately we have to live w the fact that we’ll never get the full story #because she literally exited the narrative #we can speculate about what her and harry’s relationship was like and how much of the blame is on each of them #dora’s lack of class consciousness vs harry’s violent misogyny etc etc #and like. it’s not that there’s no value in examining those things bc there definitely is value in it #in examining what patterns you DO see repeating in your life and in the world around you #that is what politics is really… examining the system and all its moving parts #but ultimately the past is immutable… our perception of it changes as we gain new context and understanding but what’s past is past #and there is no way of knowing with any certainty what the future holds #that’s where the overlap of all of these political and personal conflicts is for me #and why it comes back to harry questioning whether it’s worth it to even live #it’s about whether or not you can live with the grief of the past and the uncertainty of the future #i want to learn to live with it… to work toward building a future that i want to live in #anyway. coughs

[youjustwaitsunshine]

if you genuinely post that article about susie believing it to be true i will block you and consider you an absolute walnut

#IN THE SUSIE TAG NONETHELESS #why are you in the susie tag i am begging you #only go and post after you learn how to read critically #ofc it's mv0 fans who have zero insight and are not able to connect two scenarios that can actually be connected #but draw connections where there are none

[chainreh]

i didnt notice the gun in this art but lmao girl you okay ?

#girls band cry #togenashi togeari #awa subaru #idk if theres any other girls band cry fans on tumblr but i am putting this out there nonetheless

[lime202]

Awaiting the day that the Egg Boiz hatch...

(Thinking about making them a pokemon-esque evolution sheet in a future post.)

#hazbin hotel #egg bois #eggs #art ideas #I don't know the lore for the eggs so I apologize to the egg fans if this is wildly inaccurate #I am interested in the concept nonetheless #it would be funny to see that as a plot twist or something

[mae-i-scribble]

ruri dragon is a series yes. the author went into hiatus for two years and theyre finally out of hiatus! :D its very exciting

I had heard the author went into hiatus and just kinda assumed it would be one of those things that never got picked up again, but boy am I happy to be proven wrong. Immediately after finding out I went and read all the available chapters and they were lovely as expected. Super excited to keep up with it!! Cannot wait to see whatever batshit powers she gets XD That and I want to see her dad in a full color spread author please i am on my hands and knees

#ruri dragon #i am a lover of dragons so its always nice to find more good dragon manga #im also a big fan of how the author portrays teens and school life #the casualness of it all really helps sell the slice of life angle #and it already has vibes of like #mythical creatures not really being well known but still a part of society? #like ruri and her classmates dont thibk dragons are real #but also very quickly adjust when they have proof that dragons are in fact real #and one of em is ruri's dad #including the adults around her #its a nice spin on things where usually a lot of focus would have been put into the whole #'how do i hide this/how do people deal with the knowledge of the supernatural existing' #sort of thing that i was more expecting #which tbf the oneshot is also very casual (one of the reasons i loved it) so i suppose i shouldnt be too surprised #but im very happy nonetheless

[isneezelikeamouse]

#I don’t know why I made this like he hasn’t even done anything yet. nonetheless #txt #shitpost #welcome home #wally darling #if wally darling has 0 fans I am no longer on this earth etc etc #eye contact #cw eye contact

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: March 23

"Little Sheba" by .38 Special

#song of the day #kaylithographica finished FFVII Rebirth and I think we're both gonna be processing All That for some time yet #holy shit #but now I have eaten (almost put my chalula on Thomas' breakfast kibbles rather than my dinner beans & rice. would have been unfortunate) #and I am going to bed! sleep sleep sleep sleep #song first real quick though: very fun song. traditionally top of the sibling singalong playlist #--that project's being scrapped. Nick's not a fan after all so we'll have to come up with something else-- #but it's a great song nonetheless. charming lyrics and hella fun to sing #'now to make a long story / just a little bit longer / Little Sheba was humbled on that humid night #she returned from emergency / with a fistful of fractures / our fabled femme fatale / spoilin for another fight' #who doesn't like a song about lady fight club!

[sleepingpopplio]

God gives his toughest battles (AO3 being down) to his strongest soldiers (fans running to tumblr.com to cry) <3

#I am one of those fans #I was going to read a fic to start the weekend god dammit #Now i cry my woes away amongst my fellow nerds aka my people #this collective mourning over fan fiction is really only something that could happen on tumblr #Good. #Ao3 #archive of our own #funny #hilarious even #but i will still cry nonetheless #Hope speaks

[rikardtoenterprise]

everyday i sit down at the dinner table and force my parents to watch star trek.

Christmas dinner? Idc. We watch kira and julian suffer in the mirrorverse.

#clearly i am on ds9 season 2 #we've been super behind on watch schedule so i am doubling down #my parents are still tng fans tho #i swear they are just sisko haters #just big fans of the bald guy shakespeare captain (picard) #i just have a good time nonetheless #star trek #ds9

[roobylavender]

saw the lack of armpit holes in this and jumped for joy

#she's so beautiful.. am i particularly a fan of iteration of the costume. no. but this art is so so lovely #of this iteration. god #captures her idgaf about anyone but i am watching nonetheless attitude quite well #to be deleted

[vulpinesaint]

dug up another old jules @lesbianboyfriend tag game moment for my favorite songs with names in the titles. let's go babydolls

tommy (leith ross)

orlando (leith ross)

magnolia (laufey)

angelina (lizzy mcalpine)

monica lewinsky (upsahl) (<— FAR cry from the rest of these songs sdfkjghd. sorry the beat slaps though)

susie save your love (allie x, mitski)

jo (haley heynderickx)

helena (my chemical romance) (<— it had to be said)

sofia (clairo) (<— another obligatory mention. trying to get to ten)

daisy (ashnikko) (<— true ashnikko fans know that the song is about an alter-ego vigilante named daisy who leaves daisies as her calling card. it counts as a name)

OH. TAGS. do it if you want nd tag me pretty please <3

#tag games #every day nowadays i'm looking up and realizing that i am more invested in ashnikko than a normal person. #artist that i Would become an actual fan of actually. #no i will not base my personality around musical artists! but i am an ashnikko fan <3 #also did you know that soooo many songs with names for the title are a really specific indie genre #anyway hiiii jules i did this one too #<3 #^ playlist that would be a little fucking insane to listen to all the way through #only a little fucking insane. but fucking insane nonetheless #get out of angelina lizzy mcalpine and into monica lewinsky by upsahl... vibe change!!!

[sixzeroes]

i need to rant idk might get shit on for this but wtvr

i’m so tired of nctzens basing dream’s worth on mahae and always setting mahae on a higher pedestal than the rest of them. it’s just so complicating for me that i can literally write an entire personal essay on this if i wanted to. (why must i be so sensitive and get worked up over kpop of all things? idk but i wish i didn’t care so much.) like i’ve seen so many people not like glitch mode and basically complaining that nomin were too loud (saw a person say jaemin should just stfu and it hurt me sm) or renle were (to sum it up) too prominent. multiple nctzens would then go on to say that they would’ve enjoyed glimo more if mahae had more lines. WHAT? how does that remotely make sense? if you don’t like a song it’s because of the way it sounds NOT because your bias didn’t get the most lines. like take sticker for example (i love sticker); i don’t think any sticker antis will like the song if you give their fav neo more lines. it’s just,, idek atp. i feel so bad for 5dream and it makes me upset to know that some ppl don’t appreciate them at all :(

pls don’t take this as hate towards mahae. i seriously despise it when ppl label observations as ‘hate.’

also i just realised the paragraph deviates from the og topic at hand but wtvr

#nabitxt #ok maybe you could like a song more if ur bias got more lines but tbh i think it’s a weird argument nonetheless so yeah #i needed to get this out of my system i apologise #also!! i am a sunflower i literally ult renhyuckmin. #but ngl i can’t stand sm sfs LMFAO #i just think dream deserve so much better #esp from their fans #this goes for all of the units tbh #i just really wished people would stop attributing dream’s success and stability to just mahae like are we forgetting #how well dream did in 2019/2020 and how dream always serve despite lacking 1-2 members during performances?? #GIVE 5DREAM THE CREDIT THEY DESERVE #ok i’m done now sorry #i feel like ppl are gonna disagree w me on this and hate me but wtvr i needed to say this

[bitegore]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 斉木楠雄のΨ難 | Saiki Kusuo no Sai-nan | The Disastrous Life of Saiki K., Death Note (Anime & Manga) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Nendou Riki & Saiki Kusuo Characters: Saiki Kusuo, Yagami Light, Ryuk (Death Note) Additional Tags: Crack Crossover, POV Alternating Summary:

In which some sort of stupid shenaniganry means that Saiki K from the Disastrous Life of Saiki K and Light of Death Note Fame live in the same universe. Surely Kira would accidentally (through a series of stupid bullshit) accidentally get one of Saiki's friends. and then surely Saiki would go do something about it.

This is Saiki doing something about it.

#bitegore fic #dont expect much else in the saiki k or death note universes - i am not actually a big like prolific fan of either #i enjoy both but im not like A Fan if you get me #nonetheless this was fun to write. i should write more gamebreaking stakes more often

[decodad]

thinking about the irony of me not being into jiglup and loving luzeni and not being into batjokes but loving superbat

#i would argue that perhaps batjokes and luzeni are more similar than jiglup and superbat are #but the similarities persist nonetheless #i am usually an enemies to lovers fan but i guess the dynamic isnt everything #moon's thoughts

[eddiemunsonscheckeredboxers]

i might have another idea that might become the next one shot i write, we might have to see how that goes

in the meantime, masterlist :)

#i am in school and work two jobs so #i appreciate the patience nonetheless! #eddie munson #eddie munson fic #eddie munson smut #eddie munson fan fic