#but honestly secret life was running like 8 fanfictions at once

[onebizarrekai]

totally regular, non-bad boys in secret life (sessions 1-3)

#mcyt #life series #trafficblr #secret life #grian #smallishbeans #solidaritygaming #art closet #inthelittlewood #he's there too #I was drawing these mid-season after each session but didn't finish them all till now haha #jimmy wasn't going up the tower I know. but it's funnier this way #sometimes secret life felt like a bad boys fanfic #but honestly secret life was running like 8 fanfictions at once #meanwhile biblically accurate grian

[ascottywrites]

The Sterek List --Heads

I have a guilty pleasure in enjoying Sterek (Heads) and Steter (Tails) fanfiction, if you could not tell by the last post, it's crazy outta control like woah. I hope you enjoy this list of fics that make my day while keeping me up during all hours of the night and tossing my free daylight moments down a swirling time vortex.

 ...don't be like me. It's probably for the best.

           --Sterek a.k.a Stiles Stilinski/ Derek Hale--

  *a.k.a the inappropriate light of my life 

Move A Mountain by ZainClaw (Complete: 9/9| 69,008) --Sterek/ --Biker!Derek 

Stiles goes camping with his friends in New Mexico after graduation where they befriend a biker gang led by Derek: a guy whom Stiles can’t decide if he will be either relieved or devastated to never see again once their week is up.

Racing With The Wind by lowlifetheory (Complete: 3/3| 26,478) --Sterek/ --Biker!Derek

'Sure thing Scott, I'll give him a ride,' Derek practically leered. Stiles faltered, the sudden image of Derek pinning him down, his muscular torso rippling with movement. Derek's smile spread into a smirk as Stiles got closer.

'I'm not really comfortable with this particular mode of transport.' Stiles said clutching the helmet. He wondered what it was made of, how secure it was, would it save his life if he fell off?

'Don’t worry, I know how to handle her,' Derek said resting a warm palm on Stiles's shoulder, fingers squeezing slightly as he guided Stiles closer to the massive hulking black bike.

'I should hope so,' Stiles muttered glaring at the motorbike.

The Feeling That I’m Under by wearing_tearing (Complete: 20/20| 289,584) -- Sterek/ --Biker!Derek Bunnysuit/Paramedic!Stiles

Stiles is a paramedic and Derek gets into a bike accident. It’s kind of love at first sight.

Part of the Pack by JusteAmusant (Complete: 7/7| 13,035) --Sterek 

Season one of Teen Wolf, seen through Sterek-colored glasses. Canon Divergence after season 1 idk there's slow burn Sterek and a puppy, and way more Derek sneaking in through Stiles' window

“He could have shifted in front of them,” Derek hisses. “That means they find out about him, and in turn find out about me.” He pauses. “What the hell is that?”

“It’s a washing machine, what the hell does it look like? It’s a puppy.”

In which Derek is a struggling Alpha, but still the Pack Dad, and oh god, does that mean Stiles is the pack mom?

(There's) Sulphur in Our Blood by WonderWolf (wip: 18/20| 178,650) --Sterek 

"Harris put you on a recon mission with Derek. You. Alone with Derek. On a mission. Together,” Scott says, slowly. “Does Harris want you dead?”

“I believe so," Stiles says gravely.

(Secret Agent AU where Derek blames Stiles for his sister’s death and Stiles is pretty sure that Derek’s going to murder him. As if that weren’t enough to deal with, Stiles’ familiar keeps having public breakdowns. Oh, and there’s a mole in the agency, so there’s that too).

Prince Among Wolves by Rawren (Deshonanana) (Complete: 20/20| 101,000) --Sterek 

Looking for full day/evening sitter. 2 twin boys age 4. Must have exp. w/werewolves. Must be human. No pedophiles. No teenage girls. Pay negotiable.

Pretty Human Virgin Boy Comes to the Pond- Feed Him All the Best Heads by Delta_Immortal (Complete: 8/8| 49,771) --Sterek/ --Dark!Derek 

Stiles knew it was a bad idea to go into the woods, but little did he know his actions would cause the death of everyone around him. Running from the thing that killed Danny, Scott and Stiles stumble upon a pond, which happens to hold a strange man named Derek who floats around in the middle of it. Derek assures them they're safe now.

What appears to be salvation is nothing more than the start of the death of everyone Stiles cares about. The being known as Derek haunts him at every turn, unsatisfied until Stiles succumbs to Derek's whims. Stiles isn't sure if that involves sexing him or eating him, and he really doesn't want to find out.

*This had me like Holy Crap

It Was a Wednesday by isthatbloodonhisshirt (wasterella) (Complete: 2/2| 80,119) --Sterek

What happened? Where are you? What’s that sound?” Derek jumped, having momentarily forgotten Scott was on the phone with him because Stiles had started moving. He’d stalked over to the other side of the cave, still eying Derek warily and growling, then settled protectively over a mass of clothes, leaves and animal innards. It was probably where he was sleeping. Lovely. No wonder he smelled like death. “Stiles,” Derek said, answering Scott’s question. Or, one of them, at least. “Stiles? What do you—Stiles is making that noise?” “Yes.” “Why?” “How fast do you think you can make it to the south lot of the Preserve?”

*Looking for that Stiles whump? 

I'll Be With You Through The Dark by the_misfortune_teller (Complete: 61/61| 138,101) --Sterek

"Me and Scott talk about everything, about all my poor decisions.” “So I’m a poor decision?” “Probably, yes. Considering how you rudely threw me out of your apartment the other day after convincing me to kiss you and admit that I like you." ~ Set post Season 2 finale. Stiles is having a rough time at home and finds himself going to Derek for help in Scott's absence. He doesn't expect for Derek to end up turning to him for support, leading to something more than just friendship between them. Slow, slow, fluffy slow build!

*Based on the spoilers that just keep on coming, this is very likely to be canon divergent for s3!*

I Think the Problem Here is There's Nothing Wrong by wait_for_it (Complete: 1/1| 5,156) --Sterek 

"Stiles wasn’t really sure what was going on, but if he had to guess, he’d say Derek Hale was losing his touch. The amount of times he’d been called out with the guy, presumably to stake out some new supernatural baddie only to have it be a false alarm, was starting to inch into the double digits."

In which Stiles and Derek are dating and everyone knows it. Except Stiles.

The One You Choose by Livinginfictions (Complete: 7/7| 13,440) --Sterek 

Stiles hadn’t seen Scott in over a week, except for glances he caught during school hours.

How I Long For Yesterday by sweetbutterbliss (Complete: 1/1| 6,017) --Sterek

Stiles blinks, his throat going dry, and he moves his thumb without thinking - liking the post. He feels a surge of petty satisfaction. At least the fucker will know he knows now. He stands up, his body feeling too heavy, and he blows out the already guttering candles. He lets out a sob of frustration when the last one won't fucking blow out. But he sucks it back in and bites down on his tongue, using his thumb and forefinger instead.

He throws himself into their empty bed without undressing. He lies there repeating the words 'Derek blew me off for Isaac' over and over. He tells himself to shut up while rearranging his pillow violently, but he goes to sleep with the refrain continuing its painful loop.

And You Say You're Alone by taelynhawker (Complete: 1/1| 30,314) --Sterek

Between the kanima, the Argents, and Peter's untimely return from the dead, everything has fallen apart. Stiles and Derek try to put their lives back together once the crisis has passed. Stiles deals with the aftermath of being tortured, and the distance growing between he and Scott. Derek attempts to become a stronger alpha and keep his pack safe, and that includes Stiles.

Can't Take the Heat? by Ilovesocks_24 (Complete: 15/15| 55,425) --Sterek/ --Chef!Stiles Chef!Derek 

Hi, I’m Stiles, and what I have for you today is…”

“Stop, just stop.” Grumpy Eyebrows interrupted. “That is honestly the worst looking Pasta Primavera I have ever seen. I don’t even want to eat it, it looks so bad.”

Stiles narrowed his eyes. No one insulted his creamy bacon carbonara without even trying it. And no one insulted his creamy bacon carbonara after they tried it either. “It’s actually a Creamy Bacon Carbonara, asshole,” Stiles snapped. “And for the record, it’s supposed to look like that.”

Or the one where Stiles is a new sous chef at Full Moon Steakhouse and Derek is the Gordon Ramsay of all head chefs. So of course they fall in love.

*This is one of my favorites

Love Runs Wild by DevilDoll for neptunepirate (Complete: 1/1| 9,494) --Sterek/ Neckz 'n' Throats

"You've got a hickey on the back of your neck!" A Neckz 'n Throats story.

If I Could Trade Mistakes For Sheep, Count Me Away Before You Sleep by alisaj (Complete: 1/1| 33,383) --Sterek

"Thing is, Stiles," Derek says, his voice hard and unfaltering. "I didn't sign up for you. You just hung around until we got used to you being here."

That stings. He hadn't realised how Derek feels about him. They've been getting on quite well, teaming up on little missions and bantering back and forth without malice. Stiles sometimes lets Derek crash in his room after a big fight, trying not to let on how intriguing he finds the werewolf.

"Well now we can get used to you not being here. You're a liability, Stilinski. You can't protect yourself and we always end up having to help you when we've got more important things to do. You're out of the pack."

or

The one where Derek is a terrible Alpha and Stiles ends up walking into a big pile of shit.

Teach Me How Love Goes by RoseByAnyOtherName17 (Complete: 1/1| 9,482) --Sterek 

Derek asks Stiles to have sex with him. Stiles says no, because he doesn't want to get his heart broken again. Somehow it happens anyways, but really, it's his own fault. He's the one who fell in love with Derek against despite knowing how bad an idea it was.

a taste for the forbidden by demonicweirdo (Complete: 1/1| 5,982) --Sterek 

Stiles narrows his eyes. “I haven’t been doing anything to you.”

“Bullshit,” Derek snaps.

The air in the room grows colder. “I swear it. The only magic I’ve used around you is to make your crops grow!” Stiles takes a step away. “How could you think that I would… You know what? Screw you, buddy. I’m sick of walking in circles around you.” His words are sharp and annoyed, and his shoulders are tense, as though he’s preparing for a fight. “You feel something for me? Wow, it must be sorcery! Because - what? I’m not good enough for your feelings, Derek?” he snarls.

Hello, Heartbreaker by astoryaboutwar (Complete: 1/1| 18,472) --Sterek

It’s a popular joke among Alphas: fuck an Omega, get heartbreak on your hands. Omegas are fragile little emotional things, needy and whiny. Stiles refuses to become that, or to believe that he’s anything like that.

Stiles and Derek have been fuckbuddies for a while when Derek loses his memories of the past three years - and them - in an accident. (Also - everyone's a werewolf, and everyone's alive.)

Bruises and Bitemarks by orphan_account (Complete: 27/27| 121,566) --Sterek 

Biologically, Stiles is weak. When he presented as an omega, he knew that to be the truth but that never stopped him from running his mouth as a defense mechanism. However, it could only save him so many times before he ended up pissing off the wrong person. After he's attacked in the parking lot outside of school, Stiles realizes he can no longer protect himself with just pure wit and sarcasm. When the attack lands him in the hospital, his dad forces him to pick between two options, report the alphas who attacked him or join a kickboxing gym run by omega rights activist and alpha, Derek Hale, a man Stiles has been in love with for many years. *Now includes an extended chapter featuring Nate/Jupiter*

I know that you love me, even when I lose my head by LunaCanisLupus_22 (Complete: 13/13| 135,577) --Sterek 

“We’re not mates, Cora,” he insists. “I mean look at him-“

“Ouch,” the kid says, no longer pushing that shit eating grin.

“He’s- he’s,” Derek tries, at a loss of how to explain why this can’t be possible. Why it shouldn’t be possible. Or the one where Derek gets attacked by hunters, ends up with amnesia and forgets Stiles is his mate

#omega!stiles #alpha!derek #supernatural a/b/o #teenwolf #teen wolf #stiles stilinski #derek hale #sterek #amnesia #biker!derek #magic!stiles #stiles gets pushed out of the pack #tropes galore #neglected!stiles #chef!derek #chef!stiles #kid fic #stiles whump #single parent derek #fanfiction #10/10 would reccomend #fanfiction recommendation #mates #sad!stiles #dark!derek #assassins #angst #a/b/o

[binkysteebnpewter]

All the numbers, all of em.

Fine. Here’s all fifty, my child.. (excluding 4 & 11 since I already answered those two)

1. What’s your sexual orientation?

Lesbian

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

Marvel and YouTube I suppose 🤷🏻‍♀️

3. Ever done any drugs?

Nope

5. How many people have you kissed?

Excluding me dad and brother? Two, two very toxic people 😔

6. Describe your dream home.

A cabin in the woods, private and preferably somewhere that’s not too hot and gets snow. That’s it. I’m not a hot weather person.

7. Who are you jealous of?

I don’t really think I’m jealous of anyone, I’ve never really been one to get truly jealous of someone. I’m pretty appreciative for what I have in life.

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

NCIS and Criminal Minds.

9. Do you watch porn?

No. The concept of watching two absolute strangers screw one another isn’t appealing to me.

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

Nope, I don’t see the point in it ig. That and I’d forget about it as well.

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

Fantasies?? Erotically? I don’t know. Normally? It’s more of a wish, but I want to find home.

Weirdly? I wish I could live a day in one of the games I play 😂

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

Yep! One of the piercings I’m getting eventually will be nipple piercings.

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

I wouldn’t spend a million. I’d save and invest a lot of it, cliche I know but...? I’ve grown up in a family who lived paycheck to paycheck for the longest time, I don’t like the fear of not knowing if I’ll make it by this week or this month.

15. Are you in a relationship?

Yes 🥺💗 I’m with my gorgeous princess @andyl394

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

Most everyone I follow are writers or friends I’ve made, so unless someone’s converted to be a porn blog suddenly then no.

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

Yes.

18. What tattoos do you want?

I want a few.

I want one dedicated to a mental health movement I’ve followed for awhile now that’s helped me with my mental health, I want one in dedication to my maternal nanny who passed away 2007, and one dedicated to my best friend who was killed in 9th grade.

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

I don’t think I would, honestly. 🤷🏻‍♀️

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

Other than the ones mentioned in #2: forensics, criminal justice, marine life (sharks especially), books, music (production and in general), and history.

21. Describe your best friend.

My best friend (currently, not my late best friend) is my emotional support dog. He’s a border collie jack russel mix, he loves to run and give hugs. He loves receiving kisses and insists to walk me around the house and the farm, because he’s super protective and sweet. He’s white with a few spots of brindle, a perfect teardrop shaped patch of brindle in the middle of his forehead is where he loves to receive kisses the most.

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

@andyl394

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

Knocked Loose

The Oh Hellos

Black Tiger Sex Machine

Girl in Red

AC/DC

24. What are three places you want to travel?

Japan, Alaska, Italy

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

In private, maybe at home by myself or with someone I love. I’m not picky as long as it’s not really social, like public places. I have too much anxiety for that to be comfortable.

26. What’s your favorite season?

Winter

27. What’s your pet peeve?

Lying.

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

My brother, I think. He’s walking karma and it’s funny to me.

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

I’m not sure tbh, I don’t watch a lot of movies

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

@asadmarveltrashbag

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

I like both, but there’s a certain appeal to the smell of old books that’s always called me down— I spent a lot of time in libraries growing up.

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

Ooh, this is tough. Either Marvel or Assassin’s Creed (odyssey specifically)

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

Very dark and soft textured. I love dark colors, black and dark green and blue especially.

34. What’s your coffee order?

If I actually go somewhere? Iced caramel macchiato or Blonde Caffe Americano.

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

Other than my girlfriend @andyl394 , no.

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

Hell no, I have trauma from them— that’s it 👏🏻

37. Have any tattoos?

Sadly not yet

38. Do you drink?

Even though I’m 19, yes. I never get drunk though, I don’t see the point. I’ve grown up in the south, where it’s decently normal for a parent to let their kids try alcohol but never much. My dad is a single parent and said when I was 17, if I wanted to drink I could but there was two rules: 1) has to be at home or a TRUSTED friends house and I can’t go anywhere once I’ve drank something 2) no getting drunk until I’m of age

39. Are you a virgin?

This a little sensitive, but no— I didn’t lose it with consent.

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

My girlfriend 🥺💗👏🏻

41. How many followers do you have?

There’s 187 people following my trash pile 🥺💗

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

🥺😩💗 it’s @andyl394 always her, she real gorgeous 🥺 (don’t mind me, she’s always right here 💗 in ma heart)

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

Turning on Do Not Disturb sometimes so I don’t have to talk to people.

44. Do you read erotica?

If you count fanfiction smut (I say if because I seen a giant debate about if fanfic smut counted as erotica 🤷🏻‍♀️)

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

I was forced to go on a date with a guy by my mother (😒) and he took me hunting. I don’t hate hunting, I grew up doing it. But this little boy got so mad when I tripped off on my own because he couldn’t hunt to save his life and at the end of the day I had pulled out a buck and two rabbits while he came out empty handed.

46. How many people do you follow?

182 amazing people

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

Elizabeth Olsen.

48. Describe your ideal partner.

I always find these questions so rude and appearance centered. I just want my partner to be communicative and respectful, that’s all I ask.

49. Who do you text the most?

My brother, @andyl394 , @fuzzy-cloud-head-queen , @nightunite , @breadgenie892

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

Wintery and Stormy weather, heavy rain/thunderstorms and snow.

#grace speaks #be nosy asks #@nightunite #ill protect my munchkins 😌💗 #my munchkins 🥺💗

[whindsor]

So at the start of 2019, I made the resolution to read more books! I used to be a voracious reader as a kid, but between college and grad school I kind of...forgot how to do that? So I got myself a library card (clutch, tbh) and spent the year enjoying free books and audiobooks!

Below the cut are the books that I read with short reviews about them. They aren’t the only books I started, but the cool thing about a library card is that since the books are free, you don’t feel bad about not finishing them if you don’t like them! 

Take a gander, maybe you’ll find your next favorite read!

Brief summary, meaning my favorite books of the year: An Ember in the Ashes by Sabaa Tahir, Outlander by Diana Gabaldon, and An Absolutely Remarkable Thing by Hank Green!

As You Wish: Inconceivable Tales from the Making of the Princess Bride by Cary Elwes 7/10 IDK if I enjoyed this because of nostalgia or because it was the first book I borrowed with my fancy dancy library card but either way it was nice to read a first hand account of one of my favorite movies, written by an actor that obviously feels a lot of affection towards it. Snaps to you, Cary Elwes.

Wonder Woman: Warbringer by Leigh Bardugo 7/10 I read it because it was Wonder Woman! She saves a girl who washes up on the shores of Themyscira and goes on an adventure to save her from ancient magic forces. TBH it wasn’t anything earth shattering but it was a fun, adventurous read and an entertaining story. Minus two points because Leigh Bardugo got paid to write fanfiction and I haven’t achieved that yet.

The Selection by Keira Cass 6/10 It was interesting enough to finish the audiobook, and I continued it because I was curious as to what would happen. It’s almost like a medieval AU of The Bachelor. But then the dreaded love triangle came up and I didn’t like where it was going so I didn’t finish the sequel. Entertaining enough, but not one I would go back to.

Wicked Appetite / Wicked Business / Wicked Charms by Janet Evanovich 6/10 Again, juuuuuuuust interesting enough for me to finish the audiobooks. It was the first audiobooks I got with ye olde librarie carde so that’s probably why I was so attached to finishing them. Also it’s about a girl that has magic baking powers, which is also probably why I wanted to finish it. She has to track down dragon balls or something I can’t really remember but it wasn’t bad.

Outlander / Dragonfly in Amber / Voyager by Diana Gabaldon 8/10 I LOVED Outlander, loved Dragonfly in Amber slightly less, and could barely finish Voyager. The series is about a British WWII nurse who gets sent back in time to 1793 Scotland and has to navigate all that mess. Jamie Fraser and eventually Fergus are the crown jewels of this story. Outlander was fantastic to me, it was interesting and funny and saucy and all in all a good story about time travel and the repercussions. There’s like, five more books in the series but again, I lost interest. I’ll probably go back and see what happens though cause I think Gabaldon brings in new characters.

The Lost Girls of Paris by Pam Jenoff 8/10 A book about women spies in WWII France?? Fighting the Nazis and falling in love and being heroes?? Loved it. The characters were real and the fear palpable. Minus two points cause the love subplot was a touch underdeveloped but who knows man war changes things.

A Conjuring of Light by VE Schwab 9/10 The third in the series starting with A Darker Shade of Magic. I loooooooved the characters in this story, the plot twists were exciting instead of annoying, and the way that she uses magic and secrets and reveals were perfection. And I actually really enjoyed the ending, which is surprising. Would read again.

An Absolutely Remarkable Thing by Hank Green 9/10 A super interesting story about a mysterious sculpture that appears in New York and the subsequent fallout of crazy things that happen. I listened to the audiobook and the narrators were perfect, the story is fast paced and has good twists and the characters are super real and relatable and fallible. TBH I read it cause it’s John Green’s brother (I assume, I didn’t fact check) and he did NOT disappoint. Minus one point just cause I can’t bring myself to give out 10′s a lot.

Cinder by Marissa Meyer 8/10 Honestly? People shit on this book but I really enjoyed it. It’s fun and heart wrenching and an interesting take on the Cinderella story. One of these days I’ll finish Scarlet which is the sequel.

The Time Traveler’s Wife by Audrey Niffenegger 6/10 Holy shit this was way more intense than I anticipated it being. It was a really good take on time travel and the way it affects people. Truth be told I never saw the movie, but this book was crazy and saucy and super interesting. I didn’t give it a higher rating just cause the time traveler knew his wife since she was six and that doesn’t sit well with me.

Simon Vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli 7/10 Both the movie and the book were good, with all the drama and heartache of 1) being a teenager and 2) coming out to the people around him. Very poignant and emotional. Didn’t give it a higher rating just cause it wasn’t super memorable to me? But then again, that’s cause I’m a twenty-something woman and not a teenage gay boy so while it was beautifully written and definitely a very important book, it just wasn’t one of my faves.

Lilac Girls by Martha Hall Kelly 7/10 More women in WWII! Now with all this boss historical fiction coming out I can definitely see why guys are so obsessed with WWII. Then again, I think I would be obsessed with any stories detailing how badass women are during the war. It covers stories from all sides of the war - including the Nazis - and makes it seem so much more real. I started reading the sequel but it wasn’t quite as interesting.

The Diviners by Libba Bray 8/10 A fun fantasy mystery set in 1920′s New York! With ghosts and demons and magic powers and flappers! I really enjoyed it and am currently working on the sequel. The jargon is what really gets me like it’s so Great Gatsby but better. Would recommend.

Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi 7/10 A patient recommended this to me. It’s about a girl imprisoned because she has powers and that is Dangerous. It’s of course a post-apocalyptic military state situation, and she’s trying to escape and low key start an uprising. A really good story with a really interesting voice to the main character. Like, this writing style was SO DIFFERENT and amazing, I’ve never read anything like it. I didn’t continue the series just because the voice was SO good and in tune that it kinda stressed me out.

Time After Time by Lisa Grunwald 6/10 An A+ concept about a ghost in the New York subway and the man who loves her. It’s an interesting take on a lil paranormal romance. I loved the lore and the historical setting (it takes place in like, the 40′s) and really paints a fantastic scene!

Berserker by Emmy Laybourne 8/10 Listen, this book was not something historians will be talking about for years to come. But it’s about a family of siblings who have magic Nordic powers and have to escape Norway and come to the US (which is in prime Old West time) to find their uncle. And they meet a COWBOY. It’s a story about family and love and also occasionally killing people because you have the blood of Odin or some shit and honestly? Catered directly to me.

Truly Devious by Maureen Johnson 8/10 A fun and cool murder mystery set in a special fancy boarding school. Maureen Johnson has been one of my faves for a long time and she did not disappoint with this! It’s about a girl obsessed with a murder at the school, and she transfers in so she can solve it. And the TWIST at the END? Great!

An Ember in the Ashes / A Torch Against the Night / A Reaper at the Gates by Sabaa Tahir 9/10 Another 9 because I can’t bring myself to give a 10, though if anything this series would get it. The voices that Tahir writes with are INCREDIBLE and the story is nuanced and compelling and so good. It’s about a teenager trying to save her brother from prison, as well as a guy graduating from assassin school. I don’t wanna say too much cause I don’t want to spoil if anyone reads it but tbh if you only pick one series PICK THIS ONE. If you like fantasy and stuff of course.

The Huntress by Kate Quinn 8/10 Listen. Mystery solving New York girl, post war. Men hunting former Nazis. Bicon Russian girl who was in the Russian Air force. Do I really need to say more? A phenomenal story that takes place before, during, and after WWII, and the wide variety of stories happening during that time. Great if you love historical fiction!

Sourdough by Robin Sloan 8/10 Just like Berserker this book probably isn’t something they’re gonna teach in English classes. But it’s about a girl who works in robotics on proprioception (!!!) and then?? Starts baking bread??? AKA everything I love in life so, you know, once again a book catering specifically to me.

Magnus Chase and the Sword of Summer by Rick Riorden 7/10 As always, Riorden delivers a phenomenal story with phenomenal characters. And it includes populations that aren’t often the main characters in literature - a homeless teen and a Muslim teen, to name two. I haven’t continued the series just cause I got distracted with other things, but I totally want to.

I’m Not Dying with You Tonight by Kimberly Jones 7/10 A grand adventure that takes place over the course of one night in Atlanta. When a riot breaks out, two girls who haven’t spoken or really know each other are pushed together and spend the rest of the night trying to survive and make it home. It demonstrates two sides of life, and how they’re the same and how they’re different. I listened to the audiobook, which had phenomenal readers.

The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee 8/10 A story about a spoiled rich bi boy who’s going on one final tour of Europe before he has to settle down and run his family’s estate. His best friend and his sister are with him, and of course everything goes to hell in a handbasket. But it’s a crazy journey and an excellent coming of age story.

In The Woods / The Likeness by Tana French 8/10 AMAZING murder mysteries! The first is about the murder of a kid in Ireland, and the toll it takes on the investigators and people around them. It has an amazing twist at the end, and even though it takes a while for them to solve the murder, it never gets boring. Same with the second one! It’s a crazy situation that would never happen in real life, but she writes it SO WELL that i don’t even care! I will probably skip the third one cause it’s about a character I don’t really like and also takes place in the past before all of this, but I do want to continue reading these!

Stay Sexy and Don’t Get Murdered by Karen Kilgariff and Georgia Hardstark 8/10 A great book of essays written by the voices behind “My Favorite Murder,” which is a hilarious and semi-informative true crime podcast. But they talk about more than just true crime in the book - in fact, it’s more about things that they’ve learned throughout their crazy lives. Super eye opening and also really entertaining, and I actually listened to it before I even listened to the podcast, so I feel like that’s saying something!

#whindsors reviews #book reviews #2k19 books #reading recs #book recs #let me know if you read any of these!!!! #(also does anyone wanna be in a book club)

[elaera23]

A Special Otome Men Ranking

... or which would I fuck, date /marry or be best friends with 😎

So my dear friend @mandyinwonderland came up with this funny idea to do a ranking with all the Otome men I’ve read so far and put them into categories - Fuck / Date or Marry / BFF, so three characters per game.

So here is my ranking, sorry for making the explanations so long 😅 I shortened them towards the end 😉

1. Star Crossed Myth

Fuck: I mean this is a obvious choice – Scorpio would be definitely my fuck! Of course you wouldn’t get vanilla sex, but who wants that anyway with this hot and prickly guy? We would be riling each other up in front of the others, which would us turn on so hard that we’d stomp out of the living room, smash the door behind us, leaving the other gods clueless how this interaction actually could’ve been the foreplay 😂 Behind closed doors you can do all that naughty stuff you always wanted to try out with him, maybe leaving behind a destroyed bedroom. Sounds like a good plan for me?

Date: This was a really hard one. I decided to go with Zyglavis. I would be really curious to find out what kinda man lies behind the god who always looks severe and follows the rules. I’d love to mess with him and test his limits and of course I did fall in love his his damn hair (which is probably prettier then mine, cough.) I’d like to know what he is able to do in bedroom, just so I can gush around the other gods when they would make fun of him again 😏 He’d be the ying to my yang as he for example has the objectivity that I need as counter part to my emotional side.

BFF: There were a few possibilities for this position, but when I’m honest I would go with Ichthys. We would watch my favorite Disney movies together while singing along with all the songs 😁 (which of course would earn us annoyed looks from the other gods) Shopping would be always fun with him as he would try on the same dresses, assuring me that they look much better on him then on me. Going on street food festivals or try out new recipes at home would be so much fun as Ikky would try everything, no matter how spicy, exotic or strange it might look. 

2. Kissed by the Baddest Bidder

So this was a hard one.... and I had to cheat a little but - who cares?!

Fuck: Here I definitely have to go with Luke. He is British, means he probably has an irresistible English accent, he is tall and honestly - I couldn’t resist his bone structure fetish. The way a doctor sees your body is so much different from a “normal” guy and it fascinates me. Not even mentioning that he for sure knows where and how he has to touch you to give you the most amazing night ever. Paired with his odd behavior which is just hilarious he is my man 🤷‍♀

BFF: As I was thinking about Eisuke and Soryu being really good buddies too, I went with one where I share more interests with - Rhion. He’d be my BFF because he is a dreamer but not stupid, an artist, he loves to dance and sucks in the kitchen so I would be glad to show him some things 😂 You’d had fun going shopping with him or binge watching Disney Movies or Series like Once Upon a Time, Grimm or Doctor Who.  

And then there is Baba…

If I look at it realistically he is all three for me - I would totally fuck him (I mean, come on?!), I’d be more than happy to be his wife and in the end he would be my BFF too. I mean honestly, this man for sure will grant all your wishes in bed, he gives you a helping hand at home and is an amazing cook, brings you flowers and not just calls you princess but also treats you like one. He’d go shopping with you and give you style tips and your holidays will always be adventures and relaxing. What would you want more from a guy?

3. Irresistible Mistakes

Marry: I have to go with my No. 1 Otome-Man here and that is Toma. He is a tease and I’m sure we would have a loooot of fun together (not just in the bedroom lol). I can imagine us chasing and throwing pillows each other and then fall on to the bed and cuddle. He is my shoulder to lean on when I feel small and he will bring me back to reality when I’d be getting to irrational. He appreciates my food, my hard work and is supportive where ever he can be – what do I want more?

Fuck: Hmmm. I honestly can’t decide between Shunichiro and Yukihisa. Shun is a scoundrel and ooses sex appeal while Yuki is unpredictible and a mind reader. But Yuki gets a small minus point as he would not kiss me - and that’s something I’d definitly miss.

BFF: I was thinking really really hard about this one. There are two type of friends which I love to have around me. The first one are funny and crazy grown up childs and the other ones are my complete opposite, the calm, objective thinkers. So I went with Toshiaki here. He would be my calm anchor when I lose the connection to the ground and he’d help me organize my mind chaos when everything gets to much.

4. Enchanted in the Moonlight

Marry: For me there is just one real answer for this one – Kyoga. He is actually the type of guy which I can imagine really having a relationship with – easygoing, humorous, loyal, a literal beast in the sheets with a good appetite (in more than one sense, if you know what I mean… 😂 😂 😂) He wouldn’t complain go shopping with me, we’d explore the world together or just cuddle on the sofa watching a movie (which I probably would have to explain to him lol). So I’d be very happy to be the woman at his side.

Fuck: In this case I’d go with Miyabi, I’d love to catch him by surprise when he comes with one of his pervy jokes and I’d be like “Sure let’s go, show me what you Kitsunes are made of” 😏 😏 or pulling him into the shower and start making out instead of throwing him out of the bath where he tried to peep on me again xD We’d have fun.

BFF: As I love books and writing my choice is kinda obvious, so I’d go with Kiryu for my BFF. He is a more the objective type of guy and would help me a lot to organize my thoughts when I would rile myself up about some stupidity. He knows the human world better then any other Ayakashi and would be able to understand my problems I might have at work or with my friends. Of course he would be merciless while teaching me how to write better fanfiction and we’d have a What’s App chat where he sends me new book recommendations quicker than I can actually read all of them.

5. Scandal in the Spotlight

Date: I’d go with Kyohei, I mean he is charming, good looking, successfull and loves Revance more than anything. It would be a little annyoing to date him in secret but would be really happy to share those special moments where we are alone and he actually shows me his ‘real’ self.

Fuck: This was a close call for Nagi as he is just as pervy as I am, but I’d go with Takashi… You know, still waters run deep – and he has a sound proof bedroom.

BFF: I mean come on! Of course I’d go with Nagito! He is a fashion designer and I sew my own clothes, so who would be a better fit for me there? On top he is just as suggestive and childish as I am – so we would have plenty of fun together. If it’s gossiping about the other boy’s love life or a way how we can organize an amazing surprise party for them, I’d be all in.

6. Our Two Bedroom Story

Marry: Minato

Fuck: Tsumugu

BFF: Shusei

7. Era of Samurai

Marry: Okita (tho I would also fuck him xD)

Fuck: Hijikata

BFF: Kondo

8. Mystic Messenger

Marry: Zen

Fuck: Saeran

BFF: Seven

Tagging @mandyinwonderland-blog​ @justjen523 @lin-ful​ @speakfearlessly1989​ @hifftn​​ @rougepetale​​ @you-wandered-here​​​ @iluvsexyvoltageguys​​ @voltage-my2dlove​​ @gamerneko-girl​​

#tagging #voltage #voltage ranking #kissed by the baddest bidder #star crossed myth #enchanted in the moonlight #irresistible mistakes #scandal in the spotlight #era of samurai #mystic messenger #our two bedroom story

[teacupwriter]

writing process tag

thanks so much for tagging me @katiehahnbooks!! I loved reading your answers, btw. This looks like fun and I need a bit of a pick-me-up tonight, so here goes. :)

1.  What are your favorite genres and/or styles to write in?

I tend toward historical fiction and action/adventure, sometimes with fantasy elements and usually (but not always) featuring romance. I’m not a super ‘realistic’ writer so all of my stuff takes on a cartoon/comic-world quality. Probably a side effect of all the comics and Disney I consumed growing up, but I’m going with it.

2. What was the last writing project you finished and felt successful with?

Mm. Kind of a tricky question at the moment. I recently wrote and posted a Tintin fanfiction one-shot series that I felt pretty happy with at the time, but it didn’t get a great reception. So, mixed results. I think I learned that I should stick to my more natural writing mode. (As in, long drawn-out 30+ chapter stories.)

3. If you have a WIP how do you feel it’s going? What stage are you in?

I have several fanfiction WIPs (read: too many) and one original WIP. I feel it’s going at about the rate I can expect considering my current school workload. I have a title, and the core cast of characters, and a very, very rough idea of the plot, but I’m still in the research/outlining stage. Right now I’m researching the involvement of British Secret Intelligence in the Spanish Civil War (yes, England was all up in Spain’s business and, no, they were not supporting the democratic side) because my female MC’s love interest is a female British spy. Anyway, I love live for research so I may be in this stage for a while...

4. What is your favorite place to write?

Anywhere it’s quiet. Although ever since I got noise-cancelling headphones (best purchase of my life, worth every penny) that can pretty much be anywhere! I am easily distracted by other people though, so unless I’m really in The Zone I prefer to be alone.

5. Do you prefer to write long hand or type? Or some other method?

I prefer to type. I use copy and paste quite a lot when writing, and I keep a spare document open to dump discarded paragraphs/descriptions in case I feel like coming back to them. But I do brainstorming and middle-of-the-night idea scribbling by hand. Last summer when I had a job with a 1-hour both ways commute, I would record myself talking out loud about my story while stuck in traffic.

6. Do you remember your first character? If so can we meet them?

Hah, okay. I could start with my LOTR hobbit OC, Jessica, whom I invented while running around with my younger brother LARPing as Merry and Pippin (we were like 8 and 10 years old, we had no idea what we were doing had a name, of course.) I would play one side of a conversation as Merry and then hop a foot away to play the other side as Jessica. (Who was also his love interest. Of course.) Or I guess I could talk about Fudgie the anthropomorphic stuffed dog who was the star of the first story I wrote at 7 years old, which detailed his voyage across the Pacific Ocean in a bathtub. Or... my Tintin fanfiction OC I created when I was 14, who was, well, not the pinnacle of originality by any means. But I have fond memories of her, and all of them, honestly. Love your ridiculous old characters. #end cringe culture 2018

7. Where do you get your inspiration?

So many places! Sometimes the architecture of an old building, or a dual-ownership home where the top half is painted a different color from the bottom half. (Which I actually saw once in Cambridge, MA. Like, imagine an enemies-to-lovers, ‘we’re stuck renting the same house because it’s a great location but we disagree on everything’ rom com!) Super mainstream action movies tend to inspire me, for some weird reason. (My favorite - the Jason Bourne movies.) I’m inspired by museums, paintings and illustrations, historical photography and comic books... lots of random stuff.

8. Do you outline a story before writing it, or does it all live in your head until the first draft gets put down?

I outline. I outline quite a bit. But I do believe that there is such a thing as too much outlining. You don’t want to entirely snuff out the element of unpredictability. You have to trust that the story might know better than you do, and let it take you unexpected places.

9. Where do you go/what do you do when you’re feeling stuck?

That’s usually when I hand write, or open up a separate word document and just start rambling. Eventually I land on the problem, and once I know the problem, I get an idea of how to fix it. Usually. If that doesn’t work, I’ll just take a break and ignore the whole thing for a while.

10. What got you started writing/doing art? (Because I always love origin stories)

The first time I put a story on paper was for a creative writing assignment in the 2nd grade. (Earlier I mentioned Fudgie the anthropomorphic stuffed dog? Yeah, this was his debut.) The page requirement was 5 and I wrote 20 before my teacher actually stopped me, explained that it was time to turn it in, and even though I wasn’t finished, I could use three magic words: “to be continued...” I never did finish it, but I think I can forgive 7-year-old me. I was probably too busy playing with my Calico Critters.

Okay, I’m tagging @kittensartsbooks, @cabaretofwords, @patomac, @gooseandcaboose, @thewriterexfriends, and @natsacespace. Please tag me if you do this, I’d love to read all your answers!! (But no pressure of course.) ♥︎

#tag game #writing process tag #writeblr love

[puddingmcmuffin]

For the ship and number ask, Turtlebug and (I'm being terrible because I'm throwing a lot at you) 1, 3, 4, 5, 7, 8, 16, 18, 31, 32, 35, 36, 39, 40, and 43. n.n

Turtlebug (Zarkon/Reach Ambassador(Talak))

1. How do they fall asleep? Wake up? Any daily rituals?

Neither of them are usually the type to outright say that they want to cuddle or anything, so when they first get to bed, they give the other space. But at some point, one of them rolls over and takes the other into their arms.

If Talak is feeling cuddly, though, he’ll bring it up in a way that makes it seem that Zarkon is the needy one.

Both are pretty good at getting up early, Zarkon because he doesn’t need much sleep, and Talak because he’s just used to getting up early. It can depend on who wakes up first, but whoever does typically waits for the other to wake up before getting up.

Also kind of related, I was asking my friend how well Zarkon would do with cold, and she told me that not only would he need all of the space heaters and blankets, but he would also drag Talak underneath the covers and use him as a space heater.

3. Are they open about their relationship? How do they feel about public displays of affection?

Like most of the Ambassador’s relationships, it needs to be kept secret. He’s a diplomat and really isn’t supposed to be getting to know Zarkon beyond a professional relationship.

If it’s just a fling, it’s more of an open secret. But if it looks like there are actual feelings between the two, that would be when the Reach Homeworld guys would get worried, since they can’t have their Ambassador be emotionally compromised.

Zarkon in general prefers the private aspects of his life to remain just that. Public displays of affection do not happen. Baseless rumors will always be there, of course, of what he and Talak actually are to each other, and those he doesn’t bother to have silenced. To go out of his way to assure people that he isn’t messing around with the Ambassador would only prove that there was something going on, so by simply ignoring those rumors while they’re flying around means that most people will ignore that idea as well.

(There are probably people who secretly hope it’s real though, and have probably written fanfictions about them (Varkon’s probably read some of them))

4. First impression of each other? Was it love at first sight?

NOPE.

Zarkon’s first inclination when he saw Talak was to get pissed off, since he thought the Reach had sent Talak as an insult (it was the clothes). As for Talak, he figured that Zarkon had a really huge ego, since Haggar was doing most of the talking when they first met (figuring that Zarkon just thought he was “too good” to talk directly to him).

Talak did think he was pretty attractive, hence why he started trying to mess with Zarkon’s head almost immediately, to see how he would react and also if he could get something out of it.

5. Nicknames? Pet names? Any in-jokes?

Zarkon tries to use the line Talak first used on him a lot (the “something beautiful” thing), although it doesn’t always make a lot of sense for the situation and Talak makes fun of him for it a little.

7. What annoys them the most about their partner? Would they change it if they could?

Talak doesn’t like how often Zarkon goes to see the gladiatorial matches, mostly since they’ve gotten to a point that Talak needs to go with him, and he just really, really hates going to those things. He’s annoyed that Zarkons seems to actually like them, and while he understands wanting a distraction from the duties of being emperor, it would be nice if he could find something else to give his attention to.

Zarkon at times feels that Talak is not entirely genuine when they are alone. That might just be something that is inevitable, though, since Talak’s job as an Ambassador means that he constantly needs to be making people happy, and therefore, sometimes the things he says just feel fake.

Zarkon also wishes Talak would at least cover his stomach (but if he mentions it, Talak will counter with “but I thought you liked it considering how you were staring at me that one time”).

8. What do the like best about their partner?

Both like the physical traits of the other; Zarkon thinks Talak is beautiful, and Talak thinks Zarkon has a rugged handsomeness.

Zarkons also likes Talak for his intellect, and how fast he can pick up on something. He also admires that Talak was never afraid of him, despite the fact that Zarkon could easily destroy him if he really wanted to.

Talak has a preference to big muscles and deep voices, so there’s that. He also likes the serious air Zarkon has around him (that Talak will break just to see him try not to get flustered).

16. Do they keep secrets? Lie? Cheat?

Secrets are inevitable in their relationship. Although it’s never been said outright, their treaty was made for the sole purpose of finding a weakness in the other. The Reach are looking for a way to destroy the Galra from within, and the Galra are doing the same with the Reach. For that reason, certain secrets can never be shared.

Both have also kept quiet about secrets more personal to them. Talak once asked what Zarkon’s relationship was to Haggar, and Zarkon, knowing that he couldn’t give a vague answer without making Talak more curious, just told him that Haggar was his oldest friend and supporter, and that she has been by his side for thousands of years. (the truth about Haggar is probably something Zarkon has never told anyone)

18. What are their dates like? How long do/did they date? Do they ever feel the need to take a break from each other?

When Zarkon isn’t trying to make Talak uncomfortable and Talak isn’t trying to mess with Zarkon’s head, they usually will just sit in private at the end of the day, drinking wine and chatting. It’s good stress-relief for both of them.

31. Do they finish each other’s sentences? Pick up any phrases or habits from each other? Know when the other is hiding something?

Zarkon found that he seemed to be using prettier language after spending some time with Talak (although it isn’t always good since he wants to maintain the image of a ruthless warlord).

They both on occasion will finish the other’s sentence, although when Zarkon does it to Talak, he’s somewhat annoyed by it. It’s fine when he does it to Zarkon, but he doesn’t like it when it’s done to him (so Zarkon does it when he wants to annoy him).

32. Do they ever get into trouble? Is it serious, or are they just mischievous?

Zarkon can technically get away with whatever he wants, considering that he’s the emperor of an entire galactic empire. But again, there’s that image to maintain, so he needs to make sure his actions aren’t out of place. Talak is also under constant scrutiny, so getting into trouble isn’t a good idea. Neither are the type to cause mischief, anyway (although Talak has considered trying to put Dawur into the gladiatorial matches, but he knows the Enforcer would actually enjoy that).

35. Do they bring out the best in each other, or the worst? Do they have a fatal flaw?

It’s hard to determine if these two can bring out “the best” in each other, since the way they view the universe is the same (and very harmful to the people that they take over). In that sense, they can be considered to be bad for each other, since all they’re doing is encouraging the belief that the universe needs to follow their ideals.

But in the case with these two, there would be no semblance of a relationship if they didn’t agree with each other on that front (no serious relationship with Talak, and no relationship at all with Zarkon, honestly). The people who would disagree with them aren’t the kind of people either would generally associate with.

36. What’s their greatest strength as a couple? Their weakness?

They’re very good at talking things out, and with diplomatic issues, they’re very good at working together. They’re also very like-minded.

Both have a good amount of pride and a bit of an ego, though (although it’s a bit worse in Talak’s case). And this is something else that is encouraged in their relationship; a little bit of an idea that they’re better than those “beneath” them (except Haggar; Haggar is deserving of the utmost respect).

(Talak is somewhat confused by what Haggar is to Zarkon, and although the answer the emperor gave him did seem truthful, it seemed like there was more to the story. He wants to know what the deal is, but is trying to find a way to find out without asking, since he’s sure Zarkon will either repeat himself or just stop talking to him about it.)

39. Who initiated the relationship? Who kissed who first?  When did they realize they were in love?

Talak technically did, but as he usually does, he did it in a way that made Zarkon make the first move. Pretty much he would just bait Zarkon until Zarkon took action. So that first time they made out Zarkon initiated it, but Talak drove him to that point.

40. Any special memories? Do they have a special place they like to go to?

The places they can go while being unseen are limited; most often they’ll go to Zarkon’s throne room or a private room on the Reach flagship (or to one of their private quarters, if they can get there unseen >_> ). Any place where they can sit quietly together is special enough.

43. Do they talk often? What about?

Largely about the projects the Reach’s scientists are doing with Haggar’s druids, and how those are turning out. They also talk about the history of each of their species; where they came from, and how they got to the point where they are currently.

One night Talak went on a mini-rants about the Green Lantern Corps and how annoying they are, which then segwayed into all of the other lantern corps. Zarkon was a little surprised that with how many lantern corps there are, he had never run into even one of them.

#Turtlebug #Zarkon #Reach Ambassador #fire fira #answered! #ship headcanon ask #Voltron Legendary Defender #Young Justice #The Galra #The Reach #sorry for how long this took XP

[officialmaleclibrary]

This month we’re showcasing an author in the fandom who has written popular works such as Fall Without Wings and Celebrity!Magnus AU. Lu is on ao3 as vulturemonem and on tumblr as @notcrypticbutcoy, and we’d like to thank her once again for taking part in the OML author showcase! 

1) When did you start writing fics? Tell us a little of your journey as a fic writer.

WELL. The first fandom I was ever a part of was the HP fandom, a solid 7+ years ago now, and I found my feet in this tiny little niche part of it in the most obscure place. That was where I began, where I learnt about what fanfiction was, and it was honestly a journey from there. I’ve been part of some very questionable fandoms and writing communities (if you want the details you’ll have to hit me up lol). I found the TMI fandom in maybe 2012? It was right before the CoB film came out, and I’d been totally obsessed with the books, because there were actual LGBT+ characters??? Like what?? (Alec and Magnus were the first gay/bi characters I’d ever seen in a YA book. I was enamoured immediately. Forgive me.) And then the show came out, and was everything I’d hoped for and so much more, and the rest is history, as they say! 

2) What fic of yours are you most proud of and why?

The obvious answer here is to say Fall Without Wings, which has been more successful than I could ever have hoped for. I’ve put my heart and soul into that fic, and seeing other people loving it honestly means the world to me. The other fic I’d say I’m really proud of is the fic I wrote for Malec Week 2016, Day 3: AU Settings Day. You know when you sit down and write, and everything just spurts out and you read over it and you’re like, damn, did I actually write this?  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ That fic in a nutshell. I don’t know where it came from.

3) Who is your favorite character to write and why? Which character do you find the most challenging to write? 

Magnus and Alec are definitely my favourite characters to write, but for entirely conflicting reasons. Alec, because I relate to Alec on pretty much every level, and so I find him very easy to write, and it comes naturally, most of the time. And Magnus because he’s also, to answer the second part of the question, such a challenging character to get right. He’s centuries old, there are a million facets to his character, and there are so many things to consider when writing him. He’s experienced more than I could possibly imagine. He’s also in my top 5 favourite characters in anything, ever, so I’m especially driven to do him justice! 

Having said that, though, I think the hardest characters to write are those we’ve got less source material for, because I’m never totally sure whether I’ve got their characterisation right. Also, Clary, because she frequently frustrates me in canon, so I often find myself writing her a little differently in my fics. (Admittedly, she’s annoyed me less as the show has gone on. I have high hopes for season 3!)

4) What is the hardest part about being a fic author? The easiest?

Honestly, I think there are lots of hard things about being a fic author. One of the hardest things imo isn’t unique to fic writing, but is probably true of writing in general. When you put everything into writing something that you care about, it can be really hard to see it get torn down by hate comments - even just a couple. Consciously, you know that people who come into your inbox on anon spouting bullshit are just cowards, and that you shouldn’t take their words to heart, but sometimes people manage to hit you where it hurts. Some hate comments are just plain hilarious, but some of them can run around in your mind for a while.

The other hard thing is staring at your WIP wondering why the hell you can’t just write this damn thing already.

The easiest thing is definitely generating ideas! I get far too many to ever write! It’s hard to finish a fic, and it’s hard to stick to an update schedule, but it’s much too easy to come up with the ideas! 

5) What inspires you? Where do you find your muse?

Literally everything and anything. Songs are often a big inspiration to me, or random little things I see on TV, or chatting to other people in fandoms about headcanons or such. And even just life anecdotes. 

I’m a bit of a biology nerd, so I always think it’s really interesting to read about where creativity actually comes from. There’s science behind why I always get my best ideas in the shower or walking to the tube station on my morning commute – Google “brain idling” and have a read, if you’re interested! 

6) Do you write original content as well as fic? 

Absolutely! I haven’t shared any of it online, but I do, yes. Recently, I’ve had my free time slashed in half, so I’ve had to prioritise a little, but I do still write original things when I get the opportunity. At some point, when the time feels right and I’m satisfied with what I’ve written, I’d love to get something published, but I’m not in a hurry at the moment. My life needs to settle down a little bit first, but watch this space ;)

7) Do you have a favorite fic from another author?

Several!

- and my heart is set on you by ohprongs is definitely a tick-all-the-boxes fic for me, and is impossibly sweet with just the right amount of light angst dotted in - Traveler by bumblebeeskness is absolutely heartbreaking and hilarious in places and overall so beautiful it’ll make you cry - Set Me In Motion by lemonoclefox is another great one, with a perfect mix of angst and fluff, as well as some great tension, pining, and some brilliant cooking anecdotes - Also anything by Lecrit – yes please!!

8) What’s something you’re looking forward to in the upcoming season of Shadowhunters?

We’ve had hints that we might get to see some domestic malec, so that, of course! I’m also totally here for the Garrobane development we got last season, so more of that would be wonderful. And Sizzy?? If this Simon/Izzy slow burn is going to continue, sign me up. I think Em and Alberto are doing a great job with their relationship! (Although I am surprisingly conflicted, because I’ve enjoyed Simon/Maia more than I expected to, considering I was fairly apathetic to their relationship pre-show…)

9) Can you give us a sneak peek to what you’re writing next? Or at least any hints to what’s to come?

I’m currently continuing Fall Without Wings as my main project, and I go back to dabble in my celeb!Magnus&cop!Alec AU now and then. Once I’ve finished FWW, I’ve got a super-secret (I’m kidding) multi-chap WIP that I started and have abandoned, so I’m hoping to finish that. I’ve also got two multi-chap AUs planned as full-time projects to start after FWW is done. (See, ideas?? Too many!!)

10) Do you have advice for anyone who might be interested in writing fan fiction?

Honestly, just go for it. If you want to start writing in the hope of someday getting published, fanfic is a great place to start. If you want to write fanfic just because, then there’s nothing stopping you! There are two things I always recommend to people who want to write, in any way, and that’s 1) read as much and as widely as you possibly can, and 2) practise until your fingers fall off! (Not literally, but you know what I mean!)

11) Do you prefer to write in AU verse or canon verse? Why?

I’ve got to be honest, I prefer AU verses, both writing and reading. There’s much more freedom in an AU. You don’t get people in the comments picking apart little details you’ve changed, and you don’t have stupid plot lines/silly world rules you didn’t like in canon that you’re supposed to take note of. I find there’s more fun to be had in a good AU. Even if you’re just tweaking things a little bit here and there to change the backstory, I prefer it to writing in strict canon.

#author showcase #notcrypticbutcoy #malec #shadowhunters

[beebosbitchh]

1-65 ;)

holy heck ! thank you sophiw i lov u 🍒

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

i dont understand this question?? like sometimes i doubt my own existence and other times i doubt that i exist to certain ppl? ya?

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

2,, normal amount? like good for sleep but pitch black is scaryy but not to the point i need the escape ?? if that makes sense??

3. The person you would never want to meet?

guy fieri, i dont think i need to know if hes actually real ? like is he real and from this dimension or from flavortown (which he has a very scarily detailed description of)?? thats not something i need to know

4. What is your favorite word?

hmm, probably ‘fam’ obviously

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

a willow tree !!!!!!!!!! i just talked to my mom about this :-0

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

ngl but i dont look in the mirror anymore unless its lip syncing along to a song sung by a guy/someone w a deeper voice bc i feel like it suits me better! gotta love coping w dysphoria!

7. What shirt are you wearing?

baseball tee, gay

8. What do you label yourself as?

nb, lesbian, fool

9. Bright room or dark room?

dark room

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

slepe

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

10-11 when i was in 5th grade. i still only had two friends but i was way more extroverted and everything was so carefree and i was very invested in adventure time and art. i think that was the most of a childhood i got? i honestly did not do much as a kid and i wish i had..

12. Who told you they loved you last?

sophiw ! tumblr user almightyportraits ! the loml !

13. Your worst enemy?

x

14. What is your current desktop picture?

one from apple called ‘abstract shapes’ its very orange but also blue which is my fave color pairing atm so its perfect

15. Do you like someone?

tumblr user vahilla

16. The last song you listened to?

megan played ‘marceline’ by willow in her car ! a song i suggested to her a few months ago and it makes me very happy that she likes it especially bc we bonded over adventure time in 6th grade :-)

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

mmyy seelfff ??

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

mmmyseyyffelllff ??

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? 

eh whats the point

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

n o ne ? 

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

what is the opposite of nb,, i feel like if i was opposite of how i present id be a girl, which is a verryyy weird thought for me, pass

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

no :-/

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

uh first of all blood, like, ill pass out,, second of all,, literally everything worries me

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

jimmy johns #16, turkey, bacon, lettuce, tomato, NO MAYO

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

im a very practical person so the least boring answer i can come up w is more art supplies

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

denmark

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

fukcing , acetoNe

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

i think a FIRST rule would have to be pretty IMPORTANT so probably smt like how ~WE THE PEOPLE~ are all EQUAL would be a pretty good start and pretty UNDENIABLE and STRAIGHT FORWARD especially if it was the FIRST thing in this,, hmm lets call it the CONSTITUTION, in the completely hypothetical society

29. What is your favorite expletive?

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuk cufck ufc kfuck 

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

sunglasses??!!! that shit gotta be bright huh>?? gotta protect my retinas 

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

i wanna say my first relationship made me a better person but that shit was rreeeaaallyyyy fucking awful and 4 months (+recovery months) that i will never get back and i think ? maybe ?? i wouldve been ok without it ? idk just a thought

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! 

spain ?!?!? why not + i sorta know the language? thatd b cool

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

zoey my dog :-( i miss her a lot, this month it will have been two years oh my god i miss her so much

34. What was your last dream about?

the last one i remember was a nightmare about someone tryna murder me i was very scared

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

i think so , when i was two i got really really sick and couldve died ?

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

ahh yes ! we gave hhimm,, fruit snack nipples, please forgive me fathr

38. What is the color of your socks? 

grey w blue n orange stripes ( again i lov blue n orange together, my shirt is teal and i have an orange hat on wow)

39. What type of music do you like?

all! i had to train this new guy at work and im sooo awkward but once why started talking about music it was easy for me to talk bc it was smt we both really like !!! i felt like i could actually communicate w feeling a disconnect it was nice ! we talked mostly about rap which was cool and unexpected but i could do it ? i really love music and i love being able to know enough to talk about it ,, isk 

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

sunrises, ive been pushing myself to wake up unreasonably early to have more time to myself and i get to watch the sunrise most days which is nice

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

chocolate 

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

whom?

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

college? god i dont even know… smt w art.. by an illustrator or art teacher or freelance artist or graphic designer ,, i really dont know

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

one thing ?!!?!? i wish i was neurotypical

46. Are you reliable?

yes? i try hard to be? i hope so ?

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

u still a lil bitch ?

48. Do you hold grudges? 

nope i try not to, ive had too many toxic petty people in my life that i dont need to be one myself.. now this is grudges w/o reason, but if ive given people several ‘second chances’ and theyre still (thumbs down) then ill avoid them but w/i reason?

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

DOG HORSES BIG DOGs

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

mm probably smt w my lab partner from last year. she always sends me weird quotes from a fanfiction shes reading and its weird but i really appreciate that she still talks to me or talks to me at all tbh

51. Are you a good liar?

nooo ?? i try not to lie? mb not tell the full truth but idk , i feel like id feel too guilty

52. How long could you go without talking?

uhh literally days like i already fucking do.. i m taking this as verbally but i dont get texts so like, it would not be hard

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

before i went to short hair i used to alllwaayyys wear a tight ponytail every single day bc i wasnt girly enough to do anything w it and it was really really gross like thank god i cut it all off

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

heck yeah

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

*clears throat*

h-

hewwo?

56. What do you like on your toast?

butter and jam

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

x

58. What would be you dream car?

razor scooter

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

sometimes im just too physically or emotionally exhausted to stand so ill just,, lay down? ive fallen asleep in the shower before ha

60. Do you believe in aliens?

yup

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

whenever it comes up but i dont ,, seek it out

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

Q

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

dragons tf

64. What do you think about babies?

evil, ugly, dont see the appeal. open ur eyes ppl !!!! bbs are n Ot cute !!

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

x

#long post / #mention of dysphoria / #ask #thenk yoy sophiw #this took 4ever but worth it bc it got me to calm down?? coolc ool cool

[athena1138]

I know you’re supposed to let people ask you for numbers and THEN answer, but I’m pmsing really fucking hard and struggling to hold on to the one single brain cell I have that’s keeping me from breaking down and just screaming/trashing the place. SOOOOO here’s 100 questions nobody asked me to answer. 

1. A selfie?

Two or three months old, but I like it still. 

2. How old are you?

23 1/2.

3. What is your birthday?

Nov. 2 (Day of the Dead~)

4. What is your zodiac sign?

Scorpio

5. What is your favorite color?

Purple/Teal

6. What’s your lucky number?

5

7. Do you have any pets?

I, myself, have a cat, but my mom has three dogs and my estranged cat who couldn’t move into my apartment with me but whom my mom wouldn’t let me adopt once he COULD

8. Where are you from?

Corn. (Indiana.)

9. How tall are you?

5′7

10. What shoe size are you?

11 in women’s, 9 1/2 in men’s.

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

Um. I just moved and got rid of a bunch, so maybe 10 total

12. What was your last dream about?

Honestly, it was a sex dream about a friend’s sister. (Let’s not explore that, shall we?) 

13. What talents do you have?

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL (I write fanfiction.)

14. Are you psychic in any way?

I have a shitton of deja vu that I think comes from dreams. It never does anything productive, but eh.

15. Favorite song?

Ah shit. To listen to, Rap God. To sing, La Vie en Rose. 

16. Favorite movie?

Taming of the Shrew, the Liz Taylor version.

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

Someone with a shitton of patience and an understanding of when to walk away from me before I break down. (Also, Fenris from DA2 or Cullen Rutherford.)

18. Do you want children?

FUCK THAT

19. Do you want a church wedding?

I wouldn’t mind having a wedding in a big, beautiful church like if it had a Window(tm) yknow, but there will be ZERO religion in my service. Even then, a wedding in a church is quite low on my list. My top three wedding preferences are:  countryside (but not the kind with cowboy boots and mud and a dirt-floor barn. I mean the bougie white bitch from the city doesn’t actually wanna get dirty kind of countryside,) seaside, and in the woods (like Twilight.)

20. Are you religious?

Nah. 

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

Yes

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

I got a seatbelt ticket once and a written warning for speeding (which I’m still pissed about. I was on my way to say goodbye to my grandpa before he died.)

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

Jonathan Frakes (TWICE!,) LeVarr Burton, and John DeLancie. It was supposed to be Brent Spiner in place of the 2nd Jonathan Frakes one, but with the fires in California and his son getting sick, he had to cancel. I was heartbroken. I adore him.

24. Baths or showers?

Depends on the tub. 

25. What color socks are you wearing?

Who wears socks at home in July?

26. Have you ever been famous?

When I was 13, I won second place in a national creative writing contest and 3 gold medals for state. My little hometown did a front-page article about me. It was most definitely the peak of my life. That’s about how fucking far down the barrel I am now. 

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

Money, yeah. Otherwise, nah. 

28. What type of music do you like?

All kinds but country. I have a special preference towards 50s ballads, lyrical rap, and 2000s summer hits like Cyclone and Right Thurr. 

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

Ye

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

6, generally.

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

I have one of those pillows with the little arms on the side that I flip upside down and cuddle into like I’m sleeping on someone’s chest. I can sleep like that for hours.

32. How big is your house?

1200sqft.

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

Coffee

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

Yes. I’m a v good shot.

35. Have you ever tried archery?

Yes. I’m a v good shot. 

36. Favorite clean word?

Pusillanimous.

37. Favorite swear word?

Fuck nugget.

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

4 days.

39. Do you have any scars?

A shitton. My favorite is the pair on my forehead that form a little 01. I also have a lot of self-harm scars across my breasts that I like. 

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

As a joke, yeah, but I’ve never gotten like... actual honest-to-god love letters. 

41. Are you a good liar?

I used to be. I don’t see the point anymore. 

42. Are you a good judge of character?

No. I’m too eager to make friends. 

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

It’s not uncommon for me to accidentally do an accent from whatever show I was just watching, especially if I’m talking to myself. I can do a surprising variation on Spanish accents, but that’s also because of my Spanish linguistics class. 

44. Do you have a strong accent?

I have a weird accent. I say some things like I’m from Chicago (like, I say “hot dwawg”) but I say some things kind of southernish especially if I get mad, but some things I say Canadian and some British. 

45. What is your favorite accent?

Speaking English, Russian. Speaking their native language, Cuban.

46. What is your personality type?

INTP. Or, if you’re like me and don’t remember what that means, I’m a raging bitch who thinks she’s funny and tries too hard.

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

My bridesmaid dress for my sister’s wedding. Fucking $460 after alterations. 

48. Can you curl your tongue?

No

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

Innie

50. Left or right handed?

Right

51. Are you scared of spiders?

150%

52. Favorite food?

Garlic

53. Favorite foreign food?

北京烤鸭. (Peking Duck.)

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

Messy.

55. Most used phrased?

Cool beans///Suck a fuck. 

56. Most used word?

Fuck

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

Depends where I’m going. Work or school, 10 minutes. To something with my family or friends, like an hour. But that’s because I just move slower, not because anything changes. 

58. Do you have much of an ego?

Yes. I’m conceited as shit. 

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

Suck until they get riddled with holes. 

60. Do you talk to yourself?

60% of my verbal interactions are with myself, yes. (30% are with my pets, 10% with other people.) 

61. Do you sing to yourself?

Yes. 

62. Are you a good singer?

I can match pitch. That doesn’t mean I should. 

63. Biggest Fear?

Ending up bogged down with kids I don’t want in a city I hate with a job I’ve been at for 10+ years. 

64. Are you a gossip?

Yes

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

I really like the remake of Steel Magnolias with Queen Latifah, and Diary of a Mad Black Woman. 

66. Do you like long or short hair?

On me, long. On others, depends. 

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

If you give me a minute and a pen, maybe. 

68. Favorite school subject?

Band/English/Science. 

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

Intro. 

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

No

71. What makes you nervous?

The future

72. Are you scared of the dark?

Only after watching a ghost movie. 

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

Yes

74. Are you ticklish?

Do you bruise easily? 

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

Yes

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

Yes

77. Have you ever drank underage?

Yes, but not much. I asked my boyfriend to give me a sip of his 4 Loko and fucker was like, “nooo it’s illegal.” 

78. Have you ever done drugs?

What makes the boyfriend thing funny is we had spent literally that entire summer high of our asses, but “noooo, it’s illegal for you to drink.” His method of thinking was, It’s illegal for everyone to smoke weed, so it’s fair that everybody breaks that law, but it’s only illegal for people under 21 to drink so it’s not fair.

79. Who was your first real crush?

As in, a real person? Ethan Richards, elementary. I crushed on him for 5 years. (Caleb Smith was a close second, and looking back I think maybe he liked me, too.) But I wrote Ethan a note in 5th grade telling him I liked him and he super broke my heart. 13 years later and I’m still bitching about it. 

80. How many piercings do you have?

Currently, 9. I’ve had 13 though. 

81. Can you roll your Rs?“

No. I make L sounds instead, like Puerto Ricans do. 

82. How fast can you type?

150+wpm. I beat out my typing teacher in 7th grade. She gave us a party to celebrate. 

83. How fast can you run?

If I’m drunk, really fucking fast. Sober, not very. (I got wasted at a party and sprinted all the way across my apartment complex to run back to my room and help my roommate get more booze. It was incredible. I almost got hit by a car.) 

84. What color is your hair?

Brown

85. What color is your eyes?

Brown

86. What are you allergic to?

Potentially shellfish bc everyone else in my family is. 

87. Do you keep a journal?

No

88. What do your parents do?

My dad’s dead, mom works in the registration division in a hospital. Idk what exactly. 

89. Do you like your age?

No. I’m too old to not know what I want to do in life but too young to know what I want to do in life, and I’m in debt and broke and I have no job and no prospects and everyone keeps asking me and it makes me break down and cry and

90. What makes you angry?

Stupid people. This goddamn dog. Lots of things. 

91. Do you like your own name?

Now that the “Becky” thing has subsided a little, yeah. I used to hate all versions of the name Rebecca, but I’m pretty content with Becca. Becca Eileen suits me pretty well I think. 

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

Psh. Even though I don’t want kids, yeah, I’ve thought of some. Most of them are ridiculous now. Fred and George for twins, Zane for a boy, Nonni for a girl, etc. Nothing I would actually choose now. 

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

I think assigning importance to the genitalia of my child is a fucking ridiculous and borderline disgusting thing to do. I would want a healthy child, if there were to be a child. 

94. What are your strengths?

Um. I can sleep for a really long time. 

95. What are your weaknesses?

Lol. Everything, my dude. Fucking everything. 

96. How did you get your name?

Eileen comes from my mom’s best friend in high school. Rebecca supposedly doesn’t come from anywhere, but my dad was married to a Rebecca before my mom and I think that’s just too fucking weird to forget. 

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

I highly doubt it. 

98. Do you have any scars?

You already asked that. 

99. Color of your bedspread?

Black. It’s the Hogwarts school crest! 

100. Color of your room?

Beige. My mom wouldn’t let me pick a different color. When I get my own place that lets me color the walls, I want some nice, deep violets with an accent wall that has criss-crossed fuchsia and teal. 

[thistleandthorn-rpg]

Congrats Cas on your third character, Summer Evans! Please send us her blog within the next 48 hours!

Name/Alias: Cas Preferred pronoun: She/Her Age: 24 Timezone/Country: MST RP Experience: Hella Activity Level: 6-8/10 Depending on the week

IC INFORMATION:

Name: Summer Rose Evans Designation: Switch Age: 22 Faceclaim: Lili Reinhart Birthday: May 4th Orientation: Pansexual Kinks: Still exploring Anti-Kinks: incest, age play, pet play, gore, vomit, piss play, scat, blood

BIO:

TW: Abuse, death, miscarriage, crime

Summer was overall a good kid. She maintained good grades, she was polite, caring, compassionate. She had those qualities that seemed innate to all the Evanses. So it was quite a shock when she hit her teenage years and things seemed to take a wrong turn. Of course, it’s natural for a kid to act out after losing a sibling as tragically as she did. She wasn’t equipped at age 13 to deal with that level of grief, so who could blame her for beginning to act out? And then they lost their house, all their possessions, and everything that had shaped Summer into the person she is was gone. In one of the shelters they stayed in one night, Summer met another homeless teen, Jason, and he took her under his wing. He even started at her school that year, his new foster home being in that district. They became fast friends and he taught her loads of cool things, like how to pick a lock, or how to hide small items in her pockets or up her sleeve without being caught… He was an obviously dominant personality, and she often found herself fantasizing about submitting to him. She was infatuated, and despite the fact that he taught her things like how to steal and how to cut class, she never saw him as a bad person. She was 15 when her fantasy came true, and he dommed her for the first time. The whole deal, sex included. She was in heaven. He continued to Dom her, using his influence to manipulate her into things she wouldn’t normally do. By the time she was 16, she was an expert pickpocket and shoplifter, and never once had she been caught. Meanwhile, Jason was such a charismatic and charming guy that her family suspected nothing. He was her first love and instrumental in helping Summer cope with everything, that’s what they saw in him. Through it all though, Jason never wanted to label himself as her boyfriend, or her Dom, or anything like that, despite Summer crushing hard enough to fall in love with him, despite the number of times she’d submitted to him or had sex with him, he would still only be her friend. So she thought maybe if she looked prettier, like the other girls in school, maybe then he’d let her be his. So in her first attempt at shoplifting alone, she took some make-up. She was a little overzealous, and careless, and didn’t realize she’d taken an item that had a security device on it. The alarms blared as she left the store and she was caught.

The whole truth came out, that night. How Jason had taught her this behaviour and how she was trying to impress him. Her parents were frustratingly understanding, though severely disappointed. She couldn’t look any of her family in the eye for a long time after that. She wasn’t allowed to see Jason anymore, and she missed him terribly. That made her feel more guilty because she knew, by that point, that Jason was a terrible influence in her life.

Things started to get better after Sam’s job got them a new rental house, and Summer had spent a lot of time getting back onto the right path. She’d been sentenced to 100 hours of community service for her crime, and she was grateful the court was lenient for a first offense by a minor. After high school she decided to stay home and volunteer with the church for a while, but several months into it she was reconnected with a familiar face. A face that charmed his way back into her life, all the way to a claiming institute in Kentucky where she was almost ready to wear his collar, because he’d changed and so had she and they were better people now with better morals and Summer honestly believed that right up until his drinking habit became less of a habit and more of a default state. He would become physically abusive at times, though never enough to raise suspicion of the superiors at their institute. The tipping point came when a pregnancy test came back positive and she found herself scared to tell him. That was a sure sign, she realized, that she didn’t want to spend the rest of her life with him. But what was she to do now that she was carrying his child? She kept it secret for weeks, trying to figure it all out.

And then she miscarried after he was particularly rough during a scene, and after calling Sam in tears, telling him about everything from the drinking to the shortlived pregnancy to the abuse he begged her to transfer. So she did, and this time she swore she’d never let Jason into her life again.

BIO QUESTIONS:

What is your biggest fear and why?

I’ve already had to face my biggest fear… well, one of them. I don’t think it’s healthy for a person to have only one. I guess if I had to pick… well, I’d really prefer for Jason not to find me again.

What 3 objects/places mean the most to you and why?

The campground in Leitchfield where we spent a lot of the summer while we were homeless. We made a lot of happy memories there, as a family, despite our situation.

On a piece of paper, inside a locket I keep hidden, is an inkprint of our pet squirrel’s paw I took before he died. I only thought to take one, so I keep it hidden because my siblings would all want one too and they don’t know I have it.

This one requires some context…  but one time Sam found my notebook filled with Avengers fanfiction I wrote. I was mortified, but he thought I was really good, so he managed to find some extra money on one of his paychecks from “the dairy queen” to buy a cheap, secondhand laptop off some kid at school so that I could start posting my fanfics online. I still have that laptop, and it still runs, and I still write on it. Though I’ve been doing more original stuff lately.

Who is the one person you’d most like to meet (dead or alive)?

My unborn child… ha. Or I don’t know, Stephen King?

What is the one moment you would describe as your happiest/most excited?

The day we moved into our new place after three years of living out of tents, motels, and shelters. Having a bed to call my own, and seeing Dad get back to work and mom having a kitchen to cook in again… that was a good feeling.

#accepted

[beneathmyboughs]

30 Facts: Yuji Matsumoto Edition!

Since this is a new kid coming in like, halfway through, here have some facts!

1. Yuji Matsumoto does in fact identify as male, and at this point can no longer use the nonbinary bathrooms. Tough luck, boi.

2. When he talks, his hands gesture much more dramatically than is merited, and his facial expression and tone of voice may not always match up especially when he’s trying to be chipper. This comes from ages of manipulating Piney’s expressions by hand and voice, without his real face coming into play. He gets embarrassed when it’s pointed out, and tucks his hands away.

3. If Yuji tucks his hands on or near his face, he’s feeling vulnerable and more specifically threatened. A good tell for if you want to see if he’s going to start closing up clamlike.

4. Some quick fast food facts:

Fav Meal: Udon

Fav drink: Green Tea (I’d say matcha but n a h, he likes the cheap stuff)

Fav snack: Soy sauce flavored rice crackers

Fav desert: Custard Pudding

Fav festival food: Kakigori (sweet) and Yakisoba (savory)

5. Thrifty doesn’t even BEGIN to describe this guy. Everything is reused and reused and reused, and DIY is common enough with him. Expect him to let out a noise of terror at any wasted items.

6. Yuji considers fast food like Mcdonalds (which is honestly a tad more expensive in Japan) to be ‘friday night treat’ material.  If you took him to even a nice-ish alehouse he might die on the spot.

7. In universe, Yuji’s hair is a normal shade of hair as opposed to dyed--it would translate over best as ‘black with a greenish tint’. 

8. Short list of weird things Yuji cannot stand: Firecrackers, Elvis, Falco from Star Fox, tattoos and sauce packets (this also goes for bagged food. “It’s so SLIMY”). 

9. Short list of weird things Yuji actually likes: hard candy (he’ll hoard them, and take anyone’s ‘green flavors’ if they don’t want them. Oh gee, wonder why he’d want G R E E N dryad squad), coffee caked on the inside of mugs, hair (on the head that is--he thinks it’s beautiful, and completely natural so near anyone can have it), cockroaches (slugs too, general crawlies--they don’t bug him, ehehe).

10. Yuji will occasionally reach for something or type on his phone, then do something weird as hell with his hands like try to use the sides or scrunch his fingers for no good reason and overshoot his objective. An inside look at how he held things with gloves it seems. Similarly, sometimes he walks weird and overshoots his footing--those big shoes are likely to blame.

11. If you ever walk in on Yuji alone, you better expect there’s SOMETHING set up to make noise or otherwise alert in his nearby area. Wooden lids suspended in the crack of the door, temporarily ductaping a door shut, ect...by this point it’s not even worth keeping a secret, this man temporarily booby traps any area he’s in by himself. Remains of the cleanup or the direct results of a trap have probably been experienced by most of the kids here.

12. He is...still not wearing pants, much of the time. The boxers mainly. As of this past trial though, sometimes he can be seen wearing jeans when he’s out in rougher areas like the woods or something. Still no shoes though. He double layers those socks though...? This is sad.

13. He’ll freeze up if you try to ask him for a personal preference. Like, candy or cookies better? Favorite color? Ect. He goes deer in the headlights. 

On that note,  Yuji’'s spent a lot of time soaking things up from the mascot environment he worked in--even during that time he was going from hotel to hotel and accepting whatever bits and pieces he found. This means he couldn’t tell you what kind of music he likes, but he could sing you the entirety of the latest Hatsune Miku concert from heart. Not that he WOULD but...

14. If people trash their food before they finish their plate, people who stick around might catch him fish it out of the trash and either finish it off or cook it into something new. Yuji, swear to God.

15. Yuji considers his experiences as Piney the experiences and actions of a separate person and dislikes the idea that specifically he reflects on Piney; rather than consider him a character he played he considers Piney ‘their own separate and genuine tree.’ He still has every memory he made as Piney of course--which makes it weird when he can relay his experiences dining at Michelin star restaurants but gets intimidated by an Applebees.

16. Oh boy. Yuji and...electronics. He’s not....a hermit? As in, he knows most of this stuff he’s not genuinely pastoral...but this man does not know how to work a snapchat. In fact he’s never so much as fiddled with any apps but the notebook and photo app. Overwatch is literally the only viddygame he knows how to play, and he does so nigh religiously now that the Overwatch Club introduced it to him. 

17. Hypothetically, once Yuji got over his confused feelings for Starbucks, the green tea lattes and their iced equals would be a revelation. And while he’d eat anything he got, he wouldn’t be particularly fond of any of the foods on offer sans the Madeline cakes and Hawaiian Bagel. 

18. Sometimes he just starts crying. Like, not loudly, and not show stopping, but sometimes he just starts getting his sniffle on. More often than not, this is a good sign though; happy group activities are the worst offender for this.

19. Yuji’s favorite hang outs, should you need to find him anywhere specific, are the Adventure Park (he even has some Gabu Gabu merch now!), the Ramen Shop (fixed it up and restocked so it’s ready for business) and the Home Ec room (Overwatch and, as of Chapter 8, weird...fanfiction. Do not look for his on computer account.). Please don’t note that to him though--he’ll spook and try to change up his patterns.  

20. Yuji is actually not a bad singer! If you can drag him into a karaoke situation, catch him pullin out his voice claim! 

21. Apparently now that he’s out of suit, he’s more willing to share a few trade secrets. For example, according to him he was the only one of the mascots who was manned by only one ‘friend’, and most of the others had interchangeable buddies specialized in whatever the mascot needed to do for the variety show episode. This was everything from cooking to acrobatics to even ex soldiers for extreme stuntman activity. Apparently out of pity or respect, some of these guys gave the tree some variety lessons to help make life a little easier for him.

22. Yuji’s real birthday is actually on May 4th. This is the same day as Japanese Arbor day, as well as the same birthday as the famous fictional detective, Shinichi Kudo.

23. As Ryouji respawned with his own non-blood splattered necklace, Yuji has the original blood splattered one still. Now he’s no longer in suit though he wears it around his neck and tucked under his shirt collar rather than on his far less protected wrist. 

24. Yuji’s terrible about gaining crushes on people quickly and holding onto them for a long time. His list (with varying intensity) for this crew has been:

- Ryouji (big time)

- Charmayne (big time)

- Ebull

- Hanako

- Tomoka (for .5 seconds at a time)

- Madoka (on first impressions alone)

- Kazuko (if not full blown at LEAST on the rise)

There is also the moderate threat of Tadashi joining this list, and an honorable mention for Ailani who was never crushed on but WAS friend-crushed on (wanting to be her friend) and Ryan who is not crushed on but HAS caused some stupid sexy flanders moments for the guy (some unbidden dokis). 

Yuji makes a point of crushing, even loving, very unobtrusively though--it’s perfectly possible to remain friends with him even if he’s crushing on you and never have it Become Business. So no worries or obligations there!

25. For the ‘super Japanese foods’, Yuji’s very on board for eating eel, squid, seaweed, mentaiko, ikura, and even natto and as far as sanshouo (rarely, he feels a little bad about it but it does remind him of Spirited Away). However, he won’t touch Horse meat, ume and takoyaki (the last one not for the flavor, but for a moral respect for the octopus. He’ll have hotdog substitute though!) 

26. Yuji has a soft spot for french bakeries. For a lot of his time living by his seams in Ikebukuro, steals from the French style bakeries dumpsters were by far the best meals. He feels like he personally owes them a lot, even if Udon will forever be his true love.

27. If you’re new to Japan and want to try all the holes in the wall without running into anything illicit, Yuji’s pretty handy to bring along for the ride. He can sniff out the difference between a “snack bar” and a yakuza run “Snaku Bar” by sign font alone and fear alone. More than anything though he knows Ikebukuro specifically, especially close to the train station, like the back of his hand. 

28. This guy has an odd little kind of ‘eclectic spiritualism’ that mixes standard casual Buddist and Shinto stuff with some personal rituals, magical thinking and fascination with fantastical energies like Japanese Youkai and Western Tarot. More than anything though, this is a very casual system that focuses on a strict and hands on calculated version of Karma. Give and take, pay your literal dues, receive fortune and punishment as you earn it. 

This has contributed to ‘totem collecting’ from what he can find to represent the dead students, feeling that holding them safe will in turn grant safety to them in the afterlife--or now, outside of the sim. As Piney he was never allowed to admit to endorsing nor holding a religion, so now while he won’t go parading it around it isn’t so much a secret anymore.   

29. Yuji’s verbal tone is a sliding scale. The more nervous he gets the more youthful he sounds, at his worst off channeling Scooby Doo’s Shaggy with full voice crack and warble. You can tell he’s at his most stable when he stops fidgeting, plants his feet and starts calling people ‘kid.’ At that point he’s got a near gruff tone that sounds a tad Adachi-esque. His middleground is like, a disgruntled and fashion blind version of Vincent from Catherine, about. 

30. HIS favorite mascot? Either Purin the Dog from Saniro or Funashi. Purin is a good design he’s personally weak towards, but Funashi is an inspiration. He’d say “With that expressive waist hoop and the thin cloth making it easy to move around, that must be one hell of a fun set up to play with.” 

#ooc #save #long \\ #religion \\

[cinnamon-gloob]

Don't ya hate it when

You’re reading some really good agnsty fanfics and your mind started to wander and thinks about useless shit. Like the value of existence or how your wasting time and everything. So you decide to play that sound that’s been stuck in your head for awhile even though you’ve had to have played it at 50 times these week. And play that song leads to play more songs. But you really want to finish that fic so you do. And you go to look for more fics, but right you’re looking for something extremely specific in a tiny fandom so of course you can’t find another good one.

So then of course you’re hella bored but have a hundred thing you could do and a thousand more you should do. And of course you do the logical answer which is to screw all the actual good options and go on Tumblr to type out your feelings because you don’t know what you’re feeling but you hate. And you know you’re being over dramatic and running from your problems (which compared to other people’s are pathetic). You know there’s so easy option to fix anything but you honestly just don’t feel like doing it. Or do you? You know all you want is instant gratification because you have no patience or work ethic.

So here you are on Tumblr craving validation and human contact yet at the same time you know as soon as you get you’ll hate it. Because as much as you appreciate it you don’t know how to respond because you’re awful with words (yet you claim to want to be an author when you grow up) and you just don’t know what you’re doing. And human interaction takes up so much energy. It’s like getting drunk (which you have never have done yet btw) it’s amazing and you’re happy at the time if you’re with the right people. But as soon as it stops the hangover slowly creeps over you and you second guess everything you said.

You always feel so fake because you have so many conflicting thoughts. You try to see all the down and benefits of everything so hate and love everything all at once. So you’re never sure on what you really feel. Or do you? You feel like some where on the inside you’re just choosing certain aspects of your personality and interesting just to affect how people think of you. But you never know what people actually think of you so it scares you. Or does it?

See you don’t hate yourself, quite often you think you aren’t half bad. Just sometimes you start thinking to much. Or all these thoughts fake? Is your inner self trying to manipulate you? Or are you just being over dramatic? Quite often your happy and content. And a similar distraction can pull you out of the darkest of thoughts. You don’t know who you truly are. Or do you? Why are you always so contradictory?

You just have so many bad habits. And you don’t really care. Or do you? You want things to get better. Or do you? You like having this little bit of drama don’t ya? It make you stop feeling guilty above your privileged life that would of been perfect if you didn’t fuck it up. If only you were actually hard working. You never experience any real drama since you isolate yourself for such a long time. Being part of so many different groups but never fully belonging. Only ever dipping your toes in.

You feel so awful about the hard ships around you so you try to support it through Tumblr and other social media. But you never really do anything. Is it because your scared to show the people who know you irl what you? Or do you even think that at all? You probably do but it’s only because you feel guilty? You feel guilty about everything. But not all the time. You’re a classic sjw but some times you wonder if you’re going to far. You’re so privileged so you really don’t understand other’s struggles.

You can be quite narcissistic or is vain the better word? You don’t necessarily think your better then everyone else you just put yourself on a moral high ground. Sometimes. You think you look pretty. Sometimes. You’re proud of your work. Sometimes. You always think for at least a second that hey you totally might of won and of course you deserve it. And then you realize of you didn’t you’re not that special other people are a hell of a lot better then you could ever be but hey there’s a chance.

When you started cutting in last year you thought you we’re depressed. And you wear kinda of really happy about that. Hurray you finally have an excuse for being lazy and fucked up. You finally fit inside a box. And although you always wanted to weird and different you still wanted to belong in one place. And then you realize how disgusting your thinking was. You realize you were over exaggerate it. You remember all those stories and fanfiction romanizing being depressed and feeling lost and alone. You realized so so so many people have it so much worse then you. And how absolutely awful you are. You never cut deep at all the scars are so faint you could just stop and no one might ever know. But the problem is there just a few you can see and there in places hard to hide. It’s hella stressful but you kinda like the scars.

When ever make a tiny mistake you thought about cutting and you’re kind of glad. But at least when you’re doing it you’re not sure if you really like it or if you’re just doing it so you can finally fit inside that box. You can finally have your own teen age agnst. You stop thinking you’re depressed because you obviously aren’t you don’t cut much at all after that. But you still do on the rare occasions. And even tho you haven’t cut since for 5 months and 17 days currently, you think about it a lot. And some oh so small part of you likes it.

Currently, at this moment you aren’t sure if all what you just typed is true. You don’t remember any specific thoughts from that time. You’re afraid you’re currently dramatizing it just to hopefully edge a bit of pity out of the curious, idiot reader. If by someone miracle they’re still reading you don’t understand why. You think they might see how disgusting you are and you don’t want that. But you don’t want their pity either. Or do you? Why else would you be writing this?

If the time you thought you were depressed last year started around midterms last year (mid January) it probably ended something in the spring. You’re not sure anymore. You do know there was at least a few days last year where you really where in a dark head space. When for more than a moment you seriously thought about death. You probably were being oh so melodramatic. You we’re only so idiot 8th grader who really wasn’t under a lot of stress when you start to look back. You probably we’re probably trying to be super edgy. But you where also trying to keep it a secret because it’ll just make it more edgy.

You could probably go on and on about all the other time you fucked up in the past year. How you continued to look for more problems for your self, more excuses. How in that time you discover you’re bi or at least queer. But you started to being to think it was fake. Just you trying to belong somewhere to be different yet fit in to one of those boxes. You truly decided to identify as bi. And you’re out to your whole Girl Scouts troop and 3 of you’re best friends. You also told a boy who you dated for at least 8 months you where gay because you didn’t want to hurt him and you wanted to be friends because he almost exactly like you, and it isn’t technically a lie. Gay is an umbrella term right? And is dating really the right word? You may have liked him for a month or so but it was only because you had so much in common and he really talked to you and it was so wonderful yet weird because you yourself have to usually be the one reaching out and you kind we’re isolating yourself besides talking to some or school friends every now and then. Because the people you consider your best friends were hanging out with other people and you’re not very good in a group usually. You just get a bit jealous but when you get jealous you get sad.

But anyways, that’s not the point. He asked you to the 8th grade semi formal in may and of course you said yes. And you never specifically told anyone but a bunch of people already knew. And they we’re some of your best friends and a lot of people who were just fun to hang out with and you wanted to get to know better. They kinda were a group, not exactly because it was a bit large, it more like a lot of smaller groups hanging out or like a bunch of floater who know how to make a group fun, how to feel like you belong. Maybe groups are to bad you think. But no you’re kind of wrong. Who you talk to? Should you only stick with the one friend you know best and cling to them? Or is that weird? Should you try to get to know other people better and kinda ignore your friend? But your friend isn’t exclusively talking to you anyway? How much attention should you try to direct? When do you join in? How? When are you being annoying? To summarize: you never feel like you fit in.

The dance was awesome but you kinda floated around. Not really hanging out with your boyfriend???? But kinda hanging out with that group. But also with your group of awkward introverted friends. And as much as you love em you are also so so so awkward and introverted so it’s not the best combo.

Skip to summer. You and your boyfriend??? text a lot in the summer and into the school year. But its never very serious and it’s always ends up just becoming just memes. And at the time (summer) it’s perfect. He’s the one reaching out to you which is so wonderfully unusually. But you kinda wish you had some serious conversations because you guys never really discussed what you were and you do kind of miss talking about more then just memes. So you both assume you’re officially dating and you see each other exactly once during the summer. Looking back on that time now you think of it fondly. It doesn’t matter you broke up you guys are still friends. And honestly thought out the summer that all you guys kind were. And you will forever be grateful for that time because it was exactly what you needed and you and him had a blast. At least you think he did.

And oh my god you thought you were going to talk about your problematic past self any longer. This was only supposed to be a few sentences. Opening up even though writing is addictive. Not even on the second paragraph you realize writing in this perspective is weird as fuck. But it’s so different and you kind of like it. And it was to late to stop. You already know you’ve changed you’re mood and tone have changed way to much throughout this. But you don’t really care this is helping you let it all out.

And to the poor reader who is still reading this why? But thank you. You guess that’s what you should say. You want to apologize for all of the mistakes in spelling and grammar you have made. And problem tense wise as well. But you know you won’t go back and fix it because that means reading this shit again. And you’re afraid you might delete it. You know you’ll end up reading it again eventually. You also want to apologize for the length and that unfortunately you’re teenage angst bull shit rant is going to continue. You probably should of written this in some diary.

Now back to that summer but on a new topic. You play volleyball. You’re a setter and have been for a few years but it’s only because you’re not stellar at anything else. You aren’t very athletic but you almost never give up on a play. But the problem is that for the travel season. The problem is you don’t know how to act around your school team in 8th grade. You have two friends who also play on your club team and know you act more wild and goofy once you’re out side of that school environment with that big group of acquaintance.

But those friends are better at socializing and aren’t awkward at all. They’re really good friends with the other 10 players. You on the other hand are not. It’s not that you don’t want to be. They’re all really nice. You just don’t know how to fit in with that big group. So summer begins and the high school coaches start having open gyms twice a week. You weren’t able to go in the beginning so when you finally start going it’s been a while since you’ve seen people from school.

The people trying out for jv include: the 5 incoming sophomore who were on the team last year. Four of them fit together really well. The fifth is a bit quite but she isn’t awkward so she still fits in. Out of the 13 who were on the 8th grade team you and 9 others try out. 2 other beginners try out as well. You hang out mostly with those 2 beginners. Not because the others are exclusive just you aren’t great with big groups. The other freshmen and sophomores end of getting along wonderfully and fit together.

Try outs come around and guess what? You those other 9 freshmen and the sophomores make the team. It’s a totally of 15 girls which is quite large for a volleyball team. Especially when considering 12 is the most usually in a high school team but a lot of team tend to have 10 players for travel teams. Only 6 players and a the libero are needed to play. And even though this will become quite a problem for eventually (considering there are 3 other setters and 1-2 are on the court at a time) you are more worried about the fact that while every one was becoming so close during the summer you are kind of behind now. It’s to late you think you’ll never fully belong. And although currently, you and that sophomore became friends and you are still very close with your travel friends, you still don’t think you fully belong.

The season officially starts and so does the school year. And because volleyball is a fall sport you get placed in the volleyball homeroom. Which isn’t bad or good. The problem is there’s too many players. In practice it wasn’t too bad. You guys usually played 6 on 6 meaning 3 players were out at a given time. And because you were the worst setter out of the four you got the least amount of practice. You kind are pissed because it makes it even harder for you to get better. But it’s worse for games you almost never play. And it’s only when it isn’t a challenging team. You don’t blame the coach for that. You know the others were and are better but still you wanted to play.

Oh my god you realize you have been typing and ranting and pacing for over two hours by now. And you realize it’s time to stop. You would like to apologize to the curious readers if there are still any at this point. You usually only get 1 or 2 on a personal post anyway. You aren’t really sure you want to post this melodramatic crap but you are going to do it any way. You want to continue but you know you shouldn’t. You say a quick goodbye and thank you. And then start to add some tags so you can both find this in the future ( hence the why am I like this) but also to warn people who might want or not want to see this. You’re glade you wrote this. Or are you?

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[jacksonaavery-blog]

Je t’aime, April

A/N: This is a Japril fanfiction in which they are in Paris as a couple and something astonishing is about to change their lives…

Thank you, @titasjournal for, once again reviewing my stories and always supporting me in everything I do! You know how much you mean to me!

I hope you enjoy this, really! Likes, reblogs and messages are always very much appreciated and I would actually like to know what you think about the things I write! 💘😝

 “Wake up, you lazy man!” April shouted, throwing a pillow at Jackson’s face. She glanced at the phone to check the time: 8 AM. “Come on… we’ll miss the train and we’ve already missed the flight yesterday.” She was visibly worried since they were supposed to attend a Medical Conference in Madrid at 10 AM and they were still in that hotel room at the center of Paris.

Jackson rolled his eyes and got up slowly, stretching. He approached April, holding her and kissing her forehead softly. She formed a fleeting smile that was quickly replaced by concern again. On the other hand, Jackson didn’t show any signs of uneasiness. Instead, his eyes were bright and he was definitely beaming.

“Don’t worry, we have time. Come here…” Jackson took April’s hand and tried to lead her back to bed. However, she didn’t move a single inch and stared at him quite annoyed, which didn’t seem to bore him as he came even closer and got her in his arms, kissing her lips smoothly and passionately. “I don’t want to waste any more seconds of my life without you…” He laid her carefully on the bed and placed his hands on the pale skin of her cheeks until their lips were pressed against each other again. He held her tight, affectionately with their mouths still together. Their tongues were moving faster and faster and their bodies were totally wrapped around each other, giving them both lust and desire. Suddenly, April pulled herself back looking at Jackson’s beautiful eyes and realizing that he was slightly disappointed. She stood up and started to dress really fast, trying to avoid his sight in order to resist going back to his arms again.

“You know I’d die to spend the entire day here with you but, unfortunately, we have somewhere else to go…” The surgeon was no longer upset about Jackson’s laziness but quite cheerless as she obviously would rather stay in that hotel room with him than to go to that boring conference.

Jackson dressed as fast as he could and grabbed everything. Meanwhile, April fished her phone from her black purse and called a cab to take them to the train station. A few minutes later, the cab arrived and April got in, seating in the back seat of the cab. Jackson insisted on helping the driver to carry their bags and came really close to him.

“Sir, I need you to take me to the Eiffel Tower even if my girlfriend asks you to take us to the train station, ok?” He whispered in the driver’s ears, emerged in enthusiasm and anxiety. Damn, it felt so good to call her his girlfriend and he couldn’t wait for them to reach the Eiffel Tower… The driver nodded, smiling kindly, which made him feel even more excited.

During their ride in the cab, Jackson found himself reflecting about everything they have been through. Since the day he told her how much he cared for her and loved her that too many obstacles came across. He might have given in. He might have given up… But he craved her and he wanted her to be his forever. He felt as though he would actually do anything to not let her go again. After all, love is crucial, time is limited and life is short.

He needed love.

He needed time.

He needed life.

And he needed her to have them all…

“Jackson, why are you so quiet? Restudying the speech?” April accurately noticed that the Plastic Surgeon was reticent. His cheeks blushed in a hurry and his hands were freezing but sweaty. He couldn’t respond so he smiled, kissing her tiny nose. All at once, the driver turned back and smiled, blinking at Jackson discreetly.

“Here you are, young lovers.” The driver informed in a very strong French accent. “Have fun!”

April looked at the window and all she could see was the majesty of the Eiffel Tower. She turned her head looking for Jackson but he wasn’t in the car anymore. She left the cab quite curious and intrigued. What were they doing here? Jackson was already on the other side of the street walking to the landmark as fast as he could. April started running and laughing simultaneously. The Madrid conference had disappeared from her thoughts completely. She approached Jackson from his back placing her arms around his torso. He set his hands on hers, interlacing his fingers with hers. They stayed there without moving for a little while, enjoying themselves and that astonishing monument.

The weather was cold that day, but the sun was shining in the sky. The air was cool and April’s face was quite rosy due to it. Her hair was moving gently forward as the wind blew. The tourists kept moving quickly, taking pictures and making a lot of noise but they still remained as they were.

“Come, April… There’s something I want to show you.” Jackson turned his head, facing April. Their noses touched softly and he brushed his lips over hers in a loving kiss. He grabbed her hand and took her closer to the Tower’s entrance, buying a couple of tickets to climb to the top.

“Jackson, what are we doing here?” She asked laughing amusingly. He gazed at her with a funny face. His eyes were bright and joyful but he was still uptight, despite of trying really hard to cover it. “Jackson… What are you hiding from me? You know you shouldn’t keep secrets from your girl! Come on… Seriously, I want to know.” She couldn’t help but almost beg for him to tell her as she was honestly anxious about what he was about to do. He didn’t give in though, increasing her restlessness and enthusiasm. Jackson sketched a mysterious smile and set his arm on her shoulder carefully pulling her closer to him, brushing her ginger hair with his hand affectionately.

The two lovers went up the stairs quite uneasly. April’s heart throbbed in adrenaline and the Plastic surgeon was literally dying to catch up the top. They took a few minutes to get there and before April could see anything, Jackson stopped her for a moment and looked at her apprehensively.

“I wanted you to see this…” Jackson mumbled longing as they reached the top of the building. April was plainly delighted. Her eyes were settled on the wonderful city standing before her. She couldn’t contain a huge gleeful smile and her heart was filled with only joy and bliss. She was actually there. She was actually there with him. She was over the moon. April turned her head to look at him and he glanced at her and their lips became closer and closer until the distance between them was none. They closed their eyes simultaneously. She could see lights, the stars … He could hear her voice, singing… she could taste his love as he could hers. He laid his hand on her neck, feeling her soft skin. She pulled him closer but he didn’t move… Suddenly they were apart yet again and Jackson tried to form a confident smile but his eyes only showed fear. April quickly realized he wasn’t ok and the anxiety reigned in her now.

“Jackson, what’s wrong? I loved this surprise… I actually love you… I love you so badly!” April placed her hands in his face in order to approach to him but he stepped away again, taking a deep breath as if he was hoping for some courage or bravery.

“April… Remember when I said I loved you? At your wedding? When I told you I loved everything about you, even the things I didn’t like, I loved? And when I admitted before everyone that I wanted you with me? Do you?” He was strong now.

April nodded not sure what the point was though. Of course she remembered… How could she forget the day she got married to him? Jackson grabbed her hand and kneeled. His eyes were settled on hers and there was nothing he could think of rather than her.

“We both said things we didn’t mean. We hurt each other. You left. I left, but I have no plans to leave at all. I do have plans to dream with you… to achieve goals with you. I do want to love you harder.” His voice sounded much more confident and trustful. She was looking in his eyes, hearing attentively. “When I close my eyes, I see your face. I can feel your taste. Your touch. Your smell. I don’t want to lose this anymore. I don’t want lose you. I can’t.” He closed his eyes for a while and squeezed her hand strongly. She was actually there. His heart was beating really fast and he could distinguish a mixture of relief and fear. It frightened him, truly. Having her there, listening to him and knowing whole his feelings was pretty scary. “It’s been a while but I still feel the same. I still love you, April Kepner… And that’s why I want you to be my wife.”

April was definitely surprised as this was all very unexpected. She loved him, undeniably. However, all she could think about was the pain their relationship had brought her… She looked at the view and took a deep breath. Jackson was still there, kneeled in front of her, waiting for her to say something. Wanting for her to say yes. He was the one, and she had let him go once… She couldn’t let him go again. He gave her so much happiness, joy, delight. Despite the bad things, he gave her a life she was proud of. He gave her something to live for. To believe in. To fight for. He was her home.

“Jackson, I love you so much! Of course I’ll marry you!” She started crying as she uttered these words. He held her tight, cutting her breath. She was in the seventh heaven. He pressed her lips against hers passionately, making her stop crying and feel the whole moment. She was emerged in a fully happiness state and his fears vanished all at once. Their tongues were dancing slowly, touching every corner of their mouths. The cool air of Paris didn’t seem to matter for them as they kept closer to each other kissing even harder. “I love you…” She repeated between kisses. Jackson smiled fondly with his face touching hers. He caressed her face with his fingers, remember everything she did for him. April smiled back, closing her eyes…

Even far away from Seattle, she was home.

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