#but alas all this will have to wait

[arolesbianism]

I need 2 get back on the fanart grind stat I need to draw orbo blorbos

#rat rambles #and by stat I mean once Im done with com stuff and am less tired all the time #so idk give it anywehere from a day to 20 years #I wanna make more bndori furry designs I think and maybe Ill do some sekai ones too #Id make dont starve furries but im going to be honest I have absolutely zero ideas for any of them #you see my problem with wendy and abby in particular is that my brain keeps going mmmm... monkey.... #but I have no clue how Id translate their designs in a way Id be happy with + I dont have a single clue what kind of monkey #and the theres literally every other character who I dont wanna even try to think of ideas for #like what the hell would I make wilson without being basic as hell? what are w shaped animals? Im in shambles #and Im morally opposed to making rainworld iterators furries /j #I just dont like letting them free from their cans I find it boring #I might try my hand at more scug designs at some point tho #actually y'know what would be fun? making fursonas for oni characters #theyre barely characters so itd mostly just be a fun character design excersize #but alas all this will have to wait

[drillchips]

How many mirrors must I break,

Before I only have one face?

#ooooo boy #I can’t get the quality any better but alas #I started this when thanks to them premiered and finished it an hour ago #have to wait till 1am to watch for the future so just in time #my art #anyways let this kid suffer just a little less please and thank you. #no reposting #hunter toh #the owl house #flapjack toh #toh belos #phillip wittebane #caleb wittebane #golden guard #I read all the tags when you reblog ;)

[vrronica-sawyer]

*shoots your doomed yaoi with a doomed yuri beam*

Sailor Trigun at ALA!!!

#I’m so happy with how these cosplays came out they look just like my concept sketches #and I’m genuinely surprised so many ppl realized what we were! #most ppl thought it was just fem vashwood but a lot of ppl knew it was magical girls specifically I’m v happy #hopefully will have milly Meryl photos from ala to show soon #patiently waiting on those from the photographer #bunny sewed me a new longer cape with a better collar and I remade my undershirt for her #ala changed their prop weapon rules mid con tho which was v sad bc I hand painted and made customized stickers for her milly gun all week #and then they stopped allowing any prop guns that weren’t 50% orange :( #we were able to bring it to the Trigun meetup luckily bc it was outdoors but not to our shoot #next time ig!!! #my cosplay #Trigun #sailor moon #pgsm #vashwood #sailor Trigun #magical girls #vash the stampede #Nicholas d wolfwood #what did I name these au guys #sailor gunsmoke #sailor hopeland #??? #i think #Trigun maximum #Trimax #cosplay #au #ala 2024 #anime los angeles

[chickenoptyrx]

Gohans back there havin the worst day of his life- meanwhile raditz is braggin to anyone thatll listen about how strong his nephew is :〕

[Context: thisd be at the first way-station right after they left earth. Raditz is gettin gohan some armor before they leave again to meet up w nappa and vegeta- since hes gotta replace his armor too, hes taking the opportunity now to show off how much damage the untrained 4 yr old managed with a single attack.]

#if i was smart id just wait and post all the sketchbook stuff together #...alas.. #uncle raditz #saiyan squad gohan #sketchbook stuff #imma have so much stuff to redraw digitally

[verysmallcyborg]

i wanted to revisit the palette i used in this art from a few months ago, since i got really attached to a sketch i did the other night LOL

i just think fornax's face is very fun to draw...... hehe

#renee's art tag #fornax #femroe #au roe #ffxiv art #ffxiv #i did not think i'd spend all night on this (with focus problems. alas...) but man am i so happy about how it turned out #i'll have an alternate version with their original colors some other time. too impatient to wait to post both

[fuckinart]

(they'll never understand) How could I ever understand? No, I don't have to understand. I don't wanna understand. So I will never understand. (we could have everything)

#Danny Phantom #art #sketches #i do not feel like colouring this. you'll have to use your imagination #also i highly recommend listening to Nick Lutsko's Swords album because it is so Jack & Maddie it's not even funny #i've been listening to Superior on repeat for like 2 days which is why i whipped this comic up #but also Sideshow is how i was introduced to the album & is also very very very much Maddie & Jack coded #i want to write a fic about it. alas i'm already writing like 10 fics about everything right now so it'll have to wait #i just have this idea in my head of it actually being pretty obvious to Maddie & Jack who Phantom is #he's wearing their hazmat. using their inventions. can open their biometric locks. has their son's face. his voice. #Danny Fenton has an extremely high level of ectoplasm. he even has an ectosignature. the same ectosig as Phantom in fact. #but they're so in denial. so obsessed with their work up til then not being a waste of time & resources. that they just keep ignoring it #keep burying their heads in the sand #& things just keep getting worse. & they keep having a harder time committing to attacking Phantom #have a harder time believing in what they're doing. have a harder time explaining away the truth #but they can't face it. they have to keep refusing to see it #because the truth will never set them free. it will only confirm all the terrible things they've done. #they're good people. everything they do is good. there is no other side to this story. of course

[kkpwnall]

if it wasn’t for bad luck i wouldn’t have luck at all

part one | rated t | 1270 words | cw: parental death

all my thanks and love to my beloved @fragilecapric0rnn for beta-reading 💜 you're a rockstar and your feedback was so so helpful

Eddie was born under a bad sign. That’s what his momma always used to say. Friday the 13th, and in October? He never really stood a chance and neither did anyone else he got close to. He was like a black cat walking across their path. 

[ keep reading below, or read on ao3 ]

His momma was first, of course. Cursed by the fate of Eddie’s birth from the very beginning. And if he hadn’t dawdled on the way home from school that day, if he had gone straight home just like he’d promised, if he hadn’t stopped to pick a bouquet of ditch weed wildflowers for her and got distracted by caterpillars and rollie-pollies— Well, maybe he would’ve been able to tell the 911 operator she was still breathing when he found her.

His daddy was next, not much long after. Eddie worshiped him like a hero in one of his fantasy stories, the charming, devil-may-care, down on his luck protagonist who stole from the rich and gave to the needy. But the first time Floyd brought him out on a real job, just the two of them, when all Eddie had to do was hot wire the getaway car after he heard the signal (three hoots like a barn owl), Eddie panicked. Did he say barn owl or barred owl? Was that two hoots or three? Why did the wires all look the same in the dark?

When the police cars painted him in their flashing red and blue lights, he dropped the wire cutters and ran. Floyd went down in a hail of bullets behind the car Eddie had been trying to steal, and Wayne got his own life sentence when the State dropped Eddie on his doorstep.

Uncle Wayne got the worst of it, obviously. Working himself to the bone, nights and weekends, to put Eddie through school. Not to mention senior year for a second and third goddamn time.

It was too late by the time young Eddie figured it out. By the time he decided to keep everyone at arm’s length.

It’s safer that way, for everyone.

Chrissy was just the latest in a long line. And he’d only lowered his guard an inch, a millimeter, when he saw someone just as lonely and desperate for a friend. He’d only barely started to let himself have an inkling of what an actual friendship with her might be like when—

This is exactly why Eddie doesn’t have friends. He has minions. He has little lost sheepies, he has twerps and shrimps. And that’s it. That’s enough. It has to be enough.

But all that changes the day he dies.

Or maybe it’s the day he finally wakes up. His new birthday, welcomed to the world once again in a cold, bright, sterile hospital room.

And really, the way he sees it, it’s all Henderson’s fault.

The little shit wanders in every day at visiting hours and makes himself right at home. He props his cast up on Eddie’s bed, and steals the remote to change the channel on the ancient, minuscule tv over to cartoons, and then he just… camps out! All day!

The kid will not leave him alone, no matter how cold a shoulder Eddie tries to give him. He even broke down and explained everything to him. How he’s bad luck, he’s bad news. And people who get too close to him end up dead.

But maybe the painkillers they’ve got him on scrambled his brain as bad as the bats scrambled his guts, because Dustin steamrolls right over him.

“If curses were real, which they aren’t,” he posits in his professor voice, “Your dumb curse can’t try to kill me again. It already took a shot and it missed, and the worst I got was a busted ankle.”

Eddie opens his mouth to tell Dustin that’s not how curses work but—

“And what was its goal anyway? To get you alone and friendless, dead in a ditch? Well then, mission accomplished!”

Which is… weirdly comforting when he puts it like that.

Dustin brings with him a rotating cast of the rest of the fellowship. Eddie finally gets to meet Baby Byers and finds out he’s already been recruited to Hellfire before Eddie can even say hello.

More often than not, Steve tags along too since he’s already ferrying them all between the hospital and home. Usually after he’s spent some time with Red and the other kids in her room, he’ll drop by. To check on Dustin of course.

It’s not because he likes Eddie. Don’t be ridiculous. He doesn’t even know him.

All that… before… it was just some harmless flirting to keep himself from completely losing it while he was on the run from homicidal bible-thumpers. And Steve was just humoring him.

So he hides behind stupid flirtatious remarks, easy to brush off when it’s always undercut with sly winks and salacious expressions. Enough to keep everything surface level. Keep him at arms length.

It doesn’t matter that his eyes still seem to linger on Eddie, even when he hasn’t said anything for a while. Or that he brings Eddie extra pudding cups from the cafeteria. It doesn’t mean anything when he stands in the doorway trying to finish one last story or joke, until the kids almost literally have to drag him out when visiting hours are over.

Because it turns out Steve is an incorrigible gossip. And Eddie’s not about to be the one to corrige him. Not when he brings an extra dr. pepper for Eddie every time he stops by the vending machine for a coke and gleefully tells Eddie which of the doctors, nurses, and shady government agents are sleeping together.

A can of coke he taps on the lid with a peculiar rhythm before he cracks it, every time.

“What’s up with that?” Eddie finally has to ask one day, when it’s just the two of them and the Price is Right.

Steve hums this confused little sound at him, tilting his head with furrowed brows as he takes the first sip.

Eddie repeats the pattern, tapping it out on his own can.

Steve blinks a few times, first at Eddie, then at the can in his hand.

“I didn’t even realize I did that,” he huffs out a laugh. “It’s uh… something my grandpa taught me when I was a kid. Y’know just for luck.”

The blood in Eddie’s veins freezes and he’s stuck like that for a painfully long moment. Propped up against the lumpy hospital pillows with his mouth half open, staring at Steve.

“For luck.” he says flatly.

“Yeah, so the fizz doesn’t explode when you open it.”

“And has that ever happened to you?” Aiming for flirty, aiming for scathing, aiming for anything that’s not desperation.

“Well no,” Steve says with an easy shrug and a conspiratorial smile, “that’s why it’s lucky. It’s like picking up a coin that’s face-down on the sidewalk.”

“Uh, I’m pretty sure it’s face-up, darlin,” Eddie says coyly, like every alarm bell in his head isn’t ringing a deafening cacophony.

“Nah see, you gotta leave those ones for someone who really needs the luck.”

“But then you get the bad luck.”

“Nah, doesn’t work that way,” Steve says, and fucking winks at him.

Eddie wants to shake him. What is wrong with him? He’s got it all backwards and it’s dangerous. How is he walking around like this?

Whatever, it’s not his problem. Steve can do whatever Steve wants. Eddie doesn’t need to protect him from himself. It’s not like they’re friends. And really, that’s the best way to protect him.

[ part two ]

[ also on ao3 ]

#steddie #stranger things #steve x eddie #steveddie #steddie fic #steddie fanfic #stranger things fanfic #stranger things fic #stranger thing steve #stranger things eddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #cw parental death #friday the 13th #i was hoping to get this all finished today but alas alack #the rest of it is well under way though and will be posted in the coming days so just you wait #fun fact there was a friday the 13th in october 1967 #making eddie 19 in this fic #i was gonna have his bday be that day anyway regardless but then finally decided to look it up and was overjoyed that it actually works out #friday the 13th fic #kk writes #bad luck fic

[mattodore]

they're the 🐺 and 🐇 emojis

#river dipping #ts4 #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #echthroi #GOD........... PUTTING THEIR CAS HEADSHOTS SIDE BY SIDE MAKES ME FEEL SO CRAZY. THEY JUST. THEY JUST LOOK LIKE THIS....... #NEVER NEEDED [REDACTED] SO BAD IN MY LIFE..... EMBARRASSINGGGGGG. LET'S GET A GRIP. #also i can't wait for when i get better at making scars and can make matthias's chin scar look how it's supposed to #it's meant to be gnarly. like. well there's a lot of real estate on that chin first of all 😭 #but his mother threw a very heavy decanter at his face so. thick glass. it was fleshy and bloody. #in my head the scar's more like a rough edged gouge than a thin line of scarred over skin. like his chin was torn open. #the skin is probably lighter there and raised. ik my glass scars are like that (tho they're from a window so it's different) #and i think i want the scar to be more vertical and kind of... reaching? like maybe it goes down underneath his chin too? #hmmm... #i wish i had a reference for the exact kind of scar but alas </3 #i do have a reference for the scars on his torso from the lung surgery he had in his teen years tho! #...typing ! at the end of that unthinkingly only to sober up like two seconds later bc like. and WHY did he need that surgery exactly? GOD. #matthias's character has so many scars but theo has zero... it really speaks to the different kinds of violence they faced #mirror images but the words are backwards yk....... #no one cared about appearances with matthias or worried about having to hide the evidence..... jesus. god............... well. #christ. #just sat here staring at my screen for two minutes. #well. i do think it's interesting the way the does vs. evanoffs treated their kids. the abuse was so different but it still connects them.. #and that isolating distance vs. suffocating closeness shaped both matthias and theo's personalities in such an obvious way #like you look at their character traits and it's like. well first off THAT'S a symptom! but also. jesus. it all traces back to the crib. #yeah... well let me stop here. bc i realize i'll hit tag limit if i keep talking to myself and i don't want to type something only for it #to delete itself after..... which has happened to me SO many times while rambling abt mattodore in the tags of so many posts 😭 #cw abuse mention

[tzitzki]

life update (it's been wild)

Hello everyone, hope you all are doing well and have had a great start to the year!

My February started off bad, and is ending with me getting 2nd degree burns all over my legs (there's 6 days left, I hope it doesn't get any worse from here), hence accelerating the tragic timing of everything; putting me out of actual work for a while, and in a tough financial situation as a custom commission recently fell through. 🧛🏽 Due to all of this I'll be reselling this Vampire: The Masquerade custom at $215, as per original quote for the commissioner. if you're interested, please inbox me.

✉️ I'm also opening 4 slots of portrait commissions — all at $60 flat; if you're interested, contact me via email (you can find it through my comm page).

☕️ If you'd like to drop anything small to help out: ko-fi.com/tzitzki I'd appreciate any re-shares! Thank you all so much in advance!

#tlks. #commissions #emergency commissions #signal boost #can't wait to actually stop surviving for a bit and start living #one of my legs is also very out of commission; so it's been fun trying to piece myself together #i'm very frustrated with it all and I hate to keep having to open up commissions to get by #alas; it be what it be for now; it'll pass

[hirazuki]

I did a costest of Mairon today (and an impromptu Almaren-era look, because why not) -- he's ready for con! I'm really happy with how he looks and too excited to wait to share photos until I'm done editing, so have some unedited shots plus two quick memes & the last thing you see when you dare imply Melkor might have not done nothing wrong XD

Inspiration for the memes came from this amazing poll by @kanafinwe-makalaure.

Edit: Ahaha okay this got A LOT more attention than I anticipated, for being just some test shots and silliness ^^; I usually don't include costume credits in costest photo dump posts, only on finished photos, but now I feel like I need to include them here too, so here you go: Wig: Arda Wigs (Grace, in "Fire Orange") Contacts: Uniqso (Sweety Crazy Red Demon Eye) Ears: Aradani Costumes (Sun Elf Ears) Circlet: PernCirclets (on Etsy) Gorget: Crystalsidyll (on Etsy) Gauntlets: Jadekei (on Etsy) Leather armor: LederFantasies (on Etsy) Fangs: Scarecrow (Small Deluxe Fangs) Gloves, dress base, and finger armor are mass-produced/store-bought; shirt is my own. I'm honestly shocked at the reception and everyone's really kind and supportive words! ♡♡♡

#mairon #sauron #cosplay #silmarillion #tolkien #i did different makeup for almaren mairon (gold/light orange) and first age mairon (red + bright orange) #but i don't think you can really tell ^^; #i wish my apartment had better lighting and a good spot for a full length mirror but alas T_T #i work with what i have #i should also probably invest in an actual camera at this point... #he's just as perfectly uncomfortable to wear as i expected lmao #but i can't wait to take him out in public all the same ♡ #silm #hira cosplays mairon

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy in silly sitting positions compilation

#cats #I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol #I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh #I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day #so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the #writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird #to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in #it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something #''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way #you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj #Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future'' #things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up #with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just #stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house #in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty #that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn #There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not #even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy #birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public #ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take #anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some #things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like #2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were #playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol.. #Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my #evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas

[dkettchen]

#meme #homemade memes #cw dysphoria #trans #bones are stupid #cw dysphoria venting #waiting out current phase of transition changes to happen #(cause I got my dose raised again in april & am waiting for my next two surgeries & continuing tryna build muscle 😔) #hoping it'll get to a point eventually where the affirming bits are overpowering enough to ppl's perception #that I can dress the bits I can't change (like hips) in things that suit them #and do the whole embracing looking trans thing without worrying abt the misgendering #but alas I won't believe in my body's ability to do that until I see it #seeing as I still get lady-ed & unquestioningly she/her-ed 5 years into HRT + post two highly visible surgeries #+ fully dressed in men's clothes + sporting the shortest hair I've ever had -.- #cis ppl learn what transmascs look like & what that means for words you use on them challenge 2024- difficulty level: impossible apparently #I've had several ppl in the last few months that I literally TOLD I am trans/'it's he/him'/was clocked as trans by #who then STILL proceeded to misgender me anyway??? #like what more can I do than literally straight up tell you???? #I told a clinician who was looking at my knee the other month that I was trans (cause they always ask abt all meds n diagnoses) #and he misgendered me as a trans woman on his report like- #sir I am 5'4" and have a flat chest baby face and facial hair #and I was telling you abt how I've been on HRT for years and have had several Transgender Surgeries #you're a bone doctor you know how bones work and what their limitations are and you have functionning eyes #you should be able to put 2 and 2 together abt how this works even if you've never met a trans person holy fuck #(I wrote a complaint and they amended the report and sent me an apology meanwhile but still like- buddy wtf)

[theladyyavilee]

just one thing before I go to bed, something about eddie’s face when carla says that line about how it feels to watch a fantasy actually become reality made me sob, like, that is SO QUEER, what else is there, eddie, huh, what else is there that you’ve only let yourself think of as an IMPOSSIBLE fantasy, because hoping for it to become reality felt too much like setting yourself up for heartbreak, but that might now be a real possibility, something you get to watch blossom into beautiful reality, WHAT ELSE?

#9-1-1 #911 spoilers #me watches a new thing #eddie diaz #buddie #queer!eddie my beloved <3 #I wish I had more coherent thoughts or the energy to dissect MULTIPLE scenes from this episode because the double meaning was LOUD #but alas I actually have to go to bed now because for some reason I am waaaay more tired today than usually #can't wait to read all the amazing meta tomorrow tho <3

[sage-nebula]

Every day is suffering when you're a Hollow Knight fan. (Happy for y'all in the Hades fandom, tho.)

#if only i enjoyed roguelikes. if only. alas. #hollow knight #silksong #hollow knight silksong #can you believe it's already been 5 tears since it was on Nintendo's floor at E3 2019? and yet nada #except they briefly showed it in an Xbox showcase of all things #istfg if it doesn't release on Switch at launch after being in Nintendo's area at E3 2019 i will lose my mind but #more importantly #i literally thought all of Team Cherry had died during the pandemic bc they only have 3 people and had written them to ask if they were ok #and they had ignored me . . . so i thought they did die . . . #then they updated their social media finally so they didn't and that was a relief but #guys . . . pls . . . it's been 6 years since you announced this game . . . #it's been 5 years since anything . . . pls . . . #give us a bench we're dying #there are not enough benches in the Silksong waiting room! i wanna sit more!!! #seriously tho happy for the Hades ppl #i hope y'all have fun

[spaceratprodigy]

[ 😇 ] — doodle dump from priv

just some smaller things while I have fun w friends and find my groove again :]

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#sometimes you just need a private space to make self-indulgent doodles and be silly w people you care abt #I have a lot of ideas I want to work on! especially for some priv exclusive pieces again >:3c #but alas only so much time and energy so we're just taking it easy ya'know #creating what I can when I can and making sure I'm having fun while doing it #I was in a good mood tho and every now and again I like bringing over a few priv doodles I'm fond of nothing major :] #also sorry but y'all are only getting crops of the drummer boy ones lmao they're small but priv exclusive #I can't wait to work on what all I have in store tho 😈 #my art #fallout #fallout 4 #fo4 #nick valentine #nick valentine fallout 4 #nick valentine fo4 #deacon #deacon fallout 4 #deacon fo4 #drummer boy #sole survivor #edit: this has been sitting in my drafts and the depression has hit me like a ton of bricks so time to slam that post button babyyyyyy

[camels-pen]

*stares at desktop background for a minute* holy fuck i could do a sanuso witchcraft works au <- wants to redraw soooo many screenshots

for those unaware, imagine a dude who is constantly a damsel in distress, and terrified a lot of the time but still does what he thinks is right. and a girl who is his stoic and staunch protector, very much down to flirt/get physically affectionate, puts the dude's wellbeing above her own, and is a witch who primarily uses fire and bursts into flames (also they were childhood friends but for some reason dude doesn't remember it). also the dude's got his own sorta fire powers and a lot of people are after him, but dw about that :)

#sanuso #witchcraft works au #ive never read the manga but damn would this be a good excuse to do so #obviously honoka and ayaka don't match up one to one with sanuso BUT they are close enough and it's an AU so. yknow. i can fudge the detail #wait yeah literally it's an au- as in 'what if they were the main characters instead' type of deal. why am i stressing about this lmfao #also this means usopp's gets manhandled a LOT which i love to do <3 #usopp's still gonna have his slingshot though and he'll be doing his absolute best #it's not gonna work all the time bc. alas. there be witches #anyway enough about that i'm gonna be looking up screenshots to reblog this with later~ #cw snake #for future one screenshot in particular i WILL be including