#but I’m managing my shit

[puppyeared]

Started listening to JTTW

#I know like a bit of what happens just from Wikipedia but I never managed to read past the first chapter. not even finish the first chapter #so im using an audiobook and made some doodles on stream to follow along #I think right now I’m at… chapter 4? wukong just finished beating the shit out of me zha and another guy and now he’s officially great Sage #I think after this part he finds out that being great sage is also an empty role and beats the shit out of everyone again + steals peaches #my art #myart #doodles #jttw #journey to the west #to be honest I found lmk and then jttw and not the other way around #lmk #Lego monkie kid #sun wukong

[ash-and-starlight]

throwing this into the void but who knows. tumblr knowledge is vast and mysterious. is anyone here good with plants?? i have a little monstera deliciosa in a vase with water, it was thriving before but a couple of weeks ago its leaves started yellowing and dying and idk what to do, light and temperature conditions haven’t changed and i change the water + clean the vase once a week blease my son…. he’s very sick.,,,

#plant tumblr if u out there 😔😔😔 #i fear it might just be my Vibes i’m horrible with plants no matter how hard i try #so far the only things i’ve managed to keep alive are a pothos and a snake plant #but afaik those shits can survive nuclear warfare so. #not a good parameter #and i tried to google the symptoms but i didn’t find anything helpful!!!! #‘yellow leaves mean an excess of water’ #bitcH IT IS /IN/THE WATER!!!!! #send post

[catstar91]

Ok phandom peeps, I need to get something off my chest. I cannot stop thinking about it, it’s so funny that this happened to me!

So I’ve been casually perusing the DP fandom for a while, right? Like for several years at least! What can I say? I like art! So at various points I had talked to my aunt about some stuff related, like fun stuff about the phandom and the existence of ghost king aus and stuff. Recently though, I found a fanfic that I spent AN ENTIRE DAY reading and doing nothing else! Like I stayed up late the night before, woke up to immediately read more! I don’t normally read fanfics, let alone any long form story, cuz my attention span is shit and has been shit basically all my life! So in the evening when I was a good chunk of the way through the fic, I talked to my aunt about it! Cuz it’s funny! I found a lot of things in it very amusing and wanted to share!

And then she asked for a link…

The next thing I know, within a few months, probably 3 months later at most, my aunt starts telling me about phandom lore I had never even heard of before! She literally made an ao3 account!!! Guys I am floored! I’ve been idly watching from the shadows for so long, and then I accidentally get my aunt into the phandom and she starts telling me about a red duck candle that’s apparently been integral DPxDC lore for YEARS!

What have I DONE???

#Danny Phantom #DP #this isn’t art or any creative writing this is just sharing a personal experience I had so this isn’t going on my side blog #side blog does have some personal ramblings but they’re typically for art related plans and writing ideas #sorry to anyone following me for fandom stuff- I do try to avoid clogging my main with personal stuff and the like but… #god I just can’t get over this! How did I manage to get my aunt into reading DPxDC fanfics so fast??? #she never watched DP and even she didn’t really know much about batfam stuff (all of my knowledge has been from online fandom stuff) #so I’m just absolutely going insane about this cuz holy shit #how did I never know about the red duck candle???

[angelnumber27]

Hi baby angels 😇 it’s about to be that time where I need help with getting a couple of my medications soon! It’s within a few days that I will be running out and I didn’t want to wait until the very last day/moment to try to scramble for a way to pay for them.

My cshapp is $juliagw :)

I have Venmo as well as PayPal, please DM me if you want my usernames to either of those and are interested in helping me 🙂

I am also selling content right now because I need my medications and I am hot. DM me if interested. You can see what I look like here

I need $80 total for the medications I need please help if you can.

I can make art for you if you want please just lmk what y’all are interested in <3

Thank you everyone so so so much 🖤 I’m so lucky and grateful to have and be surrounded by such a wonderful community on here.

#if you can help out please do I appreciate each and every one of you SOO much #financial assistance #recovery #medical #medications #please help if you are able :) . I do not want to go into withdrawal #every bit helps #dm me if you wanna buy hot shit #don’t b shy <3 #I need my meds babe hahah #in recovery #mental illness #mental health #medication #prescription medication #upload #please help #please give what you can #xoxoxoxoxo #I’m so sorry I love y’all so much I’m working on getting to a place where I can manage working #like.. physically and mentally/emotionally #and build my muscles back up #my atrophy is rly rly bad but I’ve been trying to strengthen my body slowly. bc when I go too hard w it it’s horribly sore next day #and then four days after that #addiction recovery

[thepunkmuppet]

decided to grow my shitty ass ratty ass hair out. gonna blame gerard way and his pesky gender when it inevitably looks god awful for a good couple months before I can start to look cool

#for the record shitty ass ratty ass is an adjective #I am not planning on growing out my arse hairs #and if I was I definitely wouldn’t post it on tumblr dot com #I just want to look like them in 2007 okay that’s all I want!!!!! #never gonna have it actually LONG again because yk #✨transgender✨ #plus it just genuinely looks shit on me and my hair is really ugly and hard to manage when it’s like that #so as much as I desperately WANT to be him in the im not okay music video I have to accept I can never be her #basically a shaggy mullet type vibe is what I’m going for and atm I have a very bog standard short man haircut that shows my forehead #WISH ME LUCK I GUESS #not me putting the whole actual point of the post in the notes 💀 AGAIN #at least I have a brand #mcr #my chem #my chemical romance #my chemical fucking romance #gee way #gerard way

[fennel-tea]

That Awful OTP Meme, or: my Binah/Hod manifesto

I originally posted this on twitter but while this is mostly tongue-in-cheek I actually have a lot of thoughts on these two that are generally summarized by [god DAMN I love the interplay of two people who are varying degrees of Terrible]

or just, like, a Hannigram meme.

#fennelart #project moon #binah/hod #lobotomy corporation #lobotomy corporation spoilers #the thing is that binah has never had regrets. binah has never had the time or desire to let herself have regrets #hod on the other hand is Full of them. she is someone who is trying very hard to be a good person #but is going at it from an entirely selfish direction (circa lobcorp) and just ends up completely sucking anyway #which is honestly part of her appeal to me? #i like the idea of them picking each other apart which is a thing that is extremely one sided at first because. it’s Binah #but even binah is still human albeit an extremely fucked up one and I think if hod manages to poke her head out of her own issues she could #start to see where the lines are #also she (binah) is locked in a basement and bored as shit and will take anything remotely interesting at this point #hence where I put her on the devoted scale versus indifferent #could you call it romance? #it’s not healthy in the slightest but no ship with binah involved is lmao #anyway this whole essay in the tags is mostly to say I’m proud of myself for the black damage joke lmao #periodic black damage and a -50% debuff to your stats. its the give and take you know how it is #shoutouts to the person writing binah/hod in the ao3 tag like two years ago you thoroughly infected my brain

[swordmaid]

we managed to resolve the tiefling-goblin conflict before wyll turns into a devil (we’ve even recruited karlach too) and this is what he says in the party…! interesting I think

#only reason we managed to do that is that I’m very sure there’s a huge queue with the camp scenes lol #and the Karlach/wyll confrontation got pushed back #I want to see how florrick reacts to him tho #and I’m making sure we long rest frequently too lol #anyway we’re playing with the no party limit mod so the cliques are divided by: #shri’iia/astarion and wyll #then durge/karlach/shadowheart #and then Tav who looks like jaime/gale/lae’zel #and it’s actually pretty funny you get companion banters when the little teams pass by each other #anyway I so def wanna draw my trio loool just imagining wyll having the worst time ever getting stuck with these two little shits 😭😭 #shut up about bg3. #bg3 spoilers

[rozugold]

Rozu if I sprinkle flowers in front of you wherever you walk will you give us some random tidbits or facts from DI that we might now know? Maybe things that wouldn't make a full comic or doodle but have been cooking in your brain?

YESS OF COURSE I could never pass up an opportunity to talk ahout DI!!!

I don’t think I made it very clear in the comics but l’mantrio are lowkey starving a bit. They do not have a steady supply of food (no potato farms 😔) so they have to rely on foraging and hunting but that’s not always successful.

It gets frustrating because food isn’t a huge priority to Tommy right now and that makes it harder for all of them. He refuses to kill any animals himself so Tubbo and Wil have to try hunting. While handcuffed together. With a jingly bell that’s good at scaring away animals. And because their base is on a mountain in the savanna biome, they have to travel farther to an oak forest to forage for food since they’re not familiar enough with the savanna to know what’s edible or not.

Some silly moments I wanna draw at some point:

- Wil sneaking food onto Tubbo’s plate, Tubbo sneaking food onto Tommy’s plate and Tommy sneaking his food to Leeroy

- Tubbo having to stop Tommy from accidentally eating a poisonous mushroom while they’re out foraging

- Wil making jokes about eating Leeroy but Tommy doesn’t take it well and gets all angsty about it

Actually fun fact about Leeroy: he was gonna be a hen in the beginning because I’d thought it’d be funny if Tommy just had a habit of purposely naming female animals generic male sounding names. But for there to be conflict about the lack of food I changed him so they couldn’t get chicken eggs. Plus I think it’s really cute that Leeroy is just this tiny, feisty rooster that fights with Wil all the time skdhdj

#rozu asks #anonymous #distorted illusions #how did Tommy make pancakes that one time? well. uh. don think too hard about it #I’ve thought hard about it. based off brief research you can make acorn pancakes #I don’t imagine it’d be the tastiest.. all their food they manage to make probably tasted crappy #anways #I LOVE YOU ANON TY FOR ASKING ABIUT DI #I’m sorry it took months to answer.. I got busy and then shit happened #but just know this ask MADE my day #legit stood up from my seat and spun around upon reading it #also I got ur ask about di!crimeboys and wrote a big whole answer for it #but I gotta go rewrite bits of it and have been procrastinating on that cuz. I still have mixed feelings about using his name rn #as you can probably tell #but I appreciate that ask sm too (assuming you’re the same anon)

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF EARTH: VANCOUVER

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Maj. Kaidan Alenko, and Lt. James Vega With: Adm. David Anderson, Adm. Steven Hackett, & Flight Lt. Jeff "Joker" Moreau I don't like Anderson's orders either, but we don't have a choice. Without help, this war is already over. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #shenko #james vega #kaidan alenko #sophie shepard #steven hackett #jeff joker moreau #david anderson #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #i’m back on my me3 bullshit and i’m so excited ✨ #no one question why soph looks different from the car lot set #her tattoos are different bc i finally managed to fix them somewhat lmao and i figured out how i wanted the scars on her face to look too #(AKA i finally managed to nail down her me3 look until i sculpt her head morph in blender) #these were lowkey a little bit of a bitch to color correct bc of that blue filter on me3 that makes everyone look super washed out #i’m gonna have to re-gif car lot in the future when i get back there too now that i think about it #was this just an excuse to gif kaidan now that i’m playing ME3 again? yes. will there be more gifs when i get him and ash back? absolutely. #james and EDI are gonna be my babes until i him and ash back tho #it’s a good opportunity for james and EDI content bc my god they deserve more love #also this shit isn't anywhere CLOSE to canon for soph when it comes to how things actually went down in vancouver with kaidan #but the VS’s treatment is poo in bioware canon so i say i do not see it and write my own :) #anywhoooo if you read all my rambling in the tags of my gif sets i hope you have a good day ✨🥹

[shroomsprouts]

I’ve made three new soukoku AU’s in the past two days… Am I okay?????

#i WOULD start working on them but i have some other fics to work on this month #me when i join a secret santa exchange despite knowing i have a shit tob of other things to do #i’m digging my own grave #can the ADHD stop giving me a false sense of time management??? please?? #soukoku #bsd #bungou stray dogs #skk

[ratskool]

I’m like Johnny Truant in the tags of every goddamn post I make or reblog on this site and I’m not apologizing. If you want me to apologize come over to my house and you can talk to the minotaur about it

#House of leaves #im literally going insane these days I should go back to journaling but I’m also afraid of how far off the deep end I’ll go #Literally I am losing it and I’m being serious #I’m so fucking tired of being lonely and being left out and not being able to make connections #Sometimes I feel as if im doing things without realizing and no one is telling me about it #Other times it feels like I must have something incredibly wrong with my face or body and no one will say anything #People make plans and don’t bother to ask me if I want to join and then when I find out there’s a group chat that all my friends are in #Except me and when I asked if I could join I was given a bunch of reasons that were frankly bullshit why I couldn’t join #Are they talking shit about me? I know everybody there it’s not like I am a stranger #Am I just a stranger in this world as I unllikeable? I try my best to be nice and charitable but what am I missing? #Do I black out and say things and do things? Am I more mentally ill than I know? #The only reason (or one of the very few) why I stay alive is because of my horses because I know they would miss me and I already feel bad #Not seeing them everyday #I’m tired of being the odd one out I’m tired of being entertaining when necessary #I don’t want my only friends to be horses because it further alienates me from the rest of society and I just want to be accepted I’m not #Looking to fit in I just want connection and friendship and I can barely seem to manage that #Maybe I’m just not worth it.

[redhead-reporter]

º ✧ 。 okay okay sheesh, if y'all are gonna be that nice ? maybe i should do a BITE SIZED STARTER CALL !

#not dropping any of my current longer things just looking to give myself smaller/more manageable threads :) #stuff i can keep up with when i don't have spoons or time for longer things as we get closer to “the big day” #like imma give you SIDE EYE if it starts getting longer than two short paras you feel the vibe ? you see the vision ? #º ✧ 。 i’m still out but i’ll grab some stuff at the store ooc shit

[gothicprep]

ngl whenever I see people try to argue that things like adhd, depression, anxiety, etc aren’t expressions of neurochemistry but are instead a reaction to capitalism or something diabolically stupid like that, it always makes me think of this old tweet:

if aliens landed on the planet tomorrow and their only measurement of earth culture was our posts, they’d probably think capitalism is a synonym for general malaise.

#my own experience with bipolar sort of lends to me extremely not taking this shit seriously #and if you have this too you know what I’m talking about – the sort of things that preempt an episode don’t operate on logic and reason #even if you’re living a perfect life in a utopian society something would manage to get under your skin #and you’d either spend two weeks navel gazing or erratically overspending or something #you get very familiar with this when you have bipolar because unlike some other disorders which are really elevated extensions of emotions #or tendencies that all humans have… there isn’t a mentally well analog to bipolar disorder. it’s extremely abnormal #explaining depression to someone without major depressive disorder is going to by default feel like you’re talking past one another but it’ #not *completely* foreign to them #meanwhile explaining mania to another person will have them so lost unless they’ve been there themselves

[padfootastic]

hi! i've no idea how i came to your page but i realised i'd read two of your one-shots in ao3 before and had adored them (you'll probably get comments from me in future, btw) and i just wanted to say thank you for your writing and thank you for your prongsfoot<3

i've been very critical of this sort of new, cool and aloof and martyred version of remus lupin for quite a while now (honestly, where did all those traits come from?!) and gosh, you're so eloquent when talking about him!!!

i was wondering what your thoughts were on regulus black? because i think he's getting the same sort of royalty treatment as remus does by making him sort of-- er, perfect? i mean. i've seen so much recently of him basically saving the world single-handedly and i-- ugh. and james is always just there, like a useless idiot? it makes me irrationally angry, and this is coming from someone who enjoys jegulus quite a bit. my problem is that i don't know if this rejection i feel against those two comes from a place of genuine dislike of them or from a place of wishing sirius and james were not done so dirty.

anyway, again, thank you for your writing. it's truly beautiful. hope you have a great day!

omg hello 🥺 i’ve periodically opened tumblr, giggling like a loon, and logging off multiple times just to see this ask,,,,thank u sm , ur way too kind <3 and ur comment on ao3!!! i was just,,,,yeah,,,no words. thank u.

ooooooh i remember being asked something similar a while ago and i took the safe route and basically went ‘remus lupin-ification of regulus’ iirc. that still stands. but but. i’ve also got another answer here! all hail tumblr’s search system today!

i still basically stand by all of it, but adding onto the jegulus + sirius bits of it:

annoys tf outta me when regulus is turned into a victim and like sirius damned him to hell when he left . i have thoughts about the way both of them were treated (which,,,another time,,,this post is already getting too long lol) but i imagine the day sirius left to be a Good One for reg bc he thinks he’ll have his parents undivided attention now. i also think regulus is severely defanged in a lot of characterisations, as if he wasn’t a baby DE, as if he wasn’t a slytherin from the house of black, as if he wasn’t walmart sirius black. like man i’m almost offended on his behalf. i’m sure his shaking his lil fist up at us from wherever he is.

with jegulus…okay, i’ve only read a couple oneshots but that doesn’t mean i haven’t tried. i genuinely went thru so many fics trying to get something, anything to stick and i think the problem is me. fully. completely. without doubt. i just can’t deal with a situation where j&s aren’t each others no.1, or at the very least, equivalent to that. that’s where my issues w wolfstar started, same w this. jegulus also has the added horror of ‘james and reg sneaking behind sirius’ back’ which is just,,,,gosh,,,,i have So Many Thoughts ab that. all personal opinions, but still. they’re strong. it fucks me up just thinking about it. i also think the ship tries wayyyy too hard to fit the ‘best friend’s brother’ trope and ends up sacrificing characterisation for it. which,,,again,,,that’s fine but it’s all the ‘oh this is how it was!’ that gets to me. and then james :/// he gives off such weird energy lol. jegulus gives me drarry vibes, and james is treated almost exactly as harry is in a lot of those. reg also gets the saviour treatment, like draco, and both of their fuckery is toned down until they’re almost normal, like they never did any reprehensible shit. j&r, and d&h are placed on the same moral equivalence and it’s just a bit. hmm. okay. (my issue with this is how it leaks into the writing and suddenly i’m made to sympathise with draco bc harry slashed him w sectumsempra, but we conveniently forget he was gonna use an unforgivable, ykno?) so overall it just feels…pushing reg up and pulling james down to get them on equal footing. very similar to wolfstar lbr.

anyway. that’s a ramble and a half lmao.

also!! ‘a place of genuine dislike of them or from a place of wishing sirius and james were not done so dirty’ in my mind, both of these occupy a similar plane of existence. so very valid. for me, personally, hating remrem started as the latter and i eventually realised it’s also the former lol i was just mad a how sirius is bastardised to justify his ~deification and it eventually moved on to ‘wow i just. do not like him’. damn.

#anti jegulus #jegulus hate #tagging those just to be safe lol #also #haha love it that my hatred of remus is A Proper Thing now #it’s a knife being honed for years #and now i am Attacking #i’m so fed up lmaooo #it doesn’t help i keep being enabled on here 💀 #i’ve disliked him for years. but quietly. bc i thought it was just me #and now i’m here and can’t keep shut 😭 #it’s a problem lol #it’s also funny bc when i started using tumblr a year ago #i was…so careful #mincing my words and being all apologetic and shit #bc i was like. i don’t wanna step on any toes #‘i don’t want unwanted discourse’ #and now look at me #i think it’s mainly also bc i’ve managed to cultivate a niche. where all my anons r wonderful and mutuals r a+. #so i’m insulated from the outside drama #best way to live really #anyway. enough rambling. #obligatory disclaimer: i don’t care if someone is OOC. i just want to it to be indicated to in some capacity so i can choose s’all #that being said: my fav reg characterisation? him as a little loser #it’s the absolute best #he’s so ripe for it #bc he screams disgruntled younger sibling to me tbh #once again!!! thank u sm for being so lovely💜💜 #ppb #pen’s asks

[excalirebagel]

college pisses me off sooooooo much like 99% of all the stress and mental health problems and shit would be solved if they just added like… a two week spring break instead of one. Also add a fall break you sadists.

#devils advocate voice um actually you must learn proper time management ☝️🤓 #yeah no shit #I’ve learned enough about managing my time to know bad management looks like #and 15 weeks of rigorous courses with only a week break looks like poor management to me #what is the point of learning if all people do is a rush job #I’m so mad. #hal post