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unforth · 1 month

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Danmei and Baihe C Novels and Manhua Officially Licensed in English

Things are getting licensed fast enough that keeping a list like this up-to-date is basically impossible, but I saw someone asking in the tags so I figured I'd try. All titles are danmei unless otherwise noted (very little baihe is licensed so far). I've included Chinese titles and linked novelupdates for each title when I was able to find them, but sometimes publishers change the original titles so much that I can't track them down, apologies.

Basically: this is everything I know of as of April 12, 2024. There might be more. I tried.

For the latest danmei news, Danmeinews.com is a great resources.

Note that some of this information was sourced from this Carrd, last updated in March 2023.

Seven Seas:

The full list of danmei novels licensed by Seven Seas is here. The full list of danmei manhua licensed by Seven Seas is here.

These titles are in various stages of publication, from "entire series released" to "license literally announced less than a week ago." As far as I know, all Seven Seas titles are available world-wide, through major distributors and libraries, and in e-book and print formats.

Mo Xiang Tong Xiu titles:

The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System (Ren Zha Fanpai Zijiu Xitong).

Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation (Mo Dao Zu Shi)

Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation (Mo Dao Zu Shi) manhua

Heaven Official's Blessing (Tian Guan Ci Fu)

Meatbun Doesn't Eat Meat titles:

Case File Compendium (Bing an Ben)

The Husky and His White Cat Shizun (Erha he Ta de Bai Mao Shizun)

Remnants of Filth (Yuwu)

Meng Xi Shi titles:

Thousand Autumns (Qian Qiu)

Peerless (Wushuang)

priest titles:

Guardian (Zhenhun)

Stars of Chaos (Sha Po Lang)

Other titles:

Ballad of Sword and Wine (Qiang Jin Jiu) by Tang Jiuqing

I Ship My Rival x Me (Wo Kele Duijia x Wo de CP) manhua by PEPA

Run Wild (Saye) by Wu Zhe

The Disabled Tyrant's Beloved Pet Fish (Canji Baojun de Zhangxin Yu Chong) by Xue Shan Fei Hu

You've Got Mail: The Perils of Pigeon Post (Fei Ge Jiao You Xu Jin Shen) by Blackegg

Rosmei:

Rosmei licenses are Singapore distribution rights only. There is a list of international partners organizing group orders here. I've personally placed my orders through Yiggybean, as discussed in reply to this ask.

These titles are only being released as print editions.

Eta: titles that weren't originally on JJWXC (of which there are several here) WILL have e-book editions.

Ning Yuan titles:

BAIHE: At the World's Mercy by Ning Yuan

BAIHE (I think???) The Creator's Grace by Ning Yuan

priest titles:

Coins of Destiny (Liu Yao)

The Defectives (Can Ci Pin)

Drowning Sorrows in Raging Fire (Lie Huo Jiao Chou)

Other titles:

Albert from Earth by Jie Mo Jun

The Bat (Bian Fu) by Feng Nong

Breaking Through the Clouds (Po Yun) by Huai Shang

Don't You Like Me (Ni Shi Bushi Xihuan Wo) by Lv Tian Yi

The Earth is Online (Diqiu Shangxian) by Mo Chen Huan

Everyone Loves the Cannon Fodder (Chuan Cheng Wan Ren Mi de Paohui Zhuma) by Qie Zai Shan Yang

Global Examination (Qianqiu Gao Kao) by Mu Su Li

Gold Class Enforcers (Jinpai Dashou) by Pao Pao Xue Er

How to Survive as a Villain (Chuanyue Cheng Fanpai Yao Ruhe Huming) by Yi Yi Yi Yi

Kaleidoscope of Death (Siwang Wanhuatong) by Xi Zi Xu

The Killer of Killers (Sha Qing) by Wu Yi

Nan Chan by Tang Jiuqing

Obsessed (Ki Ma) by Wu Chen Shui

Wine and Gun (Jiu yu Qiang) by Mengye Mengye

Wow, You Guys are Really Good at Gaming (Nimen Nansheng Da Youxi Hao Lihai O~) by Yi Xiu Luo

Peach Flower House:

Peach Flower House titles are primarily for sale through their website and through some distributors, such as Amazon.com. Whether titles are e-book only, print only, or both varies by title.

Da Feng Gua Guo:

The Imperial Uncle (Huang Shu)

Peach Blossom Debt (Taohua Zhai)

Other Titles:

Golden Terrace (Huang Jin Tai) by Cang Wu Bin Bai

In the Dark (Zai Hei An Zhong) by Jin Shisi Chai

Little Mushroom (Xiao Mogu) by Shisi

University of the Underworld by Ziloi

Via Lactea:

The full list of danmei novels licensed by Via Lactea is here.

Via Lactea titles are primarily for sale through their website and through some distributors, such as Amazon.com. All titles are either print-only or e-book + print. Only a handful have actually been released, the rest are licensed and presumably in progress.

Jing Shui Bian titles:

Salad Days (Jing Jiu)

Silent Hearts (Mo Mai)

Other Titles:

Dawning (Liming Zhihou) by ICE

Euthanasia by Feng Su Jun

Falling (Luo Chi) by Yu Cheng

Psycho (Feng Zi) by Xiao Yao Zi

Limerence (Wo Xichen Ni Nan Pengyou Henjiule) by Jiang Zi Bei

Lip and Sword (Chun Qiang) by Jin Shisi Chai

The Missing Piece (Maoheshenli) by Kun Yi Wei Lou

Raising Myself in 2006 by Qing Lv

Rose and Renaissance (Wo Zhi Xihuan Ni de Renshe [Yule Quan]) by Zhi Chu

Killing Show (Sha Lu Xiu) by Fox

Soul Vibration (Linghun Saodong) by Dr.solo

To Rule in a Turbulent World (Luan Shi Wei Wang) by Gu Xuerou

Monogatari Novels:

It is unclear to me if Monogatari Novel titles are available for world-wide distribution, but there are group orders being organized or I think they can be ordered directly from their webpage; they are based in Spain. These titles can also be ordered from at least some major retailers. Note that there has been some controversy about Monogatari Novels.

BAIHE: A Clear and Muddy Loss of Love (Jing Wei Qing Shang) by Please Don't Laugh

BAIHE: Female General and Eldest Princess (NuJiangjun he Zhang Gongzhu) by Please Don't Laugh

How to Survive as a Villain (Chuan Yue Cheng Fanpai Yao Ru He Huo Ming) manhua by Yi Yi Yi Yi

The Legendary Master's Wife (Chuanshuo Zhi Zhu de Furen) by Yin Ya

The Silent Concubine (Ya Nu) by Qiang Tang

BAIHE: Soulmate manhua by Wenzhi Lizi

Aloha Comics:

A tiny, Hawaii-based press focusing on manhua. Titles appear to primarily be available through Diamond Comics. There are also pre-orders on Yiggybean. All of these are pre-orders, though the earliest are coming out by the end of April 2024 (about two weeks after when I'm posting this).

All these titles are manhua!

Day Off by Qing Cai

Here U Are by DJUN

Link Click by Li Haoling and Haoliners (not technically danmei!)

Nirvana in Fire (Lang Ya Bang) by Hai Yan (not technically danmei!)

Chaleuria:

As far as I can tell, Chaleuria has not updated their webpage since April 2023, so the current status of in-progress titles is unknown. All titles are digital and/or e-book, and I'm not sure how to purchase them as I haven't tried.

Complete Guide to the Use and Care of a Personal Assistant (Zhuli Shiyong Zhinan) by Why Radiance

Deep in the Act (Ru Xi) by Tongzi

Fake Slackers (Wei Zhuang Xue Zha) by Mu Gua Huang (no longer available)

From Body to Love (Leng Yan E Nan: Xian Shenhou Ai) by Wan Wan Yi Xia

Interstellar Power Couple (Xingji Qiangli Lianyin) by Kun Cheng Xiongmao (no longer available)

Intoxicated Friends (Zui Qing Zhi Pengyou) by Ye Shu Ying

The Long Chase for the President's Spouse (Zongcai Zhui Fu Lu Manman) by Three Thousand Crow Language

Reborn into a Hamster for 233 Days (Chong Shengcheng Cangshu de 233 Tian) by Yi Shu

Records of the Dragon Follower (Cong Long Ji) by Yueren Ge

Urban Tales of Demons and Spirits (Dushi Yaogui Lu) by Qie Er

World Hopping: Avenge Our Love (Ni Wufa Yuliao de Fenshou, Wo Du Neng Gei Ni Song Shang) by Xiaomao Bu Ai Jiao (no longer available)

Honorable Mentions:

There are a handful of titles I know of that are official translations of C Novels, where the C Novels aren't danmei or baihe but are often treated as adjacent within fandom (as in: I've seen people shipping characters from them, lol). I've included two above under the entry for titles from Aloha Comics (Link Click and Nirvana in Fire) and here are a couple others I currently know of:

The Grave Robbers' Chronicles (Daomu Biji) by Nanpai Sanshu (six volumes are available in English from Things Asian Press

The Legend of the Condor Heroes (She Diao Yingxiong Chuan) by Jin Yong from St. Martin's Press

Romance of the Three Kingdoms (Sanguo Yanyi), attributed to Luo Guanzhong, available in multiple translations

The Seven Heroes and Five Gallants (Zonglie Xiayi Chuan), attributed to Shi Yukun, there are two translations to English listed at the linked Wikipedia page

Note that to the best of my knowledge both of these are considered very substandard translations. I've personally read the official DMBJ translations and... yeah... and I've heard the LOCH translation is also mediocre.

I will add to the "Honorable Mentions" list if I find any other more mainstream titles with official translations.

Please don't come at me for including a couple classics. The characters shippable, what can I do? I've written fic for Romance of the Three Kingdoms...

A handful of other licenses are mentioned on the Carrd I linked at the beginning of this post; I have no idea the status of those titles and wasn't able to find information on them while putting together this post other than what was listed on that Carrd, so I've omitted them.

As a final note, I've personally purchased from every printer on this list EXCEPT Monogatari Novels (I'm holding off because of the controversy and will see how things play out) and Chaleuria (which I vaguely knew existed but nothing beyond that).

Seven Seas translation varies but the editing is general strong and the editions are sturdy and nice. Extras that have come with final volumes are lovely. I am buying literally everything they publish except for You've Got Mail, due to information about the author that was shared with me that the author is a transphobe. Note that Kinnporsche by Daemi is not danmei as it's Thai (and I've heard unsavory things about the author - I don't have a link for that as the information was shared with me on Discord, and I encourage you to do your own research rather than taking my word for it). No judgement if you make a different choice than me, to be clear, I'm just sharing the information I have and why I personally am not buying the books). Note that Seven Seas isn't without controversy, especially for treating their contractors poorly resulting in them unionizing. Some people have also been unhappy with the fidelity of their translations compared to the original Chinese (I've been satisfied personally but ymmv).

Peach Flower House has inconsistent inconsistent editing quality, but the books are very readable, and I'm excited that they're working with translators such as E. Danglars. I haven't bought any of their special editions so can't speak to their extras, but I've bought all their print translations and will continue to do so going forward.

I just got my first title from Via Lactea last week and finished reading it on Sunday, and the translation read very well and there were minimal errors. It also came with a bundle of cute extras, which I wasn't expecting and pleased, and writing this post has caused me to cave and spend $150 to buy the rest of their books. Thank you, tax refund. (Should I spend this money? No. Did I anyway? ...)

No Rosmei titles have actually shipped yet, so I can't speak to their quality, though the previews they've shared on social media (as outlined here, for example) read decently and I'm optimistic. The cover art is also lovely, and they've been communicative and responsive, for example they've already issued a statement related to a recent controversy over perceived poor marketing for At the World's Mercy.

Tl:dr, the above is absolutely everything I personally know about mlm and wlw Chinese novels and manhua that have been licensed for English publication. I hope it helps someone.

Now go forth, and buy some books!

#danmei #baihe #mxtx #priest #priest novels #tang jiuqing #mu su li #meng xi shi #yi yi yi yi #this probably needs a billion other tags but oh well #i've been meaning to write something like this for ages #like there's literally a similar post saved in my drafts #but apparently today is the day i don't have the willpower to not #as also evidenced by my literally buying some of these books while in the middle of putting the post together lmao #i broke a windshield wiper on sunday and SHOULD spend money fixing that instead but here we are #at least it's the passenger side wiper???#anyway as always just tryin to do my part to get people to read more than just mxtx #not that i don't love mxtx #but please guys there's so much amazing stuff out there READ MORE BOOKS

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lume-nosity · 1 year

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if they get isekai’d to our world

characters: tighnari, nilou, yun jin, eula, aether, lumine, heizou, kazuha, xiao

genre: fluff

an: this is completely self indulgent and i may make a part 2 of this when i’m feeling up for it. take this post before i vanish again for the week. i’ll see you all again on the weekends <3

notes: not proofread, gender neutral reader, swearing, written in hc form so it’s short/weird, reverse isekai trope, written in one day

reblogs are appreciated!

trusting tighnari with your plants.

he’s experienced in the botanical area, so have him tend to them. it’ll also give him an opportunity to study/observe said plant(s), so just have him watch your plants when you don’t have the time. he’ll be very happy.

but if he finds out that you haven’t been caring for them before the isekai fiasco, he will scold you. and then give you a lecture on why and how you should care for them.

if you have like a book on plants/biology/anything plant related, he’ll be thrilled to read such a book from you. he will spend sleepless nights reading it, and you have to remind him to take it easy.

nilou, yun jin, and eula playing just dance.

nilou’s having a great time, ended up getting high scores while eula is flustered but she still maintains her graceful stature when dancing.

eula didn’t want to play at first because she’s suspicious of the game, but she was dragged into playing so she didn’t have any other choice. she ended up liking it but of course she doesn’t admit it. and yun jin is just glad she gets to be a part of it.

all of you are dancing the night away frfr

having venti listen to your playlists.

as it’s known, he knows every song in existence. but listening to your playlists, he’s surprised he’s never heard of such a tune before. because, you know, he’s not from your world.

but even so, it reels him in wanting more. so he begs you to borrow your phone to listen to your playlists, especially new ones you just made.

when you left your phone somewhere unattended and venti came across it, he looked both sides before snagging your phone off of its place to listen to your playlists in secret. ehe.

aether & lumine being your errand buddies.

if you’re planning to go out to run an errand like buying groceries or something, these two are the first ones to volunteer to help. i know they do everything in teyvat; doing shit for everyone and all that but this is different. when they got isekai’d, they’re reunited! (i’m going to ignore the abyss sibling bullshit okay let me write in peace i want these two to be happy)

so they’re returning the favor by assisting you in anything! even in your house, they still help you with chores and whatnot! which made you worry for them, so you’ve decided to arrange a time where you all could sit and chat. they talked about their journeys to other worlds, and you could listen to them talk for hours.

introducing heizou to true crime documentaries.

ohhhhh boy you know he will binge the SHIT out of them. now that he doesn’t have to deal with missing pets, he has something interesting to indulge himself in.

he ends up figuring out who’s the culprit before the show could even reveal who. which shocks you, if you’re the type to take a long time trying to connect the dots.

if you show him some unsolved cases, you know damn well he’ll look/watch into it. you have a smart detective on your hands, and if he ends up solving them as well, you must be writhing in pride that you and heizou are the only ones who know the truth.

kazuha asking you to go out on a stroll from time to time.

one time when he accompanies you and your errand buddies because he wants to see what your world looks like in addition to lending another hand, he wants to see that again. the wind, the sky, the view, all of that. it’s all unique to him.

so, expect him to ask you if you’d like to go out on a little stroll for a while. it’s an excuse for him to feel what your world would be like, to digest its features and compliment it all in a poetic sense.

most likely points out the colors of the leaves you guys walk by. he’s just blabbering about nature while you’re out here digesting his words and your mind turns into an actual tree from listening.

teaching xiao everything you know about your world.

yes, this seems bland, but listen. xiao is oblivious to how teyvat works in terms of tradition/humans, and now that he’s isekai’d to your world, you have to teach this poor innocent individual.

he needs information in order to adapt to this new world he’s not familiar with, knowing there’s not really a way out.

xiao is listening intently and nodding to everything you say, asking questions at the same time.

this isn’t part of the headcanon, but he’s also cautious when you say you’re going to go out at night especially when aether & lumine are busy with other matters. if that were to happen he will be the one to step in. no danger will befall you when you have a yaksha by your side.

#✏️ lume writes #genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin fluff #genshin headcanons #tighnari x reader #nilou x reader #yun jin x reader #eula x reader #aether x reader #lumine x reader #heizou x reader #kazuha x reader #xiao x reader #x gn reader

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hollersparrow · 1 month

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just some 9-1-1 headcanons/plot bunnies

so i've kinda gone on a 9-1-1 deep dive that started out casual and rapidly turned into an obsession. a few things to note, i definitely think that buck and eddie have something (whether it's romantic or queerplatonic is up for grabs but there's something beyond friendship there and no one can convince me otherwise) and i am a strong subscriber to any tropes that strongly encourage found family/families so...make of that what you will

anyway, after binging all of the available episodes, i have several headcanons that i want to put out there (for some reason a lot of them are from season 5???)

ana realizing that there's more to eddie and buck's relationship than it seems in that scene from s5e2 when she brings christopher to the station. buck clocks that eddie has started panicking immediately and ana just like. *looks* at him for a few seconds in a way that just makes me think that this woman clocked that they have a deeper than normal connection to one another. that or she's heard about buck but obviously has never seen eddie and buck interact and is suddenly realizing exactly what people keep trying to tell her about

a buck/eddie-focused exploration of the aftermath of 'brawl in cell block 9-1-1'. buck freaking out once mitchell's been carted off to get his heart taken out and refusing to let eddie go anywhere while checking him for injuries, eddie having some uncomfortable realizations about just how affected buck was by the whole experience. personally, i feel that would lead to them actually talking about the sniper and all the mess that goes with it

lots of potential for temporary angst with eddie having a lot of big feelings about having failed as a husband in his marriage to shannon and not wanting to get married again b/c of it (thinks he doesn't deserve another shot at it? thinks there's something fundamentally wrong with him to where he can't? don't know how this would manifest exactly). personally, i see this eventually leading to him and buck realizing that they're more or less functionally married and they may as well reap some tax benefits from it but you can do whatever you want with that

buck goes to the funerals of many of the people who die on calls that he's a part of. it's mostly people that he directly worked on and he doesn't tend to tell anyone that he's a first responder that was involved (b/c of how devon's sister reacted in s1) but he does go to them.

kinda of tied to the headcanon above this but! buck getting adopted by a bunch of older queer folk following the deaths of mitchell and thomas in s2. he goes to the joint funeral that was planned for the two of them, in part b/c he wants/needs to and in part bc he accidentally took a few photos from the scrapbook from the scene (he shoved them in his pocket on instinct when thomas collapses). anyway, he shows up and the older queer community has rallied to show up at the funeral and they recognize him as someone who needs more found family and just adopt him into their ranks. i could see the 118 finding out about this soon after it happens or not until years later; maybe karen and hen finding out sooner than everyone else but buck asks them to keep it quiet?

s5e14 where jee-yun gets sick? what if it actually WAS leukemia and she somehow ends up needing some sort of donation (plasma? bone marrow? idk really anything about how cancer is treated). jee's put on a list and they start testing family members, none of whom work out until...buck. cue maddie not wanting to ask that of buck b/c of all the baggage that comes with daniel and the buckley parents are absolute assholes about it (along the lines of completely disregarding buck's autonomy as a human being in the face of their precious granddaughter being in trouble), maybe a chimney that isn't trying to be pushy about it but also just...can't help pushing a bit, a buck that so overwhelmed with everything that he's feeling that he goes off the rails a bit. obviously everything works out and buck donates or whatever needs to happen and jee-yun is completely fine b/c i don't actually want it to end badly

the entire 'buck's a sperm donor' family argument and maraget saying "you're a miracle baby yourself" made my fucking blood boil and i want to see a better exploration of the fallout of that statement b/c you just know that there was more to it than it just getting brushed off

buck telling maddie that he has a checklist that he goes through every time he wakes up post-coma in s6e12. chris and eddie being part of that list, where buck is just constantly checking up on them to make sure that they're still in LA (part of the reason why it's so easy for him to fall asleep/relax on the diaz couch or in their house in general). eddie doesn't notice the uptick in check-ins b/c he's too busy figuring out the least intrusive ways for him to check in on buck at all times b/c he NEEDS to know that buck is alive/breathing. once eddie notices though, he confronts buck about it

maddie asking buck to be her maid of honor for her wedding since hen is obviously going to have best man privileges. mostly just exploring the ridiculous that this brings up and everyone joking about buck in a dress (up to you whether he actually wears one to the wedding or not), but i have to include a side note that the buckley parents are dicks about it and have no sense of humour/fun

literally anything featuring athena being worried about buck as a maternal figure, i was so disappointed by her lack of interaction when buck was struck by lightning and, while i'm so fucking happy to have may acknowledging that buck is bobby's son too, we missed out on athena being devastated by the situation as well

there will probably be more of these to come at some point knowing myself.

#9 1 1 #evan buckley #eddie diaz #9-1-1 cast #buddie #headcanon #plot bunny #angst with a happy ending #fic idea #the buckley parents suck #buckley siblings #bobby nash #athena grant #hen wilson #chimney han #these will not leave my head so i'm sharing them #i don't know how to tag #send help bc i've become obsessed with a show/fandom again

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cloveroctobers · 8 months

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SHELTER — E.BUCKLEY | sept. prompts !

A/N: okay I failed myself in saying I wouldn’t fall victim to being in love with Buck…sorry Eddie. I also did say I was going to write for Eddie too in my other sept. prompt but when you do dives on tiktok they always provide the tea/controversy so idk rn lol maybe,,,maybe not! if you catch my drift—it’s giving thee ick. Anyways here’s some fluff! I’ve been binge-watching the show for awhile now ( I occasionally watched it from time to time when it was live on tv) from the beginning and I’m currently half way through season five and don’t want to get to season six just yet since who knows when the next season will be. I’m looking at you companies who feel like it’s okay to take advantage of people :) 🖕🏾

Prompts are from here + I’m using: 22.) Misty morning at the beach + 23.) Cold night cuddles + 29.) Rain storm

WARNINGS: mentions of mental health + hints of SAD, mentions of cults, mentions of death, slight language, protectiveness + fluff.

*GIF AND PHOTO DO NOT BELONG TO ME!

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there was something about September’s that never sat right with Amaryllis, “Lissy.” It always brought nothing but gloom along with dread to her entire being and perhaps it had to do with her upbringing (was it the fact that her father was also born in September?) that set the chemicals off in her brain; even if she didn’t intentionally think about it. It always happened around this time but Lissy knew what it was physically but learned to push it away especially when the disappearance of Maddie came to surface.

And when she returned to Buck’s place spotting the purple bruise that took up a good portion of his eye, she also stuffed this dull feeling further away although it almost always still lingered no matter how much she shooed it away. When she witnessed the harm done to Buck, her instinct was to immediately go after the person who gave that to Buck. Her gut feeling was telling her that this didn’t come from work, of course it could have (being a old fire fighter herself) if things went left on the job but Lissy’s seen enough wounds in her life to know this was blunt force inflicted by someone else.

Her fiancé couldn’t lie for anything, trying his best to dodge her brown eyes and move around the house but once someone brought anguish to her man, a fire bubbled in her chest. She was always ready to protect despite knowing Buck’s impulsive behavior, she was already pointing the finger at someone else. Until she learned it came from Chimney, which made her stand frozen at the top of the steps that led to Buck’s bedroom.

“I’m sorry, who?” Lissy had her eyes in slits, making sure what she heard was right.

Buck peered down at his folded hands as he took a seat on the edge of the bed, “It was Chimney, okay? He found out that I knew more than he did about Maddie and he didn’t take it so well.”

“…I understand being frustrated but taking it out on you is not okay.”

Buck held his head down as he whispered, “Maybe I should have been more vocal about what Maddie was going through…then maybe just maybe my sister would be here right now.”

Lissy bit down on her bottom lip harshly. She also knew about Maddie’s mishap with Jee-Yun when Buck told her one night—just venting and she didn’t say anything to Chimney either, her concern was also just trying to talk to Maddie and check in with her but unfortunately that was not enough. If Chimney knew this would he have taken his anger out on Lissy too? Regardless Lissy was the type of person to always have her guard up with a smile yet she was also good friends with Chimney, he was a great friend but she wouldn’t lie and say she also wasn’t pissed with him right now.

She was just itching to call him up or pull up on him to give him a piece of her mind too. Lissy knew what mountains of pain can do to you and sometimes you don’t react the way that you should, which is why she tried her best to swallow her anger so that she could comfort the man she gets to call her husband some day.

“We don’t know that,” Lissy starts as she steps to Buck to grip his warm face, “because Maddie is going through a dark space and she wants to figure it out on her own, without us, when she doesn’t have to but felt like that was her best option for her and Jee. Sure we absolutely could have mentioned it to Chimney but Maddie is always going to seek help the best way she knows how. That’s just how she is, we know that and it’s not any of our faults or her’s. Life is hard sometimes…even harder when your head is against you opposed to your heart…and I’ll forever stand by the fact that you did not deserve what Howard did. You hear me?”

Buck wouldn’t meet Lissy’s ink colored eyes but she fought to catch his and when his fresh spring rain colored ones met her’s, he held her stare. Her eyes swam with so much determination and care, although he didn’t necessarily believe or agree with what the woman with the simmering auburn hair was saying to him in this moment, he felt how sincere her words were.

She was always going to be by his side, much like his big sister was, even if it was at a distance for a split time.

Maddie’s time.

“I love you Liss,” Buck croaked out, his hands sliding over her hips to lock around the small of her back before pressing his cheek into her stomach.

Her hands cradled the back of his shoulders and the other pressed to the back of his head. She leans down to place a kiss to the top of his deep brown hair, “And I love you back.”

A trip to the east coast was a drastic change in weather and scenery. Buck was originally from the east coast so this felt familiar while Lissy’s roots were in South Carolina. She came up with the idea to go on this trip to just get away from everything, even if it was only for a weekend. Buck was reluctant to go on his trip since he felt like maybe he should be out there with Chimney and his niece searching for Maddie, if he picked up his damn phone that is! Chimney did however when Lissy called him the next night while Buck was in the shower. Although in Buck’s perspective, he just wanted to know where Maddie is and if she was safe. If she left without him or Chimney, then there was a reason for that. That was something he understood although Chimney did not.

“Hello, Amaryllis.” Chimney greeted dryly as he decided to answer that night.

No one’s ever simply called Lissy by her government really—unless you were her wicked deceased father, everyone had nicknames in the 118 family but they both knew this conversation would be serious. Chimney kept the phone ringing for what seemed like forever and Lissy was also prepared to leave a voicemail if needed.

Lissy scoffed, “huh. Howard. so glad you know how to pick up a phone. I have something very simple to tell you so I’ll keep this brief. Don’t you ever put your hands on Buck like that again, or we’re definitely going to have some problems and I don’t want to have a problem with you brother-in-law.”

“Oh, Is that so?”

“That’s what I said, yeah.”

“Imagine if Maddie did what Buck did, how exactly would you feel?”

“I wouldn’t put my hands on another abused woman that’s for damn sure.”

Chimney’s quiet then, “no you probably wouldn’t…but I’m not ready to forgive Buck so tell him to stop trying to reach out and you can also cut the shit with your threats.”

Chimney knows Lissy’s backstory and how much that screwed her brain up, considering they had to pull her in on a case that had to do with cults once in the outskirts of the city.

She had to get into the mind of a cult-leader much like her own father was. That was what really pushed her to seek out help again (the years of dealing with child psychologists would forever be embedded into her brain) and it really wasn’t that long ago that Lissy stopped. After all, maybe she understood Maddie more than she was letting on, although it was different with Maddie being a mother and Lissy handling childhood trauma, she was still the most empathic; which commonly threw others for a loop majority of the time. However Chimney’s anger was blinding everything and he couldn’t be reasonable right now.

Lissy states, “As long as I make myself clear.”

“Well let me make this clear to you, Maddie is the mother of my child, I love her and she deserves to be here with us. She deserves to know that she’s not a terrible person or mother although I’m ticked with her too but Jee-Yun deserves a mother in her life! I can’t just sit on my ass like Buck and let her figure this all out on her own. what kind of man would I be if I wasn’t by her side?”

Lissy talks with experience,“I get that Chimney and we love her too, never stopped. Maddie practically raised Buck so why would you think for one second that he would ever stop loving her? because he chose a different route than you would? He’s her brother. I get that you want to be there but not everyone heals the best or copes well when their loved ones are hovering, especially if they’re afraid to hurt them again.”

“Maddie never hurt anyone! Don’t you get it?!”

More than he would ever know.

“She doesn’t see it that way.”

Chimney snaps, “You seem to have the answers for everything don’t you Amaryllis? do you know where Maddie’s run off to huh? Are you also keeping secrets like your shit stain of a fiancé?”

“I’m telling you to watch how you talk about him,” Lissy deeply exhales her warning as her fingernails dig into the palm of her hand, while she stands at the island counter before carrying on with her phone pressed to her ear, “Buck is still your chosen family and you love him too despite the anger you’re throwing around. I hope you get through that at some point, Howard. Best of luck to you, give Jee my love.”

Her calm demeanor irritated Chimney so he finalizes, “I won’t, so save it.”

And with that the line goes dead.

When she’s off the phone, she’s pinching at the space in between her brows and jumps a bit as she feels hands circle around her waist. She smells Buck’s body wash of Cedarwood, Vetiver, tangerine, and Oud before he presses his chin into her shoulder.

“Everything okay?” he quietly asks, his voice almost soothing that feeling that wants to seep upwards to her brain again.

A small smile stretches onto her full lips as she rests a hand right on top of Buck’s locked ones that are wrapped around her waist, “it will be, baby. What do you think about heading out to Hampton Beach this weekend?”

“Like? New Hampshire?” Buck questions, a slight furrow appearing against his brows, “Not that I wouldn’t love a baecay with you but is now really the best time for that?”

Lissy snorts at the nickname for vacation which lets her know he’s been watching some vlogs again and says, “everyone needs a get away once in awhile. We can discuss it more over dinner…so what are we feeling tonight? Anything except Thai, my stomach needs a break, Ev.”

He raises his hands in surrender as Lissy turns to face him. His eyes scan over her face, noticing the bags on her pretty freckled face that slowly became more prominent. She still looked stunning to him in any state and when she sent him a sweet smile that usually seemed to reach her eyes, he couldn’t tell her no.

“How about Venezuelan?” It was one of her favorites and Buck knew how to compromise in this loving relationship, “and that trip? I’ll really think about it.”

He couldn’t promise but since his mind was always running, he knew he would anyway.

With some persuasion from mainly Bobby and everyone else, that’s how Buck and Lissy were on a flight to “The Switzerland of America!”

Lissy’s not sure how long she’s been awake in the bed post, laying beside Buck, head resting on her tucked hands as she stares out towards the curtain covered window. The hotel was surely giving bed and breakfast with its colonial style and old like furniture but felt charming nonetheless. That’s until the creaking sounded with each movement, more so than at night that had her questioning if there were ghosts watching them sleep which happened to be much louder than Buck’s snoring apparently.

The auburn haired woman completely forgot to put a nose strip on him when they got here while he shuffled around in the bed like he commonly did but after the afternoon flight, they rushed up to their room, shared a shower and went downstairs to the tavern in the late afternoon a little before it closed at five for: one glass of Riesling and a bottle of Heineken for Buck, a cup of chowder on the side that Buck raved about, whereas Lissy personally thought it was bland and steak tips for himself, while Lissy went for the linguini tossed with herb roasted vegetables, which of course Buck teased her for.

“You’re not getting any of my beef, those veggies are not gonna feel you up, babe.” Buck laughed as he stabbed his fork into the steak.

Which wasn’t necessarily true since he had no issue sharing a spoon full of chowder about ten minutes ago before their main dishes came out.

Lissy hummed, disagreeing since she was definitely a pasta loving woman and got filled off carbs pretty quick but decided to taunt the man as she said, “I’ve already had my share earlier in the shower don’t you remember? I think I’ll be just fine.”

Buck stopped chewing to meet Lissy’s wink and had a few flashbacks of what was supposed to be a innocent shower turned not so innocent, “Behave.”

Now it was Saturday morning and she was awake before Buck. Lately she’s been waking up pretty early although she mainly worked the night time shift as a medical examiner, which Buck hated if she stayed over at his place. They hardly got the chance to spend nights together with their hectic schedules. Trust this wasn’t always Lissy’s desired path of careers but ultimately it probably made the most sense. With Lissy’s draining violent and psychological upbringing, she thought she would never see the light of day until she got away from the farm and was placed into an orphanage and then a helpful foster home that ended up wanting to adopt her.

She learned so much throughout her twenty-eight years of life and wanted to provide some sort of comfort to those who have passed on along with those that lost them. She wasn’t able to do that for her own mother who died not long after the birth of her baby sister, granted she was only six but she had to witness it. At least with death on the farm where the cult her father led, they gave each a proper send off.

That always stuck with Amaryllis no matter how twisted it may seem to outsiders.

“What are we doing today?” Buck says with sleep still deep in his tone, pressing his nose into Lissy’ shoulder, breathing her in, as he curls up against her.

It’s seven-nineteen in the morning.

Lissy blinks, “let’s go to the beach.”

“To get our early morning work out in? We didn’t get to go on our walk last night, so hell yeah, let’s go!”

Buck is full of cheers but Lissy let’s out a small laugh.

“I didn’t say all that. We’re on vacation! Who wants to work out on vacation?”

Gym rats, that’s who! Buck was 75% there.

“I’m gonna have alcohol poisoning by how many times you say ‘vacation’ on this trip aren’t I?”

“Oh, Shut up, Ev.”

Buck got used to Lissy appreciating the little things and yeah he found it enduring. Although he initially thought of someplace better than New Hampshire, he still planned on taking her all over the world since she never had that experience. Buck wanted to try his damn hardest to give Lissy the world.

Once upon a time, Lissy had a sheltered life, it was what she was used to and Buck was rebellious and always strived to do what someone told him not to do. They might have not liked it but at least he was able to say he fucking did it no matter the outcome.

Take that how you will.

And he found something special in the woman that lay before him. He wanted to share and see the world with her because there was no one else he wanted or imagined that more with. She made him happy and feel truly understood, always ready to listen to his side first, to be adventurous, and open to loving all that he is. In a way sure she made him nervous at times, since he’s never felt like he could be so raw in relationships before but he didn’t have to question when it came to her.

He guess it was true when they say you know you found the one the day you peer into their eyes long enough.

He’s chuckling before he presses a kiss to her clothed shoulder underneath the sheets, turning over his shoulder to reach for his phone to peer at the time since the alarm clock was turned on a odd angle on Lissy’s side of the bed.

“Eh, I’d rather lay here a little longer first. Let’s get up around seven-thirty or seven-forty five, huh?”

They were both early birds.

“Sure,” Lissy shrugs as Buck gets comfortable throwing his arm over her comforter covered body.

His touch was all she needed to close her eyes.

It was eight fifty when they settled onto the beach which was eight minutes away by car. The plaid blanket Lissy had spread out for them on the sand was just enough as they sat shoulder to shoulder, eyes out on the pale blue-gray waves that spun around on this Misty morning on the beach. Buck had his cup of flat white coffee, which he had to switch with Lissy since his iced coffee was too cold for him now on this sixty-five degree beach. He didn’t even care for coffee like that but he really got accustomed to it once he became a firefighter and it kept him wide-awake during over-time shifts.

“You know? this flat white isn’t too bad. It’s not what you always get right?”

Lissy’s nose crinkles a bit in humor as she sips at the cold iced mocha, which was a little too sweet for her liking but she masked it well, “I asked for extra milk and two sugars just in case.”

“So you knew—wow.” Buck stuck his tongue into his cheek, “You really do love me.”

“Yeah I do and don’t you forget it,” Lissy playfully pointed at the blond who slipped a hand around her back to rub as she leaned into him so he could kiss her temple and provide some warmth back.

And they sunk into each other as they watched the ocean come alive. Normally Buck didn’t mind the ocean but after with what happened with Christopher…the thought of the big body of water did give him a bit of anxiety until therapy gave him some peace. It also helped that he always had the love of his life to steer his mind away from the worries of life…for a little while at least.

The beach was serene and there werent too many people around that lingered yards away; Buck was sure that would be a complete contrast as the town rose to the day despite the gloom the skies brought.

Buck mumbled against Lissy’s hair, “Will you still say the same when I kick your butt at the arcade when it opens later?”

“Thats debatable.”

“I knew it,” Buck shared a laugh with the freckled face woman.

The couple later ventured off to another restaurant on the boardwalk for lunch around eleven thirty, eating lightly since their bellies were slightly full from the coffee before trailing down the boardwalk hand in hand. From souvenir shops where they got dorky but cute matching lounge shirts, to candy stores where Buck had a field day and wanted to take some home for Christopher since he was sure he would eat his share before they boarded the plane on Sunday afternoon, to finally stopping at a jewelry shop where Lissy went crazy buying all sorts of crystals that Buck still had no idea what they even mean. She even bought him a little glass turtle necklace that he just had to proudly wear around for the rest of the evening.

They ended up at the arcade by five pm and it was basically all fun between the two. Of course both wanted to win and it was close but the last game…Lissy had Buck in the end.

Literally and figuratively.

Buck sighs, “Alright fine, what do you want?”

“Kiss my ring first.”

“Oh this ring? The 1.5ct 18k opal stone with Moissanite accents? I don’t think your partner would like that very much.” He’s holding onto her fingers with pride and a smirk.

“Who’s to say he’s the one who gave it to me? Perhaps I’ve made this purchase all on my own, Mr.! Loving yourself first is the true key to finding love in someone else.”

“Well that’s true and I can’t be mad at that…but just curious, did you find that somebody?”

Lissy grins up at Buck as she locks her arms over his shoulders and Buck keeps his hands playfully raised, “I sure did, sugar. I’m looking right at him.”

And Buck seals her words with a kiss, guiding her right by the chin so their lips could meet. Buck can feel the soft tickle of her breath beneath his nose as they held each other in place, before they slowly moved their lips together in sync. His rosy lips were always so soft against her full and sweet ones and Lissy never got tired of kissing Buck. He always held her with so much tenderness and any day in his arms felt like a vacation to her.

When they broke apart, forehead to forehead, her round eyes flicked up to Buck’s awaiting spring floating into summer eyes, “I want the stuffed lobster.”

Buck snorted as he rolls his eyes up to the ceiling a bit, “yeah, of course you do. C’mon then.”

She bounced on her toes, letting her hands slide down from his chest just for him to grip her hand once more, leading her to the counter to claim her gift.

They’re back on the boardwalk with Buck snapping solo pictures of Lissy modeling at ease (along with off guard ones) with the vibrant red lobster and people moving about. It’s around seven with the sky slowly shifting to navy and the puff of clouds remaining gray; the air is still steamy but breezy and the married couple to be realizes their time on the illuminated boardwalk will be cut short as a single raindrop falls to the center of Lissy’s parted hair.

“Hey,” Lissy peeks up at the sky then, while Buck is getting his poses out in the mirror outside with a bucket hat and shades on.

Buck is asking Eddie on FaceTime, “How do I look man?”

“Like an assclown.” Lissy hears as she looks around the boardwalk, noticing that people began to take cover into the nearby stores.

Lissy takes that as a sign and starts, “Ev…”

Just as the rain begins pelting hard against the wooden walkway, giving the indication that it would definitely hurt if they decided to run through it.

“Liss?” Buck calls out as he watches her balance the stuffed lobster in between her thighs then gathered her blown out hair up into claw clip after quickly tying it into a ponytail, “Eddie it’s down pouring. I’ll call you later!”

She steps back into the hard rain, a single arm spread out in her copper sweater, while the other holds her lobster, russet dress underneath twirling a bit with a spin she does, a wide smile spreading out onto her lips as she calls out over the loud water, “let’s go!”

He calls back, “Where to?”

“Anywhere!” She laughs and Buck can’t help but to shake his head as he tosses the hat back on the hook then places the shades onto the near by table.

He runs out to her then, interlacing his soft but strong hand into her own, water saturating both of their faces harshly and he dips his head at Liss before they take off together into the rain storm full of laughter and full of love.

Buck and Lissy couldn’t tell you how long they sat in the rental car but it wasn’t nearly as long as they ran in the rain together. He questioned if it would be weird ordering some delivery service for dinner to arrive at the hotel that had a tavern downstairs but Lissy simply shrugged her shoulders as her drying hair became bigger in its natural state.

Buck left briefly to sit in front of the fireplace outside of the tavern in the lobby which reminded him of his stuffy grandparents living room, waiting on their dinner after yet another lengthy shower. Everything seemed to be more in slow motion, like time was infinite for them both. When their dinner arrived, Buck wasted no time getting back to their charming bedroom to see Lissy sitting cross legged on the bed, still in a robe eating a mud pie that looked real familiar on the menu last night.

“No way are you eating that without me.” Buck comments as he places the bag onto the desk nearby.

Lissy covers her mouth as she tries to chew through the heaviness, “surprise! I’ll share.”

“How nice of you,” Buck laughs as he begins taking the containers of food out just for Lissy to appear behind him holding the dessert up to his lips with a fork.

Buck sighs in contentment, opening his eyes back to see Lissy nodding at him in agreement, “That has no business being that freaking good…you think we can have that as the wedding cake?

Lissy’s chest swells just thinking about the day, although they haven’t set a date yet and Buck talks about the wedding more than she does lately, it still brings her immense joy that someone like Buck would want to do life with her. He was patient and she learned all about his past relationships, which were way more than her’s—which she didn’t judge him for by any means but sometimes she still had to pinch herself to see if this was all real.

“It’s certainly a option, baby.” She runs her fingers over his stubble.

Together they sit back against the bed, Lissy in between Buck’s legs as they eat out of their containers of food, Lissy holding her own in her lap while Buck’s is off to the side of his, the brick wall behind the post bed makes the room chiller but being in each other’s space was all the shelter they need.

Lissy finds herself turning over her shoulder to look at Buck as he’s stuffing his face. When he feels her dark eyes burning into him, he flicks his gaze away from his meal, cheeks full as he sends a boyish laugh her way with a lift of his chin.

“Stop looking at me Mrs. Buck and eat your food.” He says, holding her stare as a single hand gets lost in her much thicker auburn hair.

Lissy laughs, “only if we can have a late night cuddle?”

“Is that not what we’re doing?” Buck asks, sliding his hand to rest back on her thigh.

Lissy shrugs as she faces her meal again, “I’m actually kinda cold.”

“What? Not my woman who likes to keep the thermostat on Antarctica. Wait…are you wearing anything under there?” Buck slides his hand up her torso first but she slaps his hand from lifting the opening of the robe.

She wags her finger in front of Buck’s eyes repeating, “Not uh, eat your food.”

Buck rolls his head around with a groan, “well how am I supposed to eat this if I’m curious now?”

“Just look at Brutus over there.” She points at the stuffed lobster that sits in the desk chair.

Buck pursed his lips after a moment, “My god that thing is ugly.”

“Don’t talk about our son like that!”

“Our what?” Buck side eyed Lissy who fought back a laugh.

“He has feelings.”

“Babe, I don’t know if you know this but that’s a stuffed animal and it doesn’t have emotions.”

“That’s the problem with men, y’all don’t know how to be in touch with your feelings.”

“Now wait a minute,” Buck frowns, “Karen or was it May? Somebody! did tell me I’m a cancer moon or something like that. I think I’m very much in touch with my feelings.”

“Hmm, I’m still in disbelief and think you’re more on the Gemini-Cancer cusp.”

Buck blinks, “yeah…whatever that means but it feels offensive so I think we’re ready for bed now.”

“I didn’t finish my nachos,” Lissy whines as Buck is closing up their containers and moving them elsewhere.

Buck shrugs as he leans back against the pillows still sitting up somewhat and pulls Lissy to rest against his chest, “Too bad. It’s my turn to hold you tonight, you did say you were cold and I don’t want you getting sick.”

Lissy huffs as she nestled her cheek into his chest, “…I won’t complain.”

“I know you won’t,” Buck laughs as he squeezes her shoulder and let’s his other hand rest on her hip.

She leans a kiss on his neck and before she can close her eyes for the night, she spies the light box on his side of the bed. She fears that feeling will come back and settle in like dry cement once they’re both back in Los Angeles but for tonight, she revels in the safety of Buck’s arms.

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halvedsummer · 10 months

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hi everyone, happy opening! v excited to be here & give u:

ban yeoreum, 23. struggling student by day, unretired nightrunner by... well, night. youngest child living her best rat girl summer-- if the rat was a borderline alcoholic. unfortunately cursed with a smartass mouth and a habitual need to only do the wrong things over and over.

if that sounds fun, please ❤️ this to plot! discord (preferred!) and ims available.

sparknotes background: 2nd & youngest child of the bans. mom's a little bit in debt because she's got a love for get-rich-quick schemes, and daddio kicks the bucket before she hits double digits. at least she's got her older brother to rely on!

decides early on, somewhere between their power being shut off & eating shitty synth food 3x a day, that being poor is not for her, and so she studies like hell. eventually gets into med school 🎉🎉, but by this point, she's old enough and experienced enough class inequality to be over the glittry promise of astra.

now, she's just trying to do what she can to stay above the poverty line. it's really just a constant game of reverse limbo, not helped much by her bi-weekly binge drinking sessions that end with her blacked out in the worst of places.

currently employed at apollo med as an unimpressed + underpaid receptionist, but she's there to see the grisly scenes. occasionally picks up extra shifts at world diner for extra $$, because her manager was rly nice and let her study when she was working there as a high-schooler.

used to do a little bit of racing on the side, but quit since she was caught by her brother. misses the extra change she got from it & misses the adrenaline rush even more. bike's her most prized possession, along with being probably the most expensive thing she owns.

personality-wise? always on the go, because she'll be forcibly caught by sleep debt if not. leg shaker now and 4ever. when devices fuck up, u smack them to get them to work; yeoreum thinks that the same applies to people. grudgingly optimistic, but also a realist. just bc of the whole, like, being alive thing. makes the worst choices for the plot of it all, because, she's got misplaced faith it'll be fine in the end.

chara inspos: faith lehane (btvs), white (home school), yun saebom (happiness), jessica jones, and this tiktok.

#rmnt:intro #ims and welcomes in the morning!

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the-complexity-of-love · 2 months

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Fandoms & Ships

I am a true nerd, and as such, continously seek out new media and their fandoms, and become involved with them, while also cyclically coming back to the ones I already love. I am a romantic, and I love see love in general (all types of love, not just romantic!), so I am also a very big shipper!

I don't always have a set ship(s) for every fandom I find myself in, nor do I think it necessary to try and "prove" that mine are better than other ships. I like what I like, and I like seeing what others like as well. So I might have OTPs, but I also like engaging with content for all kinds of ships, even true rarepairs.

I also don't think it necessary for a fandom to have ships, so just because I have a listed ship that I like/love, doesn't mean I can't have neutral/objective thoughts and opinions about that particular piece of media.

That being said, here's a list of fandoms I come back to, or keep up with, and a list of ships I have a preference for. OTPs are bolded! Oh, and media (as in the series, books, shows, etc.) are rated according to my opinion!

(This list is subject to change.)

Ongoing Media:

A Sign of Affection (/10)

Nagi Itsuomi/Itose Yuki

Nagi Kyōya/Fujishiro Rin

Iyanagi Shin/Nakazono Emma

Bungo Stray Dogs (/10)

Dazai Osamu/Nakahara Chūya

Akutagawa Ryūnosuke/Nakajima Atsushi

Edogawa Ranpo/Edgar Allan Poe

Black Butler (/10)

Ciel Phantomhive/Elizabeth Midford

Chainsaw Man (/10)

Hayakawa Aki/Angel Devil

Hunter x Hunter (/10)

Gon Freecss/Killua Zoldyck

Hisoka Morow/Illumi Zoldyck

Chrollo Lucilfer/Kurapika

Meruem/Komugi

Jujutsu Kaisen (/10)

Geto Suguru/Gojo Satoru

Itadori Yūji/Fushiguro Megumi

Okkotsu Yūta/Maki

Fushiguro Toji/His Wife (Mama Fushiguro)

Chosō/Me

My Hero Academia (/10)

N/A

SK8 The Infinity (/10)

Nanjō Kojirō/Sakurayashiki Kaoru

Hasegawa Langa/Kyan Reki

Shindo Ainosuke/Kikuchi Tadashi

(Disney) Twisted-Wonderland

Malleus Draconia/Yuu (Player Character)

Kalim al-Asim/Jamil Viper

Almost Everyone/Me

Completed Media:

Attack on Titan (/10)

Eren Jaeger/Mikasa Ackermann

Armin Arlert/Annie Leonhart

Ymir/Historia

Levi Ackermann/Hange Zoë

Falco Grice/Gabi Braun

Avatar: The Last Airbender & The Legend of Korra (/10 & /10)

Zuko/Katara

Sokka/Suki

Korra/Asami

Wu/Mako

Bolin/Opal

Assassination Classroom (/10)

Akabane Karma/Nagisa Shiota

Karasuma Tadaomi/Irina Jelvavić

Bing An Ben (/10)

He Yu/Xie Qingcheng

Demon Slayer (/10)

Kamado Tanjirō/Tsuyuri Kanao

Hashibira Inosuke/Kanzaki Aoi

Agatsuma Zenitsu/Kamado Nezuko

Rengoku Senjurō/Kamado Nezuko

Iguro Obanai/Kanroji Mitsuri

Rengoku Kyōjurō/Tomioka Giyū

Tomioka Giyū/Kochō Shinobu

Shinazugawa Sanemi/Kochō Kanae

Uzui Tengen/Hinatsuru/Makio/Suma pls don't get mad at me

2HA (/10)

Mo Ran/Chu Wanning

Mei Hanxue/Xue Meng

Nangong Si/Ye Wangxi

Golden Terrace/Golden Stage (/10)

Fu Shen/Yan Xiaohan

Haikyū!! (/10)

Tanaka Ryūnosuke/Shimizu Kiyoko

Sakusa Kiyoomi/Miya Atsumu

JWQS (/10)

Qi Yan | Qiyan Agula/Nangong Jingnu

Qiyan Nomin/Nangong Shunu

MDZS (/10)

Lan Wangji/Wei Wuxian

Lan Xichen/Jin Guangyao

Song Lan/Xiao Xingchen/Xue Yang

Jin Zixuan/Jiang Yanli

Lan Sizhui/Jin Ling

Wen Ruohan/Lan Qiren

Naruto (/10)

Too Many, of Several Different Flavors (I'm a multishipper)

Qian Qiu (/10)

Yan Wushi/Shen Qiao

She-Ra (/10)

Adora/Catra

Bow/Glimmer

Hordak/Entrapta

Sea Hawk/Mermista

Scorpia/Perfuma

Sha Po Lang (/10)

Chang Geng/Gu Yun

SVSSS (/10)

Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu (.../Liu Qingge...)

Mobei-jun/Shang Qinghua

Yue Qingyuan/Shen Jiu | Shen Qingqiu

Liu Mingyan/Sha Hualing

TGCF (/10)

Hua Cheng/Xie Lian

Feng Xin/Mu Qing

He Xuan/Shi Qingxuan

Quan Yizhen/Yin Yu

Jun Wu/Mei Nianqing

Pei Xiu/Ban Yue

Pei Ming/Yushi Huang

Twilight (/10)

Edward Cullen/Bella Swan

Jasper Hale/Alice Cullen

Emmett Cullen/Rosalie Hale

Carlisle Cullen/Esme Cullen

Sam Uley/Emily Young

Paul Lahote/Rachel Black

Jared Cameron/Kim

Leah Clearwater/Me

Jacob Black/Leah Clearwater

Charlie Swan/Eternal Happiness

Charlie Swan/Sue Clearwater

Xiao Mogu (/10)

Lu Feng/An Zhe

Yu Wu (/10)

Mo Xi/Gu Mang

Yuri!!! On Ice (/10)

Victor Nikiforov/Katsuki Yuri

Otabek Altin/Yuri Plisetsky

Zhen Hun (/10)

Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan

Other:

Harry Potter (/10)

Remus Lupin/Sirius Black

Evan Rosier/Barty Crouch Jr.

Marlene Mckinnon/Dorcas Meadowes

James Potter/Regulus Black

Lily Evans/Mary McDonald

James Potter/Lily Evans

let's just say once again that I'm a multishipper

Star Wars (/10)

Rey/Ben Solo | Kylo Ren

Han Solo/Leia Organa

Anakin Skywalker/Padmé Amidala

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darwingirl · 1 year

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I’ve trying to understand my obsessive and besotted repose to Cang Lan Jué. I’ve watched it five times in a rather short period of time. I haven’t multi-binged since I was a kid and read “Little Men” nine times for completely different reasons and satisfactions. I am mainly a danmei fan, and checked out CLJ just to “see” if I might like it. Actually watched part of the first episode and thought it was “twee,” but the kicker is that I only watched part of that episode.

Then watched “Eternal Love” and was completely unexcited about its hetero plot lines (except maybe the fox and the god who wiped his name off the love list eons ago), so never again. But my daughter mentioned that folks really liked CLJ, so I went back, watched the entire first episode and the rest is obsession.

So now I’ve given lots of thought and many viewing hours to what it is that makes CLJ so captivating for me. Dongfang Qingcang—incredibly sexy. Yeah, but it’s the fact that he’ll go all the way to “I’m a little fairy,” to MLS and back that makes me love his willingly to abandon his gravitas and play for laughs. The gender bending itself doesn’t hurt either, but mainly it’s doing it all and giving it his all that wins me over. So I’m conflating the aactor and the character here—sorry to purists, but it’s so appealing and is part of his growth.

Also every main character grows and changes, the essence of good literature. Shangque, Jie Li, Danyin, Orchid, ChangHeng, Yun Zhong, Rong Hao, Xue Wan Qing, Die Yi. The arc of growing self-knowledge I find very powerful and beautiful. At bottom all are love stories (including unrequited ones) that through their growing self-knowledge enables each character to find and keep their love or NOT—but then there’s acceptance of the loss and growing/moving on. Except for Die Yi who dies having never even been noticed by Rong Hap—but that happens …..

And I love the Moon tribe. And all the music. And the scene in which Rong Hao and ChangHeng are floating through a Chinese landscape painting, and—-well you get the picture.

Will I watch it again and read it when I can get it? YEAH.

#cang lan jue #dongfang qingcang #yu shuxin #xianxia

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purplesurveys · 1 year

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What are your plans for the day ahead? I actually feel like binge-watching Good Mythical Morning tonight; overheard my siblings watching it earlier and now all I want to do is to catch up on the episodes I missed all year long. Apart from that...might have to work on this kinda urgent deck for work, even if we’re on company shutdown -_-

What was the last thing you cleaned? I tidied up the living room since my sister and I wrapped gifts for an hour and the place got very messy very fast.

When do you go to your soonest appointment? I don’t have any booked in the near future. What did you last order online? Just more Christmas presents - the last batch I got online were for cousins on my dad’s side. I still have to shop tomorrow, but since online orders made at this point obviously won’t make it here by the 24th/25th I’ll be going to the mall for those instead.

Can you see any bottles from where you're sitting? Yeah I’m taking bottled coffee right now. It’s ‘Sweet Black’ flavored, which I’m loving because otherwise this brand’s regular Black variant is way too bitter for my taste. Which I don’t hate, but I can’t fully enjoy either.

What time do you usually try to wind down in the evening? Around 8 or 9 PM. 9 is my upper limit - I don’t want to be doing any overtime work or chores by that point, and ideally I’m already lounging in bed or on the couch just going through my phone.

What's something you have been putting off? The said deck/Powerpoint I have to work on. One because we’re on company break and it’s just difficult to be in the mindset to work; two because it’s a deck for an upcoming pitch (for a potential client) and I always dread that stuff. I really have to touch it tonight though because by tomorrow I’ll already be out all day to shop and to have my Christmas gathering with friends.

What restaurants do you frequently eat at? I'm not a regular anywhere anymore, but in general if I do eat out I like going to Japanese or Korean restaurants. Do you like banana pudding with a lot of bananas or more vanilla wafers? Banana pudding sounds so nasty.

How many books would you guess you've read in the last 5 years? 1 or 2, I’m guessing.

What was the last message you sent? “I didn’t cross-post it, it’ll be fine!” to my sister. Basically I posted an Instagram story of our gift-wrapping session earlier and the photo revealed some of the gifts I bought. My sister was just looking out and telling me not to post it on Facebook to keep relatives from seeing the presents, so I reassured her that I didn’t toggle the feature to crosspost it. Have you ate anything green today? What's your favorite way to add greens to your diet? The sandwich my dad made for me earlier had some lettuce in it. I don’t really have habits when it comes to vegetables...Filipino cuisine is inherently loaded with them, so it’s not like I have to go out of my way to access them.

When did you last light a candle or incense? Months ago. Not really a part of my routine.

Is it currently warm where you are? It’s finally getting colder in the evenings yaaaaaay. It’s currently 27C, which is a lovely and welcome change.

Have you ever fallen out of bed? Once, and as a kid. I vividly remember crying the moment I crashed and my mom immediately springing up when she heard the noise.

What do you like on your hot dogs or burgers? Continued from last night. I don’t have hotdogs frequently, but on my burgers I like to have jalapeño slices, onions, and always some sort of mayo dressing on them. I have novelty burgers from time to time and I’ve learned that the best gimmicks are doughnuts and peanut butter,

Are you currently listening to anything? Yeah, I literally JUST prompted Indigo to play. I’m at the first few notes of Yun.

What did you last put in storage? In our general bodega space, shoes. We don’t really have a designated storage room for things that need to be put away for a while.

What's your favorite thing to do outside? Go to museums and art galleries, drive around (I don’t mind getting stuck in traffic these days, especially if it means I get to be by myself), go through bookstores, eat.

Are there any celebrities that you are a big fan of? BTS would be a very obvious answer here. I have other favorites too, but I check in with them and what they’re up to only from time to time - Paramore, Beyoncé, bunch of other artists in the Korean music scene here and there.

Do you ever watch award shows? Only when the boys have a major participation or performance. Otherwise I have largely stopped caring, especially when I heard more and more claims of racism and favoritism come about. Also, I never really recovered from 25 winning over Lemonade as Album of the Year - if Adele herself can’t accept the award, you’ve got a problem in your hands lmao.

Do you usually run out of shampoo or conditioner first? Conditioner because I have to use a fuckton of it for my bleached hair. My head reacts terribly to shampoo.

Do you have any LED lights in your home? I guess, but I wouldn’t be able to identify which.

What is your biggest challenge? Saving money. When you grow up not-so-well-off, there are two routes you take – be very rigid about saving to avoid going through what you experienced ever again...or be an excessive spender to make up for the times you couldn’t afford the things you want. Unfortunately, I am the latter hahaha.

What was the last sweet thing you've eaten? My mom had me try these chocolate coffee bites? nibblers? tiny thingies? that she got as a Christmas present. SO good, I might end up eating the whole box.

Do you prefer buying new clothes or thrift shopping for clothes? Both. As long as I like the look, doesn’t matter where it’s from at that point.

What is something you need right now? To finish my Christmas shopping list PLZ.

What's something you like that is blue? My denim jeans.

Have you treated yourself today? Kind of? I have a deck to work on but I am ‘treating’ myself but ignoring it. Hehe

Have you ever traveled alone? Not yet! It’s something I really want to do, even just locally. Filipinos are very judgmental when it comes to this though, and the last thing I want to happen is to end up being the anonymous subject of some random ass content creator talking about how I must be some lonely person going through something. No, Mark, I just want to go to the fucking beach.

What color is your most worn jacket/hoodie? It’s navy blue.

Who is someone you would like to get to know more? Reena; we’ve been friends for over a year but we only hang out in the context of BTS gatherings. I’d love to have more solo dates with her and become as close with her as I am with Angela. Also my new associate, Erin; she’s definitely easier to get along with and talk to vs my previous teammate.

What toy do you miss the most from your childhood? My cash register. Loved that little thing.

Have you ever lost something valuable to you? Nothing comes to mind. I lose things a lot, but for the most part they’ve just been tiny trinkets here and there that I get over by the end of the day.

What or who has impacted your life the most? My parents, for better or for worse.

Would you say you are toxic in any way? In the past. It’s something I continue to actively work on.

What's one of your favorite memories from the past year? Going to Zambales with my closest friends for my birthday.

How often do you use a straw? Usually when I buy drinks from restaurants and I get served a paper straw.

What's your current favorite song? Closer by RM, Mahalia, and Paul Blanco. Fascinating how it used to be my least favorite track (if I had to pick a least favorite) off Indigo and now I can’t even stop repeating it. That di-di-diddy-diddy-bop goes harder.

What are some books you'd recommend to someone? I wouldn’t even know.

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benefits1986 · 5 months

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R U G

Started the day with Kodaline PL and thought I'd be able to down a whole bottle of wine in the name of sedation, however...

Sucking in all good vibes because wala lang for today's video. Been really in the zone as I plugged in my planned leaves for the year-ender. Not sure pa saan ako mapapadpad pero, oks lang. Ready for it. CHZ.

So ayun na nga. Kodaline is one of the most underrated bands I've been listening to for quite some time. Parang in between praise song siya and feel good music kahit 'yung iba, sadboi songs. LOL.

Lakas maka-good vibes and all. The plan for tonight is to down work items and hustles. Happy lang ako kasi apart from goal setting with our newest hire, we both love BL. Tawang-tawa ako because I asked her anong series ang bias niya. She readily said Call Me By Your Name. Shookt ako kasi oweeem. Then, I told her if GSP (Gaya Sa Pelikula) is part of her Gen Z radar. She Googled it and screamed, gwapo daw ng mga bida. 'Di ba? And she's off to binge watch daw sa weekend. Sabi ko, chikahan kami on Monday about it. And we'll down her goals before the week ends, too.

Also, in our call, I met her mom and brother na plus her dog. Shemay. Buti, mabait voice ko. HAHAHA. The brother kasi greeted me back ng good morning and the introvert in me froze. I asked if she's on headset and no raw. Hello, po tita and to your dog too. Good morning! HAHHAHAA. Shet. Another stakeholder na naman po, opo.

Syempre, ganado tayo kasi nabubuo na ang game. Unti-unti, but, wait, there's more. Mas dama ko 'yung flow na 'di pa naman flowing pero papunta na doon ng team. 'Di siya madali sa dami ng lusak levels ganaps, pero, naniniwala ako na character and culture na intentional are the keys, baby. LUH. Dalisay era gaming na ba ito talaga? Or gusto ko lang talaga ng bonus for JaFunds +++? Or both din naman, puwede.

Side note: End state na gusto ko sana soon pero tanggap ko naman na ang gestation period since 'di naman talaga madaling mag-inception ng mindset agad. OKAYYY. FINEEE. 'Yung parang kami ng second dad ko. Iinom lang tapos may slides na agad then sabak na agad. Message-message and banter na lang. Walang ego gaming. Syempre, laging mala-defense 'yung mga batuhan namin pero, mabilis. Dumadaloy. Tuloy-tuloy. In my past life kasi, hataw-kalabaw ako. If you can't catch my drift, aggressive-aggressive mode ako kahit kanino. LOL. Pero, hindi na ako ganun ngayon. I've learned bitter lessons na I'm using as guideposts in this chapter. LUH. Hahahahaha.

Drank wine pa, and halfway through the bottle, my fourth anak-anakan arrived at home. 'Yung sedation ko, nauwi sa palpitation. Lakas. Hahahaha. LOL. I really need sedation para makalma ako at makatulog din. So 'yun na ngaaaa. She's been reaching out the past weeks. Sundot lang nung una. Kamusta ba raw ako and all pabebs. Then, poof. Luwas daw siya kasi need niya ng backup. As a backup files girl, sabi ko, sige. Okay. Then, real quick, andito na siya. Akala ko naman sa weekend pa. HAHAHAHA. 'Di aligned ang calendar namin. Opo. Pero, seriously, she's been battling silent battles for a long time. And, 'yung mom niya reached out years ago na ako na raw muna bahala sa panganay niya. They live together naman pero, Gen X parenting is not giving... slay 'pag dating sa mental health issues.

Honestly, when her mom reached out, I begged off agad coz I'm not a good example. Actually, I'm the best example of a really bad shit example. LOL. Sinabi ko rin 'to sa mom niya. Sabi naman ng mom niya, she knows that I can handle her strong-willed daughter kasi 'di na nila alam gagawin nila. HAHAHAHAHA. Sabi ko, I will try. Best effort kasi 'di ko naman alam anong vibe ng batang 'to. Small talk. Milktea. Kulitan 'pag nasa Laguna ako and then she eventually opened up. Hay. Hay. Hayyyyayyy.

'Yung g na g na ako will say na: Magusap kasi kayong mag-ina. Pareho naman ang intention n'yo pero you don't speak the same language. 'Yun lang. Napaka simple naman kasi ng problema. Wala kayong heart to heart alignment. UGH. Pero, syempre, to atone for my scarlet sins nung kabataan ko, sige. Sige na. Sige na nga. I've been my 4th anak-anakan's journal x graphic novel. Ganern. And in all of our talks, I find myself talking to my younger, naive self. Ang lala. Cringe pero sige... eto na tayo. Mas mabait pa naman siya sa akin pero 'yung spiral, kinabog ako, mhie. Iba na talaga mga bata ngayon. Not to judge, pero iba na rin kasi ang realities nila. Online and offline world gaming.

She has so much potentials as a med student doing fan art. Mabuting bata. She started sa DeviantArt pa. Alam mo 'yung 'di patapon buhay pero she has this belief that she is not enough. HUY. Sounds oddly familiar, noh? HAHAHAHAHAH. Can't sleep na naman kasi binabantayan ko siya. Parang tulog naman na while I'm writing this. I am hanging onto her small wins and hyping her sa abot ng kaya ko. Para tayong candy-sprinkled donut for this late night session. Kitang-kita at damang-dama ko na she wants to shape up. And I really am not giving up on her. She shared that she knows she is healing but why does healing hurt so badly and why does it take so long? HUY. It hit home... hard. Sapol na sapol ang hidden dark heart ko, mhie. Her fat tears rolled down her cheeks and poof. Ayun na.

Sabi ko naman as a mature kuno being and doing: Hurting and healing go hand in hand. Remember phantom pain? That's how it is talaga. Circle of life, baga. Ginamitan ko pa ng scenario na quadruple bypass surgery x brain injury pero may 15% chances of survival. Sabi ba naman e 'di deads na 'yun. Sabi ko, 'wag niya akong dadaanin sa pilosopa ways niya. I challenged her na, kung doctor ka ba and nakikita mong lumalaban patient mo to the fullest, susukuan mo ba? Tumigil. Sabi, she will try her best daw to heal the patient.

What struck me most is that now, she is sure that she wants to be a doctor, unlike before. Another win pero for me, big win na 'to. She told me: Ate, this is my chance to live longer. HUHUHUHUHU. Pero syempre, matalinong gago, kaya may bawi na, kaso parang 'di ko deserve e. Dami kong naabala. Nasasayang na oras. 'Di ako worth it. 'Yung saltik neto, iba rin e. Extremes. Sabi ko naman, mag boyfriend na siya ng may pagbuntunan na siya ng galit at pabebs niya. Humanap siya sa BGC mamaya ng qualified leads. HAHAHHAHAHA. Sabay tanong sa akin: Ikaw ba may boyfriend na? Me: Ako pa ba? :D Syempre, wala. Hahahahaha. E girlfriend? Wala rin. Basic. Matic. Paka impakta talaga neto madalas. Tanong niya, bakit. Sabi ko naman, let's not go there. Not today, Satan. Not today. :D Kelan ba kasi ako tantantanan ng mga ganitong klaseng tanong? Iniisip ko minsan, sagutin na YES MERON. Para matapos na lang.

May type daw siya na tawang-tawa ako. I CANNOT. Hahahaha. Pagdasal ko na rin 'to as a priority po, Lord. CHZ. Sabi ko rin, 'wag na niya akong gayahin kasi hindi ideal path 'yung akin. :p Masukal at masalimuot pero natatawid-tawid naman. Unti-unti. Side note: Parang kami lang kasi sa fambam ang may ganitong pitik. Sabi ko nga, 'wag niya akong tuluran. Babala. :p

Sabi ko, bahay kami mag-stay since I'm work from home later. Sabi, puwede daw ba maglakad sa labas. Okayyyy. BGC, hello po, in a bit. LOL. Also, walang dalang damit so ako pa nagbihis sa kanya. I joked pa na kahit isang buwan siya dito sa bahay, Shein finds na pasado namang Gen Z galore siya dito. Syempre, pinapili ko ng drip. Excited siya e. Pinapili ko rin kung bike o lakad since biking mode kami sa Laguna. Lakad daw. Soooo, tatapusin ng mabilis ang mga paganaps bukas at lalakad tayo sa most unfavorite space ko sa Manila. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA.

Road to yaya turned mayordoma na ba talaga ako this era? Bakit napapraning ako kahit parang tulog na siya? LOL. If I can only down the whole bottle of wine rn, but, sige, mature na tayo. Hahahahaha. Wala rin siyang dalang laptop, so sabi ko, say no more. Tawang-tawa. :D Buti, binalik agad personal laptop ko. So ayun, gising na gising na naman po tayo so early in the morning. Isipan ko pa ng roll out ganaps ko mamaya. 'Di ako sure, pero ready naman na ako. Eto na 'to e. LOL. So help me, universe.

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hey-michael-young-history · 2 years

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Kuai Liang: So I met somebody.

How would the other Lin Kuei react?

Context is functional and community based Lin Kuei that allied with the Shirai Ryu AU. Our 6 are the only teenagers, but not the only kids in the clan.

There’s still a Sub-Zero (Bi-Han and Kuai Liang’s grandfather) so Bi-Han was given the code name Tundra and Kuai Liang got Taiga (which I stole from @kuai-liangst )

I’m a little rusty but I’ll give it a go!

Hydro: “How did you ‘meet’ someone? You never leave Arctika. You don’t talk.”

Sektor: “Hmph. Don’t tell anyone else. Cryomancers are only to be betrothed to other cryomancers. What’s stopping me from telling?… Fuck off, Taiga.”

Cyrax: (realizing the potential danger of this situation) “Hmmm.”

Smoke: “Are they Lin Kuei? If you must keep this person a secret, they may not have your best interests at heart, Kuai Liang. I will escort you, the next time you meet them. If they don’t want to meet your friends, they are not worthy of your time.”

Bi-Han: “It’s that guy from Japan, isn’t it? I told the grandmaster that taking you on the diplomacy mission was stupid. Well, I don’t care, Taiga. I don’t know why you told me. You better pray that Dad never finds out.” (Later, he not only tells their father but he also writes a threatening letter to send to Hanzo Hasashi, who is confused as hell)

Bing Yun: (doesn’t acknowledge the statement but spends the rest of the day thinking about it. When he goes to meet the grandmaster, he initiates an awkward conversation on how to handle his sons potentially getting their heart broken. Randomly hugs Kuai Liang later which makes them both uncomfortable)

#mortal kombat #better together #kuai liang #bi han #mk smoke #mk cyrax #sektor #hydro #bi han being a teenage shit #mk oc #Bing Yun #Bing Yun is trying his best #even in a happy AU Grandfather Sub-Zero was a terrible dad

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acapricornsthoughts · 1 year

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December 14 2022

Hello, I just realized that I haven't posted art recommendation or song of the day in the last post oops. Well I came on here because usually I come when I am sad but today I am in a good mood. An update on my school.. well... I failed this whole semester because literally during mid terms I felt so useless and was not able to do anything for the life in me. I truly don't want to continue with school and do a career I could care less about. It's scary because I feel like I am doing this for other people rather than myself. I am tired and exhausted of having to learn this things that I truly feel don't stick to my head. Math is my worst enemy and I am so afraid to take a math class because I will fail. I am truly stressed about school and only school. Like if my life didn't have school I think I would be ok. But since school is something that I must get done it is taking me forever and I know I have about 2 more years to go. I have been in college since 2017.. I want to be done but it feels so impossible. Just 2 days ago a guy was going to off himself in the school parking lot and its crazy because not a lot of people think that during the pandemic everything changed. I ruined my life. I had to move and in this new town it has been hell to say the least. I have no motivation for anything. I am trying my best to stay positive here but there is truly nothing I can do here. I have no friends, my sisters are always busy, I am the loneliest I have ever been. I talk to myself or make myself laugh these days (not in a weird way).. just these days I have been trying to enjoy my own company so I won't go to crazy. I feel like I am loosing brain cells just being here. I want to get back into painting but I don't have the motivation to think of anything. I am trying to loose weight as well and I just cant. I want to eat and not feel shitty but even if I eat healthy I end up feeling guilty. I have been doing my very best in not binge eating or eating when I am bored which I feel I have been doing a good job at but whenever I eat I feel bored of it.. As if I am just eating to survive. Who am I kidding, I am not living, I am just simply surviving..

Painting of the day : PH-617 by Clyfford Still

Song of the day : Yun by RM ft Erykah Badu

#diary #daily thoughts #stress #art #music #RM #clyfford still #capricorn

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thedriftedheart · 2 years

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I just finished watching my fave's vlog, it's another entertaining video and gives so much feels, masayang panoorin pero naiyak ako sa halo-halong dahilan. For some reason, yung mapanood silang magkakasama after past issues about their friendship, their brotherhood, ang nostalgic, naalala ko yung nagbi-binge-watch na ako ng mga ShowBreak episodes and fancams nila, sobrang laki nang naging impact kasi nila sa buhay ko. How can I forget how they cheered me up during those times, sila yung naglibang sa isip ko, sa stress at takot na bumalot din sa karamihan dala ng pandemya, kaya siguro iba ang epekto nila sa akin, kaya masyado akong na-attach sa kanila, lalo na sa fave ko. It maybe just a simple vlog to others, pero ang dami kong nakita, mga bagay na nagpaalala sa'kin how much I love them. I admire some artists but I never stan them like how I love these 5 beautiful people and I'm thankful na nakilala ko sila.

The smile and laugh of the bubbly streamer who always so hyped talking with his fans, asking clues and engaging his fans sa mga games na nilalaro nya. Sa vlog nya, hindi lang yung simpleng pagkatuto nya sa paglangoy ang pinakita nya, I saw the young Josh who fought hard to survive in this world. He's smart, and wise, he outsmart the world started at a very young age, ang strong ng personality nya kaya minsan nami-misinterpret din sya. He's not perfect, I saw some flaws in him but that's what makes him more of him, yun sya, and I love him just the same. Masaya ako na nararanasan na nya ngayon yung mga bagay na hindi nya na-experience before, nabibili yung mga bagay na gusto nya, but he never stop there, I know he knew, the more we earn, the more our expenses grow. But see, he's far from how they were before, ng family nya. His mom and his sister are so lucky to have him, ang aga nya naging mature para sa kanila, sinalo nya lahat, kaya nga sobrang deserving sya sa lahat ng natatanggap at nararanasan nya ngayon.

I'm just always so soft pag nakikita ko yung mga pagsisikap ng fave ko, whether it's to learn new things, or to achieve something, yung determination to make it through no matter what. Kaya siguro sobrang alala ako lagi sa kanya, sa mga taong nakakasalamuha nya, kung sa mga kaibigan ko nga lalo at pamilya nasasaktan ako for them at protective sa kanila, much more to my fave who I knew went through so much already. Pag sa tingin ko agrabyado sya, I defend him on my own way, I'm sad when he unintentionally hurt someone, I'm hurt when he's hurting, I'm broken when he's sad and in pain. Kaya kahit masakit din minsan basta masaya sya, masaya na rin ako para sa kanya. His vlog shows how strong and quick learner he is, napapalabas nya na parang ang dali-dali lang ng isang bagay pag sya na ang gumagawa or nagta-try, I say again, he's the epitome of inspiration.

Sana huwag nya na uli maramdaman yung doubt sa sarili nyang kakayahan na naramdaman nya dati. Nung sinabi nya na hindi sya magaling at average lang sya, ang galing galing nya kaya para maramdaman yun, I just hope he's always be reminded about that kasi hindi lahat kayang subukan ang mga bagay na natututunan nya. Like his vocal, maganda naman talaga, at mas lumalabas pag mataas ang key, I hope na mapalibutan sya ng mga tao na lagi nanjan para tulungan sya na lalo pang mahasa yung mga kakayahan nya, mapalabas ang kung ano pa ang meron sya as an artist just as I always wish for him. He's such a very busy person and still, always share his time to his fans whenever he can, kaya sana, maalagaan nya ng sapat ang health nya, para ma-enjoy nya rin ng sobra ang mga pinaghihirapan nya. I miss him everyday, at the end of every busy day sila pa rin, sya pa rin lagi ang pahinga ko. My fave, you are such an amazing person, I hope the beautiful words of gratitude and inspirational messages from people who cares for you reaches you, 'coz you deserve to know those. Kung dati akala mo mag-isa ka lang na lumalaban, not anymore, at never na ulit yun mangyayari, I may not always in your world, but you will always have me. Ang dami nang nagmamahal sa'yo, and I know na dadami pa, because you are lovable, and you deserve to receive all those love and support. May you always be safe, happy and in perfect health my fave. I love you, as always.

July 15, 2022 7:35 PM

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Kapapanood ko pa lang ng vlog nila, grabe naman yung feels, eto na naman ako. At ang ganda nung quality at editing ng vid, napaka evident ng improvement from their previous ones. Ang saya-saya nila panoorin, hindi man ang nakasanayan na birthday live events, it gives the same feels nung sa mga Showbreak episodes nila noon. Ang saya panoorin ng fave ko, he gave so much happiness sa viewers, ang saya-saya ko para sa kanya. I really hope and pray, na sana mas tumibay pa ang brotherhood nila, ang friendship nila, ang dami na kaya nilang napagdaanan na magkakasama. As they grow older, those kind of experiences and challenges na nagpatatag sa kanila, they can all look it back with a smile and be proud of themselves, kasabay ng legacy na natatag nila sa music industry. Ang layo na talaga ng narating nila, yung mga nakaka-linyahan nila, Int'l. big stars, like the recent feature in Teen Vogue, Favorite Boy Band OF ALL TIME, Beatles, BTS, BSB and other world music icons lang naman ang kahilera nila, sobrang nkaka-proud! Sana wag silang magbago, just as how humble they are now sa kabila ng mga recognitions and fame na meron sila. Sana lagi kayong masaya, at mas malayo pa ang marating nyo. I really wish na matupad ang world domination nyo, imagine a world tour, it'd be probably exhausting but I bet yun ang pagod na masarap namnamin. Sana matupad lahat to, para mas lalo pang sumaya at lalo pang mas maraming magagandang bagay ang maranasan ng fave ko. Sana masaya ka lagi, at magawa ang mga bagay na gusto mo, mga bagay na magpapasaya sayo at sana, mas marami pang blessings ang dumating sayo at sa pamilya mo. Palagi mo man naririnig na sobrang deserving ka na makatanggap lahat ng magagandang bagay, pero yun kasi ang totoo, deserve mo lahat ng meron ka ngayon. May more blessings to come pa for you and your family. Mahal kita, palagi.. I wish a life-long and genuine happiness be yours. My fave..

July 19, 2022 10:11 AM

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Bey's group of frnds from Laguna are the one I met in Layag con. Natutuwa lang ako sa enthusiasm nila, they want me to be with them sa upcoming con ng fave group ko next month, para daw may rep na ang fave ko sa group nila, they're mostly Tin and K stans kasi. So apparently they've been trying to contact me since the witching hours the other day, I wasn't able to check back swiftly after I missed their calls and messages, para sana pala makahabol ako sa registration na alas, on line na. I didn't make it on time to join the hustle on securing the tickets because of the missed info, my fault, but no matter how persistent you are, if it's not meant to be, then you just got to refocus on other possibilities. Now they're just hoping to receive a positive news from their tries to hopefully give an extra for me, hoping for the best but just like what I've told them, if they can't make it too, there's always a next time. And I pray for that to happen for that means another blessings for my fave's group. A series of events and con, nakakapagod para sa kanila yun if ever, pero sabi nga, strike while the iron is hot. Things aren't always at peak, so while they still can, with available chances and opportunities at hand, push and go for it lang sila, an investment for their future, creating stories for they'll be legends. But hoping that no matter how busy they are, I hope they find time to rest and take care of themselves in between works.

My fave released the second part of his vlog. One prolly get tired if I'll say again what's really in my heart. But what can I do, if their friendship gives so much feels to me. Pag pinapanood ko kasi sila, ang fave ko, it's not just about the laugh, the smiles and jokes, but also about the unsaid feelings and thoughts, their brotherhood, it means so much to me, and for sure to many others too. Ang saya tingnan ng fave ko dun, and when he ate the crab naalala ko si tatay. Pinag hihimay nya kasi ako para kumain ako nun, pinakagusto ko ang malalaking sipit, he cracked the shell and gave to me the sweet and tasty meat. So many hearts sent their wishes na kung pwede lang sana ganun lagi, work and play sila lagi and just enjoy everything - I wish the same thing for them too, sana ganun nga lang lagi, good vibes and happy, loving hearts always while enjoying at work.

We’re down to last two days of the month, hindi ko rin namalayan, magwa-one year na palang bihag ang puso ko 😊 I always go back to that day, at hindi ko man sayo palaging napaparating how thankful I am, thru those grateful souls who sends you appreciation, I’m always one of them. I hope you know how grateful I am, more than words, loved and love you more than that reason, know how deserving you are of those love and support you are getting. Oh how time flies so fast, roller coaster of emotions, happiness, sadness, and hurt, but most of the time, overjoyed. For I know you are so worthy to be loved. We feel all these kinds of emotions, that's a given, no matter who we love..

Tomorrow is another chance for the world to witness your impressive performance. Much improve facial expression when you sing, your sweet voice, clear vocal, smooth, expressive and the flow of your dance moves, lahat to na mas lalo pang nag-i-improve sa bawat tapak mo sa entablado. Right amount of confidence, heart, and humility, you possess these and I hope you'll always have it. I'm always soo proud of you my fave, I love you always. Sana maging smooth and successful lahat ng plano at gagawin mo ngayong araw, may you always be safe, healthy, and hopefully this day is much better than the other good days...

July 30, 2022 4:24 AM

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not yet (but someday soon)

(buddie) (1.4k) (read it on ao3)

@elvensorceress and @clusterbuck tagged me in seven sentence sunmonday... how about an entire fic instead?

Evan Buckley loves like no man Eddie’s ever met. He’s loud with it, practically shouts it from the rooftop, except– he doesn’t say it out loud. At least, not in so many words. Especially not since Taylor.

He’ll say it to Christopher, voice low and reverent, like he’s still not sure he’s allowed. He’ll say it to Jee-Yun too, high-pitched and giggly. He tells Maddie every time he gets the chance, Eddie knows, but the rest of them– Buck doesn’t tell them, he shows them.

He shows his love in wide grins and carefully concealed surprises; he shows it in remembered coffee orders and research binges, and by offering a hand before any of them ever has a chance to ask for help.

Buck doesn’t need words to express himself, not the way Eddie always has; the love he has for the people around him is brilliant and unmistakable and spills from his every pore. It’s one of the many (many) things Eddie’s come to realize he loves about him.

It’s also the reason Eddie nearly chokes on his coffee when Buck slings an arm around Hen’s shoulder after she beats him at Mario Kart and with a laugh says, “Love you, Hen.”

Hen smiles, soft and warm, and pat’s his hand. “Love you too, Buckaroo,” she replies. “Don’t think I’m going to go easy on you, though.”

Buck snorts and retrieves his controller from the coffee table. “Wouldn’t dream of it,” he says.

And that’s the end of that, just a weird little blip on Eddie’s Buck-radar, except it keeps happening.

“Hey, uh, you know I love you, right Bobby?” Buck says, staring intently at the bell pepper he’s chopping.

Bobby looks up from his sauce, and Eddie would swear he’s a little misty-eyed. “I love you too, kid,” he says.

Buck meets his eye with a soft smile, and they both go back to cooking.

It’s weird, Eddie decides, but nice. It’s clearly making Buck happy, and at the end of the day, that’s all that really matters.

Only– he says it to Chimney, next, and then Hen again, and then Albert the next time they see him. He even says it to Ravi who, honestly, they’ve only known him for like a year, and Eddie likes the kid but–

Maybe this is the kind of thing Eddie should bring up in therapy. It’s just– Buck’s said it to everyone except him, and for the life of him, Eddie can’t figure out why.

Have you considered asking him? The Frank-adjacent voice in his head suggests.

Eddie hates the Frank-adjacent voice. Especially when it’s right.

“Come over for dinner tonight?” Eddie asks, desperately trying to sound normal. It is normal! Buck’s at his house more often than the loft these days, and it’s decidedly Not Weird for Eddie to invite him over.

Except maybe it is, because Buck fixes him with a strange look and asks, “Everything okay, Eds?”

Eddie forces a shrug. “‘Course,” he says. “I just think Christopher’s tired of my cooking.”

Hiding behind your son? The Frank-adjacent voice asks, but Buck grins, so Eddie considers it a win.

“Wouldn’t want him to starve,” Buck jokes. “I’ll be there. Are we still out of tomato paste?”

Eddie resists the urge to thump his chest when his heart skips a beat at the word ‘we’. He feels– ridiculous, honestly. Like a fourteen year old with a crush, instead of a grown man who’s perfectly, reasonably in love with his best friend. “I, uh– yeah, I think so. Haven’t been to the store since we went on Monday.”

“Gotcha, I’ll pick some up on the way over. See you tonight, Diaz!” Buck shoulders his bag and winks. He winks.

And Eddie – yeah, Eddie’s blushing. As soon as Buck’s gone, he sticks his head in his locker and groans.

A weight settles next to him. “You’re ridiculous, you know that?” Hen asks.

Yeah. Eddie knows that.

“Honey, I’m home!” Buck calls as he lets himself in.

It’s a joke, Eddie knows it’s a joke, but it sends his pulse fluttering all the same. “In the kitchen,” he calls back, praying that his voice doesn’t sound too choked.

“Hey,” Buck says as he leans against the doorframe, softer and more genuine.

“Hey,” Eddie replies, and even that comes out a little breathless.

And how is he supposed to ask Buck about all the ‘I love you’s if he can’t even manage a normal conversation?

“You better not have touched the stove,” Buck murmurs, easy and fond in a way Eddie’d once been afraid they’d lost.

“Wouldn’t dream of it,” Eddie replies, laughing despite himself. He takes the bag of groceries from Buck and begins to unpack it, if for no other reason than to give his hands something to do.

He swears it wasn’t always like this. Even when he’d first realized his feelings for Buck ran a hell of a lot deeper than friendship, he’d been perfectly capable of maintaining the status quo. It’s just– ridiculous, actually, because now that Eddie’s heard Buck say it to everyone else, he’s kind of dying to hear it directed towards him. And apparently wanting that has opened the floodgates to wanting a whole bunch of other things, which Frank says is a good thing, but Eddie’s not so sure because what he really wants is to push Buck up against the wall and–

“What’s going on up here?” Buck asks, suddenly in front of him and tapping his index finger against Eddie’s temple. “You’ve been weird all day.”

Eddie’s instinct is to deflect, but he’d promised Buck and himself that he’d talk about the things that bother him so– “You keep telling everyone you love them,” he blurts.

Buck’s brow furrows, and he takes a step back. “And that’s… a bad thing?”

“No, god, of course not,” Eddie says, catching Buck’s wrist and tugging softly until Buck steps back into his space. “I just…”

A small frown appears on Buck’s lips. His head tips ever so slightly to the right. “Just what?” he asks.

“You keep telling everyone… except me.”

All at once, Buck’s expression turns impossibly fond. “I’ve been seeing Doctor Copeland again,” he says.

“I… know?”

Whatever face Eddie makes at the sudden change in subject must be interesting, because Buck laughs and lifts his hand to drag his thumb across the corner of Eddie’s lips. “I know you know,” he says. “I told her, recently, that sometimes it’s still hard to believe that the people I love, love me too.”

“Buck,” Eddie interrupts, unable to stop himself.

He laughs softly and wriggles his fingers until Eddie gets the message and releases his wrist so he can twine them together with his. “I know,” Buck says, and Eddie thinks yeah, maybe he does.

Eddie nods for him to continue.

“Anyway,” Buck says, “She said that it might help to have concrete reminders. And that if I told people how I felt about them–”

“They’d tell you the same,” Eddie finishes.

“Exactly,” Buck says. “She said it didn’t have to be anything serious, that I could just tell people casually. So, I did.”

“And it’s helping?” Eddie asks.

Buck ducks his head and grins. “Yeah, it’s helping.”

Eddie bites his lip. “I still don’t understand–”

“Why I haven’t said it to you?” Buck looks up from under his lashes.

“Yeah,” Eddie says, a little breathless.

“Two reasons,” Buck says, squeezing Eddie’s fingers.

Eddie squeezes back and waits for him to continue.

“One,” Buck says seriously, “I already believe in you. We– I think we’ve been through too much for me to ever doubt it.”

“I do, you know,” Eddie says, suddenly not caring what it might give away. Suddenly realizing there might not be anything left to be afraid of.

“I know,” Buck says.

“What’s two?”

“Two,” Buck says slowly, like he’s still chewing on the words, “Is that when I tell you how I feel… there’s not going to be anything casual about it.”

“Evan,” Eddie breathes, because that sounds a lot like the beginning of something Eddie’s only just begun to allow himself to want.

“Not yet,” Buck says, smiling a small little half-smile. “But soon?”

“Take your time,” Eddie replies, settling his free hand on Buck’s waist. “I’m not going anywhere.”

#lol I am 100% going to be late to a date bc I decided to post this rn oops #anywayyyyyy #911 #911fic #911 fic #buddie #buddiefic #Evan buckley #Eddie diaz #Abbie writes #fic #userceecee #will rb for tags in a sec!

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