#becuase I am

[corrodedcoughin]

okay so your trans art binge-reblog spree yesterday kinda synced up with me having Intense Gender Feels so please allow me the liberty of gently knocking at your inbox again bc I feel a mighty need to unleash some trans!Eddie headcanons on you >.>

imagine the sheer emancipation of Eddie growing out his hair again after he had cut it short when first moving in with Wayne but this time long hair feels different and so, so much freeing bc it's no longer a stupid social expectation rooted in sth that isn't even true about him but instead a personal choice, one deeply connected with the music that comforts and inspires him like nothing else

imagine the freedom of him first realizing he's trans and how things — maybe not all things but at least some of them — suddenly fell into place from just knowing who he is, even if back then he had no opportunity and no safe place to as much as think about trying to socially transition. just feeling like his authentic self for once, without the weight of others' preconceptions about all the arbitrary ways he's supposed to be. he might've been unable to tell anyone at that time but simply having that knowledge to himself was liberating from the years of having felt like there's sth wrong with him. liberating bc now he knew for a fact that there wasn't. how can this be wrong if it made him feel like himself for the first time maybe ever?

imagine him hesitantly knocking on his uncle's door in the middle of the night when he had no choice but to run away from home. imagine the surprise on Wayne's face and all the unyielding unquestioning trust and comfort he's got for him, so thorough and genuine that it only takes him a few days to come out despite the fear. and then Wayne's silence breaks into a question of what name his nephew would like to called then. the words startling soon-to-be-Eddie into a impulsive hug, which is returned with utmost care and with quiet thinking-out-loud rambling of whether Wayne's got any clothes that would fit his nephew and that he would feel comfortable in

imagine the joy when Eddie gets a fake ID from Reefer Rick one day

imagine him making friends with the rest of Corroded Coffin guys and, when he gathers the courage and trust to come out, being met with support, ranging from confusion and a promise to eventually get how any of it works and to respect Eddie's pronouns etc, to deep understanding that hardly needs words bc you know you're being seen for who you actually are

imagine Eddie working on his voice and ending up achieving some success partly thanks to singing along to his favorite songs and trying to learn harsh metal vocals and at first scaring everyone around by going over the top with them until he figures out ways to train his voice to be more masculine sounding without resorting to that kind of harshness (and developing multiple fun vocal stims on the way)

imagine Eddie getting together with Steve and as a bonus gaining the perfect person to get advice from when it comes to figuring out a workout routine for his purposes

imagine the relief of knowing there are multiple people who you can be your authentic self with and who love you for this and would never change a single thing about what makes you yourself

oof well, I kinda carried away "a bit" (meanwhile the Feels have only intensified further whoops) and these are in no particular order but I really hope you'll like this humble offering. have a restful fulfilling weekend💜

LIAM!!!! LIAM!!!!! I am always ready for transing the narrative (been in some gender struggles too so let’s be in this together 🤝) I’m going to be running commentary replying so if it’s incoherent or accidentally cover something said later I’m sorry!!

- the hair!! YES!!! I feel like he had long hair before and felt pushed into have short hair in order to be taken seriously in his identity but what he always really wanted to be was ‘just a boy with long hair’ and the more it grows the happier he gets becuase THIS!! THIS!!! Is who he feels like he should have always been!!! This feel RIGHT! When it gets past the length of being ‘acceptable’ for a boy and starts brushing his shoulders he hasn’t never felt more strongly that he is Right. That this is Who He Is, this is Eddie Munson and Eddie Munson is a societal expectation-dodging BOY

- THE ACCEPTANCE AND REALISATION!!! What if he was going around as a child saying kid stuff like ‘when will I grow a beard?’ And being hushed by his elders (before Wayne). Going along with what was given to him, be it toys or clothes because his family didn’t have a lot so he’s not going to ask for more but knowing that they didn’t feel right. That he was performing a character for these people and hoping it would be enough for them, for himself. It’s not, something still feels wrong and he can’t figure out. But then, then he gets the keys to the kingdom, he moves in with Wayne and Wayne gives him some money and sets him loose in the thrift shop. At the start he sifts through the girl’s rails but all of the sizes are wrong for him. So wayne just suggests the boys racks because hey it’s just T-shirts and we need to get you stuff that fits. He guides eddie to the plain T-shirts, not thinking much of it. Not thinking it’ll be a Realisation in the young mind of his nephew. Eddie goes home with 2 boys T-shirts that day and from then on gravitates to exclusively wearing them. Next thrift shop visit eddie makes a beeline to the boys section and doesn’t look back.

- AHHH WAYNE AND COMING OUT I LOVE YOUR VERSION!!! What about Wayne passing a couple of shirts on to Eddie? A hat too? And a belt because god knows Eddie’s buying the jeans that hide his hips and needs something to hold them up. Wayne starts calling eddie ‘son’ and ‘boy’. Every time it’s like Christmas lights have been turned on behind his eyes. He feels dizzy with it, can’t contain himself, has to clench his fists to stop himself from shaking becuase this? This feels right. It fees Correct and knowing Wayne is here with him is the ballast he needs to secure himself on this unpredictable ride.

-CORRODED COFFIN SAYING ITS SO METAL OF HIM. (I personally also hc Gareth as trans so I like to think that Jeff and Freak are always ready to be Boys and show them Boy Stuff. Like alongside band practice they had Boy Practice at the start and now they can burp the alphabet in harmony and can armpit fart guitar solos and play fight and are just GOOFY)

- eddie going to a gig or band practice and then the next morning waking up with a slightly wrecked voice that he /loves/. He surreptitiously tries to maintain it, shouting lyrics in his room and just screaming sometimes but it starts to get painful and he accepts he has to find a different way. He listens to the radio with Wayne, asks to go with him when Wayne’s work friends plan a couple of drinks in one of their yards. Eddie gets to go to a couple, gets to listen to Wayne’s country and rock radio stations. Gets to hear these men talking and tries out phrases he hears when he’s on his own, records them on a tape deck he found in the thrift by luck one day. Records and re-records until he gets it right. Until he can prank call principle Higgins and get shouted at down the phone ‘I’ll find out who your father is boy! He’ll have your hide!’ The peak is when he goes into scoops and gets everything he wanted ‘hey man, how’s it going?’ From the offensively cute sailor with the big hands and strawberry sweet smile

- WORKOUT SUPPORT STEVE. YES. YES ABSOLUTELY!!! Steve showing him that he can’t just hit upper body every day, that he has to get everywhere. That he needs to make his core thicker if he wants that boy look. That working on his quads and calves will help, he promises it won’t leave him a big butt and tiny waist. (Not unless he wants Steve’s routine, that boy is going to work on his ass-ets okay?) eddie doing his first full push up with Proper Form and feeling the muscles in his back move and thinks yes. This is Good. God knows he’s not great at sticking to it but when it serves a purpose and it means he gets to ogle his boyfriend? Kind of a win win

- TBE LAST POINT!!! Yes!!! Eddie living in subconscious fear for so long that he pushes the very notion of being a Boy down. so far Down and Away that he won’t ever let it see the light of day. Or so he thinks. He tells himself that he is fine, that this is fine. But it isn’t and he doesn’t know what feels wrong. Until it slowly starts to change at a glacial speed. He tries different things. Starting only in his room, makes jokes that he thinks he can get away with in front of Wayne. Pushes it further, does more Boy things with corroded coffin. Sees that it’s okay? They are okay with it? With how he is? Sees that Wayne just nods at him and doesn’t make a fuss? That Wayne’s friends don’t bay an eye somehow? (Sure some guys at work do, but Wayne makes sure they know where their opinions aren’t wanted. That Wayne and his group aren’t to be taken lightly on the topic of Wayne’s nephew)

Eddie experiencing so much acceptance and love and there being so venom in it. No ‘waiting’ for it all to pass and Eddie to go back to ‘normal’. Eddies never been normal and that’s a badge he starts to wear with pride. With defiance. Knowing that he has everyone he could ever need how could be not?

#LIAM !!!! if you got carried away then you swept me up with you #I LCOE THIS SO KUCH I LOVE IT!! #I love everything you said YHE FAKE ID!!! I JUST!!! #hed try so many things and practice and go over movements and voices that it starts to FLOW #and eventually he doesn’t what he sounded like before how he moved before #HE!!! DESERVES THR WORLD!!!!! #LIAM!!!! #thank you!!! thank you SO SO MCUB for sending this!!! #I am SO LUCKY to have received it!! #im so sorry my reply is messy you just got me so excited #oh wow I love him #I have been having increasing gender thoughts about multiple things and doubts and blehh but this is soothing me!!! #ALSO!! I got your other ask but ummm I want to keep that in my ask box so that it can’t possibly be misplaced #im so doubtful #of tumblrs tag system and I’m not being funny I’d genuinly would hate to lose that message #I’ve been having a Time with work and friends and life (just like Everyone else) and you just made me feel #like somebody cared or at least Noticed Me so yeah I’m sorry I’m #keeping it and saving it for the really and days becuase rsd and doubt and everything else is awful but you #said somethings that I cannot coherently express my gratitude for #becuase I am #bad with words 🫲🤡🫱 #but all this to say thank you and you are just wonderful and incredible and thank you for sending me this and I’m #so in love with it #you are a kind and smart and interesting and funny and please don’t ever doubt that #okay oky sorry I am mushy with trans posts and Sunday scaries I’ll #just go to the boring tags now #eddie munson #trans eddie munson #transmasc eddie munson #ask

[scribefindegil]

When you encounter a person who does not do something that you consider normative, you need to understand that they could be either stating a barrier or expressing a boundary. A barrier is "I would like to partake of the normative activity, but I can't due to other factors." A boundary is "I have made a decision not to participate in the normative activity."

Many people do not believe that boundaries actually exist! This is why it's so common to give a clear "No" on an issue and get inundated with people saying "But have you tried-" They can't conceptualize that anyone might actually want to avoid X thing, so they assume that you totally want to do X and you would love X so much if only they could figure out a way around whatever pesky obstacle is getting in your way. But humanity contains multitudes, and for any given experience you consider vital for happiness I promise there are people who are Just Not Interested.

If someone is stating a boundary, do NOT talk about how sad their life must be, and do NOT try to push them! Just accept that their life experience is very different from your own, and isn't that a beautiful thing?

Barriers are different. Barriers suck. With boundaries, the only problem is other people being dicks. With barriers, the problem is the barrier itself . . . and probably, additionally, people being dicks. There's really not a way to win in the people being dicks department when you don't do something that other people have decided is Necessary For Humaning.

If someone is talking about a barrier they face, still don't talk about how sad their life must be, although it's fine to commiserate with a friend if they're complaining. It's hard! Some barriers are pretty insurmountable; the person might not ever get to do X even though they want to. And a lot of people don't believe that this kind of barrier exists either; we're very much taught that you can do anything if you try hard enough, when that is simply not true. If someone tells you that they can't do something, listen to them and respect that.

The only reason for not doing X that people really acknowledge as real are the surmountable barriers. And these are real, but even in these cases you should always assume that the person knows themself best and not give advice unless they've specifically asked for it. But if they have asked, it's chill to try to brainstorm solutions with them.

As someone who has both things going on, it really sucks that people tend to assume that everything is a) a barrier issue and b) that they personally have the solution to it. Don't do this.

The only way you can tell if something is a boundary or a barrier is to listen to people and believe them.

Example:

If you offer someone a drink and they say, "No thanks . . . I haven't really found anything that I like yet," (barrier, potentially surmountable) it is probably cool to ask them if they're open to trying something new, and if they say yes ask about their tastes to try to find a drink they would enjoy! They might like it or they might not.

If you offer someone a drink and they say, "I can't, it interacts with my meds," (barrier, insurmountable) you can say, "Aw, that sucks!" and offer them something nonalcoholic.

If you offer someone a drink and they say, "I don't drink," (BOUNDARY) you should give them a mocktail and shut the fuck up.

#this post is about being ace and also being a teetolaler and also being disabled and also-- #there are some things i don't want to do and i am sick of people assuming that really i *must* want to #becuase no one could *really* be uninterested in drinking or sex or whatever #and there are also some things that i desperately want to do that i can't because of the curse #but a random stranger doesn't know which is which unless i tell them #you've got to listen to people when they tell you what they want or don't want to do #and you've got to listen to people when they tell you what they can and can't do

[factual-fantasy]

So, I know you've talked about how Jevil and Grillby's relationship is strained, but does Grillby ever warm up to him? In your fight comic, Jevils been shown to comfort Grillby, in small ways anyhow, lending him his cape and letting him mourn. You've stated how Jevil sympathizes with him. Does grillby ever do anything back? Does he ever comfort Jevil or help take care of him in any way?

Yes! Grillby did eventually warm up to him, although it took a while. And their relationship wasn't perfect after this event. There were still times afterwards where Grillby was in a low and hated Jevil all over again.. But this was the start.

The start to Grillby realizing that hating Jevil and being mean to him doesn't make him feel any better. And no matter how much he hates Jevil, its not gonna bring back what he lost. Its also getting harder and harder to hate Jevil anyways. He protects their group with all his might. And even with a horrible wound on his leg and exhaustion pulling at his soul.. he still stays up late to keep the fire going and guard the group.

And despite how mean Grillby has been, Jevil still treats him with the same care he does everyone else. Still sharing the same amount of food, still protecting him with all his might. Grillby doesn't understand why he does it. He doesn't know why Jevil would care about him despite how mean he's been. Why would Jevil be kind to him? Maybe that confusion is why that "thank you" made him light up so much. Its feels.. good, to be thanked. It feels good to be kind. Being kind feels much better than hating someone endlessly.

#my response #undertale #deltarune #seam and jevil #grillby #goner kid #spamton #endogeny #seam deltarune #jevil #I also tried to do somewhat full backgrounds and a lighting effect with Grillby and everyone- #I didn't do it consistently on every panel and it could have come out a liiiil better #but ultimately I am very proud of this comic and think it came out absolutely shmashing ✨ #Might not draw full backgrounds again anytime soon becuase of how long this took to make- #but I'm still glad I did it :}}}

[gunstellations]

a little family

#buddy daddies #my art #doodles #sometimes a family is an two misfit assassins and the daughter of the guy you offed and thats a okay #but lets not talk about that #we love healing in this house and how do you heal if not after suffering #reis journey through depression and kazukis journey through grief #what 1 little girl does to a man #its 5 am all i can offer are doodles but i love them very much #i know we do reasonably get to call them cowards for not making it gay (esp at the end bc come on) #but i do love whatever relationship they have going becuase theyre just. Thats marriage babe.... #theyre not going to be doing any dating with that committment that is the most domestic ass setting ive ever seen #everyone and their mother assumes theyre married/dating and doesnt even question it because theres NO QUESTION T O ASK #only the people involved apparently dont know theyre married #ok nvm they were cowards for not making it gay. but again. theyre clearly married your honor. theyre just a little stupid

[fred-the-dinosaur]

ok, I started writing this in response to someone in particular but it felt unfair to single them out when the reason I was moved say something was because they were like the seventh person saying the same thing in a day.

To all the people like me, who had never heard of those YouTubers. Yeah, I get the vibe. I'd never heard of him either! Or any of the others. But so what ? Firstly, someone else you like is probably doing the same thing, and Secondly, on this scale? You probably HAVE HEARD of him. You just didn't know.

As turns out, I HAD heard of him.

I was so sure I hadn't. Lucky me for being so disconnected from the internet zeitgeist that I am insulated from its fallout! lol. Except I had read @vaspider 's post rejecting his spreading of Leibowitz's statements about 'boring people dying of aids', someone who at the time was struggling uphill against public opinion. Someone else I follow had a Hannibal video plagiarized last year by a big youtuber who turned out to also be him. My wife and I love watching verilybitchie, guess who also got a video ripped off by somerton?

And, like, you're right about how the fuck did people not take more issue with the 'nazis so hot' shit. But lots of people believed him, and spread it wide enough that you might have seen it. I am sure I've seen other, less explicitly awful takes of his crossing my dash, even passed them on, takes that were not even particularly horrifying, just misleading or untrue or stolen and taken out of context. Takes that are distorting the narrative of queer history on tumblr, beyond.

I'm not pointing fingers, just worried the impact of the video is getting lost. I wish someone who could write better and sound less grumpy doing it had written this instead. I just hadn't seen anyone else say exactly this yet. Specifically that, like me, you probably have heard of him, or more importantly his influence. Lots of other people you like got their stuff stolen by him.

And if you really have never met him or the consequences of his actions. then you've met someone else just like him.

I'd never 'heard' of him. So what?

#talking freds #hbomberguy #james somerton #i am not trying to single anyone out. in each event it makes sense to express that you never heard of him! #but given the scale of how everyone says they never did and it might silence the more important voicesnof those who were betrayed #i wanted to write this. it will likely not go far #probably good bc its a bit inconherent. i am a drawer not a writer #but there we go #also the reason i never realised he was the same guy is becuase i get his name confused with cricketer Ian Somerhalder #but whats that compared to the price of bread?

[prettyinaccurate]

my newest fanfic, summarized

#is it still a fanfic if they're my ocs? yes. i am a fan #i love them becuase graham is the worst and arthur is the best #gothic lit ocs #ocs #graham f. hurst #arthur cailbhin

[mfdragon]

It done!

I had a lot of fun with this :3

Will probably make a part 2 with all the characters that didn’t make it, so don’t worry 👌🏻

#one piece #luffy gear 5 #eustass kid #perona #boa hancock #dracule mihawk #bartholomew kuma #borsalino #kizaru #aokiji #Kuzan #character challenge #I bully kizaru becuase I love him but also because I am angry

[impossible-rat-babies]

okay I’m thinking about it being the Island Sanctuary—especially the sanctuary part. here is Tataru who watched you tentatively walk into the waking sands. probably did all the paperwork to get you settled in with the scions. watched with bated breath as adventure after adventure swept you up in its path. Carried you to greater and greater heights and watched you grow. Watched you take on all these burdens out of love and duty.

How through all of that she probably still thinks back to you so fresh faced and walking through those doors. how much she loves how far you’ve grown, but is so scared of how hard it’s been. She can only do so much to help; she’s just a simple girl—she knows money, politics and how to sew. she cannot do fantastical things.

So she does what she does best and she comes away with a whole island. just for you. a place all to your own—to do with as you please. A place to rest. A sanctuary. far far away from the stress of life. because god if she doesn’t think about that baby faced adventurer who came through her doors so very very long ago

#IM EMOTIONAL ABOUT TATARU TARU #she’s so important to me ;—; #ffxiv #she gives you this whole island and says it is yours and god if doesn’t feel like she’s saying that she loves us #she’s like I got this place for you! it’s all for you! you’ve done so much and this is all just here for you #because I love you. becuase our lives wouldn’t be the same without you. you’re so beloved and so dear that I am going to gift you an island

[mobfrog]

you ever think about how if you count mogami arc mob’s choked out more people on-screen than teru has

#mp100 #kageyama ritsu #kageyama shigeo #hanazawa teruki #also hi i am not using this blog much because i do not have much free time but this comic idea hit me last night at 4 am #so i needed to make it a reality #made this becuase i remembered my other never have i ever comic LOL

[sadsongsandwaltzes]

We have some of the greatest examples of art right in the Bible. Crafting words of praise and lament. The joy and anguish of the human soul. Christians ought to value art more than the world. We ought to create art to a higher standard than the world. There’s value in being a wordsmith. There’s value in musicianship.

I fear that, in response to the free thinkin and free lovin movements, many (conservative) Christians undermine artistic endeavors. There seems to be a misunderstanding that creativity and objectivity are opposites. This is false. They work together—they’re tied together. There’s an objective standard from which the subjective flows. One who creates without a grounded footing will not create anything worthwhile. Their work will whither and die — a reflection of their own fate. And one who denies creativity for fear of being uprooted does not understand that the roots exist to grow and flourish — they will be stunted.

Art reaches the very soul. It is born from the soul and captivates the soul. One is touched by a well stated poem, a carefully constructed piece of music, or a well crafted sculpture. Nature itself is canvas of the creative work of God. Beauty informs us. We ought not diminish it. We cede artistic ground to the world and then wonder why no one is fed Truth. Remember, art captivates the soul. We dismiss this fact and leave room only for that which strokes our own ego and swap true creative work for moralistic posturing. Well done artistic work will reflect the truth. It always will, even if those creating it are unaware of this fact.

Don’t settle for bad “Christian” art. Don’t dismiss the importance of “mainstream” art. Don’t undermine the individual need for creativity. Call me a free wheelin hippie, I don’t care. I do not deny objective truth or morality. And it is for this reason I cannot deny the value of well crafted art.

#fighting me on this will result in a block btw #becuase I am so thoroughly annoyed with this particular subject #Christianity

[iknityounot]

I was knitting a sweater during my study hall, and one of my students asked if I was going to wear it when I was done, and I said "I dunno, I've already had to start over once, I might finish it, try it on, not like it and Frog it again"

And with actual disbelief in her eyes she cried "what? No, but it's so crisp!!!"

To which the rest of us said "crisp???"

#i am like 95% sure it wasnt new gen z slang becuase no one else knew what she meant lol #i know she was trying to say it looked good #but noone has ever called my work crispy before lmao #knitting #teaching #teacher #joy knits #text

[tangledstarlight]

wild to think that if netflix werent the worst we could have had a jatp s2, maybe even a s3, by now. like. we could have had so many new songs😔

#julie and the phantoms #most of the time i am okay with cancellation now becuase if you ignore the last 2mins with nick/caleb it's nice self contained story that #wraps up with the boys coming back to life after julie hugs them and i can pretend they went and found willie and hugged him back to life t #BUT sometimes i do think about what could have been and what we lost out on. like i would LOVE to know what the overall plan was #but also maybe i dont because i might have hated it so actually its a win that we never got a s2dfjkhgdfg #anyway i'm a little in my jatp feels today for some reason i guess

[divatheeva]

#my art #submas #submas reunion #yayaya Emmet is speaking in asl he got overwhelmed #or like Unovan sign language technically but yk what I mean #yet another of my ingo talks a LOT to cope and emmet talks Less to cope propaganda #ingo definitely talked through the entire movie btw #becuase I am once again projecting onto ingo #but also emmet going yes please I don’t wanna keep having emotional breakdowns let’s just hang out please yes that is me also

[nite-puff]

something small and quick for the first day of kiyotaka week because i couldn’t not do the fire prompt.

alt/close-up:

reblogs are greatly appreciated :D

#*pssst* I’m still taking drawing requests #thanks to everyone who gave me one so far #I just found out about today’s prompt and then blacked out #so I’ll get to the requests tomorrow #danganronpa #kiyotaka ishimaru #kiyondo ishida #kiyotakaweek2023 #kiyotaka week 2023 #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #danganronpa fanart #doodlepuff #don’t expect me to do the rest of the week #I unfortunately am not built like that. but I hope everyone who does has a fun time #becuase our guy deserves it

[the-sunshine-dims]

Do you think Islas ganna wake up and wonder why her boys are so different? Why their hurt and bruised and they both have an eye thats not theirs? Different from the ones they had during their childhood, Both touchy about it for different reasons, do you think she's going to have to look into their unfamiliar eyes and be heartbroken because she tried to protect them both from exactly what they went through, from Fable, and from Enderian, and in her inability- something she couldn't have changed, she missed them growing up- their entire adult lives. and do you think it'll hurt more for the two brothers to have a parent who is devastated about how much they went through instead of pretending they can fix it if the two of them just listen blindly

#pretending that isla will totally remember rae 100% #becuase- i cant deal with that today #more isla morningstar thoughts i am her biggest fan #fsmp #fable smp #fin speaks

[hawnks]

Gojo lowkey seems like the type to return to the same shop time and again because one of the employees took a little extra time out of their day to make small talk with him, so much to the point that if he stops in on a day they aren’t working he gets visibly upset.

HE GETS SO ATTACHED SO QUICKLY!!! He goes out of his way to make sure he’s in that part of town a lot. He always tips 400% when he orders. He knows your hours (he’d never say that to you though at risk of being a creep). He sees a keychain on your bag and goes home and watches the entire series so he can mention it to you next time.

#HE GETS UPSET!!! #RUINS HIS DAY. he has to come back tomorrow just to make up for it #why am I getting so emotional over Gojo being excited about being friends with people 😭 #gojo posting #mint talks #also I know tipping isn’t really a thing in Japan but he does it anyway becuase he loves attention