#because then im afraid you will be getting blocked srry love

[pettyprocrastination]

I feel like I have to go to college to get a good job, buy I know that if I do ill have a ton of debt, so I enlisted in the military (🤢) because they'll pay my tuition. Problem sort of solved. But I have no idea what I want to do so I feel like I'm wasting time. Also seasonal depression is kicking my ass rn, I'm sad and I want to stay in bed all day. I'm also behind in one of my classes but the only way to catch up is to write two ten page papers by next Friday. And next week is finals week. Also my family is taking a trip next week and they're mad that I might not be able to go, but I can't control when my finals are.

In summary, cosmic forces, please turn me into a rock <3

ah im sorry love. I know school can definitely be rough. While I can't give advice on joining the military for school (and what advice I do give please take with a grain of salt cause im no expert on anything I'm a twenty year old college dumbass) I will say there are a metric ass ton of scholarships available for anything and everything under the sun that you can apply for! I'm lucky enough to be attending a college a twenty minute drive from my home so I can pay my tuition while not worrying about rent, but depending on where you wish to go im not sure if that's a possibility for you.

That being said, college isn't a necessity for all careers. While it does open doors, as does internships, trade schools, and just networking/reaching out to the right people. You don't need a college degree to live a good life, but for some its a section of their journey in life that helps them greatly. That being said, its okay to not know what youre doing, most of us don't. My professor told me when he went into college he planned on being a high school history teacher and to coach wrestling, and now he's a college literature professor! Nobody has their life figured out before they finish college. And a lot of us don't even have it figured out afterwards. It's okay babes.

That being said, try to figure out what career options/subjects you enjoy most! Not anything concrete, but just potential jobs/majors that interest you most and see what they can.

I think those papers are completely possible for you to do! If they are double spaced MLA format, then you just have to do a bit each day and before you know it you'll have them done! If youre struggling to figure out what you're writing on, reach out to a friend who enjoys the subject and brainstorm thesis ideas off of them. But I think ten pages by next Friday is completely doable, just take it step by step.

As for vacation, its hard, but not your fault. You aren't in control of when you have your exams, especially if they are something that you must be in person to do. If they are online exams and you have internet connection and a laptop, maybe you could do it over the vacation, but I don't know what your education set up is so you know more about the options of that than I am. Either way, its not something they will hold against you, you don't control when your finals are.

All in all, take a deep breathe, you can do this.

If anybody else has some advice on college/college funding/majors and career choices or some good resources for anon pls drop them below!!

#ask #asks #rock anon #also i sincerely hope that you being in school but not being in college means you aren't a highschooler/a minor #because then im afraid you will be getting blocked srry love #once more- my advice is just my personal opinion so take it as a grain of salt #ive bounced thesis ideas off of mutuals countless amount of times!! reach out to a friend or mutual and brainstorm to them

[nothorses]

(1) Hi. I think I'm transmasc mlm. Up until about a month and a half ago, I identified as a lesbian (and had for about a year). I feel guilty about my sudden attraction to men - I couldn't ever see myself with a man as a woman, but I'd also struggled w/ gender for like 3 years and it was always on my mind. Now, I feel very free and very trapped at the same time? Like being transmasc and loving men feels RIGHT, but I feel guilty for basically going from one gay identity to another.

2 my friends have been supportive, although I think some don’t understand. I’m afraid they all think I’m just an attention seeking weirdo. I also have a big following on IG and even though I like being open about lgbt stuff, a lot of people still think im wlw. I’ve always been pretty loudly gay so i think it’s like, a big change. I feel trapped in the person i thought i was, but feel guilty when i try to express myself outside of that facade. Do you have any advice for letting myself breathe?

3 Realizing I’m transmasc and being able to freely express my attraction to men in a way I’m comfortable with has made me happier and freer than I’ve felt in a long time, and I want to be able to live with that. I've always related to mlm more but was afraid to show it because being trans scared me, but this feels like ME. I'm not holding anything back like I was before. I want to pursue the person I want to be rather than living in the shell of who I was, y’know? srry 4 the letter and thank u 

Oh, I absolutely relate to that! I thought I was a lesbian for a long time, and I made it a big part of my identity, too.

I feel that like, not being able to see yourself being with a man as a woman- and being with a woman as a woman sort of felt like I could, at least, get closer to expressing my gender in a way that felt right to me. A straight male partner will always see me as a woman, and a lesbian partner will too, but at least in that relationship I felt I could be masculine without it seeming out of place.

But a gay male partner will see me as a man, like him, and that feels right in a way nothing else ever did.

It can be hard to make that change when it feels like there’s so much social pressure not to, but like- you are a person first, and a whole lot of other more important things, before you’re an instagram account. It’s okay if you don’t feel ready to come out to your IG followers yet, and if you want to take those steps in other areas of your first; coming out is about you, not anybody else. Nobody is owed access to your identity, including instagram.

You deserve to be happy, and you deserve to live the life that brings you the most joy. People worth keeping close to you will see that; good people will see that your truth is more important than the idea they have of you in their head. If you come out on IG and some people decide they’re more okay with cis lesbians than gay trans men, those are transphobic people that you can probably just block. If your friends feel you’re “an attention seeking weirdo” for wanting to live your truth, those aren’t people worth keeping around.

You know your situation a lot better than I can, but I can say this much: everything is a process, and it’s okay to be more ready to take some steps than others. Take the steps you can take, as you’re able to take them. Either you’ll feel more ready for the other ones in time, or you’ll decide they aren’t steps you want to take at all, and either outcome is perfectly normal and fine. Be patient with yourself, and seek out the stuff that makes you happy wherever possible. The process is about you and how you feel, not anybody else.

#Anonymous

[pinkykitten]

Tattoos

Detroit: Become Human

Markus x tattooed! female reader

Warning: reader feeling self conscious 

Specifics: angst, romance, fluff, tattooed reader, pictures, one-shot, race neutral reader

People: Markus, you, Carl Manfred

Words: 1,042

Requested: By anonymously Hey, could you do a one shot with Markus from dbh where the reader is Carl’s niece or smth, and often visits him? I was thinking she could always be wearing turtlenecks and long pants, even in super hot weather. Markus never knew why, until one day she shows up in shorts and a t-shirt and is covered in tattoos from her neck to her feet?? Markus is like “w o w” and he gets a huge crush on her and it ends with cute fluff?

Authors Note: i hope i did him justice im srry if this came out CRAP but i kinda had writers block writing this. i added some pics in here to give u guys visuals. i hope this turned out all right, im srry it took so long i am almost finished with all my requests so stay tuned fam for when i open requests again! thnx for requesting anon and hope u like! 

“Uncle Carl how are you feeling today?” You ask taking a seat next to the bed of your uncle’s.

Funny enough you felt you were more close to Carl than say even your father you both sharing a bond. Your uncle was everything to you. 

Carl chuckled and leaned his head against the pillows, “dear, it is the same as always. Also why are you wearing a turtle neck and some long pants, its like 80 in here!”

Suddenly, Markus walked in, wanting to get Carl out of bed and to start the day. You always made sure to come early in the morning, sometimes even before Carl woke up. You wanted to spend every little minute with him. 

“Markus takes very good care of me. Without him I’d be lost.”

You peered up to see the android smiling lightly but as he saw your expression his face turned back to stoic. 

“Yes, Markus does take great care of you, I am forever grateful to him.” You stand up and fix your clothes. Markus’s eyes turn to your clothing and he looks concerned. You quickly pat Markus on the shoulder, “thank you Markus. Uncle I’m gonna wait downstairs for you, I brought some groceries maybe we can share a meal together!”

You ran down the stairs not wanting any confrontation. 

After eating and enjoying breakfast you go and wash the dishes. 

“I do not want to be rude, but you do realize I am the one who is supposed to do that.” Markus stood next to you. 

“Well take a break.”

Markus stood there like a stiff log with such a serious face.

You look him over and shake your head, “that let me tell you is not taking a break.”

Markus stood closer to you. His presence making you lose focus on what you were doing that your hands slip on a plate and the plate drops on the floor. You quickly get the pieces and one of the shards cuts your skin making it bleed. 

“Is everything alright dear?” Called your uncle, rolling to you.

“Oh its nothing its just a cut.” You wince touching it making it bleed more. 

“Markus, go help her out with that.”

Markus grabbed your other hand and led you to where Carl does his art. He brought out the first aid kit and tended to your wound. 

“This may hurt,” Markus touched the cut and you wince lightly, biting your lips to stop the cry. Then the pain goes away and instead it is replaced with soft, comforting hand. His hand lingers on yours for just a moment, making you feel sparks fly. 

You smile to Markus as he is putting a wrap around it, “Thank you Markus.”

“I don’t want to intrude or anything buy may I ask, why are you wearing that y/n?”

You turn around to look at yourself in the mirror. 

Of course you looked ridiculous and of course you were hot but you couldn’t reveal what was hidden under the clothes. 

You stare longer into the mirror, feeling self conscious with yourself. You wrap your arms around your waist and Markus comes up behind you to place a reassuring hand on your shoulder. 

“Y/n whatever you are hiding under there would not make you less beautiful.”

You shake your head back and forth and tears start to come out. 

“No I can’t show you, you would think of me badly. Everyone does when they get a look at me. I don’t want you to stop tending to my uncle or to stop talking to me.”

You wipe your tears away and grab your bag swiftly, saying goodbye to Markus. 

“Hey uncle I got to go, I just forgot I have to do something.”

Out the door you left. Leaving Markus questioning. 

“Uncle Carl is Markus there?” You asked over the phone the next day. 

“No why? Y/n you’re starting to sound real strange you know that. Wearing that outfit, and then Markus said you stormed out because you were crying, whats up with all that?”

Your leg bounced up and down, your hands rubbing your temple. “Uncle I’ll tell you when I get there.”

You walked up the stairs to your uncle’s room and sat by him. 

“See now that outfit’s better.”

Looking down to your hands tears appeared again. Carl was concerned and held your hands, “whats wrong my dear? Y/n tell me!”

“I hate the way I look!”

Your secret was about your tattoos, your tattoos covered your whole body. 

The only person who knew was your uncle and he didn’t mind since he had a couple himself. But you didn’t want to show them to Markus, not to someone who is so important to you. Every time you showed them to any one or to any android they would either become afraid or become disgusted. 

“I don’t want to be weird anymore. I don’t want Markus to not like me and then turn you away. I just wish people were more understanding.”

“I think you look beautiful.” Said a new voice, turning to the door you spot Markus. Feeling self conscious you try to cover up and go out the door. 

“This was a mistake,” you uttered, trying to leave. 

“Y/n, y/n please do not leave.” Called Markus, heading down the stairs. 

“What do you want Markus? You want to tell me how ugly I am?”

Markus face softened, “Y/n all those things you said about yourself are not true. I could never be afraid or disgusted by you. I believe your tattoos actually make you look-”

You came closer, innocence playing on your face, “yes?”

“I feel that these markings make you look...sexy.”

You chuckled, not knowing androids could say that. “Thank you Markus.”

Markus took a hold of your hand. “Y/n, you are beautiful just the way you are, and I would never want to change you, or for you to change.”

You smiled feeling loved and appreciated. 

“For gods sake just ask her out Markus!” 

You and Markus both look at the top of the stairs to see who said that. 

“Uncle!” You shouted, feeling bashful. 

“Its the truth!” 

“Gotta love him,” you whispered to Markus. 

Markus chuckled, lacing his fingers with yours. 

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