#because a few people on the internet think theyre dumb

[decompose1]

im sorry i think people are weirder about tone tags than they need to be it does not take rocket science to figure them out most people will tell you if asked i literally JUST googled a few and the meaning was right there easily google-able. IDK LIKE you're welcome to not like them but i feel like the million posts about them not making sense is disingenuous and this ALWAYS HAPPENS when people try to make accessibility things. just say u dont like them and move on!!!! there is no need to be weird to autistic people who work differently from you!!

#IDK maybe im frustrated cause like! #tone tags wouldve been rly helpful if they existed that time i was treated awfully and kicked out of a server #because people kept misreading my tone in conversation and would like #randomly accuse me of being cold/condescending when i JUST spoke clinically bc of my autism #or would misunderstand social cues and get confused by what people meant #and everyone told me ''well you can just be more clear''/''just stop talking like that'' #which is PRETTY ABLEIST. #BUT I WAS SEEN AS THE CRAZY ONE FOR- AT THE TIME- ASKING IF THEY COULD JUST ASK ME WHAT I MEANT #OR WHAT MY TONE WAS #BC I DIDNT HAVE A WAY TO COMMUNICATE THATT #and now ive been like #cringed out of using tone tags. which r for people with this exact problem #because a few people on the internet think theyre dumb #man whatever #meow.txt

[headspace-hotel]

Okay I was planning on staying out of it but this is painful to watch.

To be clear, OP was being very weird and didnt at all need to say that. But it seems like hald the people since then have just been trying to explain what OP mewnt and doing it horribly, because I do in fact get ehat thry were saying.

Theres been a bug movement with online fascists thats like "modern society is too urban (see: diverse). Weve gotten too far from how we traditionally lived, and were so out of touch with nature. Kids spend all their time inside or in the suburbs and never get to see real nature." And its all a recruitment tactic.

The Start of that pipeline is often just "huh modern scoiety is extremely out of touch with nature. Kids grow up without the experiences I had as a kid running around in creeks and stuff. Kids cant recognize plants." And most of that is true and it Is bad, but they then often make a very quick leap to "this is a problem with Society." And from there to fascist talking points.

And like, if you squint, you can very easily draw similarities between the very start of that pipeline and your recent posting.

Again, this is Obviously incredibly stupid and anyone who actually reads anything you post can see that. But like, I can at least see how, if someone is primed to always look only for fascist dog whistles, and one of your recent posts crossed their dash, if theyre not smart, they could arrive at that anxiety.

Everyone since then has just been dumb about it.

...Okay I'm thinking the "cottagecore" discourse has just rotted people's brains out here. I didn't realize it until now but "posting pictures of a basket of freshly picked strawberries is a fascist dogwhistle" really was a Thing on here a while back. Okay. That makes sense now.

I know about the "trad"/fascist-adjacent 'homesteading'/off-the-grid doomsday prepper attitudes. Where I live, being a 'homesteader' often goes along with stockpiling guns.

But these people's attitudes are individualistic, it's all about personally escaping the "Modern" world and living in The Wilderness(tm) somewhere and being "self-sufficient" (lmao). Kind of a manifest-destiny adjacent fantasy (gross)

This is where the "cottagecore" discourse brain worms did immense damage—no one wanted to explain why the individualistic, intrepid settler homesteader fantasy was a problem, so all the well meaning people on the margins of the discourse went "oh, okay, wanting to reconnect with your natural world and consciously participate in your local ecosystems is a fascist/colonialist thing."

I have multiple posts buried deep in my drafts about this somewhere that I was afraid to post, because I was met with the "google is free" stuff when I tried to figure out what was going on, and Google was entirely empty of any material explaining the (alleged?) fascist and colonialist roots of cottagecore.

It makes my brain hurt because yes, actually, I *see* how "homesteading" is sometimes related to white supremacist and colonialist shit, and the fascist and "cottagecore" communities do have an overlap that is not purely coincidental. That's real. It's not made up. But. A lot of people on the internet have learned to recognize fascist "dogwhistles" instead of learning to recognize fascist ideas.

A lot of the work of recognizing fascist-adjacent stuff in the wild does rely on developing a sensitivity to such "red flags." I've talked about things that I consider to be red flags, and I sometimes respond strongly to them. But—it's crucial that you understand that the red flags themselves are not what fascism is. You have to be able to see and recognize the actual harmful components of an ideology instead of deciding that any similarity, no matter how superficial, Is Fascism.

A lot of colonialist and fascist systems of thought have "relationships with nature and growing plants is good" somewhere in there, but the actual poison here comes in a few forms:

unquestioned romanticization of settling/colonizing an Untouched Wilderness

deciding that some kind of stable, inherent 'natural' state of human existence is always good, and 'unnatural' things are bad

modern society is decaying and degenerate, "traditional" values and lifestyles are better (enter romanticizing the past as a paradise of moral and racial purity)

Yes, there were statements in my post that looked superficially similar to some of these. No, those statements were not even remotely close to communicating the same things.

And "dogwhistles" are not about superficial similarity. If you learn about 'homesteading' as a white supremacist fantasy being a thing, and you jump onto a post talking about growing native species like "Oh look I've found a fascist dogwhistle!" You've misunderstood the assignment.

[pezpenser205]

kk i wanna ramble abt smth that probably only i actually get annoyed at cuz its just mildly saddening and disappointing. not serious it just grinds my gears a bit when i see it sometimes

this. just as an example bc it just came up on my dash and was easily accessible, not an individual thing bc theres swarms of tweets and posts like this and this person isnt explicitly like a self improvement person i dont think. (i saw one at one point from a spirituality or self improvement blog that was like "whatevers good for your soul, do that" and that was probably the worst one ive ever seen bc they didnt even try to hide how dumb it sounded i wish i had it on hand but i dont.)

anyway. internet self improvement talk where its just a whole lot of vague allusions to how they did better and zero advice or elaboration on how to do that or what the hell they mean by that like its simultaneously an objectively easy to understand concept and also a secret to the universe that few people can comprehend.

how did you learn to regulate them? who are the right people? what are the right things to express?? like this shit sounds deep if you dont think about it too hard or if youre already doing great in those aspects of your life and know what theyre talking about but its a big nothing sandwich if you try to break it down as someone who would actually want to hear how they did this or if youre struggling and actually want to improve yourself using their example. it isnt their obligation but it is frustrating to feel like theres this big secret that will magically improve your life that youre being left out of.

its just "i had struggles but im doing better now because i improved by doing the thing that is the right thing to do that improved me. it changed everything by being the good thing." like ok good for you. why are you saying that like its sound advice or profound in some way when you do not ever elaborate. please elaborate at least. its so vague. i want to learn how to regulate my emotions!!!! you can elaborate on what you mean!!!!

i dont even know what to call this phenomenon and im sure somebodys already invented a name for it. its not toxic positivity but it feels adjacent. ive wanted to at least like. point at it. poke at the concept a bit. please lmk if you have any other examples of this on hand bc its fascinated me for many many years

i think a lot of this is the fault of most of this stuff coming from twitter, a platform which actively makes elaborating on ideas as difficult as humanly possible. it makes people unable to share their stories without oversimplifying them to the point of comedy or making a thread (which are just.. annoying to read).

its just "git gud lel" self improvement edition honestly

#op

[koiifiishy]

as a razor main, i’ve gathered my own thoughts on our favorite wolf boy that the general fandom seems to be in direct contradiction with. ive read ENOUGH razor slander!!! i shant stand for it any longer.... its my turn to post my random thoughts on the internet for strangers to scrutinize...... 

1. I don’t think razor smells bad

he probably smells like the outdoors; woodsy, like nature. a little musk because he sweats but nothing excessive. wolves groom each other and take bathes in streams. so the common hc that razor doesn’t know what a bath is IS SLANDEROUS i’m sure he understands that “if you’re covered in mud... go to a stream and wash it off”. i think he’d be fine with washing himself, he may not understand the need for shampoos and soaps (they might be too strong for his nose / bother him too) but i reeeally don’t think he’s as much of a dirty little man as fandom makes him out to be! 

2. he doesn’t speak well. that doesn’t mean he’s dumb

it’s like when someone’s first language isn’t english (or whatever you speak) - they may be a bit clumsy with their words and they don’t always understand nuances, but that’s not at all an indication of their intelligence. razors been stated to be smart in game too, he’s quick thinking ; i feel like he’s a very WIS over INT character (if you get it you get it) but that doesn’t mean he’s unteachable or stupid. 

3. razor would know what sex is

nsfw i guess so tw for that - but i highly doubt razor doesn’t know what sex is. i don’t think the wolves around him are going to their private bedroom and locking the door when it’s time to bone down, he’s probably seen members of his pack hook up and a few months later Bam there’s puppies. he probably understands the concept on a pretty basic animalistic level. he may not get human nuances but to make him seem like a “i do not understand any sort of sexual nuance and i have the mind of an infant” is a disservice to my lil homie :I 

4. he’s not a baby :”D !!!

regardless of what age you think he is (i personally like to think the medium build characters are at The Least 18, i don’t vibe with the ‘theyre all kids’ mentality) the infantilization of razor is SAD. he doesn’t understand a lot of nuanced human norms, human societal standards, and human language. but he’s learning. he was raised by the wolves, andrius (to a degree) and had dealings with varka and lisa in his youth; he had people (or animals) to teach him things! i wouldn’t infantilize a wolf - i don’t think it’s fair to do so to razor’s character either. 

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now i do agree that he probably has a touch of the tism lol i like that headcanon.  this was just me rambling, and goofing on some of the common headcanons / how i see razor written sometimes. it’s not singling any one person out and you’re free to hc characters however you want - these are all my own opinions. plz dont engage me in fandom arguing i dont care,,, 

#fishy ramblings #razor genshin impact #genshin razor #razor headcanons #the art above is by me

[treecove]

Your cats are really cute!! I only sent a message because I've been down that pipeline before and it's a hard time crawling back out. Humans weren't meant to know what was happening with strangers hundreds of miles away from them, and it can become overwhelming to have to care about a new issue everyday. I just think the checkmarks are ultimately, in the grand scheme of things, fairly harmless and not worth compiling huge lists over, that's all.

i mean i appreciate the concern??? but theyre also kinda Not harmless considering ppl are spending over 100 dollars on it to stack em. like you can't rly claim to be anti brand and then pay for nothing while a brand site monetizes you

like, okay, if it was like. attached to the ad removal thing then it wouldn't be as much of a big deal- id still think it's dumb cause like. get ad block. but at least it's serving a purpose and those who actually give a shit can feel better paying the site that they like and get a sticker for it.

but THIS is doing... nothing? and getting into triple digits from a bunch of people, all based off an internet trend that is going to blow over anyways.

then, what? what about when it stops being funny? you gave 10, 30, 100 dollars for nothing.

a sheet of stickers is about the same amount of enjoyment. and that'd be fine if that's all it was! but it's not. they didn't do this to give something to be happy about. they did it to turn a profit. and they did it while they've been repeatedly suppressing donations from desperate people, banning people for speaking out against racism, and ALL WHILE THEY HAVE FASH AND PEDOS HERE.

so no, it's really NOT harmless.

like, don't think that im devoting hours of my time, furiously hunting down every single person with a few check marks, because i really, really am not.

i started the list as a petty joke kind of thing to poke fun at people that i felt were stupid at best and willfully callous at worst, bc i saw a bunch of check marks on my dash at the time.

then when it got reblogged, i just kept doing it, occasionally following a little list of check marks and being astounded at the amount of money people were pouring down the drain when they could have spent it in a way that didn't contribute to a website with a rep for censoring marginalized people.

people started tagging it as a block list and asked for transcripts, so i keep adding to it from time to time.

a lot of people don't want to associate with those willing to give money to the site over this sort of thing. and when a lot of people use mobile can't actually SEE the checkmarks, someone keeping a list of those that they happen to come across is useful.

and, yeah, a few times ive genuinely got pissed off, bc the people defending it just refuse to get what me and others are saying - that this is a skeevy and opportunistic move by tumblr and is just another nasty monetization tactic off the back of repeated PR fuck ups and gross mismoderation of the website. and then they also try and act high and mighty and talk down to us.

it's not ruining my day or sth but i really REALLY beg you to put some thought into why exactly we hate it so much

[shhhhhiminsidesaitamascloset]

tw: SA

Im not sure how long i had this blog in general. Maybe in late May??? Probably June.

But im just reflecting on things. Losing my old tumblr blog and emails before being hospitalized and sent to a facility. Then coming back making new emails and having to start over.

You'd think something like this would devastate me. But months earlier my house caught on fire and i lost all my sketches and artwork. I lost memorable items, manga collections i had since high school.

It was all gone. So some d*** hacking my phone and making me lose access to my emails and logins was the least of my problems. But when i went through living with someone who wanted to do s*xual things to me, being coerced while i was in psychosis and being assaulted.

I felt lost. Luckily when i was hospitalized i found God again. So i was working on getting back on the straight and narrow after i thought i was being spiritually attacked and realizing someone put a curse on me. (I think i know what happened but its another story for another day) And the psychosis took time to wear off.

In the meantime i managed to make a tumblr account again and start over. And i think its probably been about 2 or 3 months (getting out of that psychosis fog finally thank God!) And im not as patient and docile as i was before during the bits i was in psychosis. But im trying my best to stay close to God and Jesus and lead/live by example.

I feel like there's a lot i can thank God for and even if its just my psychosis i truly believe i am God's servant and soldier. I've been through so much and i had been so tough through it. It was scary, but braving it through and being patient taught me how to go about my life. It also taught me the importance of faith and my priorities.

I also realize that i can be really sh**ty to people i dont know online. But we can only blame negative and toxic internet culture for that. So i started vowing that i'll try to treat people the way i wanted to be treated online. Even if we are 'enemies' i'll still be nice and kind and give you advice on being a better person.

I wanna be the light for people online. Even if im posting dumb f/o and fandom related stuff. I wanna be that person where people see my icon and say "Theyre not perfect but they really try their best to be positive"

Like i said before i dont expect everyone to like me. I shouldnt care what others think of me either. But if someone says im toxic and i dont try, i'll tell them they are a liar. Because even before i got on here again i have been trying my best since the accident. I've slipped, fell, made lots of mistakes and had a hard time staying holy and righteous on my spiritual journey.

But anybody who judges me dont know what i went through. Dont know why i am the way i am. Dont know that im constantly improving me. With God and Jesus in my life, i may not know it all but i understand things a lot more than i did before. And im appreciative of Yahweh than i have ever been.

I know all of this is temporary anyway. Though i am appreciative of what i have now. Im not too keen on who we stay with for the moment, but im thankful i got a place to stay until we move. There's a lot to be grateful for now. And even though she drives me nuts, im grateful to have my mom.

These past few months in 2023 have been crazy. And i dont know how long i'll have this blog and side blogs. But im grateful it made it this far. And who knew i'd like Saitama from One Punch Man 🤷‍♀️ ?

But the fact i jumped from Enrico Pucci, to Joseph Joestar, to Saitama so quick worries it wont last. But i might have to force this hyperfixation somehow.

Anyway, I hope i didnt bore you too much. And i know most people on tumblr dont take time to read things. But i'd say: Count your blessings, be grateful for even the smallest things, appreciate your friends online and irl, and dont take things for granted

ty y'all have a good day, God bless, and drink plenty of water✩

#thoughts #✰Cass✰ thoughts #blog #thank you God #It really has been at least 2 or 3 months huh?

[maaaxx]

Fic talk

Currently resisting the urge to post the first few chapters of 'cots' (i think im going to use q different acronym after i actually post it).

Ive mentioned a million times before how when i posted ihiap i was going through some shit and i needed a source of dopamine and random strangers on the internet praisingnyour writing and characters is such a wonderful source of dopamine.

But ihiap was all very impulsive and i didnt know what the plot is until like chapter 30 of the first book and i love it sm but i also hate it with a burnjng passion like its ridiculous. Theres so many plot holes and details that dont make sense and events that are just really dumb and that i regret sm. like i really love ihiap as a plot and chatacters and themes and relationships and such but 17 year old me just wasnt doing it justice.

Another thing about ihiap is that its the first long project ive done. Like ive made so many short stories and snippets of longer projects but ihiap is the first time i like, worked out a plot and character development and such. There was so many different things that i didnt realize i didnt know how to do until ihiap. For example balancing side characters and main characters and main plots vs side plots. Also pacing. Also characterization. But since i learned more about that stuff im more confident in it. Like everything i hate about ihiap i did because of inexpierience and stuff. Obviously fanfic is just a fun hobby and not anything serious so it really isnt that deep. But like PEOPLE STILL READ THAT SHIT STOP ITA!!!

this post is definetly following my whole "make a post about cots and then talk about ihiap most of the time" thing.

Anywho, because of that stuff im much more confident in cots and that ill actually be able to tell the story in a morenput together and comprehensible way. So im very excited about it.

But i think im.overcompensating a lot. Like i refuse to post this until i have every last detail plotted and written down. No plot holes nothing.

Cots is actually based on an ihiap au that i plotted out an actual (non fanfic) story for and then redid it again to get cots. So like an alternative universe of an alternate universe of an alternate universe of atla.

Sokkas the "main" protagonist in it but the first book is zuko centric more so. The second book is sokka centric and the third book is both.

But (like i said) sokkas the protagonist, zukos probably the deuteragonist and azula, katara, and aang are all tritagonists.

Azula is somehow the most put together one in the series.

But its a mix of a lot of different tropes. (The swt and zuko trope ofc is there its my favorite) but its a lot more complex than ihiap.

Everything is a lot more complex than ihiap actually. Like i cant figure this shit out.

Some ihiap ocs are making an appearance (not nankin) (the more backroundish ones) and theyre always fun.

I really love my ocs and i think its really funny how theyre simutaneously my most critisized and praised things about ihiap.

Cots has been something ive been working on for about a year now 💀💀 and im really hoping to get it put out by the end of the year but well see

Ive said this on here before but i also think its funny how my fics follow age order pshychology. Like ihiap is my first and i love her sm but ill be damned if i dont want to just delete her sometimes and pretend she never happened. I always forget about totp and she only has 2 chapters up despite being posted like two years ago. Cots is my baby shes my pride and joy and can do no wrong. (Yes all my fics are girls)

Ive started this semester of school again recently so ofc that means im going to be procrastinating my work by working on my wips.

#ihiap is being rewritten and im debating whether im going to completely repost it or not #i think im going to but who knows #but im actually really excited for ihiap to be somewhat comprehensive #and not suck! #max thinks shes relevant #ihiap #cots #fic talk

[scoupssolo]

Hi besties! I hit 2k on this blog i’ll try not to remake immediately this time lol and I wanted to say thank you! I truly love and adore so many people on caratblr and I dont think I’ll ever be able to thank all of you for everything you’ve done for me. I think I’ve grown so much as a creator because of all the support you all give my gifs and gfx 💖 I’ve been trying to think of the best way to show my gratitude and to say thank you, and I’ve decided to release a resource pack! It’s full of pngs and textures and a few of my own psds for you to enjoy hehe. you can download it here. Now on to the mushy part!

First of all I want to thank all of you for following me, all my lovely anons, and especially all my mutuals who are truly my best internet buddies that I love SO SO much!

under the cut are some mushy gross messages for just some the people I talk to the most and admire I wanted to do more but this is so long and i’m gonna cry if i keep going... so don’t click on it ok it’s icky.

@redberetjisung: of course you go first. well besides Cheol, and Minho, and Jeongin, and Jisung and... well you’re important enough. thanks for letting me stress at you about almost every single thing I make, and telling me they’re good, and for being very petty with me and enjoying my dramatique ass 🍕

@seungyounchoz: (or whatever your url is this week) even though you torture me with that giant dumb boy, I still love you so much. I can’t wait to take you around salem and be spooky and lovely together! you’ll always be my silver star my dear!

@7kyh: Tina!!!!! bestie I love you so much pls. light of my life. most precious lovely little goth aesthetic boba loving girl in the world. gonna follow you even after this whole site crashes and burns. i love you🖤

@reyofseokshine: REY!!! pls how did you dig so deep into my heart so fast??? i love you so much bestie its insane lol thank you for sharing so much of your talent with me, I’m always so blown away by how talented you are, and how beautiful your words are. thank you for screaming about cheol with me it makes my day to have you there to keysmash with!

@soonhoonsol: Chey. I love you so so much you’re such a gift of a friend. You are so kind and always so helpful. You’re such an important part of caratblr, truly one of the ppl i admire the most. You always work so hard on everything you make and your so talented!! I love love love you!

@woozi: YZA!! queen of color your gifs are so pretty and so vibrant i adore them! I love that i can always tell when they’re yours because they just glow and theyre so full of life! i love you so much. you’ve been such a loving and supportive person to all of caratblr I admire you so much yza, youre such a sweet and lovely person!

@gyukwans: Lee!! god talk about doing so much for caratblr. the number of challenges and things you do for caratblr. getting to do studiocarat and now guess the carat with you ahs been so much fun! and

@adorablehoshi: ANGI my sweet angel i love you. Im especially thankful we’ve gotten closer now that i have a skzblog too but I’ve adored you since i first started following you a billion years ago. You’re so talented and so kind im so glad that we’re friends!

@coupsnim: izzie!!! my cheolmate hehe where to start? your gfx are always so beautiful, they feel like somehow you managed to scrapborenaissancence art, it’s so gorgeous. and the way you color is always so pretty! Your reds are always so vibrant and beautiful!!! Im so grateful to not be the only person who dies every time Cheol breathes <3 

@jadethirwall: Ellie!! queen. full of taste. you always bring the best movie gifs and drama to my dash and it’s everything lmao even if we both end up completely dropping kpop someday we’ll always have pacific rim and into the spiderverse (both of which I always think of you when i see them hehe)

if youre not on here its NOT because im not in love with you i am i swear Im just emo and i have to stop azfxsda

#Drm.pst #I wanted to tag everyone in this but i didnt wanna be annoying asfsgdsf

[fairycosmos]

this is very random but i was hoping maybe you could give some insight? i finally accepted that im lesbian but ive been calling myself bi for 5 years now and also realized that i used it to avoid women cause i was scared to admit that i found them attractive. now im admitting it and that i never really wanted anything to do with men but.....i have no idea how to romantically approach women loool like im so lost with it, i have no idea how queer culture or anything of the sort works cause ive avoided it as much as i could until now......how does this shit work, i feel like im reealizing things too late (even tho im only 22 ) and ive missed my chance to live a happy gay life ashfkfjkf even tho i know that sounds stupid. this sounds so dumb but i dont know how to be gay lmao

oh it's suuuuper normal don't even worry about it. it's why a lot of lgbt ppl feel like they have their coming of age moments much later. or they feel like they go through a second puberty of sorts where they rediscover sexuality and romance and love, through a lens they finally feel comfortable with, for the first time. also ur soooo young it's fine it's fine it's fine. you will be fine. i know it's frustrating and it feels kind of like stumbling through the dark TBH i'm kind of in the same boat so maybe everything i have to say on the matter is kind of stunted - but yeah it's honestly so natural. i think familiarizing yourself with queer culture and media is a good first step like movies, certain communities, tv shows, online spaces, books, music and artists etc etc. and also maybe learning a bit about lesbian history in ur country if it interests you! or not that's just an idea some ppl don't care LOL anyway. i recommend finding other lgbt ppl online too, it's really cathartic and fun and it's great to have friends who r on the same wave length as you like that, even just on the internet. THEN i guess the next step would be looking for gay/lgbt scene in ur area, if there is one, and maybe checking out a few gay bars or clubs with ur friends. or just look for any sort of communal activity that is popular w other lesbian and bi women specifically and kind of learn from there as you go through adjusting and observing. there's also sometimes these lgbt support groups to help ppl find each other/cope w hard situations that stem from being lgbt so maybe you could look into those? it sounds cheesy but there literally is no wrong way to be gay at all, it doesn't even have to be a whole thing if you don't want it to be. it's truly just an aspect of ur identity. and nobody knows how to flirt or talk to ppl at first, there's no script you need to follow with women just because theyre women or anything. they're not expecting you to know exactly what to do or say right off the bat, either. it's just about trying to genuinely connect w people when the opportunity presents itself, i reckon, and seeing where it goes from there. you could try lgbt/lesbian dating apps if u want, though they can be kind of intimidating - i always delete them every few months feeling like i have no idea how to talk to women, either. it is hard ngl like it's a weird world to navigate especially when you're new to it and it's normal to feel lost and a little strange about it so don't feel like ur some outlier who didn't get the memo! none of us did! we're all somewhat estranged from each other, even ppl who grew up out and proud. just the fact that you're finally in a place of self acceptance is a really good sign and there is no set trajectory for this sort of thing at all, where you have to measure yourself up against everyone elses time scale and journey and experiences. you're doing better than you think. baby steps into getting to know the lgbt culture and scene wherever you live is more than enough. no rush <3

#anon

[comradedream]

I don’t like the sense of entitlement people have towards creators like Dream who’ve since the beginning HAS interacted with his community. It all the more makes me even more pissed off how people only know how to spark outrage against him in order to force a response out of him that’ll come out “fake” to them. And it makes me all the more enraged how entitled people believe they owe more explanation to his private life (ie sexuality, family, friends).

It really just comes to parasocial factors (I know), and psychoanalyzing the person that only shows a few facets of himself to spark rumors and fake outrage. I’ve seen so much obsessive shit especially against him that dehumanizes him greatly. And the entitlement, I stress this part the most of having no problem to throw any type of buzzword at him to tear him down. Like I didn’t mean to stumble on One Of Those Twitter/Tumblr accounts and the sense of superiority they believe they have over him is astoundingly pathetic and encompasses such a black/white mindset that it makes me laugh instead of get mad at the whole misinterpreting of everything Dream has done to “fix” his mistakes. It’s like looking at lsf but worse and I want to vent so bad on it because if ever the time comes that Dream does willingly on his own accord to delve into his personal life without being put on the spot by invasive people again, I need people especially on Twitter not to blindly believe the rhetoric they think is right. Like I know I’m begging for common sense and basic human decency but it’s the internet yk people will attack with no information and spew lies like wildfire. It seriously blindsided me how dumb the shit I read and how many people believe it.

😵‍💫 yaaaa i agree 100% this fandom and honestly so many ppl in general in regards to dream have so much entitlement to what they think they deserve to know or hear or see. its rly rly gross and dehumanizing. its so weird when they think theyre a fan too like ?? like the fact that that behavior overlaps so much between people who despise him and ppl who think theyre fans LOL. idek y those ppl stick around tbh like they hate his fandom and they hate him 😭 im just glad dream still sticks w what he believes in tho and doesnt cave at stupid shit like that, a lot of the time it seems very overpowering and overwhelming. it rly sucks how much misinfo and hate ppl are willing to spread and believe about someone just to have that little moment of pseudo moral superiority 😵‍💫

#asks #from last night also sry #long post #discourse #negative

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im definitely not ripping off my friend by making a list of au ideas i have no siree //gonna slap this under a readmore cause i. well i say a lot. all of the time. i tried so hard to format this Good but tumblr fucked me up i am so sorry

so first-off i know i already have one WIP AU (Auckland) on ao3 so i wont talk about That one cause like. spoilers. i actualyl have it like 80% created so its likely gonna truly get finished for once and i dont wanna ruin shit

the other one ive posted about is something me and ben (catgirlrepublic) have worked on together its not at all close to done or anything but it's. a fun little crossover. Between jdate and my fuckinuhm. Original characters story “Untitled Villains Project”. the sketches of the comic version ive started is actually my pinned post 👉👈 its like the first chunk of the story, i think half of part 1? yea.

Tldr john fucking Somehow is able t oget into contact with a certain curious scientist from another reality who’d just love to study the Soy Sauce, most certainly not for her own nefarious purposes

John and Dave meet up with the scientist, her name is Boss, and her lab assistant, Toxic, and after a bit of a preliminary Vibe Check where john determines her trustworthy (which Dave doesnt agree with,) the two agree to be taken to the world UVP is set in. from there they stay in Boss’s lab (big old fucking abandoned military lab). John and Toxic are fast friends due to mutual love-of-chaos. John n Dave get to fuckin, camp out on an air mattress.

The day after they arrive, the two get split up, not exactly intentionally; big plot points of UVP are liek. Fueled by Boss sending Toxic to go fetch her “research materials,” which are usually important artifacts

Fuckin side note i guess i have to explain my dumb bullshit: Boss’s, uh, field of expertise so to speak is actually fckin, basically the scientific study of magic and superpowers n shit like that. This shit’s all real in that world. Toxic’s got fuckin superpowers, so do 4 other main characters, whatever. It’s got a bit to do with spirituality, iss Boss’s hypothesis. So she has Toxic fetch important artifacts that might have “energies” to them. The thing is actually way more fuckin complictated than that, this is just Boss’s initial hypothesis.

Motherfucking anyways. So Boss gives Toxic a job to do, and John get excited about how Cool that sounds, and ends up going with Toxic, leaving Boss and Dave alone. Neither is thrilled about this. But Dave and Boss get to have a bit of conversation (while Toxic and John are off bonding and having a good time) and come to a… mutual grudging understanding of some kind. They still dont like each other though lmao

Theres gonna be deeper shit going on but we havent sorted it out yet/tbh havent like Written For It in a while but i still like thinking about it a lot lol

Also pretty sure our endgame is john and dave steal toxic and bring them back with em lmao boss is kind of not nice and toxic would most certainly be better off in Undisclosed. Actually theyd fucking love it. Theyd become a local cryptid im sure. Undisclosed’s mothman is a teleporting spike baby.

I have. Another crossover AU that i might. Post something about for halloween? Maybe? If i have it finished?

Crosses over into, you guessed it, another one of my original-character projects. God, am i vain or something?

I promise this is just because i think blue and dave should get to team up to beat up some monsters

Quick briefing on my fuckinuh. Original character story, this one doesnt have a name (yet? Idk lol my work never actually goes anywhere sso who gives a shit). It centers around two grim reapers, Red (26, bi woman) and Blue (22, aroace agender asshole). In this reality or whatever, grim reapers function kind of like low-level office workers. They get told who’s going to die + when by some middle-management types, and upper management only involve themselves when punishment needs to be doled out. These Higher-Ups can be seen as analogous to Korrok; they’re decidedly not human, never were, and fucking terrifyingly powerful. Additionally, grim reapers are sort of .. designed to be “background noise” people. In reality theyre supernatural beings and, uh, look Real Fuckin Weird (the whole deal has a neon aesthetic im terrible at drawing uwu) but most humans just perceive them like extras in a movie. A body’s there but the camera’s not focused on it.

To the narrative: the shit starts when Red n Blue get relocated to Undisclosed. Relocation is something that just happens every now and then to reapers; they usually work in teams, but they get split up into different cities to avoid any strong bonds forming (a counter-union strategy from the Higher-Ups).

Red, Blue, John and Dave end up running into each other for the first time in a McDonalds where John n Dave are getting some 4am “hey, we just survived another horrific monster fight” celebration burgers. John and Dave are the only two people who can see how… strange Red and Blue are. Nobody else notices.

John unintentionally pisses Blue off, leading to Blue whacking him upside the head with a dildo bat. They all four get kicked out of McDonald’s. Dave and Red both are less than thrilled

Blue and John end up resolving their differences, somehow. Red and Dave briefly bond over their dumbass best friends being, well, dumbasses. They all part ways amicably.

somehow-or-other (idk yet) they end up running into each other a few more times, and eventually john invites them over to his place, and the four (plus Amy now!) get to know each other a little better

while there, Blue gets a text about some guy who's gonna die and John offers to drive them to where that's gonna go down. they take him up on the offer and get to have a bit of one-on-one conversation

after that ordeal though Blue has had Enough of people and bails, leaving John to head home alone

theres a sort of mirror-development going on with the five of em. Red, John, and Amy would all like everyone to get along, though theyre a bit tentative about it (John moreso than the other two, actually, jsut cause. well Red n Blue could still be Sauce Monsters). Dave and Blue on the other hand do Not like people enough for this shit, and Dave's not unconvinced theyre Sauce Monsters. he will not trust them until proven he should

the story's kinda nebulous but i got an idea for some Shit going down that involves both Sauce Monsters and also the Higher-Ups to have some fuckin absolute chaos go down.

Oops! All Trans

Everybody is transgender. Everyone

Ive actually workshopped this one both with ben (catgirlrepublic) and ghost (ghost-wannabe) lmao its a fun lil concept ive had from the get-go cause i mean. What’s an internet tran gonna do other than hit all their favourite media with the Everyone’s Trans beam

Dave transitioned post-high school and faked his death for it. People go missing in Undisclosed all the damned time, after all. He moved to the next city over, transitioned fully, then came back as a completely new man. Yes i know this doesnt exactly fit with the “everyone knows David from high school” thing alright, hush.

Anytime anyone brings up John’s old best friend (pre-transition Dave) John throws an entire fit like an overdramatic grieving widow. Full-on sobbing “why would you bring her up?! I miss her so much—” to the point that people just stop bringing up because Jesus Christ That Sure Is Uncomfortable KJHGFDS.

This is a scheme he and Dave came up with prior to Dave leaving, though Dave hadnt exactly anticipated John putting on this much of a performance about it— but it’s stopped Dave from ever having tto hear his deadname again, so hey.

Amy transitioned sometime in middle school/early high school. Her family was super supportive and loved her a ton and most people just know her as Amy. she was super shy her whole life really so. Yeah. people just dont think to bring it up lmao also i Feel Like big jim would absolutely wallop anyone who gave her trouble of any kind

John’s nonbinary (genderfluid specifically) and not exactly Interested in transitioning ? like hes fine with how he is. mostly.

he came out to Dave in high school but hes not out to anyone else exactly. Maybe his bandmates. Probably any other trans person in Undisclosed knows, too, cause theyre safe to tell lmao. Johns mostly a “he/him out of convenience” kinda nb who’s cool with any pronouns but does prefer they/them most. Dave and Amy use they/them when the trio are alone

Also this is a totally self-indulgent caveat that i think would be great, Dave’s actually agender but because he's transmasc and transitioned when he thought there were really only two options, and being Boy at least felt less weird than being Girl, he just kind of assumed he was a dude. It’s only through a lot of (like fucking years and years hes probably in his 30s/40s when he puts 2 and 2 together on this one) talks about gender with John that he realizes he actually feels like No Gender. Masc aesthetic with none gender.

I Just Think It’d Be Neat Is All Okay

Also Amy came out to Dave about being trans early on in them seeing each other and his response was to get very nervous before blurting out “me too” and then just being too embarrassed to talk about it for the rest of the day. Hes got a lot of hangups on talking about it actually it takes years for him to get comfortable in that

by contrast when Amy comes out to John about it his response is to yell “EYYY ME TOO” and give her a big ol hug lmao

I think itd be neatt if Amy ran a like. Transfem help/advice blog on tumblr. Kind of helped-with by John who can give her transfem nb insight for certain asks. I also just think that would be neat.

Cowboy AU - i put this one last cause its got drawings to it actually. Theyll be at the bottom

Basically just. Hey you ever watched a western. I think they look neat

This is another one me n ben have come up with lol

The soy sauce and all that shit still exist, im not sure where korrok fits in yet but ill figure it out

Theres no real like solid narrative yet ? but heres the barebones of everybody’s arcs.

John

Johns an absolute troublemaker, Of Course. Hes wanted in several towns for absolutely stupid shit. Hes a loner who shows up, causes chaos, gets drunk, does some drugs, runs away if people get too mad at him

He definitely had the same kind of deal with the soy sauce as in canon— he was at some kind of party, somebody offered it, he took it cause why the fuck wouldnt he, now he can see monsters and shit

Hes kind of a mooch also. Like. dont let him stay in your barn man he’ll never fucking leave and drink all your booze.

He runs into Dave when they happen to just, cross paths in the same town. the bullshit John stirs up ends up involving Dave in a way that makes it seem like it's his fault too, and they both get run out of town

after that he just tags along after Dave. hes decided this guy's Cool he wants to stick around. Dave is pissed at first, but not enough to shoot him or anything, and eventually, John grows on him

Dave

Dave also is a loner but unlike John hes simply so fucking awkward and bad with people. He doesnt feel like he belongs anywhere so he just travels

He’s the stereotypical Lone Ranger tbh. He wanders from town to town, solving their problems, though hed deny its out of any moral obligation (it kinda is, a little bit, tbh. He does like feeling useful). He shows up, fixes things, leaves. He's kind of a legend but most people think he's hiding something dark. other people jsut know him as that guy who farted real loud in the middle of the saloon and promptly skipped town out of sheer embarrassment. you know how it goes with Dave

He ends up involved with the Soy Sauce when a snake (not Actually a snake,) bites him. The snake’s more like the wig-monsters, really. Anyway, it injects him with the soy sauce, he fucking trips balls in the middle of the desert, he can see monsters now

He runs into John and shit goes tits-up, as said, but they become traveling buddies after that. he'd never say so, but he's glad for the company, actually. it's nice. hes not used to companionship but he feels a strange kind of easiness hanging out with John....

not sure how the Monster Dave concept will like fit in to this reality but like. trust me i want it in here. I'll Figure It Out.

Amy

Amy’s been living in a town John and Dave end up passing through and she is very curious about these two new Handsome Strangers who claim to fight monsters and just kinda. Persistently tags along til they let her join for real

Her family’s all dead, unfortunately, just like in canon, and she’s been living alone for a few years before meeting John n Dave. she had nothing left in that town to stay for, she'd been fantasizing about escaping on wild adventures for a long time and this felt a little like a dream come true. (Dave still gives her a spiel about how Difficult it is, but really, her fantasies were pretty grounded-in-reality already. i jsut think thats how she is, yknow?)

Shes the first person to react to the whole “we see monsters” shit with a kind of “oh, okay. neat” kind of response lmao

John and Dave fix whatever the fuck is up with her town (maybe that’s where the Korrok shit can fit, who knows) and Amy ends up being integral to that. After, she insists they take her with them because “they need her now” and Dave just cant really say no. John too is very much "the more the merrier!" and hes actually glad to have another person along he loves people lmao

At the start she has long hair but after she joins them she chops it short with a knife for convenience

also she still is an amputee. justt. idk. it was a wagon/stagecoach accident rather than a car accident lmao. just to clarify since i hadnt mentioned it, i wouldnt rob her of her ghost hand or yknow. all of the significance to her character that Missing A Hand has. although also now im going to have to research what was used as painkillers way-back-when, but im betting shes still got, like, her pain pills, they probably had those, maybe i wouldnt have to try too hard there. old timey medicine could be WACK though,

Shitload

Yeah hes in tthis shit mostly cause i liked designing his cowboy self lmao

Hes a kid (like 16, 17, technically i think in those days that was more Young Man than Kid but whatever. Hes Young i mean.) who got possessed by the Worms out in the desert and, by his family’s perception, just went missing!

Hes also a wanderer, but he ended up at the same town john and dave met in, at that same time, and starts following them after, already aware of who/what they are.

He keeps his face covered 24/7. actually he covers a Majority of his self for reasons. kinda want him to be a slightly more horrifying Worm Entity rather than human idk,

I kinda dont have much for this boy yet sorry Shitload

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with some editing notes for me cause im doing a very specific aesthetic with this lmao. i might change some lil details/colours though ...... idk

im also kinda 🤔 about shitload's colour palette. i want things assoicated w the sauce to be black'n'red predominantly but i think his palette might mirror dave's too closely. also im working on a korrok design i jsut am too busy to draw it now

#jdate #john dies at the end #aus #erh. tthe hell do i tag this as #rambles.txt #long post #well let me know if youd wanna hear more or. or something #send an ask. or whatever #yaknow #:jazz hands:

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pls pls pls tell me you guys know the difference between "straight girls fetishizing mlm relationships" and "people are allowed to genuinely enjoy fictional sexy content regardless of whether or not they're the specific demographic partaking in the sexy content" PLEASE tell me you guys understand the difference I'm LOSING MY MIND over the bad tumblr hot take that straight girls are automatically fetishizing just because they like reading/writing/drawing nsfw mlm content but theyRE GIRLS???? HeteRO FEEMALE???? ENJOYING CONTENT THAT DONT INVOLVE GIRLS??? GAAAAASSSSSP

theres absolutely nothing wrong with people enjoying content that is removed from their reality. Not everything NEEDS to be 100% relatable for someone to find joy in consuming it. can you even imagine if you switched it around and did that to lgbt people? “oh, you are a homosexual? sorry but you simply are not allowed to enjoy this straight romance because it. is. not. for. you.” or “oh, you are trans? you cannot, under any circumstances, consume this cis fiction you buffoon.”

bro! that would be so dumb!

Gay people can enjoy straight romances and straight people can enjoy gay romances. Hell, we should be ENCOURAGING people to seek out and expose themselves to stories and art that depict things they cant personally relate to. That’s one of the easiest and quickest ways for people to come to understand and respect other viewpoints, dingus.

Fiction is a beautiful and magical thing that has the ability to open minds to people and their lifestyles. And sex is and always should be something that we dont have to hide in a sealed box under our beds! There is nothing dirty or shameful about sex between two consenting adults and we need to stop setting up these fences to keep people from straying into territory that "doesnt belong" to them.

Fetishization is real and it does exist in fandom. But the internet has blurred the line between fetishization and genuine enjoyment to the point that these purity warriors cant tell the difference anymore. It's sad and its harmful and its yet another way to make people feel ashamed of themselves and too scared to join in on fandom, which is supposed to be FUN.

Learn what real fetishization is. Learn to distinguish it from the rest and take time to educate the people that do it. Because I'll bet that so much of the so-called "fetishizers" are speaking and acting from a place of ignorance and not any real malicious intent. they’re most likely young and just parroting whatever it is they’re seeing online. and we should always, always aim to educate before attacking

here are just a few, but fairly common, examples of real fetishization:

- calling gay people “sinful little babies” or anything long the lines of infantilizing and sexualizing in the same breath

- only caring about the sexual aspects of an lgbt character or real life person

- obsessing over whether someone is a “top” or “bottom” (and fighting with others when they disagree with you CMON that’s both gross and childish)

- basing someone’s “role” in a sexual relationship on heteronormative aspects, such as femininity or masculinity

- harassing real life people about anything sexual, especially if they are an lgbt person who you are trying to force your fantasy on (just don’t ever ever ever ever think to do this what is wrong with you people, leave them alone)

- using slurs. just. don’t. even if it’s in a teasing/affectionate way. just don’t. unless you are lgbt and taking back a specific slur attached to your gender/sexual identity, just don’t do it man 

- being explicitly sexual and inappropriate in situations that don’t call for it (yo, if you wanna roleplay some raunchy stuff then find some consenting adults to partake in private. don’t come at people in a public space and start throwin out porn)

- pressuring writers/artists to write/draw porn???? this is wrong in multiple ways??? do not comment on a creator’s work with “make them fuck” or “when are they gonna have sex????” what is WRONG with you people (also, this isn’t necessarily a fetishization thing but don’t tell a writer/artist who does write/draw nsfw stuff about how you masturbated to their creations. it is pretty much guaranteed to make the creator uncomfortable and it’s just bad manners, thanks)

in conclusion, consume or create whatever fiction you want, babes, just keep in mind how straying one way or another could turn into fetishization and make a lot of people feel uncomfortable.

more than that though, if you stumble across someone online who says/writes/draws stuff that makes you personally uncomfortable, do not attack them. block them.

it’s quick, it’s easy, it’s stress free

stay safe, friends 🖤

#long post #sorta #just been thinkin thoughts lately #general rule of thumb is to block and avoid people who make you uncomfy #but it's good to understand too #not every straight girl is fetishizing by enjoying sexy content #its the year of 2020 and we are done shaming people for liking sex

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alright i have to admit, this one is a toughie. so lets just dive into it

despite literally everything about dave as a person seeming like he'd be completely incompatible with someone like amanda, through dumb luck, bad jokes, and sheer force of will hes accidentally created one of the closest friendships hes ever had, and that alone is enough to wig him out of thinking about their relationship too much. but when he does, it usually breaks down like this:

talking to strange people on the internet seems to break good once in a while, since he definitely started talking to her out of boredom and curiosity. who is this y2k-era edgelord? why is she on tumblr? what's the deal with the pig thing? it was curiosity at first, a form of escapism from his increasingly upsetting life, that spiraled into something way more. turns out the funny edgelord is actually packing a huge tragic backstory, a good sense of humor, and an existentially horrifying circumstance with an elder god. that was enough to turn this from joke to real. and then when it got real, it got real in a hurry

so, dave is an incredibly emotionally repressed person, in the same way any person that thinks "vulnerability = getting your ass kicked" tends to be. there are people thatve known dave for years that know less about him than amanda has learned in a few months, and honestly? its entirely because shes 10x worse at emotions than he is. the easiest way for him to bond with someone is through banter and, by extension, him fucking with them, and seeing someone seem so avoidant of getting vulnerable like that meant that he felt pretty comfortable doing it for the bit. plus, there was something extremely relatable about it, since he also had to be "socialized" like this once he moved out of the system. sure, he isnt the best at taking his own advice, but he's heard all of this stuff from his friends. about trusting people, and understanding that not everyone wants to hurt you, and knowing how to put yourself out there. all of that stuff

the fact that it was mixed with jokes made it way easier for both of them, he figures, since thats really all he knows how to do when it comes to socializing anyway. the fact that she was receptive to him fucking with her in the first place was surprising, when she started doing it back it was downright delightful, and somehow it was much easier to transition from jokey banter to serious conversations. felt decently natural, honestly, and thats what weirds himself out the most about it. no matter how weird and different their circumstances are, theyre on a very similar wavelength with discussing and contextualizing their problems, which is to say that they either avoid it until it kills them or turns it into some dumb overwrought joke. and the tendency for them to call each other out on doing both of those things turned it into a system of mutual responsibility, instead of like, living with a therapist that psychoanalyzes you every morning.

eventually though, the whole amanda thing started getting him in his feelings in a way he didnt really know how to handle. heres someone with a way rougher life than him, screwed over by people over and over again, and he feels this deep existential dread realizing that an incredibly fun and pleasant person can be used like that! and hurt like that! and killed like that! honestly he can't even wrap his head around the idea of her being party to murder because he can't see her as anything but a horrifying sample case of "the universe is a shitty place that screws people over with forces outside their control," and he really doesn't know how to handle it. the addiction/self-destructive tendency thing really hits him in the sister issues, too, and he cant really figure out what to do to help, yet he still gets an overwhelming need to help. so he keeps up with the jokes and the bullshit and asks her to hang and tries to introduce her to shit that makes him happy in the hopes that itll make her happy

and it isnt entirely pity, and it isnt entirely charity, because he really does enjoy her company. shes like, his current closest friend (not counting rose), and all of the "helping" at some point became mutually beneficial in the sense that he has a friend that he can hang around with and enjoy life with through a new pair of eyes. one of his favorite things to do is to show her dumb shit that happened after she died, because she'll either hate it or love it, and both are great for him. its that sort of stuff that makes him feel, even if he'd never say it to her face, that hes actually extremely grateful that she got nabbed by an evil spider god. he doesnt know what he'd be doing without her and he has to imagine that her life is similarly improved by her cosmic murder jail.

so its a lot of good vibes, mixed with a decent amount of existential dread from her circumstances. the idea of an unstoppable deity being whats stopping your friend from just living in your apartment is one of those things that makes him want to tear his hair out, but it does feel pretty good to know that someone out there understands his current war against the cosmos and destiny and gods or whatever. and honestly? hes at the point where he feels like she gets him so much that hes worried about being too overwhelming. asking to hang out too much or getting too affectionate which are issues he almost never gets. so he gives her space and tries not to scare her off and instead does dumb shit like giving her house keys and becoming sworn brothers or whatever. hed pretty much die or kill for her and the fact that she refuses to ask him for anything makes him feel like a huge loser for even thinking that.

#ooc #ask meme #this ended up being way too long but im tipsy so we can cope #also she was the first person that refused to engage with him wearing a dress as a joke and that actually did do something for him #besides the immense gender envy he already has for her. anyway #repeat joke about amanda saw and dave homestuck here

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hello again dia!!! i hope you've been having a good weekend 💙 i know that you love austin & ally and i wanted to know what are some of your favorite episodes/moments/characters? i've never watched the show myself so maybe your love for it will rub of and finally convince me 😋 - gcwca secret santa 🎅🎁🎄

AHHHHHH HI thank you for asking! this show is literally so special to me. 

i accidentally wrote a very long response so its under the cut:

i wanna start off by saying that the characters are why i love it the most. austin and ally is my number one comfort show, and specifically dez, trish, and austin are my comfort characters. not saying that i dont like ally; shes nice and obviously very essential to the loving group dynamic but the other three are so fun and wacky and interesting and just some of my favorite characters of all time.

i think at the heart of it my favorite thing about the show is the love. its all good vibes and none of the emergencies are really that deep, and the main four just care about each other so much and show it in so many ways!!! i love their whole friend group dynamic bc when one of them has a problem, they all work together to solve it. and each dyad has their own little relationship thats special in its own way. they hang out at the mall 24/7 (which is a DREAM scenario bc the mall is my favorite place to be) and just have adventures together and learn about each other.

my absolute favorite episode is s03e19, beauties and bullies, bc its all about trish. there are a few trish-centric episodes in the show, and everyone gets their spotlight at one point or another, but this is one of the only episodes that allows her to be open with her emotions. shes the toughest one in the group, always loud and brave and explosive, but in this episode she is the one that needs help, support, and comfort. i love the consistency in her characterization in this episode bc she is so reluctant to be on the receiving end of this support, and she even convinces her friends shes fine at first. and even though its not a role they typically play for her bc shes so good at defending herself, the group quickly springs into action to protect her, to care for her, to help her through it bc they know that thats their job as her closest friends. it literally makes me cry every time. plus i love that its ultimately dez who figures out who the bully is bc even though hes generally seen as dumb and imperceptive, it shows that he seriously cares about trish and is able to pick up on details when it comes to helping her, or any of his friends for that matter.

my favorite season is s4 bc of the tangible growth and change we see in everyone, but especially austin. season 4 really just shows how much they have all impacted each other, and how no matter what happens, they will always be in each others lives. in this season we see them take on a more serious and practical goal together, opening up their own music school. each of them takes on a role that plays to their strengths, and i absolutely love the teamwork. one of the overarching themes of the season is role modeling, and it makes me extremely emotional to see each of them channel their passion into helping kids pursue similar goals. the season is great in so many ways.

but season 4 austin moon is by far the best austin moon. at the beginning of the show he was a goofy kid who dreamed about being famous and pursued the goal very selfishly, even stealing allys song in the first episode and becoming an overnight internet sensation off of it. he was always loving, enthusiastic, sweet, and charming, but throughout the series we see him learn how to be a friend and how to care for other people. in the beginning, being a star is all that matters to him, and we watch ally very patiently, but skillfully, set an example for him of respecting other peoples time, effort, and attention. my favorite thing about austin is that he always has the best intentions at heart, and when he messes something up, he puts in genuine care to fix it in a meaningful way. lots of tv protagonists cause problems and then “fix” them halfheartedly and we just forgive them bc we have to and we move on with the show. but austin consistently learns and grows and keeps doing better for the people he cares about most, he comes through for them at the most unexpected times, and he picks them up when theyre down. even as he gets more famous and successful, his friends continue to come first. (i dont want to spoil too much plot wise, but) at the beginning of season 4 austin is unable to perform publicly, and it really hurts and breaks him bc performing is his favorite thing to do; his dream has always been to be a pop star. so when the music school opens in s4 we see him actively, selflessly, channel all of his passion for the thing he loves most, and give it to kids in a meaningful and special way. he has grown from a well-intentioned but self-absorbed teenager into a very caring and kind young adult who makes a difference in the lives of other people. he struggles with his identity and defining himself without his dream, but quickly gets to work making an active positive impact on those around him.

my all time favorite moment of the show, even though its super small, is dez’s solo in the song at the end of s03e06, glee clubs and glory. dez is the most routinely overlooked member of the group bc hes so goofy and quirky. he says a million things that dont make any sense, and he is definitely the comic relief character. however, the reason i love him (and why im like 80% sure hes my actual favorite of the four of them, even though its so hard for me to decide officially) is because despite all the little jokes and jabs at his expense, despite the goofiness that keeps others from taking him seriously, despite being knocked down so many times, he never stops dreaming. he literally never gives up. he has so much passion and enthusiasm inside of him, and he is overflowing with love and affection for his friends. he loves making videos but also pursues a billion different little hobbies. he has sooo many hidden talents, and thats something i was pointing out to my gf when i first showed her the show; dez is so incredibly capable and skilled, but so humble about it. he does things not for an end goal, but for the joy of participating, and when he doesnt get all the spotlight or attention, thats okay with him bc he had such a good time anyway. so in this episode, glee clubs and glory, after being passed up for the glee club over and over again, then letting his enthusiasm get the best of him as captain, and then being dethroned at the end of it all, he is still so happy to get his little moment in the end because hes truly a team player. its nice to see him shine. heres a link to the performance and the part im talking about is at 1:30. 

OKAY i am gonna stop there bc theres a million little things that i love about the show but i already wrote you an essay. i guess the last thing i wanna say is that every single austin moon song fucking slaps. my favorite is probably the main title theme song (can’t do it without you) bc not only is it the ultimate BOP but they also reference it periodically throughout the show to acknowledge that they are all successful because of each other, and the friendship as a whole makes each of them stronger than they are individually. my other faves from the show are a billion hits, steal your heart, stuck on you, and chasin’ the beat of my heart.

(okay i lied i have ONE more final closing thought! i dont really love the romantic pairing of austin/ally, i like them better platonically. not saying that they make a bad couple by any means. but i just hate the trope that the main girl/boy HAVE to get together so as a concept it bugs me. but i lowkey ship trish/dez a little bit.)

TLDR; the characters are literally all my favorite for different reasons, and the best thing about the show to me is their group dynamic and the ways that they consistently show love and care for each other.

#i am truly sorry that this is so long but i love this show so much #this took me super long to type too bc i cried a couple times and also definitely went back and watched almost all of the glee club ep agai #WHO AM I #also i lowkey dont fuck with most disney channel songs like #theyre just not usually my shit #and austin and ally and let it shine are the ONLY soundtracks i listen to recreationally #anyway thank you for asking #i hope this was helpful info #and even if it wasnt well. i had a good time at least #youre doing great as a secret santa and i appreciate you so much #answered asks #gcwca secret santa #austin and ally #anons #Anonymous

[astro-break]

Thoughts on the 7th ep of Hypmic Rhyme Anima. Spoilers beware 

Ep.1 | Ep.2 | Ep.3 | Ep.4 & 5 | Ep. 6

Can we get an MTC ep for Samatoki’s birthday please?

nope its MTR

ah man i always get really down whenever i see Doppo’s workplace environment. it suckssss

EYYYYY BUSTER BROS SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i forgot the name of the song in the moment but is Ikebukuro West Gate Park which is funny since thats where the ikebukuro prelims are held)

OOO IRIS ON A MOTERBIKE!!!!!!!!!!!! thats so hot oh my god, the CGI was good too! she had no right making to popping a wheelie over speedbumps look cool

Tom mentioned last episode that he had picked these three up from bad places and I have a feeling that Iris was once either an adrenaline junkie, thrill seeker, or involved in something that had her on the run

I don’t know about Rex. I think society just took one look at him and pushed him away because his personality is weird. He’s honest and kind, almost too kind. It don’t help that he doesn’t look traditionally Japanese which will garner him a lot of unpleasant experiences

MTCCCCCCCCCCC HELL YEAH

love that theyre one of the few units shown actually going out and doing intel searching on their own

god the TDD flashbacks harken to the manga and thats so cool

There’s a lot of underline threads going on in here and its going to be hard keeping track of them. I hope that the anime doesn’t choke itself on all the threads

T.REX is hilarious i think i might actually grow to like him. he’s a dumb himbo

ah even more threads and previous connections. i really really really hope that everything is ties up nicely by the end of the season though that doesn’t seem plausible, not with only 5 episodes remaining

OH GOD WHY WAS YOTOSUJUJI BROUGHT UP NOW IM TEARING UP

ah of course robberies are going to happen on the day of the rap battle

That ruikawa guy is suspicious. it might be my INFP speaking but his kindness seems a bit weird

ah yeah red flags right there. he’s definitely one of the robbers or in cahoots with them

ah yeah hes a robber. theres no doubt about that. “ive found a place to release what builds up inside me”. thats crime isn’t it. the fact that he won’t talk about it just raises more red flags

ahahaha see i was right

hey at least it was doppo’s hardass boss. could be someone more innocent and less asshole-y

YOU JUST GAVE YOUR INDEITY AWAY ASSHOLE wow even doppo caught on

EYYYY SHINJIKU STYLE!!!!! HELL YEAH

Those stills are absolutely mesmerizing though. 

i love the sense of trust and mentorship between matenro with Jakurai as Hifumi and Doppo’s mentors. At least that’s the feeling I get with them ahaha

Doppo’s english is a bit harsh but also weirdly fits his style. im a bit mixed on it but with the whole song being more melancholic with english sprinkled in, it matches the theme

The song itself is such a mellow and soothing song though. Its different than Maternro’s usual work and its a good different. I love the subway and old timey imagery that came with the song and the image of a subway train lighting up the way to a new path is such a great way of showing that there are different paths and different destinations that one can take. Even if you take the same train, you can end up in a different place. The light imagery in particular is just so good since Ruikawa’s original line of the city being a beacon of light for him is mirrored in the song.

The lyrics especially are so soft and powerful with the imagery within the words being simultaneously rough and tumble but also soft and reassuring. It seems more like a lament or a elegy to a life that could have been if they had gotten on a different train. I love the lyrics, especially the chorus since it speaks of mundane things but things that everyone can understand and relate to

it also carries mad Spirited Away vibes. It’s also called Falling which I think is pretty fitting

the only thing that I don’t like about the song Jakurai’s vocal beats within his verse. Usually it works since there’s a big beatboxing feel to those beats but with Jakurai his lyrical rap doesn’t mesh well with the harsh guttural sounds beatboxing

The pain of having one of your few friends betray you hurts and wow this episode is out to make me feel a lot of sympathy for Doppo

SMILING DOPPO!!!

Hell yeah they actually had a plan and followed through with it

Did they just set up the MTC episode lmao. thats sneaky

OOh that beat change for FP ending is so nice!!

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I think I’m only noticing this just now but the episode titles are all famous quotes from people/proverbs. 

Ep. 1) “As Soon as Man is Born, He Begins to Die“ This is an old proverb. Who said it I don’t know and a quick internet search gave me nothing, but its commonly said to convey the meaning that nothing lasts forever. IDK why this proverb was chosen since there’s no indication of any of the teams disbanding any time soon except for TDD era teams which have already happened

Ep. 2) “Speak of the Devil and He Will Appear“ Again, another old idiom which dates back to the 16th century. This one is probably about Ichiro and how he appears whenever he is called or whenever he is needed. Though it could be a overall commentary on how the brothers are reliable no matter the situation

Ep. 3) “Two Heads Are Better Than One” - John Heywood This quote describes DoHifu pretty well. Its because these two work and rely on each other that they’re able to not only make it through each day but also make each day worth living. Because they help each other, but they’re not the same, they’re better for it. This could also apply to MTR as a whole being a team where each member thinks outside the box and their ideas collectively make such an interesting team

Ep. 4) “A Friend in Need is a Friend Indeed” This one is an 11th century proverb which explains that in times of need, true friends will show their colors. That's the main mentality behind MTC though I believe that it applies to Rio in particular for this episode. While the entirety of MTC are willing to help each other in times of need, in this episode it mainly focused on Samatoki and Rio’s plights and how the members as a whole show that they are all true friends to each other

Ep. 5) “Seeing is Believing” The origins of this quote is blurry but there the bible seems to be the origin of this statement believe it or not. While it does fit the episode’s theme of ghosts and how rumor's can harm people and businesses, it doesn’t really describe FP like the other quotes do the other teams. I find it odd, but I hope that FP are redeemed in their next feature episode. FP deserves better and are being done dirty in the anime.

Ep. 6) “He Who Laughs Last, Laughs Best” - The Christmas Prince. I think this one is pretty nice in describing not only the episode but the series as a whole. It doesn’t matter who’s winning in the begging, or the middle. The final outcome is what really matters. It’s pretty apt for the series since even though The Party of Words are winning currently, its who wins by the end of the series that matters. The episode encompasses this pretty well too with the whole plotline.

Ep. 7) “The Darkest Hour is Just Before the Dawn” Dating back to 1950 ish, this one carries the simple There is hope in the worst circumstances message. Again, its pretty suitable for the series as a whole since the Party of Words might be making life harsh, but there’s still hope to be found in the world.

Ep. 8) “Dead men tell no tales” - Thomas Becon. NGL, this one scares me because it can either apply to MTC, or the universe as a whole. We’ll just have to wait till next week to know for sure but i think we’ll get some Jyuto angst with his parents

#hypmic #hypnosis mic #hypnosis mic rhyme anima #hypmic spoilers

[nympsycho-ao3]

Hi so sorry if this is a weird question. I start college next week and I'm really nervous and overwhelmed. I graduated high school almost 5 years ago so I'm really late getting to it, I don't remember a whole lot about school life. Do you have any advice?

Not sure why youre asking a random smut writer on the internet but i would love to help if i can!

I was a huge lazy sack of shit in college ahhaha. My college years were spent either drunk or high for the vast majority of it. So my first piece of advice is to dont do that lmao. I missed out on a lot of fun, socializing, and networking because i was inebriated alone in my room. Id imagine with covid its even harder to meet new people so take every opportunity you can.

Find at least 1 person in every class that can cover for you if you miss notes or have questions about material. Youll generally make a friend too which is a nice bonus but really that safety net is nice. Dont abuse it either, like dont skip class for days then just ask for notes lmao.

On that note go to class strategically. I was able to skip a few classes every semester in their entirety bc they were easy and i got away with it but if they take attendance make sure you go. Again with covid im not sure with this stuff but actually give a fuck about the stuff youre learning. I wish i did instead of just memorizing and forgetting. I wont tell you to go to every class every time bc fuck that, but prioritize the classes you simply cant skip.

Treat studying like a job. It is so much easier to study like an hour a day than cram studying in 10 hours overnight for an exam. Im a huge hypocrite with this so do as i say not as i do lmao.

Going into it late in the game is actually kind of a good thing because you might not be tempted into the dumb bullshit like drugs and booze like i was. Just keep it to the weekend like i shouldve hahaha

If youre on a campus, go out and enjoy it. Some of my fav parts of college were just going out and enjoying the campus and what it offered. Maybe better advice for spring but... nonetheless.

I shouldve put more effort into making friends. I really came out 4 years of college with no friends to speak of because i made the conscious decision to keep to myself because i am naturally a loner and comfortable alone. Still, i think i would have overall had more fun if i got to know the really cool people in my program.

In general, take the opportunity to leave your comfort zone. It's college, no one is expecting you to be perfect. Just have some fun while you can take advantage of the safety net of college and the bad decisions youre allowed to make. As long as you keep your grades up (or passable, which i recommend making your perrogative instead of perfection) go out, get laid, try new things, meet new people, learn new things, and enjoy expanding your worldview with little consequence.

Remember that everyone lives in their little bubble. I was so afraid of embarrassing myself that i avoided doing a lot of fun things. Not a single person gives a fuck about you in a way that theyre judging you like you think they are. So just do you, be the cool older person in the class that can buy the youngins booze (do this at your own risk but it was fun for me lmao) and tell stories like a grandparent. Also, on that note, dont be surprised at how fucking stupid these kids are. You might be the oldest and wisest in the class. Just enjoy the stupidity at your beckoning call and take it in, sometimes it's better than TV. dont hold it against them though, we were all stupid 18 yos once.

Dont ask a ton of questions in class. I mean a few is fine but not a lot. It just makes class run longer. Anyone who cares is doing the following: either asking them after class, going to office hours, or emailing the professor. Do that.

Speaking of office hours. Youll probably need some reference letters when you graduate to apply for jobs. Pick like 1 cool professor a year and really buddy up to them so you can use them as a reference. Yay, using people! And hey you might get some cool stuff out of it. Talking with my professors was always pretty neat and enlightening. They will know what youre doing but they know the game too and theyre just happy youre putting effort into earning the reference. Just dont get boners for the hot ones like i did oop--

And uuhh flash cards. All my homies love flash cards. I still have all my digital ones from my classes for no reason but... they came in clutch!

I didnt work through college bc im a privileged little brat but, i think i would have had my shit together more if i did. So depending on your major find something relevant and maybe find a flexible part time gig (easier said than done im aware)

I graduated with a 3.8 gpa and a damaged liver and lungs but hey i survived! Hope this helped. Again im not the best person to ask bc i really hated my major and most of my classes but i saw them as necessary stepping stones to my current job. Oh well!

Good luck anon. I know you will do very well even in these covid times. Just take your shit seriously! Unlike me...

Dont go to fucking parties unless youre an asshole and/or vaccinated or until this covid shit blows over please!!!