#bc we do NOT need to respond

[curiosity-killed]

we do not need to engage with all posts. sometimes people can be stupid on the internet and it's fine, actually. we do not need to correct people for making grandiose statements based on knowledge they acquired at age 11 and haven't updated since <- said through gritted teeth

#normally i'm not that peeved by like minor dumb shit on the internet #but this post about how ballet and american football are equivalent in terms of injury/shouldn't be allowed/etc #is rubbing me the wrong way #and the number of people being like well ACTCHUALLY i danced till i was ELEVEN and it should be BANNED #is. much more annoying as it turns out #this is not to say that ballet doesn't have many many many problems #including the harm that can happen in terms of injury and body image #and the classism racism sexism etc etc we can go on for a while here #but the way it's framed in this post and the way ppl are responding to it is making me remarkably annoyed #which is why i'm grumbling on my blog instead of responding to the post itself #bc we do NOT need to respond #hnnnnn #also. will freely admit that i'm probably a lil extra testy about it after 5 hr of class/rehearsal today #and killing my freeds after 2 hr :') #WHY shoes #anyway to the person who said pointe should be banned until they come up with specialized shoes to reduce the damage #GUESS WHAT #that's why they have pointe shoe fitting specialists #and yes! access to and equitable/fair treatment in those environments is troubled #but we are not running headfirst at each other until we all have super duper brain damage #okay. it's fine. it's fine. #upon further reflection i think a solid 75% of my irritation comes from calling ballet a sport. this is a hill i have been angrily guarding #since i was like 12 #and am actually right about it. anyway. again. It's Fine. I'm letting it go

[squeakadeeks]

moodboard for this past week ❤️

#they should invent a grad school thats not fucking insane #i'm hanging in there but im the most unwell i've been in AWhile #this week was just horrible #there was already the freezer food incident but it also started off with a very severe pain episode thats putting me in constant woe #even mundane motion has been agonizing which is McAwesome bc we had a lab inspection which involved moving hundreds of pounds of equipment #during which we found a blackwidow and rats which we had to deal with and was a whole thing psychologically on top of the physical toll #the new class fiasco is still popping off and i had to respond to at this point over 400 emails in the fleeting moments outside of lab #AND A STUDENT TRIED TO FINANCIALLY BRIBE THEIR WAY INTO THE CLASS ? ?? ?? ????? #then the instructor wanted to use me as a guinea pig and i had to test new circuit boards but I wasnt given any time to do so properly #i had to test them plus get them operational and deal with my incoming students all in a frantic 10 minute window #im in charge of running our meetings too but the instructor was interrupting and having side conversations that made it really hard- #to train the other people on the new equipment in a smooth manner #which meant that a bunch of people had to keep me after to ask questions which made me late for my drs appointment #where i found out i cant get the new covid vaccine bc my heart and blood levels arnt stable enough #and joanns lost an expensive+critical fabric order of mine+i had to give a big presentation this week on my research that was stressful #and my inbox is still blowing up from being needed all over the place between teaching lab and classes and yall i am. so so tired. #im in so much pain and so stressed out #debating the ethics of turning into a pile of lint to escape my responsibilities and mortal frame

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

oh! while we're on the Appreciation Train and before i go to sleep! i would like to say that although i rarely respond to replies, i do see them! and i Do cherish them! thank you!

#the only reason i dont really respond #is there tends to be uhhhh a lot sometimes? #which is great! don't let me stop you! #but if i start regularly responding than that is a Lot of responding #& then if i only respond to One and leave the others then i feel really bad bc thats unfair! #and really i have my work cut out for me with asks ahaha #they take a Lot of energy to respond to (affectionately said) #i have to ration it out yk yk #i do try to respond to replies that have questions and such that i can Directly and Quickly answer! #that being said i miss some. i think. im betting that i do bc there's always something im not seeing #but i try to read them all! #and i deeply appreciate them!! #absolutely unprompted #just wanted to say this real quick #i felt like it needed to be said. did it? remains to be seen! we won't see the seen tho #okay i really need to sleep lmfao im seeing spiders and i have a feeling im quickly losing coherency #good night or good morning depending on where you are #good afternoon? i dont know! #whatever position the sun/moon is in: Good [x]! #me? going to sleep BEFORE the sun is up? its more likely than you think #wait... shit the sky is starting to lighten if i hop in bed and play corpse Right Now i can pass out before it reaches the horizon #OH ALSO I SEE COMMENTS IN TAGS AS WELL!!! #I LOVE TAGGED COMMENTS THEY ARE EVERYTHING TO ME!! THANK YOU! GOOD NIGHT!

[chemicalarospec]

I spent a lot of time thinking about religion 5-6 years ago because I was trying to figure out what I did(n't) believe in, and then after I settled on fully atheist (but a higher power could exist but I think it's far too unlikely for me to call myself agnostic), I spent like 4 years barely thinking about religion, occasionally using it for imagery in fanfic but very content with my own religious situation. very peaceful years. I enjoyed living like that.

Anyways religion (in real life)/atheism has been on my mind a lot lately, and well. it's definitely not an internal drive to return to thinking about it lol. There's not one big reason why, but I have noticed many small factors building up. so message to the world at large: stop assuming 1. i'm religious 2. if i'm not religious, i'm evil 3. if i'm not religious, I don't matter (I don't need community, it doesn't matter if you act like i'm invisible, etc) or else! I'm going to have to get louder about my atheism!! :)

#atheist #religion #I said this #atheism #when i was a kid 'any religion is cool as long as we teach kids some religion bc otherwise humans are EVIL' was funny in how ridculous it i #but now it's just like. fuck you that's such an evil thing to say #aspiritual #being non-religious and being atheist are not the same thing. atheists do share a belief (.... no gods) and denying that it's an option #when it comes to religious practice is just weird -- listing beliefs you support support and not including 'no belief' is just weird. #acting like it's an umbrella 'null' the way being non-religious is and therefore not able to feel alone in our beliefs? again. just weird. #(this is all basically the same thing but i needed to say it in so many words to fully paint the picture) #um... posting in the atheist tag was not supposed to be an invitation for people to start just sending atheist takes to me #but i'll be responding friendly bc i know anybody doing this just needs some connection and support <3

[doecrossing]

just sat through the most horrible, awkward, tense dinner I've ever experienced in my whole life

#my bf's family was in town to see the eclipse #he was like 'hey do you wanna get dinner with us after?' #and he's met my entire family so even though i didnt want to it was only fair. #anyway his uncle picks us up at my apartment. his sister is in the car. #no one asks who or how i am and i do not get introduced nor have the chance to introduce myself #for like a good 3-5 minutes. off to a bad start. #we get to the restaurant. a pizza place. his family is already seated. #no one except for his grandparents acknowledge me. they are the only 2 people to talk to me directly for the entire meal. #his grandfather asks some stuff about my life. i answer normally. he veers off into tangents that i can only respond to with 'haha' #or a smile and nod bc they are so personal that i literally have nothing to add #the children in the family spill water everywhere. there is yelling in the public restaurant while my bf goes and gets napkins #like a normal person might do #despite being at a pizza place everyone decides to order an individual dish instead of something to share #this might be fine if there were only 4 of us. there were 10. #they get mad when the food takes over an hour to come #at this point i wished i had ordered a cocktail #his uncle is the most awkward person ive ever met. he quotes outdated memes out loud. #at one point everyone except for me and my bf was on their phones #his grandfather shows me vulgar facebook posts #what is WRONG with people #im going to shower and change into my jammies and have a drink and watch something stupid #i need to cleanse myself of this whole. thing. #txt

[oatbugs]

anyway i think this isn't going to end up being anything

#atm shes kinda ghosting me so :))) #but generally she takes over 24hrs to respond which . is so frustrating actually like even w rly simple questions #anyway we have a date scheduled on the weekend but we didnt say what were doing or what day specifically #i asked her if she knows what shed like to do yesterday and yh she still hasnt responded #generally like. idk idk. im def more invested but im becoming less invested each day #bc i need the interest to be reciprocated #also same w the cute guy in my dms :( he is...generally cool and hed be a good friend but i dont want him as a partner #but he said he wouldnt talk to me in the capacity of a friend bc attraction ig #which is sad . i wanted a new friend :( i just dont see a long term partner in him #crushposting

[sashimiyas]

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#tw discourse #i’m gonna say an unpopular opinion once and then be on my way again #sometimes i see something on here that makes me upset and then i think #‘i really need to be on here less.’ but then i realize… i rarely use the app as it is #but writers love to say ‘we don’t get paid to write. we are not machines.’ all valid points #bc entitlement is frustrating. bc this is meant to be a community of natural engagement and interaction #i want to specify Natural #bc i see those same writers bash their followers for not like rbing or commenting #as if they are getting paid to follow the author! and that isn’t fair either #writers ask for grace when they are going through writers block or a difficult episode in their life #and our followers cannot ask for the same? sometimes we do not feel like reading. and let’s admit it. not every post will be a banger #and that should be fine too. no one should be guilted to interact with anyone #and i think my whole discomfort with using this site lately is how every interaction is being policed #like do we not assume good intentions anymore? can we not assume that someone is rbing without tags but will put something in later #when they do get a chance to read it? or that they are liking because they want to read it but just dont have the time yet? #anyways. i’ll probably come back to delete this #but man. anyone who follows me. i want you to know that i will do my best to never try and make you feel bad for choosing how to interact #with this blog. outside of not responding to my inbox bc that’s just been difficult for me lately. #please have a comfortable experience and go about this stupid little hellhole in peace #don’t feel coerced to interact with me unless you want to. don’t apologize to me for not having reached out to me in a while #it’s okay. please have your fun in any way you want #i say this bc before being a writer i am a reader

[fma03envy]

In which Junko periodically sneaks out of the old school building to meet with Izuru (and then lies to her classmates about it)

#Danganronpa spoilers in the tags #this drawing actually originally had dialogue; took it out bc I wasn't sure of the phrasing but that may also take away context #in the first panel Junkos talking abt how ironic it is for her to be stuck in hope's peak while Izurus outside +complaining abt being bored #and Izuru's going ''yeah ok sure; whose idea was all this again'' which Junko laughs about #then in the second panel Kyoko's saying like #'hey Junko isthere smth going on we should know about?bc the only time ive seen this little of you b4 was when u were having memory issues' #And Junko responds like 'nooo I'm just sad bc of the apocalypse Don't Even Worry About It lol' #my art #Danganronpa #kyoko kirigiri #junko enoshima #izuru kamukura #junkozuru #I think about the timeskip year a lot ok there's not nearly enough content about it #And one HC I'm absolutely certain of is that Junko did not do the voluntary imprisonment thing the WHOLE time #Idc about the metal plates if food could get in she could get out when she needed to/felt like it

[kuiinncedes]

hehe

#me def not being good director w regard to one specific weird little subset of our club #but then also being reminded that #no one ever fucking responds to me in those discord channels ;-; #i wanna ask smth but like i asked it a while ago and they just . ignore the message ;-; #but still no i did like .... do rly bad there bc i just kinda let it be #and now we're coming up on show #and we're not Unprepared #but we're not ...... incredibly prepared lol just regarding this one thing but we have some time #but #i just want to stop like mentally beating myself up over it lol #and like i need to let myself ask stupid shit rn #but i've also been thinking abt it like the entireeeee afternoon and havent done shit so #😀😀😀😀 #jeanne talks #SENTTTTTT the message #i also keep telling myself like fuck u for not doing very well w it like all of last semester/this one so far lmfao but #u can try to do more now ;-; even if they hate u and r judging u for it 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 #which there is absolutely no evidence of except in my imagination c: <3 #bro (me) shut the fuck up ;-; #can i get OUTTA MY HEADDDDDDD BRO #doesnt help that they haven't responded LOLLL altho it has only been a couple hours . but #also lowkey . i should probably just give up on work at thihs point based on my productivity the entire evening #and go to sleep early #but i probably wont lmfao #also bc my cat is just like on my back rn and i dont want her to move #i'm laying on my stomach on the couch and she's on my back lol #c: #i feel like having my roommate .. be here would help lmfao #so im not just 100% in my head alone all the time #but ya know cant wish for the impossible <3

[ilynpilled]

I do not know if I like the label “identity arc” either when it concerns Jaime. Or at least how a lot of people define it in context of his arc, and how it is used in the whole ‘redemption’ discourse. One of the most integral aspects of Jaime’s story is the fact that he is so viscerally aware of certain aspects of who he is deep down. All of his chapters are labelled with his name. It is never Kingslayer or GHTJ. “Jaime. My name’s Jaime” is as clear of a declaration as one could get. Even if he does some self deluding, even if he represses his subconscious, his facade of cynicism enabling his behavior so he does not crumble under the weight of his self-concept, and even if he often plays into a fabricated persona. He is aware of who and what he is, specifically what he turned into. That is the problem. He knows who he is/was, and he hates it. Not just because how it is perceived by other people, but also because of how he perceives himself. I never understood this opinion that he has no guilt, there are so many instances of shame and self-hatred, and he is faced with a lot of his guilt in dreams (the subconscious communicating with the conscious). Not to mention his passive suicidal ideation. His arc is about redefining and transforming Jaime, and finally confronting Jaime, not necessarily about just realizing what Jaime was at his lowest. He knows he is a boy that dreamed of becoming Arthur Dayne but turned into the Smiling Knight instead. His arc did not end with him discovering this. It becomes an arc about the weighting of his values. It is about making choices and agency. The exploration of identity and redemption work hand in hand they are not diametrically opposing concepts at all here. He is who he is, and that means he is the one that can make choices to change. “…but the rest Jaime Lannister would need to write for himself. He could write whatever he chose, henceforth. Whatever he chose . . .”

#i do not like any of these labels to be frank #im just a hater #redemption arc identity arc i hear these terms but they are often not followed by an actual explanation as to what that really means #or said explanation is a reductive take on his arc #they are just vague descriptions used to justify someone’s expected engame of the character #they can apply but it is not a holistic label #i mean in some aspects yes but the core of a lot metas about jaime and identity that ive seen i kinda disagree with often #especially dont like when ppl r like ‘i know jaime i dont misread him like those redemption truthers’ #and then they lay down a take thats even worse and a bigger misread #not vagueging anyone in specific this is just a general thing i noticed #this whole thing is p messy probably bc it is responding to a general consensus about the meaning of a term to encompass an arc #that is already vague #like an identity arc applies to so many characters here #but #i think we just need to stop using single words to describe arcs and rely on them for an argument #‘jaime is not on a redemption arc he is on an identity arc therefore this thing cant happen’ u r just saying words this is not an argument

[themidnightpanda]

that awful feeling where there's nothing I can do in the situation to help

#Resorted to lowkey moderating the comments on people's posts on the situation bc I saw multiple threats and suicide baiting happening #Like someone makes a post going “hey so the situation sucks rn for both sides of the conflict” and ppl respond with kys so I report them #And I fixed up the house so when someone needs a place to hide we can have enough space to host in pur relatively safe house #But idk what else to do I've got no platform and I'm a coward and both sides do kinda suck rn and I didn't even choose this government and #Idk I can start super reblogging all my cute animal posts I have saved so everyone can see but would anyone care #ישראבלר

[zemnarihah]

my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....

#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth #she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her #directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her #and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because #you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple #days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and #she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends. #and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only #give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i #didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she #says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do. #i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was #really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think #for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe #since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why. #i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a #fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if #i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person #to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a #conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a #hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend #group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.

[gibbearish]

hey @humans saw yall responded to a post making fun of you for updating the pixel alignment of a dash icon rather than fixing anything important saying "changes like this feel small but can make a big difference for some people" which is a bullshit cop out if ive ever heard one so im here to tell you directly in a way you cant wiggle out: you know what would actually make a big difference for a LOT of people? not being transphobic assholes

#that response was so deeply annoying to me like they couldve been like 'yeah its not big but it was technically an update #so we had to include it in the update report' but they tried to frame it as 'well ackshully everyone was BEGGING us to perfecltly #align this pixel so youre WELCOME' and its like. man fuck off you dont get to throw a fit that your userbase is pissed off about #repeated blatent bigotry and then try to act like youre doing us a favor moving an icon a smidge #yall know exactly what the users want you to do to improve this site and are ignoring it because you dont actually give a shit #but you cant say that bit out loud so you have to keep talking circles around it because you know the dirty queers are the main people #keeping your site the tiny bit afloat it still is but are unwilling to actually treat us well so you have to #talk in circles and pretend you give a shit and hype up minor updates like theyre godsend while fucking over trans people anyway #anyways i hope the transphobe on staff is the one who opens this tag notification #just kidding thats all of them because if youre willing to keep a transphobe on your team and allow them to make changes #that directly target lgbt people then you are all transphobes #whats that saying thats like 'if you have 3 nazis and 9 regular men at a table you have 12 nazis'? that #i dont actually expect them to respond to this post bc like. theyre obviously already aware people are mad about this and have just been #avoiding the subject especially if PIXEL ADJUSTMENT is something theyre responding to instead but #w/e #also moving an icon slightly does not make a big difference for anyone sorry not sorry i guarantee if it hadnt been #included in the updates post not a single person would have noticed or cared #they just need something to pad their uodates post out with so people hopefully eont notice the glaring lack #of 'fired the transphobe' 'unblocked queer tags' 'turned off the image filter that targets trans women a lot for some weird reason'

[niishi]

just fyi I turned off my discord notifications bc it's just..... overwhelming. and then I forget to check it... so like..... idk... message me on here if u need me to see a message.. still might not check it or respond tho... it's just so overwhelming for me idk how to manage all that. I have like 3 ppl on Tumblr I just haven't responded, like 5 on insta, and 3 ppl in texts, and then I just haven't checked my discord in like 4 days bc that's another can of worms. idk how ppl have the focus or time in the day to handle messaging ppl back so much... bc I know when I do then that person's gonna then respond to me again and I'll be busy at that point and then ignore them again for the next 3 days until I remember and then I feel like shit.... idk man I think we should just destroy the internet and write each other letters again.... it's all seriously way too much for me.

#but i want to talk to ppl.... #i dont want ppl to quit messaging me or anything #some days im normal and can respond #but most of the time it just paralyzes me #part of the reason is bc i dont know how to talk #going thriugh my bullshit and being half mute for a yr #and then isolating and keeping myself alive through doing nothing but dissociating and playing idol gsmes #made it rlly hard for me to talk to ppl online #bc i dont know ehat to say or how to talk #and im so scared everyone hates me #i need to see your body langusge and everything when we talk #or else im going to think everyone thinks im stupid and hated everything im saying #when ppl stop responding in group chats the moment i start talking in them? #it truly makes me think everyone fucking hates me and wants me to shut up #ive been so severely abused by 99% of the people i love/have loved #and my rsd is so bad #like so so so so so bad #and even still #ppl i love do things on purpose to make me feel insecure #and don't put an effort in to reassure me #so im just paranoid 24/7 #the abuse i faced from ppl i love is something youd see in a horror movie #or some really fucked up book about abuse #its so disgustingly sinister and evil its no joke #its hard to come back from #i truly dont think i ever will #i know my friends love me and i know this isnt fair of me #but it's hard #my whole entire life #id think someone loved me and then theyd do ghe worst thing imaginable&then abandon me&tell me they hated me and i never even knew why

[johnaeryns]

BETTER CALL SAUL 5.02 “50% Off”

#bcsedit #better call saul #bcs #userbbelcher #chewieblog #cinemapix #cinematv #useroptional #dailyflicks #otpsource #tvedit #gif #jimmy x kim #i love how you could easily read all of this as sarcastic but it isn't at all they're so annoying #kim genuinely being excited at the idea of him having somewhere to put all his little outfits #and jimmy being like yeah but it would be *our* house and *our* closet because we share everything and our life will be together #and kim going well i honestly don't care about the closet but if this is a dream you need us to share then i can do that i guess #nauseating #disgusting #like the way he immediately corrects her and she's so soft when she responds it hurts #is it weird to randomly gif old scenes while new episodes are airing? #idk but i just got here and i'm hyperfixating so it is what it is

[theclosetedskeleton]

PLATONIC DATE IDEA WE GO ON CALL/VC AND JUST TALK ABOUT WHATEVER

#WE BEING MY QPP DOING THE ACTUAL “TALKING” PART AND I JUST LISTEN + RESPOND IN TEXT BC I DONT FEEL LIKE VOICE REVALING YET #I did that with my qpp yesterday for a bit IT WAS SO FUCKING FUN OHMYGOD #I was laughing so hard that was such a fun evening #I need to see how my voice sounds recorded bc I have such a bad insecurity w/ my voice and I need to hear if I ACTUALLY sound 6 y/o or not #people have told me I sound monotone??? ermmmm #IM NOT TRYING TO BE PLEAE #I think I sound monotone in neutral conversations but maybe I just always do and I don't notice that #sometimes ill think my voice sounds fine other times I feel like I'm hearing an 8 y/o #anyways IM GETTING SO OFF TOPIC #closet rambles again on tumblr