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bro I did NOT commit to the desert day/night heat difference like I do for Las Nevadas fics here lol. bro would freeze to death sleeping outside i'm pretty sure.

He STRAIGHTENED his hair every day and guys this is real life, it's not just heavy-handed allegory.

Making meaning vs living being a key theme of the Dan and Phil AU set in the world of an MCR album??? boy you betcha!!

brooo my shitty ass aromantic understanding of romance had me stretch out their first kiss past a month because i thought they should become friends first??? like ok yes the day 1 crush was a little rushed (BUT possible!! allegedly) but i do believe some allos simply start relationships with dating. they were kissing week two probably idk i'm still aromantic and don't understand dating.

OMG I FORGOT ABOUT "Plot all the stars and you’ll find an answer, but it might not be pretty. Say the stars told you so and you’ll have an answer, but it might not be true." LITERALLY THE BEST LINE I EVER WROTE

life with sunrise being dan's reason and life with dan being sunrise's future??? when i said this was my best work with intricate themes--

anyways read my magnum opus here.

And the desert said “I love you,” and the stars said “I love you,” and the sun said "I love you," and the wind said “I love you,” but that’s silly, the desert and the stars and the sun and the wind couldn't speak, even if they do love you: it’s me that loves you, no matter who you are, under every sky — under the same spirit of every same sky — in every world, from the beginning to the end and in every moment in between, from me to you, I do. I love you. 

(i uh. don't know what "the same spirit of every same sky" means but. sounds nice right? and grappling with meaning vs beauty in writing was the meta reason for that being a theme in the fic besides the SING trailer quote.) (maybe that all skies on planet earth are the same sky????)

bro rereading "Daniel Inflammable and the Amazing Sunrise Kid" and this goes so hard??? it's so funny it wasn't supposed to be an allegory for homophobia initially because WOW that is heavy-handed. why did I keep writing after this I CLEARLY peaked here.

#fic's 8.9k which is pretty sizable for my writing #dan's dimples mentioned!!! rest in peace (derick?) i haven't noticed them recently so i think they died with his baby face #'shelled-out townhouse' is such a sucky shelter might as well just sleep in the desert and DIE #WHY WERE THEY BOMBING A RANDOM TOWN??? #The Showstoppers is supposed to be all the classic youtubers of that niche so like PJ and Anthony should be top of my mind #but i always iamgine Tyler Oakley first and formost for some reason lol #why do they both have depression... literally me this is when i wrote that scene for me and AFC's dead story about running away #i said this #my writing #killjoy phan au #THAT was the tag i think #liveblogging my own fic #longish post

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ugh "brown-haired boy" one time was fine but the second time made me cringe. I do think I did it because Daniel hadn't chosen a name yet. gosh i'm so metatextual and respectful of identity or whatever hahahaha

I fit a "Hi, my name is [Dan]" reference in here, followed it up with a sort of introjected-Author's Note narration moment, which cuts off semi-unresolved to return to the story. When I said I peaked here, I was not joking.

bro killing the divider lines at the interlude about "the gaps grow smaller as the days go by"??? who cares that the preceeding and post-ceeding scene are the same freaking day that's some crazy meta stuff!

I have never forgotten "not too far away, two crash queens are competing to see which can yell out the names more exes of the other. Half of the said exes are there, cheering them on." I think because I reread it a bunch trying to figure out whether i should cut it? not sure.

FCK DAN AND PHIL AND THEIR "complementary souls" goddddd. subtle reference to the million years i spent thinking of the perfect metaphor for the marriage fic.

Sunrise starts having a crush in ONE DAY but y'know what it feels true to life haha.

"Okay, thanks, but who the hell says ‘radical’ anymore?" ough so much dialogue here is not-OOC but not in-character either cuz of zone slang but this line is SO Dan reacting to phil.

dan's brother is a crazy part of the lore, i think that must just be because of kobra & party/the way brothers, and also for an explanation of why he lives in the outskirts and rides the train.

killjoy lore itself sucks tho (why replace people wiht robots??) so i'm not too bothered by the batt city background being just a little questionable.

Bro I recognized this paragraph as being from my own feelings and wishes - "Sunrise realizes that today was the first full day he’s had in maybe forever. Today, he didn’t feel like he was waiting for some unknown future. He didn’t feel like nothing. He was just there, being alive, for most of the all day long." and it still took me so long to realize i have a depressive disorder???

bro rereading "Daniel Inflammable and the Amazing Sunrise Kid" and this goes so hard??? it's so funny it wasn't supposed to be an allegory for homophobia initially because WOW that is heavy-handed. why did I keep writing after this I CLEARLY peaked here.

#bro the names interlude??? so much going on in this fic #a second neopronouns character???? :O #nerd as an insult towards those experience attraction goes weak but it's a phandom thing #or like. a me thing actually. there's a long story about one of my tags #i'm a little bit liberal with the 'comma clause at the end of a sentence doing that restating thing except it's a very very loose 'synonym' #daniel inflammable #I said this

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why are my people and place descriptions actually showing up?? bruvv i've totally get that fall by the wayside since this. i haven't described an outfit in years lol

Also. I don't think I've written neopronouns since this???? which is. wild. i wish i had proper OCs lol that would be an opportunity for neos.

oughhh Phil starting with his quiff but Dan starting with his fringe perfect for how i wrote them in this fic

god this is so funny and so Zones and so perfect

bro rereading "Daniel Inflammable and the Amazing Sunrise Kid" and this goes so hard??? it's so funny it wasn't supposed to be an allegory for homophobia initially because WOW that is heavy-handed. why did I keep writing after this I CLEARLY peaked here.

#everyone dressing ugly and the narration calling it out <3 #show pony uses too many exclaimation points. i mean it's accurate but it's just. a bit much. #i said this #liveblogging my own fic #daniel inflammable #tag didn't pop up but there's a chance there's some old posts under that

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Actually the weakest part is that Dan can tell Show Pony is saying feminine "Danielle" and recognizes the question about his gender and directly responds to it.

Also, casual usage of "God," -- not sure if I just didn't think to replace it with 'destroya' or something, or if I didn't notice it at all.

But the bit about colors and clothing??? still so good xoxo

bro rereading "Daniel Inflammable and the Amazing Sunrise Kid" and this goes so hard??? it's so funny it wasn't supposed to be an allegory for homophobia initially because WOW that is heavy-handed. why did I keep writing after this I CLEARLY peaked here.

#plusthe suicide attempt is thoughtfully imo -- i always avoided that part of cwilbur but it reads fine here nad i did great content warnings #freaking em dash central tho #lmao the 'like' at the end of a sentence from show pony bc i still had that one ted talk on my mind #I said this #my writing #'leftport' christ i suck at place names

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bro rereading "Daniel Inflammable and the Amazing Sunrise Kid" and this goes so hard??? it's so funny it wasn't supposed to be an allegory for homophobia initially because WOW that is heavy-handed. why did I keep writing after this I CLEARLY peaked here.

#demotion duo GOT NOTHING #the light fic which TRUST ME WHEN I SAY IT HTIS TIME I AM *THIS CLOSE* TO POSTING? a thousand times inferior. #I said this #my writing #ladyletterbomb on ao3 if anyone wants to give it a read xoxo #okay yeah the Changes to send Dan to the desert are weak and the 'plot' gets pretty drwan out but the writing is actulaly so good mostly??

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i love when sibling characters are fucked up from the same event but in opposite ways

#ughh this is a great sibling dynamic #tropes

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does anybody else watch dnp with the biggest fucking grin on their face

#yuppp #dnp

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I really don't know how to explain to people that supporting gender liberation (liberation for trans people, liberation for gnc people, liberation from all oppressive gender roles) means you have to be able to see someone you think is cis "crossdressing" and be cool about it. You have to be able to see someone presenting in a way that doesn't make sense to you and not interrogate them about their identity. You have to be able to hear someone express a gender identity you don't understand and go "Huh! Neat," and go about your business. If you truly want gender liberation for all then you have to stop trying to exert control over other people's genders, period.

#@ mr [redacted]... #gender

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new gerard way college lore just dropped 🫡

#whaat #g.way #9/11

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thanks for the tag!

C - "Chemicals" Armor For Sleep

H - "High Definition" Waterparks

E - "Early Sunsets Over Monroeville" My Chemical Romance

M - "Millions" Gerard Way

I - "I MISS 2003" As It Is

C - "Common Crook" Hawthorne Heights

A - "A NIGHT OUT ON EARTH" Waterparks

L - "LAX to O'Hare" The Academy Is...

A - "Anywhere But Here" Mayday Parade

R - "Remember to Feel Real" Armor For Sleep

O - "One Last Cigarette" The Band Camino

S - "Secret Valentine" We The Kings

P - "The Phrase That Pays" The Academy Is...

E - "Easter Egg" Waterparks

C - "Car Underwater" Armor For Sleep

@sophaeros @novaliae @lowoliet @mikeyvampire @ralexsol and anyone who wants to join!

doing that trend where u name a song for every letter of ur url except i wasn't tagged and one just popped up on my dashboard and i rlly wanna do it

D- dog days are over by florence + the machine

E- egg and soldiers by cosmo sheldrake

A- abbey by mitski

D-daylight by david kushner

C- come along by cosmo sheldrake

R- revolution by the score

O- only ones who know by arctic monkeys

W- weapon of god by the taxpayers

C- cold cold cold by cage the elephant

A- au revoir (adios) by the front bottoms

L- lonely eyes by the front bottoms

L- lipstick covered magnet by the front bottoms

I- is this it by the strokes

N- no surprises by radiohead

G- ginger by the front bottoms

tagging mutuals (lmk if u don't wanna be tagged in this kinda stuff) @syntax-error15 @neil-kinnie @i-am-in-love-with-todd-anderson @desire-mona @askthedeadpoetssociety @flaming-green @amorisastrum

#prev's goes wild haha #this revealed the distributinog of first letters in the songs i listen to is very uneven... #so many Cs and Ws and Ss on my playlists but I had to SERACH for H and E #I spoke #tag game #music

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#???? i thought for SURE supernatrual mostly took place in the south #also at first i thought OP meant like a local legend i was like '...i dont believein the supernatural' #supernatural

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Yes geologists! Doing the important work 💖

#slayy #flags #queer #real men eat queueiche

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Maybe this is the wrong platform to pose this question given the average tumblr user but

Is it just me or did our generation (those of is who are currently 20-30 ish) just not get the opportunity to be young in the 'standard' sense?

Like, everyone I talk to who's over 40 has all their wild stories about their teens and 20s, being young and dumb, and then I talk to my friends and coworkers and classmates, and we just... dont.

#life #capitalism #youth #this is why I'm not excited to be an adult

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Every time I advocate for voting people are like "no you shouldn't vote! Read this literature, it'll totally change the way you view voting!" And every single time it's the same fucking "you shouldn't vote because both parties are exactly the same so it won't make a difference who wins" bullshit wrapped up in some fancy language

#voting #usa

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it's a shame I wasted my boyhood having a girlhood, and I wasted my girlhood being a Tumblr Freak, but I do believe I was born in this body to be a Tumblr Freak, so at least I was fulfilling my purpose.

#well i think part of it is that since i'm so into the 2000s i'm defining boyhood and girlhood by alt 2000s standards yknow #i had a 2010s queer girlhood it was fine or whatever #i said this #gender

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the stefon and julian and sandy video is going horrible btw. despite committing to doing the bulk of the work in imovie little progress has been made. I've got a ton of base clips in the timeline so it's nearly an hour right now. I wanted the video to be around 15 minutes. I don't have a vision anymore -- I wanted to do a back and forth with the repeated intro phrases, but it's not flowing well. however i do think i might be able to finish this by the end of the week (i'm on break) lol

#i said this

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@novaliae this person stole ur joke

clair de lune will always go down smooth, claude really did put his whole debussy into this one

#no hate OP i'm joking i know it's just a coincidence #(OP's post is from march 15 of this year) #i spoke #nova