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queer-full-of-fear-18 · 2 years

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Ep8 really gave me goosebumps...I've been screaming for the past 5 min straight...

Let's start with YiDiao...holy shit..Diao went off on him!!! He really said that!! That entire fight was so satisfying to hear, both me and Diao are fed up!! I did aprechiate the date spot being a lil skate park and Yi teaching Diao - all of their scenes were great and really is pushing the edge on what this relationship is gonna progress to (further supported by some stuff said in the preview) very exited for this, MaxNat slaying as always

This ep really showcased the DiaoKuea and YiLian' friendships beautifully - finally a catching up with the cuties and gotta love bestie Diao reading Kuea like an open book and further supporting what Jay says previously - about Kuea overthinking and such.

This whole bit really showcases the deepness of Kuea's insecurities and how much tunner vision he has over it to the dismay of his poor friend Jay (Perth absolutely slayed this whole conversation, I was with u the whole time king😤) -loved how it showed how close they are as friends with Jay being absolutely done with Kuea's shit.

YiLian sometimes feel like besties or mf that are gonna bite eachother any minute. Yi barely says anything, talking most when trying to get back at Lian for his remarks - but in true bestie fashion Lian has all the right comebacks and is reading this MF to filth (much like Diao moments before) besties tell each other when their doing stupid shit and this is a great example of this.

Moving on to the way we started this ep (much like last how we ended and started) on a make out scene...y'all...first of all cinematography wise slapped I was ooglelig at the blue and orange of the lighting in the bed....but second the CONSENT AND COMMUNICATION bf all the steamenesss!!yes!!

This episode really showed each character's live language/way of showing love - Both Diao and Kuea are very verbal people that need and carve verbal approval and affection. Kuea needs to hear Lian say I love you (even so I swear Lian was saying stuff while they did shit👀) and Diao needs to hear what Yi feels about him. On the other hand, Lian and Yi are more physical people who show love through action and physical touch - with the unfortunate fact that both absolutely suck at verbal communication (the literally driving force for these two's relationship drama). Lian is slowly learning how to meet Kuea's needs with his heartfelt words on the couch; really proud of him as a character to address things and apologize for what he said to Kuea and even clear up their misunderstanding (the hug!!so comforting) but its clear the full capacity of his love is show by his actions thought all of his scenes, but putting in effort to speak more. Lian has seen that he's been huring Kuea all this time and is now learning to do better, yes character development!!!

Now, while I relate and appreciate Kuea's whole over thinking deal as a character flaw and something to drive the drama forward while making sense for his character - I do want to say that is very emotionally driven and just a hit odd? (Which is why I totally get Jay's whole frustration, like bro you both love each other chill out) but like..Kuea's whole fear is that his true self is unlovable and that when Lian "finds out the truth" he wont love him anymore (which fair to his insecurities and the like) but him being "suspicious" of the fact he's changed "so quickly" is kinda weird ? Idk why do u think he has ulterior motives in the first place? What would those even be? Also if I was Kuea I would be scared bc Kuea has been lying for like the past 2-3 years about his life,who wouldnt be atleast a bit upset when they find out??? He's not bc he already know but u get what I mean.

Loved Kuea finally remberingthr kiss BTW(loved the cut back to the car kiss,same positions and everything) and Lian saying he wanted Kuea to talk about it first clearing that up so quick? Love it.

We end a bit how we start: nice little night kiss with some domestuc vibes. I think Kuea not lying here about diner is really significant, not a huge thing, but a step in the right direction accounting his previous behavior (loved the lil spicy line to end it off)👀

Now on to what you all are waiting for (and if your not are we watching the same show?) LISTEN SYN AND NEUR YALL I need these two in a lead role RIGHT NOW holy shit dudes....first off loved Syn's whole begging scene we get a bit more insight into his life and character and I'm falling for him more bc of the way he denied every single like bad thing the woman said about her own son, mostly bc she brought it up to bring him up? What a king honestly

FUCKING Nuer with the smooth moves? He really said "I don't need anyone else just you" *screams* and both of their smile aftet he said that !! 😭😭😭Syn looking like a blushing highschool girl with that broom! So cute

And then Neur just getting all up in his personal space...the way these two look at eachothe BRO like I can't...I legit can't..and the the other scene were Neur recites a little mantra(I think thats what it is, like religious moral prayers) was just like...thus man went into the trouble of researching something he knows your passionate/intrested in and like made an effort to write it down and pronounce it (it being on a fucking post it just makes me imagine him in the library like writing down with a stupid smile on his face im-) literally can they just get married and adopt a dog please I love them.

And the class scene!! We all friends !! Loved the little drawings and how Neur immediately caught on Syn's jealousy and showed him the other drawings...their so cute FUCK

Side note kinda - no, I don't know what the fuck is happening with all this talk of papers and shit but I do know its probably a red hearing bc their is no way Lian is doing a this out of a place of malicious intent - ain't no way 🧐

Can't wait for the next ep, it seems the pace has picked up since were getting closer to the end now...YiDiao nation get ready...😭💀

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liquidstar · 2 years

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Which got me thinking, it's interesting how Greed is 'good' in FMA bc he likes everything, but arguably the worst in Re0, and Envy is the worst of the Homnchuli but Subaru has envy as a big character trait and it's not even shown as a flaw most of the time, it encourages him to improve himself.

ok ok so like i totally have thoughts on this too anon and i would so love to talk about it. as far as fma goes i wouldnt say any of the sins themselves are presented as inherently worse, even hohenheim just calls them the "7 desires" theyre neutral by default, but it depends on how you act on them that makes them bad.

i think the reason greed himself turned out well is just because of the people around him- the whole point of fma was how human connection makes us complete, and greed was the only one who actually connected with people in a way that mattered. pride also kind of got a second chance to do the same thing, even though selim 2.0 is baby hes STILL a manifestation of pride and you can even make the argument that he was the worst of all beforehand. and envy? what did they envy? human's ability to connect! i mean, still murder and all, but that came down to their actions in response to the sin.

and on the re:zero end, i agree with you on subaru having envy, but subaru SUPER has greed too! in general hes sort of meant to represent most sins in some capacity (thats the whole point of the what:if stories) and emilia kind of foils him by not being any of them but still being a super flawed character in her own right. you can argue that envy is the worst in re:zero because of satella being the Big Bad Witch, but you could also argue that its sloth because of petelgeuse, lust because of capella, or like you said greed because of echidna. like you said its debatable, its somewhat subjective.

but in the same way that subaru ended up harnessing his envy into a positive trait, he also did the same thing with greed! his "greed" was his immense desire to keep everyone alive, in arc 4 he was presented with a trolley problem and he wouldnt chose because he wanted to save everyone. we also see this represented when he told ram the story about the ogres and ram asks him who hed befriend, and he grabs both fingers. hes greedy for friendship, for connection. so (light novel spoilers) when he obtains the greed witch factor, it manifests in a way that allows him to share his friends burdens with himself, and each other but only if they're willing.

still the sins ARENT always presented as good with subaru. i mean, yeah theres the aforementioned what:if routes, but also his incredible entitlement that shined through a lot in arc 3, his possessiveness and his feelings of jealousy towards julius for just like.. talking to emilia politely. (and having read the light novel i think emilia should be the one more worried abt that lmao). sure he was able to take his envy and make it something that he could use to get better but only after he was at his worst, it was an arc!

and return by death is likely the envy witch factor too, which reminds me of a fan theory that, since its envy, return by death is "fueled" by his low image of himself and his self-hatred. so he will only be allowed to die for real once he starts valuing his life. how ironic would that be? writing-wise i support it but also. can we give this guy a break already? i knoowwww it probably wont have a happy ending but. come on. please.

#fma #anyway feel free to talk to me more abt this anon i ended up typing a whooole lot sorry if i sound like im just being pretentious lol #i just genuinely like to talk

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woundjob · 3 years

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Your comic is so good it is now canon. Also!!! Again the noses! My absolute favorite part of the characters!! I love the way you draw noses<3 i love poppy in hijab amd just the entire family i love it so much! Hows Dracos personality changed in this verse after Harry suddenly got a new roommate?

aaaah thank u!!

i think when people talk about draco its either he has a perfect 180 and becomes a Really Nice Guy overnight with little to no work or he just. stays terrible. and i think both of these are boring lmfao

ive spoke on this a little before but in college i was a real piece of shit. completely poisoned by masculinity and self absorbed and cruel and basically every kind of dreadful a person can be. i didnt decide to be better until like... not even two years ago. and healing was PAINFUL and CHALLENGING. it was really something i had to choose to do, and have to continue choosing to do every day. sometimes i slip up and feel like a monster for it, and sometimes i spend days just feeling guilty about the person that i was.

anyway im saying all this bc i think it takes a lot of work for draco to become a better person. and he has to WANT to do it. and i think there are times when he doesnt want to be, when it feels easier to just let everyone hate him, when being kind is too hard. i think he slips up a lot, and has to really put in effort to unlearn his biases and the years of conditioning.

back in college when i was first starting to notice things were wrong, i felt like i wouldnt be me without being a bitch, and a then-friend said to me

“everyone has the capacity to be a good person without sacrificing what makes them interesting”

im not friends with that person anymore, but that stuck with me. i am a bitch! im still witty and clever and teasing but not mean or cutting in the way that i was. i think draco would go thru the same sort of shit.

#sorry this got personal its late and im sleepy #and also i find draco really hard to relate to unless im putting my own guilt on him lol #kiwiwhorez #i got ur other ask and im saving it for when i have time for requests again lol

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foolgobi65 · 3 years

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i really wish the writers of lucifer hadn't turned chloe and maze's friendship into such an afterthought! like ok:

- when they start in season 2, both of them are in pretty isolated places socially. chloe, already a pretty introverted workaholic, is just newly divorced and has exactly one (1) friend: lucifer. maze has finally split off from lucifer and has two (2) friends: linda and trixie, but for the purposes of this comparison linda really is maze's one friend. maze has just accepted that she's not actually going back to hell, that this time on earth isn't really just a lunch break before they go back to the real world (hell) and so she now has to figure out how to build a real life in LA.

- basically, both maze and chloe are kind of in similar positions in terms of being isolated and really only having a singular overwhelming relationship with someone as opposed to having a network they can rely on so that all their eggs aren't in one basket. you can see where this backfires on both of them throughout the series when linda spends the week not talking to maze after seeing lucifer's face, and when lucifer runs off to vegas and suddenly chloe is stuck with all these feelings she can't express (and crucially can't talk about to him, her best friend.) ofc lucifer and maze's relationship transcends friendship just based on their immense history and is its own weird thing that i also kind of wish they had given more thought to, but w/e.

- enter: maze and chloe's friendship! i think for both maze and chloe, the other person is as "far" as you could get from themselves, but is fascinatingly still someone they can like, respect, love, and be loyal to. for a good while (and this is something i REALLY wish they had maintained) chloe, maze, and dan are basically raising trixie together which takes so much respect and trust that the other person is someone you want having a hand in influencing a kid you love! i think what's interesting is that, unlike lucifer who is trying to answer existential questions about his place/purpose in the universe, maze is really just focused on the people she cares about and having a good time (which is rooted in her doing meaningful work as a bounty hunter.) chloe is someone who pursues duty to the point of self-sacrifice, and obviously her friendship with lucifer helps her loosen up, but the pedestal he places her on/reverence he sometimes feels for her prevents him from really popping that bubble in the same way maze does. also chloe and lucifer's relationship gets SO much more complicated around the time maze enter's chloe's life so the role that lucifer once had to shock chloe out of her comfort zone kind of goes to maze once chloe has to draw some personal boundaries with lucifer.

- i think the key to maze and chloe's friendship is that they're both people who desperately need someone who embodies the other person's best trait. while this tendency isn't always healthy, maze is fundamentally someone very loyal to those she believes deserves it. obviously she's also betrayed people a billion times but at her core she's deeply committed to those she cares about which is something that i can see chloe find really appealing. at this point chloe has spent so much of her life in this weirdly precarious position where, since her dad's death she hasn't been able to fully trust anyone or open up to them. obviously she loves dan, but its clear that even when they're still "good" he doesn't trust her instincts or potential like he should, and when he spent those months gaslighting her the issue for her even beyond the fact that he shot malcom would have been that he didnt support or trust his wife. the appeal of lucifer is that from the beginning he identifies that she's smart and moral with good instincts. he trusts her, and strangely over the season she begins to trust him too! and then he runs off to vegas, etc etc lol. maze's primary loyalty probably isn't to chloe, but we see that to the best of her capacity she wants chloe to be happy -- she gets the prison warden killed, she "tries" and then really does listen to chloe venting about lucifer, attends the parent night chloe was stressed about, sets aside her grudge with lucifer to find chloe.

- in turn, chloe's best trait is her ability to accept people as they are and see their potential. of course she doesnt really have that many friends, but the people she is attracted to are all works in progress (dan is obvious, as are lucifer and maze lmao, but there's also ella who confesses something very personal and scary to chloe and gets a hug in return, and even charlotte who chloe's had clashes with both as charlotte and Mom for years but still gets the benefit of the doubt.) maze does have to change when she comes to live with chloe and trixie, but we see trixie grow up heavily influenced by maze in ways that makes it clear that chloe must genuinely like maze, or those influences like the handshake and the passion for gore and the knife training wouldnt have been allowed. we know that the reason maze is so loyal to lucifer is that he was the first person to ever accept her for who she was unconditionally, without shame or judgment. we see that for lucifer chloe is that person, especially because she sees his potential for growth just as she sees maze's. because she doesnt have preconcieved notions of what they're supposed to be she only sees them as people going through a difficult period of growth and supports them as best she can: reminding maze that they're friends, worrying about her in canada, trusting her with trixie who is the most important person in chloe's life.

- of course, chloe and maze have lucifer and linda but narratively lucifer and linda become so much MORE for chloe and maze. the show sunk linda/maze lmao but linda's clearly the adult maze cares most about just as lucifer is chloe's. and for both in s3 this person they each place so much of themselves into suddenly hurts them and they both spiral. i think there was real potential for chloe and maze to become each other's support and develop into a really steady, enduring friendship in contrast to the chaos of their individual romances (you will NEVER convince me that triangle was about amenadiel rather than linda lmao.) even post s3, they don't really address that maze really hurt chloe by pushing her towards pierce, and that chloe hurt maze by lying to her. i really think there could have been a lot of growth from maze going back to living with chloe and trixie after making full ammends and chloe realizing that actually, yes she can deal with this and it isn't that scary and then the tragedy of her maybe missing her shot with lucifer becomes more stark. we see chloe and maze teaming up in the first episode of 5A but then they blow that up too! i get that chloe needs space and its clear they're both using the other as placeholders for the people they really want, but there's no reason that they couldnt have come back together later and re-established their friendship on screen. obv they wouldnt work together after lucifer comes back, but to me this is where i believe they should go back to living together. without that, maze's connection to trixie in terms of what they can show on screen becomes tenuous and chloe's home life just becomes less interesting/worthwhile to see bc it'd just be her or maybe her with trixie. without that, it feels like we just see a lot of chloe either at work or in relation to lucifer (bc thats the best bang for your buck in terms of interaction!) we do get to see maze with linda, which is nice, but idk just feels like a step back from early s3 when maze felt more embedded in a community of people who liked, accepted, and cared about her wellbeing.

- i think one of the issues is that chloe and maze's friendship might have seemed like a knock off of their "main" relationships with lucifer and linda bc they have similar dynamics with them, but idk! there's a sense of fun that we get from their friendship that we dont really see from the main pairings because those are so serious and passionate and the main mechanisms by which the 4 grow so there isn't as much room for the lighter stuff. i know i said that chloe sees the potential for growth but she's not really pushing maze to talk about her feelings. she's doing the dishes maze won't, smiling at maze and trixie's handshake, shrugging off the fact that maze is throwing knives at their rented walls. maze and chloe create space for each other to be seen as themselves, good or bad, in ways that linda and lucifer can't for whatever reason. they don't really push each other, just let the other person be. it wouldnt be the ideal dynamic if they were the only person in each other's lives, but i think its vital to have someone in your life who can, in chloe's case, gently push you outside of your comfort zone and in maze's case offer acceptance, friendship, and trust.

idk this is just going in circles as i repeat the same points over and over and over but i really wish they had put more thought into sustaining the maze and chloe friendship throughout s4 and s5 because it would have brought out notes in both of them narratively that i think are lost otherwise. also its just sad for trixie that someone who was basically part of her family who she was living with is just...not there anymore and that's never addressed. : (

#lucifer #maze #chloe decker #lol im just writing this here to avoid doing school work rip #back to pretending to do a reading!!!

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dolphin-enthusiast · 4 years

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hi there honeybun!! 💘✨🌼 how are you doing love?? i saw that you posted some hc today,, i thought they were very cute! 💕 you should know that when you do get those little bursts of inspiration, you truly do such amazing things darling!! burn-out really does feel awful, no? (1/9)

"well i should say that i saw the anon's dream... wow,, that sounds as if it came straight out of an action movie!!! (which happen to be my favorite genre alongside drama) honestly, i would wake up in a cold sweat too if i dreamt up something like that,, such high intensity warrants lots of emotion for me haha, not to mention that i am quite the skittish person myself (as morgy already knows by now 😅) by the way dear anon, if you do end up finishing the dream, i'd love to hear it hehehe (2/9)

dreams are a funny thing for me,, considering they are either night terrors, surreal/nonsensical, or intensely dramatic,, i don't think i've ever had a straight up pleasant dream before! i can also remember a lot of them, and i like to tell my friends about some of my craziest dreams!! oh, and a little fun tidbit is that i can dream in both color and black/white!! (3/9)

dreaming has always been such a fascinating concept to me, there have been days with my friends where all i'll do is talk about dreams with people,, it's pretty relaxing, especially if the dreams you discuss are nightmares!! it's nice to get such things out of your system after all! 💭 (4/9)

mamma mia,, sorry for the ramble, it annoys most people after a while,, i have a tendency to talk about certain things for a while 😖 well, today consisted of mostly sewing for me, both by hand and with a machine... needless to say my fingers are bruised up now 😂 i bruise pretty easily, so it's normal i guess,, (5/9)

and i have some people now asking me to make them stuff!! i'd love to but with a lack of motivation and being in a rough spot lately, i don't think i have the capacity for that hehe, maybe some time in the future!! (6/9)

waifu bro was able to show me more of the movie script!! the movie is actually based on his personal interpretation of the song hotel california by the eagles,, it's one of our all-time favorites!! he might actually have me cover the song for him soon!! he said it would mostly receive a mature rating since it is very dark in subject matter, but if he actually ends up producing it, i bet i would be old enough to see it when it releases!! (7/9)

and oh my, a whole year of singing lessons,, i bet you sound amazing dear!! my family could never afford that sort of stuff, so naturally i just sing along to songs casually hehe,, i bet you would've made for an amazing singer amore 💖💖 (8/9)

oh dio, it's now 0:50!! time flies fast when i'm doing the things i love 😊 then that's it for tonight i suppose! buonanotte e sogni d'oro, dolcezza ☀💓 - always with love, waifu xoxo 😍😳😘❤💗💓💕💖💞💘💌💋 ps: if the film ends up being produced in the future, will you go see it with me? 🥺👉👈 (9/9)"

God love again you praise me way too much trust me im really not THAT good at singing esp since i havent attended the lessons bc of the current situation ever since march i think so im a lil rusty even tho i sing by myself many times around the house....if anything i'd say my voice sounds lowkey weird since im an alto and was told i had the deepest timbre out of the girls and it wouldnt be the first time anyway🤡✌️but nevertheless theres much to improve and it aint perfect dhshhzhz and the hcs i wrote were kinda minimal but im glad u liked them?? also watching the movie with you?? A B S O L U T E L Y

I love hotel california but then again its a classic its only natural 😳 again ur bro is a literal icon, his brain is gigantic and i'd pay to watch that shit anyday fam esp if its with u👁️

And dont apologize for rambling since dreams do happen to fascinate me as well... as a matter of fact i just woke up from a very cursed one thats gonna get me hella clowned by one of my mutuals a h a h a but i fully understand ur experiences since i myself usually just dream of nonsensical bits that i dont even remember or its just straight up nightmares🤡🤡🤡🤡 the only exception being that 1 week ago i think i had a surprisingly nice dream that consisted of me achieving some goals which was VERY unexpected considering all i dream of are wacky things so that was nice for once ig hssjdjd

And do b careful w the bruising stuff i cant imagine how hard it must be to embroider like that...my short tempered dumbass would b like i g h t m b o u t t a h e a d o u t in less than a second-

#also u never had lessons? further proof that ur a goddess #ur voice puts za angels to shame darlin😩😩#the confessional

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musicnoots · 3 years

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girl tell us about the crush 👁👄👁

HAHAHAHA ok so im gonna use this as a way to vent bc WHEW i have so many emotions about this

he is a fellow music major, his instrument is viola and he is also a first year so we are in the same grade. we also have had all of our music classes together since fall quarter and we're also in symphony together and as of winter quarter we see each other like 4 days each week because our piano class got approved for in person instruction. ever since we got to go to in person class we've been walking together from class (only from bcus he lives in a different dorm thats further away from mine) and we always wait for each other after class we can walk together and talk and sometimes when i have to go pick up a package he walks with me and then waits until i have picked it up even though he can leave bcus his dorm is really close and im like debating if that's just him being a gentleman,,,, ON THAT TOPIC! he is so nice. and helpful. and tall. i've also had to ask myself: do i like him or is he just tall? also i've wondered if i do like him because of yknow hes nice, helpful, tall, cute and etc but i was like idk does he like me or is he being nice

anyways this whole fiasco started when me and my friends from symphony were talking about it him because he's cute and then they said that he and i would look really good together and that i have the best chance of getting together with him and at the time i was like "what? nah." and then i went home and started thinking about it over the weekend, unlocking the vault of deep thoughts and talking to my bestie and then i realized omg i like him but does he like me back????? this is groundbreaking for me because the last time i liked someone was like over two years ago. i told my friends my findings and they are totally rooting for me but i am getting mixed responses on how to approach this situation. one friend said that it's better to wait since the school year is ending soon and we probs wont see each other over the summer and i was like that's tru wait a minute..... I REALLY PICKED THIS TIME TO REALIZE THAT I LIKE HIM???? IMAGINE IF I REALIZED EARLIER I COULD HAVE HAD MORE TIME TO THINK THIS THROUGH AND MORE TIME TO SUBTLY FLIRT WITH HIM AND POSSIBLY GET THROUGH THAT BRAIN OF HIS and then my bestie was like "ask him out shannon. he clearly likes you. and you like him." and i was like i want to but idk it started out as "i wouldnt mind him being my boyfriend" to "i want him to be my boyfriend" and then my bestie was like "get his number shannon. ask for it. dm him." and i was like "omg no how do i do that. that is beyond my emotional capacity" and then i told my violin teacher and she was "awww! i hope you can get his number or ask him on a date. that's so cute. i'm totally not gonna ask his teacher to see if he likes you" and then this turned into a whole "do i ask for his number what if he doesn't like me and this becomes embarrassing" fiasco because truly i was so scared that if he actually doesn't like me this will be so embarrassing and awkward especially since for the next 3 yrs we have all of our music classes together. i was and still am panicking becus i am going home at the end of this week and and we see each other in person for the last time this school year on wednesday and idk what to do i ended up deciding to not ask for his number because the thought of me actually doing it made me want to vomit so i've decided to wait because he wanted to he would and maybe i should just continue to subtly flirt? also i've been way into horoscopes since this fiasco happened help

#yall pls help me i have one more in person class with him and then im going home #what do i do i want him to be my bf #but im scurd #inbox

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