#bc they spent so many years trying to be all these things they weren't and none of them were fucking good enough for anyone

[byanyan]

byan being a timid kid.

byan being a timid kid because they used to be an outgoing and energetic kid, but they'd get in trouble for being too loud and annoying, too rambunctious and distracting, and struggled to make friends because they were too overwhelming and wanted too much attention. byan being a timid kid because they don't know who to trust because they've been hurt so many times in so many ways by the people who were supposed to protect and look after them. byan being a timid kid because they always manage to disappoint everyone, because they aren't smart enough or talented enough or good enough and they can never seem to do anything right. byan being a timid kid because they're afraid of what they're capable of, because every time their anger has boiled over, they've done serious damage to people, because they've ended up hurting someone far more than that one person ever hurt them.

byan being a timid kid because they don't know what else to do, because every part of them seems wrong, and now being themself just doesn't feel like an option.

#and then of course byan flipping that on its head one day when the final straw snaps #bc being quiet and timid and trying to be well-behaved never actually made things better it never changed anything #byan embracing their anger in a very 'you think I'm a disappointment and a problem? fine I'll BE a disappointment and a problem' sort of wa #hi I've been having a lot of middle of the night thoughts again lately #tonight it's thinking about how if you compared byan at a certain point in their childhood with byan now #you'd never guess they were the same person bc they're such complete opposites #bc they spent so many years trying to be all these things they weren't and none of them were fucking good enough for anyone #if anyone needs me I'll be over here laying on the floor in self inflicted emotions over my own oc ok thank u goodnight #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[feelbokkie]

花火 (Fireworks)

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**Requested**

bff!han and reader the way they steal a glance every once in a while slowly falling in love with eachothers laugh, with their smile the SOFTEST SOFTEST kiss to have ever kissed it's not either of their first kiss, but there's fireworks EXCEPT THERES ACTUAL FIREWORKS BC THERE AT AN EVENT

genre: fluff

pov: 2nd person

description: Back home after touring for months, your best friend Jisung takes you to a firework festival.

pairing: best friend!Jisung x reader

warnings: none?

word count: 1,792

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"You know," You huff as you adjust the large stuffed quokka in your arms, "as cute as it was to win me this, it probably would have been cheaper if you just bought this from the vendor outright.."

"My pride would have never allowed that," Jisung says casually as he continues to pull you through the crowd, his grip on you tighter than you thought impossible for him.

When did he get so strong?

You haven't seen your best friend Jisung in months. He's been off traveling the world touring and promoting his music while you were busy working. You knew that when he came back, he was going to want to spend as much time as he possibly could to make up for lost time. You thought it would be how it always was: nights in either at your apartment or his dorm with movies and whatever food you wanted. When Jisung told you that there was a festival he wanted to go to, you were shocked. It's loud, crowded, and overwhelming; all the things that Jisung normally dislikes when going out into a public space. In all honestly, you've spent most of the day checking out for his warning signs in case he became too overwhelmed. Not that you minded staring at his face.

"How does your pride feel about how much you just spent right now?" You giggle, because you can't help but laugh. The whole idea of Jisung spending over an hour trying to win you a stuffed quokka because you turned to him and said "Look, it's you" is completely silly. His response after he won the oversized stuffed animal is even sillier.

"There, now you'll have me around when I'm away on tour,"

You weren't sure what he meant by that. Ever since the creation of the skzoos, he's always made sure you had every variation of Han Quokka. At first, it was to "keep you company" while he was away and then it became, to "add to the collection." And still, you're not sure what it was about what he said this time that made your heart race around your entire body and your breath hitch in your throat.

Maybe it's the fact that you've hardly seen him in over a year. He was on tour for most of the year last year, only coming back for the holidays, but you went back home to spend time with your family. And then it felt like he was only free for a week when the world tour ended. The boys almost immediately went back to work on their next album. And then promotion for that album, followed by the creation and promotion of a Japanese album, and then yet another creation and promotion of another album. On top of that they have various schedules for interviews, award shows, content for their fans, and so many other things, that you're surprised Jisung even has time for you right now.

And yet, here he is, wearing a black, oversized ratty old Wu-Tang Clan shirt that he said he thrifted while he was on tour in the States, a pair of baggy jeans that dragged on the floor, and a pair of off-white sneakers that made him a little taller than he actually his. With his face concealed by a black bucket hat and a face mask that spent more time on his chin than it did on his face. It's almost like he wasn't international superstar Han Jisung, but your best friend. The first friend you made when you moved to South Korea to start a new life.

"Are you happy?" He asks suddenly, carefully pushing his way through the crowd of people.

You're quiet for a moment, confused as to why that question would even cross his mind. "Yeah, why?"

"Then my pride doesn't care," Hey says simply.

Has he always been like this?

Bold isn’t a word you would use to describe. Confident? Yes, absolutely. He wouldn’t be where is he today if he wasn’t at least a little bit confident in himself. But bold? You were always more of a risk-taker of the duo and made more decisive decisions. Jisung has always been more cautious, only taking risks with his career. Even then, that was more confidence than him being bold. After all, being confident is the only way anyone could survive in the industry.

Finally, there's a break in the crowd as Jisung reached the front of the crowd. The festival hasn't been too crowded the entire time you've been there. The two of you went earlier in the day to avoid the crowd so Jisung could walk around comfortably without being recognized. But as the sun began to set, more people came making you feel more anxious. Not because you dislike crowds and the havoc that they bring, but because Jisung does. And he's been having such a good day, you didn't want it to end.

You've caught yourself starting at Jisung more times than you care to admit. Small glimpses throughout the day. Little things about him caught your eye. The way his skin would bronze in the sunlight. Or how his eyes would become a fine line when he laughed, really laughed. And how his large, gummy smile took up most of his face. And the little pout he would do when he was doing poorly in a game. Or the way his face would turn red when you would turn to steal a glance and he was already looking at you. And the small smile he'd give you when he would catch you staring.

It's normal, right?

How happy you are spending time with Jisung. How your heart hasn't stopped pounding since he grabbed your hand 5 minutes ago. And the way your stomach has been doing acrobatics every time he laughs. You've just missed him.

And here he is, standing in front of you without the barrier of a screen.

"Do you know what the Japanese word for firework is?" Jisung asks suddenly.

The two of you are sitting comfortably on the grass at the front of the crowd, and yet he still holds your hand. Not that you mind. You can hardly see his face in the dark of the night. The stalls and surrounding buildings started turning their lights off or dimming them as the crowd started to settle down for the fireworks show.

"I barely know the Korean word for firework," You chuckle softly in response.

"Fair enough," He chuckles back, "It's the same concept in both Korean and Japanese so I guess I could have just asked if you knew the Korean word."

"Same concept?" You tilt your head to the side while looking at Jisung. Your eyes slowly adjust to the dark, allowing you to make out the familiar features of his face. "What are you talking about?"

Jisung turns his attention in front of him. Nothing is happening, and yet he stares off into the distance. "Bulkkoch. Hanabi. In both languages, firework is made up of two characters. Bul and hi both mean fire in their respective languages. Then kkoch and hana mean flower. So in direct translation, firework is either fire flower or flower fire."

"It's prettier than the English word, that's for sure. Seems lazy in comparison. It's literally just a work of fire for us."

"I think so too. But of the two, I think hanabi is the prettier." Jisung turns his attention back to you. "Reminds me of you, somehow."

You're not sure why, but your breath hitches in your throat and your heart starts to flutter like the wings of a hummingbird. He's just your friend. But maybe, just maybe, you have feelings for him.

You don't know when it started or if there was even a starting point to be had. Maybe you've always had feelings for him and you just didn't realize it. Spending time with Jisung is the happiest you've been in months. Your stomach and cheeks hurt from laughing so much. And maybe your feelings for him were there in the subtext of it all. You've never laughed this much with any of your other friends. You can't remember the last time someone made you so much in one day. Nor do you think you've never felt such joy hearing someone say your name before. Out of all the things he's ever sung, your name is your favorite song.

"Y/n," Jisung mumbles. You're certain your eyes are playing tricks with the light.

You freeze as Jisung's face slowly gets closer to you. So slow that you're not sure he's moving. Still, as the scent of his cologne becomes increasingly stronger, you stay completely still. As if any sudden movement will scare him away. And he might. You're not sure where Jisung's confidence is coming from but you know better than anyone it's just a facade that can be easily shaken. And, if what you think is happening is happening, you don't want to deter him from continuing.

You should stop him. Remind him that the two of you are in public and anyone could see. Anyone could take a picture and send it to dispatch. But part of you is selfish, wanting a part of him for yourself after sharing him with the world for so long. A part of him that you know he can't share with his fans.

Your eyes close instinctively as he's only inches away from you. You slowly lose your nerve as he stops moving closer, his breath tickling your face. Maybe he realized what he was doing. Maybe he--

Your mind stops racing as Jisung's lips gently graze yours. So softly at first, you think you imagined it until he leans in more, closing any and every gap between your lips.

It's a simple kiss, in an innocent way. And yet, you feel a jolt of electricity run through your body. Like Jisung is an outlet and you're a kid who just shoved a fork in it. So innocent and yet, your entire body is on fire, tingling like all of your nerves are miniature fireworks going off all at once.

Hanabi

Jisung slowly pulls away, leaving you breathless and your head spinning.

You're no stranger to kissing. Neither of you are. You've done it more times than you care to count throughout your life. Some with people who've meant significantly less than what Jisung means to you. And somehow, you've never been left so breathless from a peck on the lips before. Judging by the look on Jisung's face, illuminated the various colors of the fireworks you didn't know were going off, neither has he. You want to kiss him again.

"Wow," you both mutter in unison.

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Atsv Spoilers (not really or kinda depends on opinion I guess? Better safe then sorry) Just thinking about Spider Reader with the destroyed universe getting fucked over by YouTwo and snapping back with "Then just send me home!" and then the Go Home Machine failing cause there is no universe to send them back to. Miguel being horrified that he's made such a terrible mistake, Reader staring at Miguel with absolute hatred in their eyes so caught up in the euphoria of justified rage they don't realize that they've effectively trapped themselves in a neat container for safe keeping.

No but deadass I spent my entire overnight shift last night just like, literally brainstorming different and horrible ways Reader could be "kicked out" and one idea I thought of was, Reader gets confronted and accused of being YouTwo, and YT themself is there to help pour on the tears and treat you like such a nasty awful bully and make up all kinds of accusations and also just different little ideas on things the SS does to make Reader spiral into WANTING to leave (like for example what if Reader and Miguel have a big argument because you were there during like the second movie and you're like "O'Hara what you said to that kid was genuinely so fucked up" and start avoiding him which drives him crazy, more so than you usually make him by just existing anyways

Imagine if instead of using the machine to send you home, YouTwo just strides up and basically suckerpunches you and steals your bracelet right off your wrist, saying you can just glitch out and go home that way (because YT is literally trying to fucking kill you at this point)

You're just glitching and you're crying and SCREAMING in terror, because even if you've been so depressed you were contemplating suicide, ideation is different than HAPPENING RIGHT NOW, and NOW you don't have a choice, and you're getting hysterical BEGGING "I'll go somewhere else and never come back! Don't do this! Don't take my bracelet! I'll die!! I'll die!!" And most of them don't believe you because they're convinced this is another manipulation attempt by the person they THINK you are and they don't want to give you the bracelet because they don't want "fake you" to come back

Some of them, though, realize you're just a bit TOO upset, and that maybe something really IS wrong. You start looking at people and calling them out by name, trying to recall specific events and memories, but many are convinced that "you" were so devoted on spying and copying "the real you" that you must have had them bugged or stalking them and just overheard these moments. They're all so tricked that maybe YouTwo even claims they had a diary that you stole, and that's how you know everything

These are people you've spent months and months if not a few YEARS with, being their friend, training with them, fighting alongside them, helping them through grief and loss, and suddenly you realize, oh my fucking god if you weren't a Spider and they didn't think you still had a home universe to protect, still had a home universe that would collapse without you, would they actually fucking kill you? Like imagine the horror at realizing the unspoken threat and knowing they WANT to kill you or significantly harm you, that they WOULD kill over something like this, over what is essentially just... personal beefing? Idk but, I was also thinking, what if YouTwo had actually sabotaged the elevator project from the other idea I had, so, maybe they've been up to all kinds of dangerous shit

(As a side bar, imagine Miguel investigating the accident bc he thinks the whole like suddenly falling apart thing was very sus and maybe there had been an explosion and upon investigating he learns "you" planted bombs and he like. Gently confronts you about it like "I know you've been stressed and feeling like you need to prove yourself but you can't do things like this" and you're just like. Goddamn that hurts for him to just not even, doubt it was you, maybe YT has created some sort of alibi. He doesn't like, punish you or anything, but, you just kind of blow up at the accusation and I think it'd be pretty entertaining if you're like, "ok you know what, fuck you actually, I'm going to go live in the normal part of the city" and he doesn't even, take that seriously, he just sort of acts like you're throwing a tantrum but he's like, clearly not wanting to punish you even though he's obviously disappointed in you, for something you didn't even do, ouch)

But anyways, so, I've thought about how Reader would get the bracelet back, and it's ranged from "Reader saying something only the true you would know, something that was private or no one else would know about but you and certain witnesses" to "Reader has a food allergy certain people know about but YouTwo doesn't so you just say 'ok bitch watch me prove this shit and also fuck you' and you deliberately eat the thing and go into straight anaphylactic shock out of spite"

YouTwo fakes an allergy attack and says you poisoned them and you're just like "oh you wanna see a REAL allergic reaction bitch" *starts seizing after licking an almond joy*

But no anyways back to more serious ideas, you're just, starting to glitch out more and more, screaming and begging "don't kill me!" and Miguel is starting to wonder if maybe he should just give the bracelet back, he's got an, uncomfortable feeling, and A Lot of Spidey Senses start going off and you're freaking out because you literally think you're about to die (although for closure I like to think you just, bounce somewhere else, and you'll maybe keep bouncing before you find another sort of anchor, and also for spite of course i like to think of that anchor being another Miguel, like either you naturally "settle" there or he gets you a dimensional watch)

And my preferred preference of routes here varies. "YouTwo exposes themself on accident by saying some dumb shit" to "you say something only you would know, something like extremely personal, like maybe you even stalk up to Miguel and bring up something he said to you about losing his family and like, how you respected him for going through all that and how you were glad he was the society's/your leader and he barely gets that bracelet on before you vanish" to "asking YouTwo to prove theyre you by answering certain questions" to "they realize youre telling the truth but literally JUST as theyre about to put the watch back on, you vanish" to, finally, "you cant prove your innocence fast enough and they genuinely do just let you fucking disappear on purpose but instead of dying you just go somewhere else until you meet a different Miguel who rescues you and now you're like hardcore trauma bonded to that man because you were just bouncing around terrified until you found him and he's just like insanely protective of you and you're just kind of, glued to his side bc you only feel safe when he's there to protect you, because you're scared of, everyone at this point, like totally traumatized by what happened and also if you're with him 24/7 you can't be swapped out and he won't think you're a fake and try to kill you right?? Ha ha you aren't traumatized at all :) and it just makes your hero all the more, attached to hear all that you went through, from the beginning, and see what it did to you, and it 'definitely' isnt feeding into any extremely intense feeling of his that you WANT to be with him 24/7"

Ok actually that concept is about to highjack this post, I need to swing back to that later bc there's some real potential in, like, Reader being like so extremely fucked up over what happened that it immediately thrusts you into the arms of another terrible situation. Like you just got straight betrayed and "murdered" by all of your friends, like basically your entire social community, and Miguel2 is now the only one you can trust, and meanwhile he feels genuine empathy for you and is angry at the people who hurt you and he just kind of vows to protect you, and, I like to think, maybe Reader has time before they glitch between worlds (unless you just, magically settle again like you did in the other Nueva York, maybe you're a mutant or your destiny is tied to Nueva York or at least staying alive.) so maybe he literally develops the tech to anchor you down within like, the days you have there, maybe it's a 3 day time limit. So, now you've got just him and you, no Spider Society, no original Miguel, and maybe you just kind of totally fall in love with this dude, but of course Miguel 1 is obviously horrified by what he did to you when he somehow finds out you're still alive. Like an anomaly villain breaks into your new home and, oh great here are some of your old friends and your ex, um, boss showing up and he's just, speechless when it becomes obvious youre the same one. Like imagine you tried to not even speak to them and avoid them to try and keep your new life but youre so obviously scared of them and you accidentally look in your original Miguel's eyes and he knows immediately it's you. Bruh his PAIN AND REGRET when he steps forward to try and embrace you in relief and joy bc oh my god you aren't dead, and you just flinch away from him, maybe you even cling to the new Miguel, and the original just. He's ready to fucking fight. He wants you back, he wants to apologize, he wants to be able to make things up to you and go back to how things used to be, especially if he has feelings he had wanted to act on, whether being more romantic or just more platonically affectionate in general, more open and vulnerable with you, but never got to before the YouTwo wrecking ball came swinging through

But yeah I'm just. Thinking of dramatic painful ideas and grinding them up and snorting them like crack. I think it's the whole "you burned me and now you're groveling for my forgiveness" that does it for me 🤌

#atsv #yandere spiderverse #yandere miguel o'hara #yandere x reader #yandere stuff #sinprompts

[hofftrans]

Getting real comfortable unfollowing and/or blocking blogs that only use political activism as a way to give themselves a feeling of like moral hierarchy. Like I think it's something we all struggle w to an extent, there's this long held concept of "I can only feel that I am good if I have someone bad to compare myself to" and in a terrifying world with so many terrible, terrible things going on in it I so understand the desire to be sure in the knowledge that you are a good person.

But part of kindness and community and compassion is being able to communicate patiently and empathetically with others, and so often I see posts or tags on this site that could be incredibly informative and create real change if they weren't written like somebody trying to get a mic drop moment instead of trying to get people to change and grow.

This is not to say minorities need to or should be polite to their oppressors, that's absolutely not the message of this post and I wanna clarify that to avoid a "love pancakes = hate waffles" situation.

The message of this post is about the amount of posts on here that bring up any issue in the world at all and phrase it as "not that any of you give a shit" or "and no one fucking cares" or "reblogging this is literally the least you can do" or "but I know you'll just ignore this so fuck you"

Like idk I just feel like we've accidentally recreated protestant values and catholic guilt over the idea of actual change, as well as the dangers involved in like "you should know to do the right thing because you're SCUM IF YOU DONT" instead of going "here's some education or a way to help" and then responding that way once someone refuses growth or change.

I'm going to try and practice what I preach here by explaining one of the reasons I think this is so dangerous without insisting you're a monster for not knowing: a large amount of the population suffers from obsessive compulsive disorder, and one of the major ways ocd can present itself is ocpd or as my mates and I have come to call it "ethical ocd." Ethical ocd (in vague terms bc I'm not a doctor) is the extreme anxiety/fear/obsession over being morally wrong or a bad person and sufferers often feel the need to prove absolutely that they are good and can often feel the need to self harm or partake in dangerous behaviour if they make any mistakes or have an intrusive thought of a violent or hurtful nature. I know this because I've suffered from this a lot throughout my life, and as a teenager I spent many years away from tumblr due to how the moral hierarchy culture here was just like pouring fuel directly onto an open bonfire. This is obviously an issue many people don't know about and I get that, I feel no judgement towards them for that. I'm just pleading with people to consider whether their activism on here is coming purely from a place of actually wanting to help people improve their behaviour and improve the world we live in or if it comes from a much deeper need to feel sure and right in yourself, which again is not something that is a moral failure or makes you a monster, just something I really hope people can get help with before it spirals into a more and more harmful behaviour

#sorry for the length of this post im just getting a bit tired and sad seeing the amount of people on here who are fighting for good causes! #but are doing so with the exact same energy my RE teacher gave when she told me if i did something hurtful i would BURN IN HELL #instead of explaining to me that the thing i was doing hurts other people and trust in that first instance that i as a humam being want to #do the kind and right thing without being threatened or shamed into doing so

[atimeofyourlife]

Steve knows that Hopper & Joyce don't really like him. They play nice bc of the party but he knows. Cue him getting ill & not being available one day. Joyce & Hop come to help him. And he realizes that he is projecting his feelings of inadequacy onto them. They do like. They care

Ahh, thank you so much! I love all the prompts you sent me and I will try to get them all done! I hope you enjoy this cw: non graphic mentions of vomiting

Steve knew that Hopper and Joyce didn't like him. After all, why would they? It wasn't like he had done anything to make their lives easier, or to earn their approval. At best they tolerated him because of what he could do for the kids and everything that had happened with the Upside Down.

Hopper didn't like him because he'd been so much trouble as a kid. Always at the parties getting busted, usually one of the most wasted. Getting driven home if his parents were in town, or taken to the station to sleep it off if they weren't. More than once he had puked in the back of Hopper's cruiser after getting picked up drunk. There'd only been one party at his own house, the reaction from his parents had been more than enough to put him off throwing another rager, but it had been a big one. Hopper almost had to drag Steve off the roof when busting that party, and had to take him to the station to sober up because he wasn't just drunk, he was very obviously high as well.

There was also the untouchable attitude he'd had as a younger teen. It was an attitude that he'd learnt from his father. That their money and their power in such a small town essentially left them above the law. Steve knew it had angered Hopper to no end when he had carried himself in a manner knowing that any trouble with the police could be swept away with the right amount of money in the right pockets. His parents had spent many years lining Mayor Kline's pockets and had a cushy deal with Hopper's predecessor to keep them out of trouble, and had expected the same treatment from Hopper as soon as he became chief. Steve had used this and thrown threats of his father's money around to keep himself and his friends out of trouble, no matter which laws they were breaking.

He knew that the main reason Joyce didn't like him was the fight. That he'd provoked Jonathan and goaded him into violence when he was already going through a lot. Had caused Jonathan to get arrested while he had been fast enough to run from the police and avoid trouble for it. And there were other things, like he knew she still hadn't forgiven him for the damage caused by the dead demodog in her freezer. Or she hadn't exactly said anything, but he was pretty certain that she blamed him for the state her house was in after the fight with Billy.

Steve did his best to stay on their good side, not wanting to give them more of a reason to dislike him. To want to get him away from their family. He added Will and El to his drop-off rotation, always making sure that they were home before curfew, even if it meant dropping the other kids off late. He made sure to be endlessly polite to both of them, only ever referring to Hopper as Sir or Chief Hopper, and to Joyce as Ma'am or Ms Byers. He offered help at any gatherings held at their place, cleaning up behind everyone, doing the dishes. But it never seemed to help, as all of his efforts were met with a look that he couldn't quite place, but it didn't feel positive.

-

There had been a stomach flu going around Hawkins for a few weeks. Steve had managed to avoid it, with an almost obsessive cleaning and disinfecting regime at home, in the car, and at work. Maybe that was Robin rubbing off on him, as she'd been the same before she went out of town to visit family for a few weeks. But he knew it was only a matter of time, especially once the kids started dropping one by one. But he still survived, the kids getting better and making plans for a sleepover and a movie day at the Hopper-Byers place the following weekend. He agreed to go, but only to the movie day, he didn't want to put anyone out by spending the night. Didn't want to make Hopper and Joyce uncomfortable with him sleeping there.

But he came down with the stomach flu. It had been dying down, less people seemed to be getting sick with it, and he thought he'd totally avoided it. Then his coworker came in sick one day, just a couple of days before the movie day was supposed to take place. He was fine the next day, but the day he was supposed to go over, he was anything but. He woke up and immediately had to sprint for the bathroom, not only having the typical stomach flu symptoms with stomach cramps so bad he was doubled over, but a killer migraine to accompany it. He started off hunched over the toilet with his eyes screwed shut, then quickly had to change positions to sit on the toilet as his body protested further, reaching blindly for the small trash can so he wouldn't have to clean the floor. Once he was done, he couldn't find the energy to move back to his bed, instead, he laid out on the bathroom floor with a towel as a pillow. He knew he should try to get to the phone to let everyone know he wasn't going to make it, but that meant moving. It wasn't like anyone was going to miss him that much.

-

Joyce was concerned. Scratch that, concerned had been an hour earlier when it was only fifteen minutes later than the time he'd said and Steve hadn't shown up. Closing in on an hour and a half late, with no phone call to cancel, she was outright worried. She'd tried calling multiple times, and there'd been no answer. The kids hadn't heard anything on their walkies, and it made her mind jump to the worst. A car accident on his way over. The Upside Down being back and him not having a chance to warn anyone. All those concussions finally caught up to him and he just didn't wake up. Hopper tried to reassure her, saying that he was probably fine, had most likely overslept. But she could see right through him, and he was worried too. It was too unlike Steve for him to not show up without calling. The only other time it had happened had been when his parents had shown up when he was about to leave. And that weekend had an awful fallout, and gave both Joyce and Hopper an even deeper hatred for the senior Harringtons.

She couldn't just sit around waiting. Leaving Nancy and Jonathan in charge of the kids, she and Hopper made their way out. Hopper drove, and she kept looking for any sign of trouble. Anywhere that a car could have run off the road, the blind corner that was notorious for accidents. There was no sign of Steve's car anywhere, but that didn't do anything to ease her worry. When they pulled into Loch Nora, Steve's BMW was still parked in the drive outside his house. She didn't know whether to let that relax her or not. Maybe it did mean that Hopper was right, that Steve had just overslept. But she had a feeling in her gut that something more was happening. Steve was one of their kids, even if he didn't know it. He seemed hesitant sometimes to be receptive of their attempts to bring him in, as if he didn't trust them to not suddenly withdraw from him.

Hopper was the first one out, Joyce following close behind. There was no response to them ringing the bell or banging on the door, they kept trying for a good ten minutes before Joyce's worry got to much, and she decided they should just go in. She tried to open the front door without much hope, knowing it would be locked. She left Hopper to look for a spare key and went to the back. Wondering if the sliding doors had been left unlocked. Steve had mentioned one time he did sometimes leave them unlocked in case he misplaced his keys. She tried the handle, and let out a sigh of relief when it opened without any resistance. She called for Hopper to join her and they both entered together. The house was as neat and put together as it always was. It was something that had unsettled Joyce the few times she had been in. A teenage boy who essentially lived alone most of the time, keeping a house so clean it could be a show home.

"Steve?" She called as they started to move around, checking the living room, the kitchen, the dining room. The entire house seemed mostly untouched.

"Harrington, are you here?" Hopper called, his voice loud enough to carry through the house.

Joyce caught the sound of a weak groan as she came near the bottom of the stairs. She hurried up the stairs, with Hopper just a few steps behind her. She was about to call again, to try and get a better idea of where he was, but heard the sound of someone throwing up coming from one of the rooms.

"Steve?" She knocked on the door, and opened it when she didn't get a response. The bedroom was empty, but a door on the opposite wall was open, showing into the en suite bathroom. As she crossed the room, she caught the smell coming from the bathroom, the same smell that had taken over all three of their bathrooms for the better part of a week as the stomach flu had worked its way through the house.

"Oh, Steve, honey." Her heart almost broke at the way he was curled into a ball by the toilet with his eyes screwed shut. She made her way over to him, pushing his hair back off his sweaty forehead to feel how feverish he was.

"Ms Byers?" Steve mumbled, blinking up at her.

"Yeah, honey. It's me and Hopper." She replied quietly.

"Wha-why?" Steve's expression shifted into something of confusion.

"We came by to check up on you, we were worried," Hopper replied.

"Why?" Steve mumbled again.

"You never showed up, and you didn't call to let us know. We were worried that there was something wrong, and we had to make sure you're okay."

"But why?" Steve asked quietly, looking unsure about her words.

"You're one of ours, kid. And we take care of our own." Hopper said, and Joyce agreed with his words. While everyone else had been sick, Steve had been running around after everyone, doing grocery runs for anyone who needed it and refusing payment for it. Making sure everyone had what they needed, doing whatever he could without actually coming inside.

-

Steve couldn't quite wrap his head around Joyce and Hopper being there. It had been so long since he'd had anyone around while he was sick. Even if his parents were home, they just left him to it. He'd had to take care of himself while sick since he was nine years old, his parents not wanting to deal with it any further than providing medication, which they would leave in his room for him to manage himself.

But instead, he had Joyce murmuring soft words to him while she combed through his hair with her fingers, alternating with resting her cool hands over his forehead. She had sent Hopper to search the house for anything that may help. Steve hadn't said anything, but he knew there would be little other than the thermometer and maybe some painkillers in the downstairs bathroom. Possibly a can or two of 7-up in the fridge.

Once it had been noticed that he had nothing to help a sick person, Joyce sent Hopper out to do a grocery run, with a list much the same as what Steve had used when he was picking stuff up for everyone else. Steve had been ready to stay on the bathroom floor until he was feeling better, but Joyce wasn't having that. She helped him up and guided him back to bed, tucking him in. She flitted in and out of the room, bouncing between checking on him and looking around the house for something. She had made sure that there was a bucket in easy reach for him.

After Hopper returned, Joyce sat with Steve, encouraging him to take small sips of pedialyte and nibble at a cracker. She rubbed his back soothingly as he fought the return of the nausea, holding his hair back. Once he was done, she took the bucket to rinse it out and brought it back to him, sitting on the edge of his bed to give him comfort, playing with his hair and rubbing his stomach and back to help the cramps. He couldn't help melting into her soft touch, genuinely unable to remember a time when someone had been so gentle with him.

He had almost dozed off when he heard Hopper make a comment about leaving, and expected Joyce to go as well. But he heard the front door slam downstairs, and Joyce stayed with him, still offering comfort in the form of her gentle touch.

"You're not leaving?" He asked, his voice slightly croaky.

"Of course not. You do so much for everyone else, you deserve to have someone take care of you, and I'm not about to leave you alone while you're sick." Joyce replied, not stopping her movements.

"But why? Why do you care?" Usually, he wouldn't be so open to voicing his thoughts, his insecurities. But the sickness and the fever seemed to have removed his filter.

"Because we love you, honey." She said quietly, watching Steve carefully.

He couldn't hold in the tears, her voice, her words were so genuine he believed her. He knew there would be questions to answer once he was feeling better, but for now, he was content to settle down and allow himself to feel loved.

Prompts are open for Steddie/Stommy/platonic Steve + others fics

#steve harrington #joyce byers #chief hopper #jim hopper #stranger things #steve harrington fic #sickfic #stranger things fic #steve harrington has bad parents #atimeofyourwrites #prompt fill

[mysmorgasbordoffantabulosa]

I know tkk were together quite a lot during their solo time, but jikk have been together for majority of the past 10 years. And I am not talking about the official content. Whenever any member took group selfies or videos, they were always the ones always sitting and standing together and tae always far in the corner. There have been so many jikk selfies throughout the years posted by jk himself, they were spotted so many times either alone or with friends. Do you really want to believe that everything was just bh trying to "promote the official ship"?

Them being closer can be termed as friends but why was tae never with jk in these scenarios? People did believe that tkk weren't close bcs of everything they've seen in the past few years. Jk himself said that he didn't talk to anyone except for hobi and jm when they were on that break. Even on jk's graduation jm was the one who was stuck to his side throughout the day. Tae was only on the sidelines with the other members. Tae and jk might've gotten closer during the last year or so but I don't believe that they were as close as jk and jm. Every footage from the past so many years can't be a lie. Tae is rarely seen with jk when they hang out as a group. It's always jk and jm. I don't think that jk and jm are a couple, but I really don't believe that jk and tae are either

"I know tkk were together quite a lot during their solo time"

And from the members own mouths, in 2016, 17,18,19,20 etc…

"but jikk have been together for majority of the past 10 years."

Errr nope

"And I am not talking about the official content. Whenever any member took group selfies or videos, they were always the ones always sitting and standing together and tae always far in the corner."

Not always, but keep believing it. Also lets remember the bit about offical content... you said it not me.

"There have been so many jikk selfies throughout the years posted by jk himself, they were spotted so many times either alone or with friends."

And? Friends hang out all the time.

"Do you really want to believe that everything was just bh trying to "promote the official ship"?!

No, but in offical content there is a push to highlight Brimothy moreso than any other ship. FACT.

"Them being closer can be termed as friends but why was tae never with jk in these scenarios?"

He and Tae have been you just CHOOSE to not acknowledge it, hell in the past 24hrs after much whohar from the fandom about who JK was not with Tae and Hobi after the beach photo, then today Disney docu series drops another episode that proved they were, and has shown that before and during most of lockdown Brian lived alone not in the Dorm (with JK) like was offically stated. Also, notice who in the last two episodes we've seen that TK are practically beside each all the time and Dum dum dum… TK have even shared a car during periods (2017-2019) where we were told by most Brimothys and other ARMY they never did share a car.

"People did believe that tkk weren't close bcs of everything they've seen in the past few years."

Everything they seen from BigHit yes… and also if a closeted celeb wants to hide stuff, they'll keep things on the DOWN LOW…

"Jk himself said that he didn't talk to anyone except for hobi and jm when they were on that break."

OH I must of missed that time when JK (in a WLive) had said he hadn't talked to Brian in a couple of months… you know the same time period he was seen and spent time with Tae, Hobi and the WOOGA Squad… a lot.

"Even on jk's graduation jm was the one who was stuck to his side throughout the day. Tae was only on the sidelines with the other members."

I thought we weren't just looking at BH content? (see I told we'd come back to this) Because there is content and photos that show other sides to that graduation, you just CHOOSE to ignore it. Google is your friend.

"Tae and jk might've gotten closer during the last year or so but I don't believe that they were as close as jk and jm. Every footage from the past so many years can't be a lie."

Bullshit, also again with offical footage?

ALL the members between 2017 and 2019, constantly say that JK and Tae are always together and practically the same person, both is what they liked and how they tought. Additionally, if they needed to contact JK it was best to contact Tae, because it seems they were always together, at least according to the memberr, and that suggests a closeness that other members don't have.

Also, nevermind that 2018 without security or staff JK and Tae went for a meal at a resturant and were photographed by fans. OR that JK and Tae cried TOGETHER about possible disbanding and were both sent the exact SAME TEXT from Yoongi. Forget about the that time when JK and Tae we caught by a Redbull van in Malta, or that they both went on a moonlight walk together.

OR how about the time when Tae won a prize that included a holiday, both he and JK went on said holiday together... ALONE

And most of that is from Non-offical content. But even in offical content there are examples of their closeness, people just choose to ignore it. OR even the muliple times between 2015 and 2020 they were spotted together by K Army, including trips to the cinema, holidays to Jeju and Geoje.

"Tae is rarely seen with jk when they hang out as a group."

If you say so… though that Disney documentary series paints a different picture as do the many bangtan bombs and Bon Vogages & In the Soops.

"It's always jk and jm."

No it's not…, but keep believing it.

"I don't think that jk and jm are a couple, but I really don't believe that jk and tae are either"

And that's fine, I'm not asking you to believe TK is a couple. But to say that JK and Tae have never been close prior to Festa 2022 (the start of the break) is bullshit.

#my asks #taekook #vkook #kookv #tae #JK #jungkook #jeon jungkook #taehyung #kim taehyung #v

[66sharkteeth]

I've been rereading City of Blank before it gets censored, and I just wanted to say I love it just as much as I did when I first started reading 3 years ago, if not more so now that I can see plot elements being set up and foreshadowing, etc. It made me sad to see you on twitter/X talking about how S1 isn't good. I can understand being hard on your own work, I'm like that, but why S1 in particular? I really like it! I could make notes as I go through listing out each and every thing I love in every chapter and I'd be doing it for ages. I've read a ton of web comics before and after finding CoB and yet it remains my favorite even still, including S1. Ignore my question if you want, I don't wanna bother you, but please at least accept the compliments because you deserve it and more, thank you for sharing your story 💜

Hmm, to be clear, it's not like I think season 1 is a steaming pile of crap or anything... I just think it's...nothing special and not particularly good.

I think it's biggest issue is it's pacing. S1 feels like...2 or 3 episodes, all stretched out into 25 episodes. A big part of this is because I was told they wanted s1 to end on Jericho's reveal, and back then, they didn't want first-time creators like myself committing to 50+ ep seasons they weren't sure they could keep up with. And honestly, not a ton happened between the first ep and Jericho's reveal. In hind sight, there was a lot more I could have done. I could have had Rex bond with Des and Lyss more, and just...given Lyss more screen time in general. I know so many people dropped the series because Lyss is introduced and when boy meets girl in media, they assume there's gonna be SOME romance there...but then Lyss just kinda fucks off and is asleep for literally 2/3rds of s1, losing that entire audience. Even if...Lyss didn't end up being the love interest, I wish I kept her around more to at least give people the false hope that she would be so I could have just maintained that huge part of WT's audience LMAO.

But instead, half of s1 was spent on that night on the town with Rex and Des and fighting Claude. These are things that crossed my mind when writing it but... I don't know how else to put it other than back then I just had the mindset of "eh, good enough." And on that note, I think the story just wasn't nearly as personal to me back then. I remember literally telling people like "It's nothing deep. The blanks don't represent anything. Sometimes people just wanna tell a fun story." Which...to be clear, 100% valid to people who wanna tell stories like that! But uh... by the end of s2, that stopped being the case. And this story became very personal to me. It became really impossible for blanks and their struggles to not represent things deeply personal to me. Around end of s2 is when this story started to be a lot more than "just a fun story w/ no deeper meaning" and when I really really started to pour my heart into it, and I LIKE to think it shows, because s3 is hands down where I'm most confident in my writing, compared to s1, when it was just trying to be a safe shonen adventure.

Lastly, going back to s1, I guess I kind of underestimated just how much this would end up meaning to me, and how having a weak-ish s1 would impact me 3 years later in s4. Back then I wasn't thinking about how the audience I get back in s1 is only gonna be a fraction of the audience you maintain in s4. I didn't realize there would be literal discussions on Reddit of comics people dropped and CoB being one of them bc of a lackluster s1. I wasn't thinking about how I would eventually be showing this to agents and publishers and that they might not look past it beyond s1 as just very average, mid content.

I was really just kinda in the mindset of "This is just Canvas 2, and if people like it, they like it!!" I wasn't thinking about how not putting 100% into s1 was going to potentially cost me thousands of readers, dollars, and even potential opportunities.

So TLDR, I don't think s1 is the worst thing ever, but a lack of heart, ambition, certain conditions, and just experience made it very lackluster in my opinion. I wish I could put a huge disclaimer on the series "IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE"

#city of blank #rambles

[brekker-by-brekkerr]

i won't get super into the d*lena vs stelena discourse bc i think everything has been said before but i just finished watching all 8 seasons and I'm trying to rewatch the first 3 again bc they're the only good ones before it gets taken off netflix, and it's genuinely wild to me how the show that starts with d*mon murdering people for fun every episode and doing everything in his power to ruin stefan's life ends with stefan sacrificing himself and d*lena getting together. like narratively it would make sense if d*mon were to make up for all those years of mistreatment by finally stepping aside and letting stefan be happy, and it would also show that he truly loves elena by allowing her to be happy. i hate the whole redemption by death plotline but if it was going to happen it makes so much sense for it to be d*mon. why did stefan need to die, when he spent every episode paying for every mistake he made, paying for everything his brother did, always cleaning up his brother's messes, putting his happiness on the line for his brother. when so many of his "sins" weren't even his fault. how do you spend 8 seasons watching a character put everyone else before himself and then end it with him dying for everyone else?? how is that narratively satisfying at all? the show starts with him trying to finally be happy, trying to put everything in the past and live his life, dreaming of being human, and instead of, i don't know, making him get to be human and finally have that happy life, they were like nah let's kill him and give that life to d*mon who has done nothing to earn it.

(i won't even get into how elena deserves so much better, how perfect stefan and elena are for each other and how them both being humans and living together happily would have been the perfect ending to both their stories)

stars this show makes me mad. the finale was one of the worst things I've ever seen but you know what it's fine in my head season 3 is the end of the show and stelena is canon the end.

#anti damon salvatore #anti delena #stelena #stefan salvatore #anti steroline #anti tvd #also the fact that the show starts with dmon assaulting caroline and ends with them hugging when he never so much as apologised to her is #disgusting

[illyrianhighfaerie]

I'd love to know more about your take on Tamlin. I wouln't say I love him, he's done a lot of stupid shit. But I don't think he's as bad as people make him out to be. He's just a bit dumb sometimes lol.

Ohohoho, this is fun. (Edit after writing: sorry, it got really long, I didn't even get to the part where I talked about the tithe and the rest.)

I guess most of my liking for him comes from the fact that he was a character that was screwed up by S/JM. We all know the bad shit he has done to Feyre, locking her up, slut shaming her, etc, but then I remember Tamlin from the first book and he seems like a completely different character from the rest of the books.

He was retconed SO MANY TIMES.

He did offer to help Feyre to read and write, but that dumb bitch refuses rudely every single time claiming she didn't need his help. Tamlin sent her away when he thought she would be in harms way after he hadn't managed to get her to love him too, but she went UTM out of her free accord. He did try to help Feyre at UTM even after being sliced open with ash wood and bleeding all over the carpet and being week, with her understanding he couldn't do a lot, just for her, a book later, say he didn't help.

People love to bring up the way he acted UTM when than man was being watched and harassed every single second of every day, there wasn't a way for him to help Feyre without being killed or getting her killed too. So he sent Lucien, who he knew would be able to get to her. People forget that Rhysand spent 50 years gaining some sense of thrust from Amarantha to act so freely with his time.

No one talks about how he probably, and very realistically, was also super fucking traumatized by his life and what had happened UTM. He love Feyre. He watched her being demeaned and defiled every day by a man he shared history with. Watched her die. All the while not being able to do anything or he'd risk her safety too. It isn't far off to see why he thought that she was better safe locked up then out there to the shit storm that exists outside. What he did was messed up, but he thought it was the only way.

Then we all know how suddenly he became irredeemable on the later books bc S/JM has the habit of showing you explicitly who you should like and who you should hate. Oh, Rhys? You should like him, look at his tragic past and trauma that made him act like a dick to everyone and feel entitled. Oh, Tamlin? No no, you should hate him, look at his tragic past and trauma that made him act like a dick to everyone and feel entitled.

Rhys has done worse to Feyre than Tamlin, but it is ok because at the end of the day it was all justified. Him using her as a sex symbol was justified bc he did what he had to do. Him hiding her own high-risk pregnancy that would certainly kill her was justified bc he did what he had to. Him locking the IC inside Velaris at the risk it would be exposed if they left was fine bc it was justified. Him threatening to kill Nesta after she revealed to Feyre abt the pregnancy is ok, I guess bc he was angry.

Tamlin and Rhysand have almost done the same things. The difference is, Tamlin's actions weren't justified via a 6 page text block telling detail after detail how his life sucked ass.

#acotar #a court of thorns and roses #tamlin #a court of silver flames #pro tamlin #anti sjm #not really anti the characters bc i still hold them dear to my heart

[you-misunderstood-the-beatles]

this definitely isnt a cry for help....but i lie sometimes

also beware bc its a short story so theres many many details in a lil bit of time...im not sorry

NOT EDITED I JUST THREW THIS TOGETHER...ITS 12:30 AM (no names are real, especially mine lmao)

Hi, I'm Georgie and I'm not sure why the universe decided to do this to me…let me explain. I have spent my whole life trying to figure out where i can be myself naturally and fully but when i finally thought i found that space, i was so insanely wrong that i felt stupid. I found Maeve and Grace at different times. I met Maeve about a month after I found this "special place" and i found Grace around a year into doing it. My special place was a stage. I found love for acting and singing and dancing in front of countless people. Theater was my home, and I cherished it the best I could.

It was a mentally stimulating hobby. I got to focus one one specific thing for months on end and it was amazing…until I met Camille, that is. Camille was the epitome of textbook basic bitch. She had long brown hair, big brown eyes and she had a lot of money, courtesy of being related to the mayor, of all people. She went to a private catholic school and was pretty popular there too, from what I had heard from Maeve, who had also gone to the same school for a really long time.

Maeve and Camille were attached at the hip. And sure, I could be projecting my own insecurities into this but to be honest, Camille has never liked me, and I've known that. For almost a year I was a threat to her only lasting friendship she had ever experienced. Especially since she's a toxic bitch and one of the reasons she hates me beyond reasonable doubt is because at that point I had been the only person ever brave enough to call her out on it.

Camille was absolutely, positively a bad person.

Sure I wasn't as talented or experienced as them but at least I tried…Camille, Maeve and Grace started getting closer after about 4 months of me being friends with Grace. Grace had been one of my main confidants. She listened when I told her about my family problems or friendly problems, and I did the same for her. We trusted each other…or so I thought. After we finished with our spring show for the year we had a party where the entire cast was invited. A 'cast party' dare I say…

At this cast party we had nearly the whole cast of the show there, including Maeve, Grace and the one Bitch to rule all Bitches, Camille. I avoided them, for the most part, I had other friends i was allowed to hang out with. One of them being a girl named Livvy. She was sweet and she was good at singing and acting and being a friend. She was good. She was younger than me but so were Maeve, Grace and Camille so what's new?

Livvy was quiet unless with friends, which made me glad to be considered one of hers because I got to know the true Livvy… Sure she could let her slightly chaotic nature show in dramatic bursts but i enjoyed that about her. Livvy reminded me of Camille if she was a good friend or person. Livvy listened but we weren't super close, not like how I was with Maeve or Grace but we were good together, we contrated perfectly and our naturally polite personalities didn't ever clash which was relieveing.

Another girl I'm friends with who was there is Lilly. Her and Livvy had been friends since they were 3. They talk about it a lot, I don't mind it though. It's fun getting to hear about things they've enjoyed doing together for years! It just sometimes makes me sad that I never get close enough to people for them to enjoy my presence or if we do get close enough something, or someone, happens and they don't care anymore. Here's where the story comes in more.

There's another girl to introduce though…her name is Jaqueline. She's small and young and blonde and talented but, just like Camille, she's an asshole.And just like Camille, she hides her bitchyness with talent and sweet talking the older people in her life to get what she wants. Oh and I forgot to add…both Camille and Jaqueline got leads…

I got to the cast party so so so excited to finally get to hang out with Maeve without Camille watching like a hawk but sadly Camille was there, fortunately she was hanging around Jaqueline and a girl named Laila who follows her around everywhere anyway. I finally was able to chill with Maeve and Grace they started walking away or acting like I wasn't even there…shitty thing to do, I know. But it isn't like I need their attention…they are just some of my best friends I have so of course i wanted to hang out with them.

When everyone left the party me and my family were the last ones to leave, like always, and when we had gotten home i got a call from Maeve and it went something like this: "Hey, Georgie! Me and Grace just found out we're cousins!!!" "Uhm, what?" "Me and Grace are fourth cousins!!" "Look, that sounds great but I have a question for you…" "yeah sure, what is it?" "I heard you and grace talking about having a sleepover earlier, is she staying at your house tonight?" "Yeah! why?" "oh, no reason…congratulations on finding out you guys are cousins i guess but i just got home and im exhausted…im gonna go." "ok byeeee"

They met because of me. I created this mess. I've been telling Maeve we should hang out here and there and she's always "busy" but as soon as her and Grace click they're having sleepovers? Bullshit. Absolute bullshit.

Maeve is the one who has said over and over for more than a year that if she didn't have me she wouldn't know what she would do…and then she ignores me on purpose and treats me like I'm nothing but gum on the bottom of her shoe….

Why me? Why make me go through so much just for me to regret every last desicion I've ever made…? Why?

I don't even know how to recover from this stab straight to the heart…what do I do? I've only ever turned to Maeve and Grace for my problems…what do I do now?

#teenage problemssss

[feelbokkie]

Please Don't Care About Me, It's Okay

☀️Feelbokkie M.list☀️

**Requested**

Hello! How are you? :)

I was wondering if you could a request with chan or changbin 8, 9, 14 and 24 from the hurt/comfort prompt list, where the reader is overwhelmed by negative emotions and tries really hard to not cry because they hate crying in front of others due to some bad experiences (like me✌🏽).

Ofc no rush and take all the time you need☺️

Byeeee ;)

genre: hurt/comfort, angst, fluff

pov: 2nd person

description: After going public with your relationship with Chan, you started receiving hate. You're good at holding in but, you can't bottle it in forever. (Title is a song lyric from DLC) (unedited)

pairing: bf!chan x reader

warnings: swearing, death threats

word count: 1,476

a/n: as someone who HATES crying in front of ppl bc of the trauma from my dad who, among many things, yelled at me for crying when I was 12 because my grandma died, this hit really close to home 🙃

©feelbokkie (2023) — all rights reserved. reposting/modification of any kind is not tolerated.

You knew when you started dating Chan that your relationship would go through challenges. The biggest of them being the fan base. You knew that the fandom as a whole was relatively nice, but there were that subgroup of fans, if you could even call them that, who give Stays a bad name.

The two of you weren't planning on announcing your relationship at first for that reason. But when an opportunity arose for you to join Chan on tour, you had no choice. You didn't want to have to spend the few months you were traveling the world with him having to hide in hotel rooms or watching your backs so you two announced it before you left.

Despite all the precautions you took before announcing your relationship, Stay managed to find your social media accounts and even your job. Although, your job was easy enough to find. You worked as a journalist in the music industry. Once they found your name, everything else came easy to them. How they managed to find out your name was a mystery.

Chan didn't know the extent of how bad the harassment you were getting was. You kept it a secret from him, he had enough to deal with touring and doing interviews. For some reason, you couldn't stop yourself from reading the comments and dms you were getting. People were even going as far as to comment on the articles that your company had uploaded, forcing them to take off your contact information and disabling the comments. Even then, your email and work phone number had already been leaked. Everything turned what was supposed to be a blissful few months into a nightmare. Your only peaceful days were the ones where Chan had a day off or when you and all of Stray Kids would bond, forcing you to unplug from all of your devices.

Everyone was oblivious to the hate your were receiving, and you were kind of happy. The last thing you wanted was to break down and cry in front of them. You hated being that vulnerable in front of others, especially your boyfriend. You don't want them to chastise you for it. You knew they wouldn't, deep down, but years of surrounding yourself with people who would mock or belittle you for showing our emotions have taught you it's safer to just keep everything inside.

You and the boys stood off the side of the airport terminal, finally home from 4 months of traveling. Despite having done this several time throughout the tour, you were nervous for what awaited you on the other side of the gate. You could hear fans screaming the boys' names. All of them had warned you that Korean Stays were more intense than international Stays when it came to airport arrivals. They spent the last few days of the tour trying to mentally prepare you. They told you that you how, unlike other countries, there won't be any barriers between you and the fans. Chan even bought you noise canceling headphones to help drown out the fans. It wasn't just that they were loud, some of them were also hateful and would use the opportunity to say whatever they wanted.

“You’re safe here. I won’t let anything happen to you.” Chan tries to reassure you, squeezing your hand.

You and Chan were the last ones to leave the terminal, Chan wanted to make sure the boys made it to the vans safely. He gripped your hand tightly as you two walked through the mob. You're thankful for the headphones. They're drowning out all the screams, it makes you feel like you're in a music video. You try to stay close to Chan as you make your way through the mob. Two security guards surround both of you, trying their best to shield you from the mayhem. All their efforts can't stop the hands you feel pushing and pulling at you.

Thud!

A fan bumps into you hard, or maybe they pushed you, sending you to the floor and effectively separating you from Chan and knocking your headphones off. You're suddenly surrounded by screaming fans, many of which were verbally attacking you.

"Stay away from Bang Chan!"

"You're so ugly!"

"You should just kill yourself!"

"You don't deserve him!"

The screams are suddenly replaced by music as Chan broke his way into the crowd and shoved his headphones on your head. He helps you stand up and tries to lead you out of the crowd, keeping a stronger grip on you than he did before. Eventually a security guard manages to break up the crowd and rushes to get you both to the van. Chan gently shoves you in first before turning and sharing a disappointed, angry look with the fans, and climbing in after you.

You climb past Jisung, Minho, and Felix to the back of the van before taking off the headphones. Your hands are visibly shaking and you try to take deep breaths to calm down your heart rate. Do no cry.

"What happened?" Jisung asks, turning around in his seat to face you, eyes wide.

"Oh my God, someone already uploaded it." Felix says as Chan climbs towards the back.

Once he's seated, he turns to you and starts rolling up your sleeves checking to see if you got hurt.

"Y/N, are you okay?" Minho asks softly. The three of them watched everything in horror when you and Chan were trying to get to the van. They weren't sure what happened, all they saw was a small crowd form and you and Chan appear from it a few minutes later. Felix was in the process of showing them the videos.

"Y-yeah, I'm fine. A little banged and shaken up, but I'm fine." You squeak.

Everything was not fine. Sure, you had a few scrapes and you were going to wake up sore with bruises, but it was so much worse than that. It was one thing to read all those things being said about you online. It was a whole different story to hear them being directed at you. And hearing them being replayed over again from Felix's phone was pushing you over the edge. You bite your tongue to keep yourself from crying.

"Felix, shut that off." Chan says. He was now checking your face and head for any signs of injury. Anger was radiating off of him, but he remained calm as he checked you.

"Sorry, hyung," He mutters, immediately shutting his phone off and shoving it in his pocket.

Chan presses a kiss into your temple once he's done checking you over. You feel a tear escape from your eye.

"Fuck!" You whisper to yourself, wiping the tears that were now slowly but falling down your face. You turn away from Chan and aggressively wipe your face. You didn't want him to see you cry.

“Hey, it’s okay to cry.” He says softly, rubbing your back.

"I-I'm not. There's just something in my eye. It's pretty dusty back here." You mumble, crying harder. The floodgates opened and everything you were repressing from the past four months, along with all the pain you felt from today, were coming out. You quickly pull down your sleeves and cover your mouth, effectively muffling your sobs.

“You don’t have to be so brave with me.” Chan humms rubbing your back more.

He knows you have trouble expressing your emotions and how much you hate crying in front of others. He tries to look out for little signs to make sure you're not hiding anything. He does his best to reassure you that you and your emotions, no matter how big or small, are a burden to him. And yet, you still can't help but hide.

"I'm sorry. I-I just can't keep it in anymore. I'm just overwhelmed from what just happened and the past few months." You blubber quietly. Jisung, Minho, and Felix put their headphones on a while ago to give you your privacy.

"The past few months?" He questions. You take a shaky breath, still looking away from Chan.

"It's n-nothing," You silently curse yourself for letting that bit of information slip.

"Have...have people been harassing you online this entire time?" He asks softly, scooting closer to you. Still looking away you nod at him. His hand stops moving on your back as he slowly balls up his fist.

“Hey, look at me," He gently pulls your face towards him, "you can’t keep it bottled up forever. You don't have to hide from me--especially from me.” He pulls your head onto his shoulder and gently strokes your side.

"I-I know, I just--"

"I know why you don't but I'm just reminding you that you're okay to let your guard down with me, okay? Rest, we have a while before we're home."

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[bisolationist]

Alr so im the confused anon lol.

Idk where to start with this tbh.

The only thing i feel is guilt and shame.

Like i feel guilty because i feel like im not allowed to struggle with my sexualjty. People, even people in LGB spaces, say that women fake being bi for attention, for kweer points, for male gaze etc etc..

So like I feel I'm not allowed to struggle with my sexuality sinec it's seen as something desirable by people like it's smth people want.

And also I'm not even sure If I'm bi and like people say oh everyone's a little bit bi, oh it's normal for girls to Kiss bla bla. And I'm scared to liek mention my doubts out loud bc then other women will take it as an opportunity to be like ha see bi women just call themselves bi for attention but won't eat pussy or whatever.

So like I don't want you to think I'm like trying to make bi people look bad.

I just like idk I'm just so fuxkinf confused. When I was a kid I genuinely thought like here's the thing for me I thought liking men and women was the default I didn't know other people felt differently.

But at the same time I find myself like leaning more towards a relationship with men. Let me just preface this by saying that I spent the first 18 Years of my life in a country where being gay is illegal (no im not saying gay is bi im just saying being attracted to the same sex is illegal) so jts just really fucking hard for me to see myself having a relationship w a woman that is not friendship

And like I just feel like a creepy monster whenever I find aw woman attractive. Idk I just feel guilty.

There's so many other things I wanna say but I'm scared other people on here will use my doubts as ammo against bi people.

I just honestly genuinely wish I was a normal girl with 0 doubts and no conflicting feelings about my sexuality. I don't wanna be like this. I don't even know what I'm supposed to feel I feel so much shame but then I feel like im overreacting at the same time

So, I get a lot of anons dealing with guilt or shame. It's something I see expressed constantly about bisexuality. And I get it, I do. But on a personal level, I don't know what to say, because I never experienced this personally. I never experienced guilt much less shame for being same-sex attracted, and although it was hard when discovered I was bi and not gay, even then those emotions weren't in play. That doesn't mean I didn't experience people trying to shame me, but that's different. That's external. It never took root inside of me.

I'm not saying this as a brag or anything. I'm just trying to acknowledge it's not part of MY experience, so I can only give advice that's from an external point of view.

I guess this does get to my thoughts though. Just because you feel shame doesn't mean you're right to. Just because people shame you doesn't mean they're right to.

People saying that women are bi for attention, for for the male gaze, or because they're greedy, etc. aren't justified and in fact they are examples of how people have prejudice against bisexuals. I know it's hard but there's no reason to internalize the hatred of others.

In terms of you feeling like you can't struggle with your sexuality, well, of course you are. That's a personal journey everyone of all orientations is entitled to if that's what's happening to them. You are struggling - what sense does it make to tell you you can't? Even heterosexuals are entitled to struggle with aspects of their sexuality they can't get around.

Furthermore, there's no reality in which bisexuality is actually desired. Bisexuality in women is fetishized, and bisexuality in general is used as a ploy/cover by homophobes - TRAs and conversion therapists. But if you actually look at the actions of those groups and how they treat bisexuals you can see bisexuality is not actually respected or treated well, much less actually desired. It's only a rhetorical device they are willing to use against homosexual people in their goal of forcing heterosexuality upon everyone. Even outside of that, bisexuality is not desired anywhere. Where are bisexuals wanted and encouraged? Most homosexual people want other homosexuals only; most heterosexuals actively hate bisexuals (and again, fetishization does not count as desire). And that can be a hard pill to swallow on its own, and I think that's WHY guilt and shame are so prevalent among bisexual people. Because whatever messages are out there, we don't understand we're not wanted - I don't think it's a coincidence you feel like you want to be "normal".

People that say "everyone is a little bit bi" are homophobes and also wrong. Most people are not a little bit bi and do not experience any bit of same-sex attraction. Homosexuals do not experience other-sex attraction. People say this with their own agendas but its not true.

"And like I just feel like a creepy monster whenever I find aw woman attractive. Idk I just feel guilty." this is a very common feeling for both bisexual people and homosexual people. We are made to feel predatory and wrong in our same-sex attraction, but of course that itself is incalculated by homophobia, and if you grew up in a very homophobic country then it's not at all surprising this might be rooted pretty firmly within you.

I unfortunately can't say magic words that will make everything better. Shame and cultural indoctrination are like being tangled in barbed wire, and you have to do the job of pulling it off yourself, bit by bit. The important bits are learning that A) it's there and B) it doesn't have to be and you don't deserve it.

#I hope this helped somehow #unfortunately I feel I probably didn't say anything new #there's a world of difference between what you know and what you can INTERNALIZE #and I can't help you with the latter :(

[faggotmox]

ranger vents abt the doctor's office under the cut

there was something truly unhinged abt a thing that happened today.

the last primary care appointment i had went really bad, my nurse practitioner so very horrible to me. i ended up very nonverbal during the appointment bc she was so horrible to me, she refuses to treat me like im autistic. when i bring up concern abt certain things she completely shut it down, blames it on me, ect. (as if its my fault my t shot routine is disrupted by her not sending my t script to my pharmacy. she often takes a week to refill my t, & often doesn't send or write the script for needles/syringes). anyways, the point is last time i saw this lady i was non-verbal, shaking, very negative body language, ect.

so today i went to my therapy appointment which is in the same clinic. as my therapist was walking me out, my np came out of her office & cornered me in the hallway. she was smiling at me all sweet & said, i fuckin kid you not, this bitch said to me "you look a lot better than the last time i saw you. are you feeling better?"

miss ma'am, i just spent a week immobile bc you refuse to do anything abt my autoimmune disorder, my joint damage/pain, & muscle issues. i can "look better" bc i wasn't seeing her & i wasn't *AFRAID* bc i wasn't supposed to see her. my entire demeanor changed when she started talking to me. i told her "im feeling a little bit better. but then again therapy with [therapist name] always makes me feel a little better." & she just...it just went right over her head.

the last time i was seeing her she told me she needed to give me "tough love" basically bc i ask for the same things over & over & she does nothing abt them so i come off as whiny & like im refusing to fix my own issues (as iff i didn't start working out, wearing inserts in my shoes, eating better, working on my posture, going to therapy, ect isn't trying to remedy or lessen some of my issues).

like what fucking medical professional thinks they need to give their disabled, under-serviced, abuse survivor patient "TOUGH LOVE"

for years & god damn years i was written off for all manner of reasons by medical professionals. it turns out im not just a fat, lazy pieace of trash & that's not the reason my back hurts. my motherfucking back hurts bc i have a very severe, special form of arthritis mixed with bursitis. in high school i "hurt" my back to the point i legit could not love over five times, each time i was just told i was too fat & needed to exercise. i lost over 100 pounds, worked out for my disibities, & protected my back. IT DID LITERALLY NOTHING TO RELIEVE ANY SYMPTIONS . what tough love do i need? when the world has been tough on me since day one.

the amount of "rare" issues ive had SINCE BIRTH (i was born with a literal one in a million skin disease that is a congenital birth defect except for IN ME THE WEIRD CASE where it was a mutation & there weren't genetic markers for the disease even though i had one of the most documented cases of the disease. i was born autistic & waved every single autistic red flag including the big one: delayed speech. the stomach issues i always had that were bc im gluten & soy intolerant that were again just blamed on my being fat & eating badly. theres so many examples i can keep going) is staggering & the majority of it has been ignored or misdiagnosed.

i just don't think i, or anyone else, deserve to get "tough love" from thier medical professional. ive had tough love all my fuckign life & its whats killing me. idk im just ranting now but i just dont understand how these fucking people can & are allowed to get away with literal abuse. i came from a truly abusive clinic, & while this new one isn't nearly as bad it's still abusive. my np is still abusing me by refusing to believe me & take care of me in a timely manner. my pain scale maxes out in the regular basis. i was standing at work today on only my right leg bc my left knee was so, so fucking painful i couldn't put pressure on it. when my move you can hear pops & cracks, & they dont stop. i just moive my shoulder & it makes loud sounds.

but yeah i just need to do more or whatever. im just a lazy piece of trash & my physical & mental state are just my fault. i wish i could break her legs & tell her to just keep walking. i wish i could get her career ruined bc she, & everyone else like her, is ruining my life. if i kill myself some day it wil, without a doubt, be a result of these things. i've lived my life for over twenty five year begging & pleading for help bc im hurting so fucking much. i used to pray that i'd have to be put in a wheelchair.

why is it okay for people to tell me live like this when they have the power to help? every medical professional ive ever had deserves to live a month in my life. in constant pain & nausea, unable to eat or sleep right, unable to do things normal folks can do. i hope & pray these people also wish for death. i hope they know my pain bc i fucking hate them & they deserve the horrible life i live.

#very negative #rant #cw mentions of abuse #cw mental illness #cw suicidal

[loriane-elmuerto]

give meeee pre-relationship + sarai/din AND domestic life + dom/carlos pls <333

Ship questions

Sarai x Mando

1. How did they first meet?

Back in 8 ABY, Mando was out on a job in the Outer Rim hunting down a criminal gang leader who had kidnapped an important political figure to sell off into slavery. He managed to hunt down the criminal and the politician, but he discovered there was another prisoner as well, a relatively unknown smuggler and gambler with a rather impressive bounty on her head in the underworld, so he thought it would be a great idea to bring her in. She wasn't all too happy about it and after leaving a literal dent in his chestplate from a simple punch, they agreed that she'll work with him until her bounty is paid off.

2. What was their first impression of each other?

Less than great. Din thought she was some unlucky hotshot upstart that pissed off the wrong people at the wrong time, while Sarai thought he was yet another bounty hunter who has taken one too many cues from Boba Fett. Basically, they weren't impressed.

3. Did any of their friends or family want them to get together?

Oh yeah. OH YEAH. The people they encountered (such as Greef, Cara, Cobb, and Kuiil) saw how well they worked together as a pair and how they protected the kid with their lives. Some even already thought they were a pair and were just really good at hiding it.

4. Who felt romantic feelings first?

I gotta say, it was definitely Mando. This guy discovered that he has a weakness for kids and good treatment of kids when he saw how motherly Sarai acted towards Grogu since day 1. That, and her kindness towards people also turned from an annoyance to a trait he admired.

5. Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

Oh both of them 🤡🤡🤡 Mando didn't want to get attached because he knew they were working only temporarily and that their relationship would've just been used against him eventually, while Sarai resisted because of her upbringing and because she had never known what loves feels like. The only example she had was her sister Aminata, who spent 10 years separated from the love of her life and showed their happiness for like. 5 seconds.

6. If you had told one of them that the other would be their soulmate, what would they think?

Mando would've just walked away and Sarai would've laughed in your face.

7. What would their lives be like if they had never met?

For Mando it's easier to say bc...... The show events would happen as usual

For Sarai I believe the galaxy would've given a very different path of life - she'd most likely rejoin the New Republic as a Rebel fighter, running jobs as Ghost Storm once again. And I don't think she would've become a Jedi Knight.

Dom x Carlos

1. If they get married, who proposes?

Oh, Carlos absolutely. Man has been whipped since Racoon City.

2. What’s the wedding like? Who attends?

The wedding happens in 2004, and it's very very private in a courthouse, where only the closest of their friends attended. Those two didn't want any attention, so only Chris, Jill, and Dom's close friend from RPD Regina were the witnesses. Afterwards they had a quick photoshoot, a lunch, and called it a day.

3. How many kids do they have, if any? What are they like?

Three kids + one adopted from the Dimitrescu castle! Their youngest is a very curious bean that doesn't know bounds and is always getting involved in some activities with her parents or her sisters. The middle one is the more artistic child who joins a musical school. She's also the one who has the biggest opinion of things, much to the surprise of her parents. The oldest one is the negotiator and daddy's daughter, she has Carlos wrapped around her little fingers. Contrary to popular belief, she's not the "serious" one or anything, that's the youngest kid. This one has a silver tongue and a wicked sense of humor.

Their adoptive daughter Alona is a former maid of Alcina who survives the horrors of the village and gets adopted into the Oliveira family after everything. She's rather shy and more closed off, used to a completely different lifestyle, but she does take a liking to the family, especially the kids. Dominique and Carlos fought hard to keep her happy and safe from the hostile world.

4. Do they have any pets?

Nope! Though they sometimes wish they do. They tried to raise some less maintenance requiring pets to teach some responsibility into their kids, but their lifestyle didn't leave much room for that.

5. Who’s the stricter parent?

Definitely Dominique. Carlos is the one who goes easy and gives in much easily if his girls blink those pretty brown eyes, coupled with some tears, whereas Dominique sees right through them. She recognizes those patterns and she won't be fooled so easily. Carlos, if he could, would spoil them rotten, especially considering his own upbringing. Dom is a little different.

6. Who worries the most?

I'd say also Dominique? She's used to holding all four corners of the house, keeping tabs on everything, so long-term assignments that take her away from home are always stress-inducing for her. She fully trusts Carlos and knows he will do the right thing, but that's just who she is.

7. Who kills the bugs in the house?

Both of them!

8. How do they celebrate holidays?

They always try to create a memorable experience each year for their kids, no matter the circumstances. They also make it a rule to always invite their friends and always have a day off, especially on Christmas. Other holidays are more flexible, but Christmas? You better be ready for that invite, it's sacred to them.

9. Who’s more likely to convince the other to come back to sleep in the morning?

Carlos. Dominique is used to the early bird regime, and her marriage with Sam didn't change much, considering they were both police officers. Carlos is the type of person to stay in a little longer in the morning, and he'll make sure his lovely wife is right there by his side, because she deserves the extra rest after everything she does for the world.

10. Who’s the better cook?

Dominique! Girl is used to making food for herself and others, this doesn't change in this relationship as well. Carlos acts as the support by helping with side tasks and little jokes that make the process much more fun.

11. Who likes to dance?

CARLOS. Look at that man and tell me he doesn't like to dance. Don't get me wrong, Dom has the moves too, but Carlos lives for that stuff. One of the kids' best memories are secretly watching their parents dancing to Frank Sinatra in the middle of the living room as Carlos sang to Dominique.

#oc: sarai clarmonte #sarai x mando #oc: dominique thorne #dominique x carlos #this has been so fun to think about omg #thank you aj!!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰 #ask meme

[justashamwithwastedpotential]

OCCE - Sol Overview

Masterpost

So I talked about her briefly when I posted those portraits, but Sol was the first OC I ever made (not that I knew what an OC was at the time)

She's from Pokemon bc I spent my entire childhood tearing through the pokemon adventure mangas and eventually started daydreaming about it. None of this was ever written down anywhere btw so have a fun recollection of my memories.

Sol is what's known in pokemon as an Aura Wielder. It seems pretty self explanatory, but Aura Wielders are able to sense and manipulate the energy of all living things. This allows for several neat abilities like the power to form barriers and projectiles, resistance to certain frequencies, the ability to transfer energy to others, sense one's surroundings, and telepathy with other beings sensitive to aura abilities.

If you're unfamiliar with pokemon, the main character Ash Ketchum also canonically has this ability and it's typically how Sol communicates with him (especially initially bc Ash didn't know sign language)

Sol is also a child of the Viridian Forest, which is a concept from the manga where every 10 years the Great Spirit of the Forest blesses a child born in the forest with the ability to read the minds and memories of pokemon, heal them, and use a small degree of telekinesis (because why not. I was 8. Rules don't exist)

Story

Sol woke up near Pallet Town injured with a bout of amnesia where Ash found her while he was out training for the Indigo League.

After getting her help, Sol stayed with Delia (Ash's mom) and began helping out around Professor Oak's lab while she recovered. After a while, Professor Oak eventually gifted Sol with a mysterious egg that hatched into a Ralts.(He hoped that Ralts natural ability to feel its trainers' emotions would help cheer Sol up after she became frustrated with her lack of progress regarding her lost memories.)

After Ash returned from venturing across the Johto region and Team Rocket attacked the lab stealing all the pokemon (as they do episodically), Ralts evolved into a Kirlia and was able to use its psychic powers to free the pokemon.

After Ash declared he would be traveling to the Hoenn region, Professor Oak suggested Sol go with him to see if anything on their adventures could help respark her memory. 

Sol became pretty good at battling and eventually gained a team consisting of Gardevoir, Luxray, Sableye, Dragonair, Charizard, and Starmie.

She continued traveling with Ash up until the end of the Kalos League when Sol decided she finally had enough confidence to travel on her own and wanted to try to take on the gym challenges in Kanto and Johto.

Professor Oak went with Sol to Johto initially on his way to the Goldenrod radio tower where he regularly hosted his own show when they met a boy named Gold. Gold claimed to have had a newborn pokemon stolen from his grandparents' day care just down the road, and that the thief took off towards Violet City.

Plot shenanigans ensue and through the power of rivalry and friendship the Sol, Gold, and the thief, named Silver become friends (Silver a bit more begrudgingly than the first two) I have no more details on this part. That's all I remember. I think it just follows the plot of HeartGold/SoulSilver from that point forward.

If there was some sort of resolution to the amnesia thing I don't remember it (oh irony). It was maybe a failed teleportation attempt? And parents didn't exist? Idk. I didn't understand how kids came into fruition then so it's entirely possible I just pictured Sol spawning into the world from a tree.

If you want some sort of closure then take comfort in the fact that Sol made so many new memories that they felt that the ones they lost weren't nearly as important anymore.

Also that Sol, Gold, and Silver start dating when they're older. Courtesy of 12 year old me having a crush?(squish is probably more accurate) on Silver, but also shipping him with Gold and accidentally stumbling across the concept of polyamory through trying to figure out which ship to go with.

Example of my internal monolog:

Me (projecting my feelings onto my ocs as you do): I really like Gold x Silver, but also I want to date Silver

Also me: Okay, but you also like Gold.

Me: Yeah, but not as much as Silver

Also me: But why don't they all just date each other? Problem solved!

Me: I don't think that's a thing

Also me: Why not?

Me: Idk. I just don't think that's a thing

Also me: But you're making it up. What does it matter? None of it's real. No one can stop you.

Me: Good point.

Now

Part 2 for the Stardew Bit

#imagine my surprise later in life when I learn that polyamory was a thing #and it was 'bad' just like all other lgbtq+ stuff #whoops #anyways #i was really fighting that 10 image limit but I got their backstory #now time for fun stardew antics #oc crossover #sol ketchum

[the-anxiety-academy]

Headcannons for Fiona Fischoeder (my oc)

Basically just a hyperfixation shitpost

A shock to no one, Fiona is pampered and spoiled. Like spoiled to the next level, any child of Felix would have to be

When she was a baby/young child she was dressed up in big, puffy princess dresses and tiaras by her father, who thought she was just the most darnest thing.

Fiona didn't like the itchy fabric and the thickness of the outfits, as it overstimed her, but she did enjoy the attention it got her so she put up with it

She always loved being center of attention whether it be in her Princess dress or preforming on stage

She went to a preforming arts school until the events of s4 when Felix had spent all of his inheritance and had to work with her uncle Calvin

Fiona was 13 when she had to be sent to public school (Wagstaff) because of this and she HATED it with every fiber of her body. She was no longer surrounded by posh kids who study art but with commoner 'peasants', as she called them.

She literally thought she was gonna contract the black death or smthin

She was a spectical in her new school, new kids weren't all that common especially not rich ones

Tammy obviously jumped on this as soon as she could, trying to be besties with the new rich girl but it didn't exactly work for her

See Tammy is richer than most kids in her class but she still isn't rich rich, she is only lower-middle class while Fiona is high class

And for that reason, Fiona kinda saw Tammy as a pest and beneath her, she wasn't at all impressed by the girls money

She didn't like most of the kids bc she didn't think they are up to her standards

But the one unlikely friend she made was Louise

Despite their different upbringings and the 4 year age difference, Louise and Fiona were peas in a pod

Louise and Fiona absolutely clicked from the first time they met, they matched each others energy so well

See Fiona, like her other relatives, has a habit of committing crime. Nothing major just small things that kids think are big deals

They definitely go smash mirrors together when one or both of them is upset

Fiona is kinda like a second older sister who Louise can relate to

The two definitely cause trouble to all those around them, especially Mr. Frond

Moving on to her family life

She's a daddy's girl obviously

You can't tell me if felix had a child he wouldn't treat them like an absolute baby. It doesn't matter how old they get they'll still be his little baby. Fiona is a pure example of this.

He definitely felt guilty for putting her in public school

He is so protective of her it's insane

Fiona and Calvin have a confusing relationship but that's pretty standard with even knowing the man

They don't have a typical uncle and neice relationship it's more like "Oh you're here? Okay". Idk how to explain it other than that, they just kinda tolerate each other

Don't get me wrong they definitely love each other they're family after all but the Fischoeders aren't normal full stop so

But one thing they do have in common is their love for sharks. Fiona loves how pretty they look and finds them cool and they bond over that

They definitely have family outings to the sea on one of their many boats

She also LOVES racoons

Like she's literally in love with them, they're her fav animal along with sharks

She and Linda will bond over the racoons in the alley

Fiona loves Litte King Trashmouth, she thinks they have a bond they don't but she likes to believe they do

Felix definitely doesn't like her around them, he thinks they're dirty and will give her a disease

But she doesn't listen, she pretends to tho

I literally have soo many more hcs for this girl but I'd be here all day

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