#bc i didnt think i was continuing the post

[starry-bi-sky]

Dead on Main Childhood Friends Memes

Because now that I've gotten the hang of making au memes, i can't stop.

#dpxdc #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #dpxdc memes #dead on main #i keep calling this ship undead on main #childhood friends au #jason not believing that danny's gonna kill the joker is not only one of the funnier things i've come up with for this au but ALSO #my attempt at fixing that little plothole i made in the first post with danny outright stating his intentions about the joker #bc i didnt think i was continuing the post #it was mostly a prompt LMAO #sam's list is her internalized misogyny hypocrisy performative activism entitlement and her general refusal to accept that she can be wrong #remember how sam and danny hated each other in the beginning? yeah thats why #like lbfr sam's parents canonically spoiled her that has GOT to have affected her views on everything despite how she likes to act otherwis #hey look these memes have more variety than my clone danny ones #jason and danny are paralleling each other with their conspiracy boards btw #and if i could make an animatic of this au it would be with the song 'Hollow Moon' by. you guessed it. the crane wives

[lavenoon]

Enjoying the sunlight

Favored Moon a bit in my recent (non Eclipse) art, so before I leave on my trip have a bit of Sun <3

#post let luce #dcamv #fnaf sun #my art #i like putting the dca in dresses have you noticed #also bc i felt like the jester outfit would kinda. idk. would they continue wearing that outside of the plex? #and then i struggled to think of like. sweatpants and a shirt? #also didnt like it #until i remembered dresses exist and just delightedly went with that #anyways yes enjoy hehe #will be my last art piece for at least a week #sweats. ill miss art #except right after work starts up again oop #so yeah stuff will be a lot slower again sorry #for now have this <3

[skunkes]

i may be stupid

#(but im not sure) #a doodley #i am not going to lie to you guys i am insanely scared of anti depressants. and adjacent medication. #first of all like ive said i dont think i need them #im doing way better than last yr(s) despite being in the same circumstances. i did in fact will my brain to get it together. #i told my doctor i think my issues are a result of my environment and that is what i think it is. #i dont think meds cld help change my innate personality flaws #second of all sorry but my ****** is all i have i cant risk losing it to the side effects #idk! like. idk. you guys really dont get it it really is just laziness for me #since i was a kid i just didnt have Goals and its continued to my detriment #i was also raised to doubt all my decisions so here we are #im sure my friends think im lazy bc what ive described to them IS laziness #im like the only person i know without hashtag goals and life motivation...and all my friends have mental health stuff too #so its not that...! its personality. its laziness #its literally like the ''my son is 35 and refuses to get a job and does nothing all day'' reddit posts #with ''he's not depressed he's lazy you should just kick him out and refuse to keep providing for him'' comments and all

[highfunctioningfleshrule63]

hey, your video compilation of 4chan post about shield is a great ressource for fandom psychology. Interesting to see another user who lurk the wrestling board and use tumblr. Did you ever work on compilation of the tumblr fandom during the peak of the shield era ? I did not research it yet. xoxo

glad someone liked that video, only in times when im super fixated on something will i end up searching through the 4chan archives for more content...unfortunately 4chan vernacular tends to get a laugh out of me (if it isnt absolute lowtier content, had to scrape through a lot of that). the shield stuff i tried to get from when it was at its peak and you'll see posts on there from 2013+, but i also got modern stuff now bc the boardspeak actually changed with it.

ironically it is way easier to deepdive and compile stuff from 4chan bc it has a much better archival system than tumblr; ive also looked for lots of old stuff on deviantart due to the crossover but i found that it has a pretty shitty way of archiving/sorting older posts (just like on here. ive been on tumblr since 13 so i know what sorts of areas to look for, but its still very hard to find it directly on here. i havent spent as much time as i did getting those posts for that video so i can try harder.)

fandom psychology is interesting to me too so im happy you saw my video with that angle. ive collected lots of old shield fangirl content off of sites like weheartit and pinterest (ironically those are often better at keeping images up for longer periods of time) too but i didnt know if i should make a comp, maybe i will. i also looked through random forums and places like lolcow dot farms (which only really granted one of the screenshots...not too much discussion over there for good or bad. i was hoping to find discussion abt shieldfangirls or wrestling rpf but surprisingly they didnt think to make a "point and laugh" thread abt those topics). i find it interesting how much shieldrelated psychosis was on both sides of the spectrum (tumblr vs 4chan)....i could talk more on it but im a little brainless and sleep deprived rn

heres some extras i had that didnt make the cut (plus just some of my favorites):

and these were from a thread talking abt the modern stereotypical tumblr wrestling fan (specifically talking abt aedubs young bucks fans/the elite fans)

(*fangirl in this is a term im using loosely of course)

#surprisingly there is actually LESS shield blingees than dx or cm punk blingees. that at least i could find. theres a large number of #desktop background edits from deviantart and content like the fanfic edits/“outfits i would wear to meet the shield”/ogflowercrown phone bg #collages. and the like. i could compile all this shit i just didnt think it mattered to anyone LOL #sorry for the long post everyone #the most interesting thing abt the shields hayday and eventual fall on 4chan was 1) how many guys unironically loved seth up until he #“turned shoot faggot”/or the first knee injury. he was a fan favorite on there even with the contrarian posters saying otherwise (most of #4chan is just being. the contrarian so that tracks). and 2) the huge divide between guys who hated ambrose (usually bc he was over with #female fans...theres still that divide with how straight men dont understand favs among women. also goes along w my noted difference in fav #among queer men/women etc etc - but they would mask this by saying they hated that he was a jobber (true) or his inring technique was slopp #) and guys who adored ambrose bc he was a promo guy...they loved his early promos/“he just like me fr”.. (and a large grouping of dudes who #would call him cute). i dunno just stuff i noticed #also. obviously a lotta mox hate due to dickriding cornette #the shields peak is interesting to me so i might continue to compile more shit like this when i get the time. i have the shield dvds too #and wanted to do a LONG journey of p1rat1n6 all their scenes off of pcock while i still have my sub. but it would take a while #also. love ur acc bc i too enjoy thinkin abt the fem versions of dude wrestlers #fleshclipstag #tactical-asks

[crescentfool]

i love ryomina

no but seriously. even when i’m thinking about other things that captivate my interest, i find myself coming back to them and feeling like i fell down three whole flights of staircases every time i do. they are one of my favorite pairs in media and are very special to me.

it’s the way that ryoji and minato’s lives are inevitably intertwined with each other due to the circumstances 10 years ago on the moonlight bridge. without no minato, there is no ryoji. minato as he is today is because of ryoji. they have irreparably affected each other’s lives that you cannot discuss one without bringing up the other one.

ryoji mochizuki, who is death, pharos, thanatos, nyx avatar, the man of many names and identities, is the perfect summation of p3′s messages and themes.

minato arisato, the wildcard and protagonist, who has boundless kindness in his actions despite the unfortunate cards handed to him.

the two of them complement each other and tell a beautiful story from start to finish.

minato’s personas capture this perfectly. he awakens to orpheus, who’s flames burns bright, is snuffed out by thanatos during the encounter against the arcana magician. a visual precursor of the idea that ryoji stole from the life that minato could have had.

it’s the way that over the course of the game as minato interacts with pharos, talking throughout the dark hour, forging a bond that cannot be broken, that allows ryoji to exist. minato humanizes death.

november. the bells toll, calling the appriser. and yet, it’s peaceful... quiet, and full of life. ryoji, who breaks free from death’s chains, refusing his role, is given the chance to live for a month. to make the most of the humanity that minato has given him over those ten years. and what a life he lived. ryoji’s life is a reflection of what minato’s life could have been like in another universe.

it is the way the two of them are reflections of each other. ryoji with his hair down is just like minato. they are both stubbornly committed to choosing to be kind, to love life, yet are chained down by the cards the narrative dealt them with. they finish each other’s sentences, knowing each other intimately in a way no one else does.

how is that, a boy who lived for only one month, profoundly changes the course of the narrative? he is simultaneously relevant and irrelevant. blink, and you miss it, the beautiful life that he led.

ryoji is horrified at the revelations of being the appriser. he who so desperately wished to forget that his existence was meant to bring the end to all life, was unable to escape the inevitability of death. in a non-human way, of course. he becomes remorseful. a shadow of his brief time as a human who was enamored by the small beautiful things that life had to offer.

he is swallowed by grief. grief knowing that his very existence will take away not only minato’s life, but everyone else’s. the very thing that ryoji loved- life, fundamentally went against the role he was born for- to be the harbinger of death. and unable to grapple with this sadness he believes that the best thing for minato to do is to kill him, so that SEES can live in bliss not knowing about their inevitable end.

SEES is left rattled, calling into question what the meaning of life is and what they do when faced against the inevitability of death.

and!!! minato chooses!! for ryoji to live!! even in spite of what ryoji is MEANT to embody, minato still stubbornly chooses to defy death itself! and if that’s not cool i don’t know what is!! minato wants everyone to have the chance to live!!

so he climbs. he ascends tartarus, to meet ryoji, again, who is now the nyx avatar. and i just think there’s something so so beautiful about being able to use messiah, minato’s ultimate persona, against nyx avatar.

messiah, being the fusion of orpheus and thanatos is peak ryomina to me. because ryoji and minato have established an unbreakable bond from having been entwined for 10 years, minato still has a piece of death with him, and by proxy!! ryoji is able to defy and rebel against nyx trying to bring the fall! and i think that’s fucking cool shit if you ask me!

even when all of the arcanas have been gone through, it’s still not enough to stop the fall. and yet. minato knows. in the way that ryoji was sealed in minato 10 years ago by aigis... minato becomes the great seal so that everyone can live. it comes full circle.

march rolls around. he fulfills his promise to SEES on graduation day. minato dies from exhaustion. but goddamn does his sacrifice make me weep- he’s had such, such a tiring journey. he’s been through so many things because he was at the wrong place at the wrong time. but at the end of it all, he’s reunited with ryoji in death.

and i think this is why ryomina continues to evoke so much emotions for me, to this day. the relationship that they have embodies so much of persona 3′s messages and themes that it makes me feel like a microwave with nothing running in it.

p3′s message is very hopeful, for me. my favorite takeaway from it is that even if death is inevitable, appreciating the life that we were given and choosing to live as best as we can with kindness (even if we can’t feasibly do everything), is just? really nice? and you see this manifest in both ryoji and minato’s personalities and what they do for the other characters.

ryomina just feels so distinct to me, the flavor that their relationship ties back to my favorite takeaways from this game and im just!!  god!! i love you minato arisato! i love you ryoji mochizuki! im so glad that i could meet them! i’m happy that they changed my life! they made me want to appreciate the connections in life even if they were fleeting! they made me!! want to pay attention to the good moments in life and cherish them!

i love ryomina so much!!! i’m so glad that these two could bring so much joy into my life! and i hope that others can have this joy too! 💛💙

#lizzy speaks #persona 3 #ryomina #ryoji mochizuki #minato arisato #meta #long post #(literally) #HI SO UM YESTERDAY I COULDN'T FUCKING SLEEP so to cope i was like 'i will talk out loud about anything and everything' #and somehow that turned into me talking about ryomina out loud and something about verbalizing my thoughts made me feel crazy about these- #two again. i mean for the record i continue to love them always very dearly but like my p3 braincells sometimes go into hibernation bc- #ive been on a really huge splatoon kick. but anyway my voice was like cracking at 3am because i was tearing up #i was like 'THE!! IM! SO NORMAL ABT WHAT ORPHEUS AND THANATOS AND MESSIAH SYMBOLIZE' etc etc etc #so i kinda just went to sleep like 'ok well you GOTTA type it out. everyone needs to know about this.' #and um i didnt mean to make 1069 words! sorry! not really! but i love them!!! even if im very quiet these days! #ohhh how lucky i am to have had the chance to experience ryomina they are such a gem. they make me so goddamn emotional #they really mean a lot to me because of well. (gestures at the entire post) but also they came at a really good point of my life and FUCK!! #im so so grateful to them!!! i love them!!!! the themes that their relationship and characters convey just !! IM SO NORMAL ABOUT IT!!! #they've affected me so profoundly and deeply and i wish i could make better art to get this across. but its ok. one day i can. one day #they make me so fucking talkative like actually but um. i had a lot of fun writing this! i dont think ive had like. a proper appreciation- #post for them that articulates why i like them so much (unless you count the essays i write in my art tags) so it was nice to make this. #admittedly theres a lot abt p3 that im rusty on since its been a goodwhile since ive interacted with the source material #and in a way you could say that like. i need to renew my p3 license LMAOOO but god some parts of p3 still have such a huge death grip on me #and what i mean by that is that the big Fucking Events have such!! clarity!! in my mind!! i recall them and i wilt on the spot!! #oh god i cant fucking shut up. the tags are probably 500 words long. enjoy my ramble. i wish every ryomina enjoyer a Good Life <3 #actually no. i hope that EVERYONE on the dash today has something that sparks joy for them the way ryomina does for me. #everyone deserves 2 have something that makes their brain do a little excited dance that makes them blow up and explode. its good for u! #BYE FOR REAL this is why i have to post my thoughts very spread out otherwise yall would have so many WORDS on ur dash pls help i have so #many emotions and i am so tiny i cannot possibly fit all the feelings i have about ryomina and other things inside my tiny little body

[brittlebutch]

Katja Cleaver doesn't get enough attention for being the most 'poor little meow meow' character i've ever seen in my life. literally off the walls 'she was found in a wet cardboard box on the side of the road' energy

#N posts stuff #her dad is so absent he thinks she's still 16 when she is already fully 18 years old #her dad is so absent that Katja considers it the GREATEST kindness she can give him to NEVER show him how sad that makes her #she didn't tell any of her friends about her birthday because she 'didn't wanna say anything' even though they've been friends for 2 years #her only friend for the first like 16 years of her life was her horse #the first time she thought she made a friend that 'friend' immediately turned around and kidnapped her #she made her first actual group of friends right after that and her dad does not know a single one of their names #she loves her horse so much that she eats dry fucking oats for breakfast because she likes it when they can share #her parents Forgot about her at school often enough for it to be a routine occurrence she had to figure out as a child #katja looked her Absent dad in the eyes and MEANT it when she said 'i think you're great because you stayed' bc her mom DIDNT #babygirl i love you <3 #d20: seven maidens #dimension 20 #edit: i cannot BELIEVE i forgot to mention that even though she has friends she still continued to wear the single half of a friendship #heart necklace that no one else had the second half of bc she didn't feel confident enough to ask if any of her friends would wear it

[themyscirah]

Thinking about current continuity Vanessa and just getting pissed off again

Like one, LET HER REST oh my god dc you ruin her FUCKING life like an asshole only to bring her back as a villain after she finally got out oh my god-

But also like its just so bad. This is a whole other woman with her name like why are we doing this. Like first you kill her mom (JULIA NOOO) and erase her YEARS of history growing up around diana (the thing that actually made her villain turn [if you can call it that w the level of manipulation involved] interesting and fucking heartbreaking) for some shitty "oh I saved you we were friends" run of the mill whatever. Then to use that and say Nessie had a crush on her OWN SISTER (Diana, so like informally adopted, but still 😡) now????

And then they took away her curls and made her a redhead but not even the realistic kind. DC SHE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT

It just makes me so mad. Freaking guys. They could have used another name like oh my god. She's not even the first silver swan why the fuck would they do that if they're not going to explore her history w diana (which she no longer has!!!!) or how intensely fucked up everything got for her. What is even the fucking point of this then other to drag a main character of the ww supporting cast through the mud again for genuinely no reason. They could have easily had her be Valerie Beaudry (sorry Val) instead or just MADE UP ANOTHER NAME because it's obvious that no one actually cared about her as a character they just wanted the wondy villain back so like !!!!!!!!!! Why even bother

#her entire treatment just makes me so angry #like in general it makes me mad and sad and a million other emotions #but the fucking robinson version just makes me enraged. beyond pissed off. because theres no fucking reason for it its bullshit and its the #one in current continuity right now. so i get to see tom king ww panels put on my dash that have this stupid fake vanessa and its so #infuriating. like thats NOT her!!!!!!! oh my freaking god people #her hair is BROWN and CURLY and shes dianas BABY SISTER who she lived with for YEARS like she was a MAJOR supporting ww character for the #longest time. like shes got about 100 appearances (just checked) preboot this is not a minor character #so freaking frustrating #blah #ALSO. FUCKING ALSO. THE FACT THAT THE WHOLE CURRENT VANESSA TURNED EVIL BC SHE REALIZED SHE WASNT SPECIAL TO DIANA BS. FUCK YOU THERE LIKE #OH MY GODDDDD “isnt special to diana” im going to fucking kill you. what do you mean she doesnt care about her specially. thats her FUCKING #BABY SISTER. not to sound like vanessa herself a la silver swan but those clowns at dc would never say that shit about cassie oh my god #not special my FUCKING ass. nessie and her mom were literally the first people invited to themyscira in post coie continuity #like yes diana trevor and steve trevor and even baby julia kapetelis washing ashore but like the kapetelises (and you could even say just #nessie bc again her mom had been there before) were the FIRST ones invited there like you cannot say diana didnt care about them more than #the average joe dc i fucking despise you. #this girl has been through so much why is dc incapable of throwing her a bone ever. nessie i am so sorry they did that to you sweetie. #gonna tag it bc her tag deserves the traffic #vanessa kapatelis #just makes me so mad #doing all that to the normal teen girl character in a wonder woman comic is so fucked actually like dc comics i should not have to explain #that to you. what message do you think you are sending here be serious

[ankhisms]

eughhhghhh

#suddenly triggered about stalking stuff bc it turns out someone i was following was following the person who turned out to be #a crypto terf/fash and when me and another friend pointed this out to warn people she #went through YEARS worth of both of our old blogs archives to find pictures of us to post them and #mock our appearances as two trans people with her fash followers. worsened my already existing paranoia about stalking #sorry to the person i followed if u didnt know but im not comfortable being anywhere close that person. literally continued to #stalk me and my friend and continued to post pictures of us and shit to mock us with literal fascists on here. anyway ill be fine #it just is scary and hard to think about esp because i have trauma w being stalked offline as well as online in other instances

[tacagen]

can we talk about how wrong the finish line ending is. can we talk about how barry sees snapping thawne's neck as their point of no return when thawne directly expressed hope barry can still live up to his idealised expectations several times and even spoke of how exactly he can achieve that. can we talk about how barry while having the best intentions fucks with thawne's speed and timeline resetting him to a humble curator with no powers and makes their situation a THOUSAND times worse when thawne comes back as reverse-flash because that reset is a direct and ultimate confirmation of barry's desire to forget thawne and make it like he never existed (the very thing that motivates thawne to mess with barry at all, the very thing he went insane about and which led him to becoming reverse-flash) and how thats similar to creation of the flashpoint which was done with good intentions and changed the world forever even after being undone. can we talk about how it also resembles lobotomy as in permanently fucking up persons brain and its necessary functions to make them more calm and controllable in their mental illness instead of actually helping them which takes a lot more time thought and effort and how that was a quick and seemingly effective but inherently destructive solution. can we talk about how barry by taking away eobard's powers also takes his freedom from societal expectations and standards of his time he clearly didnt fit in and 25th century in general. can we talk about how barry also took the only good memories thawne ever had aka their moments together and especially their first meeting which thawne saw as perfect and held very dearly just like any other interaction with barry including the reverse era ones. can we talk about how fucking intrusive, invalidating and selfish is the whole concept of erasing any kind of memories from another persons brain, no matter how hurtful or bad or self-sabotaging those can be especially involuntarily and how only the said person should have control over that because that is their damn life. can we talk about what such betrayal will do to a man who previously became the reverse-flash just because of one single phrase that he thought was something special only between him and barry. can we talk about how this time thawne paradoxically didnt even do anything to deserve that because he never met barry and never had such possibility in the first place. can we t

#reverse flash #eobard thawne #professor zoom #the flash #barry allen #eobarry ig? #listen i dont blame barry for that. thawne tortured him beyond any comprehension and the reset is understandable #that was one of the kindest solutions he could come up with considering the countless trauma thawne caused him. i get it. i see the effort. #but 1) im talking from thawne and his mental fucking issues perspective (and also my own bc he just like me fr) #like considering those HUGE ASS abandonment issues this is objectively the worst thing barry could ever do to him #2) also understandable but i cant believe barry (AND josh williamson.) didnt think ANY further than how Noble and Forgiving the reset is #he KNOWS thawne always comes back no matter what and yet he cannot make the logical conclusion that this will only hurt eo EVEN MORE #like my dude i get youre not on the best terms with timelines and changes to them but what youve done here is the ACTUAL point of no return #also i firmly believe that the 'peaceful' curator life is a fate worse than every death thawne ever experienced combined #there is so much potential in post!fl continuation where nothing in his life feels right and he can see the reverse era in his nightmares #i will make a separate post about it someday because i have So many thoughts on that that its a whole au at this point

[lemonstrashcan]

yall ever cry so much you feel like throwing up

#vent post #tw transphobia #yall ever go into a family reunion and get randomly slapped in the face with transphobia?? #I knew my parents arent super supportive but DAMN I wasnt expecting the rest of my family ro be like that #whatever imma continue being me anyways lmaoo #it just sucks bc i REALLY wanted them to be supportive :(( #but tbh if i put it on a scale its probably like a 6/10. it's sucks but if they fouhd out theyll probably still love me #therapist still gonna hear about this one tho #I was deadass in the bathroom gaslighting myself into thinking everything was fine and i dreamed it (it didnt work)) #anyways my head hurts and im watching cartoons to calm dow #wander over yonder is my comfort show i love it sm <3

[piningprecussionist]

... first and foremost, I would like to apologize for any discomfort I've caused you, Kim. now, I'm not the most... socially apt person. but I really, sincerely, do *not* mean you any harm. I'm not intending to come off as creepy, I can, however, understand why you'd be uncomfortable or perhaps concerned by these gifts and all. (I mean, shit. if somebody mailed me a painting of me dancing with them, I'd be weirded out too, flattered, granted. but weirded out.) I never really expected anything to happen, I guess I just... felt the need to tell you how I feel about you, get *that* off my chest, at least. even if you don't feel the same way that I do. (which is fine, and understandable! I get it.) as for why I've sent you gifts... I suppose I just wanted to show you how I felt with something other than a note or whatever. *just* a note feels kinda cheap. I'd rather give you something that's at least a bit useful to you (hence those custom made drumsticks.). I hope you find success in whatever future endeavors you do. and I hope that you don't find this note too off-putting. enclosed is something that I hope you and the rest of Sex Bob-Omb like. -sincerely, the guy who said he had a crush on you. *enclosed is a folded, custom made Sex Bob-Omb poster, it's actually quite well made. it's an homage to the album 'Ramones', by The Ramones, featuring Sex Bob-Omb's lineup leaning back against a brick wall. unlike the original album cover, it's in color and not black-and-white.*

ooc: answering this as though it is in the nebulous but near future! I just didn't want to leave this lingering any longer; sorry for the delay! Hopefully I have left things vague enough for myself to wedge it back in the timeline of the blog later lol

Kim lets out a long, weary sigh as she finally gets back to the relative peace of her room, taking a moment to rest back against her shut door and scrub at her face. The energy and emotional exhaustion of everything that had happened between the last time she'd been here and now seemed to be sinking into her bones, and she wanted little more than to sink to her knees right there and just be comatose for a while.

She knew from experience, however, that the floor was cold and miserable like that, especially this time of year; so, instead, she opts to shrug off her coat and toss it blindly in the direction of her desk, trudging towards her bed. She closes her eyes and lets herself fall forward into it, ready to finally, properly rest, maybe even unpack her thoughts about everything- but then, she hears the crinkle of paper as she makes contact with the sheets, and her eyes fly open while she rolls to the side and, thankfully, off of the object.

She blinks down at an envelope that had been tossed haphazardly on the bed, probably by Hollie, and after a moment recognizes the style of it. Oh, that one guy... how long has this been here? Did I miss this before I left? She hesitates briefly, mostly just in resistance to the idea of having to continue actively thinking, but sighs and sits up anyway. She won't be able to relax if it's just sitting there, tempting her.

Propping up her pillows, she leans back against them and opens it, pulling out both the letter and the folded poster. She looks over the letter first, and after a moment, lets out another sigh, this time a short, guilty thing. The words feel genuine, so she can't help but feel slightly bad about her previous response, but... Well, if they knew anything about her, they might've expected it. She tries to take comfort in that fact, glancing over in the general direction she left the drumsticks. Then, she pulls out her phone and snaps a picture of the letter, opening her blog to begin her reply.

Hey, sorry this too so long to get back to. Life and things; with how people talk, maybe you've heard about the party by now? Julie's ragers, am I right? The apology is appreciated... and accepted. I think I believe you, especially given you're acknowledging the creep factor there. I'm not really a big gift person, I guess, so it was a little off putting just to begin with, anything else aside. I think you've already given me more than my parents got me for Christmas, and I don't even have a name for you beyond "Crush Guy." But, hey, it's far from the most uncomfortable I've been in these situations, so you're actually doing fairly alright in that regard. Thank you for the well wishes; I'll probably be needing them, ha! And no, I think you've quelled the fires against you, for now. (Joking- this is why I do the stupid videos...)

She pauses briefly, looking over at the newest gift and carefully unfolds it, trying to work out the creases as she goes. Once it's unveiled, she stops to look at it for a long while, a bit surprised by how much she genuinely likes it. She sets it aside with a mental note to hang it up later- ideally before their next band practice. She wouldn't be attaching a photo of it to the post, to help keep the surprise til then.

And again for the gifts. I think the rest of the band will really dig this one, honestly- especially Stills. It's very nice.

She gives it a once over before nodding to herself and hitting send, content. Then, setting the letter and the poster further aside, as to not crumple them, Kim moves to curl up at the top of her bed in a tight ball, eyes sliding shut peacefully. I'll think about things later. Ball time, she thinks idly, and then thankfully, blissfully, proceeds to continue thinking nothing at all.

#(ooc: dude as i was writing this my roommate busted out some chicken pho and i am so ravenous rn. god damnit. why can i never FOCUS sdfskjf) #(ooc: if i get any asks after this posts and it takes a hot minute its because im going off on my own pho i want it so bad but. this first. #(ooc: i was really debating how to have her respond to these- but i think with ramona having responded to them too this is the best way?) #(ooc: briefly considered funny quirky “anon mail” system where she could send something back through the same envelope. like it just poofs #+ and returns to the sender with whatever's enclosed) #pine.txt #asks #anon #rp #kim pine #sp comic #spvtwtg #spto #spvtw #Crush Guy #(ooc: anyway the second kim has a single thought after this she's taking the biggest bong hit /j but make not who's to say) #((ooc: it's me. im to say. really it depends on the thought but if she wants to continue not stressing herself out then the answer is yes)) #(ooc: also no kims on this one bc i didnt want it to get lost in my drafts since it'd get flung back a good ways) #(that one tag is supposed to say maybe not. dying inside.)

[coffeeastronaut]

i am once again giggling over MOFFAT of all people understanding (or at least getting extremely lucky in how it comes off) doctor gender better then the two ‘progressive’ writers. incredible stuff

#deadass i think its bc he didnt give a #fuck about making lefties happy he just wanted to say whatever. vs chibs agonized fear over getting things wrong paralyzing him into the #most boring writing on the planet AND forcing him to include the absolute shallowest ‘representation’ on the planet bc he knows he Should #have it but doesnt know how ro actually do that #versus rtd who seems to genuinly really really care about this kind of stuff BUT gets all his info via like. instagram posts and his #experiences with trans ppl begin and end with a drag show he went to once in the 90s where a queen drunkenly explained her theories on #gender to him. so like his hearts in the right place but he is sososo wrong. #anyway. does not bode well for ncuti i must say…. ive been worried abt rtd’s treatment of black characters and while this did not confirm #those fears of it continuing to be as awful as it was back in the day it also doesn’t exactly assuage them. we will see! i will stay #optimistic until i die probably so. fingers crossed ig lol #mi

[majorbitchwillgraham]

It's been 7 hours and 15 days

#YES this is psychopath's song ACtually #it's been 3 weeks #actually. #im still so sad hahaha wtf i never expected to feel like this #he was my 1st friend in this new place and thats why it was special #but it's also like a lost friendship? bc i dont even know if we will continue talking or what #and it was a damn surprise that mf told me he was leaving 3 days before so. sigh. i dont even know #just that i lose #i actually discover3d this song when sinead died.. i think it was the same damn day #now whenever other people mention him i feel so damn bad. and ridiculous. why am i so sad #anyway luckily no one i know will ever find this #i had to vent #no one is letting me talk about it. not my parents. not my friends #well. if i told my 1st estp friend maybe he can listen tonme yknow #having strong coffee was a bad idea i feel a lump in my throat #wth happened its just. that i feel like he died #and i SUCKS SO MUCH just to think that he didnt care as much about me #why. in so many relationships theres always one person that cares more than the other #my post #I am so sad this song is exactly what i feel #we talked about so many things goddammit. i told him i was depressed #he told me he used to feel bad before but now had changed. i mean and he was usually talking a lot about himself but i guess half of it was #true or heartfelt #he had such a funny laughter. the sick thing is that. i wanted to know him better and experience new things togethwr and now #it will never happen #imagine that

[mudstoneabyss]

Charles is the type of guy who seems like he'd want to learn about his town and its history even if it's not relevant to him so must be hard when so much of it people refuse to talk about. he doesn't have a straight answer as to what Strex's whole deal is and what's with that scientist who's mentioned in so many historical buildings who looks uncannily like him

#Kevin eventually tells him about Strex but he tells him considerably less so about Carlos #and also what Kevin tells him about Strex doesnt line up with what the og db townsfolk tell him about Strex with what the nv townsfolk #tell him about Strex with what Lauren tells him about Strex #hes really having to fight to puzzle this out without crossing anyones boundaries or stepping on any toes #I love the idea of Lauren having been born during Strex and after the creation of the Joyous Congregation so her relationship with those #are those with someone who was born and raised in any other cult; I'm especially thinking of ones like Mormonism here #and her brainwashing- as opposed to Kevin's indoctrinated kind- is intrinsic #so post Strex being brought down is the first time she's ever been confronted with Maybe Strex Is Bad and it Doesnt Have To Be Like That #and idk. I think her and Charles talk about it. a little. as much as she's willing to open up #also her desert otherworld situation fucks me up. Carlos and Kevin didnt have to eat so why was she dehydrated and starving the whole time? #does tdow just retain the state youre in when you enter it? why would she have already been in that situation then? #''because Finknor's inconsistent'' shut up. play in this space with me. believe everything's intentional bc its more fun than believing #that theyre mistakes #wtnv #joyousposting #i need to relisten to some of Dana's talk about tdow to see if there's anything there that continues the Dana/Lauren parallels

[cartoonrival]

this is literally 7 pages longer than it needs to be but im so committed to representing literally every element of the images in my mind

#txt157 #this is like a pilot episode #<- not confirmation ill do more. but like if i did theyd all take place at least several months post happy birthday brto #but when i do the masterpost (intros and relationships rundown) #all that is post-hbb #bc he doesnt know mitsuki yet for example #and he isnt currently friends w sarada but for the rest of the kuwtu continuity he is very tight w both of them #i have to keep rereading it to confirm that i still think its funny. i do. and im the only one who matters #esp after having hyped it for literally a month #*i* need to still think its good. if i overhyped it well... i didnt. i just talked about it for a long time

[upsidedowngrass]

fun fact is in this blogs drafts was a long essay i planned out a few months back abt how liam never actually DID want to kill airy, even when he tried to. it was largely abt how this wasnt something he wanted to do for catharsis, and it wasnt something he wanted to do AT all and that this was a rash decision borne from fear. because this is important to me and i STILL think abt it sooo so much. maybe One Day ill finish writing it

#it was based around how ive seen ppl interpret him as like. being so angry that he wanted to kill airy #but ive never seen it that way #it seems more like he didnt Want to kill airy bc it made no sense to him and also. hes a Guy. he doesnt WANT to commit murder #but he was Scared for his Friend. he was scared about the idea of this continuing. it was all he could think he could do #i dont think any part of it was cathartic #. i think it was arguably incredibly stressful #and post canon? i imagine its not smth he likes to think abt. i imagine itd haunt him quite a bit #i would think being at such a pt where you feel like All You CAN do is Literal Murder and you DO Try even though youre So Tired #is not smth pleasant for him to think abt #ANYWYA. i just think abt this a lot bc i think ppl write it as if its revenge and cathartic and im like #this scene is ONLY tragic for him #ive seen ppl say they cheered him on and its like. i get what ur saying but also i dont think liam wanted to do this. hes not having fun #it fucks me up SO much whenever i think abt it #cus it wasnt even revenge. it was a last dirch attempt to save people he cares about. no matter how illogical