#bad or whatever

[francisforever2014]

got in trouble for being on my phone too much at work 😭 i won’t stop tho

#i wish i didn’t like my supervisor so much but she’s soooo nice so i’m not even mad about it #also like . i get it it makes the whole office look #bad or whatever #and reflects on her but also . sorry bestie i hate my job #and she was like yeah i know this shits boring and mind numbing i can try to give you more interesting tasks if u want 😭 #so she’s a real one but still . i will never stop blogging on company time #also she walked in on me typing this and i had to drop my phone like things are bad #also she complimented me and said i do really good work when i actually do work . which i know is just like the compliment sandwich shit but #i loveeeeee validation so :)

[bahoreal]

obsessed with this

#like. not to make everything about good omens but #crowley #there are so many versions of this with him gazing at aziraphale its so fkabdkahdbw #i did a real bad job at positioning these fjsbdhs i also know the last one is 'no one knows what..' but. whatever #.jtxt

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

meditations on first philosophy (1641) - rene descartes

"who give a shit"

#rene descartes #ok #so this is a reference to that post #bc i cant stop saying it #sorry i havent been active #ive been working on an opera #and have been having like p bad health issues #but its ok #learning to crochet a minecraft frog #idk if itll be like any good #whatever life is love anyway #blackout poem #blackout poetry #author #book #poetry

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[miraluking-respectfully]

MEAN TO HIM!!!

#they're called pumpkin toadlets and they're bad at everything because they're sososososooo teeny weeny tiny #they're so small that their inner ears don't work and they can't land their jumps properly! they are so little it makes them CLUMSY #and they can't hear each other's mating calls either!!! #WAAAUGGGHGH #animals #edit: i did not mean to post this to my star wars blog but whatever i'm keeping it

[pcktknife]

that damn chicken

#myart #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi spoilers #falin touden #everytime i draw chimera fal i think about the kid i knew in like 3rd grade who was obsessed with drawing dragons and how if maybe if i too #some notes i wouldnt struggle so bad with drawing the body so connor colin whatever ur name was shoutout to u dude #dungeon meshi spoilers

[mroddmod]

everyone be quiet i'm manifesting

#the bad batch #tbb #star wars #star wars the bad batch #sw tbb #tbb omega #tbb wrecker #tbb crosshair #tbb echo #tbb tech #tbb hunter #mods art #mods draws #my art #YAYYYYY ITS DONE #i've been tinkering w this for like a couple weeks now i think #just on and off #whenever i was nervous about their fates or just generally sad about them i would work on this #it was supposed to make me feel better but it would usually just make me more sad 😭😭 #but i still really like how it turned out!!! so that's cool #very self indulgent but!!! whatever #i think i'll add this to my inprnt soon too :) so keep a look out for that i guess lol #okay byeeeeee #ALSO THE NEW EP WAS SO GOOD #okay bye fr

[bakuvex]

#hermitcraft fanart #etho fanart #ethoslab fanart #ethoslab #hermitcraft etho #hc etho #Kakashi tag or whatever i feel bad tagging the guy #im a Kakashi stan since 2011

[comradekatara]

I think it’s so funny during the exchange on the balloon when sokka is like, “yeah being good at war seems to run in the family,” and zuko gets all defensive and goes, “hold on, not everyone is like that!” and at first sokka thinks he’s talking about himself, but then zuko reveals that he’s talking about his uncle. and sokka just has to sit there mentally calculating whether it would be a good idea to bring up the fact that historically, his uncle is great at war. if i had to attempt to transcribe his inner monologue in that moment it would just be “don’t bring up the dragon of the west don’t bring up the dragon of the west this guy is willingly sacrificing his life for your self-indulgent suicide mission you need him on your side don’t bring up the dragon of the west…” at which point he then looks back up at zuko and says thru gritted teeth, “haha yeah. no, cuz like, totally. for sure.”

#I think if zuko HAD been talking about himself tho sokka would’ve gone thru a similar mental calculation #‘don’t agree with him in a way that bitchily implies that he’s bad at war due to his incompetence DO NOT INSULT HIS INTELLIGENCE etc etc’ #zuko is currently enabling at least 12 of sokka’s mental illnesses so sokka just has to sit there like ‘whatever u say man’ #👍🏽😬👍🏽 #<- sokka emoji #zuko #sokka #iroh #sokkaxzuko #iroh&zuko #iroh&sokka

[priscirat]

picked up my dungeon meshi reading again. kikimari

#dungeon meshi #kiki dungeon meshi #namari dungeon meshi #kikimari #doodles #yes im still Early in the chapters but like #that one chapter with these two. haunted me all day #me seeing kiki and being like. oh girlie i hope to see u so bad for the upcoming chapters #while marcille was cooking or whatever

[treasureplcnet]

i need to see more of echo being annoying so badly . you don’t grow up with fives and get assigned to the 501st without developing little shit instincts

#the bad batch #tbb #star wars #echo tbb #tech tbb #omega tbb #hunter tbb #crosshair tbb #wrecker tbb #my art #also cleaning and coloring this is how i coped with s2 finale godspeed lets all hope for some s3 news from the sw celebration #this is also two seperate comics if thats not obvious. i think it is. but its whatever #also the echo and crosshair in my mind is so real everyone else move over

[un-pearable]

ngl one of the most useful things i’ve internalized from doing art online is never tell people what to criticize. don’t preemptively apologize for things or point out where you think you fumbled, it’s just priming people to notice minor issues that might not actually matter and hit you where you’re sensitive and throw you off your game. don’t tell people your weak points. if it’s a genuine problem they’ll point it out

#especially not if they’re the professor grading your assignment!!!!!!!!!! feel so bad for my friend #i cant tell him it now bc it’ll come across as mean but i feel so bad :( he kept apologizing for things he didn’t need to and it made him #seem unprepared. when he actually had 95% of what he needed and apologizing made it LOOK like he didn’t #text✨ #i’m making it sound very dramatic here but it’s straight up helped me so much with my anxiety #the above doesn’t apply if you’re looking for constructive criticism kr any thing #i’m very specifically talking about stuff like posting art online or giving a presentation or whatever

[leo-bandito]

something something gman tommy something something gordon in stasis. you know how it is.

#GOD TUMBLR ATE THE FUCKING QUALITY. JESUS CHRIST. #This is a lil rough lookin cos it’s uhhhh . One it’s like a month old and 2 it took me like an hour w no real thought or effort #Anyway #I Feel Normal . Im normal. It’s whatever #THIS IS BASED ON NOTHING . other than this has been haunting me. The hypotheticaaaallllllsssssss aaauuughhhhhhbhhh #hl2vrai #hlvrai #tommy coolatta #should. I tag ol gordon here ? #I dont. Know. I don’t wanna Fuck up th hl tag #whatever. #hlvrai 2 #gordon freeman #gordon feetman #hlvrai gordon #hlvrai tommy #If they do do smth w stasis it’ll fuck me up so bad cos. ONE . #that means Gordon never got to go home. fucked up. Fucked up #TWO . It’s so. AUIUHGHH. It’s one thing w like. in the hl2 canon of Gman this like. Mysterious freak fuckin around w Gordon #Where it’s just an uncaring omnipotent Guy taking you in and out of limbo as he pleases #but with like. Dr coomer specifically tryna contact Gordon and TOMMY BEING GMAN. FUCK. it’s like. Now it’s your friends. #now it’s your friends who need you and are trying to help you along. putting you into place. THERES SO MUCH MORE WEIGHT THERE #this might be me reaching but it’s like. ohhhh my god #wgatever. What the fuck ever #EDIT: SOMEONE JST POINTED THIS OUT AND THIS WASNT ON PURPOSE I SWEAR TO GOD. HES KINDA IN TH FUCKED UP VR CROUCH POSE. FUCK . FUCK

[mataurin]

Fig and the Cig Figs!!!

#junior year so far is such a delight #did you give another character you like curly hair out of nowhere you ask #and to that I say good question I *flees* #dimension 20 #figeroth faeth #the bad kids #fantasy high #fantasy high: junior year #she’s blowing a kiss to ayda in the crowd who is whatever her equivalent of Beet red with arousal is #watching her silently and blankly thinking heinously dirty thoughts #* #fhjy #fh #fig faeth #my art

[twinstxrs]

just now realized that kristen started off fantasy high choosing the path of doubt & uncertainty by choosing to go with the bad kids. for unrelated reasons i need to lie down forever.

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #the bad kids #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #feel like one of those ms paint type stick drawings covered in blood & tears. THE BAD KIDS 😭😭😭 #kristen was offered the certain path and chose to walk through the trees GODDDD #maybe fantasy high is just choosing to walk through the forest with your friends. for your friends. #i fr need to go to bed but like. oh my god. #‘​keep going’ or whatever #sorry for being dramatic i listened to televangelism by ethel cain when thinking about kristen & lucy & the bad kids so. yea

[undemolitioned-lovers]

butch lesbians and trans men when they see the most badly designed early 2000s jesse pinkman graphic tees made for 12 year old boys and limp bizkit fans paired with knee length cargo shorts

#i NEED clothes like this so insanely bad #nobody warns you about the poser to emo to just some guy 2000s nu metal guitarist whatever the fuck with sorta emo undertones pipeline #lgbtq #fashion #< not the good kind #lesbian #butch #2000s #queer