#aurillio rambles

[aurillio]

being a dyke in love with another dyke is the most beautiful thing on earth

#lesbian #butch4butch #butch love #lesbian love #butch #butch lesbian #dyke #i love lesbians #i love being a lesbian #sapphic #i love being a dyke #dyke today dyke tomorrow dyke forever #dykeposting #dyke love is the most beautiful thing on earth #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

not me completely ignoring everything plot related that happened in the lotus casino to look for two little italian children

#i think maybe i found both of them #i’m probably lying to myself but i’m choosing to believe it #percy jackson #pjo #pjo tv show #pjo spoilers #pjo fandom #pjo series #nico di angelo #bianca di angelo #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

“power and glory and nothing else matters. ares is that way. zeus is that way. my mother is that way…he isn’t that way. he’s better than that. maybe i was that way once, but i don’t want to be that way anymore. i won’t be like all of you. i just won’t.”

i am SOBBING. on my knees screaming crying throwing up.

really though they are doing such a good job of showing the reality of being a demigod and the way the gods work.

even as an 8 year old i agreed with luke, but now? now? now as a 19 year old? all i can say is his death is going to kill me.

#percy jackson #pjo #luke castellan #pjo luke #percy jackon and the olympians #annabeth chase #pjo tv show #pjo series #pjo fandom #pjo spoilers #the last olympian #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

something i’ve been thinking about today is how frequently the word “noble” is used in regards to vfd and how rarely “good” or “kind” or “just” are. at least for me, i associate being “noble” much more with being “honorable” or “righteous” or the appearance of being good and moral rather than actually being good and moral.

just food for thought…

#a series of unfortunate events #lemony snicket #asoue #team olaf isn’t the villain #at least not more of a villain than any other adult in their lives #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

these little 12 year olds are really curing that zoloft inflicted inability to cry

#percy jackson #pjo #luke castellan #pjo luke #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo series #pjo tv show #annabeth chase #grover underwood #aurillio rambles

[aurillio]

calloused hands, bleeding hands, hard hands, split hands, thick hands, stained hands, strong hands.

butch hands.

#lesbian #butch love #butch4butch #dyke #butch #butch lesbian #i love being a lesbian #lesbian love #dyke today dyke tomorrow dyke forever #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

“you were brave. you were strong. you made your father proud.” you. made. your. father. proud.

IM NOT CRYING YOURE CRYING

#percy jackson #pjo #pjo tv show #pjo spoilers #pjo fandom #pjo series #aurillio rambles #poseidon

[aurillio-thoughts]

a complex sirius who loves his family, especially his mom, is so much more tragic and nuanced and interesting than a sirius who flat out hates his family and i will die on that hill

#it’s more realistic too honestly #when you experience consistent emotional abuse from your family usually a big part of it is gaslighting #and no matter how much we hate it we can’t make ourselves stop loving our parents #a sirius who silently cries in the middle of the night because he misses his mom is so much more real #he hates them and loves them and wants to escape them but doesn’t know how to live without them #i will die on this hill #you can’t tell me i’m wrong #sirius #sirius black #walburga black #black family #noble and most ancient house of black #orion black #regulus black #marauders #marauders era #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

SEAWEED BRAIN IS HERE. THIS IS NOT A DRILL SEAWEED BRAIN IS HERE.

#percy jackson #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #annabeth chase #percabeth #seaweed brain #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

poseidon being my favorite pirate captain james flint is actually the best thing to ever happen to me

#it’s so perfect #okay maybe charles vane is better that’s besides the point #he also just loves his son so much i’m sobbing #poseidon being a pirate is SO PERFECT #ALSO OUR FAVORITE WITCH MOTHER MCGONAGALL’S SON #it’s too good #percy jackson #pjo #pjo tv show #pjo fandom #pjo spoilers #aurillio rambles #black sails #captain james flint #james flint #captain flint

[aurillio-thoughts]

something i am a big fan of but so rarely see in marauders fics is when orion and walburga are not abusive and do love sirius and he loves them.

i am a sucker for a sirius who knows he has to leave because he knows they are terrible people but leaving is hard, not just because he loves regulus but because he loves his mama and papa. a sirius who secretly cries himself to sleep because he misses his parents. a sirius who twenty years later seeks comfort from his mother’s room when he is alone in grimauld place in ootp. a sirius who whispered to james in the middle of the night that he wishes he could stop loving them but he just cant

i want a walburga who refuses to let anyone touch a thing in his room because a part of her is always waiting for him to come home. i want an orion who wants nothing more than to go after his son but cant get over his pride. parents who miss their son. parents who look at his younger brother and reprimand him for not being enough like sirius rather than too much like him.

i want a family who loves each other but doesn't know how. a family who hates each other but cant. a family built on a deeply twisted idea of love and destroyed by despicable beliefs. a messy complicated not cut and dry easy to understand black and white family.

#marauders #marauders era #noble and most ancient house of black #sirius black #walburga black #orion black #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

moroccan sirius and regulus who speak french to their lovers and arabic to each other . that is all.

#sirius black #regulus black #marauders era #marauders #noble and most ancient house of black #jegulus #wolfstar #aurillio rambles #regulus is devoutly muslim and you can’t convince me otherwise

[aurillio-thoughts]

someone tell me why the first time i've cried in six months was over 12 year old children

#percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #luke castellan #pjo #pjo luke #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

watching jegulus get so popular the past few years is crazy cause i was up reading The Devil’s White Knight in 2016 in love with the idea of james and regulus and their ao3 tag was dry for so so many years

#i loved them so much and they were such a rarepair for so so long #now all of a sudden they’re the most popular ship #that shit is crazy #jegulus #harry potter #marauders #marauders era #wolfstar #drarry #fanfic #ao3 fanfic #the devil’s white knight #aurillio rambles #regulus as a professor is my favorite thing ever #it’s so good you have to go read it right now

[aurillio]

oh to have a butch to share carhartts with

#lesbian #stone butch blues #butch4butch #butch love #butch lesbian #dyke #butch bait #butch #carhartt #aurillio rambles

[aurillio-thoughts]

something that lives constantly in the back of my mind is how perfect a series of unfortunate events is. no other book i have ever read has so effectively portrayed the deep feeling of loneliness that childhood trauma invokes. the slow and complete disillusion of the adults around you. the way you have to mature so quickly while still constantly being discounted ignored and patronized. the way you have to so deeply understand the most difficult parts of life while still knowing so little about the world. the way you are still just a kid.

#a series of unfortunate events #asoue #the baudelaires #violet baudelaire #klaus baudelaire #sunny baudelaire #aurillio rambles