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meltwonu · 3 years

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| 🍒 CH-CH-CHERRY BOMB! 🍒 | [CHAPTER 17]

pairing; dom!seungcheol x camgirl!reader

this chapter’s notes; camshow, intercrural sex, lots ‘o teasing, dirty talk/the absolute tiniest bit of degradation, some cum play/cum eating, seungcheol having a kink for thighs/thigh highs 😳😗 welcome to the weekend my bbys!! I hope yall are having a good day/night!! Also again, another inbox roundup tomorrow(also an updates post)!! 💕 Might be a regular thing for the next 4-ish weeks ‘cause I have been so busy this month 😭 and I can’t believe there’s only 3 more chapters of CB left!! 😭😭 some bangers on the way tho LMAO 🤣 As always, thank you so much for the love and support!!💕💕 Have a great rest of your weekend and enjoy ch 17![cheol voice] seventeen right here 😌💕🍒

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Seungcheol doubles over in laughter, tears blurring his vision as his laughs turn into quiet wheezes.

“God, this is so embarrassing.” Seokmin mutters; cheeks burning crimson when he glances over to Jeongguk who shrugs back. “Maybe I really should quit…”

Jeongguk scoffs jokingly, “Maybe you shouldn’t have lied. No offense, but all the staff here probably have at least seen her before and you just so happened to lie to her actual boyfriend. That’s honestly really lucky if you ask me! You should buy a lotto ticket!” Seokmin whines back, shifting on his heels as he watches Seungcheol start to wipe the tears away.

“Hyung, can you please take this Edible Arrangements I got you so I can go ask Namjoon-hyung to fire me?” This only causes Seungcheol to laugh harder and this time, Jeongguk can’t help the giggle that bubbles past his tightly pursed lips.

“Please!” Seokmin begs, shaking the basket of skewered fruit at the older male. “I heard the diner across down is still hiring, I can still save the rest of my dignity if I leave now!”

Seungcheol shakes his head, eyelashes wet with tears when he takes the gift from Seokmin’s hands to place it on the countertop of the concession stand. “Hate to break it to you but she works there and one of the staff is also one of her regulars so I think your best bet is workin’ here. Embarrassment and all.”

“So, okay… But you’re not mad?”

Jeongguk peels the cellophane off of the basketed fruit, looking to Seungcheol for permission before he takes a skewer. “Go ahead. And no, I’m not mad. If anything I should apologize too, I shouldn’t have let you keep lying when I already knew. But also, to be fair, we weren’t really… official ‘til recently.” Seungcheol shoots the younger male a sheepish smile; cheeks a pretty pink of their own. “And it’s kinda been nice meeting you guys too. It’s great to know you’re not all weirdos.”

Seokmin laughs lightly, breathing a sigh of relief. “Okay, cool, ‘cause this place pays really well and I’d hate to stop working here and you guys are a lot cooler than the coworkers I had before.” He rolls his eyes jokingly, leaning up against the countertop as he picks off a strawberry from the basket.

“Don’t even get me started on this coworker I had at the last place. His name was Mingyu, I think? Suuuuuch a kissass. I had to move to manning the register at all times just so I could avoid him pickin’ his nose in the backroom and then pretending like he was doin’ shit.”

“Hey, Seungcheol-hyung?”

Seokmin’s inquisitive voice has Seungcheol turning; setting the rollerskates in his hand down onto the bench. “Yeah?”

“Do you think it’s weird that we’re, like, watching your girlfriend?” He tilts his head in thought, eyes blinking up to the ceiling. “I don’t want to overstep or something if it’s weird, y’know? I’ve been thinking about what Jeongguk said earlier...”

Seungcheol grins back at him, eyes twinking. He’d also thought about that before too, when he first found out that Jeongguk had also watched your streams.

“I don’t really mind ‘cause at the end of the day, it’s you watching me fucking my girlfriend.”

“Well, I’m glad he took it… well?” You giggle, tugging the white thigh high up your leg.

Seungcheol pulls off his shirt as he sits on the edge of the bed; tossing the wrinkled material onto the floor as he laughs under his breath.

“He did give me an Edible Arrangements while I laughed so hard I cried. I think he’s learned his lesson.”

xcaliburDK: good news, i didnt quit!!

chwenon: i was gonna say

chwenon: u literally started like last week

universe_WZ has donated $75

angelhan has donated $75

therealchan99 has donated $50

therealchan99: u look rly pretty in ur white set!!!

“Aww, thank you! It’s one of my favorites~ And ‘xcaliburDK’, I’m glad you didn’t quit!” You wink at the camera, giggling softly in Seungcheol’s lap as he peppers kisses along your shoulder.

A shiver runs up your spine at his gentle touches and you easily melt under his soft kisses and roaming fingertips. He ghosts them across your breasts, teasing you through the thin lace as you mewl and squirm against his cock that’s pressed firm against your ass. “A-ah, S--Seungcheol…”

tangerine_kwan: she looks so happy now that she can call ur name out lol

alphagyu97: now i cant pretend its me tho

gentleman_josh95: i mean i guess but are u even built like him

alphagyu97: well

Your body slowly starts to fill with warmth; soft stuttered breaths falling from your lips when he drags his fingers down your torso until they play with the hem of your panties. “M-more… tease me m-more…” He grins against your shoulder; hooking a finger around the waistband of your panties and tugging it away from you before letting it snap against your skin.

“‘Cheol!” Whining, your legs snap shut on impulse as you feel a gush of wetness soaking into your panties.

“Ah, ah, ah, part those legs, princess. Don’t make me have to punish you.”

kitty_junjun: no thats what the shibari stream is for right? Right? 😩

artist8hao: is that really happening bc i want to see it

alphagyu97: u guys should do it and think of it as like a rebrand of the channel ykwim

hoshi_tiger_xx: jdfkjhf like a grand re-opening under new management

therealchan99: what is this, a restaurant?

chwenon: u guys should come up with a new channel name too or sth

Seungcheol manages to read off a few of their comments; committing some to memory knowing that your eyes were still sealed shut as you focused on his soft touches.

He drags his fingers down further, humming when he can already feel how wet you were getting. “Hmm~ Already soaked through your pretty panties, baby~” Your head rolls back against his shoulder, nodding gently as you start to grind against the fingers that he uses to press into your clothed, wet folds.

“F-feels good w-when you, ah, t-tease me…”

Unbeknownst to you, Seungcheol smirks, eyes twinkling at the camera. “You really like it, huh? When I just touch you gently like this. Not enough to get you off but just enough to get you soaking wet until you’re begging for my cock.” He pauses; pressing a soft kiss to your skin. “I wanna try something with you, pretty baby~”

You gulp as you raise your head from his shoulder and he retracts his hands from your body as you shift your body and slightly turn to the side to face him.

Seungcheol’s eyes are blown wide with lust and you can already feel his cock throbbing against your lower back as he smiles dreamily at you.

“I think you’ll like it too.”

A stuttered moan falls from your lips as Seungcheol’s cock slides past your tightly clasped, yet shaky, thighs.

“O-oh, ‘Cheol, this--this is…” The words die on your tongue as your head falls forward and Seungcheol is quick to reprimand you, just as he draws his hips back.

“Baby, I want you to watch yourself on the screen. I want you to see your cute face while I tease your pretty body.” He moans; thrusting between your wet thighs as your hazy eyes peer at the laptop’s screen. Your lips are swollen and your pupils are blown wide when you catch yourself and you can see the head of Seungcheol’s cock only just breaching past your clamped thighs when he thrusts forward.

You let out a guttural moan, eyes rolling to the back of your head when he alternates between thrusting between your thighs and letting his cock slide against your soaked, panty-clad mound.

He hadn’t bothered to undress you at all, but you didn’t mind. The material of your panties only added onto the pleasure with every drag of his cock against you.

Seungcheol teases you even more; dragging his hands down to your thigh highs and letting his fingertips play right underneath the hems before pulling the material away from your thighs and letting them snap against your skin, much like he’d done with your panties.

“Ah, fuck, m-more! P-please…” He repeats the action a few more times, playing with the sheer fabric of your thigh highs before he draws his hips back. Except this time, when you expect him to thrust back between your legs, he wraps a hand around his cock instead, guiding himself until the head of his cock is rubbing up against the sheer fabric.

“Fuck, you’d look so pretty with cum all over your pretty thighs. I should cum all over your panties and your white ‘lil thigh highs and get them all soaked. Don’t you think they’d be cute? Sticking to you like a second skin? Translucent ‘n soaked through with my cum?” He laughs under his breath, watching through the laptop screen at the way you bite your lip and furrow your brows at the thought.

“I--I want t-that… I want S--Seungcheol t-to make, ngh, a m-mess…”

angelhan: i kno we say this all the time but can u upload some pics of that later

angelhan has donated $75

universe_WZ: seconded cuz thatd look so fuckin hot

universe_WZ has donated $50

alphagyu97 has donated $75

alphagyu97: fuck, like a lil angel covered in cum

Seungcheol teases you and himself at the same time; rubbing his cock against your fabric-clad thighs. He spreads precum onto the material, licking his lips when it already becomes translucent and sticks to your skin.

He positions his cock back between your thighs once he’s had his fill and quickly finds himself doubling his pace when he sees how wet you’re getting his cock without even having taken your panties off. “God, look at you. I don’t even need to fuck you to get you this wet. You just need to rub your ‘lil cunt against my cock and it’s enough for you, huh? I should make you sit on my lap, rub your pretty ‘lil pussy on my cock ‘til you’re cumming over and over again.”

“Ngh, yes! Fuck, Seungcheol! I--I can feel your c-cock throbbing between my l-legs… Please, please c-cum, mmh, all over my s-skin…”

“That’s right, baby. So fuckin’ desperate to be covered in it too. And always so fuckin’ pretty when you are.”

You let out a whimper as you try to focus on watching yourself just like Seungcheol had asked you to. Your lips are parted in soft breaths and you can’t seem to unfurrow your brows as Seungcheol chases his pleasure behind you.

angelhan: what if

angelhan: seungcheol in thigh highs lmao

universe_WZ: sub.cheol

sleepy_wonu: sub.cheol

universe_WZ: jinx

sleepy_wonu: fuck u

You lick your lips at the thought; although you knew Seungcheol would have a hard time relinquishing his dominating nature.

But your mind wanders as you continue to think about it; various images of Seungcheol tied up underneath you while you fucked yourself on his cock running through your mind. You let out a shaky moan, to which Seungcheol hums.

“What are you thinkin’ about, princess?”

“Um… ah, n-nothing…” He thrusts between your legs hard, making you jolt forward as you yelp.

“Princess...”

“I--ah! J-just thinking a-about… y-you tied up, ngh, to--to the bed and m-me fuh--fucking myself on your c-cock… ‘n me u-using, mmh, my toys o-on you...” Seungcheol smirks, pulling his cock from between your shaky thighs as he slightly pushes you over until you're on your back.

He spreads your legs as you look up at him and he’s quick to wrap a hand around his cock as he jerks himself off above you. “Oh, I bet you’d love that, wouldn’t you? I bet you’d be so cute trying to be the domme for a night.” Seungcheol teases.

You find yourself clenching around emptiness as you think of the possibilities. You definitely wanted to try it if Seungcheol was willing.

“Fuck, but first, gonna cover your pretty body with my cum.” He groans; thrusting up into his palm as he chases his high.

“C-cum all over me, Seungcheol…”

The donations and comments sound off in the back as you maintain eye contact with Seungcheol who’s brows furrow when he starts to feel himself about to cum. He scoots back a little; growling when his cock throbs in his grasp and he cums all over your, already, soaked panties.

You let out a moan when rivulets of cum hit your lower abdomen and you’re quick to reach down and scoop some up to bring to your mouth, smearing the warm substance against your puckered lips before licking it off. Whimpering, you dip your fingers into your mouth; this time pretending they were Seungcheol’s instead of your own.

He guides his cock until the head is aimed at your thighs; streaks of cum settling into the sheer material of your thigh highs. “God, you’re so damn pretty...” Groaning, he milks his cock for every drop of cum before he’s stopping to catch his breath.

“You came so much but I didn’t cum yet, ‘Cheol~” Pouting, you turn your head to the side to face the camera. “Tell him he has to make me cum now~”

kitty_junjun: well u heard the lady!!

hoshi_tiger_xx: make her cum and let her cream her cute lil panties even more

therealchan99: oh fuck yeah, get her off without fucking her cute cunt

Seungcheol leans over your body until the two of you are almost face to face, eyes twinkling with playfulness when you feel his sticky hand playing with your thigh highs again.

“D’you hear that? Let’s give them what they want, baby.”

The sounds of donations and comments once again get lost as Seungcheol finds himself on his knees between your legs.

“Ready?”

When you slide into bed after your camshow��s ended and Seungcheol has properly taken care of you, he’s quick to tug you into his chest.

The two of you let out soft sighs at the warmth that envelopes you both as you finally start to settle in for the night.

After a few minutes, Seungcheol clears his throat, catching you just before you drift off to sleep.

“This is so random but have you considered, I dunno, rebranding your channel… with me? I was thinking about it and kinda wanted your opinion...”

You blink up curiously at him, urging him to continue. “I mean, yeah, of course! I don’t really know where to start though since it’s always just been me. And to be honest, I wasn’t sure if you wanted to either so I never brought it up.” You snuggle into his warmth, yawning as the sleep threatens to take over.

“But let’s talk about it later, ‘cause ‘m tired now, ‘Cheol. You really didn’t have to make me cum twice…” You mumble, “I can still feel my legs shaking...”

His soft laugh reverberates in your chest and he’s quick to press a kiss against your hair as he tugs you in closer.

“It’s ‘cause I like to spoil you. And okay. I’ll remind you when you’re more conscious.”

“G’night, ‘Cheol...”

“Goodnight, baby.”

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tendouluvr · 3 years

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bakugō helping you clean your room - gn reader

- fluff, comfort

- warnings: doesnt exactly say depression but can be implied? reader will just say they lost motivation lately and felt like they couldn’t do anything bc its been a hard time but im leaving it as vague as possible so anyone can imply anything really, no swearing <3

- wc: 983

a/n: :o first writing post!! i got this idea when i saw a vid on my yt rec and it was a clean in real time w me vid i love cleaning vids

baku a lil ooc i think not sure i didnt wanna make him sound too harsh bc reader doesnt need that attitude rn but i hope he still sounds blunt enough for him to be bkg

p.s. this isnt edited and written in proper grammar. i use u, ur, lowercase, literally how i text so just a heads up. i’ll come back and rewrite this properly one day maybe

#! bakugō😑 hes loud

#! enters ur room by stomping until he realizes that there isnt floor space to stomp

#! adruptly stops and lets out one of his little “oh?” while he stares at ur lying body on the bed with ur head stuffed in between two pillows

#! “baby?” and he’ll get a grunt and a whine from u in return

#! “ur rooms a little... do u need help?” he mumbles

#! u slowly get up and look at him from across the room while mumbling something

#! “what? speak up”

#! he maneuvers his way thru ur room to u

#! “i said i havent had the motivation to do anything lately. its been hard for me to do much to be honest. im sorry it’s so messy, i know this wasnt what u were expecting when u came in”

#! “tch, don’t apologize. ur fine. i’ll clean it. wanna help?”

he starts clearing out all of the dirty laundry laying around ur room and while he does that u take ur time picking up some cups around ur desk area. u placed the used cups, some still had water and some was empty, into an empty basket laying around so u can bring it all out to the kitchen at once.

bakugō works fast so he was already done with picking up the dirty laundry and was now folding and hanging ur clean laundry thats just been sitting in the corner of ur room waiting to be put away.

“do u want to time urself? or do some countdown to help u stay focus or something?” bakugō asked u once he saw that u got distracted with some keychain on ur desk.

“hmm? oh, sure! sorry i just haven’t seen that keychain in a while heh.”

“it’s fine. here, use my phone and give urself however much time u need.”

“thank u katsu~,” u said, grabbing his phone and giving urself 10 minutes to pick up the remaining cups (and a plate but lets not talk abt that), go to the kitchen, and come back.

u made it back with almost 3 minutes remaining and decided to lay back down until the timer went off. bakugō was finishing up the last bit of ur laundry and was just organizing ur closet.

u heard the closet door close and brought ur head up to see bakugō walking towards u on the bed. he brought his arms out and u sat up to wrap ur arms around his waist while he’s standing, hugging ur shoulders.

“good job, baby. im hella proud of u. do u wanna keep resting? i can clean the rest.”

“no! i’ll help, what do i do?”

he lets out a low chuckle and tells u that u can go get a big trash bag from the kitchen so u guys can throw away any junks found while cleaning ur desk and shelves. bakugō began vacuuming, seeing that the floor was pretty much clear from any clutter that could get in the way, while u left to do ur task.

when u came back with the trash bag and some disinfecting wipes, he was halfway done vacuuming so u decided to start clearing out one of ur shelves. this was one of a few u have that holds some random books and figures that just so happens to be in ur room (yk those random stuff u find in ur room that u dont know where it came from but u do know abt it, yea im talking abt those)

u took everything out to wipe the shelf with the disinfecting wipes and then began sorting thru ur items so ur shelf can be less clustered. a little humming and sorting later, u finally decided on what to keep and what to throw and started putting it all back onto ur shelf.

bakugō just finished vacuuming and went over to u to help clean the other shelves so it’ll be done faster. he chose the top three shelves and took everything off at once. he wiped down all three and started sorting thru ur belongings, asking u now and then if u wanna keep something because he wasn’t sure. soft humming could be heard from u and echoing hums could be heard from bakugō.

bakugō has a good memory so he remembers where everything is suppose to go, so dont worry ur pretty little head abt him messing up ur stuff. after all, he does care abt u and everything related to u.

u were done with the two shelves he left u, so u went over to ur desk and repeated the taking everything out, wiping it down, and sorting process all over again for every corner of ur desk. bakugō eventually finished and came over to help ur last bit.

u were sitting on ur desk chair rearranging a small figure u have of ur favorite character from ur favorite show when bakugō suddenly lifted u up so he can sit on the chair and u on his lap.

u gasped at this and held onto his arms while he tightens his grip on u. after a moment and u guys settled down, u went back to ur figure while bakugō stuffed his soft face into the nape of ur neck. he leaves kisses on ur neck and shoulder before finally resting his chin onto ur shoulder.

“u did a great job today. if u ever need help remember im here for u, angel. u dont have to feel bad over something u cant control. i’ll keep telling u until it’s drilled into ur head, you’ll even hear it in ur sleep.”

at the last sentence u let out a quick laugh, but nodded ur head telling him u understand.

“i love u katsu.”

“hmm, love u more.”

#written with love - ar #this was longer than i intended #u gave the junk u guys found to ur classmates asking if they wanted anything and denki took majority of it. thanks denki #one mans trash is another mans treasure they say!! hell yea!#bakugo x reader #bakugo katuski x reader #bnha x reader #bakugo x gn!reader #katsuki x reader #katsuki x gn!reader #bakugo katsuki #mha x reader #bakugo comfort #bakugo fluff

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toutallyahoe · 3 years

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I don't should i commented on the post or not??? But uh, i would like fluffy headcanon with him. I JUST WANNA DIE FROM CUTENESS! That's it ^^. Again, love you so much! *blows a kiss aggressively*

a/n: its been awhile since i have written any bnha and also almost two years since i last touched any of content of it so sorry if i am a but clueless on some of the newer stuffs here (i just got too busy with other things i didnt manage to catch up on the plot so i gave up, sorry)

also, truly sorry if this took awhile. busy a bit and im literally wrote this while im in online class sooo, haha im going to fail again :'D

but anyways, one fluffy headcanons with the side character we all latched on to that psychology would probably say we all have daddy issues or something aizawa shōta!

hope this is alright :3

shōta loves cuddles

like, seriously

this tired mf loves cuddles and he will always, ALWAYS be the lil spoon

he doesnt know why he really likes being the lil spoon and frankly, he does not care

but the reason he finds it appealing to be the lil spoon is because he felt safe in [name]'s arms

also, hearing [name]'s heartbeat and lulling him to sleep is just great thing

like, shōta lost people he cared for in his life, a best friend in his high school made him terrified of lost and terrified to get close to people

so when he gave his heart to you, [name], hearing your heart beating and alive, it lessens shōta's anxiety and constant fearing of you flatlining

aizawa shōta is a rational kind of guy

but with you, [name], all rationality goes off the fucking window

shōta is in love with you

so fucking in love that he is fucking terrified

again, we established shōta fears lost of people he grown to love and care for

and if his [name] is a hero or atleast someone who's life is in danger on the job (e.g. firefighter, policeman, etc) please hug him when he arrives home

like, just hug him even if shōta tries to say he doesnt care about affection or whatnot

remind shōta you are there for him

just, hug him tightly please and mutter how you are still there with him and alive

anyways, gone a bit angst there sorry... lets go to some fluff again

shōta would absolutely love if his [name] would cook in the morning to prepare breakfast

actually, shōta cooks too if he wakes up earlier than you, [name]

but anyways, it just sweet and lovely to share the first meal of the day with a love one, you know?

and shōta, even grumbling that is too early in the morning as he begrudgingly sips his coffee, still enjoys it

he is happy to see you, [name] first thing in the morning

shōta is too in love with you to care if your hair has a messy looking bed head or anything

shōta would just softly smile at [name] as he either sleeps (if shōta wakes up first) or when you cook

speaking of sleep, shōta would actually wait for [name] to arrive (if you work ln late night shift) on the living room couch no matter how tired shōta is

again, shōta is afraid of you, [name], not coming back and he waits until he fallen asleep

there were times when you, [name], arrived to see shōta dozing off on the couch and immediately then groggily woke up when you carried him up to your shared bedroom

shōta would always sleepily grumble that you were late and then would doze off when you apologize and kiss his forehead

as long shōta knows [name] is alright, he'll sleep fine

another thing shōta likes besides hugs and cuddles are kisses

sure, shōta isnt fond of pda but on close doors, shōta wouldnt mind a kiss or two

forehead kisses are what shōta finds endearing

like, its innocent and sweet

when the both of you go off to work, before separating, shōta would require those kisses

a soft peck on his lips and then on his forehead even if shōta mutters that the latter kiss is a bit childish

shōta just lowkey adores it

anyways, shōta wouldnt say "i love you" a lot, especially in the start of both your relationship

shōta didnt want to get attach to you, [name]

shōta never thought that both your relationship would last this long and so, he tried to lock his heart up and built walls

but whoopsie daisy, you just had to fucking ruin it, didn't you [name]?

the first time shōta would say "i love you" to you [name] was around two months on both your relationship

it was a movie marathon the two of you did to just relax from the busy work schedule you both have

in the living room couch, lowkey cuddling and watching a random movie that suited both your interest, shōta was hit with the realization that maybe the two of you could work out

shōta just awkwardly mutter an "i love you" which absolutely surprise not only you but him aswell

with shōta be in denial and stuff, this was big thing for him and its honestly just fucking soft when shōta got a bit flustered and tried to focus on the movie while [name] soft softly smiling and looking fondly at him

like, no please stop

shōta doesnt meed more fucking reason to fall in love with you goddammit

but anyways, yeah

aizawa shōta is soft for his lover and would absolutely just be down to laze and cuddle around and sleep or watch some movies together and be domestic cute fuckers

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hwangskz · 4 years

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in another life (pt. 1) | soulmate! minho

part 1 of the uwma! au series !!!! i was so excited to get this up bcs, if u hadn't realised alrdy, i LOVE uwma with my entire heart :( (ps if any of u watch any bls or even just uwma pls hmu thank u) and pls read this post b4 or after ur done reading this fic so u don't get confused in the next part!! +++ tw suicide !

• "y/n….do u like him?"

• ur automatically reminded of the time u first met

• u remember it as clear as day

• u both had taken film as ur major and on the first day, ur college held a lil gathering

• u picked up the nearest headband and read it's label

• 'belle'

• so….were u supposed to find ur beast now???? JSGSSHE THAT'S WHAT THEY SAID

• BUT UR RUNNING OUT OF TIME !!!!!!

• "10 seconds to find ur partner!!!!"

• u looked around bcs u were NOT standing in front of that huge crowd, later trying to find ur partner

• when a boy caught ur eyes

• he stood on the side, his hand limply holding the blue headband as he looked around

• and he looked ?? sad :( ??

• "last 5 seconds!!!"

• u turned around one last time and ?? EVERYONE HAD FOUND THEIR PARTNERS ALREADY??

• so u RAN towards that boy

• and caught him off guard as u pulled him down to sit on the ground as the announcer continued talking and giving out future tasks

• "hey."

• "???"

• wow this boy is worse than YOU at communicating

• "are u sure we're partners??"

• "..."

• "right, yea. i was the one who dragged u..haha..sorry.."

• so u pulled his hand up to view his headband

• 'prince adam'

• u probably looked really confused rn bcs u just made the guy speak up

• "beast."

• u looked up, OBVIOUSLY confused

• this new voice box working??? wonder whose it is

• ":o huh?????"

• he sighed and held it up for u

• thank u nameless boy bcs ur hands kinda WERE getting tired JDKHD

• "prince adam is the real name of the prince in disney's beauty and the beast."

• ":OOO REALLY???? wait but how do u know"

• "..... google?"

• "... RIGHT sorry haha"

• even after the lil gathering ended and u got to go to ur class

• ur mind was still thinking abt the guy

• u probably didn't even notice u had entered the class w that DULL ASS look until

• "ouc- WHO THE F-???????"

• "still in ur dreams?? lmao dumbass"

• ":O SHIN RYUJIN"

• "this group needed the following of a sane person so im here too. hello to u too, y/n"

• "MISS YEJI??? PEOPLE THAT I KNOW AND CHERISH????? ˚‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥᷄⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ )‧º·˚ OMG HELLO TO U TOO"

• and there it was, once again, ryujin trying to get ur over affectionate ass off of her as yeji laughs

• well iN UR DEFENSE, U MISSED UR BEST FRIENDS AND MEETING NEW PEOPLE TERRIFIES U

• and when u take a seat

• u can't help but follow the movements of the boy who enters the class

• his moves aren't rushed; they seem calm. too calm.

• and that's when u hear all the whispers around u

• "is that blood on his shirt? is he already following in his dad's footsteps?"

• ‘what footsteps?’

• "i heard he dragged his partner today for the freshman gathering today?"

• ‘but i was the one who dragged him..then how-’

• "y/n?"

• "h-huh?"

• yeji's third call woke u up from ur train of thoughts

• "are u ok?"

• "yea.. i'm fine. dw!!"

• "see i told u they’re thinking abt their fantasy boys and/or girls again it's fine"

• "WH- EXCUSE ME I DON'T FANTASISE!!!!!"

• "yes y/n l/n i totally believe that"

• "SHUT UP RYUJIN"

• ur group's laughters echo in the room, along w the other friend groups'

• except for that boy who now sits in front of u

• u wonder if he's waiting for his friends

• but they never seem to show up

• even though it's alrdy been over 5 months now

• and that pretty boy in front of u is DISTRACTING u from the lesson (๑•ૅㅁ•๑) !!!!!

• and this one particular day..yeji and ryujin were absent..

• so u were kinda lonely anyways

• and hearing ppl continue to whisper abt that guy..it made u wanna talk to him again

• u don't know exactly why ?? but u did

• so u gathered up ur stuff from ur desk

• and sat at the desk next to his

• and immediately u could hear the whispers getting a bit louder

• and he ducked his head and turned towards u

• and u decided to ignore those words, and looked at him, with a bright smile on ur face

• "don't worry about them. i'm here now."

• it was something abt u

• something abt those words that made him feel some type of way

• he took in a deep breath as he looked down and then looked at u again

• "......thank you, i guess"

• u nodded and he turned towards his work

• a small smile on his face

• he had found someone

• "so?"

• ryujin asked u, bringing u back from ur flashback

•"yea..i think so.."

• yeji and ryujin sighed

• ur mind : ALERT

• IS IT BAD??? THAT U LIKE HIM???? (๑´╹‸╹`๑) ??

• "y/n...do u not know abt him..?"

• "(o゜ー゜o)??"

• they share a Look and turn towards u, worried looks on their faces

• OK YEA IT PROBABLY IS,,

• "he's the son of a mafia... that's why ppl talk abt him in such..hushed tones..and basically isolate him"

• "and look y/n..we know that isolating him is truly bad, but maybe get a little away? from him? what if u get involved in smthg bad?"

• u...ur honestly a lil shocked

• not fully by the news that his dad is a mafia

• but by the fact that they think something bad can happen when ur with him

• with HIM

• "but it's his dad who is a mafia. he's not at all like that !! he's a bit shy, and is just scared to express himself. and don't worry, yeji. i am not going to get myself in trouble"

• they muttered an "okay" and leaned back against their chairs again

• "but wait.."

• ryujin spoke up again

• "when did u even hangout w him? enough to, well, get feelings for him?"

• "uh well..that day both of u were absent, i went and sat w him in class..then shared some of my lunch w him when i saw him on the rooftop..and kind of having been bringing him lunch and staying w him..during that time.."

• they laughed, and u could feel the tension easing away

• "never knew y/n's a dom lmao"

• "they seem like a switch tho"

• "SHUT UP"

• and so u did join the guy

• (who's name u had learned to be lee minho)

• whenever u found him to be lonely

• and even tho minho seemed to be against the whole idea of u joining him all the time

• trust me he's a whole softie inside

• he just ;;;; he gets so happy whenever u come by

• and not just bring him lunch

• and not only during lunch breaks

• but all the time

• whenever he passes by u

• u always greet him, and

• wave at him and u just feel like a shield from everyone and all the bad things everyone says and he just

• he can't thank u enough

• but it's not just that

• and he knows that

• even when he sees u coming towards him in the library

• sneaking in some food bcs it IS lunch

• so technically u ARE supposed to bring him food

• "hey !! :D"

• u take the chair in front of him

• and take out the food, both of urs, and shove his one towards him

• "WHY-"

• minho shushes u and u turn around to look if u made anyone else angry

• and perhaps...... u DID.... AJSBBE

• so u just duck ur head as an apology and the furious students go back to studying

• "why are u studying rn???? it's lunch!!!!!"

• "ok and??"

• "rest is important!!"

• "what makes u think i haven't rested enough alrdy?"

• "well i've seen u w the book the ENTIRE DAY ??"

• minho sighs, but then perks his head up

• "u..u watch me..?"

• "!! im not a STALKER-"

• minho shushes u again and ur pretty sure the other students r staring daggers at u rn JDVSJE

• "-im not a stalker,, ur in my class.. right in front of me.."

• minho chuckles silently at ur words

• "sure"

• u were flustered until u realised u just

• u just made the biggest tsundere chuckle

• c h u c k l e

• "did u just …….. chuckle at me…….."

• minho looked down, scared to meet ur eyes bcs shit ur rite

• "no…….what makes u think that………"

• u giggle at his failed attempt to delete that successful moment from ur memory

• minho smiles a little

• he was so happy

• even tho it was abt u

• even tho u had made it CRYSTAL CLEAR that u like him

• like at random times u would be like

• "damn i can't believe i fell for u"

• or

• "oh good lord!! i always try to hangout w the guy i like but he pretends to not like spending time with me!!!!!!! what did i do to deserve this !!!!!!"

• and in these situations what does minho do??

• LAUGH .

• he LAUGHS

• just a bit bcs he's still under that tsundere cover JSGSJSB

• but like !!!!!!! in his defense !!!!!!!

• HE DIDNT KNOW IF U TRULY MEANT IT !!!!!!!

• MAYBE U LIKE HIM JUST AS A FRIEND !!!!!!!!!!!!

• AND HE DIDN'T WANT TO RUIN THIS FRIENDSHIP !!!!!!!!

• that too w his first ever friend..................

• little did he know he was truly so engrossed in his thoughts that he had stopped eating and had been staring at the sky above for like ??? more than 5 mins now ??

• "MINHO ???????"

• he flinched and moved away a bit at the sound of ur voice suddenly piercing his thoughts

• "w-what"

• "bitch i thought u died or smthg...u have been staring above for so long pretty sure some flies even touched ur food and it's now UNHYGIENIC"

• his eyes met urs and, as if he got some idea, he suddenly kept his lunch box away to look at u

• "wait im pretty sure the flies didn't sit on the food!!!! it was a joke-"

• minho exhaled loudly before he spoke

• "y/n?"

• "yes…?"

• "can i ask u smthg…..?"

• "sure!!"

• minho inhaled sharply before continuing

• "do u ever feel uncomfortable? when ur with me?"

• u thought for a while, before giving him a smile and answering him

• "why would i? idk if ur referring to the rumors here...or if they're supposed to be involved here but...they don't affect me. firstly, i don't even know if ur dad truly is a part of the mafia-"

• "he is."

• minho was staring at u intently, wondering how u'll respond to this

• "well, uh, nice for him? i guess? but it's him right? not u? then there's nothing to worry about."

• minho shook his head as he tried to look anywhere but at u

• "but what if u ever get in trouble? bcs of me?"

• "that's on me. not u. and if it's through u, or if u ever get in trouble or smthg-"

• u picked his hand up, holding it tightly, which seemed to catch him off guard

• "-i will protect u."

• he could do nothing but give u a soft smile, before turning his head away

• and so did u bcs damn y/n since when did u become so confident huh JDVSJE

• so u decided to go for it

• "y/n, will u be my partne-"

• u gently pecked his lips before moving away real QUICK JSGEJE

• WAS HE ABT TO CONFESS ???????????

• WHY ARE HIS EYES WIDENED LIKE THAT?????????? DID U

• OH NO U DID SOMETHING WRONG DIDN'T U

• "i-i'm sorry….i didn't mean to-"

• and u looked up in time, only to see minho leaning in, before he connected his lips to urs

• it was a slow kiss

• it took u a while to get the fact into ur head that he's right here

• he is kissing u

• and so u snaked ur arms across his shoulders, as he held u tight, even closer

• and when u both pulled away

• both of u were flushed red

• and it did feel kinda quiet so u just

• "damn im glad we have lunch on the rooftop, huh"

• minho chuckled as he moved away

• "kinda ….. yes"

• and so for the next months u continued to tease him with this JDGSJS

• even tho yall are technically dating now uwu

• but he never tells u he likes u

• which is : frustrating

• bcs u !!!!!! UR THE BIGGEST OVERTHINKER EVER !!!!!!

• ENOUGH TO WIN A CHAMPIONSHIP !!!!!!!!!

• and the fact that EVEN THO he's ur bf and u KNOW it, u continue to be curious if he even likes u :(

• so u just slam ur spoon on the table

• which makes him look up

• "what? is the ramen too spicy?"

• u shoot ur head towards him, a pout on ur face

• "do u like me?"

• ".........what"

• JSHSKWKKW

• Y/N PLS

• "u never….u have never said u like me…...and yea sure im not supposed to question this bcs ur my boyfriend and i know that but im sorry i overthink alot and it's just me saying i like u all the time but not u and i just can't help but-"

• "i …….. i like."

• "huh?"

• u shoot ur head upwards at minho, who now gets up to keep his empty bowl in ur kitchen sink, with a grin along ur face

• "u heard me."

• and u wish u could still be as happy as u were on this day

• when he first confessed

• well, half-confessed

• but u couldn't be

• even as he stood in front of u, saying that he loves u

• and he's grateful for u

• u couldn't stop the tears that continued to stream down ur cheeks

• ur eyes could only focus on the gun that he held right beside his temple

• his dad used to send people behind minho whenever u two went on a date

• "he wants me to go on w his job after he resigns" minho had once told on one of ur dates

• "do u want to?"

• "no, obviously-"

• he held ur hand in his

• "i want to be with u"

• then why

• why was he standing there, with that gun

• that stupid gun aimed at his temple?

• today while u had closed ur eyes, wishing for something, like minho had told u when he brought that birthday cake for u out of nowhere while u and minho were having ur date

• u opened ur eyes when u heard a muffled voice screaming loudly

• only to find it was minho's

• which confused u when u saw the hand covering his mouth

• but surprised u, when u saw his dad standing right behind him

• he kept pulling minho away from u

• minho yelled, tried to free himself away

• but couldn't

• until u yelled at his dad to stop

• and minho dropped on the ground, with his wrists red from being grasped so tightly

• u went on and on abt how he has made minho feel and what minho truly wants

• u had shut ur eyes out of fear

• but u had opened them to see what minho truly wants

• death ;

• an escape

• from all of this

• and so he spoke one more time

• "y/n. remember, i love you, okay? i….i'll always keep my promise."

• and then, a gunshot.

• u weren't sure if time had stopped or if it was just u frozen

• but u could only hear a beep sound going in ur ears as his body dropped on the ground

• limp.

• and at once u leapt towards him, sobbing, u fell to ur knees, ur hands grazing his cheeks and gently hitting his chest

• "y/n…. i don't know how to go on…"

• he had told u this months ago, when u guys had been dating for abt 5 months then

• "minho, we'll always be together, no matter what. i, at least, will be there for u, always."

• minho had looked at u with tears in his eyes

• he rlly was so stupidly in love w u

• "but what if i...die...someday?"

• u sighed and turned to look at the night sky

• at least none of his dad's assistants had found out abt ur place yet

• (thankfully)

• u turned to look at him again

• "then...i'll die too."

• so that's what u were gonna do

• u searched for the pistol, as u blinked several times to focus properly

• when u finally found it, ur hands shakily reached for it

• and then as u aimed it at ur own temple

• the last part of that conversation popped into ur head again

• "then, will we meet each other in next life?"

• minho thought abt it for a few secs

• "probably"

• u nodded

• "i once heard that...when u fall for someone at first sight, it probably just means that we're recognising our partner's soul from our past life….do u think that will happen w us? do u think we'll…. we'll recognise each other?"

• "...i hope so…."

• u both let out a stifled laugh

• and so u stick ur pinky finger out, asking for his

• "minho."

• "yes?"

• "promise me."

• "promise what?"

• "promise that…...that we'll find each other.."

• minho was abt to argue w u but seeing ur lil pout

• he had no choice but to agree

• "promise."

• and so, another gunshot was heard.

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synthcabbit · 5 years

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im gonna complain about how shitty tumblr is and what it made me into for a second

tumblr has been a safe haven for me since i first joined in the beginning of 2012. i made so many friends who im still friends with today. its helped me figure myself out with gender and sexuality as well.

i started getting into discourse around late 2013 - early 2014, at the time i was considered 'anti sjw'. i had some harassment a little before that even while i wasnt too open about shit but it became a very big issue. there were a group of users (who i still very much loathe) that had harassed me and my friends pretty fucking badly. for me it got to the point to where i deleted (kinda the worst decision). yes at the time i was a little shit but i absolutely did not deserve what fucking happened. i had callout posts (which is fine because i was a lil shit, thats normal), but i was also being misgendered (i was very early into questioning my gender) by certain users, threatened, and degraded which was really uncalled for (mostly by said certain users). i will always hate those users, mostly that particular one (some of you know exactly who im talking about)

a former friend made a post during this time about how i was manipulative (when we talked i literally only tried my best to reassure her that if she was uncomfortable with a convo topic that she didnt have to talk about it. i also vented to her about my living situation) and it kinda really fucked me up. from that little post is where i began to start to feel like i was actually manipulative anyways. it was the beginning of being scared to talk about my situations and feelings in fear i was manipulating people

so i of course remade like a couple days later because tumblr was very much still important to me despite the bullshit. i was still heavy af into discourse tho. anyways, i dont think i really tried to bother too much with those users anymore. there were still fights every now and then but i just ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. after a while i apologized to a certain one for being a shithead to them, i wanted to be friends and so we started talkin a little bit and we did become friends. unfortunately we dont talk anymore tho.

i slowly became more leftist, kinda doing a 180 (tho i was not a rightwinger. i kinda never really was but i called myself an egalitarian and on tumblr its kinda a different story). i learned more about topics, i learned what otherkin actually was (because i was anti due to the trolls that i took seriously) and it helped me out so much with my spirituality and helped me discover a VERY vital part of my being. for that i am very happy for.

after my discovery and kinda half diagnosis of bpd, i followed a hefty amount of bpd blogs, both support blogs and other folks with it. it was nice but after a while id see a lot of shit basically saying shit like 'if youre in a relationship and you ask what your partner is doing/where they are/etc then youre a manipulative abusive asshole'. that also scarred me because i just get curious about my bf if hes late from comin home from work or just in general. i dont have ill intensions like i just wanna know so i know. tumblrs mindset with this stuff and wow if you even just THINK about where your partner is/etc etc then youre abusive and should die. or if you discuss your emotional frustrations your manipulative. that shit fucked me up so much to the point where i constantly think im really manipulative when i talk about anything thats bothering me or showing negative emotions or just anything like that. im always fucking scared that im being abusive to my bf if im not comfortable with something or whatever. it fucked me up big time.

so kinda more recently within like 2017, i fell heavily into ace discourse. it was fucking stupid and i hate myself for getting into exclusionist bullshit. before this i was very supportive of ace folks as part of the lgbt community. idk why i even bothered getting into that. im not an exclusionist anymore. i had to force myself to become distanced from it because it constantly got me fucking pissed. thats what helped me come to my senses and get rid of that dumbass mindset that was literally only a tumblr exclusive issue.

ive seen so many bullshit hot takes and reaches on that site that its beyond mind boggling. its an incredibly toxic site and despite not regretting making one, i regret ever getting into discourse. its definitely not that bad if you dont bother with discourse. but oh my god its fucking disgusting. i hate the site yet im still on it. really ive just been on there so long that ill go down with its downfall. im not deleting until im deleted kinda deal. i dont really go on there as much as i used to, im mainly on here really. but i try not to focus on discourse on there anymore. im mostly there for art, aesthetic stuff, photography, and of course dumb shitposts and vents. if i engage in discourse its normally with dealing with anti kin and rarely syscourse.

to conclude, tumblr is not a good place for your mental health. it has fucked me up as stated above. i feel bad for all the young teens who get on there and get sucked into all that bullshit.

#i originally posted this on fb but copy paste onto here because lol

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gothic-gnosis · 2 years

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i know you might not text me ever again

but i wanna get out how im feeling. so a tumblr post will suffice.

i miss you a lot. a lot more than i really admit. i'm sorry.

it really sucks that i cant ever say anything to your face. or i just push and push. i lied about you not being my favorite person. obviously, you caught on but you have to understand. i dont wanna get hurt. i dont want to be pushed away or rejected or told i'm crazy. i didnt want you to leave. i didnt mean to push you into not talking to me ever again. i'm sorry for pushing that on you when you had enough going on. like wtf dude LMFAO that was kinda rlly fucking awful. and it hurt pretty bad too.

which isnt your fault, i'm not blaming you or asking for an apology or anything considering i hurt my own feelings. but holy shit, did that fucking hurt.

you obviously know i smoke a lot of weed but its gotten so much worse because now i smoke everytime i think of you. i miss you so bad but i feel like i shouldnt. i shouldnt have let myself fp you. i shouldve avoided you. this wouldnt be happening if id taken my own advice and taken the hint that i shouldve left you alone.

i dont think i deserve really. anything from you. i dont even know why you kept responding to me, i mean. i know that i text pretty heavily and never take hints ever but wtf dude. i mean, i know i asked that one time and you hit me with the uno reserve but damn dude. i be overthinkin like everything.

i think about the time you tied my boots a lot. i even took a photo after cause im a psycho and wanted the photo. but tiktok told me only boys who like u do that.

and then it hits me. u were probably only nice to me because you wanted to fuck. ooops. and the worst part is, i was being obsessive without even realizing. like i recognized "ok, dont fp this person cos ull get hurt like a dumbass" but. see, the thing is, you told me i was pretty. and now i wanna fucking die. i feel like god now, people see my face for the first time and it always becomes topic of discussion, and i dont bring it up first. like.. coworkers comment on my face, like my nose being straight and my cheekbones like.. thats what people notice after my eyes, my literal favorite feature. i even put a fucking needle through my face over it LMFAO. like now my egos a lil bit inflated. the thing is. everybody is pretty here. really pretty. we live in fucking san diego and are surrounded by like. rlly rich ppl who can afford body mods and shit. if people are telling me im pretty, i dont think theyre lying anymore. especially being in the beauty industry..

OH I FORGOT TO MENTION

i found out i have pretty privilege. like.. imagine. me being pretty enough to get stuff just cause of it. like, i have no job history or really any experience at all in customer service or hair at all after graduating school. my first job EVER was the salon. and they never fucking hire people without hella experience, im SO fucking under qualified but cause im tiny pretty goth girl with fuckin JOKES and shit, how tf can u pass up my dumb ass LMFAO

also, idk if you see me on ur fyp cause i exist on tiktok now. prolly not, cause im dumb. i feel like one day ill think about this and think its hilarious cause im not only oblivious but fucking Stupid.

i know one day youll text back. only when youre ready though. i think our relationship will definitely stay platonic considering i'm moving to seattle in less than a month and you seem like you kinda depend on fucking something, my dude. LIKE HONESTLY YOU KINDA TOLD ME SO MANY SUSPECT THINGS AND I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE. DUDE THATS SO BAD. i def feel like youre lying about your body count, but i definitely believe ur a thot who're, sir.

anyways im back after getting high and listening to bowie. uh. its 2:22.

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kyberled · 7 years

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Entire infodump under here for anyone who wants to see it \o/ (mostly just my own responses to cut down on length so there’s a lack of context to some of my reactions lmao)

kyberled

sent a post: Doing some warm-u...

they r these friends

I don't have a name for them yet but they helped Braig and vice versa and kept each other safe during the Grau Tessk incident

They don't have a lot of outside contact with the rest of the galaxy and until the war started didn't at all

They r very tall and very furry and have big eyes

But they have a tradition of wearing masks around strangers (they initially thought the clones' helmets were the same thing) (They took their masks off around Braig and the surviving troops after a few weeks in the tunnels and that is a sign of friendship and trust in their culture)

The masks were originally for camouflage when hunting or fighting but came to have cultural significance. Adults have masks of wood, children usually wear leaves or woven grass cause its lighter and also they grow out of them fast

If you are important you are allowed to decorate ur mask with leaves and flowers :0 Different combinations mean different things

The one in the first picture is Goann, an influential Elder, and his flowers and leaves mean that he is very good at negotiating peace between villages

The two fronds on either side represent the villages and the flowers in between show meeting and peace so it's pretty straight forward but there can be some pretty elaborate headdresses

Since they had minimal contact with others they don't actually speak much Basic?? Which means that it was very difficult to send out a call for help when Grau came

And those that were captured didn't even know what they were being asked to do :( Which resulted in a lot of I WILL TALK VERY SLOW AN LOUD BECAUSE THAT MUST HELP and they have sensitive ears so It Did Not

Communication was best done with lots of pointing and drawing pictures

duskisms

is that why braiggo had his notebook out?

kyberled

The ones who were in the tunnels speak the best Basic because of Braig and the clones but it's this weird mix of Posh Jedi and Slang-Filled Soldier jargon

It is!! He was also drawing the things he saw on the planet And once he started learning their language he made a lexicon and would write about what he learned about their culture and planet so he could bring it back to the Temple (and he would read it aloud to them too so they could correct it)

Since they don't show their face to strangers they paint designs on their chests and arms and hands to convey a bit of information about themselves, like where they're from and stuff

it is V Suspicious to meet someone with no paint unless they are a tiny baby

or a Braig

he did not have paint

They thought he was a baby tho because he was so tiny by comparison so nobody really minded

they were wondering where his parents were the entire time

Tried to ask Commander Dash if he was Braig's dad and Dash had 0 idea what they were saying so he just said "sure, yeah, yes"

And they knew what yes meant!! So in the tunnels they offered Braig condolences about his father's death and Braig was like ???????????!?!?!?!?!?

(explaining that he was a good 2-3 years OLDER than Dash was wild to them)

Also they like dancing!!!

Song and dance is how they tell their stories but also a way of them to practise fighting

YEAH THEY JUST THOUGHT DASH WAS BRAIGS ACTUAL BIO FATHER

THEY HAD NEVER SEEN HIM WITHOUT HIS HELMET EITHER SO WHEN THE CLONES ALL HAD THE SAME FACE THEY WERE CONFUSED BUT DIDNT WANNA BE RUDE AND POINT IT OUT

It's also REALLY TABOO in their culture to make negative comments about someone's appearance? (at least facially) cause seeing their face again is a sign of trust

so they were all just. quietly baffled and none of the outsiders knew why

But yes!! they do a lot of dancing in their culture (Braiggo was v excited to learn)

And there are two forms of dance that are most common, called Ta'i'i-Ahé and Ta'olo-Ahé and the Republic citizens assumed it was Women's Dance and Men's Dance because it looked like it was divided that way

It's actually Little Self Dance/Little Body Dance and Big Self/Body Dance

So sure in this species most females are smaller than males but if a tiny lean/slender male like Braig was around he'd to Ta'i'i-Ahé or Little Self Dance and nobody would care

duskisms

!!! :O are they similar or v different?

kyberled

Similarly a taller broader female could do Ta'olo-Ahé and it'd be fine

They don't even have a gender binary they have common pronouns that translate to he/him, she/hers, they/them, and then two sets that don't translate: one for fluidity and one for someone who isn't sure and you would often put a mark on your chest in the paintings that would indicate which one you use

They are! :D it's a way of storytelling, but also practising fighting and hunting manoeuvres, so Little Self dances are made to help cultivate speed and agility and flexibility, which is really important for tiny people who fight

And Big Self focuses more on strength, balance, and using reach to your advantage, which are better for big people

And because of different movements being used they tell stories very differently

Neither one was seen as superior

They were just different and suited for different things, and some of the best dances and stories were made when Big Self dancers and Little Self dancers worked together

And ofc there are different styles from different communities and even in the same one!! Like maybe you're a hunter so your moves and dance reflects that and it would look different from someone who was more focused on being a warrior

At this big annual gathering they had there would be contests for Big Self, Little Self, and mixed dances and there would be like

Elders going IT DIDN'T LOOK LIKE THAT IN M Y T I M E

And tiny little ones who had never been to the celebration before and hardly recognised the dances from far off communities

and friends would meet up and exchange dance moves from their homes like actual gifts

And they'd have this huge party every year

There's a sacred spot for them on their planet where the trees grow HUGE because of the mineral content in the soil and chemicals in the air due to volcanic vents

And the vents are at the bottom of this MASSIVE ravine/circular canyon and there are so many that there are always some going off

And at the centre of the canyon there's the biggest, oldest tree on the planet; It's massive, and its roots wrapping around the pillar it's on is the only reason the pillar never fell over

And one thing that the people there do as a ritual/rite of passage is take one of the leaves from the big trees on their end and essentially use it like a hang glider

And use the volcanic vents to fly over!! Their big ears let them hear where the next burst of steam will be and help them vent heat, and their fur helps them keep from getting scalded

You can go one at a time or use a big leaf and go two at a time, but you generally only go with family or a very close friend because you have to be really in sync to steer the leaf properly

One thing people do to show off is have one person take a big leaf and jump, and then the second person jumps after them and grabs onto the leaf from there, but this is v dangerous and only practised gliders do it

And people live around the canyon in villages and towns but!! It's against their law to ban someone from going across

And like I said it's a rite of passage, so someone will sail over on their own, grab a fruit or flower depending on season, and sail back

and if you make it the village you left from will celebrate like you're one of their own even if you're not because it's A HUGE DEAL culturally

so lil kiddos come back to crowds gathered along the canyon cheering and celebrating for them and they get a necklace or someth and if they have to travel back home

usually they get given some food too like it's massive for them

They used to use that tree as a meeting place when the species was really young but as their medicine and stuff advanced and their life expectancy increased it got harder and harder for old folks to go across

and they tried for a year or two just sending young people across to have all the communities meet but they all decided it's better to have the older folks present anyway so now they have meetings at towns around the canyon and it cycles through all of them (cause the canyon and tree are also at the centre of their country/land)

If you're the host town you gotta put on a huge feast but everyone else will bring presents pf food or jewellery or blankets or tools or w/e And there are pleasantries and parties and apologies for past wrongs and it's a good time for big treaties and generally a time for peace to be made and friends to be met again

It was basically like a big state fair!! There'd be dance competitions, hunting competitions, sparring matches, different crafts competitions

And also just non-competitive dances that were often used to update people on goings-on with that particular town or whatever

It wasn't uncommon to see friends from different villages trying to make a dance together to tell the story of their meeting up again at that gathering

But due to differing local styles there would be difficulties but that just made it more fun

So there'd be a lot of lil kiddos giggling and stumbling over their own feet trying to mesh what they knew

And old folks with slower creaky movements who could do it fluidly because they'd been dancing together every year since they were that small

Grau Tessk tried to destroy the tree when he came to their planet :(((

At first he wanted to build his palace there, but he couldn't get over there because the vents made a lot of steam and also gave off a lot of magnetic energy that friend ships' nav systems so he could not fly

the droids couldn't hear well enough and didn't have the instincts to predict the steam when they tried to use the leaves and he wasn't going to try himself

And the one time he finally was able to make the locals go over in spite of the jank communication

They just grabbed their leaves sailed over and hid

didn't come back

until some more of their own people came and told them it was safe again months later

So Grau decided he was gonna build his fortress on the other side of the canyon and just have a giant canon built on so he could blast the tree out of existence

But the locals were able to stall production as best as they could, and the Jedi finally came back and destroyed the entire thing before it was finished

So the tree is fine!! And after the Seps were gone all the young people who could go over went and painted the story of the angry lizard man and his strange cold friends on the trunk(they paint stories on it, have for countless generations. They don't carve into its bark ever EVER because they don't want to hurt their tree)

and then they brought back fruit for the old people and the little babies who can't make the trip so they could also feel connected to their tree

and they used the seeds from the fruit to plant more trees to start to heal the damage the separatists caused to their planet

at the next meeting they had they all talked about how well their new trees were growing

And the people who'd been in the tunnels brushed each other up on their Basic and came together to help teach people so they could communicate better in the future and make sure that they could understand the Republic (both out of respect for the Republic and to make sure their own demands would be met and laws honoured irt their planet and affairs)

(Since Braig was probably one of the only people in the Republic who understood their language, aside from the clones he was with, he was sent back to visit [do some mission] once and they gave him a seed from their tree to bring back to the Temple and plant there, as a symbol of friendship between their people and the Jedi)

As a last lil note it's worth mentioning that they'd have Peace Councils, Communal or Internal Affairs Councils,Hunting Councils and War Councils in their governments

And usually all the councils would work together as one big one; The difference was that like. The hunting council was made up of the best hunters, the war council of the best warriors, etc

and each would also manage its own thing but they'd work together

In times of war tho the War and Peace councils would both take the lead; The Peace council's job was to try and find a solution to the fighting as best they could, the war council to prepare the people to fight and make sure their homes were safe

and you can't have one without the other. Like it'd be seen as a HUGE problem if the Peace Council of one community DIDN'T have an equal part in wartime discussions, cause that'd symbolise that you don't want the fighting to end

and while hunters and warriors could, in practise, take each other's jobs/roles with no sweat bc they're similar, there are very different rituals and rules and whatnot for each

They did!! He planted it in his favourite temple garden and got permission for the clones who were there to be allowed in to help

and he'd go back to meditate by that lil sapling a lot whenever he was at the temple

he lovs his smol tree

#i need a grau tessk incident tag #for now #i'll just put it under his #Grau Tessk #&& give the sun a head start; ooc #&& temple archives; headcanons #&& scars reveal us; grau tessk #&& vast and beautiful; the galaxy

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sunsapphic-callout · 7 years

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ok so here’s the stuff about lauren!

i orignally made a post like this on my vent / personal but im gonna clean it up and add screenshots to make it less vague (nobody who follows the blog that had the original post knows lauren so i didnt think it was necessary to be specific). i know this post is gonna make it real obvious who i am for people who were involved, and if lauren ever comes on this blog she’ll know exactly who i am, but i’m willing to take that risk and be as specific as i can be because uhhhh this shit is gross and i’m PISSED.

my boyfriend and i wanted to get involved in the the adventure zone kin community, and since we’re both 18, we wanted to make a chat specifically for adult taz fans who were also kin, because we knew kin communities have a lot of people trying to find their lovers and stuff and we didn’t wanna make it weird for minors and adults to mingle just in case. we didn’t really do much by way of getting it out there, just posted a simple link to it and tagged it, and lauren was one of the first people to join.

i didn’t know lauren personally at the time, but i was a fan of the content she posted on her taz-specific blog, listen/kitty/cat (i think it was a different URL at the time and she changed it, but i cant recall what it is for the life of me). me and my boyfriend were really excited because we recognized her, and we gushed that we were fans of her content.

important things to note before i continue: me and lauren are both kin with taako, tho i am a fictive in a system (it doesnt change anything, i just wanna be transparent). my boyfriend is kin with magnus. my boyfriend and i had been together for a little while before making this chat. in both mine and lauren’s “canon”, taako was romantically involved w/magnus.

my bf and i are very blatantly involved. we tried to keep PDA out of the chat in obtrusive ways or ways that would make people uncomfortable, but we didn’t try and hide that we were dating. hell, in our introductions in the discord chat, we talked about loving each other.

to put it plainly, lauren treated my boyfriend like he was hers, even from the beginning. it was like i wasn’t there, or like i didn’t exist to her. like lauren, i have BPD, and i know i can be possessive and jealous, but i remember i told my boyfriend like immediately that i was rubbed the wrong way a little by the way she was talking to him. he said he didn’t see anything wrong with it, so i chalked it up to my assumption and jealousy, and i did my best to ignore it.

eventually i leave the group chat because i just get too jealous about petty little things that i know weren’t her fault and were just affecting my mood. another system member who is taz kin joins the chat as a mod.

a lil bit passes and lauren invited a new magnus kin to the chat, who we will call X simply because i don’t want him to get involved directly. he’s a pretty famous taz artist, and he draws magnus/taako. i don’t know the full detail behind their relationship, or whether they were even in an official relationship, but i do know that it started with lauren saying he was ‘her magnus’ and ended with X leaving the group chat and lauren talking shit about him. i don’t know the full story and i thought it was justified but after finding this blog and learning her history about calling people abusive for leaving her for their health / because she’s being manipulative…. idk. not making any assumptions anymore.

skip ahead to a little bit longer. lauren is sad about not having 'her magnus’ when a new magnus kin joins the chat (we’ll use B), and lauren did the same thing she did with X. she got attached extremely quickly, talked about how she had found Her Magnus, and then when B doesn’t give her… something??… she moves on from him. starts getting upset again that she doesn’t have 'her magnus’.

i rejoin the chat at some point, separate from the one my other system member uses. it’s not a big deal, i just feel ready to come back and move on from the suspicion i have about lauren.

here’s the part that finally directly involves my boyfriend and i.

my boyfriend is, like, a well meaning guy. he likes helping people and he likes when people are happy. so he started compiling a list of all the magnuses around her age that had posted in the taz kin community tags. and he tells her something like “until you find who you’re looking for, i’ll keep your heart warm”, which he has acknowledged to both me & lauren could have been taken as romantic language, though he didnt intend it that way. so, lauren starts talking to him and at first it’s casual, but he says that a lot of the conversations took a turn towards the flirty. apparently one night while i was asleep the chat played truth or dare & fuck marry kill and my boyfriend was like “fuck taako” every time talking about me, and said something jokingly about giving good oral (it’s an 18+ chat, so it isn’t weird for us to joke about nsfw) and lauren made it weird and sexual about the two of them and not, like, me & my bf?

i didn’t know about any of this until he told me, but i wouldn’t ever police my boyfriend’s conversations so i wasn’t like asking about it or anything.

the climax of this encounter with my boyfriend goes like this: i’m asleep (i work 9 or 10 hour shifts late into the night and if i lay down right when i get home i pass out immediately, like this night), and lauren calls my boyfriend because she’s somewhere alone at night and she’s afraid. since her and my boyfriend are friends, he gladly does so.

he’s awake playing stardew valley anyway, and so they’re talking about it, and their conversation takes a turn towards romance (you can date & marry people in sdv) and then to sex (idk how this topic got brought up personally). and according to my bf, lauren is being flirty and the oral sex thing gets brought up again, and my bf is joking that he’s the king of oral.

(this conversation is paraphrased and according to my boyfriend it was a lot more uncomfortable than it seems written here)

lauren says “yeah, well, prove it”, and my bf is like “i can’t, haha” trying to play it off and diffuse the situation, and lauren is like “you were talking such a big game before and now you’re afraid to back it up!” and my bf is like “nah, i can’t, that’s literally impossible…” and lauren is like “yeah, you’re so far away….”

at this point my boyfriend is like “i dont want to continue this conversation because i don’t want to be the replacement X first of all, and second of all i’m like… in a committed relationship”. and lauren immediately hangs up the call, and gets really upset, and vague posts about my boyfriend on her vent and tells him she took a bunch of pills ? and she vagues about him all the next day too, knowing he can see it because he has the url, talking about how nobody ever sticks around and that she’s going to be alone forever or whatever even though they were literally never dating?

my bf and i have talked extensively about this, and i’ve explained how even though he didn’t intend for it to be a flirtatious friendship, it *was*, even if he didn’t realize it. i understand this, because he’s just the type of person who showers everyone he knows in compliments.

but lauren knew. how do i know? my boyfriend sends me a screenshot of a set of posts she’s made. she KNEW this kind of interaction was wrong and she has a thing for my boyfriend despite that…….

another few days pass and there’s a new magnus kin in the chat, and suddenly they’re head over heels in love with him and they’re feeling so many feelings in their chest or whatever and they feel like 'this is the one’ the FIRST night they interact…

my boyfriend messages lauren and apologizes for having interacted in a way that was flirtatious, even if he didnt intend for it to be. lauren snubs him by saying “because of you, i met someone who is writing a list of all the good things about me”, and so my bf doesn’t reply.

and then this magnus kin has to step away for their mental health… and lauren goes right back to talking about how she’s going to be alone forever and how nobody ever stays with her?

and right after this, she messages my boyfriend apologizing for snubbing his apology.

it seems awfully suspect that she’s hopping from magnus to magnus in a group chat imo, and basically what i’m thinking (and my boyfriend has told me he feels this way after personally interacting with her) is that lauren only cares about people who are magnus kin because of their ID, and not because they’re their own people? like, she’s using hers and their IDs to hop from person to person who will give her attention and then call the people who step away for mental health reasons or because they’re made uncomfortable the bad guys??? shes trying to make people into a one-dimensional character whose only dimension is 'being in love with taako’ (and by extension whose only dimension is being in love w/her)

i don’t understand why lauren tried to initiate phone sex with my boyfriend, knowing that i exist and having talked to me about X literally not even a week prior. i don’t understand why she hasn’t tried to talk to me despite “knowing it was wrong”. i don’t understand why lauren is clinging to people over and ID and discarding them like they never existed once they assert that they are also people with feelings…………………..

basically if u are kin w/magnus and u are 18+…………………….. be fucking wary. and if u are kin w/taako and you have a boyfriend who is kin w/magnus, keep him far away from lauren or else she might try to initiate phone sex with your boyfriend and get mad when he asserts that hes in a happy relationship and isnt interested……

note: im waiting on my bfs account of their interactions to be accurate but if you want to you can post this on its own!

#i didn't think she was still at it jesus #sunsapphic #listenkittycat #spacetaako #thekinzone #submission

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