#anyway. yeah. just. oof.

[sureuncertainty]

at least now i've gone through an important tumblr rite of passage, watching a longtime mutual become a radfem :/

#the thing that really got me was that they were talking about their morality ocd triggering them about it #bc of the way tumblr and the internet in general has this black and white approach to things #and one of those i guess was 'transphobes = bad' which like. is not what i'm ever talking about when i say that things have more nuance #that said i DO think that the way this website prioritizing hating terfs over supporting trans people is kinda gross #but anyway this person was so anxious about it and it just was depressing bc i related to that #they were SO afraid of losing friends or being cancelled over it and i was just like damn i wonder if all terfs are that miserable #but they acted like they just had no choice but to believe this 'thing' that they constantly alluded to but never talked outright about #which i am pretty sure now is just that they're a radfem or at least believe in a lot of radfem ideologies #and honestly? i go back and forth between genuinely feeling so bad for them and being like well that's what you fucking get #i wish i'd had the courage to talk to them about it but whenever i thought about it i got immeasurable anxiety #sorry for the very long tag ramble i just haven't been able to talk about this and it's been eating ME up too for a long time #i just feel horrible. i know in the past they've mentioned too how they want people to tell them why if they unfollow/block them #but i can't. i cannot. and then i'm afraid of just feeding into their victim complex by doing this #i just can't win. and it's like. i'm trans i am literally affected by their bigotry that they're acting like is just not even a choice #ALSO I REMEMBER HOW THEY MADE A POST ONCE ABOUT HOW PEOPLE IRL DON'T TALK ABOUT TRANS STUFF #LIEK IDK WHAT PLANET YOU ARE LIVING ON MY DUDE BUT I HAVE LIKE 5 TRANS COWORKERS AND EVERYONE IS VERY NORMAL ABOUT THEM #like maybe YOU live in a bad area #but you're just a really loud minority #anyway. yeah. just. oof. #still feeling some kind of anxiety about it #win rambles

[niinnyu]

Red in your hair.

#wooo first dungeon meshi post! #just wanted to redraw this panel since they didnt animate it... #her blood on her hands.. in her hair.. her hair that is very important as a mage... yeah #also just what a cool panel i had to take a deep breathe when i was reading oof #also sleep walking orchestra has been stuck in my head its so good #the one distortion when “or it's a demon” lyrics is on loop muah muah #i did hope bump of chicken would do the wha opening but this fits the vibe too yumm #anyway... marcille :D #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #marcille dunmeshi #dungeon meshi fanart #also wth is delicious in dungeon... dungeon dining if you wanna keep the alliteration #but whatever #cw blood #niinnyu arts

[ghost-bxrd]

Prompt:

Bruce keeps accidentally calling Tim by Jason’s name.

And it’s fine. Really. This was— not exactly Tim’s plan, but it seems to help keep Batman stable. So— so it’s fine. He can be Jason. For Bruce. For Batman.

#prompts #this prompt is darker than intended… #but hey Bruce isn’t exactly mentally stable after Jason’s death #I read an essay about how Bruce didn’t have ptsd after seeing his parents die #he had ptsd after JASON died tho #which… honestly kind of had me stare off into space for a few moments #that boy was so SO loved #anyway yeah Tim #Tim does everything to keep up the illusion #Bruce doesn’t even notice half the time #because Tim never corrects him #Tim is making this worse than it actually is #oof yeah anyway #Jason comes back and it’s to an entire copy of himselfw #which is not very fun to explain #he goes berserk #Tim’s just like: wonderful! you’re back! #and it’s fine if you kill me Bruce won’t notice as long as you go home and there’s a Jason #;)))) #Jason is just like: ????? wtf???????? #jason todd #batfamily #batfam #bruce wayne #tim drake #batman

[daenerys-targaryen]

#anyways #i just said content creators rather than gif makers cause yeah this recent update is targeting gifs #but tumblr as a whole is just not great for content creators #which is so funny cause that’s literally what runs and keeps this site alive #oof #leah rambles

[socksandbuttons]

n... nice eclipse

anyway THE REUTNRRRR

#EXPLAINS NOTHING OF WHAT HAPPENED TO HIS SUN BUT DOESNT SOUND GOOD! #anyway his soft 'lunar?' when he realized bfdjd dying dying dying THESE TWO NEED TO HUG GDI #BUT oof lunar dissociating so hard i get u bud #(i kno its implied it might be something else but im choosing to believe its dissociating cause he just went Silent) #which yeah! yeah ur there but ur not gonna be there but u wanna be at least present for ur old friend #esp knowing he isnt at fault but new looks.... #oh my godd do i even have time to draw anywa of this idk

[chibishortdeath]

I have a Castlevania OC >:3c. He and his story are still very work in progress stuff, but he’s got some rough concept doodles! And when I say rough I mean ROUGH cause one of his arms I erased so many times some of the layers of the paper were tearing so I had to just leave it as is and it looks a little short whoops— but yeah

His name is William “Billy” Danasty :3. I think I’m gonna have his story be set sometime around the height of the Satanic Panic with music and stuff, he’s kinda a bit of a metalhead. He seems all tough and scary, carries a switchblade at all times, and keeps everyone at a distance, but it’s not because he’s mean, he’s just afraid of people. He does make some friends eventually, but I don’t have drawings of them yet. I need to make a nice full color concept page for him someday hehehe.

Also, NES Castlevania style sprites are fun to make!!! :D

#castlevania #castlevania games #castlevania oc #danasty oc #Castlevania danasty #my oc #my art #art post #I don’t have everything figured out about his friends yet #but one of them is a Tzuentes #she’s not Drolta’s descendant just related otherwise #I mean obviously cause Drolta never had kids and obviously had something going on with Elizabeth lol #but yeah aaaaaa #I’m bad at writing things #especially writing fast oof #Billy is cool tho he’s a good kid #just on edge all the time :( #I’m not really sure about villains or anything yet for him either #it’s like incredibly WIP lol #anyway hope you guys like him #also wow two art posts in one day shocking

[red-moon-at-night]

Survivor.

kind of a 'then vs now' comparison (idolhood vs living through everything post-idolhood) but in the same outfit.

the urge to quote "despite everything, it's still you" is very strong right now.

#milgram oc #ocgram #koike yumemi #this is where the creative energy is at today okay besties we're unpacking self-image and self-esteem and the trauma and the baggage and th #it's funny bc by drawing yumemi in a more vulnerable state I am now feeling like an overprotective parent letting my kid out into the world #I cannot tell you how much I love yumemi in all shapes + forms ;w; there's so many idol career designs I haven't even gotten to showing yet #the time difference between these two is the closest though - I'd put it at around... 8-10 months before the present day?? yeah. #is it normal to want to hug your own OC? I'm feeling that right now oough TwT #I can't really explain it but I'm really happy with this piece 💜 I think the vibes are just right yknow #my art #Edit: can't believe I completely blanked about what I wanted to mention asdfghjkl- I want to emphasise yumemi's definition of a 'normal'-- #--body is highly distorted. when u spend ur whole life in idol training regimes you forget how fucked up the whole process is. #so for her the changes to her body feel way more dramatic than they actually are... like. she just has a regular body now. but it's not-- #-- *her* normal if that makes sense?? anyway. completely forgot to mention this when that was the 1st thing I wanted to say oof

[hailperseusjackson]

i finished guillermo del toro’s pinocchio

#it was so so so good #the antiwar/antifascist themes were so well done #and the grief that encompassed the whole story was… whew. #seriously cried several times #like the ‘real boys don’t come back’ line UMMMMMM #that one tipped me right over the edge goddamn. bc it’s not just about human lives being short #but i feel like that line also definitely relates to war taking all the young boys and killing them #and even if they do survive war they come back changed. they’re never really themselves again #fuck. yeah um. oof. #anyway #guillermo del toro’s pinocchio #pinocchio

[animangalover-writes]

Sometimes in certain posts, I look at people's tags and bios just in case proship is in their dni, and most people don't have anything mentioning that so I assume it's safe. So because of that I get tired of checking and will just reblog/like and its a much chiller experience. And I just have to ask, do antis check every single blog and post they interact with to see if they're proship?? Cause they sounds exhausting.

#i dont mean any hate im just thinking out loud #but yeah oof #i mostly only check tags and blogs in certain fandoms #cause some have more antis then others #and then i block them so i dont accidentally interact with their stuff later on #anyways idk #just another warning that im proship #proship #anti anti #proshipping #pro ship #proship safe #proship please interact #aml speaks #edited slightly to make more sense lol

[shrekshugebadussy]

started playing The Arcana again bcuz i forgot it was a thing and i never finished it (only got halfway thru Asra’s route) & i got very curious about Lucio’s route since he’s practically the dead one & how that would work and let me tell you when that motherfucker opened his mouth… yeah i knew i was in trouble 🙃

#he most certainly fits my type #i mean he’s a little (a lot) full of himself. confident asshole. troubled. protective & flirty. mischievous. #just… #i’m ngl kinda reminds me of astarion a bit #but yeah i saw an ad for it and forgot it existed & i started the Asra route again #but i had to restart bcuz i couldn’t remember what happened #but i think i stopped reading before bcuz i constantly had no coins & i couldn’t earn them thru the wheel & i kept losing the game 🥲 #i get they’re an indie developer but i hate that i have to spend so much just for a special scene #but only did i now learn that the paid choices do not affect the ending so i’m glad about that #i think that’s what mostly turned me away last time #i thought the coined choices got the good ending 😭 #anyways #mine #the arcana #delete later? #oof

[shima-draws]

MKmksdamklsda so I guess the new episodes completely shut down both Space Outlaw/Bee AND Deckard/Bee????

#Bee and Puppycat #BAPC #IDK HOW PEOPLE FEEL ABOUT THEM NOW #Bee was clearly an adult when Deckard was still a baby #And same for Puppycat but like. #I guess the implication is that both Bee and Puppycat are really old? #And Bee is part robot anyway? #IDK MAN. The new eps completely took out any sort of Bee/Deckard hints so #Honestly I feel bad for Bee/Deckard shippers asmdksamds #Shima speaks #EDIT: I feel like people are getting upset about this I did not mean this in a bad way #Like. Obviously not everything has to be about shipping #I just mentioned it bc I'm a shipper at heart lmao BUT I'm totally about platonic relationships too #I'm a HOPELESS ROMANTIC as they say. Anyway. #No matter what ends up being 'canon' or not Bee's friendship with both Deckard and Puppycat are the most important thing the series shows #Aroace Bee is so valid. SO pogchamp actually #I wasn't a very serious Bee/SO shipper in the first place I just thought they'd be cute #But yeah this is totally fine too. I just feel bad for people who shipped Bee with other characters like. HARDCORE hardcore #Imagine shipping Bee/Deckard for YEARS and watching the reboot and seeing that get kicked to the curb. Oof. #Where was I going with this. #Oh. Right. Shipping is fine. It's fun. Not shipping is fine too. It's also fun. #People interact with media in different ways! And that's cool!!

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[diaryofamadsunwukongfan]

Sage Ayana

Race: Human

Nationality: Atlas (Areia colony)

Ethnicity: Mixed Vacun & Mistrali

Weapon: Pilgrim

Gender: Man

Sexuality: Aromantic pansexual

Starting Age: 17

Birthday: Spring 1st

Aura Color: Green

Handedness: Right

Complexion: Dark brown

Eye Color: Red

Semblance: Remedy (Every time Sage's Aura shield takes damage, Sage's semblance converts the damage into a secondary Aura reserve called Mood. Sage can use his Mood to heal his body or to recharge his Aura shields immediately, which looks like green leaves wrapping around his body.)

Occupation: Haven student, Junior Detective, Boy band drummer

Previous Occuppation: Sanctum Regional Tournament player (2nd place ten times)

"And the winner is, Sage Ayana of Areia city!" the host announced to the crowd. The hundreds of people in the crowd went wild. Hundreds of them chanting, screaming, Sage's name. He could reasonably assume that almost everyone from his home was watching, cheering for him too. It wasn't good enough.

Sage headed to the locker room. He sat down and began checking his weapon for damages, even though last match only lasted about 7 minutes. That was when she came in. "Good afternoon, Sage Ayana."

Quiet.

"Good afternoon, Pyrrha Nikos." Sage said back to the armored redhead. "It seems we will be going up against each other in the finals again." Pyrrha stated.

Silence.

Pyrrha started again, "How many times have we faced each other like this?"

"Ten times, in a row. I lost every single match."

"Don't sell yourself so short! It's an accomplishment to make it to the finals consistently."

"Stop." Sage commanded.

Pause.

"... Pyrrha," Sage looked her in the eyes for the first time she entered the room, "you know what it's like for people like us. We don't represent ourselves, we represent our towns. And each time I lose here... forget it. I shouldn't have said that." Sage then turned his back again.

Pyrrha walked in front of Sage. "I apologize if my skill in combat has upset you," Pyrrha said, "but being the best comes with a price."

"That's easy for you to say-"

"It's not!" Pyrrha shouted. "... I know Areia is... unfavorably compared to Argus by Atlesians. But know that I, nor anyone else in Argus, view your city that way. We are equals. And it is an honor to earn second place as many times as you did even if you don't see it that way, friend." Pyrrha then reached out her hand to Sage.

For a moment, Sage considered taking her hand. Forgetting about his duties, his discipline, his fidelity to his parent's teachings of strength.

"We are not friends, Pyrrha Nikos." Sage stared her in the eye.

"... very well then, Sage Ayana. Eternal rivals, then." Pyrrha sadly stated.

"...ladies and gentlemen, are you ready for the finale!!!" The host screamed so loud it could be heard inside the locker room.

Sage and Pyrrha got up and walked to the door, waiting for it to automatically open.

"May the best fighter win" Pyrrha hummed.

"I won't lose this time." Sage stated to her.

"You have said that ten times before." Pyrrha coldly stated back.

For a moment, Sage's mouth turned into a frown, but he corrected his face. He must always correct himself, always strive to be perfect... still not good enough.

#woohoo #yeah baby this is what I've been waiting for!!! #rwde #rwby fix it fic #rwby rewrite #rwby redesign #sage ayana #my boy is a real character now!!! #also oof #I had to work overtime to make sure neither Sage nor Pyrrha look too bad during their argument #like Pyrrha is just living her best life and trying to help someone she sees is struggling #but shes not a pushover either #and Sage knows he's in his feelings which is why he tries to avoid the conversation all togather and be nice regardless #but back to my soft redesign #Red eyes suit Sage better than the gold ones and it matches him with Scarlet/Pyrrha #I changed his arm thingy to be a dark cyan for Neptune #so now Sage has all of his teamates colors because without him team SSSN would fall apart #he's like #their daddy figure #;) #anyway if I ever try to do something like this again know that the palms will be light #making Sage's lips look the way dark skin peoples lips look irl dramatically improved this design #if you white take notes #but yeah I had fun!

[strangefable]

i suspect i come off as cringe, try-hard, over-the-top, or even fake, but i assure you i am absolutely this effusive and excitable and it's entirely genuine. i've accepted that i'm just a weird old lady who overthinks and rambles too much, oversharing my thoughts, and heaping praises on people. some might think it's excessive, but it's just who i am, and i always mean it with a good, pure, and honest heart

#having stupid excessive thoughts and just putting it out there #i won't change any minds i know if you think i'm cringe or too much then that's fine i long ago learned to accept that #but just in case anyone doubts my compliments to them i really do mean what i say #overthinking is all i do i guess and makes me too much #anyway i'm exhausted so i'm going to try to take a nap #will get back to tackling tags as soon as i'm coherent again #apologies for falling down about it but oof my brain is a mess #i love you all <3 #(is it nearly 11pm? yeah. did i just say nap? yeah. welcome to insomnia hell. this is fiiiiiinnneeee #gonna flop over like my cat who is making good arguments right now #fable rants and rambles

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

This Doesn’t Mean Anything

NA contemporary romance about a sex-repulsed girl starting uni and meeting an upperclassman who hangs out in the same study room and coffeeshop as she does

struggling with her asexuality, new friendships, and harassment

#This Doesn’t Mean Anything #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #well. #I was overall enjoying the first half of this! then it went to shit lol #for one. WAY TOO LONG. but also feels like scenes would be very short then skip to the next day #I liked how the first half of the book was just developing the relationship as a friendship. #there’s a conflict at 50% and they literally are terrible to each other for almost the entire rest of the book #also the conflict of why they can’t get together feels manufacured. #he feels like he (21) is too old for her (18) and while i’m like…yeah I understand that im iffy about it too; #as the reader we know they’re going to get together anyway. so it just feels stupid. and made that way just to cause a conflict. which lasts #too long. #2) #then men are SO overprotective to the point it’s kinda. not creepy exactly but like why the fuck can none of these women go anywhere without #a dude accompanying them? the MMC even. when she tells him to leave her alone (because he rejected her) he’s still being all protective and #and calling her sweetheart like I started to actively dislike him. it’s like. borderline manipulative ‘nice guy’ #THEN it threw in a SA at 80% or whatever which. a) can we not SA our ace characters and b) is just not handled well. it feels like an excuse #to make them hurt/comfort and then get together aka end their conflict. which. oof. #3) #‘i was looking up why i dont want sex and i saw the word asexuality but couldn’t find much else maybe the GSA could help’ #you can’t use info-not-on-the-internet as a plot excuse when. there is endless info about that on the internet? I don’t think this is set in #2005? also she doesnt even go ask the gsa #while her sex repulsion is a significant part of the book actual references to asexuality are extremely brief and half of it is shoved into #the last chapters. and it’s almost entirely her being self hating and the LI affirming her #anyway I can see the INTENTION is good here; the quality of writing just makes it all bad #like maybe these things are the author's experience and that's fine. the way it's written is uncomfortable. #i can tell all the 5* reviews are people who have never read an ace book before. i promise there is better #i think there’s gonna be a companion sequel about her roommate being aroace which. I don’t have super high hopes for writing-wise but I gues #guess I'm interested

[bobzora]

played more strikers today. loved the 1-2 punch of Awkward cop talk immediately followed up by the thieves following zenkichi and his daughter to a cemetery in a horrifically embarrassing scene to watch. at least we got the funny phantom thief fan scene with akane that was good.

#bobtalk #the cop talk scene was funny at least (me n my brother kept Looking at each other) #(joker: yeah they beat me up real bad. zenkichi: oof yeah surprised u didn’t crack😬anyway.) #that second scene had us screaming at the screen it was miserable. lmao. #this is definitely a video game. #i also feel like it’s worth mentioning that the 3rd monarch boss… atlus fatphobia really hit hard on that one huh. #i do not care for the writing in this game nor do i care for the gameplay. very slowly getting through it lmao… #at least there are fun moments. also sophie is neat. i want Suspicious Woman to show up again please (she’s pretty) #<-akc is rolling in his grave that they’re falling for her shit after going thru the stuff with him i just know it LOL #anyway. i’ll probably play again in another 6 months. haha… #this game is so confused whether it’s a sequel or a spin off. irrelevant to the other stuff i’m saying it’s just a very core issue. lol #ok. bye. i’m done talking about strikers. sorry. #strikersposting