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randomoranges · 3 years

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last year [hahaha chuis tellement drôle], i was having a conversation with a friend and we were like omg teddy’s aesthetic is totally like boudoir! so then i went down the rabbit hole of looking at photos for inspiration and found this one and i was like oh my lord this is such a teddy thing but i left it at that.

then this morning i was like wow amazing an idea that can go with the image!!!! so i decided to make the super wrong and traced art and spent too many hours on it bcs obvs tracing only takes minutes.

then as i was making the not actually art i kept thinking of the idea from this morning but it didn’t work as well so i thought of something else and merged the two ideas together.

it feels like i spent the entire day on this haha

and then i realised there is also still a reference to michel tremblay hidden in this without even trying.

there are so many - layers - hahaha to this.

it’s nsfw. ish.

Veils

Edward’s relieved when he makes it to the club. He hasn’t been able to come in a few weeks time, due to work, a conference and the likes and he’s looking forward to sitting back and unwinding. He also hasn’t seen Teddy since his last visit and he finds himself hoping they’ll be able to catch up before, during, after, or post-show. He tries to will his cheeks not to warm too much at the thought of the other person, but it’s a little bit hard to do.

They’ve been – well, seeing each other is not the right term for it, but Edward has rather liked the few times they’ve slept together so far and that one memorable brunch the day after. Yet, there’s nothing official between them and Edward really isn’t sure if he wants a relationship at the moment. Still, the sex has proven to be good and the company better yet. He likes to think they’re at least friends, but they haven’t really seen each other outside of the bedroom or the club.

He pushes the door open to the club and he’s first surprised to see a – bouncer type person at the door. He wonders if this is a new norm and what could have prompted the change from the usual cheery fellow who greets the patrons, but his musings are cut short when he’s spoken to.

“Invitation?” The burly type asks and Edward is taken aback for a moment.

“Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t know – is there a private event here tonight?” He never bothers to check the website for the schedule and usually just pops in when he feels like it, but this, is new.

“Yes. Invitation only. Come back later.” The man says curt and to the point. Edward doesn’t want to cause any trouble and feels like this man won’t hesitate to escort him out if needed, so he’s about to apologise and leave, when Paul appears seemingly out of nowhere and comes to his rescue.

“He’s good, Bruno; he’s a regular and the boss has him on the list.” Paul says as he claps Bruno on the back. Bruno doesn’t seem pleased by the gesture, but Paul seems oblivious to it all.

Edward has no idea who the boss is and what list Paul is talking about, but if it means he gets to enjoy the private event, he won’t necessarily complain or mind.

Bruno grunts and reiterates something about the list, but when Paul insists, he’s escorted inside by the bartender and brought over to coat check.

“I’m glad you’re here; Teddy’s put me on door duty until you arrived.” Paul says as a way of explanation that does nothing to clear up the many questions Edward has.

“How did any of you know I was coming? And what’s this private event all about?”

“You come here often enough; they figured maybe you’d drop by today. As for the event; it’s something a little different – a once in a lifetime performance, really, so you’re very lucky to have stopped by! Very selective and very VIP, if you catch my drift. You’ll see in a bit,” Paul grins, mischievous as ever and Edward wonders what exactly he’s stepped into, but the curiosity in him only keeps growing. “Oh, you’ll have to check in your phone as well. No recordings whatsoever; performer’s request.”

Edward notices the little locker type add-on in the coat-check and fishes out his phone. He hands it over to the person in charge of the check-in and he’s given back a key. At least, he tells himself, no one should abscond with his phone.

“Anyways, now that you’re here, I suggest you grab a seat. Bon show!”

And with that, Paul is gone and Edward makes his way to the heart of the club to find a seat. The atmosphere is muted and the sitting capacity has been reduced to a third. Most of the spots are already filled, but he manages to find himself a seat at the far back. The tables have been dressed in dark velvet tablecloths and each have a trim of sparkly jewels that shine when the lights hit them. It’s quite different from the usual decor and Edward wonders if this is some new event the club is trying out. In all the time he’s been attending, he’s never even heard of such an event. He looks around for a pamphlet or poster of sorts that might give him a clue, but there’s nothing of the sorts.

Therefore, he patiently waits for the show to start and takes in the other carefully chosen guests around him. He recognises a few other familiar faces he’s seen over his many visits, but other than that, everyone seems as equally unknowing as he does and he wonder what the criteria was to be part of the audience.

Finally, the lights are dimed down and a hush falls over the gathered crowd. Edward expects the usual introduction to follow suit, but instead, the room fills with sultry jazz music of sorts. It starts a little slow and picks up as the curtains part to reveal a figure, back to the crowd, illuminated softly, standing on center stage.

As the light grows stronger and the figure starts moving, liquid movements that make it seem effortless and easy, despite the stiletto heels, Edward takes in the multiple layers of fabric that are draped elegantly and expertly over the figure and that play to create different effects when they hit the light. They almost seem like veils of sorts, all in the palest of colours, maybe even white, and that shimmer when the person moves.

It takes Edward a while for his mind to fully register what it is he’s seeing, as the music keeps playing and the person on stage keeps moving, dancing and performing. This is different from what Club 1642 usually puts on, but he’s intrigued and enthralled and doesn’t mind the change.

Finally, it’s when they turn around that Edward gasps as he recognises exactly who it is. The tattoo might be partially covered by fabric, but he’s traced every branch and ever petal with delicate fingers and pressed hot kisses to every curve of the vine. His hands have carded, as well as tugged, on those curls numerous times now and he knows the feel of those lips on every inch of his body.

Still, he forgets how to breathe for a moment, ever still, and drinks in the sight before him.

Teddy stands before them all, as they take ownership of the stage, stepping from one place to the other, the lights following them, as they wrap their wrists around the first layer of veils and make it twirl around them. The veil, embedded with subtle crystals, shimmers and shines for a moment, before Teddy whirls around as the pace of the music picks up and the veil is then let go of and flutters for a moment, before falling, motionless, to the floor by their feet.

For as long as they have known each other, for as many times as they have spoken; late night conversations and early morning murmurs, Edward had never known that Teddy performed.

But – he supposes there are still secrets about him that Teddy doesn’t know either.

Regardless, Edward is left breathless as Teddy continues their dance of many veils and he finds himself mesmerized and captured by the performance. He’s surprised that even though the dance could be considered seductive or provocative and sensual, what with the veils that Teddy keeps shedding, Edward instead finds that the performance is more than that.

There is something immensely personal in the movements; private even and it feels as though Teddy is shedding more than just veils. It’s as if the layers represent insecurities and their relationship with each one is different, based on the movement and the way Teddy discards the veil.

It’s – vulnerable, if that’s even possible. Teddy is slowly laying themselves bare, not only figuratively, but emotionally as well – exposing themselves; revealing themselves as they truly are and Edward’s heart stammers in his chest as the performance continues.

He also thinks there’s sadness to it. He feels it in the music, but also in the movements; how Teddy caresses the fabric for a moment, before ripping it away. There’s been betrayal here, deep hurt they’ve never really healed from and Edward wonders who could have wronged this wonderful person. What pains have they suffered through that he doesn’t know of?

He wonders briefly if Teddy would mind if they found out he’s been here – assisted this anguished cry. This does really feel like a private performance and he would hate for his friend to feel embarrassed that he’d assisted. Even if “the boss” had put him on the list, he hopes he hasn’t crossed some line, but he figures he can worry about that later.

The music’s pace keeps picking up as the layers are discarded and Edward holds his breath as Teddy’s movements become sharper still, as they fight with their veils. The effects of the lights and the crystals only help create the image of a whirlwind – of an angry snowstorm as the snow falls and then rises again by the wind. He thinks of blizzards and snow squalls and his vision being impaired as the snow seems to fall from every which corner and direction.

For a moment, it seems as though the veils will threaten to overcome Teddy; as if they will lose their fight against the fabric – against the demons they keep close to their heart and deal with, but finally, the music crescendos. They wrap themselves in their last veil and come to a halt, back to the spot where they had started from. The veil undulates and flutters once more, somehow teasing and yet covering, never revealing, and Teddy looks heavenward, arms outstretched, one last plea to be helped or saved – reaching out for something or – someone and they hold their pose for a moment longer, hold it for the audience to feel the final cry and the final tug, before the lights slowly fade out.

A fallen angel, he thinks. Cast out.

It takes him a moment – it takes them all a moment, but soon the silence that followed the end of the performance is broken by loud applause. Edward doesn’t even realise it, but he’s on his feet and someone to his left whistles. He needs to blink tears out of his eyes and he wishes he could go somewhere quiet to process the art he’s just witnessed.

He’s still not sure he’s fully understood everything he’s just seen, but he has newfound respect for his friend.

A member of the staff comes out some time later, once the raucous applause has died down, and tells them that they’ll take a short break before their regularly scheduled shows will begin. The audience is invited to sit, or have a drink, as they set up the room.

Edward finds himself moving away from his table, not really sure if he wants to stay for the second, public part of the evening, or if he wants to leave, but his mind tells him that he needs to find Teddy. He has no idea if the other wants to see him, but he figures he can at least try. Therefore, he makes his way towards backstage and thinks he’ll start over there. He realises he still doesn’t know what his friend does exactly at the club, but he knows they work backstage. If anything, based on his own experience, Teddy should be surrounded by people, trying to keep the adrenaline high of performing for as long as possible, basking in their praise.

He doesn’t know if they’ll let him in the back, but by the time he makes his way there, he’s granted passage with little to no explanation other than “Teddy” and “my friend”. He hasn’t been in this part of the club often, if ever, and it takes him a moment to adjust himself. It brings him back to other times – to before, but he has no time to properly reflect; another thing he can do later. Instead, he walks on and hopes he’ll find someone who’ll be able to tell him where he can find Teddy.

He follows the sound of voices and as they grow louder, he figures he’s getting to the heart of backstage and sure enough, he ends up finding Teddy, wearing a bathrobe of sorts over the last of the veils, surrounded by a few of the usual performers who are clearly there to congratulate them.

Edward lingers back, unsure if he should interrupt this moment or not, but then Teddy spots him and their face breaks out into a wide smile. “Édouard!” They say and they seem both pleased and surprised to see him, so he takes that as a good sign. He takes a cautious step forward and Teddy thanks the gaggle of people around them, before coming up to join him. “I was hoping you would be here tonight!” They say, bright smile on their face like always and Edward wonders if he didn’t image the previous sadness and sorrow from the performance. It had felt too raw to be staged and he wants to ask about it, but the words don’t come out right.

“A coincidence, really; I didn’t know you performed? Had I known, I would have brought you some flowers,” He feels a little empty handed and maybe even a little rude, but honestly, he hadn’t known and therefore, cannot be blamed.

Teddy laughs and leans in a little in his space, “Oh, never like the girls here and not often. I mean, this was the first time I hit the stage in over a decade – if not more! And as for the rest, it’s why I kept this a secret – I wanted everyone here to experience the performance as it was – no expectations, no flowers.”

It does explain why Edward had never seen Teddy perform before, but it still leaves a plethora of questions. He settles for “Are you okay, though? The performance – it was – amazing, but – you looked as though – as though you’ve dealt with a lot – as if it was almost autobiographical, in a sense.” At that, Teddy’s smile turns softer. They reach out for his hand and give it a gentle squeeze.

“Don’t worry about me, Sugar; I’m fine, honest. I’m better than I was before – sometimes it catches up and I need to – let it all out; evacuate it out of my system and this helps, but I promise I’m okay.”

“So it was – personal then?”

Teddy nods and there’s a flicker of sadness that flashes in their green eyes and Edward regrets bringing it up or even insisting, “Hey, d’you wanna get some air?” He thinks of the cigarettes he keeps carrying around whenever he comes to the club, if only to give himself an excuse to steal away into the night with Teddy – to bask in their presence and hear them go off on some tale. He doesn’t know how much time they have before they need to get to work, but he has nothing to lose in asking.

“I have a better idea; want to come back to mine? I’m not working – my assistant is taking over for the night,” They say when they see Edward’s question bubbling at his lips. “It’ll be quieter.” They add and motion to the noisy gaggle of people in all stages of dress getting ready for the next segment of the show. Edward files the tidbit of information regarding the fact that Teddy has an assistant, but he’ll ask about that another time as well.

Instead, he nods. The short answer to their question is yes. Edward will go anywhere Teddy wants to bring him to and he’s come to like Teddy’s cosy little apartment filled with photos and knick-knacks of every sorts. Teddy grins and tells him to meet him out front, while they grab their things.

Edward uses the time he waits for Teddy to retrieve his phone from coat-check and then exits, letting the cool spring air help sort his thoughts. He feels like there’s always a lot to process and he seldom gives himself the time to do so.

He’s not angry or upset that Teddy performs. In fact, if anything, he feels that it gives them something in common, but it had been surprising. Then, there had been the nature of the performance as well as the method used. He still sees the way the shimmering fabric had teased glimpses of skin he had caressed before and that he’d willingly caress again, but he wonders if it’s appropriate to have such thoughts considering the – topic of the dance.

“Sorry for the wait, shall we?”

Edward blinks and looks away from the lamppost he’d been staring at. He nods and notices that Teddy’s wearing one of their long coats over their clothes. He can’t help but smile, amused, considering the evening is pleasant and the coat seems unnecessary, but he knows that Teddy seems to be perpetually cold, which is surprising considering the state of undress they had been in, moments before. They fall in step as they head towards Teddy’s apartment. It’s thankfully not far from here and he’d been surprised by its proximity to the club, the first time he’d gone back to it with Teddy. Teddy had told him that they hated commuting and that at four in the morning, they wanted to get home sooner rather than later.

It’s not even midnight now and as they walk quietly towards the apartment, Edward feels an itching to take hold of Teddy’s hand and twine their fingers together. It’s not the first time he’s felt this way and he’s not sure whether or not he wants to do it out of a sense of offered comfort or as some type of – romantic gesture, but he manages to keep his hands to himself until they make it to the apartment.

“Do you mind if I use your washroom?” Edward asks once they’re in. Teddy doesn’t bother turning the lights on, but nods and points in the direction of where the washroom is, even if Edward knows. He removes his shoes and locks himself in the small room for a moment, letting the light come to life and illuminate his reflection in the mirror.

The reflection blinks and its familiarity helps ground him for a moment. He feels a little wrong footed all of a sudden and he wonders if it has anything to do with the performance, what it could have meant, and the incessant pull he always feels when he’s around Teddy. He splashes some cold water on his face and after waiting another moment; he steps out and goes to find his friend.

The apartment is still and quiet and Edward pads softly towards the bedroom. It’s the only other logical place where Teddy can be and it normally is where they go when they’re here. He’s about to announce himself when he enters, but stops short due to the sight that greets him. He even steps back, as though the scene before him requires more room to exist and he makes sure he’s by the threshold of the door, before he dares to look again.

Teddy sits on the ledge of their large bedroom window, dressed in nothing but that last veil from the show, illuminated by soft moonlight that drifts in from outside as well as the lampposts that decorate the street. The curtains haven’t been shut and so Teddy looks almost ethereal as they sit, seemingly lost in their own thoughts, as the light bathes them softly. The gentle light makes the fabric look nearly completely transparent, safe for where it is bunched together and Edward’s breath catches at the sight of it all.

“You’re beautiful,” He says without thinking and his words break the tranquil moment in which Teddy had been basking in. They look up and offer a welcoming smile, before motioning for him to join them.

Edward walks over to the window, as if in a trance, and finds himself standing beside Teddy by the time he reaches them. Teddy takes his hands and places a kiss to each as Edward’s heart fights to beat out of his chest.

“You’re entirely too kind,” They say, before looking back out to the street and the parked cars, the lampposts and their yellow muted light.

They stand close, Edward able to feel the heat radiating off Teddy’s frame, as they take in the scenery and Edward dares to reach for the fabric that covers Teddy’s body. He yearns to tug it off, to worship, and kiss every inch of their body and chase away any doubts and past pain from their soul. He wants to bring them to bed, hold them close as he whispers sweet nothings to them, until they fall asleep with the notion that they are – loved.

“May I?” He asks as he wraps a piece of the veil around his fingers, feeling the rugged texture beneath them. Teddy tilts their head in his direction and they wait for clarification as to what it is Edward wants to do. “May I remove your last veil?” He asks again and holds his breath, hoping he’s read everything correctly from the moment the performance had started to this very second.

“Please,” Teddy says, their voice a bare whisper, nearly trembling and breaking.

Edward turns them around so that they’re both standing in the window’s light and before he removes the veil, he cups Teddy’s face in his hand and gently caresses their cheek. He feels Teddy lean into the contact and he sees the unshed tears that shimmer in their eyes. He presses a soft kiss to their forehead and after a moment, he lets his hand fall to their shoulder at the first junction of the fabric.

He doesn’t need to tug very hard, seeing as the veil is merely draped over Teddy’s body, but he’s still ever so gentle as he slowly removes it and never looks away from Teddy’s face. He wants them to know that it’s okay – that whatever it is that happened before – that whatever it is they’re doing now, Edward will do his best to take care of them – that he cares for them and that they’re not alone.

The fabric comes apart easily and slides softly and quickly off Teddy’s body, pooling at their feet, much like all the other veils beforehand, until Teddy is left bare, bathed only by the late night light. Edward looks – really looks at them and Teddy lets him, maybe for the first time even.

“You’re beautiful,” He repeats again, for they are and there aren’t enough words to describe the way it is that he feels in this present moment, but Teddy might understand, for they close the distance between them and pull them in for a kiss.

Edward places one arm around Teddy’s bare waist and another goes to the nap of their neck, as he moulds their lips together. This, thankfully, is a language they are both fluent in and this is something he can do.

“Let me take care of you,” He murmurs in their ear when they pull away, sometime later. Teddy looks at him, bright eyes and kiss swollen lips and they hesitate for a moment, before they nod, trusting him completely.

Edward is gentle with them and it’s different from the times beforehand. It feels more like an act of love than an act of sex and he wonders if Teddy notices. He knows there isn’t much of a difference, in the grand scheme of things, but – Edward feels the shift in the way he holds Teddy close and the way they respond to his every touch. He thinks it’s in the little things – the soft, lingering kisses, the lack of urgency to their movements and the way Teddy looks at him, open and caring and still trusting.

It might even be in the moments that come afterwards; when they twine their legs together and Teddy furrows their face in the crook of Edward’s neck. When Edward rubs their back and lets Teddy slowly come apart in his arms, no questions asked, or the way Teddy resurfaces, lifetimes later, with a gentle smile and a soft thanks.

He’s not sure though and this development is new, but Edward feels that it all has to do with something about the veils. He wonders what would have happened had he not shown up tonight and if there hadn’t been some great cosmic pull that had lead him there – not only tonight, but on the very first night he’d visited. He also thinks of his own veils – the ones he keeps close to his own heart and the demons he still hasn’t fully faced yet.

He knows he eventually has to, but as he looks at Teddy’s quiet, tranquil slumbering face, he wonders if he’ll ever be strong enough to do what they did. He supposes that that to will have to wait for a later time and for now he focuses instead on getting some rest as well.

FIN

#pc: montreal #pc: edmonton #edward murphy #étienne maisonneuve #teddy maisonneuve #art #au #fic #k attempts to draw #digital art #club 1642

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katzuyas · 5 years

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I was tagged for a few things still back in 2018, so let’s get these out here to have a clean slate for 2019 and tag some lovely peeps along the way!

tagged by @kazul9

to post the last sentence from a wip, and here it is!

" [...] You're free to get yourself a nice corner of the house and make those love notes come true."

this is from SSS which was supposed to be my christmas smut fic, but I got so busy I never managed to finish it in time for the holidays //sighs regretfully maybe next christmas!

WIP title meme game

tagged by @kanzaki19 and @and-then-yoi-happened

The Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Pick out the title that most intrigues you, or interests you and I’ll post a little snippet of it or tell you something about it!

Gardenia's Gathering of Roses

dazzle me with gold

believe in the heart, for tomorrow

samovar

SSS

Apollo (which I will probably never finish rip)

as for one that intrigues me most... that would be probably dmwg but I won't share that bc it's been too long and I need to get back to writing it soon-ish, so instead have a little bit of Apollo, for the unsung fic that will never find its conclusion:

Victor felt his mask slip on the sweat caking his face and a single thought had him reach back to untie the strings holding it in place. He was stopped halfway, though.

"Don't," hot mouth whispered into his ear and he'd listened, spellbound.

"You don't want to know who I am?" Victor turned his head to capture that mouth, but he'd missed, nuzzling against the soft velvet of the man's mask instead. "I want to know who you are, too. Will you tell me?"

Clumsy fingers sunk into Victor's hair, brushing through it, while amused dark eyes looked into his as if the man already knew. And he had, which should've spiked caution in Victor, but he was too far gone by that time to care about anything else other than the subtle quirk of the lips that he couldn't forget the taste of.

"Who could ever mistake you for anyone else, Victor?" the man asked, caressing Victor's jaw with his thumb in a way that made Victor lift his chin up like a puppy begging for scratches.

Teeth scraped over the column of his throat like a promise of something Victor desperately wanted with a force that surprised even himself. He swallowed hard, feeling how the man's lips caught on his Adam's apple as it moved, and blessing the second his eyes fell on the guy's ugly tie.

"I'm a little bit at a disadvantage here." Victor smiled, pushing his own hand into the man's hair: clumped with gel, messy, but no less divine. "You seem to know me, but I still don't know anything about you."

"You know I can dance," the man said. He gyrated his hips against Victor's as if to prove his point and Victor greedily pulled him closer. "You know how my body looks like under these clothes," the man was talking while they shifted against each other. "You know how my lips taste like."

Dark eyes looked at Victor, mischievous, and Victor was powerless against the force of his want. He dipped his head down and stole another kiss, a brief, short one, just enough to make him hungry for more.

"Your name," Victor begged, chasing after the man's lips when he swayed away with the music. "Just that. I promise I won't ask anything else."

There were fingers on Victor's tie, undoing the knot, undoing the buttons of his shirt, undoing his self-control. When he opened his mouth to ask once more, the man lifted the expensive fabric of Victor's Armani tie and wrapped it around his head, akin to his own, another crown on another god. Leaning closer, the man smooshed their cheeks together hard enough that their masks shifted. He laughed into Victor's ear, drunk on delight.

"Now we match," he told Victor while he completely ignored his question.

If it was a hint that he would get no answers from the man at all, Victor knew when to take it. He sighed quietly. Rubbing his nose into the side of the guy's head, he got a whiff of the distinct stink of alcohol and sweat, but that gave him absolutely no clues. Victor wrapped his arms around the body pressed so tightly against him that he could feel each breath and thrum of the heart beating to the music, which threatened to have swallowed them both if Victor hadn't allowed the man to steal all of his attention first.

He would've caved and given up on finding who the man was, content enough to have him for this one night of life and love, but the soft, barely audible words spoken into his jaw rejuvenated the hope inside him.

"I've dreamed of you all my life."

A simple sentence like that should've made him uneasy, should've made Victor step back and away, and run for the hills, but it didn't. It made him sway them to the music and say back:

"You've got me now."

And that was his mistake, it seemed.

The man pulled out of his embrace, eyes downcast and mouth a wry smile. Before Victor could take his words back, explain, correct himself, anything, there were lips on his own and then–

–he was gone.

The man disappeared into the mass of bodies around them like a ghost, like smoke into thin air, only leaving the memory of his lips against Victor's and an empty ache inside his heart. Which Victor was not about to take.

He tore through the crowd, only catching the sight of the ugly tie disappear behind another group of people. Victor knew he shouldn't, but something inside him called for the other man, urged him to follow him, and he was powerless to resist it... so he did it anyway. He tore his mask off, dropping it to the floor without a care, and without the obstacle to slow him down he caught him – right when the lighting in the club shifted, the vibrant colours playing off of the fear, regret and beautiful, striking longing in the man's dark eyes.

"Where are you going?" Victor asked, holding the other's wrist lightly enough that he could pull away if he truly wanted.

He didn't.

But he didn't answer either.

Simply turned his head away, the blue of his mask telling Victor how close he was to drowning in the ocean of his own despair.

"How am I supposed to find you again?" Victor asked once more. He wanted. He needed. Pleas–

"The whole point of a masquerade is to stay anonymous, isn't it?" the man said, finally looking at Victor again. He stepped closer, lifting his hand as if to touch Victor's face, but hesitated and let it drop. "You aren't."

Victor felt like his heart was being pierced by a thousand golden spears made up of all the medals he'd won over the years. Was his fame the reason? His media persona? His hand shook where he was still holding onto the man's wrist, but he refused to let go. Not until he tells him to.

"Is there really no chance I could change your mind?"

The man bit his lip, seemingly at a dissonance with himself, and then lurched forward to join their lips together in a kiss that was not only hinted with Victor's desperation, but also the man's own longing. Losing sense faster than he could control, Victor blinked dazedly when the man pulled away too soon. Dark eyes looked into Victor's with something sweet, something fragile, that Victor did not dare call adoration.

"If you can find me, you can try," the man said, his thumb swiping over the plush of Victor's bottom lip.

Swallowing hard, Victor spoke, aware of how his mouth moved around the man's finger. "But how? How do I find you?"

"You're Victor Nikiforov." The man smirked at him, confident, sexy, playful, and with complete faith in what he was saying, added: "If anyone can do it, it's you."

And Victor realized that this was another challenge that he was issued. To keep him on his toes, to make him work for it, to keep his interest going – and going it was. It was only right that to keep a god, he was to go to incredible lengths. Feeling his heart beat so much faster, Victor smiled.

He was ready for this.

First Sentences Game

tagged by @iwritebetterthanispeak

Rules: list the first lines of your last ten published stories. note if there are any patterns yourself and see if anyone else notices any! tag ten friends!

I'm going to go with ao3 only since those are the fics I actually do any sort of editing and concrete writing for, so let's go!

A single rose, red like the setting sun that bleeds though the branches of a tree outside a window of a loveless man's house, by all means should look lonely. – from red, for love triumphant

If Yuuri wasn't so used to Phichit's phone going off constantly, he probably would've jumped when the thing came to life in his friends' hands. – from draped in your love, I breathe

"A little shorter in the back maybe," Victor says, looking into the mirror that Lucien is holding behind his head. – from thread your needle through my heart

Everyone knows who Victor Nikiforov is. – from dazzle me with gold

There's an elegant line to Victor's nape when he bows his head over the small piece of paper with jumps and combinations scrawled onto it in a confusing sequence of symbols that no one other than a figure skating junkie could decipher. – from pulchritudinous

"The Garden of Tears, they call it," the old healer says. – from Everlasting

"How about we just take the popular vote and give Yuuri his gold already?" Victor sighs as they all watch Yuuri Katsuki make his way around the ice before the start of his free skate. – from together, we're golden

There is nothing worse, Victor thinks as he shakes the already wheezing bottle of conditioner, than being empty. – from what living feels like

St. Petersburg is... dark. – from lighter, better, fuller

Standing at gunpoint in his own bathroom, of all places, with hands still under the lukewarm stream of tap water, Yuuri imagined there were worse ways to start the day. – from a black heart of gold

the patterns I see are mostly in titles bc wow all the lowercase really got to me huh? lmao also very dramatic and almost all of them are from some song or another, so I'm very obvious in that department.

as for the actual first lines... I do tend to start my fics either in the middle of some action/scene/conversation or it's a statement of fact, which I then agree or disagree with and try to prove to the readers. the first one, I've found, definitely works better to get people involved faster!

I also tend to put the first names of the characters whose pov I use in the first line, if I can, to help people figure out whose voice to read with

these are all writing tags so I will tag you for all, one, or whichever of these you prefer! @accioharo, @belovedyuuri, @gabzjones, @louciferish, @lilithsins, @joeys-piano, @victuurikatsu, @dreaming-fireflies, @teekettle, and @postingpebbles

have fun, if you wish, and if not then feel free to forget this ever happened 😉 I hope you have an amazing, productive and inspiring new year!!! ❤️❤️❤️

#tag games #my fic #there's a little snippet of a masquerade au in here which I wrote waaaay back but which I never posted so you might want to read?#honestly I feel kind of tempted to finish it #hmmm #should I?#🤔🤔🤔

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ditchedxxx · 5 years

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Director's cut on that kuroyaku fic you posted recently the 5 things one

Okay so that was a commission i got almost within hours of posting that i was open for them, and I had never ever written for them before, but damn was I gonna try.

So I started brainstorming and the list style fic was something I'd always wanted to try? So I pitched it to the client and she liked it, so from there I just kinda started brainstorming the lists.

Yakus was tons of fun to write. I liked the idea of him being soft and cute, so i had the teas and milk thing-- originally, he'd been the one with the lock thing? But i ended up giving that to kuroo bc yaku gets treated enough like a mom, so it was nice making him like. A little looser, here.

The next thing was the kouhai thing right, which was my way of still including the whole mom-ish thing, and like tbh the thing where kuroo starts teasing him and being lowkey sexy was SO UNPLANNED it wasnt even funny. I just realized midway through typing dialogue that, hey, wait, why is kuroo just talking to yaku what happened to the kouhai-- the whole point of this item is the kouhai-- and rather than like. Deleting my hard work (all of 2 paragraphs), i just went and typed in the bit with lev about parents and stuff. It was funny and i could totally see it happening, and from there i was like yeah, kuroo would roll with it. He likes provoking people anyway. So that was fun.

Also i think a lot of why i went in that direction was bc even tho the client actually gave me th freedom to decide whether i wanted it romantic or not, im a sucker for sexual/romantic tension, so i totally. Just like. Ran with these statements that werent like explicitly romantic or whatever, but you could sorta feel a bit of tension-- like when kuroo leans over yaku, right? Theyre pressed together, back to chest. Kuroos head is near yakus ear. Its all very to-the-point. But you do know that something is up, bc yaku notes that its probably uncomfortable, not to mention the fact that yaku actually notes that he can feel the rumble of kuroos laugh or whatever, rather than just saying, oh, hes here, etc-- like that says something. Hes paying closer attention that you probably would if ut was just. A Thing if you know what i mean.

AH the drunk thing is next this was my fave. So i couldnt think of drunk shenanigans on my own, and i ended up brainstorming with a friend over chat. The married joke ended up being brought up again while we were talking and i was like oh yknow, this could be useful. Thats how the joke ended up lasting the whole fic instead of being like. A one time thing. Honestly it was tons of fun thinking about clingy, very loose and free drunk yaku, and kuroo as a gay disaster is my fave kuroo to write, so obviously he made it in here too.

The relied on thing... that was something i put in bc i wanted something a little deeper than the random everyday stuff id put in, and i figured considering hes so often considered like. Team mom, and hes a libero to boot, like noya, he probably likes being the one to give his team faith to play their best, bc he has their backs. Thats kinda it really.

And the last thing was just me liking sappy yaku again lmao. And btw, 36 questions is totally a legit podcast musical, listen to it, it made me cry just about the same part yaku cries at.

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For kuroo, the first item was the thing with the locks that id meant to give yaku... but. Eh. If youre wondering where it came from, its something i do. I check the locks repeatedly bc my dad gets mad when i forget, bc obvs, safety concerns. But actually, kuroos list was a little different at first. (Ignore yakus, i cant figure out how to delete the picture from here goddammit mobile)

Now obviously most of the items stayed the same, especially for yaku's, but kuroo's item 2 fucked me over bc i dont. Actually remember enough of my chemisty to produce a full-blown fanboy ramble. Sorry kuroo.

So what ended up being there was the thing with the whole "looks mean, is a dork" item. It was actually the very last thing i wrote, bc it took me a while to come up with it as a replacement.

Item three was cute and i liked the idea of it, but it took me a bit to decide on how to show it! In the end i figured it would be nice to see yaku being appreciated and how close theyve grown, so thats what i went with. I was really happy with it.

The fourth one was planned almost from the start. Once i came up with the idea for it, i knew id probably show it through kuroo getting over a break up. I didnt intend to actually include the break up. Just sorta mention it, but... it felt too short without it.

I was actually iffy about yakus sorta confession here. I had a friend who, apparently, got confessed to while she was crying in a guys lap? And thats? Dont take advantage of other peoples weak moments to get yourself in their good graces, kids. But i felt like yaku would have wanted to be honest. Thats why i didnt have kuroo discuss it with him right away, and why i let yaku pretend it didnt happen. Bc thats not the time. Yaku would want to prove it over time, and kuroo would want to be over his gf first. Its healthier that way.

The leader thing is something i feel is a given for most people, but in my head kuroo isnt the type who like. He doesnt aim to be leader. He just is, sometimes, as necessity dictates. Hes not ambitious in that sense that he runs for class president or whatever. And i felt like it was interesting to kind of play with that idea here.

Anyway!!! Thats it lmao thanks for indulging me and listening to me ramble about my work.

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dontgiveasheet · 6 years

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Rules: answer these 86 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last

1. drink - tea~

2. phone call - my friend called me when she was leaving my house bc she wanted to make sure that chickens walking around on the sidewalk was normal

3. text message - "yes" to my dad, thrilling conversation

4. song you listened to - common man by caamp

5. time you cried - today (when is the last time you didn’t cry is the better q, because i cry when i laugh too)

ever

6. dated someone twice? - only dated one person and it lasted like 5 days so no

7. kissed someone and regretted it? - that requires ever having kissed someone (don’t laugh @ me ok)

8. been cheated on - nope

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - nope

fave colors

12. forest green

13. lavender

14. autumn-y shades of orange

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes 😍💗

16. fallen out of love - nope

17. laughed until you cried - all the damn time

18. found out someone was talking about you - yes

19. met someone who changed you - i guess? not really

20. found out who your friends are - yes but not this year

21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - nope

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know irl - all of them

23. do you have any pets? - 2 cats & a dog

24. do you want to change your name? - i’ve changed my alias so many times online ider some of them? but irl everyone gets my name wrong anyways so it’s just like what’s the point

25. what did you do for your last birthday? - i went w my two friends to an orchard + went apple picking, and then we went back to my house and had dinner + cake 😊😊

26. what time did you wake up today - 6:50 a.m. is when my alarm went off but lbr i only slept for like 20 minutes last night

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - watching videos on fb and crying tbh

28. what is something you can’t wait for - to be done w uni

29. when was the last time you saw your mom - within the hour

30. what are you listening to right now - where you wanna go by graham colton ft. emily hearn

31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom - yes

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - myself

33. most visited website - probably tumblr

34. hair color - it’s dyed blonde but tbh my roots have grown out like 4 inches @ this point and that’s a v mousy brown

35. long or short hair? - short-ish!! just cut it the other day, i have a lob/medium bob atm

36. do you have a crush on someone - after today’s events, probably 😂😂😂

37. what do you like about yourself - next question pls

38. want any piercings - nope, i let the ones in my ears close

39. blood type - good question, your guess is as good as mine

40. nicknames - grace, sarah/stephanie/shannon/rachel/meghan (used interchangeably or strung together all at once)

41. relationship status - single

42. zodiac - libra

43. pronouns - they/she

44. fave tv shows - bob’s burgers, stranger things, the good place, nailed it (that baking show on netflix, go watch it!!!!), fullmetal alchemist, i’ve gotten into america’s got talent over the past few years too

45. tattoos - nope

46. right or left handed - right~

47. ever had surgery - tonsils & adenoids

48. piercings - nope

49. sport - i did marching band in hs that counts

50. vacation - i really want to go to iceland tbh + then i would love to go to greece, italy, japan, south korea, there’s loads more tbh.

51. trainers(shoes?) - i love like, converse + similar shoes, or anything tennis-y because i need to wear sneakers at work and those are easier to match w outfits

52. eating - i just ate a breakfast flat

53. drinking - water

54. I am about to watch - food network is on but i’m not paying attention

55. waiting for - nothing

56. want - to be out of debt t b H

57. get married - not really?? never been interested in it

58. career - i would L O V E to have a little bookstore/cafe (right next to/connected to my friend’s record shop) + be a writer, but rn social work is the actual path

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs

60. lips or eyes - eyes def

61. shorter or taller - taller

62. older or younger - idk if i could date anyone under 21/22 ?? so older

63. nice arms or stomach - arms i guess? idk

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant w troublemaker tendencies i guess ??

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - nope

67. drank hard liquor - yes

68. lost glasses - sunglasses, yes

69. turned someone down - ugh yes

70. sex on first date - nope

71. broken someone’s heart - i think so ?? it’s a v long story that just proves how clueless + unobservant i am

72. had your heart broken - kind of? not really. at least not in a relationship sense idk if that’s what this is asking

73. been arrested - nope

74. cried when someone died - yes

75. fallen for a friend - nope

do you believe in

76. yourself - nope

77. miracles - not really? i do believe in karma tho

78. love at first sight - ehhhhhhhhh

79. santa claus - nope

80. kiss on a first date - mb? probably not bc i am a hopeless awkward mess

81. angels - idk tbh ?? mb not in the like, traditional~ sense ? idk honestly

other

82. best friends name - carleen

83. eye color - hazel

84. fave movie - the nightmare before christmas, hocus pocus, star wars, moana, frozen, the princess and the frog

85. fave actor - tbh i really love the rock ?? i’ve never not enjoyed a movie he’s in even if it’s a terrible movie i have never seen any of the fast & furious movies tho

86. fave actress - the ladies in ocean’s 8 🔥🔥🔥

tagged by @smolboogara (ty omg ;~;)

tagging: @seonggwoo / @hcneybaby / @shitewrites / @yuukimuras / @anagonycs / @inurarea / @astrolgcy / @buckyyrps

feel free to ignore this if you don’t want to do this/hate being tagged ^^;

#about me #idk if i have that tag yet #I FEEL BAD LIKE TAGGING MUTUALS LIKE #i stopped w the tags bc i feel like i'm annoying people #soml tbh

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fmdxjerome · 6 years

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hello people from old and new! naomi is back in action with her son jerome. i’ve been stuck in my sisters house for the last weeks of my absence because she went on vacation and i had to take care of a sick rabbit who peed everywhere. i might have a disease now at the amount he bit me but what can you do. im joking. you might ask “but naomi doesnt your sister have wifi” yes she do but i’m an anxious wreck so spending my days on a first floor apartment with my sister on the other side of the world w an infected foot had me fucke d upppp boiii but now i’m back in my own home and my sister + her boyfriend are safely home!! foot all fine!! and everyone is calm again!! so!! i can return with a good heart. i’ll be sliding in the dms of the people who bear emoticon’ed me 600 years ago and bc i suck w introducing myself to new people i’ll just hi!!!!! i think when i wake up i’m gonna do a “bio reading” marathon as i write bc i need to appreciate. also shit i need more threads wow i suck might see me replying to some open starters and def need to get back to plotting bc there are some people i’ve been dying to thread with ;^;

its like 6am now so i might b heading 2 bed now but under the cut there will be a reintroduction to jerome (one i promised in januari i believe) as im rewriting his bio (no major things change really its just minor things nd its time for an upgrade) so yes! hello (ims will come tomorrow as well ;3;)

also fact. mullet daddy jaebum is jerome rn dont drag him dont @ him its gone before you know it. probs after idolized its a look tho wow i love- a chic farmer (... the short bangs are tragic tho jerome honey i kno u liked them on wren but ur not wren. jerome: but i- me: no. this this not this jerome: :( ok fine me: fuego

anyway before i pass out here is reintroduction. the triggers are; adoption, racism themes??? like yeah ok!! apologize if this is shit. hope everyone is having a good day though you all are great!

Jerome Gauthier aka Yuddy

-Anti idol

-Has an okay reputation but that’s because he’s smart about things.

-BC eyeing him tho *eyes fake friends with good reputation for him to hang out with* (hmu for fake friend plots. funny the person w the best rep of all actually likes jerome. bless jisoos christ. guess that praying on knees worked out in the end huh jerome. /dont/ sainthood is waiting)

-Talented™. (ask him to write songs for you) (Actually have a few songs in my library i want him to write but not sing so *eyes*)

-Passionate as fuck don’t mess with him in the studio (passionate all over tbh)

-Adopted and in search of his bloodlines

-Hoe but not really

-Actually, scrap that. Nicknames him JerHOEme

-Is actually lovely

-But acts like a shit

-Slips up and is soft to people sometimes before being a complete and utter asshole the next second

-bc soft jerome whOMST i only know deMON

-Suave Fuckboy who’s nonchalant about everything

-French™

-Will call you baby at some point in your life

-Signature smirk

-Egotistic???? Narcissistic??? a lil bit don’t stroke his ego

-Secretive™. not much info on his time in france

-Secretly a dad without children (except for his actual biological son insoo aka chorizo sausage who he goes to play ball with- i mean work on songs in the studio. seriously catch him picking up his son from soccer practice i mean shit no i mean- ok insoo is really his son dont fight me on this.)

-And also has a daughter an Oriental shorthair cat called Edith who he is so soft with he kicks out girls to cuddle with her. (one meow and he’s home)

- we support WISH hating jerome in this household. please people who have girls in WISH dont let them like him (or be a rebel and go against the mothers wishes but you’ve been warned)

-Dont let him get in your pants too like ask wren you dont want that (or i mean with the list of kinks i peeped maybe idk who am i to say what your muse wants or does not want idk im just protecting people from satan)

-Unlikely he’ll get in any pants now anyway tho bc he a proud shopper at papa juliens pizza and y’all some other brand type ish domino lookin asses NAH *throws hands up* rome’s in the house (no but guys. this is his soulmate THIS IS HIM. dISgUStiNG- )

-In 2016 interview took him out of context and it looks like he hates all idol rappers but is not true. He just doesn’t like companies making rap out to be like this thing you can do if you’re pretty and you can’t sing and he doesn’t like it when said pretty idols know nothing of it. he gets the grind but will side eye (benjy nd jerome already have a rivalry bc of this shit thank u interviewer)

-Dating scandals?? EHH. He almost had one with a Japanese model called Momo in the beginning of his career but BC did well of spinning them as friends and he legit had one with his ex last october which?????????? shit she touched his *spoiler* and it was *spoiler* . BC about to ban him from fashion shows damn. yoonah and him have to go to paris fashion week quick

-BC has yet to force him into a relationship tho. but damn he gonna be angry when that ever happens yoo.

-Studied to become a cinematographer. Now is annoying as fuck during recording MV’s bc he butts into everything (BUT thats why his his mvs so AESTHETIC. eye for beauty bois)

-Holler at ya boi if you want a nice mv he’s involved like that

-Also to the girls who have been in an MV with Jerome.. know he probably flirted with you between takes bc during he’s grade a professionalism but he still a ho

-Actual catlady no questions asked (he feeds stray cats and gets cut up by edith when she smells other cats on him rip)

-Actual wife material no questions asked (to quote the great Halit Yilmaz during that time Jerome stood in the kitchen for hours making baklava and other Turkish treats for Halit’s Eid al-Fitr: “Shit, Jerome if you were a girl i’d marry you in a heartbeat.” and its true. we would ALL marry jerome. who says no is lying. )

-Smooth™

-Ok the ego thing btw its weird its an act but hes weird about it dont ask

idk what else to write ok short rundown of his bio as again i’m writing a new one and i cringe every time i look at my old one. im probs forgetting a lot but EYO ITS 6AM WHO CARES

CHILDHOOD age 0 to 10

-Born to a single mom who got fucked over by a smash nd dash dad. (we side eye Ok Chanwook in this household.)

-Moms family discouraged her from taking care of him herself so putting up for adoption it is.

-Very emotional not ok mom boram cry a lot pls. (got v angry too like boi if she ever sees chanwook again he can change his name to no dick larry)

-Adopted by a French couple called Lucas and Daphné (previously named Annelies). pretty kool peeps

-JK racist assholes who fetishize jerome a lot. PLEASE. the yellow fever runs deep. take him away from them,

-Raised in a small town in France and knew 0 Asians growing up. so thats nice

-Loves his adoptive grandpa to death tho (who’s he named after u3u)

-Actually hates the rest lol

-Ok uncle Rémy pretty cool bc he laughs at teen!Jerome shit talking his parents and aunt Camille. She a sweety ;3; a bit odd but a sweety #stanauntCamille

-Basically the people on the Gauthier side and born from Jerome and Clemintine are ok, the rest is shit (except for his dad Lucas. He a Gauthier but he shit)

-Junior/Senior relationship w granpda ;3; “Pépé!!” “Junior!!” *tiny jerome swings around grandpa’s neck* LOVE

-Grandma passed when he was 9. (he loved her very much and would always show her his drawings on her bed ;-;)

-Hard time adjusting at first when he was a tiny toddler. had a lisp talking french. ;3; baby rome

-young jerome had a bad case of the abandonment issues he literally held onto his dads leg for like 30 minutes before the teacher finally peeled him away from him. my smol boi

-Elephants. remember this. is important. /sob

-TLDR; biological mom didnt want to loose him. adoptive parents and dad are fucks. grandpa is kool. jerome had a good childhood until he didnt. thank u ignorance

TEEN YEARS age 10 to 20

-middle school very nice

-j FUCKING KKKKK EMO JEROME INBOUNDDDD

-kids are mean. teens are mean. young!jerome v lonely

-honestly he had no friends. except for like maybe this one kid on his sport called mattheo but he kinda a weeb so uhhhh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

-the time comes that he feels uncomfortable with everything korean. he already learned korean along side french and english when he was growing up but now distances himself from further learning. he clings to french culture a lot and even to this day he refers to himself as french and european, and rarely refers to himself as korean or asian.

-feels disconnected from both though. its like.. his parents took his korean culture away from him by using it for their own amusement. it was not his to have basically. and french- a lot of people around him give the vibe he’s not “allowed” to call himself fully french. they see him as korean, korean-french but never just french. he feels very misunderstood. lack of identity and just not fitting in

-around this time (or earlier i’m musing still) his cousin Antonin (moms side) kind of fell out on him. like. wow. not good. fucked jerome up a lil. (issues intensify)

-inferiority complex inbound/ is he ok? no he isnt. he starts writing to get his emotions out.

-Blessed Freddy rolled in teen jerome’s life like: guess we need to do history homework together jerome: aren’t you gonna make a ‘do my homework bc you’re asian’ joke freddy: why would i jerome:

-they bond over music, freddy is the one who gets him serious about getting into it (we thank our lord freddy for this gift of life we call singer/songwriter jerome. pray to freddy 10 times a day *srry jisoos christ but ur out*)

-literally young jerome would be a great soundcloud artist in this day and age. he was like joji meets rei brown with more of an rnb tinge. he liked ambient because it calmed him.

-in his old bio thats still up bc im a slow writer his old name was some dumb shit like l.only DUMB its romeles now (get it.. jeROME LESlie gauthier. im smart)

-OK IM GONNA GO QUICKER NOW

-eMO FOR A LONG TIME BC OF LONELINESS AND OTHERING FREDDY IS HIS BEACON OF HOPE WE LOVE FREDDY IN THIS HOUSEHOLD!!!!!!!

-had a big ass fall out with his parents when he was around 15? was like “UHHH FUCK Y’ALL” and moved in with his grandpa (he was very disrespectful like damn boy but you know what. i support)

-best decision of his life because grandpa v lonely after his wife died and Jerome^2 is… so soft.

-Jerome dancing/singing to old tunes and being engrossed with old movies

-Learning how to cook ;3;

-I mean bc his middle and highschool were in Laval he spend a lot of his time w his grandpa already so he already had a bed and ;-; #jerome^2

-Halit rolls into his life. Braces, huge smile, lil prepubescent stash ohmygod. My child.

-BLANC is born. Freddy/Jerome/Halit’s musical trio. Stan the Three Musketeers

-Found his first best friend and a purpose in Freddy. Found a home in Halit. (sob)

-Finds solace in rnb and hiphop. People start noticing him because of it. Writes songs and performs them in café’s. Found his niche. 15 to 19 where his “best” years

-THE BIG MOVE. After a concerned halit mom, a proud freddy mom and a “WHAT THE FUCK JEROME NO DONT GO” jerome mom they pack their bags and PARIS HERE WE COME

-Enter ex who haunts his life, Seo Yumi aka Marie (now model, v pretty, makes me cry)

-Spots her in the summer doing yoga in the park and boi he an assman so he got fucked up (jk he saw her face and was like wHAT love at first sight

-enrolls in film school, meets her there again and wow falls in love hard like wow calm down boy

-Dating~~~v possessive not good at ALL cALM DOWN JEROME

-ok he got his issues nd marie was the first one who openly listened to his problems and understood and made him appreciate his korean heritige bc she’s korean and showed him cultural aspects without the gross fetishizing that came with his parents and he just- he got intense ok. he already got a v intense personality so- still not good tho he needs to dial it down

-she thought so too and like after a year she was !!!! what the fuck. she is not one for serious relationships but jerome was like ehhh why not in the beginning its v nice to hear nd be seen as the most beautiful ok but then it got suffocating but instead of breaking up with him she kept him around. he a safe haven ya know. reliable. someone to built on later. *i wanna say she also didnt break up w him because his emo stories but marie,,, eh...* (funny tho like she got a thing for bad boys so she just “this is the fifth time you called me beautiful just degrade me lil like choke me idk” and jerome just “w-why would i do that you’re beautiful i dont want to hurt you” ah *looks into the future* ohhowthetableshaveturned.mp4 )

-Marie cheated on him the second she got the chance which was when jerome went to america w his bros

-Got offered a job as a songwriter when in ny. Wouldnt think he’d take it but after getting kicked out of school for beating the shit out of the guy marie cheated on him with and with marie out of the picture nothing held him back from starting a new life.

-TLDR; emo era. silver era. emo era 2 emo harder

ADULTHOOD age 20 to now

-Seoul make way for the rise of YUDDY™

-the name yuddy is from the film days of being wild. the character is kinda yuddy-ish too so he saw the film again and yep. thats my name

-Fuck_love.mp3

-Visits his orphanage. they like “nah boi u aint got no papers boi”

-Parents can give him access to his birthmother btw, aren’t doing it lol

-EMO

-Drinks. Sleeps around. Gets a reputation. You kno how it is. (gr8 ride tho. highly recommend. 5 out of 5 stars on yelp)

-SMASH ND DASH. Chanwook is that u??????

-One girl who he got with multiple times reminded him of Marie tho and that fucked him up for a bit (PSST ITS A PLOT WINK SO IF YA GIRL OF AGE IN THE 2013′S HMU BC ITS DRAMATIC HE GHOSTED THE SHIT OUT OF HER)

-Writes a lot of songs, a few for BC (knight baes). BC like *eye emoji* who dat boi who him iz

-Gets sign w BCreate and is like eyy life pretty good

-but lmao he debut and oh who’s that pretty girl promoting that lipstick?? oh.. its marie ;3;

-imfine.jpeg

-Joins main label and literally joins w a blessing stream limbo on spotify

-wgm era was a great era of jerome lmty his hair was great, shared cute personal things, manager was happy, slept with his best friend, was married to a sweet beautiful girl ya know the good stuff 👍 no im not crying you are

-triple fantasy era was awful we dont talk about that he looked like his brother and i’m still emotional about him wow.

-instagram is a great song

-Interviewer: u mention an ex in ur song tell me more Jerome: *SWEATS*

-Marie: my short hair DOES look pretty thank u babe ur red hair was cute too <3<3

-The fact she linked to him now is spook

-But ok he still flirty, still daring, still yuddy™ but definitely less of the whole “sleeping around” thing now bc he… he uhh closetoyou.mp3

TLDR; he turned into his dad but romeo is rising AND HE IS SCARED!!!!!

also never forget jerome is the messiest king in this ok non y’all are as messy as him. he fucked his ex’s friend oK THERE IS NOTHING MORE MESSY. dONT COME FOR HIS CROWN

#Writer Speaks.#ooc. { i dont want to reset the clock again it says 6am in this post its almost 7am i've been here since 4 i'm slower than usual wow }#{ almost 7 its 7.30 i got to stop ok }#{v sleepy now so!! goodnight talk to everyone in a few hours}

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wiener-blut · 6 years

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i was tagged by my bb @babypaulchen ages ago and now the time has come to finally do this shit!! i told u i was gonna do it Brig!!

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people (i wont tag anyone bc im doubting i even know 20 ppl on here lmao)

— what was your last…

1. drink: peach flavoured ice tea 2. phone call: my mom bc i asked her if shes interested in some hyacinth bulbs for her garden since the ones that stood in my room decayed 3. text message: to my cousin, setting a time where we can call and chat 4. song you listened to: actual surprise - its not Rammstein *ooohs and aaahs fly through the crowd* it was “The Schuyler Sisters” from Hamilton 5. time you cried: yesterday bc i had the worst fucking headache ever and i was being a whiny bitch

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: uhh no? 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: yes 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: yes, multiple times and ive come to the conclusion that throwing up makes me feel better afterwards like im back to being able to actually perveice my environment again lmao

— fave colours

12. black 13. pastel pink 14. actually i kinda love all colours idk

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yes! 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: yes, multiple times, good 18. found out someone was talking about you: like uh shittalking? idk so i guess not 19. met someone who changed you: uhhh kinda? 20. found out who your friends are: um well i found out that my friends are good friends and that i love them and that i dont want to miss any of them 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: what? u can “kiss” someone on facebook? lmao i didnt take a look on facebook for literally years .......man i had a massive brainlag here. i thought u can now “kiss” ppl on facebook like u can “poke” ppl on facebook and it didnt come to my mind this could mean “irl” lmao bury me IF it means irl tho, then yes

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: pff idk man who the fuck still uses that shithole of a site anyways

23. do you have any pets: no but i had a super cute and fluffy bunny and i still miss him and think about him everyday also i plan on having half a farm and half a zoo in the future

24. do you want to change your name: not anymore; i used to hate my name bc its so outdated and the only answer i ever got on introducing myself was “hey my grandma has the same name isnt that funny” but then more and more people told me my name was pretty and unique and well now that im older (sounds like im 40 lmao) im even kinda fond of it

25. what did you do for your last birthday: umm uhh i guess i was studying for my exams lol but i remember my gf cooking an amazing dinner for me 💖

26. what time did you wake up today: uhhhhhh smth around 9am i think

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: actually sleeping for once bc that headache knocked me out completely

28. what is something you can’t wait for: fucking going to fucking Hamburg in fucking five fucking days

30. what are you listening to right now: the birds chirping outside

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes i had a classmate named Tom........he was a bit strange tho.......

32. something that’s getting on your nerves: i cant think of anything rn

33. most visited website: Tumblr and Youtube

34. hair colour: natural? blonde / current? dyed it pink two weeks ago

35. long or short hair: long ass hair and i mean, literally, they reach all the way down to my hips

36. do you have a crush on someone: ohhhahahaha so, so many, one - and maybe the king of em all - being Christoph Schneider (not obvious at all cough cough)

37. what do you like about yourself: uhhhhhhhhhhh.........;;;;; i guess... uh... *insert more unintelligent noises* maybe my legs?

38. want any piercings: no, except for maybe some on my ear

39. blood type: 0 positive, i think

40. nicknames: Lily

41. relationship status: super duper gay af with @haifisch-ohne-traenen

42. sign: officially capricorn (i like to say “the last capricorn” bc it sounds like “the last unicorn” and well my birthday is on the last day that still counts as capricorn), but honestly im more of an aquarius

43. pronouns: she/her

44. fave tv show: i recently watched Grimm and the story was okay but the cast was like super adorable and i fell in love with every single one of them

45. tattoos: none. YET. i have plans for so much i just am very bad at deciding

46. right or left handed: right handed 47: ever had surgery: okay, small story time. there are these childrens books by german illustrator and author “Janosch” in which a tiger and a bear are best friends and i used to love those books. so once, tiger got ill (his stripes slipped out of place) and he needed to see the doctor. and the exact line was “soothing small shot, blue dream, surgery over, noticed nothing, tiger healthy”. and i once was in the hospital bc there was something wrong my nose (i dont remember what it was tho) and so they anaesthetized me (and my fav stuffie which i brough with me for mental support) and afterwards i told everyone of my “blue dream” and everyone was like ????? wtf kid bc they didnt know what i was talking about and it was just some months ago when i finally found out that a narcosis isnt called a “blue dream” and that i just knew this bc of this books which i adored and tbh i was like MY WHOLE LIFE IS A LIE “BLUE DREAM” IS AN ADORABLE TERM FOR IT 48. piercings: none 49. sport: i did ballet for 15 years and i still love to dance around the house and the mother of my best friend once called me cute bc i cant stand still and always spin around or stretch my toes while lifting my leg or do some pliés and tbh i wasnt even aware of that

50. vacation: uh...i love? lmao

51. trainers: umm like my shoes? mostly wearing my black doc martens

— more general

52. eating: i love me some good salad with tomatoes, mozzarella and tuna but ngl a pizza margherita could beat that salad any time. or a nice ragout fin. or mac’n’cheese. i love food in general, okay

53. drinking: i’d kill for a tequila rn. but like non-alcoholic beverage - plain water, yes thank u

54. i’m about to watch: some movie with my gf which we havent decided on yet

55. waiting for: my gf to return home from work so i can smooch her pretty face

56. want: to cuddle honestly

57. get married: since its legal in germany for some months now... idk tbh, its not smth i debate about on a daily basis

58. career: um i have a vague plan for becoming a speech pathologist but yea... its very vague

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: hugs

60. lips or eyes: gotta say eyes

61. shorter or taller: i dont care actually

62. older or younger: um sweats loudly...... older (fun fact i recently calculated the average age of my celebrity crushes....yes i was bored.... and it resulted in 50.... well.....)

63. nice arms or stomach: arms, fucc me up

64. hookup or relationships: relationships

65. troublemaker or hesitant: me? kinda both

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: no 67. drank hard liquor: yes 68. turned someone down: not really?

69. sex on first date: nope

70: broken someone’s heart: probably

71. had your heart broken: uh yea...kinda

72. been arrested: no

73. cried when someone died: yes, im a whiny bitch so i cry easily

74. fallen for a friend: yeah binch im dating that lovely ho right now... im gonna leave Brig’s answer here bc its perf and same here

— do you believe in

75. yourself: ugh

76. miracles: i want to

77. love at first sight: no

78. santa claus: i want to lol but no

79. angels: fuck yes

— misc

80. eye colour: blue-gray-green-ish mud 81. best friend’s name: Dana

82. favourite movie: so? much? i cant decide, really

83. favourite actor: Tom Hiddleston, i love this british dork, lemme tell u

84. favourite cartoon: phuh, idk i dont really watch cartoons

85. favourite teacher’s name: SWEATS LOUDLY AND AGGRESIVELY i had two massive teacher crushes back in my school days and that makes me a bit biased but im gonna say Herr Wolf was a great teacher bc he always said “hey, astronomy’s a minor subject, the test won’t be hard and i wont give u homework, u guys concentrate on math, german and english” and tbh we need more teachers like that

#tag thing #aaaa god that was so fun but a bit time consuming tbh lol

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aw-yeah-jimin · 7 years

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get to know me

tagged by @honey-hoseok - i havent been tagged in a thing in ages lol thank you~

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people. (im like gonna tag like 3 people tbh)

THE LAST: 1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: i lit cant remember the last time i made a phonecall... mightve been when the hospital rang about my address change 3. Text message: mum about picking me up 4. Song you listened to: neyo because of you 5. Time you cried: idk couple of weeks ago

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: nah 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah 8. Been cheated on: nah 9. Lost someone special: not really 10. Been depressed: ye 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: yeah lmao

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. orange 13. blue 14. grey

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: kinda idk??? theyre kinda more like acquaintances really i dont talk to them much outside of uni and theyre all like from birmingham so they have their home mates anyway 16. Fallen out of love: nah 17. Laughed until you cried: i do all the time tbh 18. Found out someone was talking about you: ye... but like everyone in the flat talked shit about each other so im not surprised but it was joke because she thought i banged on the walls when her and her bf had sex??? like no i just hit my head a lot because i cant sit still 19. Met someone who changed you: nah 20. Found out who your friends are: kinda 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: nah

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: like all but about 10-20 23. Do you have any pets: ye man we got a dog like 2 weeks ago lmao 24. Do you want to change your name: nah 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: nothing tbh went bank and doctors lol 26. What time did you wake up: about 10:20 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: just watching tv 28. Name something you can’t wait for: tbh to go back to uni/find out if me new flatmates are terrible or good this time lol 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: like an hour ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: im not really unhappy with anything rn 31. What are you listening to right now: the tv 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ye lol one of my uni flatmates was a tom 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: not a lot really 34. Most visited website: youtube probably

LOST QUESTIONS. 35. Mole/s: ye a few 36. Mark/s: i have a few from rashes that i kept scratching but then they went away but you can still see where they were 37. Childhood dream: i wanted to be a policewoman i think lol 38. Hair color: brown 39. Long or short hair: short-ish 40. Do you have a crush on someone: not really 41. What do you like about yourself: er like looks wise i like me nose lmao n like just in general i think im good at communicating like i can make a convo out of any random crap 42. Piercings: i have the standard lobes, and then daith and conch on me right ear 43. Blood type: AB+ 44. Nickname: lou/loulou 45. Relationship status: single 46. Zodiac: cancer 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV show: omg so many like rick and morty, adventure time, steven universe, coach trip, hollyoaks, its aunny 49. Tattoos: nah 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: nah 52. Hair dyed in different colors: i used to dye the ends different colours but i havent for a couple years 53. Sport: i lit havent done sport since school n i was only good at netball n table tennis tbh n like i just messed around in P.E. most of the time and me and amy made up our own versions of how to do things lol 54. There’s no question here so fun fact: ???idk likeee... i really actually enjoy doing laundry but everyone else seems to hate it and idgi bc i find it to be one of the easiest chores even when you hang it out on a washing line its really not that bad 55. Vacation: i havent been away since 2011:( but on that one it was a school trip, we went to america skiing, and on the way back had a stop over in france because it was cheaper than direct to england lol 56. Pair of trainers: i just live in vans tbh lol but i have a pair of nike hitops that are like 6 years old but theyre so comfy for like long distance driving/walking far lol

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: nothing 58. Drinking: water 59. I’m about to: do nothing tbh lol it's chill out time 60. No question here either so another fun fact: erm like i think im good with money??? like compared to me mates and that i think im less like sponteneous and i think more about what im buying and also what i could buy instead that i actually properly need lol 61. Waiting for: this was already a question??? 62. Want: i want the zephyr vans but we dont have that colour here;( 63. Get married: im honestly not too bothered if i do get married or not 64. Career: im like still not fully sure what i want to do, like i just do business in general at uni, but im leaning towards something in accounting and finance

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: the same height or taller, like im quite tall too so 68. Older or younger: i lean toward older but younger by a year or 2 is cool 69. No question here: ??????????????????????k 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: nice arms i guess 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant i suppose

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: nah 75. Drank hard liquour: ye 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i dont use either 77. Turned someone down: nah 78. Sex in the first date: nah 79. Broken someone’s heart: not to my knowledge 80. Had your heart broken: nah 81. Been arrested: nah 82. Cried when someone died: no one i know has died since i was like 6 so idk if i did then or not bc i cant remember 83. Fallen for a friend: nah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: most of the time 85. Miracles: sorta 86. Love at first sight: not really 87. Santa Claus: nah 88. Kiss in the first date: depends how it goes 89. Angels: nah

OTHER: 90. Current best friend’s name: i dont really have one tbh 91. Eye color: green 92. Favorite movie: im not much of a movie person tbh i probably watch three a year lol but my fav one i saw recently is girls trip

okay tagging: @run-run-run-rn @chensguns @auroraemberneko @22wooji n yeah cya

#i literally dont talk to anyone here anymore i have no one to tag grshw #you aint gotta do it obvs lol literally the only 4 people i can think of that are ingrained in my memory

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tyrionslannister · 7 years

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rules: answer all the questions and tag 20 other blogs

i was tagged by @piano-chords! thank you very much 💕

and i’m tagging @contessinas @scumbag1x1 @winterrwrites @dandelionsx @harleyplots @bellawrits @stcrbabe @slytherinplots. i don’t know who else to tag? well anyone who wants to can do this lol. also you don’t have to if you don’t want to. also i’m sorry if you’ve already done it before! also i’m talking too much. let’s get to it.

LAST:

1. DRINK: coca cola 2. PHONE CALL: my mom. she’s the only person who ever calls me lol 3. TEXT MESSAGE: my dearest school friend gabrielle 4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: parceira de copo by naiara azevedo 5. TIME YOU CRIED: yesterday like literally the whole day but uh 6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: like never?? in my life?? 7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: kinda 8. BEEN CHEATED ON: i’ve never even had a significant other lol 9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: yes (not to death tho) 10. BEEN DEPRESSED: i don’t... really... know?? 11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: never ever

3 FAVORITE COLORS 12. blue, but not an ordinary blue, blue like the caribbean sea lol 13. lots of shades of pink but especially the lighter ones 14. black. don’t tell me black is not a color!!! let me be h appy

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU (last year like... 2017 or 2016?)

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: yes!! few, but anyways lol 16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: thank god 17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: i can’t remember rn but probably lol 18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: yeah...?? as far as i remember at least 19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: i’m not really sure hmm but yeah i guess 20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: YES. Y E S. 21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: i have lol

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: most of them, i think?? 23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: nope but i wanted a kitty ): 24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: no i quite like it, i think it’s a strong name lol tho i don’t really like my last name 25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: i went out to eat with my best friend 26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: 6am to go to school 27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: watching youtube videos lol 28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: SEASON 3 OF OUTLANDER 29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: i mean... i’m seeing her right now... lol 30. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: my dad snoring in his room 31. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: nope 32. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: my anxiety and lack of self esteem lol 33. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: tumblr (is this even a secret?? lol) 34. HAIR COLOR: dark brown. really dark. almost black 35. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: long or long-ish 36. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: yES he’s beautiful he looks like froy gutierrez :’) but he’s a jerk but still 37. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: uh tricky question. my eyes i guess?? and the shape of my lips 38. PIERCINGS: none. i mean i can’t even wear earrings so... lol 39. BLOOD TYPE: o+ if i’m not mistaken 40. NICKNAME: ok there are lots but they’re more pseudonyms than nicknames??? either way some people call me akemi or night ;; and then some call me pet names like bby or be efe (aka my best friend’s way of referring to me lol) 41. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: married to @contessinas very single. i’m gonna cry 42. ZODIAC: aries sun libra moon aquarius ascendant 43. PRONOUNS: she/her 44. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: outlander but also reign and game of thrones and please don’t make me choose one lol 45. TATTOOS: none and i’m probably never getting one bc i’m dying afraid of pain 46. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right handed 47. SURGERY: uh wisdom teeth removal only 48. SPORT: no 49. VACATION: i like the beach ;; 50. PAIR OF TRAINERS: what

MORE GENERAL 51. EATING: pasta lol 52. DRINKING: again... coca cola lol @ kidneys i’m so very sorry 53. I’M ABOUT TO: go eat some chocolate lol 54. WAITING FOR: october, please 55. WANT: to actually write instead of procrastinating but one can’t have everything i guess 56. GET MARRIED: yES hopefully if the future is good to me :’) 57. CAREER: hopefully, if the future is good to me² lol

WHICH IS BETTER 58. HUGS OR KISSES: hugs. kisses are wEIRD 59. LIPS OR EYES: idk??? i can’t choose??? both??? 60. SHORTER OR TALLER: depends. what are we talking about here? lol 61. OLDER OR YOUNGER: uh older 62. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: arms arms arms 63. HOOKUP OR RELATIONSHIP: RELATIONSHIP. i hate hooking up. i have so much to say about this oh my g od 64. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: hesitant tbh

HAVE YOU EVER: 65. KISSED A STRANGER: yes lol more than once 66. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: nopes 67. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: i’ve lost my glasses once... but i found them 68. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: yeah 69. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: uh no 70. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: i mean... i hope not... but i wouldn’t doubt it 71 . HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: so many times i stopped counting 72. BEEN ARRESTED: nope lol 73. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: i don’t think so ;; 74. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: i guess i considered everyone i fell in love with a friend first, so yes lol

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 75. YOURSELF: mostly no tbh 76. MIRACLES: i mean... idk... probably? 77. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: nah 78. SANTA CLAUS: nope lol 79. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: yes ;; i mean why not lol 80. ANGELS: kinda but idk

OTHER: 81. EYE COLOR: dark brown 82. FAVORITE MOVIE: memoirs of a geisha (it’s also my favourite book!!) and alice in wonderland, the one from 2010

#laura speaks

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champagnelarrie · 7 years

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Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag!  I was tagged by @idmarryyoularrys <3

LAST [1] drink: water lol. so exciting. (tryna get rid of my under eye bags)

[2] phone call: my dad

[3] text message: my groupchat about louis’ recent IG post

[4] song you listened to: Wow - Beck

[5] time you cried: i don’t actually know...it’s been a while

 [6] dated someone twice: idk what this means but i’ve always been single

[7] been cheated on: single af

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: never been kissed

[9] lost someone special: a couple years ago

[10] been depressed: now lol . not clinically. i’ve never been diagnosed, but sometimes you just have one of those days. (for me, multiple days)

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: never.

 LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

[12] dark green

[13] golden yellow

[14] burnt orange

 IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

 [15] made new friends: yes. just made some new friends :)

[16] fallen out of love: never been in love unless u count 1D lmao

[17] laughed until you cried: probably

[18] found out someone was talking about you: yup. i but it’s ppl i dont even know so who gives a fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

[19] met someone who changed you: idk. not really.

[20] found out who your true friends are: yes and no :/ . i’ve never had a solid friendship that lasts or have had friends who give as much of a fuck as i do... :/

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: no wtf. who even uses FB anymore?

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: most but i don’t talk to any of them anymore. i hate them all lol.

[23] do you have any pets: no but i want one so bad!!!!!

[24] do you want to change your name: Just the spelling so ppl pronounce it correctly lol.

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: I went to Universal Studios!!!!! (And Disneyland the next day :D)

[26] what time did you wake up: 8:45 ish but didn’t get out of bed till like 10

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: lol...SAT practice

[28] name something you cannot wait for: LOUIS’ MUSIC!!!!, Trevor Noah in November, and to have a job so i can finally have money

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: yesterday

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: dude idk...so many things need changing.... better friends, more money, non crazy parents, i need to gain some more weight

[31] what are you listening to right now: Carolina - Harry Styles

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: I know a Thomas? e goes by Tommy...does that count?

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: GIRL if you know me, EVERYTHING gets on my nerves lmao

[34] most visited website: tumblr, ao3 and youtube

[35] elementary: a fucking nightmare

[36] high school: :/ it’s SO STRESSFUL.

[37] college: not there yet...but soon....

[38] hair colour: really dark brown

[39] long or short hair: medium to long. It reaches down to my boobies

[40] do you have a crush on someone: yup! but we never see each other bc they go to a different school

[41] what do you like about yourself?: i’m passionate about important issues

[42] piercings: yup. ears and nostril. i use to have a septum but when i wanted to replace the ring, a keloid which i didn’t realize was there, covered the hole :(

[43] blood type: no idea

[44] nickname: Mani

[45] relationship status: single pringle.

[46] zodiac sign: saggitarius

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show(s): the magicians, HTGAWM, stranger things, At Midnight, the Fosters, Chelsea, AHS, Parks and Rec, Shameless

[49] tattoos: one day....I want so many...but so expensive...

[50] right or left handed: right

 FIRST…  [51] surgery: never had one

[52] piercing: ears when i was a baby

[53] best friend: kindergarten

[54] sport: volleyball

[55] vacation: India lmao

[56] pair of trainers: girl how am I suppose to know??? ask my parents lol

[57] eating: these questions are getting dumb now

[58] drinking: breast milk????

[59] i’m about to: shower

[60] listening to: AGAIN?! Ticket to the Moon - Electric Light Orchestra

[61] waiting for: A JOB.

[62] want: more money, less anxiety

[63] get married: sure one day

[64] career: something with Environmental Science.. I love animals so something that combines the two?

 YOUR TYPE…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs

[66] lips or eyes: eyes

[67] shorter or taller: i’m 5′3 so most ppl are taller than me anyways lol

[68] older or younger: idk??? most ppl are my age or older

[69] romantic or spontaneous: both

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: i love many kinds of body types... don’t need to be super buff to be hot :)

[71] sensitive or loud: what does that even mean?

[72] hook up or relationship: idk never tried either

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: this is a dumb question

 HAVE YOU EVER…

 [74] kissed a stranger?: no

[75] drank hard liquor?: i’ve had wine and beer so no lol

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: nope

[77] turned someone down: kind of??? does blocking ppl count lmao

[78] sex on first date?: can’t relate

[79] broken someone’s heart?: idk

[80] had your own heart broken?: lol nah

[81] been arrested? Nah

[82] cried when someone died? no one i knew personally has died so i’ve never cried over anyone

[83] fallen for a friend: umm..i don’t think so...

 DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

 [84] yourself?: LOL NAH.

[85] miracles?: i guess

[86] love at first sight?: um...maybe?

[87] santa claus? i’m not Christian..lmao...miss me with that shit

[88] kiss on the first date?: yeah sure why not

[89] angels?: nope

[90] current best friend’s name: :/

[91] eye colour: brown

[92] favourite movies: love Disney movies...Monsters Inc.

now I gotta tag hella (25 ppl )....

@rbbsbbofficial @letsnotlarry @kiwisinnewyork @stardustsoulmates @competitivelou @fellforlou @lovenchy @scrantonlou @what-happened-in-wellington @homeisharry @larryslove @lavenderlouie @hunkyniall @louisbravado @louisfeaturingharry @twaslouis @louis-love @ohnoliam @mylittlebirdlouis @sweetkiwi28 @louisinawetsuit @alwaysalarrie @proudlylarrie @peachbootylouis @moonlitlarrie

omg it took so long to tag all of yall so you better do it lmao

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tigresjumeaux · 7 years

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As per the request of @my-insanity-is-irrelevant, here goes nothing. Not even gonna reblog the ask meme post bc I’m literally answering every question rip

1. What is you middle name? Marie. #basic 2. How old are you? 19. 3. When is your birthday? May 31. 4. What is your zodiac sign? Gemini. I’m actually two people and they’re both snakes. 5. What is your favorite color? I honestly don’t have one, they all have their perks. I do tend to favor cooler and darker colors tho 6. What’s your lucky number? 7 and 9, but odd numbers tend to treat me nicely in general. 7. Do you have any pets? Three! A Boxer named Buster, and two 14 y/o cats named Asheley and Nadia. Here’s hoping for many more in the future. :’) 8. Where are you from? Born in Seattle, raised in the greater St. Louis area, and going to school in Muncie, IN. 9. How tall are you? 5′6″ 10. What shoe size are you? 8 in American women’s size. 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Oh lord. Probably like 15 because I refuse to get rid of any, but I only wear like 4. 12. What was your last dream about? Roller coasters and an ex being nasty. DJ Khaled was there. 13. What talents do you have? I’m fairly good at reading people, and also drawing. I’m also a quick learner, if that counts as a talent? 14. Are you psychic in any way? I wish. I have a weird force of karma that seems to follow the people who have hurt me around, but that could be coincidence. I’ve helped check other people’s energies (as well as my own) before, but my knowledge is limited and I don’t think I have the sense of self to pursue that right now. 15. Favorite song? At no point in my life have I had just one, but “Fury” by Muse and “Love is Mystical” by the Cold War Kids are up there right now. 16. Favorite movie? Wonder Woman was so, so good, y’all. I also like 17. Who would be your ideal partner? daisy ridley right now, my standards are both really low and really high. Just...someone I get along with and who gives a rat’s ass? 18. Do you want children? I think I might, yeah. Depends on who I end up with, but I like the idea of making small humans and showing them how the world works. Teaching others has always helped me figure shit out, anyway. 19. Do you want a church wedding? nooooo thank you 20. Are you religious? Not in the sense that I participate in organized religion, but I do believe in aspects of many different religions. I’m particularly fond of reincarnation. 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? I had to have my chin stitched up when I was like, 3. And also I had my tonsils out at 10. 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? Nope, and I’d prefer to keep it that way. 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? I met Paramore the summer before my junior year, and I met Jensen, Jared, and Misha from SPN my senior year! 24. Baths or showers? Showers. 25. What color socks are you wearing? au naturale i’m barefoot bitches 26. Have you ever been famous? one time i did a drawing and it got 100 notes 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? noooooo maybe C-list at most 28. What type of music do you like? I’ll listen to just about anything, but I lean towards alt rock, metal, punk, some indie if it isn’t too hippie-ish. 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? nah 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? Like...7? 31. What position do you usually sleep in? On my stomach with my top half wrapped around a pillow or a blanket. 32. How big is your house? Two-story, four bedrooms. Parents raised three wild kiddos here 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? A smoothie or a sandwich when I’m actually up in time. 34. Have you ever fired a gun? No, but I’d like to at least try. 35. Have you ever tried archery? yes and i ain’t no katniss 36. Favorite clean word? Maverick (that’s one of many) 37. Favorite swear word? Fuck. it’s just so versatile 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 60 hours or so 39. Do you have any scars? On my heels, chin, thighs, hips, and over my wristbones. I’m clumsy, have pets, and have self-harmed. 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? An anon flirted w me on Tumblr but it was someone in my French class, lel. Wasn’t a secret for too long. 41. Are you a good liar? White lies, yes. Big lies, noooo. 42. Are you a good judge of character? Generally? 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? Not a whole lot on my own, but I’ll pick up anything I hear regularly. 44. Do you have a strong accent? Not really? I just kinda talk and drop bits of different accents here and there. I don’t think I have that much of a St. Louis accent. 45. What is your favorite accent? I have a soft spot for slight Southern accents. Eastern European and Australian are also awesome. 46. What is your personality type? sad 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? A $120 jacket from Zumiez. It’s HUF brand but I bought it for the wolves on it tbh 48. Can you curl your tongue? Yes and it comes in handy w girlfriends 49. Are you an innie or an outie? Innie 50. Left or right handed? Right 51. Are you scared of spiders? I used to, but I’m getting better. They startle me but I’ve carried a wolf spider outside so 52. Favorite food? changes by the hour tbh tho chicken is always good 53. Favorite foreign food? Shepherd’s Pie. 54. Are you a clean or messy person? Clean, but disorganized. My room is cluttered but not like, dirty. 55. Most used phrase? "Oh my god.” 56. Most used word? like 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? depends. not usually over 45 minutes unless I’m getting Fancy. 58. Do you have much of an ego? Not really. 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? Yes. 60. Do you talk to yourself? More than anyone else. 61. Do you sing to yourself? Yes, especially when I can’t hear my own voice. 62. Are you a good singer? N o 63. Biggest Fear? Forgetting and being forgotten. 64. Are you a gossip? drama that don’t involve me is the best drama 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? Goodwill Hunting aaaaaa 66. Do you like long or short hair? On myself, defs long. I love pulling it back too much for short. 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? Yep! I 68. Favorite school subject? English. Also psychology. 69. Extrovert or Introvert? Extrovert with trust issues, abandonment issues, and that shuts down a lot. and also clinical depression 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? No, but I’ve been snorkeling! 71. What makes you nervous? Anything has the potential to make me nervous, tbh. But not knowing things is The Worst 72. Are you scared of the dark? Oh god yes 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? I do when it’s something small. Big mistakes are things you gotta figure out for yourself. 74. Are you ticklish? Less and less over time, tbh. 75. Have you ever started a rumor? Never on purpose. I’ve heard a few things I’ve said get distorted and spread but I try to Cut That Shit Out Quick 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? I was a President of a few clubs in high school, captain of the swim team, and a manager for the track and cross country teams. 77. Have you ever drank underage? Whenever I can, tbh. Not even to get drunk, necessarily, it just tastes good 78. Have you ever done drugs? Only weed with a close friendo of mine. I also may have saved a few narcotics from my wisdom tooth removal for a rainy day 79. Who was your first real crush? My best friend in middle school. That was a doozy. 80. How many piercings do you have? I have doubles in my ears, so 4. I’d like triples and possibly a septum piercing. 81. Can you roll your Rs? Yep! Sometimes I do it by accident when speaking 82. How fast can you type? Not very tbh 83. How fast can you run? That depends on why I’m running. 84. What color is your hair? Dirty blonde. 85. What color are your eyes? Blue-gray. 86. What are you allergic to? Certain kinds of deodorant and also tumblr 87. Do you keep a journal? I mean I scribble down stream of consciousness shit when trying to Cope w things, but I don’t keep one regularly. 88. What do your parents do? Dad’s an engineer, mom’s the HR person for a whackass ad company w fun people 89. Do you like your age? I mean I’d rather be able to legally drink, but I’m a legal adult but it doesn’t feel Real yet so I guess it ain’t all bad 90. What makes you angry? When people are mean for literally no good reason. 91. Do you like your own name? it’s aiight. people trying to pronounce my last name is amusing 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? I like the name Oliver a lot for a guy? But really I guess it’d depend on my what my wife likes 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? dog 94. What are your strengths? I know people and can communicate pretty well, and I’m generally good at being pretty friendly. Also I can swim so if someone throws me in the water the joke is on them 95. What are your weaknesses? Can’t be left alone for long periods of time, relying on one person for everything, and ignoring myself and other friends, compulsive tendencies, and an overall obsessive personality. 96. How did you get your name? Named after my dad’s grandma, iirc. Except Claire instead of Clara. 97. Were your ancestors royalty? I’m sure someone was idk 98. Do you have any scars? didn’t I answer this already 99. Color of your bedspread? Black and white at home, orange and purple in my dorm. 100. Color of your room? Very dark forest green. I like it lots.

#tigres talks to people #shoosh claire #ask meme #my-insanity-is-irrelevant #long post

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spidcypools · 7 years

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rules: answer all the questions and tag 20 other blogs [ tagged at the end of the post ]

tagged by: @jessdidathing

LAST:

1. DRINK: water 2. PHONE CALL: my grandpa called me last week asking if i wanted anything from McDonald’s which i said no bc i don’t like to eat fast food 3. TEXT MESSAGE: kaitlyn, the love of my life 4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: ever since new york by harry styles 5. TIME YOU CRIED: LMFAOOOOOOO like two weeks ago I was having a chat with my friend Torin and it started getting real deep and ya girl started crying. ya girl doesn’t like to cry 6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: uh like years ago. I dated my ex-girlfriend twice and it ended badly both times 7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: nah 8. BEEN CHEATED ON: No. 9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: Yes. 10. BEEN DEPRESSED: lol yeah 11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: no i’m that binch that only drinks two reds because i hate the idea of being hungover. i’ll get that drunk when i turn 21

3 FAVORITE COLORS

12. green 13. aquamarine 14. the pink that is harry styles album cover amazing

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: Yes 16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: no 17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: always 18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: yes, last week actually wyd. 19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: Yes. 20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: Yeah. 21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: yes, but it was for a directing scene

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: a good portion. Like a few are some of my internet friends and some are random people from my college but i know most. 23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: two cats and four dogs. but like, I want another dog and cat and maybe an iguana. 24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: sometimes i think about how my mom was going to name me stevie after stevie nicks and think what could have been but then i remember my name is cool so no. 25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: my friend stephen invited me on a road trip to go watch hot air balloons. So in the afternoon i had sushi with torin, blasted harry styles debut album (thanks son) and then traveled with friends, had oliver garden then we camped on the cold hard wet ground and I woke up with a back ache and wet jacket :~) 26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: 8:30 27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: I think I was doing rp replies 28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: summer, i’m ready to start school, take names, get good grades and get bigger roles in the theatre department. 29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: she’s literally in the room next to me 31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: chillin’ like a villain from the descendants 2 soundtrack. it’s a good song ok 32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: i think so? do I know a tom omg 33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: a lot of things get on my nerves i’m an easily annoyed person...i’d have to say the thing that had gotten on my nerves constantly the past two months is katie CONSTANTLY being in our small ass dorm room that already roomed four people with vastly contrasting personalities when she had her own house. she ate our food, slept on our futon, left her shit everywhere, always brought her drama to us like gIRL I SAW YOU 24 HOURS A DAY I SEE YOU AT WORK ALL THE TIME TOO, GO H OME. 34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: tumblr 35. HAIR COLOR: dark brown with fading light brown high lights. It’s about to get re-dyed 36. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: Long-ish 37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: I’m not sure 38. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: uh, i’d say my singing voice. it’s alright. also my style that’s evolved over the last few years. 39. PIERCINGS: my ears 40. BLOOD TYPE: I don't know all I know is that i’m anemic. 41. NICKNAME: Zuzu, Z, Zu, Zuley. if someone tries to call me zazu i will fight them 42. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single and ghosting every boy who tries to hit me up :~) 43. ZODIAC: taurus 44. PRONOUNS: she/her 45. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: black mirror, supernatural, shameless, the get down, stranger things, the office, parks and rec that’s all i can think of rn i don’t watch a lot of tv and i suck at binge watching on netflix 46. TATTOOS: not yet i have a few planned 47. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: Left 48. SURGERY: i had my tonsils taken out when i was little and i had four baby teeth removed so i could get a pallet expander. 50. SPORT: i’ve never been big into sports but i’ll play them and i get really competitive. I did T-Ball when I was like five. Uh i’ll say dance that’s a sport right? It is now. 51. VACATION: uh, i think it was when i went to new Orleans a two years ago? 52. PAIR OF TRAINERS: ....those are tennis shoes right. I have Adidas.

MORE GENERAL

53. EATING: a bowl of cantelope and apricots 54. DRINKING: water 55. I’M ABOUT TO: post this and start my recommendation letter to my technical director and head of theatre to potentially be a stage manager in the spring 56. WAITING FOR: October, that’s when i see harry styles in concert ya’ll dreams come true 57. WANT: to hug my best friend and make sure she’s ok 58. GET MARRIED: i’d like to yeah 59. CAREER: something in theatre. the big (unrealistic goal) is to be an actor/singer/performer. but i’ll probably stick with stage management or designing.

WHICH IS BETTER

60. HUGS OR KISSES: hugs 61. LIPS OR EYES: eyes 62. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller 63. OLDER OR YOUNGER: the last few people i liked were younger than me but i don’t care 64. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: arms 65. HOOKUP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship 66. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: troublemaker lmfao

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. KISSED A STRANGER: no 68. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: yaaasss 69. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: yes 70. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: yes. i did it today 71. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: no 72. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: yeah 73. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: well yeah 74. BEEN ARRESTED: nO 75. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes 76. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: HAHA yeah. all the time. it’s fine.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. YOURSELF: not really 78. MIRACLES: yes 79. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: sure 80. SANTA CLAUS: ....listen 81. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: I mean the last time someone kissed me on the first date i got into my car awkwardly and drove away :~) so it depends yeah! 82. ANGELS: yes

OTHER:

84. EYE COLOR: brown 85. FAVORITE MOVIE: i have a lot of favorite movies right now i’d have to say my favorite is dunkirk

Tagging is weird asklgslakg but anyways i’ll tag a few and if like anyone else wants to do it...you do it fam

@rihannasweeddealer @nickwldes @pgwrites @romantic-madness1x1

#me #long post #i never do these things but why not #screams

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ratmonologue · 7 years

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Tagged by @clararogers-parker

the last 1. drink: strawberry lemonade  2. phone call: maybe my mom? I literally never talk to people on the phone  3. text message: SOAR squad group chat  4. song you listened to: Verka Serduchka’s “EINZ ZWEI DREI TANZEN!” Eurovision song bc I am garbage and now it’s completely stuck in my head  5. time you cried: I actually can’t remember? That’s new. Probably not since finishing A Conjuring of Light, though that was enough crying for a month anyway t 6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: not really 8. been cheated on: I’m 90% sure yes 9. lost someone special: not in the death sense  10. been depressed: yes 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: drunk yes, to the point of throwing up no

3 favourite colours 12. grass green 13. black 14: dark red

in the last year have you 15. made new friends: yes  16. fallen out of love: was I even in love to begin with is the question. but I’m gonna go with no 17. laughed until you cried: oh yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: maybe?  19. met someone who changed you: yes, and not for the better  20. found out who your friends are: isn’t that kind of an ongoing process?  21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: don’t have facebook

General: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: see above  23. do you have any pets:  not anymore sadly 24. do you want to change your name: I’m actually currently in the process of changing (well, correcting) my name in Germany because German name laws are weird. the paperwork really sucks so I don’t think I’d ever want to do it again. 25. what did you do for your last birthday: it was like 3 days before the Peru trip so I think I was mostly just continuing to scramble to get everything in order lol. no real celebration as such. 26. what time did you wake up: noon-ish  27. what were you doing at midnight last night: talking to OT people  28. name something you can’t wait for: SOAR reunion!  29. when was the last time you saw your mom: about 20 minutes ago 31. what are you listening to right now: fcking Eurovision songs that are still stuck in my head 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes  33. something that is getting on your nerves: my mental music player l 34. most visited website: probably the OT 35. hair colour: dark reddish. natural color is brown. 36. long or short hair: on me, short-ish 37. do you have a crush on someone: no 38. what do you like about yourself: nice hair (hey, we were on that topic anyway)  39. piercings: nope 40. blood type: I should probably know that 41. nickname: Clary to internet friends 42. relationship status: very very single 43. zodiac: fuck off 44. pronouns: she/her; they/them is fine too 45. favourite tv show: Blackadder, Firefly, and Merlin  46. tattoos: no(t yet?)  47. right or left handed: right-handed except for guitar, for which I’m left-handed because nothing makes sense 48. surgery: yes, I have had  50. sport: used to play basketball, volleyball, and badminton. Kinda want to get back into the last two. 51. vacation: the entire world  52. pair of trainers: as in, do I own sneakers....? what is this asking? I pretty much live in Converse, so....?

MORE GENERAL  53. eating: nothing right now 54. drinking: ditto 55. I’m about to: waste my entire day, as usual. (write. w r i t e)  56. waiting for: my birthday so I can finally buy my own alcohol in this stupid country 57. want: in general? happiness, a job, motivation. right now? some Bailey’s.  58. get married: if we ever find a bring-fictional-characters-to-life machine, sure 59. career: bestselling novelist; failing that, space archaeologist

WHICH IS BETTER:  60. hugs or kisses: both  61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: taller 63. older or younger: older usually means people have a modicum of maturity, but sadly that’s not always the case. those odds are still better for older, though. 64. nice arms or nice stomach: both, though I guess arms if I had to pick 65. hookup or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER:  67. kissed a stranger: kind of? not /stranger/ but I have kissed people within a few hours of first meeting them, so... not exactly I guess  68. drank hard liquor: I lived in Scotland for a year, that’s a definite yes 70. turned someone down: yes  71. sex on the first date: nope (no #72? okay then)  73. had your heart broken: yes  74. been arrested: no  75. cried when someone died: fictional characters, yes. nobody close to me irl has ever died, so I guess I’m lucky in that regard  76. fallen for a friend: kind of...?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:  77. yourself: on a good day  78. miracles: not in the religious sense, maybe in the luck/random chance sense 79. love at first sight: of course not 80. santa claus:  no 81. kiss on the first date: if it was a good date, absolutely 82. angels: no

OTHER:  84. eye colour: brown 85. favourite movie: tie between jurassic park and raiders of the lost ark

Tagging whoever wants to do this

#I answer stuff

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imaginingit · 7 years

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surgeon!wonwoo

i suck balls at science and can’t remember anything at all from any of my classes but i think it’s one of the most interesting and unfathomable concepts in the world - and in my world, so does wonu so enJOY

wonwoo and his specs gave me this idea and it ki l l ed m e

so i knew i had to write a lil something abt it :-)

ok where do we start

remembered his mama camping out in the kitchen all the time and then heard the occasional “ah!” as she nipped her finger cutting some onions

and raced like usain freaking bolt to the medicine cabinet to reach the bandaids

and the look in her eyes when he quickly patched it onto her

it was just a bit of blood, but 4 year old!wonwoo was still hopped up on the high kitchen counter with one hand on his hip, the other wiping an imaginary sweat drop from his head, and gave a nice long “phew! you’re ok, ma! scared me there”

then proceeded to yell at her with his extremely not-deep-yet voice (om g can u imagine) for not being careful enough and interrupting his power ranger episode

but a few nipped fingers and a million thank-you smooches (“eW MOM gEt awAY i’m 4, i’m too old for kisses) later, jeon wonwoo decided to become a surgeon

bc how is it not cool to sew severed fingers back together???

so through elementary and junior high, he walked into science class everyday with a little hop in his step for his favourite subject and ready to learn about cells and mitochondrial functions and enigmas of the muscle and much more

until he discovered more than just sewing severed toes and ears back together

he remembered his 7th grade teacher talking about how the brain is the most powerful thing in the world, and just a simple nug to the head can send it all crashing down

he also went on to explain that the brain will never be a mystery solved, but those who try will never be short of acclaim

and since then, he delved into the world of neurology

by delved, i mean, dove the fuck into it, then drowned, then woke, then dove some more

through high school, he topped every single one of his bio classes and won every single science award in the school board

how????

HE’S A GENIUS

and also stays in on sunday afternoons to read his bio 4.6 textbook instead of sushi with friends

leading to best friend mingyu’s endless grumbling and whining that they never get to hang out anymore

meanwhile mingyu has his socks and sweaters and clothes all at wonwoo’s place; has a toothbrush there, buys food for his parents, uses the stove at wonwoo’s more than wonwoo does the pOINT IS HE BASICALLY LIVES WITH WONWOO

but everyone around wonwoo knows how much it means to him to be able to make this work

he marvels about science bc it’s a practicality but finds beauty in its enigma and endless endeavours of research and study

(jeon wonwoo is basically a nerd)

(but a hot one)

but yes, all his life, books, textbooks, textbooks, and books are all he’s known

so with all this accumulated knowledge he literally fucking powers through his undergrad and masters programs like. .. … bruh

he then gets accepted into the second top med school in the country boY

and this was such an eye opening experience for him because as much as his undergrad and masters did for him with theoretical aspects of science, he finally got to do hands on experiments and witness clinical trials and watched a live!! open!! brain!! surgery!!

so finally he goes through his internship and residency for a few years at this amazing hospital in the heart of the city and has already become most renown neurosurgeon the hospital has seen in years despite his age

imagine little wonu in faded green scrubs, with a tiny notepad in his hand and occasionally pushing his glasses up his nose, as he scurries around with his resident trying to take notes during rounds

to this hot-ass, confident, head of neurosurgery surgeon that has nurses and residents (even interns and PATIENTS) slipping on their drool for him in his white coat and cerulean blue dress shirt, the top button left untouched (seungcheol had to slap his hand away multiple times during breakfast to keep him from trying to button it again)

but lbr he still trips over his laces bc he forgot to tie them before he left in the morning and buttons his dress shirt wrong under his white coat when coups doesn’t come in the morning to check up on his wardrobe choices for the day

one time, accidentally brought mingyu’s grocery shopping list from his briefcase to the pharmacy rather than the prescription for ibruprofen for his patient jesus christ wonwoo

the point is, knowledge has always come easy for him, the other stuff have not

,,,,,,and then there’s u

oh boy

science is ur nemesis

ultimate. nemesis.

the first time you ever stepped foot into your science class in the sixth grade, every word that came out of ur teacher’s mouth, to you, was just a complete ,,,, , , ,what??

and ur not stupid (actually very completely opposite), ur brain just physically, literally, cannot comprehend the concept of science

even if it may be so extremely fascinating to u, chem!!! physics!!!! and bio!!! are allergic to sticking to ur brain so u just learn to avoid science at. all. costs.

remember when i said that jeon wonwoo was a classic genius and a social termite like he’s so shy and weird around new people that he just deflects it at all costs?

WELL NOT YOU

so u went into journalism bc instead of memorizing formulas and using every unit of area in ur brain, ur communication is ur best friend

through high school and university, you were the campus butterfly

you knew everyone and everyone knew you, and any event that needed an mc? a motivational speaker? a presenter? that’s you!

you and best friend soonyoung always do those stuff together and you fell in love with the art of communicating, articulating, and analyzing information, all the while keeping the listeners intrigued and focused the entire time

but unfortunately the years after ur undergrad trying to look for gigs with ur firm has been extremely unsuccessful and it was to the point where u didn’t know if u wanted to stop this or continue bc it was just too low of a demand

until one day!

u come into ur office and find a piece of paper on the bulletin board talking about the new neural clinical trial happening at this huge hospital near u, and they were looking for someone to cover it!

and at first u were like um kk clinic? try? what?

but .2 seconds later it hits you that thERE’S AN OPEN OPPORTUNITY

and u vow to plow through it as boring as it may be, bc it’s been just sitting there and people haven’t signed up probably cause medical cases are usually a failure and such a bore to talk abt

you need this

so u quickly apply with all the info you need to and two days later, you’re stepping foot into this huge hospital and escorted to the neuro ward to get things started

when u get to the floor ur led by nurse!jeonghan to the head surgeon on this case

i think y’all know where this ish is going

and jeonghan begins asking u a few questions abt the case, trying to gauge where you are with the info, and its safe to say u have nada dirt on this

so he laughs and begins to explain

this was the first clinical trial this hospital has done in 14 years, and despite being a renown teaching and surgical hospital, it has never quite reached its potential on the research aspect

so the new head of neuro, dr. jeON, has decided to go forth with the new clinical trial (an experiment where those with the sickness subjected to the study will volunteer to be apart of the research, using themselves as a way to find a cure) for huntington’s disease, an inherited brain disorder that slowly deteriorates one’s ability to move, speak, function, as brain cells being to die off

he’s already got you so hooked on the case that you begin to wonder why no one at ur firm did an extra bit of research in the first place to snatch this gig

but ur glad anyway CAUSE ITS NOW URS

u probably looked so flabbergasted and numbly excited that jeonghan mistook it for ur cluelessness and nerves, so he goes

“dw, it’ll be fine! dr. jeon here will walk through everything with you anyway, and you’ll basically be with him for the entire course of this trial to document everything, so tomorrow, just immediately head up here”

and knocks on the door labeled “dr. jeon wonwoo, ph.d, m.d., head of neurosurgery”

and for the head of neuro, for someone taking forth in an idea that hasn’t been touched in over a dozen years in such a renown hospital, you did not expect the door to be opened by a

beautiful

human being

his glasses sat perfectly atop his face as his sharp yet kind eyes rested upon urs

and his white coat and black dress shirt today and nice slim pants and a pair of $200 light brown dress shoes bOI

and when he opens the door and finds ur mouth agape and eyes shining with excitement he feels like a leap in his chest

like who is this beautiful person

and he scolds himself, no wonwoo stop this nOW

and he doesn’t know if it’s bc he hasn’t been on a date in like forever or if it was simply u

answer: it was simply u

but we’ll get to that

and jeonghan notices the tension so begins giggling and retreating from the scene

so wonwoo clears his throat when it’s just the two of you left

introduces himself and you m e l t bc

his........voice.................

and you stutter ur name and in his head he’s like o h m g what a pretty name what do i do with myself

so you enter his office and its surprisingly extremely tidy and put together for someone that probably has to worry about so much in a day

and begins to talk about the case with you

and remember the cute and stuttery person that opened the door to see u like 2 minutes ago

GOODBYE

bc here’s jeon wonwoo talking about science and his eyes light up brighter than anything you’ve ever seen

he talks about huntington’s first to give you a bit of background as to what it is, and then delves right into his plan

his hands begin to move with his words and he smiles when he begins to talk about how no one has attempted this before and maybe this could make a difference in this hospital, his career, and even medical history!!

and he kinda noticed you blanking when he talked about the logistics of the science so he kinda laughs to himself, knowing that science might not be ur thing

but for some reason, ur ok with science if u have this man talking to u abt it 24/7 ;)))))))

and u take notes on this and he notices ur pretty handwriting so gathers up his GODDAMN COURAGE to ask u a simple question

“so you’re a journalist?”

and u begin to tell him that you loved being able to tlak about something that reflected on someone’s experiences and share them with the world, just liek this one

and he smiles and thanks u, knowing that it must have been difficult to agree to a medical case

u assure him its no problem, meanwhile swooning over his s m i l e

and it’s only been like 30 minutes but u’ve already developed a crush like wow

so for the first week, your conversations are a wholesome mixture of science, stutters, facepalming when u say something cringey and accidentally, and hoping to make the other laugh

in the second week, you begin to meet the patients coming in, taking each of their stories and details with huntington’s

and for the first time, you see how wonwoo interacts with his patients

and that crush that you developed become sso much more - you have this whole new found respect for him as a doctor

with care and intent, he asks his patients abt their day before going right into details of the treatment, knowing that all these people are doing his career a favour and the least he can do before they risk their lives into this experiment is at least be their friend

and even 70 year old women that can barely move anymore still manage to blush at the sound of his voice

u see the way he holds their hand when he’s explaining the process and the courteous nod of his head as they talk to him and u know this man is more than just a surgeon and that he’s just an amazing human

by the third week, your conversations have now transitioned to telling each other what u did last night and what ur planning for dinner tonight

and u know to bring him coffee every morning now

the first time u did it, he legit had STARS in his eyes bc o mg u r so cute

and u guessed it right the first time, that he liked his coffee black with just a dash of sugar

GET THE METAPHOR

by the end of the month, the more you learn about him, the more you’re amazed

you guys become closer and share the passion of wanting to help ppl in some way

and ur relationship now has become a complete budding and teasing relationship and there’s literally never a dull moment with u

ur fav thing to do together is to do acrostic poems

u also take bets on who’s sleeping with who in the hospital

he always wins

“its not fair u OBVIOUSLY know more abt them than i do!!!”

“hey babe, dont hate the player, hate the game”

and then u have to keep ur knees from buckling bc bABE ? ?? ? ?

the nurses always comment on how you’ve brought him so far out of his shell and he never really used to talk to anyone besides his patients, but he’s been treating his residents to dinner, helping the nurses out with the paperwork, and it’s only been happening since u came

and u r like

. . ,,, ?? me?

and they’re like yes! do u not notice how red he turns everytime u walk into the room?

you soon learn his favourite colour is blue

his favourite band is my chemical romance

im kiddin g

his best friend is mingyu and he’s a chef

you learn that he has a younger brother and his first ever splurge was buying him and his parents a cottage by the ocean

also that he never really eats at home and he barely ever gets to go home bc of the gruelling hours and so he tends to just eat in his office before he checks up on his patients during night rounds

you also learn that he’s having a housewarming party for his new condo this saturday and was wondering if yoU’D LIKE TO COME ALONG???

by this point, your research was mainly complete and you were a third finished with ur piece on this

so ur like y know what? SURE

and u try ur fucking best not to blush, but as you leave for the night, jeon wonu does a HUGE happy dance in his office before realizing that his walls and doors are glass and peopLE CAN SEE U WONWOO GODDAMn

but he texts u his address with a smirky face

“jeon wonwoo why are u sending me a text w a smirky face”

“idk that was my attempt to be cool did it work”

“no”

“oh”

so it was ur day off on the day of his party and u know wonwoo doesn’t really throw stuff like this cause he only has a "small” group of friends

“it’s only gonna be u and my small group of friends”

“how small”

“well i grew up with these guys, there are abt 13 of us”

“THIRTEEN ISN’T SMALL”

and usually you’d be fine bc u have no problem meeting ppl but like these are wonwoo’s brothers???

you wanna try so hard to impress these people bc--

wait wonu isn’t ur bf??? WYD

SNAP OUT OF IT

so u slap urself and then take like four hours to find the right outfit and do ur hair nicely

and u show up in ur fav outfit and look bomb asf yas

and he opens the door after u knock

and

lord

he’s wearing a simple white t-shirt and ripped jeans

jeon wonwoo

phd

head of neurosurgery

in ripped jeans

rip reader

and as u lose ur words, he also loses his and ur both just standing there clearly REALIZING THAT UR IN LOVE WITH THE OTHER PERSON AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME YOU’VE EVER WORN ANYTHING OTHER THAN PROFESSIONAL CLOTHING AND WOW? SO? NICE?

so he snaps out of it bc yes i’m hosting this party thts right, and brings u inside

you hear a bunch of exclaiming and hushing from inside the rooms and a lot of limbs knocking into the walls as 13 human beings sprint from inside of the condo to mEET THE JOURNALIST THAT JEON WONWOO HASN’T SHUT UP ABOUT IN TWO MONTHS

and they all rush out and ur a bit overwhelmed but introduce urself and then scan through all the faces

you notice nurse!jeonghan, head of pediatrics!chan, his best friend, mingyu, and--

wait

“KWON SOONYOUNG???????”

yes ur best friend from uni also happens to have grown up in the same neighbourhood as surgeon jeon and u cant believe ur luck

so hoshi jumps out from the herd of men and tackles you with a hug and u can’t believe this until wonwoo explained he didn’t tell them ur name bc they would go crazy stalker-bitch mode, hence why they were so excited to meet u today

so the rest of the night was spent with everyone being completely loud and tipsy and pushing the two of u together in an attempt to be slick they’re not

and u see the bond that all the boys have and how boisterous wonwoo is around them too and u feel so lucky and ur heart is so full to witness a group of people truly in love and as close with one another

so by the end of the night, as they all leave, soonyoung stops u at the door before he goes and tells u how happy he is that after losing touch post-uni, u’ve managed to bump into each other today again

but he also hugs u and tells u that wonwoo hasn’t shut up abt u

and that he hasn’t been in touch with his brothers in a rlly long time bc of stress and anticipation with this new project

and that although wonwoo doesn’t do this much, he can tell that he’s super comfortable around u and that he seems to glow when he talks abt u

and ur like omg s o noyougn st op po

so after he leaves, you stay behind to help clean up

but you’ve also decided

to confess

bc ur project is almost over and the paper is almost finished and ur ok with leaving on this note, regardless of if he reciprocates the feelings or not

u just had to tell him, it was in ur nature to

and u almsot back out but at the door, just as ur about to leave

you were gonna say it

and then

his lips are on urs and god they’re soft and ur eyes just close immediately and his two hands cup ur face, intensifying the kiss, holding u up and taking up ur space as if he owns it and wow, it does things to u

after what feels like an eternity, you part and u look at him with his swollen lips and rosy cheeks and glistening eyes and u almost cried right then adn there

bc wow ur in love with jeon wonwoo and u can’t believe u haven’t even told him that

“i’ve been waiting to do that for so long”

“idiot, i was gonna confess first”

shrugs “i guess i just beat u in everything then”

that gets a smack on the head

until he asks u to stay the night and he can drive u both to work in the morning tomorrow and u agree bc how can u say no and so u end up staying over and wearing his sweater to bed and he lies there in bed literally hyperventilating bc SWEATERS ARE HIS WEAKNESS LIKE WHAT

so u drive into work the next morning with ur hands intertwined and in the corner of ur eye as ur walking in, u see head of pediatrics!chan slap a fifty dollar bill into nurse!jeonghan’s hands

so the rest of that month is spent going through with each patient and stealing chaste kisses in the x-ray viewing rooms and getting teased by everyone in the hospital

even the patients

until by the third month, the trial hits its first roadblock

patient 04 had died on the table just as jeon wonwoo was inserting the second tube, and as surprised as u are that this was the first malfunction with the trial, it hits u nonetheless

hearing the news, u drop everything and go to his office after the surgery

this was the first taste of adversity in ur relationship too and u were curious to see as to how you guys were going to deal with this, esp since ur work was integrated into ur personal life

but u walk in and there he is

eating a freaking popsicle

jeon wonwoo’s patient just died on the table and he’s in here eating ice cream

and u didn’t know if u were confused? angry? horrified?

and u close the door behind u as u walk in and draw the blinds for the glass walls and windows

and as u turn around from doing that, he chucks the popsicle into the bin, walks up to you slowly and drops his head onto ur shoulder

you freeze, unsure if he’s crying or not, but u hear steady breathing and his arms slowly creeping around u and ur sure he isn’t

but u can tell that he’s exhausted and scared, even if no words are shared between the two of u

so you both stand there for god knows how long, holding each other, breathing each other in, releasing all tension and heartache from the day without a single word, just the sound of heartbeats and breathing

until finally he lifts his head, eyes droopy and a small smile on his face, arms still around you, when u cup his face and tell him that ur so damn proud of him

everything is going to hit a roadblock at some point, and this was bound to happen. we entered this knowing that it was science; anything can happen. just hang in there, wonu, we can do it

and that was the first time wonu said i love u out loud

and for all the people that doubted he was going to ever get a girlfriend with his head stuck in so many textbooks, it was the head stuck in the textbook method that even got him here to meet u in the first place SO SUCK IT

and so by the time u finish ur paper and the trial is reaching its end, there was a mixture of patients that successfully responded to the trial and those that didn’t make it

but ur paper gets high acclaim from hospitals across the province for its research and editorial skills

and wonwoo received the highest achievement award from the board for his endeavours with the trial

and after many long and gruelling months filled with work and chaste kisses here and there

you finally have time to take a seat and take in everything

and marvel at wonu as a surgeon and as a human

bc how in the damn world did u ever get so lucky with science??

this,, ,, ,, is so long but enjoy bc i love jeon wonwoo

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ithilien-writes · 7 years

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So, I was wondering if I could ask for some advice. I've been thinking the past week or so I should come out as bi to people that I know in my real life, and not in a totally defensive way(there's a story about how I accidentally outed myself to a girl I worked with, that's a whole thing) but I'm really not sure. I don't know how my parents would take it tbh.

so. this is probably going to be a bit of a ramble(/rant) bc i really strongly do not agree with a lot of the current rhetoric i see online about ‘coming out’. i’ve always ascribed more to the brian kinney school of thought (he was a character on the show queer as folk), which says, “if i’m not fucking you, it’s none of your fucking business” and also, “it’s not lying if they make you lie”

people are usually pretty quick (~ish, but that’s a whole other rant) to excuse people staying closeted if they don’t feel safe. but then the thought follows that you should work towards getting to a safe situation so that you can be ‘out’ right? i think that’s bullshit tbh. first of all, ‘coming out’ isn’t a one time event, it’s a choice you make over and over every day with every new person you meet and every new environment you enter. that’s why “are you out?” has always struck me as a really naive question. with my family? at my workplace? to the homophobe ranting in front of me in line at the grocery store?? do you want a list???

but more importantly in my mind, even if you are ‘safe’ (again, another rant) to come out to someone you still literally have no obligation to do so. none. i know a lot of people, other queer people, who disagree with me on that. but that is 100% my stance

anyway tl;dr - basically, if you want to come out to someone and you’re relatively sure it’s safe to do so, then that’s great and i can definitely give you some advice from my own experiences coming out to my folks. but i just want to preface with the fact that you don’t owe anyone shit!! you’re not lying to them, you’re not 'hiding who you really are’, it is none. of. their. fucking. business. (unless you decide it is!)

okay. whew sorry. rant over.

i personally have never had a 'please sit down, there’s something we need to talk about’ coming out conversation in my life. it’s really not possible for me, bc my anxiety would eat me alive. mostly i just try to bring it up naturally with new friends when i can after i’ve reached the point where i’m comfortable enough with them. but my folks, man. i had to actually TELL THEM right? and it was not easy for me at all, even though i was relatively sure that they would react neutrally (they did)

i told my mom first, when i was still in college and in my first serious relationship. somehow it seemed easier to approach it from the standpoint of 'i’m dating a girl’ vs. 'i’m bi!’ just out of the blue. we were in the car (she was driving) and i just went for it. she couldn’t really look at me bc she was driving and i think that helped both of us tbh. she said pretty much 'i always wondered’ and then 'you know my friend jayne is gay’ (she is) and then we arrived where we were going and that was it

my dad was a bigger deal partly bc i left it for too long after telling my mom. it was probably a good year later. my folks are still married so my mom felt like she was being put in a bad position of having to 'lie’ to my dad, so if i had it to do over i think i might’ve told them together. idk. i didn’t hesitate on telling my dad bc i thought he would react poorly but more bc i had no idea how to bring it up. my dad and i historically have two topics of conversation: nerdy fandom things, how school/work is going. that’s it. and it works for us! i love my dad

so in the end i wrote him a letter (email). which seems really weird and formal but sort of makes sense for us. he writes me like that when he has something big to express that he can’t in person either, or wants to make sure he says in the right way or etc. so there was precedent lol. he took it well too. wrote back that he was proud of me

since then it’s been sort of a mixed bag. they both try really hard, so i tend to give them a lot of points for that even when they fall short. watching one day at a time was super validating for me (in a lot of ways but for one) bc penelope’s reaction to elena coming out was 100% my mom’s. she wasn’t really ok and i knew she wasn’t but she pretended to be SUPER ok to make up for it and i know she was beating herself up about it. my dad never brought it up for the longest time but recently he made a joke about my future 'girlfriend’ and that was a nice feeling

anyway, that’s kind of my story. idk if that helps even at all but feel free to reach out with any other questions or message me if you want to talk privately. that’s to everyone btw!! my box is always open for y'all, i love you. be safe

#wow look at that wall of text #i'm so sorry #but y'all know i'm a rambler by now i guess #lil-rei #laura rambles #my shit

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sumergosuigeneris · 5 years

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June 30, 2019

Yesterday was a busy, exhausting day. But I feel good about it. Mostly.

Friday night, around 2am, there were fire trucks etc all over my building. At first I thought it was a car crash, because those happen here all the time. But I got curious and looked out the window and couldn’t see any car. Plus, then I started hearing things in the hall. Made me wonder if they were all up in our building. But no alarms were off. So then I started wondering if there was something wrong with the alarm (not likely) or that it was something that they might evacuate certain floors rather than the whole building. I mean, I did keep hearing things in the hall. I actually got in some clothes and prepared for me and the cat to go. Nothing. I had stayed inside b/c I didn’t want to get in the way, but finally the tension/curiousity got the best of me. Didn’t see anyone, didn’t want to go in the stairwell in case I’d be in the way. Ended up having a conversation with another lady who opened her door. Came back into my apartment, and they’d all left. That whole situation was about an hour. But I couldn’t sleep for a couple hours after that.

So, I slept in yesterday morning. Decided to go out for a healthy-ish breakfast. Went to eye hop. Disappointing. What I got served was a lazy man’s edition of what was in the menu. And, while I thought I was doing good with 650 calories, it turns out that’s a shit ton of points! Made me do some thinking. They say the average American diet is 2k calories a day. I forget sometimes that that should be 1600 cal for women. And that average doesn’t mean healthy either (since I’m confident I eat over the average). So, anyway thinking 2000/3 meals is 650-ish, I’m doing well. But really, after all my thinking, I’m thinking if I’m going to eye ball, a healthy meal is probably around 350 calories. Because depending on what those 350 are, they’re more or less points.

Then I went and played racquetball. I was hot as hell and had no water, so I only played about 40 minutes. Went to get coffee, and one of my barista people gave me a free one. While we were talking, I found out her sister had died in March or April. Her mother had died only a few months before, so she was pretty messed up. I wish I’d known, but I wasn’t going there very often, and when we were both there, she was always super busy. On my way from that bucks, I stopped at the community center and signed up for a lap swim membership! And I finally stopped at that gay bar that’s in my neck of the woods. They were open, and it’s really nice inside. I’m gonna go. Eventually. Thought about going last night for a drag show but didn’t. It means a lot to me about that place, because I live in a primarily black area, and the queer community has a tougher time when it intersects with the black community, so this bar, being there for decades? was really an oasis for black queer people at an even more intolerant time than we live in today. I got a little misty-eyed thinking about it. Came home and tried to nap. Didn’t.

Decided I needed to figure out some other things to be productive, b/c I needed to go out again to another bucks to get my 3 days in a row deal. Decided to get a bit of shopping done and maybe treat myself to a pedicure. My feet are always tore up and I think of a pedi but never do b/c they’re expensive. And I’ve talked about it for about 2 years now lol. So, I did that. I think it’s been over 10 years since I’ve had one, and I’ve only had a handful over my life. I’m so grateful that there was a really nice younger woman sitting next to me. She had to translate and give me remedial pedicure lessons, so I could make my choices. I let her pick out my nail polish. It’s a really nice shade of peach-ish/hot pink. Not too wild, and not too conservative. The girl said my feet were in great condition considering I hadn’t had a pedicure in a decade. That’s something I guess? I got a bit of a massage from the chair which was a bonus, and finally did some reading in a book I’ve started a few times.

Then I went to wall smart. Usually, I have a bit of a running list in my head of what I need/ want when I get paid. But this time, I really had to think. I got a bunch of stuff that are always on the bottom of my list, but forgot the one thing I decided to treat myself to - sheet corner fasteners. Oh well. Next month perhaps.

One thing on the list was to check for some shorts and/or tank tops so I can try to get some more color. Dude. I asked a couple of ladies (one was on the dressing rooms, the other may work there but wasn’t on the clock if she does) their opinion on one thing, which turned into them helping me with half my options. Which turned into me trying on, for the first time in my life, leggings. And they didn’t look bad on me! At least compared to a couple other things I tried on lol. So yeah, I bought leggings. It’s crazy. And, I found a tank-ish shirt style I liked, and got it in a size smaller than I expected! And they were really nice and telling me I need to be more confident in my body. And anyway, one of them asked to exchange numbers with me and said we were gonna be friends. We’ll see. But it’s always nice. I can’t help wondering if she felt sorry for my lack of confidence in the clothes thing; if she wants to like ‘mentor’ me. But she was super nice and I’ll take it!

I picked up some church is chicken (eh). Watched some little lies big (which I’d binged Friday night by accident), and went to bed. Oh also, I deleted the phone game I’ve been addicted to the last few weeks. It’s pointless, if I think about it. There’s no ‘end’. Nothing to win. Just endless achievements combined with endlessly increasing hardness. I’m kind of proud of myself.

Now today the question is how productive I’ll be. I need to apply for some jobs. Check out the status of that work transport thing. I really want to do some cleaning. I’d like to do racquetball 2 days in a row. And maybe get my swim on. Might need to return some of those clothes too - with the other stuff I got, like cat food and window wiper fluid, I spent $169.69! I did find a pair of $7 shoes that I like despite the fact that I’m surprised I like them. No open-toed sandals though lol.

Hmm. i’m looking at my feet and she didn’t take all the callous buildup off. I’m surprised bc she used what looked like a damn cheese grater, plus a pumice stone type thingy. And a scrub. But I guess it’s probably a good thing. Technically, that stuff is a bit of protection.

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