#anyway i liked it a lot. 9/10

[depresseddepot]

finished how not to die alone by richard roper and I have Thoughts but all of them put me on the verge of tears

#the way I understood andrew perfectly. the weight of a lie that has snowballed and the grief behind it #obv nothing quite like what happened to him happened to me (this is a spoiler free vent post thank you) but still #that one line in the beginning still fucking haunts me #it was like #''after a long day andrew sits in his dark room and talks to his friends on the forum. this is everything he was waiting for.'' #''this is everything.'' #(obv written better but i can only fit so much in a tag) #THE DOUBLE MEANING BEHIND THAT #he is content and relaxed to be home and alone and able to indulge in his interests. but that is all he has #im going to fucking vomit #that book caught me off guard so many times and each one felt like i was being killed #richard roper. shaking you and shaking you and shaking you #i said spoiler free so it will remain spoiler free #but something about andrew's anxiety and regret and absolutely fucking horrendously suppressed grief hits way too close to home #the subtle signs of autism and the even subtler signs of repressed trauma beneath that. fucking christ #books with messages like this always make me nervous though #(the message being something akin to ''just do it'' and ''the longer you wait the more time you're wasting'') #and like. yes the message has good intentions but im a fucked up 20 year old who gets EXPONENTIALLY more suicidal #when i begin to think that i will be left behind because i adjust too slowly for everything else #haha! crying now #will abandon these tags post haste #anyway i liked it a lot. 9/10

[phobiacoms]

run doctor run

#I've been rewatching dw after like 9 yrs #i liked 10 A LOT when i was younger #i like him less now #but he took me out of art block sooo #anyways here the actual tags #dw #doctor who #tenth doctor #10th doctor #david tennant #fanart #tardis #digital art #brazilian artists #br artist #also like its INSANE that i can compare this to art of him i made when i was 12 #mine

[mossflower]

lets watch all 874 episodes of doctor who together <3

#i’m doing it!! it was supposed to be my new years resolution but ive decided to start on christmas instead #that way i’ll be done by the time next year’s xmas special is out. i presume there will be one anyway #i have not watched much classic and actually i haven’t even finished new who to be completely honest. i’m sorry i’m a fraud </3 #i never watched all the episodes in series 2 3 6 or 7b lol #i watched the episodes with 13 that were out at the time then series 10 before doing 12’s era chronologically #then went back to the start. liked 9 but wasn’t feeling it with 10 so skipped around a lot and then the same with 11 #i think i probably found the owl house towards the end and well. gestures towards url. we all know what happened there <3 #doctor who

[megumi-fm]

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#the secret to making friends is to let yourself annoy them #this is a joke but im also being completely serious #all my life I've been too apprehensive to make the first move because im always afraid of being bothersome #but looking back at the friendships through the past 4years at uni... im so lucky that a lot of people didn't worry about bothering me #and decided to come up and initiate conversation anyway #and also. whenever anyone has 'bothered me' by asking about me or wanting to know more... I have only felt loved and special... #so i guess what im trying to say is that #cringe culture is dead and theres nothing cool about prioritizing how you appear over the potential of a real bond #and I was born to be persistent and curious #so yeah. now that my graduate program will start in a couple months and there are opportunities to get acquainted with my classmates #I reach out to people with no attempt to hide my enthusiasm in getting to know them. #I double/triple text a lot and annoy them (affectionate) like i do my bffs and its incredible how 9/10 reciprocate that energy so quick #and despite the cultural differences and minor mistranslations/miscommunications we still manage to find common interests to discuss about #and it's like '!!!!!!! we're besties now' #yeah sure sometimes people might get a bit uncomfy and by the second message if i feel like I'm disturbing them I back off #but i won't know that until i reach out in the first place. so all in all this has worked really well for me and i love itttt #megumi in the tags

[arthur-r]

hello new self portrait just dropped which means this is officially what i look like now

#i have glasses now!!!! i’m not very good at drawing them but i sure have them on my face at all times shdhdf #and i recently started growing out my hair!!!! my distinctive bowl cut had a good run but i’m officially moving forward #i’ve also started exaggerating my big droopy sad eyelashes a LOT in pictures lately it’s part of my core identity now or something #(that’s not true shdhdf but i think my face knew about my puppydog destiny long ago and gave me puppydog eyes) #anyway i just haven’t drew anything in forever like i think i’ve drew four things that weren’t JUST notebook doodling. all this school year #(and one of those was vent art on paper and the other one was coloring with my little sister. so i’ve drew two things on ibispaint at all) #anyway i think my glasses suit me really good and i’m also really excited i can see the world really good now #i still have some vision problems from POTS that aren’t fixed but like. i can see detail in brick walls now and i’m obsessed #house fucker behavior i’m so sorry shdhdhdff (THIS IS A JOKE AND LIE. I DONT FUCK HOUSES) #(and i’m apparently a house m.d. kinnie so i wouldn’t fuck him EITHER cause we’re the same person i could never) #ANYWAYS i can see well finally and that’s good. and in conclusion i’m real tired and should go to bed #i took my meds at 9:30 then started drawing at 10 finished at 11:30 #and now it’s midnight and i’m long overdue to be asleep already. so goodnight world!!!! #i have a sleepover tomorrow night which is very exciting. and also work and homework as usual shdhdf #but in the meantime i get to sleep. for up to 12 hours!!!! here’s hoping #ok anyway!!!! goodnight!!!! #P.S. text or call if you need anything!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later (probably)

[s1ithers]

re: baldur's gate's setting limitations: I've read a Lot of shit set in the Forgotten Realms and yeah, I agree. I mean I think it's interesting with the Legend of Drizzt (which are objectively bad although I love them dearly) to see an author clumsily *trying* grapple with sociological cycles of violence, and even that's being really deprecated out of more modern D&D to make it brighter, shinier, more Marvel, and more approachable. Like that's certainly the more marketable approach and in a [1/2

setting increasingly dictated by TTRPGs as played by people who expect videogame logic, /or/ parasocial slice of life, it's not surprising - it also avoids a lot of the pitfalls of "what the fuck were you thinking" that LoD itself is a great example of when it comes to clumsy allegory and sexual assault played for titillation - but honestly I prefer the clumsy trash that contemplates gore and consequence happening on a human level than something that wants to be approachable and friendly but [2/ [3/3] has no problem with the concept of ontological evil which is always more fundamentally regressive than clumsy allegory tbh. But I mean we both prefer DA and DA started /as a reaction to/ the fundamental limitations of the Baldur's Gate series, so it's not surprisingly that a game that sort of ignores the entire DA-digression, and the risks it took with form, doesn't have that spark.

haven't read LoD but agreed, my clumsy allegory tolerance is probably /too/ high but do ontological good and evil at face value & i'm right out

i think what hits weird for me about bg3 is almost some version of the uncanny, like on the one hand it's trying to do psychological realism in a pretty earnest way, but it's also set up this world where like. a character's hair changes from black to white when she chooses Good. yknow. there's some lovely sensitive character writing, but it rests on this substrate of world-logic that's just fundamentally not how people work. ahistorical, like you've said before. so you can only drill down so far before it rings hollow or just comes off kind of pat

#realizing how closely my declining enthusiasm tracked along with shadowheart's quest #maybe i'd ve liked it better if i romanced lae'zel u_u #to be clear while i'm being a hater i did like a lot about it lol #entertained me for 150 hrs so i got my money's worth & all that #just got annoyed by enough things to knock it down from a 9/10 to smth i have pretty mixed feelings about #now we enter phase 2: bitching for fun #now i'm thinking abt it i wonder if the weirdly moralizing tone of some of the dev commentary has to do with writing in ontological good & #evil mode #or just. separate choices #bg3 #anyway. the dnd alignment chart is my enemy

[twonines]

sketches from twitter

#guess who finally got around to playing dod3 #stopped playing around chapter 3 iirc but GOD this game is so fucking funny i swear to god #mikhail is so cute i wish zero was a little bit nicer to him :( #oh and also Dito . [ stares at him very intensly for five minutes straight ] #hes so so fucked up but i love him #hes like route c 9s but cranked up 10 notches #Guy who only played nier automata seeing a sadistic fucked up twink: Getting a lot of nier automata vibes from this one #but yeah anyways um. Expect more dod art from me i think?!?!!?!? #ill get to dod1 eventually I prommy guys #drakengard 3 #i am actually unsure how to tag the characters so Ill come back to it later ig #nier automata #2b #yorha no.2 type b #9s #yorha no.9 type s #oh and . Sans undertale is here

[orcelito]

Honestly why am I fucking Like This

#speculation nation #im still overcompensating i know #i got the everliving shit scared outta me and had one of the most humiliating days of my life #and ive been working so hard on being Useful that i have been. putting in a Lot of extra hours... #i didnt Have to do all of this today. i stayed late to do it. 1.5 hours of active lifting the Entire Time #plus some work with counting and general managerial stuff #so that i stayed 2 hours and 20 mins over my 5 hour shift #and im just like. in the moment i was just so bothered by how disorganized everything was #i couldnt find where the Fucking lids were. ended up they were buried under a bunch of other stuff. #so i dug them out. reorganized. did a Ton of lifting. #like... uhmmm. 9 large boxes 7 regular boxes 4 straws 10 sippy lids and 31 dome lids #boxes. all boxes. #oh yeah and 8 paper bag boxes. plus general rearranging. #none of the lids were in one place and all the cups boxes were on top of the other boxes #so i had to pull them out to dig things out then put them back in #the good news is the lids boxes were pretty light. cup boxes not so much. #but thats still. kind of an insane number when i think about it. #i didnt NEED to do this. but i did anyways. because im a neurotic prey animal working desperately to keep the anger away from me #wahoooooo #it's... fine. it feels good to be productive. im just feeling... a bit fed up with myself. #my hip has already been bothering me today bc there always has to be Something wrong with my body #and then i went and did This. who knows what fucking unpleasant side effects this is gonna have on me. #sore muscles probably. maybe bruises. and MAYBE ill fuck my back or ankles up again. or make my hip worse. or #whatever. #it's fine. i'll be fine. im gonna go home and eat dinner and... chill. im gonna chill. #just. ugh. #but im clocked out at least. and i have tomorrow off. i'll make sure it's a good one.

[rainedroptalks]

Saw the word “nightshade” somewhere and was hit with the memory of a ghost book I read as a kid so hard I took psychic damage

#personal #it was a book about a family purchasing a haunted house (shocker) #but it always stuck with me #the house was haunted by 2 ghosts #one was a woman and the other was a 13/14-ish year old girl (iirc) #and the younger ghost was named something like Cassie and was the same age as the daughter of the family who moved in #and she met Cassie in the woods behind the house and thought she just lived in the neighborhood #and then Cassie got obsessed with the main girl. like really obsessed #like ‘sabotage her friendships and familial relationships so I’m the only one who can be with her’ obsessed #and at the end of the book Cassie tried drowning the main girl so she’d never leave her #anyways I was 9/10 when I read it and I still didn’t rly get that being gay was actually allowed but I was so interested in their dynamic #which was like. really queer looking back #I wish I remembered the name of it #I think it might’ve been called nightshade or smth #cuz I remember it talked a lot about belladonna poison #anyway yea I don’t even remember if it was even a good book but the concept was fun to m #me*

[dysaniadisorder]

hi i adore how you draw the danganronpa characters so much. . i love how you make them feel so.. authentic & human :-) i eat it up everytime

[ID: several assorted unfinished drawings of Danganronpa characters. end ID]

thank you!!! i try so, so intensly hard.

#'so what dr1 characters do you like?' ..............sayaka; #ANYWAY YEAH HERES. SOME UNFINISHED #i fucking LOVE drawing them. there is so much potenial #and that potential. mine now :) #asks #analogseeker #dgr #wips #image id #mutuals ♡ #WISHING i included another amami i am drawing lots of him :) #want context? 1- ch 4 trans hajime comic 2- ...im gay 3- redraw 4- was watching UDG :) 5- Gundham At The Beach :) #6- mahiru & imposter postgame 7- hiyoko postgame 8- kaede & her twin postgame (mechanical leg not in view) #9- creepy lil nagito comic i didnt finish 10- old mugi redraw 11- talentswap kaito... 12- kaito :) 13- survivors drawin #14- leon 'join my emo band' kuwata 15- thats an outfit i own nd rory (chiaki fictive) wore 2 school 16- Hajime At The Beach :)

[tvrningout]

what i meant to explain in this post when it got away from me, is that new deities/demigods are sometimes brought into existence/given great power through mortals' belief in them. this was more common when the world was still young, when it wasn't hard at all to believe in the birth of a new god; sunna and all of her children so loved to create and nurture. mortals rarely or never realized that they themselves were willing beings into existence by simply believing in them.

an example, which i don't think i've mentioned on this blog yet, are sindri, the goddess of stars, wishes, and hopes. the story goes that sindri places a star in the sky for every mortal's wish, dream, and hope so that they will keep their head up and never lose sight of those hopes. a falling star is seen as a good omen as it means someone's wish is coming true -- maybe even yours. this story circulated until sindri came to be, and she is one of very few deities who are allowed to frequent the mortal realm due to the nature of her duties.

if kind deities like sindri can be born from the power of belief, then so can terrible beings. but that's a subject for a separate post.

while bronwyn isn't a goddess, she has obtained a demigoddess status due to her age and the numerous people who believe in her so strongly. this, rather than her unusual origins, is why she is so hard to kill and such a powerful sorceress. her magic and body are imbued with a strength that comes with being worshipped or at least respected as a higher being.

#headcanons | dórverold #headcanons | bronwyn #i hope this makes sense!!! but let me know if not!!! #like the thing is that mortals have an inherent magic bc divine beings created them so if enough of them believe in someone #that person can just become a real deity/demigod #their power is minor compared to other deities 9 times out of 10 but that goes for any deity that isn't one of the main creators #anyway this hc excites me a lot bc it opens up doors!! for villains :) #but also if you ever decide you'd love to make a minor deity lemme know bc i'd kiss your sweet face fr <3 #now i'm gonna go grab some desert and then get to writing B))

[scoreplings]

i think a lot of who i am today can be explained by the fact i spent hours a day in forth and fifth grade reading erotic vampire novels and trying to figure out which of my friends were secret vampies

#they were like. there wouldnt be full on sex scenes and i didnt know what sex was cuz i was eight so a lot of it just went over my head 😭 #but i re read some of them a couple years back n that was crazy #they were boiling people in acid also. #sorry age wrong. i was 8 when i first started but i was 9&10 for most of it. anyway.

[tiredassmage]

GET 👏 HIS 👏 ASS, BABY!!!!

Ahhem. I finally stopped ignoring Rivix.

#things that were SO HOT homy god fuckin GO OFF my liege!!!! #tyr 'i will remind you why the hell they called me cipher' deckard is in the HOUSE #sorry i'm. being a little a lot into my oc on main #i don't have the whole scene bc a i can't count and b i was busy goingl kafnldsfglhrhghgh hot #holds up a sign with a 10 scribbled on it hastily in red sharpie #or maybe i should write 9. cause cipher 9. get it. get it #anyway sorry i just. i love this for him #bite him bitch #videos #dot plays the star war #ch: tyr #swtor #darth rivix #that moment where his brain kicked back in like 'yea so all that anger we feel about the empire: target locked' #sorry not sorry rivix you're getting the brunt of his stress manifesting as calculating cipher more at 11

[oh-meow-swirls]

tbh i feel like the glitches in 3 add to the experience like. yea sometimes the textures glitch out of existence. in one cutscene hailey n usapyon just stare at each other for like five seconds (with the different emotion symbol thingies still appearing normally above them) without saying anything and then it ends. you can clip through a wall to open a gate of whimsy. none of it's game-breaking so it's just amusing-

#puppy rambles #yo-kai watch #yw3 #i love 3 weird glitches and all <3 #one time i had a textbox break. idk if it's consistent to that cutscene or not cuz it was in the springdale tour quest #n i'm not even at chapter 10 yet- #i like just got to chapter 9 yesterday. love new yo-kai city's music just being the kaos march music but slightlydifferent #that quest is good also. it's probably the most emotional moment in 3 tbh. and it's in a quest on hailey's side- #hailey n usapyon's friendship is just so sweet to me. usapyon is tired of hailey's shit and hailey teases him a lot #but they're still besties and care about each other #i love the way yo-kai watch portrays friendship it's always so sweet #anyways-

[cephalonheadquarters]

internet safety is a wonderful thing and so important and i love being safe online soooooo much

#do schools even teach internet safety anymore? i learned it in like elementary school #since i have two younger brothers 10 & 8 they have access to the internet and i guess i get a little bossy but i try to make sure theyre #being safe... if theyre able to talk to people i tell them theyre not old enough to do that yet..! the 10 yr old has a scratch account and #while scratch is fine i dont like that he can comment and read comments no matter how safe the site is #internet safety is so fucking important to me im dead serious #it makes me really sad to see a lot of young kids able to communicate with strangers Even if its safe! Theres always a risk #Like i met someone who was 9 on discord a while ago. ☹️ I told them they shouldnt be on it but i dont think they listened to me anyway #To be honest #Idk what the right age is to have full access to the internet. 13 feels too early but 16 feels too late but idk abt 14 and 15. ig 15..?? #Id say it depends on just being a teen and how mature you are but idk #I dont think it really can be helped if you have access to the internet #I just hope kids are aware of the good and the bad and how to navigate the internet!! Because its really scary! #If you say you hate kids i dont trust you. if you make fun of kids (in a mean spirited way basically bullying) i dont trust you. #I would love to be able to help and be friends with kids so that they know better but unfortunately thats not always going to be possible #Its 3 40 am bye #Oh and i fucking hate snapchat and instagram and omegle. Genuine burning hatred for those stupid things fuck them #Even tiktok is better than those. And i dont even like tiktok

[art-octopus]

Well here's my propaganda for @smallartistocbracket's Bracket

Also the black/dark blue lined character is one of his friends. (kind of i guess?)

Transcript under the cut, since i feel like the timing is off and you might not be able to read most of it. (and a long needless explanation in the tags)

Frais: Why should you vote for me in the small artist OC bracket? Well...

I'm very cute and funny and the strongest guy in my friend group! Also I have a hardness of 9! I'm a first class gem! I won the annual GCT (the junior league) and didn't even break a sweat! Also i'm literally neurodivergent and a minor.

[Camera is knocked over and picked up by Shitagida]

Shitagida: please. Don't.

#my art #most of what frais said is a lie #like he's [subjectively] cute and funny #is definitely neurodivergent and a minor #but is the weakest of his friends (despite the hardness of 9) since he's physically incapable of a lot of things #won the GCT with a partner #and even then nearly lost to his opponents #and diamond has a hardness of 10 so he's like second class anyways #i love him though #frais #shitagida #my ocs #the crystal thing