#and was 18 in the constant

[utilitycaster]

You know what's interesting to me? For all people keep claiming at every juncture that perhaps Bells Hells will come around on the gods and see the harm they do (which, as discussed extensively, is, half the time, simply not intervening) not only have they never done so, but also they never quite cross the line into saying the party should join the Ruby Vanguard or aid them - and indeed, they defend against it - so what does this achieve? It feels like they're asking for a story in which the party stands idly by, which isn't much of a story nor, if I may connect this briefly to the real world, a political stance anyone should be proud of.

That's honestly the frustration with the gods and the "what if the Vanguard has a point" conversations in-game. What do we do then? Do we allow the organization that will murder anyone for pretty much any reason that loosely ties into their goals run rampant? The group that (perhaps unwittingly, but then again, Otohan's blades had that poison) disrupted magic world-wide, and caused people who had the misfortune to live at nexus points to be teleported (most, as commoners, without means of return). While also fomenting worldwide unrest?

Those were the arguments before the trip to Ruidus; with the reveal of the Vanguard's goals to invade Exandria, the situation becomes even more dire. Do you let the Imperium take over the planet?

And do the arguments against the gods even hold up? If Ludinus is so angry at them for the Calamity, what does it say that he destroyed Western Wildemount's first post-Calamity society for entirely selfish means? (What does it say about the validity of vengeance as a motivator?) What does it say that Laudna told Imogen she could always just live in a cottage quietly without issue before the solstice even happened? (Would this still be true if the Imperium controls the world?) What does it say that when faced with a furious, grieving party and the daughter she keeps telling herself was her reason for all of this, Liliana can't provide an answer to the question of what the gods have done other than that their followers will retaliate...for, you know, the Vanguard's endless list of murders. (That is how the Vanguard and Imperium tend to think, huh? "How dare your face get in the way of my boot; how dare you hit me back when I strike you.") She can't even provide a positive answer - why is Predathos better - other than "I feel it", even though Imogen and Fearne know firsthand that Predathos can provide artificial feelings of elation. Given all the harm Ludinus has done in pursuit, why isn't the conclusion "the gods should have crashed Aeor in such a way that the tech was unrecoverable?"

Even as early as the first real discussion on what the party should do, the fandom always stopped short of saying "no, Imogen's right, they should join up with the people who killed half the party," it was always "no, she didn't really mean it, she just was trying to connect with her mother." Well, she's connected with her mother, and at this point the party doesn't even care about the gods particularly (their only divinely-connected party member having died to prevent the Vanguard from killing all of them). So they will stop the Vanguard; as Ashton says, the means are unforgiveable. As Laudna says, it's not safe to bet on Predathos's apathy. As Imogen says, she's done running; the voice that she used to think of as a lifeline belongs to someone she doesn't trust. So I guess my question is: if they're stopping the people who are trying to kill the gods (and defense of the gods isn't remotely their personal motivation)...do you think the next phase of the campaign is Bells Hells personally killing the gods? Reconstructing the Aeor tech and hoping none of their allies notice? How does this end? Does your ideology ever get enacted? Or is this entirely moot and pointless and the story ends with Bells Hells saying "well, I'm really glad we stopped the people who [insert list of Vanguard atrocities from above]; none of us follow the gods or plan to, but honestly, the status quo we return to is preferable to whatever nightmare Ludinus had concocted in his violent quest for power and revenge"?

#i've got a lot to do today so I think I'm done posting but #cr spoilers #i called that this particular cohort of fans had empathy only for those like them and were terrified of player agency like. 18 mos ago #and i have never been proven wrong. zero analysis just a constant demand that everyone coddle their feelings and confirm their biases #literally will straight up fabricate lore and cry you're disrespecting a pretend person for not including it in your considerations #absolutely SHIT understanding of actual lore. utter incapacity to follow a logical throughline to its conclusion #it's like. wow. wonder why you're so focused on hypocrisy and you overreact to the word selfish #the reason they hate or fear orym (they say they don't...but that just means they want him to go to a reeducation camp instead of die) #is bc i think they are truly terrified of the idea that people can not just hold opinions that are against theirs but stand fast by them #easier to stan the villain because then they die and you can feel wronged and betrayed and wallow in a sense of continual victimhood #than to like a character who might last long enough to call you the idiot and asshole that you are #but it's also funny bc literally if orym weren't there in the latest convo the conclusion is the same. #ashton's had the same opinion of the vanguard the whole time (and it's not positive) but that's not under scrutiny #probably bc it doesn't allow people to be ghoulish in the most cringeworthy way possible

[belligerentbagel]

even Atlas has only two hands

vent art

#this one's for all the teachers out there #horror cw #hands cw #draws #after 2.5 years of caution and masking everywhere; i tested positive for covid on wednesday morning (first day of fall semester) 😔 #at earliest; i can be back in the classroom on monday #wednesday itself was an absolutely horrible 24 hours (but admittedly the anatomist side of me has been going 'ah! physiological data!') #but thursday and friday were a grim indicator of how much capitalism has rotted my brain #because after getting through 24 hours of a MASSIVE illness with undetermined long-term effects; i felt compelled to return to the #6-hr-sleep 18-hr-waking cycle that i was accustomed to; out of GUILT for falling behind in work #(note: i was NOWHERE near 100% back on thursday. i could have charitably been put at 50% - still headaches & fatigue & productive coughs) #a friend had to very sternly tell me 'you cannot solve structural problems through constant 80-hour-week heroic measures' #'you especially cannot do this when you are recovering from a debilitating illness which has the potential to remain a - #- serious lingering problem if you overwork yourself' #like. gods. yeah. it's not my fault that my classrooms are stuffed to the student maximum that our union has valiantly maintained #it's not my fault that the district only gave us one pre-semester prep day; meaning that my room & plans were left unfinished before day one #and - even bigger; it's not my fault that public health in the US is careening into 'can we pretend hard enough like nothing's happening' #my students will have a milquetoast start this fall semester. that is fine. #their teacher might not be able to stand and talk for longer than ten minutes at a time #i will do what i can. i still care about them. i am reading their introduction emails and smiling a bunch. #but i refuse to allow myself to be consumed in order to keep this fire lit.

[carefulfears]

And my girl Scully figured out that Diana and Phoebe were abusive to him and that’s why she was ready to disintegrate them with whenever they breathed Mulder’s air iktr. (Also to me that’s part of the reason Mulder was oblivious and defended them, people who are in abusive relationships are not always aware of it)

YUPP you’re literally dead right, anon, in my opinion. it really bugs me when people talk shit about mulder for “trusting” both phoebe and diana, as though that’s not like…the only thing he’s been taught to do.

i’ve been thinking a lot about the difference between scully’s reactions to phoebe vs. diana. when phoebe showed up, scully had only known mulder for a few weeks. and still she knew almost instantly that something wasn’t right.

i didn’t notice until i rewatched fire the way that she never leaves him alone with her. if mulder and phoebe are working on something, you can see scully. against the wall, peeking around the door, pacing in the hallway. he tells her that she’s “off the hook,” that he’s not going to “put her through this” with “phoebe’s little mind games,” and she takes it upon herself to investigate phoebe’s case herself, until she solves it and phoebe can go the fuck home.

girlbosses catch serial murderers singlehandedly to get their best friend’s shitty ex away from them.

when phoebe was around, scully is passive aggressive as hell. constantly hanging around and making little quips and mocking her accent.

when diana shows up? five years later? she’s just aggressive.

she said nah, we aren’t doing this again 😭😭

(one of my favorite scully moments is when she snaps “and not just because i think that woman is a….well, you know what i think that woman is” and mulder is just like “no you hide your feelings sooo well” lmfao)

i really do think meeting phoebe so early in their partnership informs a lot about the way scully reacts to his exposure and relationship to other people throughout the series. she really doesn’t trust a soul around him.

i always think of this line from madness by kittenscully (a post-syzygy fic, addressing the detective white incident):

“A surge of righteous indignation at the notion makes her sit up straighter, and she bites her tongue to avoid a very unpleasant comment from slipping out. As always, she thinks of Phoebe, of his wide, trusting eyes.”

diana was scary levels of manipulative and violating. but diana loved mulder, scully knew that and used that to plead with her in the end.

phoebe didn’t care about anything but playing with fire. she got off on scaring him, crossed state lines just to fuck with his head and hurt him, just like in their relationship a decade earlier. mulder knew this, he knew from the start what she was doing and what she wanted, and he helped her anyway. he praised her anyway. he connected with her and invested in her anyway.

y’all know i’m always thinking about the script note about phoebe’s coldness “eliciting some old need in him to have her affection.”

by the time diana came back around, scully had sat on the floor of a hotel and watched phoebe smile and shake hands with bureaucrats while mulder couldn’t breathe.

scully had stood in the next room when his questions to his mother got him little more than a slap to the face.

it’s different with diana because there’s a lot more history and connection there, and because at that point there is heartbreak and jealousy on scully’s side (when phoebe was in town, she hung around in doorways. when diana reaches for mulder’s hand, she turns around and holds back tears in the car.)

it’s a difficult position for both of them. he doesn’t know how to do anything but appease and trust and be loyal, to help whoever asks. he doesn’t care if it hurts him, he’s been groomed his whole life for that, to feel like he deserves it.

it makes scully crazy. he’s her best friend. she can’t believe anyone would look at that kind of softhearted hope and want to exploit it or crush it, rather than look up to it, follow it, nurture it.

and it hurts!! it hurts to watch him fall back into these traps, and especially with diana, it hurts to feel that your input and relationship doesn’t matter enough to have influence. to not be listened to, to feel like you’re not being chosen.

she doesn’t know that he went to search diana’s apartment after she told him not to trust her. she just heard, “i know her. you don’t. scully, you’re reaching.” and watched him leave.

it’s just this perfect crossroads of each of their most vulnerable spots. scully wants to protect him, always, and she also wants to be chosen.

mulder has to stand by his allegiances, to seek ‘affection’ in cruelty, to play his role in the larger scheme. this is what CSM knew when he recruited diana into the conspiracy, and he knows because he “created” it.

you can’t judge either of them, they’re both following their natures, and furthering the narrative they were chosen for.

(until scully stands in front of diana and begs, “i just want you to think…stand there in front of me, look me in the eye”…and breaks the whole thing down.)

#TLDR children weaned on poison etc etc #LOVE WON IN THE END!! always. scully’s ferocious devotion won in the end #asks #scully baby i hope you got your bubble baths that year #it’s hard. because he Does listen to her and internalize her input #but he also Needs to not lose these last connections and these last people who ‘cared’ about him and to please them and to be what they want #i mean he was like 18 when he met phoebe. ‘she was brilliant. i got in over my head.’ #he and diana were together (married) (to Me) for like 5 years #during one of the most vulnerable periods of his life. and his transition into discovering the files and doing therapy and leaving the VCU #Sigh #i know scully would zip him safely in her pocket if she could but like she also feels so insecure and disregarded when diana is around #so it’s like both her Constant protectiveness and her own intimate emotional response. it’s just a lot. #i love season 6 #‘bum a cigarette agent fowley?’ #👌👌👌 #Diana

[californiagoddess]

Do you guys know that in hs I actually wanted to move to nyc specifically so I wouldn't need a car? My parents wouldn't let me learn to drive, not out of strictness but sheer laziness, apathy about my life, and borderline neglect (they just have never really given a fuck about me or my life). So I was like all right then fuck you, I'll move somewhere I won't need a car. Except then I visited nyc for a week and learned how it felt to be a woman taking that subway alone and realized I absolutely did not want to deal with that everyday

#there were also other factors that made me not want to live there (the lack of nature and lack of personal space the constant noise etc) #but the experience taking the subway as a woman was top 3 #then my parents finally let me learn to drive at like age 18 after I'd been wanting to for 3 solid years

[softshuji]

eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh

#i just find it like so unfair yknow #im the only one who works in myhouse and full time #but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put #my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but #i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger #its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad #and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility #and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough #and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother #said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9 #and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time #constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers #and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either #its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they #cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything. #like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl #thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on #im just tired and upset #its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else. #and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing #im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf #oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this #and yk what #thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is #i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return #or if not #theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them #i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me #its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me

[enbysiriusblack]

nobody understands marlene mckinnon like i do. /hj

#- baby butch lesbian who dyes their hair. has autism. gets jealous of their friends having other friends. thinks they're immortal. #makes constant lesbian sex jokes. has a complex relationship with their mother. gets too competitive about mundane things. #also has a complex relationship with femininity. loves putting furniture together. had a 'mary' who left me at 18. #and obsessed with joan jett. #i am a sirius kinnie through and through BUT MARLS LOVE. YOU'RE SO RELATABLE. #marauders era #marauders #marlene mckinnon

[nicoscheer]

Via Jakobhetzer on ig

Jesus does he look good

Via blanchecottin on ig

X

#18/01/2024 #paris fashion week #Fursac #miles Kane #it’s so strange seeing Miles perform in a suit (not in a bad way) #casually wearing a probably at least thousand euro designer suit to complete sweat it through 😂 #emulating his husbands the constant suit wearer #Instagram #the loge (box) poster picture gives real fancy vibes

[thecoffeelorian]

i love you, stack of pillows. i love you, reading lights. i love you, soft nightgown. i love you, bubbling root beer. i love you, warm blankets. i love you, cozy bed. i love you, vintage horror story. i love you, i love you, i love you...

#random status update #about me #personal #self care #recharging that ol' battery #soft aesthetic #safe in bed #stephen king #constant reader #root beer and pillows #horror fangirl #18+ blog

[kyouka-supremacy]

Not to say one can't consume media they don't 100% agree with (I do the same so like), but you talk a lot about how the core views of TPN vs BSD change your entire way of enjoying these two, and I was wondering what drew you in into BSD if there are so many aspects of it you disagree with?

(Not meant as an attack or as a questioning of you enjoying it, I always am interested in your analysis so this is just out of curiosity, and also I am planning to pick up TPN again sometime this year)

#I've probably already mentioned it somewhere but this was the exact picture that made me start liking sskk wwwwww #And by extension made me stick around bsd #That said do I really talk a lot about t/pn???? To think I was doing my best to keep it at minimum‚ sorry‚ I sincerely didn't realize 😭😭😭 #In the end sskk is just a ship I particularly enjoy consuming (and producing I guess) content of in this particular period of my life- #about that I know for sure I would definitely have hated the pairing when I was 14-18 ahah. #And tbh I hope next I'll hyperfixate on healthier ships #But I just. at this time of my life I find the idea of someone loving you despite you not being a good person strangely comforting. #The idea that even the most evil of people can be loved is oddly reassuring #Besides I like the fandom! I mean‚ in the perfect world at this point I would still be in the p/p fandom... But my p/p hyperfixation ended– #up burning out sooner than how it would have done organically because the fandom was nearly non existent and the canon content was– #untranslated and extremely difficult to access. With bsd the monthly chapters release is ideal in the way it’s both a constant influx of– #new content without it being overwhelming. And it's enjoyable to be part of an active fanbase! #I like receiving asks. And celebrating character birthdays together. #sskk #people asks me stuff #That being said please read t/pn if you can!!!! It's really a fabulous story with incredibly insightful themes. #But also remember not to watch the anime since it's not a good adaptation!!!!!!! #As for the physical reason why I got into bsd: it was to impress a girl. duh

[sentimentalslut]

You could be an ace attorney character.

Relatively young age for a lawyer

Has Tumblr (you cannot convince me that most of the characters in ace attorney don't have Tumblr)

you dont have to do this to me -- i have a family, loved ones, please, i'm begging y---

#mumbles #aa #i have played one quarter of an ace attorney game. and. #uhm #its... not for me i guess #kangaroo court shenanigans. malpractice. constant interference with crime scenes #also. i just want to point out. #i was in undergrad from 18-22 #then did three years of law school from 22-25 #that is a normal age for a brand new attorney!! not uncommon!!! #i appreciate the 'relatively' in front of young for this reason

[umber-art]

No way in hell am I going to get even half of what I planned for this jam but I can say that I am at least getting some halfway decent practice. Day 11/18, sections 2/12

#blender #hero and dragon #animation #3d #it's a viewport render and constant interpolation. form after function #11/18

[motokeith]

can we stop treating our participation in the voltron fandom as something horrific and shameful or is every single voltron post going to be prefaced with self-deprecation and disgust

#before anyone jumps down my throat I am being hyperbolic #but also!! I think we can all agree that vld deserves criticism & its ‘16-‘18 fandom had some miscreants #I think we all collectively understand that custody of these characters/this universe has been revoked from dw by the remaining fans #the miscreants have retired. they left. you’re safe #you can make positive posts I promise I swear to god you don’t have to justify being in this fandom to the rest of us… also in the fandom #yes even in 2024 who cares #use your filtered tags and enjoy your stay my liege #I am just exhausted by the constant negativity and the qualifiers and the criticism of other fans just?? expressing themselves normally #‘I don’t like this trope’ ok cool!! it’s actually way easier to scroll away and not think about it than to make a post shitting on it #we don’t need to know that you don’t like it honestly #filter it and enjoy never seeing it again! #but considering how small the fandom is now there’s a good chance the person who created that piece of art or that fic is going to see your #post proclaiming your hatred of it #idk just leaves a sour taste in my mouth #everything doesn’t have to be For You #anyway there are so many fandoms in the same boat as Voltron where the fandom has largely disengaged with the source material bc it’s bad #and not just bad but at times painful to consume #rant in the tags

[mainfaggot]

it's crazyyyy 🤣🤣🤣 how music can become so crucial to your daily life and then in the grand scheme of things, the way it can end up influencing/becoming attached to certain years and even decades of your experiences....

#i listen to can't you see me and I remember being irrationally angry about my best friend at the time distancing herself from me #i listen to ikily and i want to cry because i remember 17-18 year old me that was severely depressed and wishing to die every day and night #i listen to run away and i remember 16 year old me trying to prove to myself that i was worth something despite feeling like a failure #i listen to farewell neverland and blue spring i think about how close i was to dying in 2023 #none of these events are actually connected to these songs but because i listened to them while everything went down #the connection created itself #txt didnt change my life for the better or worse. they were just there in the background through it all #theyve been a constant and thats strangely (or not so strangely because i think humans enjoy constants in some capacity) beautiful lol #im so corny rn forgive me for my moaisms at nearly 1 am bye #z.post

[alovesreading]

Why’d you have to

Make me love you?

I said “I love you”,

You say nothing back

#Constant Repeat vibes #Chapter 18…

[curvyprincess97]

24/7 mood

#18+ account #18+ content #18+ only #zaza #girls who smoke weed #high asf #constant mood #current mood #cnc sub #cnc free use #cnc soft #rough cnc #cnc daddy #420stoner #420girl

[garoujo]

this is the last time i’m going to give energy to this topic but i just wanted to remind. i do not interact with anyone under the age of 18 who doesn’t have an age in their bio or who’s age i don’t know, 18+ mdni is everywhere on my blog and if i see any minors / blank blogs in my notifs i block — no i won’t get all of them because i post regularly therefore i consistently have notifs and i am infact human with a full time job and a life outwith tumblr.

minors will always force themselves into adults spaces and there’s not much we as writers can do about that except try our best to catch them all, ive mentioned multiple times this is not a safe space for minors but it’s not my responsibility to police how they act when it’s easy enough for them to lie about their age like they have been doing consistently on this app and again, CONTINUE TO FORCE THEMSELVES INTO ADULT SPACES.

i won’t be commenting on this again, i try my best to catch them all but if the way i run my blog isn’t up to your standards — you can block me.

#i have a full time job AND a life outwith tumblr #it’s a constant problem the writing community deal with but i BLOCK ANYONE UNDER 18 I FIND #cw discourse #if you come into my asks w this again i’m not answering #i do not have energy for discourse because this is a safe space for me and others #i clear out my recent follows regularly but again i cannot comb through all of my followers everyday it’s not realistic