#and thoughtful handling they deserve

[cemeterything]

are we still doing this because i have a late submission

#🐉 #this is less about fan content and more about that awful lazy one size fits all #'10 years later theyre happily married with a cute little nuclear family' trope #because ive read some genuinely incredible fics about characters who would Not fucking have kids #ending up with accidental pregnancy scares or child acquisitions that get treated with all the nuance #and thoughtful handling they deserve #but also. i reread one of my favourite fics yesterday and when one character jokingly brought up the idea of children #and the other reacted with genuine visceral disgust and said what hideously awful parents theyd be #i lit up like a fucking christmas tree

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[itsdefinitely]

i am. diseased

#id in alt text #boy jerry #girl jeri #nightmare time 2 #abstinence camp #hatchetfield #definitely art #i have an illness its called boy jerry #hes infesting my thoughts #if you cant handle me at my jerryposting you dont deserve me at my spankoffposting

[natashadewinter]

the archon human and the people she couldn’t save

#genshin impact #genshin fanart #lumine #furina #furilumi #i did furinas story quest yesterday #i definitely have Thoughts about it and how things were handled #but i liked the resentment people held towards her in poisson #don’t get me wrong i LOVE furina #and i often see posts saying furina deserves better which she does but #imagine the person in charge of your country #the person you look to #the star of fontaine #the person the spotlights focus on #is a complete and utter fraud #imagine being a mother and losing your child because someone was parading around as an archon #obviously that’s not the whole story but the public don’t know that and that adds so many interesting perspectives and opinions #small details like that is why i like genshin and it’s world building #i didn’t mean to ramble whoops

[fischiee]

look ive been getting so caught up in the misogyny of tex but i am always thinking about the scene where church forgets her bc like

the world is already ending. church is 100% positive both he and tex are going to die in there and he is fully prepared for that moment. and so the moment of him forgetting her isn’t actually him erasing her from the narrative or killing her himself to break the cycle or anything like that.

it’s him promising to let her go. to stop bringing her back. to finally let her stay dead and stop dragging her back to a world she doesn’t actually belong in. he’s finally returning her agency to her, by letting the ghost that he has resurrected time and time again finally rest.

#these two… #constantly torn between the fact that she was just an extension of him and how horrible that is #and also how she and him were so in love and deserved to be able to retire together and spend the rest of their lives bickering and in love #augh too many thoughts too many thoughts i could literally write an essay analyzing them and their story i can’t handle it #they were made for each other (they made each other) #rvb #red vs blue #rvb church #rvb tex #rvb chex

[neolxzr]

middle school era kohaai (its 2am on a school night)

kohaku: rabuhan i kill people. im an assassin

aira: youre such an edgelord kohakucchi anyway i think im a boy

#-> this was in my drafts i thought it deserved to be posted #cryn rambles #airaposting #kohaai #THIS IS STUPID #happyele please tell me what kohakus online handle was i need to know

[khadaj-ballad]

I know he’s probably very busy but I wanna watch Brennan Lee Mulligan play Baldur’s Gate 3 as Gilear Faeth (and read the dialogue options he chooses in Gilear’s voice).

I think it’s be hilarious.

#baldur's gate 3 #brennan lee mulligan #gilear faeth #just a thought I had last night lol #but then I go to thinking how would our favorite yogurt dad handle Faerun and mindflayers #sad and pathetic Lu for sure but he’d be the hero we not only deserve but desperately want lol

[thethingything]

as a side note on the morality OCD thing, filtering phrases like "reblog if", "if you can't reblog this", "can and should reblog", "reblog this version", etc has helped immensely with not seeing as much of the guilt tripping bullshit on here. there are probably more but these are the ones on our filtered post content list so far.

also if you're on desktop, the Xkit Rewritten extension has a "tweaks" section for a bunch of dashboard stuff that includes the options "use a slim layout for filtered posts" which makes those posts take up less space, and "hide filtered posts entirely" so they don't show up on your dash at all if you need that option

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #OCD #we're at the point where we just kind of filter anything that's likely to be distressing if we're already feeling rough #and then if we think we can handle it we'll maybe click to see what the post is and the filter just acts as a warning in advance #but if we're feeling like shit it means we don't have to risk seeing anything that's gonna fuck us up for the rest of the day #I promise you're allowed to do this and having to avoid distressing content doesn't make you a bad person #and I know that probably doesn't help much because morality OCD spirals are hell #but you deserve to do the things that help you and are good for your mental health #(also I just realised if you do have these phrases blocked this post is gonna look wild on the ''filtered content'' box thingy)

[lilbittymonster]

Day 15: Acts of Devotion

#ffxiv #ff14 #ffxiv gpose #fluffuary 2024 #estimeric #estinien #estinien varlineau #aymeric #aymeric de borel #i just have a lot of thoughts and feelings about estinien letting his hair be handled and brushed by the people he loves #he deserves to be taken care of

[godofstupidsentences]

I have SO MANY THOUGHTS about the new heartbreak high s2 trailer

#amerie in a love triangle with some new guy??? #don’t get me wrong I absolutely didn’t want her with spider but I kinda expected for something between them to happen yk #well good for her #on this same note #MISSY WHAT ARE YOU DOING #IK YOU SAID YOU LIKE WHITE BOYS NOW BUT CMON #SPIDER??? #unexpected #ngl I hope the ship won’t sail bc my girl deserves so much better💀 #but we’ll see #ant x harper is also such an unexpected pair💀 #not sure about how I feel about them #oh I barely saw dusty?? when dreams come true #and cash!!! my baby looked so good in his 2sec of screentime!! #I’ve missed you cash #I don’t particularly care for the new characters rn but we’ll see #im very curious about how they’ll handle the whole Harper s1 plotline #expectations are high guys #let me know what you thought of the trailer! #heartbreak high

[clits-and-clips]

Is there like.... anywhere or anyone I can talk to about wanting to die without feeling bad or triggering people

#tw #txt #cause i cant talk to him about it as it would trigger him #i dont want to trigger people here cause i know multiple people who have attempted #if i tell my family ill feel bad and theyll make me do something about it if that makes sense like theyll make me tell my psych or smth #i jjst dont fucking know how to handle it #ive always had slight feelings of wanting to die but its sooooo bad now #how do i handle yhat when i have no friends #etc #idkdidkdksoakdpcjwheic #im going fucking insane man #i just cant handle the thought of life without him as my partner and it feels so pathetic #but 8 years #and its just over with no conversation beforehand #idk i didnt deserve that #here i am repeating myselffffffffffgfg

[bisexualmultifandommess]

I’m a big twdg Nick fan so I feel like he would’ve been a great addition to any moments in the games but the games are stupid and kill him off despite us having the option to save him twice like why? 😭😭

Like imagine his reaction to them all finding Luke and Jane it probably would’ve been so funny probably would’ve been like “hey it’s not me making the bad choices this time” lmao

I also love the idea of him being a big brother type figure to Clem like Luke is.

#you were one of the greats nick #if he was still around and was protective of clem he probably would terrify louis at first #but he’d eventually get used to him #him and luke being clouis shippers but still 100% ready to kick his ass if he hurts her #though louis is horrified at even the thought of hurting her #plus clem could handle it #sorry turned the tags into clouis for a moment because I love them #but anyway nick deserved better #the walking dead #twd #the walking dead game #telltale the walking dead #twdg #twdg nick #twdg luke #twdg jane #twdg clementine #twdg clem

[waitineedaname]

To Greed's surprise, Mei became more than comfortable with him – she actually started seeking him out. Not just when he happened to be the one piloting Ling’s body, but actively asking for him. She’d call him over to show off a new alkahestry technique she’d learned, knowing he’d gleefully cheer her on, or she’d tug on his sleeve to whisper a joke that matched his sense of humor more than Ling’s during formal meetings, or on the rare occasions when she’d bring them gifts from home, she’d make sure to bring two – one for Ling, and one for him. Despite all that, he was still surprised when she first referred to him as her brother.

I am pushing my "Greed is Mei's favorite brother" agenda, please enjoy

#fma #fmab #greed fma #mei chang #may chang #my writing #they are FAMILY!!! #if ling and greed are like brothers. and ling is mei's brother. then by transitive property greed is her brother too. #I think greed deserves the opportunity to be a big brother to siblings that aren't absolute nightmares #he had four younger siblings but hated at least half of them and was like. ambivalent at best about the other two. #mei gives him a new opportunity to have a little sibling he thinks the world of #because she 1) she is extremely cool and I think he'd enjoy how badass she is #and 2) no one can resist her adorable charm. every adult that meets her wants to adopt her and greed is no different #and mei on the other hand deserves older brothers that will hype her up and stick up for her #considering most of her half siblings were trying to kill her or each other #greed (and ling) are a nice change of pace because they will instead kill For her #not that she needs it. she can handle herself. but it's the thought that counts #anyway enjoy this fic!

[fromtheseventhhell]

Seeing people clutch pearls over Arya having killed people is so funny cause the list is literally rapist, murderer, torturer, criminal, some combination of the bunch...and all people who Arya has personally witnessed, or directly heard about, committing these acts. Like, contrary to popular belief, she is not just a mindless killing machine.

#arya stark #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #won't somebody please think of the poor rapist who laughed while recounting the tale of participating in the brutalization of a young girl? #of the torturer who came up with new ways daily to torment people????? #of the man who murdered a child without a second thought??? what about HIS-story huhh???? #yeah George writes Arya as a gray character but he also makes all of her acts justified...that's truly his daughter fr (dany too) #seeing people clutch pearls over raff and the tickler is insane kind've...crying about the brutality of it but look at what they've done??? #personally I think Arya should kill more rapists and murderers but that's just me #also she should've killed that lady who threatened to her with the broom handle cause what the FUCK #like I would literally stand by Arya even if she was 100% worse understand that #but if you get killed by Arya chances are you deserved it 🤷🏾‍♀️

[boygirltreehouse]

all you fake Kristen Applebee's fans turning on her for being awful to her god don't get it. It's junior year and that means another identity crisis and another period of her being the #worstdyke before she inevitably tries to get her shit together out of love 4 the ppl around her

#if you cant handle her at her annoying gym bro u dont deserve her at her blessed sainthood #fantasy high #her arc is cyclical cuz shes still figuring herself out!! #thought bubbles

[whitedovegs]

If it hurts, turn it into painting, into poetry, into music, into hugs, into tears, but don't leave it inside…|

#sad thoughts #feeling disappointed #i cant stop thinking about it #i cant handle this #i'm broke #canyoufeelit #notas del alma #feeling nothing #cant sleep #can you feel my heart #in my thoughts #voices in my head #why me why this #do i deserve this? #feeling alone #feeling annoyed #i cant do this #just dissapointed #no more please #it’s hard #if it happens it happens #poetry #painting #hugs #fypシ゚viral