#and that spot is in hell fuck you guys

[dilfpassing]

hi can i get a venti mocha cookie crumble frappuccino with an extra shot its been a long night

#my art #ghost #ghost bc #the band ghost #papa emeritus iv #papa iv #papa emeritus #copia #cardinal copia #popia #as a former starbucks employee there is a special place in my heart for people who get extra shots in frappuccinnos #and that spot is in hell fuck you guys

[biblionerd07]

I tried watching some of the Ian/Mickey scenes from season 11 and it made me ill. These are IMPOSTERS. That is not Ian and Mickey!! Especially Mickey!!! Look at how they massacred my boy. But one of the most frustrating parts is that if you watch the deleted scenes it shows that someone in that writers’ room DID know how to write Ian and Mickey but the producers or whoever makes that decision were like “nah, no meaningful conversations that show how much they love and respect each other and are working on their relationship. These fans who’ve been watching the characters struggle for a decade want them to continuously argue and beat the shit out of each other and act like they hate each other!”

#John wells if I ever catch you #there were a very few small spots of goodness and I credit ONLY Noel and cam for that #they were doing their level best #some of the things they had coming out of Mickey’s mouth made me want to drive my head through a wall #in what world am I supposed to believe Mickey was getting blow jobs from other guys #and making a joke out of Ian’s bipolar???? #like the one time they remembered they even wrote Ian as bipolar and it was for a shitty line where Mickey throws it in his face #it feels like every season is a whole new show and not connected at all to the others #and then it starts feeling like every EPISODE is a whole new show that’s not connected #why was there like a goofy soundtrack as Mickey’s literal Nazi abusive rapist father moved in next door #Noel was giving us everything and they made a joke out of it #and then they made a joke out of Mickey being conflicted and crying after terry died?????????? #I want to kill them #Ian saying frank was worse than terry????? girl in what world?????? #Mickey was NEVER insecure about bottoming and he was always adamant about how much he loved it but suddenly it’s an issue #from ‘liking what I like don’t make me a bitch’ back when he could barely LOOK at Ian to…this #also Ian used to be very sweet even when he was being stubborn and self-righteous and even violent #but they really lost his sweetness #and I know it wasn’t just cam growing up bc there were glimpses of it in the way he chose to have Ian move and hold onto Mickey #but the writers seemed hell bent on all of the characters being so horrible to each other #in the early seasons they could sometimes be cruel and selfish even to each other but underneath it all they loved each other #and it feels like when they decided to lean solely into goofy comedy that lost that #it’s just sad to see a show that started so good end so badly #I’ve seen people talking about a spinoff with Ian and Mickey and I don’t even fucking want it with these writers #maybe if cam and Noel were producers and got to choose the storylines #they’re the only ones I trust

[crabussy]

everyone in my school loves to scream as louyd as they can on purpose to hurt me just because they can

#I'm lying if it isn't clear #but god fuck does it feel like this sometimes #my heart is beating so fast and I feel so sick some girl decided to just start screaming as loud as possible for some reason #it was. excited screams but it was so loud it was so so loud and I immediately flinched and grabbed my head and started breathing hard #its so Painful its like someone is scratching me or scaring me withreally frightening stuff #I fucking hate being autistic sometimes man #OKAY TO REBLOG BY THE WAY. if you have felt like this #listen to my gibberish boy #they all turned to look at me too I saw out of the corner of my eye #its so upsetting here they changed the rules so that the only quiet classroom is now the designated eating spot #for 25+ people #its a small classroom #its really really bad and the school isn't fixing it or doing anything about it and every day is hell because #lunch and break are the only times I can recover from class #and now I Don't Have That #I am on the edge of breaking the fuck down I hate this #my brain is WEVIL #<- meant to say evil but wevil is funnier. my brain is WEEVIL you guys. bug

[coern]

earlier when I said I was normal now while playing isat that was a lie I'm miserable trying to fall asleep. wtf. I'm on some type of shit. in this moment you are loved. friendship is magic and solves anything type of thoughts I have here

#i need to experience that scene again :((( #the last snacks spot before you beat the king hsving tbe friendship quests done for the first time #im so so so sooo normal #usually i mean that in a hell fucking. wow. ighdjfjdkce i hate these guys #but this time im actually so so sad i KNOW it doesnt get better and itll FEEL so DIFFERENT if i do it again in this save #even if nothing changes it wont feel like.... right. ykwim #its not the first time. you(and siffrin) have seen this before #but also it adds a new layer #if i were to go do it again and the game DIDNT change any dialogue(which i doubt) then theres an extra something if both the player and sif #know this isnt going to work its not gonna break the loop #but also #it doesnt matter #because youll do it anyway. because. In This Moment. You Are Loved #it doesnt matter how many times you do it #arrrgh. i need a diagnos8s #isat spoilers #(in the tags but theyre still there)

[itsbrucey]

Need to cement myself as the Darryl Wilson mutual otherwise it'll all have been for nothing

#thinking about him so. bad tonight #Yeah im the king of Darryl Wilson ( has drawn him once and refuses to post my analysis/theories) #Matt Arnold made a character that hits all my weak spots. the perfect man #I LOVE A GENTLE BRUTE. I LOVE A KIND BEAST. I LOVE A POWERFUL AGGRESSIVE LOVER HUGGER DEFENDER #Big thing for me where the Wilson's are like. all defenders. the tanks. built to last. doused in blood for their friends in thick and thin #also hes catholic and boy am i afraid of religion but also boy am i so down to analyze the fuck outta it #I will always. be in tears over the Omega Daddies confrontation scene/battle where Darryl is fucking. bolting #and carrying paeden and anybody he can grab. or when he catches Grant midair in Four Knights #“BEAR HUG! SALMON!” oh my im fuckinf sick to my stomach #Also Hands being a massive part of him. handshakes hand trauma being very hands on and crafty and touch oriented. #i need to bite a chunk out of his shoulder like a wild animal MATT ARNOLD YOU WILL PAY #also he keeps making out with married men as a married man and thats king behavior. wrestle with that internalized guilt big guy! #anyway im tired as hell and this melatonin kicking in. nobody die while im gone ok love you byeeee

[robotpanties]

i forgot to dump my discord ramblings from a hell x v1 au i thought of which im just gonna refer to as lilith au. here sorry for being cringe

theres more in the tags below. i am cooking but this ones not whimsical. im breaking the pattern of whimsy AUs with something fucked up

#sorry if you guys are about to see a sharp turn in what kinds of kinks im showing bc i realized i ws weirder than i thought sorry #bu anyway #some thing i left out from all of this that was spoken was the idea that even if gabriel came back to get v1 again it has no reason to go? #hell has offered it a sense of security and can manipulate its systems enough to keep it in what is at least a consistent euphoric state #all there is the thrill of fight and maybe something else if you want to dig into it #another thing! the relationship of hell and v1 while. really fucked on the outside is entirely consensual. the arrangement can be ended #if it decides it doesnt want to be in that relationship anymore. but it doesnt want to. its both comfortable in the spot its in and also uh #a bit addicted to the loop of rewards and that hell finds a way to keep them both busy and keep things interesting #i also thought it would be! kind of fucked up for v1s nameplate after a period of time to be scratched out. i dont think hell would refer t #it by its original name. no one ever called it by that anyway. what hurt would there be in giving it a new name. a new identity. new purpos #anyway yeah #sorry #i ponder my orb #tokophobia

[enigma-the-anomaly]

I hate when there is anger inside my body. I am very small and my feelings are very big :(

#it really just does not matter what I do huh #it’s spring break. I was up at 9:30 and happened to stay in bed for a bit and take my time showering and stuff #you know? cuz I’m on break? And can do whatever the Hell i want? #but apparently I was ‘sleeping all day’ according to my mom #and then she reminded me to wash my hair the next time I shower. which is code for ‘your hair looks like shit’ #it’s like that one bit from friends where they’re having a funeral for the geller’s grandmother #and Monica’s mom is like “can you imagine being criticized for every little thing you do? #it’s amazing that I grew up to be the life-affirming person I am” #the joke being that she criticizes everything Monica does and is constantly trying to “fix” her #always criticizing her outfit and hair and life choices #like. that’s exactly my mother. and guess what? I fucking hate her! #and—this is a horrible thing to say I know—sometimes I wish she would just hit me #because violence and bruises are easier to spot than the covert belittling and the slow chipping away at my self esteem #all while under the guise of helping me #as if she isn’t insulting me and treating me like a mini clone of her or a goddamn toy to entertain her #she never wanted me she wanted a dress up doll #she doesn’t want nano she never wanted nano she wants a perfect girl who marries a perfect guy #and has perfect grandbabies #she’s tried to strip me of my boricua heritage in unassuming little ways #she’s tried to strip me of my desires and interests and emotions #she’s tried to ignore my trauma and logic away my mental illness #she has tried to destroy every part of me everything that makes me what I am #and she is the victim. the one with the woefully annoying stupid disobedient daughter #because i have resisted her attempts to mold me into something that I’m not #vent #im just so tired of trying to be the person she wants me to be and never being good enough #I’m tired of feeling trapped #I’m tired of feeling like an awful person #I’m so sick of her

[idiealotdontworry]

seeing in real time as people my age and older become wildly disillusioned with the state of the imperialist machine we're in is...i guess i'll say strange? not bc that's an inappropriate response, but because it feels a bit like talking to people who haven't, like. existed. for some 25-something years. even though they definitely have and these talking points aren't new. i've known for a long time that the political parties in this country are the same people in differently colored hats for a long time now and seeing people realize that for the first time is a mix of frustrating and relieving (in the sense that, like, ok are we finally on the same page yet?)

i don't say that with the implication that i'm better than anyone else, no one is Born with knowledge etc etc. its just weird. it feels strange. we're living in a repeat of history and people my age and older are acting like they are the first ones to ever feel this way or have these problems. one step forward two steps back kinda thing.

#i understand the plight of 'blue no matter who' ppl because who you vote for does matter especially WRT local elections but. #i just wish we could rid ourselves once and for all of the idea that any political candidate is going to actually be interested in #dismantling the machine or making real progress #blue never did and never will mean being inherently progressive or inherently anything because unfortunately #bad actors will fill any role they have to in order to gain influence and power #and it's just frustrating that we are not only stuck in an endless cycle of #'vote (blue candidate) so (surface-level worse red guy) doesn't get the spot' #harm reduction and 'lesser of two evils' are valid and important pursuits in their own right #but when it starts and ends at that we get fucking nowhere. as we've seen for the past several election cycles since before i was even born #and frankly while being in the US is hell i am doubtful that this is a uniquely US or even generally western issue #personal

[eclecticopposition]

reread aurora comic again and it is nuts that octave and falst are just the same person. octave is just like if instead of finding a friend group falst met one nice boygirl who is like if a boy is a girl who is a boy in a dress and decided that actually this person is the ONLY good person, who they will fight and die for, and who they are completely borrowing a moral compass from, and to that end they will abandon the good person to endlessly undergo the trials and overthrow the government about it. because that's what the good person would want them to do. that's what makes them so good and worthy of their loyalty. they're doing this revolution for THEM. (that is not what the good person wants them to do. because the good person talks a big paragon game and does care about everyone but on a very real level is deeply selfish and just wants people to stay with them. but they will never admit this to octave or to anyone else. and they're completely mutually obsessed with each other even though they haven't seen each other since high school.)

and for those of you who know octave but not falst, falst is like if octave was a tough catboy who lived in the woods with no friends and then GOT friends and then was like I'm going to break the exact same number of bones that I usually break about it. and also has a WILD inferiority complex. like holy shit. "it's whatever I heal fast" kind of a guy. will you dumb assholes be tactical about this and let me get blown up for you?? no joke this guy thinks he is expendable in the way that octave thinks is laudable

#they're both self-taught manual spellcasters and everything #octave and falst should start a club #they would #and we do not say this lightly #actually get along #impossible as it fucking sounds #octave actually respects this guy and we think it would be mutual #on the other hand falst would try to die for octave and octave would be SO pissed that he's stealing their spot #but also immediately attached. to be clear. octave is like yes you can break bones for me but no way in hell will I let you die #and then will get pissed AGAIN when octave breaks *their* bones for him and falst freaks out about it #oh so YOU'RE allowed to break your fucking bones but not ME? guess again. *I* break the bones around here asshole #nickle and alinua are not having a fun time. please. was Kendal not enough #we are having a fun time though #because it rules #aurora #variance #octave “everyone should be breaking their bones to prove they're trying hard enough” would be the worst enabler #for falst “my self worth is in how hard I can break my bones for my new friends” #but they'd also have suuuuuch cool combat scenes......... #SUCH good back to back moments.........

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Oh you know what I should probably clarify that um. While I adore Tiger Rock's design and keep saying he's mine now...

Roxy is still my number one blorbo. This hasn't changed. The art pieces I was thinking about when I was hit with that realisation from earlier? Yeah it was an art piece of her. Several, in fact. She is still the rotisserie blorbo of my brain lmao I'm just throwing the shiny new toy tiger around a bit until I go back to her fully, ya know?

#i don't play with them like dolls i play with them like littlest pet shop toys. #you get me?? #bobble heads!!! #lmao djdjjd yeah psa roxy is still blorbo of all time!! #tiger rock has just been added to the list of guys I've assigned a personality to and adore lmao #he's just new and brain likes screaming about new stuff #i love roxy too much to lose her to him :( #his design and the storyteller tiger head just... scratch a spot in my brain... #tiger with spider arms on his back... #broooooo #he's dope as hell okay??? #i get a pass for loving aesthetically pleasing characters okay??? okay #i will admit though #it IS really fucking weird how much general like... #wolf and tiger posts I've been seeing since i stole him from Tubehell #like its really fucking weird???? #saw one of furries that were a tiger and a wolf and it was like 'this is yuri' or something #and like!!! yes you're right but the fucking TIMING!!!! #i am NOT shipping these two okay??? #hdjdndkd crackship and a half... #cringetober prompt of crackship ajd it's just fucking tiger rock x roxy djndksdn #tempted to do it for for the joke now lmao #seriously though??? no. not happening. #big no on that one lmao #but its so weird how many unrelated posts I've seen of wolves and tigers together lately though #it's like tumblr wants me to commit to the bit on it lmao #no plans to though no worries djdnjd #anyway

[ctl-yuejie]

love this system that is like "oh you work for 2 years while we barely pay you - it's not called a wage for a reason, duh - have you come to class and write an exam every week but in class - just for funsies - we won't actually teach you what you need to know for the exams but a lot of practical stuff which doesn't apply for your work because that is way more specialized"

glad i can skip the classes since i moved outside of town for this part. while i have to teach everything to myself, everyone in class is non the wiser and at least i don't lose the hours.

#ctlyuejie writes #really thought i could get some studying in until february since starting february my work schedule will be hell #but alas #idk how the people cope who have to work more hours than me #if i take anything away from this is that i am damn lucky with my supervisors #and the knowledge i could still find a job at my current workplace if I fail the bar #just had a meeting to discuss one of the mock exams: they are not allowed to hand out the correct solution just discuss it #and since a lot of it is the outline and basically formatting stuff it really isn't helpful to have someone explain where to put a signatur #and letter head etc with no visual aid #and there's also no textbook examples because every fucking region does it differently #i just love that in the exam i am drafting administrative decisions - letters to court - letters to citizens etc which in reality you'd use #internal templates for #but just for the nonsense of it all you have to memorize the formats for the bar (besides getting the material law correct obviously) #me copypasting the template for writing charges when i was working as a prosecutor vs me in the exam having to draw the state coat of arms #into the correct spot so i don't fail on a technicality #(guy who was correcting the mock exam got mad because i wrote “coat of arms” in letters instead of drawing it...my dude...it's a mock exam) #(i will draw the horse for the bar and not before that) #shouldn't have started my training in a state that has a horse on the coat of arms #also highly enjoyable how this must read like madness to anyone taking the bar in another country (besides the bar being madness anywhere) #at this point i have the equivalent of two bachelors two masters and a specialization and i still might not make it #just collecting fun letters that go behind my name

[freebooter4ever]

ignoring everybody in my phone, sorry not sorry ;_;

#i have been canceled on or weirded out too many times in the past four days #journal shit #you know how the baseball player was bragging about all the celebrities and best hiking spots he knew and how LA was better than my home? #and it turned out he wasnt a hiker at all according to his friends? #well this new guy is bragging about dancing spots in the city #im fucking tired of the bragging i dont care #but he may actually be legit so maybe next week ill think about it. i already told him i was busy this weekend #i feel like its really not actually hard to impress me #just be smart and very fucking funny have good timing and know when to surprise #like instead of bragging about something orchestrate a way for me to discover it #my point being if you're the one who introduces me to the turtle pond which is fucking free btw im going to be a lot more impressed #than the person who knows all the hot spots in town because they think it makes them look cool #or driving lmao #skilled driving is always sexy to me i am a DISASTER for someone who is good behind the wheel #i have a certain friend who im absolutely not attracted to #EXcEpT for when he is driving like fucking hell it's hot the way he takes those curves lol #one time i volunteered to ride along with him for 45 minutes both ways in LA traffic to drop off his watch for repair just so i could #watch him drive 🤣 #thats over an hour and a half of LA traffic i mean #or god timmy whenever we are together if im not making him laugh hes making me laugh i dont think there is a minute we arent giggling #why is it so hard to find someone who combines all three :( #or even just one who isnt already in a relationship :(

[s0fter-sin]

even though ellie is immune, we see in the mall that infected still attack her and we know that they will rip people apart in an attempt to spread. a vaccine wouldn’t kill the existing infected or stop them from attacking. ellie would never be able to make a decision without the fireflies manipulating her into thinking she was selfish and killing people and turning her against joel by making her think the same about him and maybe even that she’s just a replacement for sarah. not to mention they would just use a vaccine as the ultimate trading tool to topple fedra and become the new world leaders which is what they really want. they were going to kill a little girl without telling her she was going to die on the off chance her brain could produce a cure. joel did the right thing

#im coming at this from a show only perspective but from what i know this should apply to the game as well #i saw someone say theres no difference between what they were going to do to ellie and olden days people throwing a virgin into a volcano #to appease the gods and bring rain #and hell if that isnt spot on #this isnt a walking dead situation where they just have to outlast the zombies the infected arent going anywhere #we are told over and over theres no possibility for a cure #and thats coming from two experts in the field decades apart #so you cant even say well people in 2003 knew more than the guy in the sixties #a regular surgeon wouldnt know more than him or the doctor from indonesia #even if they did theyre still people and its made very clear how evil people are #theyre not some benevolent force #they call themselves freedom fighters all they want but what they want is control #we see in riely how they start their propaganda and how it buts up against fedras #but its still propaganda #otherwise riely wouldnt hesitate to explain everything to ellie #even if she believes its better than fedra its clear she doesnt necessarily believe its right #when ellie finds the bomb all she says is that theyd never use them mear HER not near civilians #this is my second day in a fucking car man #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #the last of us #tlou series #tlou #ellie tlou #joel miller #pedro pascal #bella ramsey

[anxiously-awaiting]

i just think hes funnie 

#my ocs #eris #lam #aaart #pov i am bullshitting a (gah)eris design and colors for both of them on the spot kfkjdsljklsd #dw im pissed as hell that i like lam(orak) also fjldksfl #hes a funny guy idk what to tell you #fkljdsflkjds #for context if anyone wants it: lam(orak) does fuck (gah)eris' mom and it's a whole Thing

[loptrcoptr]

“Boarding barns in the southwest: actually use the empty chunks of your land for turnout for your horses instead of doing nothing with them” challenge

#personal #so I did not get that horse it was not a good fit #which is sad because he was so cute and leaving any animal at a shelter and not taking them home is heartbreaking #it I am still looking for barns in the interim to prepare for the eventual horse- the logical timeline being around #Xmas at the earliest but we’ll see- anyway! these barns my guys I swear what the hell is with all this unused land???? #I’m on the waiting list for this one place which seems like a good spot I mean it’s kinda janky but they all are #and these people have turnouts that are smaller than their paddocks! they’re so narrow I just. i know I could hand graze my horse but it #chaps my ass to see how much greenery they have our behind the main barn that no one fucking uses for pasture #you could at least use them as big dry lots?!?!

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

If they let me write for one of these cute DC kids shows I would have a episode with Peacemaker and Vigilante and the plot would be the justice league gets separated somewhere with a communication blackout and half of them are with Adrian, who is telling them that Peacemaker is a unhinged maniac whos gonna murder a bunch of people, and the other half is with Peacemaker, who is telling them that Adrian is a unhinged maniac whos gonna murder a bunch of people. Obviously the episode would end with the reveal that they both have murder plans

#That or the justice league would just be going after both of them the entire time but I like there being a twist #I think theyre both still unknown enough you can have the JL not know who the hell they are #Until a teen titan spots Adrian and is like 'OH SHIT OH FUCK' #ALSO OBVIOUSLY IT WOULD NOT BE THE WHOLE JUSTICE LEAGUE I KNOW MY SILLY GUYS ARENT A 'EVERYONES HERE' EPISODE #I would want Jaime there and him to somehow already know Kris but not for villain stuff #Shows up at the very end like 'why are you guys arresting the janitor that gives me extra free milk at school. get away from him.'