#and that sound sad but my point is

[chelleisamazing]

I try to be stone cold and dismissive about my feelings, but the truth is... I miss him. Most of all, I miss the day-to-day, ordinary conversations we had. I miss his long, rambly voicenotes and the out-of the blue, random pictures he would send me. I miss how easy it was to be friends... and I want to think he misses me too. I know he's watching me. I don't know why he won't talk to me though, or if he expects me to talk to him first. Did he get bored? Did he realize it's not worth the trouble? Does he think I'm mad at him? Or is he mad at me? He seemed okay the last day we talked... there was tension, of course, but apart from that, we were moving on from the awkwardness of our weekend together... Is he ashamed of what happened? Of how everything didn't turn out how we expected it? I want to tell him he shouldn't be... it wasn't his fault. I see him watching me, and I wonder if he cares; if he ever cared. I also feel dumb because I probably cared more than he ever did (and still do), but it used to feel real-- our friendship. I really felt we had turned into good friends. Of course, I didn't expect to talk everyday, all-day; everyone gets bored of that... but I wish we could just check in with each other at least, once in a while, without feeling like something stings in my chest... I want to think he knows how bad I feel, not knowing about him. After all the things he said to me, and I said to him, I hope at least someday I get an explanation; some kind of continuation... or closure.

#something happened and I got triggered 🥲 #not like i dont think about him at least once a day already but you get it #i know i mentioned before i only wanted to f*ck lol but guess i got too attached this time #and how could I not... he has such a good aura about him 😪♡ #but... he's a man after all... #i shouldve expected the worse #funny thing is now I just miss the way we got along 🥲 #and i have friends here too but i could talk with him in a way i cant to anyone else #and that sound sad but my point is #it was just different-- a good different. #huge sigh #i honestly feel like falling in love... this time preferably with a girl 🥲 #please gawd #personal post #stuff

[the-meme-monarch]

i like to think post-game they’d all be friends and watch movies sometimes. scc have that big screen in their shop i choose to believe it’s a tv

based kinda on these screenshots a couple years ago :] people included are @maddestmewmew and @tenpixelsusie

if you ship scc go away please 👍

#ideally catti and jockington would also be here but. i drew enough HDHDHDHDHD #the art gallery #deltarune #scc #suselle #capsei #not explicitly but. implied with clover’s expressions #sad clover looking longingly at susie (based on unused dialogue) and mad clover glaring at capn #bc in their fight happy and mad clover expressed interest in ralsei and there’s an unused dialogue where sad clover says ‘what about her?’ #or smth to that effect #but i think it went unused bc susie wasn’t in your party at that point #also in my heart the movie itself is called “(completely benign sounding movie title)”

[sunny-sainz]

this is heartbreaking 😭😭😭

#he sounds so sad #im so sad #he makes a great point though #we have to look forward #they played so well #this is just killing my insides #😭😭😭 #ruben dias #manchester city #man city

[svtskneecaps]

also in terms of the bolas playlist it's fascinating to me that the songs added by each person have a slight tendency to represent a consistent aspect of bolas

like

the songs added by slime are their chaos

the songs added by philza are their rebellion

the songs added by cellbit are their rage

the songs added by baghera are their anguish

it's so fucking FASCINATING TO ME but i don't know enough music theory to elaborate lmfao this is Vibes Only

(mouse's songs i can't boil down to an easy noun which is why they aren't mentioned lmao anyway they go hard asf)

(also i went on the longest fucking unhinged elaboration in the tags lmfao i almost didn't have enough tags left to tag "long tags" at the end

(i could have even gone on longer in terms of where their characters were at entering purgatory [philza: cage for a cage; cellbit: fed worker murders; baghera: her past as a federation experiment; slime: turning into a code because of the code pretending to be his daughter] but i ran out of space and also time it's 4AM AAAAA)

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #this is a sweeping generalization btw esp for baghera's she added a WIDE variety of music #qsmp bolas #sorry i forgot that tag existed lmao #i will elaborate slightly: #slime added: find your flame; gas gas gas extended; waltz of the meatball man; foghorn sound effect #philza added: b.y.o.b.; throne; the melting point of wax #cellbit added: hayloft II; brazilian dança phonk (which roier literally played during purg while beating the shit out of bbh lmao) #baghera added: can you feel my heart; still waiting; and coincidentally she added 'it's been so long' (the fnaf song lol) #TO BE CLEAR THESE ARE GENERALIZATIONS #baghera also added the government knows [REBELLION] and oops [CHAOS] #philza added given up [ANGUISH] #cellbit added zombie [ANGUISH] and tokyo drift [CHAOS] #slime added as above so below [ANGUISH] #it's not a perfect category; ESPECIALLY for baghera's songs i want to make that so clear in these tags #HOWEVER. it is interesting. #anyway i went after lyrics for these examples but just generally when going through the playlist the first time #i kind of learned that like. #music to murder to was probably cellbit; punk millenial music was probably philza #the wackiest shit was probably slime (was shocked to find out tokyo drift was a cellbit song for this reason lmao) #baghera's i usually could only pin down bc it didn't sound like anyone else's #and mouse's added songs i could not describe the vibe if you threatened me for it but it has one #i guess the closest vibe is 'a college radio station run by anime fans' and even then it's not that close #it kinda excludes songs like the b//ad bun//ny songs #unless college anime fans are also fans of them in which case great! #IDK IT'S 4 AM I WAS JUST MAKING MYSELF SAD ABOUT TILIN I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP #shut up vic #block game brainrot #long tags

[aprilblossomgirl]

-- sad puppy x sad kitten

#i hear sad puppy my ears perk #kanghan krittin #sound saran #perth tanapon #satang kittiphop #dangerous romance #dangerous romance the series #my school president #*gifs #at this point i gifed that sound saran sad kitten pose four times already and not even one was a complete set on its own. about time.

[finncakes]

you make me happy

#ashton greymoore #fcg #fresh cut grass #critical role #critrole #-i point at them while crying and just make sounds- #fiNALLY figured out how i want to draw fcg...so i draw my favorite friendship :) #sam is always making silly but profoundly sad characters... #also sam's characters are always part of my favorite friendships...inchresting #scan/lan and gr/og. ca/leb and ve/th....now ashton and fcg #means nothing but just inchresting #fcg is...becoming one of my faves too but tbf i think all of the bells hells are LOL

[itsbebebe]

what i took from tallulahs book is that she actually rlly does need to spend more time w/ the other eggs/parents cuz she doesn't realise that they all fucking adore her and are clamouring to look after her and think shes amazing but just dont know her well enough. Its not that they have misconceptions about her, its not that bbh forgot her birthday, its not that dapper and pomme purposefully triggered her abandonment issues. its that they dont know/remember cuz they never see her and thats why its actually kind of important that her and chayanne get to hang out with ppl like forever and stuff more regularly ("if they are actually willing to" she mutters, eyes trained on chayanne).

#and tbf with her signs there was a lot of ppl and a lot of things going on #and cuz of tallulahs abandonment issues she doesnt like to be ignored #in spite of being rlly quiet #like yeah book sad good angst but also half of what she says is kinda crazy from the 3rd party pov #actually i think the eggs should know more about their other siblings' issues #that was gonna be my point abt the richas stuff yesterday that most of the eggs DIDNT know so cant avoid triggering shit for him #this isnt tallulah neg btw i love tallulah #parts of this sound a bit harsh on her #qsmp #liveblogging

[shady-swan-jones]

Did we really need the Pick-Me version of Jolene?

#beyonce #cowboy carter #jolene #dolly parton #country #jay z #i mean this sounds like a woman who's so insecure in her marriage she's picking cat fights #and I can see why cause she's been cheated before but it wasn't Jolene's fault #Dolly Parton said it best with the begging and sadness and pain of a woman talking to another woman heart to heart #bey said he's my cheater get your hands off him #completely missing the point #and the lyric about how she raised him girl please he found you at 18 and managed your life

[andoutofharm]

the thing about the fob healing tour is that it has filled me with so much vindication that now whenever i see Bad Fall Out Boy Opinions (of which so many people are so unnecessarily loud about) it’s literally just like lol okay so you missed the point so bad it makes you look stupid and we are all laughing at you. get laughed at loser we do not have time to entertain your silliness we are busy healing and partying together forever.

#this isnt about anyone specific it’s about a lot of people on various platforms just so blatantly missing the point #1) if you arent a fob fan why does fob and their fans having a good time piss you off. #why does it make you feel the need to make some snarky comment about how Your Band Is Better like. bro you missed the point of BOTH bands #this is so sad for you #2) mania/post hiatus haters who claim to be fans lmao do you realize how idiotic you sound. get a clueeeeeeeee #3) i have chosen not to emotionally engage in polls here because all they do is bring out the worst in people #but also. be for real lmao. you can vote for what you personally prefer and just say that #there is absolutely no need to start cutting one of them down or mocking the lyrics #4) people commenting on joe and pete’s expressions and movements are either so uninformed it’s laughable #or are ​ableist or racist or both #ANYWAY. we have two shows left and i’m so excited for them and that is where i am investing my time and energy #and not engaging with people looking to stir shit up #or just generally bring down the mood #we are better than that.

[doomedpuppetyuri]

wheeeee splatoon fandom stop making me want to leave it for good challenge impossible

#this is about smollusk #literally just say you don't want to use it/its pronouns at this point #the amount of people i've seen use he or they #it's really not that hard #and like it makes me feel like shit as someone who prefers exclusively it/its pronouns #like #sure gives me a lot of hope for how you guys would handle a real person going by it/its(sarcasm) #gaige talks into the void #sorry if i sound bitchy im just annoyed #i dont like to rant i really dont my anxiety-riddled ass cannot handle it #im just #frustrated #and sad i guess #because of how much splatoon helped me come to terms with my identity #anyways #see ya #im done talking #splatoon #smollusk #side order spoilers #obligatory just in case #splatoon 3

[twilightarcade]

everyday I draw beautiful arms and forwhat

#wordstag #whatever. I know I need to do them. Morally speaking and artistically speaking #but it makes me soooo sad like yeah sorry. im gonna have to censor you with a sleeve. That’s literally a rectangle. Yeah it’s irreversible. #I suffer everyday and forwhat. Does this amuse someone out there? Did someone want me to live this way? #anyway its actually so hot in here. And also so late. On da clock. I haven’t stayed up this long in ages #kind of weird. Like in my heart I know it probably the drugs (<- see: I had some caffeine both today and yesterday. Calling it a drug #sounds funny & amuses me.) but also what the hellllll literally what if bro up to. #I could be like. Sleepin with this time. Dreamin and things of the sort. But we’re here. Hellworld #anyway that arm thing I think its because I like 2 wear long sleeves. Like to the point where if I wear short sleeves someone is bound to #throw some sorta fit about it. HENCEFORTH ! I force my ideas onto innocent characters. Because of woke. #or something along those lines. Really it just gives me more fabric to work with <- guy who doesn’t outfit design all too often #anyway ive been watching house season one as of late have you seen that show dude . #ok uhhhherrrhmmmmmmm bye

[dasloddl]

glueing together pages of my friendship book... or as I like to call it... spiritual cleansing <3

#healing journey is going well #I wouldn't have believed me 4 months ago that I would be okay #I wished the pain would go away really quickly and was sad that it didnt #but in the end... like 4-6ish months and everything is fine (for the most part) #sure. theres a thought here and there but it has no emotion attached to it at all... #I mean that is rather quick healing I would suppose #4-6 months does sound long but it's not THAT long when you think about it #anywho... next is deleting pictures... which is harder cause I'll have to look at them to delete them #and like... I dont wanna do that #oh... and then deleting “the evidence” aka the whole chat i've saved #(idk for some reason my brain thought it needed evidence to show that someone could like-like me) #and I still find it hard to finally do it (thats why I won't do it now but some time later... point is that I have to do it) #oh well #I can start small and just delete the WhatsApp chat... will do that now #yeah. that sounds like a plan... deleting the chat and doing the pictures/other chat later #op dasloddl

[ra-vio]

semester is almost over. im dying

#my oc #rune #mori #i have a project due tomorrow and its finally scared me back into drawing #even though i should be working on this project but im SO SO SO TIRED #i went on an outing like 2 weeks ago the same week that i walked everywhere cause i was desperately #trying to get my taxes done but thats a different story but the point is i was walking a lot and i went on an outing where i stood all day #and then i had to go to class the very next day thinking i was fine but i wasnt. #and that same day after i walked across the city because i absolutely had to pick a thing up. i think the same week i met up with my mom #a couple of times but i was walking the whole way there. my point is that for 2 weeks straight i have been rigorously walking everywhere #and on my feet all the time with little breaks in between and my feet fucking hurt man #i need this semester to be OVER i need to sleep for a MONTH #but i cant because i have to scrape together SOME of this project and finals are next week #this class this project is for fucking sucks. all semester ive been teetering the line between pass and fail #and its not even my fucking fault. im so burnt out so i dont want to do this project. but i might fail if i dont #i need to at least demo it but i have like. one thing done and i dunno what to tell my TA about i #how do i tell my TA and prof that everything is too much for me so i absolutely could work on this project #my laptop is broken so im afraid to use it. the server kept going down last month so i was afraid to use that #so many stupid little things keep piling up and i'd sound really weird trying to explain why i cant do my work #because my desk is on the floor and it makes me really sad so no i cant do my hw. my fave candy has red40 in it so i had to stop eating it #but now i cant do my work because i was using it to help me focus on my hw. LIFE SUCKS BRO #anyway whatever happens. i cant wait to play video games again

[britneyshakespeare]

barnes and noble has been raising the prices of everything and further pushing for their premium membership option (which they raised the price of by 60 percent this year!) and then when they have big sales events, they're less than what they used to be.

last year at this time you could get one of their leather-bound book annex tomes for $12.50 (without a member discount) because of the 50 percent off all hardcover sales. but they raised the price of those tomes from 25 bucks to 30, and they decreased the sale from 50 percent off all hardcovers to 1/3rd off. so that same book that was $12.50 at last year's end-of-year sale is now 20 bucks. and that's supposed to be savings enough to induce me to walk into one of their stores this week?

i'm sorry but b&n has just gotten so greedy, even though their business has only been doing better and better in previous years. they do not have to be raising prices like they have been, and they can damn well afford to have the same savings events they used to. if you went to one of those hardcover sales a year or two ago, even if you lived in a less populated area like i do, you had never seen a b&n so busy in your life. things were flying off the shelves. they WERE making bank.

and as a company they've only been growing and growing (as much as the publishing industry has been, in recent years). but there are so many other ways to buy books. CHEAPER ways to buy books. MORE SUSTAINABLE ways to buy books. and since books and booksellers are doing really well right now, i don't see why barnes and noble is getting so greedy when they don't have to be. i dont like new shiny books that much. people buy books for the content, ultimately. sometimes we as consumers might make the choice that a new shiny book is worth paying a bit more for, but not that much. barnes and noble has just been demanding more and more of their customers' money for less and less benefit.

#kaily and i shared a membership account for several years but she cancelled it over the summer #bc of them raising it from 25 dollars per year to 40. i'm sorry but we just were not spending enough to make that worth it #the benefits for a member used to be 10 percent off everything in-store and free shipping online. #now it's 10 percent off everything in-store AND online with free shipping. which sounds good enough #but not for a 60 percent pricehike. and a bunch of other supposed benefits no one would ask for #like a free tote (geez. thanks. yeah i really need a free tote every year) and like. a free treat at a cafe on your kids' birthday? #i dont have a kid. #between the two of us. we were not buying 400 dollars worth of stuff at b&n every year #oh and it's also 10 percent off the in-store starbucks. but im pretty sure that USED to be a benefit they had #years ago?? like i SWEAR ive gotten money off at the b&n starbucks so i guess they got RID of that at some point #and gave it BACK when they HIKED UP THE PRICE TO 40 BUCKS A YEAR #text post #barnes and noble #it's a shame bc where i live. barnes and noble is the only like fancy bookstore #and i live in an area that my barnes and noble... is like. what a boston barnes and noble eats for breakfast. #it's two floors. there are plenty of books that it doesn't have. plenty of sections that are very small #like the poetry section is just pathetic. i look at it every time i go and it just makes me sad. #i guess a lot of the book annex stuff contains poetry but still that's not really enough to entertain a rich interest in the genre for long #i outgrew the limited selection at my own local b&n poetry section by the time i was twenty. i was like i already know everything here. #which isn't to say i'm an expert in poetry. it's to say that the poetry section is barely bigger than a shelf #in fact ive never thought about it before but I OWN more poetry books than you'll find in the poetry section #at my local b&n. lol #i have a lot of nostalgia for b&n even though it is a big company that does not love me. i have very few books i bought new #that are not from barnes and noble. i got so many books that changed my life from them #i guess it's like a childhood/teenage attachment at this point bc ive had more mixed feelings abt the direction theyve been taking #for several years at this point. #and no i dont mean that theyve been expanding to selling more toys/games etc. theyve literally always done that in my lifetime. who cares. #they still have books #as an adult ive been more capable of seeing how limited their book selection is and how i have so many problems w that. #and it ultimately comes down to them being a big greedy company

[zombie-bait]

Had one of those moments where you get really obsessed with a piece of media AND an artist/album simultaneously even though they're completely unrelated so now AJR's new album and Loki season 2 are just inexorably linked in my silly little brain and I'm not sure what to do about that

#Listen they're both about life and expectations and sacrifice and dealing with loss #kinda #this has been the last week for me #my brain is cooking #and not in the good way #I have 3 assignment due next week #*cue sounds of my brain frying* #I procrastinate it by writing snippets of Lokius fanfic I'll never publish #And playing pokefarm #just how the good lord intended #anyway #loki season 2 #loki series #lokius #ajr #the maybe man #that new album SLAPS #makes me feel unhinged in a very sad but incredible way #Just like the Loki finale #I swear I'll post something meaningful/complex at some point #For now it's just gonna be this lmao

[caluupin]

Father!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥

#caluuart #genshin impact #genshin #art #arlecchino #god she's just so. cool. pretty. ethereal. badass. #also I LOVE HER STORY QUEST SO MUCH!! I think it's definitely one of the best story quests in the game tbh. #wait uh arlecchino story quest spoilers below: #for one; the quest really gives even more depth to arlecchino's character. like yeah the whole thing is well. messed up. #it's an orphanage that raises orphans to be child soldiers after all. But it's also like. It's more.... humane? nicer? for the fatui anyway #which does bring me to the next thing. you know how arlecchino's like “if you're gonna leave the HotH you need to fight for it with ur life #I genuinely think that she's gonna just. straight up kill them. although it's not unlikely at all it turns out that (most of the time?) she #-just gives them a one trip to memory loss and set them free. which i do know it's kinda like death in genshin's lore but still. #I just find that pretty interesting. #also the cutscene where clervie says goodbye n stuff. It makes me cry EVERY TIME. ARGHHHH TRAGIC CHILDHOOD DOOMED YURI MY BELOVED :((( #clervie makes me so sad man. the fact that she just. accepts death. she really just let peruere kill her huh. crucabena when I fucking get #the hopelessness getting to her at that point. all attempts of freedom failed until that day..... GOD. and clervie finally getting closure- #-in the story quest as a spirit... I just..... man......... #on a lighter note :) #I got obsessed with a bloodborne OST LMAO. the uhh the lugwig boss theme. esp the sec phase one. it's SO GOOD. I first heard abt it in a- #-vid analyzing the ost musically. At the time i was like. woah. cool. what a cool sounding track. fast foward to like. a day before 4.6 #I'm watching a genshin theory video and I heard the music in the bg. I recognized it but I couldn't remember where I heard it from #UNTIL I REMEMBERED. and looked it up. And I have not known peace since. good music. #anw I've been rambling too much so yeah. gn my dear fellows!!