#and so i never did end up watching any

[maddy-ferguson]

i havent seen a single marvel movie btw

#fun fact #the reason for that is my mom is a snob and i grew up to be a snob #except not really i literally have an mtv scream icon and i've been known to blog about stranger things like it's supernatural #i just genuinely did not know they were A Thing until 2016 when one of my friends watched all of them and joined the like twitter fandom #before that they were dumb superhero movie number 17 to me which i guess they are but also i wouldn't know since i haven't yk seen any #for a minute there i wanted to get into the mcu but then i was like i probably won't like it like the people who are passionate about it #like it and i'm enjoying only knowing of stuff that happens #and so i never did end up watching any #and then i got into movies and now not having watched a marvel movie does make me a snob but like i'm a scorsesehead you know and the man #was right back in 2019 #and i'm enjoying seeing people turn on the mcu. it's fun #my mcu watching friend is also my spn watching friend and she got me to watch that (she didn't force me) except i only watched two seasons #and a half. but that's still something #and like i say: brf slt

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

You know, I'm glad that some of us take the step to embrace things that we like even if they're "cringe" or "objectively bad"

But perhaps we could take the next step forward and embrace the idea of reading into books/shows/movies/etc even if they don't seem deep. Perhaps we could understand that the two kinds of media aren't either "shallow and meaningless so you're weird and brainrotted to read into it" or "incredibly and profoundly deep in every way so if you don't analyze every single angle of the thing then you're brainrotted". Some media is deeper than others, but all I propose is that no matter how deep it seems it's acceptable to dig into the thing and take the media seriously instead of just assuming that because of ____ thing (such as target audience or how cringe it is) the media not deep and will never be deep and everything good about it happened on accident.

#fandom wank #i just be ramblin #I'm not putting this in any tags #I'm just frustrated that Sonic Prime is going to be remembered by the bulk of its fanbase/people who watched it as a shallow stupid badly #written kid's show where the only thing good about it that we can even consider was created on purpose and is deep is Sonadow #I'm frustrated that when people learned that sometimes the death note creators did things because it was cool and not because they were #planning for it to be some great symbolism that so many people jumped from 'death note is a masterpiece and every bit of it is meticulously #thought out the curtains are never blue' to 'pack it up guys! the curtains are just blue! Everything good about death note like that #profound relationship I like and the neat symbolism completely happened by accident and Ohba sucks as a writer otherwise' #I'm frustrated when I see people talk about 'a kid's show' as if it's not gonna be deep at all or written well *because #it's a kid's show and then turn around and complain that said show sucks and isn't deep at all (even if that's how they're choosing to look #at it and they could see the care put into the story if they didn't go into it assuming that it will be lesser and shallow and dumb based on #what it is) #I guess it's also just getting me on this random Wednesday the idea that the bulk of one's viewers determine the legacy of a piece of media‚ #no matter how close or far away they are from painting the media as it actually is or tries to bw #It's also just bleak (especially from a manga/anime standpoint) that if your work is considered profound and intellectual‚ then any reveal #of something not being deep is grounds for people to completely swap how they think of your work and how they see you as a writer #And any work that's considered 'not actually that deep' from the getgo ends up with people only engaging with it seriously saying stuff like #'I know nothing about it is purposeful or deep but I like it' #and just ends up with prevailing opinion putting down anything percieved as 'good' or 'profound' about the work as a complete fluke

[irkedisaac]

this is a hate post let me be a hater or fuck off

nocturne fucking sucked and was bad. absolutely no plot, no memorable scenes, nothing that happened felt like it meant anything or lead anywhere. the reason that the failtwink unwizard could suddenly do tekken shit? no idea, anyway-[twelve straight scenes of the pink demon sexywoman killing people]

complete nothing of a show where nothing happened.

#castlevania #it was so bad it's funny actually #you could have convinced me that liz bathory was a cool villain #but she didn't do anything i fuckin cared about and had no bearing on the protagonists #explain to me why richter should give a shit right now #give me a good reason for any of this show to happen #and another thing #the singing guy? fucking annoying #yes that's an incredible skill to have and props to that guy for honing it so well #and there were scenes where it worked #but all of those scenes were towards the end #pick a lower fucking register to start at my dude #if you absolutely need to memorialize a fake bird with a song dont start with the clarion notes of a flute being sneezed through #FUCK man i hated it and also watched the whole thing in the hopes it would improve #and it never did #alucard showed up at the end for absolutely no reason #castlevania nocturne spoilers #castlevania nocturne #castlevania spoilers

[midigated]

I'm probably in the minority with this but I wish the first 3 arcs of Sailor Moon Crystal were a two-part movie series (like they did with Eternal and Cosmos.).

This will probably make the Crystal fans seethe at the mouth bc God forbid anyone has an opinion different from them. But we probably would've avoided a lot of the embarrassing poor animation choices had they turned the material into two-part movies for each arc. They'd have more time to focus on the good bits that moved the story along. They'd have more time to also focus on the animation quality of the movies.

Maybe, as a result, they could've spent more time honing their character designs versus getting better after three FULL seasons of SMC.

Sorry not sorry, the designs in Eternal and Cosmos are way better than the poor attempts to copy Naoko's style that plagued the first 3 seasons of SMC.

#yeah i said it. i think the infinity arcs character design sucked balls #before anyone goes ugh youre a 90s fan ... all i have to say is: and? so what? i like versions of sailor moon and will criticize all of them #nothing is above criticism you dinguses #the musicals? the bandai ones are a YMMV in quality. the later ones are good but sometimes the songs suck. #manga? inconsistent artwork but i actually like that about the manga tbh - gave it a lot of 'action' in its line work. but 1d baddies #90s anime? theres a lot of filler. some of the filler is good. others are BORING. series does not grow w/ audience after 3rd season. #90s anime pt.2? the aging up of mamoru and him having a relationship with rei. ew ew ew. they ruined mamoru for me lol #pgsm? nothing. its perfect. oh wait one criticism is that they only did the first arc. le sigh. woudve loved to had more #crystal? questionable designs. questionable additions that deviated from the manga. kept in some stuff that sucked about the manga #crystal pt.2? like keeping in haruka kissing usagi to uh intimidate her??? really fucking dumb and huge yikes. the first 3 seasons r boring. #crystal pt.3? which is funny bc its far more condensed vs the 90s anime but somehow manages to be just as boring as the 90s filler eps. #manga addition: i like the manga and i still prefer it over crystal any day of the week. #we good? good. now keep your reply in the drafts #incel + crystal = cryscel fans #btw this is true w/ dragon ball super. they decided to adapt the movies into the series and the series ended up having 🥚 #🥚very questionable animation choices that were fixed but still didnt look that great. like id rather watch the movies they came from. #because if im going to get disappointed that they didnt give vegeta the final strike on freiza - it may as well look good. #still mad about that. vegeta deserved so much more and no one will never change my mind #vegeta being denied from killing freiza was the same as denying venus landing the final blow Beryl. YOU KNOW IM RIGHT.

[skyburger]

"fnaf is the scariest game ever" "no its silent hill" "well i think its resident evil" everyone shut up!!!!!! youre all wrong. its actually zack & wiki quest for barbaros' treasure (on the nintendo wii) but only the level "keeper of the ice". that level scared me so bad as a kid and you can tell because its the only individual level i remember the name of off the top of my head. like there is nothing scarier than a) being chased and b) being on a time limit. and you know what this level has? BOTH OF THOSE. this level is still scary to me im like AHHHHH!!!! and then i die

#i had to google horror games after i thought really hard for silent hill and fnaf #because like. resident evil is just not a horror game in my mind... its just cool zombie game... #to be fair though. the only one i actually played a portion of was re6 which is probably the least scary one in the whole series #anyway do the kids still find silent hill and fnaf scary. i dont know. #well the former id say yes given how prevalent ps1 horror has been in recent years #fnaf i have no idea. im a massive wuss so its scary when i play it for myself #but watching someone else play them especially when i know them well isnt scary #and ive watched fnaf videos for YEARS #so i dont know. (old man voice) these damn kids... back in my day we watched markiplier scream at freddy fazbear and we LIKED it! #anyway its objectively a horror game and thata literally fine thats all i needed for this post #MY POINT HERE. my point here #IS THAT HIT ZACK AND WIKI LEVEL KEEPER OF THE ICE. IS SOOOOO SCARY #its not that scary but i see tjat level and im like 3 years old making my mom play this level for me again #and for the record yes me and my sister really did make our mom help us with z&w #she remembers helping us with frost breath the most because we like did notttttt get that one at all #and she could never remember how to do the mirrors based on what combination of stands is there (because tjeres like a few variations) #so she always had to look up a guide 😭😭 #my poor mother on fucking gamefaqs or something in like 2010... legends only #anyway if you have no idea what level im talking about (any of my oomfs reading this that isnt end) (hi end) PLEASE look up this level #and i need you to think of like a 5(?) year old making her mom play this game. #this aforementioned child is still a massive wuss as an adult btw. some things never change #anyway watch that level and think about how someone like me. whos already a scaredy cat! #imagine how someone like me felt at age 5 possibly younger playing this level #I WISH I COULD LIKE CONVEY EMOTIONS OVER TUMBLR. why cant i attach a .emotion file to this post #anyway ramble over <- hes said that like a million times today #scariest level in a game ever...!!!!! FUCK that keeper of the ice bitch im GLAD he died #muffin mumbles

[achairwithapandaonit]

by any chance does anyone have any demon slayer fic recs where nezuko is actually more of a proper character and gets development and is allowed to grow? cause honestly the further i've gotten in this manga the more disappointed in it i've been with the lack of meaningful development, especially in nezuko

#no idea if this is actually a controversial opinion on the series cause i've not come across much criticism #but i do think it falls short on every character. the concepts are great and i enjoy the characters and had a lot of fun watching and #reading this series. but i do think that it fails to do much that's actually meaningful or impactful with any of the characters #ready to be disagreed with but i feel like the only development nezuko ever got was when she went to attack those humans and had to #be restrained by tanjirou. and it falls incredibly flat when she never really has any other struggles other than at the start of the series #i thought she was meant to be a main character but she's more like a set piece #maybe i'm just missing something cause i'm still about 50 chapters from the end. but i just got so disappointed after they did nothing with #her becoming sun resistant except pull a gag that i didn't want to pick the manga up again #like that was the chance to do more with her and finally give her development and let her relationships develop! and the fact that they did #nothing kind of highlighted to me that the series really hadn't done much with any of the characters #there's beats where it feels like there's growth but i don't actually know what about the characters has grown??? apart from getting a new #power and being stronger because of it #they don't grow as characters. and supposed development only ever happens during fights or off screen #anyway i should stop criticising. i'm just very disappointed cause i really enjoyed the manga and then that happened and it was like what's #the point #criticism #demon slayer criticism #<- so you can block the tag if you don't want to see this stuff #it feels very negative for the fact that you really can't expect much from shounen. and i DID enjoy it. it's just disappointing #(the shinobu thing is also annoying. like i like that she can't decapitate demons and that she uses poison but the reason for it being that #she's weak and small is bullshit and FEELS like it's written that way because she's a woman)

[ei-mugi]

theres actually a cat out there named after my most stupid online alias becuase when i was 13 some rando with like 78k subscribers on their roblox youtube or something like that ended up in my online friendgroup and so i was in a few of their videos. and some kid commented that they loved me and this youtuber so much they named their 2 new cats after us. i think the channels deleted now but i still love knowing about the cat out there with the stupidest name ever

#i dont wanna say what the alias was bcus i dont need that following me (even tho ppl still call me it) but just know its like #the most random verb ever and i hated when other people started calling me it as a nickname #because there was a cooler nickname based on my username that i really wanted people to call me instead but literally nobody did #so i ended up sticking with the dumb verb name #ive never seen anyone else online with an alias or nickname remotely close to it #that kids parents were probably like why the actual fuck are you naming your cat this random ass word #i like it now but its still objectively a bad name #anyway tbh i never watched any of this persons videos that i wasnt in myself because i thought they were boring

[carmarriage]

red vs blue restoration blew such huge chunks im actually mad. like completely enraged. and i wouldnt have it any other way. rest in peace you son of a bitch

#like under the conditions it was made. i can understand why it is the way it is. #but i would genuinely be hard pressed to imagine a way it couldve been worse. #they brought tex back. which is like the number one thing they should have never done under any circumstance. leave the poor woman ALONEEEE #wash had absolutely nothing to do except act like an idiot for no reason and Be Crazy. leave him alone too #carolina showed up just to immediately get her shit kicked in. she doesnt even say a single word to tex so what was the point #and i fucking love tucker so im biased but WHAT!!!!! HOW DO YOU DECIDE TO DO META TUCKER AND FUMBLE HIM THAT HARD!!!! #tucker doesnt get a single line reflecting on Literally Being Tortured for (from his perspective) TEN YEARS???? #not a single genuine emotional moment for him???? just gets up and says ''oww that sucked. bow chicka bow wow haha am i right fellas'' #the blues got shafted so fucking hard. they barely interact with each other. they get no resolution at all. #wash and tucker didnt even talk. i dont think they were ever even in the same frame. if you wanted me to kill myself you couldve just said #also i havent watched s15-17 since they released and i didnt bother with rvb0 but when did doc die. huh #carolina said something about ''what happened on chorus'' and HUH? did i just miss that completely. what the fuck #also where is donut. he wasnt even in this. im assuming something happened to him that i just dont remember during/after s18 but i miss him #sorry for being so mean lmfao i dont usually like complaining so much but man........... #they didnt even make grimmons canon. smh my head #anyway rvb ended after s13 ❤️ yayyy

[aroacettorney]

when will aup sidestories return from war and stop leaving me bitter about how the main story ended

#lumensis' characterization & death + the revelation of ludgers desire were extremely anticlimactic #700+ chapters of building up only to have the resolution forcefully/hastily crammed into. what. 2 and 1/2 chapters? #and am i supposed to care for his relationship with his mom when it didnt come up in 99% of the novel? #tbh it had *many* opportunities to come up but the author wanted to keep ludgers desire as mysterious as possible #and so it lost its chance to have any emotional buildup #well other than the implications of regrets which were frankly a bit oversaturated in the novel #(again. what happened to the 'show dont tell' principles) #honestly even occasional flashbacks to ludgers mom teaching him about all kinds of myths and lores when its relevant #would have helped in this aspect plus showcased his growth and development over time even when its off screen #(doesnt make his vast knowledge look like it conveniently came out of nowhere) #while also greatly enhancing the world building of his game breaking 'real magic' #anyway i think ludgers reconciliation w his mother would have been more impactful if ludgers past life came up more often #hell it would have done wonder in exploring his depth if we are going with framing his past lifestyle as a flaw #the thing about ludger as a character is that his past (in both worlds) is much more interesting than his present #bc its the only way we can see how he mentally changed in comparison as his changes are nearly non existent in the present timeline #(a part of the reasons why ludgercaseys relationship over time is an appealing topic is that it showcases both of their changes) #(reading about a protagonist who has no mental changes over the course of the story is no different than watching... a nature documentary) #im still v salty about how we never get to see arpas and bettys reconciliation btw #so do emotional closures between ludger and other characters #those are literally the meat of the story that would be worthy of their own arc #sayren why the hell did you rush through them and put them off screen #in the end instead of proving that he has finally learnt his lessons by confronting his emotions ludger chose to run away from it yet again #even if we are to assume that is whats gonna happen post epilogue why is his change accomplished by a goddamn last minute timeskip #(that is also lowkey a failed suicide attempt in disguise) #instead of what could have been... idk... a banger novel named aup #good christ #rant

[the100isracist]

Idk if yall are still active but I just eagerly quit this show around early season two. I was kinda hate watching the whole way, but I started googling spoilers when I saw how fucked they were being to Lincoln and Raven (and more, but they’re my faves). Do you have any show recs that are similar with the shows “building a new civilization after tragedy” (minus the colonization and racism etc)

hey!

i actually binged the entire show recently and i can confidently say it was not as groundbreaking or cool as the showrunner believed. the first 2 seasons were incredible but it just devolved into a mess and the ending was so dark and horrifying. also the fandom was completely unhinged and did not need to act the way they did 😭

onto your question: yes!!!! battlestar galactica is what inspired me to watch the 100 in the first place. it very much shares the themes of mass tragedy, civilizational warfare, living in space, seeking a new home, and humanity fighting for survival without losing its soul. start with the 2003 miniseries (a three hour pilot) tho or it might be confusing. it also has diversity without the weird racist tones of the 100's diversity, although the cast is a lot whiter. the 100 has also obviously borrowed a lot of concepts and terms from it but i don't want to spoil you. all in all, it is one of the best shows i have ever watched and it delivers until its very last second.

lost in space is also quite cool. and i have heard good things about the expanse! another show that shares some themes (without the space element) is the society - very fascinating

#i have also changed my mind on a few things rewatching as a full blown adult without any fandom influences #octavia - not abusive until her annoying blodreina shit but she was traumatized whatever #clarke - yes manipulative but she really believed she was doing it for everyones good and was the first to let herself suffer for others #no one was perfect ever #everyone fucked up hard and the fandom's insistence on making everything black and white was so toxic #it was just more complex than teen stans could stomach #for example. bellamy killing the sleeping army was wrong. but for clexas to extrapolate that grounders = natives and skypeople = colonizers #girls what??? lol #and similarly the insistence that bellamy is a white man so could feel better hating him?? soooo ridiculous #similarly.... bellarkes did set themselves up for disappointment when they chose not to believe the showrunner about it being platonic 24/7 #and lexa was really never bad like even when she left their asses to die i get why... people were just mad about clexa #all this to say everyone would be better off if they watched it with a more rational neutral detached lens and didnt make it about idpol #this includes me lol #the racism was real the homophobia was real and the fans amplified both to insane degrees #the end!

[eggmeralda]

just woke up from the best film I've ever watched in my life only to realise it was a dream

#IT DOESN'T EXIST. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FUNCTION #is there an animated film about like these 6 rats or something escaping from this guy but there's all these themes that they go through #and the final theme is death bc one of them gets impaled by a rose thorn and it's like FUCK bc they were almost gonna get away #so there's this old guy who's a bit of a prick but he becomes nicer at the end but he's the one that dies #and these two girls one of them is like idk she's good at a lot of things and the other one is kind of a pushover #then three guys one of them is really pathetic one is kind of silly and one of them i guess is the Normal Main Character type #also there's humans going about their lives in the present but for some reason the rats' lives are set in like? early 20th century italy #and there's all these shots of like the italian scenery for some reason. idk why it's set there but it's a vibe #idk who the guy they're getting away from is or what he wanted with them but yeah #and bc they're rats or whatever type of rodent they were they would like hide in bushes and it would be really intense bc like #what if the guy can see them #and basically not to give any spoilers but then the old guy died and they wrote some quote on a bit of paper and drew a pic of him and stuc #it on the wall as tribute. and idk who's gonna see it bc I think they were amongst some plants at the bottom of like #one of those bench booths you get in restaurants or cafes. I have no idea #but then it ended with them walking up this hill into the sunset or something idek #with this like late 60s/early 70s big produced sweeping strings tambourines etc. banger playing over the credits #also my car was in it occasionally. and this guy I went to college with and never spoke to #and my best friend briefly #and earlier on I had another dream but idk if it was connected. but it was stan kyle kenny and cartman #but they got a job where my dad works in this park as like. toilet assistants. as in when someone went #to the toilet they'd open the door. that was the whole job #but one of the job requirements was they had to be beatles coded apparently #like that's what it said on the application. so they basically just reenacted the history of the beatles #while opening toilet doors #it was like 4 dreams in one but they were all somewhat connected. also the lining in my coat was so reflective it made a sound #and I was telling someone about my favourite chord progression idk what relevance that had but standard dream i guess #anyway. rodent storyline was going on as it did but at the end it became a film and suddenly I was there. watching it with my friend #and i was like ''god originally I would've given this a 4 maybe 3.5 on letterboxd but now it's getting a 5 + a ❤'' #ramble #oneiro

[dramarants]

going through the 20th century girl tag to move on and appreciate all the great moments only to find out ppl would rather yijin died than not end up with heedo

#20th century girl #twenty five twenty one #20th century girl spoilers #spoilers #maybe I'm in a weird mood but I can't scroll any more asldkfj #I get why ppl say the movie did it better: pacing + showing aftermath + believable #even though the sadder ending was a surprise they set us up for it and have proper closure to the characters #and while I still have some gripes (what happened to the brother how did woonho diedoes the squad not stay in touch where are they all now) #overall it was solid #but idk if 25 21 pulled a 'he died' I'd be so pissed - it's lazy and thoughtless and not marrying your first love is realistic #their final scenes together were soooo good it's just the reason for parting was unbelievable & present day scenes left us with more qs #but to be like 'yijin and heedo were soulmates and their breakup is unthinkable so... #'instead of growing and moving ahead after all his struggles to establish himself and support his family he should just DIE' #like this 20th c girl ending is so much more heartbreaking imo sldkfjasdlldgfkj #watching him smile at sunrise all hopeful for a future with you he'll never have 22 years later is SO MUCH WORSE #idk I'm glad bora is shown smiling and cherishing what they had rather than mourning (tho she has every right too) but it still doesn't... #...feel like closure to me. but there really is no good parting when it comes to death huh #show me people can treasure their youth and still find happiness and fulfillment in unexpected ways down the line!! #there's a beautiful piece of 90s nostalgia media still waiting in the wings for us I just know it #just don't know how much I can take my heart being ripped to shreds in the meantime 😅 #ranting

[johndonneswife]

someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

#who is talking about this!!!! let me know #idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which #i was anticipating #and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before #but liiiiiike. #i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them #it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there #just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse #like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no #anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite #and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up #people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out #and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point #or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible #but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding #at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends #which i am so grateful for obviously #i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol #AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad #just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t #i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it #i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this #which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao #probably for the best #ugh whatever #again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know #meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone #AAAAAAAA i just want to scream #text

[blog--witch]

Okay!!!!!!!!! I watched GO2!!!!!!!!! I’m once again feeling insane

#good omens #I’ve been busy but I finally watched the whole season #screaming and cheering at the end lmao mean!!!!!! I was like ok based on how everyone’s being they’re gonna be separated at the end #and Christine and I were like ok is aziraphale gonna be offered a job. and is he gonna take it. 🤨 #but I did NOT think there was also gonna be a whole ass Crowley confessing his feelings scene where he Kissed Him On The Mouth #they’re insane for this #Christine: well we are in a post-ofmd world. me: I forgot about that. I’m still trapped in spn mindset hell #what do u mean the two pale coconuts actually jumped together on screen #*bumped #anyways. I get it guys #also tho I’m so excited lol are they gonna be nemeses next season???????? that’s my dream!!! I always want to see friends etc that then #become foes bc of Circumstances #but also tell me aziraphale wasn’t already like Oh I Fucked Up by the end of the ep #how long until he tries to go back to Crowley and this time I think he’ll actually have to do any amt of work to earn Crowleys forgiveness #which he rly has never had to do before lol #but that man Fucked Up “I forgive you shut up!!!!! 😭 #also the blatant amount of dr who references. yeah I remember he’s the doctor thank you for reminding me!!!!!! #I saw a tiktok that was like all my teenage girls in their 20s rn are like BARK BARK BARK WOOF MEOW about David Tennant rn and it’s soo true #The Eternal Tumblr Sexyman #ANYWAYS AGAIN #I’m just dispensing all my thoughts here bc I don’t have time to scroll through a tag and feel insane and I don’t need to barf all these #onto someone else’s post #so here we are #I need to find something else to think about today bc every time I remember crowleys face as he was trying to eek out an I Love You I feel #physically nauseous #what am I supposed to do after that! #sorry to anyone who read all these tags I didn’t mean to

[taliskermortem]

honestly I’m pretty pissed off about that preview like they couldn’t even give us one nice week after finding out seongho left the message for junseong

#and honestly I’m going to start getting annoyed with seongho soon #not because he has feelings for someone other than junseong he’s totally in his right to not return those feelings #but I just don’t understand how he is so under Seonwoos spell #the only times that guy has been genuinely sincere are when he’s pissed of that junseong isn’t paying attention to him #like I didn’t notice it the first time but on the second rewatch from the start it’s junseongs attention he wants #and part of me feels like everything else that’s happened since is because he was made junseong never called him back on the second day #like he had three calls but was still sulky that junseong wasn’t one of them #and now that he knows junseong has such strong feelings for someone else and he doesn’t stand a chance #it feels like he’s panicking because he doesn’t want to loose face #so he’s clinging to seongho when actually I’m not sure any of his feelings for seongho are genuine #you’re special to me yeah yeah like a good little brother maybe #sorry I’m really mad #I woke up early to watch some of it and watch the junseongho date and then skipped to the voicemails just to check #and then they ended it like that #I get trying to keep people engaged but this is just irritating #anyway I have to go to work #I promise I’ll be happy and gush about the good stuff we got later #LIKE SEONGHO DID CALL JUNSEONG THANK GOD #but yeah for the minute I’m really mad #his man 2

[themidnightpanda]

and today in "why is fandom so antisemitic" just blocked two more followers in my sideblog, which makes it about 10 of what would have been almost 35 followers over a couple months. because the "all israelis are evil" bs is really big in mcyt circles.

also haven't watched the new season of hc because I don't want to touch the fandom anymore and enjoying things alone isn't as fun when you know there's a fandom. but also the fandom is full of people that wish I was dead so I dont want to be there either. which means right now the only things in my life are the jewish bloggers I follow (love yall) and doing daily challenges in microsoft solitaire. and university ig but it's the weekend and Im trying not to think about my homework rn

also gave up and made a "btw Im israeli plz stop following me if u want me dead" post on the sideblog. hope it works ig.

#its also wild bc I do fandom art on that blog and people love it #even my dad thought it was awesome enough to commission me for his own work stuff once! thats awesome #I got paid for the art I did for him with a merch hoodie from the fandom #and I love it and I love the art I did and I love the original content its based on. #but I cant even watch the new season without thinking about how I want to liveblog but cant because liveblogging attracts attention #and fandom attention scares me now. half a year ago I worked nonstop to get any amount of positive attention in the fandom #I stopped family dinners to watch new episodes and liveblog half an hour after the sessions were out to get people to see my posts #and now. I want none of that #a month or so ago I joined the community discord. the people were so nice to me #and then I went to the vent channel. bc someone mentioned there's i/p stuff in there. its all anti-israel #to the point I felt uncomfortable staying there despite never saying a word about where I'm from beforehand. almost felt unsafe to be there #just... that fandom prides itself on trying so hard to be wholesome and safe after the dsmp fandom ended up so toxic #and here they are wishing I was never born #because I never would have been born if not for this country. my grandparents on my dads side met in the resistance against the british #my parents met at uni. they never wouldve met if not for this country #I wouldnt be alive if not for this country and while I dont like the government I love this country so much #Im just so sad #ישראבלר