#and she keeps coming into my room

[bratthewurst]

Hnnnnng

#my mom is sick and shes walking around the house coughing uncovered and not washing her hands before being in common spaces #and she keeps coming into my room #these are all things she obsessively asks me if im doing when im sick #i asked her to do a covid test an hour ago so i could be on time for work but its the last thing on her list #sometimes i wonder why i bother #between this and my dads positive #aaaaaaaaaa #im not gonna stop bothering but im annoyed and want to vent #like i have shit to do #i need to go get the spare i have on my car replaced and i was gonna be an hour late to work and now its looking like 2 🙃🙃🙃🙃

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Hiii everyone, say, how do your Hawkes go go about sharing their estate? If they do it at all? Is everyone free to come and go or are they more private? Or do they only invite their LI to stay? I'm curious!! :)

#lay rambles #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #oc: lilian hawke #both my hawkes are very social w their friends but i love comparing their boundaries around it #theres variation in rules for specific ppl with both of them ofc but theres still general differences #with liam its all very open and everyone can p much come and go whenever #they dont get extra keys (theyll get lost and he doesnt want randos finding them lol) but they know where to find the spare key #and bodhan and sandal and orana know to let them in whenever #hes very lenient in this this regard but he does have rules abt what he does and doesnt want them to do #mostly its about not making too much of a mess lol bc liam prefers to clean himself #(he doesnt trust the crew with his household and also he has particular ways of doing things and Hates when theyre done differently) #so things like keep your dirty garb at the entrance dont cook by yourselves (this was banned after they did it one (1) time lol) etc #also no fucking allowed. do that somewhere else for the love of the maker he does NOT want to walk into that in his own house #(and it also comes back to liam not trusting them with cleaning but also Not wanting to clean that up lol) #also he is not fond of them going into his room uninvited. most of the house is chill but that is *his* space #he accommodates these rules by e.g. having spare slippers and a little washing basin in the entrance hall for dirty shoes/feet #always makes sure to have snacks in stock that he knows they like #food will have notes abt what to leave for leandra/orana/etc but otherwise food is prepared with his friends in mind #and in general he'll make sure to adjust the space/routine in little ways to accommodate them #(air out when fen isnt there cus he doesnt like drafts; keep curtains open cus anders prefers open spaces; etc) #lilian on the other hand doesnt like when her friends come into the estate without a heads up (cept for emergencies) #but once they have her 'ok' its basically mi casa es su casa #dont yknow. overdo it and get too rowdy but otherwise do whatever #however. she also expects everyone to clean up after themselves. she aint here to play maid and youre all adults #also liam has a general 'please try to not be too wild when leandra is here' and lilian doesnt #not cos she doesnt care but cos leandra is bothered by sth she can speak up herself #oh and lilian uses the basement space as temporary refuge for anyone who needs it (mostly escaped mages) #also side note: both offered gamlen to stay but he refused (out of pride/remorse) #...this got long and i ran out of tag space lmfao so this is it for now xD

[satans-knitwear]

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#Don't wanna go to bed tonight bc belle won't be there. Soft and fluffy and full of love every time i wake up. #Don't wanna go to the bathroom bc she won't be waiting patiently outside the door when I come out. #Don't wanna go downstairs bc she won't be following me with her little pitter-patter paws and jingle bells on her collar #Don't wanna cook bc i wont have to step over her every time I reach for something or make sure there is some suitable food for her too #Don't want to be sat in my chair bc i dont need to tuck my legs in so she has plenty of room to stretch or just curl up with me #Don't want to see anyone I know bc they don't see me without her so they will ask me where she is #Rosie keeps coming into my room and looking around. Belle doesnt usually leave without her. Let alone for more than a few hours.

[quietwingsinthesky]

of ten’s companions, if the doctor couldn’t handle losing them and crossed his own timeline to trick them into traveling with future!him instead of past!him so that he’d have a little more time with them:

rose would do it. first because bless her but she has the situational awareness of a rock, and legitimately would not realize this isn’t her doctor until his facade starts to break down and he starts bleeding grief-laced love for her at every turn. but once she does realize it, she’s both deeply sympathetic and a little scared that she could make him into this. it’s a lot to be confronted with having that much power over someone, to break them so thoroughly. rose would try to get back to her doctor, but while she’s with the future version, she tries to do what she can to ease his pain. (she also tries to figure out a way to subvert her fate. she fails.)

i think martha would be harder to trick. she can smell desperation on the doctor like a bloodhound. she is so tapped into the fact that this man wants to off himself so bad and that she’s 90% of his self-restraint, so present her with a doctor who is lacking that and she’s onto him immediately. however, assuming he gets her to come with him, explains why he’s doing this, there’s like. a minute where she’s kind of. not flattered exactly, but surprised, giddy with the realization that he’d come back for a little more time with her, especially if this is early season 3 martha. which would all come crashing down around the time that he reveals that he wasn’t pushed to this by losing her to some tragedy or her death or anything- but that she chose to leave. that is the point at which martha goes ‘oh i need to get the fuck off of this tardis right now’ and ghosts the past!doctor that she was also traveling with because holy shit, man.

donna, like rose, is easily bamboozled into following the wrong doctor home, provided that he shuffles her along into his tardis too fast for her to argue. but she catches on far quicker than rose does. like, three minutes tops of watching the doctor move through the tardis in a way that’s definitely not enthusiastic piloting and looks more like guilty panic. and then she yells at him for lying to her. and she yells at him for kidnapping her. and then she stops yelling because he’s gone sort of still and quiet and his eyes are just broken. and he doesn’t explain himself, he confesses. donna is going to try to stay with him after this btw. because how do you go back to looking your best friend in the eyes when you know he’d take everything you’ve become away from you, even to save your life? and this is still the doctor, he still did that to her, but he regrets it. regrets it so much that he can’t live with it, he’s breaking time and space just to hear her say his name again. and donna doesn’t want to lose him anymore than he wanted to lose her.

#i am so enthralled by this concept you have no idea #also like. i mentioned in rose’s section how this is a genuinely scary situation for her. #but to be clear. it is for all three of them the moment they realize that this Is Not Their Doctor #because theyre suddenly on a ship going through time ans space with. almost a stranger. and one who has proven that he’s break laws #fundamental to his worldview rather than let them go #doctor who #rose tyler #martha jones #martha girl get the fuck out of there oh my god #the doctor comes out looking the worst in her section rip to him for not handling her leaving him in a normal and healthy way very well #i think it would be very funny if the doctor said goodbye to her and then immediately went. ‘oh! right! martha is the only thing keeping me #from jumping off a cliff! brb i need to get martha back at whatever cost!’ sir go to therapy #donna noble #also also to be clear im not trying to insult rose in her section thats just how she is #remember that time her boyfriend turned into plastic in front of her and she. didnt notice. or that time the doctor was being strangled in #the other room and she. didnt notice. #rose tyler girl that you are. you never know what the fuck is going on around you and i love you for that. how are you still alive. #REMEMBER THAT TIME SHE GOT BACK FROM AN ALTERNATE DIMENSION AND DIDNT EVEN NOTICE THE DALEK ABOUT TO SHOOT THE DOCTOR IN THE FACE #ROSE TYLER. GIRL. LOOK LEFT AND RIGHT BEFORE CROSSING A STREET AT LEAST #donna’s here is the most fucked up i think because even if this situation is ‘resolved’ and she goes back to her doctor like. how does she #keep going with that fact in the back of her mind at all times. that he can and will do this to her. that he’ll take himself and everything #else away from her while she begs him not to. #angst <3

[countess-of-edessa]

can yall pray for my elderly neighbors? we were very close to them in my childhood but they haven’t left their house in several years. my mom talks to the wife on the phone every few weeks but she says she cant use a computer anymore because the 5G gives her a rash and they refuse to leave the house. so.

#they have adult kids and grandkids but they all live far and were like come get your mom???? #she says just having her husband's cell phone in his pocket in the next room gives her a rash which. #and there’s nothing more we can do than just have my mom keep talking to them to hear they’re okay

[rainywithachanceofstars]

#buddy daddies #kazuki kurusu #miri unasaka #buddy daddies 1x10 #for the better right? #just had to get this off my chest #as a child who prized access to my beloved people and routines and familiar places more than anything #i would have been absolutely DEVASTATED to find out that not only could I suddenly not go back to the place I had been living #but I would never see my parental figures who had been raising me for almost a year again #and not only that but they LIED TO MIRI about it being a SLEEPOVER to get her to go! #yeah four-year-olds wouldn't necessarily understand everything that makes that situation necessary #but they deserve to know in the larger sense that they're leaving so they have a chance to say goodbye #considering that Miri has already been sent away and rejected by one parent and that we've seen her abandonment issues before #I hate that they chose to spare the feelings of the adults by concealing the truth from Miri #it WON'T be 'easier on her' to hear that her papas told her she would have a sleepover and they will never come to get her #and she will never see her room or her clothes or eat Kazuki's cooking or play games with Rei again #it's not even a clean break! Misaki said she was going to keep Miri at the same daycare! #in worrying about Miri's safety and avoiding public meltdowns the adults are hurting her ability to trust in them #it never feels good to be manipulated like that no matter what the reason #but enough about me projecting #in which I babble to the world #memes

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

never underestimate the power and joy in thinking about your own Guys doing normal people things. my brain is awash with delight

#it can very Telling! it can help discover more about them and their dynamics! #i greatly enjoy carnivals and fairs and im thinking about some of my fine fellows at one #oh its fun. its fun... #they're standing in line for funnel cake... #sundown refuses to leave the animal section. she sees the budweiser clydesdales and is Enamored #seven and grayson are trying every single snack they can find #aces wins as many things as he can for grayson... k.z comes along bc what the fuck else is she going to do... #she discovers that hey. fair games are fun actually. it becomes a Competition #moth keeps floating between everyone. checking in. keeping them company in lines. #distracting the staff so that sundown can sneak through the fence and pet the gigantic horsies #she strokes their noses and thinks fondly of ryan... who didnt want to come... #they converge for Rides #and get permanently banned from every public event in the state <3 #what happened? who's to say... there were ambulances called... and some fire engines... #they all pile into one room in a shitty motel and lounge Decadently on the mountain of plushes and pillows #that k.z and aces won - and maybe also stole - through intense competition & mild to severe violence #absolutely unprompted #hm now im thinking of that one meme where its like #I Receive: Talking About My Ocs #You Receive: Posts You Don't Understand #yes! true! i Will share facts about guys that only exist in my brain! #wait... my specialest boy would Love funnel cake... is that his favorite food? i think it would be in modern settings #actually ill have to include funnel cakes in his world for his enjoyment... anything for Him!

[moeblob]

I kinda maybe put a lot of my OC plot tag lines on a Wheel and gave it a spin so outta 79 options, it landed on "Cellphone Justice" which is... these two.

Matthew "Skittles" Mouse and Daisy Eddington

Partners in justice (of sorts). They're basically vigilantes and their orders are simply text messages. They don't really know who their bosses are but they do as they are told.

Skittles is a very mediocre guy. Doesn't stand out. The most color he has in his wardrobe is blue jeans. He's amazingly asexual and has zero interest in romance regardless of intimacy and yet he gets partnered with Daisy. The gayest lady he has ever met. Great start. She enjoys calling him fun little nicknames but seeing as they're monitored closely (via cell phones/technology) she is scolded and told to pick a single one. So she does. She dubs him Skittles. The candy as gay as her.

The one thing they have in common is their number one weakness: cute girls.

Daisy turns into a stuttering MESS of a human being. A disaster. At the mere sight of a cute girl. Skittles on the other hand is TERRIFIED of them. When asked, he simply blames his life growing up. Daisy doesn't really push the matter just thinks it's a little weird to be scared of every single cute girl (no offense to the not being afraid of her taken).

#my characters #like the entire thing with skittles is just he is SO boring looking and hes so scared of cute girls #and daisy thinks its REALLY FUNNY dude why are you scared of them haha girls are GREAT #and then she meets his younger sister and is like oh dang dude she is ADORABLE and she sees him practically shaking and sweating #surely its not THAT bad but ah no wait #two days pass and daisy is like oh my god shes horrifying ????? what the hell? #and growing up with her and trying to be a good big brother is all fine and dandy until the cute lil sister gets him hurt a lot #like hospital injuries from either protecting her or just .... somehow wrong place with her at the wrong times all the time #so he gets a fear of cute girls bc his lil sister is a cute monster who is the reason most of his limbs have been broken in the past #like broken leg ? that was from amelia and a stair case #the broken arm ? trying to help amelia get something out of a tree #the broken wrist ? catching amelia falling out of a tree #the other broken leg ? amelia - #the list goes on and on and he also got into multiple fights trying to keep her safe from guys #bc she really is just a cute lil innocent looking girl but shes a schemer and it does come back to bite her #except for she has a good big bro who took the repercussions when he could #daisy just watching her partner pale and shake and sweat when hes in the same room as his sister and daisy feels so bad for him #like hes really going through it even after all these years #but meeting amelia puts a lot into perspective for when daisy and skittles are out and about #cause hes very efficient and chill talking to dudes and to mature looking women #then he turns into a bundle of nerves at wide eyed innocence and daisy is like yeah ok i gotta #i gotta be a lil less gay for his sake only if hes around cause i cant make him talk to his biggest fear thats mean #shes still really gay but yeah it works out and she looks out for him and in turn he looks out for her and its great! #they become friends! yeehaw! #lil trivia is she was a drama kid in hs and he was on the baseball team but never really played or put effort into it #she was a straight a student and he very consciously maintained a c average through calculating grades and missing stuff on tests on purpos #anyway thank u if you read all the tags or even ty if you read just hte post itself #im sorry for ocing on main when its my own ocs #ill be back tomorrow with .... idk what

[theanarik]

Jade aged like 30 years after the quest and like, after watching Kit get kidnapped 2 times, almost drown 1 time, and see her jump off a waterfall 1 time as well. Ma'am get yourself a leash and keep her close

#willow #willow series #willow 2022 #willow spoilers #tanthamore #jade claymore #kit tanthalos #jade x kit #jade and kit #this poor woman will never sleep again #she will have to stay up and keep watch so no one takes kit away again #i believe after they've come home jade will lock kit in her room and just yell at her for doing all those incredibly foolish things #LIKE JUMPING OFF A WATERFALL WHAT THE FUCK #my dude what were you thinking #i'm here for the tanthamore content

[carefulfears]

thinking about how the ammunition that phoebe uses against mulder in fire is a childhood nightmare that he had shared with her, and how the world only has so much held over him because he shares so generously with it

#this is…….the thing honestly #and this is why scully is Like That when it comes to how cutthroat and protective she is of him #thinking about ‘paper hearts’ #and how she tells him that he walked in with his heart on his sleeve #and he did #he always does #he keeps doing it #and it’s not that she wants him to stop #this is what she wants to shield #scully has that kind of protectiveness towards him that you have towards a child that hasn’t been touched by the world yet #it’s very #‘the world is at least half terrible though i keep this from my children’ #‘good bones’ by maggie smith #scully in the beginning is like……there is something here that should have broken by now #and she wants to watch him be able to walk into every room with the most hopeful answer and a hand out to every stranger #despite how Frustrating!! it can be and how easily exploited it is and how often it’s used against him #she wants to protect his ability to hope and trust and share so generously with the world #and i adore that about her character because it would be easier for her to tell him to take his heart off his sleeve and open his eyes #she just values that in him so much and she’s so desperate to nurture it and protect it because it’s so special to her #he’s so special to her #and how rare it is that someone whose experienced so much loss and trauma and abuse sees the world the way he does #she doesn’t have to keep the reality of the world from him #he’s seen it his entire life #but he has so much belief in the world anyway #and she’s cautiously running behind #txf.txt #fire

[brehaaorgana]

People joke about ADHD all the time, even swear up and down they totally think they also have it, but then if you ask for an accommodation, to please please please provide things in fucking writing, EXACTLY what they want and need, you will even work it out WITH them, like they promised they would do — repeatedly over and over, and then you don't get it people really will fucking be like:

I am using the incorrect bathroom (TM) to place my shelving and store my things. Homegirl literally removed various sundries and toiletries from a CLOSED CABINET and SHELF because she's interested in boundaries and accountability for my mess.

I said months ago I wanted to improve things for her comfort level and needed a written list of what precisely that fucking looked like in order to achieve it and not miss anything she deemed important. I explained how ADHD works, why I needed a written reference. Why I had to have it laid out, and if something needed changing we needed to write it all out. I would've made the list myself, but they said they would make it for the whole house to hold up their end of things. And, thinking this was a very reasonable adult solution to keeping the house in good shape, I said okay, come up with the list of expectations and what is needed and that way we can update how we handle chores. Awesome. I will do that to uphold my end.

No list ever gets made or drafted or anything despite my bringing it up, knowing we need to do it, but I DO get berated for failing to meet expectations and boundaries that were never fucking provided or delivered and include "don't store toiletries in this particular bathroom because I don't like it."

I can't believe I am a goddamn adult who gets treated like an idiot child for expecting adult communication instead of snide ass passive aggressive bullshit and basic respect for my things.

Because when I fucking get home, my shelving has been removed and a cabinet emptied of my things and placed in the "correct" bathroom.

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Oh shit she solved it, this doesn't look cluttered at all!

What a vast improvement to storing things in appropriate storage!

#my mortal sins include a laundry basket in the kitchen which is where the laundry room is #doing something INCOMPREHENSIBLE to work with my adhd like use the downstairs bathroom to get ready in the morning #instead of the upstairs one because that works best for me and keeps me moving in the morning #storing hobby supplies i was using in the living room in a milk crate basket to clear space at night easily #i left an oil painting to dry on a tabletop easel on MY coffee table and she tried to clean it up causing some of the paint to come off #i used to keep an empty up placed on the mat next to the cat water fountain to remind me to fill up often #not a mess of cups not half emptied cups. a dedicated refill cup tucked behind the fountain #when it kept getting removed i switched it up and placed the cup on top of the cat food bin to clearly indicate it was a cat item #no this is UNACCEPTABLE #also all my coats were removed from the coat rack i feel insane #coats GO ON THE COAT RACK #have you ever had someone actively sabotage your tools to manage your adhd bc its not fun lol #'i can understand why it feels shocking now' literally the most vile snide snake shit when you didnt communicate boundaries at all #its not communicating an expectation to gather up my personal belongings and dump them somewhere else and then text me about it during work #this is how you know shes only ever lived with blood relatives before this lol the entitlement #adhd blogging

[coquelicoq]

facing the fact that i am an adult and that if someone's behavior is bothering me and i would like them to change it, i am going to have to say that to them with my words, as opposed to just hiding in another room until they cease the behavior that they don't even know is bothering me.

#me @ me in the mirror: it's okay you can go ask your mom's boyfriend to play the guitar slightly less loudly in the communal #living space i know you can i believe in you #i just was hoping i wouldn't have to say anything because it wouldn't come up that often but literally every moment he's not #eating or playing a game he's playing the guitar. SO loudly. #so people keep asking if i want to play a game and i can't answer unless i know if he is going to play the game also #because if he is playing the game he can't play the guitar. which means i can also play the game #but if he's not playing then i won't want to be in the room because it'll be too loud #this is getting ridiculous. i am a grown person. #i just don't understand how no one else is bothered by this. we have to shout to have a conversation! #sometimes my sister plays the guitar in the room while people are doing other things but she plays it softly so it's just nice background #not like. a concert. we are minding our business can you chill out sir #ughhhhhhh #my posts #hashtag lived-by-myself-without-roommates-for-the-past-13-years problems #it's insane how quickly my social battery drains just from the background radiation of having people in my vicinity though

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

[softshuji]

eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh

#i just find it like so unfair yknow #im the only one who works in myhouse and full time #but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put #my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but #i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger #its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad #and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility #and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough #and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother #said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9 #and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time #constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers #and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either #its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they #cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything. #like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl #thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on #im just tired and upset #its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else. #and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing #im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf #oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this #and yk what #thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is #i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return #or if not #theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them #i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me #its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me

[fuck-off-im-ace]

No but what if a few days after Ava comes back to life (again) she's hanging out in the communal kitchen of the new ocs quarters with Beatrice and its late at night (they're both still used to bartender hours) and they're alone in there, everything around them is dark and quiet and peaceful and they're just making cookies together and laughing at insignificant things, and the tension between them has been slowly rising the past few days -they kissed before, before it all went to shit and Ava died again, that doesnt mean they will talk about it or aknowledge it in anyway cause what if its not the same when they're not about to die?!- but then Ava forgets about oven mits and burns herself, and suddenly Beatrice is right in her space, holding her hand and scolding her gently while the Halo heals her, and when the mark is completly gone she's still right there and just looking at her and suddenly Ava cant stop herself from kissing her, and oh my god why did they wait days to do that?? But then Beatrice is pushing her against the pantry door and her hands are all over her body and Ava thinks she has never felt more alive, until the fire alarm startle them and they have pull away. They just forgot about the cookies and burnt a batch, is what they say to the bleary-eyed nuns that check on them, woken by the strident sound in the middle of the night.

The perfect circle of the Halo burnt into the pantry door? That will be more difficult to explain. But as Beatrice laugh and pulls Ava into her arms again, she decides that it will be a problem for tomorrow morning.

#SERIOUSLY GUYS!! THE DINING TABLE?!?!? #no but what if she just keeps burning perfect circles into every furniture #camila comes into the living area and theres a burnt circle on the couch #walk in front of their bedroom door and theres another circle #walk in the dining room and- #i just think it would be neat #ava burning stuff with the halo when shes Feeling Things is my new headcanon #avatrice #ava silva #sister beatrice #warrior nun

[silenthillbunni]

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#1st ​my sister was passive aggressive bc i was boiling pasta when she wanted to make her dinner #so she slammed stuff nd chopped veggies aggressively #nd i felt my heart rate spike nd my body go tense nd i always get clumsy nd drop things nd hurt myself when i get that way #but they think i deserve feeling awful bc of mistakes in the past so i cant ask them to stop #i've been walking around w lots of heavy things nd im barely keeping it together #nd i got so mad bc she wouldnt stop so i started slamming the cabinets nd then left when i was done #then my mom nd other sister got home nd i just wanted to ask my mom smth #when i open my door my other sister goes 'omfg already?' #'immediately when we get home i never get a break. it's almost disgusting' #i just got so.. i realized how pathetic nd childish i am so i just went into my room #but then apparently my sister said to mom that *i* was the only one being passive aggressive #so she comes in to talk when i was having my dinner so i said that i plz just wnna eat my dinner #she didnt know nd she's never cared but i wanted to hurt myself so badly i was struggling not to #but then she started screaming at me for being childish nd passive aggressive nd that i never do anything #she left my room. she still talks to my sisters so i know it's onlg me shes sick of #idk.. today is bad bc i cant talk to her nd i dont have ANYONE else to talk to im all alone #and now i barely even wanna go outside my room bc apparently my family thinks i wnna mess w them just for going to the bathroom lmao #i hate myself so much. im so pathetic. im 25yrs old living at home being a burden #nd im just a pathetic nd childish person. i 'need' to talk nd vent nd rant nd #like if i buy some things i have these need to like do a mini haul or if i get books from the library #i wnna show my mom what books i got #it's so childish. i do feel bad for my mom to have to deal w me nd my annoying personality #why cant i jusy be normal. no wonder why i can never keep friends or my family doesnt wnna talk to me. everything abt me fkn sucks #anyway im just feeling so bad and so alone bc my moms mad at me so now i have no one to talk to