#and make it through 4 more weeks

[bizarrelittlemew]

calling it right now that season 3 starts like this

#so confused about people saying the season finale feels like the end because to me it didn't at all #there's like 5-10 issues immediately set up for another season #they're in a happy place at this point because they've both realized their love is bigger than anything else #and makes it worth working on their problems together #the problems are still very much there #both of them have deep self esteem/self loathing issues that haven't been resolved in the week since ed woke up #ed doesn't know about stede's trauma #they haven't talked through anything #and they'll be shit at starting/running an inn lmao it's not gonna go well #and those are just some of the internal issues #then there's prince ricky and all the authorities that would very much like to get their hands on both blackbeard and stede bonnet #because stede just full-on kept using his government name after faking his death. nice one #the crew are not “gone” they're more like off to college for a bit but will probably run into trouble immediately #again because while they escaped to the ship they didn't eliminate the threat (the british empire) #it's not a forever goodbye #ok this got super long already anyway i have a whole fic marinading in my brain until i've finished these 4 wips i'm in the middle of ✌️ #hope we get a renewal soon because i want to see the rest of their story!! #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd #our flag means death

[buglaur]

🔖 pictures from the family photo album

#ts4 #sims 4 #daithí lore drop while kmiks on break <3 #i've got brainrot #i gotta go back through my blog and make character tags soon #don't look at the hammer in pic 2 #i didn't do the uv properly when i converted it to accessory #its a bit warped but it'll do #also shan i got your ask thank you for sending it <3<3 sorry i didn't reply yet #i've gotta travel to a neighboring county for a few days and i'm in a bit of a slump about it #i wanted to add more to this post but i also wanted to post it before i left #so here it is #this is queued i'm not gonna be around for the next week or so <3 #/daithí

[sunnys-side-upside-down]

Blorbo's Eepiest Soldier

Thank you everyone for your kind words, I'm doing better and am back to it <3

#helloo! #thank you all for the well wishes #I have really appreciated every kind word #I'm doing better now and have gotten back to school work #i am so eepy though #eepiest soldier #im also being overworked on my capstone game team and the team lead even told me shes over working me so thats #fun #counting going to this capstone class and meetings and such im putting like 25+ hours in a week for it #and i do have 2 other classes #and a social life i enjoy having #haha #but im happy to do the work cause its good portfolio stuff #except when my producer comes up to me and says "yknow how ur in charge of all the 2d art and concepting and branding and ui and pr? yeah g #make a 3-4 page detailed comic for plot at the start of our game cause we dont wanna cut plot (even tho we dont have time for it) and we #dont wanna show plot through interactable objects and dialogue/text so more work for you even tho u legit dont have time for it #ngl tho i have genuinely been enjoying designing icons and doing model concepts #i made some fire designs recently #please hire me a game company tm #anyway enough of capstone talk #love you all!!! #im excited to graduate and finally be able to change my bio!! #hope you all have a very lovely rest of your day <33 #furry #fursona #digital art #art #eepy

[philzokman]

ao3’s down so i have to resort to medieval forms of gay smut (dostoevsky)

#it’s actually just my wifi that’s down but SHHHHHHH #the joke simply isn’t funny w that JDHSJS #omg tomorrow i’m so happy i have a half day and i think my friends and i are gonna go to town :D #i wanna stop by the oxfam bookshop bc i don’t rlly have many books i wanna read this autumn #DEFINITELY dead poets society ive been saving that #and maybe picture of dorian gray? #i have some ranpo books too but idk sobs😥😥😥 #AND I ACCIDENTALT GAVE MY FRIEND MY COPY OF ALICE AND WONDERLAND but it’s okay bc she likes it so far :D #anywho i’ve officially made it to page 354 of devils meaning in more than halfway yippee!!!! (it’s been 4 months£ #i love dostoevsky and i Love reading classics but it’s just smn about dostoy that makes me such a slow reader #istg i go through like 4 classics a week but even notes from underground takes me yearsss to complete #KFHSKDJD #lea.txt

[beannary]

Ok so I was at work today and before I left my mom was like hey we’ll visit you at work today what time do you finish etc etc and she was like ok I’ll text you when we’re on our way and so I go the whole day being like I am waiting for a text from my mother saying that she my dad and my grandma are on their way to the museum and then it gets to the end of my shift and I have received no text so I’m like ok they clearly aren’t coming otherwise they would have let me know so I clock out and leave and ten minutes after my shift ended my mom calls me and is like hey where are you and I’m like hello??? I finished work??? I’m walking back to the car??? And she’s like ok well we are here and I’m like 🧍‍♂️ ok so I walk back to the museum and I get there and she’s like hey now we can go see the galleries together and I’m like 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️ girlie last call happened ten minutes ago we cannot go see the galleries because the museum is fully closing in 30 minutes and she’s like oh I didn’t know that and I’m like yeah you should have looked it up?? Or like asked me??? Or like come when I was working my shift because then you can like guarantee that everything is open

Anyways I’m just annoyed and it’s not even that much of an annoying thing I’m just extra annoyed because I’ve had an awful headache all day and I had to do twenty minutes of extra walking around with my parents and my grandma after work when I should have been driving home and listening to a podcast

#bean babbles #also like #my mom was like oh I thought the museum closed at six #like girlie my day either ends at 4:30 or 5:30 #you know this #and when im working till 5:30 I have told her before that means that im closing #if I close at 5:30 #why would the museum be open till six #AND #she visited the museum a few weeks ago!!! #i told her!!! the time the museum closes!!! so she would have enough time to go through the galleries and see me at the store before #I finished working #anyways im like mildly annoyed at this #and more annoyed because of my headache #but I’m in bed now and my dog has finished attacking me #he gets so excited to see me after work that he like deposits himself on me and licks my face for like #ten solid minutes before he’s like ok im don’t being excited #I need to make some tea and get an Advil I swear to god #OK BYE WE ARE DONE COMPLAINING #COMPLIANING IS OVER

[romansmartini]

just got through the most stressful week of my life because of a combination of work + me battling my own sick and evil mind and just as i’m coming out on the other side i find out that david tennant and michael sheen are neighbors. there are literally new mercies every morning <3

#diary #and also shipping rpf for fun you will never lose #anyway. HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII #unfortunately being on a grindset and being offline for a week fixed me. whatever i’m ready to go back to being crazy again #i had to get on here to post about finding out about this monumental posts but if you’re reading this and i haven’t responded to your #message or ask in a very long time i’m going to (at least START) tomorrow it has literally been the other thing getting me through 😭 #anyway to say one more thing about the shennant incident. i found out literally 4 minutes after i was like man this rpf thing is so silly #let me know if you want to see the text receipts from that. it’s been making me chuckle among other things

[victoriartdrawings]

fanfic rec post tomorrow maybe???👀

me to all my fandom ships knowing perfectly i wont have the time to do even 1 for at least one pairing til next week 🤡

#percabeth #snowbaird #anidala #zutara #hiccstrid #so much more ships name to add (like REALLY) these tagged ships are just some my brain is currently obsessed with this week #my next obsession next month???? idk yet 💀 my head is weird. like often #rn im mostly frustated with myself and feel a little bit useless be.cause. it takes so much time!!! but i want to do it #but i dont #so my brain says to me DWE IT YOU LAZY USELESS PROCASTINATING ASS!!!! #like first i have to remember the fic #then scroll through my 7000 downloaded fic folder. a nightmare 💀most of the time i dont remember the title but only the period #where i was obsessed with them (also hell because my multiple obsession with a ship always leave and then come back 2 or 6 months later 🤡 #so sometimes I find myself downloading 2 or 3 times the same fic🤡) #(ALSO some its been 4/5 years since i read them so i let u imagine the headache i get trying to remember lol) #then class them by long fic one shot - theme etc...while re-reading fast some of them bc my memory is shit #and AFTER ALL THAT i write the actual commentary for each one of them and remembering what my experience reading it was like #because personal commentary that made people laugh and want to read the fic recommended make me so happy for the author!!!! #ALSO I MOSTLY JUST LOVE SHARING MY READING EXPERIENCE WITH OTHERS!!!!! SO MUCH JOY AND HAPPINESS! #but then real life is like no.not today. and indeed. not today. #fanfic rec #fanfic #reader #fandom

[asummersday]

when will my writing motivation return from the war 😭

#please i just wanna post the next chapter #or at the very least start a oneshot or do literally anything #ive been more tired than usual and i dont like that #im ALWAYS so so tired #sometimes YEAH its because im up til 3 or even 4 #but ive also slept 9 hours. 12 hours. and yet ill STILL feel so tired #im too tired to do the things i want to do #and then i feel like ive just wasted my whole day :((( #how many times these past few weeks have i said im gonna get this chapter done huh? and it is NOT done #i love creating and writing but it takes so much energy sometimes :((( and i just dont have it :((( #i feel bad/down -> writing would help me feel better -> too tired/unmotivated to write -> doesnt write -> keeps feeling bad #rinse and repeat lmao #sometimes being nice to urself and waiting for the motivation doesnt work #sometimes u gotta sit at ur desk with a massive mug of coffee and say ''i will WRITE if its the last thing i fucking do'' #screw quality its time to write WORDS #anyway. im making myself coffee rn. i will get through this dammit #summer post

[airenyah]

today i ended up telling my tandem partner half of the plot of bad buddy oops

#ok half of the plot is exaggerated #but i did tell him about some of the main plot points of eps 4-6 #and i talked about the rooftop scene fkfjdjdj #airenyah plappert #thailernabenteuer #bbs #adrm #anyway i ended up talking about this bc i've been collecting eng translation examples that i can use for my thesis #and so last week i already showed him two moments from ep2 and had him go through those with me #and today i had a question about that ep6 moment where pa's like #''or pran.... feels the same way'' (or whatever the eng subs say for this) #so yeah i ended up telling him some context for that line lmaooo fjjfjf #i went through many different series and many different scenes with him today and last week #and so far he hasn't come across as judgmental about the things that i've shown him #which is a big relief tbh #it makes me more comfortable to show him some cringe stuff as well and ask language questions about it #if need may be in the future #also turns out he has met my thai teacher jdjdjdjdj #i guess even austria's bigger cities really aren't that big after all

[oliveasaltylife]

[medical gaslighting]

Oh and I had to see a different OB/GYN than my normal endo specialist and she was the WORST

She actually suggested that my period and ovulation pain that leaves me vomiting and nearly hallucinating might be “normal” for my body.

And then proceeded to lecture me on IUDs for more than half of my appointment after I explicitly stated that I don’t want one and my normal doctor said it’s not a good plan for me (nevermind the fact that IUDs are contradicted by my connective tissue diseas in the first place)

And then she said I have “too much going on” in my body and need to figure even MORE out before I can even be evaluated for endometriosis. And blamed my pain on tethered cord and “nerve pain signals getting misinterpreted.”

I should have walked out, but I was so dissociated I just sat there, frozen, staring at her in complete disbelief

#there was more but I’m not able to access that right now #she was fucking terrible and the physical exam left me crying on the table even through my dissociation #but everything is normal yeah /s #fuck doctors #endometriosis #my regular endo specialist wants to go through with the hysterectomy I want and this doctor laughed in my face for not trying BC pills #UGH #I do not have the words #I then spent the rest of the afternoon coming up with horrible ways that her day could be ruined #like hoping someone slashes 2/4 of her tires #or poking herself with used medical equipment so she has to spend weeks doing blood draws #or that I hope she burns literally everything she tries to cook so it’s just a carbon crisp #makes me think of that song ‘pray for you’ which is admittedly in my head way more than it should be #olive blogs #disability #medical gaslighting

[broodygaming]

"TOXIC positivity for thinking it’s normal to, idk, enjoy the shows you watch."

no, toxic positivity is when a fandom can't take criticism and makes insular bubbles where they harass anyone who falls out of love with a thing or strawmans two different points into one so they can sound smart and win a shower argument.

y'know, like you did when you conflated the railroading and aimless arguments. :/

What’s a shower argument?

Haha wild. Anyways. Still don’t get ppl who have time to hate the things they watch. Seems really sad. Sorry ur in such a place. Hope you learn to love yourself more than that at some point.

#is a shower argument like an argument you have with yourself and imaginary ppl in the shower? #anon #asks #like when u just wanna talk or think so you do it in the shower #that makes sense I guess #to be fair I do seek out the cr discourse tag to see what shit ppl are spouting this week #and this is me doing an unkindness to myself #I’d argue checking a tag on tumblr every couple of weeks is a bit different from watching a 4 hour show once a week #but to each their own #i think I remember the post this is about #ohhh yeah I said they can’t both be railroaded and be aimless and like obviously I was being ironic #cuz it’s a long show and they obviously can haha #but more about like??? it’s just tiresome when you enjoy something to have to scrolll through a dozen posts with ppl saying nasty shit #I don’t get iittttttt #like if I don’t like something I just stop watching I don’t go look up the tag and complain and insist #that anyone who is still watching MUST be a fool and wrong and if they would just LISTEN to WHY #i hate the show they’d see reason #like it’s fine fam! don’t watch! shoo! #peace be with you! #let me look at cute pics of girls with big round glasses and sad animatics of gingers throwing fireballs #and lesbians who have more blood on their hands than in their hearts and watch them soften around each other #love them all

[pronouncingitwang]

.

#truly no faster way to make me so so ill than the seol and the seolite diaspora DE tag on ao3. not in a bad way not in a good way either #also last week i hung out w a friend i hadn't seen in a while and we joked about diaspora lit bingo a lot #but yeah idk. the way my sister is reconnecting w her asianness through like. kdramas/cdramas and kpop etc #the way i only have about 4 chinese language songs liked on spotify and they're like #one from the CRA soundtrack two bc i looked up an artist whose photos were on tumblr and who i found hot #and one from my white roommate who's learning mandarin #and i wonder if my parents are like. so bummed that we ignored them and made fun of their shows and music and accents as elementary schoole #and now they see her doing this and me. idk. claiming POCness via something i never engaged with in a way i find satisfactory #or idk. the whole immigrant parents being your passports to your language/culture and once they die it's game over #ESP bc you only ever took enough chinese classes to graduate hs or college no more #and kim kitsuragi is suchhhhhhh an interesting look at that bc like. he is an orphan and he does have zero cultural or language ties to seo #like. he would absolutely dannyamericanbornchinese himself if he could #and i want him to reconnect like i imagine him reconnecting w being asian and it causes feelings of comfort and such in me #but like. he shouldn't have to obviously and #one of the notes of a fic in that tag is from a biracial person who says #I flip between wish fulfillment and scrutinizing the degree Kim 'needs' to reclaim his heritage #and like yeah. yeah. that thing #and idk i don't think there's a distinct chinese-american culture the way that chinese-american cuisine is like. A Thing you know #maybe i'd feel better if there was that #and if there was just one other seolite person in disco elysium but i think kim's racial isolation is purposeful #what is there for me but to idk. reread the joy luck club and have another crisis about it #personal

[aberooski]

Every day I tell myself "all I have to do is make it through today" and I'm realizing that I don't know how I feel about the fact that I feel like I have to tell myself that every single day.

#a lot of times it's because I hate my job and I'm miserable #I literally cried in the car on the way home today because I got so stressed during my shift #never work at a movie theater kids it's awful #I wish I didn't #I wish I could have a real job because I fucking went to college I got my fucking dgree #and yet this was the best I could do because I've never had a job in my life so no one would give me the time of day #I feel humiliated every single day I walk into the building #I feel like such a failure and an embarrassment #and that's not to say everyone who works at the theatre ahould feel that way that's now what I'm saying #but that's how I personally feel about myself and the situation that I am in #and we're entering the busiest week of the year so it sucks even more than usual #but also I'm just so tired from this year it's been a really bad one for me and my family #just abysmal in every way #so I have to remind myself I have to make it through the day every day right now #but you know what it's fine I have a chapter done and ready to go on Christmas and it's been almlst 4 years in the making #so in that case I have a present for some of you and I'm really excited about it #it's gonna be a sad Christmas for us because everyone in my family is broke but I hope you guys all have a better holiday than I will #and as someone who adores Christmas like it's my favorite day of the year type adore I'm just really down in the dumps right now #just feeling very sad #but anyway sorry rant over I have to go to bed #I don't get saturday's off and those are my lingest shifts so 🙃 #I get christmas eve and christmas ofd tough 😊 #but not the day after 🙃 #anyway bedtime for me sorry to rant guys #abby's self deprecation hour #abby after dark

[tardis--dreams]

24 days left. I shouldn't be excited for this to be over soon but gotta be honest. Mental health wise not my best few months. Kinda glad to go home soon

#it's really just the eating problem #that's the main thing ruining my life lol #kinda pathetic #i end up literally crying like every other day because i fucked up a perfectly good 'healthy' eating pattern i developed the past 4 years #and can't seem to get over it #and i know it's probably gonna follow me home but a part of me still wants to believe things will just go back to being okay #once I'm back and can exercise the way i want and eat what i want again #and of course also have some mental support and things to focus on other than obsessing over food and body issues #(i.e. my wonderful sweet little baby dogs who i love more than life and who definitely will fix Everything) #i just gotta try to make it through these last 3 weeks with minimal damage #it's literally fine #void screams

[extravalgant]

You know, I wonder if one could draw parallels between the Wizard’s attempts to help and save Dasein despite the potential risk to the spiral and Mellori’s attempt to kill spider despite the consequences?

i completely forgot about the context that prompted this ask BUT I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE... this changes everything for me

i think where it differs however is that mellori has that opportunity to do so - the wizard doesn't. we don't get the kind of agency and choice in matters that involve the entire spiral - in a sense, we are a neutral party, and a 'necessary evil'.

and i do tend to think of it them as a necessary evil - at least, perhaps, in the eyes of others. mellori might have thought of it that way when we refused to kill spider even when it meant that the entire spiral would be at risk of falling apart. or maybe perhaps she thought it was the kind of necessary evil she expected us to take even at that cost...

(the moral compass of a divine being is tricky...)

the point is that the wizard has to kind of... accept that this is happening. accept that there wasnt anything they can do to save them, and accept the kind of villainy they're being painted with when having to make the (very often) difficult choices when it comes to dealing with things that go on in the spiral

#val.answers #wiz ramblings #novus spoilers #lemuria spoilers #<- just in case ^^ #esp with the ending parts of novus... its like. does the wizard even have a choice in the first place!!! (the answer is no) #they make this kind of thing very clear . and reflect this sentiment back on us through dasein #people who have gone through novus a bit see what i mean but this is also another world where we get to know the wizard more #this ask is 2 weeks old and im trying to type up an answer at 4 am so forgive me if this sounds off