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yuri-for-businesswomen · 4 months

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i think it's misguided to claim that trans activism goes against the interest of feminism. it's in the best interest of the movement to include ALL women, including those that don't have periods, can't get pregnant, women with "unattractive" bodies, etc. you don't have to be trans to experience any of this.

there are SO many cis women that are not affected by the causes you listed. post-menopausal women, infertile women, women who have had hysterectomies, etc. surely you would agree that feminism is still for them. i think the same goes for trans women. they face a unique kind of misogyny that feminism needs to address, and that means by tweaking the definition of woman.

the fluidity of the definition of woman is not harmful to feminism. its not bad or scary that more people can be helped by feminism. this happened in the 1960s and 70s with welcoming lesbians into the movement. people were concerned that doing so would hurt the movement; of course it didn't. alienating trans women is not the answer to your concerns.

"who are womans rights for ... if woman is a feeling one has or doesnt have and not a fixed characteristic?" the only thing ALL women have in common, is the feeling that they are women. trans men arent women because they dont have this feeling, and trans women ARE, which is why feminism is for them.

i understand being scared that feminism will lose all meaning, and that women will no longer be easily defined. but the concern of feminism is recognizing that fact. gender is enigmatic and that's not something to be afraid of. feminist theory has asked the question of what a woman is for decades.

this is stupid.

women who dont get periods for whatever reason are still and have still been affected by menstruation in their lifetime. when a younger woman doesnt get a period thats a sign of a health complication. infertile women are of the birthing sex so the whole topic still affects them, a lot. etc. none of this affects trans identified men, but it very much affects trans identified women.

this has been said a million times before and im sick and tired of this bullshit but what the fuck does feeling like a woman mean. its a circular definition. being of the female sex is the only definition of woman because any other meaning of woman is subjective and individual. feminists ask: what does it mean to be a woman? not: what is a woman? feminists over the centuries have been very aware that women are of the female sex and men over the centuries have been aware women are of the female sex and are to be subjugated and excluded.

men who outwardly „identify“ as women face the same as effeminate men who dont „identify“ as women. its homophobia and the backfiring of male ideals - its a male issue. men who dont adhere to masculinity are sanctioned by other men; men who are effeminate scare masculine men because it shows that femininity is not a natural state for women and that gender roles and norms are arbitrary which is an attack on what they deem the natural order of men dominating women. men are not able to articulate this but thats why they do it.

therefore trans identified men should go back to how it was when they were transvestites and transsexuals who belong with gay men. marginalised men deserve their own advocacy and women deserve their own advocacy and when it fits we can work together.

edit: i skimmed past the lesbian part at first. what the fuck

#ask

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bunny-heels · 22 hours

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i saw your post about not rebloging from people who are proship and if im being honest, that mentality terrifies me as someone who just learned this word. what if there is a new word that circulates in places im not familiar in and i get blacklisted for just rebloging something specific without seeing the entire blog? i really try to stay on top of all this lingo but it gets tough. also is bdsm proship? bdsm is not a cover for abuse even if people try to use it as such, when done responsibly and in the right communities that value safety as a first rule they often are more aware of harm and the reduction and prevention of it then movements that wont allow the depiction of stories that help survivors identify their abuse. am i proship if i appreciate a artful depiction of an abuse in tv that helps me learn how to recover in a healthy way and find skills to help others not get hurt the ways i had to? am i proship for making jokes that might read as hurtful to an outsider who dosnt know my relationship to my friends/partner? im sorry i just want to understand the line here so i can understand the harm these people are actually doing.

i think youre just terrifying yourself, friend.

proshippers only have 3 terms they use, as far as i know; proship, comship [meaning complicated ship], and darkship [meaning dark topic ship].

you won't be blacklisted just because you reblogged a post created by a proshipper, especially if you dont follow the person who created the post and you didnt know they were a proshipper. stuff like that happens all the time, and not just with proshippers. lots of people unknowingly reblog from terfs, racists, nazis, zionists- hell even i've reblogged posts made by people who were like that. but if youre followers actually know who you are, then they'll know it was a mistake, and they'll likely warn you politely about it just to watch out for you.

BDSM is not proship. BDSM has to do with rough and physically tasking acts in sex that are discussed and consented on extensively. lots of people into BDSM, such as subs and doms, will tell you that they regularly check on each other and have a system to let them know if they're okay or need a break or if something goes too far.

plus i myself am into some extreme things that i would never do in real life, let alone without someones consent. its either a 100% yes or there's no doing it all.

liking media with depictions of harmful topics that put it in an educational or meaningful light is also not proship. one of my favorite indie games is My Eyes Deceive, which i find to be a beautifully morbid game that touches well on the topic of abuse towards children and shows how horrific it can really be.

not proship for making jokes either. i'm friends with a chick who we both used to date the same guy who turned out to be a pedo. we often joke about how we were victims of grooming because really, we were.

checkin to see if a person is a proshipper isnt something scary or even that hard to do you'll find. i mean, if you'd make an effort to check if the youtuber youre watching is racist or if the twitter acc youre following is a nazi, then i dont see it as a lot of work to go to a persons blog and double check to make sure they arent a creep.

which btw, you'll know instantly if they are. everyone on this site is not afraid to say what they like or what theyre into. there is a good 90% chance that if the blog youre checking is proship safe, then they will proudly say it on their pinned post or carrd or whatever they use to put their info. its not too hard to spot.

buddy, you have nothing to worry about, and i promise you its not that hard to be a good person. you see someone who has shitty ideals? just block and move on. you didn't know the person you interacted with was shitty? delete it, block them, and move on. like avoiding a food you find gross in a buffet or taking out the trash. you'll be fine.

#the bun answers

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compassionatereminders · 1 year

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hi kat, hope you are doing okay right now. i know things are tough and fuck tiny and whatever the other one is called. the stupid one. anyways.

recently ive been trying to practice self love more, i stopped self harming, got back onto medication for my depression, stopped looking at harmful websites like gore and self harm images, got off most social media, and i try to be nice to what i see in the mirror, face wise. i actually dont feel like my self destructive habits are that harmful, but logically i know they are. i dont feel like they gravely effect my life, they jsut feel like weird dirty secrets i have but i know it is not good for me. I've been focused on dealing with my depression but i haven't done anything about my disordered eating habits. They just feel so intertwined with how i go about things in a way, because im 16 now and i think it started when i was 12. i just remember not caring at all about my body or food, and then suddenly i did. and i had these weird specific things i hated and started learning about nutrition and just, fell down a horrible rabbit hole. i just feel like, i am SO not ready to let go of this. its a comfort, my safety net. i dont even know how to eat normal anymore honestly, i got too much stuff memorized. Sometimes im fully aware i have horrid body dysmphoria, but other times i feel like i see myself clearly and what the people around me dont get is that i have different (and really bad) ideas of what looks good on me, aka i know i fit their ideals of a good looking healthy body but i dont fit MINE. im just scared if i recover these thoughts and ideals wont ever leave, like at the back of my mind they will be there and ill just be trying not to think about how i dont look like that the rest of my life and how miserable thatd be. my ed is just, sorta part of my routine. aghhhhh. just feels sorta good to let that out. i know you dont have specific advice for this topic but i wanted to talk about it a little anyway but, OVERALL; im focusing on healing and my health but am more focused on depression and other things then dealing with my disordered eating habits, which i know are not at all good but at the same time i cant bring myself to care that they arent. do you think im still making progress towards healing and being happier? even if i havent addressed a certain elephant in the room?

Yes. If you can only acknowledge progress which successfully attacks every area of struggle equally at all times, you will not get very far. You gotta start somewhere. And you have started. And that matters, even if you aren't at a point where you can fix every single problem in your life. It's okay to say "right now I'm working on self harm and depression" and let that be enough for now, cause honestly? Working through self harm and depression is worthwhile and impressive by itself, even if it won't fix everything. Removing two elephants from your apartment will make it a lot easier to live in even if the third elephant is still there. You have more options than doing nothing vs doing everything and what you're doing now fucking rocks. Be proud of your hard work

#chat with kat #self harm tw #eating disorders tw #food issues tw #body image tw

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wc-confessions · 1 year

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the only evidence-- yes, these kinds of claims need evidence-- of marinin being racist i can find is in one tumblr post that has a screenshot of marinin being upset about getting a lot of aggressive comments for working on the cleopatra MAP. she did a map part- a 5 second animation- and got called a piece of shit by dozens of people, but i guess she's not allowed to be stressed? not to mention she is a person of color. but i doubt you knew that, because that would require you to take a second look at the situation rather than regurgitating rumors. it's just so sickening how badly people in this community seem to want to turn on each other. but i guess it's all worth it if you're making all the people of color feel very safe... by endorsing the harassment of a poc for making an animation you don't like. you're definitely making me feel very safe as a disabled person. i love knowing that characters like me should be relegated to inspo p*rn. love seeing people attack a creator for arbitrary reasons and then say "hehe see! i care so much about disabled people!". i love seeing that my opinion only matters when i'm agreeing with you and otherwise i'm just an idiot stan. i dont even follow marinin's content. it's just so stressful knowing what she's going through and how rabid the warrior cats fandom is. its scary, honestly. making art online seems like my only realistic way of making money and the thought that one tumblr post with shaky evidence could get me harassed for literal years is scary.

ok first off i need you to fucking stop making assumptions abt me bc i know of marinin just forgot all the bullshit they did. i dont knkw u and u sure as hell dont know me so the fact that in both ur shit asks youre comming up with false ideals just to show ur support to someone who has done bad over and over again is telling. secondly stop babying them just bc theyre brazilian its so wekrd u have to keep mentioing tht they are not exempt from being a shithead just bc theyre a poc lol theyre a fucking human which is evident in their actions. and you do not speak for every fucking disabled person bc i assure you disabled ppl were the ones that brought the issue w the tawny pelt map to light. and as a disabled black person fuck you literally the map was in bad taste and she responded in a terrible way its not tht hard to accept.

and if u really did some reasearch youd be aware that she was taking from native cultures, handled the issue tawnypelt map Badly, and she was literally deleting comments explaining how her actions were ableist and only responding to/liking the comments of ppl siding w her but yeah im biased and mean for acknoweding any of this. shes also literally friends w shit ppl and While searching im literally seeing her subject several minors to harassment solely for. adressing her ableist map in a chat and on their accs.and this was fucking not that long ago why arent you pissing yourself over the ppl discussing tht

and idk if you dont think a guilt trippy belittling responses to being held accountable isnt a red flag hm

the fact that you have to utilize this person being brazilian and upset about the process of facing accountability in Both asks as a way to make Me somehow brush off everything else is fucked up. no its not cool they were harassed but if u equate ppl bothered by her actions as harassment or hating poc then. that sounds more like a u issue.

literally. stop making this about a shitty animation stop minimizing the harm shes influencing. this is more than a fucking map ppl dont like this is abt someone who is obviously not fit for a huge following and you are proving that point gn

#whadda hell #also sooo many ppl talk abt 5his person #but you wanna argue with a confessions blog #shes a grown ass adult literally stop spesking for her #thts literwlly how she gets away w shit #bc u freaks have to pull shit from ur ass #for some popular wc creator #who doesnt even give a shit abt u #not a confession #text #anonymous #also ur literally defending a hh fan shut up

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hyperlexichypatia · 8 months

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ok this has always been a question in the back of my mind regarding autonomy - "what if someone needs help and wants it, but for any reason, never explicitally communicates they want it?" or "what if someone is in a mindset where they dont want help, but after/before they always want help/wish someone would help?"

because ive seen posts like "even if someone is in critical state, unless they explicitly state they want help, then you shouldnt interfere", something along the lines of that.

its affecting how i approach others, especially those who arent doing well mentally (and even myself)... because sometimes, we DONT know what we want, or whats best for ourselves. I can attest to that. I dont know what i need or what i want a lot until i gravely mess up or i miss out etc. Sometimes I say yes when i mean no, and no when i mean yes. Sometimes i reject help both when i actually want it, and when i feel as if i dont need it if I'm not well (psychosis, ocd etc...)

The thing everyone says about "you know yourself best always" and "never intervene on others actions even if theyre not okay if they reject outside help." it... assumes everyone is in a state to know themselves well. amnesia comes to mind, or any cognitive condition where someone will struggle to know what they want/need, or how they feel, and how to communicate such.

Maybe im overthinking and nobody has ever said ppl cant intervene in special cases.. but ive never seen anyone explicitly say they can, either.. so idk what people think about it.

We're all here to overthink, so that's a good thing. I think there are a few issues to overthink here. First of all, what is "help"? I mean this in both a specific and an abstract way. Specifically, what are you considering doing for someone that they haven't asked for and you think they need? Is it something where if you're wrong and they really don't want it, it's no big deal (like giving someone a coffeepot they have no real use for but accept to be polite), or is it something where if you're wrong and they really don't want it, you're severely harming them by imposing something on them against their will (like forced drugging, which is what most policy advocates mean by "getting someone help")? And more abstractly, how can you be sure that what you want to do for someone is actually helpful? The premise of "You know yourself best always" doesn't mean "You know yourself perfectly always." No one has complete self-knowledge. It is absolutely possible for you to be wrong about what's best for you. It's absolutely possible for you to make a decision and regret it -- maybe immediately, maybe years later. And to think "Why did I make such a bad decision? What was I thinking? Why didn't someone stop me?" But you still know yourself best always, not because you know what's best always or never make bad decisions (that's not true of anyone, and is an unreasonable standard!) but because you know yourself better than anyone else can, because no one else can have the lived experience of being you and knowing how you feel and what you need. Or put another way: However bad, unwise, or regrettable your decisions about your own body/mind/life are, anyone else's would inherently be worse. So moving on to the specific: What if someone needs help in a way that they can't communicate due to awareness/communication related disabilities? This definitely happens to me! For example, I have a real problem remembering to eat and remembering that I'm hungry. It's helpful for me when someone reminds me that I haven't had lunch yet, and that's probably why I'm spacy. For yourself, if you know you're prone to bouts of poor bodily awareness, try to ask for help in advance. If you have a willing friend or partner, you can ask them in advance "If I get spaced out, please remind me to eat/ drink/ take medicine/ go outside." For more complicated things, you can look into some of the advance plans and templates suggested by the Fireweed Collective: https://fireweedcollective.org/crisis-toolkit For trying to help other people who haven't asked for it -- or rather, trying to intervene in a way that you think is helpful even though they haven't asked for it -- I would recommend some broad guidelines.

Ask first, and be willing to take "no" for an answer. If someone says no, but seems really disoriented, you might try asking again later, but still be willing to accept a no.

Offer basic things: Food, water, and the opportunity to leave the environment. If the person only eats certain foods, bring them that food. You may need to physically bring it to them if they are too disoriented to get it themselves or even answer whether they want it.

IF you know that they take a medication regularly, and you think it's possible that their disorientation could be caused by a missed dose, offer to bring them their medicine. Do NOT try to get them to start a medical regimen if they're not already on them. DO NOT encourage them to take medication if you know, or have reason to believe, that they're foregoing medication as an intentional choice rather than simply forgetting a dose.

If possible, try to reduce environmental stressors like noise. Turn down music, fans, flashing lights.

If the person is communicating in a way you don't understand, listen respectfully. Don't bombard them with questions. If you don't understand, say so. You can always come back to the topic later.

Offer alternate ways to communicate. If someone isn't speaking well, try typing or another form of AAC.

Be humble. They may not appreciate your offers, nor do they have any obligation to. They might be annoyed or angry by your offers (especially if they've already said "no"), and they have every right to be. Accept this fact going in.

These are some general suggestions for trying to help someone who has not specifically requested your help, but you have reason to believe may be disoriented or otherwise unable to communicate their wants/needs, while still respecting their bodily autonomy. It's not foolproof, but it might be a start.

#ableism #neurodiversity #mad pride #mad maps #bodily autonomy #cognitive liberty

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red-dyed-sarumane · 7 months

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okay! i've finally finished the southern reach trilogy & want to thought dump bc thats what i do when i enjoy things 👍 im going to assume most people have not read this & explain as such

i'll be real i only picked this up bc i saw the movie based off the first book & was like "well huh" & then couldnt get the idea of an environment that just... refracts everything back and in on itself is just. so cool. it's such a cool idea. so when i saw in the credits it was based off a book i HAD to go read it the concept was too interesting i had to know what was in the book they couldnt translate to the movie

i got such a treat oh my god.

something that stood out to me pretty quickly, given im into a completely separate other series where none of the characters have public names, is that, iirc the movie DID give names but the whole first book theres no names. they each have a profession & are called as such. even as we get names in later books, only one of the og characters is ever named and the biologist thats one of the most important characters is simply that. the biologist. & it means absolutely nothing in terms of how impersonal or deep the character feels. because shes utterly complete and herself. respectable. i like that.

but most importantly the world, oh my god the world. the movie has its own not entirely off base take on it. different and yet similar enough. if u like fucked up worlds im recommending this 200% its just SO fascinating. its a little area cut off from the rest of the real world they call area x & it is protected by a sort of boundary but its. self refraction of things doesnt even begin to cover what its got going on. i dont even know how to describe it right. theres THINGS just so many unexplainable things, you think the area is out to get them but it ends up more like... the area's attempt at self preservation at the cost of the other, the intruders. like the whole thing is self aware.

the plants & terrain arent ever changing, not anymore than they would be with time, & not all of the animals are some fucked up threat out to get them. the area itself is the threat, impossible things in the sky, ocean, shadows weaving into the world & messing up whoever happens to come into contact with it. weird inexplicable things happening to those they send in to explore.

and at first it seems like a survivors came back wrong story. like whatever's in there, whatever fucked them up did so to such an extent none of the survivors even live long. which is fascinating in its own right like what is it that harms them to such an extent. & ur introduced to all the weird monsters & occurrences in a way thats like. well this things out to get them. & u need to know more.

& man the more the next 2 books give u is just so INTERESTING.

but first i have to say i hated the corporate mind games that took up 2/3 of the second book. hard to get through. johns such a man baby sometimes & its so frustrating seeing him just decide pieces of the puzzle are no use to him & getting rid of them. sick of his shit. i dont like him much in the 3rd book either but fine whatever.

the last 1/3 of the second book & like all of the third had the same "no what!?!? ur kidding!?!?" reaction as the first book had & was again interesting & easy to get through. LOTS of juicy secrets & info that ties things together & makes it make as much sense as it can & ends off in such a solid way, not without questions, but with a sense that even if those questions were answered, it wouldn't make any difference, would be maybe a trivia fact more than some grounding breakthrough.

also to whom it matters the cast is pretty diverse & natural about it, having them just be people in a situation & not relying on that to be a selling a point like i see in posts all the time here.

im going to get into spoilers here

the nature of area x is so interesting to me. the time paradox, the fact that time moves in a linear fashion and yet the area contains so much passage of time that just. doesnt match the outside world. the shock of grace saying she'd been there 3 years when it'd only been weeks and yet all the signs proved she wasnt lying. the way how suddenly all the decay & change in the area held just that much more weight to it. that things were even less what they seemed. that lended to knowing the biologist's 30 years in there vastly outweighed the real world's time. that part saying that people couldve lived there, lived out whole full lives between the time the border/area was created & when it was first explored because if the time difference just really hit me for some reason. its such a weird space.

and how the area handles people, not the book but the area, how it gets inside them, turns them into something else. learning that what came back from expeditions wasnt the originals. that the area got inside the people who went in & changed them into something completely unrecognizable. turned into a pig slug hybrid with only their face intact, into an owl, into some Thing writing in life itself on tunnel(tower) walls, into a giant fucking whale that can exist wherever it wants to. the fact that, initially, these are viewed as some fucked up creation recreated from who died there, only to be revealed that these forms ARE the original people and they ARE still alive, just in this new form, and while its implied they may not have the same frame of consciousness as people, its also not stated thats 100% the case- that no outsider can know for sure because people can only know people(or at least hope to know people). the whole concept that the originals have become part of the area living there or dying there in this new way, while the world creates copies of them, sends them back to the real world, fools everyone into thinking these copies are the originals, that something just happened to them and somethings not right anymore. that even when ones like the biologist's copy admits they arent the same person, no one believes them. thats so wild. & its framed that 3 people made it back for real, no copies involved, but the only one with any proof is the director. sure whitby & lowry have life spans unlike other "survivors" but at the same time, its also said theres no real way of knowing if the real or copy whitby lived, & iirc the footage seemed to imply lowry was different on the way back too although i guess that could be attributed to stress but its not like the things he says are very trustworthy either. anyway thats just to wild & intriguing to me, that while they're off living or fighting for life or dying, theres a copy of them they arent even aware of, creating a different truth of them to the outside world. neat concept.

the lighthouse keepers story, the way it all started, that kind of got to me. the way he was just doing his best at his job & the more and more u read u know its about to catch up, he about to be consumed by this & start its spread, and theres nothing anyone can do about it. and god the letter to him at the end. i came here to be fascinated and yet that final moment of human respect across people who were no longer people got to me & i ended up crying. which may be stupid of me. but i LOVE when a world can draw u in so thoroughly & then have characters to get caught up in & care about too.

& i love that the nature of this area is so bizarre that, even when things are stated as directly as possible , u think for a moment the narrator is hallucinating or or being vivid & only to moments later have it shoved it ur face that no, thats the reality, thats word for word whats happening. i had a LOT of "what in the actual fuck" moments & they were jarring of course, as they were meant to be for such a peculiar world, but jarring in the way that drew u in more, made u need to know more.

basically i had a good time & this is going to be constantly in my mind or at least in the back of it. a lot more going on then im saying here & if ur into fucked up world building then definitely give it a chance at least

#this isnt an analysis post this is more of a review if anything #there was one line like 'even a perfect copy cant truly become the real one' & i immediately went omg just like d-ne shuuenpro #theres a LOT of things in here that had me thinking of aru sekai too but that may be the nature of sci-fi stories #the third book had quite a few lines that really hit me.#the single sentence 'The uselessness of guilt'#the paragraph about shes always alone & no one will ever come to help & the only way is forward #etc. we like that.

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brunz · 2 years

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i was watching this video on special books by special kids a youtube channel i like very much and this guy chris interviews, mostly children at first, but also some adults, people with different medical disorders or mental disorders that effect their lives significantly, and he talks to them in a really positive but also real way and lets them share their experiences directly which i think is great. anyways i was watching one with this guy Daniel (go figure) and i know these feelings arent unique and i also understand his feelings are a lot more intense than mine, but he struggled a lot with feeling like he was worth anything and social interaction and feeling like he fails people and just not feeling joy. among other things. those other things i did not relate to because i am not a veteran nor do i have ptsd and im not schizophrenic. but i just related to his feelings of suicidality and often feeling like theres this black hole this like permanant thing that you just carry that sucks the joy and complicates everything that you do and everything you think. im better now but having been kinda suicidal in middle school and highschool and intensely suicidal during college (suicidal for me that is. i made no attempts but i did self harm and i did often feel compelled to do something)

idk where im getting at with this. i watched the video and i just wanted to hug him so bad. and there was some hope. but sometimes if i really think about this stuff, that narrative of never getting better, the narrative of owing the world my suicide, the narrative and kind of fantasy of bad things happening to me and me deserving it and me moving on to whatevers next and the narrative of me never significantly improving my life because im a coward that should be put down. that narrative grows stronger and feels truer and truer and truer. the fact that i can call it a narrative i guess is a nice step away from just accepting it as truth which is what i often did as a child, but even with that awareness, it can still feel correct? like oh yeah this is what ive been taught and learned behaviors and whatever whatever but if i cant do anything aobut it and its gonna follow me all my life, than its going to do what its going to do, and there is kind of a logical conclusion. it doesnt matter if the thoughts are irrational or wrong, they manifest in a way that kind of make them true anyways. idk. its all relative i suppose.

in the video he talked aobut being forcibly put into a psychiatric facility for sometime and idk how to say this in a nonentitled way but sometimes i envy that experience. it would be like atleast an acceptance that other people recognize that something is wrong. and i suppose its a bit of punishment. and change. of course i say this , but i know how awful it is and im sure if it happened i wouldnt be saying this. ive already had this experience with my parents as i used to believe that i would deserve it if something really bad happened to me, so much so that i kind of wanted it to happen. one of those things was my mom dying which i used to think about but never thought it would happen. of course it did eventually happen, and in a really awful way. did it satisfy or solve anything? no. did it matter that i got my “punishment”? no. especially not given it wasnt just my pain, its my mom dying. but theres no big story or meaning to this whole thing anyways, i just mean. idk what i mean. im just saying all the stuff i taught myself as a kid that had atleast some weird positive aspect of “this should happen” didnt even work when it did happen.

this is quite rambly because i need to say it and if i try too hard to fix typos and structure i wont actually say it. and i need to say it because ill think it now and forget it later and i need to record this. i often feel like my memory is getting worse as well. idk how true that is but part of me feels like im just losing more and more, even given how unbelievably lucky i am in so many ways.

getting better and assessing life and trying to unravel and undo so much complicated stupid shit is. i dont wanna say hard but it is. it feels like just undoing this massive gordian knot. suicide being the sword i suppose.

im not suicidal im fine, its just that i have been before and im very confident it will come back stronger later because it just feels like the right and correct thing to do for me at some point in my life. it used to be almost certain by my turning 30 years old, and given that i have about 5 years until then, that is a little scary. no real reason for that number its just that it felt correct. it feels less correct now, but its only the number, and not the eventual um deed.

there is also a massive guilt because what the fuck do i have to complain about, im a trust fund baby whos never worked a day in their life with wonderful friends who give me more time than they ought to and ive been handed everything over and over and over and yet this cyclical markov chain of just hating myself and guilt and compulsion has followed me all my life and i dont know what to do about it. i guess ive improved it over the last few years but its times like these that feel like its all just a big lie. hopefully its not and you know, there is something there that i will eventually be a “real person”. I am not that person yet and idk if i ever will be. I guess the punishment of institutionalization or self harm or suicide feel like the most real things that i could do. but i know after them, id stil feel guilt anyways. especially given that, no matter how i feel about myself, i cannot stop how others feel about me and they seem to love me and care about me and so im aware that suicide would be very hard on them and i dont want to do that either.

this is way longer than i meant it to be and im kind of thinking as i go along and if you read this far well shit ill just say im surprised lol. or maybe youre just skimming through. thats cool too. this is not private, but it is also not intended for anyone to read. its kind of nothing tbh. it just needs to exist and not in a notebook. hopefully this isnt a narcissistic mess.

#suicide tw

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First of all, one very big internet hug to you. 2nd of all, since I'm writing in regards of your vent post there's no pressure to respond. I just wanted to send you something nice.

You've been very strong despite everything you've gone through/are going through. It may not feel like it but the way you continue to move forward is commendable indeed. This is of course on top of the fact that you're just a very sweet person. And I really do mean sweet. There's a kindness in the way you interact with others which is why I and others are taking the time to write you nice messages.

You're young so its going to be hard to navigate all this fame and drama you find yourself in but you're self aware enough to acknowledge that. At least for the online drama, I'm willing to bet a lot of those people are young too. Their attitudes reflect their immaturity and if any of the haters are adults then they never grew up.

Personally, one of the best tactics Ive found when it comes to dealing with insults is to imagine myself a couple of years in the future. I ask myself if those words will hold any weight then. The answer is no. And then I ask myself why do the words hold weight in present day. I always find the answer to be because I let them hold weight. It's never going to be as easy as "getting over it" but there's this realization of how meaningless their words really are.

Another thing, you mention how much stress the discord causes you and you've mentioned thinking about deleting it. Frankly, that might be the move. Sure a lot of fun came from it but if its doing more harm to you than good, then there's nothing wrong with letting the discord go. Those who genuinely care about you will understand. Those who get mad will be people who put their happiness above your mental health, they arent worth your time. Plus they could always start their own discord if they want to chat so bad. You could then just have a small discord for your dev team and spend the time you were chatting in the big discord on chatting with your irl friends (since you said in a previous post you haven't been talking to them as much)

As for your home situation, I'm so sorry you have to go through all that. Im not sure where you live but there might be resources for getting out of your forced marriage. Getting out of an abusive situation is never going to be easy though so please do a LOT of planning and research if you chose this route. I think there's reddit communities that deal with this stuff so you can go see how other people dealt with situations similar to yours. On top of like actual professional resources of course.

Alright, I feel like Ive written too much and I dont want to waste any more of your time. Just remember you area beautiful person both inside and out (yes, this includes your brown skin). Even if the people around you currently aren't nice to you, that's always going to say more about them than you.

Love ya (platonically), here's one more internet hug, buh-bye 👋

Thank you anon. This has helped a lot. Personally my guilt is probably the biggest factor about me not closing up the discord. So Idk about that personally.

And my parents tend to be rash. I don't want to blame them for anything.

#cupid answers!#petals:anons🌸

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hi can I tell you something I feel bad for Victor Creed because I get it growing up in an abusive household It is not easy I had an abusive father but my dad went to prison and I'm glad he went to prison because he's out of my life now and I won't have to be afraid of him anymore and I'm glad my mom has a new man in her life anyway I just think Victor Creed deserves a better life and I think people need to understand that Victor Creed is just broken he wasn't born a villain he was just made like that and it's also his family's fault for turning him into a villain all he ever wanted was acceptance and understanding but we live in a world where people judge other people for being different and that's just messed up I'm sorry if I'm wasting your time I just want to say I feel so sorry for Victor Creed and this is why he's my favorite character not mystique she gets on my nerves she's toxic

u aint wasting my time, dw‼️💕

thanks for sharing ur personal stuff w me(+ anyone who reads this), n im glad u dont have to be as scared anymore. i hope you've managed to find some comfort since then🩷

its real nice that so many of us can relate our trauma to this kittycat....it does totally suck that we live in such a judgemental world, but i think theres hope. i mean, i dont think realistically judgement can be erased, more so that we need to realize that u can keep a lot of it to urself. and that u need to ask urself 'is this my genuine opinion, or have i just been told to think this? how do i really feel? does it actually bother me? is it bothering me in a way thats actually harming me?" yknow stuff like that. ik it seems kinda obvious, but you'd be surprised how many of ur thoughts arent actually ur own. we could all benefit from bein a bit more conscious n aware of how we genuinely view things.

#asks #also i think it was a mix of his family + the real world once he escaped out into it #he couldnt really catch a break due to being so visable..which can be said about a lot of things. not just being a mutant.#some people can hide their difference. and some cant.#i enjoyed this ask btw thank u for trusting me w it ^^ made me feel like a vic confessional....

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i feel like a lot of people just do not understand cats. nor know what they sound like. i will see a video of a cat meowing completely normally and the comments will be full of "omg wtf noises are those?!!🤣". Or alternatively its a video of a cat clearly being really scared or alarmed, and all the comments are laughing at how silly it is being. reminds me of my mom who just calls our cats stupid for doing normal cat stuff. they'll be playing in the cat tree and she'll be like "omg look at that stupid ass cat"(less harsly but you know). and also she keeps calling Hessu stupid, or implying that he isnt in control of his own behaviour. which is like, I guess its true, but also like, his behaviour makes complete sense. he climbs you to rub on your face and bites you, because that is how he shows affection. he kneads your skin because he clearly isnt aware that we humans are really sensitive to that. he gets really focused on chasing bugs when he sees them, because that is what cats do. quite literally all our cats chase bugs, even if they are on the other side of the window. he jumped into the toilet full of cleaning agent that one time probably because he had jumped on it once when the lid was closed, which would already confirm it in his mind as a safe platform. and he learned to not do that again! now he checks if its safe to jump on the toilet lid! he drunk cooled coffee that one time because it was full of milk and cool and didnt know what it was! and he learned to not drink from human cups from then on, after calming down from the caffeine high that small sip gave him. like pretty often my mom judt sys that Hessu learns nothing, and its so annoying cuz its just factually wrong. he knows where the cat food is kept and knows to meow at my door if he wants it. he also learned to avoid candles! he has learned so many things a cat living in the wild wouldnt need to!

so yeah. like im not saying that its harmful to laugh at cats falling or something, but it just really annoys me when cat owners dont seem to understand their own cats.

like, two of our cats have been with us for long enough that they've learned what boundaries can be pushed, so yes, I will get mad at Seppo for trying to eat my food, because he knows he isnt allowed to do that. he doesn't even like it that much! but i wont get mad if the more recent additions try to do that. I mean I dont think they're that interested in what the humans eat, because neither of them have tried to steal my food yet. but that also means that there hasnt been an opportunity to teach them to not do that. so if they one day stick their snout a bit too close to my food, im not going to get mad, or even annoyed. because why should a cat know that they arent supposed to inspect something that could be nutrition!

#im really tired sory #aminals

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hey i hope you learn to not take things so personally on behalf of gabbie hanna bc it's gone past parasocial relationships and i think you have developed a one sided codependency and it literally very obviously negatively affects your daily mental health :/ like ppl don't just say stuff to be mean - you're unhinged. legitimately.

(pt 2) also ur post abt jen is really funny bc you're like "of course she's jessis best friend" but i literally don't think she is currently and i think you're just saying that bc you can't see past being personally upset. just a thought. pls be aware that when experiencing heightened emotions doesn't mean ur reality is heightened too. :/ (pt 3) also in general id advise seeking professional mental health help bc being agoraphobic & exclusively living online is clearly giving you terminally online brain rot. do you wanna be 27 in your moms home still yelling abt online haters? are you not an adult? do you not want to live like an adult? seems ur content staying mentally 14 forever.

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i find these kind of asks to be the MOST amusing, because not only do these people think they know my life, they actively go out of their way to try to get in contact with me. they side with people who believe doxxing people is alright "as long as its for the greater good" and they think harassment of any sort will fix their problems (spoiler alert: it wont.) lets get one thing straight here: i dont "take thing personally on behalf of gabbie hanna", i side with what I BELIEVE to be morally correct. its not morally correct to tell someone that theyre useless, that one no wants them or cares about them, and that they should disappear to someone who has actively stated time and time again to have suicidal ideations. this is KNOWINGLY triggering and harming someone who's mentally ill, and you're just straight up a horrible shitty human being if you do that. you CAN hold someone accountable AND have empathy to what theyre going through. they dont negate each other, and the second people learn THAT is the second i will stop riding so hard for what is MORALLY correct, not for Gabbie Hanna.

(Side note: you never hear these people talk about my interest for Lele Pons, Britney Spears, Taylor Nicole Dean, Rayleigh Link, BozeDoesTrueCrime, or Colleen Ballinger and i dont even need to pose the hypothetical question of "why do you think that is?", cause i'll tell you: they dont know who i ACTUALLY am, they only know who i am twitter.)

lets talk about parasocial relationships, because those are actually one of my favorite things to talk about! I know everything about Gabbie, or at least, everything she's told the internet. every time i (or anyone) interacts with gabbie, it is with the knowledge of who she is, and the things she has done. this puts us at a disadvantage. as fans, we then have two options.

not realize you're apart of a parasocial relationship.

realize you're apart of a parasocial relationship

it seems like a "thank u captain obvious" but it honest to god isnt. we as fans know gabbie, but gabbie knows NOTHING about us. she does NOT know we exist. if you choose path 1, you're set for a very VERY toxic situation where you slowly become entitled to somebodies time and efforts when you are NOT entitled to shitall. lets talk about path 2, though!

i know facts about gabbie. i stop and realize-- i am inconsequential to gabbie's daily life even if she DOES see me...

and that is the JOY of being a fan. of knowing you're a community of thousands, and not the one on a pedestal. we arent here because we want to KNOW gabbie personally, we're here because we agree with her. we relate to the things she's experienced, and by golly, we were harassed by the SAME EXACT PEOPLE!! we have a LOT in common-- and...and thats KIIIINDAAA the definition of being in a fandom. "A fandom is a subculture composed of fans characterized by a feeling of empathy and camaraderie with others who share a common interest."

on a side note, lets talk about my daily life, since you so inquired <3

my exposure therapy has been a really good (but frightening) experience! aside from normal visits, i hung out with a group of friends, and i went to a small live show. my plans for next week have similar plans, and i've been dealing with my agoraphobia pretty well since march.

i dont know what they mean by "negative codependency" seeing as i use my twitter the same way i use my tumblr...so hey!! WHY DIDNT YOU GUYS TELL ME SOONER THAT I HAD A NEGATIVE CODEPENDENCY TO THOMAS SANDERS?!!?!?! SO RUDE!! /J on an actual note: really? codependent to gabbie hanna? youtube, my phone, maybe, but gabbie? thats genuinely why i call these messages amusing because it honestly reminds me of THIS meme

its just a ~vibe~ yanno.

"pls be aware that when experiencing heightened emotions doesn't mean ur reality is heightened too" this is actually something i'd advise to every person who watched gabbie hanna, because they have this warped perception that gabbie is constantly planning this drama everytime she releases an album or song as IF she would want that tied to the album....that doesnt bring in listeners it only creates talk cmon now use ur brainy brains just bc ur emotions are heightened doesnt mean ur reality is

but yeah, thats my update with tumblr! how have you guys been /gen? its been awhile since i've done one of these (four or five years? wowee) and i KNOW tumblr's new "below the cut" update is gonna kill the vibe of this but its whatevs 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ alyssa will talk on.

#//twitter #//gabbie hanna #//drama #what up babe <3 #ask #answered #alyssa talks #alyssa posts

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elffees · 2 years

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why Jane vs. Kenny made sense and why ANF is important (or the continuity between seasons)

ya know as much as i heavily agree on the “Luke vs. Kenny wouldve been more fulfilling rather than Jane vs. Kenny” thing (trust me Luke was my favorite S2 character) Jane vs. Kenny did have its purpose, especially when looking at Clementine’s arc through S2, ANF, and TFS.

im not gonna talk too much abt S2 bc the game couldnt make up its mind on what it wanted its main theme to be so it changed overtime. but still, by the end of Episode 5, Jane vs. Kenny makes sense in its own way.

while a Luke vs. Kenny confrontation would represent Clementine having to choose between the deep ties of the past vs the hope of a new future, Jane vs. Kenny represents something else. while S2 notoriously having nonstop and controversial deaths bothers me as much as the next person, i think its also supposed to represent Clementine’s spiral. Kenny’s downfall is focused on a lot, but Clementine experiences her own just as much.

in S2 so many people die around her and the point of the Jane vs. Kenny fight at the end is not supposed to be a duel between two vastly different sides, but instead a messy situation of having to choose who’s the lesser of two evils (btw no im not saying the characters are actually evil). Jane vs. Kenny is supposed to feel awful and unfair. Clem has been dealt a shitty hand in a shitty world and has had nothing but a shitty time. S2 is a very dark experience for her, there is no happy ending because there’s not supposed to be.

➱ how this flows into A New Frontier

this fits into the overarching narrative because Clem’s journey in S3 is basically the opposite of S2. seeing the Garcias go through their struggles, but still miraculously come out on top and safer than they ever were before changes a lot for Clementine. like, regardless of what you choose, at least one other Garcia besides Javier survives the EP 5 “who do you go after” choice. Javi does not end alone.

the Garcias have a rough time, Clementine witnesses their trauma first hand. throughout the season, her emo self is constantly trying to convince Javier that happiness doesn’t exist. and i mean, after the griminess she went through in S2 and then having AJ taken away from her pre-ANF, can you really blame her? ffs the girl even gets her first period and has cramps! cramps!! in the apocalypse!!! what a fucking cherry on top. from big situations to small, nothing has been going right for her in a very long time.

but for the most part Javier and the Garcias remain optimistic. they are very aware that the odds arent in their favor but they keep going regardless. and Clementine tries frequently to get away from them. shes not trying to walk away because they believe in happy endings, but because she just doesnt want to be with people again, not after theyve burned her so many times before. but circumstances keep reconnecting her with this family whether she wants to be with them or not. not to get mystical, but its like the entire world kept forcing Clementine back with these people because this was smthg she needed to see. and see, she does.

the more time she spends with the Garcias, the more happiness actually seems possible. she learns that AJ is alive and well! despite Gabe’s possible endings she gets her first crush! both Javi and Kate help her out with her period! an entire community is saved and continues to thrive in the end! and Clem learns that people arent inherently bad or doomed for misery. people are just people, theyre not something you have to avoid and run from, and tragedy and loneliness are not guaranteed.

Javier may lose loved ones, but he can also become the leader of an entire community! and even if he doesnt, they as a whole still made Richmond better. they rooted out the weeds that made it dangerous and harmful, and helped turned it into a better place in the end. and Clementine sees this. she sees it all, she sees the journey of the Garcias and it helps her realize that maybe, just like them, she can make a fresh start and find her own happiness too. and what could be a better first step than searching for the little boy she thought she lost.

➱ how this flows into The Final Season

this connects to S4 because already at the beginning of the season, Clementine values life and love much more now. regardless of how you choose for them to get into the office in EP1, Clementine always hesitates to kill the walker couple. and thats just the first instance, overall Clementine is a much brighter and open person than she was before. she’s found her happiness, AJ, and it shows. shes not as bitter and full of resentment as she was in S3, but shes also not naive. shes found the balance that works for her: firm but not cold, kind but not ignorant. finding this balance in herself is what allows her to be the new leader the Ericson kids need.

her journey from the miserable experience of S2 to the renewed hope of S3 has all led her to this moment, of becoming a leader in her own right. and damn it is so good to see and is so deserved.

i know people thought Clementine’s lack of death was kinda bullshit, and because TWDG is supposed to be choice based, i do agree that the situation with her leg was written really really weird. but at the same time, this is Clementine’s first real happy ending. S1′s finale was a nightmare. S2′s was a dreary no-win scenario. S3′s was the growing possibility of a bright future. while S4′s ending is finally nothing but peace. she might lose a love interest or AJ might lose a best friend, but they still have each other and Clementine is now the leader of a place she truly feels she belongs.

after all the pain and grief and hurt, she has finally found home.

#the walking dead game #twdg #somehow this turned into a clementine character introspection #but i love clem so whatever!#babbles #long post //#anyways even tho i wouldve loved a luke vs ken standoff. jane vs kenny did make sense #especially when looking at the theme of clementines journey as a whole instead of as isolated #to the respective seasons #clementine twdg #also anf!!! was important!!! >:(#ppl keep saying ANF didnt matter but um yes it very much did okay

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OH about the autism thing re: rules a big sign of autism is a very strong sense of right and wrong and adhering to rules we perceive as utterly and completely nessecary to follow. its interesting considering the another trait is a rejection of societal rules but i think its more an alignment with the rules and values we decide are worth following. which is what everyone does.

its just that with troubles with emotional regulation, which most autism people have, our responses to the breaking of those rules or what we percieve as obviously wrong regarding our moral code triggers a very stressful emotional reaction. whether thats distress/upset/anger etc.

and it can happen over anything! i couldnt watch the cat in the hat film till i was 12 years old, because the constant breaking of the rules and idea of getting in trouble was so stressful to me it triggered a crying/distress response and made me go into a meltdown. these things get easier sometimes as we grow into adults. but when you have something you hold dear all but turn upside down on you when youre already a person averse to change, it can feel like a huge shakeup. even if youre aware it's not necessarily the end of the world/you acknowledge such a response can be really silly.

laura youve gotta remember that you, like me, and multiple other autistic f1 fans in the replies of that ask have high empathy and low emotional regulation. F1 is your special interest and has been dear to you for years. It makes complete sense for you to have a distress reaction for a violation of both the sports rules, which you apply as The Rules and your moral code.

Suffocating these emotional responses isn't going to help you or any other autistic person, though many neurotypical people believe it is. Whether its an emotional outburst, a meltdown, a shutdown or another response, trying to force it down wont work. It's your body responding to overstimulation. Focusing on how youre feeling, keeping somewhat of an awareness (if you can) on how youre acting and making sure to make sure that, yes, other people arent negatively affected by these emotions but far more importantly that you yourself are okay.

Anyone sending anons trying to rile you up or start an argument over this are the kind of people who poke and prod at autistic people to make fun of them. They're disgustingly common in the fandom, but they're fortunately also not the smartest. And it's completely in your right to delete messages of and block people seeking conflict in bad faith.

However you respond to this situation and whatever similar things might happen in the future I do hope you know that you have my complete support. I really hope this dumb long ask explains that, because I really do know what you're going through, even if my own response to this has been different.

Love you Laura ❤💗❤

Liv thank you so much for this I really, really, really appreciate it in so many ways. Mum going to me "life's shit, it's just a sport. come on lewis be a big boy" when I told her how upset Lewis seemed yesterday really like... sdfgfsd opened my eyes to the fact emotional repression as a rule has been coming from BOTH my parents. They do not understand that a "disproportionate" emotional response is a common thing in autism and they can't tolerate NORMAL emotional responses so looking back on how they've responded to me growing up I think there's a lot of harm done there that they will probably never acknowledge. So it's just rlly good to hear your perspective and know that like. It's normal, I guess?

Anyway yeah aside from "sour grapes slut" the most iconic anon ask of all time, I've deleted / blocked any anon hate or notes on posts I've received bc that's just my rule of thumb. People have definitely tried to rile me up in my inbox but I can rile myself up they really don't need to waste their time sfdjhsfdjhsdf. This to say you're right and thank you for the reminder.

Also, thank you for finally revealing to me why I also HATED that fucking cat in the hat movie and couldn't stand it and had to leave the room whenever my sister wanted to watch it.

#long post #liv #love you bestie

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danny phantom episode 4-7 Thoughts: (under a readmore because, these got kinda long!)

-the outfit danny had to buy for dash's party. CLASSIC 2000S i cannot stop laughing. And also showing up to the party and everyone is dressed like the trio is hilarious. and further proof that everyone looks good dressed goth.

-dash has a closet full of cute lil bear plushies?? LOVE that. adorable. also his response to danny trashing his room fighting a ghost was SO valid if somone BROKE MY BED IN HALF ID BE PISSED TOO.

-technus being like 'oh smart, u should be a tutor!' then later being like 'forget tutor, be a teacher!' :) supportive king <3 I also really like his upgraded suit/design. AND SPOCK CAMEO??? HELLO??

-the music in this show is super. its so funky. I looked it up and the guy who does it, guy moon (awesome name) also did music for other cartoons like fairly odd parents, barnyard, chalkzone, billy & mandy, AND some actual movies like FIGHT CLUB??? the whiplash I got from reading that)

-sam being rich explains a lot about her, actually.

-I know the moral of the episode was supposed to be 'dont ditch your friends for popular people/spend a lot of money on clothes that arent You to Fit In'. but tbh. it wouldve been easy for danny to have been like 'well, okay, ill come but only if my friends can!' but I get. that hes 14. so. not a lot to say there.

-BOX GHOST IS BACK!!!!! also, danny sitting up and wearing the dress/wig/makeup. umm thats how I dress everyday LMFAO. unironically me. (hate the jokes that boil down to 'haha funney man in dress' tho. but this is a look)

-jazz being protective of her brother once again being like NOOO YOU GUYS BETTER NOT STAKE OUT HIS (actually haunted) LOCKER!! shes aware of how people perceive him and she wants to help :( which is also probably why she told dash to invite him to that party even tho she had no interest in going!! she wants to help him out :(

-gotta say im with tucker on the whole 'should danny use his powers to get back at bullies' debate. 100% yes. let him teach kids to fight back. making dash throw his food at paulina out of the blue? no. but when hes actually about to pick on someone? yeah! for self defense? YEAH! if dash and his friends just threw food at him, I think rather than. idk doing sneaky shit with frogs he couldve just threw it back and not pulled punches if they tried to fight. I kNOOWWW its a kids show so they are like 'if u fight back ur just as bad!! violence bad!!' but. theyre HIS POWERS. WHO CARES.

-like my only gripe is that dash really isnt LEARNING ANYTHING WHEN DANNY GETS BACK AT HIM IN THE MOST PETTY INDIRECT WAYS. whatever they had to add a bully psa episode I guess. I hate it and I hate the way cartoons usually handle it because these methods simply Do Not Work. 'aND YouRE USinG YOur poWErs FOR EVill???!' this is Not Evil. even when poindexter takes dannys body, theyre only being 'nice' bc hes stealing soda for them!! bitches deserve what they get (nothing too brutal bc theyre high schoolers but damn, if they pick on danny he doesnt need to be the 'bigger person' he needs to start biting people)

-SAM TRYING TO SMUGGLE FROGS OUT OF THE BIO LAB?? girl in middle school when we had to dissect frogs we could opt out, also, they came to us already dead and preserved...

-sidney's lingo and the fact hes in black and white is sending me. also, danny is a ghost celebrity apparently for being a halfa?? ok. thats interesting to know

-the DENTIST BEING EXCITED ABOUT THE COTTON CANDY FLOOD IS THE FUNNIEST THING SO FAR.

-I LOOOVE the trope of 'wishes gone wrong'. not crazy about the stereotypical genie, or the use of the dreamcatcher looking design. (also, I KNOW theyre scientists but the way theyre handling a cold...are the fentons ANTIVAX)

-the genie. she. whitewished paulina. JKASDFHKJ. (the ghost literally just being hello kitty???? im dying) 'why do i feel that im special and wonderful? because I AM! <3' paulina ilu self worth queen. felt bad for her also getting possessed by (2) boys later who were arguing INSIDE HER. WTF.

-imagine being the guy trapped in his now flying car. he thought danny and tucker were HALUCINATIONS. imagine being trapped in a flying car with two, what you think are imaginary arguing 14 year olds convinced ur gonna die. i WOULD say this dude is gonna need so much therapy, but he seemed totally fine and excited when they landed (I would be happy too if a chicken was on my head. chickens rule) stoner rights

-sam's bat slippers??? iconic. SO cute.

-I think desiree's backstory is so :( do all ghosts have messed up sad backstories?? poindexter's was sad too...cannot imagine box ghost has any kind of fucked up backstory. but what if. his mom got pushed off cliffs by boxes...........a la cruella... anyway her 'no man may lay a hand on me' iconic. ilu

-I know danny has no concept of how much bras cost but my god dont attack tucker with some girls bra. those are so expensive.

-its really. well its not a GOOD THING he went into the portal and got fucked up, but its good danny was the one to do it rather than sam or tucker. because even tho he was being influenced by desiree and kept getting more malicious and it prob wasnt 100% him...he sucked as a ghost like most the people he 'pranked' were innocent ppl just Chillin and he didnt want to help anyone at all. I think danny is the most responsible out of them but also, hes 14 and shouldnt HAVE to feel obligated to fight every ghost. hes a good kid and wants to, but I also feel like he feels like...responsible for the portal turning on?? because his parents did give it up,, but it was an accident and not his fault (if anything, why was the on switch on the inside. why was it that easy. why was there no safety measures. that seems like smth OSHA needs to hear about). like thats my son. hes a good boy. and hes never done anything wrong in his life, ever. if anyone hurts him im killing everyone in this room and then myself. etc.

-danny's curfew is 10PM????? DUDE. when I was 14...shit I couldn't be out that late, I had to be back at like, 8 at the latest, and my parents had to know exactly where and who I was going with, AND i had to call/text them regularly...is this a case of my parents being overbearing, or the fentons sucking??? the only time i could EVER be out that late was if I was at an overnight sleepover or smth...

-the vultures have lil fezes. why do they have fezes...theyre so fuckin funny 'ask him for directions' 'I KNOW WHERE IM GOING' these ghost vultures are my new grandpas. pick them up, put them in the adopt box.

-'I wonder why those guys were trying to waste dad!' THEYRE GHOSTS. YOUR DAD HUNTS GHOSTS. why is that not a conclusion you'd immediately jump to??

-*jazz voice, clearly disgusted* WISCONSIN???

-mrs fenton with the lab coat and leg warmers and PERM. YESSS STYLISH.

-was going to say 'ew billionaire' @vlad but. super valid he used his powers to assumedly steal and cheat to get that money, thats how all billionaires do it! but ew hes a SIMP. and spending your billions on FOOTBALL STUFF?? you are Not Valid overall. I DO respect the fact you have a castle instead of a mansion. in wisconsin. if youre going to be stupidly rich might as well go all out, torches on the wall and all. I DO like his ghost form's little kitty ears. catman. and his cape! every design can benefit from a cape. and how different his forms look, like danny looks the EXACT SAME IN BOTH FORMS ASIDE FROM COLOR CHANGES. vlad's is like,, I could believe they were different people!! also I love the drama. but dude you are fighting a 14 year old. lame. also he was like, telling danny he wanted his mom and him and like, wanted him to renounce his dad?? WHAT ABOUT JAZZ?? bitch. those r MY kids and they are both important and special. I do agree they need better parents but thats not u sir <3

-I thought vlad's 'little badger' nickname for danny came from the football mascot of the packers, but google says they have NO MASCOT?? so now I'm like?? is it because his hair is sometimes black and sometimes white?? I hate to give him props but thats a PERFECT NICKNAME. theyre also tiny and vicious!

-why did I get so excited that Skulker is back!! its been like. 2-3 eps LMAO. AND THE DAIRY KING. ICONIC I LOVE HIM. hes the nicest guy ever :) more nice ghosts please. danny cannot be fighting alone everytime with no ghost buds like every ghost being hostile sucks :(

-mr. fenton knew vlad was controlling him, but a few episodes ago he had no clue danny was doing the same thing...is it something about how malicious the ghost is?? he just seemed to think his memory had gaps the first time, this time he was INSTANTLY LIKE 'GHOST'. then again in this ep when danny did it again he was just slightly confused but not immediately freaking out like he did with vlad possessing him!!

-'my parents will accept ME NO MATTER WHAT' so. so why haven't you come out to them yet, danny?? if you really think that?? if theres no harm, and you're sure??? if vlad is a real problem, wouldnt that make dealing with him easier, to expose him???? SO WHY HAVENT YOU COME OUT YET?? COULD IT BE,, MAYBE YOU HAVE DOUBTS ABOUT WHETHER YOUR PARENTS ACTUALLY WILL ACCEPT YOU??? 🤔 ... 🏳‍🌈 I get why people say He Is Trans. I totally totally get u danny.

-sorta unrelated, but it just occurred to me in one of these eps they go to casper HIGH not casper middle school??? theyre 14?? dont highschools usually do ages 15-18? (I didnt go to hs so I might be wrong, if I am ignore this...) freshmen are usually 14-15, could just be a case of them not turning 15 yet but they will sometime in the school year (I say they because tucker said he was 14 too)? I know the show has 3 seasons, so by the end of it will they be older? thatd be neat but usually cartoon characters stay the same age...I love shows where you can see the characters age and grow up, though...three seasons seems like a long time to spend on like, 1 year...

#sanchoyorambles #danny phantom #me on the first post:#its not a liveblog!#me this time: it kinda is. but not in the same format as my tmm one #i like doing one post for a handful of eps bc it saves time #and crowds my blog less #and also i just like talking abt what im watching lol #dp thoughts

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hello fellow puppy ^_^ i couldn't find anyone else who is a dog that wasn't a kin so can i ask how do i know if i'm just a furry, have a strong kin or if i'm delusional? i am a dog and i 100% believe i am + i have psychotic disorders but calling myself kin feels very wrong

hey!!! im not a professional obvs so im just gna talk abt my own experience and take what u will from it ig!! i hope this helps u

also i may not be otherkin but i consider myself closer to the alterhuman community than to other communities and i have extensive knowledge of otherkin and alterhuman related topics as well as things from other communities im not a part of but are... related!

anyways, disclaimers aside. its important first to define exactly what these things you mentioned are before i talk about how i came to be a dog.

furries are characters, plain and simple. just anthropomorphic OCs. furries (people behind the characters) only cosplay really, and although their characters can be part of their identity, they do not consider themselves their fursonas. I dont really know what "strong kin" means because when it comes to otherkinity, its kind of like that potato joke: "everything in the entire universe either is or isnt a potato." you cant be a little bit of a potato or half of a potato, you either are or arent. Otherkinity is the same. By definition and similar experiences, I am actually a therian. I just have an uncommon cause, and prefer to use individual labels for myself. I call myself a human-bodied dog, because my caninity comes before my humanity. I call myself a lycanthrope to reclaim and repurpose an old therian term, to now mean "alterhuman or nonhuman person whose cause or root is delusional."

I replied to a post just last night asking me "whats the difference between a delusional alterhuman vs. a nondelusional alterhuman? how do you know the difference?" and in short, i said: the same way you know youre not delusional.

the long answer is a lot longer and more personal but this is how i know: Ive experienced delusions my entire life. theyve changed as ive gotten older, but ive always been delusional. around when i was 16, i had a friend whistle to get his dog's attention, but i also snapped my neck to look at him right away and he commented on how much i looked like a dog when that happened. after that he wanted to explore pet regression with me because i struggle with *ge r*gression as a symptom of trauma, and we figured it wouldnt hurt to try to train my brain into something less harmful. my brain took this and ran. my brain thought, "all of this dog stuff comes too naturally. i think i am a dog." and over the years the delusion has just gotten stronger and now is involuntary and simply, i am puppie. a bit unrelated but we also know its a delusion because my partner often remarks that even the way i look around i look like a dog, or other subtle traits. my brain also thinks i have a dog body as evideny by my horrible spacial awareness and balance. its a symptom of my brain fully, subconsciously, involuntarily believing i am not a human.

anyone who struggles with delusions know that theyre a slippery slope. to my brain, if someone says something with enough authority, my brain cant tell the difference between it and reality, and involuntarily accepts it as truth. such us the case with my caninity. basically i was technically imprinted.

also like, ive always said this but its up to the individual and their therapist (permit they have one, if not please use your best judgement! also read up on clinical lycanthropy and other delusional misidentification syndromes) whether to indulge in delusions and accept them as part of your identity or not. if you know this could get really bad really fast, or its already harmful to you/others, its best to deny the feelings. for me this isnt the case & im perfectly safe to accept the delusion.

sorry for the crazy long post. also i have super disorganized thoughts and speech sometimes (also psychosis! thanks psychosis ♡) so hopefully this all makes sense, but if you have more questions or need clarification, ask box is always open!

play nice, pup! ☆

#psychosis #delusions #lycan #asks #anonymous

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