#and it. did not. but it did give me one of my favorite cr scenes of all time

[densitywell]

genuinely unsure if a lot of people haven't seen the first EXU or if Dorian's edges have been sanded off through time and shipping but bbygirl i remember when you sold out a low-level crime boss to a betrayer god. not only do i still think about how huffy and defensive you got when Orym and Fy'ra wouldn't let you hold onto the Corruption Crown That Is Obviously Corrupting You, and how you tried to play on THEIR insecurities to assuage your own but you were arguing with two of the most steadfast in their values duty-before-feelings bitches in Tal'dorei so you just came across a bit like a kid throwing a tantrum. But I treasure it fondly its my favorite thing you've ever done

#its funny bc i went back to exu partially in the hopes it would make dor/ym click for me #and it. did not. but it did give me one of my favorite cr scenes of all time #'that sounds like a threat orym' 'that's what it was' top 5 orym moments as well #crposting

[marta-bee]

As you might have guessed from the quotes, I’ve been reading Good Omens again. I was all prepared to be uncomfortable with this par. Crowley was about to turn paintball guns into gun-guns, and I was sure after all the mass shootings America has seen since the twelve or so years since I last read it, that part would just hit differently.

I wasn’t wrong, though I’d forgotten how funny and delightfully ‘90s-ish the corporate warfare was. Honestly I was laughing too hard at all the humor around the violence to notice. I can’t recommend it enough, if you’re old enough to remember why Dilbert was funny once upon a time, you really should give this bit a read. A sample:

The contingent from Financial Planning were lying flat on their faces in what had once been the haha, although they weren't very amused.

"I always said you couldn't trust those people from Purchasing," said the Deputy Financial Manager. "The bastards."

A shot pinged off the wall above him.

He crawled hurriedly over to the little group clustered around the fallen Wethered. "How does it look?" he said.

The assistant Head of Wages turned a haggard face toward him.

"Pretty bad," he said. "The bullet went through nearly all of them. Access, Barclaycard, Diners-the lot."

"It was only the American Express Gold that stopped it," said Wethered.

They looked in mute horror at the spectacle of a credit card wallet with a bullet hole nearly all the way through it.

"Why'd they do it?" said a wages officer.

What most struck me though was the bits woven between all the poking fun at white collar office culture and the human capacity to wish violence on each other. I’d almost call it a coincidence if it wasn’t actually relevant to everything else going on. Any of my fellow Sherlockians, you know what they say about coincidences.

Let’s start with Nigel Tompkins. Or a little before he shows up, for context. Aziraphale and Crowley are hunting for the antichrist so decide to go back to the hospital where Crowley left him. It’s been burned down, most of the sisters have left, but now Sr. Mary Loquacious (now Mary Hodges, no sister) has turned it into a rather unorthodox corporate events center. They’re doing paintball. Lots of stultified corporate types have been handed nonlethal guns and told to have at it, which has exactly the result you’d expect (humans being humans) even before Crowley miracles their dearest wishes into reality and turns their paintball guns into real guns.

This is the scene Az&Cr stumble into (the paintball version to start). Nigel Tompkins has the bad luck to shoot at them as they’re getting out of the car, and after much hemming and hawing over stained fabrics, Crowley scares him off:

Tompkins thumbed another paint pellet into the gun and muttered business mantras to himself. Do Unto Others Before They Do Unto You. Kill or Be Killed. Either Shit or Get Out of the Kitchen. Survival of the Fittest. Make My Day.

He crawled a little nearer to the figures by the statue. They didn't seem to have noticed him. When the available cover ran out, he took a deep breath and leapt to his feet.

"Okay, douchebags, grab some sk-ohnoooeeeeee . . ."

Where one of the figures had been there was something dreadful. He blacked out. Crowley restored himself to his favorite shape.

"I hate having to do that," he murmured. "I'm always afraid I'll forget how to change back. And it can ruin a good suit."

"I think the maggots were a bit over the top, myself," said Aziraphale, but without much rancor.

Then later:

Nigel Tompkins had come to with a mild headache and a vaguely empty space in his recent memory. He was not to know that the human brain, when faced with a sight too terrible to contemplate, is remarkably good at scabbing it over with forced forgetfulness, so he put it down to a pellet strike on the head.

He was vaguely aware that his gun was somewhat heavier, but in his mildly bemused state he did not realize why until some time after he'd pointed it at trainee manager Norman Wethered from Internal Audit and pulled the trigger.

It’s this “scabbed over” language that really interests me, because ti comes up again with Mary Hodges. Trying to get information out of her, Crowley puts her into a kind of trance to question her.

"Good"-Crowley glanced at his watch-"morning, ma'am," he said, in a sing-song voice. "We're just a couple of supernatural entities and we were just wondering if you might help us with the whereabouts of the notorious Son of Satan." He smiled coldly at the angel. "I'll wake her up again, shall I? And you can say it."

"Well. Since you put it like that . . ." said the angel slowly.

"Sometimes the old ways are best," said Crowley. He turned to the impassive woman. "Were you a nun here eleven years ago?" he said.

"Yes," said Mary.

"There!" said Crowley to Aziraphale. "See? I knew I wasn't wrong." "Luck of the devil," muttered the angel.

"Your name then was Sister Talkative. Or something." "Loquacious," said Mary Hodges in a hollow voice.

"And do you recall an incident involving the switching of newborn babies?" said Crowley.

Mary Hodges hesitated. When she did speak, it was as though memories that had been scabbed over were being disturbed for the first time in years.

"Yes," she said.

"Is there any possibility that the switch could have gone wrong in some way?" "I do not know."

Crowley thought for a bit. "You must have had records," he said. "There are always records.

Everyone has records these days." He glanced proudly at Aziraphale. "It was one of my better ideas." "Oh, yes," said Mary Hodges.

"And where are they?" said Aziraphale sweetly.

"There was a fire just after the birth."

Crowley groaned and threw his hands in the air. "That was Hastur, probably," he said. "It's his style. Can you believe those guys? I bet he thought he was being really clever." "Do you recall any details about the other child?" said Aziraphale. "Yes."

"Please tell me."

"He had lovely little toesie-wosies."

Neil and PTerry are not authors like me, they don’t just use the same word all helter-skelter because they cant remember what they wrote five lines earlier. They’re funny and most importantly clever people. Or at least they have good editors who will call them on it. So likening this hazy or lost memory to a scab seems intentional to me.

But it’s not that Mary was traumatized by her time with the order. She was young and a bit hemmed in, but they weren’t evil in anything more than being allied with Crowley’s side. There’s nothing about her time with them that would be particularly upsetting, certainly not so much she’d have blocked it out even from her subconscious. Crowley’s putting her under here feels vaguely akin to hypnosis, suppressing part of her mental defenses so she’ll share more information with less filtering. And even then, talking about that time brings on the same sensation Nigel had when exposed to something too scary and --more importantly-- weird to fit with how he normally saw the world.

I think it’s Crowley. Specifically, Crowley letting his human face slip a bit. With Nigel it was intentional, with the nuns, possibly because Crowley was more distressed than he normally was so was less in control of himself? He wasn’t transforming into things that go bump in the night, sure, but between being so upset about the Apocalypse happening and these being his people so he didn’t have to fight so hard to hide his essence, I wonder if he didn’t let a certain something just ... slip through? Something the human mind just isn’t equipped to deal with?

It calls to mind another scene where we talked about memory and the benefit of failing to leave an impression, from much earlier:

"Is that him?" said Sister Mary, staring at the baby. "Only I'd expected funny eyes. Red, or green. Or teensy-weensy little hoofikins. Or a widdle tail." She turned him around as she spoke. No horns either. The Devil's child looked ominously normal.

"Yes, that's him," said Crowley.

"Fancy me holding the Antichrist," said Sister Mary. "And bathing the Antichrist. And counting his little toesy-wosies . . ."

She was now addressing the child directly, lost in some world of her own. Crowley waved a hand in front of her wimple. "Hallo? Hallo? Sister Mary?"

"Sorry, sir. He is a little sweetheart, though. Does he look like his daddy? I bet he does. Does he look like his daddywaddykins . . ."

"No," said Crowley firmly. "And now I should get up to the delivery rooms, if I were you."

"Will he remember me when he grows up, do you think?" said Sister Mary wistfully, sidling slowly down the corridor.

"Pray that he doesn't," said Crowley, and fled.

I didn’t think anything of it at the time, but maybe it’s not Crowley, or just Crowley, that makes her memories of this event feel scabbed-over. “Lost in some world of her own” could just be getting a little absorbed in the new baby (lots of women particularly are conditioned to think we need to coo over infants, and I can’t imagine the type of women who become nuns-- satanic or otherwise-- are much different in that respect). But it doesn’t have to be just that, does it? Prolonged exposure to the supernatural, even the also-human antichrist in his veiled form, seems like the kind of thing that’s too weird for the human psyche to easily come to terms with.

It’s interesting, because that sort of inability to be noticed is really biting Crowley in the backside now.

"Of course, we might be able to get a human to find him," said Aziraphale thoughtfully. "What?" said Crowley, distractedly.

"Humans are good at finding other humans. They've been doing it for thousands of years. And the child is human. As well as . . . you know. He would be hidden from us, but other humans might be able to . . . oh, sense him, perhaps. Or spot things we wouldn't think of."

"It wouldn't work. He's the Antichrist! He's got this . . . sort of automatic defense, hasn't he? Even if he doesn't know it. It won't even let people suspect him. Not yet. Not till it's ready. Suspicion will slide off him like, like . . . whatever it is water slides off of," he finished lamely.

"Got any better ideas? Got one single better idea?" said Aziraphale.

"No."

I’m not saying this has to be the same sort of inability-to-be-perceived that affected Mary and Nigel above. It could be a sort of built-in defense mechanism specially for the antichrist. But it seems on theme at the very least. There seems something deeply sad to me, and probably very relevant to the queer experience of the ‘80s and ‘90s, around the time this book was written and published, to there being something about your true nature that’s just not allowed to be seen and remembered.

Now I’ve made myself a bit sad, and if you’ve read this long you deserve to end on a treat. Luckily, our favorite authors have us covered there as well.

"Ducks!" he shouted.

"What?"

"That's what water slides off!" Aziraphale took a deep breath.

"Just drive the car, please," he said wearily.

They drove back through the dawn, while the cassette player played J. S. Bach's Mass in B Minor, vocals by F. Mercury.

#good omens #book omens #marta rereads good omens #queer representation #of a sort

[purrincess-chat]

blue guitar boy + 2, 3, 5, 7, 8, 13, 18, 19, 25

have fuuunnnn answering

Rae, you glutton for punishment, you XD

Fair warning for those who maybe don't know the history here, this answer will be salty~

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

His relationship with Marinette was short lived and stripped of any meaningful content

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character

That he got off essentially with no punishment for LYING TO MARINETTE'S FACE and keeping secret that HE KNEW HER FUCKING IDENTITY and she doesn't even get mad at him for lying about it, and the narrative doesn't punish him for it either in any meaningful way. I mean, I was happy he had to leave for a while, but then him learning Mirakungfu is just ehhhh I'd have preferred he just never found out and left anyway to go travel with Jagged. I also hate that Jagged is canonically his dad/a deadbeat dad. I liked Jagged significantly more before that was canon, but after that being canon it kind of ruined his character for me ngl...

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

Not really a song-song per se, but I think of jacksepticeye's Night in the Woods playthrough when he's like "why is there always some douchebag with a guitar who's like 'I sing about my feelings cause I play guitar'" and that is always the first thing that comes to mind when I think about him. Also, since seeing the Barbie movie I think of that one scene with all the Kens playing guitar at the Barbies, and I love that movie so much for pointing out how cringy it is.

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

They make him more attractive when they draw him than he actually is in canon

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

Literally everything else XD People who have been here a long time know about birthdaygate. I hate that they pretend he is better than Adrien, I hate that they act like the love square is toxic and their ship should have been endgame, I hate that they take key traits from Adrien and give them to the blue boy in order to make him more interesting but then shit on Adrien and act like he's the worst character in the show and somehow a creep/abuser toward Marinette/LB while propping up the blue boy on a pedestal as if he's god's gift to the fandom, I hate that they excused away him lying to Marinette about knowing her identity and even praised him for it when literally a season prior to that they shit on Adrien for finding out in CB and not telling her when she just literally had no idea and never asked, but when blue boy gets asked point blank if he knows, he lied and somehow that was perfectly fine and acceptable and they were glad he finally did something selfish/for himself for once. Literally, every time I read a take by blue ship truthers, I feel like my braincells die.

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

I don't have much of a reason for this, but I feel like he would sign off most of his messages with a peace sign ✌️

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

That one episode with Juleka wanting to model was kinda cute when he was encouraging her

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

Marinette~

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

Listen, for those that are like why so negative about the blue boy, Cat? What did he ever do to you? I want it to be known, that my first impression of him was very neutral. I didn't love or hate him. He was just okay. I thought he was a little bland, but I was open to seeing where he would go. The fandom 100% ruined him for me entirely. Canon helped later in S4 as I've already talked about, but it was mostly the fandom. Birthday spamming bitches. But when he first debuted, I just thought he was kinda meh, which was a crime apparently. But since then I've been more open with my disdain, so idgaf about it anymore. He's still mid imo.

Send me a character and some numbers

#cat replies #asks #ask game #blue one salt #blue boy salt

[llycaons]

ep27 (1/3) : it's not that jgs is a master manipulator, it's all these people are just so easy to manipulate

honestly these in-between episodes are not my favorite, but what can ya do <- written before I watched the episode and I completely did a 180. I LOVE eps where all they do is talk. get that juicy drama and characterization out there into the world. BUT FIRST

ICONIC ROMANTIC LINE FROM THE WORLD"S GOTHEST MAN

SINGLE TEAR OF REGRET AND LONGING

DRAMATICALLY STANDING IN THE RAIN FOR WHEN A REALLY RESERVED GUY JUST NEEDS TO BE INSANE FOR A BIT

this line makes me insaannee it gives him nightmares postres stil 'I'm friends with it' ITS HURTING YOU

oh shit lqr hasn't left CR in that long?

jc does try to stand up and apologize for, then defend wwx's actions.

and so does lxc! a tiny bit of respect for him once more

nie mingjue fans I hope you know your guy advocates openly for war crimes. not living him this rewatch. in fact I find his reputation for justice pretty galling at this point

i never cared about this before but that's sect leader ouyang. whose son will become one of wen yuan's best friends, who will defend him and care for him and fight by his side, who will advocate for wen ning and choose to stay with wwx instead of returning to his own father. this sect leader calls for the murders of wen yuan and his entire family, and 20 years later his son is one of that boy's best friends. might be getting emotional over ouyang zizhen for the first time...ever? it's the close read. I didn't dislike him, it's just the juniors are all best as symbols. only jin ling is much more than that

...really does make me wish the blood pool scene was in this show. fuck, what a moment. watch the donghua if only for that

oh, dastardly. he pretends to not care and play the forgiving patriarch and people naturally jump in to defend him and vilify wwx anyway. he pretends to care about jc as a sect leader but he really plants doubt and feeds off insecurities to push jc in the right direction. he was how jc grew up, he knows him. jc isn't that hard to manipulate, unfortunately. but this is vile

and now he's blatantly lying about things wwx said, and people are agreeing with him because they're eager to hop onto a scapegoat and they want to be one with the group, and jc is clearly believing it bc he doesn't trust wwx again and maybe never did, and lwj is the only one to go um? no?

yeah we know they're buds but this is one of the few times a stranger has recognized their closeness, and the fact that everyone knows about it. very different from the novel obviously, where tales of lwj hating and pursuing wwx were legendary and fed a lot into the miscommunication

uh oh. that means his actions are under suspicion too. not much lwj can say here without being undermined

ik I said earlier that wyb is too reserved sometimes? this isn't one of them. he's so angry here he looks about to cry, or throw up, or something. it's in the throat, and the mouth mostly. really good expression here

OH I SAW THIS TRANSLATION AGES AGO. LMAO

MIANMIAN YOU GO GIRL!!! xizun is so offended to have someone disagree with him. someone from his own sect! who should be parroting his words!

GIRL. ITS A LOST CAUSE BUT I LOVE YOU FOR TRYING

#cql re-rewatch

[revvethasmythh]

For the Critical Role ask game ^-^ aasimar (favourite location in exandria- or out of it), eisfuura (favourite npc), paladin (favourite friendship), rogue (moment that made you cry), and barbarian (favourite villain). I'd ask about tiefling (favourite female character) but I think I already know the answer to that one :) Feel free to pick which ones you'd like to answer- you don't have to answer all of them cause I put a lot down, but I got excited ^-^

aasimar: what is your favorite location in exandria (or out of it)?

Rexxentrum. Can't explain it, but I love the vibe of that city. I think maybe it reminds me of some of my favorite cities I got to visit when I was still living in Europe? Idk, but I love that place, #1 Exandrian city in my heart.

paladin: what was your favorite badass moment?

this is. this is hard. there are just so many moments to choose from. perhaps not a traditional answer, but I have to go with Fjord telling the rangers to engage the Tomb Takers and subsequently him smoking Zoran while telling Lucien "No way out of this fight, my friend." Like. Holy shit. That DID something to me

rogue: what was a moment that made you cry?

Caleb's memory dome on Rumblecusp! That was probably the first cr moment I watched live that really wrecked my ass, and it still does whenever I rewatch that scene. It's always the poignant, vaguely hopeful stuff that ends with me in tears (as opposed to straight up angsty and sad stuff).

barbarian: who is your favorite villain?

You know what, I have to give it to Uk'otoa (~uk'otoa~) because that sexy snea snake was such a long running villain and also he gave us our reunion two-shot. Beloved leviathan

Ask me some Critical Role questions!

#thank you for the questions!! #ask games #critical role ask game

[essayofthoughts]

Different nonny here—Anna Ripley is probably one of my favorite “love to hate” characters out there, and I’ve been watching CR since C1 up to the animated series. One thing I did take notice of, however, during the torture scene in the tv show, Percy’s pants looked to be unbuttoned. Now, I know Matt has said that the tv series and the original campaign are two separate canons, but I can’t help but combine them where I feel the gaps need to be filled. —>

Cont. — And actually /seeing/ Anna in the show kind of put the character in a different light for me. I do sort of agree with you, though, I don’t think she assaulted him, but she may have, I don’t know, threatened/used his “bits” to her advantage (in the least s*caul way possible) or something at one point before she decided not to and continued onto other means.

See, I don’t think that a canon as different as the show is to the campaign is really of any value when it comes to filling gaps? There’s a lot of nuance lost in the show due to the shortened runtime and there are definite differences in characterisation as well as plot choices due, again, to that shortened runtime as well as to the different medium. There’s also bits they 100% changed such as Archibald Desnay’s appearance and role or how and when Cassandra’s name appeared on the List. The two are not compatible worlds and using pieces from one puzzle to fill the gaps of another is generally a fruitless endeavour.

So.. yeah, I don’t use the show to fill percieved gaps in the original, especially when what I can infer from the character choices of the original can at least give me outlines for some of those gaps and the Dungeon Master of the Campaign outright says the show is a different world and canon to the original.

Due to the subject matter and the length, the rest of this is going beneath a cut.

I do agree, however, that Ripley could plausibly have threatened Percy in the way you suggest before moving onto other forms of torture. It’s not unlikely and she seems like the methodical kind to have gone through various options to find what they most feared before going from that. It is the kind of terrible thing her particular brand of impersonal, scientific callousness would likely lean towards, I imagine.

That said, though, based on Percy’s general reactions to various things through the course of the campaign, his primary fears seem to be burning (his reaction to being told they would be branded as members of the Slayer’s Take), loss of autonomy (his responses to being Hold Person’d), loss of senses/use of part of himself (his panic attack when he’s blinded in the Feywild), and seeing the bodies of deceased loved ones (him hauling Pike back into the pool while Vax was with Artagnan - his words were “You don’t want that in your head, trust me - and his nightmare under Orthax’s influence before the invisible stalker attack). I am inclined to believe his torture at her hands largely took the form of restraints, burning, limiting of senses, perhaps surgical damage (Ripley was a Doctor), and psychological torture in the form of his family’s slow deaths and their bodies in his or the neighbouring cell (depending on how literally you take his Orthax nightmare).

The thing is, if he’s being tortured, his clothes are going to get damaged. He’s going to be hauled around, thrown around. His clothes are going to be forced off him or damaged to allow access for torture. He’s not going to be allowed to change those clothes or get new ones. He may damage those clothes to bandage wounds. In canon it was a massacre before they were hauled down to the cells; it’s quite likely some of them tried to run or fight; further things that could well do damage to clothes. And again, regardless of the nature of the torture, some access to the victim’s body is going to be necessary - I don’t think it necessarily is 100% indicative, and you’re still using the show and not the original campaign canon to make these conclusions.

And, again, as I said in my ... damn near an essay, really - I think there’s more to it than just whether or not it was likely. I think the fact that, though we are never given the indication in canon it is nonetheless assumed - and these assumptions predate the animated show - says a great deal about the way trauma from torture is devalued by fandom when compared to sexual assault. The assumption seems to be that, for that torture to be meaningfully traumatic - and we know it was for Percy - that it has to involve a sexual element and that really says a lot about people’s perspectives on torture, trauma, and sex.

Namely, that torture isn’t as big of a deal and that sex is uniquely powerful both with regards to being a powerful experience and being uniquely traumatising. Which is bullshit.

I want to make this clear: I have been assaulted. I know very well how it fucks you up - that is why I have written some of the fics that I have written - and I find this belief that torture has to involve a sexual element to “matter” to be... insulting, frankly, to survivors of assault and of torture alike because it carries the assumption that one group has “really” been hurt, while the others... not so much. People who do this are using my trauma, my experiences, to dismiss or demean the trauma and experiences of others and I do not give them permission to do that.

And if these people will dismiss one person’s trauma as less significant, how can they be trusted not to dismiss the trauma of another? All it takes is for it to be framed in a way which it can be found acceptable. Anyone can be manipulated into believing something excusable. That’s how cults and authoritarianism work. All they have to do is find your poison.

Also... I just wanna say here that I have no idea what you mean by "s*caul" and I really do hate this new trend of removing letters from words to censor them. It makes blacklisting much more difficult for people who actually do want to avoid the words and to some people, it makes what's being said unintelligible.

Thank you for your thoughts, but I think we disagree quite a bit.

#percy de rolo #anna ripley #tlovm #vox machina #critical role #cr meta #anonymous #ask #my meta #once again i am #living up to my username

[caffiend-queen]

Happy Fanfic Writers Appreciation Day! Do you have some time for a few questions?

nildespirandum

imOriginally from @knuckleslove, tagged by @mareebird - thank you again!

Happy Fanfic Writers Appreciation Day! This ask game is unconventional because instead of writers posting it, and waiting for the inbox to fill up, I want YOU to send these questions to your favorite fic writers by tagging them on a reblog—because honestly I’ve never met a fic writer who isn’t SOOO excited for the opportunity to speak more about their stories.) To my lovely writers out there… just answer as many questions as you feel comfortable with. And by all means if you—a fic writer—are reading this, and nobody has asked you to do this yet, please consider this ME asking YOU to share about your wonderful stories.)

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— How long have you been writing fanfiction?  I started freshman year of high school writing an endless Star Wars fic about a female Jedi because they didn’t exist back then. So for literal decades, with some very long breaks in there.

— Do you have a favorite word? (One that you love. Doesn’t necessarily have to be one you use all the time.)  Fuck.  Ridiculous.  Shards.  Orange.  Press.  Swiftly.  Soughing.  Click.  Cerulean.  Roast.  Exactly.  Really.  Onomatopoetic.  Curmudgeon.  Scarlet.  Floof.  I could go on and on.

— Share a favorite run-on sentence that you’ve written.  “ There was no shock, no start, he was gentle, he was slow, he let her move towards him, just a step in so they met more and more and oh to feel her sweet mouth all unknowing and open and curious for him and he wanted his love back so terribly and this innocent tasted like her and looked like her and sounded like her and smelled like her but she was not his Nora his treasure, but she was a treasure and he treated her as such as something precious and when her hands found his shoulders to hold herself up he allowed himself to put an arm about her waist and oh she was seeking and learned and he let himself be her textbook, her classroom, her library, and he knew that there was spot on the tender inside of her lips that would make her shudder and push closer and now he was ruthless and he licked her there and her body pressed to his and the wind from the lake was cold so he used his free hand to wrap his coat about her as well. “

— Share a bit of a scene that you’ve written that still gives you FEELS. Ok, this is a bit long, but :

Loki stalked, furious, forcing his ‘guards’ to keep up with him yet again.

Who, exactly, did that golden-eyed bastard think he was, giving orders to a prince?  A disgraced, nearly disowned prince, but a prince nonetheless.

“Heimdall!” he roared, channelling his inner Thor.

The guardian stood as ever, perfect and unmoving, staring at things only he could see, “Highness.  Thank you for joining me.”

His voice was very soft and thoughtful, and it took the wind out of Loki’s sails.  

“Yes, well.  What?”  He spat the last word, trying to get some of his anger back.  He and Heimdall had always loathed each other.  Their very natures turned each other’s stomachs.  It was their weird.  And yet the sentinel had been nothing but respectful since his return.

“Your … companion, Mistress Walsh-”

“No!  I have told you over and over I do not wish for you to spy upon her for me!”  Loki was white-hot now, no, hotter, the kind of hot that felt like freezing.

Heimdall spoke even more softly.  “She requested me to speak to you.”

It was as if he had been struck and everything had caved in. “What?”  He gasped out.

Heimdall’s gaze returned to the sky.  “She is standing on the roof of your abode.  A bit ago she held up a sign, asking me to fetch you.  You must have told her in some detail about the palace and the Bifrost.  The sign said she would wait, since she knew it would take you a time to get here.”

Loki sagged, a hand to his chest, “What… what does she look like?”

“Thin, and a bit tired.  But she is dressed festively, in a great gown in your colors.  There are flowers in her hair, green and cream and pale orange.  She is holding a small white stick that she has lit on fire.”

Loki snorted a laugh and then a sob.  “She’s nervous.  Of course.”  

His own hands shook.

She found the dress.

“Now she holds up another sign.  She wishes you a happy birthday, Highness.”   Heimdall’s golden gaze turned to him, “As do I.”

“Yes, thank you,” he waved that away, “and now?”

“Another sign.  It says, ‘I think I remember what you told me these are for, so I am just going to put them on.’  She is opening a wooden box, and it contains-”

Heimdall fell silent for moment.  Then, “It contains bride price necklaces.  Many of them, blue stones for wealth by sea, brown for earth, crystal for air, red for fire.  Amber for fidelity.  Onyx for loyalty.  Pearls for trust.  Copper for friendship.  Iron for love.  She puts them on.

“They are beautifully made.”

“Thank you.”

“Another sign.  ‘I can’t make myself say what I want to through some damned cardboard and markers and another person, but you know.  It’s always yes.’

“Now she is lifting a glass of something pale and saluting the sky, and drinking.  She picked up a bundle of flowers, the same that are in her hair, and is leaning backwards and tossing them off of the roof.  I recognise this ritual.  She is holding another sign, ‘This is for you.’”

He looked at Loki, his head cocked in confusion.

“She knows you cannot hear, nor can I, but she sings.”

Once Loki would have rather been tortured, would have rather fallen between the worlds and burned to cinders than cry in front of his enemy.  Today he did not care.  

Heimdall turned his gaze back to the stars, pretending that he could not see the prince.

— What is your favorite kind of character interaction to write? — Do you have a hyper-specific genre? : I love writing dialog, writing character’s finding each other through words, though that moment when they stop struggling to be heard because they are being heard, when they able to entirely listen because they know they part of a whole with the other person, if only for as long as that conversation lasts.  

I suppose my hyper-specific genre is OG AUs.  Writing the worlds where a love and a friend that the main character needs, and that needs them in turn, is waiting.

— Any personal or frequently used tags?  I am a pretty weak tagger.

— Share a joke or funny moment that you’ve written that still makes you laugh.  The Incubus story where Loki gets called a “petulant emu” is up there, but I write a LOT of comedy.

— Best editing tip? That you should do it.  Which I rarely do.  Thank god for @caffiend-queen ‘s beta magic.

— What drives you to write? It used to be the stories fell out of me, usually starting with a scene that I could not forget, a character that I needed to learn more about through writing them.  Now?  I am so badly blocked I have no idea.

— Share something about your writing that you have wished someone would ask you about. Or alternatively, something that you are just really proud of.  I sometimes feel like I am one of the last OC writers out there.  We are living in a Reader world these days.   I think its important for fic writers to create characters, full characters, not just a series of response to situations but someone who lives and breaths on the page.  Someone that the reader (small r) come to love and care for.  

— Where do you draw inspiration? When things are going well it can come from anywhere.  One of my favorite stories was inspired by a folding bookcase leaning against a door and some leaves that had blown inside.

— What is your immediate reaction when you receive a new comment on a fic?  Utter and total joy.

— What is your biggest challenge in writing?  Normally, finding time. Lately, finding the words.

— 1-2 sentence preview from your current WIP?? (Only if you are willing.) From what will be the final chapter of Allerdale Hall, if I ever finish it :

The photo was black and white, with all of the earmarks of what made Ganguly an artist.  A genius.  Any scene - the nightmarish horror of the aftermath of a military attack on civilians, the grotesquery of the working conditions in a prison sweatshop, even the less visceral misery of a call center, or the temporary but very real joy of commuters chatting in the Tube - he photographed made the people within it immediate, real.  

No one was anonymous in an Owen Ganguly photo.  They were all people you could know, or could be, no matter how different their circumstances from your own.

— What story or scene are you most proud of? I am not sure.  I think that my favorite work is Loki and Nora’s Infinity Stone Playlist, but the one I am most proud of would probably be Perfection or At Hel’s Edge, which is now a Webtoon by genius artist @rauko-art  

— Please link your profile so we can admire your works!  Here is the link to my Masterlist  - https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/nildespirandum/629196042520477696?source=share

This makes me so happy because of all the writers I love, @nildespirandum is the most talented and visionary of us all. I re-read her stories for comfort, for inspiration, or for just grinding envy when I can’t think of the right phrase or wording because she always and effortlessly writes such beautiful work.

Thank you for the tag, my dear cousin. I don’t deserve you.

— How long have you been writing fanfiction? 

Uh... six years ago I think?

— Do you have a favorite word? (One that you love. Doesn’t necessarily have to be one you use all the time.

Fuck. I can’t stop myself. It’s a noun, a verb, an adjective...

— Share a favorite run-on sentence that you’ve written.  

— Share a bit of a scene that you’ve written that still gives you FEELS.

I want to preface this by saying it was actually inspired by Nil’s scene above. Here, Fiona is mourning Loki’s death in my story Sing, Banshee. Sorry, it’s long but most of it is from Starry, Starry Night.

Fiona turned to Thor again, painfully clearing her throat.

"Would ye'... would you like to speak of your brother first?"

She could tell he tried, Thor made a valiant attempt but broke down again, weeping hopelessly. Nodding, she looked up at the sky again.

"Starry, starry night Paint your palette blue and gray Look out on a summer's day With eyes that know the darkness in my soul Shadows on the hills Sketch the trees and the daffodils Catch the breeze and the winter chills In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand what you tried to say to me And how you suffered for your sanity How you tried to set them free They would not listen, they did not know how Perhaps they'll listen now..."

Fiona didn't pause in her song, but she could hear it. The wailing of babies feeling abandoned in their cribs. The sobbing of those left by their lovers. The loneliness of the elderly sitting in their chairs in their hospice centers. And she didn't care. The whole city would cry for her Loki. Everyone.

"Starry, starry night Flaming flowers that brightly blaze Swirling clouds in violet haze Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue Colors changing hue Morning fields of amber grain Weathered faces lined in pain Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand

Now I understand what you tried to say to me And how you suffered for your sanity And how you tried to set them free They would not listen, they did not know how Perhaps they'll listen now..."

She could feel the shuddering of the heartbroken, the lonely, those in physical and emotional pain, those battling fear and grief. Their sobs. Cab drivers with their heads on the steering wheel, shoulders shaking. Businessmen abruptly sitting down on the curb, expensive shoes in the gutter and covering their faces with their hands. Shoppers with their Prada purses pacing back and forth, wailing in confusion and shock.

The utter misery of the Avengers. Every one of them downstairs in Stark's fancy fucking living area, faces wet with tears and convulsing in their grief. Those selfish fuckers who'd sworn to protect each other. Everyone but her Loki. And it wasn't enough.

"For they could not love you But still your love was true And when no hope was left inside On that starry, starry night You took your life as lovers often do But I could have told you, Vincent This world was never meant For one as beautiful as you

Starry, starry night Portraits hung in empty halls Frameless heads on nameless walls With eyes that watch the world and can't forget Like the strangers that you've met The ragged men in ragged clothes A silver thorn, a bloody rose Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow..."

Behind her now Fiona could hear the anguished weeping of Loki's adopted sibling. She knew Thor truly loved his brother. She knew his heart felt torn from his chest at the agony of Loki dead, lying discarded on the ground with his beautiful emerald eyes open and sightless. So now she tried to pull back.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me And how you suffered for your sanity And how you tried to set them free They would not listen, they're not listening still Perhaps they never will."

— What is your favorite kind of character interaction to write? — Do you have a hyper-specific genre?

— Any personal or frequently used tags?

— Share a joke or funny moment that you’ve written that still makes you laugh.  

— Best editing tip?

Get someone else to look at it. I am deeply, deeply fortunate to have @nildespirandum and @imanuglywombat​ to read my work and tell me kindly if it’s complete shit, or helping me work through plot points. It’s the greatest gift of this community.

— What drives you to write?

I’ve noticed that there’s a lot of writers here who are parents of special-needs children. I suspect that this world we create is our sanity, our way of finding a home where we can fix problems that in real life are insurmountable. Our own little Bubble of Unreality.

Also, I like writing filth and smut.

— Share something about your writing that you have wished someone would ask you about. Or alternatively, something that you are just really proud of.

— Where do you draw inspiration?

Hearing people’s stories. I’ve been a reporter for most of my career and I believe everyone has a story. Something unique and fascinating. Hearing about their lives and experiences tends to spark something in my head.

— What is your immediate reaction when you receive a new comment on a fic?  

Holy fucking shit! People are actually reading my nonsense?

— What is your biggest challenge in writing?

Getting the time. It takes a certain amount of time to settle in and focus when you’re an ADHD asshole like me. 

— 1-2 sentence preview from your current WIP??

This is from Taming the Beast, my Sex Pollen James Conrad story:

With a screech like a barn owl’s, you jumped behind James, figurin’ his beautiful naked self would be no hardship to witness but you did not need one more living thing eyeing your exposed lady garden. 

“What the hell was that!” shouted Captain Martinez. His gaze darts from you and James to the thing bleedin’ out on the ground. “What the hell is that?”

“Whatever it is,” Mason said gleefully, “Conrad apparently killed it with only his knife.” For once, that sassy thing kept her mouth shut and didn’t add, “While naked.”

— What story or scene are you most proud of?

The Reluctant Bride. It’s the first book I published with the intention of trying to raise money for two crisis nurseries that my family volunteers for. Being able to make money from book sales that I could donate to the shelters was life-changing. My daughter and I went shopping with my first month’s royalties from Amazon and bought cases of diapers and formula and socks and big-ass boxes of goldfish crackers and... Shit. It was amazing. So thank you so much to everyone who’s read or bought my books on Kindle. Thank you.

— Please link your profile so we can admire your works!

Thank you again! I’m on Tumblr and A03

Questions for my favorite writers, please answer any or all that interest you.

— How long have you been writing fanfiction?

— Do you have a favorite word? (One that you love. Doesn’t necessarily have to be one you use all the time.

— Share a favorite run-on sentence that you’ve written.  

— Share a bit of a scene that you’ve written that still gives you FEELS.

— What is your favorite kind of character interaction to write? — Do you have a hyper-specific genre?

— Any personal or frequently used tags?

— Share a joke or funny moment that you’ve written that still makes you laugh.  

— Best editing tip?

— What drives you to write?

— Share something about your writing that you have wished someone would ask you about. Or alternatively, something that you are just really proud of.

— Where do you draw inspiration?

— What is your immediate reaction when you receive a new comment on a fic?  

— What is your biggest challenge in writing?

— 1-2 sentence preview from your current WIP??

— What story or scene are you most proud of?

— Please link your profile so we can admire your works!

Open invitation here for anyone who’d like to share more about their writing process. Share! Spill! Enlighten us!

#Happy Fanfic Writers Day #questions for my favorite writers #tell us about YOU

[tagalongifyoudare]

Wait you watch Critical Role?!? Which campaign?? Who's your favorite! Tell me everything!! (full disclosure CR was my life for a good while there until YR happened so I'm not entirely caught up at the moment but oh well :) )

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Okay; now that I have gotten that out... I haven't actually ever "met" anyone else who watches, so this is very very exciting. This is probably going to be long, so enjoy 🤷🏽‍♀️

CR was my life too, for like years!! I am fairly behind right now, but in the process of catching up!! I was a bit behind, and then YR literally took over my life for like months and months and months (and totally still is 🫀) They are just about to go to the ball, so Episode 13 of Campaign 3...

I have almost seen all of it (with the exception of a few of the more recent one-shots)!! I actually named my puppy Zahra after Zahra from Campaign 1 🫀 I am assuming you have seen all or most of it too? Maybe you stopped around the same point as I did? If not, just skip the campaigns you haven't seen! (You'll see a theme with my favorite characters though 😂)

It is always so hard for me to chose because they are all just so fantastic (and I find my favorites change based on my mood), so I will just give you a little bit about my most favorites (I would also LOVE to hear ALL your thoughts as well 🫀)

Campaign 1:

Pike and Grog are simply everything. They make me laugh, they make me cry, they make me feel all the things.

Scanlan is just fantastic in everything he does. I knew what was going to happen with him, and it still hurt so much. Add him to the Pike/Grog combo and only the best things happen (or the most heartbreaking).

*Side note-one of my favorite scenes is when Grog and Taryon go shopping and run into the guards. It always makes laugh until I cry.

Percy will always be one of my loves. I can't help but love a truly fucked up pretty boy, and like he is just the most fucked up and the prettiest 😂

Campaign 2:

Yasha will also always be one of my loves for basically the same reasons as Percy 😂 She is a fucked up pretty girl, and I love them just as much as I love fucked up pretty boys🫀 And her and Beau just have my whole heart.

Fjord is just so thoughtful and caring, even though he also almost never has any idea what is happening 😂 I love him so so much!!

Cad has always felt like my internal hermit. Like, I will go out, and I just want to help, but also, it's only fun for so long. Also the giant, scattered family is so true for me. Although I am no where near as calm as he is 😂

Essek will also always be one of my loves, for just all the reasons 🫀

Jester might be me a little bit? She always tries to be a light for others, and yet sometimes, she is just so dark. Also the jelly fish, and the cupcakes, and the tarot...she is just everything!!!

Campaign 3: I feel like I don't know them well enough yet, but kind of love them all so far!!!!

I also saw that you watch Derry Girls; once again very exciting!!!

I would really love to hear your thoughts when/if you want 😀🫀

[c-is-for-circinate]

Y’all this episode had everything I could possibly have wanted and things I never even knew to wish for.

How did one episode start with Henry Crabgrass, the most glorious and beloved NPC of my heart, and end with mother fucking Avantika, with so much awesome shit in between!!!  How!!!

Okay I am making a list of shit I absolutely loved tonight, in approximate chronological order:

Y’all I just love Henry Crabgrass so much.  I don’t even have smart things to say about that fact, just a warm glow in my heart.  May all the light of Melora’s grace smile down upon them and leave Henry as the toughest, most unkillable patch of crabgrass in all Exandria.

Vess and the Tombtakers, so many questions and so few certain answers, so many things to wonder, so many dots to connect!  I really do feel like the crew are connecting them at this point, and while I’m sure in some places they’re far from the map, the general outline really is starting to emerge.  What, exactly, was in the book the Tombtakers tried to claim without showing it to Vess deRogna first?  What did it do to Lucien?  And, if Vess has the book--what are they trying to find now?

So okay, let’s talk about Yasha and Beau. As someone who has had a lot of feelings about the intense relatability of Beau’s crush on Jester, I have now fully committed to also having a whole lot of mostly new feelings about these terrible awkward disaster lesbians with no fucking idea what they’re doing.  I saw a post the other day mention how this whole relationship is about the feeling of discovering you can have this, that you can actually be happy, that you get to have this kind of relationship with someone.  I’ve written about that.  And I feel it so, so hard, every time I see them interact, when every bit of bravado leaves both of them. It’s so easy to be off-putting!  It’s so easy to have crushes on wonderful people you kind of wish would look at you but you’re absolutely sure never will.  It’s so hard to actually know what the fuck to do in the face of wait shit this might actually be a thing I could get for real? how? wait, how???

Also let’s talk about Jester in that scene, who ships Beauyasha harder than anything in the world???   Because yes, right, some of it is just that Jester loves romance, and some of it’s that Jester gets very invested in the happiness of her friends, but that is a lot of investment there.  And I can’t help wondering if there’s a little dimension of...she wants to see True Love and Happily-Ever-After work.  And she’s delighted to see it work for her friends who she loves, and when it comes true they’ll be happy and she loves that, but also I don’t know that Jester’s ever actually seen two people fall in love with each other and enter into a healthy, happy relationship before.  But hey, all of her books say this wonderful magical thing exists, and now it seems to actually be showing up for her friends?  Of course she wants to see it.  Of course she wants it to be just as magical and wonderful as in all her stories, even if it’s not for her. (And maybe especially if it’s not for her, but I think that’s a whole separate post about Jester and her very high passive insight and all the people who are in love with her and the very specific ways she treats each of them.)

I love Yeza.  Don’t we all love Yeza?  He’s trying so hard.  It’s always great to see Yeza for that kind of wide-eyed outsider POV on the M9 shenanigans, and I love it.  He made a comment this episode about meeting goblins while living in Rosohna, and everything that’s happened to him really hit me in a while new way.  Usually I think about how he’s had his life turned upside down by all of this, but man, just think how much he’s seen that he never in a million years would have begun to expect to experience!  This smalltown alchemist from a pastoral little farming city in the middle of the Dwendalian midwest has lived for a significant amount of time as a housekeeper in the capitol city of the Krynn Dynasty.  He must have gone to the markets and met the neighbors and learned the streets and the food, and who had he ever known in his whole life who could say such a thing?  He lived with the Ruby of the Sea in Nicodranas by the ocean.  He’s been to Zadash, now, and it’s only a matter of time before he sees Rexxentrum.  How much farther will he go?  (Man, I would love some good Yeza fic once this campaign is over.  I think it’s going to take that long for me to really know how his story arc ends.)

Someone was posting earlier this episode about witnessing Vess scare Yeza so badly, and insight into how the Nein are starting to run in circles that really outstrip the people they used to know.  Watching Pumat in the wake of being Informed By Lady de Rogna That He Would Put A Rush On That has really hammered it home.  They remarked, in their very M9 somewhat idle vaguely ridiculous way that they wanted the icebreaker, and one tiny snowman later Vess had pulled rank and money and rerouted the ship’s entire passage for them.  She’s scary--and with her, the M9 have the kind of power that’s scary, too. And that’s always such an interesting moment.  The M9 are used to thinking of themselves as people with very little, who have to fight and scrap and get lucky for their own survival all the time.  And yes, they’re utterly careless with money--why not be, when it comes and goes and almost none of them have ever really seen it help or last?  And yes, they’re prone to violence and sometimes pretty rude.  But before now, it’s always been a situation where the M9 acting loud, rude, and demanding could be chaotic underdogs scrapping to get what they needed or wanted from people who had the option of saying no.  Suddenly they’re in a position where the balance of social situations is biased in their favor instead of against them. There’s such a difference between ‘please accede to my unreasonable request because I have a high charisma and will pay you lots of gold’, and, ‘you’re going to accede to my unreasonable request because otherwise my Cerberus Assembly boss may or may not have you assassinated’.  The M9 have never been on this side of that before.  I’m very curious to see how much they notice that they are now.

PALADIN OATH PALADIN OATH PALADIN OATH!  I was not paying nearly enough attention when that scene started, so I am going to need to watch it again and also make extra sure to read any available source material on this specific homebrew oath, because it’s probably not exactly the same as the Oath of the Sea homebrew you can find on google.  There’s some overlap between the abilities there and the ones Fjord already have, and the vows don’t quite match up, though some of them are close.  Ugh, mostly I’m just so glad it has happened and Fjord has promised and he means it, he means it so much.  He rest-of-his-life means it, and my heart belongs to Fjord who couldn’t even imagine the rest of his life as a thing separate from the monotony of his first thirty years, so very recently.

I actually always really love when CR has episodes at sea?  Obviously the M9 have done it the most, but Vox Machina went sailing a time or two as well, and it’s just always so great.  It’s often days of down time in a way that overland travel isn’t, and the party fills it with so many good little moments.  Matt always gives them such cool encounters.  On boats, spending a week at a time getting from one place to another, so much of the chaos of rewriting a plan seventeen times in an hour gets stripped away: they’re headed towards a destination, sometimes something comes up to deter them, and they have to find a way to deal with it.  There are always crew members and the structure of a boat itself to take into consideration in any combat that pops up.  It’s just such a nice tone, and I also love that the ocean itself kind of hates them now because it adds really delightful additional risks, and anyway heck yeah ocean voyage.

WHICH ENDS IN UNDEAD AVANTIKA ATTACKING THE SHIP WITH A TRIO OF CRAB-MEN AND WHO KNOWS WHAT ELSE HOLY FUCK.  Look, I think M9 becoming pirates by accident and then trying to figure out wtf might actually be my favorite arc of this campaign so far, and every time it comes back I get so so happy.  I’ve got some feelings about this showing up in the same episode as Fjord finally taking his full oath to the Wildmother. They are going to have to kill U’kotoa before this campaign is through.  They are going to have to, because Fjord will never be safe on the ocean again if they don’t, and Fjord has bound himself by vow and will in service as the Wildmother’s paladin of the open sea.  She hasn’t asked it of him, not specifically, but it’s his job.  It’s going to be his job.  In part it’ll be because it’s poetic justice, Fjord taking down the cruel demigod who (in some ways) made him.  Mostly it’s just that killing U’kotoa is a job that needs to be done.  To protect the oceans, the life they hold, the people who sail upon them, it’s going to need to be done.  It’s Melora’s domain to do this, which means it’s her paladin’s job, and Fjord is her paladin of the sea.  It’ll be him sooner or later.

I am so fucking delighted at the massive pile of fireworks on the deck of this ship, and I hope to god these Chekhovian bottle rockets go off before the end of this combat encounter, because this is, in fact, all I ever wanted the minute Beau put them in there.

#CR spoilers #episode 112

[strayingdawn]

Can I request a felix one where they go to a small shop to buy snacks at midnight and get in a tiny bit of trouble with the store owner by accident?

Of course! And sorry this took so long, I hope you like it! :) (I didn’t mean for it to get this long...oops. Sorry about that) >and feedback from anyone is always appreciated uwu

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“Are you crying?” Felix asked you with slight amusement in his eyes as he lifted one eyebrow.

“What?! Why would I be cr-” A startling hiccup interrupted your sentence. “... Okay, maybe I teared up a little.” No one would believe your failed attempt at denial if they could see you, and Felix had a front-row seat. Your red-rimmed eyes slightly stung as more salty streams of tears flowed down your face. The image was quite pitiful without context. However, in this scenario, Felix couldn’t help but let a few giggles escape him.

You and Felix had been trying to schedule a night to spend together for weeks, maybe even months at this point. Whenever you both thought you had finally set a date, one of your teachers would rip it from your fingertips and replace it with a new project or test to study for. Sure, you could have study dates, but you both know that your heightened crackhead energy when together and deliriousness induced by deadlines would not mix well. In short, you would both fail. And if you weren’t both drowning in assignments, either you would have a club meeting or Felix would have a swim meet.

However, finally, the odds were in your favor. After many tiring weeks of missing each other's warmth, smiles, and comfort, you both found a clear weekend.

So, tonight, you’re in your bedroom, surrounded by many blankets you didn’t even know you owned inside the elaborate fort you and Felix managed to somehow build. Of course, the first attempt failed after you “accidentally” passed a pillow to Felix while he wasn’t looking which resulted in a pillow fight, and Felix cheating by tickling you. Obviously, you still won, but that’s not important. You finally finished your fort after cleaning up the pillows and blankets that were scattered everywhere (including the pillow that somehow ended up on a curtain rod) and prepared Disney+ for your movie marathon while Felix got snacks downstairs.

Now, the reason why you’re crying right now. You and Felix were well aware that as long as you were involved, it wasn’t truly a Disney+ movie marathon if Hamilton was not played at least once throughout the night. And Felix is always willing to tolerate your addiction to the music and action that is Hamilton. However, with the number of times you’ve already watched it, which has surely exceeded fifty, he didn’t think you would still have the ability to cry by the final curtain call. Clearly, he was mistaken.

“Haven’t you seen this like fifty times?” he questioned with skepticism in his voice and some confusion painted on his face, especially since you usually remained neutral through any movie, despite the occasional teary eyes.

“Who cares! It’s heartbreaking seeing his monologue before death, Burr’s guilt, and then Eliza goes on to tell his story and the stories of others,” more sobs break through the air as you recall the final scenes. Sure, you could admit you were being a little dramatic, but how could anyone not find someone’s death and unfinished legacy depressing. “Wait...did we run out of snacks?”

But of course, food is some of the best medicine for sadness, and easily snaps you out of your misery.

“Huh, I guess so…”

“Well, what do you want to watch next? I can set it up while you get more.”

“About that...those were all the snacks you had…”

“What! What do you mean that’s all I had? It wasn’t even that much!” You knew you went through lots of snacks this past week while you studied since you usually pushed eating an actual meal to the side, prioritizing your work. But you didn’t know you basically cleared out the kitchen.

“Well, what are you yelling at me for? I’m not the one who runs on four hours of sleep a night and depends on candy and coffee to make up for it.”

“Okay, now's not the time point to point out my poor life choices.” You paused for a second, trying to think of a solution for your dilemma. “Well, what are we supposed to do now? It’s,” you glanced at your bedside clock, “12:00 am.”

“We could go to that little shop down the street” Felix suggested, but you weren’t sure you should go anywhere this late at night, especially in your current state, even though the idea of food was pretty persuading.

“I don’t know..should we be going out this late?” You were all for adventures, and you considered your neighborhood to be pretty safe, but your warm fort and stuffed animals tempted you to stay. Felix noticed your hesitation.

“Come on. It’s not like we’ve never gone out for a late-night snack before...plus, we can get creamsicles,” he said, nudging your shoulders, knowing you couldn’t deny your favorite ice cream. Curse Felix and the way he knows you like the back of his hand.

You sighed, also knowing he had you hooked. “Fine,” you huffed. “Let’s go.” You stood up and held out your hand, which he gladly grasped onto as he rose to his feet as well.

“Wow, you’ll really do anything for creamsicles,” Felix teased with a slight smirk that you could see in your peripheral vision.

“Oh shut up, you act like we’re going on some death-defying journey,” you roll your eyes at Felix’s attempt to provoke you. He simply shrugged his shoulders and chuckled a little.

As soon as you stepped out of your front door, you felt the gentle breeze envelope you. It wasn’t too cold nor was it too warm; it was slightly cool and simply refreshing. The soft wind pushed your hoodie and sweatpants into your body like a hug and blew your hair out of your face giving you a clear view of the night sky. The stars twinkled like glitter on a black piece of paper. You felt connected with everything as you inhaled a deep breath. You started to get lost in your surroundings until Felix’s slight tug on your arm brought you back to reality.

“Oh, sorry. I forgot how much I enjoy nights like these.” You had a relaxed smile on your face, as you admired the stars and the shapes they created while walking beside him.

Felix simply hummed, submitting the earlier, breathtaking image of you at such peace into his memory. “It’s fine. It does feel really nice out here. Aren’t you glad I convinced you to come?” He asked in a rather teasing tone.

“Yeah, yeah. Ya did good.” You rolled your eyes while letting out a chuckle. Felix followed with some of his famous giggles.

The rest of the small, five-minute walk was filled with little jokes and clowning each other if the other one tripped or stumbled. Before you knew it you were already walking into the little shop, and the woman, who you assumed was the owner since you’ve seen them at the shop in passing many times when the shop was closed, greeted you both, fairly friendly despite this late hour.

You and Felix separated once he suggested you could split up, considering you both knew each other’s likes and dislikes fairly well. You wandered across the beige floor tiles towards the chip aisle, while the drinks caught Felix’s attention.

After choosing seven bags of different chips, for variety of course, you noticed a certain stand-alone display across from you. It held quite the selection of little cake snacks. It seemed new which piqued your interest, so you decided to search for something that might suit your taste. Apparently, you must have been so focused on the baked goods that you didn’t even hear Felix’s steps coming toward you. Felix also noticed your diverted attention.

“Boo!”

Now, those who knew you well also knew your tendencies to be dramatic, especially when startled. So Felix’s sudden exclamation had you springing forward, arms flailing...right into the display. The whole snack arrangement wasn’t even that big, shorter than you, but it still managed to make a great boom and fading rumble as the impact sent waves of vibrations through the metal and some cakes went flying in different directions.

At first, you were frozen in complete shock, staring at the disaster in front of you. Until you caught a glimpse of the freckled boy who was now beside you, also surprised by your reaction.

“Felix!” You whisper-shouted in an accusing tone, even though the clear, loud crash surely already caught the store owner’s attention.

“What do you mean ‘Felix’? You’re the one who knocked it over!”

“And you’re the one who scared me which made me knock it over!”

“Well I didn’t know you were almost worse than Hyunjin and his dramatics!”

You let out an exasperated and somewhat panicked sigh. “Well, what do we-”

“Oh my goodness!” Oh no. You wouldn’t have to think about your question for too long, as the owner would surely give a solution. Whether that was good or bad, you didn’t know yet.

“Wh- I-I am s-so sorry! I was startled, a-and accidentally knocked it over! I promise it was an accident-” you fumbled for the right words to say, hoping the store owner would have mercy on you.

“Um...it’s fine..accidents do happen. However, you’ll have to pay for this mess you’ve created one way or another.” She still wore a calm, sweet smile that eased your worries.

“O-of course! We will gladly clean this mess for you.”

Felix noticed your specific choice of pronouns. “We?” You only jabbed Felix’s side with your elbow and confirmed what you said under your breath. As Felix attempted to reason with you, the store owner grabbed a garbage bin for the few treats that didn’t take the fall as well as others.

Forty-five minutes and a whining Felix later, the display was basically back to its original state, minus a few snacks. Thankfully, the owner didn’t immediately kick you out after your work was done and continued to assure you that the two of you were still welcome anytime. So, you both walked out with bags full of drinks and food to last you a week full of movie marathons, unless you get flooded with work and revert to old habits, of course.

“I still can’t believe you dragged me into your mess,” Felix commented, still seeming a little salty about being forced, by you, to clean up the little cakes crushed by the display. However, you knew his frown was only a disguise, so he could give you a hard time. Felix would have helped even if you had begged him not to. He might laugh at your misery first but would still lend a hand nevertheless.

“Oh, it wasn’t that bad. Besides, it was worth it,” you held up the bag you were holding full of ice cream. A smile slowly appeared on your face as you remembered Felix’s words from earlier. Felix seemed to catch on quickly, so you both spoke your thoughts aloud.

“Anything for creamsicles.”

#stray kids #stray kids scenarios #lee felix #stray kids felix #stray kids fluff #skz #skz scenarios #skz felix #skz fluff #stray kids imagines #skz imagines

[grayintogreen]

I was not technically tagged, but at least two people on my dash were like DO WHAT YOU WANT NO ONE IS YOUR GOD, and you know what? They’re right and valid. 

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

96! And 90% of them are from just this year. Can’t wait to find out what the big 100 is gonna be. Any one of my WIPS could be Disney’s next 100th fic.

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

455,024 (also mostly from this year...)

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

In my entire life??? Since I was twelve??? I don’t even know, man. I wrote a lot of ooc crackfic and fic for cartoons when I was on FF.net, and then I was on LJ and wrote for a TON of different fandoms, but on AO3, I have written for Critical Role (so much CR), Yashahime/Inuyasha, Guardians of the Galaxy, His Dark Materials (TV), Steven Universe, Bleach, Alias, Supernatural, Dollhouse, Pushing Daisies (the last four were all transferred here from LJ, though)

4) What are your top five fics by kudos?

- turning wine back into water (Critical Role, de-aging fic with plot, 30457 words)

I STILL CANNOT BELIEVE HOW POPULAR THIS FIC IS. It beat out two of my super popular GotG fics that have been up since 2017 BY A LOT. Apparently, there was a market for the Mighty Nein being adorable cocktail brats and saving the world. Thanks, Liam’s Quest!

It is probably one of the most wholesome fics I will ever write too. I love it.

- Sunshine Came Softly (Guardians of the Galaxy, Rocket and Mantis friendship, 3188 words)

THIS FIC STILL GETS HITS EVEN TODAY. It was written right after I saw the movie so it hit hard and fast on the hype train. 

- Mine Is Just a Slower Sacrifice (Guardians of the Galaxy, Rocket-centric, 2248 words)

BOY YOU CAN TELL THESE FICS ARE ANCIENT BECAUSE I HADN’T DEVELOPED MY TITLE NICHE YET. where are the lower caps and Seanan McGuire lyrics!!

Anyway, this was written probably IMMEDIATELY after I saw the movie and had to process Rocket’s emotions during the last moments, because of who I am as a person. For what’s mostly a character study, it got some mileage on it.

- they drink dreamers up like brandy (Critical Role, 1625 words)

Back to Critical Role! I wrote this one when I was in a fucking blind post-finale haze and producing massive amounts of Kingsley content and I wanted to write a silly fic about Caleb being tiefling catnip. 

- if adversity breeds character (we’ve character enough for two) (Critical Role, Beau and Molly-centric, 1824 words)

I feel like most of my most kudos-ed CR fics are Beau-related, which is funny because I never really wrote her EVER. I guess I need to write her more often. ANYWAY, this one got jossed immediately after 141, but I needed to write Beau and Molly bantering and I couldn’t get her flipping him off after revealing her card is Rumor out of my head.

(Incidentally my sixth most kudos-ed fic is my Fjorester next gen fic, WHICH I WAS NOT EXPECTING AT ALL. IT’S A FIC BASED ON MY OC FANCHILDREN!! I’M VERY EMOTIONAL ABOUT THAT!!)

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Usually!! There are times when I forget and then it’s been so long that I never go back, but I like responding to comments. They make me so happy and I want to make sure the people who take the time to comment know that I see them and appreciate them. Especially if they give me long comments. You long commenters know who you are and I value you and also flail incoherently in your direction.

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

God, probably this church takes no conversions simply because, like, the whole ending scenes are MISERABLE AND FULL OF ANGST and then it has the hopeful ending that is actually a bullshit lie.

But second place probably goes to what couldn’t i offer, what couldn’t i give, which is just misery porn in disguise as a character study. Sorry, Cree.

7) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

Okay, so back in the day when I was a tineh fanbrat I wrote a lot of self-indulgent crossovers featuring my friends and I in true Mary Sue format being ~saviors of the world~ alongside our favorite fictional characters and after I grew out of that, I very rarely did it again, because as someone who can only write AUs if they’re high concept and can only write crossovers if the canon welding is pristine, it’s difficult.

I have ideas for some! I just haven’t written them yet. Or they’re sitting in Google Docs partially written.

8) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not to my recollection, which is insane, because I’ve written some things in my youth that deserved it, but also I was a kid, so maybe I definitely did not deserve it. Don’t send hate to kids!!

9) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

The first smut I ever posted on AO3 involved some fucking American Gods flesh horror shit, so that answers your second question.

Basically, yes, but I write smut to facilitate character development in a way that regular story beats can’t, mainly with characters who are in some way deeply fucked up and have unbalanced dynamics. 

So basically chances of me writing smut that isn’t Creecien or Lucigast? Very low. (I haven’t written Lucigast smut yet but I will. Inevitably.)

10) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that anyone’s told me, but one time when I was a teenager someone ripped off an entire group messageboard RP I was in and tried to pass it off as a fic they wrote.

11) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that anyone’s told me!

12) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I tried and it did not work out, because of (non-wanky) reasons, but it’s just not something I’d be very good at. I was the kid who wanted to work alone on group projects. I’m bad at group work.

13) What’s your all time favourite ship?

That I’ve WRITTEN??? Because that at least narrows it down significantly. Sesshoumaru/Rin hands down. It’s a good dynamic and they’re fun and sad at the same time. 

My self-indulgent ass does also enjoy writing Creecien though. I’m putting it out there because I want it.

14) What’s a WIP you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

GOD POOR SUPERNOVAS OF ALL SOUND AND LIGHT. THAT FIC COULD’VE BEEN A CONTENDER, but I unfortunately posted it RIGHT BEFORE the White Diamond episodes aired and it became so jossed by canon so fast that I gave up on life with chapter two half finished. I need to delete it but I can’t bring myself to bury my shame.

15) What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and meta-narrative and character-specific stuff. I go into every story with CHARACTER FIRST mentality, which is how I end up writing so many damn character studies or why my word counts explode. I’m just out here naval gazing because I love character stuff SO MUCH.

I’ve been told I’m good at fight/action scenes too, which... Shocks me, but I think watching and playing a lot of D&D stuff has really improved how I write fighting and action sequences.

16) What are your writing weaknesses?

[whispers] too much naval gaze. dial it back, bitch. 

I get really caught up in character stuff and forget to do important things like ADVANCE THE SCENE OR DESCRIBE THE SCENE OR LITERALLY ANYTHING. I also don’t think my prose is all that great, but I’m pretty sure every writer feels that imposter syndrome bullshit, so /waves hands. All I’m saying is I have seen some writers on AO3 who are writing some fucking vivid imagery and stringing flawless sentences together and weaving introspection and description together like beautiful baskets and they are stronger than any US Marine and I salute them and wish to be them.

17) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Iiii try not to. There’s times where I want to throw in, like, a little Zemnian for Caleb flair, but I try to stick to things that are either untranslatable (like German compound words), common phrases (like please or come here), or insults/curses/ pet names. Things that I don’t think Google will fucking lie to me about.

18) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

I think it was a Sailor Moon crackfic about Haruka being forced to enter a beauty pageant which was just a blatant rip-off of Ms Congeniality and oh my god was it awful. I don’t even wanna talk about it.

19) What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

this church takes no conversions, probably BECAUSE it’s my little red-headed stepchild of a fic involving so many things that are just never going to make it popular (backstory fic, fic that is almost 85% headcanon, doesn’t involve popular characters, etc.), but godDAMMIT I love that fic so much. It was fun and I use every bit of that headcanon in almost everything like it’s my job.

shattered stage is a close second, because it was such a crazy concept for a fic that I PULLED OFF SOMEHOW and is this wonderful mix of crazy plot and character and lore and my three favorite tieflings having to work together. And also Jayne Merriweather as the main villain. 

A lot of love went into both of those fics and they are my babies. this time next year we’ll see if I add Creedemption and shoot at fate to this list- probably. All of my epic long fics resolve to be my babies because I spent so much time on them, and I have to love them and cherish them because I raised them into gigantic wordy attempts to write a doorstopper.

#writing meme #my writing #shattered stage #this church takes no conversions

[surprisegents]

tagged by @teatraysandtypewriters​. thank you!! this was pretty fun ngl

1. Name: nervous laughter

2: Gender: guy.. person. yeah

3. Star sign: virgo

4. Height: 5′10"

5. Time: 7:48 pm

6. Birthday: september

7. Favorite band(s): this changes All The Time b/c i tend to like individual songs more than bands but uh. lord huron, walk the moon, of monsters and men, aeseaes, florence + the machine

8. Favorite solo artist(s): you all know who this is. it's hozier. but also mika and charlene kaye and like. so many others

9. Song stuck in my head: never give up on me by misterwives and meet me in the woods by lord huron

10. Last Movie: prospect - which was a weird film but i ended up enjoying it by the end? cool worldbuilding and i really came to love cee and ezra, though i did have to mute and fast forward through the arm scene euughghhghhhh

11. Last show: the clone wars. FINALLY starting it and i get the clone love now

12. When did you make this account: oh it was right before m*gicians was popping off. i've been here on and off since probably, damn, 2011 though?

13. What do I post: the long-lasting hyperfixations lmao. the short ones get sideblogs. right now it's a lot of star wars, art/photography, stuff that makes me laugh, and cr when i get nostalgic

14. What is the last thing you googled: bookoutlet - a canadian clearance book shop

15. Other blogs: a rarely updated star trek one @tenbackward​. a good vibes one that i'd rather keep private because right now it's containing my embarrassing blogging about p*dro p*scal's filmography. and of course, most of you know me from my m*gicians blog @eliotsvests​ rip

16. Do I get asks: rarely. mostly the occasional ask meme or lost, kindly anon

17. Why did I choose this url: i had it saved on my old cr account. had to take a break b/c of a rough situation with a mutual, and when i remade i wanted to keep something from the old blog. plus i think it works whether or not you know the cr reference

18. Following: 513. i gotta clear some out

19. Followers: 157 here. 704 including the sideblogs

20. Average hours of sleep: 😬

21. Lucky number: my answer to this was always 15 & 21 but they were just old jersey numbers

22. Instruments: piano for a few years as a kid, flute for 6 years through school, and i used to dabble in learning guitar before constant hand sanitizer use at work Destroyed my hands

23. What am I wearing: grey overwatch hoodie and maroon joggers

24. Dream job: damn idk. travel writer? someone give me money to go pretty places, learn other languages, and wax poetic about it

25. Dream trip: literally anywhere that isn't the us. maybe ireland or japan? i'd like to see more of canada too, like british columbia or the east coast. though i'd honestly kill to just sit in a library or coffee shop right now

26. Favorite food: man i love good sushi

27. Nationality: canadian

28. Favorite song: changes CONSTANTLY. almost (sweet music) by hozier has been a fave since it came out though

29. Last book I read: still working on it but the thread that binds by cedar mccloud. it's indie, has magical nonbinary librarians, and is set in a nb society where most people use ey/em pronouns if that floats anyone's boat

30. Top three fictional universes I would like to live in: star wars (preferably not during the height of space fascism), harry potter i guess, and.... i honestly can't think of any other universe i wouldn't immediately die in so. west wing. aka the alternate timeline where bartlet & santos were the 00s american presidents

(if you want to no pressure) i’m gonna tag @maliro-t @delunesnumberonefan​ @impossibletruths​ @crossroadsghost​ @allthethingamabobs​ @regina-cordium and @girlturnedgamer​. if anyone else wants to please just go ahead and say i tagged you!

#thanks audrey! #this made me wanna break out my old piano and flute books tbh #a talks #ask meme #also. by rough situation with a mutual i mean 'ended up flooding me with 100+ messages a day' jfc #so now the 3 of you who remember my old blog know the sordid tale

[radiorenjun]

Lavender Antics

→ Pairing: Han Jisung x Reader

→ Summary: Shooting in a drama with him was your absolute nightmare. Working with your enemy and pretending that you were love interests has been the most frustrating experience of your life. Though, after saying your farewells, the scent of lavender never leaves.

→ Warnings: Explicit Language. Antics. Mentions of insecurity. Alcohol, Making out. Suggestive?

→ Chapters: 4, 5, 6

As Jeongin continued to play with Jisung's switch, Jisung stared at the ceiling with his hands behind his head as he layed down on the bed next to his best friend. Jeongin noticed how disturbingly quiet Jisung had gotten since he called him out at the bus stop.

Jeongin tried his best to get a reaction out of Jisung without him being too obvious to see if he was just spacing out because of a horror scene he probably came across on YouTube or if something had really upset his friend to get him sighing exasperatedly every 13 seconds.

Jeongin gave out loud reactions as he played his game, chewing his snacks as loudly as possible and fidgeting around the king-sized bed next to the spaced out boy, but nothing exept an exasperated sigh was released from the squirrel-looking boy.

Jeongin gave out a dramatic exhausted sigh, putting down the switch on the table and sitting up on the bed with a snack on his lap. "Alright, hyung. What's wrong? This is literally killing me." Jeongin asked, with a perplexed expression.

"What? Seeing me all sad boy?" Jisung mumbled, not tearing his gaze away from the ceiling. "No, you're literally killing me in this game because of your loud ass earthshaking sighs." Jeongin stated simply, laying his chin against his palm cheekily.

Jisung's brows furrowed as he turned his head to look at his friend smiling innocently. He rolled his eyes and continued to stare at the ceiling, getting lost in his thoughts once again. "Alright, all jokes aside. What's actually wrong, hyung? You haven't been this quiet since Minho and Felix got eliminated in the survival show." Jeongin asked.

"Promise not to be a childish dick about what I'm bout to spill?" Jisung muttered, avoiding his friend's eyes. "Unless you did a really hilarious stunt that caused you to slip and fall, no promises." Jeongin joked, earning a small hit from his friend.

"I'm serious, dude!" Jisung exclaimed, sitting up on his bed. "Okay, okay! What's up?" Jeongin raised his hands up defensively with a shocked expression. "I.. I made y/n upset." Jisung spoke hesitantly.

Jeongin's brows furrowed as his lips formed into a small frown. "And your point is?" he asked, confused at what's the problem. "What do you mean 'my point is'?! I made her upset!" Jisung exclaimed, giving Jeongin a nudge.

"Come on, hyung. I know you're a dumbass but surely your ass isn't dumb enough to not realize that you make her upset basically on a daily basis." Jeongin shrugged as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Which, it was at that exact moment.

"No, you prick. I made her cry!" Jisung exclaimed, falling back into his pillows and burying his face into the soft fabric. Now, this got Jeongin's full attention.

"What? How? Did you make her smell your feet or something?" he asked, earning an annoyed look from Jisung. "Okay, okay! I'm sorry. But what happened?" he exclaimed, taking a pillow as a shield as he saw Jisung ready to go out on him.

"Well," Jisung sat up again, pulling his hood on and pulling on the strings as he plays with them in between his fingers. "She was being rather quiet and I got bored, I tried to get a reaction out of her like always but she kept quiet. So I pestered her the whole day until she finally snapped."

"And when she snapped, I just kept on going and going but then she screamed at me in the middle of the streets and she was crying. Then she just stomped away to walk to the hotel herself." Jisung shrugged sadly, guilt filling his stomach as he recalled your teary eyes.

"Dude. That's fucked up. Didn't you know the poor girl's grandma passed away?" Jeongin tsked in disappointment, folding his arms and shaking his head. His actions reminded Jisung of Bang Chan in this sort of situation. Man, he misses that guy.

"What? Her fucking grandma died?!" Jisung exclaimed in shocked, guilt filling him up even more. "Dude, no one told me!" Jisung ran a hand through his hair in frustration. "Didn't you hear Yeoreum telling us, more specifically you, to leave her along to grief this morning at the makeup room?" Jeongin scolded.

"I couldn't hear shit! I had airpods on!" Jisung groaned. "So that's why she was so damn sad the whole day! Fuck, I should've just left her alone before she snapped." Jisung whined, collapsing to his pillows once again. He felt like shit. He was the type to joke around but he didn't mean to make people cry when doing so.

"You fucked up bad, buddy." Jeongin patted his hyung's back, grabbing the switch as he leaned against the headboard to leave his friend wallow in the pit of guilt of his own actions. Jeongin's eyes darted from his switch to his friend who was dramatically sulking into his pillows.

"I fucking said, 'you're acting as if somebody fucking died'. I'm a jackass, fuck." Jisung's voice was muffled by the thick fabric but audible enough for his maknae to hear him. Jeongin let out a groan, "my fucking God."

He scratched his head, "if your dramatic ass really feel that guilty, you could just be a normal person, which I doubt you are, and you know. Apologize." Jeongin suggested in a tone that stated the obvious.

Jisung's head shot up in excitement, his eyes wide. "Right! Apologizing existed! Dude, you're a genius!" Jisung grabbed Jeongin's shoulders and shook him vigorously. Jeongin gave him a double chin disgusted frown, pushing his friend's hands off of him.

"It's called thinking. You should try it sometime." he replied shortly. "Wait, but how am I suppose to do that?" Jisung asked with a pout. "I don't know man. That's your problem. Seriously, I came here to hang out and use your switch as if it were my own. Not act like Channie-hyung and become a dad, ew gross." Jeongin shivered in disgust at the thought.

"Don't you have your own switch, though?" Jisung's brows furrowed in confusion. "Well yeah, but you have more games." Jeongin shrugged with a grin. "Bruh, if you want my games so much just borrow some." Jisung shoved Jeongin who gave a small laugh.

"Really? Okay, then. Adios, my dude." Jeongin grabbed Jisung's switch and quickly exited his room before his friend could chase after him. "I didn't mean you could take my switch! JEONGIN. HEY-" Jisung shouted before he heard the door click shut.

Jisung bit his lip as he stood in front of your hotel room door with a bag of your favourite drink in hand and some onigiri and mochis in the other bag. Without wasting another second, he knocked on your door and patiently waited for you to open the door.

His foot tapping against the carpet floor as he heard small footsteps from the other side of the door. The door clicked open, revealing you in your pajamas looking all sleepy. You looked at him with a blank unamused expression, gazing at him from his small smile to the sole of his sneakers tapping impatiently on the carpet floor.

You closed the door as if he was just a person walking by, but he stuck his foot in to hault the door from closing. "Y/N-" Jisung started before he let out a small noise as he felt you push harder against the door. "Fuck off." you mumbled in a hoarse exhausted voice.

"Y/N, hear me out." Jisung tried to reason as he pushed the door back with his foot as hard as he can as you both fought against the door. "No, you and your donkey personality can just fuck off!" you exclaimed, putting your back into closing that damn door.

"I brought you your favorite drink, mochis and onigiris! What more do you want in order for you to hear me out for just two seconds?" Jisung exclaimed, feeling you hault your movements at the mention of your favorite foods.

"You what?" your head poked out of the doorway as you eyed him suspiciously, realizing that he was carrying a bag of your favourite foods in his hands. "Why?" you asked with a raise of your brow.

Jisung opened his mouth to say something but closed his mouth when he realised that he doesn't know what to say now that he finally grew some balls to apologize after sulking for thirty minutes in his room. 'Fuck,' he thought, 'I didn't fully think this through.'

"Well?" you raised your brow, gesturing him to continue with his words. "I... I heard bout your grandma and I just wanna say I'm sorry for being an inconsiderate asshole and I want to say my deepest condolences to you. Please accept these foods as a token of my apology so we can go back to being friends again." Jisung blabbered, avoiding eye contact as he shyly spoke, his ears turning red involuntarily.

Your eyebrows raised in surprise as he stretched out his hand to give you the bags. "You're here for that? And you consider me as your friend!?" you exclaimed, dumbfounded at the boy's actions infront of you.

Jisung's brows furrowed as he looked up at you with an offended look, "of course I consider you as a friend! You don't consider me as one?" he pouted, his hands going down as his expression saddened.

"Well, with your fucking attitude towards me I thought you had some sort of grudge against me as if my ancestor killed yours or something." you shrugged. "The ancestors thing might be a possibility. But you're funny when you get riled up. I never hated you, y/n. I felt like shit when I saw you cr-" he whined.

"Don't even say that word, I was being sentimental and emotional." you cut him off and cringed the embarrassing memory of crying dramatically in public. "Okay, sheesh. What Im saying is, I'm sorry for going too far with my antics and I want you to have this." he handed you the bags with a small smile.

You bit your lip as you accepted the bags in your hand and gave him a smile. "You're alright, Jisung." you nodded. "Does that mean you forgive me?" Jisung grinned, stepping closer to you as he practically towered over you.

"Dude, I forgave you three seconds ago. Go to sleep its like 11 PM, we have to shoot scenes first thing in the morning tomorrow." you chuckled, putting down the bags on the floor and gently pushed him, eliciting a laugh from him.

"Alright. Alright. Good night," Jisung giggled as he walked towards his door. "Goodnight to you too, Han. Thanks for the food by the way." you smiled, leaning so you could see him standing infront of his doorway, giving him a small wave before getting inside and closing your door.

You picked up the bags and lay them on your nightstand, checking to see what that ridiculous boy had bought you. Something inside caught your eye as you reached a hand down the bag and pulled out the object in sight.

You bit your lip, smiling as you saw a bouquet of lavender wrapped together with a small silk, some small carnations adding some colour to the bouquet. That boy really is something.

Jisung leaned back to see you pick up the bag he brought you before closing your hotel door. He sighed to himself, biting back a smile as he thought bout your reaction to his small gift inside.

He noticed how you kept looking in awe at the lavenders nearby, longing to pick one of them so he went down to the nearest bouquet shop and bought the most eye-catching lavender bouquet they had.

He chuckled to himself, wishing he could see your reaction when you see his gift as he fidget his hands around his pockets to pull out his key card to his room. He soon frowned when he doesn't feel his card anywhere in his pockets.

He pulled out his wallet to check if his card was there. Unfortunately, it wasn't there. He locked himself out. 'Fuck my life.' he thought before jogging down the hall to Jeongin's room where he knocked nervously.

Jeongin opened the door with his bed hair looking like an untamed mane as he squinted sleepily at his friend. "Hey Jeongin-" Jisung greeted nervously before Jeongin shut the door to his face.

"Asshole!" Jisung exclaimed in a soft voice but loud enough for the younger boy to hear him from the other side of the door. Jisung clicked his tongue as he pulled out his phone and dialed the only person he knew who could help him.

"Manager-nim! My favorite hyung! How are you?" he laughed as he walked towards his manager's room nervously. "You're gonna be laughing your eyes out when you hear me out. So. I got a little problem..."

I was so motivated to write with all the comments that wanted me to make more of Lavender Antics like Bruh I didnt think this would be so popular💞💞😳😭

#lavender antics #skz imagines #skz scenarios #skz jisung #skz #stray kids #stray kids imagine #stray kids smut #stray kids x reader #skz ff #stray kids fanfiction #stray kids fanfic #stray kids fic rec #stray kids fluff #han jisung imagines #han jisung

[finnskeeper]

Critical Role - Campaign 1 (Thoughts Machina): Episodes 34 - 44

AKA: HERE BE DRAGONS, Y’ALL BE FUCKED

I am really gonna like this next part of the story, me thinks. I think it’s pretty obvious by now, but beware spoilers ahead:

Seriously guys? Another door?

Aww...Kiki trying to break Vax's mind-control by appealing to him was sweet.

One of my favorite things about CR: *someone asks Pike a question* *Ashley turns to Matt* *Matt explains a thing in full earshot of everyone* *Pike relays (almost word for word) what Matt has just said*

Is Keyleth fucking bloodbending?

I am living for the twins rolling Nat 20′s to aid the other after something catastrophic happens. Laura did it (twice in a row) after Vax was dropped by the Briarwoods at the palace, and Liam rolls one to parkour to her side after Vex falls at the Ziggurat. Twins giving me life.

Vecna? Aww hell no

Scanlan tosses Percy's gun into the acid, severing his connection with Orthax *me, remembering C2*   Huh

Much needed R&R

GROG YOU SHOULD BE RAGING

It’s so surreal to hear the entire cast chanting my name, but I'll take it Note to self: Make that an audio clip for my phone notifications

LOL Scanlan forgetting he bet his purse against the rival flutist and then letting her win is classic Sam.

CALLED IT. Kaylie dropping some bombs

ROFL Scanlan gets caught in a force cage...Travis immediately: "He's a dick in a box." Instant fist bump from Liam

This entire stockade scene is giving me life

I'M SORRY HOW MANY ANCIENT DRAGONS?? Emon is fucked

WHY ARE WE NOT RUNNING??

Emperor Uriel: Hey, everyone. I'm gonna abdicate my throne. Chroma Conclave: LOL what throne

Awww...Vex multiclassed into Rogue. That'll be nice for the next hour or so until the TPK if they keep trying to fight these dragons head on

LOL "Are we running?"  YES THAT IS WHAT I'VE BEEN YELLING AT YOU ABOUT FOR THE LAST HALF HOUR

STOP TALKING TO UNKNOWN SHADOW ENTITIES, PERCY

Oh man, that lore drop

"I want to kill that dragon or die trying."  

Vax storming the looters at Gilmore's furiously...YASS

GILMORE NO

Oh thank Sarenrae

Gilmore: "I've never dueled a dragon before." Vex: "You fared pretty well." Gilmore: *laughs* "No, I did not."

If Matt had killed Gilmore, Liam would have left the table.

Also, as much as Vaxleth is tugging at my heart strings, Vax has two hands, y'all. All I'm saying is we're missing out on the opportunity for Percy to introduce them in his own wonderful way. "This is my best friend, Keyleth, and Keyleth's boyfriend, Vax, and Vax's boyfriend, Gilmore."

Sending refugees to Whitestone is a great idea

VAX: "There's definitely no vampires there." NOT HELPING VAX

Vex's limerick though...

VAX TO KEYLETH: "I don't want to be alone tonight, do you?" Everyone immediately:  😲

If the Chroma Conclave kills Victor the black powder salesman I'm gonna fucking riot. As a matter of fact, move his entire operation to Whitestone please.

MATT: "You are met with a large...double set of doors." LIAM: "We should just leave."

First 3D map!

ROFL. Matt just threw another beholder at them and they all lost their shit

Oh no...Percy what did you do!

Oh no, Laura...and Liam plays that moment so well climbing up out of the pit

LIAM STAHP WITH THE FACES I CANNOT

Vax with a fucking power move! I mean, I know what happens but this is still fucking amazing. I cannot wait for this to unfold in the future.

Character Rankings (As of Episode 44):

1) Vax (Pulling away from the pack now. Gonna be real hard to catch him now, truthfully. I love one angsty stabby boi)

2) Percy (The end of that Briarwood arc was satisfying, and it’s nice to see him finally free from Orthax’s influence. Let’s see if he makes better decisions [as of episode 44 that is a definite no LOL])

3) Vex (I love how Laura is all in on this greed thing, even to the detriment of her own well-being. And her and Liam are just too adorable for words)

4) Scanlan (Fatherhood has mellowed him [thankfully] and now we are getting far more poop jokes than anything else. But that’s okay. Those songs slap.)

5) Keyleth (That wind walk thing in the worm cave worked itself out, but hoo boy it could have been bad.)

6) Pike (truthfully, this rank is solely because she hasn’t been present for most of the current arc, but I love her)

7) Grog (Oh, how the mighty have fallen. I still love you, NotPhillip, but you gotta ditch that sword)

#critical role #campaign 1 #vox machina #thoughts machina #vax'ildan #percy de rolo #vex'ahlia #scanlan shorthalt #keyleth #pike trickfoot #grog

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and the rewatch continues

So rewatching most of season 5 and dipping into season 6, after coming from season 4, I found some things very interesting, things I actually had forgotten about and some that just hit differently now that the show has ended:

Season 4:

Brothers - different iterations: Had that finale happened after this season, it might have made better sense (though I STILL say the manner of Dean’s death is laughable)

Destiel & Cas: While Cas and Dean have some uncomfortable staring contests and there’s chemistry, I didn’t get the whole Destiel vibe (this is just my personal take), yes there’s a bond there, a growing partnership so to speak but I feel like Cas is not around enough for it to be in the forefront of the story or even to demand Dean’s attention in a way. Like Cas made his big entrance in 4x01 and we saw how things took off from there for the story and for this connection/bond between he and Dean but Dean is early season Dean and Cas is early season Cas. Though I found Cas’ interest in everything Dean Winchester to be intriguing (and he put Dean back together with his own hands, I just...this really does become the greatest love story ever told, I swear), I personally didn’t get the whole UST vibes that has been talked about. I actually found myself wanting to go deeper into Cas’ story (a la 6x20 style) aside from Dean’s and Sam’s. 

Anna: That whole night with Anna was purely that: a night. There wasn’t a whole lot of chemistry between Jensen and Julie and it’s very clear that this whole sex-on-last-night-on-earth thing is for comfort, for both characters. I kind of get why they switched up gears there for Dean’s angel role, even if they didn’t intend for Destiel to read as romantic at all initially. 4x09 & especially 4x10 were so obviously trying to ying and yang the brothers and the sides that had chosen them/complemented them: Anna | Ruby, Heaven | Hell -> eventually Michael | Lucifer. But back to Anna, while I enjoyed her character and would have loved to delve deeper with her, I am glad Cas was the one who got to stay. Anna and Dean had no chemistry, outside of a couple of glances before the big hookup/last night on Earth deal, there wasn’t really anything there. Tbf, they didn’t have a lot of private time before that, except maybe one convo. To me, in this scenario, Anna was a source of comfort (after she tells Dean he needs to forgive himself for what happened in Hell which I very much appreciated, someone had to tell him that) and attraction, letting her have her last night on Earth, a hookup, etc. But there was nothing deeper there. And for this bond with an angel to happen, there needed to be something deeper there. Perhaps had Anna been around longer and didn’t go the way she did in season 5, it might have but I honestly tend to doubt it. We all know Cas and Dean’s (Misha’s and Jensen’s) natural chemistry is off the charts. I’m not sure Anna (Julie) could have competed with that had both Cas and Anna stuck around together. I know I’m completely biased here, but I almost felt like Anna and Cas had more chemistry together, it might have been because they got more face time, I’m not sure. But I thoroughly enjoyed watching it all go down again.

Adam: Omg I forgot about how Adam wasn’t Adam when Dean and Sam first met him. That was heartbreaking on so many levels, but mostly for Adam and his mom dying the way they did and of course, for Dean and Sam. Namely Dean because he was the most affected by finding out about Adam’s existence. And I swear I fell in love with Dean more in that episode as a character because despite his pain, his anger, his hurt, he still tries to do the right thing by Adam, to honor his dad’s wishes. And John...that mf’er doesn’t deserve any of those boys as his sons. What an asshole through and through. 

Season 5:

Destiel & Cas: And now we see Cas becoming a bit more forefront and the vibe has changed...slightly. Now it’s a partnership turning into a friendship. Dean and Cas get a bit more face time and it shows. 5x03 was awesome and of course the wholly unnecessary line of “One, Bert and Ernie are gay” -- like where did that come from? I still loved it. It was tough to see Dean and Sam go their separate ways in the beginning but we still got some gold out of it with 5x03 and 5x04. And thankfully, we get more into not only more of the angel and apocalypse lore this season, but we also get to see how Cas’ relationship with the Winchesters is changing and more of what makes Cas tick as a character in his own right. And of course, bamf!Cas was very present. 

Brothers: Once again, had that finale happened after this season, it might have made more sense (sans the junk death) - because it’s very obvious that the co-dependency is alive and well here and it would have made more sense for their characters - while they have others outside of the two of them they are caring about (Bobby, Ellen, Jo just to name a few), it’s still the exclusive Winchester-only club. I truly enjoyed watching these two working together and moving towards the season finale. Dean’s memory of Sam and the fireworks, Dean talking about how Sam’s best memories weren’t the same as his (shocker, John Winchester is a d-bag, I’ll keep saying it), Dean struggling to make the decision to say yes to Michael, having to agree with the plan for Sam to say yes to Lucifer to try to trap the latter, Dean showing up to the cemetery -- all of it was incredible and the two of them were the beating heart of the show at that point. 5x22 will always be one of my favorite season finales for that show. It was pure awesomeness, truly epic and perfect.

Dean: holy hell, they really, really threw a lot into Dean this season - not that they hadn’t before, but damn. Each season just amps up the Dean game, just like I remember, and I am happily here for it again. No offense to Sam at all, but Dean is just so complex, so complicated yet straightforward, and there’s so many layers to him that they just keep peeling back and they feed us well each season. I swear, if you turned the sound off and just watched that scene where Dean tells Zachariah to call Michael, where Dean and Sam go their separate ways, you would know exactly everything Dean is feeling and thinking thanks to the incredible talent of one Mr. Jensen Ackles. Just really incredible. How this man never got nominated for an Emmy at any point for this show just astounds me. Yes, I know that show wasn’t considered a contender for that type of award run, but dammmnnnn. He deserves it and more. Watching this season and season 4 really brought back the original reasons I fell in love with Dean as a character in the first place. One of the best characters ever, I’m telling you. And may I just say, I hated that they brought back John’s leather jacket for him in the season finale but I get it, it was Kripke’s swan song (did I just do that? I believe I did) so we of course went back to core Winchester things, not just in story but every element. I’m ngl, I was so glad to see Dean shed it though when he is sitting down to dinner with Lisa and Ben.

Apocalypse: I thoroughly enjoyed this whole plot line - this really was high stakes, more than ever before, and though angels were dicks, there was Lucifer of course and a mysterious though mostly absent God behind the curtain - you just never knew what was going to be thrown at you next, just like the boys were going through.

Heaven/Mary: even though this definitely has to do with Dean more so, I did enjoy them seeing Ash and Pam, Ash’s setup, and of course Mary being there, seeing how such a good memory could be manipulated by the dick angels and the horrible things Mary said to Dean. Of course, I felt for Dean but it was interesting to see that whole scene play out. Plus we got even more confirmation of what we’ve known all along: John is a bonafide asshole and Dean really did experience facets of spousification, even before Mary died (which just makes me so sad for him, I swear if they don’t put a Cas vs John scene in the reboot... because you know Cas will win that thumb war)

Meg: ngl, I wasn’t really crazy about this iteration of Meg - I don’t mean Rachel Miner’s version, just this particular performance, which I chalk up to whoever decided they wanted her to go this route in her performance - I couldn’t believe it was the same character, the same actress - I am so glad the show/Rachel developed the character we all love to hate and secretly really love to how she was in later seasons

Jo: omg Jo. I have to admit, in season 2, in the first episode she showed up in, I despised her. She was like that bratty teenage kid who’s a real pain in the ass and whines and doesn’t get it. But after that episode, I grew to love her with each one she was in. She became a bamf in her own right and I loved seeing that come through this season especially. Her death was horrific (what is it with this show killing off bamf female hunters in such a gruesome way? it brought back horrible Eileen flashbacks for me personally, and for them to turn Meg and Ketch into somewhat redeemable characters after that... you know, I swear...) but heroic and I had never been more proud of my girl. Except the scene with Dean in the kitchen. As much as I love my chaotic hunter son, I was glad to see Jo flip him off in the way she did. So proud. And then her goodbye with Dean, I had forgotten exactly what he did so I was going “omg, she just saved you, Dean, this girl has feelings for you, she deserves at least a kiss, kiss her. right. the fuck. now!” and sure enough, he did, on the forehead, which I was like okay, well I get it, he doesn’t return those feelings but he does care about her but dammit, she deserved for him to plant one on her. and then he did and I was just gone, I was a complete bawling mess. And her goodbye scene with Ellen, and then her death along with Ellen’s sacrificing herself to stay by Jo’s side and give the boys a chance to get out of there...yeah, I didn’t stop crying for about five minutes. I cannot tell you how much I miss those characters and I would have sold someone else’s right arm to make their return in the series finale happen. Besides the obvious characters that should have been present, Ellen, Jo, and Ash deserved to be there (just not Samantha and Chad, if we can get a “Cas helped” for the third major character/lead, we can also get a “Ellen and Jo went to assist in setting up the honeymoon suite above the roadhouse - I said what I said).

John: usually, I cannot abide giving any time to this jerk, never mind talking about him, but I have to say I enjoyed seeing pre-loss John in 5x13. That conversation he has with Sam I think is so glaringly important. I know it was for Sam to forgive John and heal, but the fact that John himself is saying “how could he do that to you? he was supposed to protect you” -- yep, that was pure poetic cinema in my eyes. Because pre-loss John is right, how dare post-loss John do that to his boys? There’s no excuse anyone or this show can give him. As much as I love JDM, post-loss John Winchester will never be okay in my book.

Adam: omg Adam. First of all, I loved his dynamic with Sam and Dean. I really, really wish we could have had him around longer just for that alone. What an awesome character we could have had giving Dean and Sam a run for their money. “Well, we’re working on the power of love.” “How’s that going?” “Not so great.” -- give me an episode of the three brothers on a milk run hunt (sans generic mask-wearing vampmimes) with all of the fixings and I swear we would get done!Sam, consistently being roasted between Dean and Adam, and then Dean thinking he’s got a mutual now, a BFF, and Adam turning right around to roast him as well. It would be epic, I tell you, epic. I wish Adam had gotten a better end, this season and at the end of the series. He certainly deserved better. And this may be a random observation but why did Michael take Adam at all? I know the countdown had begun and he was desperate to grab a vessel so he could fight Lucifer at the appointed time and Dean was not giving in (that he knew of), but what chance of victory did he think he had without using his true vessel? Using that logic, I guess Michael’s end in the series makes more sense now...? Who knows.

Chuck: Swan Song (5x22) and the lines, “Endings are hard. Any chapped ass monkey with a keyboard can poop out a beginning but endings are impossible. You try to tie up every loose end but you never can. The fans are always gonna bitch. There’s always gonna be holes. And since it’s the ending, it’s all supposed to add up to something. I’m telling you, they’re a raging pain in the ass“ -- did anyone else feel like that was Kripke speaking or is it just me?

Season 6:

the whole Lisa thing: while it was nice to see Dean go domestic, I have to say I was more invested in Dean and Ben’s relationship development than I was with Dean and Lisa’s. The chemistry just wasn’t there, I have to be honest (he and Anna actually had more chemistry for a few minutes than he did with Lisa this whole season). I don’t doubt they loved each other, it was real, and Lisa was good for him at the time but it just didn’t have that spark. I loved Lisa as a character in her own right, but I was happy to see her and Dean eventually go their separate ways. Though my heart broke for Ben on that one. He and Dean really had a whole father-son bond happening there. I appreciated that when Ben called him, even that one time that nothing was really wrong, Dean dropped everything and headed right over. They had a bond of their own happening outside of Dean and Lisa’s. I think Dean ultimately made the right choice in the end to keep Lisa and Ben safe (though they should have been able to choose if they wanted this), but God did that cost him and we see it in that scene outside of the hospital with Sam. How much that hurt for him, and for us to see how it killed him to do it. I’m still grateful that he got to see what the domestic life was like and that he got a reprieve from hunting for a bit. It made complete sense as to why Cas didn’t want to pull him back in to ask for help with Raphael.

Destiel: Welp, now there’s definitely an emotional relationship happening. Meaning the bond has become even more forefront and not only is Dean affected, but we also see that Cas is, too. Dean’s reaction to finding out Cas was working with Crowley the whole time, Cas’ reaction to Dean choosing to save the two boys instead of focusing on finding Eve, Cas’ reaction to Dean’s stance on the Crowley situation, Dean’s finding out Crowley kidnapped Lisa and Ben, Cas asking Dean to trust him, Dean seeing Cas becoming the new God and needing to summon Death, etc. It was fantastic. While it hurt during some moments, I enjoyed seeing the dynamics and reactions to these situations play out. This is definitely a friendship now, a family relationship formed (and still forming) like Dean says in 6x20. Imho, Jensen and Misha knocked it out of the park this season when it came to that relationship. I loved it.

Cas: holy hell, 6x20 has become one of my all-time favorite episodes of SPN. I loved seeing Cas’ POV. Cas was already a fave character of mine but this episode made me fall in love with him all over again. This was incredible and I’m so thankful they fed us so well with this one. I really enjoyed seeing Cas as a character stepping into the forefront, right there with Dean and Sam. Yes, he was a part of TFW before this, but you have to admit that in this season, it becomes a whole new ball game. Really amazing stuff and of course, Misha slayed it all.

Meg & Megstiel: I was so happy to see the iteration of Meg return that we know from later seasons. Maybe I’m just too used to that version but to me this felt more effortless for the character and for Rachel, that really let both shine. Personally, I’m not a Megstiel shipper. While I love their dynamic, it just isn’t there for me, but I really did enjoy their scenes together. Cas felt as if he needed a little shaking up so to speak so I think she was perfect for that. Plus, I have a hard time forgiving those in the show that sic Hellhounds on my bamf female hunters so that might be partially the reason for my bias, just saying. (I never really forgave Ketch either)

Samuel...& Co: I just...why? Don’t get me wrong, I liked Mitch but this felt a bit...I don’t know...off? Other than some place for Soulless!Sam to go while Dean was playing house and for nabbing Alphas for Crowley, I don’t get what the point of this story line was? Was it to show us that Mary’s dad was a d-bag? Check. Was it to show us how people sometimes make the worst decisions when it comes to their family? Double check. Like, we kind of already got that and it was just unnecessary confirmation if that makes sense. And the thing that kills me is that Samuel was in Hell (or goes to Hell, I kind of did other things in the background during that arc) but he loved his daughter enough to betray her sons and do the wrong thing but John gets to go to Heaven? This still confounds me. Though I enjoyed Gwen and it was a shame she couldn’t be a family contact in another state for the boys later on to pop up every now and then.

Soulless!Sam: I enjoyed this part of Sam’s arc but I won’t lie, I was relieved like everyone else when he finally got his soul back though waited with bated breath for the other shoe to drop. But it was interesting to see this side of Sam.

Dad!Dean: I know I mentioned Dean and Ben above, but that one episode with the shifter!baby, that was priceless and God, did I love it.

I just loved going back to this for both boys

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CR Quarantine meta thoughts

So I thought I’d give a quick approximation of where I am with Critical Role and where I think C2 will go and where the characters still have to go before the campaign comes to a close. 

In order name-wise

1. Beauregard 

As of right now she seems to be in not the best place. Her major goal along with Caleb’s for the last 40 chapters was to bring an end to the war. Now that there’s an uneasy peace, she’s partially conflicted on what to do next and how the people behind this war should face justice and whether the costs of that could outweigh the risks. She also wants to tell jester about how she feels and her apprehension to this seems to be based on her self worth. This came up again as a result of visiting her father and she seems to think that she could lose everything and go back to being an outsider without a place again. There’s also her old girlfriend who was arrested that the party might run into. Not to avoid mentioning, Yasha and her having some feeling toward each other before E69 and how her returning may complicate her feelings with Jester. A lot of moving pieces. How she deals with her feelings and her family is something I’m definitely interested in. 

2. Caduceus 

Caduceus is currently finding his purpose in helping others find theirs and seems to be committed until some arbitrarily defined point where everyone seems fine off on their own. I do think part of him will realize that he’s not beholden to these people and that he doesn’t owe them anything and they like him for who he is. I think he knows this subconsciously but he’s a very duty driven man and it’ll be interesting to see how this changes when he realizes the M9 have developed over time and might not need him but still continue to want him. There’s also still the grove and whether what he has done is enough to save it. This remains to be seen and might be handled more towards the endgame depending on how powerful the source of the corruption is. 

3. Caleb 

Caleb seems to have progressed a lot on overcoming his desire to change fate. He straight up mentions “ you can’t change the past” in talking about personal compliance in causing harm but I don’t think he’s completely over the ideas of going back in time and erasing his sin from happening. He’s certainly much more comfortable with where he is now and has found himself a family again. His main goal right now still seems to be finding away to bring the Cerebrus Assembly (or more accurately the bad seeds in the assembly) to justice without jeopardizing the unsteady peace they’ve won. This seems to be leading into Mighty Nein Navy Seals Vigilantism but might involve a ton of investigative journalism as well. I have no doubt that his plot hook and that of his former organization will continue to play a big role in the story going forward. The extent he can change the organization and possibly even turn his childhood friends away from the path of trent is another interesting side plot. The same goes for his buddy Essek and how he decides to react to Caleb wanting him to make amends for the mistake he’s made. 

4. Fjord

Fjord is a super interesting character especially when comparing him before and after the Pirate Arc. A lot of people, for clear reasons, separate Fjord’s attitude based on when he lost his accent but to me his change in personality came a bit earlier than that. His role as a character for the Mighty Nein early on was as one of the faces, the badass Texan smooth guy who was able to get what he wanted generally easy and was afraid of flexing his martial might. This kind of escalated a bit, one of the moments which really stuck with me was when he cut off Algar’s hand after he already had him beaten. It’s mentioned by Fjord later on that he found himself using more power / violence as a short cut to get where he wanted and that he feels he started to cheat himself by doing so. Once they ended their pirate adventure, Fjord seemed like he took more of a backseat with his role as a leader in the group and I think part of that was due to him questioning if he really deserved to be a leader. This also tied in with him questioning whether following Ukotoa was the right choice and his realization he couldn’t game the system and earn powers with nothing expected in return. This culminated in him renouncing Satan...I mean Uka’Toa and following the Wildmother as a paladin. Since he has done so he’s starting to act more reasonably and less impulsive when there’s a possibility of conflict. He’s humbled himself and I think he feels it’s more freeing than what he was before he changed as a person. The one thing that has accompanied this though is a string of combat misfortunes (due to dumb luck) which is a neat perpendicular to his personal growth. He feels more free and more himself but he may feel weaker than he did when he was putting on a mask. I don’t think this will lead to him having second thoughts as a Paladin but I think it’s building up to him eventually assuming a larger role asa leader once he truly realizes that he can be both himself AND great. Caduceus has mentioned this before about ‘one day someone will ask for a miracle and you’ll be there to help’ and I cannot wait for the moment where Fjord is able to get a HDYWTDT and be generally badass in his New Voice and prove to himself that he had nothing to worry about. 

5. Jester

Jester is my favorite version of a cheerful but awkward person, earlier on she kind of had me worrying about how much trouble she’d get them into but I over time realized that she has control over what she does and when she’s chaotic randomly vs when she has a purpose behind it. Case in point, the Cupcake Scene which was excellent and super risky but really paid off. Right now she’s dealing once again with how she feels as a disciple of the Traveler and the revelation he’s not a god revealed to her right before Travellercon. Now she’s kind of wondering what to do with several other devotees and what even will happen with him in the future regarding his divinity. I’m very interested in how this event will shape out and if there’s any 3rd party intervention into the story that will occur at this place during the time. It just seems like a narrative point where Matt could reveal something huge. But then again everyone expected fireworks at the meeting at Sea and cooler heads prevailed so maybe everything will work out swimmingly. Anyways I can’t wait to see what her next journey is after Travellercon, it will probably involve her dad and mother and may involve Darktow and is sure to not be predictable. There’s also her romance options but there’s a myriad of ways that could go and everyone else on tumblr has mentioned it so I’ll leave my peace there. 

6. Veth

Veth essentially got exactly what she wanted and there’s no grand reason for her to stick around besides her enjoying the company of these people and possibly something similar like Caduceus’ “To the end of the road” type thing. She loves her family obviously the most of all, which was most pointedly seen when she insulted Caleb and blamed him for what happened to her husband after being super supportive of him for the first 49 episodes. I think she still has a lot of growth to do as a character and there might be an avenue with her prejudices. Someone else on here has mentioned it before but basically, Veth is kind of a suburban wine mom who believes a bunch of stereotypes and has a “us vs them” type of mentality. That’s one possibly route for her to go if she decides to stick around for awhile. It is possible a huge event is around the corner that throws Wildemount into disarray and requires her to stay for awhile but we’re currently in a limbo where her leaving after travelercon would make sense. 

7. Yasha

Yasha is right now in a bit of a floating period. She really wants to make up for her role in Obann’s schemes even though it’s not her fault. She had a heart to heart with Caleb where he basically told her the pain never really goes away but it can be eased by the company by the company you keep. So her redemption can be pretty open-ended. I really want to see her wings again and please let them be white and feathery, I would love it. There’s also the possibility of her wife being alive / them running into her old tribe, with the boss behind it still being alive and there being some sort of conflict like how Grog had his issues with the Herd of Storms. Ashley is a full time member for the first time so hopefully there’s a lot to do with her on the cards and we get to see more juicy fireside interactions with the Nein. 

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