#and it gaslights itself 24/7

[archerons-arrow]

the way i SWEAR i think i'm following certain blogs only to realize there's a FOLLOW button next to them. and i'm just like ???? no i interact with these humans all the time how am i not following.

#i blame my brain #she don't work right #and it gaslights itself 24/7

[somnianyx]

GN!Reader || cw: toxic relationship, Ness, yandere content and uhh thats all i can think of bc Ness itself is a warning enough, gaslighting

Synopsis: You broke up with Ness.

• You can get two types of reaction depending on how you break up with him.

• If you break up with him the angry, aggressive way. Ness would get all meek and scared. Opting to just keep quiet as you list all the reason why you're breaking up with him.

• If you choose the calm way, Ness wouldn't even hesitate to beg you to stay. His face immediately turns red, tears staining your pants as he clung to it desperately. Asking you what he did wrong and how he can fix it. Doesn't matter if its in public or private, Ness would sob till his tears turns into blood.

• Either way, you left him with nothing but his heart that had been crushed into dust and his obsession towards you grew.

• You were his light, his saviour, his everything. To say he can't live without you is an understatement. Ness felt his world just crumbled below him.

• Would blow up your phone 24/7, making new accounts, getting new numbers each time you block him.

• "(Y/N) please! I'm sorry for whatever I did wrong! I promise I'll change. Just give me a chance! I'll die without you" was the text you'll wake up to every morning.

• At one point, you just gave up blocking him. Opting to just mute his chat and ignoring his calls but this gave Ness some hope.

• You didn't block him this time so surely this means something right? If he's patient surely you'll warm up to the idea of letting him be yours again right?

• The more you ignore him, the more desperate each attempt of his to get your attention. Abandoning basically everything including football AND Kaiser to stalk you.

• If you do get back with him, whether its to get him to shut up or out of pure pity, Ness would completely be in your control.

• Spoiling you with lavish gifts, taking you out to some fancy dates. He'll even let you sleep with other people so long as you'll never leave him.

• Ness is completely yours to break, to use, to control and manipulate like a stupid puppet. Tell him what to eat, to drink, to wear and he'll comply so long as you let him lay his head on your lap and call him your good boy.

• If you resist him till the very end, chances are his patience are running so very thin.

• Might have to say your goodbyes because once that thin thread of sanity snapped, you'll find yourself waking up to a magenta haired man hovering above you.

• "I gave you so many chances to come back to me. I would've done anything for you but you stayed completely stubborn. Don't blame this on me. You're the one at fault here. I just love you so so much why can't you see that?"

#blue lock #bllk x reader #blue lock x reader #bllk x y/n #bllk x you #alexis ness #alexis ness x reader #bllk ness #blue lock ness #blue lock alexis ness #blue lock alexis #yandere content #bllk headcanons #bllk hc #blue lock hcs #blue lock headcanons #blue lock kaiser #headcanon #alexis ness x you #ness x reader #alexis ness headcanons #nightmare #yandere blue lock #yandere bllk #yandere bllk x reader #yandere

[drdemonprince]

A bit late to the party and a tad bit longer than planned(sorry), but I dream of programming my own living sex toy.

We would be roommates, my flat (that's the most unrealistic thing about the scenario right here lol) that I rent very cheap near a college so I can pick the hottest person applying, ideally a new student so no family or friends here. Once they move in I slowly start manipulating them. Playing hypno audios when they sleep, putting light aphrodisiacs in their food, gaslighting them on progressively bigger things to get them relying on me more and more.

I want to pretend to be their friend and have long talks where I slowly convince them that their family is abusive and they should cut contact. It would be easy considering I am already blasting them on many other fronts and at that point they would be too stressed trying to keep up with college, while becoming too dumb and horny to offer much resistance. I hope they do though just so I can stop the argument via hypnotically dropping them and leaving them more untethered and confused than before. I actually want them to freak out while we fuck so I can stop, keep my cock in them and see how the ,by then intense, programming slowly pulls them under again and they start rocking into it. Actively see the fight disappear.

Once it is in deep the actual toy part begins. I want to programm certain settings into it so via simple triggers I can have it switch between modes. Sometimes I would want an actual doll, no ability to move themselves, sometimes a puppy desperate to be filled, maybe even allow it some higher function back so I can have it work when I don't need it.

The power of having someone utterly under my control is the obvious kink here but far hotter to me would be the knowledge that it was involuntary and that I programmed it. The ensuing sex isn't the main focus. I would want the toy to respond like it's enjoyable, seeing it in pain sparks no joy, the hotness comes from knowing it only enjoys it because I programmed it like that.

That's why I want to be able to sometimes "reset" it only to pull it down again. That moment in it's eyes when it glides into trance would be the hottest thing ever. I would always want it to feel pleasure, the catch being that the pleasure wouldn't be there without my programming. Also the thought of a hypersensitive toy coming simply from pleasuring me or me telling it to come is hot.

This is also why I won't look for a CNC partner for now. Having an actual human involved that could resist and judge takes away a lot of the appeal. My main source of shame isn't wanting to corrupt, it's wanting to have an actual human following my every command and order instead of having a partner I share equal responsibility with and of whom I take care when they need it (instead of putting a dildo in them and storing them away when useful). That said I actually want that equal living together too, I would just not have sex with that person, because vanilla sex holds no appeal to me and I actually do care about consent IRL.

Sadly I have a hard time finding good hentai or comics where the main focus is the corruption itself not the fucking afterwards but I make do.

Anyways, thanks for letting us share these things. Some of the other asks that were sent in were incredibly hot and it was nice actually writing my fantasies down for the first time and claiming them as mine, not just a fic I wrote as a prompt.

ANON YOU ARE KILLING ME THIS IS THE HOTTEST SHIT EVER. this is one of my top fantasies. and largely what some of my favorite hypno erotica that i've written is about. i wanna live this scenario for real. this is why i'm saving for an early retirement dog. so i can be someone's brainwashed live in hole. hit me up when you are emotionally prepared to be a 24/7 sadistic owner for real

okay. im gonna compose myself. thank you for sharing. but seriously call me

[hadesoftheladies]

you are not “a crazy monster” you are just dealing with repressed anger

you don’t have “memory issues” you’re dealing with the effects of years of gaslighting and emotional abuse

you aren’t “kinky,” you have complex ptsd, it is not healthy to be aroused by physical abuse and violence

you aren’t “sexually liberated,” you have ptsd and hypersexuality is how it presents itself

you are not “different from other girls” or “an alien.” you have anxiety, a consequence of being othered and policed 24/7 by society for your femaleness

you are not “an evil bitch,” you are experiencing burnout because of decision-fatigue and anxiety, since you have so much to prove every second of the day

in short, the problem isn’t you. this isn’t your natural state and it can get better once you acknowledge that you and so many other women are coping with an insane amount psychological and physical abuse and demands. the world has been a war zone for women for AGES. it’s going to take its toll on all of us.

I’d recommend watching and reading up on how to deal with these issues. Personally, I enjoy watching Therapy In A Nutshell on YouTube. She has great techniques and a deep understanding of how the brain works.

PS: THIS ISN’T A DIAGNOSIS. It’s a post highlighting how women often ignore how patriarchy affects them mentally and treat their sickness and coping as a moral failing or personality quirk because of how mundane our suffering is. I believe women and girls can cope better and even heal if they can name what has happened to them and how it’s affected them.

#radblr #radfem #feminism #feminist #womanism #women #this post is NOT A DIAGNOSIS #I’m just highlighting how many women are genuinely suffering #but because it’s so mundane we don’t think it’s an actual illness #when we are showing signs of being sick #because we are genuinely hurting

[samsvenn]

𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐮𝐤𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤 𝐅𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐀𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝

mentions of violence 

𝐑𝐮𝐤𝐢

It’s pretty hard to hide anything from Ruki. With how much this man plans things out, your daily routine isn’t exempted from that list. 

He only uses his familiars if he’s out of town for Karl. Since you’re his Livestock, he takes pride in controlling each and every part of you. One of these includes how long it’ll take before you notice that every escape route in the Mukami Estate has been completely sealed off.

Ruki loves to incorporate ‘trust’. Since you don’t know too much about his watchful eye, Ruki tests you by asking questions only you’d know about.

 It gives him a chance to see if his ‘findings’ were right and based on your answer, he makes a daily probability chart on how honest you are with him. Therefore, unbeknownst to you, your entire safety and well-being is leveraged on how open you are to the eldest.

He likes to make games with your prey and predator relationship. One example is toying with the idea of escape. If he leaves a fake key out in the open, will you try and escape behind his back, knowing this act of defiance will leave you near death’s door?

Somes games don’t involve him for the most part. Ruki has reserved the role of observer and punisher so the only one playing is you.

𝐊𝐨𝐮

He’ll use his familiars or pay private investigators to keep an eye on you. Kou won’t risk his idol image being dragged through the mud or worse, his company and fans using you as an excuse for him to ‘apologize’ for his obsessive behavior.

That doesn’t mean you’re free from his grasps. Once it relays to Kou that you’re going somewhere secluded like a run-down bakery in the outskirts, it’s all fair game on his end.

Being more attuned to the modern world than all his brothers, Kou will 100% wiretap your mobile devices. He never got any resemblance of personal privacy from his past and to even now, so why should you?

Kou likes to put trackers on you, but not in the way you might think. Instead of placing a sensible location like slipping a tracker into your bag or gifting you something he knows you’ll use daily, he’ll instead pay off someone to run a hidden background software on your phone that tracks your movements 24/7.

There’s a corresponding app for the tracking software and with a ‘little’ extra tip, the app automatically runs diagnostics weekly about the places you frequent, the routes you commonly use to commute and who you text the most from your contacts.

With all this in motion, it’s safe to say that Kou’s methods are horrifying, especially since they all involve him being in the shadows. Even if you had a shred or a nub of evidence that points to his wrongdoings, it’ll just end up with you looking delusional gaslighting king 

𝐘𝐮𝐦𝐚

His approach is more hands-on. While the main idea of stalking is to remain hidden, Yuma doesn’t care if he fails to hide his huge figure. The image of a tall, large man following your every move is enough to terrify you; meaning it all works out for him in the end.

Yuma won’t hesitate to kill. He’s not good at working through distressing emotions, so removing the problem at its root is the only way to go. 

He likes to dispose of his victims by grinding their frozen corpse into a meat paste and plowing that paste through the garden dirt. Not only does it loosen the soil, it also provides nutrients since the calcium from their bones and other organic nourishment give plants that boost. 

The cold temperature helps to temporarily stop the body from excreting the disgusting bodily fluids that comes with death.

Unnecessarily cruel, but Yuma likes to gift you the teeth of the people he’s killed in order to keep you around. For you, it’s impossible to tell who’s who but because of the dried blood on the teeth’s pulp, it’s like searching through clear water.

Constantly sniffs your body. The weird part isn’t even the sniffing itself, but how his sniffing resembles a dog. He’ll do this without your consent. He immediately goes into a frenzy the moment he realizes your scent has wafted away.

He follows you and makes sure you know. Yuma will purposely make his footsteps louder when he’s right behind your trail.

There’s also times where if you’re out in the city late, he’ll stand against sources of light and let his shadow loom over you. When you spot him, he doesn’t move, he doesn’t speak, he just… watches.

𝐀𝐳𝐮𝐬𝐚

He’s always an arm's-length away. Azusa genuinely feels like a drifting ghost haunting you. He loiters and lounges in your lingering scent, but that doesn’t stop him from chasing until the source, you, is in his sights.

Azusa loves to cut your skin open until the blade is so deep in that it’ll take weeks for your body to heal.

It makes it easier for him to track you and seeing his ‘work’ displayed out in the open just gives him another incentive to chain you to him.

“No-! What if you… attract another vampire… because your open wound was too tempting… to ignore?” He’ll ration out outrageous excuses until you’re too mentally exhausted to keep up.

Azusa will drive you insane. There’s times where he’s blatantly honest about why he stalks you, but there’s also situations where he’ll profusely refuse to answer you; claiming it’ll drive you away once he does. He gifts you hope, then utterly retracts it, leaving you on your toes and desperate.

If you start to act bravely against Azusa, his antics will get more aggressive. Be more brazen against Azusa and his serrated knives will start to look at you funny. It won’t be long until your ability to walk is ‘out-of-commission’ for better words. 

#diabolik lovers #dl #rejet #diahell #diabolik lovers fandom #mukamis #ruki mukami #kou mukami #yuma mukami #azusa mukami #diabolik lovers headcanons #headcanons

[advertisesouls]

#𝐀𝐃𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐒: an independent, private, selective and mutuals only blog for my h.azbin h.otel oc xifeng. please note that i am unaffiliated with the fandom and do not condone anything that v.ivziepop has done and continues to do. my name is solar, 31, and i use they/them as my pronouns! thank you sm for your interest! ♥ please also note that everything here is still a huge wip, too! also, with the nature of xifeng's character, there is a dead dove warning on her.

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considering the nature of xifeng's character as well as hazbin hotel as a series, there's a good amount of topics that i'll be tagging for in threads. these are, but will not be limited to: cannibalism, gore, murder, suicide, attempted sexual assault—amongst a handful of others. i will always tag for these if they come up in threads!

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i do not want to hear your justification as to why proshipping should be allowed on this platform, thank you.

besides that, please be mindful that i am only here to have fun. this is a hobby and will be treated as such. please do not badger me for replies (a small reminder here and there is fine, though) as i suffer with chronic fatigue and pain and also have to be my mom's caretaker 24/7, so i may also be away from my pc at times. i also suffer from adhd, major depressive disorder and general anxiety disorder and my spoons are virtually nonexistent all the time.

please do not use me as a meme/aesthetic resource, do not like every post i make, etc. shipping requires both chemistry and effort as i do not want to be the one solely expressing interest in continuing said ship. if no interest is expressed within a couple of months, i will consider the ship to be dropped. you are more than welcome to approach me to ask to continue the ship, however! as far as romantic shipping is concerned, it's very unlikely to happen as i ship xifeng with @praeteritus-memories' alastor and we've plotted extensively for them to where i consider lu's alastor to be both my main and exclusive alastor.

also, please do not drag me into drama. i don't care for it. i don't have time for it. i don't have spoons for it. If there is someone that i’m interacting with that is considered a threat to the RPC, then by all means, feel free to privately contact me to give me a heads’ up. I am pro-callout to a degree, but only when there’s irrefutable evidence in the callout itself. lastly, please don't use my tumblr ims or discord dms as your personal venting space. i'd prefer to be asked beforehand if it's alright to vent to me because my spoons are always low. another thing that i would like to emphasize is if you interact with or condone the actions of the following, then please, hardblock me as well: aku, damon / omen / rxgelord (eyesofbluebitch/burnyoubastard), hearty, zero / kign typo, myers, loke / neku, miles, shannon / pink. this list will be periodically updated should further callouts emerge.

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#OUT OF THE OFFICE → pinned post.

[eldritch-spouse]

What type of Yandere is Grimbly? What does he do, what's likely to spark his obsession etc etc

(Minors dni)

TW: Yandere (duh); Brief mentions of physical abuse.

Grimbly is, by far, the neediest yandere you'll ever have to deal with. Breg is already prone to sticking to you like a tic, but Grimbly outdoes him by a landslide. This monster is starved of attention and validation, he's a black hole of recognition, if your attention is not on Grimbly 24/7- Then clearly something is very wrong here.

This one is an entitled brat. He feels that, after a certain amount of time being around you, he's owed your love. Not just that, but also your constant care and fawning. Grimbly's like a particularly needy house cat that will shove itself in your face anytime you try to be productive. You better have a good excuse to not be by his side, do you really need to finish those papers? He sits there, looking pretty, expecting his obsession to fret over his every cell.

An extremely manipulative monster, this one. He cannot handle anyone taking attention away from him. Grimbly is capable of murder, in spite of his fairly innocuous exterior, but to reach that point, his object of obsession must be impervious to his every mind game so far. And really, he'd rather not have to do gross stuff like touch a corpse. Ew. No, the bat-like monster is much more likely to turn on the waterworks and consistently victimize himself. Come on now, he doesn't even have a real family! He just has you, Y/N, he's alone working as a waiter in a shitty shady establishment- All he wants is someone who can be there for him and tell him he's doing okay. You always do this, you always try to leave when he needs you the most! Gaslight gatekeep, the works my friend. He's not the most subtle about it, it doesn't take a genius to put two and two together and realize you're being played like a fiddle. But Grimbly has his sharp moments, and those overly adorable mannerisms of his do come in handy.

Also quite prone to massive tantrums. He's not stupid enough to try to hit you, considering you're probably much bigger than him and he's hesitant to use any sort of inhuman ability due to how unstable his power is- But you should count on loud screaming and shameless property damage. Say goodbye to every remotely expensive thing you've ever owned if you upset Grimbly to the point of genuine tears. Grimbly is not afraid to make a scene in public and paint you in a very negative light if it means getting what he wants. In fact, if he has to, this little monster will destroy your entire public image for his benefit. He is also prone to coercing violence out of you so that you end up hitting him (or someone else) and he can later on use that against you.

It genuinely does not take much to spark an obsession in Grimbly, he's already desperate for any source of validation, he's going to latch onto the first person who genuinely seems to enjoy his company. He's always been unhealthy with other people due to severe abandonment issues, just take his own (platonic) relationship with Santi for example! It's an almost parasitic caregiver/charge ordeal, and this is because Grimbly is constantly subconsciously seeking to emulate the parent/son dynamic he never had.

What seals Grimbly into a grotesque, feverish obsession with a person is if he picks up on heavy maternal tendencies. Anyone who is genuinely kind-hearted enough to go out of their way and care for others, cherish them, support them. Grimbly hones in on those qualities life a wolf in sheep's clothing, ready to be your pampered, cute little monster boyfriend. Seriously, it's like spidey senses, he can smell a genuine caregiver in a crowd.

To facilitate your situation here, I recommend you really take the caretaker role to heart around him, it's easy to placate Grimbly's bitter moods by spoon-feeding him his own treatment. Well of course he can't follow you to work, he needs his rest, you're not doing this to upset him, you're doing it because you care about his health! You get the gist, right? He won't wise up because the attention melts his brain. Really, aside from his incessant need for attention, Grimbly's not too hard to manage- He may even easily lean into submissive mindsets if you adopt a caring yet dominant demeanor around him.

Ultimately, Grimbly is your purse dog and he feels that you should coo over him every moment of your day.

#Grimbly oc #gaslight gatekeep femboy #purse dog yandere

[showmethesneer]

I think because Jane is christain and the book says bigamy is a sin she thinks shell go to hell so starving to her is better then hell its not just her morals

You're absolutely right. 💯 correct. I simply disagree with her reasoning and her priorities.

If she had left because he was abusing his wife and lying to her, I would be all for it. Starving on the streets will give you more peace of mind than staying with a man like that. Love it for you, babe.

But that was not her motivation.

She finds out that her boss/fiancée has been keeping his wife locked in the attic. She's fine with that part. He even lied to her face, gaslighting her about what she saw when she confronted him about the strange woman who came to her room in the night. She's fine with that part, too. Which is like.. weird. Keeping a woman locked in an attic and lying about it and gaslighting her were the things she should have been upset about. But they're not.

He explains that his marriage was arranged by his father when he was pretty young, that he knew nothing about this woman except what she looked like at parties, and that the mental illness that ran in her family was kept secret from him until after they were married. So this marriage literally means nothing to him. It's not like he was in love with her once and then grew tired of her and is trading her in for the newer model now. He was thrown into a business transaction and lied to at every step of the way. And now that he's met Jane and fallen in love with her he thinks this could actually be his chance for true love on his own terms. And even though Jane wants him too-- because she still wants him after finding out he keeps a whole person locked in the attic-- the simple fact that he has a wife, in any capacity, is preventing her from being with him.

And it's like "oh he was keeping her locked in the attic because he genuinely cared about her and didn't want her to get sent to an asylum where they would be inhumane to her" and sure. If that's what he thinks he's doing. But he doesn't really see her as human anyway. He describes her as an animal and worse. Which, i mean, given her Creole background, is deeply unsettling in and of itself. He also describes Jane as not human but he means it endearingly and that is also super concerning, cuz Jane is whiter than white so she's a perfect little magic fairy, not a dangerous animal.

So, he keeps Bertha locked in an attic so she won't get sent to an asylum where they will treat her inhumanely. But... like... was locking her in an attic and hiring one (singular) person to watch her 24/7 (not even treat her, just watch her) and denying her existence for 15 years any more humane? Or is that a backwards Christian idea about sympathy and righteousness?

I am saying all this as a queer WOC living in the U.S., where i have been effectively held hostage by christianity and christian ideology. My same-sex marriage could be struck down at any point by this government in the name of Christian values. My right to an abortion and bodily autonomy in general has already been taken away by it. Christian Europeans came to the Caribbean to colonize and exploit and convert my Puerto Rican and Dominican ancestors. So I'm coming at this from a place of justified resentment for Christian ideas of hell. Historically, what constitutes a sin and what you go to hell for versus what is good and just can be extremely fucked up and hypocritical in Christianity. It's okay for him to secretly keep a woman locked in the attic "for her own good" but it's not okay for him to marry a woman he loves. It is the correct thing for Jane to suffer, leaving her home to beg for food on the streets rather than stay with the man she still wants, because he happens to be married on paper. It's not a problem that he kept a woman locked in an attic, just that he tried to marry someone when he was already married.

Like jesus, Jane, just get the dick. You might as well.

#jane eyre #long rant #domestic abuse tw #racism #liveblog of me reading #bertha mason #mr rochester #charlotte brontë

[episodicnostalgia]

Star Trek: The Next Generation, 105 (Oct. 24, 1987) - "Where No One Has Gone Before"

Written by: Diane Duane & Michael Reaves Directed by: Rob Bowman

The Breakdown

On Starfleet's orders, an Engineer named Kosinski is sent to improve the Enterprise’s warp efficiency with the aid of his mysterious assistant. Kosinski immediately reveals himself to be quite the pompous dickhead with a massive ego, but orders are orders, so Picard and Co. induldge him.  The first test goes so unbelievably well that the Enterprise finds itself in another Galaxy, which everyone acknowledges is a bit too far to make a return trip using standard warp speeds alone.

Excitement over this new technological achievement is soon quelled when Kosinski finds himself unable to repeat the experiment, leaving the Enterprise potentially stranded in the middle of nowhere.  It turns out that Kosinski was actually just an idiot the entire time, and it was actually his assistant who made the jump, on account of being a ‘traveller’ with special abilities that allow him go wherever he wants, with few limitations. Unfortunately, exhaustion just happens to be one one such limitation; and this dude is plenty exhausted after the jump.

Wesley has been the only person up to this point to notice the Traveler, and has tried to bring it to Picard’s attention, but everyone keeps getting too irritated by Wesley’s “Wesleyness” to bother listening to him.  But once Picard IS willing to listen, he pays the Traveller a visit where the mysterious visitor explains that he is a) from a group of advanced space jumping folk, and b) that Wesley is super special and that he should be encouraged in his specialness, but never told about it overtly (apparently he needs to figure it out on his own, for reasons that are definitely not arbitrary).  And with that, the Traveller agrees to one last attempt towards bringing everyone home.  It almost fails again, but Wesley is evidently able to transfer some of his special-boy-energy to aid the Traveller before he disappears-possibly-to-death. With everyone home safe, Picard decides to let Wesley become an acting ensign, to start him on his chosen-one journey toward specialness.

The Verdict

This may be the first episode (chronologically speaking). That I can honestly say I like. Oh, there are still plenty of hokey and down-right-cringey moments, also Wesley is more involved than I care for, but at it’s core this is a solid little episode. The Traveler and his story are both intriguing, and there’s some solid groundwork that’s established seemingly in the service of Picard becoming less of an asshole to children (and hopefully also just in general). I can understand why others would rate this lower, but with Star Trek one has embrace a little campiness, and an embarrassing dose of optimism; That being said, ‘Where No One Has Gone Before’ very closely pushes the limit of what I can tolerate for both.

3 stars (out of 5)

Additional Observations

ST: Voyager is basically the same plot + 7 seasons.

I can’t believe I’m going to say this, but I actually don’t despise Wesley this time around. I mean yeah he’s still the worst (sorry Wil Wheaton), but his character serves the plot, and he legitimately does nothing wrong. Indeed, he actually helps, all while enduring a lot of abuse. I came very close to rooting for him.

At the same time, the way the crew bullies Wesley is also hilarious, if only because it goes completely unaddressed. It’s like the show is trying to gaslight the audience into doubting that it’s even happening.

#star trek the next generation #tng season 1 #Where No One Has Gone Before #retro review #star trek review #star trek #star trek tng #galaxy class #traveller #80s tv shows #80s tv series #tv show review #space exploration #wesley crusher #diane duane #michael reaves #rob bowman #episodic nostalgia

[crusherthedoctor]

Leaving would only give them the satisfaction that they drove you away, don't give up Crusher! ❤

You're right. After having a couple days to relax and think it over, I can assure that I won't.

It's just really exhausting. I try not to make a big deal about it cause I feel like I'm being selfish if I bitch about it too much, but I think certain types of people don't grasp just how much insanity I've had to deal with, and how downright psychotic the ones responsible have often proven to be. When you have to deal with idiots and hiveminds, and all their threats and abuse and attempted gaslighting, for what feels like 24/7, all because you dare to have le problematic Sonic opinions and because you happen to be a fanfic writer with an OC who isn't afraid to actually do things and interact with the official cast... you begin to question if it's worth all the trouble.

Some days I simply can't be arsed with all the hassle and threats, and want to leave this cesspool of a fandom behind (emphasis on fandom; I'd still be a Sonic fan and play the games and so on). But that's not fair on the good apples hiding within, and not just the ones that are my friends. And Stellar... isn't gonna write itself. They've tried to take away my passion to create, but they haven't succeeded.

Sonic fans aren't all bad. I just wish the ones that are weren't the loudest.

#Crusher's Asks #Sonic the Hedgehog #Fandoms

[gdrar]

2/13/24: More Than Words by Ralph De Jongh & Crazy Hearts

Yesterday's amnesia has worn off just in time for a week's worth of- Oh. I've already done 7 days of this. Today is the eighth review. (I'm going to be honest, I really thought I started this last Wednesday, not last Tuesday, making this post a week's  worth of reviews. How I gaslight myself into thinking that, I do not know.) For the start of another week's worth of reviews, we have a good one: some bluesy rock from Mr. Jongh and his posse, though the precise shade varies quite a bit. Overall, this is probably my favorite album so far, though that might just be because it's pretty comfortably within my comfort zone- and, admittedly, it's perhaps not quite up to 'regular listening' status for myself.

The first song in the album, and probably my favorite song (along with being the least bluesy) is 'More Than Words' itself, with a really catchy chorus and some satisfyingly dextrous guitar (especially in the solo). A lot of songs have some good choruses, actually, with some effective use of choral singing, like 'Where Did You Stay' or 'Tears of Rhyme' (which specifically is probably the most bluesy on the album).

More Than Words isn't really an adventurous album, but some of the instrumentation did surprise me. The saxophone in 'Worrywise' is absolutely delightful and adds a lot of interest to an already pretty good song. 'Build Me Up's instrumentation really intrigued me, though I do think that song in particular suffers from not quite building up to the heights I wanted it to. It gets pretty close by the end, though, and it's snubbed a little by being a more vibey song for most of the duration compared to the other songs on the record.

As for the rest of the album, if I haven't mentioned a specific song so far it's really all not that notable. Not bad, just not worth commenting on. They're needed for the atmosphere, I'd say.

Closing thoughts, I think it's a little surprising how obscure this album is compared to its quality. I dunno, it's just past a basic level of production quality that I'd expect there to be a little more attention given to it on Spotify… I guess it goes to show why I'm doing this in the first place, huh? Doesn't matter if the artist has only got 63 monthly listeners, they've got the same chance of getting reviewed as anything else.

That's all! See you tomorrow for! Something!

#ralph de jongh #more than words #music #album #album review #rock #blues rock #blues

[koishikei]

it's always things deemed as small and inconsequential that end up being the final straw for me, but the thing is, it's not the event itself but how a person reacts to it.

almost a decade ago it was a keyboard, but it wasn't about the keyboard. it was about the hypocrisy, gaslighting, and disregard for my input, my energy, my feelings surrounding the keyboard and those involved in its purchase. it was about being told i was stupid for my opinion, and then turning around and doing the exact thing that i'd said in the first place. it was about how everything in the past several years culminated in that moment and made me realize, "i don't want to be around people who treat me this way anymore."

today it's about a video game, but it's not about the game. it's about the complete lack of respect for my time and being expected to be at someone else's beck and call. it's about the permeating feeling that i'm expected to be a loser at my computer 24/7, so i'm obviously available at any time for whatever co-op experience sounds good. it's about how apparently it's okay for me to be stood up day after day, but if i go ahead and play the game i enjoy by myself then i'm the asshole for not waiting to play co-op.

it's about the sad attempt at emotional manipulation that followed; the total disregard for what i'd said multiple times about an ongoing problem and refusing to make the even slightest effort to improve. it's about saying an empty "i'm sorry" and calling it an apology.

i know i'm far from perfect. i'm mean. i'm a bully a lot of the time. no matter how justified i feel in it, it's still inexcusable behavior that i consciously have to work on every single day, and i have to put effort into improving myself and how i treat people. it's fucking difficult, but i do it because i have all the time in the world to soothe my anger, to research what's wrong with me, to study those things as well as things that don't affect me at all in an effort to better know how to communicate with and understand others.

learning to communicate with other people is a lifelong process, especially for neurodivergents, but it's really not some monumental undertaking like so many seem to believe. it's human decency to develop basic listening skills and reading comprehension. it's not my job to coddle another adult and forgive multiple grievances a day every. single. day.

no more excuses.

i am done humouring someone who refuses to do better.

#kei goes off

[the-bible-the-sequel]

1:1 In the beginning, God created the heaven and the earth.

1:2 And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

1:3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

1:4 And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.

1:5 And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day. Even though that amount of time hadn't elapsed yet. Dumbass.

1:6 And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters, because he was a big fan of pointless segregation.

1:7 And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so.

1:8 And God called the firmament Heaven. And the evening and the morning were the second day.

1:9 And God said, Let the waters under the heaven be gathered together unto one place, and let the dry land appear: and it was so.

1:10 And God called the dry land Earth; and the gathering together of the waters called he Seas: and God saw that it was good.

1:11 And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so.

1:12 And the earth brought forth grass for incels to touch, and herb yielding seed after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was in itself, after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

1:13 And the evening and the morning were the third day.

1:14 And God said, Let there be lights in the firmament of the heaven to divide the day from the night; and let them be for signs, and for seasons, and for days, and years:

1:15 And let them be for lights in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth: and it was so.

1:16 And God made two great lights; the greater light to rule the day, and the lesser light to rule the night: he made the stars also.

1:17 And God set them in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth,

1:18 And to rule over the day and over the night, and to divide the light from the darkness: and God saw that it was good.

1:19 And the evening and the morning were the fourth day.

1:20 And God said, Let the waters bring forth abundantly the moving creature that hath life, and fowl that may fly above the earth in the open firmament of heaven.

1:21 And God created great whales, and every living creature that moveth, which the waters brought forth abundantly, after their kind, and every winged fowl after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

1:22 And God blessed them, saying, Be fruitful, and multiply, and fill the waters in the seas, and let fowl multiply in the earth.

1:23 And the evening and the morning were the fifth day.

1:24 And God said, Let the earth bring forth the living creature after his kind, cattle, and creeping thing, and beast of the earth after his kind: and it was so.

1:25 And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, and cattle after their kind, and every thing that creepeth upon the earth after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

1:26 And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.

1:27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; malewife and girlboss created he them.

1:28 And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth, and most importantly: gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss.

1:29 And God said, Behold, I have given you every herb bearing seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree, in the which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; to you it shall be for meat.

1:30 And to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the air, and to every thing that creepeth upon the earth, wherein there is life, I have given every green herb for meat: and it was so.

1:31 And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very poggers big chungus wholesome 100. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.

#bible reading #religon #shitpost #christianity

[divergent-one-1984]

Ongoing Organized Crime Ring, Community Harassment / Targeted Harassment in Astoria, NY neighborhood under the jurisdiction of 114th Precinct

At exactly 5:33 pm ( a few minutes ago) my apartment bell rang and no one was there, this harassment tactic happens frequently, to basically disturb my peace, the bell will be rung and nobody is there or someone rings the bell, but they are not coming for me, they are usually calling for the neighbors next door, or they will ring my bell and ask for random people, the last couple of times this occured, someone claiming to be from Uber Eats was asking for Mohammed, and someone else, I think it was a food delivery as well asking for Sam.

The name Mohammed is reference to the harassment I am experiencing from mostly Muslim people and Abdoulaziz Barry, a former friend and colleague, who happens to be Muslim, I met while employed at NYC Department of Education, where my harassment first presented itself to me as Workplace Mobbing in late 2015 I confided in this person regarding my harassment in the workplace and remained friends with him after resigning NYC Department of Education in April 2016, he engaged in a weird gaslighting conversation with me over Google Chat in May 2016, therefore Irespextfully and politely ended the friendship and have not spoken to him since, another irrelevant person from my past who I am constantly reminded of even.

The name Sam is a reference to Devin Elton Thompson, a former sexual / romantic encounter, who has not been a relevant part of my life since 2011. This references a polyamorous relationship he was trying to get me to engage in with a person named Sam. As he explained it I would be "wifey", while she would be the side chick I guess, or the other woman, whatever. I don't judge but I don't believe in / engage in polyamorous relationships, which is one of the reasons he became irrelevant over a decade ago.

People should be able to live the lives they want, no restrictions, no judgement, no limits.

Respect people and their choices and move on if lifestyles and views don't align.

So 5:33 has significance as a psychological harassment tactic referred to as Number Harassment. The ex fiance whom I am harassed about pretty much on a daily basis, whom I posted about earlier today because some.other harassment referencing him. He has not been a relevant figure in my life since 2007 yet these people reference him on a daily basis in my psychological harassment.

The cell phone number this man had when we were together, and with whom I eventually entered into a family plan with (the cell phone number from which my personal data was obtained and used as fodder for psychological harassment) started with the digits 533.

There was an additional harassment situation that occurred today referencing this man, which I don't feel like getting into because if I talked about everything done to me everyday I would be typing incessantly, literally 24/7, so I post when I feel like it....plus I don't want to give these assholes that much energy, its not in my personality to pay attention to strangers and morons that don't warrant my time or energy, if your daily activity is based on harassing me, in some instances for several years you are a sad example of a human being, and one of the lowest pieces of shit on the planet, I dont want to give more energy than I already have to because you have infiltrated my life.

All I do is mind my business, watch tv or listen to music most days, while being a caregiver to a bed ridden relative. I don't mess with these people or people in general but they continue to mess with me everyday, all day.

[sakura-83]

Things from Anne with an e that I feel like writing down

Season 2 Episode 2: Signs Are Small Measurable Things, But Interpretations Are Illimitable

1. Pasty white Canadian salt is too spicy lookin Gilbert Blythe goes to Trinidad

2. He is strong though so that’s something

3. Bash telling him he’s so skinny a good breeze will knock him over

4. Gilbert’s favorite foods are potatoes and boiled crab with salt. White boy in the 1890’s syndrome

5. “What’s wrong with that :(“

6. “I don’t think I’ve ever had a hot pepper in my life.” “Yeah, you? Your little dry-up body would go to war against itself!” “I think I could handle it.”

7. The way Gilbert furrows his eyebrows and cocks his head back in like. Amused confusion

8. Bash’s sad childhood

9. Gilbert sees one horse and is like “beautiful I’m gonna pet it right now.” Like thanks farm boy

10. Gilbert being. Naive to how the world works, to the idea of racial prejudice because he’s never seen it

11. The fact that even though slavery has been outlawed in Trinidad, Bash’s mother never left

12. Anne’s sweater is so cute honestly

13. Nate using the “you’re more mature than most kids” tactic on Anne.

14. Him gaslighting her until she lies to herself about seeing it

15. Nate flirting with Marilla is SO WEIRD

16. Cinnamon toast

17. “Any morning we don’t find ourselves in the grave should be celebrated.”

18. The cuthberts refusing the gold testing until later on

19. Matthew giving Anne money for a new slate

20. “Technically I broke it defending myself!”

21. “Ah, children. So precious, so expensive.”

22. Anne trying to prove to Nate that she isn’t a child. This is all textbook grooming that I acknowledged before as a whole but I never looked at individual tactics

23. Anne’s horror stories of the haunted woods

24. Jerry grinning while he takes care of the horses

25. COLE!!!

26. I’m realizing that bash appeared so suddenly that I don’t think I acknowledged his first appearance so uh. BASH!!!

27. Billy’s great and witty insults such as “hey sissy” and “Rembrandt” how clever. Haha.

28. Coles got a strong arm

29. I like how Mr Phillips has a thing for theatrics but cannot read aloud in any interesting fashion

30. Cole is really good at art oh my god

31. Josie Pye being hardcore conservative :/

32. Mr Phillips needs to stop hyping himself up as if he’s good as his job

33. Anne picking up Cole’s book

34. Cole writing in excessively flourished cursive out of spite <3

35. Poor Gilbert is a hungry growing boy feed him!!!!

36. Gilbert eating a mango with skin because why waste it if it’s still edible also the way he bit into it was so funny I’m sorry

37. The way Gilbert holds his little newsboy bag with both hands

38. Gilbert calling hazel ma’am and her being surprised

39. “They don’t feed you on that boat, Gilbert Blythe?”

40. Poor bash getting sent away by his own mother in favor of, yet again, someone else’s children

41. Marilla doing her hair differently but not really knowing how to do it differently. It looks really nice though!

42. Matthew staring at her like she’s crazy

43. “There’s no boy more sad and handsome than Gilbert Blythe.”

44. Cole being alone reminding Anne of herself and therefore she just claims him into the group

45. The other girls sitting with them because Diana has strawberry tarts

46. Josie pretending to get invited to sit with the older girls

47. Cole being genuinely happy

48. “C-A-T- cat! Mr Cuthbert, look! I write English :D”

49. Matthew being genuinely proud of him but only bro he able to express it by giving him Anne’s old slate

50. Anne’s imagination is so vivid she practically believes it all herself, as do her friends

51. The dark furred fox!!

52. Mr Dunlop is such a good actor I genuinely thought when I first watched this show that his aunt really did die

53. Mr Dunlop giving her a fountain pen!!!

54. I hate when Nate is having a good day

55. Poor Eliza panicking to plan this party

56. Mary Joe having to explain that alcohol in cooking is only for flavorings

57. The fact that the word fiddlesticks existed back then is so funny

58. Mr Dunlop turning the piano music pages for Diana

59. Matthew keeping a wary eye on Nate

60. Every time they say Nathaniel I laugh

61. Mr Dunlop singing with Diana

62. Nate reusing the same pickup line to manipulate multiple women

63. Mr Barry signing all his money away

64. Thomas Lynde eating all the sweets

65. Mr Dunlop deciding genuinely to stay in Avonlea

66. Nate trying to steal from the Barry’s and getting caught by Minnie May

67. Nate complimenting Minnie May to manipulate her and getting kicked full force

68. Anne lighting 10 entire candles and then trying to sleep with them lit

69. DUNLOP PUNCHING NATE!!! GET HIM!!!

70. I was wrong it’s more like 18 candles

71. Marilla leaving her with a lit lamp for comfort

72. Eliza not feeling like her husband listens to her concerns for not only her but their children as well

73. “I couldn’t bear never seeing London again.”

74. Matthew accidentally sneaking up on people

75. “I want us to give Anne a farm, a while one. And she can dig it up after we’re gone, if she wants.”

76. Matthew telling Anne that she’s safe being enough to put her to sleep

77. Gilbert and Bash’s dynamic is so great

78. Gilbert laughing about how Anne hit him over the head

79. “She should’ve done more than whack you.” “Wonder if I’ll ever see her again.”

80. Cole drawing Anne because the ink spots remind him of her freckles!!!!

81. Marilla saying good morning to Jerry. She’s come a long way from episode 1

82. Matthew giving Jerry the old slate and some chalk to practice English on!!!!!

83. Anne’s pen spilling ink when she finally tries writing a letter to Gilbert

#anne with an e #renew awae #awae #anne shirley cuthbert #marilla cuthbert #mathew cuthbert #cole mackenzie #diana barry #jerry baynard #rachel lynde

[mostlysignssomeportents]

Hospital rings up $2755 upcharge by sending pregnant woman to ER

“American health care billing horror stories” is one of my favorite, love-to-hate-it genres. The 24/7 gaslighting delivered by the health-industrial complex is quite a mind-zap and it’s nice to get these reminders that we’re not all hallucinating here.

Now, the very best versions of these stories are the successful self-defense/happy ending tales, the sort of thing the Arm and a Leg Podcast specializes in. They’re a powerful tonic against despair.

https://armandalegshow.com/

But I confess to taking a certain guilty satisfaction from the truly ghastly tales of medical billing, the sort of thing featured in Rae Ellen Bichell’s “Bill of the Month” feature in Kaiser Health News. And this month’s is a doozy.

When Caitlin Wells Salerno, a conservation biologist, went into labor in Apr 2020, she presented herself at the Poudre Valley Hospital in Ft Collins, CO. The hospital had locked all its entrances except for its emergency room, so she entered the ER.

Now, Wells Salerno didn’t need any emergency care. She declined a wheelchair ride to the obstetrics department, walking and even pausing for a selfie. Nevertheless, the hospital billed her for Level 5 emergency care (comparable to someone experiencing a heart attack), and charged her $2,755.

Level 5 bills are reserved for “a severe threat to life, or very complicated, resource-intense cases.” Wells Salerno was ambulatory. She wasn’t sick. She proceeded to have a normal, uncomplicated birth.

https://khn.org/news/article/how-billing-turns-a-routine-birth-into-a-high-cost-emergency/

Emergency Rooms are ground zero for the American “upcoding” epidemic, in which conditions are billed at the highest conceivable rate. Level 5 is the most extreme ER code, and number of Level 5s has skyrocketed, climbing 34% between 2009–15:

https://civhc.org/wp-content/uploads/2017/07/Data-Byte-ED-Severity-Level-Trends-by-LOB-April-2017.pdf

The hospital justified the charges by pointing to its new “Obstetrics Emergency Department” (OB-ED) which provides care to pregnant people experiencing medical emergencies. According to Poudre Valley Hospital’s billing department, the routine care that Wells Salerno received was delivered by OB-ED staff, not regular obstetrical personnel. It wasn’t emergency care, there was no emergency, but she entered through the emergency room and her care was handled by the emergency team. That will be $2,755, please.

OB-EDs are sweeping the country, thanks to the wave of ER acquisitions by profit-seeking private equity companies. Teamhealth — owned by PE giant Blackstone — pioneered their use. They boasted that OB-EDs are an “entrepreneurial approach to strengthening hospital finances.” That’s because they involve “little to no structural investment” but still allow hospitals to “collect facility charges that are otherwise lost in the obstetrical triage setting.”

Translation: by adding the world “emergency” to the same doctors and nurses who care for people in labor, we can charge extra for the services that used to be included in a childbirth bill, thus extracting a tax from the preservation of the human race itself.

https://www.documentcloud.org/documents/21089863-white-paper-obed-new-innovations-in-womens-care

Wells Salerno’s experience isn’t an isolated incident. KHN found four other area women who’d been gouged for imaginary “emergency services” during routine childbirth at Poudre Valley.

These stories give me a weird thrill, akin to the feeling of disgust and fascination you might get from watching a con artist throwing three-card monte. It doesn’t have a happy ending. Wells Salerno paid the $2,755 to the con artists working Poudre Valley’s billing department.

Speaking as someone who has a sick fascination with these tales, I have to say that Poudre Valley’s con is simply extraordinary. They’re not just overbilling for procedures — they’re billing for nonexistent procedures, and then gaslighting patients: “You got billed for emergency care because you were treated by emergency personnel.”

This is next-level. It strikes at the very root of the relationship between patients and the health-care system — the idea that your doctor won’t lie to you about how they treated your condition.

Poudre Valley is a leader among Colorado hospitals — in the very narrow category of overbilling for childbirth. They average $12,000 per birth, 43% higher than the state average (Wells Salerno’s birth cost her and her insurer $14,000).

Look, I grew up under Canadian Medicare (OHIP, the Ontario version) and lived in London for 13 years, receiving care under the NHS. I won’t pretend that socialized medicine is free from problems. Any big, complex system will have issues, especially in this degraded moment in which social services have been eroded by decades of cuts. But no one living under socialized medicine has ever, ever had THIS problem. This is purely a (totally predictable) outcome of for-profit health care.

While we’re waiting for public healthcare, here’s how to defend yourself from ER upcoding fraud: when you get a bill for care, ask the billing department, “Have I been upcoded?” You can refer to this handy chart giving the objective criteria for each level of ER service as part of that process:https://www.bcbsnd.com/providers/policies-precertification/reimbursement-policy/coding-and-billing-guidelines-for-emergency-department

Image: Sergey Demushkin/Noun Project (modified): https://thenounproject.com/term/pregnancy/374502/

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Icon Solid/Noun Project (modified): https://thenounproject.com/term/money-bag/31415/

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Stockes Design/Noun Project (modified): https://thenounproject.com/term/operating-room/3609494/

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#pluralistic