#and im so attached to yall lol

[chryblossomjjk]

the thought of not seeing them for 18 months hurts my heart fr

#sigh #like im so sad lmao #im so sad for them #it’s gotta be so tough #to just #completely change your life in an instant #for nearly two years #i hope they all do okay mentally and physically #i love them so much wow #and like #im so sad that this little community on the web of people who enjoy them will slowly fade #not that bts is going to lose popularity or what not just #it’s natural for people to move on to other things in the time being #bc the lack of content or interaction yk #oof im so attached to them #and im so attached to yall lol #i don’t want to lose this community #i don’t want them to struggle or be unhappy #this is a lot lmao #anywho #love you guys and if you need to talk im here #love them so much and will be longingly looking out a window until 2025 lol

[weatheredcopper]

best friends forever!

#very funny (sad) to me that she got the bff achievement but her government assigned bestie left #:(((( #im so attached to dl!pearl already you have no idea #mcyt #double life #double life smp #double life spoilers #pearlescentmoon #pearlescentmoon fanart #jupiter's art tag #how do people already have fully finished rendered pieces... this is all yall are getting from me today lol

[birb--birb]

Kestrel update: we survived act 1 baybeeee!!!

Fought Ethel the other day and stunned her in the tea house so it was a stupidly easy fight (thank you monk stunning strike)

finished grymforge this evening, which, woof took a hot minute grym is beefy in honor mode

All that was really left was goblin camp....... so I stalled and did the owlbear and beholder fights

met hot boi abdirak, participated as usual BUT loviatar didn't bless me on this day how dare😭

Threw rocks at bear Halsin and felt so terrible about it I killed all the goblins in the room and ran from the fight so I wouldn't have to kill him then and there

agreed to raid the grove with minthara bc bloodshed and carnage and murderrrrrr teehee just durge things

and I am here to announce that I will never ever EVER again, as long as I live, raid the grove again I am traumatized having to kill my sweet sweet tiefs in cold blood like that shit hurt I could barely look at the screen I was so ashamed of my actions

she got that drowussy but AT WHAT COST??? AT WHAT COST KESTREL?????

ngl I get the hype, it's a 🔥🔥🔥 scene like gött DAYMN it's excellent and as a femme durge???. Gay??? So very very gay like *mwah* chefs kiss A+ the homosexuals are winning tonight fam

But dear gods I'm never doing that again I feel my sins crawling up my back I gotta go play my Cassius save and kiss halsin to make myself feel better lmao

#i am much more emotionally attached to the tieflings than i realized LOL #minthara #bg3 #kestrel #durge spoilers #durge #evil durge #dark urge #bg3 spoilers #i had gale in my party and the speech he gave me????? #i have never felt so evil in my LIFE let me tell you #im still mixed on whether i should go full evil indulge everyones ascension desires #or if i should give them the happy endings and not drag them down with me into hell #current thoughts are: ascend gale to godhood/selunite shadowheart/ascended laezel #but i so dont wanna ascend astarion #but this would be the playthrough to do it so im 😭😭😭 #its 6am if yall would like some context as to my mental rn #can you even have a selunite sh with isobel dead??

[burnmywholelifedown]

dominoescascadedinaline -> longlivethatlookonyourface

@youreonyourownkid was so incredibly generous and she made my dreams come true tonight. thanks so much dude 🥰

#thats me #switching from one long url to another lol #i just need me an ~inspirational url #i need something that encourages me #and damn this one really does that #its gonna do its part to balance my mental health yall #im already so attached #ttp #gabi talks #url changes

[yongseungkim]

.

#think my feelings'll have to come to an end soon #but idk why im so reluctant to do so..what im still holding on to.. #idk man #we are friends!! real good ones at that #and a year ago i never would have imagined!! #but ithink to me its clear from her end that it was never anything more than that for her #even if sometimes for me i hoped and hoped #cant seem to let go of that hope completely #even though im thankful in so many ways like #i cant seem to convince myself right now this is enough #im like #being mentally not ill is so hard too cuz #i want to be like 'oh ofc it makes sense shes not interested in me who would be' #and its so easy to think that #and have that be the calming thought that shuts down delusion #its so much harder for me to say shes not into u but thats okay there might be someone else in the future #what that implies i have absolutely no fucking idea #i dont wanna do dating apps yall like #everything abt it feels so unappealing #i actually genuinely wanna go down the friends to lovers route but god is it so painful. #and seeing how successful ive been in making friends thus far uhh... #finding someone else to kinda even start being attached to that isnt her in a non platonic sense is hard #like w her the feelings too are just very deep #there are casual crush moments here and there for sure i think but nothing thats quite felt like this #and it kinda sucks lol #how are you supposed to find someone #i also wanna. be okay with. not finding someone #and god for the longest time in my life i was okay with that but now im not and its so unfamiliar and idk how to reconcile it #honestly i wanna be someones go to person #but no one wants to be that for me i think so ive been trying to become that person for myself but

[hecksupremechips]

Persona 3 reload should not entice me with those damn shiny bells and whistles!!!

#persona #the klock keeps ticking #yall already know lol #like first off its fucking 70 bucks??? what the hell????? #so unfortunately its gonna be a minute before i can possibly play it unless idk i have more money on my ps4 than i remember #but also yeah just that one big thing the shinjiro thing just has me so aaghh #like ive already said my deal with all that many times so you know how it is im very torn up about choices to keep the original story #and not have the coma route just cuz like i think it fucking sucks and its pretty like triggering honestly #but godddd why does the game have to be so pretty and cool looking aaaghhh #and shinji is there too and he will be all shiny and pretty as well so its like grrrr #im just saurrr conflicted idk man okay i wish my brain was normal and i could stop being such a goddamn asshole like hnnghh #girl why did i have to get so attached and relate so hard to the tragic suicidal character whose purpose is just to die lol #its a horrible comfort character to choose when youre also suicidal and going through a life crisis #its like oh boy you know what would make me feel really happy amidst all this depression? #playing the really good looking game from my favorite series with my favorite characters! #ahaha oh god whats going on with shinjiro why is there a gun ahaha 🌝 #you think id learn my lesson after p4 but alas i didnt #and im aware the game is a tragedy about life and death and its ✨dark✨ or whatever #so expecting a character like shinji to miraculously get a happy ending is all ooooh against the point or whatever #but i think thats just stupid and idk suicidal characters should be written better 👍 #and either way whats important here is that it bothers me and thats whats conflicting #cuz i so desperately wanna play and enjoy this game cuz i really did have a great time with portable #but im just not sure if i can fucking deal with this aspect i just really really hate it so bad #maybe i should just play the game and stop on 10/3 lol #or maybe ill just bang my head against the wall until it splatters everywhere and i can finally stop being so annoying about stupid shit #and ruining a stupid video game for everyone because i have to be soooo ✨triggered✨ by everything like a damn sjw fuckwad #also if anyone actually reads this lemme know if you have the same problem with shinjis death as me or if im just being weird #cuz i genuinely dont know anymore 🤔

[mikkouille]

i finish watching all the rehearsal vids and then dedicate myself to the essay fulltime for the day fr prommy

#the quastion is should i add a section at the end in a there is still sort of hope will noteworthy contestants that dont suck or should i #just be a full hater lol #im most eloquent when talking shit or so i heard but also i feel we do have to give a shoutout to the what. 5 guys who can sing #and also i want to address the pity attachment to the houses + daeul idc that theyre bad. they are my besties. #'oh my god they cannot hit the signal song's notes' yea have u heard them speak. they do not have high voices! #mnet when someone suggests they make the song be harmonic with tenor and bass parts instead of chant with everyone singing in soprano range: #well bass. more like baritone i dont think anyone here is a bass lol! #no but fr just divide the song into different keys and THEN u can judge the singing abilities of everyone #who was the guy who at the test for signal just sung in his key instead he was so real for that he said i am not embarassing myself #nor am i straining my throat for yall hyenas in the jury

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

#forgot how many pulls in i am at this point but between this one and the last freebie one they did all i got were ssr dupes.. rip #both my game luck and irl have been pretty shit lately so yea im just mad tired dawg #not even speaking how i normally would bc words can't even express my disappointment lately (sigh) #anyway not to be a bummer bc i miss yall and everything #but i just don't have the energy to even go thru the stories.. missed out on the last couple of events.. including yves & luka.. crazy #been debating if to just delete em all and save myself the time/money but i feel too attached to do so cold turkey.. #keep telling myself to just get back to main stories and ignore all events and gacha but i just ended up ignoring everything..lol🙃 #so anyway uuhh ima just let the queue keep running as it usually does and wish yall the best until whenever i sporadically return ig

[tofulikesmala]

Genshin cuddle headcannons

Genre: fluff

who?: Neuvillette, thoma, xiao, scaramouche, tighnari, itto, freminet,

Neuvillette

ah yes, hard on the outside but soft on the inside

He's the very clingy type, even if he tries his best to remain formal, he can't help but be attached to you

Would bury his face in your neck

You would usually have to initiate it first,

He would be the big spoon, but he's okay with small spoon too!

Being the big spoon, he could feel you by your side, making sure your safe

If he were the small spoon, this man would be blushing like mad, trust me

Thoma

Mmmm yes thoma >33

I feel he would be the more romantic type when it comes to cuddling, embracing every part of your body, tucking your hair behind your ears, ykyk

Well, depends on your personality, who initiates first might differ?but i feel thoma would be the kind of person to request to cuddle shamelessly

He's fine with both big spoon and small spoon

If he's the big spoon, you'll definitely be receiving headpats!!!!!

If he's the small spoon, he'd lie on your tummy, no matter the size

Xiao

Bold of you to assume this man gets sleep

But......if its you...who is he to decline?

"The adepti don't rest....let alone sleep. How absurd of you to think I would cuddle."

Nah man your going to find this man clinging onto you like there's no tomorrow at 3 fucking am in the morning

Good luck, because he's not gonna let you go

Need to go to the toilet? Nah you have a bladder for a reason

He's def big spoon, only on rare occasions you wake up, to you hugging his body

He'd definitely be embarrassed 100%

Scaramouche

Well, he'd be reluctant at first, for sure, but he will give in. eventually

Well, at least he won't appear in your room at 3 fucking am in the morning like somebody

He's def big spoon, he just can't afford to hurt his pride lololol

Would 100% flick your forehead for absolutely no reason

He's also the type to NOT.LET.YOU.GO.

“scara babe i need to go to the toilet :("

Naur he would just groan and fall back asleep

Man's grip on you is STRONG. You won't be able to wiggle out lol

Tighnari

DEUWYFGUYWEGUQFE I WANNA HUG HIS TAIL SO BAD

Would def allow you to hug his tail

His face would be so red as you gently stroke it

You could wake up in the middle of the night and see his ears twitching

He won't have such a strong grip on you, but it won't be a loose one either

If you wiggle out and go to the toilet, and he finds out he will be sad :(

His ears would go down

Once your back, expect to receive lots of forehead kissessss

Both big and small spoon is fine with him

Itto

Good luck with this guy💀

Better say your prayers to your family and friends, because this guy IS GONNA PLANT HIS WHOLE FUCKING ASS ON YOU

he's laying on top of you, crushing you with his weight

nah im kidding, he knows he's on the heavier side, so he'd adjust back later

Oh but don't be surprised if you found his foot shoved up your face

But in the non messy times, he'd definitely hold you tight, making sure you with him

Another one to shamelessly demand for cuddles

Freminet

He tries to be a big spoon, but you end up pampering him instead XD

Its 90% of the time you initiate it first

Bro would be the definition of blushing mess

He would rest his head against your chest

If your flat (like me) he would listen to the soft thumps of your heartbeat. It comforts him in a way

If you have bigger chests, he'd be so embarrassed, be he likes to use it as a pillow, he finds it very comfortable, as long as your okay with it of course!

He would hug you tight, but would start apologising once he realises :(

Notes: MY SECOND FIC HHAHAHAHA LOVE YALL

#genshin x reader #neuvilette x reader #thoma x reader #tighnari x reader #xiao x reader #scaramouche x reader #itto x reader #freminet x reader #genshin fluff

[austinsastrology8991]

Uranus and why your life is a ShiT ShoW > URANUS IN Yer HOUSe <

Uranus in the FIrst - You are the most unpredictable little fuck-head that everyone loves. They always change > there clothes, there direction in life > their hair colour. they thrive in change unless you try to change them, they are the ones changing and dont you dare change them, thats all they have left ;( Uranus in the Second. - Crazy self esteem issues. these people think they are the greatest then the worst person, also same applies to their income because they dont think they are worth much, until they invest into bitcoin and think they will be the next warren buffet. honestly the only thing stable about you is the perception of your value changing. But they love change, something to look forward to i guess Uranus in the Third your brain and communication skills are kinda fucky you know that dont you. you always know how to say something shocking, and extremely good at changing the subject of a conversation, like you dont have to say much, but what you do say just made everyone go huh what the fuck you say? its amusing tho we appreciate you Uranus in the F4urth - Emotionally avoidant, dependent, and attached personalities. They cant make their mind up on how they feel, so they experiemnt with every feeling to see if they vibe with that. mum was probably very unpredictable, and they wanna be like her. they just trying their best to forgive her <3 Uranus in the Fifth - Okay this one is the genius. This one people actually think your onto something when your showing off because you break free of every social convention, and archetype, but in the most perfect way. everyone believes your special, and you can change the vibe of a room like dat Uranus in the Sixth - what a fkn mess your life is. I had this one friend who would have 10 different drinks in his room and he would drink each one sparingly (they were all warm too). he had some serious health issues, and lets not get into his mental health okay. but yall have crazy lives and you make it that way Uranus in the Seventh - Im not a player i just fuck a lot. they choose their partners based off how interesting they are, if you can satiate their curiosity you got em. but if your boring or not worth figuring out yeah g-bye. also they just come off strange so everyone is extremely curious. they get projected on a lot but they dont mind its a good way to find out something interesting lol Uranus in the Eighth - Freaks who will do anything.... and im not just talking about sex, if they want something they'll find any way to get it. masters of attainment, even if its probably not healthy for them, they don't care if they want it they get it. then the object of their fixation changes as soon as they do get it. they are like obsessed with 'progress' but its hard to call it that sometimes Uranus in the Ninth - Clever minds who are always skipping segments of a speech, or a video to find the juicy parts. They have very quick minds that are so easily bored, but if you talk to them, they'll never not have something interesting to talk about. also when change does occur its a LOt Uranus in the Tenth - why are yalll like this. just baffling people like they know how to make an entrance and when everyone starts loooking at them, they decide to make fun of everyone by doing something a lil bit too shocking, almosst making fun of you for looking at them. gets off on shocking ya Uranus in the Eleventh - They wanna change the world, but not in a way that is practical. until it is. They have a million friends because they have a knack for understanding people, but when you ask what they want or what scares them. it just makes you rethink why your even friends with them in the first place. 12 - your crazy. and its endearing but everyone is this close to calling the cops on you or locking you up in a psyche ward. maybe tone down your retardation. we all got something going on but you take it to a whole new level.

#astrology #astrology blog #astrology notes #astrology observations #astro community #astrology placements #astrology houses #house placements #uranus aspects #uranus #uranus through the houses

[idkwhatimdoingherehonestlyy]

Miles 42 headcannons pls?

EARTH 42 MILES MORALES HEADCANNONS

A/N: OK, I never usually write stuff like this so please correct me if I messed up on some stuff!

WARNING: I dont speak spanish so I will be using google translate, lol. However, if anyone is a translator and can help me out please do!

BE PREPARED FOR: POSSESIVENESS, BLOOD, VIOLENCE, LANGUAGE, HEAVY TOPICS (DRUGS GANGS, ETC), AND DARK+NONCHALANT MILES TELL ME IF I MISSED ANY.

Earth 42 Miles is definitely a nonchalant person in general. After his dad was taken away from him he feels like he has nothing left to say to anyone about anything. He definitely struggles in relationships with this character trait.

I like to believe he keeps girlfriends but doesn't keep the title of a player. I feel like he dates a ton of girls to fill the void of that missing love he got from his father...you know?

I also believe that most of his relationships fall out because he doesn't just swoon after the girl because like I said before he has a nonchalant behavior.

If he was to get a long-term girlfriend. He would get attached really quickly and most definitely would not play about her.

The more and more deeper yall get into the relationship the more and more possessive he gets.

He's really possessive because he feels like you will slip away from him. Like his dad did.

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Earth 42 Miles became the prowler because it is his way of acting out.

After his dad died, he slipped into a depressive episode that kept replaying, replaying & replaying. There's already enough stress on his mom with being a single parent, her job, and trying to keep the bills paid.

So him being a "bad" kid and getting into fights would not help her at all. So when Uncle Aaron introduced this job to him he was immediately in.

Killing these innocent people allows him to let out all his vexation on the city that brought his father to death.

He comes every night in bloody clothes, with purple bruises painting his brown complexion.

In all honesty, he's fucking miserable.

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Miles 42 definitely has the habit of speaking Spanglish.

Since he converses communication from his Mother to Uncle Aaron.

He definitely has A+ in Spanish. (LMFAOOOO i just thought this was funny to add in here)

Spanish is the language he speaks when he's angry

Like, for example when he's beating someone to death senselessly (im sorry i don't know how else to put this..)

He speaks Spanish in anger.

¿Dónde está el dinero, hijo de puta?

¡Deja de gritar antes de que te alimente a las ratas de la calle!

....He speaks very out of character when hes killing

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In all honesty if he had some free time on his hands he woud kill some actual bad people, like robbers,muggers, gangs...etc.

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But in my opinion he's just a kid whos trying to fill a void from his dead father and he just needs love!!

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IM SORRY IF THIS SUCKS AND IF ITS SHORT! I TRIED LOL

#miles morales x reader #earth 42 miles morales x reader #earth 42 miles #miles morales prowler #prowler miles #miles g #earth 42 miles x reader #m a c e ’s c r e a t i o nミ★

[amaranthdahlia]

i hnstly thought id make a solo post dt to each one of these, but i dont think ill ever come around to do that so fuck it heres every ofa au i came up on a whim on twitter (though im pretty sure one of these alrdy exists but whatever)

middle/high school au

gone bad au

paranormal twins au

(infodump ab everything below hahdjs)

anyways soo first one is just . like. a middle school au. or highschool. im not sure which one is better lol. basically its just a roles thing: afo is the student council president (that pretty much has his school wrapped around his finger), yoichi is just some student (that gets into fights with bullies) and kudou is a deliquent (that became one just cus of afo) i wanted to expand this more but im procrastinating so nvm

2nd one is well, again, an au i made out of the whim. i just entertained tbe idea of (forced) villain yoichi and rolled with it and only drew it just so i can design yoichi ahsjskg ... and kudoichi there is well . ig a hero/villain pair? and you could say theyre just unfortunate people forced to play a role (also ignore the quality in that part i rushss to draw it haha)

now last one, self explanatory? mama shigaraki lives, afo and yoichi shared their nutrients and their quirk ( where it functions as afo cant give away the quirks he attain, only yoichi could((and only yoichi can receive the quirks his brother takes)) he also cant take the quirks from the user without consent. yoichi is the same but vice versa, but he himself also couldnt give away quirks unless the user consents 👐) everything is semi-normal for the most part. also. first pic is kinda outdated.some of it anyways....... also also i tried my best to make sure afo and yoichi rlly do look like twins despite the hair difference

now i wasnt able to attach the ofa bad end au and the "theyre happy" ending au bc image limit but the 1st is smth i actually wanna work on (but not fuly expand and actively post about, its just smth i gave more thought than the others here haha) and the 2nd one is just ab designs and basically everyone lives nbd dies au (maybe afo only tho)

so yeah. thats all the ofa aus i came up? yall already saw the other aus liek demon/angel au, the childhood friend au.... does the fankids i made count as an au.....? the mlp one......? holders grow old one????

fuck theres so much aus i need to relax hahdhsjf

anyways yeah thnx for reading allthat . entertaining questions wouldve been fun if i actually put enough thought into these aus💔 the hfx just went behind the wheel for these

#sorry ab the typos im sleepy rn hahdkef #btw if i ever do actual post dt to one of these xpect a reupload #that is all 4 now ig #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #shigaraki yoichi #yoichi shigaraki #mha afo #mha all for one #all for one #mha kudou #second one for all user #second ofa user #2nd ofa user #bnha #mha #i dunno if im gonna tag kudoichi in this since its not shippy enough??? #dahlia.art

[mvshr00m-1]

NEW ROTTMNT AU IM MAKING!!!

Okay so hear me out yall... What if the rottmnt turtles were in Pokémon? Had their own Pokémon teams? Etc etc.

Over the past week or so I've been doing a bunnnch of posts on tiktok abt it, and finally have sat down to post the drawings I've done so far here as well!

Designs:

Through these designs I wanted to practice the way I draw clothes, do designs, and ofc colours! Also backgrounds ofc- just everywhere I've been lacking

Also wanted the turtles to all have their own personality and style, while also having small themes and details connecting em together

Even made silly lil designs with the turts with some Pokémon:

Very silly indeed

Never draw like that, nor have drawn Pokémon in ages, but I feel like it turns out alr lol-

In addition I also made full teams for each of the lads! With some little bits of context as to why aswell

(the highlighted names are the mains)

For Mikey it was just mostly food themed Pokémon + electric, cause yellow/orange lol- but at the same time I feel like he would have just a tank of a main, that he would train like fuck (with the help of raph) and the rest of his team, tho not the weakest, is mostly for fun.

Raph would be far have the best trained team, and these would be made of mostly rly big Pokémon, a lot of fire, ground, rock, dragon, fighting, all that sorta stuff- and then he just has one small Pokémon breloom who was probably one of his first Pokémon, and he got attached too and couldn't take out of his team :3

Leo's team, like Mikey, would be mostly for the look- with him having some of the 'prettier' Pokémon, or just blue Pokémon- he would 100% main the big gay looking duck (aka quaquaversal), with the Pokémon colours being simular to Leo's, and just both having a similar vibe- he would also have a abra who is known for their teleportation ability! Also just being really small and cute- (not sure if mystic would exist in this au, but for now I'll say it doesn't unless I state likewise)

Donnies team would, like raph, also be on the stronger side, with his being a lot of psychic, dark, ghost, steel, electric, etc- bro would have one scary ass team lmao. In addition this au's Sheldon would be his shiny rotom, who Donnie would even make little bits of techs and even a robot body Sheldon can possess

Design/drawing of that shown below:

Overall have A LOT of ideas for this au, and I don't think I've ever made a crossover au like this before- always being none for my bad future content/au's lol

#rottmnt #tmnt #art #rise of the tmnt #leonardo #donatello #raphael #michelangelo hamato #pokemon #rottmnt au #pokemon au #pokemon x rottmnt #idfk #sillies

[boltun-tkn]

tw transphobia

hello guilty gear fandom, if you see this, i want yall to continue making cute bridget fanart with a trans flag in it, if you wanna do it, then go for it, dont let shitheads like this guy stop you from doing so, feel free to add the nonbinary flag on your testament or leo kliesen fanart, if theyre mad then youre doing it right lol i dont have a big attachement to this character but i dont really feel insulted by a flag being added, or even if its a character i like, plus i understand why people want to kinda play with the idea of different gender identities

these people are the ones saying "touch grass" then spend their time getting upset over a flag

also the person who got screenshotted, you can find the original tweet here and give them some love (x) (x)

imagine thinking a flag is so bad that you have to screenshot innocent fanart so you and other people can insult them behind their back, you can just keep scrolling ya know? so here i am doing the same to THEM now im so sick if yalls asses, the fgc sucks ass i swear lmao

#guilty gear

[eirian]

yall ready for a gender journey post..

so yall could probably guess i grew up a cis girl. i didnt start questioning my gender until high school after i broke up with my first boyfriend which kind of freed me up to explore my identity as my own person for the first time. around age like 16 was when i first started identifying as trans, and at the time that meant a binary trans guy

after a couple years of getting comfortable exploring my gender i decided hey maybe im actually not a binary trans guy but instead nonbinary. still transmasc and guy leaning but not quite all the way anymore. this became a trend for the next loooong while, getting closer to the androgynous part of the spectrum as time went on

then in recent years (maybe about 5 years ago ish) i started to lean more towards femininity. this is significant for me because growing up i was always opposed to it--i hated wearing dresses, i hated putting on makeup, anything "girly" appalled me and i didnt know why. i ended up thinking its because i WASNT a girl, and thats why i was so uncomfortable with everything to do with being a girl. i rejected it so hard because it just wasnt me.

after living with eden for a while i got even more comfortable exploring the feminine part of myself. i started wearing dresses and skirts and actually ENJOYED it; i started painting my nails and wearing earrings again; i even grew my hair out to my shoulderblades (yeah thats where its at now LOL). ive even started using she/her alongside they/them. and im actually enjoying these things??? it feels like after all these years im finally able to reclaim them because i feel like im finally able to be comfortable with my gender--how my gender feels to ME, not to everyone else.

that was the problem when i was growing up--i was trapped in everyone else's perception of my gender and what it "should" be. i was trapped into a box that was made by everyone else's idea of what i SHOULD look like, what i SHOULD wear, what i SHOULD act like, etc. and it took me until age 26 to fully realize that my gender is what i want it to be, not what everyone else wants.

i dont have to be a guy to want facial hair and a flat chest and a low voice. loving pink and dresses and cute things and makeup and jewelry doesnt inherently mean im a girl. pronouns, features, clothes, even names dont inherently mean youre one gender or another. your gender is defined by you and only you and nobody should be able to put you into a box and define your gender for you.

..having said all this, im starting to explore my gender further, and im slowly coming to the POSSIBLE conclusion that i might come back around to being cis (albeit gnc). nothing would really change about me except the label tbh. if i do end up coming to that conclusion i will be very bummed about leaving the trans community, but i wont feel any less attached to it, as ive spent literally half my life as part of it. i understand what its like to be trans and to love myself as my most authentic self, and thats why im considering this possiblity!

identifying as a lesbian kind of pushed me in this direction as well--i cant remember the last time i felt truly comfortable and happy with a label regarding my orientation.. like ya damn. maybe i am a girl who likes girls LOL. it just feels right and natural for me personally??? its crazy. i love women. if youre a woman i love you no matter the flavor. i love my wife more than all of you though sorry <3

but god please dont take this as me being like "oh trans people just need to get comfortable with their gender and theyll realize theyre cis" that is a bullshit take and i am not saying that. this is strictly my own experience and journey! i am 100% not speaking for every trans person and you shouldnt either.

but ya. dan cis era???? we'll see. no official statement just yet but i just wanted to let yall know where im at in my ~gender journey~. until i confirm anything please still view me as a nonbinary girlthing! <3

#i have to reiterate i am KEEPING the name dan saiyan. and my facial hair and deep voice #like i said. these things do not mean anything irt my gender. they are just part of me #if i say im a cis woman and i have facial hair and the name dan then thats what cis looks like for me <3 #i honestly feel free as hell. im defining my gender for myself now and its the most powerful feeling in the world

[hunterbunter3000]

HIIII SO i have an ask

PLEASR MORE ABOUT THE WOMB TATTO WITH 141 IM OBSESSED 😭😭❤️

EHEHEH SINCE YOU ASKED SO NICELYYYY

Sweetheart gets more comfortable around her team that she wears shorter shirts now. She still wears long sleeves though, they haven't unlocked the tattoo sleeves she has LOL (I'm drawing all the tattoos she has and I can't WAIT TO SHOW YALL)

But she shows off her✨️ ICONIC✨️ yummy, womb tattoo constantly. Sometimes, even when she's training, she'll wear a compression shirt that she cuts. (Rookies don't know what to feel lol)

Soap dubs it his tattoo, Sud's Tattoo as he calls it, because he can't get enough of it. And he has to wrestle off Roach and König when he lays on it

Soap: BACK AFF YE FOOLS THIS IS MY TATTOO

Sweetheart, laying on the couch: Soap--

König: IT IS NOT YOURS GET OFF OF HER

Roach, stomping his feet: 😠 🥾💥🥾💥🥾💥

Soap: ROACH SHUT TH' FUCK UP YE TWO ALWAYS GET TAE DO THIS

Sweetheart, stressed: what the hell is happening--

Soap REALLY likes the tattoo 💀as I said, he's obsessed with it (like you, kiame HA) Everytime Sweets comes out with a cropped shirt, he fucking ZOOMS to the tattoo and just snuggles his cheek against it

Soap, smiling and sighing: Good morningggg~! I missed you, Bonnie.

Sweetheart: Are you talkin' to me or my tattoo?

Soap, opening his eyes:

Soap: uhm

He DEFINITELY talks to it sometimes

Soap: And how are YOU doing today, Bonnie?

Sweetheart, smiling: I'm doing good thank you- why is your face on my tattoo.

Soap: Because... I was talking to Bonnie...

Sweetheart:

Sweetheart, kinda offended: AM I NOT BONNIE ANYMORE??

Soap: UHM

I mean he just loves it so much. Seeing such a sexy design on rich, golden brown skin so low on a wonderful body... it's enchanting. He's not the only one who thinks that. He argues with Ghost alot on who likes it more, but they always agree when they team up on Sweetheart.

18+ MDNI

"Ghost, please..."

Ghost hums on her soft pussy, tongue swirling on her chubby lips. He kisses and sucks on them, thin strings of saliva connected to his chin and mouth. "Please what, love?" He eyes her as his fingers spread her open and glides his tongue slowly up, all the way to her pulsing clit and making her jolt. Soap groans on her skin, kissing each detail on her womb tattoo. "Y'need to speak up, St. Can't know what to do if ye'r tae wheesht." His hands travel up her sides, caressing and scratching her skin. Marking it as his.

Ghost sighs. "In English, Mactavish." He's getting tired of not understanding what the Scottish man is saying half the time. Soap grumbles, lips still attached to her tummy. "Simon..." Sweetheart whines out, hips squirming and eyes prickling with tears. The two men chuckle, knowing what she wants but not giving it to her quickly enough. Ghost reigns himself back, the lust and desire getting too hot for him when she whined out his name like that. He wanted to fuck her right then and there, but not yet.

"Say what you need, Sweetheart." Ghost mumbles, his tone low and caring. Hungry. His thumb does small circles on her clit, making her yelp, back arching off the bed and thighs squeezing Ghost's head to which he loves it. "Please! Please let me cum! I need-- I need it, please!" Sweetheart wails, overwhelming tears flow down her cheeks as her hand buries in Soap's hair and pulls. Soap's broken moan was heard by both of them, but his lips would not leave her tattoo. Teeth nibbling on the black ink, tongue sliding up to her bellybutton. He comes up for air finally, a lazy smile on his face. "Since we both agreed on liking this," his hand smooths over his tattoo on her body. "Beautiful piece of art, Lt., I think it's time we gave our Sweetheart what she deserves, aye?" Ghost grunts as he comes up from her legs and places a kiss on the tattoo, causing Sweetheart to mewl. "I think it is, Mactavish." Ghost says, both his and Soap's eyes turn dark and starved.

🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️ ANYWAY

YEAH EVERYONE STILL LIKES IT LMAO

#where did that COME FROM HELP 😭😭😭 #ghost call of duty #soap cod #ghost x reader x soap #soap x fem reader #ghost mw2 #ghost smut #soap smut #black fem reader #cod oc #black reader #cod x y/n #141 sweetheart #141 sweetheart headcanons #hunter's ask lounge ☕️