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i-sveikata · 2 months

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Hello, I just wanted to write that I re-read the last chapter again (I can’t stop) Your fanfic is what kept my mental health going (it was a really hard year) over the past year and I’m grateful for that 🥰But I was so immersed in this story, on at the moment this is the only ff that I read on this fandom, and it should already be so (for more than a year now, it’s incredible)😊I like that the characters are so alive, the feelings are so vivid, and they are so intertwined with depth and important themes and also with sex (Vegas's pov still haunts me, I'm really looking forward to reading some kind of sexual experience from his point of view, because he's just so bad for it, AND VERY HOT), but we know that he hides his real emotions 👀I’m looking forward to how events will develop further, you are so talented 💘It’s so incredible that you can write such a beautiful, emotional story for FREE that will find such a response in many, I’ve been here for a year now and I’ll wait as long as you want to enjoy this work and read how these two live their happy twisted life (and this is just my wish...in my head it’s a canon that they killed Korn, ehhh dreams)😈At the end I want to wish you health and send hugs 🫂 And if possible, can I have a little spoiler about “Vegas will do something stupid, and Pete will do something even worse” I’m so interested 😭😭😭 But if not, then I’m okay with it and ready to wait further 💜 P.S. I’m not a native English speaker, I hope everyone is here It's clear

oh hello there!!! oh my gosh that honestly means so much to hear that and im so happy it could offer something meaningful during the past year though i do hope this year treats you better!!

ahhhhhhh thank you so much!!! im so glad you think i brought it to life that way!! oh wow yes his pov is very much diving under the surface of what Pete has been interpreting this entire time. wow yes and if there is a sex scene in his pov you can bet its going to be deeply obsessed and unsettling whilst we hear how he experiences that from his pov and how it all makes him feel. like dude high key wants to climb inside petes body and live there permanently there will be no normal internal thoughts whilst theyre having sex haha.

youre so right he does hide way too much!!! and were going to be seeing a lot of that the more we have his POV. ah thank you thank you!! its honestly been so amazing that its resonated with people this much and the experience has been so rewarding!! ah thank you youre too sweet!

omg yeah they should murder korn what an idea. thank you!!! sending you good health and hugs too!!!

oh sure!! well basically its going to revolve around pete finally deciding that he wants to bottom but when he tries to bring that up in his usual halting, beating around the bush kind of way vegas just ends up putting his mouth in it. but like in the most extreme, worst way possible. badly enough that pete makes his own petty, spiteful plan instead and decides to go elsewhere, knowing that it will set vegas off in the worst way but hes angry enough to try and rub that in vegas' face.

except- well it backfires and then the both of them are really into it and they both end up getting exactly what they wanted in the end anyway.

hope thats enough of a spoiler hint!

your english is great!!! and its very clear and easy to understand!! honestly so impressed with people who know more than one language and who talk to people in that other language!! like ur brain???? its so powerful!!!

hope you have a nice night!!

#fic asks #ill fill the graveyards until i have you #spoilers

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hyuckieslove · 11 months

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nct ot23 as unhinged things my friends have said pt.2

author's note - this is me reappearing after my 65686848th hiatus so thank yall for dealing with me <33 plus credits to @inthekpopland for the header!

taeil: is it wrong to want to be asphyxiated in a sexual and morbid manner????

johnny: yee haw gay people

taeyong: i may or may not piss you off so you later choke me and to then tell you im into that and piss you off further but at that point i just watch you struggle, because thats what best friends do <3

yuta: the only reason i feel like shit is because i am the shit. and maybe the antidepressants.

doyoung: "DONT SEXUALIZE HIM" WTF HE WAS BORN FROM A PENIS DOODLE

kun: no, we are not going to tie soggy oreos to a stick and make xiaojun give us piggyback rides as he hopelessly chases the oreo.

ten: I AM CUPID BITCH I CAN AND WILL GET YOU MARRIED TO THAT HOT GAY DUDE BECAUSE HE IS DEFINITELY HOT AND GAY AND YOU ARE HOT AND GAY AND 2 + 2 IS 1 ARE YOU QUESTIONING MY MATCHMAKING CAPABILITIES???

jaehyun: *unironically* C'mere you omega tiny UwU baby gorl, u lokkin submissive and breedable, scrumpdidallyumptious, delectable, moist, baby UwU Werwolf

winwin: scare the children janice

jungwoo: guys i learned a new english word!! e r e c t i l e d y s f u n c t i o n. johnny said it's a type of dinosaur!

mark: what happens when an asexual gets a boner? do they just start crying?? i need answers people.

xiaojun: *asked a question but doyoung and ten started arguing* the lesbian council is conferring

lucas: OLAF WAS STARING AT MY FUCKIN TITS AND I BLINDFOLEDE HIM AND HE TOOK IT OFF AND IT WAS 2 AM AND-

hendery: like once i had a stuffed animal from build a bear and neutered it at home and took out its hear and then put another stuffed animal inside it and pretended it was pregnant and made it have an emergency c section but the mom dies and then the father resented the child for killing his wife. on a totally unrelated not, my parents desperately needed to put safety controls on my i-pad.

renjun: *to yangyang* YOU SAID YOU WOULD SUCK OFF A TESLA (THE FUCKING CAR FOR FUCKS SAKES) AND "NOM NOM MY CAT" IN THE SPAN OF 20 MINUTES. MY MOTHER WAS RIGHT THERE YOU DENSE MORON

jeno: *banana was thrown at him in a questionable alley* this is the way i die :) but its ok because we are surrounded by feral (?) cat, cats nonetheless

haechan: *makes typo and is being flamed for it in the gc* english isnt my first language you fucking racists *is a native english speaker*

jaemin:*encounters slight inconvenience* its gay people month. go to jail. meanies.

yangyang: CAN WE TIE SOGGY OREOS TO A STICK AND MAKE XIAOJUN GIVE US PIGGY BACK RIDES AS HE HOPELESSY CHASES THE OREO

shotaro: yall why is chatgpt being so nice to me :( i am getting emotionally attached help me 😭

sungchan: im raviolonely :(

chenle: AND WHOS TO SAY IM NOT AN INSANELY SMART YET DUMB 5 YEAR OLD *seconds later* ha embezzlement haha

jisung: *in a card to old people* have a nice day! dont get lice

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petorahs · 11 months

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☀️ its fascinating that you say P3 has shaped your worldview because... Well not to trauma dump here but back then when I discovered the game (it was back then when p4 was already out) i was... In a REALLY bad place and wondering about unaliving myself. I wont go into much detail but kids are trash man and teens are even worse. and then this game came around. With an aesthetic I really liked. i am not a native english speaker so it was hard for me at first but somehow this game just... /spoke to me/. A game about life and death and what it means to be alive and what it means to have a REASON to live, somehow... Convinced me to go a bit longer. I mean it when I say this: Persona 3 saved my life. And no other game can ever come close to such an experience. (Even tho from a quality standpoint P5 certainly is up there)

oh dude that is so valid thank you for sharing this. seriously though, im happy that youre here! and im sure many others are too! the ☀️ brightening lives and all that :]

yea i can see why p3 just clicked with so many people since it first came out. i was always curious on why it's so beloved by fans, when p5 and even p4 are literally right there with their overall better gameplay experiences. p5 literally got the franchise mainstream to insane heights lol. im... so glad i got into persona the way i did. of course, everyone's experiences w these games are different and special to them in their own way.

i got into persona 3 as an adult and as a result the lens in which i viewed the story's themes were heightened, in a way. as a teen i just know i would have reacted more volatilely i struggle to think about it LOL but both experiences would still be pretty intense. it's just that, as an adult there's more room to digest it when im not troubled by algebra hw. i was just more equipped for it (also i played omori two summers ago LMAOO). ofc i only turned 20 a few weeks ago LOL but i get why p3 means so much to people.

because it's like... 2000s nostalgia coupled with a game that figuratively holds your hand through the uncertainty of death yknow? p3 is a friend, basically. its entire thesis is based upon companionship (exactly what i highlight in an analysis i have drafted somewhere but HHH i dont want this to get too long lmao)

in the shaping my worldviews thing... its really more like it cemented my 'philosophies' :] like i said, equipped with the stuff i learned before, p3 having the message that it did just... hit super close to home! like yeah! that's what i've been saying dude!! kindness really is enough!!

"You don't have to save the world to find meaning in life... Sometimes all you need is something simple, like someone to take care of."

LIKE YEA GIRL THATS EXACTLY IT!! its so cool! i actually admire people who grew up with p3 because man if i heard this line ages ago... well, again, idk if i would be able to grasp it fully at the time... but still! this is so good, poetry in motion. and like u said its aesthetics are gorgeous and aim to capture the essence of its themes - and it did.

im a p5 baby like bro i love p5. soft spot for it. thats the closest persona game i "grew up" with and it came at such an opportune time for me, being a teen stuck between a rock and a hard place. typical. and p5 validated my teenage angst bs so much. its so refreshing to see a game's theme being rebellion. that was me i thought. those characters are going through something that similarly happened to me. teenage rebellion is such a fun thing to explore!

so p5 validated my struggles while p3 did something deeper than that, somehow. i think it just made me .. stronger? like it made me move on from struggles. "by remembering death you learn how to live" so... i guess p3 taught me how to live as crazy as that sounds. but you get me

persona 5 overall is great -- everyone agrees, like its objectively just a better game. but persona 3 ends up more beloved because of its subjective value as a piece of art. there's a lot of heart and soul to put into it.

it's more simple when compared to p5 at first glance, but simple doesn't mean less. which is why more people experiencing it will be nice to see

#p5 is me going: im going to live and that is a threat #while p3 is: im going to live because that is what i want #persona 5 #persona 3 #persona 3 reload #aishi.txt #☀️ anon #ans #that being said p5 makes me glad to be alive too. it makes me more expressive? its a game all about not caring what other ppl think #and doing your own thing #and p5 really helped me in that LOL i do be dressing more boldly ever since p5 ngl #idk which game's more influential to me honestly like they did so much #to me as a person #normally thats embarrassing to admit but idc man these games have something in them #its the character-driven stories and them being written realistically thing i think #ALTHOUGH. i must stress that p5 characters have too many contradictions #wrote this instead of going to sleep like a normal person because uhm. ily

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todayisawthewhxlewxrld · 4 months

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AXEL‼️ today i almost shit myself at school(not actually)

I hate the first day back. my spanish teacher loves to call on me bc she knows im not confident with my spanish and that i have a fear of public speaking (i dont even know why i’ve been fluent since i was 5💀) SO SHE LIKES TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THAT AND CALL ON ME TO READ THE LONGEST PARAGRAPH IN WHATEVER TEXTBOOK, ARTICLE OR LITERALLY WHATEVER WE’RE READING 😭 ITS LIKE SHE’LL LET EVERYONE ELSE READ THE SHORT STUFF AND THEN SHE’LL MAKE ME READ WAY MORE THAN EVERYONE ELSE AND IM JUST LIKE?? i get that its to “help build confidence” and shit like that but is it really helping if her “helping me build confidence” made me have a panic attack last year? I DONT THINK SO.

oh yeah so you’re probably wondering abt the panic attack thing🧍‍♀️ so lemme just give you a little back story first about how i feel about her class and stuff‼️ her class terrified me. like every time i would enter i’d be shaking and my heart would be beating so hard that i could feel it in my throat… kinda embarrassing…

but anyway it was just cause we had to present a something we made for a project and i was losing my mind because my friends didnt want to present it and my class was pretty big and filled with a bunch of rude and snotty people so i went to talk to the teacher to ask if i could just present to her privately or something but she said no so like i lowk freaked out and had a break down in the middle of the hallway 💀

honestly though the work isnt that hard considering i passed spanish with an A throughout the years but i just HATE talking in front of the class because for one my accent is different than everyone elses and two im one of the only non native spanish speakers so im kinda just like on edge cause yk how some people are theyre just not nice 🫠

anyway for the rest of the school day things were pretty good except J was being weird again and i think he was trying to flirt with me? he was just being rlly inappropriate and kept stealing my stuff 🫠 he stole my bag and then tried to go through it and then he asked if i had a dildo in my bag and if i like using it 😟 he then proceeded to walk around the class and tell people i have a dildo in my bag. i probably should’ve told C or a teacher idk why i didn’t 😭 oh yeah speaking of C hella people think we’re dating AND NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I TELL THEM WE’RE NOT THEY WONT SHUT UP AND JUST KEEP TELLING EVERYONE THAT WE’RE DATING.

oh i alsofell asleep in english😭 i got lucky at the teacher didnt notice though‼️ and then my friend fell down the stairs

ANYWAY THATS ALL‼️ so how are you axel? OOO WHATS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL??

thats all for today! byebye and ilysm 💗💗

-bambi

dude i swear to god spanish teachers r either the worst person on this planet or the sweetest person ever no in between…. LIKE WHY IS SHE TARGETING U OMG i’d have to start swinging i fear…

i need J to like explode why does he act like that do u think it’s bc he doesn’t get attention at home… that’s mean sorry LMFAO um anyway i hope he leaves u the hell alone already bc u deserve it😍😍

UR FRIEND FELL DOWN THE STAIRS ?1?1??1 HELP R THEY OK???😭😭😭

i’m ok!!! and HMMMM my favorite animals r probably bats !!! what is urs :0

BYEEE ILYT!!!!

#axel answers ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★#axel answers// bambi🦌

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avo-kat · 4 months

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worst part about ffxiv are the fucking names.

couldnt remember meteions name for the life of me. i had to google BIRD GIRL.

thancred? ok, i guess thats kinda doable... har... hau... harsh... infant. fuck off?

zenos is my fav character and i still gotta google his surname every time. yay galvus. ok dude.

or emet-selch. right. thats a good name. oh, his true name is hades????? why the fuck-- whatever.

admiral merlwyb bloefhiswyn is such a milf. who says that.

i love the twins alphinaud and alisaie, grandkinds of louisoix. did he make that one drink. probably.

im just a humble dragon girl trying to save... eorzea. chilling in limsa lominsa. travelling to coerthas. ok. ok. whatever man. point me to the task, ill do it, just please stop torturing me.

head canon: the wol happily agrees to fucking, harvest cabbage and feed chocobos and find lost pets cuz they are overwhelmed with everything and are happy to receive clear tasks.

even worse if ur not a native english speaker. i dont even know what a convocation. ill just.... go look at this bell and talk to my cat girl servant.

#ffxiv

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abyster · 2 years

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Vacation for a Dream Lord Dream of the Endless/GN!Reader Domestic Headcanons!! + small one-shot

(MY FIRST POST LETS GOOO)

warnings: basicly none, SFW, Fluff, a bit of sad stuff, a lot of dialoges, a bit ooc morpheus (cuz he is mental stable in this one), no comics spoilers, bad grammar because im not native speaker

After turning down Morpheuses proposal, due to it all being too fast for you, you are trying to show him what he would miss out.

✭ When first arriving at your place, Dream is just...he is in stupor! Still a bit cautios about all this “Breaking the rules about loving mortals by Endless”.I mean, his last lover rejected him because of the death of her tribe. “ Love, how many times should i repeat This? We are not breaking the rules, we are taking detours because the wording of text is realy vague, ok? “ Not ok, he is stil nervous as heck.

✭Extremely shy and nervous at the start (which he really tries to hide. Ehh, doesn`t really work :/ ) As the solution to this problem he started to turn into a cat for some time. Usually when you are working from home or while you are trying to watch a movie with him. Stroking your fingers through his fur, you lazily say , “If you wanted to cuddle you coud`have asked, love. “ * TURNS INTO A HUMAN IMMEDEATLY *

Even though sleeping on the couch was not your best decision, the nasty feeling in your limbs quickly faded as you felt breathing on your neck. Morpheus did not give up on the first day. “Good.” you thought, falling asleep once again, feeling light embrace of Morpheuses hands.

✭ If you have a pet, which is like dog/cat/rabbit ect. , firstly he will fell a bit jealous. Yeah, Dream of the Endless, Sultan of the Dreams is jealous of some pet. You find it really adorable when he slowly gives in into the charm of this animal. Especialy when you find Morpheus in the living room, who tries to explain something to your pet.

His eyes met your confused look.

��I speak animal language» he spoke. Nope, not going to ask. Just no.

If you have a reptilia, he`ll be really interested. Mostly he intrested in how to keep such creatures at home and asks if it`s dangerous and nearly scares the shit out of a poor baby((( Regardless of you having any pet, he is already thinking about bringing something(someone) special from his realm. Maybe even a dragon!!

“You know what? I`m not even suprised” you speak while switching between the sight of a Morpheus, and a big egg in a basket. WAIT, did he also put a choclate bars in there???? Well, maybe you are a little surprised.

✭Kicking out Matthew has become a new paragraph in your routine. But after realising that his master is perfectly fine, he leaves back to the Dreaming. He made no promises to keep his mouth shout tho.

✭ Pet names? Well, that is depends on the mood . You are calling him lover?? Dude is just stoped whatever he was doing and just stared at you. He definetly was not expecting this. His brows were frowned, and you tried to apologize.

“I can stop if you don`t like” Your heartbeat was raising, as you looked into his eyes. shivers ran down your spine as you heard response “No, Keep going...Lover”. At this point your brain just stoped working, making smile appear on Dreams face. Your first language is not english? EVEN COOLER! You get to call him names he does’nt understand. Sweet names, obviosly. Like Mriya(Dream), Sueño(Dream,Sleep) and kokhanyy (beloved, lover). Or sometimes telling him that if he will countinue this self-destructive behaviour of his, you`ll feed him a cat food. You also like to see the questioning stare on Morpheuses face as he tilts his head. After returning to The Dreming and meeting Lucienne, Morpheus asks her what does all this words mean.

“Luciene, while i spent time at the waking world i heard a word Kokhanyy. By any chance do you know the meaning?“ At that statement Luciennes brows raised up. Why would he ask questions like that? Lors of The Dearms sure can spend some time to find a vocabulary. It probably is important, she thought. Lucienne turned her gaze from Lord Morpheus to Matthew, and back. Spreading her shoulders and inhaling air, she sad with a slight smile on her face, “I believe that it means beloved, or lover, my Lord.“ Matthew swore to all of gods that existed in this universe, that he saw Dream of The Endless turning into big scarlet tomato. It`s a shame no one will believe him((

✭If you want to take him out in some restraunt or at least in park, he'll immedieatly dismiss. Damn, you never expected him to have a social anxiety. After some time, though, you succeeded in taking him out to try your favorite food. "It was not that bad, was it?" you asked him, with playfull smirk on your lips. "--I suppose it was not" Morpheus answered. Then he lifted up your hand and gave you a slight kiss on the back of your palm. Aww, such a gentelman. "I hope you truly liked it, 'cause i have a lot more in store to show you." Holding his chin between your fingers you gave him a not-so-soft peck on the lips. Smile rose on his fase. "And i can't wait for all of it to come"

✭ Even though you tried to find a new hobbies for Morpheus, it was quite... Hard, you can say. The dude had litteraly every book back there in his realm. But he is not there, right?? Yeah, on the contrary, he refused to play twister. After buying him a proper phone ( YEAH A NORMAL PHONE, NOT LIKE TOM`S STURRIGES ) he was captivated in the world of cats memes. Genuinely does not understand “deez nuts joke”(my precious little bean). After showing him a few songs of The Smiths, even thought at first he does not share your enthuthiasms, he grows to like them!! Especially “What difference does it make”. Also he enjoyed listening to Tv-Girl. Mostly because “Lovers Rock” reminds Morpheus about yours relationship. You can swore that he was a bit smiling while listening. And he will not deny it <3

✭ Cooking with him ... is quite a challenge. Despite the fact that in the morning he was all confused, things start to get better when you try cook with Morpheus, while also desparetly keeping him away from a stove as far as possible. Sometimes he feells a bit out because of this. Thinking that he can`t do normal things that little mortals do. But Dreamis quickly realizes that he is wrong, dissolving in his lovers kisses and words of admiration. While making an evening meal together, you get to know eachother better. When Dream tells about his past , his ex-wife and dead son you tell him not to. But he trusts you enough to let you see him at such vulnerable state.

“Hey... It`s not fine right now, but it will be. I promise.” you slowly spoke, kissing his fallen tear.

Yeah, sweet-old-depressive-kitchen-talk. Love it.

✭If you are on medication and forgetting to take pills on time, Dream will make sure that you won`t forget to do it. Not in the annoying way, it`s actually kinda sweet that he started his own research on how brains of humans works. Sometimes you can find him seating on the couch, reading some book on human`s biology. You can join him by carefully pulling him down, moving under his hands and placing head on his chest. If you are lucky, you can leave your hands on his hips ))

*You getting a cold* "Humans are such a fragile creatures" - *Morpheus gives you a blanket, tea and all the love he has* *You acciddentaly cutting yout hand* "Such clumsy, soft, easy-going creatures" - *Takes his time to heal your palm ".

✭If you really like playing games on your pc, Morpheus likes to be near you and taking care of you when you can`t do it yourself. Giving you snacks, reminding you of importance of sleep and basicly being close to you(MALEWIFE MORPHEUS GOES BRRR). Also tried to teach him to play some basic games, kind of like genshin or minecraft. After finding out that he can read books in his phone he became less intrested in gaming. But because of Morpheuses passionate nature with his lovers, Dream Lord always wanted to be close to you. When Dream was not in cat form , an idea came into your mind.

“Dream” “Yes, my lover?” Even after a few month him calling you like that, the warm feeling in your chest is not going to get away. It probably never will and you enjoy this thought. “You know, i just got an idea you might like. What about...Cuddles in a chair? I still have a lot of things to do, but if you want to, we can, you know..?” Dream is quiet for a moment, he appreciate that you share a desire of this kind of intimacy. After a few seconds he responses with , “I think its a great idea, my love”

Damn, he is so... Comfortable! Looks like his cat form not so different from his human form . It was an iddyl. Your legs was wrapped around his torso, your hot breathing has faced his pale neck. While his arms was wrapped around your waist, sometimes they traveled into area of your legs. Being busy over computer means that you can`t hold him forever, but when you get break and start to hold him, Morpheus just melts into your touch. Giving him soft pecks on his nose, forehead and neck became a routine you both enjoy. The only though of his in moments like that was never letting you go. "Alright, hon`. I`m done with my work for today. Time to go to sleep." You spoke lazily, turning off your pc. Suddenly you hear his soft mumble. "What was that, love? " Hands slightly stroking his hair. "I do`nt want to." He replied under his breath. "Hm--Dream does not want to dream?" ASked you while pressing slight kisses onto his neck "To let you go." "Alright then, needy teddy bear, looks like i need to carry on the bed"

✭He likes to take care of you, that`s not even a question. When you start to take care of Morpheus, he is feeling ... strange. Brows twitching, heart rate speading up and goosebumps keep spreading all over across his spine as you gently comb his black hair. Absolutely stunned when you asked if you could weave flowers into his hair. When you were finished it was your time to be stunned. Never this planet had seen as pretty creature as Dream. Morpheus was amused by your feelings towsrds him, pink blush started to form on his cheeks.

"Take a picture." He spoke,"It'll last longer"

Probably you had thought it out loud. Without any shame you answered, "And i definetly will"

✭Obviosly news about Dream taking a vacation was flying from one realm to other. Mostly because one nasty raven couldn`t keep his tounge behind his beak. When you were wisited by Death, that was a good thing, really. Turns out she poped up to check on her sweet brother. It’s a shame she didn`t stayed for a dinner. But definetly good for Morpheus, or she would`have told you all his embarassing moments that she knew of. The real surprise was the Desire, standing in front of your door. Morpheus had told you about one of his youngest siblings . Sibling that wanted attention and power. But no, you do not pity them. This time this trickster has taken the form of someone you desired the most - Dream, your passionate lover who now was reading in the living room. Tension started to fly in the air.

"Oh, Dear, you know that you will not stay with fim forever, right?" Huh, nice words to start conversation with.

"I`m not going to repeat it for you, Desire. Get out." You irritably replied.

"Ouch, that was really rude of you! We are basicly family now, are we not? " Desire laughed lightly at your words.

"Hmm, you basicly have had hand in my lovers capture for an over a century, tried to get him killed and gave him more trauma than he can handle?? No, after that, no. I don't wan't to have anything in common with you."

"Your words hurt me more than any venom could! This time Dream has found himself a bold one. And is not like you have any chance in standing against me anyway, sweetie. Now please, get lost. I have a deal for the Dream." Desire purred, slipping throught the door, inviting themself in. Huge wave of shock went through the intruder, knocking the ground out from under their feet. Stars danced in eyes of Desire while their body and mind twisted in pain. You kneeled down, to get a better look at Desire and to assert dominance. " As you can see, and feel, sweetie , being in love with Dream of The Endless means being in constant danger. And who would i be, if i had not protected my house from nasty little things like you?" You spoke, slighlty poking their face just out of boredom.

"It was quite easy to find right spell and ingridients, while having a biggest library in universe and blood of Endless." Seeing that you can't get more information on the deal they came with, you raised to your full height as you've said your last words to the intruder.

"Whatever deal you have to Dream can wait, so please, get lost." Before closing the door, you gave Desire the last blow. "It is pchysicaly hurts to see you like that, really.--Huh, maybe i even do pity you."

The door closed and so yours conversation with Desire. "Who was that?" Asked you Dream, continuing to read his book.

"Just some pizza-guy has the wrong adress. Ugh, now i am even regretting not just paying for pizza and taking it in"

Morpheuses eyes rose from a book. Then he cautiosly asked you

" What's a pizza?"

✭ Hugs from the back! This man absolutely in love with physical affection. Especially after he got over his imprisoment trauma. If you are significantly shorter than him, Dream loves to place his chin on top of your head snd lay his hands around you. Likes to get stuff from high cupboards for you by picking you up and lifting you on the level of cupboards. If you are the same height as him then he also hugs you and loves whispering words of admiration into your ear.

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"Well, it was nice while it lasted, right?" You huffed with a smile on your face, facing the love of your life. So, so beautiful. Cold morning breeze waving his hair while sunlight fell on his pale skin.

" You still can visit me in the Dreaming " Said Dream, slightly tilting his head. Were you going to leave him? No, everything was so nice. It can't be.

" Nah, just, after this vacation i feel like i won't be able to get enough of you, ya' know?."

"You know i can not leave Dreaming without a ruler..."

"Yeah, and would never ask you to do so. At least i'll have a plenty of time after my death at the Dreaming, right? Lets just hope it won't be soon, i still have plans to do here". Morpheus could not believe his ears. You wanted to live with him after death? Then why would you turn his proposal down? His shocked face had told you everything he did't. " Hey, if i don't want to marry you does'n mean that i don't love you, alright? It's just... I've never seen a sense in marriage . If you love somebody, why you should prove it with some papers and rings? And yeah maybe i do have some trust issues cuz of my parrents unsuccesfulll marriage and i were suprised someone like you would marry someone like me... I am rambling again, aren't I?" As your face had growed a sad look, it was taken in cold hands of the Dream of The Endless.

"Throughout the time i spent with you i've learnt so much about mortals, about the misserable life of theirs..."

"Wow, thanks, you know how to flatter a human..." You rolled your eyes as he continued to speak.

"And it took me long enough to realise the beauty of all of you. You are facinating, soft creatures with a of heart of gold. And every of you is so, so different. You fail to see the light in the darkness-- just the way i did. And when you are in dead end, what do you do? You sleep, traveling into my realm. Regaining your life power. Creating and inspiring. You've showed me this side of humanity, you've faced the darkness with a smile on your face, creating a light on your own. You were the one who accompanied me on this jouney, lightning my way... It would be an honor to be a companion on the journey of yours. I'll fight all the demons on your way. Even if it's the demon of insecurities and trust issues." Oh god, did he just made a joke?" I'll face every obstacle on our way, if it means being with you."

"Actually, i can name at least one obstacle that is for now is not your level. " Pray tell me, my beloved."

"Therapy" The next moment you bursted into laughing. The nicest sound in the universe, thought so Dream. Unknowingly to both of you, your legs started to walk into park.A usual route that you walked with Morpoheus every morning. A new conversation was born.

"Actually, fun fact about all this stuff like «Regaining power in dreaming. No matter what happend today, in the morning it'll be better". It has scientifical explanation! It's all about glymphatic system that basicly, cleanses the brain of toxins during deep sleep. Facinating, isn't it?"

"Indeed, it is." Answered Dream, admiring you. A sound of raven's wings slit the wind.

And so, the new journey has began.

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thoughts on culture and social media that english-speakers might wanna read

THIS IS NOT A GUILT-TRIPPING POST IN ANY WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM. i am merely sharing a point of view for the sake of exchange, i promise! 😁😉

americans and even first world english speakers have absolutely no idea how it feels to be fully bilingual and engage in international social media

from time to time you will find yourself in an (actually somewhat serious) identity and cultural crisis that will legitimately start to affect your mental health without you even noticing. it creeps up on you and you dont realize just how uttely lost you truly are until something happens and you spend some hours heavily engaging into your own culture and language and then it just clicks. suddenly you feel lighter, your mind more at peace. and it sometimes it can go on for months, even years, without you realizing where that disconfort is coming from. feels like there is a mist surrounding you very soul but you have the hardest fucking time putting your finger on it.

now to the part it might anger some (arguably immature) people from tumblr:

i had some serious body dysmorphia (had surgery since then, thank god), and i consider myself somewhat NB. as in, some days i feel like the girliest diamond-simping disney-like princess and the others i am the grimmiest most charmingly roughish of victorian era urchins. most days are close to a middle ground, of course

im only sharing this tidbit to really drive home the point i am trying to make: feeling far removed and disconnected from your culture can be psychologically compared to being forced to present your body/gender in a way that makes you unconfortable for prolongued periods of time

in this post i will try to pinpoint and explain the actual core of the issue, where (i believe, from an university level of understanding of the subject) everything stems from.

again, i am not making this post to guilty trip anyone, for the love of god. to the contrary, i wish social media was still dominated by my culture (long live Orkut lol). it is comfortable. there is nothing wrong with being in your confort zone (with some small moderation), no matter what tumblr tries to tell you. the human race has been struggling for 30k+ years to improve comfort. hell, id love to have that privilege of cultural prevalence in social media, aint gonna be hypocritical about it

i just wish native english speakers, in special those from the USA, kept in mind our way of speaking, our sentence conatruction, even the choice of slang translation we use. none of that is truly 100% "unpoluted". a lot of times we are trying our hardest to get to a close aproximation of our native language "personality".

tumblr and especially twitter could be a little more patient with it. its is damn fucking hard to master the flick of the switch to another language, let alone needing to change your whole manner of speaking because someone, somewhere, think you might be offending someone else, somewhere else

english speakers are fortunate that their native language became the world's Lingua Franca in a way that was natural. not "forced" like french way back when, or mandarin most recently. english flows. english is easy. i freaking love english my dudes, i literally majored in english translation. but when you dont have the need to learn a second language, it becomes, THROUGH NO FAULT OF YOUR OWN, natural to assume some text on the internet is being written under the same cultural and socio-econonical optics as you were raised in. ESL has become so commonplace, even more so for the last 5~10 years, that its nearly impossible to tell what country that person might actually be from.

and therein lies the problem: assumption. different people do things in different ways. there are some that are better and healtier than others (including from, yes, "third world" countries) there are some that are boarding inhumane (including from, yes, "first world" countries). but the massive majority? its simply different. if it works for you and your family and your peers, then it works. simple as that.

but on social media you only have text. how many feuds have been sparked because of the lack of intonation in text? everyone and theirs grandma's parrot has a story of miscommunication when texting. but when you add in manner of speech and cultural traits to it, it becomes a complicated issue

and then we ESL speakers overcorrect. even subconsciously, we start to shape ourselves to the native-english culture (mostly american, for the obvious reason called "sheer numbers"). but its not our actual culture. dont get me wrong, the more you can incorporate different points of view in your life the better. fuck, god knows how badly we need this in the world right now. nothing wrong with implementing it in your daily life and even your own "personal culture" and ways. hell, just see my spotify to understand how much i love punk rock, an initially political/cultural movement that doesnt even apply to my history 😂

but as i said, we are somewhat forced to overcorrect. and THAT causes more anxiety and anguish than people can possibly imagine. youre ESL reading this and think its not that bad, it cant possibly affect you that much?

allow me to demonstrate:

i cannot possibly expect an american (you will understand why i singled you out in a sec) to understand why is it that brazilians bore no ill will towards germany after the 7x1 or why is it that this last world cup in specificthe fault was actually on the coach and what were his strategy errors, or why the fault was on the players in 2014, or even WHY the players bevahed so, etc etc etc etc. soccer football simply isnt your culture. i only know of Tom Brady's existence cause of Gisele. Michael Jordan? 98% Space Jam, 2% the Air Jordan murders way back when. I have only a vague idea who Babe Ruth is, and keeping score in baseball sounds legit worse than quantum physics.

i cant expect you to answer the diference between bossa nova and samba, samba and axé, axé and pagode, pagode and samba, samba and tropicalia, tropicalia and bossa nova. and which group of people founded what, and why, and if it was for protest what they were protesting against. i cant expect you to know why the first election against bolsonaro in 2028 was worse than sophie's choice for the massive majority of us. and why the second in 2022 was another matter entirely. i cant expect you to know what the word "caiçara" means (or even that it exists!) and howcome its a different ethnicity than the ones simply 70km away, and a whole other ethnicity with the same word if used in another state

then why do all of us ESL people need to fully and nearly college-level understand the insane intricacies of american politics? why am i expected to view the mere fucking concept of police as evil incarnated, through the eyes of a country that has basically zero training of their force? why do i need to think and behave according to an apartheid-influenced race theory in my daily life, in my own country, when im not even from those ethinicities? why do i need to see gender pay gap and patriachism the exact same way, if the foundation of families (and labor law, lol) in my culture is nearly the opposite?

i belive, like, 90% of the people reading this by now will have clicked on what im getting at.

because for good or for worse, english is here to stay. no, chinese wont take over as Lingua Franca, not even in the bussiness world, and i could quite literally write a monography on the subject as to why. no, like, i actually can, i have an university degree in it. so yes international media is in english. that boat has sailed, that horse has been shot Inês agora é morta

ESL speakers obviously know that. we had to adapt to it.

but how much before "adapting" becomes "submissive"? well, i dont know the precise answer but id wage around 6~7 bus stops ago

so all i ask if that native english speakers consider that as well. we adapted, so can you. we are speaking your language, yes. we are engaging in your culture as well along with it.

but its almost 2023. isnt it time to realize that the culture of speaking english might not be only yours anymore? 😉😝

we try to stay away from everything that is widly known as offensive, obviously. most people know where The Line TM stands for most english speaking cultures. i hardly see a quid pro quo in this, but as i stated before, i dont expect people from other cultures to understand the intricacies of mine. everyone is subject to commiting a faux pas, everyone here is human ffs.

the issue is that i see native english speakers being actively but gently corrected on an honest mistake, aaaaaand then doubling down on it under the argument "this is english speaking media". or worse, an ESL person also commiting an honest mistake but then being canceled for all eternity because it didnt fit the english cultural optics.

social media is for all. english now is, like it or not, for all. we ESL folks dont mean to offend. and more: lot of faux pas are not even offensive to us at all in translation. and theres some english expressions that sound wrong to our ears but we let it slide

i think its high time we all come together to a middle ground yes? we are willing to learn, we have been for quiiiiiite a while. but maybe, juuuust maybe, not every different way of speaking in english and point of view should be considered "problematic" if it comes from a diferent cultural optic, hmmmm?

as for the culture-privation anguish i started this with? well, if you spend so much time trying to pretend to change your very principles for the sake of not being unjustly attacked by internet strangers, it will no doubt cause anxiety (to put it fucking mildly).

do a "going back home" session. take an afternoon to actively engage in music and media from your country. no social media involved. im willing to bet with the craziness thats our world, whatever language you speak shit is utterly chaos there as well. meditate on the messages of the lyrics and the plots of the series/movies/books and everything else in it. no need to go on a full monastery-like deep dive, or even to do it super frequently. it aint court-mandated therapy, relax.

but you may have gotten much more lost on that path away from your roots than you first realized. and stopping to find your way back, even if for a couple of hours, will do your mental health so much good.

as for the english speakers, just try to keep in mind the point of view i have exposed 😉

no need to agree, no need to change. hell, truthfully no need to even keep in mind if you dont want to, i suppose. but not everyone shares you issues, strenghts, and optics. not everyone has the same life story, or even history.

and remember: at the end of the day we are all the same species, sharing the same planet. we have more in common than you think 😉

#jesus fuck how do you even tag this?#probably under: things that will get ignored cause of my pitiful amount of followers 😂#if anyone has any tagging sugestion im all ears #my stuff #my writting #just so i can find later lol

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