#and i'm really afraid they will fuck up

[metvmorqhoses]

I just read the interview Ben gave about the darkling's characterization and holy shit it's just word for word what you wrote last year in that amazing meta about books and show darkling and I COULDN'T HOLD MY SHIT!!! Is there hope for us after all???? Does he read us??? It seems like he read you!!!

I admit I wasn't aware of it until this very moment (I'm afraid I loom outside fandoms), but this made me so incredibly happy, anon!

Of course I'd be beyond glad to know my metas are so read, but chiefly the fact that Ben proved once again such an intelligent person so deeply committed to the character gives me real hope for the difficult season that is ahead of us.

The fact that we described his characterization using the same words is irrefutable proof that he understands the Darkling, and hopefully this will counterbalance any cliché idiocy the script might contain. The gods only know how this character is in need and deserves such advocates, being treated so nonsensically and dreadfully by his very own author.

If the writers and the actors do read what we write (they would never and literally cannot admit it for legal reasons, but this is not the first time I suspect they do), we surely have a higher chance to get quality content.

#fingers crossed because this season will be way more delicate and nuanced #and i'm really afraid they will fuck up #especially regarding the tether #the darkling #darklina #shadow and bone #the grisha trilogy #ben barnes #one and one thousand stories lis told

[yesterdayiwrote]

The most fucking annoying thing about all the "conflict of interest" gate is it's going to be F1 Academy and Susie that suffer as a result of it.

They're not going to lobby for Toto to move on and dissociate from Mercedes, they'll want Susie fired, so F1 Academy will lose the person spearheading it, despite her clearly being the best qualified person for the role right now. Just as the series is finally going to get an opportunity to take off, it will lose its rudder and get derailed before its begun.

And even if they DON'T find anything of note, it's Susie's reputation that will end up being tarnished, because its always women that bear the brunt of these things, despite F1 and 'conflict of interest' going hand in hand since records began.

And all this for a tabloid magazine article by someone who not only is banned from the paddock, but has been on the receiving end of numerous libel cases from people inside the paddock.

The FIA are trying to appear like they're being 'fair and thorough and authoritative' but they're not, they're just legitimising the accusations when it's not really their issue to investigate. It's shameful politicking and it's yet another example of the FIAs internalised misogyny. Where was their investigation into the allegations about Mohammed Ben Sulayem? Or is it only when it suits them?

#f1 #I'm genuinely really angry about this #There's definitely some shit going on targeting Toto specifically #And I know he's fucking annoying but this feels like dirty tactics #When do we investigate every ferrari employee who works in the FOM/FIA? #You just have to look at the online reaction to know people have already decided its legit #It's a bit of a sham tbh.. #'Hi toto have you spoken to your wife this year? Oh well jail then I'm afraid' #If the FOM have told Susie shit then that's the FOM'S fuck up #Like there's nothing of genuine relevance to her that she possibly could have told toto?

[forcedhesitation]

astarion origin playthrough worth it just for all the extra moments where he does the "sad wet cat" face

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #thoughts about media #astarion #*kisses his forehead* my awful little bastard man... i love you and your big sad watery eyes. #IT'S SO FUCKING QUIET THOUGH IF YOU YOURSELF ARE PLAYING HIM GOOD LORD #I'M SO USE TO HIM COMPLAINING TO MY TAV!!!! #OR BANTERING WITH HIM OR KARLACH OR WYLL!!! #I MISS HIS THEATRICS!!!!!!! #not that it's ENTIRELY quiet. until i found karlach i was travelling with shadowheart lae'zel and gale. #and let me tell you. gale and lae'zel do NOT shut the fuck up if they are together. #they were literally having an entire tinder date while we were trecking through the woods to go get karlach. #i NEVER knew they talk so much because while i've travelled with them individually in past saves... #...i've NEVER had them in my party at the same time! #gale is actually pretty nice to lae'zel! he asks a lot of questions but doesn't condescend her as he does others sometimes. #that's probably because he's afraid of her though. I would be too were I nothing more than a wizard with 8 strength. #I do like how you can look at pretty much any two companions and get a well written and generally enjoyable dynamic! #It feels like they considered that a lot of people would want to maybe pair off the companions they didn't romance with each other! #and wanted it to be easy for really any pairing to work... if a person just paid attention to their shared interactions.

[uncanny-tranny]

"haha, are you an art gay, a science gay, or a math gay"

Actually, I find the division between art, science, and math to be a very nebulous idea and useless when you actually interact with the universe. The more you learn about the world, the more you surround yourself with art and science and math, and you'll never be able to see it any other way and it will be beautiful. When I take your hand, it won't be the science of our atoms closing the distance between us that we will experience, but the math of our fingers interlocking and the art of our bodies that we will experience. You are math and you are science and you are art, and nothing will make you any lesser💛

#positivity #the planets are singing right now. are you listening? #if you can't experience the art of science and the science of art then i think you're missing out #the more i intentionally try to learn the more i love art and sfience and the world 💛 #i was always more of a humanities person but i've grown restless and taking up science??????? holy shit?????? #i was in class the other day and a very simple concept finally clicked in a fundamental way and i think that's why i'm alive actually #i think i know how michaelangelo felt when he painted the creation of adam #this is why i really encourage y'all to look up on youtube some free lectures because some of them are so amazing #like i watched a lecture about elements and it's still fucking me up when i think about it #this is also why i despise the whole 'modern art isn't really art; it takes no skill 😡' thing people like to do #please sit down and paint one of the installments of Who's Afraid of Red Yellow and Blue #i've learned to appreciate that installment and art series as of late and i think it's nice art #i love this stupid fucking world 👾

[genericpuff]

Hey puff! So you said Hades is a "mess who hasn't spilled over" and there are definitely some warning signs even now - Artemis' dislike, the ominous grin in the last chapter does not bode well for Alex, him treating Minthe pretty badly and dismissively, being open about his attraction to Kore while acknowledging Minthe, eating Dio to shut him up and laughing about it (No Kronos flashbacks, Hades??) Of course he did a lot of this in LO too but that was framed as a good thing and you seem more self aware than that.

My question is are he and Kore still endgame with his bad traits? Or is Kore just hiding a much darker, more selfish side who would like all this?

Hades and Kore are both very, VERY complicated people with complicated backstories that involve both the good and the bad. They're both victims of circumstance as well as their own wrongdoings (even the ones that were well-intentioned, they're both walking the road to hell wink wink), they're both holding on to some pretty dark shit and we're going to be exploring plenty of both sides along the way. I'm obviously trying not to spoil anything, but I will say that Hades and Persephone are not going to have a cut-and-dry 'fairy tale romance' like what was attempted in LO, Rekindled is attempting to be a more faithful retelling of the original Hymn to Demeter after all (or at least its original themes and messaging). They're both incredibly damaged people with a lot of tightly-sealed baggage that DESPERATELY needs to be unpacked and we all know what happens to relationships built on those types of foundations ;0 So that's all ima say on that ~

As for the irony of Hades 'eating' Dionysus, hurt people hurt people. Though I wouldn't worry about Dionysus, he just projects his consciousness into berries, he's alive and well ;) As for Hades... let's just say you shouldn't eat berries possessed by the god of madness, guy is gonna have a harsh comedown LOL

#i'd be lying if i said i wasn't worried about how people are gonna react to their respective backstories once it comes time to tackle them #when i say dark shit i MEAN dark shit #i'm really excited to tackle both characters but it's also very nerve-wracking and challenging because i want to make the messaging clear #fair warning ahead of time tho- #it's gonna be FULL of content warnings #i really don't fuck around when it comes to character writing and tragic backstories LOL #i am NOT afraid to go for the gut-punching stuff #so yeah buckle up #we're gonna get through this together #ask me anything #ama #anon ama #anon ask me anything #lore rekindled #lore rekindled ama

[rollforjackass]

i could KILL him for this. motherfucker's every interaction with children has him being, if not nice, then at minimum kind and forgiving and genuinely invested in their wellbeing.

he asks crying kids what's the matter, he's afraid to hold a baby because he's worried he'll drop it, he goes after people who are mean to kids without a second thought. his whole mentorship with timothy hunter is him trying to do right by that kid no matter how he feels about it at the time. man would be the most loving dad in the world but because of his own awful goddamn father and the ways he thinks he takes after thomas, he doesn't think that's true. i hate.

#this panel made me SPITTING mad for real he breaks my heart #the way his father fucked up his whole mindset and self-image is something that makes me so violent #me rattling the bars of my cage yelling about how the family man arc was a vessel for conveying constantine's fears about his father #how it made him feel responsible for his father's murder after his dad had called him the killer of his mother his whole life #then made him a literal killer which turned that childhood nickname into a self-fulfilling prophecy & his dad into an unintended oracle #how constantine has always been afraid of becoming his father and yet that's exactly who he had to emulate to survive the world of magic #and then vertigo gave him the fucking rosacarnis arc which made him unwillingly a dad and his kids killers. i'm unwell #i NEED john constantine to know how good a person he really is and how loved any kid of his would be #the one thing new 52 did right for him was making him genuinely loving and caring towards rose #instead of making him pawn her off on everyone around him. which i fear a lot of writers would make him do these days #i NEED him to know he's better than who raised him #they say mary anne constantine would have been a good mother if she'd lived and i think there's a lot of her left in her son #not that he'd ever believe it #hellblazer #john constantine #i'm very emotional about him right now #oxly hollers

[burnhamandtilly]

finally scored another job interview after MONTHS of looking for it, so why am I hyperventilating just thinking about it????

#why is my brain like that??????? i hate it here #maybe I'm just really afraid of fucking this up 😭 #but it's definitely out of my hands.. they will either like my work or not. i can only do much to influence that. #but i still worry a lot 😭 #incurable anxiety disease lol #don't kind me I'm just venting out #anny.txt

[ectonurites]

SUPER DARK TIMES (2017) DIR KEVIN PHILLIPS

#tragically had to skip the 'are you afraid of me' exchange i love at the start bc. this scene is Long #super dark times #josh templeton #zach taylor #sam edits #btw i'm firmly in the 'Josh didn't kill John' camp. bc to me THIS scene is the point that... makes the most sense as Josh's breaking point/ #'villain turn' if that's what you'd want to call it. because this is really when Josh... sort of 'officially' loses Zach. from early on in #the movie it becomes clear how much Zach is like... an anchor for him—the way Josh is just fucking *chanting* his name in distress during #the Daryl accident. The way Josh begs Zach to believe him that it was an accident. The way Josh turns to Zach for answers/clarity/direction #Like even if we want to take a cynical approach and think of it as Josh just latching onto Zach in the Daryl situation because he was There #rather than that being an established thing w/ them... in the aftermath of that same incident Josh is still looking to/depending on him! #Josh self isolates at first... but after they talk & Zach tells him they shouldn't act weird Josh goes back to school. (yes #he lashes out there because He's Dealing With The Crushing Guilt but *all* of 'em are acting off then—Charlie specifically calls attention #to the idea they all probably are) Josh goes to the party just like Zach said they should and is *visibly confused* when Zach seems mad to #see him there. He goes to Zach's house to talk and you can SEE how caught off guard he is by what Zach says. Even though the script version #of this scene is VERY different from the final version I do think this one bit of description from it is... insightful: 'Josh seems sincere #almost vulnerable. But Zach is too focused to see it.' LIKE in this scene Zach is already convinced Josh has lost it! He's trying to act #more neutral about it (claiming they could just 'draw a line') but we saw his phone call with Charlie. Because of his own guilt-fueled #paranoia—something shown pretty clearly through the assorted dream sequences and like tht scene of him walking in the hall hearing people #gossip about Daryl—it seems like everything lines up too well! that '*of course* it's Josh and what if it's *been* Josh all along and well #then the role *I* played in the situation really isn't *my* fault because it was all *Josh* and...' etc. even if that's more subconscious #But like... this scene is really when it hits Josh! from the moment he asks if Zach's afraid of him now like... there's a shift. although #Zach says he isn't... i mean he fucking stumbles on the word 'afraid' (like... he hangs on the 'f' sound a moment too long to sound natural #its very subtle but like Noticeable). But Josh sees right through him. Zach doesn't trust him anymore. Zach thinks he's the bad guy. the #monster. Josh feeling like he lost the last person he had in his corner feels like the most realistic thing to... push him over the #edge. like that's a compelling tragedy to me—the idea that these two poorly coping with the Daryl situation in these separated ways where #they *aren't* talking/communicating ends up CREATING the feedback loop that makes everything get worse and worse. #But for that to be the case... it wouldn't make sense for Josh to have just randomly killed John before this scene. I think it's a more #interesting story if certain things really ARE just coincidences but it's that Zach's paranoia won't let him see that 🤷

[sciderman]

Hey sci what are you favorite musicals

to the surprise of no one my favourite musical is probably book of mormon,, i think i just love the genre of musicals that make you belly laugh

recently i watched the spongebob musical and honestly... has no right to be as good as it is

underrated genre that are my favourite: showtunes about living in blissful denial. that involve pink sequins.

#slaps! #i love musicals but they need showtunes. real showtunes. with sequins. #and it's gotta make me laugh. #sci speaks #i'm probably not the biggest musical nerd you'll ever meet... but i do really love musicals. #a lot of the time you guys are introducing me to ones i've never heard of because i guess they don't make their way over here to the uk #oh. oh. phantom of the opera?? the first one?? on the west end?? best show you will ever see in your life. #also i'd kill to see cats but it's NEVER AROUND WHEN YOU NEED IT... #i have a weird relationship with cats. i don't know whether my love for it is ironic or sincere and at this point i'm afraid to find out. #oh my god. oh my god. just remembering i promised that one halloween peter and wade would dress up as mr mistofelees and rum tum tugger. #yeah. that's gonna happen. peter's gonna fucking love it to the surprise of everyone and actually wade hates it. #because the suit is itchy. #and also he wanted to be GRIZABELLA. #i think deep down peter just wants to be a sexy cat in a skin tight suit and we as a society should let him.

[campingwiththecharmings]

does anyone else make more out of their relationships than they actually are or is that just me?

#like #i am very emotionally repressed and have hella trust issues #so it's really hard for me to get close to people and/or let THEM get close #so when i tell people things about myself that most people have no problem sharing #(like my fucking name for instance a;lkds;lf lmao or where i live or what i do for a living etc) #to me that's a huge step. to me that's opening up. #but i always forget that to THEM it isn't #so i put way more stock into things than i should #i build up our relationship in my head more than i should #because i really do FEEL so much but it's so hard for me to show it #so sharing pieces of myself is kind of my way of showing the love i have for people #or doing things for them #acts of service and all that #so i always feel closer to people than i'm sure they do to me #and sometimes i forget that we're not as close as i feel we are #and i put unrealistic expectations on people #and then i get reminded that hey it's just me that feels this way and it just...idk it sucks #and it's through no fault of the other person. really. it's all me and my plethora of fucking issues lol #i just wish i knew how to NOT be like this. to just be fucking normal and not be so closed off. #so afraid of human connection but also at the same time DESPERATE for it #for someone to just SEE me and want to put in the effort it's inevitably gonna take to REALLY get to know me #to show me that i'm as worthy of that effort as i know i should feel #ugh idk why i'm posting this here just in my feels i guess #ignore me

[crimeronan]

grown ass woman and you didn't even know Rhodesia? Please pray some Paradox Interactive games like eu4 or hoi4. look it up. Please this is depressing if even weird smart girls don't know basic history

hey guys. get a load of this fucking moron.

#mad i'm not your red scare coquette who knows about rhodesia huh. your weird smart girl manic pixie dream girl fantasy #i'm a high school dropout from rural fucking new hampshire in the US you useless fucking piece of shit. #like unfortunately you caught me in a worse mood than usual but get so fucking close right now. get so fucking close #girls who look up countries and terms they havent heard of before to understand posts >>>>> girls who know about rhodesia and send this ask #ooooh i wouldn't be this pissed off if you hadn't called me a weird smart girl like you're trying to pretend you respect me but waow #god fucking forbid i admit what i don't know and that i looked stuff up to learn. which i did on purpose. #because plenty of other people don't know stuff and are afraid to admit that they look stuff up to learn. #and i prefer to be someone that others are comfortable around. who makes other people feel more comfortable being imperfect #that's too much for you i guess. #shouldn't even respond to anons like this but i really want to get some strong hatred for you manifesting #everyone who reads this think really hard about anon dying in a fire #or just stepping on a lot of legos if you're a gentler soul #replies

[cordeliawhohung]

i think i've got that discord server set up but now i'm nervous to like, post it lmfao

#core talks #i haven't really used discord in awhile #i'm afraid it's majorly fucked up or something

[hauntedwoman]

u ever get so anxious that if u move u might throw up

#bc rn i am paralyzed in my bed thinking abt if i got this job or not #idek if they'll tell me today but i have a feeling they will #my whole body is trembling and im having heart palpitations #idk if i can go into my other job today i feel so sick #i had so many dreams last night that i didn't get the job and i kept waking up in a panic #i'm trying to have faith and be positive but i really just cannot stomach rejection #i have already invested so much time and energy in this process #if i don't get it i'm going to be absolutely crushed #fuck i'm so afraid

[eff-plays]

A Bard's Lament rewrote my brain and I know for a fact Hiraeth has a similar breakdown when they lose a horn in Act 3.

Oh you're worried that I won't be able to help you defeat the Absolute while I'm having a breakdown? Oh you're feeling down in the dumps because I'm not here each night singing you a little song? Wow you're telling me you all also have problems but you just deal with them and move on? Oh, I know all about your fucking problems, none of you will shut up about them.

Like I imagine they're gearing up to clearly have a cathartic meltdown, but then they just. Stop. Take a deep breath. And turn away. Because they've been doing that for years before these freaks showed up and dumped all their issues on them. And maybe losing a horn doesn't seem like such a huge deal compared to anyone else's issues, but it's the camel that breaks their back.

They are very tired. They want to go home. But they don't have a home to return to.

#oc: hiraeth #bg3 #i think this is also one of the cases where they don't expect astarion to be able to help #partly because they do believe he's not emotionally ready for that sort of thing but also because they're afraid he'll break up with them #once they drop the constant loving and chipper facade #and i think that really upsets him on both accounts #hira can be a bit fucked up in the head and wrong and hurtful #as a treat<3 #also yes hi i'm a scanlan stanlan he's my fucking DAD #most character ever i love him<3

[arggghhhsstuff]

when the plot twist is so world-shattering you have to go back and check the tags just to be sure you didn't miss anything

#fic: paint it black #i'm on chapter 5 and i'm TERRIFIED #i'm sure everything will be fine eventually #it's for the meantime that i'm afraid #"You’re the spitting image of your dad.” SHUT THE FUCK UP RN #YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE BESTIES WHAT HAPPENED??? #regulus will never trust him after this. oh god. this is bad. this is really bad. #marauders fandom #regulus black #sirius black #james potter #i'm gonna read the rest pray for me

[marshmallowloves]

alright uhhhh here we go hahaha do you guys. um. do you guys wanna hear the thing I made. which is just my self insert praising my f/o through song. no pressure or anything

lyrics:

drift away in slumber's embrace falling into your grace guiding me, the pull of sleep keeps me in your company

and all I've known are warm reveries divinity within my dreams golden gaze did captivate me I'm yours eternally

lull me in a mindless embrace slumber take me away soft and strong, no need to wake a lovely ethereal place

when I had nothing left of me solace found me in my dreams carried me in tranquility beloved god of sleep

#did i really just. make an entire song about this #like the fucking cringelord I am #...also is this...blasphemous??? #no really. genuine sleep-deprived question #because. this is not about the actual deity but rather one specific modern depiction of him #i mean i guess if i haven't come under fire for straight up selfshipping with him yet then i'm safe to do a song about it #anyway. ahaha. hahah. oh man. #alright I'm gonna get lost forever into the sun now byeeeee #my audio #I'm VERY afraid to put this in the main tags skjhdfKHDFG